Friday, July 17, 2026

Feeling less dead than you felt 30 minutes ago is a great sign of progress these days!


"I am still recovering"

thechristiansexpert

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da2zmaXjqWB/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"It means more..."

jordanjensenlolstop

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYXDZiLBOES/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Time to go on my healing path so I can survive this life now.

My focus is on my health. I'm not fun. I'm not romantic. I'm not interested in success. I'm not interested in making money. I'm going to just focus on my health and it'll be better that way. I have a cat and I have the ability to make choices that will hopefully result in a better state of health and well-being.

You know you have to choose a different way.

I have to choose a different way because my health is breaking down again. The tooth that seemed like it was getting better now seems not as good again. I had a pain in my side. I did the castor oil pack stuff and I just focused on more healing. My cat is here and she has healing energy. I have to get in my car and drive to an appointment that's not very close. It's for evaluating which supplements my body needs. And that's all I can manage right now. 

So much work to just exist.

I have weird stuff going on with my body. I have to do some healing processes on myself so I can go to an appointment later today. Which is also about trying to take care of my body. And none of it is covered by insurance.

Think of something better.

The Patriarchal Way:

My success at your expense.

My career at your expense. 

My peace and quiet at your expense.

The most repressed are missing out.

 Your mortgage. Does not. Love you.


"Men's proclamations throughout the centuries"

angiee014

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da0r367xwwP/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I love women! 🩷"

rachbelle77

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWD3sx_vGv0/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"🤓 This is a little raunchy..."

caitsdarkdiaries

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da5M86uKtlY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

The people in charge and the choices they're making. This really not idyllic situation. Make it make sense.

 Do it for your kids!

"🤓 This is a little raunchy..."

caitsdarkdiaries

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da5M86uKtlY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I love women! 🩷"

rachbelle77

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWD3sx_vGv0/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Men's proclamations throughout the centuries"

angiee014

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da0r367xwwP/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I cannot believe how many people regress when things get stressful, but then again, I shouldn't be shocked because I've regressed, too, it's just that sometimes we have different ways of regressing, maybe???

I can tell they're out there.🌸

I just think that when other people who are also more privileged are acting like they care more, they're raising the bar.

This is worth the time.

"Karolina Rojas, Johan Sebastián Durán Guerrero's partner and mother of their 3-year-old daughter, discussed the impact his death has had on their daughter"

~ Jane Park, Bailey Korinek

https://www.cbs8.com/article/news/nation-world/guerrero-speaks-maine-ice-shooting/507-99244769-f8f7-46cf-89c7-ca475c806f52

"The partner of the man who was shot and killed by an ICE agent this week"

bostonglobe

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da3wS1qjktd/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

SO SO so so

Sometimes people who are A+ at performing are hovering around C minus in some other areas.

Take care...🎶


"Word to the wise"

gregorybakker

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da0JfqusCt3/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Literally executing agendas from #Project 2025"

thedabblingchick

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZo8qAaoTHZ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I said what I said."

thelaurenhyland

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da5cNvgRG0P/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

And yours?

Fortunately, my heart is an organ that has never had to have any drastic medical procedures in this lifetime.

It's about values SS and little kids too probably.


Just needed some hydration! 🧂🍋🥛💧From working SO hard!

"This substance was granulated salt, which would be mixed with lemon and water to create an electrolyte beverage for when working in extreme outdoor temperatures."

~  Nina Golgowski

"Man Killed By ICE In Texas Had Salt, Not Drugs, With Him, Family’s Lawyer Says" - Yahoo News Singapore

https://sg.news.yahoo.com/man-killed-ice-texas-had-142123089.html

They thought he had drugs?

"Man Killed By ICE In Texas Had Salt, Not Drugs, With Him, Family’s Lawyer Says" - Yahoo News Singapore

https://sg.news.yahoo.com/man-killed-ice-texas-had-142123089.html

No, I don't want to... 🌼

Voice: WHY DON'T YOU PLAY THAT ONE INSIDE THE CONCENTRATION CAMP I mean at the the Christian music festival, or whatever?

Do ICE agents feed you?

I guess they can probably afford to buy more concert tickets because a shitload of money has been poured into ICE.

Well, at least she was privileged enough to attend... What kind of music does that guy play?

"Woman taken into ICE custody after attending Noah Kahan concert"

https://www.wcvb.com/article/logan-airport-ice-detained-woman-noah-kahan-concert/72926830

What was that? I remember enjoying discovering this video.

"He's the one who likes all our pretty songs..."

