Tuesday, February 24, 2026

And she never had any kids of her own.

"A Fabric Uterus. 400,000 Lives Saved. #history"

HistorywithTiff

https://youtube.com/shorts/glks_jcGRow?si=bvMjijTSw56I_GKs

Also very cinematic, but, eeeeesh...

"The Queen They Bought: How a German Teenager Saved The Throne"

@HistoireParfait

https://youtube.com/shorts/9ftMO4oJr3c?si=0vekSHMTQrwVO7jX

Very cinematic.

"The Most Wanted Woman of WWII – Nancy Wake’s Untold Story"

TimeTravelTalez-t2q

https://youtube.com/shorts/v2wNdUna2Ng?si=1Nffi9yTIQTNadEG

Oh, I came across this clip.

I don't know, some people in the comments are saying that this is fake, but anyways...

"Alysa Liu says people calling her 'a child without a mom' made her want to retire early."

cutepuppies_52

https://youtube.com/shorts/xYQ1YboUfuw?si=rwnAO-QLgZkpOJCJ

Run away. Run away! Lol.

"Tori Amos Introduces Her New Album With 'Stronger Together'” | Pitchfork

https://pitchfork.com/news/tori-amos-shares-new-song-stronger-together/

Well, I hope we can find out more about how this happened.

"Mom of 3 who vanished 24 years ago while Christmas shopping found alive..."

https://www.wowt.com/2026/02/23/mom-3-who-vanished-24-years-ago-while-christmas-shopping-found-alive-well-authorities-say/

"'My mom is only human’: Daughter of missing woman who was found ‘alive and well’ 24 years later breaks her silence"

https://www.wowt.com/2026/02/23/my-mom-is-only-human-daughter-missing-woman-who-was-found-alive-well-24-years-later-breaks-her-silence/

And what if this could be helpful to watch?

"The Story You Care About Is The Distraction" - Barry's Economics 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=_brdNj-54iA&si=KRVCay630-WIRMXq

I wonder if this could be helpful to watch...

"Your Brain Won't Let You See What Epstein Really Was" - Barry's Economics 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=sS33crOQvrM&si=T5dGRs0Ot8PWA4y0

More not so popular opinion...

A lot of middle class people are like the masculine Elon. They're not that bad to sit next to on an airplane. They're even quite nice. But when you start to get to know them, they're so obsessed with their own status and their own money, to a fault. And they get a lot of their identity from having kids.

However, there was also a feminine Elon in my life. This was a friend of my mother's, and she gave me that "Circle of Stones" book about women honoring their menstrual cycles. 

"Circle of Stones: Woman's Journey to Herself by Judith Duerk"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/588251.Circle_of_Stones

I remembered her name...No, I didn't, not right away. She inscribed it in the book, which she gave to me when I was in middle school. And I saved it. Then, years later, I took it down and read the inscription, and that's when I remembered her name.

She was a creative woman and she was married but she didn't have kids. She liked to do crafts with us. I remember thinking to myself, "Gosh I could be like her one day."

So maybe some middle-class people are more like the feminine Elon, who was a woman. 

I really need feminism way more than you, huh?

Isn't it crazy?

So anyways, this guy's basically like, well, a stalker who did not actually physically harm anybody I personally know, but also, perhaps our culture just needed to be different to help somebody like him. I mean, maybe he had some Spirits guiding him. You know, maybe we do need to have a better culture that believes more in things like that. I don't know. I don't hate him. I can feel empathy for him too. But I still just don't really trust him. 

"Junot Díaz’s 'Oscar Wao' removed from English class at NJ school : NPR"

https://www.npr.org/2026/02/20/nx-s1-5708741/junot-diaz-oscar-wao-mental-health-book-bans

He's kind of like an honorary rich white guy to me, basically.

Ever learned about these?

"how to tell figure skating jumps apart ⛸️❄️✨ "

@sofiafigureskates

https://youtube.com/shorts/YxpA3mG1gEE?si=zH_UdSgSypUqN8ko

She's touched by the bold and the beautiful.

"DESIGN DESIRE" // ABBE MAY

https://youtube.com/watch?v=mS29NMGX2iQ&si=ZRYYAPeFKnsiCKbI

That would be good to look up.

What did the animals in different mythologies mean.

Just a feeling, that's all.

