"Angie (Easy Ukulele)"
@Dan-Sam
Monday, September 21, 2026
Colonel of wisdom
You should take yourself out on the day you want to take yourself out and don't wait for a special occasion like your birthday because on your birthday you might not even want to go out and then you'll be pleased you get to stay in and you'll be happy that you went out on the day you wanted to.
I went out for a mile walk after drinking coconut water and then I had breakfast out and there were lots of leftovers and then I had some second breakfast and maybe later on I'll have a late third breakfast.
Sunday, September 20, 2026
Let's see what happens!
I decided I do think it's entirely possible to have more fun and become more successful in the future and I have been conversing with one who is very suspicious of scams, so wouldn't it be fun to create more nice surprises for someone who's been hardworking and was not always so rewarded or well treated as others were, in my opinion?
Somehow, I ended up at a swap meet.
Anyways, these things take time sometimes.
I'll listen to my '40s music and notice that I just saw an older guy running up the road with a giant, giant American flag, and I must reiterate that it wasn't a little one, either. He's feeling patriotic today.
And what is wrong with you patriarchal people?
You didn't even try to tell me I should love myself more. You just tried to tell me I should love the idea of being a mother more, and of being, like, a servant to the patriarchy more. What is wrong with you?
Sharing a zany thought to break out of the not so liberating thinking.
What if, when I gained more weight this year on account of PCOS and perimenopause, it's actually because I'm supposed to feel kind of more in love with the idea of being in a state of pregnancy, but not for the purpose of producing a child, but just as a part of the experience of loving living in a female body in this lifetime on Earth? And the idea of being pregnant with possibilities in this body can happen in a way that could be connected with multiple things? And can have multiple meanings? And to not having to fit myself into a certain shape or box or mold to satisfy a more rigid way of thinking?
This is kinda scary.
I'll just contemplate this notion for a little while.
What's that? Oh nothing.
"You've got to give us some more time; we're a little slow on Earth sometimes!"
Life is just too violent in this country lately, and no concert or basketball game will fix it.
"America's biggest gang. Coming to a town near you."
4kstreetz
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfyKYZTPQD/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I just feel like I have to watch this one before I go shopping.
"Our nightmare is over but the fight is far from finished."
hannahsilveira24
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU_H6LUDe4t/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
They sound less bad than some places and far worse than others.
" The saddest thing was to see all of the children lined up on family day"
"If there is anything people want to know..."
hannahsilveira24
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdgtkfltnYf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
People's definition of what "nice" means seems to vary.
I think it would be nice (and feminist) if they changed the school curriculum to talk about the history of the witch hunts more, because then, maybe there'd be less of the witch hunting feelings going on right now.
Yes, it should be reframed as self-interest.
"Why Bother Being Good? A Philosophical Exploration"
https://www.thecollector.com/moral-philosophy-why-bother-being-good/
She's so cute and furry!
Meanwhile, my cat still seems to love me and acts like she thinks I'm a really nice person.
I wonder if stuff like this is why part of me just doesn't feel like being a nice person sometimes?
I wonder if that is what's going on sometimes.
"Disabled people, particularly those with chronic health conditions, are the demographic dying MOST in ICE custody."
detentionwatch
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdR0lVrMX8-/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I'll watch this before I watch the second episode of the show that was originally called Diane de Poitier s.
"The Psychological Trick That Keeps you Obedient"
@barryseconomics
https://youtube.com/shorts/X2ChzBFmnJY?si=aXw-TI-sP-6QeANf
"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers, Ep. 1, Pt. 2" – Frock Flicks
https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-ep-1-pt-2/
"What Poverty Does To The Brain?" - Barry's Economics
https://youtube.com/shorts/QuQj49ay1yg?si=kvtep0NW9JFlhWID
Oh, say it isn't so!
You do realize that the only way to get through to some people is to have access to a shitload of money. You do know that, right?
So entitled, just because of some money! They'd never do this if they weren't getting paid.
"This video shows ICE agents entering a bedroom while a mother stands there holding her baby."
thelaboystandard
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfJcsDxKH4/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
You're the last of the tribe.
Your kids are never gonna get away with being as immature as you got away with being.
Let's journal about that; why not???
Are you sure? I don't know about that.
Let's uphold the pay Cherokee and also fight the good and noble Feminist cause together!
