Sunday, July 05, 2026

This is cute!!! Learning about the anchoring heuristic.

"This Father's Day..."

acceptingunclemurphy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ2oxm4RE1L/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

There's also the "They have an entity attachment" explanation.

 They have an entity attachment.


"What a beautiful question. Thanks"

trevorfultzofficial

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaQ6idPy3uZ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"You know you're healing when you stop..."

raeokino

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaEDwf9yYgu/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I swear every woman I know is angry about something she was told to get over"

nataldee

https://www.instagram.com/p/DZ6IKM0mY_f/?img_index=2&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I mean, every ICE agent is probably descended from an immigrant.

"Mariachi band star detained by ICE records ‘Star-Spangled Banner’ for the Fourth of July"| The Independent

https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/us-politics/ice-detention-mariachi-fourth-of-july-texas-b3008995.html


Nobody cares about President Martin Van Buren anymore. You irredeemable control freak.

"Conan remembers the time he took a date to Disneyland."

@teamcoco

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaY7dCAid-X/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Martin Van Buren" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Martin_Van_Buren

What kind of name is Demetriou?

"The Hamilton Mixtape: Immigrants (We Get The Job Done)"

HamiltonMusical 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=6_35a7sn6ds&si=IpEe4zvpCaZEoXGy

"Steven J. Demetriou, Executive Chair..."

https://www.reddit.com/r/Fauxmoi/s/iGPi4UOJFb

You wonder what kind of parents they had, and how they were raised.

Narcissistic people act like they don't know that immigrants are the ones feeding and clothing them all the time. So all this persecution of immigrants is kind of, like, not going to work out very well for them if it continues.

I have so many questions now.

How does having a narcissistic dad affect a boy? And how does having a narcissistic dad affect a girl? Those are two simple questions to start off with.

What are the poor children of narcissistic dads supposed to do about this?

 "This is not always just an armchair diagnosis"

streetlighteyesdontdie 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaZ2OMSpk9_/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Being kind of like, a medium, is kind of like, weird, huh?

Some people know what I'm talking about.

It's so crazy, we could laugh and make a joke about it!

I can't believe I was remembering that I was kinda traumatized by the attitude of a racist blonde mom babysitter with a son named Steven, and I started to feel like some other stuff was kind of racist and like it was the long arm of white supremacy at it again, and now according to the internet, it turns out that some guy named Steven who runs an ICE facility.... Oh my God!... In a picture with a blonde woman... Attending the wedding of a famous, narcissistic blonde woman... Oh my God!!!

"Steven J. Demetriou, Executive Chair..."

https://www.reddit.com/r/Fauxmoi/s/iGPi4UOJFb


I can't believe Nazis ruined lives because people were emotionally immature.

 


"Emotionally immature people can't hear you..."

francescapsychology

https://www.instagram.com/p/DZxOdIPCFV_/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

This music is back.

"Jewish Love Song recorded in Concentration Camp (1944) 'Westerbork Serenade'"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=wWsczojYluo&si=qrtNKopCRVHrmRIT

Why? Did he have a messed up (according to the standards of the Patriarchal Cult) kind of family?

"Steven J. Demetriou, Executive Chair...

https://www.reddit.com/r/Fauxmoi/s/iGPi4UOJFb

"ICE Contractor Swap Draws Scrutiny After Deaths, Safety Lapses"

https://news.bgov.com/bloomberg-government-news/ice-contractor-swap-draws-scrutiny-after-deaths-safety-lapses

"ICE Detention Center Contractors Host a Hotbed of Legal Problems, Regulatory Violations and Deadly Conditions

Public Citizen report reveals dark histories of companies awarded billions to run Camp East Montana in Texas"

https://www.citizen.org/news/ice-detention-center-contractors-host-a-hotbed-of-legal-problems-regulatory-violations-and-deadly-conditions/


They don't really love themselves, do they?

 They don't know how to heal themselves, do they.

"When incompetence meets abject cruelty"

embodimentwithemily

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZdjQlxBkjK/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Maybe they're stuck in a fight or flight mode / cult mentality, and that's why they act like this.

 

"FUCK ICE"

mortensivertsen262

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ4nWSwsnX6/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I'm going to read my book about the immigrant who got successful in the face of great adversity.

The queen of fight or flight, I mean

The Ice Cream Queen of Orchard Street by Susan Jane Gilman | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/18656072-the-ice-cream-queen-of-orchard-street

I don't know how to help them leave the cult.

