Saturday, July 25, 2026

Today's staycation question.

 


" What happened in this place historically to make it what it is today?"

And that means, the girls of all kinds of backgrounds and situations!

It's always refreshing to see those parents who do demonstrate that they care about the well-being of girls because The Unwell Patriarchy has clearly trained so many of them to not care about the well-being of girls very much.

Have you ever gotten that "The universe is going to make you be The Responsible One AGAIN" feeling...

 Who? Where? What? Why? How?

This summer has been strange, strange, strange...

 

"Boys and Girls, Beware!"

vintage_vault_official

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbEEdndMsL6/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"If a war story leaves you feeling positive..."

juranerdschwaben

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZSYPrDRBVG/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"AUGUST 1st"

carsieblanton

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DanyNsIJCkg/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's interesting that my sister chose to send me cards about traveling.

I still haven't been able to feel comfortable with getting tickets to fly to South Carolina yet. If I had flown sooner, my friend's daughter is playing the lead in a production of Annie and I could have seen that, but maybe I will just listen to the songs at a later date.

Now Playing.

Cut Chemist - "The Garden"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=gHhlaspXVgo&si=KEsM0NGdvViVOl7P

Recently Played.

ABBA - "SOS"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=cvChjHcABPA&si=DXEOwGDGH_vEHK-J


"Everything happens for a reason or for multiple reasons"

"No I have not slept"

attorneymartinez

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYSJ9WDvblg/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"woman was seen trying"

princessballoveras

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXmuv0vDaUm/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"The Sarajevo Safari"

history.everything

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAhsq6vT/

Poor communicators should not do too many kinds of things together.

 

I hope this dessert doesn't give me a migraine.

Life is not fair.

 

alspoliticalworld_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaQ8c1kP_8V/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I kind of wonder what this guy's dad was like.

 


"We are not doing difficult"

christianwalk1r

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYSLLa-AsI_/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

How long will I even live here? There's so much going on.

I mean, I guess can still make my comments about how those two guys who fell in love in that one movie obviously never had worry about certain types of major medical issues, because... 

Imagine if they were doing much nicer things with our tax dollars!

 What would that be like???


"Imagine..."

defiancedispatch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbOjyF0v2su/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"A mother was detained along with her daughter"

N+ UNIVISION

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAhCahRN/

"96 year old Lucia Santos"

cbsnews

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAhxoHGv/

Maybe working outside is better for the mental health sometimes.

 


"washing the parsley"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAhfEtoR/

That famous diary is not even 100 years old yet.

1942 was less than 100 years ago.

Anyways, think about how things will be in 100 years.

And you could look more like a healer and not so much like the prejudiced doctor.

I have read two out of three of them but maybe I'll read the third one today.

And then reread the other two.

"The Pearl : Steinbeck John" 

https://archive.org/details/in.ernet.dli.2015.239276/mode/1up

"Behaving as if the God in all life mattered"

https://archive.org/details/behavingasifgod00wrig/page/n1/mode/1up

"The Findhorn garden : findhorn community"

https://archive.org/details/findhorngarden00newy/mode/1up

Ah...That's probably true.

I feel like they're supposed to integrate more with the people rather than rescue me from what the people are going through.

This is a certain type of Summer for some of us.

Stand in the corner of the yard in a sundress and ask the mountain for help and avoid the most fragile tooth. The cat is having an awesome summer! The first summer of gopher holes all over the backyard.

"I don't know if we can ever leave this place because the cat has the best backyard. But I want in unit laundry someday."

"The cat will adjust."

I will do dishes very soon.

I feel like I'm doing the best I can. I made some food. I fed us. The migraine maybe started to come back. The worker who seems stuck in fight or flight mode keeps working.

It's interesting to wonder.

I wonder what songs used to be some people's favorite songs, you know, back in another era?!

The arts and nature and weirdness can be beautiful!

And so can business and food and even candy???

"Former Goetze’s Candy CEO Spaulding Goetze Sr. Dies at 80"

https://www.citybiz.co/article/878775/former-goetzes-candy-ceo-spaulding-goetze-sr-dies-at-80/

"Goetze was also deeply involved in civic and conservation efforts. He served as a longtime trustee of St. Paul’s School for Boys, leading the rebuilding of its Lower School following a 1990 fire and later supporting construction of the school’s chapel. He also supported the Comprehensive Pediatric Care Unit at the University of Maryland St. Joseph Medical Center.

An avid land conservationist and Chesapeake Bay Retriever enthusiast, Goetze spent many years living in Sparks before moving to Blakehurst Senior Living in 2024. He was active with the Greenspring Valley Council, Ducks Unlimited, and previously chaired the Maryland Wildlife Advisory Commission."