Nirvana - "In Bloom (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=PbgKEjNBHqM&si=VR8-l6SU1_P912Tt

Energy is important.

Are you feeling you've been fed well enough by the invisible - to - you people today?

Do you think that all men submit to the system?

Some interesting comments about women's behavior and some interesting comments about men's behavior.


 "Why do you all love to pretend"

emaansaidso

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da418yxos26/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Shapes, colors, etcetera.

 


The hills are alive 🎶 here comes the Sun 🎶

 

Go farm some notes.

Go blame the mountain. Makes me do it.

 


Pretty soon the clouds are going to be different!


The Farmer and the dog the farmer and the dough. I hope to have a farmer and the Dell Hi ho the derryo The Farmer and the Dell shut up. You stupid f*** boy shut up you stupid f*** boy farmer in the Dell, the farmer and the Dell. Hi ho the derry-o The Farmer in the Dell. The dishes in the sink the dishes in the sink. The clouds are like salt on a painting. The clouds are like salt on a painting. Hi ho the derry-o. Very silly!

That kind of knowledge is pretty cool to have too!

Well I guess I know that if I had money and land it wouldn't necessarily fix all my problems.

Such a beauteous sky! 🩷🎶🩵🎼🤍🎶🌅

Better in real life than in the picture.

More wisdom... you're welcome.

Heal your stuff more before you start messing around with people. Ask for some clues. Ask for some help. Ask the universe. Not just people. Sometimes people don't know how to help you. Maybe nature will help more. Stare at a leaf and zone out. Which might actually be more like tuning in. Get some guidance.

People are silly...

It's been, like, so much silliness. 

Some of the silliness has been really toxic. 

Maybe get rid of some of the toxic silliness; that would be better.

Reincarnation is real.

If you were a certain way in another life, in a different century, you're going to have to reincarnate again in another body and learn new lessons and figure out how to do things better and treat yourself better the next time.

That's where it's at right now.

I guess we should just acknowledge and celebrate the estrangement. That's what's going on.

Going to have to be brave, I guess.

You need to figure out what you learned from the male and female role models you have had in this life because it's given you so many problems. Creative projects? Maybe that will help...


Drugs that are not equally effective for all bodies.

They are on drugs. Who needs to be sexy? With someone who's gonna disrespect you so much. Who needs to get on their wavelength? With friends like that. They are in a dark place. They are in a cult. They need to keep on believing in lies just to keep on doing what they're doing. They're not free. Maybe they can be more free soon.

Maybe that is why?

I suppose they felt abandoned in the past and now they're desperate not to feel that abandoned ever again and that's why they have also abandoned others.

Sent away to a village?

You guys abandon the people who are different from you. What are they supposed to do? How are they supposed to act nice enough for you? They cannot do it. It is literally impossible for them to act nice enough for you to treat them better.

Trophy wife, chosen whites, colonizer plight...

"When I hear the term male-centered women..."

chelsey_opareaddo

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da0x_gjJPtR/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Portlandia Banana Diet"

rcgawker

https://youtube.com/watch?v=3Pe7jtFvMYA&si=fbcb5BnBCu4NvjjG

Rage Against The Machine - "Killing In the Name (Of"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=bWXazVhlyxQ&si=FT1o_LViWdVsZIuz

I cannot wait until things improve.


"I lose followers...others lose their mothers"

words_of_women

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Day2aKCMQtt/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I was trying..."

dollsonthebrain

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da2q8-RB0AY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"DOES THIS GET YOUR ATTENTION???"

words_of_women

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da4Ukd_NJrL/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Change is hard. It's also inevitable.

At least you're not going to look like a hugely insensitive, shallow, uncaring bigot to the next generations.

Literally Life Changing.

"Top Thirty Best Meals Provided by Immigrants to the Most Fortunate Citizens of Our Country in 2026: 

You Definitely Shouldn't Throw These Migrant Workers To The Wolves of Patriarchal White Supremacy"

Thursday, July 16, 2026

Kind of wish the lifeguards had played this one.

Ace of Base - "Happy Nation (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=HWjCStB6k4o&si=1YZRgp6_1KR_qFLi

They played "I Saw the Sign."

Maybe they're just cycling through their own stuff.

Also, I thought more people would be acting like protesting hippies when things got this bad, and instead it's kind like a lot of "Don't want to think about things that are too hard to think about" and "Die yuppie scum" energy is resurfacing.

Protest.

That's what my muscles are doing. I was having so much fun today swimming. It wasn't even that hard to swim extra laps. I was doing it in a leisurely fashion.

