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Saturday, November 14, 2015
Friday, November 13, 2015
Attempt to be philosophical
This evening I went by the old place and did not see that cat. Instead, conversed with her owner. Yes, the universe will make me talk not only to cats but to people.
Then I thought I'd be boring and study at the coffee house...and the guy from last week was there again. SIGH. He said something like, "It's been a long time!" And I was thinking, oh, this would be less awkward if you were that kid from the other place who stacked chairs because he thought I worked there and then followed me out into the parking lot and made jokes and said I was beautiful.
But it wasn't so bad.
So that's the difference between those guys and a great artist who gets pissed off at you for not listening to his ideas, and follows you around for weeks and doesn't seem to respect you. That's the difference. Those guys were a lot nicer. They didn't have super mean thoughts about you for ignoring them or acting like you didn't want to talk to them. They were NICER. Just NICER. Moreoever, I know those guys don't have entourages of people who treat them like a genius and make excuses for their bad behavior because they are talented and famous. They may be talented, and they may one day be famous, but probably not. AND I think that if women are friends with a "genius" and know he was not good with women in the past but make too many excuses for him, that is very misogynistic. It is misogyny by women perpetuated against other women. I'm pretty sure at least half of the misogyny in the world is perpetuated by women. People make mistakes, and forgiveness is good, but sometimes they should be better about owning up to them, and they should not have hoards around them making excuses for their bad behavior and that is what I don't like about glamour and fame. YUCK, I say, YUCK to all of that. And by the way...tenure is also kind of suspect. It seems very easy to abuse that power, based on what I saw/experienced. Academic environments are suspect. Even though they are also wonderful places.
But anyway. This guy at the coffee house might be there a lot and I don't want to quit going, so I talked to him and was nice to him when he came over. He brought up my age. I told him I thought we were about the same age. He said he was low 30s. I said I was older than that. He said "How old?" Then I told him. Then I asked him his age again. Yes, we are the same age.
He was kind of wistful. I said I live with my boyfriend and he joked "Do you think he'd make breakfast for us?" He said I had a nice look about me and kept wanting to talk, but he didn't get too weird about it. And I will keep going to that place because I like to study there. So I'm not the witch who freaks out about getting approached, if the person is relatively respectful.
I really am disappointed by how some women will make excuses for men's bad behavior, though. Men don't deserve a medal for not touching someone. Following a person around to the point where that person is made uncomfortable is not respectful to that person, especially when it's done with a "how dare you ignore my very important ideas" demeanor.
I think half the problem I have is with the way women make too many excuses for bad male behavior. If some guy did that to their niece or daughter, I'd hope they would hold a much higher standard.
Then I thought I'd be boring and study at the coffee house...and the guy from last week was there again. SIGH. He said something like, "It's been a long time!" And I was thinking, oh, this would be less awkward if you were that kid from the other place who stacked chairs because he thought I worked there and then followed me out into the parking lot and made jokes and said I was beautiful.
But it wasn't so bad.
So that's the difference between those guys and a great artist who gets pissed off at you for not listening to his ideas, and follows you around for weeks and doesn't seem to respect you. That's the difference. Those guys were a lot nicer. They didn't have super mean thoughts about you for ignoring them or acting like you didn't want to talk to them. They were NICER. Just NICER. Moreoever, I know those guys don't have entourages of people who treat them like a genius and make excuses for their bad behavior because they are talented and famous. They may be talented, and they may one day be famous, but probably not. AND I think that if women are friends with a "genius" and know he was not good with women in the past but make too many excuses for him, that is very misogynistic. It is misogyny by women perpetuated against other women. I'm pretty sure at least half of the misogyny in the world is perpetuated by women. People make mistakes, and forgiveness is good, but sometimes they should be better about owning up to them, and they should not have hoards around them making excuses for their bad behavior and that is what I don't like about glamour and fame. YUCK, I say, YUCK to all of that. And by the way...tenure is also kind of suspect. It seems very easy to abuse that power, based on what I saw/experienced. Academic environments are suspect. Even though they are also wonderful places.
But anyway. This guy at the coffee house might be there a lot and I don't want to quit going, so I talked to him and was nice to him when he came over. He brought up my age. I told him I thought we were about the same age. He said he was low 30s. I said I was older than that. He said "How old?" Then I told him. Then I asked him his age again. Yes, we are the same age.
He was kind of wistful. I said I live with my boyfriend and he joked "Do you think he'd make breakfast for us?" He said I had a nice look about me and kept wanting to talk, but he didn't get too weird about it. And I will keep going to that place because I like to study there. So I'm not the witch who freaks out about getting approached, if the person is relatively respectful.
I really am disappointed by how some women will make excuses for men's bad behavior, though. Men don't deserve a medal for not touching someone. Following a person around to the point where that person is made uncomfortable is not respectful to that person, especially when it's done with a "how dare you ignore my very important ideas" demeanor.
I think half the problem I have is with the way women make too many excuses for bad male behavior. If some guy did that to their niece or daughter, I'd hope they would hold a much higher standard.
This place is different
Inquisitive children want to come into your place instead of cats...(not now, too messy, & not without your parents...)
Interesting
Banksy's organization is called Pest Control.
http://www.smithsonianmag.com/arts-culture/the-story-behind-banksy-4310304/
http://www.smithsonianmag.com/arts-culture/the-story-behind-banksy-4310304/
Sure it's gonna improve sometime
Mr. Success Story has a next door neighbor who collapses on his front stoop moaning and gnashing her teeth about illness and infertility and environmental pollution. He steps over her. Off to attend a rewards banquet, off to save the suffering in a faraway country, off to another plane to catch...