A big fragile eagle you've needed to take care of since even before you were a toddler!
Say it's an eagle. That will make it sound more noble. And terribly important.
I have another thing that sounds like fun to complain about, so I'm going to do it!
How come sometimes you have female friends that are like all feminist when they're one-on-one with you in person but they're never that feminist with a big group of people, huh? What's going on with that? Is that why they can't talk to you, because then they're going to have to start being more feminist, but that's not what they're choosing right now, is it?
Still sucked into the message of the music by that last video!
This is false advertising. They are chopping up the lyrics and only including a little bit of them for you to read on the screen.
The Zombies - "Time Of The Season (Lyric Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=T8ecsAI3FhY&si=ukdL-qlTYHbHqAKE
"We are still trying to understand..."
sherlove971
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdKriG-SXq9/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
There have always been other points of view!
"The Student Nurses (1970)"
butchnoir
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdUaXNKBIrQ/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"she's just a girl 💅🏼"
loki.doestricks
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfJnrsuYiH/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"We are still trying to understand..."
sherlove971
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdKriG-SXq9/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Oh, oh, oh.
Some people are seemingly more accepting than others when it comes to handling complicated situations. There seems to be some accidental prejudice and sexism involved. I say "accidental" because I don't think people plotted to be prejudiced and sexist, but I think that they were trained to be prejudiced and sexist by the patriarchy at a very young age and then they act in ways that feel prejudiced and sexist. And then they don't want to talk about it. So it makes things feel very mangled. Why does it have to feel so mangled now? Why is that? Why was the village they were raised in not more accepting of outsiders and more nurturing?
Saturday, September 19, 2026
Today's overdue library book read.
This country really needs to evolve when it comes to taking care of so many different kinds of people.
"A Living Remedy: A Memoir – A Daughter's Narrative of Adoption, Class Inequality, and Grief in America by Nicole Chung"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/62050250-a-living-remedy
Maybe this is healthier and better for the nervous system and other organs.
"People are doing the best they can based on their circumstances. It's time to relax your body now. It's time to let go."
This bubbled up as I managed to force myself to leave the vicinity.
"Women who are constantly compelled to make excuses for irresponsible men rarely make history as fantastic feminists."
Ping-ponging and needing to get more balanced in the body again.
I can appreciate that there's other people in the world who have more energy and drive to go out there and do things right now. But I wonder what they do when somebody is in a crisis or in a hospice situation.
I have physical ailments again. Probably minor ones that I just don't want to become major ones, but they are significant enough for me to notice. Several times I have thought I would go out and do some specific tasks somewhere else and it's not happening today. That's fine.
I have a strange metric of progress.
My metric of progress is about chewing on my fingers and clothes less, or not at all. And today has been a not chewing on either of those at all day! And the hard calluses on my fingers are almost gone, especially on the right hand. The left one is still a little bit crazy. But it's way less callused than it used to be.
Progress!
And they're alive and real and communicating!
Sometimes this era makes me feel like my best supporters and friends are ghosts and in my dreams!
And since you can't be bothered to care, when does your attitude seem to say this instead?
"My entitled status and privilege exists to uphold the status quo and to destroy you and your Humanity."
When does this discrimination start to feel really dangerous to you, personally?
Physically or psychologically or emotionally???
"Outcry as Michigan high school asks girls to share details of menstrual cycles"
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/sep/17/michigan-school-period-policy
And the people running things here claim they want women to be able to get pregnant and have more children.
"Maga wants more babies. But they don’t seem too worried about miscarriages in ICE detention"
" Not enough of us are standing up to it," he comment s.
In Oregon...
"This video shows ICE agents entering a bedroom while a mother stands there holding her baby."
thelaboystandard
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfJcsDxKH4/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
When is thoughtlessness not so harmless?
"Hannah Arendt showed it was a kind of 'thoughtlessness' that facilitated the evils of the Nazi regime: a failure to pay attention to serious ethical wrongs."
~ Jacqueline Boaks
"When does being ‘apolitical’ become a political act?"
Why does acknowledging other people's Humanity seem to be in opposition to treating certain people in more favored ways than others?
I think that acting like other people's Humanity is important to you could be very beneficial to lots of children, and could also really look good to lots of the grandchildren in the future.
And I believe that Otto Frank was quite disturbed by what could happen to young women when the Nazis came to power.
