I was feeling well enough to go for a walk this morning and at one point a disembodied child's voice called out, "Hiiiiiiiiiii!" I don't know if the kid was hiding behind something outside or behind a screen inside a house or what. I said hi back.
Friday, May 22, 2026
But curiosity is still the best.
I want to meet the people who were treated better by the system who still can be available and willing to listen and willing to cooperate and help work on creative projects and brave enough not to be in denial or run away and still be curious and able to have fun.
Something else to read about in these trying times: "There's a lot of innocent people in there."
"'I want to make people aware of how unfortunate it is that it's not just criminals getting detained. When I went to visit him, he's not the only one in there that's detained because his DACA has expired. There's a lot of innocent people in there, and it's just unfair. Even a lot of people out here are losing their jobs because their DACA is delaying so long,' Cristina Villa said."
~ Athena Jreij
"UPDATE: Federal officials comment on Palm Springs DACA recipient detained by ICE"
What an opportunity, if you're in the Chicago area.
"Anne Frank: The Exhibition at Griffin Museum of Science and Industry"
I heard about this $ car commercial shutting down a bridge recently.
I'm sure the rich and really out there, totally not locked up in any detention centers with the innocent immigrant children kinds of people got paid plenty of money for being a part of it.
And didn't the Patriarchal Societal Pain do really horrible things to the family and just get away with it? That's sad.
Only the Bible is read more.
I'm so glad Anne Frank wrote her diary, and that her her Dad survived the concentration camp against all odds, because her diary probably wouldn't even exist without him! That's what he did with the rest of his life. Promoted his daughter's diary. Went through a lot of hell doing it, too.
3 - 2 - 1, liftoff.
First, you had to know that people who shouldn't have been abusive could be and would be abusive.
Next, you had to know that people who should have stood up and helped you weren't going to stand up and help you.
And then, you also had to know that the people who were going to be so selfish that it was going to be a big shock to your nervous system were exactly that selfish and unhealed.
Time to learn more about healing from what you experienced from learning about humans being huge unhealed jerks.
Sometimes people get desperate, and that's life.
Sometimes the unhealed "fortunate" people act a lot like the people who hurt them when it comes to how they treat others, but depending on how they do it, you might also feel like you just see that they have in their pysches a child who needed more love and they didn't get the tools to know how to ask for what they needed. So they figure it out the best they can, and they do what they feel they must do in order to obtain what they seem to feel they need the most.
Curiosity is the best.
I want to meet the people who were treated better by the system who can be available and willing to listen and willing to cooperate and help work on creative projects and brave enough not to be in denial or run away and still be curious and able to have fun.
Thursday, May 21, 2026
Going back to being offline now.
"Patriarchy..."
kirstyleephd
https://www.instagram.com/p/DYm5HZACHUy/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Which one(s) can you relate to?
bynicolleofficial
https://www.instagram.com/p/DYgIgjlFIYR/?img_index=9&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Who..."
marmaladebleue
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYPy1XCMRie/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Well, who knows, maybe some people really want to now.
I hope some people can work on their problems more now if they really want to.
I hope this changes soon. Preferably for the better.
Liberal people being not that different from conservative people. You'd think that they would not want to act like a bunch of Lords of the Manor reincarnated, especially at the expense of the safety and well-being of other people's children. And in fact their own children too honestly. That's why the Cult mentality that so many grew up with is very dangerous. It's seduces them into thinking that really imbalanced behavior is just a normal way of life.
I highly overestimated some people.
I really thought a whole bunch of people who seemed like they cared in the past would literally be so moved and so determined to help the oppressed that they'd be at the very least playing a few concerts outside of the ICE facilities or something. Wow, that was stupid of me, wasn't it?
Patriarchal Culture has been a very bad and even sickening experience.
Partly on account of the fact that I actually have the wrong genetics for their cult, I will never really be able to know why some people had to turn themselves into shallow, abusive, insensitive, untrustworthy antagonists just because that's exactly how the Patriarchal Culture wanted them to behave.
Patriarchal Culture was more desperate to hold on to their Learned Behaviors than I was though? Maybe that's partly why they did it. I wish they had more courage to just do something new.
I don't think their safe path looks safe to me at all. Like it's not even a little bit safe. It's like so far from safe enough that I don't even think you could probably write a dissertation and still it doesn't matter because people don't change until they feel like changing.