I found this after my friend who does water ballet in Baltimore said that a duck showed up to visit the pool after the CEO of a local candy company died and before that happened they themed their performance after local food products, including his candy company... And I also paid attention because I noticed a bird visiting the pool where I was swimming yesterday. It wasn't a duck, though. I can't remember what kind of bird it was.

Considering more interesting perspectives...

 

"There are two types..."

robyn_moriarty_repositioning

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbBx3aqIvji/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"So many..."

_shifthappens_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZacBxOiyUM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"It's time ⏰"

witchontheleft

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ-7qdIEpZX/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

My mental health is much better this morning than it was a few mornings ago.

 The blinding migraine is dissipating now.


"The way I have zero tolerance for intolerance..."

witchontheleft

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaGqMHolLNV/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"If women cherry-picked from the Bible"

dr.bise

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZhtTTLuYDr/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Daily Memo: ICE is at airports again"

el_tragon_de_los_angeles

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbMTlqahFb_/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Thank you for your support...

My menstrual migraine made it hard to see, but it was a gateway into another dimension. Where sprinkling ginger powder into coconut water and letting the cat give herself a bath next to me on the bed was all I really needed.

Mindful of what the people will need in the next 100 years or so...

Do you have any insights about why some people seem to get so much more pleasure from gatekeeping than from helping others? My period was light, I thought maybe it was gone, I got a terrible headache, I was super thirsty, then it came back. Oh the mystery! And that's the special type of blood that's supposed to have super healing properties is what they're saying now. Is there any artistic expression in the universe about something like that yet?

Maybe it's an orientation thing.

I guess the universe encouraging you to be mindful about what things are going to be like within the next few decades or more is like an orientation?

In lieu of other things I could be saying...

I also feel like my spirit was in a car with some people who weren't talking that much about unresolved issues but they were going to this important event and they were going to have fun but still.

Several interesting perspectives....

 

"When someone tries to name the harm they've experienced..."

yuleelee

https://www.instagram.com/p/DbA5OeplNdu/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"You were not built to be out here training these men"

christianwalk1r

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbJSLYLANYb/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"HOW????"

mind_the_kate

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbLhObJIrr3/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Friday, July 24, 2026

Got to open a little present today

Sister sent me some nice things.

Well, it just seems like it's time to make good changes.

"#matriarchy #patriarchy #socialism"

nadia.tries

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbGmmMJvzTm/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Think of yourself as a child who needs a little more guidance.

Think of some kind love that the universe is still offering that perhaps you didn't know you needed.

Upset German heritage girl.

 


"Alligator Auschwitz and..."

juranerdschwaben

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXmOmrbEQaP/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Can you create a sick beat for this?

"STOP. BEING. FUCKING. SHALLOW." On repeat.

Do it for Violet, a four-month-old baby I met when I was doing my laundry today.

Here you go. It's one of your favorite kinds of humans talking in this one.

 And he chose really good music.



"Come on in..."

chrisolsen

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaIh31jOTOX/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

You know what's coming to my mind for some reason?

An announcer's voice saying, "The judges look befuddled." From the early 2000s Olympics where the Canadian pair skated and they got cheated because of corruption. 

The judges looked befuddled. 

The judgy people looked befuddled. 

They're corrupt and messed up and they're looking befuddled about it.

Awww...

 

"This job coach had wonderful advice"

waltermasterson

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZYcYYihd14/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I'm hot and I have a headache and I'm going to rest and then I'm going to finish my laundry.

 

"My shows aren't 'political' they're topical."

sarahhesterross

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DX95OJgKHgr/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Time and time and time again..."

chelseaisgods

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbLk30igaFX/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"GOTCHA!"

travelingnurselex

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYnj7Uiv6Ak/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

You've lost your minds and it's simply luck and privilege.

 

"YALL HAVE LOST YOUR MINDS!!!!!!!!"

arianajasmine_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbL__oIxNB6/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"It's simply luck and privilege"

annigrcx

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DalLzqzOUmo/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

This is how I feel sometimes. It's happening more and more often recently.

Really can't deal with your shallowness right now.

I'm sorry some people might be leaving because of the stuff that's happening.

Anyways, if someone I used to know and I don't hang out with anymore came to me in a dream and told me some stuff, maybe we're still friends after all.

Maybe a new era of caring for others is just beginning for some people!


"I was born in America. ICE stopped me..."

kanayoridang0

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYxwhH4pvQ9/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Trump just signed an executive order...."

yusawillie

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZGfCNWAwcv/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Absolutely disgusting behavior..."

callmesamleon

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbMLKdOS1vj/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Anyway, sometimes I wonder.

