Saint Sister - "Blood Moon [Official Video]"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=_jfP2WiLtXM&si=2ArTNleaEH-RjbUx
Los Fabulosos Cadillacs - "Matador (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=pjPA7CXutDw&si=NVjFiRzlgnluXbPd
Siouxsie And The Banshees - "Face To Face (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=zpaqBXc5MTk&si=9nWS7W0cKArLSuIO
Tori Amos - "Yes, Anastasia (Lyrics)"
"Blind Ranking Books That Helped Me"
zachmentalloadcoach
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DQe5_bIDOGS/?psln=ZmphNGtmMnhzNTY1
"Migrating monarch butterflies find respite along right of way"
https://www.chicagotribune.com/2026/10/08/monarch-butterflies-right-of-way/
"Last night .."
nationalwomenslawcenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeQeg2hPPio/?srtk=YzF2d3NlNGZweHE0
This is only a joke.
"Older sister energy ⚡"
katiheifner
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DABan3sR0zL/?cplk=MTBteXo1YnV2djV3bQ==
"Focusing on your appearance increases benevolent sexism"
People have their own timelines, and I guess if some other people out there are satisfied with their place in the world right now, and they just want to be more feminist in some future lifetime, instead of in this one, then that's their choice.
"I'm sure she's thrilled"
jacquieleemusic
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePtWLUyrC5/?srtk=MWk4amJmMmJhN25tcA==
What if I could find out the name of a certain rapey romance novel that I read at Grandma's house because her kids kept stuff there and I read their books but I never go back there anymore.
"What if it's not so much that I'm mad at some people, but its more that I'm mad at the situation?
Arguably, I probably am actually mad at some people.
However, it's probably much more constructive to emphasize being mad at the situation."
All kinds of things that the more successful people used to find tolerable are starting to fall apart and that's kind of cool.
"Late night yap fest"
toninagy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeQu-3Lu-ib/?obrf=YXd3a3I5YmhlOTA2
I remember when I graduated and spent the summer by myself in a studio apartment in upstate New York. I felt like there was a playful and charming boy spirit around me. The kind of spirit who would beckon you to feel delighted and see the fun in life. That felt very real to me.
"Christian nationalism is teaching young men to disrespect women"
derrickfromcolumbus
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePF_OEuw1r/?exln=bDk1ZHJ3bnZobGw2
"Tonight's movie: PROMISING YOUNG WOMAN"
georgehahn
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd2cm8uBOBx/?xtok=ZG1xbXJwcDgza2Vt
"How to not gaslight girls and women, even if the patriarchal culture you were raised in really, really wanted you to and still will find ways to so totally reward you for doing so."
"I forgot to mention"
georgehahn
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeyQXujIj/?vrfl=MTI3eDJ3NHFpeWhzcg==
I just don't think some people want to acknowledge how sad it is that toxic patriarchal culture thinks we're supposed to act like and look like a Megyn Kelly in order to get ahead in the stupid, violent, b******* f****** patriarchal system.
Like good feelings I used to get from Christmas holidays. I know those were good feelings.
Some of the people who were around me and who were loved by me and perhaps loved me during those Christmas holidays are people who got duped into going along with others in voting for the fascist president who has created horrendous things in this country.
I don't know.
"October 7th, Harrison, NJ. ICE leaves children behind to fend for themselves on the street. This is Trump's America."
release_the_brikabracken
#jenafriedman #standupcomedy
jenafriedman
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd84JekBSag/?srtk=MWJjYnhnZW5ueGV4dw==
"EEEEEEYUCK!!!!!!!!"
arianajasmine__
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeuAaxZCR/?exln=cDJkZnBrYW9jajdh
"What should happen..."
hilaryhendersonn
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd66TNYtRRD/?dlrf=MThueW1vZDM1aXdnZQ==
"Nobody knows..."
riotofhealing_official
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeJ7YJZRZv5/?vrfl=aWFhNXUxaXh1dG1y
I think that there's a very real possibility that less RAPE is happening right now at fraternities all across this nation. Maybe even all over the world. Because people keep talking about this.
"What should happen..."
hilaryhendersonn
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd66TNYtRRD/?dlrf=MThueW1vZDM1aXdnZQ==
I went outside and stood on the grassy ground with my bare feet and felt like the tree and I were on good friendly terms and then I did some of the the Donna Eden Energy Medicine routine and it felt pretty good.