And the people who've been given the most rewards for going along with a lot of what the patriarchal culture wanted them to go along with are going to change the last, probably. This has been a harsh lesson to learn.
I think all of these people should stay away from the vulnerable who deserve better. Because the vulnerable deserve so much better then more of what's just going to hurt them and make them worse off in this really imbalanced, unhealthy unwell culture.
I feel like I've tried and it hasn't worked and I was going to stop trying to have conversations with people who don't want to have them, and I'm going to go somewhere else.
These were really interesting to come across.
I didn't ask the ice cream guy where he was from, but he probably wouldn't have minded.
"Old photos of the Sami and Uchee Peoples" – The Americas Revealed
https://apalacheresearch.com/2025/01/23/old-photos-of-the-sami-and-uchee-peoples/
May the detangling begin!
I don't know. Honestly, sometimes when people are just nice to you and treat you like a human being, it kind of makes you think that the people who seem to have a hard time doing that are just really tangled up in their own prejudices, or something. Probably also stems from their own traumas that they've experienced, and how whatever they've developed as coping mechanisms interfaces with whatever the Patriarchal Society is offering to them as a means of surviving their own challenges.
Met a very nice human being who owns an ice cream shop. The ice cream is homemade.
Very nice. Very friendly guy. And I didn't expect to get dinosaur-themed ice cream, but that's what I got, and a cherry flavor as well. And I admired the decor and rainbows on the floor!
He wanted to give me a sample of the corn with crushed Cheetos, which is a salty offering, and he gave me so much in a cup that I said, let me give you $2, because I had that in my wallet, and he said don't worry about it, but I gave it to him, or I put it in the tip jar.
"Seventeen" magazine used to say it was "where the girl ends and the woman begins..."
Where does the struggle end...
And the sabotage?
Begin?
Slowly or quickly...
"This too shall pass"
michellesuicomedy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DW4RZdSIR8Y/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Oh, this is funny! My cat doesn't understand funny videos, but she's so fun to be around.
I think human beings' favorite forms of fun will be even more fun when...
"Old bit..."
michellesuicomedy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYH25fHoxJu/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Let's pray for them and not think so much about steel danishes. Or stale ones, or whatever.
"Suicides rise in ICE detention, 911 calls detail serious cases of self-harm"
Yes, I know. I've heard this so many times.
"As you know, Our Father in Heaven loves all of the oppressed peoples far more than we ever could."
"And we were well-hydrated, so that helped, too."
"We had a really great discussion about Jesus at the integrated Bible study and we didn't even notice that the coffee shop danishes were stale."
Maybe it's a weird quirk of having having a metabolic syndrome.
I guess the "Breaking the low expectations that some people's parents instilled in them ghosts" chase after me sometimes.
I mean, you would do it if you were starving.
Also, the bumper sticker I saw was like the cult of eating a stale danish.
It's crazy what some people's grandparents went through, huh?
Kind of makes me wonder what's going to happen in the future, with more people being so open and talkative about so many topics...
The survivor who wrote "House of Dolls" dedicated the book he wrote to Nike! Meaning, the goddess Nike?
"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"
https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse
Maybe that's an example of the kind of force that helps some people choose what can help them more when they take the longview; when they can take a more holistic view of their whole life.
Uh-oh. It's online. For FREE.
Actually, I don't know why I'm being dramatic. I just think it's the right time for me to read this book now, so that's cool.
"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"
https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse
That one band was really traumatized by this book.
"The House of Dolls by Ka-tzetnik 135633" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/771394.The_House_of_Dolls
Pummeled by this message everyday.
I know humanity's still working up its courage; so in the meantime, I'm very glad that people like Our Fairly Harmless Relative, Uncle Friends With Benefits, can help smooth the way along what would otherwise be a much bumpier road. Honestly, things could be so much worse, right? Who can hold all that trauma and drama in their consciousness for very long? Lightening the mood sometimes leads to far better outcomes.
Oh good. I get to digest my breakfast now.
I got some people who in mind can't wait to meet some other people! It's going to be so fun when they find out you're also the types who know how to help our collective find the words they need to begin having healing and honest conversations about the important topics! Gosh they really hated having those in the past. But not equally so with all people; just with some kinds of people more than others.
In spite of the Patriarchy meddling meddling meddling meddling...
We just have to hope that every male relative in every large family is a trustworthy and well-balanced individual.
It's good to be flexible.
Actually, Tom...
