Or spices.
Monday, April 06, 2026
I'm sure simpler is better most of the time.
I don't recommend my way of life to other people, but I do have to respect that I have experienced my life in the way that I've experienced it.
Cooperated on opening a bottle of cranberry juice.
The cap was very, very stubborn to get off the bottle. My hands couldn't open it; banging a knife on it didn't help. A man's hands seemed like they also couldn't open it. So I said I would pour hot water on it and then I took it away but then I opened it. I said thank you because his hands loosened the cap. And then my hands opened it. So that's how it went. And I'm the only one who drinks it, so I drank it straight out of the bottle before putting it back in the fridge. Like some brothers would do in a commercial about orange juice.
I live with a good person with good taste in music.
And he's been the first one to introduce me to a lot of really cool songs.
Corb Lund - "Horse Soldier! Horse Soldier! (video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=EIWINsaEpnw&si=z8O6wxdKXoKmCZrv
He's just not into cooking or dancing or yoga. And I used to live far away from him and he said he would go to a yoga class when I lived far away from him and he never did. And it's a big joke and sometimes it feels like that's how some people in some circles get status and power, is they say they're not going to do something, and everybody just smiles and laughs and says oh yeah, men aren't into that kind of thing, and I just can't accept that's the highest bar for men for the rest of my life. I'm sure it's very complicated and it could have something to do with having to work really hard in a society that caters more to other groups of people. I don't know exactly what it is, but it's just kind of ridiculous to accept that it is enough. It's also the opposite of life affirming, and too stifling. And it's very sad, and sometimes people don't get that things can be different unless they get to experience a new experience. On the other hand, I wouldn't want someone to force me to go on roller coasters because it feels like that's not good for me or my cortisol levels right now. I mean, I did like roller coasters more when I was younger, but I wouldn't want to go on a roller coaster now. So I understand that you have to be respectful. But I don't think it's disrespectful to think that yoga or cooking or dance is something that can be enjoyed with other people. I think those things are a lot safer for my body than roller coasters. But he would probably like to find people to go on roller coasters with. He probably would enjoy more roller coaster rides.
Feels like I have some conviction.
I feel like more adults are getting into helping themselves, and helping their inner children.
"Kids" ~ Sleigh Bells
Make things make sense?
A kind of driving around song from a certain time in my life when I was living in a certain area is coming back to me lately.
Ekova ~ "In My Prime"
That's so grounding to think about.
I think you should go somewhere not fancy and eat a sandwich and maybe I'll eat a sandwich at that place too and maybe we'll be eating the same sandwich at the same table and maybe that's what will happen. Except it doesn't have to be the same sandwich. I can have a different sandwich actually. Sorry. I almost forgot that detail. Then if the mouths are chewing, they don't even have to talk that much if they don't want to, too. Or maybe it will not even be an indoor thing. Maybe it'll be an outdoor thing.
Not all cats use their brains in the same ways.
For example, the cat that we have now is the best, but at the same time she just kind of does what she wants and is not very rational about it.
Like if she brings something in and we pick it up and take it out, she goes back and looks for it in the spot where it used to be, because she wants it to be there, so she goes back there and looks for it. And she really enjoys herself while she's doing that too.
We put the prey in a dust pan right in front of her to take it out to the yard to let it go on the other side of the wall, but she decided to ignore that because she wants to keep on playing with the prey. The lizards are more likely to survive, and that's what she usually catches, instead of birds. But she caught two birds recently.
Also, I think when people say that cats bring in their little prey to you as gifts, they're kind of just being nice about it, and it's actually like, the cat's being a lot more selfish than that.
I haven't watched the Thoreau documentary yet because I'm trying to get through a movie.
It's the Swedish film that's sort of like if "The Big Short" met another film about Nazis and they decided to do a tango together, and I keep falling asleep when I'm watching it, but I can get through, like, 20 - 40 minutes of it at a time.
"The Swedish Connection – Official Trailer"| English
It's an optimal time to pay closer attention to that, and to their muscles.
"The reason why I act this way is because I was trained to act this way, and I get far more rewarded for acting this way than I would if I had acted in another way."
I don't know how many of these were children, but anyways, some of them were parents.
"ICE arrests in DC region amount to nearly 20,000 during Trump's second term"
https://www.washingtonpost.com/dc-md-va/2026/04/06/ice-arrests-dc-maryland-virginia-surge/
I bet she was a baby once! Where's her mom now?