"The Translation of Anne Frank"
https://nwhyte.livejournal.com/2421391.html
"The Merry Macs 'Mairzy Doats' 1943 78 rpm"
OldiesAL
https://youtube.com/watch?v=qdq92WuyZ5U&si=oOpAYNuP00wFvC8h
Mairzy Doats came on the radio as I left the coffee shop.
Fortified by my breakfast sandwich and tall pumpkin spice matcha with light ice.
Parents need to start getting A LOT more responsible when it comes to not going along with Patriarchal rape culture.
As far as the whole phenomenon of some moms and dads still making excuses for fantastic athletes even when they rape teenage girls, a lot of parents weren't really raised to respect women. Teenage girls are the lowest on their rung of who they got taught to respect, while simultaneously being the most desired by the most predatory of men.
It's a horrifying scenario. It's absolutely horrifying.
And the oldest daughter is not about just protecting herself cuz maybe she feels she knows how to do that. But what about protecting all of the innocents? What about that? And it's not rational, and it's crazy making stuff. There really is a lot of pressure put on oldest daughters in certain circumstances.
Oldest daughters do more of the emotional work than the actual parents when it comes to raising the children a lot of the time. This is a big truth that has not been acknowledged often enough
And maybe sometimes the oldest daughter is actually the oldest brother. Sometimes that's the case, too. These are not entirely perfect analogies, one realizes.
But there has been an overall trend that is finally being acknowledged a little bit more than it used to be.
So you can celebrate the biological parents all you want with your special days and your Facebook posts and yada yada. Lots of other people have been doing more work behind the scenes that most have never wanted to acknowledge, because they were trained to unsee things from a very early age by the patriarchal culture. And I think that's just selfish.
Oldest daughters are often treated like unpaid nannies. They get used to being expected to do the harder work for no pay, and to sacrificing their needs for the benefit of the greater good at a very early age.
P. S. The actual paid nannies have been doing a lot of the work, too, in the families that are wealthy enough to afford them.
On my way out to pick up my breakfast sandwich, I saw my cat in the living room.
"Do you think I should pretend my life was totally different and that certain things never existed just so I can make other people feel more comfortable?"
She did not answer in the affirmative; so there!
I've been awake for several hours and I believe a breakfast sandwich could be calling me!
"Over 2,000 women liked this comment"
bobbynutrition
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdbmbTllyB6/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"I study language and power"
dr.bise
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddd7RFlBO8t/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers (2022), Ep. 1, Pt. 1" – Frock Flicks
https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-2022-ep-1/
It's okay so far. (27 minutes into episode 1)
So far, it's another show where all the women are much prettier and daintier than the men.
"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers (2022), Ep. 1, Pt. 1" – Frock Flicks
https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-2022-ep-1/
Since I'm not falling asleep for some reason.
I decided to start watching that program on PBS that's about Diane de Poitiers, even though I always thought I was more interested in Christine de Pizan and Elisabetta Sirani and Lady J. Gray and Irene McDonald, (the unknown daughter of the author that G. K. Chesterton really liked who was also one of the girls photographed by Charles Lutwidge Dodgson.) I got a little nudge I should know about Diane de Poitier, too, but compared to those other ones I barely ever thought about her. I didn't relate to her as much, I suppose.
I really liked that one part of "All About Love."
People are liars. People are liars. People are liars. They lie so much!
"All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads"
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/17607.All_About_Love
If I'm going to be more self-centered, I really do need some angelic assistance.
If I were younger, my only PCOS body and not PCOS plus now perimenopausal body would have responded much better to the exercise I was doing this summer.
I did not have ice cream last night after all.
I think this might have made me eat some of a cauliflower crust pizza with veggies on it.
"Me core 💅🏼"
shoot_thismoment
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc45IuOtSFg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Not every moment needs to be super thrilling, but still.
I don't feel super thrilled with how some things are going right now.
I was glad to learn about Barbro Karlen.
And her one big life that she remembered; only one, apparently. Well, everybody's different. 😏
"Barbro Karlén" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Barbro_Karl%C3%A9n
She spoke at a university in this area years ago, but I didn't know who she was back then, and I also didn't live close by at that time.