Having contempt for others is the number one occupation of the privileged rich ones. They are in a cult.

The immigration raids are racist and hurting us.

Tears are coming out of my eyes because it is sad to know this: Acting like the rich white people and rich people of color are more important than the people of color, and sometimes white people, who are getting persecuted right now, is racist. The uncaring Cult of Patriarchical White Supremacy is being activated in a lot of white people and non-white people right now. It's very sad. Tears are coming out of my eyes.

Is there some kind of symbolism? 👑

If other people had chewed on their finger hard, it wouldn't have messed up their tooth. I had a weaker tooth. I used to have a stronger tooth than that for most of my life. My other tooth off with the veneer didn't get messed up. It was the crowned tooth.

The cult is madness.

White people of privilege hate thinking about others more than any other kind of people, but also, a lot of other kinds of people will adopt that  white people of privilege mentality if it helps them fit in with the cult and get some short-term gains. There's a lot of not very sensitive people from all kinds of backgrounds out there, stuck in their own survival modes, and being the insensitive people that they are being is, I guess, the best they can do right now. I just don't know why. 



Maybe pray for them.

People who are in a cult act like people who are on drugs, or like they are possessed by an entity who makes them lose the ability to have empathy for others. They can't be your friend because they're serving their cult.

One more day???

I hopefully just have to get through one more day with the tooth that's damaged. I don't want my husband to burn out because he never gets any days off because he's the one that makes the schedule and they made them lay people off and he doesn't seem to know how to give himself days off. I'm so tired. My mother has early onset Alzheimer's. My father's wife is extremely sick. I know that the Patriarchy hates people. I don't understand why the richer, more privileged people have to hate the poorer ones.

Being an immigrant sounds really hard.

This woman (a fictional character, but still) had a terribly stressful life; a lot worse than mine.

"The Ice Cream Queen of Orchard Street" by Susan Jane Gilman | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/18656072-the-ice-cream-queen-of-orchard-street


Maybe this will be fun to check out later.

"Want to unlock a 'sixth sense'?"

asknature & tristangooley

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZYcZYaBel0/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


Comical. The way humans deal with things sometimes can be comical.

Hey, this is a world filled with people full of wounded hearts and psyches, but I think this is still  an odd take if you're either a man or a woman.

"Oh, it doesn't matter if The Patriarchy wanted me to grow up to imitate others and act sexist towards x types of people. I can definitely avoid addressing that. You know why? Because I can make men act like they adore me."

Um, okay, I guess? And that's it? Isn't that absurd?

It's actually, I suppose, quasi-normal-seeming if your role models were sexist male cult leaders.

Anyways, what about thinking about some other things, like how clouds can tell us things about weather patterns?

That's something I want to learn about.

Saturday, July 04, 2026

I believe and feel that this is a really good song.

Julia Jacklin - "Eastwick (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=QBTeT8N-ei8&si=NuCU2jaKuQNuoXVt

Sigh. What can be done about living in such an unwell Patriarchal Society...

Sexism has been a real problem in so many places. How awful it has been, to experience it. People who are still in the throes of their own sexist programming are not going to be able to help you very much. That's why you must pay more attention to looking for much better ways forward, for your own health and well-being.

Fireworks are now in session 🎇.

I live where I can see local fireworks from our backyard. That's fun because I didn't used to have an easy time getting a view of the fireworks. But my favorite 4th of July fireworks were the ones I saw as a kid in Michigan.  My grandmother had so much fun taking us to see them. She'd drive to a quiet neighborhood and park her car on a hill where we had a perfect view of them. It was a magical excursion. I thought, how could anybody not love this? Truly, I felt that it was one of the best things we experienced all year.

Nowadays, I sort of feel like I can "take or leave it" about fireworks but I try to enjoy them and tap into my inner child when they are easy to see. Cats are not a fan of the noises and need to be by a safe human when the fireworks are going off.

The clouds are so awesome!

 


I saw the paratroopers. 🇺🇸🪂😸

One had a big American flag. I don't think I have ever seen that before. That was cool. 

I'll get a better camera someday.

It has actually been a very quiet day.

There was an airplane circling around in the sky for a while. I took pictures, but it only showed up when it was against the backdrop of white clouds. I still need to do more work on the Lady Liberty puzzle. I guess I didn't work on it very much today.

There are so many ways to distract the people!