"ICE Agents Detain Newlywed Spouse of Soldier Training to Deploy' - The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/04/05/us/ice-detains-military-wife-soldier-deployment.html
You might have to build up your self-esteem without getting pregnant in your next life.
Or your kids or your grandkids might have to.
Because your kids don't actually have your genetics. They have their own genetics.
So, hopefully you'll be less under the influence of the child-bearing Nazis with them, but that remains to be seen.
Anyways, my loyal cat accompanied me as I ate some cake and chips to fulfill the aesthetic.
And now I'm going to wait until the morning so a man can help me open the super tight top to a unsweetened cranberry juice.
Anyways, being an English major and reading more was a good choice.
Take your pilgrimages!
"The Canterbury Tales: General Prologue"
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/43926/the-canterbury-tales-general-prologue
Chaos!
Things are actually really disorderly'd up!
Anyways, this is like, why people need to find the activities that help them just live in the moment and enjoy life more, huh?
Why aren't they better yet? Perhaps it's time to stop looking at them so much.
Disenfranchised grief confuses some people. It does not meet their needs and expectations. Many adults are like needy children and some children are not that nice or perceptive when it comes to people who are different from themselves. But some are. But a lot of times, that's not what a wounded society wants more of, so that's why you're getting the ice cream cone fell on the sidewalk feeling, again. The cake dropped on the floor feeling, again. Holes in the clothes eliciting jeers instead of more empathy from others feeling, again. Cold hearts and small minds and sick silences have had their ways...
Sunday, April 05, 2026
Good, blessed solitude, but also, supposed to change sometimes.
I feel I tried very hard to prevent people from dying before they should have died in the 2000s and that's how it was. I think people who have experiences like that might be marked by them for life. But it's still interesting to see how differently people deal with their circumstances...
Let's make a transition from a moment into another moment...
It's not really like this life...
It just sort of reminds me a little bit of it.
Howards End (1992) | "'Intro to the House"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=_3mAR3ynC2I&si=XlInnD0uxIuTH1py
I get to walk around an old neighborhood I used to live in.
All kinds of flowers I used to take pictures of to ID for horticulture classes are blooming. The mountains look good; there's lots of green growing over them and not so burnt up now.
This was so funny to me. My stomach hurt.
"18th century rich people..."
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWxBY-6pdnl/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I got weird looks. Then, concessions about how much fun it would be to be a garden hermit. A garden hermit with internet connection.
This is an interesting part of the region. It's got streets that take you from lower to middle class all the way up to the super rich people and so you can make that journey in about a mile or less.
Spiritually guided...
Maybe I'll become the kind of person who goes to the Patton Memorial and counts prayer beads and burns incense to wish his soul's growth well in becoming a better person, possibly in a more feminine body. And he died a long time ago. He could have become a lot of different kinds of people by now.
I have avoided Patton very scrupulously, and today is the first time I read very much about his wife, who had an interesting personality.
"General Patton’s Second in Command"
https://ladyofthearmy.com/2022/03/08/general-pattons-second-in-command/
Banging on a xylophone is a work of genius.
I guess I get to know more about how society intersects with creativity can be really ridiculous now.
Strange times...
Salty cowboy.
"I can guarantee that most of these men..."
wiscocowboy1
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWr8iQSkQ-m/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
X to Y: Hey, so you know how you're not an organ donor?
Y to X: I should probably change that. My thinking has changed on that.
Perhaps I can go on a little vacation soon...
I wouldn't be surprised if, in another world, different kinds of actions and behavior patterns look like they have a certain kind of music to them, which people on planet Earth can't necessarily hear.
Sure, it's entirely possible.
Fewer people will slip through the cracks in the future and it won't be because one particular person has to save another particular person. It's because people will know how to work together cooperatively and combine their talents and then that other person who's having the extra challenge or illness or trauma from assault or childhood molestation or whatever won't have to be the one who gets outcast.
Maybe the wiser ones will still be help humanity get to the next level.
I'm not saying that I have all the knowledge that others have or that people always have to be perfect paragons of emotional maturity, but really.
Who do I think creates a lot of extra work for children to do?
Emotionally immature parents, and emotionally immature people who are not parents, but who are adults who should know better, but don't, or just don't want to.
"ICE Arrests in Texas Leave Children to Raise Their Siblings"
Is it really for the best to be quite so myopic and indifferent towards "others" just to survive a certain kind of society in a particular era?
