Monday, March 23, 2026

I'm waiting for some other purchases to come in the mail.

"I feel eleven turkeys..."

tetyanawrites

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWG2XKrOmkW/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Why do we let men talk"

Mor

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTke3f7dX/

Frosting the Clown Makeup 

Taylor Swift - "Lavender Haze (Official Lyric Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=mkR_Qwix4Ho&si=p3WoOXKPhlhSry-I

I love this! It has 53k views now and it was posted 12 years ago.

 Y Kant Tori Read - "Floating City (Music Video)"

@davidslostandfoundmusic

https://youtube.com/watch?v=dk4kE7ZMMhU&si=EumDqSa-FmOhtuhC

Relax...she has charisma.

She has 618.4k views on this video! She just posted it yesterday.

" I work in agriculture "

Obduliah Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkev3j1p/

TIL 🙆🏽‍♀️

 


"1970s Young Women Reveal What They Were Taught..."

David Hoffman

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Q8YxFTUfmSk&si=yuKitOeJHuQVwbgu



Starting cars used to be really difficult and dangerous.

https://youtube.com/@davidhoffmanfilmmaker?si=EQNjmXCK5YO5XqpN

Stage fright; that happens.

"Beautiful Girls" - SNL

https://youtube.com/watch?v=dWDAsjyPLiw&si=YBRhs-yBvjmG87pW

I shall accomplish tasks today.

I have to clean my desk and turn chewed up clothes into rags today.

Oh, this is new?

Jude Smokes - "Sometimes I Doubt Your Commitment To Sparkle Motion"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=4OjBXokqcuk&si=xtXUVcbNqIfzswgv

Girls gotta sail some ships for themselves sometimes. 🛸

For some reason I'm also imagining girls in a "Sparkle Motion!" type of dance troupe doing the macarena.

"#1 Crush (Nellee Hooper Mix)"

Garbage

https://youtube.com/watch?v=EDDoiWmFu08&si=aTmyi-WI5ad7a80B

It's certainly worth remembering that some fraternity brothers are so much better than others.

"COPS in the U-District"

@GeorgeBuford

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Yu3mqsuo3hw&si=7OUixbG-FdfWzoW3

Kind of cool how lots of music has gotten much more accessible, though.

Maybe some of the stuff you can access came from the aliens.

Garbage - "Push It"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Pmd3UiNfNkA&si=5hCy4fIxB0vI4C_-

Might be easier if they brought that 🎶 fair back.

What about attending a Lilith ceremony? That might even seem stranger to some people than a cacao ceremony, but who knows. 

Do you want to play basketball in this life?

Can you fit in with all the other people (parents! coaches! deans! administrators!) who make excuses for sexual predators in order to stay on the team?

Shouldn't you make the most of it?

Otherwise, what's the point of a life that includes experiencing a somewhat strange and challenging upbringing?

Anyways, there's been disappointments and setbacks sometimes.

Shall we ever hang out with the half brother?Apparently not. Sigh. 

Hey, why don't you tell your family we went to a cacao ceremony? I'm not sure they'd know what that was about. 

Sometimes I feel like I live with a neglected child. Maybe that's because the system was designed to make it so that people either become more superficial and compliant enough fit in with what the culture wants, or if they can't do that, then they become like the outsiders. The weird ones. They just quietly slipped through the cracks and nobody noticed. 

Maybe I should be the one that notices, though.

And the weird ones don't expect anyone to actually care about them, so they stop trying to engage.  But I could try to engage them anyway.

Also, speaking of weird, I think it's weird to have such a huge family and nobody is...I mean everybody is still so super heterosexual. Because nowadays, lots of families have people who aren't strictly heterosexual in them. This is the 2020s. 

Frankly, I think it's kind of fake. I mean, if it's not fake, then it seems like maybe it's a genuinely chosen experience, but one that's been pre-selected because the culture wanted people to choose that particular form of self-expression. It's like a groupthink cult heterosexual mentality, or that is what it feels like sometimes.

Also, I will never be able to trust people who always have to pretend that sexual predators are fine for children to be around in order to fit in with what the "regular" culture wants and expects from them.

I know that's a very dangerous way of thinking, and I know that children really do get harmed when people are in denial about certain types of behaviors being bad for them.

What a phenomenal singer!! XX percent as talented as what's - his - name?

Garbage - "Stupid Girl"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=2GhPUAVgHZc&si=rW8IzWKzLaLSDAUO

Sigh.⚕️

If only more people had been talking about this sort of thing sooner...


"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

Seeing the strong effects the Grizzled Old-Fashioned Grandpas have had upon you...

I'm not even sure how you managed to get pregnant and birth any babies into a world that wants to give them worsening and worsening healthcare as they age into the fine wine of real adulthood. It's f***** up, man.

Don't put Grizzled Old-Fashioned Grandpa in charge.

Grizzled Old-Fashioned Grandpa's ability to take care of his own health is already, like, super subpar. So he's clearly not going to be looking out at all for the people whose bodies are super different from his.

I swear to God.

If some people grow up to also be the kinds of jerks who expect girls and women to act like they're fine and satisfied with being treated like they are worth 30% of what a man is worth...Oh my God. 

That's cool if the patriarchal chicks didn't really want to help you out in your time of MEDICAL need.

They were suffering A LOT from a LIFETIME of squeezing themselves into the "worth 30% of what a MAN is worth" box. It's just a thought. It's just a passing thought. It's just a thought that passed by. And I plucked it and put it into my little typing box and typed it. Because it feels like the f****** truth, that's why!

How does it feel to be a 30% of a man type of person?

AHEM. This RVUs stuff has REALLY got to change.

"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

7.5 times 4 =

Rest in peace, grizzled grandfathers.

Were you talking about how to get the men more interested in taking care of their psoas muscles? 

Oh? 

Why not?

"New Girlfriend" - SNL

https://youtube.com/watch?v=0EqINqnEa-Y&si=5jZhe1sJONJXd7zf

I don't know. It just came to me. Maybe it means something.

Ah, 🎶 compositions!

"Arianna" Paul Schwartz, Aria

https://youtube.com/watch?v=QML3JF1XSTg&si=VA5ZPB3ki9tGFD_5

This video has a sexy witch! How old was the witch?

Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers - "Into The Great Wide Open"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=xqmFxgEGKH0&si=tzX1z_fUjNUYvweF

My kind of song, sometimes! 🙏🏼💗💆🏽‍♀️

Flume - "Sleepless feat. Jezzabell Doran (Official)"

@futureclassic

https://youtube.com/watch?v=aAEQt7wq44w&si=lF_k8-gO4LsbcYhH

Oops, that's the version with the skinny people in it. Oh well, I guess I'll just leave it. Hope she's cool with guys that like to go out for super early morning runs creeping into her bedroom like that.

