Monday, May 25, 2026

Should have read my new favorite horror novel sooner.

 


"The most beautiful..."

olivia_radz

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYvCzPxJU_p/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Is this a masterpiece?"

rambothepuppy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYuooxvuGHQ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Marriage means nothing in Hollywood"

therealebjohnson

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYw8vtrorfa/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Just him for now. We'll bring in some others later.

"Crying (Album Version)"

Roy Orbison

https://youtube.com/watch?v=k_L_GZLa5ow&si=YWBL-cNlxOS7fnoU

Crying...They still don't care? Got to get more creative...

"Trying..."

michellesuicomedy 

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYxE3_dli6C/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Sometimes, I really do doubt the cult's devotion, too.

I don't see why anyone's possible Grandpa or Grandma should be locked up for 4 months with an ovarian cyst that the Patriarchal Cult says can't get operated on.

"Minnesota woman detained by ICE needs emergency surgery for tennis ball-sized ovarian cyst, lawmakers say" - CBS Minnesota

https://www.cbsnews.com/minnesota/news/minnesota-lawmakers-humanitarian-release-andrea-pedro-francisco-ovarian-cyst/

On a lighter note

Grandpa movie star good looks never felt that good-looking, and you could tell. Actually, music and dancing were his second favorite things. First love was working and keeping busy. 

No update on the ovarian cyst operation yet.

"Austin church celebrates teen’s return after weeks in ICE custody"

https://www.kxan.com/video/austin-church-celebrates-teen%e2%80%99s-return-after-weeks-in-ice-custody/11822341/

"Immigrant detainee pleads with ICE to let her have surgery"

https://www.scrippsnews.com/investigations/ice-inc/immigrant-detainee-pleads-with-ice-to-let-her-have-surgery

Who knows if these iconic songs could even exist without Ka-tzetnik 135633 calling on Nike and trying to understand a female perspective.

New Order - "Blue Monday"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=c1GxjzHm5us&si=ri4GIfuFXKuiwobp

Joy Division - "Love Will Tear Us Apart"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=zuuObGsB0No&si=OpIFFjfLwOK60bqm

"The House of Dolls by Ka-tzetnik 135633" | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/771394.The_House_of_Dolls

Instead of "My father figures and I still stomp on women and girls like you mercilessly so we can fit in with the others"

Read a valuable $150 book. Why not? The Joy Division band which became New Order read it.

"House of Dolls" | Ka-Tsetnik 135633 | Sixth printing

https://www.boo-hooray.com/pages/books/5178/ka-tsetnik-135633/house-of-dolls

And a man wrote it! That's really helpful for you to know.

"The House of Dolls by Ka-tzetnik 135633"| Goodreads


But anyways, maybe some of the wiser well-off people could make much better use of their time.

"What We Lost When We Lost the Veranda:

How Modern Design Quietly Changed Community Life" | Psychology Today 

https://www.psychologytoday.com/za/blog/non-weird-science/202605/what-we-lost-when-we-lost-the-veranda

Imagine aging into finding out your family's like the Mafia

Childish adults who still choose to side with the abusive old molesters just 'cause those guys got the land and the money and the status. And all because their parents' cult brainwashed them to follow that sort of person as their leader as kids. It's awfully taxing on the nervous system.

Thinking about eating pasta for breakfast!

 🍅🍝🧀

"The 'male loneliness epidemic'..." 

https://www.reddit.com/r/GirlDinnerDiaries/s/VlLtlsnD8b

I guess Rico Suave ended up being a family man with traditional values.

"Gerardo: From ‘Rico Suave’ to Discovering 'Gata Only' & Brewing Coffee"

https://www.billboard.com/music/latin/gerardo-mejia-rico-suave-gata-only-executive-coffee-1235746266/

"My mom had me when she was 15 years old. When I was little, she would come in with her record player and the 45s. She would play Stevie Wonder’s 'Sir Duke' and 'I Wish.' She loved American music. Once we came over here [to the U.S.], it wasn’t much of a culture shock, because I was kind of living it over there through my mother. I just totally enjoyed both cultures. Mi país es súper salsero, super duper. If you hear the 'Rico Suave' song, there’s a little sample that goes, 'Ahhh, rehh, ari.' That’s from an old song ['Chamo Candela'] from Venezuela by a group called Daiquirí. I used to love that song so much that I [sampled it], which became the part that people chanted. Some people might not know the Spanish lyrics to 'Rico Suave,' but they always sing along with that chant."

~ Gerardo Mejia to Isabela Raygoza

Another Desperate Patriarchal Maneuver?

"What happened to Trump’s in-your-face mass deportations?"

https://www.cnn.com/2026/05/24/politics/trump-immigration-policies-mass-deportation

Patriarchy seemingly needs to stress out more little humans more extra-ly, for some reason.

"Confusion and Worry After Abrupt Change to Green Card Process

Immigrants and their advocates and lawyers are trying to interpret a new Trump administration rule that requires people to be in their native country to apply for a green card."

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/05/24/us/green-card-application-changes-trump.html

Patriarchy is burning out in this sector, maybe?

"He informed the crowd how it was his wife’s 50th birthday and that they decided to celebrate with a Foo Fighters concert in Napa. Grohl said the weekend was about “drinking from noon to midnight.” 

Before playing the next song, Grohl suggested bringing Blum on stage to celebrate her, but when she wasn’t in the wings, he scrambled. “She’s probably drinking wine in the back,” he told the tens of thousands of people about his wife on her golden jubilee. “It doesn’t matter.”