I can't tell if I think this project looks annoying or intriguing or feminist or what.
"Eve Is Online..."
@grimes
Megyn Kelly's story of sexual harassment was featured in a major motion picture, and she still says this s***.
EEEEEEYUCK!!!!!!!!!
arianajasmine_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeuAaxZCR/?srtk=cDJkZnBrYW9jajdh
"EEEEEEYUCK!!!!!!!!!"
arianajasmine_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeuAaxZCR/?srtk=cDJkZnBrYW9jajdh
She is a mother. She has a daughter. Sons. What is her problem? I am sick.
"EEEEEEYUCK!!!!!!!!!"
arianajasmine_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeuAaxZCR/?srtk=cDJkZnBrYW9jajdh
I would like to be shown and helped by the universe to know what would be the optimal things I could do for my body today and in respect with its own timing and what is best for it which may or may not be similar to what other people think I should do. I am aware of this. I would like to get better at listening to the part of the universe now which knows better and can help me more.
I took a shower and I'm breathing better now. Maybe not optimally, but it does feel better.
Looking at Energizer Bunny type stuff does not seem to make the body feel like getting well faster. I wonder why...
"What Faye From Netflix's East Of Eden Looks Like In Real Life"
https://www.women.com/2279957/faye-from-netflixs-east-of-eden-is-gorgeous-in-real-life/
Taking out the recycling is very important.
Flight of the Conchords - "Business Time"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WGOohBytKTU&si=72JVrK5vEoq7k9tz
Taking out the recycling and noticing the crescent moon and changing colors in the sky and a couple of crows at the top of a telephone pole and a rooster crowing...
I have some online library books to read as well.
"I never thought I'd wake up to the president announcing that..."
mckennafairey
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKU9Y8BpPy/?stkn=MXZhaWhhYXhzeHE1NQ==
"Since y'all don't like to leave Instagram to read..."
Memo Torres
https://www.instagram.com/p/DcmhtArD_oQ/?img_index=5&stkn=MXJlaWszbnhnbW45Mw==
"Please reach out"
izzymirez
https://www.instagram.com/p/DeH9OPQSMCE/?stkn=anZsbnppb3NvN2hw
"I need to say something"
richboymargarita
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd7SpRiSIJV/?stkn=dnh6Ymh5NXFkaGsx
It feels like the cold in my body is dragging around.
I saw some people saying that they are going to be doing more ICE surges in my state. I understand that maybe I don't really have to suffer over this, as a white American, and that a lot of people in my situation are easily able to put this kind of thing out of mind, but I am suffering over it a bit, because, I don't know. There's a lot of reasons, I guess.
Well, maybe I experienced persecution in other lives or maybe I felt different enough in this life that I identified with people who are outsiders.
Maybe it's because they put those Bible verses on my little baptism pamphlet about "Loving the sojourner." And I was really moved by them when I found them as an adult. My Grandma from Michigan saved a copy for me.
Maybe because she had me sing, "Red and yellow, black and white. They are precious in his sight, Jesus loves the little children of the world."
Well, in the past, I spent a lot of my life trying to tutor and help people who are probably being affected. I was a tutor at a college but there was some stuff going on there that wasn't good and I had to leave because I was getting nightmares and I couldn't go back there anymore.
I had nightmares that I feel were telling me that there was toxic stuff going on in the administration. And it was bad enough that I needed to not go back there because it was going to affect me if I did; it was going to affect my health very badly.
There's probably members of that administration who voted for Trump. A lot of people who are just kind of really into money voted for him.
Trump, by the way, was just recently saying that he doesn't care if this part of the United States gets bombed.
And also some of my dreams were nightmares about bombs falling, like it was World War II or something.
I don't know. I guess the stuff that's been going on is affecting me a bit, but it was affecting me even before he was acting that way. It's almost like I was picking up on some stuff before it happened.
So I thinking that maybe for fun, we could do some My Little Pony "Friendship is magic" stuff, okay. We could believe that we were friends in another lifetime.
Maybe we were other kinds of things in another life too. But maybe we were friends in at least one past life. I think the universe is making me feel like I should believe that, and say so?
Because maybe we really do have some kind of soul agreement, to be affected by knowing about each other in this time.
Maybe I don't logically know why I believe this, but it's what my feelings are telling me.