People are just so filled with preconceived notions of what they expect to happen, huh?

People are really bizarre. Like when people found out little girls kissed one another and they got very disturbed about it and made sure that we all wanted to have boyfriends when we got older. We didn't like boys back then, but they really made  sure that we knew we were all going to have boyfriends when we grew up, and I realized when I got older that they wanted to make sure we weren't going to grow up to become lesbians. I hate these people right now. At the same time I sort of let it go. I don't actually hate them forever. I just hated them for a second, for a little bit. Just cuz I was sleepy and like, these people were raised by Patriarchal Culture to be very dumb. So it just felt that way for a second.

We are like parents of a cat.

I woke up because I was thirsty and I walked out and I didn't see the cat sleeping by the other cat parent on the futon. So I said, do you know where the cat is, and he got up and we were both looking, and we didn't have to look long because she was sleeping on the third best place to sleep, which is a fold-out in the study and she looked like little cat angel who was happy to be there when we checked on her and we smiled.

Sunday, March 22, 2026

I can hear the freeway outside and maybe I will someday look back on it as an evocative memory.

So if there is a word for sad but also interesting in a way that's arresting, it would apply to some  memories I have of when I lived in a house of all male roommates in Virginia, and I had a roommate with a Greek last name who said he was an orphan (because his parents passed away) who dated men and our rooms were right next to each other, and I know one of his dates didn't treat him well and it made him cry and made me feel very depressed, too, and there was just this heavy cloud hanging over the household, at least in that part of the house, but we never spoke of it and one day when the cloud was particularly feeling heavy, he just screamed a****** really loudly, and then it seemed like the heavy cloud feeling started to lift. And this was also when I used to have interesting sonic experiences listening to the band music coming from the high school for gifted and talented students, and their band was actually really good. But also when I was living in that house, I remember there was this one time at night when I felt like somebody I knew was with me, but it was just like their spirit was visiting me there, and I was like, I don't know who this is, but it's somebody I know. So I felt like I needed to remember it because I felt like it was important.

Anyways, sometimes it's the little luxuries in life.

Maybe nature is just in charge of everything. Today I felt like if I opened the not very expensive at all body butter with warm vanilla orchid scent and stared at it after smearing it onto my hands, it kind of reminded me of the frosting on a cupcake. Now I'm bored, so I'm going to put my cupcake frosting lotion on my hands again.

Things the cat doesn't need to think about, but anyways...

What's actually cool about exercising more is not that it will make you look different right away, but when you get used to more movement, you start looking forward to it more, and then you're thinking about that and feeling better, regardless of how much you were taught to judge yourself based on external appearances.

Cat has a simpler life. Human lives are more complicated.

 Pray for the creative people!


"Oh my gosh! Kitty!"

Author Yvette Blake

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkJnrpLo/

&

"Luke's Dream"

Author Yvette Blake

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkeMuHEM/

I really do think they should have something like that again.

They should have another Lilith Fair.

Could be worse. Could be better.

Today's special, intoxicating challenges will be different from tomorrow's special, intoxicating challenges.

I think the Patriarchal Society has had a worse effect on some types of health and communication dynamics.

Sometimes there are mild disappointments in  communication, like trying to figure out how to  help a person with chronic pain, but they're not that curious about it. I get curious and want to know if it's the psoas muscle (asking about where it hurts and pointing to a page in an anatomy book) but the person suffering is willing to get into it just a little, but mostly is not interested and just thinks it's simpler to rest it more and not think about it too much. It's not like it's too hard to deal with, but mild disappointments can be kinda sad. It kinda reminds me of how some Grandpa's were raised to deal with their pain, though.

I want to go to this part of the world again one of these days.

I haven't seen what this theater is like yet. 🎭

"The Great American Melodrama and Vaudeville Theater in Oceano"

https://yelp.to/y8dJW7Y1dW

It's an interesting area...

"Pitkin-Conrow House" - Weird California

https://www.weirdca.com/location.php?location=85

Whew.

I actually feel like there's a current of energy that's familiar to me that's almost, like, a fear of getting famous. I even think a guy I love and like but who also annoys me deeply when he's addicted to his phone during mealtimes ("Here's  to you, Mrs. Robinson..." got in my head recently) might be famous one day. And he doesn't expect that at all. But he would like to be a creative storyteller. Sometimes strangers tell him he looks like an artist. Usually women. It's happened over and over again, but not everyday, but enough that I noticed. And I say, you should listen to them!

Admiration 💗

"Julia Jacklin is examining the desire to be understood"

https://crackmagazine.net/article/profiles/julia-jacklin/

Julia Jacklin - "Less Of A Stranger (Official Audio)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=891YJ_ES9C8&si=5PXU6xH8Fj9Ixvmo

The category is limerence healing music...

Daphne Willis - "Dark Water" 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=QkXqIVuymbI&si=hfJLi3luFcCSM6TV

Cayucas - "High School Lover"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Io8PqddrRIs&si=oJucoeihdye9hbZc

Julia Jacklin - "Head Alone (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=0Z3IJT3Ke0Y&si=J_Cm6rg1ongxTaTa

Hopefully, a stranger finds this amusing?

Cuz I accidentally sent it to them.

"Oh my gosh! Kitty!"

Author Yvette Blake

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkJnrpLo/

Patterns...

 She notices them, again.


"#genx #manosphere #women"

Rhonda🇺🇸 🆘

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkJt9nya/

Good creative work; people will pay money.

Cut Chemist - "The Garden Live with the Seattle Symphony"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=3S-aVCbiA-s&si=R8R1u3BGLDhK1RI4

I decided to order a good book.

"Your Illustrated Guide To Becoming One With The Universe by Yumi Sakugawa"| Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/22524237-your-illustrated-guide-to-becoming-one-with-the-universe

I really liked what I saw of it. I wanted to look at more of it. So I think it will be good to own, and then I can look inside of it on multiple occasions! 

I also looked at the author's website and online presence and noticed she has cartoons about the scourge of "limerence." It was probably useful to look at those. It was probably really helpful. 

To be honest, I felt a wee bit defensive. I think there's times when people get overly hung up about flawed things. Like, you ate too much dessert and now you're going to beat yourself up about it over and over again. Is that really necessary? I mean it depends on how much limerence has taken hold of your life. 

If limerence has only been sort of happening a little bit here and there, maybe it just wants to be patted on the head and you can be like. Oh okay. Limerence happened. Hello limericks my old friend. Limericks could be the cousin of limerence and nobody's making a big deal about the scourge of limericks. In fact, they celebrate them. 

