Tuesday, June 30, 2026

The first step to getting better is admitting the problem!

Anyways, being shallow and selfish and ignoring others' suffering sometimes is a very common ailment in humanity. Lots and lots of people have had this problem. It really is nothing new. But as you get in touch with your more sensitive side, because you start to expect more out of a human existence, feeling the effects of the shallowness and selfishness and suffering hurts a lot! If more people want to heal, they can help each other out a lot more.

It's very shallow and selfish to look away from suffering sometimes.

"If you had heard each of these..."

remyw.anders, 50501movement, cameronmakesmovies, disposiblehumanity

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ7j-x8x3mP/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's important to advocate for your life when Patriarchal Society has been instructed to squelch it out.

 

"I was born with a disability."

rachelboyce65

cameronmakesmovies

disposiblehumanity

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZtUGbDPTtE/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I hope the dreams about the effects this is having on the ones in "differently-abled" bodies come very soon!

Because I think when people learn things from dreams and books and movies, that's so much kinder than having to go through awful things in real life like genocide, or having to be around shallow people who go along with the very harmful behaviors just because it's what seems like it's best for them at the time.

The grandchildren might see them as the good doctors!

"Doctors sue Tennessee over rule affecting immigrant children with disabilities as court decision looms"

https://www.wsmv.com/2026/06/27/doctors-sue-tennessee-over-rule-affecting-immigrant-children-with-disabilities-court-decision-looms/

The vibe is, Charles Bronson seems so different here from how he acted in that "Lola" movie!

Arcade Fire - "My Body Is A Cage (HD Version)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=2I5JW9NOG4k&si=L6zu4RUx1dnNtuUO

"Lola (1970 film)" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lola_(1970_film)


I mean, I still don't understand why bad stuff happening to women and children feels so normal to the average citizen.

It appears that a lot of adults were raised by parents who had the sensitivity of Auschwitz Camp Guards when it came to the "different" kinds of women and children who might have had "a little bit of extra trauma to handle" in their lives, or something.

It was written by a psychiatrist??? 😹

 "Struwwelpeter" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Struwwelpeter

See, this is the kind of story that gives me more hope for humanity.

"North High teachers rock out for ICE-impacted students" — North News

https://mynorthnews.org/stories/2026/6/30/north-high-teachers-rock-out-for-ice-impacted-students

Life! Choosing it! Today!

I feel like the kinds of moms who are really insensitive to what other children and women are going through are pretty much the favorite kinds of moms of the ones who get the most rewarded for being tools of the patriarchy.

No, you didn't have to do that, but you did it anyway, because the patriarchy trained you to be a tool.

"In addition to acting like my superior pregnancy status s***'s on your humanity, my superior pregnancy care s***'s on the humanity of the younger blessed daughters, and for whatever reason, I don't feel I need to think about it too much."

Liberal people who are little-minded enough to still be averagely anti-feminist, take note.

"How abortion in America has changed since the Dobbs decision" : NPR

https://www.npr.org/2026/06/25/nx-s1-5869560/abortion-dobbs-roe-rights-restrictions-anniversary-update

Isn't she adorable?


Sleeping so peacefully!

I don't have to walk into a pond with rocks in my pockets on account of a bunch of genetically superior spoiled brats being assholes again on Facebook and training moldable minds to imitate their cruel, shallow and insensitive ways.

A cultured people with a flair for drama.

 


"Der Struwwelpeter," unnumbered pages.

What was their Biblical upbringing? I've met women and men like this before.

You're bad at caring about women and girls and so are a lot of your male and female friends. I don't know why you need to have friends like that. Oh, maybe because it's you have low self-esteem and you need shallow and self-serving female and male friends who treat men with preference all the goddamn f****** time or you just don't feel like you're having a normal experience of life that day.

Mansplaining male biological privilege!

 Hoping you might have a better day!

Stop being compliant for the patriarchy.

 Predators look for compliant people. 

"Rapists are not creepy trolls..."

Martha G.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSrF7LEE/

" Most people don't realize..."

Say Something Michael

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSrYuSKu/

Oh, this could explain a lot about why some people (men & women) feel like disrespecting daughters is so normal to them.

 So painful.

"Marital RAPE was legal until 1993."

Shall we blame your dad for your sexism and low self-esteem again?

Why is being a misogynistic, discriminatory and hurtful person such a huge part of your identity?

Keeps smiling. Keeps striving.

Well, it's going to be so much fun to have an ice cream and an actual human conversation with you when you no longer have to continue dehumanizing large portions of the human population in order to keep on keeping on perpetuating what you've been perpetuating.

"Really cool girls who are really chill about a lot of stuff!" LOL!

"FUN FACT!"

kitcarterkitcarter

infalliblejokeformula

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXxALvWpbJy/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Uh-huh, that's the bullshit in their patriarchal upbringing talking again.

 "But it's so deeply loving and brave when people are socialized to devalue and dehumanize you."

Warped by the patriarchy and very unhelpful. Bad brothers. Sexist sisters.

