Friday, September 25, 2026

That's in the category of some sort of meteorological phenomenon surely.

Top of the hill: 

Hail pelts the car, you can barely see where you're going, and you're praying to get home safely while you're driving. 

Four miles later, at bottom of the hill: 

Sunny, calm, dry, and no rain, fog or hail.

This is living at the base of a mountain.

We didn't even get rain here, but it's a very different story just a 10 minute drive away...

"Mud, debris flows in San Bernardino mountain communities provide glimpse of El NiƱo"

https://abc7.com/amp/post/san-bernardino-mountain-communities-hit-mud-debris-flows-providing-taste-el-nio/19871364/

Another thing to cry about if you haven't been as blessed as others...

"HAHHAH it was painful"

madzgoetz

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da3H9mMzvGl/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Well, it's been been pointed out to me that men do get mental disorders named specially for them when they get abused by the game of football.

"This is your reminder that psychiatry has spent over 100 years inventing mental disorders for abused women but has never once invented one for rapists or abusers."

drjesstaylor

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdtK0ZaqozO/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

And these attitudes have been normalized for years!

 Kind of also reminds me of why no rich men get in trouble for the Epstein Files.


"So, Cornell University..."

the_258_club

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddme7hHzhGO/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Who? Maybe not everybody?

Who in the Patriarchal Culture needs to gets thinner so a bunch of Untrustworthy Fraternity Brothers will think you look more attractive and   promote you up in their system faster???

Feminine Stuff!

"bodies like mine"

sarahinyellow

https://www.instagram.com/p/Ddq8LY7lcvJ/?img_index=1&stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Women and children are not safe on this planet."

girlpainted

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdsUuoTOE7l/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"#fyp #men #grow #matriarchy"

luc.ai

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddji1RKvIyq/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Oh good, this came to me, too.

What if it's true that certain things triggered you in order to activate a life purpose? But now you would like to continue pursuing the life purpose in perhaps a more refined and less destructive way, and not continue to be triggered. Even though, you could be grateful that the triggers activated you in the past, but now in the future you want to no longer be so triggered, but you still want to continue fulfilling some of your end of bargain or whatever when it comes to your life purpose that was activated by the triggered states.

Just kidding. Another rambling thought is on its way.

What if it's true that there is such a thing as twin souls? And what if it's true? That if there's such a thing that they will simultaneously trigger the best and worst in each with one exception? And that is, what if they have a particular mission to carry out in one lifetime and then if they have a particular mission, maybe in that lifetime things are different, because of that particular mission. But then maybe in future lifetimes the mission is different, and so then they're back to triggering both the best and worst,and so that's why with twin souls if you still have stuff to figure out sometimes they're the ones that bring it up in you. But at the same time they could bring out the best too. That was fun.

I had to wake up and think a thought, and now I'm hopefully going back to sleep.

"Big T Trauma might be different from little t trauma."

People need to somehow get better at communicating.

They have to want to get better at it, too.

"Women will Save this country"

thestaceyshows 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdriKN6NGxL/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Strange times, I suppose.

This reminded me of the famous diarist, and I don't know why, but it just did. Was it the train...

"As a result, mutuality is often replaced by manipulation, pressure, rigid gender roles, and a sense of obligation."

avangard_nastya

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbjxV-MMMnj/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Raise the vibrations!

This is actually progress and higher vibrations, because what used to happen more was that everybody used to cast out the victims and make excuses for the violent men, because that's what made them feel more accepted in their little patriarchal enclaves.


"Every single day we are one day closer."

thestaceyshows

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcHjJomtp5S/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"The more I learn about this case"

loudly.leo

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdryxqIBdk3/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"we stand with Jane Doe."

safety_thru_sexed

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdrpsB0oiJT/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng== 

Well, I'm tired now.

 

"Break glass in case of women asserting their human rights"

tarangchawla

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcdnDmdPDoo/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Best Universities and the White House have similar problems.


"Research shows that media coverage of violence against women is not proportional to its prevalence."

scarlettlongstreet

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddo3VkmObD6/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Good question, how many people received that text, and did nothing?

 


"The more I learn about this case"

loudly.leo

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdryxqIBdk3/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Is it health or is it frivolity?

At the Renaissance Faire, a woman I didn't know rushed up to me, and she was a bigger size and about my height too. She pointed at our shadows and said look how good we look! Our shadows looked long and thin and tall. And I said, "Yeah, we look tall!" And she said, "Tall is the best!"