Tom Petty – "It's Good to Be King Lyrics"
https://genius.com/Tom-petty-its-good-to-be-king-lyrics
Actually, it seems like it's stressful to be King.
The online chess game trainer is all like, "This is how you checkmate" and constantly shows the king crumbling behind the pawns when you take the rook. And after that, it's saying "This is how you castle your king and put him behind the pawns who will protect him." And it's like, but I just saw the king crumble a bunch of times behind the pawns after the castle got taken away. So it really just points out how flimsy the amount of protection that the poor little kings were actually getting this whole time.
"feminist who?"
girlsvsglobe
https://www.instagram.com/p/DYHax0XjHH9/?img_index=7&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
$$$$$$
"Thank you for choosing to honor Our Cosmic Mother by lending your support to the 'Be the kind of person who would certainly be amongst the very best even in the very worst scenarios' challenge."
"If there's anything we can do to assist you on your journey, please don't hesitate to reach out to have your request considered."
🎼🎶🎵🎶
Tom Petty - "It's Good To Be King [Official Music Video]"
Wednesday, May 20, 2026
This is a very Noble cause.
"Live your life as if you'd be amongst the very best even if you were in the worst of circumstances."
Chess seems like it's kinda hard, and not for the easily fatigued.
Became a song about chess pieces when I listened to the album it's on while learning about the rules of playing chess.
Mitski – "Liquid Smooth Lyrics"
https://genius.com/Mitski-liquid-smooth-lyrics
I was always supposed to learn how to play chess at some point. So now seems to be the time. I should look for more chess pieces tunes...
Will people in the future consider PCOS / PMOS to be an intersex condition?
"Not to mention..."
Iyo_likes_to_talk
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYYg58Ltntn/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
But also, how else were they supposed to get a credit card??
"I am the light of her life rn."
wachelrilliams
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYXYqoXupIf/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Still, these are bad habits that need to be broken.
There's the outside voice again.
"Well, I hope THAT ONE got therapy and didn't go on to coach any soccer teams."
FLOOD - "Bidding Farewell to Brockhampton: A Hip-Hop Haven for Women, Queer People, the Marginalized and Misunderstood"
https://floodmagazine.com/123065/bidding-farewell-to-brockhampton/
The "Brave" song reminded me of how some of the better music comes from the better facilities.
Sara Bareilles - "Goodbye Yellow Brick Road (Live from Atlanta)"
I wonder if there's going to be any sharp notes...
Anyways, I'll have my detached family members call your detached family members.
It could be remade humorously.
"I was a little disappointed with 'The Last of the Mohicans'"
https://www.reddit.com/r/movies/s/PlARJFMlmD
Not the "The Last of the Mohicans;" the last of the "fill-in-the-blank" grandparents.
When does it get harder, I wonder?
I'm going to have an encounter with the New World Symphony right now as this free trial thing is still going on.
😇 I think those would be quite fitting for a well-rounded upbringing in this era, considering the circumstances. 🪽
👼🏾Harp lessons instead of piano lessons for all the little angels who want them! 👼🏼
Possibly the latter, though?
So, I didn't vote for a bunch of loonies who think that women's main objective in life should be to birth the nation's children.
They are also clear about expressing that certain types of children are more valuable than others.
Its's hard to say whether things have hit peak weirdness now, or whether things will get even weirder...
Ta tee-tee tibby-tibby tee-tee. Or One..and one and two and.
Kind of have to thank public elementary school music class for letting me skip ahead. Or band in middle school. Ha-ha, remembering a bit about the personalities now, too. So mad sometimes!!! 🤣
More useful information, I guess?
"Ladies, which of these 'tools'..."
nourishherbody
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYkVPkQMyve/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"I know this is gonna shake up a few of yall..."
themagicinhue
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYkY-YGx0EP/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This is really fun and nostalgic now.
I'm on the unit in Section 2 that has the song that made me teach myself how to drink Retsina wine during lockdown.
I got 100% and 98% the first time I tried the end of unit lesson, and 100% and 100% the second time I tried the end of unit lesson! I should work with songs that have made an impression on me.
I have not tried to play an instrument by reading sheet music for many years.
I think this is the most palatable bottle of Retsina I tried.
Chill and pair with something strongly flavored or cook with the Greek chicken dish that had rosemary. That was a good one.
"Chicken in retsina wine"
https://katerinaskouzina.com/meat/chicken-in-retsina-wine.html
People with senses of humor are succeeding in life. It's a good thing.