"Steven J. Demetriou, Executive Chair..."

https://www.reddit.com/r/Fauxmoi/s/iGPi4UOJFb

"Largest ICE Detention Hub Wasted Millions..."

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/06/09/us/camp-east-montana-texas-ice-detention-gao-report.html

Her brother is quite the character, too!

"I think this book is based loosely on... — The Ice..." Q&A

https://www.goodreads.com/questions/225025-i-think-this-book-is-based-loosely-on

"We All Scream for Lillian Dunkle!" | Chicago Public Library

"An icy ice cream queen" - The Dayton Jewish Observer

https://daytonjewishobserver.org/2015/09/an-icy-ice-cream-queen/

Anyways, I'm going to finish this book first.

Everything in time. Everything in time...

"The Ice Cream Queen of Orchard Street: Sinfully Delicious" | Book Perfume

https://bookperfume.com/2015/08/13/the-ice-cream-queen-of-orchard-street-sinfully-delicious/

Wow! What a life. Is there a film?

"Rosa Luxemburg" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosa_Luxemburg

The Ice Cream Queen of Orchard Street is fun book to read, but the main character deals with her problems in very materialistic ways. 

Well that seems timely!🍦

I just read the part in this book where they they turned some melting ice cream into soft serve and sold it on the side of the road to a bunch of travelers on the 4th of July!

"The Ice Cream Queen of Orchard Street" by Susan Jane Gilman

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/18656072-the-ice-cream-queen-of-orchard-street

Perhaps this is also an opportunity to get in touch with feelings.

 Important Feelings.


"Women are often taught how to manage anger before they are taught how to express it."

twoxtopia

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZXpVwmJwUy/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Seems like a reasonable and appropriate response.

"As ICE Abducts & Disappears Parents, Moms Nationwide Are Speaking Out" - United We Dream

https://unitedwedream.org/press/as-ice-abducts-disappears-parents-moms-nationwide-are-speaking-out/


Apparently, not everybody thinks it's equally terrifying.

"Masked white supremacists march Capitol Hill chanting 'Reclaim America!' in terrifying scenes" - The Mirror US

https://www.themirror.com/news/breaking-masked-white-supremacists-march-1920656

I think that will be very self-liberating for them, actually.

When some people get closer to healing from the weird and not great messages they got programmed with in childhood which are still manipulating them.

I've enjoyed my cucumbers today, but I'm needing to chew very carefully.

Things became very overwhelming for me and it's been a painful time and I have a very expensive dental repair coming up which insurance is not going to cover. So I need to get through the weekend.

It's disappointing, but we will see what humanity does now.

"I live in Davidson County..."

charleeremitz

https://www.instagram.com/p/DaYs6atR-aG/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

'The Unbearable Lightness of Being a Nazi (2008)"

@journeyman

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jUvcmGbtHWA&si=HmSMHsX7bKEBucrQ

People are being manipulated.

Set boundaries.

"The Unbearable Lightness of Being a Nazi (2008)"

@journeyman

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jUvcmGbtHWA&si=HmSMHsX7bKEBucrQ

See you later?

Friendship!

Cheer zleader

That's what I saw when I drifted off to sleep for a second.

A female army nurse / soldier sitting up tall who got beaten in the face.

How did this happen!?

"Every American should see this photo today."

harryjsisson

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaYRG-UuBW4/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

 

On the DC Metro which I used to ride!

Patriarchal White Supremacy Sucks.

"Steven J. Demetriou, Who Runs an ICE Detention Center, Attended the Wedding"

u/xlonerangerx

https://www.reddit.com/r/travisandtaylor/s/gYOaK2YMA6

Are you a woman in need of medical attention?

"lawd"

carmenreneflores

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaVOHU_RgsD/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I wonder how they're doing today?

All those "other" people who apparently just don't fit in with the expectations of systemic Patriarchal White Supremacy quite so well.

Being shallow is an under-utilization of creative potential.

Acting like a tool of the patriarchy is not cool because it's actually a very cruel way to behave towards fellow participants in the human experience.

Saxophones getting louder?

Inspiring! I will take some fun road trips soon.

1104 Fullerton Ave, Corona

Javier Linares

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS5pNxra/

Place in California you should never visit

1k Jay Live

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS5gcx7x/

#california

Foxman

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS5gbgGj/

Some people are getting liberated today!

I'm going to get to eat cucumbers on my sandwich at lunchtime!