I really think it's more more to like ideas than to make big expensive things happen.

Sometimes the second thing only happens after the first can occur.

Oh well. Good thing most people aren't locked away in the detention centers, I guess.

Poor injured bodies. Good healing is here now.

There are some things that are mending and getting better. 

Real damage was done on account of a lack of understanding and lack of funds and lack of caring.

Prayers and patience and trusting in the universe more is helpful.

Crisises happened, and now there is more healing.


Poor country.

I'm ashamed of our country because of the ICE raids and the detention centers and other things.

Cassettes were magic! Especially at a dark hour.

Memory of something nice playing on a cassette tape while others were sleeping, and the house was dark. Maybe it could have been "The Moonlit Sonata" or some such thing. Love.

A few thoughts before hopefully returning to slumber...

My houseguest left yesterday, and waking up early, there is the feeling in this place of wanting her back again. And another feeling arises, a belief system: It is so much better to feel more. How sad are people who must shut down and guard their hearts? Like some relatives who became less articulate and seem exceedingly attached to materialistic things. Poor little them? And naturally, if they must shut down, they never want to say sorry for anything. They could just say "Sorry you suffered, sorry about that abusive other one," but that's too much for them. I don't think it would be too much for me at all. I would say it in a minute. That's why I think growing up in a conservative Christian cult with strict rules and gender roles did not help them.

Who? Who? Who?

"People in ICE detention..."

https://19thnews.org/2026/02/ice-facilities-federal-prisons-menstrual-products/

Your culture is changing!

"What does your period look like?"

nourishherbody

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVEWaSdDEW4/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"But you're lonely??"

minton_jr

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVGlcP_kcAg/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Going to menstruate in your next life, probably.

Hopefully not inside of an ICE detention facility, though. 

I hear they're not good at providing adequate supplies in those places.

All Men! Just saying. It's kind of proof that we're living in a patriarchal society.

Another one bites the dust. But they all bite the dust differently. And they get rich off of biting the dust.

Dear Otto, I wish this literature didn't have a paywall.

"'It will drive you crazy’: Letters reveal what life is like inside Adelanto ICE detention center"

https://www.sbsun.com/2026/02/23/it-will-drive-you-crazy-letters-reveal-what-life-is-like-inside-adelanto-ice-detention-center/

Monday, February 23, 2026

🎼 Spinning 🙂‍↕️ wheel 🎶

"Another theory is that weasel is not referring to the animal, but to a spinner’s weasel. Yarn spun on a spinning wheel could be measured on a weasel, which featured a mechanism that would make a popping sound when the desired length had been reached. This interpretation may have been the inspiration for the textile version of the verse:"

"‘Pop! Goes the Weasel’: The Real Meaning..."

https://www.mentalfloss.com/literature/nursery-rhymes/words-to-pop-goes-the-weasel

This is an amazing song...

It's like, grounding and "out there" at the same time.

Donna Summer - "I Feel Love"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=yEbaeLv-aOo&si=DLLXnNh_L7K4EQUs

So much.

Exhausting people deserve...

"Here We Go Round the Mulberry Bush" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Here_We_Go_Round_the_Mulberry_Bush

I really do feel so much better now.

The Rookie Horror Country Store

"STORYWRAPS: Tim Noah - Country Store"

https://babybookworms.blogspot.com/2015/11/tim-noah-country-store.html?m=1

Finally deadly 

Philly Diddy

D

Go Into The Country Store!

I don't know...

I guess I feel kind of sort of better, anyways.

Not like, vagus nerve oil shirodhara stoned better, but something.

Wow! I think I might have re-realized part of my mission again.

I want to do scary music for a heartfelt horror film.

"Men are afraid that women will make fun of them. Women are afraid that men will kill them." 

BOO.

People living here could drive there to touch snow right now.

"Frazier Park

California USA"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThgN2rgd/

Ha! I found this funny.

"A Message To Candace Owens."

michaelvpavano

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Kb6PGqNQe8A&si=j-o2yNRpd-VFObEA

What about Otto Frank.

Do you actually think Otto Frank was persecuted because he was some sort of lesser, more unadvanced soul.

"Otto Frank talks about Annes diary – Anne Frank Fonds"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=fuNAdok2TtY&si=bcHHH2_eTErY1Kyz


I think I'll go touch some water.


