Sunday, May 17, 2026

I don't underestimate the power of psychosomatic stuff to occasionally take over in this life.

This makes me laugh, and the guy is so happy to show off his exercises to help others. I feel that if I was struck by something this today, it's not because haven't been exercising. I walked a mile this morning, and I have been exercising more regularly overall.

"FAST RELIEF: Dead Butt Syndrome"

DrRowe

https://youtube.com/watch?v=5CsxzAsW9NA&si=uZR93WRi9ZXY2SJZ


I heard this cool song for the first time.

This sky looks like something out of a baroque era painting to me! I noticed that as I was looking up the song lyrics.

Indigo Girls – Yield Lyrics | Genius Lyrics

https://genius.com/Indigo-girls-yield-lyrics

I have better sitting abilities, and I was driving on almost empty because I did not want to stop at a gas station. Bob Seger was playing star again and John Lennon was singing about a beautiful boy. 

"Beautiful Girls" - SNL

https://youtube.com/watch?v=dWDAsjyPLiw&si=hfbALsw1io4ATZIf

I have to hobble inside and check and see if the oven is working properly because I called to ask if a frozen food could be slid into the oven and cooked and then I got home and I thought it would be ready but of course it wasn't because other things interfered and then had to give instructions on the oven and I can't believe I actually had to do that. But maybe it's just because that's what the universe wants me to notice? Why? I mean it's kind of funny, too, but why???

Well, my walking ability became impaired this evening.

Maybe the mobility muscles are just not ready to work with the willful and well connected? I have to ask them, what's the deal?

On a lighter note, the universe is still funny.

"Moon Mistress and Shadow Queen" – Enchanted Living

https://enchantedlivingmagazine.com/moon-mistress-and-shadow-queen/

MINUS

"The Monstrous Regiment of Women: Beatrice d'Este: 'Happy by Nature and Very Pleasing'"

https://www.monstrousregimentofwomen.com/2015/06/beatrice-deste-happy-by-nature-and-very.html?m=1

EQUALS

!!!???

After years and years and years of a troubled psyche and dental problems and ruined clothes...Really, Hilarious Universe?

Wow, a human life can hold a lot of lessons.

I read this story about how a woman was treated by her family after she had a miscarriage. Then a strange chemical smell came to my nose, and I discovered that my finger was accidentally crushing an ant that had crawled onto my face next to my mouth. 

"My First Year of Marriage..."

u/blueberries-Any-kind

https://www.reddit.com/r/GirlDinnerDiaries/s/1unJld7xMm

And yes, this is the kind of story that they don't really cater to on Facebook. But it seems like she felt better for posting it, so that's good!

Someone's going to get a Roomba named after them soon, I'll bet.

Sorry about the grammar. 

"Trump Snubs His Big Faith Event To go Golfing"

https://www.reddit.com/r/politics/s/Qnkcx6bTu8

So much to think about these days!

 


This disturbed my universe.

 Also, it made me want to know what else happened, later...

"Shooting Snakes on JSTOR"

https://www.jstor.org/stable/40638382

Ha-ha, there's some very creative medical content out there these days.

🎶⚕️🧚🏾‍♀️🗣️


"Inositol x mascara drying on my eyelids"

marmunches

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYS1r5Ts7rC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"We can't have the beard to ourselves"

marmunches

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWyA9CPDCT6/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Saturday, May 16, 2026

It got warmer and sunnier.

 



Nice weather today!

 


Good to see these kittens living the happy life they deserve.

 ☘️🐈‍⬛🌼


Dandelion season

@gakhed

https://youtube.com/watch?v=1VNgZtVfD-4&si=ub_WTzEtGRoUQ1M0

Get excited for good change! Like this guy is about his hotdog cooker.

 🌭👨🏼‍🍳


"Hot dogs cooked evenly every time"

https://www.reddit.com/r/DamnThatsPrettyNeat/s/g1jzLImJWm

Time to change a patriarchal society which treats children and mothers terribly.

"She was deported without her toddler. Then ICE blamed her for his killing." 

ICE accused Wendy Hernandez Reyes of leaving her child with a violent uncle, but she says her son would still be alive if officers hadn’t detained and deported her.

- The Washington Post

https://www.washingtonpost.com/immigration/2026/05/16/she-was-deported-without-her-toddler-then-ice-blamed-her-his-murder/

"Hernandez does not match the profile of the 'worst of the worst' criminals that the Department of Homeland Security has promised to prioritize for removal. She is a victim of domestic violence, her lawyer said, and has no criminal record. But in President Donald Trump’s second term, the stated goal is to remove as many undocumented immigrants as possible. That has increasingly included parents of young children, who are being placed in foster care, living with relatives or even left to fend for themselves — with little or no follow-up to ensure they are safe.