Alone with the guitar, Grohl started strumming “Big Me.” It was saccharine. It lacked the conviction of the recording and felt performative. Grohl ended by saying, “That’s my version of a happy birthday song,” and I could have sworn I saw his ego erupt in a blaze of self-glory — surprising, since he looked so tiny on stage from the crowd. 

Although their first two CDs were on repeat throughout my childhood thanks to older siblings, BottleRock was my first time attending a Foo Fighters concert. It was abundantly clear that Grohl is a rapid pacemaker. He told the crowd how he likes to play song after song after song, and before ending the night, Grohl predicted his future. “I’ll be 87 f—king years old and still up here screaming,” he said. 

Numerous times, a song featured a false ending, giving him a chance to belt the hook yet again. It was as if Grohl couldn’t let the moment end, perhaps afraid to face the back of the stage and the rest of the world waiting for him when the final note played out."

Silas Valentino

"It was hard to love the Foo Fighters during their headlining BottleRock set

"SFGATE editor Silas Valentino reviews the Foo Fighters BottleRock in Napa, their third headlining set in nine years"

https://www.sfgate.com/sf-culture/article/foo-fighters-bottlerock-22268679.php


Some kids can't go to museums or the zoo anymore. That's mean.

"Fear of ICE pushes Washington DC daycare workers into hiding" | U.S. | EL PAÍS English

https://english.elpais.com/usa/2026-05-25/fear-of-ice-pushes-washington-dc-daycare-workers-into-hiding.html

"It’s about 10.30am, time to take the children out for a walk. The teachers settle the youngest into double strollers and take the older ones by the hand. Then they walk down the narrow, tree-lined street where Delia’s daycare operates, in a residential neighborhood of Washington, D.C. It won’t be a long outing. Since President Donald Trump stepped up his offensive against immigrants in the capital last year, the daycare workers — all vulnerable to deportation — avoid going very far. They used to take the children to the neighborhood public library, the capital’s free museums or the zoo. Now they have gone nearly a year without doing so."

~ Federica Narancio

A talking animal or an actor named Chris can make more money than you, easily.

'Films more likely to star an actor called Chris or a talking animal than a woman over 60, study finds"

https://www.theguardian.com/film/2026/may/25/films-more-likely-to-star-an-actor-called-chris-or-a-talking-animal-than-a-woman-over-60-study-finds

That's what happens when the childish men run things.

You should ask yourself why the paycheck.

He really needs the men to be the cult leaders. Por que???

I like wine; never thought of it as being "my woman" though.

“There was a Native American reservation where single men would find comfort in a bottle of very cheap wine called Cracklin’ Rose. That wine became their woman. I had to write a song about that”: Neil Diamond on his classic hits and the art of songwriting"

https://www.musicradar.com/artists/there-was-a-native-american-reservation-where-single-men-would-find-comfort-in-a-bottle-of-very-cheap-wine-called-cracklin-rose-that-wine-became-their-woman-i-had-to-write-a-song-about-that-neil-diamond-on-his-classic-hits-and-the-art-of-songwriting

"The childcare and early education industry in Washington relies heavily on immigrant women"

"Fear of ICE pushes Washington DC daycare workers into hiding" | U.S. | EL PAÍS English

https://english.elpais.com/usa/2026-05-25/fear-of-ice-pushes-washington-dc-daycare-workers-into-hiding.html

"The childcare and early education industry in Washington relies heavily on immigrant women: here, about 40% of early childhood workers are immigrants (both documented and undocumented), nearly double the national average. The figure is part of a state-by-state analysis that the Center for the Study of Child Care Employment at the University of California, Berkeley published in 2025 using Census data."

~ Federica Narancio


Sunday, May 24, 2026

It's kind of fun to be online sometimes.

 


"I spent the last 8 years researching..."

jvanderleun

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYsp9beu56C/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I have two modes"

thenewstepford

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYr_V31tMq9/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Perimenopause starts..."

theultimatemomchallenge

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYiTVLYygRJ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


Sharing about some experiences on Earth.

"UN Women published a report this month called Tipping Point."

thesteministwitch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYkivW3MalJ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Also remember thinking this was really funny.

"In The Time It Takes to Get There"

Adobe Creative Cloud

https://youtube.com/watch?v=QWIblC4rEL0&si=1ANWDrdTe4dwu_9O

Maybe I would watch this "Rooster" show.

"Directing 'Rooster' photos..."

zachbraff

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYuvsekGs1t/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

NEVER have seen this:

"A Good Person"| Rotten Tomatoes

https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/a_good_person

This was quite funny 😹

 


"therapy has so much protein 🤠"

kabirswalia

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYnquuNOZFa/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


Topless photo generated by a man with AI. Any thoughts?

"Creators deserve to be protected. But platforms continue to allow this to happen"

abbyeckel

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYp2OcaxgRv/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Culty environments really do things to some brains at impressionable ages.

I feel like if I were an indie musician and my fans were getting weird and culty about me, I would try to do something about it so that they would start acting more sensible. 

Courtney Barnett's fans don't act that way. 

Julia Jacklin's fans don't act that way.

I'm never going to be like this person, but she's interesting.

Eating nettles raw???

"Eating like a fairy 🧚 Nettle is natures multivitamin"

@Ebbymoyer

https://youtube.com/shorts/f9Ggo7-rUr8?si=omvF2WpKqsQcK4xH

Learned about this today.