Do you feel bad for your friends who have been treated worse than you and are suffering more now and you just don't know how to act like it or say so?

She likes wet jeans...

 It's nice to make a cat so happy.


Laundry day is sometimes stretching out cheap garments when when they're wet day.


I got this one coming back to me now...

Damien Rice & Lisa Hannigan - "Volcano - Official Video"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ZduDvIBu3EU&si=vhB2cFUJNU7XkCsR

They don't work together anymore...

Part one is done... 🧼💧🌡️🥵🎰🧺🩱

Me and the cold bag of rice from the freezer are recuperating. Just one more load to put in after one of the first ones I put in finishes. I met a young mom with a daughter who's 4 months old named Violet. They were very nice. I felt like somebody splashed a bucket of something wet into my lap as I was walking back. Hot. Hot. Hot. Hot. Hot. Hot. Hot. Hot. Hot. 

Oh the struggle to do the laundry...

I feel like I have to double up on my black cohosh pills to face the heat out there. Oh I should also take my black currant oil.

Ramirez might have a mortgage.

"Making a report"

demetriusfields

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYhfLwCtugr/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

There's people who could just journey to a different neighborhood in their own county.

 

"Help me fix my algorithm"

loveely_vee

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbKQR6xpAHW/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

There's more people in this country who could also evolve.

"Laura Loomer flips switch on Ukraine war narrative"

https://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2026/jul/24/laura-loomer-flips-switch-ukraine-war-narrative-propagandized-russia/

For now I'll just have to read all my books here.

I also think it'd be fun to go back to my grandmother's house and read books in it again. But I wonder what the house looks like now.

I feel sleepy.

I fell asleep instead of learning about the ukulele. I'm going to do laundry soon. Maybe I'll learn about how to play the ukulele then. I want in unit laundry in the future. I hope that will happen.

This is about Baltimore.

My friend in Baltimore tells me there's a wonderful water ballet class at the pool where she goes swimming.

"City Schools ramps up plan to protect students from ICE activity" - WBAL

https://www.wbaltv.com/article/baltimore-schools-ice-guidance-policy-safe-passage-program/73259713

I think I'm going to go figure out how to play a ukulele now.

"When I Die" by Nova Black

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Bu6arb8rzes&si=mQ7nZ_dhPqXnTLmN

Is this really happening???

 


🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬👺🔥🔥🔥

nobodyknowbighamm

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbGVzPwg5Qh/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Also, as I was swimming today, I started to remember a dream.

I dreamed I went to the house of somebody I used to know and I told them that they had been living a lavish life, and they told me it wasn't going to be lavish for very much longer. And I wasn't sure if they were going to leave the country or what, but just that there was going to be a change in their circumstances.

I guess she's evolving as a person.

"'Ms. Loomer wrote on social media during her visit to the country earlier this week. 'I feel like such an a——— for minimizing the struggle of Ukrainians for the last 5 years. I often said I don’t care. Looking back, that wasn’t very nice of me to say.'”

Mary McCue Bell

"Laura Loomer flips switch on Ukraine war narrative"

https://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2026/jul/24/laura-loomer-flips-switch-ukraine-war-narrative-propagandized-russia/

People seem to forget that there's a lot of violent white men in our society.

Congresswoman Delia C. Ramirez on X: "We must resist normalizing ICE murdering our neighbors. We cannot allow our loved ones to continue getting killed in the streets. In the wake of Lorenzo and Johan’s deaths, we must continue putting pressure on Congress to act! Let's pass my Melt ICE Act and abolish ICE! https://t.co/nwZLJUbS6d" / X

https://x.com/repdeliaramirez/status/2080693790294090045?ref_src=twsrc%5Egoogle%7Ctwcamp%5Eserp%7Ctwgr%5Etweet

So many people have been responding to her by pointing out times when "illegals" have committed violent crimes. 

They don't point out all the times when white men have done it! Why not?

We have an incredibly racist society.

It was valuable.

I feel like there was a book I read where some guy had to get his crown yanked out of his mouth when he got put in a concentration camp. It affected his eating. The book might have been Night by Elie Wiesel. That's not the sort of book I would like to reread very often.

I did swim, and then I had lunch.

I don't really like how I feel so maimed in the mouth every time I eat a substantial meal, on account of having a very strange front tooth now.

My legs were itchy, so I had to shower first. I think the chlorine might have been too high. I think I heard them talking about it. 

But it was a good swim. 

Sure, they should act like they know how to use their words, right?