And I wish the cold would stop dragging around. It's really dragging. But it's the early in the morning, so it might feel better in the afternoon.
Oh, and maybe I think some of the souls who were a part of Anne Frank's experience are kind of like on my team, too. Sometimes I think that. I think they are. They're in the spirit realm and they're on my team.
I feel like something in the Universe is smiling when I say that, because it's true.
Actually, I believe being able to dive more deeply into the difficult things really will pay off for a lot of us in the in the end.
People will be able to help each other out more and create more things in the future.
Patience and timing and pacing...I am smiling.
And for me, I keep getting this song in my head again for some reason:
Tori Amos – "Pandora’s Aquarium Lyrics | Genius Lyrics"
https://genius.com/Tori-amos-pandoras-aquarium-lyrics
I think it helps.
Who voted for random guys to just be able to kidnap a woman at an airport because they wanted Trump to boost their bank accounts?
"A disturbing scene at LAX"
defiancedispatch
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKCMrpgKEC/?stkn=MW1uM2cxODZ3dWc2cw==
I can look up books by Florence Scoville Shin and stuff.
"Florence Scovel Shinn" - Wikipedia
"‘Run Ben Run’ puts a queer, absurdist spin on Benjamin Franklin" - Philadelphia Gay News
https://epgn.com/2026/09/28/run-ben-run-puts-a-queer-absurdist-spin-on-benjamin-franklin/
"The Rich Think You're Jealous. The Science Says You're Not."
Barry's Economics
"Healing is Based in Honesty 2"
Sarah McCrum
Not everyone on this planet makes their money by being a professional athlete, correct?
"Body Composition of Elite Female Players in Five Different Sports Games"
https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4415834/
This article is from 2014.
"For women, being 13 pounds overweight means losing $9,000 a year in salary"
https://www.theguardian.com/money/us-money-blog/2014/oct/30/women-pay-get-thin-study
So why do they want you, as a woman, to know that the amount you are worth as a human being is based on the size of your body?
I mean, money just seems like a great coping mechanism for some people when it comes to making excuses for why they feel entitled to be unempathetic, uncaring and complicit in systems that do a lot of damage to others.
Unhealed traumas (often acquired at ages when children are very vulnerable to suffering as a result of what the grown-ups are up to) are a very good explanation for why employing sexist survival strategies to get through life makes sense to some people, but they are not a good excuse.
The cold is getting better, but my body is still tired. My body does not want to go to parties. My body does not want to go to concerts. Maybe my body could stay home and watch that documentary about grief that another musician made.
What a terrible situation to be in:
"a sixteen-year-old girl whose family had been displaced by paramilitaries"
Page 202
"I don't know why, in the end, she helped me"
Page 203
"The Man Who Could Move Clouds by Ingrid Rojas Contreras"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/59411559-the-man-who-could-move-clouds
"The Family Heart: A Memoir of When Our Son Came Out by Robb Forman Dew" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1123976.The_Family_Heart
"The Man Who Could Move Clouds by Ingrid Rojas Contreras"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/59411559-the-man-who-could-move-clouds
"The whitest a person of color could be -- when, in other words, they were considered to be not brown, but white -- was a castizo, the child of a mestizo and a Spaniard. Unlike other castes, castizos had the right to become priests, had open access to education..."
Page 195
The Man Who Could Move Clouds by Ingrid Rojas Contreras | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/59411559-the-man-who-could-move-clouds
Sure, we know some people will get interested in acknowledging the humanity of a much wider variety of people living on this planet on their own timelines, and not a moment sooner.
"Sara Bareilles is not your grief guru"
“I am so interested in truth telling. I’m so desperate for it in the world. I’m so grateful when I find it in other people,” she affirmed. “I felt for my own healing there wasn’t anything to get from not telling the truth.”
Rejecting the idea that she’s now some kind of grief guru who’s been through the fire and come out on the other side, she sees herself and her band more as “grief sherpas” — there to uphold listeners.
“I’m just a student of grief,” she offered. “I would be lying if I felt like I had any kind of expertise to offer. I just am very willing to share my very honest experience.”
Janine Schaults
The cat is happy. She's totally content. No need to perform some bouncy energy I don't feel like embodying right now for the cat. I love cats.
In chaotic times, you may find that you must come to terms with your own inability to rescue or save others, and face the much more pressing need you now have, which is to learn how to rescue and save fragments of yourself.