"By infiltrating the dangerous world of illegal 'orchestra groups' in Bihar, Singh demonstrated an immense act of bravery...a five-day descent into a criminal underworld where women and underage girls were being treated as commodities, sexually exploited, and abused behind the curtain of entertainment."

~ Arya

"Mahima Singh: The reporter who became every girl's shield"

https://reflections.live/articles/26887/mahima-singh-the-reporter-who-became-every-girls-shield-by-arya-shende-30374-mp6yghpp.html

"Woman story time⚜️"

sarah_olivia_rose

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYusG8RoU51/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


"She risked everything so you could know this"

spot.newsmedia and lafdey.politics

Obviously, a very privileged point of view, compared to the "House of Dolls" characters.

 🧑🏼‍🍳


"1940scooking #1940sfood #ww2rationing #ww2recipes"

1940s Cooking

https://youtube.com/shorts/D0zcLEAH-HE?si=ZMGvp3rW8rGM78An


One of these days I'm going to get way more mysterious.

And less "chatty around some people closeted English professor" who wants to push the envelope a little because oh my God why should I be the only one who has to feel called to get out of my comfort zone?

"Omnichord version of 'Allison Knew'"

billie_conge

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXmc3p-Bbh8/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

PJ Harvey - "Send His Love To Me"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=rsUIl7qVzYw&si=M5uheN5LT1XZTdCI

Mitski's "Your Best American Girl" at 10

https://www.marieclaire.com/culture/music/your-best-american-girl-mitski-music-video-anniversary-interview/

Yeah, it probably needs to feel more fun.

The kids in Ecuador were a little different, though.

"Being asked to help dampens the joy of doing good, according to children in multiple countries"

https://www.psypost.org/being-asked-to-help-dampens-the-joy-of-doing-good-according-to-children-in-multiple-countries/

"A study of 6-11-year-old children across 5 countries found that children believed individuals are more willing to help and share when they decide to do so spontaneously compared to when it is requested of them. However, how much requests diminish this perceived willingness varied across cultures. The research was published in Developmental Psychology."

Vladimir Hedrih

What does God want from the earthbound?

 

"ja i created..."

letsdoubledutch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYuWiZFoX8H/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It can be a very sad and painful life.

 Ovarian cysts exist.

"ICE Is Ignoring Woman’s Life-Threatening Ovarian Cyst—and Her Condition Is Getting Worse"

https://www.jezebel.com/ice-is-ignoring-womans-life-threatening-ovarian-cyst-and-her-condition-is-getting-worse

One with more money might have a nice swimming pool.

A good time to lift some light weights and go for a walk on a a kind of brisk morning!

Skating Polly - "Little Girl Blue and The Battle Envy"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=0B4Nn9_9YHg&si=uN-s-oaxCB0wMvwO

Skating Polly - "Hail Mary"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=v2ahvxACX5Q&si=kudTbdMD6T3QtO0F

Skating Polly - "Camelot"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=FbFoX8SvaKI&si=q5kR2M6OOKV7dTp-

I made it to the end of "House of Dolls!"

 Made it to the end. Happy Sunday.

"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse

Fella has real "Fed up older sister" vibes.

At the beginning of Chapter 19.


"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse

Good line.

"Hippocrates of Concentration Camp Universe! Prescribe this patient his cure!" (Page 233)

It's an ancient movement: Let them read your diary for free.

The cool thing about a diary is that different people will relate to different parts of it. You get more information back just by putting some information out in the universe. 

That whiteness of the sheet talk on pages 218 and 219 makes me think of Wallace Stevens.

"Call the roller of big cigars,

The muscular one, and bid him whip

In kitchen cups concupiscent curds.

Let the wenches dawdle in such dress

As they are used to wear, and let the boys

Bring flowers in last month's newspapers.

Let be be finale of seem.

The only emperor is the emperor of ice-cream.


Take from the dresser of deal,

Lacking the three glass knobs, that sheet

On which she embroidered fantails once

And spread it so as to cover her face.

If her horny feet protrude, they come

To show how cold she is, and dumb.

Let the lamp affix its beam.

The only emperor is the emperor of ice-cream."


~ Wallace Stevens

They haven't been on a hunger strike though.

"TWO PORTIONS OF BREAD"

Can you believe that some rich people are spending money to look like they've been on a hunger strike???

"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse

"ICE Detainees At NJ Prison Launch Hunger Strike, Refuse To Work" | Newark, NJ Patch

Earache? Things could be worse.

"You don't know how to handle the Germans."


"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse

Overachievers ♥️ hard things.

How did this become another one of your "Catalyst for healing your pain" projects? 

Wise words again.

"Affix your own oxygen mask before assisting others."

There will be more opportunities to ask for help from other sources though

Unfortunately, if you have come from people who are too immature to talk about the abuse that was embedded in their family and yours, that's an awful experience. 

I did well for myself that night.

One time, at night in the parking lot of a Barnes and Noble in Ann Arbor, I said "No" to a good looking guy who wanted to borrow my phone. "No! I'm on the phone." I glared at him. He ran away. My mother was on the other line, saying who was that and telling me to get away from him. Something was wrong with him. And I had just been in the bookstore looking at a book when these weird sexual thoughts came into my head, but not like I wanted them or like they had anything to do with what I was reading. So I just told myself I was going to notice and acknowledge that had happened. Then he showed up in the parking lot. After I said no to him, he ran over to another couple and asked for help but I could tell he was acting. Hopefully he got help with whatever problems he had and never assaulted anyone. One can hope it worked out that way.

