"'A sacred kind of sound’: inside a solar-powered journey to preserve the music of church organs"
https://www.theguardian.com/music/2026/jun/18/michael-cloud-duguay-album-church-organs
Thursday, June 18, 2026
Musical ladies! 🎶
Julia Jacklin - "Get Away From Me (I Think I'll Love You Soon)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=AJKKDreIXfo&si=9r76ubp3iblfY0LT
beabadoobee - "All I Did Was Dream Of You"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=qV91x2YT9zI&si=fJhwRFLEnSzhqZjD
Jessie Reyez - "LOVE & MONEY DON’T GO (with RAAHiiM)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=6ZbKVUZ3Leo&si=85EtuVChdRjcS7sg
I was thinking about these two again.
"Margaux Fragoso, child-sex-abuse victim and author, dead at 38"
https://www.nj.com/jjournal-news/2017/06/margaux_fragoso_child-sex-abus.html
When we were young, she told me she thought she might die someday of ovarian cancer. Years later, she actually did.
"Liza Anne Penalosa's Obituary"- Charlotte, NC | Ever Loved
https://everloved.com/life-of/liza-penalosa/obituary/
I was told about her multiple visits to the ER. She constantly got sent home until she didn't go back to the ER anymore. Misdiagnosed, died at home, and after her death, ovarian cancer was detected.And both of their daughters were about the same age when their mothers died, I think.
Wonder what it's like to live in a house with a pool.
"David Hockney and the Bliss of Not Standing Still"
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/06/13/arts/design/david-hockney-lawrence-weschler-appreciation.html
Some movements are chattier than others.
Yeah, and also, reading the book that came before the favorite movie, and lots of other things.
Moments, meant to say!
Oh, maybe this could be a good song, too. I don't know.
"Sarah McLachlan Reflects on ‘Fraught’ Bond with Daughter in New Song ‘Gravity’"
https://people.com/sarah-mclachlan-on-fraught-bond-with-daughter-in-new-song-gravity-11789282
Can't believe I'm doing this at two o'clock in the morning for my own mental health.
Arcade Fire - "My Body Is A Cage (HD Version)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=2I5JW9NOG4k&si=8ljb2HKOxZDIWaki
Your favorite actor who hung himself probably has reincarnated as some unknown alright.
"Being Human (1994) Official Trailer" - Robin Williams
That was a good time to be there; I want that again.
I had a peak experience years back just being on a walk, all by myself in nature. I need to go back there again. And my body was smaller back then and I am sure I looked more charming back then, too, but who was there to see it but myself? Just alone and unknown and undiscovered, walking in nature, all by myself.
It's just shocking.
You're like the white artists Frida Kahlo couldn't bear to be around anymore. But then, she found a better woman to be with! Who is that?
"Frida Kahlo in Paris"
https://www.thenotsoinnocentsabroad.com/blog/frida-kahlo-in-paris
"Enter Mary Reynolds: An Unexpected Friendship
Just when Frida might have written off Paris entirely, in stepped Mary Reynolds — artist, bookmaker and all-around lifeline.
Unlike the aloof Surrealist men swanning around Paris, Reynolds opened her doors and, more importantly, her heart. Frida, still recovering from illness and spiraling frustration, moved out of her bleak hotel and into Reynolds’ home at 14 rue Hallé.
It wasn’t just a change of address — it was a change of atmosphere. Where Breton had offered chaos, Reynolds offered comfort. Her house in the southern part of Paris was a hub of creativity, conversation and, during the darkening shadow of World War II, quiet resistance."
How did become their culture?
How alone do the Eurocentric Ones (who are only that way because that's how the Patriarchal culture taught them to be) need you to feel? It's been harsh to realize how much the culture has taught people to freeze out their fellow human beings in order to feel better when things get devastatingly worse for others, and yet you don't want to yell at them about it because you need to take care of your own health. It feels like you're going to collapse if you think about how harmful their accidentally - on - purpose Patriarchal Eurocentricity is to so many real people. They can go on about how they are just lucky and fortunate, but they don't even seem to be as lucky and fortunate as they really could be. They just seem like they're stuck in a cycle of being repetitive, of doing exactly what they were trained to do by external forces. And you don't want to collapse or go to pieces because you are more sensitive about what's happening the ones who are getting unseen or oppressed by people like them. Because people deserve better than that; you also deserve better than that, and so, you shouldn't collapse just because they're in certain state of survival mindset. Because they might get more sensitive to what's happening to others soon; it could happen. You're just going to have to take care of yourself as best as you can during this time. Anyways, Patriarchal Eurocentric culture is more terrifying in times of persecution. A lesson about how life on Earth feels in this culture, in this era, unfolds.