Old ways cannot meet everyone's needs.
"Blood Red River"
Beth Orton
https://youtube.com/watch?v=NfVsU9wCobs&si=GEPPFzPb4nM3H4Vn
Grieving is a natural process for the humans who deal with complicated situations and emotions.
"If you don't keep up, the values that you were raised with are going to date you very quickly."
I can remember being a young teenager staying at my stepfather's mother's house in a college town and wondering why she acted so scared at the idea of me going outside at night. It was linked to the college men in the fraternities that were around, but nobody ever wanted to get into the details of what I was supposed to be afraid of.
And I just had a conversation this weekend with someone who said that when she went to college and there was crazy stuff going on with fraternities, girls were just expected to lock themselves in and not go outside. Nobody did anything to try to curtail the violence.
So being able to go to college and participate in fraternity life and only get enjoyment from that life, and make connections with others that benefit you later in your career and in your friendships and such, is a real privilege that not everyone has been afforded, to say the least.
"Listen to this professor..."
riseabovejusticemovement
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeJ9KbLs_SP/?stkn=MTNhN2gwbGFzdG84eQ==
And I feel that there are also people who have great gifts to share with the world, who can still learn a lot from others (and enjoy doing so).
"losing sight of your power is dangerous"
Page 44
"The Man Who Could Move Clouds by Ingrid Rojas Contreras" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/59411559-the-man-who-could-move-clouds
"Cleanse Anger, Grief And Anxiety From Your Aura"
@PositiveEnergyVibrations
I think my body believes that I need to get better at communicating with it and listening to it more. Sometimes that means I need say no to things that are not optimal for it and yes to what's better for it. Unfortunately, I've been saying yes to a lot of things that are not optimal for it. And other people know that, and maybe they are having better experiences in their bodies and so then they might think that they know what I need to do instead. But actually, other people really don't know what's optimal for this body. I have to get better at communicating with my own body and asking it more questions.
"I mean..."
purrfectinfluencer
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeIarJ4NovN/?stkn=MWpqcW1hbGo1Z2hsYQ==
"Throwback to my favorite costume"
kayy_tomaro_8
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKYxUpqXOk/?stkn=MXJpZXo4NGpyOHF2bw==
"Did I ever complain?"
iamhappytour
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKEHbtNUPq/?stkn=MXRxbmQwdDE0NDVrOQ==
Sia - "Elastic Heart feat. Shia LaBeouf & Maddie Ziegler"
"Increased anti-immigrant rhetoric, ICE activity are barriers to seeking medical care, 2 studies show" | CIDRAP
But they're going to talk about it anyway!
"Not being able to work the system as good as Grandpa could work the system was almost like living with a disability when you were living under the Patriarchy. And you know what the Nazis felt entitled to do to the disabled people?"
The Wizard Of Oz - "If I Only Had A Heart"
At the very least, some people should get a lot more articulate about why they choose to do the things they choose to do.
There are money-centric Nazis and ICE agents who really, really like this song that just came on the radio.
Snoop Dogg – "Gin and Juice Lyrics"
Even Otto Frank said some of the Nazis were nicer than the others.
I'm sure that some ICE agents are just a little bit insensitive, and they just tried to find a job that would help them bring home some more money to their families, and they're not pure evil. But nevertheless...
I do not know, but maybe so.
"Officials Speak Out After ICE Surge Hits Santa Maria" - The Santa Barbara Independent
https://www.independent.com/2026/10/06/officials-speak-out-after-ice-surge-hits-santa-maria/
I don't know what to say, but maybe some of the not so flexible people could find some other kinds of people, like ICE agents or something, who they would really like to vibe with?
"Nona thought of leaving him, but she cowered at how people treated divorced women. One divorced woman lived down the road, alone in a hut. No one talked to her. The men referred to her as damaged goods because she wasn't a virgin, and since she had no purity to protect, it was known she was sometimes assaulted. She showed up at Nono and Nona's door every once in a while, seeking Nono's help to snuff out the life that might be growing in her. Nona bade him treat her for free, which he did. He patted himself on the back for this deed, deeming himself to be different from the other men in the village, but his life, too, was built on the willful and cruel ignorance of the cost of his own high moods."