"Letter: An ICE detention facility doesn’t belong in a ‘family-friendly’ state"
https://www.sltrib.com/opinion/letters/2026/04/05/letter-utah-cannot-be-family/
Exultant Emotionally Elevated Ēostre
"Ēostre"- Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%C4%92ostre
If so inclined, let's do Pilates and Yoga for the health and well-being our specially interconnected parts, and not to feed the egos of the insecure and insensitive mean people.
"Why the Manosphere love Pilates girls 🎀💪💊"
BryonyClaire
https://youtube.com/watch?v=W8KWmVcnflY&si=Hg6hbXa7bfhu8hCp
"We need justice ⚖️"
sarah_olivia_rose
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWq7ALMiBvo/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Saturday, April 04, 2026
Some people think way more about Lords; more than they think about Jesus, don't they?
Oh my gosh, I guess Jesus just loved the "others" and wanted to heal the sick too much for some people. Oops, that must have been some of the religious programming that got drummed into me at an incredibly young age coming out.
Just something else to complain about, on this journey of growing as a human being in a patriarchal society.
It must be difficult to struggle with the addiction to needing validation so badly. And also a bunch of emotionally mutilated people who couldn't bring themselves to be articulate about being sorry that abuse happened in the family are also totally the kind that are going to fawn over the talented and favored by the patriarchy celebrities aren't they? Yeah, I think so. They just want a shortcut and they just want to feel good and they don't want to grow up.
Don't be like the artistic version of Patton.
Like maybe your grandkids will be more sensitive to the existence of other kinds of people and what they are going through but you don't have to be so overly patriarchal in your execution of your talents.
When it comes to the point the point where I feel like I have to start chewing on my fingers again and clothes again, that's not a good sign.
Quit repeating the habits that are harmful just because that's exactly what patriarchal culture wants you to do.
Is quieter charming? Well, I guess that depends on the point of view.
"After the Minnesota surge, ICE is moving to a quieter enforcement approach : NPR"
https://www.npr.org/2026/04/04/nx-s1-5768273/after-minnesota-ice-surge-shift-to-quieter-enforcement
Okay, I'm going to go out and eat Mexican food.
Do you really want to be in a movie called "How you can tell that the shallow, selfish white people want everyone who's not like them to just die, and they're also training their children to act like that's a totally normal way to live life, too."
Actually it might be Mexican / Lebanese fusion. Which is sort of like Mediterranean and Mexican fusion.
A natural high, though.
Make good use of the energy and do some calisthenics?
This is the brain on getting nostalgic about moments of youthful exuberance in other regions of the country.
Bruce Springsteen - "Glory Days (Official Video)"
Never mind. I actually had to look at this instead.
"Wind driven brush fire spreading over 4,100 acres..."
https://ktla.com/news/inland-empire/firefighters-battling-brush-fire-in-moreno-valley/
ADD! SO freeing.
I'm not sure if I can complete my Easter Sale shopping transaction because now I'm looking up pools on Swimply.
If I were there again, I hope I would force my exhausted body upstairs and swim in that pool!
"Anyone else love swimming pools?"
helloterumi
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DBKPr0GxSnu/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"The 14th story pool in the InterContinental Chicago"
The only place I ever tried caviar still has caviar.
High Tea in Chicago | Russian Tea Time – Chicago, IL
https://www.russianteatime.com/
It was a different price in the 2000s. That was good for the people who paid for it.
"Zukerman and Perlman display their reliable excellence" – Chicago Tribune
https://www.chicagotribune.com/2006/05/05/zukerman-and-perlman-display-their-reliable-excellence/
I guess it's time to take an opportunity to cultivate an abundance mindset.
Lots of beautiful dark eyes on the BloomChic website. And there's an Easter sale going on.
Ivan Rebroff - "Les yeux noirs (Otschi Kornia)"
https://youtu.be/6JPUJFP_-EE?si=GeOWW4uucBZH_Z2v
Size 10 people can shop there, too!
People need to talk about isolation.
Isn't it isolating being a creative genius? Want to talk about that? No? Okay. Well, I guess I'm going to do some shopping! Probably get some tax money back.
Do people need to talk about death.
Cat normally leaves the things outside alone and is slow and well fed but lately she's become a Mighty Hunter and it's kind of horrifying. Maybe it's time to build a catio?
I feel happily and pleasantly educated.