Wednesday, June 17, 2026
Sometimes people aren't even the same person from one day to the next.
Yesterday evening I could get a Taco Tuesday order and win a practice chess game on my phone while I was waiting (I'm sure it's not a very high level) and eat part of it in a park and bring the rest of it home to share. And then I went out and had a drink and read a book and in a noisier than expected environment and I dealt with it alright.
This evening? I canceled plans to leave this domicile for relatively low-key and relaxing activity (crocheting or knitting with others) and I'm searching for any remedies to relieve the kind nervousness that can ruin an appetite for dinner. It's almost like being a totally different person. I still don't feel especially understood sometimes, but if I get good at accepting myself as I'm going through a lot of changes on multiple levels, it will be a better way to get through life.
Recovery of well-being is a process...It can happen.
"Bird Spa Day Continues! More Garden Visitors"| ASMR
InstantBirds
I seem to be getting better and I guess that's a good thing.
I really could cry and yet I also have a better way of looking at things and I don't know how a better way of seeing finally got through and I hope it will continue to do so. It probably will. I'm sorry I took on the beliefs that weren't good for me. I was upset at other people for believing them but got some reason I forgot that I'm supposed to know how to filter it out if it's not good for me. I know that happens to a lot of humans. I don't know why, but people forget how to filter out things and they let those beliefs that are not helpful get inside of them like that. I hope I understand more someday.
Now I have to make myself get better again.
Now I have to create a new self.
I wiped myself out and I shall never be the same.
I need a new self.
This is the nature content that is so good.
"I Watched This Tiny Pond for 5 Minutes… and This Happened"
InstantBirds
Unfortunately I don't feel well and I'm going to have to tend to my own health now.
My body is saying I need to stop and let other people who are hardier and feel more filled with health and vibrance get inspired and I need to go repair myself now.
How I wish the adults were better and more humane than this.
"I Consider This a War on Children”
"In the United States, if you are charged with a crime and cannot afford a lawyer, you are guaranteed a public defender. This is not the case in immigration court, even for young children who arrive in the country alone. More than a third of unaccompanied immigrant children do not have a lawyer to represent them in deportation proceedings.
Congress has in the past made some attempts to address this problem. In 2008, lawmakers passed legislation requiring the government to provide lawyers for migrant children “to the greatest extent practicable.” After this mandate, the Unaccompanied Children Program, which provides protections to migrant children, began to fund more robust legal services for child clients. The federal program now disburses funds to a constellation of nonprofits and law firms across the country that represent children.
The Unaccompanied Children Program is funded by the Office of Refugee Resettlement, an arm of the Department of Health and Human Services. Although unaccompanied children typically spend time in the custody of ICE and other branches of the Department of Homeland Security, by law, they ultimately fall under the charge of the Office of Refugee Resettlement.
Under the Trump administration, the legal aid program has been under attack. Shortly after taking office last year, President Donald Trump froze funding for it entirely. A judge blocked the move, restoring the program, but it was only a temporary reprieve.
As the Lever revealed in the fall, the Department of Health and Human Services subsequently developed plans to privatize the program, taking it out of the hands of nonprofits that had historically run it and handing the reins to a private company, an ICE technology contractor.
It is not yet clear whether that company, ICF, will ultimately secure the new contract. But it was during this bidding process — which is still ongoing — that the Trump administration began demanding that attorneys in the program disclose detailed data about the legal cases of migrant children they’re representing, which would give the federal government insight into their asylum claims, case status, and lawyers’ defense strategies.
Indeed, until a federal judge stepped in, the Department of Homeland Security was telling children — even those pursuing asylum claims and fleeing violence — to self-deport or face extended detention. “I consider this a war on children,” one longtime immigration lawyer said of the tactics."
~ Katya Schwenk
"Trump Is Pressing Lawyers to Share Info on Migrant Children"
https://jacobin.com/2026/06/migrant-children-lawyers-trump-ice
It's rather nice that the big quails wanted alllll the little chicks to get to drink the water they needed...