"The Nowhere Inn - Official Trailer"| HD | IFC Film
https://youtube.com/watch?v=N7igJaXJreU&si=NXdAWOudLpOYmnRt
"sufjan overconfidently playing pac-man" : r/Sufjan
https://www.reddit.com/r/Sufjan/comments/1kangyh/sufjan_overconfidently_playing_pacman/
Everything dies eventually, so you might as well make art out of it.
"This is absolutely incredible"
u/Hot_Accountant_5507
Good luck with that.
"Wanna play commander?"
u/friend1y
https://www.reddit.com/r/CoupleMemes/s/787TTVuQQB
That's what happens if some of us choose to take Ozempic and dye our hair.
C D C Rest
Drove to a show. Jokes were made. What a fool.
Gopher drool.
Or...
GO go go go
FUR fur fur fur
DROOL drool drool drool
Some of us has to practice, some of us has to practice.
Update before noon: Unit 20 and 25 in Section 2 are giving me some hope.
💀🥀
And recover from trauma before we make a big investment.
I believe I will be listening to more of her songs, too.
Josienne Clarke - "What Do I Do (official video)"
I feel like the universe is telling me it's time to get back in touch with the land.
🌍
SOFIA JANNOK - "THIS IS MY LAND (Official)"
Oh, I hope they reconnect!
"Sufjan Stevens fan?"
michaelshogue
https://www.instagram.com/p/DYcyNWoFn26/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I'm sure they'd have a lot to talk about.
"Where This Begins" - by Michael.S.Hogue
https://michaelshogue.substack.com/p/where-this-begins?r=q7ts0
This is free!
Something to read later, after I take advantage of my newfound connection with Duolingo?
"Sounding the 'Spirit of My Silence': Sufjan Stevens’s Carries and Lowell and the Affect of Nothingness"
I need to get my walking abilities back.
I was getting better with walking before I went to bed but it's getting more difficult again. We'll see how it goes tomorrow / today later on.
Saw some other stuff about this topic before I fell asleep.
Didn't save it, but I found some other interesting articles to read / look at.
"Putting an End to the Shame Associated with Minority Culture and its Concomitant Negative Self-Images - On Gender and Ethnicity in Sami and Tornedalian Literature" - Nordic Women's Literature
"Old photos of the Sami and Uchee Peoples" – The Americas Revealed
https://apalacheresearch.com/2025/01/23/old-photos-of-the-sami-and-uchee-peoples/
Oops, I woke up and read about some things...
"Female Rage"
"<3
References"
vulturesangel
https://www.instagram.com/p/DYjZFVqgaMl/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Tuesday, May 19, 2026
This is good...
Because I just remembered a doctor saying, "You don't have PCOS! No cysts." I stared at him and then I told him that there were other kinds of PCOS where people didn't have cysts, and he was like, "Oh, okay."
"W for women"
marmunches
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYVm51qMY9o/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
It's such a quiet, still evening.
A cool little breeze is gently rustling the leaves and the fabric of the parasol on the patio. The loudest sounds are the highway noises and some kinds of insects. So it's quiet and still with an undercurrent of busyness.
Unfortunately, a lot of people have had this experience, I've discovered as I've gotten older.
"Actually, Democracy Dies in H.R." by Amanda Taub - The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/05/18/world/americas/actually-democracy-dies-in-hr.html
Oh dear, this is pricey...
"Low Back Disorders: Evidence-Based Prevention and Rehabilitation: 9781718236257: Medicine & Health Science Books" @ Amazon.com https://share.google/xzOoHJdEKrCqOG3rz
I think I should check out the story about Trimalchio and "Last Night in Brooklyn" in the near future.
"Trimalchio in West Egg at 100: Gatsby and Modern Character" | The Hudson Review
https://hudsonreview.com/2025/10/trimalchio-in-west-egg-at-100-gatsby-and-modern-character/
"Last Night in Brooklyn" by Xóchitl González | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/231126916-last-night-in-brooklyn
People aren't as murderous as they used to be in other eras, so that's progress.
"Howards End (1992) Trailer #1"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=hXdE9bf4Z4s&si=UwAJuW-t9UosfeTv
Also what if someone wrote a story about Charles in which you found out more about how Charles was really traumatized, and that when he hit Leonard Bast with the sword, it was because he was literally reacting to the rape culture of his era by viewing Leonard as the rapist of Helen? That's scapegoating, and he still shouldn't have done it. But anyways, it was an interesting thought...