Page 24
The Man Who Could Move Clouds by Ingrid Rojas Contreras | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/59411559-the-man-who-could-move-clouds
"The year Mami was born, in 1956, just two years before La Violencia came to an end, Nono returned from his annual journey knowing there was a baby. He'd had no idea Nona was pregnant when he left, but after eight months the spirits revealed Nona was about to give birth, and that this newborn would end everyone."
Page 21
The Man Who Could Move Clouds by Ingrid Rojas Contreras | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/59411559-the-man-who-could-move-clouds
"indomitable women with great memory"
&&&&&&!
"Like these women, Nono earned his way..."
Page 18
"The Man Who Could Move Clouds by Ingrid Rojas Contreras"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/59411559-the-man-who-could-move-clouds
Minor colds and books are very good companions.
"A new start after 60: Menopausal and out of work, I sat crying in my car. Now, I'm a stand up comedian"
"3 of my friends left one night..."
throuthread
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd5NTFtBteH/?stkn=MTM0bDR0dzcxa2dwMg==
dariantheaquarian
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeJ-Azmpanr/?stkn=MXU1ZGVqZmYyMDRobg==
"As I sit in my car..."
_besanii
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd67V4kxpOS/?stkn=MWpuOXhzcjdvMzNjaQ==
Two of us were sitting at the corner table, but only one of us noticed that the man who came in toward the end of our meal wanted our table, and that he complained loudly to the waitress about it.
And that he was playing some offensive, misogynistic sounding stuff on the phone he had.
And that he complained to the waitress when a guy who worked in the back came out and gave him "a look."
And that the waitress kept having to control the situation and placate him.
Because he wasn't really seated right next to us. He was actually seated a little bit farther away, but still.
One of us was more attuned to notice this behavior, and one of us was not.
(And then afterwards outside of the restaurant:
"Did you notice what that guy did and said?"
"What? No, but I thought maybe he was leaving.")
Just trying to have a nice meal!
"I am tired. We are tired. Men, do something. #patriarchy"
5hahem
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKF20mtYaY/?stkn=MXEzYzVuMnZjcmVodQ==
"I am tired. We are tired. Men, do something. #patriarchy"
5hahem
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKF20mtYaY/?stkn=MXEzYzVuMnZjcmVodQ==
When I took us out to dinner a few nights ago, the restaurant was very quiet that evening and we had a particular table in the corner, and near the end our our meal a man came in and said very loudly that he had wanted the corner table where we were sitting. But then he took a different table instead.
So since we had a very late dinner (because the work shift ended late) and a lot of the street where the restaurant was located was blocked off because of a cancer walk event happening the next day, it was just us and the man who said he wanted the corner table in the restaurant.
I also heard the man tell the waitress that he was going to be writing reviews of the restaurant online on his platform or something.
And the man started playing with his phone in this nice restaurant and really loudly blaring off of his phone was some content about sports and misogynistic language, and "b****" was said multiple times.
He didn't play that on his phone the whole time he was there, but he did it for part of the time.
And our waitress, who was also his waitress, had to cater to this man and coddle him. He seemed like he would say sort of complaining things to her a lot, and she felt that she would have to be very nice to him.
Somebody in else in the restaurant apparently walked out and gave him a look, and he complained to her about them giving him a look. So she went back to the kitchen and said she would yell at him. (The person on staff who supposedly gave him a look.)
And then she came back and she said, oh he said he didn't give you a look. He said that's just what his face looks like.
I think he gave him a look.
And before we were getting up to leave, she jokingly told him that she would give him a reservation at the table in the corner where we were sitting from now on.
Didn't realize the table we were sitting at was so special and so coveted!
"Ice Skaters c.1902 Amazing Film: Restored to Life"
@glamourdaze
"Chinese medicine does not have a neat equation..."
maielements
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeEG6pnAhpq/?stkn=MXZwbDUwcTNtaTdqaw==
And keep the other one on the shelf because it's falling apart now. 💗
"Herbert Rowbarge by Natalie Babbitt"| Goodreads
So I do feel that perhaps the universe is asking for some boundaries to be clarified.
I would say that after finding out a program that probably really does help people and used to be available as part of a membership, but is now no longer available as part of the membership, but is only available if you sign up to pay extra for the live call version, is making me feel like that was not the only path that needed to be taken.
And I've already recently signed up for something that was a bit extra. And I felt like it probably was an okay idea even though some people had reservations about me doing it. A lot of people were like no, I think that it might help.