Maybe some people's kids won't feel like they have to gaslight and exclude and be discriminatory towards others as much as some of the adults felt they had gaslight / exclude / be discriminatory towards others in order to achieve a certain comfortable standard of living. Could that be???
Quail Chicks!
Hydrate; it's so important!
"19 Quail Chicks Drinking on a Hot Day"
DesertCrittersofArizona
https://youtube.com/watch?v=JdkXdh_-wI8&si=4N-vEXcfl4LoVo7n
I feel that humanity needs to deepen its understanding of compassionate care for various kinds of human beings in this Society.
People could be more compassionate towards others who are different from them, and enjoy it more, if they wanted to feel that way.
I have noticed that in some books, when people create chapters on infertility, the solutions often seem very shallow: do better self-care and then you will get pregnant! Okay so what? How do I know that turned out well for you or the child? This has been my disappointment with the book I was reading recently.
The shallowness is being reflected in how people are behaving in our modern day society. It's becoming more and more dangerous to get pregnant, depending on which state you're living in. The rates of maternal mortality have gone up. People's psychological well-being is being affected, too. And yet, we're supposed to live in this bubble that if you do the self-care and you get pregnant, everything's going to magically get better. No, it doesn't work out that way!
Some children are truly more in danger than others right now because of the biases and prejudices. Some parents are literally more in danger of being kidnapped by ICE agents than others. Their children are more in danger of being kidnapped than others. How does self-care and then getting pregnant magically make that problem go away? Well it doesn't, does it. I don't think it does. I haven't seen it go away at all. It just makes people look narcissistic when they think that that's the best they can do.
Shallow, biologically reductive adults who are insensitive to the situations that are being experienced by other people's children are not my role models. They could go deeper if they were actually motivated to go deeper. Surface level achievements are not so impressive to some when we constantly see how many people's lives are being drastically threatened.
People could see it as a fun challenge to be more compassionate towards human beings who are different from them if they really wanted to.
Yay! Linguistics fun for my inner kid!
A low German versus Dutch versus high German language chart.
Dank je. 👶🏻
Duh, of course she did.🌷
I bet even my Jesus-worshipping, never divorced, children-loving Grandma (whose first language was apparently low German, I think) left me in the car by myself for a few moments when I was a kid. I guess it was a common occurrence in a different time, in a different culture!
That thing that all the single moms used to have to do back in the 1980s?
"A mom's worst moment is costing her everything"
"ICE Is Targeting the Lawyers of Immigrant Children"
https://jacobin.com/2026/06/trump-ice-law-office-raids-children
"Providers scramble as Tennessee tells sick, disabled immigrant kids they will be reported"
“'She’s a man' has a strong history of demeaning and diminishing women"
MonteMader
Have a positive attitude no matter what. Is that the modern day equivalent? It feels like it is, sometimes.
😖🥴🫠
“'She’s a man' has a strong history of demeaning and diminishing women"
MonteMader
Angry baby man! 👶🏼
"Did one of the world's first protocities..."
notanotheronlinehistorian
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYz8SKmvrvR/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
But I like how his painting reminds me of a character in a graphic novel by M.S.
"My man gave it his best"
u/MikeeorUSA
https://www.reddit.com/r/CoupleMemes/s/qFB4QzkvSL
🌜🌟😹🌞🌛
"Films more likely to star an actor called Chris or a talking animal than a woman over 60, study finds"
Oh roomie, what did he know?
"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
Rumi
Anyways, maybe purging time is almost over.
I feel like I'm supposed to get better at asking my body what I should be doing for healing, and aligning that with whatever I end up doing in the future as part of the next lifepath / career type thing.
Somebody named Hobbit Guy also watched this during the pandemic.
I think it would have been more helpful to have somebody just flat out tell me:
"You signed up for 'Experiencing the puppetry of this patriarchal society with the less than ideal set of genetics' in this life and it's going to be an arduous course."
"I just saw 'Jeanne Dielman, 23"
u/Hobbit-guy
https://www.reddit.com/r/TrueFilm/s/pziCGWsdgD
Oh my gosh; stop the insanity.
"I am very traumatized and that is why someone else's decreased quality of life or loss of human rights is a small price to pay in exchange for my slight increase in material well-being, even if this means that in the long term, it actually makes life worse for other people's children, or even for my own children."