"Sen. Gary Peters wants ICE to explain why it bought spyware that can covertly take control of phones" - CBS News

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/senate-ice-graphite-spyware-phones/

Looks mattered.

"In the early days of my time in Vaassen, my mother would visit the Van Deelen family once a month. That's how I knew she was alive, loved me, and under the circumstances was doing reasonably well. She didn't look Jewish, so she was able to move about with relative ease. Much later I found out that Mother had a false identity card even with a name vaguely resembling her own."

"At school, no one except the principal knew my true identity. That was very much to my advantage because the son of the leader of the local NSB -- the Dutch Nazi party -- was in my class.

I used to bike to school. There was a checkpoint along the way, where the police occasionally asked to see my ID, but --as it lacked the necessary J-- it always went quite smoothly. Whenever necessary, I'd tell them I was Mr. Van Beek's nephew."

"During my years underground, I couldn't be seen naked -- not in front of the boys and certainly not in front of any girls! Swimming would have been a problem, too, were it not for the fact that the farmer had been good enough to add real changing stalls to his homemade swimming pool."

"In the late summer of 1944, shortly after the Allies had been defeated at the Dutch town of Arnhem, My mother came to live with the van Beeks as well. Around the same time, the school next to our house was confiscated by a company of Dutch volunteers in the Waffen-SS. It soon became clear that we hadn't merely acquired a group of SS soldiers as neighbors but that some of them were also moving in with us."

"I was forced to address my mother as 'aunt.' I didn't even think of it as a problem: I simply did it. I had to if I was to survive."

" I never once saw my father. He had gone underground in the small town of Hattem. He looked more Jewish than either my mother or me, and so for him, it was better never to be seen at all. He was forced to be 'cellular' as we used to call it then: locked up inside his house."

Page 32 - 36 

"We All Wore Stars: Memories of Anne Frank from Her Classmates by Theo Coster"| Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/11450811-we-all-wore-stars

Reading about the inventor of the "Guess Who" game.

"I moved in with Mr. And Mrs. Van Beek, with whom I would stay until Liberation Day, which in my case would be April 17, 1945. The Van Beeks had no children of their own and seemed happy to receive a "ready-made" child -- and an obedient one at that."

"Barend van Beek was the headmaster of the local Christian Elementary School. I would become like a son to him and he like a father to me. In the winter, we'd go skating together. Once a week, I visited Reverend Van Deelen's son Chris to play chess. Chris was my age and, like me, wasn't a farmer's son. 

I went to the same school as Chris did, for, unlike other children in hiding, I was able to go to school. It was all due to the fact that a few years earlier, after the German occupation, my father had failed to complete the required form concerning the origin of my grandparents."

Page 30 - 31

"We All Wore Stars: Memories of Anne Frank from Her Classmates by Theo Coster" | Goodreads


ICE cream

"All Eyes on ICE Detention NOW!" | Ben & Jerry's

https://www.benjerry.com/whats-new/2026/07/all-eyes-on-ice-detention

Say NO to their temporary and subpar survival strategies.

 


"DHS abandoned it's plan"

defiancedispatch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbKL-qpMU4q/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Elephants close ranks around their young"

defiancedispatch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbJnXiksR6E/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"This isn't legal."

defiancedispatch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbLdqsbumfr/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's nice. It's peaceful.

A cat comes in to say hello. A cat watches a human enjoying a back scratch. That probably makes sense. We must look so boring when we're on our phones and computers all the time. So boring. What are they doing on their phones and their computers all the time? Shoelaces are better. Shoelaces are fun for the cat.

It makes you wonder why so many women are still so self-deprecating.

I feel I've learned the hard way that if I put myself down, the Patriarchy just runs right with it. The Patriarchy is not exactly a deep thinker. Do you think the Patriarchy's going to help me out with my issues? Dream On.

Not today, swimming pool.

Waking up tired already...But I am looking forward to having an interesting day anyway.

Struggle...

Wham! - "Everything She Wants (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Yf_Lwe6p-Cg&si=PrDpDblF10aFKzj6

Humans are here to learn things.

We have to ask for grace and forgiveness from higher sources because we just accidentally got so involved in what we were perceiving that we couldn't see what was going on as much as some who are more balanced or are more in touch with their spiritual health could.

It's like the never-ending lesson.

Learning how to take better care of yourself when you've got a trickier set of genetics to deal with...it is challenging. Well, other people can just be different with their different genetics. They can have the fun they can have.

I had some pain issues and I heard my cat also sounding like she didn't feel well and now she's sleeping relatively peacefully but I had to get up and do some things. I had to drink some apple cider vinegar in cinnamon water and stuff because I was irresponsible with the way I was eating today.