Darn it. I might need a second Epsom salt shower.

So much work so much. Freaking work.

I think this is good for brotherhood sisterhood friendship.

When I was younger I always used to think this was sort of a meh song but today it just sounded really good. And fun to sing along with. 

Hahaha there was also a cute Red Bull commercial to go along with it when I clicked on the link hahaha.

Roxette - "It Must Have Been Love"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=k2C5TjS2sh4&si=m6vyZBP_Qg_pnpgW

I bet there was an angel on my shoulder saying come on sing it. It's fun! I bet that's what was happening. That's why it was fun today. You can be so grateful to our angels... We can be... Let us be...

The human body! It's really something.

Muscles are impressive, aren't they? Even if you can't see them as well. Like even if you're not, like, a 18-year-old boy (emotionally or otherwise). Even if you're not a character in an abortionless romance story between an older man and a younger man. Hahaha.

I mean, part of me still thinks it would be a little fun.

To say some zingy things but I'm just sort of losing steam now. I'm afraid my zingers will just be like a wah wah horn. Which is a little bit funny to think of in and of itself. I have a lot of issues of my own I need to take care of right now. My issues me mine me mine me mine.

I know it's hard. I know people aren't used to acknowledging this stuff because they grew up in a patriarchal society.

I have a a plethora of medical issues to deal with. I cannot help other people feel better about themselves right now unless just as a sort of distant sisterly kind of support that does not center them and their needs at my expense.


God I feel blessed now!

It's amazing what a little alleviation of pain will do. But then you have to still go on to the next thing. Oh my God! I love you hot shower. I love you Epsom salts. I love you ibuprofen kicking in finally.

I know they say Epsom salts helps this sort of thing.

I don't know if I take a shower and rub on some Epsom salts if it will help. Our bathtub is weird and unsanded on one side so I don't soak in it. They never fixed it. It's not anything we noticed but until after we moved in because who lives in a place with a bathtub that's partially unsanded who checks for that. Also, I felt this weird thing like a burn or a bite earlier today and I'm hoping that I'm not having some kind of reaction to a bug biting me, but I think it's from the swimming. This is life in a body. Why did we come here? Why are we in a body? Why? Why? Why? Why?

It's just this stuff is important to some people right now.

 Pointing out the problems.

"Not all men but always a man."

beardedbeth

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da2uyGJN9ij/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I'll just keep figuring things out and plugging away.

You know, I think it was a good thing that I was watching documentaries the other night.

I should look up stuff about Lynch's Inland Empire movie again.

Apparently there's a lot of human trafficking that goes on in the Inland Empire. Because these freeways here connect to so many other places.

This is what I was thinking of earlier.

"David Lynch on the sickness of doing things too fast"

redpavilionbk

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da1KELhsZKD/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's just not fair.

I just should have felt able to cry and whine more instead of feeling like I had to chew on a finger and damage my teeth.

Hmmm. Magnesium and omega-3s.

Maybe people should make lists of nice things that they can do for themselves and how it's helped them feel better everyday.

I just want to cry for many reasons.

Physical pain because my muscles hurt. Emotional pain because I'm sad about damaged dental work. And people not communicating well and people not healing very quickly from things they could have been healing from sooner. Because instead, they're just still finding coping mechanisms instead of like actually trying harder to heal. I don't know. There's a lot to cry about. Maybe it's just a crying time. 

Nice to know.

There will be more opportunities for better communication!

Another item.

Special needs tooth will need more work on it in the future. I can tell. There are still symptoms. 

Item.

My shoulders and arms are very sore. That's what happens when you don't go swimming for a long time and then do a lot of laps. Even though they were leisurely ones. 

I just remembered that, too.

David Lynch said people shouldn't rush things, and he was a great and honored director of films.

F...f...f...funny...funny!

What if the universe just wanted to say that there's not been enough songs about father-in-laws?

F...f...f...forward...


"Do what you can to keep my message going"

valine_mb

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaThmZpCFBx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

The receipts say something very nice about a restaurant @ https://www.linkedin.com/in/jimcampbell2

"#doublestandards #patriarchy #sexism"

pinkpillrx

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da2vq4uuXQJ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I gotta go see a guy about some stuff.

I have herbs on hand.

I'm going to try to roll my own herbal cigarettes.

This is job-related, too, huh?

 "Educators nationwide are grappling with the impact of Immigration and Customs Enforcement raids on the homes of their students. Teachers face crying, worried children after their family members have been taken away."