She was on a police force! She was an exceptional horse woman! She survived persecution by the unwell Patriarchy! She was technologically savvy! But then something went terribly wrong and her body reacted poorly to some kind of medical thing. So now she's on to the next journey.
The bigger quote is better to read.
"Quote of the day by Anne Frank: ‘It is utterly impossible to build my life on a foundation of chaos and suffering.'"
"It's utterly impossible for me to build my life on a foundation of chaos, suffering and death. I see the world being slowly transformed into a wilderness, I hear the approaching thunder that, one day, will destroy us too, I feel the suffering of millions. And yet, when I look up at the sky, I somehow feel that everything will change for the better, that this cruelty, too, shall end, that peace and tranquility will return once more."
Anne Frank
Just got to get through the part of acknowledging that things are not okay.
It's as if to say, now I know the existence of the unwell Patriarchy is probably almost equally the fault of unwell men and unwell women. Now I know the Nazis came to power because of the attitudes of both the unwell men and the unwell women. There's a lot of f***** up stuff happening right now. Do you not think that children are being affected? Do you not think that they are going to grow up and look back and see how people were behaving right now? What do you think about? Buying and selling things? Is that not a numbing agent that is only temporary like a Band-Aid that's not going to address the real problem? It just feels so necessary to acknowledge that this is a really, really, really really messed up time right now. In this country. Which is the United States of America.
I don't know the remedy. It's bad.
I feel broken-hearted, as if the patriarchal culture did everything to ruin everything by getting so deeply inside of people's minds and warping them, and I'm just supposed to feel a kind of emotional collapse about it for a while because you have to hit bottom and be honest about the worst things before you can get better. And it's tied to physical suffering as well. Grief with a physical and emotional component. People who should have known better got mean and callous and superficial and materialistic to the detriment of the vast majority of humanity. I make myself crawl through the grief and the suffering. A lot of people cannot be from little small insular communities and be impervious to what's happening. A lot of people just cannot do that. I don't understand why that's so hard for some people to get. It's like they're in an arrested state of development like they're in their forties, acting like four-year-olds. So now that's grief. Starting to show up as anger accusing people of acting like four-year-olds when they're in their forties. That's anger.
Friday, September 18, 2026
Gosh, I should ask the universe for some more guidance.
For some reason I was remembering walking by a particular apartment when looking for new place to live -- gosh this must have been more than 10 years ago now -- and this person, a complete stranger to me, will never know the effect they had on me, but I just felt such a vibe from her place. I wished I could be friends with that person when I walked by her apartment. The vibe was creative and ladylike, but in a good way, like a high-heeled shoe that would be fun to try on. And what really sold me on me thinking that this was a good person was cat I caught a glimpse of through the screen door. I thought, that cat has pampered princess energy and I love it! I just had a feeling the person who lived in that apartment was so good at taking care of her cat and her space and herself.
Anyways, to be disheveled and fall apart is kind of a great luxury in and of itself, in a way.
They have celebrate this day, and celebrate that day, but why don't they have celebrate this other day? Yet.
EVERY day can be celebrate this other day.
"This has been SO wild"
trailertrashdej_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdcMhO4B6wz/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
At least I can feel like artistic angels are not that mad!
I feel like brain storming and making lists about certain "taboo" topics could be a fun and creative way to raise consciousness collectively!
I was scrolling and I found out it's a special week.
World Childless Week! I wonder why they would have a week about that?
"Let's make you feel a little lighter today"
megs. tea. room
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdZaO97xQgs/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Me core 💅🏼"
shoot_thismoment
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc45IuOtSFg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Admitting you're genuinely happy"
caseyinher40s
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZaU1gOlGn9/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Being childless"
hopefully_joyful_journey_
https://www.instagram.com/p/Dc6OGrFlPez/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Considering all the possibilities...I decided to take a very radical step this evening.
And take my life less seriously. Seriously!
"Spat my brew out"
u/Guddu277
Even though I'm afraid it's the sort of thing Osho would have wanted.Anyways, I think these songs can still marry each other!
Sia - "Elastic Heart feat. Shia LaBeouf & Maddie Ziegler"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=KWZGAExj-es&si=L7-2JWE3jqP1FQMS
&
U2 - "One (Official Music Video)"
It is unnecessary for museums to be so imperialistic.
"Heirs Sue Auschwitz Museum Over Art Their Mother Made"
Compounding. I do think I will go for some ice cream this evening pretty soon.