Shifts are hard sometimes...

Shhh shifts...shhh should have planned out some sort of compelling activity for myself this evening...


Free....freezing...

I'm not feeling very advanced, and I also feel like sometimes people don't want to heal things because they've done great work and they get some, what's it called, secondary benefits or something? No,there was a different term for it. Secondary gains? There are times when it's really obvious that not all people can be a part of certain tight-knit, cozy communities. There's like, a very big wall there. And it kind of reminds me that there are things that were around me, that were sort of put in front of me, like this is something you could do or be. And I get really strong feelings that actually, the universe didn't want me to do or be those things; that I was supposed to go elsewhere, and that I was supposed to do other things. I was just supposed to observe that those things exist, and then I was supposed to go somewhere else. So it's very strange to be thinking about that right now.

SO BLUE


 

Sky stripes. Better in real life.

 

Maybe I'll be asking some people who have more knowledge about astrology what they think about this (Feb. 26 - March 20).

"Mercury Retrograde 2026: Dates, Meaning, and What to Do"| The Old Farmer's Almanac

https://www.almanac.com/content/mercury-retrograde-dates

Sounds more like: Sorry not sorry.

"Sorry for da nightmares you’re gonna have..."

seamus_th...cottish_fold

https://youtube.com/shorts/IJ6FRggHAUY?si=gqL3H71r-ykjkBnR

Can you imagine this being your calling? Can you imagine?

"Tucson resident Lupita Tello poked the dirt with a sharp metal rod soldered to a handle. After wiggling the rod in the dirt, Tello pulled it out and smelled the sharpened metal tip.

'If it smells bad like something decomposed, that’s where we start,' Tello said, showing reporters and true-crime streamers the main tool she uses in her searches for missing people in Mexico.

This will be the first time her group, Madres Buscadoras de Sonora, will search in the U.S. The group is a nonprofit from Mexico, which aims to find lost and missing people in Sonora. Some people in the group joined to search for their missing sons and others for their missing brothers, among others.

Her group was told about Nancy Guthrie’s case recently by a journalist friend of Guthrie’s daughter, Savannah, and was asked to make flyers and search for her, Tello said."

Helen Rummel, Sarah Lapidus, Rey Covarrubias Jr.

"Backpack discovered..."

https://www.azcentral.com/story/news/local/arizona/2026/02/22/updates-limited-as-search-for-nancy-guthrie-enters-22nd-day/88801553007/

I really don't think I could do it.

Not right now.

And that was the twenties...

I can remember having an experience in the 2000s when I was driving across the Midwest, probably to Chicago, enjoying listening to music so much while on a road trip by myself, and I kind of had a question and answer session with myself: Do you want to hang out with more people in the music industry? And I said to myself, No, I do not. Because I felt like it was a hyper masculine and stressful industry, and the girls were encouraged to act like groupies, and I didn't want anything to do with it. But I still enjoyed listening to music on my road trips in my car.

I've been quite enjoying reading about the Olympic ice skaters in Milan.

"Why are figure skaters so nice to each other nowadays?" - The Washington Post

https://www.washingtonpost.com/sports/olympics/2026/02/20/figure-skating-olympics-blade-angels-heated-rivalry/

This a little bit reminded me of my dream.

"This 18-year-old is protecting his California farm community – and his own mother – from ICE" | ICE (US Immigration and Customs Enforcement) | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/ng-interactive/2026/feb/20/ice-cesar-vasquez-santa-maria-california

"The agent’s voice crackled from the car’s speaker, loud enough to carry through the open window: 'How’s your mother, Cesar? We’ll go visit her soon.'

Vasquez drove straight home and found his mother washing clothes.

'I took her car keys and told her to stop everything she’s doing. My hands were shaking,' Vasquez said. 'I then moved her to a secret location that I have precisely for this moment.'

Vasquez’s mother is one of the thousands of undocumented farm workers in Santa Maria whom he is trying to protect. She left her home in a tiny town in Mexico to cross the US-Mexico border at age 13 in search of a better life. Vasquez’s biological father was one of the first people she encountered – a Guatemalan American whose family was settled in California and who held US citizenship. He was also abusive and never legally married her, keeping her from accessing US citizenship, Vasquez said. When Vasquez was an infant, his mother ran away with her three children to Santa Maria, a town about 150 miles (240km) north of Los Angeles, where she found work in the strawberry fields. She has been trying to secure documentation for more than a dozen years now."