~ Sophia Rodriguez 

"ICE operations can cause deep psychological trauma"

https://www.washingtonpost.com/ripple/2026/03/30/opinion-ice-operations-psychological-trauma-students-declining-enrollment/

I really do have more compassion for housewives now.

Siiiiigh.

I have to stop being a housewife soon. It's not all it's cracked up to be. Talking about getting tickets and going to a concert gets stressful. I offered to pay for it with money in a savings account but...the feeling of irritation persists.

During the pandemic, I read the Anne of Green Gables series again.

Maybe we could read Rilla of Ingleside, and how, as a teenager, she adopts an almost orphan baby? Almost an orphan because the baby still has a father, but he is away, fighting in the war.

"I feel like Rilla of Ingleside is one of the best books I've experienced in my life"

https://www.reddit.com/r/AnneofGreenGables/s/ffPyg1s3MW

Not again about mortgages!

"Good day sunshine, white people feel fine, white people's music is more important than your basic human rights.... Ugh! This is so degrading."

What should I say? 🤔

Perhaps not:

"Hey, do you think you're going to have any friends or family members of yours locked away in one of the detention centers before this is over?"

Probably not:

"Hey do you think any of your friends are going to get unjustly killed just by being pulled over in a traffic stop? What if they have little kids?"

How should I have a conversation like this with somebody and not have them shut me down?

I became a swimmer again today!

I got in the pool again for the first time in a couple years.

The lifeguards were playing '80s music. "Take My Breath Away..." 

After my swimming laps experience, I'm calling this swimsuit "crotch goblin." I think it's better for the hot tub. But I still like it.

I told myself I'd be fine if I did ten laps. But it felt like my body was saying just one more. Just one more. I missed swimming! I think I did more like thirty. Granted, these were leisurely laps. Some of them involved just holding on to the kickboard and kicking across the pool. Lots of side stroke. Lots of backstroke. I was there for more than an hour and a half. When I finally decided to stop. I swam over to the ladder and I was glad that I did because as I got out of the pool, the exhaustion hit. I have not felt that way after swimming in quite a long time.

It's a pool that was used in the Olympic trials and when I left, I smiled as I passed the scoreboard and looked at the name "M. Phelps." Because I remembered the friend I made in graduate school who said he liked to swim in a leisurely way, and how a fellow swimming class student had yelled at him, "Go Michael Phelps!" That always makes me think of somebody swimming in a leisurely fashion and not caring what other people think, ha-ha.

Now I have to de-stress because I started thinking about the conversation I had with a friend who never wants to think about the ICE raids. I wanted to chew on a finger and I slightly did. Because I still feel incredibly upset when I think about how that whole thing went. I don't understand why she had to shut it down like that. But I understand shutting down the conversation if somebody's saying I'm getting overwhelmed and I'll need to talk about it later. I understand that. I understand that sometimes you need to end those conversations. But the way it happened felt really brutal. 

These are some intense times to be living in.

You have to advocate for yourself so other people don't run over you and control your narrative.

It can be very tough because some people do not want to hear it and they do not want to believe you, because they want to believe their own narratives about how things work. Yes, there are inconsistencies sometimes. Yes, there are times when things get inaccurately reported. 

"Did Johan Sebastian Guerrero's daughter witness ICE agent fatally shooting him?"

https://www.snopes.com/news/2026/07/15/joan-guerrero-shooting-daughter/

If you're supposed to provide people with entertainment, and that is your purpose in life, how are you doing it and for reasons? Are you using it to help us or are you using it to distract or run over the less fortunate people because that that's what you were taught you were supposed to do in order to serve an oppressive system?

Maybe they let her go soon?

 


"Today this mother was on her way to her chemotherapy appointment..."

flowerinspanish

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da0uHUIvE2M/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

My cat sleeps the best.


"Men sleep better"

annaakana

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da25Vt8qFAO/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"He was the only cat who stuck around..."

catdaddy.dan

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ6G9cBuDYL/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"My granny loved..."

haesicks

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ5t8pxJ4cy/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I don't have to be skinny.

I just want to get a little physically smaller so I can have more options if I'm thrift store shopping.

Plastic yogurt spoon is usually for cat food but today it is mixing up the breakfast concoction.

Who f****** needs that?

I bet if I was rich and talented and got pregnant and gave birth to a real baby I could get soooo many men to treat me like I was a GODDESS!

Could not even get to the end of this.

So creeped out, and feeling totally justified about not liking watching that show. Aaaaaaah!!!!

"Please please please be careful..."

thebrittanyrambo

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da007SPTyNx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Well I'm sure not everyone, especially everyone who can't afford it, has to go to Bali.