"Patriarchy tells us daily through movies, television and magazines that men of power can do whatever they want, that it's this freedom that makes them men."
Page 37 -38
bell hooks
All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads
You need meals to survive a patriarchy. You need ice cream.
"Many men confess that they lie because they can get away with it; their lies are forgiven. To understand why male lying is more accepted in our lives we have to understand the way in which power and privilege are accorded men simply because they are males within a patriarchal culture. The very concept of 'being a man' and a 'real man' has always implied that when necessary men can take action that breaks the rules, that is above the law. Patriarchy tells us daily through movies, television and magazines that men of power can do whatever they want, that it's this freedom that makes them men."
Page 37 -38
bell hooks
All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads
I do believe this could apply to some women's childhoods as well.
"Lots of men shared with me that it was difficult for them to tell the truth if they saw that it would hurt a loved one. Significantly, the lying many boys learned to do to avoid hurting Mom or whomever becomes so habitual that it becomes hard for them to distinguish a lie from the truth. This behavior carries over into adulthood."
Page 37
bell hooks
All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads
My readings have reminded me of something else.
I think when the Nazis took over Germany and other European countries, they were enacting ruthlessly patriarchal values out of fear and a desire to control, and it backfired very badly eventually.
But for a little while, it felt like it was normal to a lot of people to just ignore that some people were treating being treated a lot worse than others.
And many of those people felt that they needed to get away from being treated badly themselves. So going along with the program was the best way for them to do that. Well, I think that's what a lot of them thought.
People deserve better than what the Patriarchy is offering.
When boys and girls grow up in Patriarchal households, they learn that they need to appease untrustworthy grown ups who are modeling many kinds of deceptions so that they will be more favored and less penalized by a very imbalanced Patriarchal society. Children grow up and get to live on their own as adults eventually, but sometimes they keep practicing the habits and survival strategies they learned as small children.
Do we need more love in the world? Less violence and less lying and deception would help, wouldn't it?
"In the one truly violent episode between my mother and father, he accused her of lying to him. Then there was the night an older sister lied and said she was babysitting when she was actually out on a date. As he hit her, our father kept yelling, 'Don't you lie to me!' While the violence of his response created in us a terror of the consequences of lying, it did not alter the reality that we knew he did not always tell the truth. His favorite way of lying was withholding. His model was 'just remain silent' when asked questions, then you will not get 'caught in a lie.'
The men I have loved have always lied to avoid confrontation or take responsibility for inappropriate behavior. And Dorothy Dinnerstein's groundbreaking book The Mermaid and the Minotaur: Sexual Arrangements and Human Malaise, she shares the insight that when a little boy learns that his powerful mother, who controls his life, really has no power within a patriarchy, it confuses him and causes his rage. Lying becomes one of the strategic ways he can 'act out' and render his mother powerless. Lying enables him to manipulate the mother even as he exposes her lack of power. This makes him feel more powerful.
Males learn to lie as a way of obtaining power and females not only do the same but they also lie to pretend powerlessness. In her work Harriet Lerner talks about the way in which patriarchy upholds deception, encouraging women to present a false self to men and vice versa. In Dory Hollander's 101 Lies Men Tell Women, she confirms that while both women and men lie her data and the finding of other researchers indicate that 'men tend to lie more and with more devastating consequences.'"
Page 36 - 37
bell hooks
All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/218042.All_About_Love
When things begin compounding, I'm interested in learning how to get better.
Because when the PCOS health stuff compounds with the perimenopause health stuff compounds with the PTSD from the various kinds of traumas that have been experienced in an imbalanced and violent patriarchal society, and it gets to be overwhelming, then you know that the sorts of strategies that worked for other people are just not going to work for you.
This is a creative idea. They are succeeding at something.
"See photos as the Trump, Epstein Memorial Bookmobile stops in Des Moines"
This kind of reminded me of something that's problematic about how I see "success" in our era.
"Male cops' abuse of Flock cameras to stalk women"
amandasmildtakes
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdEU0xruBYo/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Sometimes, I feel like I have a part of my personality that actually doesn't really want to "succeed" in the conventional way that other people in this era would like to see. Because succeeding to me would mean that more people actually start to "get" the message that they should be less misogynistic and feel more motivated to change their behaviors and attitudes when it comes to how entitled they feel to treat certain kinds of girls and women with more disrespect and derision.