Medical research has been built around mostly non-feminist people.
In privileged places.
"I'm not a feminist because .."
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZq4-EROZDx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Medical research has been built around men"
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZn8NSLONXC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Not optimal. Very twisted.
"I need to love predators more so my dad will keep on loving me or so my male relatives will feel their rightfully gained superior status over others" mentality is just super unbalanced.
Because then you can also say that things are going to change and those old things you used to do weren't actually what was best for anyone.
I feel like it's so conscientious to make lists of how many times you accidentally continued to role model the old patterns in front of the psychologically vulnerable.
Well, thinking of the children doesn't always come easily when you were brought up in a patriarchal society.
"This campaign flips the script on victim blaming."
femalequotient
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZqIryzxApk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Nobody wants them to feel bad!"
"Everyone just wants the worse off to feel worse and worse, so the better off can feel better and better." What???
Maybe this means more will be uplifted!
"This bird just discovered..."
u/Sage_Magic
https://www.reddit.com/r/interestingasfuck/s/aognX8lyxr
"And what is a good reason..."
u/untitledprp4
Who's benefiting the most from maintaining that "don't show anger" mindset?
"why women can't show anger (stitched with Gemma Hartley)"
sommertothill
https://youtube.com/shorts/th9X-54fxis?si=uk9kdT41kY8WBKke
So why don't they want to.
"The Olsen twins have done enough"
Howse_party_pod
https://youtube.com/shorts/WrAUFcutrZ8?si=qyklalTLSueTSKGo
They could heal from their internalized misogyny instead.
Like, if they really wanted to...
"antifatness is killing your spirit"
itsmekatevee
https://youtube.com/shorts/t4yqhbr8hYE?si=4LKTteAV3cQf_oP9
I wish he would have went to therapy instead of doing that.
Oh well, I guess it's only money...
"WHY NOBODY LIKES..."
LizMiele
Our country is still very racist.
"Why Is Illinois Failing to Hold ICE Agents Accountable?
Many blue states aren’t prosecuting crimes committed by federal agents during targeted immigration enforcement campaigns"
Maybe the lack of love is affecting the money.
"Oversight a struggle at ICE detention facility in San Diego"
https://inewsource.org/2026/06/17/ice-otay-mesa-trump-congress-oversight/
Oh wow! There were so many people in that dream. It was kind of a lot of people.
The dream said that me and the scared jumpy man can bond, such as if one person sits in a church pew amongst many men, and the other one sits behind and kind of leans on the shoulder, and that's fine. However, it's not really a top tier conversation situation, and he still may disappear on ya.
Truth!!!
"The grim truth behind the Pied Piper"
https://www.bbc.com/travel/article/20200902-the-grim-truth-behind-the-pied-piper
Just randomly remembering this one.
The Nylons - "Prince Of Darkness (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=CwimZmLqkdg&si=rn2jj1oE0oKoxOt6
It was picked up in the Seattle area part of this life.
🐾 A sensitivity to animals dog story. 🐶
👸🏻When I was a young lady there was a dog that was adopted because the breeder convinced the parents to adopt a runt alongside the dog they really wanted, and they figured out that they didn't really like the runt after a while because she was developmentally disabled and had health problems, so they decided to put her in a no-kill shelter in the country and pay for her to stay there for the rest of her life, and we went out and visited her one time, and she briefly acted happy to see us, and then she knew we were going to go away again, so it appeared to me she scratched herself and seemed kind of disgusted, like she couldn't be bothered to try to bond with us again, and she was over it. I hope she had a better life and enjoyed optimal health subsequently. ⚕️
🎼❄️🥶🧊☃️📚📓But it's the best...🎶😊🪀🚸🪈🧙🧚🏾📜
"The Chilling Story of the Pied Piper" | Sandra Merville Hart
https://sandramervillehart.com/2021/09/30/the-chilling-story-of-the-pied-piper/
"American’s First Time Hearing German Fairytale Stories"
@ZacRyanYT
🎣🐟🐠💒🧁🐓Lucky horseshoes. 🐎👠👛🪙🎏🐔
I thought church picnics in rural Michigan were really fun. There were cakewalks and a "fishing pond" where you put a fishing pole over a screen and got a toy on the other end. And sawdust piles for the kids. We would dig out the coins. And I thought reunions were fun. They had live polka music and dancing and Faygo Pop and Vernors. And sawdust piles. I got to read a lot of books. I got to go out in the country and the little town. I went swimming in a lake. I rode bikes. Ate ice cream. Went fishing in the pond in the country. Visited a crick to gather moss. And ate meals with friends on other farms. There were lots of chickens around. I heard church bells and mourning doves in the evening. Lots of times it was actually very idyllic. I'm probably supposed to go back there someday because I went there every summer for so many years.