Nothing in federal law requires ICE — or any other agency — to check in with a child’s caregiver after detaining their parents, attorneys say. Agency policy calls for following parents’ wishes for their children, including removing them together, but immigration lawyers say requests to be deported as a family are often ignored. The lack of safeguards for the children left behind is considered a glaring blind spot in a system going full-tilt to deport record numbers of immigrants.

Hernandez said she repeatedly urged ICE officers to let her son go with her, but her pleas were met with silence.

“How could I abandon my son, if my son was the love of my life?” Hernandez, 29, said in an interview. “I did everything with my son. I am not a bad mother who left my child with a killer.”

ICE did not respond to questions about how officers handled the case and whether they checked on Orlin afterward. The Florida Department of Children and Families, which responds to allegations of abuse, also did not respond to questions about the case."

~ Maria Sacchetti

https://www.washingtonpost.com/immigration/2026/05/16/she-was-deported-without-her-toddler-then-ice-blamed-her-his-murder/

Whirling through doing the dishes...

 "Pluto"

~ Superheroine energy, like what happened to you because you made a friend who died young in the month of June.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ePYgwZzqS40&si=518vR7Vd8zW0gJ43

Some fun music therapy, though.

"Pluto: The Planetarium" - Sufjan Stevens, Bryce Dessner, Nico Muhly, James McAlister

https://youtube.com/watch?v=T1MhW-7wWgI&si=CM1a6UcO-It-N_OW

"Three Hits"

Indigo Girls

https://youtube.com/watch?v=xz6-fqsDyg0&si=CDURV2O1ZweBfqgd

I believe people deserve to feel able to cry more about their traumatic and sad experiences.

"Tiger, Tiger by Margaux Fragoso" - BookDragon

https://apa.si.edu/bookdragon/tiger-tiger-by-margaux-fragoso/

Bush - "Glycerine"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=hOllF3TgAsM&si=XuP_YHXKQJh6CRDy

Life lived is reality realized.


Back to nature.


Why some abusive coaches still get paid and excused and rewarded by a cult-like mentality.

 Oh, the orgy of uncaring.


"Obviously, a lot of the people that follow me get it, but wider society??"

josh_ffw

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYXdKWsIk0A/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


This et al.

"Mt. SAC coach accused of sexual abuse to remain employed, school says" – SAC Media

https://sac.media/2023/02/10/mt-sac-coach-accused-of-sexual-abuse-to-remain-employed-school-says/


Considering Mary Todd Lincoln...

"American history has long applied a gendered double standard to mental illness, granting men empathy and dignity while branding women unstable and unworthy."

Lois Romano

"Mary Todd Lincoln and the Double Standard of Mental Illness"

https://time.com/article/2026/05/13/mary-todd-lincoln-and-the-double-standard-of-mental-illness/


Friday, May 15, 2026

That's why you need to get better.

 Shady s*** you do is where civil rights goes to die.

Strong language from the California Attorney General.

"Bonta calls conditions at California ICE detention facilities ‘cruel’ and ‘inhumane’"| KTLA

https://ktla.com/news/california/california-doj-report-immigration-detention-facilities/

Anyways, a lot of oppressive stuff is happening and it's pretty upsetting.

I still think Society can evolve so that way fewer people will be abused more than the others (who also were abused) and also silenced more than others and then cast off more than others.

It's not a pretty topic, that's why.

Hard to talk about which kinds of people you got trained to treat like they're superior to others. How much of yourself you had to shut down in order to keep that facade going, that X types of people are so superior to other types of people. Because it's a lie.

Poor little scared to talk about stuff cold-hearted snakes.

It's the same kind of behavior that got role-modeled in front of small children in their formative years and then it just repeated itself in the subsequent generations.

Uh uh. It don't feel right.

Scared people who are too scared to have an honest conversation about abuse are enablers of more abuse happening. Abused people were silenced in the past. Their health suffered. Feels very, very painful to have this knowledge right now.

Don't just say "He."

They are cold-hearted snakes. They were trained to not care about lots of things as a self defense mechanism, and it just feels a lot worse tonight for some reason.

The cat is being nice.

"Videos appearing to show Palm Springs ICE arrests leave community on edge" - KESQ

https://kesq.com/news/2026/05/15/videos-appearing-to-show-palm-springs-ice-arrests-leave-community-on-edge/

Embarrassed.

"Deportations led to overcrowding, strained resources resources at ICE facilities: state report

Regarding the Otay Mesa Detention Center, the DOJ's report said the facility experienced 'surges in population' that have impacted intake process time, cleanliness of the housing units and the availability of numerous other resources."

https://www.nbcsandiego.com/news/local/deportations-led-to-overcrowding-strained-resources-at-ice-facilities-state-report/4024525/

Whose orphan ghost made this manifest.