Noted.

 Change happened.


"In 1966, 17-year-old Franca Viola..."

u/dannydutch1

https://www.reddit.com/r/UtterlyUniquePhotos/s/YNq0dAFOln

People need to take breaks when they're processing all that trauma.

So, I decided to take a break from my torture novel. 

Scrolling on the wilds of internet again.

Well, I  think so and so is very talented and...

Jesus Christ, it's like a giant f****** snowball with rocks in it just hit me. 

Fix yourself. I don't know what you need to do.

Probably a lot.

I mean, I guess the universe just needs me to say no.

If I feel like reading about Nazis and rape and evil misogynistic dominatrixes helps protect me from falling into whatever decadent and  irresponsible lifestyle you've fallen into...

"The House of Dolls by Ka-tzetnik 135633" | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/771394.The_House_of_Dolls

"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse


So safe and so in the past, compared to what's going on right now.

"London exhibition reveals scale of Nazi slave labor"

https://www.bbc.com/news/articles/cq5p70lpwzqo

Sigh! Our ailing culture. So many suffer so much, just so a few can get access to more!


"Lawmakers, clergy call for humanitarian release of release of woman in Texas detention center with ovarian cyst"

https://minnesotareformer.com/2026/04/23/lawmakers-clergy-call-for-humanitarian-release-for-woman-in-texas-detention-center/

The ovarian cysts of life.

Imagine what life might have done to someone to make reading a weird and disturbing book like this more appealing:

"The House of Dolls by Ka-tzetnik 135633" | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/771394.The_House_of_Dolls

And a better alternative to replicating whatever your temporary survival strategy of success is. (It's also going to look very old-fashioned really soon.)

It's a very f***** up book.

I can understand why it's painful to admit that there are problems.

And I think if some people were actually curious about and interested in more people succeeding, they wouldn't act so much like the white people in this book that they're never going to read: 

"My Place (An Australian Classic)" by Sally Morgan

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1144682.My_Place

And their whole, "Wouldn't you be lucky to be able to live like one of us" ridiculousness is not helping. Taking a longview, actually, no.

Those doors close. Other doors open.

If your ability to fit in and look out for number one is the best thing you've got going for yourself, that's fine, but I also think there's other people out there who have more to share and say, and perhaps they will be the ones who will teach me how I can change and do better for myself instead.

Saturday, May 23, 2026

For real.

I wish more people my age (and older) were better at asking themselves deeper questions and were more curious about how other people are doing.

Started a long time ago. Maybe will change for some people.

 

"When did it all start?"

streetlighteyesdontdie

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYsoMOoRq2o/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It really is a collective thing...

Like, if the collective wasn't so collectively damaged by the white supremacist patriarchal culture, a lot more people would be more curious than they seem to be about others, and they would act like they care a lot more about a much wider variety of people, and that's just how the universe is acting about our culture at the moment.

I don't really care if online things mess things up because maybe it's for good reasons that it's messing things up.

Other people are still too shallow and insensitive and gossipy, but I type and read too freely to suit their needs, so discovering that is part of the peril of participating in the human experience.

Maybe musicians or maybe physicians who are in touch with their feelings could help, or keep her in their prayers?

She's a musician in need of medical care!

"Lawmakers, clergy call for humanitarian release of release of woman in Texas detention center with ovarian cyst"

https://minnesotareformer.com/2026/04/23/lawmakers-clergy-call-for-humanitarian-release-for-woman-in-texas-detention-center/

Building up some self-esteem in the whatever phase of this cycle by reading about a better acting person.

Women who seem to care about other women and don't make you feel like hurling yourself over a cliff:

"U.S. Rep. Angie Craig calls for release of woman in ICE detention with large ovarian cyst" • Minnesota Reformer

https://minnesotareformer.com/briefs/u-s-rep-angie-craig-calls-for-release-of-woman-in-ice-detention-with-large-ovarian-cyst/

Be on the lookout for more of them. That's what's for better for you tonight, for mental health reasons.

Good luck in the next life, "genetically blessed" insensitive ones.

Also, tonight I saw someone who looked like the really rich guy's white South African mom again, and I don't even know if that was actually her or her sister or some other person related to them or if it was just someone who happened to remind me of them and I'm never going to find out and that's fine.

I and my special genetics seem to need way more protection from disappointment than this, but it's pretty interesting nevertheless.

"Hundreds of ICE detainees launch hunger and labor strike at Delaney Hall"

Krystal Knapp

https://jerseyvindicator.org/2026/05/23/hundreds-of-ice-detainees-launch-hunger-and-labor-strike-at-delaney-hall/

This is good. I also have to look for somebody with the metabolic syndrome who has lots of jokes to share.

"When you are tired..."

michellesuicomedy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYUxZCkI1wF/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Friday night self love"

michellesuicomedy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYYQc0JIhVn/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"A banter with my mom"

michellesuicomedy

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYr0wcwlr_H/?img_index=2&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Maybe outer space wants us to care more about all the other starseeds.

I want outer space to know that I tried, and to  help me figure out how to feel better, in spite of PCOS intersecting with perimenopause. Also outer space, I cannot fix the stubborn people who seem to like certain aspects of patriarchal white supremacy if it suits them, so I'm not going to try to do it anymore.