I hope I figure out more about why it was like that soon.
I guess other people were supposed to be more of the performers. And I was supposed to be more of an ingester / metabolizer.
Arcade Fire - "My Body Is A Cage (HD Version)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=2I5JW9NOG4k&si=8ljb2HKOxZDIWaki
I guess I didn't like being thinner when I was younger that much.
I'm disappointed in myself: I have not applied myself more in regards to learning to play musical instruments.
Little Jimmy Dickens - "Out Behind the Barn"
Pushy, sneaky, greedy, not unlike some other kinds of people you would want to avoid.
I have a big callus on my index finger. I think it would have been better if they did not do a veneer on the other front tooth. Especially because they mentioned bonding verbally, but then changed it to veneer on the paperwork. And I get pain in it sometimes. But at the moment it's not so painful. So that's better.
Big blood clot problems.
And the time they took blood and couldn't fill up the tubes and IV therapy came and I argued with them and almost had to have a blood transfusion.
And I have arthritis in a toe now. Didn't used to have that.
Sublime - "April 29, 1992 (Rodney King riots)"
Such is the cycle of life.
A lot of the white people who were here not so long ago are very likely to either be back or not be back as not such white people anymore.
Carrying those terrible times through their adult years too.
Poor little bullied by their parents and their upbringings children.
Also, I'm grateful my grandma loved Jesus so much.
'Red and yellow, black and white. They are precious in his sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world."
Some people make me so grateful for my cat.
Because I know she's doing the best she can with her cat consciousness.
I suppose they just want to feel special.
And maybe they went to some strange churches or something as they were growing up. But some people have decided to act like such myopically genetically superior narcissistic assholes in this era, that it genuinely feels like I really cannot believe that that's the best they can do right now.
Tuesday, June 16, 2026
It's kind of like I feel more together tonight than I did yesterday.
It feels like it's important to know how much you're willing to explore the different parts that you have inside of yourself. There's traveling and visiting other parts of the world and enjoying learning about other cultures, but there's also inward exploration. I ended up moving around a lot when I was a kid, and then certain things happened when I was older, and I didn't end up traveling as much as I thought I would. It's like I was supposed to explore a lot of different worlds internally and find out what makes human beings get persuaded to go this or that way in their lives, and then I had to figure out how to make a new way to go forward, for myself and for others. But if I didn't feel very supported, I wasn't doing a very good job of it. And pain and illness can be such terrible distractions too. And financial issues are a stressor, and those also get impacted by pain and illness and trauma. And if you listen too much to an imbalanced society, you believe the support you need should take a very specific form, and then you feel like you're too oppressed because you didn't get that specific form of support that you needed. Instead, you're supposed to expand your horizons and grow spiritually, and find other ways of being in the universe. You're not supposed to just bolster Society as you have found it to be now; you're supposed to create a new one.
This is good; people are speaking out more about the harmfulness of the imbalanced Patriarchal POV! ❤️
"This campaign flips the script on victim blaming."
femalequotient
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZqIryzxApk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Medical research has been built around men"
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZn8NSLONXC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Experiences vary. Knowing about a wider variety of human experiences is more helpful to humanity.
🌊⚕️🧚🏾
"For once I believe in what a billionaire is doing."
thegarbagemom
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZLuuj8vxQw/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"My Body is a Cage"
u/ydkjordan
Cats help a lot of human beings feel more balanced.🐈⬛
Cats are very good at being cats.
"This Incredible Jelly"
u/SnackSamurai
https://www.reddit.com/r/oddlysatisfying/s/X8LMaxbHKN
"When Three Faces..."
u/ DeScepter
https://www.reddit.com/r/Cinema/s/GnCtSTCl8Z
"St. Jude's is in Memphis"
montemader
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZnsR-fRoNo/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This is a very expensive place to live.