Thursday, November 12, 2015
I liked...
on my way out, this little girl in the complex sat on my doorstep and asked me if I would play with her...I had to go but I told her maybe later and I was sincere and she seemed to appreciate that...she's funny...
From the other day:
Little Girl: What is that?
New Neighbor Moving In: It's a dolley.
Little Girl: No it's not!
From the other day:
Little Girl: What is that?
New Neighbor Moving In: It's a dolley.
Little Girl: No it's not!
Crass
Aside from other issues in parts of an interview I watched earlier, I was genuinely annoyed by the part where Artist A congratulates Artist B on his kid by saying, "He's not shooting blanks," followed by really self-indulgent laughter. Way to be insensitive to any and all people having infertility issues in the audience. Seriously. Why do you need to demonstrate your callous insensitivity and inflict it on other people? It made me think that if some coffee house guy ever came up to me and started to go on about his abilities and how he's "not shooting blanks," he would at the very least earn a look of disgust. It's about as attractive as a seventeen year old bragging about how much he could be of use to a sperm bank because he's so blond-fit-blue-eyed-and-hairless (sadly that is a memory) good grief. Woman is not her womb. Dude is not his dick. Clearly, there is still not a very high awareness of people suffering from infertility, and the earth...wow...no wonder the earth is suffering. It's like I got treated to a model of how I hope to not celebrate my fertility if I ever feel it is creating a life form. I wanted to write two ghost stories, but I instead indulged
myself...mitigated slightly by listening to songs from
"The White Album." (Hey Bungalow Bill..While My Guitar Gently Weeps...Happiness Is A Warm Gun...) But ugh, man. No muy impresionante...(except for looking like a jerk to other people.)
Note to self
If I ever come back as mirror and I then have this great desire to change the world and make art and if in the course of weird events for some strange reason some girl makes me want to physically follow her around while I'm making that art, I think will tell myself that it will be ultimately much more respectful and nicer to both myself and to her and also to my future girlfriends and etcetra if instead I choose to...wait, I'm a mirror! Mirrors are not animate objects. No worries about that, then. Ha ha. PHEW.
But if I ever come back as a poltergeist...
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But if I ever come back as a poltergeist...
Wednesday, November 11, 2015
Actually kind of nice on the car ride today...
These three:
I Can't Help It (even though I didn't hear it much growing up...)
Angel of Small Death (even though I'd never heard it before...)
Tiny Dancer (even though I'm not so ballerina~esque in this life...)
(http://www.kcrw.com/on-air)
I Can't Help It (even though I didn't hear it much growing up...)
Angel of Small Death (even though I'd never heard it before...)
Tiny Dancer (even though I'm not so ballerina~esque in this life...)
(http://www.kcrw.com/on-air)
So. This is her top video...
20 million plus views for "Highway To Hell"
Also, there's this girl who is my carport neighbor and she's really sweet-natured and looks like a blond girl who could be in an '80s music video...
(Btw today I was forced to acknowledge I like these previously unappreciated lyrics: In walks her daddy / Standin' six foot four / He said you ain't gonna swing / With my daughter no more)
Today her car was only very slightly in my way but she made a big deal out of getting it out of the way for me, even though I said she wasn't in my way and I could get by, she still INSISTED on moving her car and gave me a huge smile and a wave when I drove out....Just a really nice, sweet smile...She didn't fuckin' follow me around for weeks and get all bitter when I didn't pay attention to her big important words...NOPE.
Isn't it amazing.
Also, there's this girl who is my carport neighbor and she's really sweet-natured and looks like a blond girl who could be in an '80s music video...
(Btw today I was forced to acknowledge I like these previously unappreciated lyrics: In walks her daddy / Standin' six foot four / He said you ain't gonna swing / With my daughter no more)
Today her car was only very slightly in my way but she made a big deal out of getting it out of the way for me, even though I said she wasn't in my way and I could get by, she still INSISTED on moving her car and gave me a huge smile and a wave when I drove out....Just a really nice, sweet smile...She didn't fuckin' follow me around for weeks and get all bitter when I didn't pay attention to her big important words...NOPE.
Isn't it amazing.
writers smiters
watching scent of a woman clips melted my brain of wonderful eviscerating commentary
vibes of annoyance to these two
you're so famous!
you might be an anonymous housewife when you reincarnate
vibes of annoyance to these two
you're so famous!
you might be an anonymous housewife when you reincarnate
Just because
it's less than easy, I have to try get a hold of someone (again...) and ask him about the movie he recommended to me a very long time ago...
Silver Linings Playbook Trailer
Silver Linings Playbook Trailer
Veteran's Day
Wish a Vet (Female, Male, Whatever) A Reprieve From Overly Out Of Balance Societal Issues Day.
(That Would Have To Do With Out Of Balance Male/Female Dynamics IMO. AGAIN.)
Like for some reason, every single time I start to get happy about how well I'm resolving things, some new thing has to come up. Every single time something new comes up. I give up. I give up. I give up. I give up.
Bell
(That Would Have To Do With Out Of Balance Male/Female Dynamics IMO. AGAIN.)
Like for some reason, every single time I start to get happy about how well I'm resolving things, some new thing has to come up. Every single time something new comes up. I give up. I give up. I give up. I give up.
Bell
Tuesday, November 10, 2015
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