One could call this a form of love.

"Teenager taken by ICE released; hundreds gather in Menemsha rally" - The Martha's Vineyard Times

https://www.mvtimes.com/2026/05/23/teenager-taken-by-ice-released-hundreds-gather-in-menemsha-rally/

All the different words for different types of love or snowflakes...

Seems like a wider variety of human beings would be more equally valued if society wanted us to value them.

Maybe people need to upgrade their notions of what LOVE is.

"The things we do for LOVE (of fitting into the Patriarchal White Supremacy as best as we can so we get whatever we can out of it) will be burning out so that hopefully something much better will be able to flourish very soon."

I feel like collective shallowness leads to outcomes like this kind of person doing what he does.

"'Clear Racism': Trump Admin Blocks Refugee Resettlement, Except for White South Africans"

https://www.democracynow.org/2026/5/21/afrikaners

It's just weird that she can't get released as fast as other people can; look at all these articles!

 What will make her feminine medical emergency appealing enough???



So special and pretty and sensitive!

Locked away in a facility for four months with an ovarian cyst; medically tortured with the help of the tax payer money of the better off at being wilfully ignorant in service to the cause of being so much more noble and caring for the truly special, according to this Violent Patriarchal White Supremacy.

Probably because those are the ones that we're going to be able to sell to the people who have the money to buy them.

Maybe we have enough songs about how pretty and special and sensitive the white guys are. Maybe it's actually to the point where it's kind of like a lie that keeps getting told over and over again.

Hurtful people are not going to be the ones helping.

Maybe self-parenting is necessary. Maybe it involves admitting that the selfish, insensitive about racism and poverty, emotionally immature, uncaring people are not going to be very helpful, instead of constantly deluding yourself that maybe they're going to act like they want things to get better for others. Also, maybe the Mexican ice cream shop is a better place to be today.

Overall, the lack of compassion leads to worse outcomes for women. It feels physically painful.

"Pedro-Francisco saw medical staff seven times and went to the emergency room once, according to a Department of Homeland Security spokesperson, but she never received the surgery her doctor ordered.

“Her condition has worsened because she has still not received the surgery that is needed, that is urgently needed, and her body is continuing to suffer with this cyst that needs to be removed,” said Amy Fischer, director of refugee and migrant rights at Amnesty International."

~ Patrick Terpstra

"Immigrant detainee pleads with ICE to let her have surgery"

https://www.scrippsnews.com/investigations/ice-inc/immigrant-detainee-pleads-with-ice-to-let-her-have-surgery

And the Wealth Gap is an awful, burgeoning, ugly problem too, which affects some kinds of people far more than it affects others.

"U.S. citizen stopped in Lafayette, shackled, and detained in Louisiana ICE facility

The U.S.-born woman presented ICE and Lafayette sheriff’s deputies with her state-issued ID and Social Security card. ICE detained her anyway."

This violent, patriarchal, racist, misogynistic culture's affect on some people is a very disappointing experience.

I think it is possible that some journalists are more caring than other human beings are sometimes. They do not necessarily show it in a flowery way, but more in a "get the details down and tell the story and take the time and care to do it" way.

Why hasn't she been let out in 4 months?

"Andrea Pedro-Francisco, 23, was scheduled to have an ovarian cyst removed. Then ICE arrested her."

"Immigrant detainee pleads with ICE to let her have surgery"

https://www.scrippsnews.com/investigations/ice-inc/immigrant-detainee-pleads-with-ice-to-let-her-have-surgery

"Pedro-Francisco, 23, is a house cleaner from Guatemala who came to the U.S. in 2019 where she had been living without legal status, according to ICE.

Her arrest occurred five days before she was scheduled to have surgery to remove a golf-ball sized ovarian cyst and have it checked for cancer.

ICE first sent her to Camp East Montana in El Paso, Texas, a for-profit detention center operating under a government contract.

Since it opened a year ago, Scripps News has documented complaints about lack of health care and other conditions inside Camp East Montana, a complex of tent-like structures quickly stood up on the Fort Bliss Army post last summer.

While there, Pedro-Francisco saw medical staff seven times and went to the emergency room once, according to a Department of Homeland Security spokesperson, but she never received the surgery her doctor ordered.

“Her condition has worsened because she has still not received the surgery that is needed, that is urgently needed, and her body is continuing to suffer with this cyst that needs to be removed,” said Amy Fischer, director of refugee and migrant rights at Amnesty International."

~ Patrick Terpstra

I wonder what makes them choose to release some human beings more quickly, and not others?

The Vineyard Gazette - Martha's Vineyard News | "Vineyard High Schooler Released from ICE Custody"

https://vineyardgazette.com/news/2026/05/23/vineyard-high-schooler-released-ice-custody

Today's a journey and so is tomorrow.

"A lot of emotionally intelligent women get labeled..."

claritywithclint 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYj-PFJBANE/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

This is bad for the "fortunate" people too.

 Both women and men do not benefit from this imbalance.

"400+ women ZERO men"

deliciousalex

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWMAVK4Cojk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's damaged, but it can still last a number of years.

I also wonder what happened with my picnic blanket, because I used to use it a lot, and I wonder if it's being used as often now.

And doctors used to recommend smoking cigarettes.

 A reward for being good.


"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse

People shouldn't act like this guy.

 Hentschel the Moon.

 

"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse


And also, the textbooks have changed, and will change again.