So I suppose I will try to fall asleep soon. Because...sigh. People can think you're interesting, but it doesn't mean that they know what's best for you. You have to figure out what's best for you and sometimes it's difficult.

People just don't know, sometimes. So, they have a lot to learn. Perhaps it's best to make peace with that. And then when you do, find people who seem good at being intuitive or if you get better at being intuitive yourself, you can celebrate that, too.

Always have to focus on health first.

Always getting reminded that I have a special needs situation to attend to.

I'm either going to look up small little vacation excursion ideas or just think about them now.

I almost kind of want to go on a fishing retreat or something. They have stuff like that around here. 

I hear the train a coming...

I'm not going to sleep for a while because I'm taking advantage of this long stretch of after hours, everyone else is sleeping, past two o'clock in the morning, calm feeling I am feeling. It's healing for my nervous system. I have to luxuriate in it right now. It's like a free spa treatment.

Whose fault is it???

I just don't know how to punish anybody for their terrible attitudes and all the gnarly panic attacks I suffered from over the years. Especially as I began to enter a certain era.

I lost my number 8 tooth. I have almost no tooth left there. Just a little bit. 

"West End Girls... 🎶"

I wonder when these two public servants from Des Moines came up in the world...

"#lunchladyenergy"

breakroom.chronicles and 777melly777

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZI8z-URbwq/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Values. Chicken Pox. Des Moines, Washington.

"Old Home Town : Rose Wilder Lane"

https://archive.org/details/oldhometown0000rose/page/n9/mode/1up

This is what they gave me to entertain myself as I was ailing.

This is what they teach the scouts from the Old Home Town...

"Hot Time In the Old Town Tonight Lyrics"

https://www.scoutsongs.com/lyrics/hot-time-in-the-old-town-tonight.html

Also, I had these in my ear while I was doing the dishes.

"The Tallest Man, the Broadest Shoulders..."

S. Stevens

https://youtube.com/watch?v=PLEXd_P6A0s&si=hAGr28J2TCptJIdv

"Dear Mr. Supercomputer"

S. Stevens

https://youtube.com/watch?v=2tdDL5Jyigw&si=9MWwvKhqgNBQuoWe

"The Avalanche"

S. Stevens

https://youtube.com/watch?v=uSp5cyYIKo8&si=zrWFjzukifov7e_d

For a second, I thought this guy looked a little bit like Otto Frank, but actually they looked quite different.

I guess there's just a certain style of dress going on there or something.

"Adlai Stevenson (Music Video)" - Sufjan Stevens

https://youtube.com/watch?v=TnGTg-B5RQI&si=U2B92cKfIg5tS2w_

Why don't you let yourself go...

And read Anne Frank's diary? It's a really interesting year to read it because all the days of the week line up this year with the days of the week in 1942 when she moved into the hiding place, the secret annex.

I feel hot and I feel bad for the women who had to hide in an attic during perimenopause.

I don't even think they used to talk about perimenopause very much. It was just like "fertile" and then "getting older and letting yourself go" and then "menopause."

Thursday, July 23, 2026

Keep in mind that really terrible, cruel. Things are happening right now.

Preparing to look ridiculous in NOT very impressive ways to future generations on multiple levels...

"...'Death Wish': 'Not' About Taylor Swift"

https://www.billboard.com/music/music-news/aaron-dessner-gracie-abrams-death-wish-noah-kahan-interview-1236299956/


I really should check out their work more often.

"#theprodigy #lunchladyenergy"

breakroom.chronicles and 777melly777

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbEnOBFvza7/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

What a loaded word. "Cathected."

 

"Often, children will want to remain with parental caregivers who have hurt them because of their cathected feelings."

Page 25

"All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks"

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/17607.All_About_Love



I should look for this one!

"A Stitch in Time by Penelope Lively" | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/278046.A_Stitch_in_Time

Another great library book I read as a young person during time spent on the central California coast.

And the adults who read it are also giving it good reviews.

The memory of reading this floated to the surface.

"The Language of Goldfish by Zibby Oneal"

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/413121.The_Language_of_Goldfish

I read it in Monterey when I was a young person. I don't really remember very much about the story. I I might not have connected with this actual story that much, but I think the art on the cover was what I remembered the most about it.

Sometimes we feel the responsibility to others and ourselves haze creeping over us...

 

"Tomorrow is a big day for my daughter and I"

prosperitylifestyleco

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbB4x4uAPHI/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬👺🔥🔥🔥"

nobodyknowbighamm

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbGVzPwg5Qh/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

No, I wasn't too lazy. I was too exhausted.