 To scream under a waterfall!

"whatever the problem is..."

clear.visionlife

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXuLfPDE6Y9/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Please please please be careful..."

thebrittanyrambo

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da007SPTyNx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Sorry you raised an independent, safety conscious, childless cat lady?"

roamerknowshowe

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DapAzUJPxWT/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I mean, it's not gonna be a mortgage for everybody.

Maybe a lot of people are just feeling frightened, and they need something tangible to cling to.

Good grief! Get it together, people.

"To have someone #weaponize their deep 'seeing' of you..."

autisticalyx

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da1WSbZt2w5/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I wonder how old the average student who decided to become an ICE agent recently is.

"ICE has detained more than 650 children in California under Trump’s deportation crackdown" | EdSource

https://edsource.org/2026/trump-california-child-detentions/762148


And in spite of how much has been over the years done to gut the nation's newspapers, sometimes news still gets through.

"Under Biden, most children in ICE detention came from the border and were released. Transfers between facilities were uncommon. Under Trump, most children were apprehended in the interior and deported. Many were sent to family detention facilities outside California."

Yuxuan Xie

"From border to neighborhoods: ICE detainments of children shift under Trump"

https://edsource.org/2026/california-child-immigration-biden-trump/762170

I fail to see whose children it's good for when sentient adults choose to act that way.

If you think you can't make art without acting like shallow bread and circuses assholes, maybe you just have low self-esteem from being servile to the patriarchal white supremacy for far too long.

Children acknowledged.

"From border to neighborhoods: ICE detainments of children shift under Trump"

https://edsource.org/2026/california-child-immigration-biden-trump/762170

Threats acknowledged.

"Feds threaten rape kit, ambulance, police funding"

https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation/2026/07/16/us-cities-police-ambulance-funding-rape-kits-ice-doj/90903355007/

Violence and sadness acknowledged.

"Maine Mourns After ICE Killing: ‘A Man Was Lynched Here’"

https://www.rollingstone.com/politics/politics-features/maine-protests-ice-killing-1235594283/

They're in the "fight" mode of "fight or flight" I suppose?

"The use of force has become a 'default tool' for ICE officers, a new report finds"

https://www.npr.org/2026/07/16/nx-s1-5891834/ice-use-of-force-aclu-report

"Trump says ICE should do traffic stops despite new suspension after shootings"

https://apnews.com/live/trump-administration-ice-dhs-updates-07-15-2026

"ICE Is Out of Control. Here’s What to Do About It"

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/07/16/opinion/ice-killing-maine-houston-guerrero-araujo.html

I still have a scab that's healing.

I fell in a pothole in a parking lot at night.  I felt afraid. I skinned my knees. I couldn't seem to move my body very well right away. 

Two young Latino men, one on foot, and one in a car, at a respectful distance, asked if I was okay, and asked if I could get up. I said yes. I would be okay.

I picked myself up. I went into the restaurant and I told the waitress about the pothole, and I showed it to her so it would get fixed.

Irresponsibility. My body winces.

Do you suppose ICE agents ever watch certain kinds of comedy skits to decompress, and then go back to work and inflict stupid power dynamics b******* on people who are less fortunate? Because I have a very deep feeling that has already happened. It's a bodily communication thing.

The body will tell you things about yourself.

I don't live with a man who has abused his power. Other men have abused their power, and they haven't fully healed and taken accountability for their actions. They have not been mature enough.

I cannot live with people who are like that right now. And I don't want to work with people who are like that right now either. It's a deep reaction that I have in my body.

I had a dream about being a maid in a rich person's household. Rich people made mistakes and the maid was supposed to pay for them.

Irresponsible people are incredibly damaging and self-serving. My body has a reaction that tells me not to go along with what they're doing. 

It doesn't matter if they're being funny or in a creative field and putting out work and making money. My body doesn't care. My body tells me to get away from those people right now.

We are just going to learn and learn and learn how to help ourselves more.

I'm going to try this because I tried something  she created before and I can tell she's a good person who's truly interested in helping people.

"Clearing trauma from ages 3-5 (initiative vs. guilt)"

JadeCosmicIntelligence

https://youtube.com/watch?v=VkGpuJPefZ0&si=d3yHEpP9CJO1T7co

Wednesday, July 15, 2026

The Earth needs energy healing...

Kate Bush - "Army Dreamers - Official Music Video"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=QOZDKlpybZE&si=b998-s9V6yZc7v0m

"The long and winding road..." with sad war energy.