Imagine if they were always pressuring the tall people to get shorter to be more acceptable to society. Imagine if they were always pressuring the men to see the point of view of the women instead of vice versa.

Swimming all summer and doing strength training seemingly didn't make that much difference. My muscles would ache and I knew I was getting stronger. But I weigh as much as I've ever weighed. I guess at least the bigger size clothes I bought have been a good investment.

I think the last time I was lost weight was a few years ago when I was juicing celery and drinking that juice everyday and I had cut out a lot of sugar and fat. I would eat a lot of vegetables and hummus. But I wasn't really exercising that much, actually. 

Since I had a weird dream about a thin hippie type person pointing to one TV dinner meal and then to sone big boxes of salad, I literally wondered if I would have to eat one meal a day and a lot of greens to lose weight. 

What if I drank green juice and ate vegetables? Maybe I could modify it by adding some hummus. Maybe I'll get really into celery juice again. It is true that when you eat very healthy on a regular basis, sometimes you stop craving certain kinds of food so much. Maybe I need to start to appreciate to the vegetables more. Carrots start to seem a bit sweet to you when you cut out the processed foods and the added sugar.

"For years, my body was treated like some kind of group project."

magdalena_hart_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc-p-jrBGk0/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Maybe ICE is just made up of a lot of averagely self-absorbed people.

People who are determined to not care so they can get what they want. 

"ICE is a joke"

it's trash Tuesday

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdsJU_gBG9N/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Thursday, September 24, 2026

Normal? Normal for who?

You can't make people care about certain things when they don't want to. They just don't want to. They just really, really, really don't want to.

Sometimes, I really start to get the feeling that I've never before seen this level of how stubborn certain averagely advantaged people can act. They are just so stubborn about getting their way and not seeing what's going on with others when it comes to feeling entitled to not care about what's happening. I don't know what to do. I can't think about it too much, or I will lose my mind again. I already started chewing more today than I had been recently.

And it seems like they're just doing it to keep things going the way they always have been going, to pretend that some things aren't happening, and they need to do it in the name of "normalcy," and "what's comfortable enough for them to know," which falls within some pretty strict perimeters.

Perhaps that's the disadvantage of being supposedly "more advantaged" than some others. You don't really know how to help others. You don't know how to listen to others. You don't know how to consider others. You're too advantaged to know how to do those things? Really? Or maybe you're just choosing to go along with a certain mindset to fit in with a certain group of people who are still following some old societal norms that haven't fallen away for them yet, but those norms are definitely falling away for other people in other places.

This guy teaches embroidery...

"Mindless Embroidery"

@toofbush

https://youtube.com/shorts/ymiiYBuBgLE?si=VgF-Z6ax_ac_46Du

People make some fun things.


"For years, my body was treated like some kind of group project."

magdalena_hart_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc-p-jrBGk0/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"šŸŖ„"

aalinatimo

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdorLCkCMrA/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Matriarchy is not scary"

mikeplivefree

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddq5GiVP2yb/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

But we still have the Moon! šŸŒ

 Look at me, said the Moon.

And we have other blessings.

And we have frivolity.

Reflecting on the wistful love songs from our youth.

I mean, I think I was raised on some fairly wistful music, when it comes to love and such things. It makes you wonder if every man at some point imagines himself as a character in a wistful love song. It may be so. But how can one be so wistful all the time? That's a tough gig. What if the wistful woman era is coming to an end?

Resting and digesting.

Gee, maybe if some people were better at thinking longer and harder at some about some things,  fewer young "Greek Life" men would feel so entitled about violating people at parties. And by the way, you're always saying well, why did the woman go out drinking. Well, why were the men drinking, huh? They're the ones who are committing the rapes usually. Why don't you tell the men to stop drinking? Let the women drink and tell the men to stop drinking for a change.

First World Problems...

Are great! "Is the frivolous summer top that you bought on clearance (because summer weather stretches into November in Southern California) better in a size one or a size two?" season is almost over.

"Weird Al" Yankovic - "First World Problems (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=bwvlbJ0h35A&si=I1esAqnNPTjmv2Y5

Cats & sticks.

"Roku had an ulterior motive"

thelastmeowbenders

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da1XyoYNtO_/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

And that's why reading about Anne Frank's diary is a relief sometimes!

And I'm going to start learning Dutch and German again too.


 Isn't this a luxury.

Blah! šŸ‘ŗ

His girlfriend was in a business club with one of these guys!