"Bf said 'miss me with that shit' after I said I'm a feminist"

u/Big_Answer_3329

https://www.reddit.com/r/GirlDinnerDiaries/s/0XkoZpZTID


If I can, I'm going to get more cucumbers today 🥒.

And I'm going to try Greek chicken salad on the gluten-free bread that I like with slices of cucumber because that sandwich sounds delicious. 🥪

Why is the suffering here now?

 What is the suffering here for?


"When incompetence meets abject cruelty"

embodimentwithemily

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZdjQlxBkjK/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Why The Zone of Interest Does Not Let You See"

@ThomasFlight

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Orh20527gVI&si=-PwqBhCnotYaTszB

BRB

 


"A rate of two thousand abductions per day"

embodimentwithemily

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaV3fYRvSwc/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Work shift starting!

XY: " It wasn't just white women. It was young men too."

XX: "Roooooaaaaawwwr!"

Puzzling warm up! Making cat noises.

 Oh well, I guess some things are just for you.


And then move on to the better luxuries!

Skating Polly - "Camelot (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=FbFoX8SvaKI&si=OrydzUnVQmctIuV9

Actually it's feeling very next level to burn incense, clean off the table with hands that are no longer holding a cigarette, and listen to some music.

It's important to enjoy the little luxuries.⛅ 🚬✨.

 Morning sun

sparkly toenails and herbal cigarette.

Need to find people who know how to see people.

People who know how to see people give me more hope than the people who don't know how to see people.


"gods children are not for sale"

sadgirlera

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS5r9Gcg/

"#phoenix #az # arizona #motherhood'

Taylor (MomlifewithTaylor)

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS5MGeW5/

I think social media is fun sometimes though, especially when it gets feminist!

 


"PLEASE SHARE FOR AWARENESS"

feral_goddesss

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaWXwWDPWz_/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I might liberate myself from listening to the radio today.

All the male and female DJs ever do is play and praise men. No that's really an exaggeration. That's not all they ever do. That's just most of what they do. Men are such a great distraction from all the other s*** that's going on, aren't they?

Oh, I read that this is going in a time capsule

"My California" | The Poetry Foundation

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/57228/my-california

Whatever else can we do?

This is me: "Gosh, the universe seems to want me to realize in a very empirical way how much adversity some girls and women have experienced in this extremely imbalanced Patriarchal society. And it really is felt at multiple levels. Physical, mental, emotional, medical, financial...Surely some kind of increased spiritual development will be the payoff."

This is them: "Amazing white men! Poor white men! Thrill me! Chill me! Whatever more can we do to attend to the needs of important white men?"

SO interesting. "The Two Paths..."

 Especially when it seems so relevant to your actual lived experience.

"One of the most interesting elements of the dialectic..."

caitlnmcgregor

https://www.instagram.com/p/DZe6LqeDhXA/?img_index=8&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


It's also frequently rinse with mouthwash weekend.

Frustrating times resulted in a dental accident and it will need to be addressed after the weekend is over.

I am very glad I have a puzzle to work on.

It will distract me from or help me deal with the great contempt that is currently being foisted upon so many by the more wealthy and privileged.

This is an insane time to be alive.

I also have no idea when the paycheck-earner of the house is getting another day off (yes of course, today will not be a day off), and it's out of my hands.

I felt guided to read this passage I haven't read before. It's about this time of year.

"Right at this time of year I once decided to have a party to bring together Japanese dance and flamenco. I felt there were invisible threads connecting these two forms of dance that seem at first glance to be so utterly opposite. Nihon buyō is one of the main arts of the geisha, but I never learned it. I was too old to start dance lessons at twenty-five, and anyway too tall (five feet seven inches), according to my geisha mother. Shamisen was already my gei (art), and so it remained.  Since geisha tend to specialize as either dancers or musicians, it was perfectly acceptable that I didn't dance."

~ Liza Dalby

"30. The Crowdipper Plant Flourishes: July 1 through 5"

Page 125

"East Wind Melts the Ice: A Memoir through the Seasons by Liza Dalby"

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/537380.East_Wind_Melts_the_Ice

I have to clean the kitchen first. I am feeling energized by a cucumber juice.

And also, warm lemon water.

"Dating as a short dude."

@milanpatelcomedy

https://youtube.com/shorts/OO2m9uV-hh4?si=q8fo_s6g_RKZI3Zn

This is fun!

 



I see an amazing sun risin' 
I see...



It's beautiful. What quote could be the inscribed on those clouds?


 Sunrise over the mountains.

Radiant morning sky! Wonderful day to work on a puzzle.