 I remember some of those old textbooks!


"Back in the 1960s and 1970s..."

chervy.femme

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DIBSRrkNzF5/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I think I would do best as a clothes sorter.

 The physician role (medic) sounds very difficult to me. 

"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse




Well, the concentration camp survivor had creative writing skills, and he called on the assistance of Nike, and he was able to put out this book as a result.



I'm kind of glad that I have this side of myself that hasn't died yet.

Sometimes, I still can't believe that some people actually seem to think that a civil rights movement in a time of persecution is just supposed to feed their egos and their bank accounts without them changing the least little bit.

I feel like creative projects are good to focus on in times like these.

I think that some people might start to think of their lives as creative projects, and they can share different parts of their lives with different people so they can connect more deeply in certain ways, or have more curiosity about certain topics and learn more that way.

Going back to a safe space, I guess.

And the sad thing is, it's at least six times cheaper to buy an analog version of this book in Spanish then it is in English.

"House of dolls : Ka-tzetnik 135633, 1909-2001"

https://archive.org/details/houseofdolls0000unse


Anyways, glad I'm not him. Ha-ha.

 "John Mayer Says His 2003 Hit ‘Daughters’ Was 'Very Selfish'"

https://people.com/john-mayer-says-the-inspiration-behind-daughters-was-selfish-11954259

What....

"L.A. has its own mini 'Gardens of Versailles'”

https://secretlosangeles.com/los-angeles-gardens-music-summer-museum-roses/

Oh, it's the Huntington. I've been there a bunch of times.

As if they don't have enough land up there, huh?

"‘Canada is handing people over to ICE’: refugees rejected at border face US detention

As Canada tightens asylum rules, refugees reuniting with family say they were turned over to ICE and jailed for months after failed border claims"

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2026/may/23/canadians-refugees-rejected-face-ice-detention

Of course, there are worse rich people, like the people who own these detention centers and are getting richer off of what's going on.

"Guillermo Torres recalls bearing witness to the suffering of detainees at Adelanto when hunger strikers were mistreated for protesting, and says these conditions have not improved. 

A program director at Clergy and Laity United for Economic Justice, he described a recent visit with a mother from Colombia who suffered a dislocation in her shoulder during her arrest. The GEO Group staff ignored her cries and pleas, he said. 

“They denied her help and they told her that they couldn’t do anything, and that she had to put the bone back in place herself after screaming and crying. And that’s what continues to be at Adelanto,” noted Torres. 

Immigrants in detention, meanwhile, are denied options for release on bond back to their communities. The bond system has been “systematically dismantled,” said Soto. “The Trump administration declared that anyone who entered without papers was ineligible for bond, regardless of their record, their family, their ties to the community.”

A February ruling ostensibly ended the Trump administration’s efforts to deny bond to immigrant detainees, though, according to Soto, “ICE and the immigration judges there at Adelanto kept applying it anyway.” 

Ultimately community advocates want Adelanto and other detention facilities to be shut down. 

GEO Group—along with private prison firm CoreCivic—is reporting significant profits from these operations. Both companies stand to benefit from the $75 billion additional funding set aside for immigration enforcement and detention centers under H.R. 1. 

“We will continue to add our voices to … shut down this place,” Torres said. “And not only this place, but all these horrific immigration centers that should not exist.”

Li Lovett

"Hunger Strikers Protest Conditions at Adelanto ICE Detention Center" | ACoM

https://americancommunitymedia.org/immigration/hunger-strikers-protest-conditions-at-adelanto-ice-detention-center/

Maybe it's becoming more of a rich people problem at this point.

You're also going to have to start looking at the toxic patriarchal white supremacy mindsets living inside of the non-white people, because so many people who are joining ICE are not white!

Seduced into reading a newspaper article.

"Video shows ICE violently arresting Oregon farm workers and using facial recognition"| ICE (US Immigration and Customs Enforcement) | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/may/21/ice-immigration-oregon-facial-recognition

Diaries and shoes in "House of Dolls."

Diaries on pages 16 and 17. 

Shoes on page 29.




🥿👞👟👠👡👢



The world wouldn't be as interesting without you in it, and that's also therapeutic to say to yourself in excruciatingly painful times.

Courtney Barnett - "Pedestrian at Best (Live on KEXP)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ZnWyum0ATo0&si=4cKnDshsDoW7gnAo

I think it would be fun to see you try.

At least pick a man who's not feeling so blatantly entitled to act like a jerk towards the ones who are so different from him, why don't you?

Jesus, Paul.

"Paul was not issuing an economic manifesto. He was telling a group of eschatological freeloaders to stop being weird"

~ Derrick Day

"Capitalism, Socialism, And Christians Who Ignore Jesus"

https://www.patheos.com/blogs/loveminusreligion/2026/05/capitalism-socialism-and-christians-who-ignore-jesus/

"Paul was a genuine intellectual titan, a Roman citizen who wrote Greek the way surgeons use scalpels, and many of his letters contain passages of devastating moral clarity. His chapter on love in First Corinthians has earned its place in every wedding since Gutenberg invented bulk printing.

But Paul had a worldview. It was hierarchical. Slaves were to obey masters. Women were to be silent. The Body of Christ had members with different functions, some more dignified than others. He was a man of his time, which means he was also a man shaped by Roman patronage culture, where your value was inseparable from your productivity and your productivity was inseparable from your place in the social order.