"Posting all their names and photos"

yuvaanibanez

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdlKNi0zctI/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


Outrage! As society evolves...

 


"#Cornell is not the blueprint, this kind of ignorance is historic."

bluraybeyond

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddj69fhBArs/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I CALLED CORNELL"

veryceci

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddoi1CRxD0W/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Posting all their names and photos"

yuvaanibanez

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdlKNi0zctI/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"This is no longer the Republican party..."

ashli_p

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dbi8iVKzYNA/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Are the UK and the US going to be equally good to women in the future?

Ha - ha.

"If you want to save local news you can forget all about adopting AI or pivoting to video, the secret is pivoting to lesbians."

Arwa Mahdawi

#NotAllLesbians – we can’t let the Massachusetts bar..."

https://www.theguardian.com/global/commentisfree/2026/sep/24/last-ditch-bar-lesbian-massachusetts-viral

Some lighter content!

 


"The Economics Of Getting Filthy Rich"

@barryseconomics

https://youtube.com/shorts/ZVCcBwMFpvY?si=qAbO8cz4qHZS6HBp

"How a middle-aged cat lady with ADHD watches television"

larkingrimm

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdpR6QSvU8J/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Catsochist"

u/Better_Hair_9673

https://www.reddit.com/r/CatsBeingDramatic/s/lbjDv1pKxT

Some memorable moments captured!


"NEXT FRIDAY ✨✨"

smallfoolsmusic

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdIRwWXSX7n/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Step outside that fear."

marvalbush

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbWBik1uYuM/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"We got 5 girls accepted into a university"

zar.the.star

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddjh1Nfxtxg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Did you ever hear that children come first in a matriarchal society?

We are not living in a matriarchal society. 

We are living in a  "Rich people's kids rule. Other people's kids get locked away in detention centers" society.

That's what patriarchal society does to people. It tries to do its best to make it seem like that's a normal way of living to people. It's not a normal way of living. It's messed up.

I read about this businesswoman who's also a mom doing this fashion collaboration and I was like okay. Well, fashion can be fun. She could be a very nice person. Maybe she's a great mom to her own kids. 

Also the idea of living that way in a time of ICE needlessly tormenting certain types of kids and parents seems really backwards to me. 

"Rich people's kids rule. Other people's kids get locked away in detention centers." 

No, this is not the future.

This is rewarding certain kinds of adults for narcissism and putting them on a pedestal to keep certain programs running; programs that are failing a lot of people and I think they are going to fall apart eventually for the people that they seem to be benefiting as well.

Like seriously, some 4-year-olds are better at caring at their fellow human beings right now than some adults.

We are not living in a patriarchal society that puts children first. We are living in a patriarchal society that treats certain narcissistic adults like pampered children. It rewards them for arresting their own growth and development in order to fit in better with patriarchal society and its values.

Not sustainable! 

I shared this with the bush that I see outside my window, too.

I feel like I'm a decent student, but perhaps not a very good acolyte.

I am so glad you are better than the Nazis and their enablers.

Could you please explain, in detail, all of the things that make you treat certain people differently than others, and why it's justified? 

And please go into detail about how you know you do not dehumanize people in the way that, say, the Nazis and their enablers did?

Details! To show you've put some thought into this!

Maybe you should start investigating your survival strategies via writing exercises.

"Which family member role modeled the least amount of empathy for you when you were growing up and how did you know that?"

This is not a question for everybody, but it is a question for some people.

How old were you when you started learning that you needed the shallow, insensitive, narcissistic people to prop you up on a pedestal in order to keep your special, favored place in society?

I can only imagine how hard it must have been in the 1940s, less than 100 years ago, when my grandparents were teenagers...

"Madame now has a new trick up her sleeve: trying to get out of washing the pots and pans. If there's a bit of food left at the bottom of the pan, she leaves it to spoil instead of transferring it to a glass dish. Then in the afternoon when Margot is stuck with cleaning all the pots and pans, Madame exclaims, 'Oh, poor Margot, you have so much work to do!'"

Every other week Mr. Kleiman brings me a couple of books written for girls my age. I'm enthusiastic about the loop ter Heul series. I've enjoyed all of Cissy van Marxveldt's books very much. I've read The Zaniest Summer four times, and the ludicrous situations still make me laugh."

"Anne Frank – The Diary of Anne Frank (9/21/1942 - 9/29/1942)"

https://genius.com/Anne-frank-the-diary-of-anne-frank-9-21-1942-9-29-1942-annotated

Seems like a fine time to stop coping by being narcissistic.