One little word can have many different meanings.

I'm too lazy to play a musician. I mean a musical instrument right now.

Also, I don't really care if that mom's kid was probably technically not as young as some people in the comments were saying.

Like a sister or a grouchy cousin?

I feel very unfriendly but talkative.

Maybe I'll pick up that musical instrument again.

I went swimming and then I made a healthy bowl thing with a turkey burger cut into pieces and lots of veggies and then I ate ice cream.

Celebrity Wedding Concentration Camp Stuff

 

"This is incredibly disturbing"

embodimentwithemily

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbJh9l5Syir/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Let's get spiritual spiritual 🎵

 


"Spirituality should help you face reality"

TheRealNicCoy

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAjSCrYh/

Sometimes these guys and women hang out.

"'The Men Who Want Women To Be Quiet' by Helen Lewis"

Mira Salem

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAjS6t2f/

In which the author visits the site of the camp his great-grandfather survived.

"The thing that knocked the breath out of me was a large stone trough in the kitchen. Its official use was for washing potatoes. But I learned that occasionally, an SS man would use it to drown an inmate, just to show that he could. This was the true evil of the camp: even everyday objects -- a shower, a trough -- could suddenly become an instrument of torture. Nothing was left in the camp that was not tainted by death."

Page 104

"The Language of Thieves: My Family's Obsession with a Secret Code the Nazis Tried to Eliminateby Martin Puchner" | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/50489374-the-language-of-thieves


R.I.P. Mr. Rogers.

Thank you for passing along your mother's helpful advice. Surely, you must have reincarnated into the most fortunate of circumstances.

It's like Mr. Rogers' mom always said.

"Look for the celebrities and talented people who are the helpers!"

Does anyone have any idea how many kids they're supposed to kidnap?

Which kids? For what reason?

If the kid gets sent to that wedding guest's ICE facility, do the celebrities who also attended the wedding have any clout?

Can they get the kid back home to Mom?

Waiting for those parents who feel the most superior to speak up....

"But you really don't know what being a parent is like until you've had your child kidnapped in front of you and taken away by armed men who are being paid a lot of money by the government to put people in detention centers with terrible living conditions for who knows how long..."

I think this could be a fun tutorial for me to check out this afternoon.

"Easy 2 Chord Songs!  Beginner Ukulele Tutorial"

LaraMarkowitzMusic

https://youtube.com/watch?v=R00wsuxzGhg&si=2O8ESo53s6-p4bvE

"Sometimes it's a capacity problem."

 

"Why emotionally immature people can't hear you."

francescapsychology

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbI4mAaI4_t/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Yee-haw.

 


I suppose there's one thing that's better now, which is that the media is less censored than it used to be?

Compared to other times in history when very bad stuff was happening.


"Trump’s Terrifying Explosion of Sex Offender ICE Agents Revealed"


Things that make you think about jumping out a window.

1) Some scared white people who used to seem a lot kinder and friendlier are getting colder because they really don't want to talk about what's going on.

Okay, let's stop there.

Why don't they want to talk about what's going on? 

We didn't have a problem talking about stuff like this when it was something farther removed from us in history. 

These people are acting like prejudiced jerks and they don't want to admit it. 

There's a difference between them and some other people who don't stress out about it as much as me, but have a kinder, gentler way of letting me know that they don't feel they are supposed to think about it as much. 

Like I've had somebody say, genuinely, "It's not that I don't care. It's just that I don't feel like it's supposed to be my main focus of what I should be thinking about right now. Instead I feel like I'm supposed to focus on..."

You know what? I think that's a legitimate response. 

But shutting down other people entirely? 

That's what's really bad. 

Maybe it's just unskilled. 

Maybe a lot of the bad things that happen in the world, like genocide, are just because some people are simply scared and unskilled. 

Maybe so.

Maybe Grandma was there...

 

"Teaching my son Respect #mexico #life #respect #Love"

West Culture

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTA2HUE35/

Peace.

 


"I had a moment while driving with my daughter this weekend"

RootedInLove

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTA26EySy/

It's a total crap shoot out there.

 

#fyp #storytime #I-70 #daddyissues

Ashlynn Jenings

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTA2jUp6M/

"This is not the country I thought it was."

emilydoespolitics2

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTA22W5wP/

"i wanted to clarify"

LUCY💫🌈 💕

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTA2Yt8hA/


Remembering that story about the girl who ran away to say goodbye.

"It is the case of Miepie Viskooper, a girl from Amsterdam, aged seven, that is the closest to Lien's. She is the subject of witness statements 146 to 148.