This is true. This is part of the reason why people go on retreats and such.
Sometimes people can do more / advance more quickly when they spend time apart while still learning from each other.
Also, something else about the silly time that's unfolding right now.
People spied on me but they were respectful about it so it was fine. (Certain people. We probably knew each other in another life, but in this life we didn't grow up in the same household.)
Fragments of communication and recent dreams.
I had a dream that some younger people were giving me lectures and in a roundabout way they were telling me they weren't going to do things my way, and then we stopped talking. I had a dream I went on a walk at a high elevation with an older woman and it was delightful and a healing experience and we stumbled and almost fell but we were laughing. I had a dream I went to a big library and found out I lost a library card, but they were able to replace it. It was very tattered and torn, but I just took it and put it in my wallet.
What else?
I moved around a lot as a kid, so I never feel like I'm just from one place. I can enjoy the customs of different villages, but I never feel like I'm from just one village. It's like I'm an observer of lots of different little societies, but other people feel like they're from one village and they need to follow the customs of that one village. So sometimes I feel like an outcast of the village.
What else...
People have their own ways of coping with things and it can feel like they are being stubborn people. Maybe they're hiding from something they don't want to address yet. Maybe they're surviving as best as they can. Maybe they're in a suspended state of shock or grief or something, and it's like a survival mode thing.
What else? This is helping me feel less weak and shaky.
Even if it feels unfair, for some reason I chose this. I fell on the side of a trail when I went up to the mountains the day my friend's mother disappeared. It created a hole in my pants so I would remember it. This year, I fell in a hole in a parking lot and skinned my knees. I tried to rescue the broken raccoon. The dead possum wrapped in the towel came back to my house in the carrier the raccoon had left in. But I don't have to experience those physically strange things anymore. I learned whatever lessons I needed to learn from them.
What else does the body perceive?
People who haven't healed from violence they've witnessed will put that painful experience onto others. Having to acknowledge the bad stuff that happened is inescapable. But it doesn't mean it's forever.
You have to survive bad times and tell yourself better times ever ahead.
I felt weak and shaky. The " What do you call a woman with two black eyes? A slow learner" joke that set off nightmares in me and made me have to never go back to an imbalance work environment is coming back to me. I don't have any rational explanation for why some stuff is happening.
Thursday, September 17, 2026
It's a 21st century cultural social patriarchal narcissistic entitlement thing.
"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."
thesidewalkschool2
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Just seems like ignoring these things is not the right thing to do.
Because ignoring it means nothing ever changes, but addressing it is at least making some attempts to make it better.
"PART 2 on this little girl's song"
whathereallymeanss
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdUcSbGJTwn/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
It's just an interpretation of reality based on a lifetime of experiences.
And craziness.
"Articulate autistic men are often treated as intelligent authorities."
sherlove971
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc_uKDhSphj/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Dreaming of seeing some cute places...
"40 of the Quirkiest Small Towns In America"
https://www.countryliving.com/life/travel/g4103/quirkiest-small-towns-in-america/
I read what I read.
I wonder if some would say I shouldn't read something like this if I'm trying to advance spiritually or something, but I'm interested in it, so I'm reading it.
"Heirs Sue Auschwitz Museum Over Art Their Mother Made"
I think the museum should have kept reproductions of the artworks and given the originals back to the artist.
This sort of 🎶 helps sometimes.
Especially when I'm not really living up to my inner child's vision of elder human being spirituality!
"432 Hz Solar Plexus Chakra"
MusicforBodyandSpirit
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xQ65ZCnt7No&si=CHL4FqUWZBSIfjit
It kind of creates a shift.
Patriarchal people really shouldn't run anything anymore, IMO.
"NO 👏🏼 WONDER"
yourdailydoseofselflove
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdZj5CqS6g5/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
It really is lovely! 💗
"I was surprised"
kindheartsharpmind
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc2sWayggjg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I do kind of love having more access to feminist content than I ever had before now though!
"I was surprised"
kindheartsharpmind
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc2sWayggjg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"IT GIRL> Ep. 3: Confidence"
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdH7by4A7rT/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"What's a personality trait people praise..."
I think looking at blurry brushstrokes in paintings would be good for the soul today.