 


"All This And World War II 1976"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=nK7ei8gj2k4&si=Lxuuzi1T4CGP03TW

For no f****** good reason whatsoever.

They used American tax dollars to kill a little girl's Dad.

“'I’m Ashamed of My Country': Biddeford, Maine Locals Grieve Neighbor Killed by ICE" – Mother Jones

https://www.motherjones.com/politics/2026/07/biddeford-maine-joan-sebastian-duran-guerrero-ice-shooting-protest-video/


Breathwork for crushed dreams.

Breathe through the feelings, the death experiences. 

Other people have experienced real deaths recently, too.

Anyways, some of this is just not too funny to experience, really.

Feeling neglected and oppressed and not listened to resulted in psychologically distressing experiences and dental problems. And I have a feeling I'm going to have to have more work done in the future. I've had dreams about it.

We have to figure out how to shed light on important topics and heal...

I kind of feel like I am in mourning.

I feel like trauma and PTSD is devastating. I mean, it has real physical consequences. Has a lot of other consequences, too. The oppression that's happening now is really making me feel like crying. I don't understand how other people don't feel like crying more often. I really just don't get it, sometimes. 

I think even if I had a mortgage to pay it would not distract me so much from what was happening as it does others. Other people have mortgages to pay, too, but they don't have circumstances which allow them to ignore what's going on. 

Yeah, I basically feel like we've been invaded. We've been invaded by forces that are messing with us. It doesn't surprise me if people make comparisons to Nazis and to the Gestapo in WWII and things like that.



And another film discovery that sort of seems weirdly appropriate to our times.

This odd movie with Spanish subtitles.

"All This And World War II 1976"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=nK7ei8gj2k4&si=Lxuuzi1T4CGP03TW

It's nothing too shocking, but...

Sometimes I feel like a lot of men in this culture were trained to consider their desires and self-promote more than they were encouraged to love or respect others with an eye towards what might be best for the greater good. So maybe that's something that society and humanity can work on evolving.

Finished this in the wee hours of the morning on the phone...

"Inland Empire" | Screen Slate

https://www.screenslate.com/articles/inland-empire

So...

"Inland Empire - Why This Disturbing Film Was Too Weird for Hollywood"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=u6cHTku5L6I&si=LZs34WSqIEOgFqpt

Snickering at this skit started happening in the other room and I'm scared.

"Weekend Update: Lord Gaga on His Unwavering Support"

SNL

https://youtube.com/watch?v=DkJ221t0h5Y&si=ceGRAvE36mtxV0pr

What does it mean...

Kate Bush - "Suspended in Gaffa - Official Music Video"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=V3XAeg3B0To&si=XXDEj-EBoOj_kxRY

"Yosemitebear Mountain Double Rainbow 1-8-10"

@Hungrybear9562

https://youtube.com/watch?v=OQSNhk5ICTI&si=lT6ouwjrvW1Hd4Xw

It's so hot here today and so lethargic.

I made spaghetti and put it with some cheese under a broiler because I wanted to feel like I was eating something out of a restaurant and I just don't even know if it was worth it but it did taste good.

My heroes. 

Feel intrigued...

"'Ride or Die' Review: Hannah Waddingham, Octavia Spencer Amazon Comedy"

https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/tv/tv-reviews/ride-or-die-review-hannah-waddingham-octavia-spencer-amazon-1236644621/

Listened to this one while cooking.

"Soul Agreements, Karma & Human Responsibility | Can Both Be True?"

@joannecary 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=pbQfdffv4IM&si=TSDD7bt5mFed-lFR

I think this was more fun to watch than the teenage girl one.

 


The Evolution of the Kitchen

@vgraphs

https://youtube.com/shorts/22YSUJ6H5x4?si=bhJgGntlyJnKB3l4

Back to the neglected puzzle!



I like this song by a group I just discovered. Thistle.

Thistle - "OVER THE GARDEN WALL (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=cVIcPnU54Vk&si=eLMCLVGTHb_ZOwqR


Thistle Band

https://thistleband.com/

Smudging and stuff.

 


Time is a wonderful herb...

Thyme is the correct spelling. It flavors broth well. And also, you can make a tea out of it.

Scented Mist Spray.

Smile, you're on. Spray yourself with scented Miss Camera.

I think EFT tapping is good.

"Even though I'm having a terrible day, I love and accept myself." Tap, tap, tap, tap, tap, tap tap.

The ankles are working well!

Ankle circles for mental health and emotional wellness!

Racism against immigrants is not f****** cool.