~ Jennifer Chowdhury with photographs by Zaydee Sanchez in Santa Maria, California

Dreams...what are they for, really?

Think about it. And I also really encourage some people to think about all the people who do not have the "luxury" of getting through life by relying on a fawn response, or by relying on other people's fawn responses.

Sometimes you stay in...

Sometimes you go to town...

Lessons learned from "The Ox-Cart Man."

Enough with that already. That's what Facebook is for. (Apparently).

People could write more about what they're learning from their lives being not so idyllic, maybe.

Maybe this is where the higher intelligences can get through.

 "Arvo Pärt: My Heart's in the Highlands"

skycam_ee

https://youtube.com/watch?v=6UadEvSJMrQ&si=GHLtwXDLsHMYE8KY

Kind of had a farmworker dream.

Dreamed that there was some kind of good outcome after difficulty and drama in a rural area, and that had to do with a young white girl who was impoverished and a young hard-working Latino farmworker. They were both connected to a farm. They were in danger of losing something. He decided they would get married, and she agreed / went along with it and the voice that was talking to me said they were very happy together and they had an idyllic life with kids.

I just kind of wondered why I was supposed to know about that when it's so different from what happened in my life, really. I was observing and listening. I feel like being alone inside of the empty farm buildings after traveling through many fields, and cultivating a deep sense of wonder and curiosity about life was mainly what was happening for me.

Humans are ridiculous, and it's fine.

Look, she even made art and a bunch of money. I wonder how she managed it? Maybe God helped her?

Lady Gaga - "Bad Romance (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qrO4YZeyl0I&si=Mdr3uYKSqmf0GI9X

This is a time of access to more knowledge.

What if it's an optimal time to learn about how to make good changes that can help you take much better care of yourself as an act of love for yourself and for humanity?

Sunday, February 22, 2026

Nature's impressive.

 


A little bit of alternative healing therapy.

It seemed like sitting crosslegged in the desert while playing around on a small Panda drum I got as a gift was good for some lower back and hip issues. Cygnus showed up when I viewed the landscape through the Stellarium app as we were leaving, and so did Pegasus and other constellations.



(Screenshots, not the real stars.)

Mira.

"Work in California USA harvesting vegetables cutting fresh cilantro"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThbeU2ax/

"rlly trying to love..."

fatalfemme66

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThbeWrb7/

I'm in a special needs cycle.

I'll just have to get better at embracing being a special needs person in a special needs cycle and know that maybe we can find some good, nature-oriented, healing kinds of things...

Could say, "He likes to touch water."

"Like how do I explain..."

herhouseofcats

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVCve_tEbzs/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Perhaps there will be some different descriptions soon...

"Psychology says people with high intuitive intelligence tend to be mislabeled as anxious, oversensitive, or indecisive..."

https://geediting.com/j-a-psychology-says-people-with-high-intuitive-intelligence-tend-to-be-mislabeled-as-anxious-oversensitive-or-indecisive-the-real-pattern-is-that-theyre-processing-more-information-than-the-people-jud/

Still seems easier to take pictures around sunset.


So cold out there this morning.

"The Lonely Goatherd (Da Twinz Hardstyle Mix)" - DJ

https://youtube.com/watch?v=enLYSvOZ2LI&si=z8M3C25BG7PszCg_

"The Lonely Goatherd" from The Sound of Music

RodgersandHammerstein

https://youtube.com/watch?v=bMIPGYIW83c&si=6K_9S7Vya2mhNquk

Realistic and holistic!

Lady Gaga - "Paparazzi (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=d2smz_1L2_0&si=CMv1Uxb5ghvun26t

Delicious authentic Mexican food it is.

Unfortunately, the restaurant next to "The End Of The World" art piece is a NO because photos show that it looks just a little too much like a fraternity party atmosphere. 

"It's the cement floors."


Conductors of cultural conditions say...

Grist for the mill.

"The Holy Use of Gossip by Kathleen Norris: Small-Town Community Life"

https://studylib.net/doc/8913345/the-holy-use-of-gossip#google_vignette

The Greeks are so much nicer to all of the imbibers now, they say...

"Greka’s Tavern admits women now."