 


"Hannahbananna20091 on TT if you want to say hi"

refashionedhippie

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdrXtaoRqmt/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"You have the power to help stop this"

bradleywhitford

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdohgWjNZes/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


He sounds like a good guy. Not somebody who needs to be locked away in an ICE detention center.


"GoFundMe link in bio"

fernando_acuna

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdMihRqTLsM/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Yeah and who else?

 This would be far more honest, but you can't say it:

"We were trained to treat people like you like garbage from an incredibly early age."

Actually, though, this is how you act.

"Your value and worth as a human being is not defined by whether or not you have children, but only if you're a man!"

I'm not turning myself into a man for you.

I simply think it's time to start getting better at addressing imbalances.


"Some children need a night light"

joshuaacolin

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdkPHrLNa3J/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Part 2 will be uploaded this Tuesday"

fernando_acuna

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddhjx14zqPA/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Your value as a human isn't defined by whether you bear children"

dear.fig

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DblQmnIxQVu/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

That is your society; that is not my society.

You live in a society of people who don't want to know what happened to their female relatives and make a bunch of excuses for their male relatives. 

TOO SEXIST and TOO SMALL.

It's tragic that people were trained to not respect girls and women. It really is.

And also, to some people, this is not just a distant, far off story. It's a reflection of stuff that's happened to people they know, too.

"@queenwithacrookedcrown
highlights the horrors behind #cornelluniversity and systemic injustice."

girlpainted

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdpOuUdBUcM/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I think I'll go look for a nick or a cut.

And put a drop of special blood in some body butter and then rub it on it.


This life affects the next life.

 


"There's a chain of mega churches..."

emily. margaret. music

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddml18vpW6R/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Mia's person was in the process of being deported..."

albyocwork

https://www.instagram.com/p/DdjLMbGDrWp/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Wilber Rafael Garces Perez is sitting in a concentration camp..."

valandnews

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdmVyzPJaWR/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


There has got to be a better way.

"You want me to be bad to myself just to make your ego feel better."

I feel like a universe.

Like a uterus cramping is looking at a guy smiling and going "Synergy!"

They're just so trained to know that your point of view is not important to a patriarchal mindset.

The problem is that sometimes people just don't unlisten to that training unless you get more unfriendly. Tiresome to be sure.

My life.

I don't have to act like I have to join a tribe of girls who act like they're where feminism goes to die in order to be like palatable enough to cross the threshold of wherever you're currently doing. Whatever you're doing.

Okay, I guess I'll figure out what that all means.

I just got an image of a thin hippie woman pointing to a shelf with like one TV dinner and two huge boxes of salad.

You have to listen to your body.

I think my body don't care about reincarnated loyalty. Royalty. Whatever! And the reason I say that is, because there's other priorities to consider right now that are more important when it comes to addressing health concerns.

New musical talent! šŸŽ¶

 

"There's a chain of mega churches..."

emily.margaret.music

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddml18vpW6R/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Some unfortunate things have been happening because people abuse their positions of power.

 

"Wilber Rafael Garces Perez is sitting in a concentration camp..."

valandnews

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdmVyzPJaWR/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Like dripping, heavy jewels. Too heavy.

There's been so much entitlement and so much audacity, and it's like I can just feel centuries of it. Literally centuries of dripping heavy jewels.

Maybe some other time.

I can already hear the know-it-all voices telling me what to do.

Sometimes people are just clueless about what's best for your health and you need to make a different path.

My body literally cannot deal with the patriarchy right now. Lots of blood right now, too. I don't care to make a good impression today. I'm not going to make myself succeed in a way that is guy friendly today. I'm not going to do it. The guy friendly way is to look pretty in a certain way and act in a certain way and I just don't feel like doing that in this lifetime. I'm not going to do it.

Spiritual sense of humor

"The delightfulness of divine disappointment."

What a wonderful feeling!

Other people are not in charge of my life. I don't really care how smart they are or how much more advanced they are. They're still not in charge of my life.

Maybe my mind will be wiped clean of all ideas. I have no idea.

I had one of the nicest days yesterday, and now I'm collapsing, so that's great. Of course maybe it's just a little cold to fight off and I'm just exaggerating it all. I have no idea either way.


O the Humanity šŸ™šŸ»

"Yoga Nidra Singing Bowls | Sound bath for total calm"

Healing Vibrations 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ap6AkhvTKfM&si=B7HHjv4VBJnMsEwz

Peace, prayers, healing.