I think women get guilt-tripped into feeling really ashamed if they had some limerence in their lives; like it's so adolescent that they were limerencing again. Why don't you just go read a romance novel instead of being unevolved and limerency? Well, I guess I just wonder if maybe limerence is not as evil as people think it is. That's all I'm saying. But it's probably not something you should allow to rule your life. 

I will say that if you have a little bit of limerence going on and then you take a hard Pilates class, the limerence is kind of gone after that. And I'm not so sure I need to take hard Pilates classes. What if I just needed to take some kind of challenging Pilates classes to get back in the swing of things, and then I can start watching Pilates videos. And Yoga videos. Because when you get out of the habit of exercise, you're not super confident about performing certain moves. But later, it's like, when you say thread the needle, now I can just do it instead of getting overly hassled by anxiety. (Limerick smiles because anxiety is a whole other huge problem that needs attention.)

Yeah, so I think when guys guys get sucked into limerence, people tend to be more like "oh isn't that poetic and romantic and creative" and then when women get sucked into limericks it's like "now you're low self-esteeming. You need to fix yourself again. There's so many things you need to fix." Fix! Fix! Fix! Good! We like working on projects!

Here's a test. Would you rather have limerence or a good meal? Like when it comes right down to it, which would you rather have. 

I think I would take the good meal.

Guys that indulge in limerence win prizes for their books. What do women get. ($ulk$)

Actually I feel like Taylor Swift has had a bit of limerence in her life, and she is certainly successful. What about anyone else's creative work tinged with anything that's either romantic or limerency? 

What about this song? I think this is good. 

beabadoobee - "All I Did Was Dream Of You (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qV91x2YT9zI&si=OB2mfV7op189Jn68

Anyways. There are more thoughts out there about the topic.

"More musings on limerence..."

yumisakugawa

https://www.instagram.com/p/DV-CCSyFPi4/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Saturday, March 21, 2026

Headspace after a good soundbath:💆🏻‍♀️

There are old sacred traditions to be honored, and there are also new ones to be created.

More peaceful transitions...🎶

I was really grateful to enjoy the sounds of lots of kinds of indigenous instruments tonight at a soundbath. The more I can choose those kinds of experiences, the better, on multiple levels.

Mathing.

X: 

I want to know roughly what percent 7.5 is of 25.2. So let's DO 25 TIMES 4, THAT IS 100. 7.5 TIMES 4 IS... So women are worth about 30% of what men are worth.

Y:

SOUNDS ABOUT RIGHT.

X:

AUUUUGH!

Probably almost none of them do, at the moment...

I wonder how many of the sex education classes in the public schools are teaching kids about the RVUs thing? That if you're a doctor, you're financially incentivized to care more about men's bodies than about women's bodies?

Hahaha...How soon do you think soon is?

Pretty soon, they're probably going to have courses focused on lesbian literature in the public schools. They could start with Sappho's poetry first, but then, there will be so much more...

The Rolling Stones seemed like they did pretty much always get whatever they wanted, but anyways...

The Rolling Stones - "You Can’t Always Get What You Want"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8&si=i4BW5WazLTnsv3D-

What is wrong with people? Did they not receive any ethical guidance in their growing up years?

Maybe they were warped by the Patriarchal Schools and Churches and Stories. Maybe they were missing Lilith.

Perhaps it's time to start thinking of your life as a big creative project.

"As Young has argued: 'Medicine defines the female and male bodies as distinct but not equal; analyses of medical texts throughout history reveals the male body to be constructed as superior and the template against which bodies are judged. Any aspect of the female body that differs from the male or that cannot be given a male comparative (exemplified by the uterus) is viewed as evidence of deviation or 'fault'.

'Because women can bear children, medical discourse associated women with the body and men with the mind, a binary division that reinforces and is reinforced by the public-private division ... In addition to restricting women’s public contribution, such beliefs provide medicine with an explanatory model of disease and illness in women: to deny one’s ‘biological destiny’ is to incite all manner of diseases, as Plato stated when theorising the wandering womb.'

We see this in many predominantly female conditions: women with endometriosis are told that delayed childbearing causes the illness, or that pregnancy will cure it; women with breast cancer were once fed this line until advances in research (which only occurred because women campaigned for better knowledge and treatments) proved otherwise."

~ Gabrielle Jackson

"The female problem: how male bias in medical trials ruined women's health" | Women | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2019/nov/13/the-female-problem-male-bias-in-medical-trials

I'm very curious about an upcoming documentary.

This article is old, 15 years old.

"The Natural Thoreau" - The Gay & Lesbian Review

https://glreview.org/article/the-natural-thoreau/

So parents, if you have the kinds of twins who are different sexes...

Have you informed Sister of her medical status? Does Brother know about it?

I guess it was because of the RVUs.

No wonder that urologist only had pictures of the male anatomy plastered all over his wall.

I'm thinking about this one again. It's like an obsession.

Arrrrrgh!

"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

Pssst, didja hear about the RVUs?

You know what? When I was a kid, I remember when most people did not come out as gay in a school setting. And if anyone suspected you were, you were going to be the target of much teasing and bullying. So people just stayed in the closet. But then in the '90s things started to change. As a young adult, I went back to high school and the teachers was saying, things are getting weird. Kids are starting to actually come out and say they're gay now! Well one of these days people are going to be like, yeah my significant other said I could run off and have a love child with a crazy artist if I wanted to, so you know we hit that stage in our evolution. Because one of us is a lot more straight than the other. And the dynamic is weird. Like for example, don't you think it would be romantic if you were a more bisexual person who knew that another bisexual person could still find you appealing if you were in either a man's or a woman's body? Isn't that a romantic idea? What about feminine energy in all the kinds of bodies? Why does it always have to be limited in the female biological body? Also this RVUs thing is going to never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever be okay!

They (male musicians) died, and they all might be girls now.

They all might be girls now. 😂

Watching this at 1.5x speed...

I like speeding it up a little. Didn't know all that about Robert Palmer.

"The Drunk Models Behind the Most Iconic Video"

guitarmeetsscience

https://youtu.be/ttCBiCMEwQM?si=gapgvENzS8H8w0Vu

Sometimes this makes me think of the activities of small warehouse workers.

Bonobo - "Cirrus (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=WF34N4gJAKE&si=3hIeel7LZofMPvj1

Like the warehouse workers below the Frank family, for example. And they were working with pectin and spices and things. 

That sounds more interesting than boxing and wrapping the same tie for the Smithsonian gift catalog for hours and hours and hours.

I think people who work in warehouses should just wrap one thing for one hour or so, and then switch to another thing for another hour or so, and then they can wrap five or six or seven or eight different kinds of things in a work day.

That could almost be like a meditation practice, in a way.

I need a nap.

 "Ave Maria" - Paul Schwartz

https://youtube.com/watch?v=xS_Nq_dBdLo&si=oy0XEJSaxaV1FnuV

Well, it's all a matter of perspective.