~ Kathryn Almy

"Rogers City, Michigan: You Can’t Go to Town and Back"

https://greatlakesreview.org/rogers-city-michigan-you-cant-go-to-town-and-back-in-less-than-two-hours/

Their billboards, my mind, a big hymn.

"Pass It On – It only takes a spark" | Enid & Austin

https://austinbhebe.wordpress.com/2014/11/12/pass-it-on-it-only-takes-a-spark/

🎼🙏🏻🎶

"Welcome to PassItOn.com | The Foundation for a Bet"

https://www.passiton.com/inspirational-sayings-billboards/60-smile-mona-lisa

Waking up early again (just like yesterday)

"We've got to get better about punctuation, I mean intuition, since mom's got an early Alzheimer's diagnosis and it's too difficult to talk to her husband about whatever's going with will stuff...Liberal in the '90s but addicted to Fox News in the 2020s -- what does this really mean?...Parents who change their political views according to whoever they live with are on earth to build our characters, yeah?..."

Saturday, February 21, 2026

Do I believe in synchronicity?

I think maybe she was skating in Milan while I was having shirodhara oil poured on my forehead for the first time!

"What time does Alysa Liu actually skate today?

Alysa Liu actually skates at 4:40 p.m. ET, which is 10:40 p.m. locally in Italy.

She's the final U.S. competitor to go."

https://sports.yahoo.com/articles/time-does-alysa-liu-actually-104254346.html

The appointment was supposed to be between 1 and 2 p.m. in CA (three hours behind East Coast time), but there was rain and we got turned around and arrived 15 minutes late. And then we had to prepare but nobody was after us, so I think we (my sister and I) still got the full hour long appointment. We left by 2:30 p.m. It was her idea. Well it was kind of both of our ideas because I suggested it. She made the appointment.

Friday, February 20, 2026

Desert light 🏜️


At The End


Of The World.


And then some other unexpectedly fun exploring because a good visitor is in town.

Just having fun reading again!🍨

"Historic Oakland creamery offers Alysa Liu 'ice cream for life'"

https://www.sfgate.com/sports/article/oakland-alysa-liu-fentons-21369647.php

"Choosing the Alternative: The Power of Alysa Liu & Amber Glenn"

https://wcuquad.com/6025078/op-ed/choosing-the-alternative-the-power-of-alysa-liu-amber-glenn/

"All About Olympic Figure Skater Alysa Liu's Dad Arthur Liu"

https://people.com/all-about-alysa-liu-dad-11896584

This is good too!🍦

What if the guys who walked into the ice cream place reminded her of some other people, too?

"What is it like to be a woman?"

tomiwalamies 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU-PExQDGiO/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I also re-experienced youthful feelings of being criticized for my dress and attitude and complimented on my appearance (maybe even a little excessively) only in the context of "But you would look even better if..." while being informed that I was not living in a democracy.

I feel like I might want to start practicing drawing pictures of dancers and skaters

"‘This is a good life’: Alysa Liu embracing joy and creativity in figure skating" – Figure Skaters Online

https://figureskatersonline.com/news/2025/11/13/this-is-a-good-life-alysa-liu-embracing-joy-and-creativity-in-figure-skating/

Sand pipers!

 

"Santa Monica, California"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThVQqE8C/

Anyways, all I know is it's time to get better.

Need to chill. I started not feeling well again. I had to tell people to go and do stuff without me.

Layers! (She has really interesting hair.)

"Alysa Liu: Free skate performance"

NBC Sports

https://youtu.be/qhc00PRmNgc?si=d1g_I6dLcAZe5vJ7

"Alysa Liu’s Olympics Style Is Changing Figure Skating Fashion"

https://www.harpersbazaar.com/celebrity/sports-athletes/a70432506/alysa-liu-striped-hair-2026-olympics-outfits-figure-skating/

I felt better when I woke up the second time today.

I shall share some layers.

"The Great Beauty Official Trailer #1" - Paolo Sorrento

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Dyt430YkQn0&si=B1oFDj4JeA5Uw0s7

He put a little girl artist in his film. She was very traumatized. That part of the film made a big impression on me, I guess, and it was very meaningful to me, so I would not want that erased.

Meg Lui - "Gone Girl" (Official Music Video) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gMA5TKmybM

The girl who is an artist in her music video made me remember the other artist, too.