 

This book review is more than 10 years old! It was a different time.

"To read this book is to immerse oneself in the mind of an artist, in all its entertaining, surprising and self-indulgent glory."

~ Alice O'Keeffe

"M Train by Patti Smith review – into the mind of an artist"

https://www.theguardian.com/music/2015/nov/19/m-train-patti-smith-review

She has Fourth of July tips for cat lovers and so much more! 😻

 "It's a bit astonishing..."

lucilletherescuecat

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaL1ks6gJql/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"yeah I'd say..."

lucilletherescuecat

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaVl-BQRHck/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Friday, July 03, 2026

I'm excited about spending money on upcoming medical bills!

I kind of want to make it into a spiritual lesson, "This saved you from something far worse down the road" kind of experience.

I wish I'd sent this to my sister on her birthday. Making jewelry is one of her many talents. 

Portlandia - "She's Making Jewelry Now"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=UBPT1pgByqc&si=PSJNxxxxo_FUpl4Y

I'm thankful it's more peaceful this evening than I expected.

I'm still trying to keep the cat in more tonight on account of any possible fireworks and she is mournful.

"You Don't Have To Be A Baby To Cry" - The Caravelles

https://youtube.com/watch?v=UkHCoLXmXp4&si=D85BFX3NojhR9kDF

And I never became the beautiful hippie - looking mom with a baby in a sling walking around a crystal shop in Mount Shasta with the story of how Arvigo massage healed my my infertility and created a miraculous child in my womb because I guess that wasn't the right setup for me for some reason. Even though bunch of moms who were my students would come up to me and say "Oh you should have kids. We can tell you will love it." And I would say I don't have enough money to have kids and they would say "Don't worry about the money." Easy for them to say, maybe. Instead I got confusion and cramps and floods of past life memories and... Now I don't even know if I'm ever going to bleed again. But I don't know, if I look at it in the right way, there's something poignant about having that whole experience too. Maybe I was cultivating a new person.

Sunset sky, backyard view.

 


I want to think about how much this sky captivated me!


Everybody should just think about and love nature more and then other problems will work themselves out. 

Dramatic traumatic localized humor 🌝

"Prayers for IE residents"

KiMiKO_951

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSf3DBdJ/

And now, things are getting more fun again.

 So, staying inside with an ailment has its "up" moments.

"good thing i got this"

jowellene

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSfWorqC/

"Lost Women: Sanora Babb"

Jenn

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSfWmJnQ/

#truth #girlphilosophy

Nicce like Nietzsche

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSfW1gjm/

This is also content that enhances my day.

"There's a moment where..."

believedpodcast

margaret_cho

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaVi6MyBhvN/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

My cat acts like she thinks I'm such a good person right now...

 Meanwhile...


"The things we say..."

maryvangeffen

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZnSSrhz237/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"For my thoughts on being a spicy one"

maryvangeffen

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZgeMagTVEQ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Here's how I can help"

maryvangeffen

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaLrjiByATI/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Cool to find more information that would have benefited me several decades ago.

 🕺🏻🤣🪿⚰️💃🏻

"Here's how I can help you parent challenging teens"

maryvangeffen

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaNtXJVzL-d/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I hope his branding weekend sucks."

sophiaroxanneb

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaUE-DfMaDT/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Just a little secret for my chronic illness"

mymsmermaidlife

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaVA-K_xpdx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Maybe it's time to get mad at the right people.

"Healing will make you angry"

victorianpoetry

https://www.instagram.com/p/DaSLyY5DTNv/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

And then you can treat other people better. 

I love literature so much. You'd think I could get along better with some of my literary loving Big Brothers, huh?

Guess not, sometimes! Thanks, Pay Cherokee!

Cat, books, spearmint tea with inositol in it.

🌈They took the high road...🎶

Anyways, we should focus on peace and love and joy and rehabilitation and stuff like that, right?

This will not go unnoticed.🤡

Conan is being terrible. He was super polite in person, though. Almost ridiculously nice, actually. All by himself in the woods. Well no, not all by himself. He had his daughter with him.

This looks interesting, about how Texas is requiring the Bible be taught in schools now.

 🧑🏻‍🏫🧑🏻‍🏫🧑🏻‍🏫


"Texas forces English teachers to teach the Bible"

@sims_books

https://youtube.com/watch?v=CYSVsKlceNk&si=BSiJQRSfo2vUO-3O

It has been really hard on humanity.