I mean, who knows. Maybe for some people, things will be improving!

Mean things will be happening.

Some guys really need to quit with your obsessed with girls being skinny bullshit. Anyways, some women need to quit in believing that stuff, too, even though there's clearly been very blatant, physical, real world shaming and punishing experiences that have been keeping that nonsense going.

Okay I'm different now.

Hard. Exercise. Is. Hard. I'm going to rest.

And maybe read Holocaust literature. 

And order sesame oil to balance all the interesting feminine aspects of a special time of a special life.

Maybe I'll survive if things get worse in a year.

Who knows.

Oh yeah, and remember your balancing cortisol levels stuff. Is important too.

I hope she didn't die!

Women pulling down shower curtains reminds me of scary stories about Toxic Shock Syndrome.

"The humble housewife's body was found; it appeared she had pulled down the shower curtain, and then she died, because she wore a tampon..."

Oh well, this is the sad side of reproductive freedom, I guess. That's why we have to stamp it out.

Johnny Hates Jazz - "Shattered Dreams (Official Music)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ctwqa3QCwMw&si=M7UOQa919EwEUCPW

Don't think about the RVUs! You give them the power.

Since yesterday, I am now in possession of a kinda sparkly Tom Petty t-shirt which was like $3 or $4 at the thrift store. 

Well, but he is a misogynist.

"Why do we..."

herfirst100k

financialfeministpodcast

https://www.instagram.com/reel/CkvmIo2jGoF/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Internal Voice: "You know, Dave Ramsay wouldn't like it if he knew you spent money on yoga and extra things instead of paying off those medical bills right away."

"The best one in the whole apartment."

Naming a cat Eve then calling her Cat more than you call her Eve. 

"Maybe my real name is Lilith."

Lots of women and lots of men were affected by the deficit of Lilith Studies in recent decades.

It's just an idea that seems interesting to consider right now.

"Watch the energy in the room shift"

Matt

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTk1KDGPn/

"Learn to spot propaganda"

Ellen

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTk1ydSkc/

That's why relationships are different.

A person who has to go through lots of phases hanging out with a person who is more steady and simple is one thing. 

And a person who has to go through lots of phases hanging out with another person who has to go through lots of phases is another thing.

Cycles are filled with phases.

Some people have a lot of phases to go through in one life. Others, not so much, I suppose.

Think I want to try a circle dance kind of activity again one day.

I enjoyed some "Dances of Universal Peace" when I was living in Virginia...

https://dupna.org/

"Welcome to Dances of Universal Peace International"

https://dancesofuniversalpeace.org/

I wonder why the two websites are so different.


Similar different different similar...

I think when people have led very different lives, it's very interesting to consider what kinds of things they might be able to learn in the future about what those different kinds of life experiences were like.

Since I like "extra" things lately...

Also, sometimes I buy my own "extra" clothes or food or drink in addition to classes which are enriching or good for my health in some way.

This is cute! A song listening party for two!

 

"🎧😂 Introducing my middle daughter to one of the WEIRDEST songs"

Trivia For Kids Podcast

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTk17Cyb8/

F U C K I N G ⚕️ RVUs

"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

Maybe some parents could have kids and/or teen literature focused book club parties.

This might sound kind of...expensive? But, what if the dads and moms of the land could go to a book club party like how I used to go to a book fair when I was a kid (because that used to be a thing when I was a kid. I don't know if that's a thing anymore, but it used to be a thing when I was a kid) and they could see laid out before them some books they haven't read yet (like the "Ever After High" books, for example?)

"Ever After High: The Storybook of Legends"

https://www.publishersweekly.com/9780316401227

And then they could pick one that stands out to them (like I might pick out a card that stands out to me from an oracle deck.) And they could talk about the cover of it or the information on the back of it and what it means to them. Mood lighting could help them relax and feel safe to share what comes up for them. Or maybe they could flip the pages and just let it fall open to a passage and read it aloud. And then talk about how they feel about what they just read. That's kind of fun to do, sometimes, too.

Either stop, or start programming them when they're young!

Sabrina Carpenter - "Espresso"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=eVli-tstM5E&si=LvwBviHfHwkeSL23

+

MorganStJean - "Do It Like A Girl"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=lHPSOyQM0gQ&si=hpaPXHYGywkF2DWO

Rather Coy.

Sabrina Carpenter - "Sugar Talking"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=FTfZOoIkY6Y&si=Y8n2GfQa9JZG2inG

You had different genes in another life.

Or else, you had really really really awesome medical insurance, and money!!!!!!

Flume - "Sleepless feat. Jezzabell Doran (Official)"

@futureclassic

https://youtube.com/watch?v=aAEQt7wq44w&si=lF_k8-gO4LsbcYhH

Apparently, there are some adults who delight in reading the same books that they enjoy buying for their nieces.

"How many ever after high books are there?"

https://www.reddit.com/r/EverAfterHigh/s/0A7dFlC2S9

I thought I would fall right back asleep, but no...

 


I woke up to thank Lilith for Her Service...

What this guy shared about the RVUs cannot be unseen, and I am forever changed. Crazy...

"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

"(Song) Crazy Ex Girlfriend | The Sexy Getting Ready Song" - Rebecca

kstudio233

https://youtube.com/watch?v=AJmWuNKabtM&si=EOce0gmsU-tm9qNr

Friday, March 20, 2026

It was kind of a nice Spring Equinox, really.

I was the recipient of a spontaneous gift. It's a pendant that's a green mineral and on the other side it looks like a leaf. My friend was reading a cool book, and now I want to read it. I posed the pendant next to it.

And then she also found a really cool book at a library book sale, and I think I might want to read it, too, because wow, it's it's got some beautiful illustrations.

I have found a few second hand books that looked interesting, too.

What was Lilith Fair named after?

Who learned about Lilith growing up?

Eeeeek, street art screaming in the night.

 Or "Strange signs in the night..."

Or, "Potent signs that with great power comes great responsibility..."

Peaceful, fun.

While I was in the park with a friend, waving around bubble wands, I realized I spent a lot of 4th of July's in Michigan.

Something I like about today...

My communication skills and the communication skills of others, too. 😊 

Anyways, my breakfast was good. 🥚

It was one egg and some spinach in butter and I messed up the texture a bit because I think I wanted a fried egg with yolks that ran, but it sort of turned into a scramble without any milk added.

What do you think? Baby?

I think people who got babied might be good at taking care of babies when they get older, maybe???

Feels like a deep question.

It could be turned around in one's mind many times, and in many ways...

And this household is different.

Just a little. Just a little peep hole into what Montessori school and Waldorf schools were like on one hand. And on the other, denied entrance into the gifted and talented program because there wasn't enough room for more than just one. That's going to perplex me forever, why two brothers couldn't go into the school's gifted and talented program if they both qualified. Who runs these education programs?