And I even had some extra bonus assistance come to me that I wasn't expecting, and it seemed like oh, maybe the universe is being nice about this and wants me to do things this way.
So in that regard maybe I would say yes. That is the right decision.
The reason why I don't think it's the right decision for me to sign up for yet another program which I can't really afford because it's no longer part of the membership and I'm not going to do the live version of it is because there's still a lot of really weird weight shaming stuff going on with the person who's running his program, and guess what, I think his weight shamey fixation on his body fat percentage is not my problem to fix.
Frankly, I think a lot more about all of the girls and teenagers with eating disorders than I think about whatever his body fat percentage is are.
And I think that in the past when I just fell more in love with vegetables that really helped me a lot.
It wasn't that complicated actually.
So maybe I'll just fall more in love with vegetables.
I actually think that that's a really good idea.
"Thirty-plus years later..."
https://www.reddit.com/r/TikTokCringe/s/MER3ys5z3J
"End of Ze World | 2006"
oldnetarchive
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXpx3-3gHzi/?stkn=MWJ5cDJsMGo3NHRxeg==
"He Ran All the Way (1951) ORIGINAL TRAILER"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Lk3AqnUOCVc&si=KzrAY5uv8DqgT6a4
"Herbert Rowbarge by Natalie Babbitt" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/449892.Herbert_Rowbarge
"TCM - He Ran All the Way (1951) - Creepy Cinema"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=mMPVH9rwqa8&si=tdM2pvIiqCJw5paN
"Opal had had her hair bobbed the week before, and the change was not successful. She was aware of this and it made her even sharper than usual...
Stuart helped himself to more mashed potatoes, and boomed, 'Watch out, Herbert, old man! Since the ladies got the vote, they're getting mighty bold!'"
Page 131
"Herbert Rowbarge by Natalie Babbitt" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/449892.Herbert_Rowbarge
On page 150 and 151, it's the 1936 version of a frat boy type getting expelled from college.
Some experiences I might want back that Michigan gave to me when I was very young:
The "rainbow room" in my grandmother's house (so called because it was a bedroom with a rainbow bedspread.)
Listening to classical music on tape at night.
Katy Keene comic books?
Drawing.
"Momo (1986) - Ave Maria"
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=03wZ8ue12N4&si=chjmoSDBScyIxLM7
"As a Gen X woman, I find your shock over the Cornell 7 endearing."
your_aunt_liz
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd6voU9jx9e/?stkn=MXc2cTJ3YmF2cjR3ag==
In her bio it says that Aunt Liz is the mother of two men, so if you don't want to listen to her, it can't be because she's not a mom.
People may also have extremely good reasons for not doing certain things quite as fast as the way others may have envisioned or seen the potential for them to do.
I almost wonder if respecting other people's timing (and that includes healing from trauma) is a big lesson that we are supposed to learn on Earth and that this is part of what will make the human race grow and become more compassionate and patient able to treat others and themselves better?
Grief makes me feel like growth is not linear.
But flowers don't grow straight up and down, after all.
I wish I wasn't experiencing this level of grief and sadness, but I really am and I don't know how to cycle through it quickly. Maybe it's not supposed to be cycled through too quickly or something. It's just so sad. If I try to think about it, all I can feel like saying is grief, grief, grief, grief, grief, grief, grief, grief, grief, grief, grief, over and over again! Something has to be learned from the grief if it's sticking around like this. I don't know if I can even do very much about it right now.
Maybe pray that angelic energies that are wiser and see more and can help us more will help us as soon as possible. I don't know how I got to feeling the sick with grief. I wish it wasn't happening. I'm sure I can do something to help myself somehow.
"The Family Heart: A Memoir of When Our Son Came Out by Robb Forman Dew" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1123976.The_Family_Heart
I think this writer is a good observer of herself and her family's coping mechanisms, and I think that that's kind of rare.
Please remember that it's not necessary to be too rigid and follow strict timelines for the people who are dealing with really significant health challenges because that's not their priority right now.
I think I might take shower number four. After the Vicks Vapo Rub again.
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I need to focus on my health because there's a lot of upheaval happening and women need to figure out what kind of feminism is going to be best for them and for their health because it's not going to be the same for everybody. It's going to be different and it's going to change at different times.
I feel there's wailing like banshees and grief and yelling at some boys for not knowing better. It's a lot of grief. Its like a flooding river. A lot of grief. It can make the body get sick if you're not careful.