Witness 146 is Joanna Wigman, a barmaid in her mid-twenties who had taken the little girl into her care. On the night of November 15, 1943, Miepie was sleeping beside Johanna on a mattress. Then, at half past eleven, Johanna heard a break-in downstairs. She had just time to hide the child under the blankets before Evers and Den Breejen burst in. The policeman demanded to know if her name was Johanna Wigman and then began their search. All too quickly Miepie was discovered. Den Breejen is recorded in the statement as saying 'Here we have the Yid!' But then, as the men continued in search of other evidence, the little girl ran out.

Evers and Den Breejen were furious and, for her act of protection, Johanna Wigman was sent to the concentration camp at Vught.

Witness 147 is the owner of the adjoining cafe, Cornelius van Tooren. He himself had a daughter, called Jannetje, of Miepie's age. Evers and Den Breejen, he reports, had spent time searching the cafe before moving on to the neighboring flat. After they left, he kept watch in their absence, and then at around midnight Miepie ran into the bar. Evers came in right behind her, pointing his revolver, shouting, ' It's the choke hole for you'  at the little girl.

'I've only come to say good-bye to Jannetje,' she replied.

The worst is witness 148. This is Miepie's father, a small-scale confectionary manufacturer in the big city, the same as Lien's. Like Lien, Miepie was an only daughter, and again, just like Lien's parents, the Viskoopers thought their child would be safe if she hid with non-Jews, so they sent her away. They themselves also went into hiding, but they were caught. At the awful moment of their arrest there was at least the feeling that, for their daughter, theirs had been the right choice.

But then, as the couple was held at Westerbork, the Dutch Transit camp for Auschwitz, Miepie was brought into her mother, under guard.

As I read this. I think of my own wife and children and imagine that unwanted reunion. I can see the smile of recognition on the face of the child.

The Viskoopers traveled together to Poland. Then, on arrival, Michel Viskooper watched as his wife and daughter were taken from him and driven away on a truck.

Michel, Miepie's father, was one of just 5,200 Dutch Jews who survived the death camps, but he returned to Holland alone."

(66 - 67).

"'The Cut Out Girl' by Bart van Es"

https://www.optionstheedge.com/topic/culture/cut-out-girl-bart-van-es-tells-story-war-and-family

Parents! Fascism!

I think it takes a lot of highly insensitive and perhaps even fascist parents to make the kind of  fascist nation where children are getting kidnapped right in front of their parents in the middle of the day.

I'll bet you could have a lot of fun with this. Deconstructing can be fun for you.

Anyways, knowing that you're still going to go about your day, acting like you think you're better than a woman who saw her child just get kidnapped in front of her in broad daylight, you should really start to deconstruct that.

Can't you build a career and a life for yourself that's less misogynistic?

I feel like if you can imagine it, then it is possible.

Your "privileged" male friends are not great.

Your "privileged" male friends act like you're better than the woman who got her child kidnapped in front of her in broad daylight, and you're not better than her. AT ALL.

And for what???

For 2.5 bathrooms all to themselves and a mortgage, some middle-class women are duped and tricked into acting like the duped and tricked rich women.

Sometimes middle class women are the worst about caring about others, honestly. They have very low self-esteem. Their churches and families  instilled it in them. 

They think their worth as a human being is caught up in owning property, and everything else comes second to that. And then they start treating other human beings who don't own property or have as much money with great disdain. 

How incredibly disappointing and dispiriting.

I'm honored not to be the "privileged" white man friend of a duped and tricked rich woman.

 I'm glad I'm not a "privileged" white man friend enabling a rich woman to be duped and tricked.

This country / culture tricks rich women and dupes them.

Rich women get tricked by the Patriarchy into thinking that they're better than the other women and children that are being treated so horribly. $AD.

I think if more people cared and wanted to change, we would have something a lot better.

Kidnapping children in broad daylight in front of their mothers is a f****** low that I never wanted to see happen.

I think if more people cared and wanted to change, we would have something a lot better.

$AD.

It's too bad we can't afford to go to a show but probably some child kidnappers can. It's not like you can figure out which of the rich people are the ones who enable the child kidnappers, but a lot of them are acting very uncaring, and even if they don't actually kidnap children, they might be enablers.

It's time to tend to the body.

There were two clove cigarettes. There was an attempt to do smoking herbs and sort of smudge but it didn't really work. There's cinnamon tea. Energy medicine: rooster comb hold; unzip, blowout, zip up; hook up; massage mingmin point in the back. Daily energy routine or tracing meridians or both.


People need to get better.

This is the ICE agent criminal who killed a good father in Maine threatening his ex-wife.

"Newly released audio reveals..."