Don't be a narc. An achy breaky narc. Knock knock knock. No. Narc is not for you.

Achy breaky hearty thoughts and prayers again.

"You are in their thoughts and prayers."

"What thoughts and prayers are these?"

"Whose child is thinking and praying those thoughts and prayers?"

"Perhaps a child of God is thinking and praying their own thoughts and prayers."

Outer space is intersecting with Earth reality and making me look at lofty goals again.

 

"Our" children means...

crosssam

https://www.instagram.com/p/DYHtOcigDiN/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Kind of feel better now.

 


Prettiness! 💓


"What advice..." lucieell.art

I should complain more.

I bet the universe at minimum generates five new fans bearing bouquets every time.

If ever you were made to feel like you weren't "peppy" enough...

"Hegesias: The Greek Philosopher Whose Lectures Caused...."

https://greekreporter.com/2026/05/14/hegesias-greek-philosopher-banned-mass-suicides/

Thinking of "in the shadows..."

If you have your show on a Sunday afternoon, maybe you can serenade the supportive workhorse male escorts in the shadows. Walt Whitman would do that probably.

That was a nicer one.

Not long ago I dreamed that I was older and I was with this person who was kind of like a butler and a servant to the people on a train. Maybe we were on a train, and we were in a compartment together. He told me he had heard a lot of unattractive things about me. But we both laughed about it. I think. Well, he was laughing about it. It was also kind of like I might have generated the unattractive things that he heard about. Or maybe I interpreted the dream too much, and it was just that he heard me having a difficult time in the bathroom or something. This is what happens when you don't write write things down right away.

People can get smarter!

 That's great to remember, too.


"Watch..."

chelsanity

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYXYSFxNxw3/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Really bad?" Maybe even "devastating" is more like it.

I think that the experience of "Abuse has been covered up and swept under the rug here, and certain types of abusive behavior were normalized to a very unhealthy extent" has actually been a "really bad" problem in more than one kind of environment.

That's kind of a sad glad though.

Sometimes I'm almost sort of glad when people act in a certain way because maybe it saves time.

So what is the best thing about having a feeling offreedom?

Is freedom the ultimate goal?

I think it's weird that this has happened repeatedly:

I start to believe that somebody wants to help, and is open to change and to making things better, and then I get the rude awakening that this is really not the case. 

It's multiple kinds of people who seem to be putting on this kind of performance that I need to stop being in denial about, I guess. And the white people who are men the best at putting on this performance, for some reason, in my life.

Just one example: let's say I have a musical relative who used to be easy to talk to but now all of a sudden he can't be any more because his Patriarchal Society raised him to feel like he should work hard and then act like a lord who doesn't need to know too much about anything else. And he needs to align himself with all sorts of masculine behaviors at all costs. At the cost of cutting off other human beings and at the cost of denying other human beings full humanity. He has to be in denial about the abuse that happened in the family, he has to be in denial about the favoritism, he has to be in denial about how self - sedation via materialism feels like discrimination.

It's just too much information to deal with.

Somebody else has to deal with the information. 

Who is that? Who has to deal with that?

People run away from things that they don't want to know about and then they take advantage of the patriarchal system and the way that best serves them. That's not a great way to live a life. That's like you think you're an orphan and you're just grabbing at whatever you can get while you're in survival mode. That's not a way of life that a lot of people can aspire to, honestly.

One played after the other and now I'm going to find an old standby.

SPOKANKI - Ceann Dubh Dilis 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qmKc0YlrqOI&si=11GLGqK2QtpCVlwa

Grimes - Oblivion

https://youtube.com/watch?v=JtH68PJIQLE&si=01GIyIdKn8SVp3yD

"Arvo Pärt: My Heart's in the Highlands"

@skycam_ee

https://youtube.com/watch?v=6UadEvSJMrQ&si=qqEzg5btVyQZptgK

If everyone got the same amount of "Get Out Of Jail Free" cards...

Maybe some people would behave very differently.

"ICE violently arrested a US citizen and filmed it ‘like a documentary’, videos reveal | ICE (US Immigration and Customs Enforcement)" | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/may/15/ice-us-citizen-violent-arrest-documentary

What would be so awful about it? For you, personally.

Why not get better at expecting better?

Kind of a regular guy.

He can also be down to earth and low-key and a good listener and he'd like to buy you something from the gift shop if you'd let him.

"Taking a Good, Long Look Into Elon Musk and 'Muskism'”

https://jacobin.com/2026/05/musk-cyborgs-tech-wokeness-right

Maybe not, if the system is set up to make some people be more in denial and sabotage that sort of thing from happening.

I still want to know if one good lonely goatherd Peter can be a conscientious helper and cancel out the harm caused by three bad, abusive, untrustworthy ones. 

If ignoring problems was actually a healthy solution that was actually working...