Because it hurts so bad.
People want coziness. They want to be cozy by the fire, you know, in their Castle. They want coziness. They don't want to be so lonely anymore. They want love.
They also want breaths of fresh air and cleansing winds and good changes. They want a bigger view. They want to expand. They do want to open their hearts. It's just hard for them to do it sometimes.
People in dark places can still get access to brightness from the light of angels.
The reason why the universe has me think about things like Beatrice and the Italian. Renaissance is because she was a channel and she was gifted but her gifts were not entirely corralled or channeled in the proper ways. But she was a channel and she made a lot of those things happen even though it made it look like the men were making the things happening. She was actually making a lot of the things happen and that's why after she died things went so badly and she was also like a go-between and a diplomat. It did curtail her spirit to be forced into childbearing I think. She loved her children but there was a not enough freedom for women in that time and she was supposed to follow what a bunch of bossy people were telling her to do. Also consent was not important.
For some reason I'm seeing something about dunking my head into a bucket of water. Maybe I should try and do that. Maybe I'll just go stand under the shower.
Poor aching face. Let's have water pour on that face now. Maybe it will help some things loosen up.
She was more sort of war-like than the ladies around her because she had a lot of energy running through her and she had a lot of responsibilities and she was also very young.
People did not take good enough care of their health physically. They did not listen to themselves enough about taking care of their health physically. It was very like rough time to be alive.
But even with all that there were times when they were really emotionally calm and connected and they channeled and there was a lot of creativity and there was communication with a higher source and spirit in God and God and a higher source and spirit was trying to work through them to bring good things to Earth. And they did bring some good things to Earth but physical health got sacrificed.
And that's why a part of me likes to do really quiet domestic things because it's part of like a health plan. It's good for the nervous system and for balancing energy. If you've got a lot of energy running through you, doing quiet domestic things is a nice way to call me yourself down.
If I feel pain and if I put my hand on the area and ask a question it might help.
Castles were very angular places to live and they were not so comfortable in a lot of parts of the castles and there were a lot of people who were living in fear in the castles.
However, they were starting to make good changes in some ways and there were some people who were starting to get happier because creativity was placed in high regard.
There were problems with communication. There were big feelings that didn't have words to go with them and so the big feelings were felt but people were too scared to express them and put the feelings into words and this includes the people in charge and how they communicated with one another too.
Love was real but so was fear and propriety led to dishonesty. Beautiful gifts and clothes could not make up for rifts in communication. People were often encouraged to keep their mouths shut instead of exploring feelings and this is the same as what goes on today sometimes too.
Those kinds of circumstances make emotions go wild like animals trapped in cages. People start to get desperate. Jokes and jibes and little glances. But because people felt very oppressed and like they needed to keep their mouths shut, it prevented communication from flowing and it affected the dynamics and made it so that things were not as harmonious.
People tend to have a rebellion against doing what is proper because it curtails their spirit. And then they start to get left out and start to feel heartbroken because they know they deserve better but they don't know how to express it or a really believe that they deserve better.
Sometimes looking at patterns like concentric circles helps people calm down and feel more centered in themselves and then they're not quite as inclined to lash out at others because they get very centered in themselves. And it's in a good way.
Royalty and pageantry can still be celebrated if it's not misused and if it's to serve the collective to bring people joy.
And now sometimes I want to go away from that and I want to think more about the people ice skating on the pond in another century. Where there was more equality, for those particular ice skaters, anyways.
I put my hands on my face and I got that Kings are very lonely people and they feel in the dark a lot emotionally. So we don't really need Kings. Kings are very lonely people. Sorry about that, Kings.
This time when I've put my hands on my face, I got girls screaming about Cornell in the too bright light. They're screaming. They are really, really screaming.
I put my hands on my face. I asked for a message.
Too bright light contrasts with dark castle dungeon.
Trying to figure out what has to be healed about that stuff.
Sometimes you can't figure it out right away because you don't want to know.
I'm having a lot of issues with grief and pain in my face today and I really hope anybody who feels called to heal something inside of themselves will please get on that right now before they get physically ill and in pain.
"Purple People (B-Side Version) (2006 Remaster)"
Tori Amos
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"Pandora's Aquarium"
Tori Amos
My face really really really hurts right now.
nigel.tatum - they are disgusting, but they are not all "creeps" or the "usual suspects"
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newemergingking
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