Now this Impact

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAYqxwRX/

Good job, kitty.

 


I need to get some sage when the store opens because the palo santo and cedar isn't working with me.

I'm going to make lots of little screams happen now.

I'm going to stare at the shell with smoking herbs in it.

Smoking tobacco-free clothes, I mean cloves (cigarettes) and burning special herbs!

Feeling grateful for all the real parents who don't want other people's kids to be kidnapped any more than they would want their own kids to be kidnapped!

Show me their greatness, Universe!

I can't wait to see evidence of people being better. It would be wonderful to see. It's time to get better now! I'm going to go outside and look at the mountains.

Let's acknowledge that things are not okay.

Let's acknowledge that ICE kidnapping a mother's child in front of her is pretty f****** depraved.

It is not my job to...

They'll figure out how to get better at seeing others when they figure out how to get better at it. There's probably a lot going on in their lives that's convincing them that they don't have to change at all. And I'm not there, and they're dealing with their own s***. 

They're not helping. I have to find new avenues and new ways to seek help for my situation. I have to take care of myself first. Because otherwise, I'm going to fall apart, and it's not cool. It's not fun, and it's not what I want to do. I want to get better, so I'm going to reapply myself to this task NOW.

Well, I only drove towards it, but I wasn't there.

Well, I didn't drive to the site of the ICE kidnapping of a mother's child yesterday. I was in other places, doing other things.

It is no longer my job to convince people that they should care.

It is no longer my job to convince people that they should care. They will figure it out when they want to. It is not my responsibility any longer. I absolve myself of this responsibility. I do not need to convince them to care more about others. It is not my job. Nobody's paying me to do it, and it's causing me a lot of harm to my health. If they need to worship egos and money and treat human beings like garbage, it is not my f****** responsibility to fix it.

Think of it as a natural process.

Things have to die so new things can get reborn. I can't feed anyone's ego anymore and their egos are too much in their faces for them to be able to see a lot of the stuff that's going on. It's going to have to change.

Coping and trying; coping and trying.

"How Can I Cry [Official Video]" Moira Smiley & VOCO

https://youtube.com/watch?v=TDto1EssPAY&si=sDAjcvFmJLjkaOnR

I got to get a repertoire going.

If you're singing or screaming, you're doing something with your mouth. It's opening it. It's what they don't want you to do because they want you to shut it up. They want to tone police you. They've been abused by the system and then they abuse others. They're not good examples. Say no to these f******.

I need to let old things go and new things and better things come.

I feel like I want to get reborn. I feel really not okay when I have certain types of setbacks. I really want to get reborn now. I really, really, really need to get reborn. I need to get reborn. This problem didn't start happening until I got into a perimenopausal stage. It's very it's very, it's very very very...

I wonder if I would benefit from getting hypnosis. Nothing is covered by insurance. I'm glad I got good supplements. That was about $300 because of the session and some other supplements that I tested for nothing is covered by insurance. Nothing is covered by insurance. Nothing is covered by insurance. Nothing is covered by insurance. Nothing.

Not even basic therapy was covered by f****** insurance. Insurance through work. If you get insurance through work you can't get covered California marketplace insurance. 

The system is SO punitive. I do not need to spiral further. I am going to do some processes on myself right now. I had a relatively decent day yesterday and now it all feels like things are coming apart just because of a problem I have and I don't know how to fix it yet.

I think I deserve to not succeed in the disgusting awful system that's been created because human beings deserve better than the disgusting awful patriarchical system and it kills people; it does. It kills people.

I have to try to make myself get better somehow. I don't like the system. The system has been very bad to me. So now I am dying emotionally and I hope I will be reborn in the not too distant future and I will feel better.

People who tone police and worship mortgages are the worst. But I need to try to pull myself together now because I have no other choice. H. E. L. P.

Sigh.

I have a good shirt I really like and I just chewed a hole in it and now I want to see if I can order a new one.

I feel like I chewed it because I feel like I still can't have a calm conversation with the church-going mortgage worshipper.

I still prefer my tone to her self-righteous tone. I'm not ready to talk to her, but I would be if I hadn't gotten shut down for my "tone."

The good news is I looked up the shirt and it's less than $17 to order a new one. I'm probably going to order a few other things too because you know, that's how it goes. Sometimes.

But I feel sick and I feel sad.

This content creator says ICE picked up this woman's child in Glendale yesterday.


"#glendale #ice #fyp"

Luis714

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAYHqpkA/

"#colonizer #mexico"

americangirl

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTAYHfoCD/


Brought a new friend home for a little while...

 

It was a surprise for me! Only will have to drive for about an hour in good traffic in a few weeks.