I have to look up how much things I can't get cost to motivate myself.
How come I never heard of her before? There should be a movie about her.
And I forgot I'd seen clips of the film based off her book.
"Edna Ferber" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edna_Ferber
"Giant Love: Edna Ferber, Her Best-selling Novel of Texas, and the Making of a Classic American Film" | The Curious Reader
"Giant (1956) Official Trailer"
I've been waiting for a couple of decades to read this book again.
I want to see how this holds up: "Melusine" by Lynne Reid Banks
I first read it when I was in junior high. I believe I read at least part of it in California, too. So I must have taken it with me on a "vacation." I found a used copy and ordered it off the internet when I was a young adult living in Illinois, but it never came. I just gave up on it because it was so cheap. It was probably a scam. But this one wasn't a scam, and the book actually arrived.
Oh, it might be signed by the author! That's a pretty name. I've never gotten a signed book as a surprise before.
I enjoyed a vegan meal.
I ate roasted tomatoes with olive oil, raw dandelion greens, parsley, cashew cheese and gluten-free crackers. It was very good
And then I was brought, for dessert, a blueberry lemonade popsicle and a book!
Flowers and a page from today's helpful library book.
"Everyday Ayurveda for Women's Health" by Kate O'Donnell
In "Part Three: Finding Balance Through the Seasons of Life," from the section called "Purusarthas: The Four Aims of Life"
"Dharma: Righteous, ethical living
Artha: Wealth, material goods, security
Kama: Desire, gratification
Moksha: Emancipation, spiritual freedom"
Page 106
This was helpful for me to see because it feels like the dominant culture is neglecting a few of these aspects. My body might need to feel more balanced in order to feel better than it has been with what the dominant culture is currently providing.
And this one, too.
ICE will be looking for sick children. And then what?
"St. Jude's is in Memphis"
montemader
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZnsR-fRoNo/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
When I was able to look at the internet again, this caught my eye.
"As the U.S. turns 250, this historian has blunt advice: 'America has to grow up'"
https://www.npr.org/2026/06/15/nx-s1-5856348/america-250-eddie-glaude
Someday they maybe will want to do more healing types ofthings, too.
Let's tune in with more healing types of things and let others do their other things, and hopefully, most of the time, we may be able to know that's what's much better for health and well-being at the moment.
Or I'll ask my angels and health guardians and flower essences to help me now.
Maybe angels can help where humans fear to tread.
Turning point, though.
I wonder how this body ever got so emotionally and physically and medically neglected. It's such a big project to deal with at the moment. It takes up all my time. It takes up everything.
I wish they would go away to a sanitarium for their kind. I just don't want to be around them at all.
My least favorite thing about certain kinds of artists is how they think pushing away other people's realities away in the name of their art is what they're supposed to be doing.
They're just dealing with their own neglect in ways that other people really can't replicate.
I feel sorry for people who are so obsessed with art and making art right now. Also, I really cannot be like them right now. Body just doesn't want us to do that kind of thing right now.
They're all just expressing their their sadness in different ways.
I'm sorry the people who were neglected have been neglected. I don't honestly want to create anything that's big or makes a lot of money right now. But maybe in the future I will. I just can't do it right now. There's too much to do. I have to take care of the stressed out, neglected body. I have to make a new and better pattern happen. The body is very needy. The capitalistic culture is so bad for it. The Patriarchy just doesn't know how to take care of this kind of a body at all.
It's time to make the right decisions for the body.
It's time to stop and cry about medical neglect right now. Even if it's if it's just yawning and a little bit of tears squeezing out of the eyes from tiredness and just feeling very tired and that's what it is.
It's time to stop some things because of health issues.
I started to read a book I felt like looking at again, but stopped now. I can read it later.
Ghosts Beneath Our Feet by Betty Ren Wright. I had that book's image in my head. For some reason.
"Ghosts beneath our feet : Wright, Betty Ren"
I have found a lot of books, but I haven't found that one yet.
I want to find a particular illustrated children's picture book where a boy is looking out the window and sees the changes of the seasons.
Oh this is still not it, but it's a good find because I also read it as a little kid so that's cool. I don't know why I can't find the one that I'm looking for though.