It is so sad and disappointing to have to live like a refugee amongst your own countrymen because they are such incredibly myopic jerks about their own selfish, misogynistic ways.

Monday, June 29, 2026

For A! And maybe others. ☺️

 

"The opening to this doc caught my attention..."

skyrenee23

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSMosFMd/

There's a difference...

Ray

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSMorWUA/

"thoughts???"

damon

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSModAyo/

It is kind of weird that stuff like this is mixed up with "an ice cream shop exploded in Grand Rapids."

"Weekend wave of ICE arrests reported across western Washington" | king5.com

https://www.king5.com/article/news/community/facing-race/washington-immigration/weekend-wave-of-ice-arrests-reported-across-western-washington/281-b9a61257-2ac0-4303-800c-6bcac9e32be7

That's really really really really really really really really really shallow.

Everyone is so relieved that they're not as shallow as Armie Hammer!

"Elon Musk shares Armie Hammer comeback film after it was banned in Germany"

https://ew.com/elon-musk-leaks-armie-hammer-comeback-film-banned-in-germany-12008232

"Armie Hammer" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Armie_Hammer

I'm going to look up some things that are not in English.

 

Trying to be a little bit more artistic again.

I'm culturing the trauma.

Ugh, for referral...

Ugh, if I perished in a gas chamber in a past life. I hope I wasn't trapped with these people.

I think rich people should start trying to help the girls more.

The poor girls who need abortions, not just the rich ones. Why don't you be an emotional support pet for a poor girl who needs an abortion? I think that would be a nice penance!

Well, he wasn't worthless in their lives, though.

 "That was the worst, shallowest brother ever!"

Well, he was worse than other lives, though.

Because who wouldn't?

Some of them are getting tired of being shallow.

I might do that.

The idea that the poor meanies should go to mediums, either to gain helpful messages or to figure out what kinds of bodies the lost ones have reincarnated in by now...


Oh goody I feel better and I can smoke my artistic cigarette.

My non-tobacco stick of VICE. May God bless you!

Instead of a singer...

Going "Mi mi mi mi mi mi mi" it's "Mean mean mean mean mean, the poor, little, insecure things, feeling so unloved by the unwell adults." In a mean mean mean mean country, locking away certain types of children, because the poor little unloved things grew up to become such insecure meanies.

A very nice grandparents story!

"My Father passed away..."

thekatlively

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaIzA6Otco9/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

They must have big personalities!

"FUN FACT!"

kitcarterkitcarter

infalliblejokeformula

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXxALvWpbJy/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It is not admirable.

Really, the audacity to put your daughters in such danger!

You act like a tool. Of patriarchal brainwashing. You were groomed.

You and your friends s*** on the people who do not have extreme privilege and that is your goddamn f****** lifestyle. Shallowness is toxic. It is like a poison. It literally depletes and degrades and dehumanizes. It is unmerciful. 

Anyways, we don't all enjoy the same genetic privileges and/or shallowness inclinations...

"I wish it weren't so accurate"

samathamariehome

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXyCTviM0jc/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Long, but if I can ask for your attention..."

dontmesswithtexs

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ-c3YzpXqH/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

You know what I find really funny actually???

People are so brainwashed by patriarchal rape culture that they would rather do anything then talk about it. Like they would rather I take off my clothes and dance naked or behave like a really stupid person who sucks up to abusive men. It's like those are some of the things they would really enjoy me doing, rather than trying to talk about something that's important and that we should fix. If I ran off and didn't do the mature let's talk about it first thing and cheated on my husband, that would be delightful to people like them. Jesus, these people are assholes. They are really messed up. I hope their children do a better job than they did with the whole respecting the bodily autonomy of girls and women thing, because a lot of things are getting really intense for lots of the daughters of this nation right now, and they're talking about it more than they ever did before, too. Because why wouldn't they, when rights are being taken away from them that their mothers enjoyed.

Sadly, some shallow parents are all to eager to demonstrate this.

Sexiness is really important to the shallow, immature Patriarchal parents who were trained to pander to rape culture in exchange for some rather temporary payoffs. 

Sexiness is seeming so important to them, that they appear to need the most disenfranchised by rape culture daughters in our society to continuously be completely disrespected by people like them. 

I don't know why they get so high off of this disturbing behavior. I think it might be something about how their Patriarchal role models instilled in sexism in them at a tender age, and it makes me want to throw up. 

It kind of seems like a mental illness. One induced by The Patriarchy, of course.

It's both fascinating and amazing how unkind and unhealthy an addiction to shallowness feels.

Thank you for teaching me that.

"Were you aware that being shallow could be more addictive to a human psyche than heroin? Have you ever tried to help a heroin addict? But kudos to the heroin addicts who weaned themselves off their addiction."

Of course, I would love it if shallowness didn't kill the especially abled. But what can you do if that's what others want?

Shallowness seems to be the hill that some are willing to die on, like Custer's Last Stand, perhaps.