Jesus had no such worldview. Or rather, his worldview was a direct assault on that one. He praised a widow’s two pennies over a rich man’s substantial donation. He elevated a Samaritan — a religious and ethnic outgroup — as the moral exemplar in what is probably his most famous parable. He positioned a child, the lowest-status person in first-century Jewish society, as the model for entering the Kingdom of God.

Paul’s theology organized people. Jesus’ theology disordered them — intentionally, radically, and with what one suspects was a fair amount of pleasure.

As one Christian minister and theologian writing for Radical Discipleship puts it, the word 'capital' simply means money, and capitalism is 'moneyism' — a system that strives to place money at the center of all human life. Jesus, according to the Gospels, said plainly: 'You cannot serve God and money.' The conflict is not subtle. It is definitional."

~ D. Day

Maybe pick a survivor story?

"Texas mother of 4 says 'no one is safe' after spending more than 6 weeks in ICE custody" - CBS News

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/texas-mother-speaks-weeks-ice-custody/

So pick one; or several that move you to acknowledge that they're doing the really wrong things with the tax dollars.

"Infected tooth led to death of man in ICE custody in Arizona, medical examiner says

Family says 56-year-old Emmanuel Damas complained about toothache for days before given proper medical care"

https://www.azfamily.com/2026/05/14/infected-tooth-led-death-man-ice-custody-arizona-medical-examiner-says/?outputType=amp

Brains of Our Elevated Culture can't process all 145,000 stories.

"Over 145,000 US children separated from parents since Trump’s ICE surge, study estimates" | US immigration | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/may/18/children-parents-detained-trump-mass-deportation-push

Gross negligence that doesn't even spark national outrage - should it be forgotten?

"She was deported without her toddler. Then ICE blamed her for his killing." - The Washington Post

https://www.washingtonpost.com/immigration/2026/05/16/she-was-deported-without-her-toddler-then-ice-blamed-her-his-murder/


On this path: "Crying" in otra idioma 🎼🥀🪽

"Rebekah Del Rio, 'Mulholland Drive' singer..."

https://www.reddit.com/r/indieheads/s/SOOe8OCS1b

Mulholland Drive (2001) - "Llorando [HD]"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=vI8c3eSIkQY&si=kqEbERgAHZj1-znt

"Crying (Album Version)"

Roy Orbison

https://youtube.com/watch?v=k_L_GZLa5ow&si=YWBL-cNlxOS7fnoU

Rebekah Del Rio - "Llorando"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=712movFdPe0&si=yYmFHPU_8WnBnwsn

Bubbling over with curiosity years later just because of what he chose to pay attention to.

"Riggs was a gay Cherokee playwright, born in Indian Territory in 1899. He was a disappointment to his father, a banker and a rancher. Photographs of Riggs show him to be a man of slight build, something of an 'egghead' with his glasses and premature balding. What was his experience with the hypermasculinity and heteronormativity of the West? Did he experience hazing and bullying as a rite of passage? Did he learn to 'stand it' in order to become an adult?  Is he telling us something about the survival of his people, as each new generation has had to face a heritage of ongoing violence, denigration, and theft?"

"Green Grow the Lilacs and Oklahoma!: The Appropriation of Native Perspective" - Carolyn Gage

https://carolyngage.weebly.com/blog/green-grow-the-lilacs-and-oklahoma-the-appropriation-of-native-perspective

This ritual reminds me of other problems that we still have difficulty addressing these days.

"'Charivari' dates all the way to medieval and early modern Europe, where it was a ritual used to punish members of a community who failed to conform to social norms, especially sexual norms. Targets of the charivari might include a widow who remarried, a wife who assaulted her husband, or a couple who failed to have children. In France, where the term originated, teenaged boys and unmarried men traditionally led the ritual, parading through the streets, shouting mocking insults, beating on pots and pans, and threatening violence. During the seventeenth and eighteenth centuries in England, these males would also attack local brothels during Lent. If the victim paid his or her tormentors off with money or wine, the charivari might end without these threats being carried out.  

Apparently, until two hundred years ago, most Europeans thought the charivari was a legitimate and effective practice for curbing social deviance. It allowed for a public venting of outrage, with the opportunity for a “peaceful” resolution of a potentially explosive situation. In other words, it served as a kind of communal vent for blowing off steam… an exorcism of deviance. The victims were shamed, but then reintegrated into the community.

Here’s the thing: It’s actually a rape culture ritual empowering young males to assert their primacy and dominance in the community, and especially with regards to widows who dare to remarry, women who most likely were just attempting to defend themselves in abusive marriages where their husbands had legal rights to rape and batter, married women attempting to salvage some degree of bodily autonomy and/or freedom from compulsory serial pregnancy by practicing birth control or abstinence, and women who were prostituted. The historical roots of the 19th century Midwest shivaree were not in a playful hazing of newlyweds, but in a sanctioned, violent policing by gangs of young men over women who, in their eyes, were not sufficiently sexually subordinate."