People got trained to be very incurious abandoners of girls and women in service to their patriarchal cults. And I need to learn how to set better boundaries with people like that. But of course they're very familiar to me because they are so much like the family I grew up with. 

The family I grew up with was basically indoctrinated into that kind of cult-like, terrible thinking too. When you're a little kid, you get taught that you're supposed to try to win the approval of these people. You're supposed to want to be like them. 

But if you have any desire to be yourself, it's not going to work, and it's never going to happen because you're in the wrong kind of body for these people. You're not in the boy's body. You're in the girl's body. 

You're supposed to be submissive and easily impregnated and let the man be in charge and the head of the household and everything. But you were never good at any of those things!

So you are never ever going to win the approval of people who are in the grasp of a patriarchal cult. It is never going to goddamn f****** happen. Why do you think you got smacked across the face just for opening your mouth? How can you be such a threat to someone who's several times bigger than you in a masculine body when you're a 6-year-old girl? 

Why do you think we have such hideous people running the government right now trying to make all these rules and oppress people by  locking them away. Oppressing women's and girl's bodies, too. 

And oh, on top of that, a bunch of the people who are supposedly the better people, they're in the cult too, and they're just trying to pretend everything's fine and throw parties.

You guys are terribly, terribly sexist, screwed up, imbalanced people. It's not okay. You are messed up. You need f****** help; you just don't know how to ask for it or acknowledge that you need help, because you've been indoctrinated into this cult since you were a tiny child. 

Acting like you are okay with not caring that people who are less fortunate than you and their small children are being persecuted by the state is not well. You are not in a healthy state of mind. You're on the drugs of your cult. So, I don't trust you. You need to figure out how to get better ASAP. 

You're probably going to reincarnate and come back as one of those kids that you act like you don't care about in the next life. You need to figure it out. Stop being a tool of the Patriarchal cult! There are better ways to exist on this planet! You can make new friends, too!

I'm sorry about my tooth and my gnawed on fingers.

Physical violence does not give off a very high vibe. Maybe I'm the kind who could do some karate chops on tense trapezoid muscles. It could be very good for humanity, if you take the long view. I'm not in preschool, getting banished to the corner because I didn't like the way some kid grabbed at my shirt and I got scared and I scratched his face and drew blood but I had no words to explain myself. I am not an older child on a playground punching the kid who wants to kiss me in the nose and making it bleed because he already got too invasive in my space and my body and I'm sick of it. Maybe this is why our parents agreed to make me have a supervised sleepover at his house and thereafter we were much nicer to each other. I am not a third grader accidentally stabbing a different boy in the forehead / third eye area with a pencil because we're in an argument, getting a lecture about how pencil lead can cause blood poisoning (it didn't though) and then later, on another day, getting asked by him to go skating around a roller rink holding hands for some reason. (We had been off and on friends at school for a few years, and I was about to move far away.) 

I have to take care of this somehow.

I've been upset. People were callous. They were not sensitive. They did not see what was happening. They did not want to know.  They preferred to be in denial. They did not want to acknowledge the harm. They preferred to turn their backs. They preferred to abandon and to pretend it was okay.

I don't think the calluses on the fingers were too extreme.

But I feel like the tooth injury was too extreme. Too extreme! Why? Why so extreme? I feel like a puppet. I feel like the aliens are manipulating me and making me into a performer and I deserve a better life now.

In conclusion...🌝

"Moonstruck" has shown me that maybe The Patriarchy should make more men lose their hands, if it would give them more time to reflect on their choices and actions and decisions and thought processes.

I want the aliens to stop being so sexist. 🛸

Also, I think what he really loved was whining about how he lost his hand.

Moonstruck (7/11) Movie CLIP - "Snap Out of It (1988)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=iLgMFwStTHc&si=RYtnfjmGwDnFgUsp

Sure. It's mean that she slapped him, but it's like, his teeth in his mouth were still intact and everything. 

Moonstruck (5/11) Movie CLIP - "Ronny Lost His Hand"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ji9C_R6HLvg&si=iK1WOB8OtMfVeHin

Me too! Gosh, these are mean times.

Do you ever think that white men are at a higher risk of hating the daughters and sisters and mothers, based on your own personal experiences? Also what's up with that anti-immigrant Armie Hammer film that Elon Musk wanted everyone to watch? I don't trust that s*** at all.

Yeah, gotta be something better going on than that.