Does anyone else do it?

 I kid because I 💗? And I am politically motivated.

Feminism revives in terrible times...

"Gotta support the girlies..."

midlifetruthfairy

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTk1dFcMH/

This is a better era?

"You don't need a boyfriend"

Olgis & Milo

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTk1dFWm4/

📿 Leash-training inspo🙏

https://www.reddit.com/r/cats/s/yltmZtPpaG

This put a song in my head, so maybe another one's coming back.

Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers - "Into The Great Wife Open"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=xqmFxgEGKH0&si=wflMaCP-QBBC3PEL

"A girl in a big city"

Catherine Wilson Garry

https://open.substack.com/pub/catherinewilsongarry/p/a-girl-in-the-big-city?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android&r=1oj2u

Film I've never seen. Books I've never read.

Very interesting article, though! 😸

"I need to talk about Bella Swan" - by Catherine Wilson Garry

https://catherinewilsongarry.substack.com/p/in-need-to-talk-about-bella-swan

Is she talking about a film?

 Something that's already been made?


"Part 2 | Bella such a hoa"

Slav Sister Anya

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThoE39Qp/

Fluffy pink headband!

 

Slav Sister Anya

"👏Cat 👏review"

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThoErCju/

Immature parents who voted so poorly...

Why are they like that???

"#blackpeoplebelike"

Mystic Max

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThoK59yJ/

Pampering in times of peril.

With the way things are going with women's healthcare in this country and the criminalization of this and that and the other, maybe all women should have two escorts accompanying them to everything.

Watched this information about RVUs again and the music seemed to echo the strains of another song...

 

"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

Grover Washington Jr. - "Just the Two of Us (feat. Bill Withers)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=v8oqbWrP1QY&si=YM8_fZhXUhSPsBtp

Also, sometimes I wonder if I'm a cult buster?

I read a very nice essay online the other day which was quite good, but it failed to mention that smashing a banjo on stage is pretty ridiculous and unnecessary. As a matter of fact, has anybody else ever mentioned that? Anybody? Anybody? 

If not, beware. Be wary...

Thursday, March 19, 2026

Being online has improved my world immeasurably!!

 

#fyp #musica

AXOLOTLMUSICA

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogK6L2/

Look, let's put a twist on an upbeat tune...

"We're just here to lend some extra emotional support on account of what we've learned about RVUs."

Two caring, attentive, present people gladly accompanying one woman to a medical appointment with a smile and maybe even exuberance!

This guy wrote a wholesome song about two sides of his personality. 

Rostam - "Bike Dream" [Official Music Video]

https://youtube.com/watch?v=mv6AT9cqscE&si=EFnPq-9ywqLsLPLr

But maybe you could develop your own personality more and then assist with developing other people's personalities, too. Why not?

Do you think human personalities develop in a vacuum? 

No, of course not.




RVU values? What??? Stop the insanity

 

"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

"US doctors are paid more to treat male genitals than female—why?" | The BMJ

https://www.bmj.com/content/391/bmj.r2076


Sigh. People must improve. Quickly!

 Please...


"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

Art, poetry, writing, music, etcetra.

I've decided people can always focus on creative projects and then figure out the rest of whatever needs to get figured out in life.

This is my next task I assigned to myself.

I'm going to go out there and spray vinegar solution and herbal insect repellent under the eaves.

Or maybe just the vinegar because the herbal insect repellent is for humans and it has sweet almond oil in it and that doesn't look like it's going to deter much if it's spread under the eaves.

I have childhood issues with bees.

I made my cat come in from the yard and to my shock and dismay a bee flew in and was buzzing around the kitchen light. At 9:30 p.m. at night! 

So I asked for help with this.

X: I think there's a bee!

Y: Comes to look and then the bee drops to the ground and seems to hide.

X: It was just at the light and then you walked in and it disappeared.

Then the bee goes up to the light again 

Y: "Turn off the light. It'll go outside."

(Turns off the light and walks out of the room.)

X: "But did you see it go to the light? Did you see it go out?"

Y: "No, you have to give it time."

So now we have a dark apartment and I'm in the bedroom with the door closed and there's an open back door and the light's on outside and maybe the bee has gone outside but apparently we're not going to be able to see if it has or not.

I was drinking something with rose scent to it and I wonder if it was attracted to that.

The only other time I remember a bee coming in was when I was cooking something with honey on the stove.

Update: Now it's believed that possibly the bee could be still in the kitchen, but if so, it's dying. Nobody has seen the bee go out.

I think the first interpretation is easier on a sleepy brain.

"Why are people arguing about Sabrina Carpenter's Espresso Lyrics"