 Feeling wiped out. Woke up dizzy and thirsty. Peace, prayers, healing. There's grief stuff happening. There's exhaustion stuff happening. Peace, prayers, healing. 

Wednesday, September 23, 2026

Some very nice surprises came my way today.

Gifts, moments of fun and good conversations.

Perhaps it's all about balance!

And then love and light can still work! For a good end result.

" I cannot tell you how many times..."

alchemist_erica

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdVP4iPspSX/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Interesting business. Not for everybody! But it seems like it is for some people.


Allowed, and sometimes paid more for being that way.

 

"Men are allowed to be unpleasant"

ladyimproper

https://www.threads.com/share/BAatMLeeOe/

Maybe that's what would really help the children. And the unpaid nannies.

Maybe the advantaged parents should help the disadvantaged parents more. Before an ICE recruiter swoops in and says oh all that stuff you see is exaggeration from the media and most of the time you just sit behind a desk and do paperwork. Or whatever the electronic equivalent is today. Wouldn't it be nice to have more money and be able to give your kids more things, like all the advantaged parents get to give their kids? Won't that be nice.

Think of how many disadvantaged parents took higher paying jobs with ICE because they have kids to feed.

"People in ICE detention struggle to access period products, despite rules to provide them"

https://19thnews.org/2026/02/ice-facilities-federal-prisons-menstrual-products/

Maybe they're just the "desk job" kinds of ICE employees.

Replacement for a like button.

No, you're not that good of a person, and you weren't when you were younger, either. In fact, you've been sexist for quite a long time. Just because you're posting pictures of yourself with your biological children doesn't indicate that you've changed all that much or made that much progress.

Be aware.

It's good to know that some people see that this is unhealthy b*******.

"Outcry as Michigan high school asks girls to share details of menstrual cycles"

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/sep/17/michigan-school-period-policy

Anyways, efforts to have a blessed day are underway.

"The secrets of menstrual blood: emerging frontiers from diagnostic tools to stem cell therapies" - PMC

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC12405216/

Women's bodies change in different decades of their lives.

The type of exercise I did when I was in my twenties no longer helps me lose weight right now for some reason. It's a real thing. It's an actual phenomenon. In this particular body, with these particular genetics, anyways.

In fact, I might just remind him he's not a pregnant young girl in a concentration camp facility.

I'm not going to act like I like male-centered art just to please a man while he's entitled to act like he's never listening to my stories and he's never acting like he likes the kind of art and music that I like.

Sound Bath

"7 Sacral Chakras Sound Bath | Reproductive System"

@HealingChakraVibrations

https://youtube.com/watch?v=0jMkeNULajE&si=6rluitIchdBV33fR

This life...

When I was in 7th grade and I had to take the bus to the junior high and it would no longer come to my house so I had to walk a mile to the bus stop and there was an older young man who was already in high school and I was terrified of him and never wanted to encounter him during that mile long walk to the bus stop, but one day I did encounter him and as I was walking quickly he said nothing for several minutes but then he turned to me and said, "You best start running if you want to make it," meaning that I needed to start running if I wanted to catch the school bus.

There's a lot to heal...

There's still a storyline in the background like thinking about the duchess dying in child of birth and the mysterious fires happening. It's because feminine energy wasn't respected and was misused it's because there was channeling going on. Young girls getting married off to much older men and being chastised for actually putting down some boundaries. That was also very disrespectful.

Peaceful šŸŽ¶

 "288Hz Reproductive System Healing Sound Bath"

Healing Vibrations 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=xBYynaLxOyo&si=N2dqfdk6XuZ1KuZL

I'm going to find some sound healing music for this morning.

I feel triggered by what's happening to some people on account of who's running things in this country, and I can't seem to just shut it off like other people do. 

I feel traumatized by seeing somebody work 7 days a week as a result of being handed a set of adverse circumstances.

I feel like it's hard to relax completely, and this impacts my health.

The above three things do not make me feel like I am very patient when it comes to the self-centered white people right now.

I feel like I have to say say goodbye to some old ways and I'm feeling physically under the weather.

I'm transitioning into a different way of life and I'm going to learn to take better care of myself. It's really scary because part of me is in the same mindset / survival mode that became my reality in the past. But I'm getting to a point where I have to learn how to save myself.

Tuesday, September 22, 2026

Adventures in helpful healing foods.