It's like, even working a lot doesn't cut it if you don't have the right genetics for the f****** white supremacist patriarchal society.

Ugh. The emotional immaturity on display is just so painful to witness sometimes.

“'The majority of the people that we interviewed were people who were detained following traffic stops,' César said. 'Nearly all of them told us they had work permits or other forms of authorization to be in the United States.'”

~ Patrick Terpstra

"New claims of human rights violations center on Texas ICE detention camp"

https://www.turnto23.com/investigations/ice-inc/new-claims-of-human-rights-violations-center-on-texas-ice-detention-camp

You make me do too much unpaid labor...🎶

 Why???


"Apologies in advance"

biancawestwood

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYF93bOskoA/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Your wife..."

jholachaap.aaluu

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZrsM8khFEk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"#men #women #feminism"

owen.squires

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DawJfBZOuMC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

🎶🎶🎶

"too much labour❤️‍🔥"

@parispaloma

https://youtube.com/shorts/RKAp_kavQ5o?si=70Joc0Q2M0xjXC4n

What a joke! That was what flaca got.

Can you believe that when I was 21 and I was in South America, my boyfriend at the time and a middle-aged man shop owner pressured me into buying a smaller and tighter size of pants than I wanted to buy. They were so f****** disapproving. I wish I could go back and see the look on my face when I gave in and went along with what they wanted. I'm pretty sure it wasn't a very happy face at all. These were cargo pants by the way. Meant to be worn on long hikes in the rainforest.

Someday your nun will come.

"Too weak to advocate for herself, a young woman is saved by a nun"

https://www.npr.org/2026/07/15/nx-s1-5891054/too-weak-to-advocate-for-herself-young-woman-saved-by-nun

Today I met a stranger, and she was real nice.

She was an older woman. She was real nice to me, nicer than she had to be. It was a really nice encounter. She was very helpful. Thanks.

Ah, the seashore... 🌊🐚🩴🏖️

"When Worry Turns Out to Be Something Else | Intuition, Fear & Discernment"

joannecary

https://youtube.com/watch?v=a4rVI5F53gc&si=YtjFTllEwjVvh2-g

Dear Jesus.

 


"Psychiatric Teaching Interview. Hysterical Personality"

@PsychelicsCom

https://youtube.com/watch?v=meJB-RZvBcY&si=VfdiXkrMGPb7RBgd

I feel like they put a bunch of abusive, sexist, sad, unwell dads in charge. Patriarchal people who hate children even though they have them.

 😡😭😱


"Why do people not understand..."

the_greek_cherokee

https://www.threads.com/@the_greek_cherokee/post/DazO47JFGzL?xmt=AQG0tug8JtUui8r5H6mrjk0Tjhkwob4Y7_qKPcytOo_HwRszBUWKnmXEedRwWPC4zhgcvwDq&slof=1

Who do they favor? Not Renee Good. Not you. Who.

"Federal agents track down Syracuse woman, demand she remove Instagram post about ICE" - syracuse.com

https://www.syracuse.com/news/2026/06/federal-agents-track-down-syracuse-woman-demand-she-remove-instagram-post-about-ice.html

"Something suspicious:  Maine ICE Shooting"

Parkrose Permaculture

https://youtube.com/watch?v=6C5btY404IM&si=Naf8Tb803JkiJqUL

Rage Against The Machine - "Killing In the Name (Of"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=bWXazVhlyxQ&si=Qru1zuqP_OQvNSe2

It's better to care later than not at all.


"Something suspicious:  Maine ICE Shooting"

Parkrose Permaculture

https://youtube.com/watch?pv=6C5btY404IM&si=Naf8Tb803JkiJqUL

Feel some feelings!

"CALL IN SICK"

words_of_women

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Daz6T7Ax9te/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Americans are protesting.

 


"This is the energy..."

https://www.threads.com/@nebraskalocation/post/DayVAC0GXZp?xmt=AQG0HYmpcLVOAUasypfiVqeIKoq-4gKQzvl5OJmsdaP9ciaCt3HGe8njAwhZwJHY_sv6GuXL&slof=1

This is why I like to believe in reincarnation, and I do.

You just never know...

Arcade Fire - "My Body Is A Cage (HD Version)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=2I5JW9NOG4k&si=NUiA8WWPz8FHsbGj

Don't be cruel to a heart. That's true...

I'm still recovering from the knowledge of the monstrosity that is my friend's mortgage. Two and a half bathrooms and multiple bedrooms for one person who doesn't have a roommate and doesn't want one. I mean that's not so bad in and of itself, but the idea that being the owner of those things necessitates such an uncompromising attitude towards the well-being of fellow human beings...