Because I had an educational massage therapy session. And the reason why it was educational was the therapist was working with spots that are connected with the piriformis muscle and they were tight and painful. But she said
"On a scale of one to five, I want it to be a three."
😊
And then, when it was a three, she would press into it and she would stretch my leg and she would say: "Breathe. Don't forget to breathe."
It really helped!
Also, lying on a heated table and getting some icy hot lotion applied on the back at the end of the session was good.
Someone should make a movie out of this book. Or this kind of a story.
"Retro Friday Review: Goodbye Pink Pig by C.S. Adler"
http://www.angie-ville.com/2010/11/retro-friday-review-goodbye-pink-pig-by.html?m=1
Angels! Angels.
Some have dressed themselves as the wraggle taggle gypsies in this life, but who knows better...
"The Raggle Taggle Gypsy" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Raggle_Taggle_Gypsy
Liked this elementary school musical propaganda! It was very fun to sing.
Sometimes shopping for clothes on a Saturday takes a turn...
Sara Bareilles - "Goodbye Yellow Brick Road (Live from Atlanta)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ozd2ja7mAgM&si=VHuFW7eGJO7KZDCQ
That's a nice dress, but now I also have to get at least three different kinds of comfortable but intriguingly textured blouses which I will probably wear a lot more often...
Sufjan Stevens x Kylie Minogue - "Can't Get Video Games Out of My Head [MASHUP]"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=aT-IDHPYSQ8&si=8_4BcNBHo4pvnfFB
That was entertaining. 🐦⬛
I heard a meow and a striped cat was outside the door and my cat was inside hiding from it instead of trying to fight it and then the outside cat ran away and climbed on top of the fence and then a black bird swooped down really close to the cat on the fence and it jumped away.
That's nice for my nervous system.
Actually, I'm thinking about happy dogs running around people's legs.
Tambien (Weird, it rhymes with Ambien, which I'm not going to take, and I don't have.)
"Happy Books and a Sad Life—Lucy Maud Montgomery"
https://teacupsandtyrants.com/2021/11/28/happy-books-and-a-sad-life-lucy-maud-montgomery/
Pobrecita escritora.
"Violette Leduc: the great French feminist writer we need to remember" | Books | The Guardian
Must respect the nervous system more again now.
I will be (need to be) better at letting my body know that it deserves a very chill and calm day.
I got an idea! I think it's a good one because it made me look up pictures that amuse me.
Why don't the troubadours write some songs about their feet now?
Creative Project Man.
Creative projects, man.
JOHNNY RIVERS - "Secret Agent Man 1966"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=6iaR3WO71j4&si=4vlIMBkNMxcPrf0l
🎶🎸🎶🎺🎶🪕🎶
You know what you can do with your life when you get more 💸 in it?
🐬You can lose more weight from certain parts of your body and not the other parts! 🙀 Katy Keene reminded me; it's not my fault.💃🏻
"Katy Keene Comics Vol. 1 (1949-1961) : MLJ/Archie Comics : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive"
Ēostre is almost here.
It will be interesting to see what Ēostre is like this year.🌷🌸🌹🌺🌻🌼🪷❇️
"Ēostre" - Wikipedia
Kinda feel like regressing...
Kind of already miss being more stuck in a state of terror, like I was not so long ago. I think that's actually not as uncommon of an experience as people might pretend it is...
I used to look at the 1980s versions of these on summer vacations...Wow! So much free access to stories with the internet.
"Katy Keene Comics Vol. 1 (1949-1961) : MLJ/Archie Comics : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive"
Anyways, I guess things are going okay.
Some people just signed up to have a stranger journey on a path to intimacy than others.
This character. LOL!
This character does not act like Violet the Duke! I think this character is like, what could happen if Violet the Duke didn't have an abortion. Especially if she had unprotected sex with a favored male writer she'd been fawning over.
"New Girlfriend" - SNL
I guess he served his purpose.
If Simone de Beauvoir's father's behavior resulted in her being more thoughtful, more introspective, and more helpful when it came to handling the difficult personality of a bastard child like Violette LeDuc.
I'll just talk to my cat about what your parents did.
Next time the whole,"But it's so hard to be good to certain kinds of people" issue flares up again.
Actually we really do have to take better care...
My body's gotten very sensitive and my health in jeopardy again. Sigh. I hope tea helps. Maybe sometimes it's better just to calm things down instead of try to raise the issues.