"Echo Location poem" - Alice Fulton

https://www.best-poems.net/alice-fulton/echo-location.html

Cool?

"Barbara J. Petoskey, 'An Interview with Alice Fulton,' Associated Writing Programs Chronicle 30:6:24-29, May/summer 1998.

Poems discussed: 'About Face,' 'Dance Script With Electric Ballerina,' 'Echo Location,' 'Elvis From The Waist Up,' 'Fuzzy Feelings,' 'Give,' 'My Last TV Campaign,' 'Some Cool,' 'The Priming Is A Negligee,' 'Vanishing Cream.'

https://www.alicefulton.com/interviews/awp.html

Not now, but later.

I wonder if I could find a way to make housecleaning feel awesome, like editing something.

SIGH. Woken up by a distant ambulance siren.

Too mysterious. Not the favorite way to wake up. Well, I should take a probiotic before I sleep. I didn't. I will take that now. But tense because the way toxic stuff can get braided into other messages is both intriguing and terrifying. Wow, so much to calm down about already. Not the favorite way to wake up...But maybe somebody is getting the help they need. I don't know. I might be about at an emotional level of a four year old. I might need to hug a pillow to turn seven. My body is older than that and is laying on a big soft, torn skirt...

I'm awake! I'm awake. Sigh. I can go back to sleep and wake up again later.

Lady Gaga - "Paparazzi (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=d2smz_1L2_0&si=INTplVvKBRBF-O28

Thursday, February 19, 2026

Just for fun. The aliens put multiplicities of the same billboard along the same highway.

"Welcome to PassItOn.com | The Foundation for a Bet"

https://www.passiton.com/inspirational-sayings-billboards/60-smile-mona-lisa

Relax...

I just realized that if you're afraid of bad dreams, when you lie down in bed, you feel like you're gearing up for a battle.

Actually, things are looking up again!

PMS is still real and dreadful but the symptoms are changing. Yes, I got a shorter (time-wise) shirodhara treatment for the first time, and now it feels like there's many signs the universe likes it when people enjoy creative projects.

And I'm certainly interested in that idea now.

I've heard that some people think when you get more spiritually evolved, you don't have to go through such intense purges.

I love gradients.

Some people are so all or nothing; thank God not everybody's like that. But all are nothing people will purge you. I guess I give them that.

Thank you for being there for me. Menthol.

I believe a pot of MENTHOL is my friend. I LOVE MENTHOL.

I want everyone to evolve.

Really hope people are smarter than this in the future. I don't want to go through this again. I don't think people should have to go through s*** like this. Why? Why are we like this? Figure out what you need to do to get better. It's not the same for everybody. Just figure it out.

Work on your issues.

Be more peaceful. It will help a lot.

Get better.

I am having the most vile f****** experience and I'd never want to go through this again. The only way I know how to feel better is to f****** yell at people. After having thrown up. Jesus, may the people heal themselves.

Poor humans. I need to cry more. I wonder if it would help.

I'm sorry if grief gets so unbearable. It makes people sick. Make me better at stuff they need to be better at because I don't want to live this way anymore.

I'm going to do some healing processes now.

I will be better later. It's terrible right now. I don't understand why I have to live in a body. It's not fair. At least make the body happy again. It was happy once upon a time. Want to be better now.

I only prefer peace today. 🕊️🙏🏾🪷

The sinus headache is a lot and is influential and the body needing peace matters the most.

Choose peace (wisely, bravely.)

I have a very intense headache to heal now. 

Peace.

Wednesday, February 18, 2026

Have a weird evening! Dads et al.

"A Girl Called Al by Constance C. Greene"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/503558.A_Girl_Called_Al

It's interesting to wonder about the kind of people other people's kids might meet in the future, too.

"Emily of New Moon (Emily, #1) by L.M. Montgomery"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/3562.Emily_of_New_Moon

When "Emily of New Moon's" Teddy met "A Girl Called Al's" friend's little bratty brother Teddy.

Now I can enjoy my therapy musical! It's helped me over the years...

HAIR - "The Flesh Failures  /  Let The Sunshine In"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=eGaZPFboTn4&si=-Bm8NEHvPjH-5zee

Who needs flighty, lighted-headed us, anyway?

I feel like if I feel more grounded, it's for the best!

That's a good film and it's very wintery.