That's what's really scary.

Anyways, kudos to all those people who would try harder than some others not to be a guard at a Nazi concentration camp for the money.

There are also those who would give up their house and live in an apartment rather than be a guard at a Nazi concentration camp.

You know, Miep Gies lived in an apartment.


I'm surviving people in a Patriarchal Society.

I'm putting the heating pad on my lower abdomen. Actually I'm doing more than that and making the castor oil pack, like the kind that Edgar Cayce recommended.

Tuesday, July 14, 2026

Where will you be migrating tomorrow? 🐦


"People deserve more rights than a duck 🦆"

ohgeewallace

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dax5WE9Rb1b/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

And a good moral character, too? At such a young age?

“'He had a great vision for getting ahead, so many dreams to fulfill,' Omar Duran, the father of Joan Sebastian Guerrero, told Noticias Caracol, a Colombian news outlet, on Tuesday, speaking in Spanish. 'My son is a wonderful son — I don’t know why they did that to him.'

Mr. Guerrero, 25, lived in Biddeford, a small city south of Portland, where he worked as a food delivery driver and a late-night cleaner at a veterinary clinic. Mr. Duran said his son was in the United States legally."

~ Christina Morales et. al.

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/07/14/us/joan-sebastian-guerrero-maine-ice-shooting.html

"The father of a Colombian immigrant shot and killed by a federal agent in Maine on Monday described him as 'a good person raised with strong values,' who worked two jobs to support his wife and 3-year-old daughter.'

That's a question that's come to my mind recently.

So, how did the nation's father-in-laws have a hard time compromising in their relationships, in this era? What sorts of things did they have a hard time compromising about?

Oooh...Families!

"IE Latino Voices: Increased immigration enforcement disrupting Latino families in Inland Empire" | KVCR News

https://www.kvcrnews.org/local-news/2026-07-08/ie-latino-voices-increased-immigration-enforcement-disrupting-latino-families-in-inland-empire

Maybe there could be a triple feature viewing opportunity for some of them.

Inland Empire, Slacker, and Zone of Interest.

Maybe the universe just wants me to call white people a name. Like, the film. Slackers?

White people are slackers, huh?

"Slacker"

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Slacker_(film)#:~:text=Slacker%20is%20a%201990%20American,historically%2C%20or%20aesthetically%20significant%22.

I'm going to take a little break.

I decided to take a break from Inland Empire and the app is acting like it wants me to watch the comedy film Slacker. But I'm taking a break from all film watching, actually.

Do you think the matriarchy will be better for our health?

Do you think the matriarchy will make people more inclined to be more balanced and kinder and healthier and able to accept more kinds of people?

What do you think of the May Cherokee?

What's the weird feeling in my womb? And the amount of physical pain I've gone through in this life because of having a womb. Sometimes having such severe cramps that I was throwing up. That stuff makes you feel like you're dying. 

This is so true!

Sometimes people with certain genetics or in certain physical circumstances need to pay a lot more attention and take a lot more care.

I need to pay attention to stuff.

I've been physically affected by circumstances. A tooth still feels not quite okay to me. But it's not about pain. It's more about movement.

Somehow, the interruption of ads just adds to the dystopian feel of this film.

The transition from screwdriver stuck in someone's side to a Mercedes-Benz car racing towards you when the commercial comes on, for example.

"Inland Empire (film)"

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inland_Empire_(film)


Interesting conversation.

Three "white" people (or white looking people) who were women were at the sushi bar today talking about how people also don't like talking about racism in South America. Or maybe it was the history of slavery. They also don't like talking about the history of slavery in South America, they were saying. Hmmm. I think it was both. They talked about Brazil and Peru, I remember. 

Can't forget! People are people.

In addition to being very sexist, this country is also feeling very racist these days, and it's all coming out in the places where you didn't expect to find it, but anyways, now I am watching my Inland Empire movie again! People are people.

I could see such a thing happening.

Maybe in the new era, people will also become more articulate about different kinds of pleasure, and what different kinds of pleasurable experiences mean to them.

These are different but seem to have some intersections...


Or crossovers, or notes in common???

Tori Amos - iieee - "Live - Sessions At West 54th 1998"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=LWSRtvyg2Rc&si=FDbAueB-lNYrdIDH

US3 - "Cantaloop (Official Video HD)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=KEE_V1yim04&si=GNzKAPiKNC-aZPGC






A fragile tooth is healing; no new crown is needed on it.