It feels like I don't fit in well with present day society's expectations, and these genetics need extra attention and patience and care, and to this body, the women who don't care and the men who don't care blur together and seem equally antagonistic. So some more healing processes are needed to help me feel better and more balanced now. I need to learn how make some things work together better and more harmoniously.
A dream came true today. 💗😺💞
My cat was begging for wet food and I knew there was only one can left but wait, what? Now there's a dozen cans of wet food. Such a variety of flavors to choose from! And it was restocked without me knowing or asking. I love having a well-stocked wet food larder! I hate it when there's only one can of wet food left.
Survivors are surviving; maybe tomorrow they'll be thriving!
" You're welcome for my service."
"Before the 19th amendment there was an entire movement built to stop it."
novoice_unheard
https://www.instagram.com/p/DdNDdqWFId7/?img_index=1&stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"If you can't beat them..."
heyclairewyckoff
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdPTE5iJopD/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Energy!
"they walked so I could"
thewildfloweralchemist
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdSDHCTS1MV/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Sometimes it's good to just be simple and listen to what the radio station wants you to.
The song was on the radio the other day and it always reminds me that so many people who voted for Trump. Love, Kurt Cobain.
(Oops, I didn't mean for it to be punctuated that way, but now I'm just going to leave it like that.)
Twenty One Pilots – "Heathens"
Good food is better than poison water.
"I hated mom's boyfriend"
marktellsjokes
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcUE7vjRieo/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"eiffel tower part 2"
marktellsjokes
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcRSj-NRzt7/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Mom stays speechless"
marktellsjokes
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcO8LhRRDac/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Share the horror.
"#medicine #medicalstudent"
dadiologist
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dcw6vIhtSCb/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Survey said...
"PSA for girls starting a new school year"
leahvanking
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdXk5OXyKsP/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This fashion show really moved me. 💗
😹
"which is your fav"
ameliamaxwellgirlandband
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc1rpanIHFM/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Oh, what a relief to see others stepping up to the plate!
"Parents have been asking for a MOMvestigation on school uniforms"
hackorwackwithdnkat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdSUA3oPf20/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Enough! Breakfast is calling now.
🐔🍳🥚
"a match made in heaven"
San Andreas's Fault 🐬
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTUpLdYGb/
"diana, the people's princess 👑"
letsdoubledutch
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcqamhgorSB/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"David Lee Roth talks"
billboard
Vulnerable fellas.
"The End of Baby Mama Culture - The WizardLiz, Cardi B and Offset"
manifestelle
https://youtube.com/watch?v=f-idGLVKwzM&si=jjKSkKYZjb5Uv5P3
"Taylor Swift Praises Sombr & His 'Confessional' Lyrics, Says They Help Break Double Standard for Female Songwriters"
Cry...😭
"We would be such babies"
jayvalenz20
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc0YmubRm7d/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"What Every Woman Should Be Doing in Perimenopause"
@drmaryclaire
Anyways, I prolly should not go out and have wine late at night too often.
It threw me off and I got hungry afterwards and had to eat some chicken. And that wasn't enough, so then I had to eat some unsweetened pistachio nut butter with dark chocolate.
"canes you have some explaining to do"
khaotickayleee
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaEamO-Rl8Q/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"400k views on a clip"
nikkisorrentino
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdXG25ZxXpV/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Feminism" in late stage capitalism
lovejuvida
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdVxHlJBU5_/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Ella la ama con todo"
rousss_m
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc1k5QHuaQI/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"We would be such babies"
jayvalenz20
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc0YmubRm7d/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
🆘
pobreciiita
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdStfVEzUa_/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Oh and it was also interesting to notice this 🍷.
Nobody was interested in what I was doing for a living or asked me once what I was doing and I had said that I was married and I think that was the most important thing there was to know about me. So the whole conversation about how life is game and it's not so stressful if you just look at it that way came about because I said my sister had worked in hospitals and it got stressful and now she was working at a law firm and she liked that better, and that was the short and simple and easy version and left out so many other stories I could have been talking about. But I achieved having a pleasant time and I was happy about that! I also told them about some of the jobs I'd had in the past and that seemed to be enough information to meet the requirements of having a pleasant evening and it was very pleasant! Plus we got to talk about upstate New York because other people were from there as well! They said the wine in upstate New York is no good cuz they were being wine snobs and that was fine. But as I said well maybe the Gewurztraminer is good. And then they said maybe it was. They were such wine snobs that Temecula wines weren't good enough for them to drink either. Spoiled for choice in California! I guess one will have to travel to Temecula directly to know which ones are good.