"Green Grow the Lilacs and Oklahoma!: The Appropriation of Native Perspective" - Carolyn Gage

https://carolyngage.weebly.com/blog/green-grow-the-lilacs-and-oklahoma-the-appropriation-of-native-perspective


"Sanitized and civilized"

 "The shivaree as depicted in Oklahoma! has become sanitized and civilized, so that it is little more than an extension of the wedding party… kind of like when the bridesmaids and groomsmen sneak off to tie old shoes onto the back of the newlyweds’ car. The musical has transferred the scene from the dead of night to broad daylight. Shivarees are traditionally done in the dark. In the musical, just after the ceremony,  the bride tosses her flowers over her shoulder, and then exits to change into her traveling clothes. The groom leaves to pack, and the men announce that they plan to have a shivaree. There is a vaudevillian interlude featuring a henpecked husband, and then the men return with pots and pans, making a racket. As the bride and groom exit for their travels, the men hoist the groom amiably on their shoulders… but whatever good-natured hazing they have planned is interrupted by the arrival of Judd Fry, the villain of the piece. Wielding a knife, Judd goes to attack the groom and a fight ensues that ends in Fry’s death. The shivaree has been reduced to a noisy, fraternal, daytime bon voyage party for the newlyweds.

The shivaree in Riggs play is something completely different. It is a terrifying artifact of rape culture, and it serves to traumatize and permanently alter both protagonists in ways that are resonant with the appropriation of Indian Territory.  To understand its dramaturgical significance, it’s important to look at the origins of the custom:"

"Green Grow the Lilacs and Oklahoma!: The Appropriation of Native Perspective" - Carolyn Gage

https://carolyngage.weebly.com/blog/green-grow-the-lilacs-and-oklahoma-the-appropriation-of-native-perspective

People don't seem to know how good it could feel to care more about a greater scope of humanity..

Like the difference between eating stale versus high quality food or clothes or art or whatever speaks to them the most.

There's so many different kinds of people...

One time I was really in the hot seat because I felt like the universe wanted me to talk to a Dean after a professor encouraged me to do so, and the Dean did not like what I was bringing to him, and he kept telling me all these things about myself like I was a bad listener, and in a way he was right, because other people told me don't talk to this Dean, but I ignored them, so I was a bad listener, but not in the way that he was implying. I guess that's another experience that's passing away.

These songs are both good in different ways.

I just imagine people surviving brutal changes and coming out better for it. And also, for some reason I have this happy memory of having orange herbal tea with my mother when I was very small, possibly 4 years old. And she did some embroidery and we watched television and I had so much fun drinking this herbal tea with her. Kind of like Heaven on Earth for a little kid. Very different from how I usually feel when I listen to these songs though. As a matter of fact, it might just be the memories coming back to me as a parallel experience alongside of listening to the songs. That can happen when you're in a calmer state.

Steely Dan - "Do It Again"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jmdiKePVUy8&si=flEPePf8u2wrkDZz

tori amos - "do it again"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=TlZ0rEaeZPs&si=Tas1JGgmM-CtiZKk

I like the kind of peaceful, calm feeling that's coming back.

It's as if the universe told me I had to drag out the skeletons (out of the closets.) So that happened. Maybe it will happen again in the future. But maybe it will never need to be that dramatic again. I know some things about how the Universe operates that I wasn't aware of before. Then the Universe decided to give me the calm and peaceful feeling after all.

I don't know. I kind of like how my life is going sometimes, even in spite of everything.

I really don't listen to this one as much as I listen to a lot of her other songs, but it got my head this morning when I was going for a walk. 

Tori Amos ~ "Putting The Damage On Live"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Eh3wzJrUa80&si=pztGHGY0W3ezwoB2

But I also feel that ignoring some others who going through worse things is a disservice to my purpose in this life.

"We will not survive’: jailing of Daria Egereva highlights plight of Russia’s Indigenous people' | Russia | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2026/may/22/jailing-daria-egereva-plight-russia-indigenous-people

Friday, May 22, 2026

The universe is creative naturally.

Looking forward to some of the better moments!

"Hot off the press"

toriamos

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYnBOPEIGbt/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

🎶GUNS AND FUCKING ROSES is a much better thing to think about🎶

tetyanawrites

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYpCHTnhUog/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Maybe conversations could make it more fun to compare experiences.

Anyways, a lot of us have been repressed and oppressed, and a lot of us are just waking up now in different ways, according to our biological inheritances and our life circumstances. It will be interesting to see what happens in the next few decades.

Prince Cinderella, My Friend.

My friend, do you have the feeling that the patriarchal ladies and gentlemen have honestly been giving you the absolute best advice that you're ever going to get in this lifetime?

Pretending everything's fine just doesn't seem to be the logical choice for this brain at the moment.

 What are they thinking.


"NC Republicans have lost their damn minds"

pullupspastapolitcs

https://www.threads.com/@pullupspastapolitics/post/DYpuP1MEU7y?xmt=AQG0XiLxGZQFi52IbFYpfiLjUsSHBRtOT-OjeRu9aaxlhGE-1yYtU3v6p1QRVQU-LG7Sai-V&slof=1

Nature AND Nuture. Let's allow more kinds of people to flourish, shall we?

Sometimes, I honestly think that my biological make-up, combined with my specific set of circumstances, and the emotional aftermath of having certain encounters with the violence in our patriarchal society, must have made believe that I must identify with the marginalized, oppressed and forgotten people more in this life then the average person seems to want to. 

"They don't go away just because you act like they're not there," is what I feel like saying to some people. Even if a marginalized and oppressed person dies, their spirit lives on and might come back in another body, and other people are going to live out those destinies too. I feel like we need to embrace change as a collective to allow more different kinds of people to flourish in their lifetimes on this planet.

Creative people can be the best, most innovative protesters!

 

"The results of the protests..."

kimiyasajjadi

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYpqRxICIJi/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==