You know, in the "Black Robe" movie, I think there was a part where the guy had to run the gauntlet, and he survived.

Please take this in a friendly way.

I like feeling grounded and I don't like feeling flighty. I just really like to feel grounded. So I just want to make it clear that sometimes my life has felt like a really big, long, unpaid job. And the men need help! I am constantly being told to pay attention to the signs that people need help, even if they are not the most recent ones.

"Sufjan Stevens' 'Stalker' – The Album Found In A Dumpster"

https://www.nme.com/blogs/nme-blogs/someone-on-reddit-found-an-unreleased-1998-sufjan-stevens-album-called-stalker-in-a-bin-5989

Obviously the help that is required extends to a very wide variety of human beings. 

Grounding's cool.

I kind of feel better now. I'm releasing some nervous energy and I'm doing some spoon work on my feet.

"spooning the feet"| Tony&Tina Vibrational Remedies

https://www.tonyandtina.net/tag/spooning-the-feet/

Maybe that'll be a work of art someday too.

If you ever suspected that when artist was spying on you, artist's fiance was also spying on you at the same time, but wasn't quite as intense about it, and in a way she seemed not so bad...

That is to say, I have memories of a person who in retrospect I think might have been the writer's fiance at the time also hanging around or maybe even accompanying him one time. Because he was kind of a manipulative, needy person, you know.

It's Big "Being a Human Being Living in a Body on Earth" issues.

I really feel for the sensitive people and the artists and even though sometimes some people have more success than others still they need to attend to their own health issues whether or not they have a bunch of money or a better house or a bunch of fans or a bunch of work out there that lots of people get to enjoy...and I also feel like having somebody chase after you for a period of time and shout "I love you!" in such a way that it really was more like "I am desperate and angry for your attention, why won't you talk to me?" and such and then write a book which partially incorporated some of those experiences in it and then win accolades for that work is kind of getting to me right now. But maybe it's just being sensitive to scattered energy in general. Maybe what it is, is some people have this energy attached to them and it's about making changes and....

I'll just complete these thoughts later. That's all right.

I suppose it's better to think that way.

The people you inherited these traits from were probably just doing the best they could most of the time. They had to get stuff accomplished. They weren't so much trying to lay the foundations for new systems. They were doing the best they could within the systems they were working in.

I think this is true, too.

A bunch of things are really unraveling right now though anyways.

I really need to figure out what patience means.

I wonder why I felt so nice and clear at night and now during the day, when I want to complete at least eight or nine different cleaning tasks, the left lower back only wants me to do three of them at most, and it's so frustrating. I'm going to not go on the internet as much. It's too much sometimes. We should really be grateful to the people who do lots of physical labor in their jobs though, because I don't think I could do it. Not right now, anyways. Frazzled is a word that is coming to mind and I don't want to be frazzled. I want to be clear and centered and balanced and that is achievable.

Sometimes I think it's fun to love snow ❄️🌫️🏔️🌨️.

"Loose dog joins Olympics cross-country skiing, crosses finish line"

https://www.14news.com/2026/02/18/loose-dog-joins-olympics-cross-country-skiing-crosses-finish-line/#:~:text=TESERO%2C%20Italy%20(AP)%20%E2%80%94,with%20athletes%20down%20the%20straightaway.

I wonder how she actually feels though?

"Noam Chomsky’s wife apologizes for their ‘grave mistake’ in Epstein ties" | Jeffrey Epstein | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/feb/08/noam-chomsky-epstein-ties-wife-apology

Good.

At least I feel more flexible now.

"All men until no men"

Lex

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThXbJ8GD/

Apparently, that was showing initiative.

Apparently, we were supposed to ask for favors from all the guys who were secretly HUGE Epstein Island fans. Oh my God, they totally would have been going to the island if they'd had the opportunity, even if they aren't in the files. Oh my God. Oh my Noam Chomsky.

Also, you should never make assumptions. She could be really mad at a lot of different kinds of people. 

Sharon Van Etten - "Your Love Is Killing Me"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=nyuPWHwZru0&si=9SwE9y70C5NDebzF

What about how the anti-feminist ladies were bringing up their daughters to be a certain way on account of what they learned from their parents and in Christian churches? She could be mad at them.

I hear parsley's really collaborative! I've had mostly very good experiences with parsley.