Michigan's got good cherries!
"No fruit at California U-pick cherry farms after warm winter"
https://www.latimes.com/environment/story/2026-05-19/cherry-season-record-warmth
Apparently, being bad to humans is not paying off.
"Trump’s Deportations Are Costing Americans Jobs, Study Finds" by Ronda Kaysen
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/05/19/realestate/trumps-deportations-are-costing-americans-jobs.html
"The home building industry, already strained, faces a new challenge amid a surge in deportations.Credit...Philip Cheung for The New York Times
According to a new study, construction was impacted more than any other industry studied, with American-born workers losing more jobs than immigrants as a result of the deportations."
Confidence of a stay at home cat.
Chess is a rather patriarchal construct. Why is the king the most important piece if he just moves one square at a time. Who would want to be a king in this century? Eeeesh. Plenty of drawbacks to being a king in other centuries, too.
Sounds so pretty!
Found a Helper.
I'm going to go get my little drum and heal my little muscles.
🪷🩷💞
"Follow me for more inspiring manifestation"
carly_christopher
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXcVtuqkZ9k/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Men in female dominated fields"
cbeaumartino
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYNm_N2SMfL/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Feeling better!
"see how absurd it is..."
fiona_yoong
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYR1MvNxZEF/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"My page..."
allirose819
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYLkAUJssL9/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"The way we save the world..."
artbybri
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVeNpgxkYFW/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"I went to an all girls school and learnt more about the male body than anything to do with women's health" ~ georgias.endojourney
Quotable!
"Most women are learning the basics..."
wombenwellness
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYgINZghjQT/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
You're not going to be like a successful man.
Clearly, that is not your path.
"Most women are learning the basics..."
wombenwellness
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYgINZghjQT/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Okie dokie.
"That's just that generation showing you again that that the patterns they're still so highly addicted to are the ones that you're no longer going to be repeating."
I feel like our collective humanity could really evolve at moments like these.
"'It was something very frustrating ... and very difficult,” the mother said from Mexico in Spanish. “It felt like a bucket of boiling water — or maybe cold water, I don’t even know — was thrown at me.”
The child was 10 years old when immigration authorities deported both of her parents, who were undocumented, to Mexico more than a year ago. The girl and four of her siblings, three of whom are also U.S. citizens, also left with their parents.
NBC News is withholding the name of the mother and family members because they now live in an area of Mexico where U.S. citizens have been kidnapped.
Their removal interrupted months of lifesaving treatment the girl had been receiving in the U.S. after undergoing emergency surgery in 2024 to remove the brain tumor, which her doctors are still studying because it is so unusual.
Now 12, her health has significantly deteriorated since she started living in Mexico without access to the care she needs, her mother said in an exclusive interview with NBC News.
That reality became inescapable last month when her daughter had a seizure so intense she fell and suffered bruising, the mother said. They rushed to the nearest hospital, which was 2 1/2 hours away by car from where they live with the mother’s elderly parents. There, an MRI and tests returned abnormal results, the mother said.
The girl’s specialist doctors in the U.S. told the mother the results show the girl’s brain is not regenerating, an important part of recovery that helps restore lost neurological functions such as motor skills and speech. It also reduces the likelihood of a new tumor forming, she said.
“Instead of improving, my daughter’s health is actually regressing,” the mother said."
~ Nicole Acevedo
"Deported family of U.S. citizen girl with rare brain tumor denied parole"
By George, fancy that.
"Apparently, if your daddy had indulged you more, and if you'd been more biologically attuned with what the larger culture wanted from an XX, chances are great that you'd be so addicted to shoes, too."
Henrik Ibsen – "Hedda Gabler (Act 4)"
https://genius.com/Henrik-ibsen-hedda-gabler-act-4-annotated
Maybe this is a good example of success to behold, although he's also a man, and I am not.
"Author Gary Paul Nabhan's new book celebrates revolutionaries of the borderlands"
"What do you hope people take away from your book?
Well, there's a lot of despair right now. I mean, I've heard it from friends who've been in community service and activists and nonprofits and educational institutions for decades, and I've never seen them so close to total despair. And I think knowing that there have been a dozen waves of cultural resistance that precede us, that we can learn from them how to have resilience in the face of adversity, to hold together the identity of a community like Tucson, who has always been welcoming. That's the most important thing that I could imagine, that the book does to remind people that they're not alone. This isn't the first time that little Davids have met ungodly Goliaths. We have the capacity to right the ship and then sail on, celebrating what we have rather than feeling defensive about it."