"There are lots of melodies..."

tetanyawrites 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaK4GiGqEUC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Meet my new best friend group the Menopausal Whales."

tetyanawrites

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaAmmfPKalY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


Now I feel luxurious! 💎

 🎼🎼🎼


Grimes - "Flesh without Blood/Life in the Vivid Dream"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Tv9YoYCKNoE&si=aJZxVn2DFlxdUH5W

"Any day now"

Kids Own the Universe

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSM6t4XD/

"Part 3"

Ray

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSMMePoF/


Stone #3

"Poetry Season #5 – The Stones in Virginia Woolf’s Coat Pockets" | mistakenforarealpoet

https://mistakenforarealpoet.wordpress.com/2019/02/15/poetry-season-5-the-stones-in-virginia-woolfs-coat-pockets/

Stone #2

 "Mrs. Hicks’s ideals of love and faith, apparently, did not include empathy."

~ Maria Popova

"March 28, 1941: Virginia..."

https://www.themarginalian.org/2014/03/28/virginia-woolf-suicide-letter/

Stone #1

"Sexual abuse — from Virginia Woolf to the Epstein Survivors"

https://bloggingwoolf.org/2025/11/18/sexual-abuse-from-virginia-woolf-to-the-epstein-survivors/

"Hood Friend Energy"

"Maybe I'll choose the kinds parents / stepparents who can show me how to be a GOOD friend in the next life!"

Beautiful quilt. Sorry some people were raised to act like discriminatory, inhumane, unwell fraternity brothers

 Truly.

"#police #reporting"

Ray

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6V6nw7/

Of course it's not an isolated case.

Still, I can't believe how much sexism and selfishness and white supremacist patriarchal cult behaviors can come out of one little region of the U.S.

It's very tragic because they're capable of much better.

They're capable of so much better, but they don't want to care about that, because they've tried to arrange things so that they will get maximal rewards in exchange for minimal amounts of respect for others. I guess that's just a survival strategy for some people. I don't know why some people end up like that. Did their dads role model weird patriarchal s*** and tell them to be more insensitive and patriarchal like them, possibly? 

The unwell community is still too unwell and mean and that is why.

I think my soul is saying that maybe the spirits of higher healing don't want me to be a part of the unwell community of selfishness and sexism and ignorance right now.

You are capable of reading and comprehending and not acting like a sexist and selfish and insensitive person.

"'Citizen Vigilante’ Director Explains Film’s Success"

https://www.newsweek.com/citizen-vigilante-tops-amazon-chart-controversy-explained-armie-hammer-12134928

The ignorance and the insensitivity is offensive.

I can't believe you need to be so ignorant and so insensitive in order to have a nice life for yourself.

I don't think Armie Hammer would make a very good older sister.

Because he just does what this patriarchal guy wants him to.

"'Citizen Vigilante’ Director Explains Film’s Success"

https://www.newsweek.com/citizen-vigilante-tops-amazon-chart-controversy-explained-armie-hammer-12134928

Yikes! Yikes! Yikes, I say.

"A documentary about female pimps"

maryisalien

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaLrmaOtYkF/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Why not learn more? Ignorance just leads to more suffering.

 It's better to learn.


"Did the Nazis or high ranking SS officers really..."

https://www.reddit.com/r/AskHistory/s/UZ0iI2pnKA

"Want to learn..."

Asako Japanese Dietician

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6xuvnT/

I'm too good...too good...

at being that bitch who can't worship white men's predatory behaviors enough, including my own flesh and blood relatives who were deranged by the Patriarchal Culture for this!

"?????

I'm too high for this"

Forest🌿🐾

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6HsTEu/

Even though the summer is very hot in some regions...

I almost can't wait to go out to Palm Springs, which is only a 45 minute drive away when the traffic is good, and count how much of the "oriented towards the rich guys" stuff is out there. I mean, what's a womb for? Probably to make some rich guys happy.

I can't believe being so uncaring about people's medical needs is just what feels like the right thing to do, under The Patriarchy, apparently.

 Yes.

Come on! That thing everybody says so great is just getting more and more dangerous!

What if I die soon, reincarnate as a boy, and somebody has to have an excessively lonely abortion experience on account of my unhealed mindset and reckless shenanigans, in an era of decreased reproductive rights?

I don't have boho boots for summer and boho boots for summer will help.

 Boho Boots For Summer

https://www.thehippieshake.co.uk/collections/boots-shoes?


"Contains: Material Girl"

trashling.1

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6yq5bn/

Great Cosmic Mother has a plan.

There should be more radio stations devoted to the Great Cosmic Mother.

"#singleladies #womenover40 #comedy"

A'mara

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSjUB7na/

"#viral #grandma"

Jay Langford

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6fqE2J/

"Contains: Material Girl"

trashling.1

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6yq5bn/

Can't be so stoical all the time! 🍹📚🌮🥳🥤

 How to decompress.


"#poolboy taco"

juno

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6D68Mn/

"My mom is so funny..."

trashling.1

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6AoW9v/

fypシ゚viral

Toothless and Feather

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS6BGswK/

Is that crazy? I don't think it's so crazy.

I feel like there's been a bunch of women and girls who were treated like crap by their families and then they got shut down and horrible psychological and physical health problems manifested as a result.