Except for one time when I made a normally very good salad with parsley that hadn't gotten washed enough, and that was a very bad experience.


"work in California USA in agriculture"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThXVC1K7/

"Every woman's love language✨"

R Y K E R

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThXVGRge/

I don't think birds have a lot of eating disorders do they?

There's some good birds enjoying their suet out there.

Not everyone can be as nice. I suppose.

I'm such a nice person. (?)

Ha-ha.

Someday some people's kids are going to be looking at those kinds of new stories and all the comments about the patriarchy and I'm really looking forward to that as well.

True.

I feel like things getting worse before they get better is an act of God.

And I can't wait to find a new news story where everyone's complaining about the patriarchy. I'm going to look at so many of the comments.

A certain muscle must agree.

Let's keep being enemies. What a relief. So much better that way! Jesus Christ.

Lady Gaga - "Bad Romance (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qrO4YZeyl0I&si=w3GRnlbeiC9HSUlJ

I guess we'll have to figure out why.

All the other muscles can have fun, but the piriformis just says no.

Moreover.

I've decided I might have a fragile glass unicorn horn where the left piriformis muscle should be. But it doesn't always show up. But it shows up sometimes. When I say fragile, it's just emotionally fragile. I kind of want to find some news stories now about the patriarchy being toxic now but maybe I won't. Also, what if I just pay more attention to the other muscles more and just let them help the sad one? It's the piriformis of resentment! Who knows if it even wants help? What if it doesn't? Don't they say, "You know, you can't help a piriformis who doesn't want to be helped?"

Okay I feel better...

I hope you guys (especially men born in a certain era) come back in female bodies with lots of body issues. Now you just think about that now you just think about that now you just think about that now you just think about that now you just think about that.

Omg, so many mixed feelings and then a positive ending.

 

"Who's training for summer?"

mariah.sola

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU3zkPlke8n/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Something cool...

I see a person who can touch lots of different kinds of shapes and they become magical.

Maybe I can read this again.

"The Holy Use of Gossip by Kathleen Norris: Small-Town Community Life"

https://studylib.net/doc/8913345/the-holy-use-of-gossip#google_vignette


Now I am going to listen to a little bit of the sound bowl.

"WARNING: This Sound Will Unlock Your Energy ⚡ Sacral Chakra Activation"

SedonaCrystalTemple

https://youtube.com/watch?v=wRPH7V5rtog&si=rLxSEtLhpRgMHAwl

Maybe the musical talents can live this time.

Johnny And Jones - "Westerbork Serenade (1944)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=pP0wc5PolLY&si=IlbUNxJh9-W6Azn6

"Jewish Love Song recorded in Concentration Camp..."

Kleinkunst723

https://youtube.com/watch?v=wWsczojYluo&si=BL5e-0P1JKZmsnj2

Gezellig!

And now I feel more cozy???

It's good for their health.

People need to get better at examining themselves and their motives.

I want to know why these horrors are happening when most people don't agree with them.

"'Conservative Georgia town pushes back against ICE detention center: ‘We are Americans after all’"| ICE (US Immigration and Customs Enforcement) | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/feb/18/ice-detention-center-warehouse-georgia


A starving woman.

Who stole the package from Anne Frank that Hannah Goslar threw over the fence.

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Worse to come, but reading articles feels preferable to having nightmares at the moment.

Rabbit holes revisited: Joy Division. House of Dolls by Ka-tzetnik 135633 / Yehiel De-Nur is a work of fiction that is required reading in Israeli schools according to this:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/House_of_Dolls

"Na'ama Shik, researching at Yad Vashem, the principal Jewish organization for the remembrance of the victims of the Holocaust, considers the book as fiction.[7] Nonetheless it is part of the Israeli high school curriculum."

Maybe it's also kind of like propaganda???

"However, while Block 24 really did house a brothel, in reality "it was a brothel for prisoners. Members of the Wehrmacht and SS were not allowed to visit it. The forced prostitutes were mostly German or Polish—none of them were Jewish, neither was any of them called Daniella, as records of the Auschwitz administration show. A military brothel for German soldiers and SS guards also existed, but it was located outside of the camp, and all women there were German civilian prostitutes."[4] 

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Yehiel De-Nur - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yehiel_De-Nur

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And, Epstein had women assisting him.