Maybe all the shoemakers and the shoes should start talking back?
Tori Amos: ‘I can’t play piano in flat shoes’
https://www.thetimes.com/life-style/fashion/article/tori-amos-interview-style-unzipped-jzf9p0mgh
"Do you and your daughter, Natashya, ever swap clothes?
There was a time when we’d swap shoes and then one day she realised her feet had grown and she was a size bigger than me — she calls it her 'Cinderella’s sisters moment'. My niece Kelsey wears my shoes now."
~ Scarlett Russell
I don't know why so many rich people always have to do this kind of stuff, like make an extremely privileged person feel like Cinderella, or Cinderella's sister. It's like a weird mental state that I don't understand, and I don't want to.
Between this and the articles about student loans, I feel like I have to remind some people to be more cognizant.
"Deported family of U.S. citizen girl with rare brain tumor denied parole"
Looks mystical and maybe beautiful to visit someday...
For the month of May:
Sleeping Bear Dunes National Lakeshore, MI
That's a thought.
Maybe people have to pull out all of their strange personalities that developed when they were dealing with various things that they were going through and and and they have to take them on a vacation or something.
Wah. 😭 There, now I'm done.
I'm not doing this anymore. Deal with your immaturity without me; go call on the archangels or something. Go get spiritual. I'm not doing this. I already have an injury and difficulty walking and there was an absolutely nothing to cause it so I know it's a psychosomatic thing. So ridiculous. So ridiculous.
I'm sure I'll sleep soon. It's going to be cool.
Maybe I was fond of ridiculousness in some ways. I probably was. Because of creativity. Because the ridiculous was kind of fun, sometimes. But then somehow, the ridiculousness started to be too much of a drag. But I don't understand because people can still be good and have this nice light shine through them. So why does the ridiculousness have to happen? Maybe it was so unnecessary. Oh well. Maybe tomorrow or maybe next month? Or maybe later in the year? Or maybe some other time is going to be less ridiculous? Maybe.
How bizarre; but also, how relevant?
"New economics study finds that ICE activity has upended the US childcare workforce"
https://phys.org/news/2026-05-economics-ice-upended-childcare-workforce.html
It makes me think of being a little kid visiting West Point and sitting inside with a book about Ewoks and noticing the woman who was cleaning. She was probably an immigrant, and she was probably Latina. I wonder who cleans West Point now.
I don't know why, but I guess I'll try one more time.
I feel like I have to talk to little kids in adult bodies. Think about the difference between if somebody did or said something and maybe it felt mean but it was not, but it just kind of happened, and it was kind of almost by accident or maybe the universe orchestrated it. And think about the difference between that, and being mean on purpose.
I'm going to ask for the universe to help with a physical healing.
I haven't been able to walk well and it feels like somebody took a club and beat me and I want to be able to walk better again.
Monday, May 18, 2026
I just will submit to the torrent of information and maybe I will sleep better.
I have too much other information coming at me right now to be able to cater to the "Dig in their heels and be stubborn" people. Can't do it. Just not supposed to. I don't know. Things got weird, I guess.
If you admit you have a problem, you'll start healing faster.
You should say, "My friends and I were raised to disrespect and mistreat people like you and a lot of other people. We were convinced that it was normal to act that way." You have a hard time admitting that. And there's all kinds of shady behavior patterns, that don't serve everyone equally, that need to be let go of now. Oh well, I hope that something good comes out of whatever's happening. If that's too hard, that's what I hope. But other people are already going to have to change before you do, because they've already started. They've been forced to change more quickly than some of the other people have.
People with different life experiences express themselves in different ways.
I think it hurts worse when people discriminate against others because they got led to act and think in certain ways, somehow, and they got the message that that was the best that they could do, and then they dig in their heels to show that they feel like they're justified, and they still don't want to talk about things. They hate talking about things; they just like to assert themselves. I don't know why all the other people's children have to suffer just because of their addictions to doing things in a certain way, and a way that clearly doesn't serve everybody equally, and is not very respectful of everybody, but being that way is something that just got normalized for them, somehow. I guess other ways will become more appealing to them, eventually. But I guess it doesn't happen right away.
The news about these kinds of things happening seemingly has more meaning for some...