https://virginradio.co.uk/music/146708/why-are-people-arguing-about-sabrina-carpenters-espresso-lyrics-what-is-the-debate-about-the-comma-what-does-the-song-mean

~~~ Transitions ~~~

beabadoobee - "All I Did Was Dream Of You (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qV91x2YT9zI&si=OB2mfV7op189Jn68

You think anything big and newsworthy is going to happen next week?

"Salt of the Earth (movie) video clip"

shmooth

https://youtube.com/watch?v=gVmJFia8Yfg&si=AUc6x_oNhar5iTH7

"Cesar Chavez Is Why We Don't Need Any More Icons"

https://www.wonkette.com/p/cesar-chavez-is-why-we-dont-need

I guess The Lord is with The Cosmic Mother now.

The Lord is not so terribly offended by my mediocre student loan and credit card debts, I guess, according to the Cosmic Mother. It'll probably go away before I die!

Maybe I'll look it up later.

I feel like there's a scene in "Mulholland Drive" where the old people come back and are chasing somebody...

Yes, I know, there have been so many signs.

"You know the Unhealed Patriarchal Culture wanted to destroy the good brotherhood of men."

She will chase you because she is the Cosmic Mother.

Feelz like I have a sore throat coming on or something, but I think maybe it's just the air - conditioning? I have read three of these books out of the six in my version of adulthood so far.

"Novellum: A Girl Called Al by Constance C Greene"

https://ianwoodnovellum.blogspot.com/2015/03/a-girl-called-al-by-constance-c-greene.html?m=1

"It's the first of six: A Girl Called Al, I Know You, Al, Your Old Pal, Al, Al(exandra) the Great, Just Plain Al, and Al’s Blind Date." 

I'm about to find something interesting here.

"Decoding the Languages and Saints of Rosalía’s Lux"

Sophia_SmithGaler

https://youtube.com/watch?v=i8cnVTYvpl8&si=Kis8Mcqwcewtn0h7

How good do the reincarnated parents deserve to have it.

"When I was a teenager, every magazine or newspaper I read featured endless column inches dedicated to dissecting the bodies of women. You couldn't turn on your TV in the 2000s without receiving an endless cycle of reports on Britney Spears's so-called fat body or Jessica Simpson's mom jeans. Tabloids offered weeklong diets that promised to let you lose a stone in seven days. Reality TV shows like The Swan and Extreme Makeover put vulnerable women in front of cameras and had them undergo extensive plastic surgery, all of which was sold as the ultimate sign of self improvement. I will never forget Beyoncé's cayenne pepper and maple syrup cleanse that she underwent to lose a lot of weight in a short period of time for Dreamgirls, because every single newspaper talked about it with the detail and seriousness of a political election."

Kayleigh Donaldson 

https://www.pajiba.com/celebrities_are_better_than_you/hyper-skinny-bodies-are-back-and-we-should-all-be-scared-but-how-do-we-talk-about-it.php

Oh God!

 


"Multi-Million dollar goat testicles"

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVq9oAKjmcd/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Laundry... Longer lines to the restroom...

"Data Bias in a World Designed For Men"

@breakingdownpatriarchy

https://youtube.com/watch?v=WVA3GE0wJag&si=yMxA5f8bXKOT1f4_

"After a quarter-century..."

https://www.wbur.org/upnext/2026/01/01/walden-henry-david-thoreau-interpreter

“'[Laundry] was not unskilled labor. You needed specialized skills and knowledge,' Ranalli explained. 'We don't criticize him for not repairing his own shoes, but we are inclined to criticize him for not washing his own clothes. That reflects a lack of understanding on our part of what clothes washing was like 180 years ago.'

Smith learned to expect the laundry question over the years. He never really understood why people were so fixated on it. He doesn’t think it diminishes the fact Thoreau was self-sufficient and dedicated to writing.

'In my mind, if that’s what they’re focusing on, then they’re kind of losing the whole message of Walden,' Smith said."

~ Stephanie Brown and Lisa Mullins

So accessible! Found the trailer almost immediately.

"First Cow" | Official Trailer HD | A24

https://youtube.com/watch?v=SRUWVT87mt8&si=BXpXFeWBRLxO1Hdv

I should go revisit the cow movie!!!🎬


"Cows have best friends too!"

tetyanawrites

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWEQWpKJKi4/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's kind of a big deal, huh?

"Officials push to remove Cesar Chavez’s name from streets, parks and his holiday after abuse allegations"

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/cesar-chavez-day-places-name-removed-abuse-allegations-dolores-huerta-rcna264116

Color?!

"The secret to what makes colours pop on dazzling songbirds" | New Scientist

https://www.newscientist.com/article/2489534-the-secret-to-what-makes-colours-pop-on-dazzling-songbirds/

So many rich white guys. So many skinny girlfriends and wives.

Maybe if you start asking skinny women to make charitable donations to their less fortunate sisters, some of the other kinds of men will follow suit and start chipping in as well?

And his sisters did that stuff too, probably.

Much has been made about how Thoreau actually had his mom feeding him and doing his laundry while he was writing away in his little cabin.

I just feel like I have to temporarily not get a $🌲check right now. 4 Psyche.

Maybe a tax refund will be nice. ATM I still have enough saved or gifted to me for extra things (if I get a massage or take a yoga class) but I put food (most of the time) and clothes (much of the time) on a shared credit card. Ugh. Also most of the recent medical bills are also going on a credit card. That would be my own credit card, not the shared credit card. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Not entirely, though. I actually did pay for some of those out of my saved / gifted money as well. And sometimes in the past, medical bills stuff went on the shared credit card. Well, I think I will make more money in the future is all I can say. I feel like I'm doing deeper repairs right now to my psyche.

Actually, I took a nap, and now it's very funny.

Sabrina Carpenter - "Espresso"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=eVli-tstM5E&si=AXAeTVJUB_Tm1sfB

Tom Jones  -  "What's new pussycat"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=KAVpqOG-HDY&si=40tI2HYs-LjsAK4y

Imagine a house that used to welcome and cherish you.

And now it's changed hands and there's moats and draw bridges all around it.

That was far too many words, and I don't feel like editing anymore.

I think I'm going to take a nap. That sounds much better. ☺️

(7ish) (Layers of Words) Layers...

I just listened to something, and I thought (or probably just felt) "Wow. For some reason this makes me feel uncomfortable." And then I jumped in the shower and different kinds of feelings and ideas started coming up.  I thought (or felt) "You know, it's not so much that it's too uncomfortable, it's just that there's layers of things coming up, and sometimes when layers of things are coming up, you have to take time to process them and put the experience into words and separate out the layers, and I kind of wish they still had that Jello dessert that makes three layers." The mind likes threes. I don't stutter as an adult,  but when I was younger I used to stutter, and it was because I had so many ideas or feelings coming up that my mouth and my brain couldn't keep up with it.

I started to think about times when I was in situations that were creatively interesting, but also a bit transgressive and perhaps not altogether advantageous for me and perhaps they were partially a result of other people's fantasies, and I didn't really feel empowered. When that happened, I sort of felt like the society we are experiencing was going to give those people the power and not me, even though I was apparently the trigger or something about me appeared to trigger a behavior pattern in them. But what was going on really? The trigger was not so much myself, but it just like some kind of energy that was coming down through me from the universe, and it was having an effect on them.

And then another sad thing was that some trusted people did not want to believe those strange situations happened to me. Because it didn't happen to them, and it was difficult for them to comprehend that I was going through something different, and it was not really what they were comfortable thinking about very deeply, or it was too much for them to really want to believe it happened, and so that made me feel very isolated.