Alligator Alcatraz sounds like an absolute nightmare.

"‘How can I forget?’ Deported Peruvian journalist pens book on ICE detention at Alligator Alcatraz, Camp East Montana"

https://elpasomatters.org/2026/06/29/ice-detention-camp-east-montana-alligator-alcatraz-deported-journalist-book/

On the way to something better, this has been noted.

It's really pathetic to actively feel the desire to squelch someone else's creativity, and act upon it, just so you can survive in a really f***** up, imbalanced system.

Learning experiences say...

Sensitive people should not hang out with the people who got rewarded for acting like tools of the patriarchy. It's just not great for our health.

I mean, you can always say "But they acted like tools of the paycheck in the past, but now they're healing and they're working on getting better and...."

But just stop it. 


Saved from the asylum again.

The amount of times I managed to claw my way back to sanity this year...

The universe wanted to remind me of this children's book.

And I guess there's also a film I've never seen.

"When Hitler Stole Pink Rabbit" by Judith Kerr | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/54283.When_Hitler_Stole_Pink_Rabbit

It has a positive account of a refugee experience.

******

"'Am I ten yet?' asked Anna. Papa looked at his watch. 

'Ten years old exactly.' He hugged her. 'Happy, happy birthday, and very many happy returns!'

And just as he said it the boat's lights came on. There was only a sprinkling of white bulbs round the rails which left the deck almost as dark as before, but the cabin suddenly glowed yellow and at the back of the boat the ship's lantern shone a brilliant purply-blue.

'Isn't it lovely!' cried Anna, and somehow, suddenly, she no longer minded about her birthday and her presents. It seemed rather fine and adventurous to be a refugee, to have no home and not to know where one was going to live. Perhaps at a pinch it might even count as a difficult childhood like the ones in Gunther's book and she would end up by being famous. 

As the boat streamed back to Zurich, she snuggled up to Papa and they watched the blue light from the ship's lantern trailing through the dark water behind them.

"' I think I might quite like being a refugee,' said Anna."

Page 67

Perhaps this is just not said enough.

"Congrats on the preferential treatment from Patriarchal White Supremacy. What else will you be doing with this honor for the rest of your  life?"

This film was good. Not as many people seem to have learned as much from it as I hoped, but...

"I finally saw The Zone of Interest yesterday..."

https://www.reddit.com/r/TrueFilm/s/STJLZjOl8a

'The Zone of Interest" | Official Trailer HD | A24

https://youtube.com/watch?v=r-vfg3KkV54&si=yZ3ndKtMM4e_-eKt

"Well, things can't get much worse." Maybe that's the right attitude to have?

If Elon Musk and Armie Hammer are going to  protect us from the bad guys now. 🙄

"Elon Musk promotes Armie Hammer and Uwe Boll's anti-migrant movie"

https://www.avclub.com/elon-musk-armie-hammer-uwe-boll-citizen-vigilante

I wonder how many ICE agents are parents themselves, or will be?

Did they want some tips for how to be more successful in life?

"Another ICE threat visit: How did agents track down this critic on his vacation?" - syracuse.com

https://www.syracuse.com/news/2026/06/another-ice-threat-visit-how-did-agents-track-down-this-critic-on-his-vacation.html


This is the end of an era.

The averagely insensitive parents can make their brave last stands, and then we'll see what they taught their children, and how much of their habits the next generations will want to carry forward.

Sometimes they're nicer, though!

"ICE has not said why Sister Letty was detained."

Victoria Arredondo

"Nun released after ICE detains her on way to Mass"

Cruelty to certain kinds of kids is just normal now. A bunch of money got thrown at the organization and almost everyone's going about their lives like nothing's wrong.

"ICE Won"

"The ugliest immigration crackdown in history is becoming normal"

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/article/ice-won-dhs-spending-bill-trump.html

And you know what? When I read books, people are a lot kinder to the spunky, awkward girls sometimes.

Like a lot of other people, I liked reading those stories where the spunky girl speaks out. But I know why people don't speak out about the abuse that happened in your families.

Because some of your families are filled with emotionally immature jerks who are going to treat you like crap if you try to have any truthful conversations with them about anything of importance. They will disown you, but they won't actually say they'll disown you. They'll just freeze you out. 

And now you're like an honorary unseen immigrant who's supposed to wait on assholes like them all your all their lives and just remain unseen and in the shadows and grateful for the opportunity to serve their myopic, selfish egos. 

Which is really just masking a lot of pain that they're not really ready to look at but that's too bad because some of us are being forced to look at it now. Not later. Not in the next life.

And some of us don't have a bunch of houses and land to comfort us and remind us that we did a good job and we played by the rules the right way. And we're "successful" now. 

Meanwhile, what's happening to the value of the girls and women in this collapsing patriarchy? What are the men in charge doing right now?

And good for us for making excuses for the sexual predator dads who are always more important than all the daughters you guys don't want to think about. Really? Because The Patriarchy hates it so much when you have feelings and think about people like that. Why? Why is it so?

I will make a good guess about why this one is in my head now.