"Vintage 1982 First Little Golden Book - My Book Of The Seasons" | eBay
Oh, look at all of these.
None of them are the one I was looking for, but I really like the look of "The Colors Out My Window" by Gabrielle Story illustrated by Maria Mola.
Artistic temperaments are gonna help everyone in the future, or possibly sooner.
"What type of bitch he is..."
edgarthesifu
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZlkrq-zGIx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"What do you mean you're failing"
liznicoleee_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZkVdF1RvMn/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
" From the very moment I was detained..."
hanne_engan
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZgqF_zRHVb/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Monday, June 15, 2026
Oh, if only we could all get the help we need a little bit faster.
I'm too sensitive. I can't deal with people who need to go to therapy because I can't have their childhood traumas poking at me. And I'm not their nanny and I'm not their mom and I'm not whoever else and yes, I have worked with people who projected that kind of thing on to me before. Why is everyone so addicted to putting out products? Why don't you, like, want to heal more stuff first, and put out products later? I think it would be more enjoyable. Also, have you ever heard of going from a lower income bracket to a higher income bracket and being miserable anyway, cuz that's what happened when I was in high school. I mean, it didn't last for very long; as soon as I became a young adult, it was done. And by the way, when I became a young adult they didn't let children stay on their parents insurance until they were like 25 or 26 or whatever, like they do nowadays. And I got the kind of genetics that could have used the good health insurance, and I didn't have it, ever. And other people in my family were sicker than I was.
Learning is good.
I think what makes me happy is being able to enjoy learning experiences.
And part of that is being able to feel relaxed.
And part of being able to feel relaxed is not having to feel like I have to feed someone's ego and repeat old traumas over and over again.
You never know, actually, what makes you feel better, do you?
I gave a good tip to someone who kind of delivered subpar service tonight because part of that was due to circumstances that she wasn't entirely in control of, and I liked the person, and you know what, hard-working immigrants deserve more respect than they get, especially nowadays, even if sometimes the conditions mean that the quality of what you get is not, you know, what the rich people are getting most of the time, I suppose. And I feel like she was happy, and that made me happy. And this song is nice right now: Nimino - "Light Up." And the clouds are pink in the sky.
This is kind of funny, though.
"Ian McKellen says he imagined destroying Mar-a-Lago for new Avengers movie"| Movies | The Guardian
California day includes smoke from a fire.
On a scale of me to the other end of scale with the people who are closer to being like Elon Musk.
Why don't you or they go collaborate with the creepy one because he keeps being too creepy and my mind and body don't feel like dealing with his creepy ways.
I feel like they put in that one part at the end of the recording, because it's like, who are the real looters?
Sublime - "April 29, 1992"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=e1dPKfxRhk0&si=siK2JqMoG0Ci77VL
I'm such a different person than I used to be when I was a 14-year-old and had no idea why there was so much about violence and rioting on the news! Who else is different than they used to be when they were 14 years old?
As a parent...
I also think it's a special time to be simultaneously more Native American and more Caucasian, and I'm glad her higher self appreciates my honesty better than is apparent at this level.
"Shooting Snakes" is an underread story and I'm glad I found it.
"Shooting Snakes" by S. Cokal on JSTOR
https://www.jstor.org/stable/40638382
I'm rereading it and I just split a Goya chocolate pudding with the breadwinner of the casa who never stops working these days and I'm going to eat some beef jerky, too.
Then I saw a can of baked beans in the cupboard. So I can have that with the beef jerky!
Anyways, more light content is coming to the surface as usual.
I remember being a little kid and learning about poison white. Sorry, I mean Snow White and the poison apple, hahaha, funny, anyway, and I remember looking at a picture of it and being like why would she (the witch with the poison apple) be so mean? And I felt like this voice was telling me, you should never kill yourself. You should never kill yourself. Isn't that odd? I wasn't very old. Who reads these stories nowadays?
Oh, I suppose you can argue that she's 21 and not a kid anymore.
"ICE Took Mom and Dad. Now the Perez Kids Are Home Alone. – Mother Jones
Four American siblings left to fend for themselves—and they’re not the only ones."
Samantha Michaels
Turn over a new leaf.
"ICE Took Mom and Dad. Now the Perez Kids Are Home Alone.
Four American siblings left to fend for themselves—and they’re not the only ones."