"Student tries to stop ICE detention center from opening by her high school" - The Washington Post
"Amid prospect of ICE at World Cup games, vendors weigh livelihoods against safety"
https://www.nbcnews.com/sports/soccer/ice-world-cup-games-vendors-california-rcna344392
"Minnesota county charges an ICE officer in a nonfatal shooting during Trump’s immigration crackdown"
People...like the people you know...
"Chicago Public Schools senior and mother, seeking asylum, arrested by ICE agents"
I'm sorry that our humanity is suffering.
"Daily Memo: Hunger Strikes Begin in California ICE Detention Centers as Conditions Worsen" ~ L.A. TACO
People know a lot of stuff is going on. But they don't want to talk about it.
It feels like ways of life that used to just be normal are now coming to an end and sometimes others know this too. But some still don't want to think about it or talk about it, and it's because it doesn't put them in such a good light. They're surprisingly inarticulate when it comes to certain kinds of people being treated worse than others. They're very unaccustomed to talking about certain kinds of people and acting like certain kinds of people actually matter. Certain kinds of people are still being treated as less important than others, but it's begun to feel like it is no longer as acceptable for that to continue.
Letting other people suffer more and take on more is not going to been seen as the best or only option. And all the circuitous routes that some people feel they need to take to avoid looking at certain things or talking about certain issues are starting to crumble. Well, something like that seems to be happening right now. It's like it's a beginning, like the beginning of an earthquake. Well I guess there's a lot of heartbreak that's going to be unleashed if some people really stop doing the things they were doing before and start trying to get better.
That's a little part of what seems to be happening at the moment.
This is one of those songs people can listen to and think about their lost inner daughter.
PJ Harvey - "Down By The Water"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=lbq4G1TjKYg&si=6RpG4Dlyvg6zX8Z5
Since the daughters deserve to see women be half of the people in government, and I've never seen that, and I probably never will in this life. And for some reason things are going backwards in that realm! I think there must be an emotional component for all of that outward don't care about daughters' human rights manifestation. But maybe things are going forward and progressing in other realms. It almost seems like that's happening, too.
People really need to get back into reading more.
Most kids should probably do more reading, for example.
"Kids Rarely Read Whole Books Anymore. Even in English Class." - The New York Times
♥️ Second composition: 💔"Truly, so disturbing, a work in progress forever"❤️🩹
"Over 145,000 US children separated from parents since Trump’s ICE surge, study estimates" | US immigration | The Guardian
🌹🍀First composition.🎶👸🏾
👨🏼🍳🌭🫅🏼How can I help my favorite rich friends get even richer; after all, it'll trickle down to our best behaved servants eventually!🦸🏼🎞️🧚
💪🏼Time to tell the muscles to stop / to start cooperating better 🌱.
"Can I use nettle fibres as a string..."
https://www.reddit.com/r/lute/s/qIRvIcEjsQ
➕🤔🟰
"Introduction to Strings - Part 2"
This is sad. I was hoping it was better in some ways.
"It feels like it really is palpably worse to be female than 10 years ago."
Emerson was a very generous man in many ways.
And Emerson certainly loved his house and his land! I think he liked having servants, too.
I mean, she wasn't like the grandma who loved kids so much that she'd watch them for free.
So I'm pretty sure that the mean babysitter's only reason for babysitting other people's children was so she could have a house with land. Makes sense to me. I wonder if she assessed which children's parents had the most land. She might have?
Excuse me, but which white guy has the best house...
For our children
or for our inner children!?
Geez! Think about it.
Ha-ha, got this book from 1947 for free!
I do feel fortunate to be able to enjoy a time of woolgathering.
Could be fun to read a book by Patti Smith soon!
Kate Bush - "Army Dreamers - Official Music Video"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=QOZDKlpybZE&si=rE0omDrO9EJcvI9s
Discopolis - "Committed to Sparkle Motion (Original)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=R7XZ8chFCx4&si=-tLy7xB8RMZsAb3m
"Donnie Darko - The Director's Cut's intro"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=CJ7Fz3m485s&si=A4zjEIBREoDJYpTR
"Woolgathering by Patti Smith" | Goodreads
"It's so hard to believe that people actually believed those things and spoke that way."
Versus the "Don't speak of anything that's too uncomfortable for you" way of living. But anyways, that's probably the "divorced from the reality you actually experienced in your most recent incarnation" part of your consciousness speaking.
"Shooting Snakes" by S. Cokal on JSTOR
Great! Kind of wish they did that when I was younger. But great!