It's either because there were boys in the bar (when I used to work next to one) and they had feelings too...

Third Eye Blind - "How's It Going To Be"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=rE1oIhSgTgI&si=Z4jpE0SJxzniIJnl

Or maybe it was playing last night at some point...

By the way, don't expect a woman who's been waiting on a bunch of drunken men all evening to show her feminist side. It's probably a lot to ask of her. Although it would still be nice. I would have thought that was cool. But that's why nowadays you can find the feminist content online and know that it's out there anyways!

Everyone knows the daughters deserve much better than what they're getting right now!!!!

 Some are just a lot more articulate about saying it than others.

"All boys push"

makaylaheleen

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS23sDL2/

"The hardest direction to move can be forward"

afightbackwoman

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaKlPW-NvWF/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I'm telling you guys about a conversation my husband had..."

Elizabeth Hassell

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS2TueKK/

"When I tell you I couldn't care less"

Emma Nyx

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS2374ns/

Sunday, June 28, 2026

It's hard when you've got a lot of trauma to heal. It is.

And I'm sorry about it. But also, when people who haven't healed from the misogynistic messages that got pushed into their brains at an early age act like they are not very truthful or trustworthy because they have a need to repeat old patterns, to fit in with other people who also haven't healed, that gets like, a very unhinged and unbalanced kind of scary. Why are still you letting f****** patriarchal programming ruin things? Is that for the rest of this life? Seriously?

At least more girls/women make funny and also truthful to their experiences feminist content now.

 

"Time to get outta there, ladies..."

dupree_

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTS2v6NPE/

Actually, I don't know anything about "Born Slippy" though. I missed that. Maybe I'm too old?

Auuuuugh!

How could you put so much energy into propping up the unwell patriarchy just to have a career? Could you not see any other way?

This made me amused but depressed, so the remedy was the famous California fast food burger joint.

 


With all that's happening to the health of the daughters of this nation.


People need to want to heal and address their issues. Don't have to be perfect. Just have the gumption.

The sad thing about the fascism is that it's happening because it's within the people. And the most vulnerable humans in society suffer the most immediate consequences. And it's hard for the more sensitive people to know about that right now. It's feeling very hurtful, very much of the time.

They can't all be like Otto Frank, right?

Drastic things are happening and I thought the artistic people would want to address the things and grow and change for real. Not just act like, I don't know, self-obsessed party animals... Oh and the worst thing is when you say something like that because then they just act out and exaggerate their behaviors even more, just like little children. Just like children who never grew up. Real world adults with responsibilities and land ownership and mortgages and everything, and they're still childish.

Sometimes wonder if there's just a lack of...I mean a deficit of...I mean...

I hope some people's peculiarly Patriarchal ways  seem really worth it to them because I think they look very silly and like they're kind of settling for less than what they could be choosing right now. I think my heart hurts about it sometimes, too.

Feeling adult enough to face this knowledge.

Seeing potential in people making progress more quickly can be a many-splendored and sometimes heart-wrenching endeavor.




I'll compose a message.

"Elon explains why I'm so inferior to Armie Hammer but other people would never."

What's the message?

I feel like I am a Cassandra Project candidate.

Well the Moon looks really full but it's the night before the Full Strawberry Moon.

I think I should be on the cusp of communing with the land like a big field underneath the moon but I guess I just have to do it with a backyard filled with gopher holes at the moment. The cat will be out there. The cat will be on raccoon watch.

Maybe now I am six.

I'm kind of on a "change is most possible after you get it all out of your system" Journey. Just think of everything that you thought was possible when you knew less. Then you learned harsh lessons and seemed to know too much and then you struggled with the knowledge. But I don't know why, but some of the knowledge doesn't seem quite as heavy of a burden to carry now????

Perhaps it is worthwhile to raise the standards for what you believe is good behavior.

Also, I know that no matter what you do, sometimes people will say "B****" and "So-and-so is just being a victim" because they were also raised in a very misogynistic Patriarchal culture and I'm sorry for them if that's as far as they can go in this lifetime.

People can discuss history, and take the kids to museums. Some people were doing that today.

 





I think I'm going to go to South Carolina this summer?

Holy skinned knees experience.

Well, I accidentally drove by the diner where I skinned my knees when I fell in the pothole the other night (I truly had no conscious intention of doing so but then I got turned around somehow and I was like, wait a second. Here I am again.)

I wondered if they'd fixed that hole and I wasn't too sure if they would have and my knees still hurt every single day from falling down in that pothole. So I thought, if they haven't fixed it, I'm going to go in and show them my knees. I'm going to tell them my knees still hurt.

And then I'm going to tell them I was on a jury where a black woman who was an elderly person with diabetes fell and twisted her ankle and broke it in a tree well that wasn't properly kept up by the city and she was never able to recover back her state of health. Since she had diabetes on top of it, having a broken ankle injury was really a severe impact on her quality of life. She couldn't walk long distances anymore and that was significant.

Not only that, but the other people on the jury mostly wanted to help her, but they also wanted to go home and like take care of their kids and stuff and they didn't want to be on the jury anymore. So they almost all changed their minds, cuz one or two people were being really pissy about the idea of awarding her any money for her the damages. So she didn't get anything.