Samantha Michaels
Honestly, I just have to take better care of my health now.
Honestly, I am just sad. But I must take better care of my health. I can't let all the information that floats around out there as a result of the unwell ways of a Patriarchal Culture be such a detriment to my physical experience in my short time on this planet.
Future DSM Manual diagnosis? "Patriarchal Myopia"
"Those born with certain genetics were more likely to be afflicted with this ailment than others, in that awfully imbalanced and upset by the cult of unwell patriarchical mentalites era. Sadly, it was greatly under diagnosed."
And isn't it amazing how many people The Unwell Patriarchy wants to just drop off the radar instead of speaking up?
But now they're even being terrible to the girls and women with the great (by their standards) genetics. How stupid and sexist and shallow can they be?
What kind of love?
Maybe it's the kind of love where the insecure babysitter who's always trying to align with the richest doesn't have to act like the kids who are the poorest are worthless. It's the love like Jesus would have wanted us to have! Kind of the opposite of the people who are getting rich off of the detention centers where hunger strikes are happening. And also not very much like what the people who are into being shallow and acting like they have to be tools of the patriarchy in order to feel good about themselves are doing.
A much bigger version of love than some people envisioned previously.
I'm just going to have to tap into the power of love!
I think it bears repeating.
Frankly, it seems like The Patriarchy wants women to feel like they have disabilities. It's even penalizing the healthier women now.
The universe needs to show me how I'm supposed to live if I have feel like I have a disability.
Nobody ever said you could check off disability if you had feminine health problems. But they were. So, I either need to figure out how I'm supposed to function and make money with an off and on disability, or I need to figure out what I'm supposed to hell sorry I meant to say heal, so I no longer have the disability. Frankly, it seems like the patriarchy wants women to feel like they have disabilities. It's even penalizing the healthier women now.
The body can be a messenger.
It was painful, but now I realize that choosing healing first is necessary for this type of body before the completion of creative projects can be realized. It was really funny that I got somebody laying out an entire plan for me to do a creative project with art and writing, like creating a children's book that has nature as its focus, and it overwhelmed me to the point where I felt like my body was just throwing up all these weird signals at me. Impossible to ignore.
Do something good with your life today.
Had the beginning of a panic attack start around page 70 and stopped to eat some gluten-free crackers and hummus and take an "Anxio Balance" pill.
"Twenty and Ten by Claire Huchet Bishop" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1069576.Twenty_and_Ten
The scene with the chocolate impacted my life forever.
"Twenty and Ten (1952)" – A Beastiary of Books
"Twenty and Ten" : Claire Huchet Bishop : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
And isn't that a sad little thought.
I bet they'd round you guys up before they'd go after Timothée.
It's fun to be at the beginning of new discoveries!
I wonder if this could be about this, or about this, or...
"The New Adam and Eve"
By Nathaniel Hawthorne
https://utc.iath.virginia.edu/christn/chfinhaf.html
"In this history of horror, the call is coming from inside the house" - The Washington Post
https://www.washingtonpost.com/books/2024/10/21/american-scary-jeremy-dauber-review/
"A.G. Exemplary? Considering the American Gothicism of Nathaniel Hawthorne’s 'Alice Doane’s Appeal' and 'Young Goodman Brown'"
"Nathaniel Hawthorne’s American Horror Story" - The Atlantic
https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/2026/07/nathaniel-hawthorne-my-kinsman-major-molineux/687311/
Because I don't feel want to feel like I'm psychologically trapped inside of a concentration camp, and I deserve nice things, too.
🙏 I've decided I'm going to get some bodywork done today. Because self-care is very important. Lucky me!!!! 🍀
There's so many people locked away right now who'd be really great at cleaning... 🪣🧽🧙🧹🧙🏾🧼🫧
There but for the grace of whatever (some say 'God') go you, but bless you if you have the patience to deal with this Patriarchal nonsense.
"Christen Goff Says 'Taylor Swift' Got More Women into sports"
https://ca.news.yahoo.com/christen-goff-says-taylor-swift-132401310.html
I think Patriarchy's reign of misery should come to an end now.
Why do some people who are so different from him identify with him?
"Donald Trump's behavior was shaped by his 'sociopath' father, niece writes in bombshell book" | Donald Trump | The Guardian
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2020/jul/07/donald-trump-abuse-father-niece-mary-book
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