God there's so many intelligent guys and gals online being so supportive and hilarious and funny and supportive and everything about women being on their periods now! And more and more of them are getting really interested in the various incarnations of PCOS, too, or PMOS, as it's now called.
Cat content 😻🐅🧶🐆🐈
"she says he should..."
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYVB-HFREWH/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"lido mouse..."
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYXg1vGRvrh/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"you don't want to..."
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYfMKzFxunP/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"TW | I'm frankly so tired..."
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYak-ZdADnw/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Mom cat carrying her kitty"
StrayPawsofIstanbul
Hera wanted "vanilla" to sound like "Veni Hera," probably.
Skating Polly - "Hail Mary (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=v2ahvxACX5Q&si=kudTbdMD6T3QtO0F
"Word Root: ven (Root)" | Membean
https://membean.com/roots/ven-come
Skating Polly - "Camelot (Official Video)'
https://youtube.com/watch?v=FbFoX8SvaKI&si=q5kR2M6OOKV7dTp-
Tori Amos - "Siren Lyrics & Meanings"| SongMeanings
https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/13616/
What if they could be blessed in a less annoying way though?
Blessed were the not-too-traumatized peacemakers who didn't have the past and the future breathing down their necks constantly.
"Conan's Audio Engineer Called Him A 'Little B*tch'"
@TeamCoco
One of those brains that's wired for whatever.
🎮🧠🙀
"An interesting difference between men and women #clairbearskits"
@claire_hawkins
https://youtube.com/shorts/RGZ8QqwE5nU?si=XIL7esKRdkNcyBFr
"Corrupt Cop #comedy #skit #clairbearskits"
@claire_hawkins
However, I should really practice more Spanish and not lose it all.
And learn more about the healing herbs, too.
"Fresh flowers brighten life"
Obduliah Ag
This one's probably going to make the dad do the babysitting if he has children with her.
Bless the babysitting dads! They're on their way up. I mean, their stars are rising.
@mind_the_kate
mind_the_kate
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYRdWZbIwP5/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Aptly named, I meant to say.
Thanks for being such a mean blonde mom babysitter with such an athlete named son and such interesting patrons at your little home of don't you dare look through my telescope!
They probably just need to heal more from all the stuff that got role modeled for them though.
It's kind of sad and disappointing when the meaner sides of people win. That's all I'm saying.
"Shooting Snakes" by S. Cokal on JSTOR
https://www.jstor.org/stable/40638382
Oh well, at least you tried, right?
I mean you definitely tried saying hello to SOME kinds of people. Which kinds of people did you try saying hello to the most? And in what manner? Lol.
Rosie Thomas & Sufjan Stevens ~ "Say Hello"
NiniDooDooDoo
Also, in one part of my reading, some lines of poetry came wafting over my hippocampus.
"Somehow I get the fear
of living in the world's unlove forever
better than I get the cheerleaders' braced grins."
~ Alice Fulton in the poem "Maidenhead"
"Felt: Poems by Alice Fulton" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/845421.Felt
A lot of that poem deals with certain kinds of feelings, like what happens when an aunt is considered "mental."
"Shooting Snakes" (by S. Cokal) on JSTOR
https://www.jstor.org/stable/40638382
But going back to "Shooting Snakes"... Golly, why couldn't her friend fit in with the cheerleaders? She sounds like she tried really hard, too. And it still didn't work.
The looks premium was a "look a certain way" premium.
Unfortunately, she got one of those mothers who was obsessed with her daughter losing weight.
"Shooting Snakes" by S. Cokal on JSTOR
https://www.jstor.org/stable/40638382
Sometimes your daughters don't get the same genetics that you got, you know? You're going to have to deal with it somehow, if that happens.
Stupid patriarchy.
Also, imagine if you got smacked in the face for having a smart mouth, but only by your male parent.
For some reason the female parent never smacked you in the face for having a smart mouth. I wonder why that was?
The narrator of this story by S. Cokal doesn't seem to have gotten smacked in the face. She got to do lots of extra chores when she "talked back," I guess.
"Shooting Snakes" on JSTOR
I suppose some people tend to repeat what got role-modeled for them sometimes.Glad I read that "Shooting Snakes" story yesterday, too.
I can tell which kids you're going to treat with the most favoritism. By the way, you treat the adults when they mess up. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful parents!
"Shooting Snakes" on JSTOR
https://www.jstor.org/stable/40638382
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