They all said well, we do feel bad for her, but they said they didn't want to give her any money. Bunch of white people, too, that time, by the way. And the white guy lawyer that the city had was the smarmiest jerk, probably would have gotten Epstein off. I don't think the judge (also a white guy) actually liked him all that much. Cuz he got yelled at several times. And her lawyers, who were also younger white guys, didn't get yelled at. Wow, it sometimes seems like the white guys are the most employable ones in certain spaces huh? Hey, look at the Supreme Court.

Well I drove by the space that had the pothole and I got a pleasant surprise!

They fixed it. They fixed it! You can't even tell that pothole was there! 

So you see, I spoke up and my suffering was not for nothing. Maybe I even saved somebody who was far more vulnerable and worse off than I from falling into that hole and suffering a far worse injury. Who knows?

Music can also be very beautiful and healing...

"Arvo Pärt: My Heart's in the Highlands"

skycam_ee

https://youtube.com/watch?v=6UadEvSJMrQ&si=GHLtwXDLsHMYE8KY

You know what's kinda harsh, tho...

It's kinda harsh knowing that PTSD is real, but your trauma is just someone else's minor inconvenience. 

And this is why it's such a comfort to read books sometimes. 

Because once in awhile, you might find an author who's writing makes you know that humans really are capable of being curious about and also sensitive towards somebody else's real life experiences.

I truly never even thought of this!

 Army dreamers music 💗


"Switzerland: safe, neutral, rich."

motorinamakeup

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DY7dZhksbCM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Have no doubt it's even more complicated than this for some people, but interesting.

 

"The female nervous system..."

ankoriaalchemy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaDubmkgSp1/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

You're the one who posted a picture of it.

"The best thing about you now is your pool, and I can find one of those at an Air B n B."

To honor all the things they don't know about how female physiology works yet.

They should celebrate Repressed Month.

Actually, a white guy at a bar was in my dream...

But I didn't try very hard to figure out what it was about.

"Not only do white Americans need this..."

Rev. Dr. David Moore

https://substack.com/@revdrdavidmoore/note/c-279126680?r=1oj2u

Hey! I'm grateful I can eat in the 21st century!

"What you ate in 1776 depended on who you were" : NPR

https://www.npr.org/2026/06/28/nx-s1-5843114/250-colonial-america-1776-food-anniversary

They want to suck you down to their level, don't they?

It's also been a really pathetic experience that people who were supposed to be much better than this made me feel like if I just made more money, like if I just took the business card of a shady rich guy and got enough money to get a financial advisor and make some some investments in the stock market and if I had a shitload of money right now, then the shallowest of the shallow, including people you were supposed to actually trust and rely on in the past, would treat you better! Based off being much more materialistic and shady and misogynistic and racist and greedy, like they are!

Creative projects that actually help women and girls who got abused by their patriarchal society and friends and families. That could happen.

A lot of shallow and sexist men and women it takes, to make up such a violent, ignorant Patriarchal Society!

Wow, what selfish, sexist, racist men. Did they read "The Cut Out Girl." Or "As The Waltz Was Ending." White guys have raped many women, too. Sorry.

"Musk is a fan of the Armie Hammer-starrer Citizen Vigilante.

After Citizen Vigilante was banned in Germany, according to The Telegraph, because regulators refused to grant the film an age rating over concerns that its violent content could incite violence against immigrants, Musk posted the full movie to his X account, which has more than 240 million followers, making it available to watch for 48 hours. Uwe Boll, the German filmmaker who wrote and directed Citizen Vigilante, also shared the film. While it's no longer available on either account, the movie has since been reposted by X users."

https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/movies/articles/elon-musk-posted-armie-hammer-201005881.html

Plot of "Citizen Vigilante"

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Citizen_Vigilante

Who even says you need to be a hero. That's a lot.

And if you read a book like "The Cut Out Girl," there's plenty of different kinds of people to look up to.

"Costa Book of the Year: Jewish rescue story The Cut Out Girl wins"

https://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-47042753

Your kids and their kids are gonna to have to do it.

Start thinking about all those things you didn't want to think about; but if you feel it's going to overwhelm you, and I do understand that feeling quite well, maybe make a plan so you can cushion yourself psychologically and adequately, according to your unique needs.

There's always a silver lining.

I think some parents might be way less misogynistic towards the daughters in the future. The incidences of dads and moms making excuses for rapists is going to go down incrementally.

They grew up feeling like being racist and misogynistic was normal, so it's time for a growth spurt.

 Tori Amos - "Precious Things Lyrics & Meanings" | SongMeanings

https://songmeanings.com/songs/view/13556/

Maybe a little bit of drama is a good thing sometimes.

"A day after Alito's testy response to Sotomayor's dissent, court says it was a 'misunderstanding'": NPR

https://www.npr.org/2026/06/26/nx-s1-5872721/supreme-court-alito-sotomayor

They need to grow up.

"Sometimes your friends remind me of when I had to argue with guys in high school who didn't think date rape was real."