What if they get bored of acting like tools of the Patriarchy and of abandoning themselves and others?

Of course, that's just the lower point of view. The higher point of view will come back again.

I feel like if it weren't for two good people in my life and my cat, I would be dead by now. 

I feel like when more people start to care enough to change, the number of good people I know will also change in a more favorable direction.

This is appalling! 😱

"War on Women Report: Trump Administration Defines Embryos as ‘Children,’ Eliminates LGBTQ Veteran Healthcare *and* Guts Teen Pregnancy Prevention Programs" - Ms. Magazine

https://msmagazine.com/2026/07/01/war-on-women-trump-children-embryo-lgbtq-veterans-healthcare-teen-pregnancy-prevention/

Can you believe that a bunch of parents of daughters and sons are still just going along with this nightmarish b******* I mean, can you actually f****** believe it.

What do you think the daughters should do to deal with the patriarchal jerks? 👩🏿‍🎓🧑🏼‍🎓🧑🏾‍🎓

You know, the ones who act like tools of the Patriarchy, and they are constantly threatening their bodies and psyches and well-being and putting them at a disadvantage all the time and putting them at risk for even worse treatment and constantly dehumanizing them. Stuff like that. It really sucks! What do you think the daughters should be doing? Do you have any suggestions? 

I mean, clearly, most of the fathers don't want to do s*** in a lot of cases. So, what should the daughters be doing? By the way, I'm happy to report that some helpful fathers are the exception to the rule and maybe their numbers will grow rapidly. Like, if they could grow a lot in numerical proportion today, that would be super cool.

Be mindful of the soup spoons, by the way.

If you ever have to get through the weekend with an injured front tooth, the idea of eating soup sounds good, but then there's that big metal spoon you have to watch out for. It's actually better to cut up food in small bites and put them at the back of your mouth.

Sadly, it's too late for that in some cases, but anyways.

I don't think grown men should smack little girls on the face as punishment for having a "fresh mouth" when they speak up.

I do not understand what you guys expect the daughters to do.

 I do not understand what you guys expect the daughters to do. 

Or maybe I just don't want to know because it's hideous. 

Ugh. 

Please don't make me lie to myself to tolerate your presence.

Are the Starseeds going to help me with my medical bills for my tooth?

I can't believe I had suffer the mouth injury to myself just because that's how horribly intense the pressure from The Patriarchy gets when they want me to not tell them what a bunch of sexist oppressive loser assholes they're still being. Ugh! Girls and women and men and boys clearly deserve so much better! Now of all times! Of all the times to keep on clinging to the bad programming! Right when all these other people are starting to make changes!

This is a lot better than being needlessly sexist or oppressing women's bodies for no good reason.

 


"Happy Canada Day!"

theburninghellband

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaQFUffR_du/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

You know the part!

"Danielson: a Family Movie (2006)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qpaJuie1N6g&si=BnYj383MkWhVCmZD

I will admit, I did not react very well to the controlling, patriarchal, misogynistic part of this one.

Some thing's going on with my heart.

💗 Just another revived female disciple of the Cosmic Mother...🎶

😊 my gosh, I love that idea! ❤️

🌈I hope some people are feeling more encouraged to dive deeper and get into a much deeper level / layer of healing. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

I feel like I deserve a more fun dream now☔.

Me and the other women who got outcast by the rigid personalities of the repressed patriarchy can have a fun picnic! I deserve that. Maybe some men can come too. If they're cool.

Like it's really natural and everything.

Maybe you can cultivate the wine of friendship with the people who are already considering bigger portions of humanity and doing better things and then it'll feel more okay for you to be able to consider bigger portions of humanity and do better things.

I'll say what I think it means when you want things to get better.

It means it already exists somewhere in the universe. It's already happening; some people already doing it somewhere. So if the people you wish were doing it aren't able to do it right now, you can find some other people, and they can do it.

You know what I think people who are desperate and have medical needs really could benefit from?

The fine wine of friendship! Not "I shall baptize ye and ye shall perform according to my wishes."

Not that!

Medical needs can make people desperate!

That's a big lesson. I'm learning it. That's a really big one!

Anyways, these are desperate times. What is with all of this privileged people being too cool to care about what's happening with others b*******. 

Like all these people who would have ages ago acted like they cared about this and that happening to certain groups of people. They're just too burnt out now, and they just can't care? 

I feel like mixing caring about others with self-care could be a way forward, right? 