 

"Did you know about this?"

ruby.vitality

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdjBtGFKzHQ/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"10 foods high in inositol"

sweethartsarah

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Da3pmLzyd2S/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Sweet potato + milk"

andreas.remedios

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc_xq2PsMm5/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


Feeling hopeful about positive changes!

 


"Took the words right out my brain"

nicolethemom

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdVGMZvu9Ji/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"It's a witchcraft when women do it but holy when a man..."

maydaypartyof5

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdkjSEttqIB/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Someone dropped me in on the feral sewing crowd"

erynmccee

https://www.threads.com/share/BAXAOz5Tne/

What if your highest act of service is to bother people?

And to sabotage the creation of more future patriarchal cult leaders of America. What if that's the highest act of service that you have to offer???


"Hi, I'm Hanne"

hanne_engan

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddml3lwSWbx/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Would grandma make the same choices"

frankie_aab

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddm4g_Ovq72/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Even the dog thinks it's crazy."

clubpluslife

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdmiyEoynRN/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


It's just a questions exercise.

Are you averagely self-absorbed in a relatively acceptable 21st century way that makes it feel like being prejudiced against certain types of people is completely normal in your chosen community?

If they don't want to, they don't want to.

Even though we're no longer in witch burning times, fascism has taught me how futile it is to expect people to change or care about others any quicker than they want to care about others. And not caring seems to work out as a survival strategy for them. Better for some people than for others.

It seems to be a fine line.

Seems to be a fine line between people are actually interested in growing and helping others and healing and creating new things versus oh, they're just doing the old ways of promoting / protecting themselves and they don't really care about others again.

Oh good, some playfulness!

 

"Touching grass isn't enough"

pekko.the.stoic

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdBbb_DTnbx/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Wouldn't that be enlightening?

What if my side of the multifaceted self that's able to experience more "fun" could interact with the multifaceted selves of others who seem like they already know how to have more "fun" (and put themselves first), but they also know that they want to, maybe, you know, grow and not stay in the Dark Ages?

Humans have free will.

I don't agree with some people's survival strategies, and I really wish they had made some different choices sometimes. But life goes on, doesn't it?

Maybe this is a soul's growth thing.

Why does it seem smarter to suffer sometimes?

I think some people are going to have to grow up.

Because there are children inside of detention centers right now. For no good reasons. And that's not a good use of their tax dollars. At all.


"There are children inside the Dilley Detention Center right now."

fridaloreyn

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdkYIYwPaBX/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Good, get out of the dark ages of medicine.

"UK doctors develop non-invasive test for womb cancer"

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2026/sep/22/uk-doctors-simple-test-detect-womb-cancer-women-bleeding-menopause

Good, get out of the dark ages of medicine and make them do this in the U.S. too.

I have to go hug a tree but I have to do it in my mind.

Surely if I went away for 500 years and came back the trees would be respected and venerated!

Stress, poverty, sexism, exhaustion.

Enough enough enough enough. 

Exhaustingly violent capitalistic patriarchal culture blah.

Blah blah blah blah.

Never again never again. Never again. Never again.

Sometimes I feel like I inherited some weird genetics that are like the crying genetics.

At the moment, they think I need to lie down, not perform or do anything.

"How Can I Cry [Official Video]" Moira Smiley & VOCO

https://youtube.com/watch?v=TDto1EssPAY&si=eb12Yh3hhQtBPpEt

It must be rest time for the PCOS perimenopausal body.

I'm exhausted. After I finish doing laundry, I'm done today. I have that "I never want to do this life over again ever again" feeling. Enough.

It's kind of fun to learn about what used to be normal and is now considered a novelty!

FOR NEARLY 200 YEARS 

"The remarkable tale of the bathing machine" | Country Life

https://www.countrylife.co.uk/out-and-about/the-remarkable-tale-of-the-bathing-machine-258941

"Inside a Victorian Bathing Machine"

https://www.mimimatthews.com/2019/07/16/inside-a-victorian-bathing-machine/

"Victorian Prudes and their Bizarre Beachside Bathing Machines"

https://www.messynessychic.com/2014/04/15/victorian-prudes-beachside-bathing-machines/

This is my reading on a break from cleaning up some monster dust bunnies, among other things.

"This is why intersex people need to be included..."

afrobrasicua

https://www.threads.com/share/BAW3ZuCIAd/

I'm going to get some refreshment while the sheets air out some more.

šŸ“ø✨

cereen_kayikcii

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdYphNkuJY2/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"The oldest woman to ever live..."

daughterofwater_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbOSY7MAPB8/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"YOU WHITE PURITAN..."

mamatraywilbon

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdlEolsS5Np/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Oh the mystery of house cleaning!