Honestly, sometimes it's that kind of morning.

"Maybe when their descendants or other women's children are really going through a lot of s*** during the 'growth spurt,' they can play a game called 'Mirror mirror on the wall, which one of my friends was the least shallow, least fascist of all?'"

"that was actually kind of a banger"

My breasts! My breakfast!

"Female Body" ~ ilovefarideh

https://youtube.com/watch?v=uO_xm39M0KQ&si=yF6y1gY9P9RatJ3U


Don't even wanna...

Y: Why are U pacing?

(Pacing was also chewing. Poor pretty skirt!)

X: Oh I was just thinking about the white trash fascist event...

Y: Who cares about that? That's not a reason to pace. There's more important things to worry about.

X: Like what?

Y: Like the Supreme Court.

What's this "Cassandra Project" about?

 Also, growth spurts!


"Stop skipping breakfast for coffee"

giulia. conte. fitness

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaGFHtzFSzp/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"nothing fits me rn"

miyaacacia

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaGPxnOBTxj/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"That's not rare. That's Tuesday."

cassandraprojectfilm

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ5uM8LPrHY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


I appreciate this lyric, too: "More mysterious than the illuminati!" Lol

"Female Body" ~ ilovefarideh

https://youtube.com/watch?v=uO_xm39M0KQ&si=yF6y1gY9P9RatJ3U

Can you believe this? Sick!

"Profiting from pain: bearing witness inside ICE’s Baldwin immigrant prison" – Glen Arbor Sun

https://glenarborsun.com/profiting-from-pain-bearing-witness-inside-ices-baldwin-immigrant-prison/

But at least it reminds me of a good song.

Tori Amos - "Precious Things (Live at Glastonbury Festival 1998)"


Poetic stuff is good stuff.

Tori Amos – "Precious Things Lyrics"| Genius Lyrics


I think all the kids from all the economic backgrounds should have the opportunity to have a pet cat when they're growing up.

My cat has this real talent for coming up to me and acting super purry and cute! Who knows. Maybe having cats shaped me significant ways. 


Patriarchy makes some women very sick in the head, too.

Are you, like, Donald Trump in an alternate, more XY chromosome'd reality?

Wow! What a church that would have been.

"Love thy neighbor!"

Imagine if you had gone to the kind of church where you were taught to be feminist and ask questions and have conversations and be good brothers and care about all kinds of people who are your neighbors, huh?

The "artists are monsters guy" is right.

"I'm Really Good at Flirting" | Milan Patel

https://youtu.be/YnhtX9UZwCQ?si=aRTYF7Mtq8n0CTHA

It's Sunday morning and this is a great time to think about this topic.

They are monsters because they want to be the cult leaders. They are hungry ppl. Hungry to be special. To push away others, and be so filled with their  artistic importance. Why would you want to think about brown people getting rounded up and put away in concentration camps? If you can just be a pretty artist sitting next to a stream, singing your pretty artistic songs, isn't that much better for your fragile psyche?

They want worshippers to make them feel on top!

They don't wanna know about your stressed out about genocide problems.

Oh Lord.

They wanna lead the church and make ppl scream.

Why do white people have to be the best monster artists?

Like, do you know we actually do need the labor of the immigrants and indigenous brown people who are being persecuted by Patriarchal White Supremacy more than we need to worship you and your art? But oh my God try to tell the monstrous artsy people this. They will goddamn hate you forever. You simply become a non-entity to them. They act like you just don't exist. And that seems like a normal and justifiable and acceptable way to get through life when it comes to these people who are in kind of headspace that almost reminds me of being a wannabe cult leader. It's really sick. 

Humans can do good things.

"Review: The Cut Out Girl, by Bart Van Es"

https://www.draliceviolett.com/the-cut-out-girl-by-bart-van-es/

"It’s very timely, as well; I feel even more disgusted by the separation of immigrant children from their families at US Border Patrol now I’ve read this biography. It’s inevitable that we’ll see another cohort traumatised in similar ways in the not very far future."

~ Alice Violett

I picked up my library book and it opened to a certain page.

This is The Cut Out Girl again. (It's written by a man who seems to be more perceptive than the average man these days, I would say.) On page 257, he describes a letter from his grandmother, the  adopted mother, to Lien:

"This is a kind and loving letter, filled with a true and solid wisdom. Ma understands Lien and for all the trouble that lay behind them, it is hard to see how the bonds that tied these women together could break. My grandmother could sometimes be hard and judgmental, but she was also someone with a deep sense of duty, especially toward her children. How could things go from such a letter to the one that severed contact for good?"

"The Cut Out Girl: A Story of War and Family, Lost and Found by Bart van Es" | Goodreads

https://goodreads.com/book/show/41000784.The_Cut_Out_Girl_A_Story_of_War_and_Family__Lost_and_Found

The smart and curious girls and women are the most trustworthy ones.