Probably time to whine some more soon.
Hopefully, the wine of our friendship will just keep building and building!
Oh, the universe is so good!
"Being more thirsty is more sexy! And now you're stuck in a place for a good reason. I wonder what that could be?"
Time to build very new rituals.
"You are a very bad friend to a lot of kinds of girls and women when you get put in certain situations." "But we can probably blame The Patriarchy." " It's been traumatizing." " "Stick that in your pipe and smoke it."
Doggedly ignorant of the disenfranchised...
Don't really know if they really are all that blessed. Especially when they're very clearly needing so much attention, and they act so utterly uninterested in knowing more about others that it seems they must be scared to know too much, for some reason?
Friday, April 03, 2026
Let that be a lesson...
It's kind of weird that people keep telling me that I seem like I'm doing better and I look healthier when I currently weigh more than I've ever weighed in my entire life. Perhaps health is more nuanced and complicated than we've been led to believe. I think it could be so.
How I feel about looking at dresses...
"I know, but I'm bored now,so it looks like I probably will." - Derry Girls | Clip.Cafe
Mourning is a part of life even if you think people can come back and do things better.
I had to put a wounded or dead bird on the other side of the wall and it made me think about humans being very fragile and then the mourning feelings came back and then I went to the park to visit the flowers.
It's quite tragic that this still happens so often.
Also, the freeze out response is not exactly impressive, either.
"When women disclose abuse..."
drjesstaylor
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWoADMSK5MM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Nature's nice sometimes.
"The art of sunbathing and birdwatching"
heyitsbanesa
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWCqYwgDpCP/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Maybe I'll be able to get better acquainted with etymology this weekend!
I love etymology!
"Ēostre" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/%C4%92ostre
Name
Etymology
The theonym has been reconstructed as *Ēastre (Old English), *Ôstara (Old High German) and *Āsteron (Old Saxon).[4][5] These are cognates – linguistic siblings stemming from a common origin. They derive from the Proto-Germanic theonym Austrō(n),[4][5] itself a descendant of Proto-Indo-European (PIE) *h₂ews-reh₂ (cf. Lithuanian auš(t)rà, 'dawn, daybreak'), extended from the PIE root *h₂ews-, meaning 'to shine, glow (red)'.[6][5] The modern English east also derives from this root, via the Proto-Germanic adverb *aust(e)raz ('east, eastwards'), from an earlier PIE *h₂ews-tero- ('east, towards the dawn').[5]
According to linguist Guus Kroonen, the Germanic and Baltic languages replaced the old formation *h₂éws-os, the name of the PIE dawn-goddess, with a form in *-reh₂-, likewise found in the Lithuanian deity Aušrinė.[5] In Anglo-Saxon England, her springtime festival gave its name to a month (Northumbrian: Ēosturmōnaþ, West Saxon: Eastermonað),[7] the rough equivalent of April, then to the Christian feast of Easter that eventually displaced it.[4][8] In southern Medieval Germany, the festival Ôstarûn similarly gave its name to the month Ôstarmânôth, and to the modern feast of Ostern ('Easter'), suggesting that a goddess named *Ôstara was also worshipped there.[9][8] The name of the month survived into 18th-century German as Ostermonat.[10] An Old Saxon equivalent of the spring goddess named *Āsteron may also be reconstructed from the term asteronhus, which is translated by most scholars as 'Easter-house', which would parallel the Medieval Flemish Paeshuys ('Easter-house').[11] Frankish historian Einhard also writes in his Vita Karoli Magni (early 9th century CE) that after Charlemagne defeated and converted the continental Saxons to Christianity, he gave Germanic names to the Latin months of the year, which included the Easter-month Ostarmanoth.[12]
The Old English Ēostre is therefore a distant cognate of numerous other dawn goddesses attested among Indo-European-speaking peoples, including Uṣás, Ēṓs, and Aurōra. In the words of the Encyclopedia of Indo-European Culture, "a Proto-Indo-European goddess of the dawn is supported both by the evidence of cognate names and the similarity of mythic representation of the dawn goddess among various Indo-European groups. [...] All of this evidence permits us to posit a Proto-Indo-European *haéusōs 'goddess of dawn' who was characterized as a 'reluctant' bringer of light for which she is punished. In three of the Indo-European stocks, Baltic, Greek and Indo-Iranian, the existence of a Proto-Indo-European 'goddess of the dawn' is given additional linguistic support in that she is designated the 'daughter of heaven'."[13]
O tea he he!