"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers..."

https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-2022-ep-2-pt-3/

After watching the most disturbing (geez, I guess we have made some decent advances in the field of medicine in last few centuries after all) and also somewhat touching episode of "Diane de Poitiers," I cleaned a thick thick layer of dust off of the ceiling fan. And some of the dust fell on the bed. Next, I discovered that when you store the sheets on shelves they smell much better and than when you store them in an enclosed plastic container. So now they're airing out and they've been spritzed with lavender spray. And I have to go look up how to make a lavender sachet. Isn't it great to take a break?

Lady Jane Gray and Diane de Poitiers were alive at the same time.

Ladies, I've been asked to look at:


Christine de Pizan

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christine_de_Pizan


Beatrice d'Este

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beatrice_d'Este


Diane de Poitiers 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diane_de_Poitiers


Lady Jane Grey - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lady_Jane_Grey


Isabella Clara Eugenia 

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Isabella_Clara_Eugenia


Elisabetta Sirani

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Elisabetta_Sirani


And how does that make you feel?

"Society is still really bad at acknowledging your kind exists, even though we have supposedly advanced far beyond ye olden witch burning and childbearing slaves times."

Sigh.

I'm excited to be lying underneath the heating pads and tending to my latest recreational activity.

Hey! It's that actress from "My Brilliant Friend." 

"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers (2022), Ep. 2, Pt. 1" – Frock Flicks

https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-2022-ep-2-pt-1/

She plays the character of the wife in the most recent episodes of "Child-Bearing Slaves in Ye Olden Witch Burning Times."

"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers"

https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-2022-ep-2-pt-2/

This is TOO ad-van-ced for me at this time and that is FINE.

"Careless Whisper (Easy Ukulele)"

@Dan-Sam

https://youtube.com/watch?v=WryGZ6_kPcE&si=3xWIAviT7Qm63arb

I could tell this kind of thing was coming on yesterday.

This morning, I need to put heating pads and a castor oil pack on top of the womb area and process some angry feelings about why so many people in this patriarchal society have been trained to be such insensitive assholes to women who have particular kinds of feminine health issues. Arrrrrgh! Charge! Okay, tranquilosate. You are helping your body out with your alternative healing remedy. Don't let the assholes distract you right now. You can help your uterus instead of getting distracted by assholes. Make helping and healing yourself more important than getting angry at the ignorant. You can do this. Besides witch, if you don't, the pain's going to flare up so badly you'll have no choice but to just focus on your own healing anyway. Peace be upon the body, the castor oil pack and the two heating pads, one on top of the other.


Monday, September 21, 2026

Now I have to listen to this masterpiece and clean the kitchen!

"To Venus and Back turns 27"

intimesoftori

https://www.instagram.com/p/DdjX3vhDBNY/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Happy Birthday, Oasis Guy. 

Tori Amos - "Don't Look Back in Anger (Oasis Cover)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=osArZ-zCJdg&si=Aw4k60CvN52AhNNI

Too many drinks, too many drinks

X: Help me finish my drinks.

Y: You got two? Why???

X: Because coffee shop A and coffee shop B only give their free drinks out on one day, and this year I decided to get both of them!

Y: Let's watch it.

"Too Many Cooks | Adult Swim"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=QrGrOK8oZG8&si=y_Abu3oxY0_t88oB

Too many cooks

X: Wow it's eleven years old now.

"Too Many Cooks | Adult Swim"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=QrGrOK8oZG8&si=y_Abu3oxY0_t88oB

Too many cooks

X: I do get this song in my head at least once a month.

"Too Many Cooks | Adult Swim"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=QrGrOK8oZG8&si=y_Abu3oxY0_t88oB

Too many cooks

X: I feel like this was made by people who work on TV shows, and sometimes it gets to be too much pressure, and stuff gets mangled their my head, and they made this to show what that's like. 

Y: Maybe.

"Cool Dad | adult swim Infomercials"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=fLGYzOH4be8&si=T34Cx0J_bnHwg-_D

X: Hahaha, that was worth it!

šŸŽ¶šŸ™šŸ»☕šŸ˜ŗšŸ’ž

"Mr. Smith Lyrics" — The Kilans | Dork

 https://readdork.com/lyrics/the-kilans-mr-smith

Friendship is beautiful!

Admiring some male friendship couples in a coffee shop that otherwise has solitary women in it. That's just how it happens to be.