 You could talk with people about how you care, and then, if you're stressed, you could take care of yourself by taking a walk and staring at a lake and becoming one with nature again. 

I probably need to go to sleep. That's probably an important part of self-care too. 

I have to rinse out with mouthwash a lot right now. 

I'm disappointed. Even though I did have a cheerleader in my corner telling me not to be down on myself, it sucks. It sucks that this happened with my tooth. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It really sucks a lot. It sucks so much. I am so upset. I have to get that out of me. Maybe if I can get that out of me, maybe tomorrow I'll feel more at peace. Because I have to live with it over the weekend. So there's that.

What about...

What about if I just spew a bunch of words everywhere and somebody else take can look at it and be like oh if you take this part and this part and this part and this part that could be something or that could be part of a song that could be some songs? What about that???

I gotta figure out what to do with the information I've collected!

Anyways, I did also have some positive experiences with Christianity, mainly through Vacation Bible School as a kid, because there were crafts and games and picnics and cakewalks and a "fishing pond" where you could get toys on the other end of the fishing pole after you threw the line over the screen, and sawdust pile where you could dig up coins, and a pinata, and releasing balloons up into the sky, oops, sorry that was probably bad for the environment, but it looked pretty, and my grandma was the one who ran the Vacation Bible School program, and my grandma was also the one who drove by a field where a migrant worker was laboring and she said that sometimes other people do this but to not say bad things about Mexicans because they work very hard and she knew because she worked very hard too when she was growing up on the farm and only completed 8th grade and had to stay home and work and they used to call her horse because she worked so hard and that wasn't funny, and she really liked children. And she like to encourage creativity in all ways, especially with children, and you know she had five of her own kids and she was a lot different from me. But anyway, she was an influence on me. And I feel like in the church I went to, Jesus always looked brown and tan, although maybe in a more Caucasian way. And they taught us to sing "Red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in his sight, Jesus loves the little children of the world." It's a real song, but it feels like lots of people aren't really living by that message very much these days!

I feel like there's been some trade-offs.

Of course, having a life where it felt like you were not very "successful" according to the standards of the patriarchal society can be quite difficult, especially when it's accompanied by physical and emotional pain and suffering. But it encourages you to be reflective, because you're like, "Why am I still even here," and then you get reflective. "Am I here to keep on learning certain lessons, and  I'm supposed to share some of this knowledge with others or something?" Being reflective is not a bad quality for humans to have.

I mean, this is just one point of view...

I can imagine that this seemed like a very loving family. And it was sort of amusing to see, but...

"Danielson: a Family Movie (2006)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qpaJuie1N6g&si=BnYj383MkWhVCmZD

What's up with the part at the beginning credits with the animated graphic (around 4:25) where it looks like the guy is like "I baptize you, now suck my dick." That's what it looks like! 

Thursday, July 02, 2026

I actually feel like I'm getting more new musical knowledge, too.

People really do go into trances sometimes. Don't they, when they're listening?

I always felt fascinated by the Tale of the Pied Piper tale at the Frankenmuth Glockenspiel.

I was entranced by it, way more than the average child probably.

I'm going to have to ask God / Cosmic Mother again. What is my purpose on Earth now?

Something to do with literature maybe? 

These came from the house in Michigan.

I guess I would like to see it again someday.

Knowledge is certainly something to be grateful for.

The knowledge that I'm getting pretty tired of feeling like my Cassandra Canary in Coal Mine status is limiting me is even more apparent to me now.

You've got to figure out how to heal something in you so you don't have to soak this stuff up like a sponge anymore.

"Danielson: a Family Movie (2006)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qpaJuie1N6g&si=BnYj383MkWhVCmZD

Well I guess I have to thank God or the Cosmic Mother for her Divine guidance in a time like this.

I will pray right now. 

Please give me healing and protection.

Please shows me wisdom and truth. 

Please help me survive. 

Please help me find joy and truthful people.

Please help guide me to go the way I'm supposed to go, the way that truly serves my higher purpose.

Please help me remember to know peace and blessings are for all. 

Not just for a favored few in a Patriarchal Society.


A survivor of a certain kind of childhood would like to know this.

Why are the white people and the rich people so great at ignoring what's happening to the other children? Why? How does that show love? And all those Christian Trump voters, you can't get them to act like they care! But what's even worse is even the people who say they are against Trump are acting like they don't care too!

Why is so much of Christian culture so bad for women and girls?

 


"Christianity in a nutshell"

exodus_bros

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaPGMUoI42M/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==