The boys and men? Most of them get too easily led astray. Even the one that you could be romantic about sometimes has to be a brother first.  Otherwise, it's hopeless. Boys are too easily led astray by the paycheck-iarchy, and this has been proven to be the case, over and over and over and over again. The girls and women who put those types of boys first will never ever be trustworthy, either. But the smart and curious girls and women are the ones who see more possibilities, and their vision can help you believe in a better future.

I need to know about Otto Frank, too.

I need to know a man like Otto Frank existed.

"Otto Frank"

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Otto_Frank

I need feminine spirituality, too, though.

I need feminine spirituality so I can survive the horror show.

Who knows why?

The Unwell Patriarchy wanted people to act like wounded narcissists who are incapable of seeing others are the ones who are the most deserving of attention and money and land and whatever else the Patriarchal Cult deemed the "most valuable" people should value the most.

People need Jesus to survive what humans will do to each other.

They need to know about that guy, beloved to God, going through the worst, the most immense suffering, and saying, "Father, forgive them. They know not what they do."

Well, I guess you got through that. Are you going to get better now?

Their negligence and their ignorance and their cruelty was real. Human beings really did suffer. Human beings really did want to leave the planet on account of how terrible other human beings could be to them. What does it mean to survive such things? Such awful, harsh lessons.

A human being needs a spiritual practice to get through what they have to get through.

It's like you're on the ground in the parking lot with your ankle hurting and scraped knees at night. Because you didn't see the pothole. But you're lucky cuz nobody's going to be mean to you. Actually a couple people are going to be nice and check on you. But the people you were supposed to trust became the most insufferable assholes instead of showing compassion when you were put in a vulnerable position. It's atrocious. It's like when there was a wounded chick and the other chicks would peck at it to try to kill at it. That's what people are like, sometimes. Why are human beings so terribly mean sometimes when it comes to seeing what others are going through? And even the people that you believed would never do something like that. They act that way. Why did you come to Earth to know that? Was that really f****** necessary? Patriarchal culture made people so much meaner than they needed to be. 

Saturday, June 27, 2026

Things could get a lot better.

I can't smoke too much because that would be bad for me but I am smoking a cigarette with no tobacco in it and it feels great right now. I'm glad that I was delving into "The Cut Out Girl" again. I'm just trying to figure out what I'm supposed to be building. I have to try to make it more about love than fear. 

Blowing smoke out of my mouth. It's so rich feeling.

It's the evening of needing to pick the path that's the best way to go, at least for tonight.

I had to figure out some more things. One of the things I was trying to figure out was if maybe people need to learn more about love within boundaries. Maybe disagreement is a clumsy way of trying to establish healthy boundaries. It could be? What if ppl are more hurt in seclusion, inside their minds? Memories of my stepfather telling me he thought I was a really laid-back person and he was surprised I had anxieties came back to me too. He was type A, he was controlling, blah blah blah. But he did like to socialize. He really did. I wasn't in the most social mood but I went out because I had an invite. I still had the weird physical issues going on but some good stuff happened while I was out. I met some people who are different. I met some moms. We had a pleasant time. I don't have kids, but it doesn't matter. But it couldn't stay out for long. I had to come back. My cat was so happy to see me when I came back! She's my joy! I felt a great relief to bring my kind of ailing body back and be around her again. Cat people are like this. 

Some plant music 🌱

"Listen To Mullein For 30 Minutes…"

@Bio.Music.Vibrations

https://youtube.com/watch?v=NrYp91XZvlo&si=Rsi56ONxBhylkNNs

Something better 🎐🐋🩵🎶🌊

 "WATER Koshi Wind Chimes Meditation - See the Ocean"

@CalmWhale

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jNXAqJh2LGc&si=3XAli8jVuLCfB94H

Aches on the left and right.⚕️

On the left hip: I wonder if it has to do with an ovary. On the right: probably the gallbladder.

And on top of everything else...

The reminder about the specially treated refugees and and Elon's drastically traumatized inner child.

"Air Afrikaans"

@mehilonet

https://youtube.com/watch?v=CYOIbXJTVIc&si=c9ahksgKB6js25pG

"A Look Inside the Welcome Bags Planned for White South African Refugees" - The New York Times

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/06/23/us/politics/south-africa-refugees-welcome-bags.html

Geez.

 


Cat O' Nine Very Relaxed Lives doesn't need to research anything at all to balance out her nervous system's connection to a metabolic disorder or the female reproductive organs or hormone levels and navigate our financially punishing MEDICAL SYSTEM O PATRIARCHAL VIOLENCE!

Making a salad! That's a hobby from the 1980s.


"Hobbies From The 1980s That Protected People's Mental Health"

The universe still has much funny timing.

I just got this book delivered with a poem about Detroit and Greektown in it. And I looked to see if it was online...

"The Body Opulent"

Alice Fulton

Poetry, Vol. 147, No. 6 (Mar., 1986), pp. 319-321 (3 pages)

https://www.jstor.org/stable/20600639

"Palladium" by Alice Fulton | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1514860.Palladium

This era is showcasing too much cruelty to women.

 

"In no world does forcing a woman..."

harlowsmusings

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaGd0QVRi4G/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Now you know"

isitroberta

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZmIexguLbM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==