There's two younger men who are friends in one corner. And two older men who are friends in another. They're just good at talking to each other. As a bonus, they are all from different ethnic backgrounds, too. 😹

Aaaaaa, zo ad-van-ced...šŸŽ¶

 "Angie (Easy Ukulele)"

@Dan-Sam

https://youtube.com/watch?v=HHwXZVBN5z4&si=c9OMcJQMijgemdcK

Colonel of wisdom

You should take yourself out on the day you want to take yourself out and don't wait for a special occasion like your birthday because on your birthday you might not even want to go out and then you'll be pleased you get to stay in and you'll be happy that you went out on the day you wanted to. 

I went out for a mile walk after drinking  coconut water and then I had breakfast out and there were lots of leftovers and then I had some second breakfast and maybe later on I'll have a late third breakfast.

Sunday, September 20, 2026

Let's see what happens!

I decided I do think it's entirely possible to have more fun and become more successful in the future and I have been conversing with one who is very suspicious of scams, so wouldn't it be fun to create more nice surprises for someone who's been hardworking and was not always so rewarded or well treated as others were, in my opinion?


Somehow, I ended up at a swap meet.

Anyways, these things take time sometimes.

I'll listen to my '40s music and notice that I just saw an older guy running up the road with a giant, giant American flag, and I must reiterate that it wasn't a little one, either. He's feeling patriotic today.

And what is wrong with you patriarchal people?

You didn't even try to tell me I should love myself more. You just tried to tell me I should love the idea of being a mother more, and of being, like, a servant to the patriarchy more. What is wrong with you?

Sharing a zany thought to break out of the not so liberating thinking.

What if, when I gained more weight this year on account of PCOS and perimenopause, it's actually because I'm supposed to feel kind of more in love with the idea of being in a state of pregnancy, but not for the purpose of producing a child, but just as a part of the experience of loving living in a female body in this lifetime on Earth? And the idea of being pregnant with possibilities in this body can happen in  a way that could be connected with multiple things? And can have multiple meanings? And to not having to fit myself into a certain shape or box or mold to satisfy a more rigid way of thinking?

This is kinda scary. 

I'll just contemplate this notion for a little while.

What's that? Oh nothing.

"You've got to give us some more time; we're a little slow on Earth sometimes!"

"So close, yet so far away."

That's today. "So close, yet so far away."

Life is just too violent in this country lately, and no concert or basketball game will fix it.

 

"America's biggest gang. Coming to a town near you."

4kstreetz

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfyKYZTPQD/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I just feel like I have to watch this one before I go shopping.

"Our nightmare is over but the fight is far from finished."

hannahsilveira24

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU_H6LUDe4t/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

They sound less bad than some places and far worse than others.

" The saddest thing was to see all of the children lined up on family day"

"If there is anything people want to know..."

hannahsilveira24

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdgtkfltnYf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

People's definition of what "nice" means seems to vary.

I think it would be nice (and feminist) if they changed the school curriculum to talk about the history of the witch hunts more, because then, maybe there'd be less of the witch hunting feelings going on right now.

Yes, it should be reframed as self-interest.

"Why Bother Being Good? A Philosophical Exploration"

https://www.thecollector.com/moral-philosophy-why-bother-being-good/

She's so cute and furry!

Meanwhile, my cat still seems to love me and acts like she thinks I'm a really nice person.

I wonder if stuff like this is why part of me just doesn't feel like being a nice person sometimes?

I wonder if that is what's going on sometimes.

"Disabled people, particularly those with chronic health conditions, are the demographic dying MOST in ICE custody."

detentionwatch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdR0lVrMX8-/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I'll watch this before I watch the second episode of the show that was originally called Diane de Poitier s.

"The Psychological Trick That Keeps you Obedient"

@barryseconomics

https://youtube.com/shorts/X2ChzBFmnJY?si=aXw-TI-sP-6QeANf

"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers, Ep. 1, Pt. 2" – Frock Flicks

https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-ep-1-pt-2/

"What Poverty Does To The Brain?" - Barry's Economics

https://youtube.com/shorts/QuQj49ay1yg?si=kvtep0NW9JFlhWID

Oh, say it isn't so!

You do realize that the only way to get through to some people is to have access to a shitload of money. You do know that, right?

So entitled, just because of some money! They'd never do this if they weren't getting paid.

"This video shows ICE agents entering a bedroom while a mother stands there holding her baby."

thelaboystandard

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfJcsDxKH4/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==