I was a good listener and listened to another person's version of reality last night.
And I didn't get into any feminist arguments with an older white guy who told me life would be less stressful if you just look at it as it's all a game because my goal was simply to achieve having a pleasant conversation with a stranger as I sipped a glass of wine. He was a nice guy and has had prestigious jobs and he still has one in hospital administration even though he probably could be retired and not have a job anymore by now.
Wednesday, September 16, 2026
Thank you for the helpful healing transmissions, Edgar Cayce et al.
"Voice of a man born in 1800"
TempestInstruments
https://youtube.com/shorts/RulUXPCtu3c?si=u9pNuJXxC8YqpKSD
"WOMEN NEED TO SIGN THEIR CONSENT"
dr_raysmedictalk
https://www.instagram.com/p/DdTPlyZAtRW/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Not to be dramatic but"
SammiDarbCVT
If this doesn't help I'm going to stop...
Misogynistic b******* that you keep repeating is your responsibility to fix regardless of what your parents did to you or what traumas you suffered and you need to figure out how f****** fix it because it's terrible.
Think I'm getting cramps.
I need to make the heating pad & castor oil pack happen on the uterus. And ginger. I need the ginger.
Peak Experience: Finding out what a useful resource you've actually been this whole time, just as you're drying up!
"The secrets of menstrual blood: emerging frontiers from diagnostic tools to stem cell therapies" - PMC
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC12405216/
There's so many other great songs they could start singing in their Glee clubs. Gleefully!
"Heinz Ketchup 'Anticipation' Commercial (1977)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=DSbR-hZAMh8&si=6RYdmO3b7u5Etn5g
"Heinz Ketchup 'Anticipation' Jingle Commercial (1976)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=7GBTIeR4Z_M&si=y-aqhJkksbUlZain
"classic Heinz Ketchup Anticipation TV ad 1979"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=uoLoyg3JKRQ&si=WxUj-mPHnyxm6bRS
Is it a light pink day? Is it a dark heavy flow with blood clots day?
"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Perhaps they should tell them about every cramp and bowel movement too!
I feel like complaining about this all day.
"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
They like showing the kids movies anyways.
So exhausted. I hope that someday that they teach the love story of Elio and Oliver in all the English classes instead of Romeo and Juliet it is all together beyond Shakespeare.
Beware the bread and circuses.
This looks like an Old Empire was trying to make an advertisement about the future talk show hosts of America for moldable young minds.
"classic Heinz Ketchup Anticipation TV ad 1979"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=uoLoyg3JKRQ&si=WxUj-mPHnyxm6bRS
So many parts are bothersome, like what nails on a chalkboard sound like to some people, or worse, the noises made when pieces of squeaky styrofoam rub against each other.
Motivational! 😂
They can help one another!
"yall ever try giving back to the community"
ameliamaxwellgirlandband
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdUx1m2IIYX/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Whimsical Problematic Writing Prompt Wednesday!
"Oh trust me, nobody in the future is going to think you were a lesbian, no matter what you do right now. You don't like women and girls enough for anybody to think you're a lesbian."
Is this in Michigan?
"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Is there any rational equivalent of penalizing boys in this way?
At least some men are actually recognizing how f***** up this is!
"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Weary!
"If you're a man, everything is possible for you, but if you're a woman, you're never enough unless you get pregnant. And then you need to act like mother of the year, and the way you act like mother of the year is to act like boy children are more important, and sometimes those boy children are actually men with several decades of life experience."
Even this makes me feel weary.
"A Cree psychotherapist reflects on relationship, belonging and the illusion of a fixed self"
Even this makes me feel wary of patriarchal mindsets putting another patriarchal figure on a pedestal.
I hope some people can stop behaving like Tools of the Patriarchal Empire.
I hope they realize how emotionally exhausting they were and how masochistic it was to expect them to change even one millisecond before they were ready. Tools of the Patriarchal Empire are so demeaning and exhausting to deal with; they really are like emotional vampires.
Meanwhile, the fertility struggle has now infiltrated High School!
"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
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