"Mother is a straight shooter"
dilpreettagger
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUXsnkNkihh/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This, too, seems more feminist.
"Studies from 2016 onwards..."
drjesstaylor
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWqxTWBKAq7/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Stuff like this makes me feel like Society is getting more feminist in spite of who the hell is running this country.
"the tea on CATCHING PRINT 👀"
therealmanifestelle
There's an article to read, too!
"The Queer Gaze"| Substack
https://thequeergaze.substack.com/
"the tea on CATCHING PRINT 👀"
therealmanifestelle
And I still need to catch up on the other ones she posted recently!
Being good when being bad is rewarded?
"the tea on CATCHING PRINT 👀"
therealmanifestelle
Mind the cortisol though.
"Forced gratitude elevates cortisol"
kyleinspires1
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWmcAFejjfE/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This is very creative!
"Had a coffee with myself at 16..."
adam.floatinghome
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWqlkVijLuv/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Okay, and just one more thing...
I feel like audiences at ballet performances are filled with people with dashed dreams and eating disorders and they will be using the toilets. So I hope there's not any sexist long lines at the restrooms, but there will be. Okay, so this can be funny!
Hi bird, you're on a wire!
That's a bird who's never had to worry about PCOS or its psychological ramifications in a patriarchal culture or any of the various cosmetic remedies, which are never covered by insurance! Even if you have the good insurance which doesn't have the huge deductible.
Oh and I also want prescription sunglasses. Because I don't want to get Lasik.
"The only thing we should be moulding is..."
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWq3bU1AMgK/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
X: Do you know how long it's been since I've gotten prescription sunglasses?
Y: What if you wait two months and then get prescription sunglasses?
X: I have not gotten prescription sunglasses for more than a decade. I don't even remember when I got them. I might have gotten them when I lived in Illinois. I don't even remember.
~~~~~~
Also, I am not happy with the way the gum feels on one of the teeth which looks too big to me now and I wonder if it's affecting the gum.
So many problems come with living in human bodies!!!!!
Maybe moving around a lot made me easier to amuse?
My interest / other writer's interest (which I also find interesting.)
"Sheila Campaign"
pitchfork
https://youtube.com/watch?v=UH7dreFAiBQ&si=uqUPIRWSqMg6r5oz
"Seems unbeleivable until..."
u/LowNo175
My cat is bothering my phone again; I wonder why?
"🔥Desire gets a bad rap and I wonder why?"
yumisakugawa
https://www.instagram.com/p/DWj5wKzEmrg/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Thursday, April 02, 2026
I felt like talking about something else.
Death! I find it really weird that the Universe did its best to convince me I was this other person and when I was a young adult I even tried to contact the a couple people that this other person knew when he was alive and it was a total disaster. Either it just fell apart or it or the letter got rejected and sent back. And I didn't and I only said I was interested in his stories. So if somebody who died comes back and tries to send you a letter, you're probably going to reject them, huh.
I have to sing for the cat.
"Some cat you are, to continuously beg..."
(She does. She's a very food-oriented creature. And yet she's also picky and doesn't want to eat pate or certain kinds of wet foods. I didn't really know what a finicky cat was before I had her. My other cats were certainly not so choosy!)
Tori Amos - "Never Seen Blue Lyrics & Meanings" | SongMeanings
Did you like this one? 🎶
Tori Amos - "i i e e e (Live Sessions 1998) + Lyrics"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=41OgbLr86DY&si=CyzTDihrbVfmELEU
Yes.
And this one?
Tori Amos - "Jackie's Strength"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=C7WET8khBc4&si=jHaLsIwtZAlmEieI
Also yes.
And this one?
Skating Polly - "Camelot (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=FbFoX8SvaKI&si=lsnaCCD9cBbLlyPV
Yes again!
Because some of society is advancing when it comes to acknowledging things...
Pointing out the kind of music that makes me think that some people who have survived certain kinds of trauma have had to go deeper inside of themselves in order to process their trauma.
"Never Seen Blue" ~ Tori Amos
https://youtu.be/8WB_V2puco8?si=vqynVLor5TDXHUmT
This song bothered me when I first heard it because it made me feel like I was missing out on something during a period of my life when I felt I needed to be very insular and didn't even try to have a relationship with anyone for years and years.