And these paragraphs are not like how I experienced my memories in the shower. I had some memories and then I laid down and I thought, well, should I should I mention it...and now it's coming out in a different way than it did originally in the shower. 

Oh, but one thing I do remember that was kind of interesting was, after I had these vivid memories, quickly, in succession, of different kinds of situations that happened to me, I thought to myself some people need safe words for a lot of different kinds of experiences. 

You hear about people talking about safe words when they're behaving in transgressive ways on purpose and then if they want to stop, then there's a safe word. But sometimes people go through intense things inside of themselves and they need some way to tell another person, I need to take a moment to myself to process this. Even if they're not doing something that looks like it's that transgressive on the outside, the way it could be experienced internally might be...intense? I don't even know if I want to say the word "transgressive" because it seems limiting to say that word.

I think what happens is people forget a lot of things about themselves, and they repress things. And it's because they're having a life in a physical body on the physical Earth plane and Society is also putting rules on them and whatever kind of family structures they inherited put certain rules on them and so they end up repressing parts of themselves. And then, you begin to realize that the things that got repressed are different for everybody. But when people want to live fuller lives, they want to figure out what they've repressed so they can go beyond that and be able to live more freely and joyfully and spontaneously. But then again sometimes they need guardrails in order to feel safe enough to do that.



Wednesday, March 18, 2026

Maybe that's the secret.

The cat is having so much fun by experiencing a little change in her environment and exploring that she only wanted to eat a little bit of the treat, and well, she doesn't seem to want the rest of it because she's having too much fun exploring.

I brought her back in. She did try to jump out of the car but I put her back in the carrier. She doesn't seem too mad. She's curled up by me. I guess we're listening to music and stuff!

Petit gâteau

This was good with a little triangle of chocolate, melted on top of it in the last 2 minutes of baking.

[NEW] Limited March 2026 Product Trader Joe's Cannelés 

https://www.reddit.com/r/traderjoes/s/DGr9m5zCJc

My cat gets a treat too. She's exploring the car. Just the car by itself.  She was supposed to be a cat that was trained to be good on a leash but unfortunately... Some of us were not disciplined enough... However, I have seen the cat whisperers online and I am inspired/ using their techniques.

Honestly, I think she's having a lot of fun exploring the car. I think this was exactly the right thing to do. Oh there's other cats outside and she gets to spy on them! She has a better view than she normally does.

So much sewing. So complicated. So another century.

 "The one question I could not figure out while making this..."

Asta Darling 

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThEpoqE4/

More art!

"Part 25 | #traindreams"

JJ

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThEsNAK7/

"A Comprehensive Guide to Understanding 'Stalker' (1979)"

https://www.reddit.com/r/TrueFilm/s/k1qQ1gSciT

It's hard to know which films to actually watch and which ones to just read about sometimes.

Feet. Fashion. Funny?

 


Shavasana...

Still the best part of yoga! 

Especially after your lower back was really mad.

I feel kind of bad for people who have built up their entire lives and ethos around a charismatic individual.

https://chavezfoundation.org/about-cesar-chavez/

Anyways I went to a yoga class for the first time in ages and at the end of it the instructor kept saying "Why do I want to call you Amy" so then I remembered there was these twins (a boy and a girl) that my Grandma invited over and I feel like their names were Mitch and Amy, but that was also the name of some twins in a Beverly Cleary book, so I can't tell if that is a correct memory, and then I decide to type in "Mitch and Amy Michigan" and Amy Mitchell is apparently a doctor in Petoskey / Boyne City. 

We know these are horrible things to happen to anyone, but especially to the children / young girls...

"Cesar Chavez, a Civil Rights Icon..."

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/03/18/us/cesar-chavez-sexual-abuse-allegations-ufw.html

(Also, so horrified by how he mixed it up with his healing therapy, too. Potentially ruining ruining any of the benefits of that kind of healing therapy for her. For years. Maybe for the whole rest of her life. And then on top of that, he got celebrated as a beacon of civil rights.)

"Cesar Chavez allegedly raped teen girl: report"

https://nypost.com/2026/03/18/us-news/cesar-chavez-allegedly-raped-teen-girl-report/

Conventional wisdoms are being questioned.

 


"Crazy cat lady"

thewackyshack

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThEyPNTx/

March 31 will be renamed Farmworker Day

"Cesar Chavez abused girls, raped fellow labor icon Dolores Huerta, newspaper investigation finds"

https://www.yahoo.com/news/articles/cesar-chavez-raped-girls-fellow-144252270.html

That's our era. 🗓️

Just had an invigorating and stressful conversation about "gray areas."

"why do people find neil degrasse tyson annoying :"

https://www.reddit.com/r/Gifted/comments/1hv2xef/why_do_people_find_neil_degrasse_tyson_annoying/

Wow, this is sad...this is a lot...

"US civil rights leader Dolores Huerta accuses Cesar Chavez of sexual assault"| Reuters

https://www.reuters.com/world/us-civil-rights-leader-dolores-huerta-accuses-cesar-chavez-sexual-assault-2026-03-18/

Small sociological experiment.

"For those of you girls that grew up having a brother..."

cathy.fergusonhaney

https://www.threads.com/@cathy.fergusonhaney/post/DWAYhaBiWtI?xmt=AQF0K_MaKqzjBZuiF_Hb0qkF7n0QWIWifWs0MCMj08Bj5_r--f5BYc6CdbXNumNknoUQH3o&slof=1

X: Do you relate to any of these? 

Y: I mean there was probably some s*** I did. Not the same thing as anything in those videos, but there was probably some s*** I did.

(Laughed at the green slime attacking a notebook page and at the guy flipping off people from the doorway.)

Poem songs paraphernalia formative childhood experiences

"The Original McDonald's: A Museum in San Bernardino" - California Through My Lens

https://californiathroughmylens.com/original-mcdonalds-museum-san-bernardino/

An extra birthday party on certain summer vacations in Michigan (to go along with my sister's birthday)...

And centered in the midst of chaos.

Grimes - "Vanessa (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=2-aWEYezEMk&si=5SYSykpsV-rc6Exq

Grimes - "Flesh without Blood/Life in the Vivid Dream"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Tv9YoYCKNoE&si=94Npu5ZINi84HfgO

Grimes - "Dream Fortress (Official music video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=hy3FPRaeW3Y&si=AV9qtrWp6yV7CZ2n

I hope some people's kids get to experience the chill sides of their personalities 🧚🏼‍♀️🙏🏼😸.

*shrug*

Grimes - "Oblivion"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=JtH68PJIQLE&si=rTNx3A9KatccPWW-

Grimes - "Artificial Angels"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=tvGnYM14-1A&si=jH-v7n-HolA7peDg

Grimes - 'Kill V. Maim"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=c2EJMd7ZN7w&si=o4x1NShQSjAtgKd5

My younger self who used to think I would do things better when I was older has been decimated.

Anyways, I think the chewing on skirts era is probably almost entirely over, but it's very new.

Didn't start chewing on skirts until perimenopause, after finding out who what's his name was, after


he started going out with what's her face.

(Why would that trigger such a response? And why did it keep on going for years and years when other things triggered it?)

Yeah, I guess the younger self has been educated.

Also, as I got older, I started to feel bad for the older women who had to live with Anne Frank sometimes. She was quite judgey! 

They lived in tight quarters.

None of them were chewing on their clothes. I guess that's a good thing. 

A significant person to learn from.

"Violette trailer" - English subtitles

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Lzhp2PCOWfI&si=nWFhBrv4s4DUoxN4

Cat here opened the cracked open door while the cat in the video messed up the puzzle.

"Waffles being as sweet as his name! #cats #shorts"

https://youtube.com/shorts/ACwCvUhptRQ?si=OhWv5oEuLOgC_Ny1

That video got 1.2k likes and 52 comments.