One way that romance was impressed on a small child's brain.
I remember when I was a child, and I was on a train with my mother traveling somewhere, and maybe she was busy paying attention to my little sister, I don't remember, but there was a teenage girl, a young woman who was sitting next to me, and she was on the train because she was running away from her mother and she was going to go live with her boyfriend who really loved her. I was just a child (perhaps I was eight?) but I was a good listener. So I was considered mature for my age and the teenage girl needed someone to listen to her and what she was going through and it was fascinating. And my mother just let that happen. I was the one listening to her, not my mother. I don't really know if my mother believed in it or cared much about what the teenage girl was telling me, but she didn't stop it from happening. The funny thing is that my mother didn't get along with her own mother, so it would seem like maybe she could have listened to the teenage girl's story, but it just didn't happen that way, in my memory. I was the one who was the listener. It was not censored. Maybe my mother was taking a nap or something! As a matter of fact, I think I might have tried to talk to my mother about it later, and she might have scoffed at the story. I'm sorry if this makes her sound insensitive. Yeah, there wasn't a lot of messages about how we all need to take care of the teenage girls when I was growing up. Teenage girls were on their own. They were pretty much mini adults. They could run away with their boyfriends from the mothers who didn't seem to care about them.
People don't always know what's going on.
Some people think if you're nervous, that's a sign that something's bad. But what if the nervousness leads to an experience that feels like a sea green wave of grief, tears and calm acceptance, and then you feel more cleansed, calmer and more like your real self. How can that be bad?
Maybe some people are just more complicated and have deeper wells of feelings, or they're on a journey to get more in touch with all of the emotions inside of them. It's literally what they were supposed to do when they came here. It's part of the plan.
We live in a society that values things based off money. Nobody's going to give you a paycheck for that emotional processing experience, unless maybe you create some piece of art or song and distribute it and find an audience for it. So unless you do that, society doesn't seem to value the process very much. But it's real, and it's part of their life's work, for some people.
Anyway, someone who doesn't care very much about most kinds of people just got fired.
"Trump fires Pam Bondi, a loyalist and ally, as attorney general" | Pam Bondi | The Guardian
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/apr/02/trump-pam-bondi-attorney-general
People are learning how to pay better attention to themselves.
"Sheltered, petted and constantly entertained by the endless novelty of life, I was a madly gay little girl. Nevertheless, there must have been something wrong somewhere: I had fits of rage during which my face turned purple and I would fall to the ground in convulsions."
Simone de Beauvoir page 11
"Memoirs of a Dutiful Daughter by Simone de Beauvoir"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/164006.Memoirs_of_a_Dutiful_Daughter
It's good they don't stone certain kinds of people as much anymore.
I feel bad about how things getting weird can just drive people apart. Maybe it feels like I got a message before and it wasn't listened to and then stuff happened and it kind of felt like if my message had been listened to then perhaps the outcome would have been different. And I was very sad about what happened, too. But I was in a completely different region and perhaps also headspace about it. I cried and I warned and I mourned, but I did it differently. But anyways the messenger definitely does get a cold shoulder sometimes, if not outright stoned. But sometimes people have to process things the way they have to process them. I feel like drinking coffee right now!
*At least my Grandma cared* ABOUT US
What if your grandkids marry somebody whose existence depends upon somebody who's locked away in a detention center right now?
It's good to do the balancing activities.
Maybe I'm going to get very light-hearted and run off to a winery in Temecula or something soon! 🍇
I feel like I'm the kind of person who, when it seems like someone's being too hard on themselves, I think they need to soak in a pool or have a massage or drink something nice and pamper themselves. Or listen to some beautiful music or make some beautiful music. Or enjoy beautiful art or create beautiful art. Or pet a beautiful cat. Or quietly admire a beautiful cat from afar and get to soak in good 💖 energies from the universe.
But then, sometimes if seems like people are just being ignorant in a way that's ultimately going to bite them in the ass, I don't feel that way anymore.
Working out the kinks and the personality; its a lifelong process.
This musician had his mother's last name.
"Chris Cornell" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chris_Cornell
If I ever had kids, I don't necessarily think they would need to take my last name. It's awkward to spell and pronounce it when you're not from the particular little region...you have to explain it all the time and answer questions about it...you'll go to Europe and they'll correct you on the pronunciation...I think it would be interesting if there ever were a study on the effects of all those accumulated conversations over the course of a lifetime.
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