Isn't it weird that people can just make stuff and post it and have an audience of over a thousand people like it?

I forget about how weird that is, but it is, you know, because that never used to happen.

Different era.

Hair - "Let the Sunshine In"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=fhNrqc6yvTU&si=g-JZu6jMw8dVlXtD

Anyways, finding people interesting is not the same as living like them.

Sometimes you're probably going to end up doing things totally opposite of how they were doing them. 

"Simone de Beauvoir's 'remarkable' letters to Violette Leduc"

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2020/dec/16/simone-de-beauvoir-remarkable-letters-to-violette-leduc-sold-at-auction

They might end up doing things totally opposite, too, if they reincarnated.

Seeing if that's the problem.

Here I lay for hours, feeling relatively peaceful, and then I got interested in a song, and that was followed by some thoughts, and then I posted something about how I was interested in those thoughts, and now I have an kvetchy uterus again. 

What the hell. How quiet am I supposed to be. This is what happens when some women's minds and bodies get too out of sync. Creativity becomes a painful process, and that's sad. 

Or perhaps it's better (from the perspective of the owner of this body) to say, okay, well now we know this needs attention. Let's figure out what we're going to learn from that. Yes, that's probably better.


Imagining this as very soft background music.

Siouxsie and The Banshees -- "Kiss Them For Me" 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ij6mFkZU8T4&si=6TEz4hKipLT4a2yD

Because once it was playing like very soft background music in my head after I had a healing session. I felt like I needed to heal from some stuff which was making me think of guys in the woods participating in the French resistance or similar types of activities. And maybe I was also thinking a little bit about that one French writer who sold things on the black market to make money during the war. 

"Violette" | Film Review | Spirituality & Practice

https://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/films/reviews/view/26376/violette

"Violette Leduc: the great French feminist writer we need to remember" | Books | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2016/apr/07/violette-leduc-the-great-french-feminist-writer-we-need-to-remember

Choosing musical healing is really intelligent.

"Perth Girls" // Abbe May

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Iq0yBgHlW6s&si=FCrtiv0QPay0sNPz

"Design Desire" )) Abbe May

https://youtube.com/watch?v=mS29NMGX2iQ&si=P1umccH478sBvNJB

Tuesday, March 17, 2026

Actually this is very rough.

I have a very bad pain in my universe again. Well, I meant to say uterus. It's like I just have to survive and be enough.

Things could get better. They probably will, actually.

I could turn into one of those practice makes perfect people. I could be a glass half full.

Well, I had a very scattered evening.

I guess I scattered my energy too much. Now I will get back in order with myself. They almost never say, when you read a book about something tragic happening, that scattered energy is the culprit, do they? I managed to get a few things accomplished with my scattered energy, but I was having a terrible time for at least half of it, and a mediocre time for the other half. Now it's better because I've named the problem, which is that I don't do well when I get my energy too scattered around because I've gotten too distracted by too many things going on. I don't know how much anxiety has to do with this, and fear of the unknown. Perhaps the higher self was like: "Oh, today is actually a good day to get a little bit scattered and fall to pieces, just a little bit. It's better if you do it today than if you did it another day."

Whenever your brain gets fixated on something, maybe it says what you're interested in.

And maybe that's interesting information. And maybe you should be more concerned about migrants and children being locked away in detention centers. Because you are a part of society. And if more people in society had the ability to be concerned about migrants and children being locked away in detention centers paid for by the dollars being taken from the American taxpayers, maybe it wouldn't be happening to other people's children anymore, like some nightmare being repeated from some other nightmarish time. Why isn't the brain more interested in that?

Guess what? My brain didn't think that was actually true either.

"You only live one life." Yes, you only live one unique life in this body, but my body seemed to have been designed to believe our spirits can live multiple lives. And in other cultures, that's considered normal. 

Society should start having more acceptance of motherly men too.

Why not? Why not have more acceptance of the grandmotherly men as well, while you're at it?

Such is life. Property matters.

Anyways, nothing is perfect and people who don't do things in a traditional way will probably make lots of mistakes. I guess time will tell if more people think the traditional ways really were better in the long run for everybody.

Meaning, were those traditional ways actually healthy for society overall and not just a stop gap measure for some people to temporarily get by as best as people around them could see fit at that time.

Keep in mind that traditional ways used to mean that I would have to be somebody's property and I couldn't vote. And I certainly couldn't keep the same name I was born with. And I would have to wear specific regalia that showed whose property I was. All of the time. Not just as a temporary, fun playful thing. No, property all of the time. Property of somebody else, all of the f****** time.

Can you give yourself a day off from being someone else's property??? What about cosplaying as somebody else's property???

It kind of messes with your mind. Properly.

Some traditional heterosexual parents were trained to act like hero-worshipping a rich dad who's a rapist is their favorite thing, better than Jesus. Maybe they had some very cruel granddaddies, who didn't treat the women and children well back when all the women and children were seen as the property of the men, and they still can't quite come to terms with that, so that's why a rich rapist daddy who is the most applauded by Patriarchal Culture in the modern era still appeals to them so much?

Sadly...

Traditional patriarchal heterosexual parenting also traditionally makes a lot of excuses for rape culture. It kind of makes you wonder why they still feel like they have to do that, sometimes. Painful stuff. 

Your society is not child-centric at all.

It's Patriarchal. I don't think a child-centric Society would be locking away a bunch of migrant children in detention centers right now. The way the patriarchal sexual assault nightmare people are running things is not good for children.

Yeah, thanks. That was really helpful to hear throughout my childhood.

"All children should only have one He - Man - Father and one She - Woman - Mother. Anything else is blasphemy! And they should all just carry the one He-Man Father's name, because they're all his Property. That's the one and only Healthy Way!"

And the music 🎶, claro.

"Björk and Rosalía..."

tetyanawrites

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVWr5ydidX6/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

A lot of us get so much joy from pets!

"I wish dogs could be immortal"

tetyanawrites

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DV_WSGGkWSf/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Anyways, I think if you have a lot of strict rules about what's healthy, you end up with more abandoned children.

Because many people who end up having children simply cannot live up to the standards that Patriarchal Society places on parents. And if they seem like they do and they're faking it, that's f***** up too.

Judgey online life.

"I bet her relationship is really based on lots of rules about strict gender roles too." 

Reaction to a woman who made a video talking about how the lifestyles she finds very distasteful and unhealthy are obviously very unhealthy and distasteful for everybody. Obviously, everybody in the comments agreed with her. Also, she had big boobs and wore a very tight shirt and a lot of the comments were about her chest. 

Anyways, what about the deceased parents? That's the topic that's more comfortable to me.

Some of the modern parents' content are making me think Society would progress faster if some dads were more like moms and if some moms were more like dads and that's a lot to process right now.