People getting paid to kidnap other people and their children would not still be happening.

Not great!

I think these three go together okay.

"Obviously, a lot of the people that follow me get it, but wider society??"

josh_ffw

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYXdKWsIk0A/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"This makes eating healthy so easy!🥟"

sarahsparkypark

https://youtube.com/shorts/kFMu1Z15cA0?si=hH9AIeH_yySx49HS

"Game of Life Board Game Commercial 1993"

BetamaxKing

https://youtube.com/watch?v=zE_gr0zxVFc&si=eWHkp2beHiDJRZOK

I know; I need to find a good, not so patriarchal church.

"This is your own fault because you're still mad about a plethora of harmful, sexist beliefs that relatives who loved you told you to adhere to when you were growing up, and you need to process that all on your own. Missy."

Male escort is far too busy, sorry.

"What a pity; if only I had brought a male escort with me, then the energy would have felt so much more welcoming and respectful."

How about a "You can be a Big Learner (about human health)when you're involved with The Game of Life" board game.

Is it kind of different from being a Big Spender at a Casino? Instead of spending money, it's spending time stacking up all the learning experiences, and finding out you need to delve deeper into your spiritual practices for important health-related reasons.

Maybe the energy is bigger than the archives.

 

"The Real Big Jerry: The Truth Laura Ingalls Wilder Hid | 1879"

@OfficialBoringHistory

https://youtube.com/watch?v=JO6ZCFgCkec&si=QivCInuxHQpLbaFG

Receiving / serving.

 

"The Real Big Jerry: The Truth Laura Ingalls Wilder Hid | 1879"

@OfficialBoringHistory

https://youtube.com/watch?v=JO6ZCFgCkec&si=QivCInuxHQpLbaFG

What some will do for enough money to buy something they want in this era.

"ICE, Border Patrol operations surge across Coachella Valley"

https://www.desertsun.com/story/news/politics/immigration/2026/05/13/ice-border-patrol-immigration-enforcement-palm-springs-coachella-valley/90069735007

Thank God for strong male characters, I say.

 

"The Real Big Jerry: The Truth Laura Ingalls Wilder Hid | 1879"

@OfficialBoringHistory

https://youtube.com/watch?v=JO6ZCFgCkec&si=QivCInuxHQpLbaFG

Time to eat something healthy!

How mean do you think Patriarchal Society wants people to be to certain kinds of female Messengers?

Do you realize that out-of-control pleasure seeking just looks like it's heaping a lot of extra work onto the shoulders of certain types of people's children, more than other types of people's children? 

And the weird thing about that is that it's also going to create a lot of imbalance and physiological and psychological issues in the so-called favored ones.

Probably will watch a silly movie this weekend.

 "The Sheep Detectives"

https://www.reddit.com/r/movies/s/SDorqBsByi

A palate cleanser!

 

"Cat Doesn’t Want Dog Or lamb On his Rock"

@leewalters

https://youtube.com/watch?v=6OYrXN7t430&si=Eysu2cPS6vfMDLsE

Also, watched two trailers for "The Quiet Man" and read some articles about it.

"The Quiet Man (1952): Original Trailer - John Wayne"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=aRVcD5xKpps&si=MeUgAe29s2pSHApN

"The Quiet Man (1952) - 2023 Re-Release Trailer"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qi-0GG876tw&si=8ODiHg1qA24jWuy5

🗣️🎞️✍🏼

"The Quiet Man — Cineaste Magazine"

https://www.cineaste.com/spring2017/the-quiet-man

"Considering John Ford's The Quiet Man"👩🏼‍⚕️

https://www.flixist.com/considering-john-ford-s-the-quiet-man/

"Is The Quiet Man misogynistic and outdated?"

https://www.irishcentral.com/opinion/others/quiet-man-misogynistic-outdated

"Laura was hearing rough language." ~ "By the Shores of Silver Lake."

"Payday on the Prairie" – Imaginary Elevators

https://imaginaryelevators.blog/2018/08/29/payday-on-the-prairie/

This will be an investment.

"The Real Big Jerry: The Truth Laura Ingalls Wilder Hid | 1879"

@OfficialBoringHistory

https://youtube.com/watch?v=JO6ZCFgCkec&si=QivCInuxHQpLbaFG

"Absence and grief"

"The Oklahoma Communities Gutted by ICE" – Mother Jones

https://www.motherjones.com/politics/2026/05/the-oklahoma-communities-gutted-by-ice/

Sigh.

"In KC, Barstow School dean helped students organize an ICE protest. Now he’s fired"

https://www.kansascity.com/news/local/article315742932.html

Some music also reminded me of campfire songs in another place & another time.

Canciones infantiles de niños – Un elefante se balanceaba Lyrics | Genius Lyrics

https://genius.com/Canciones-infantiles-de-ninos-un-elefante-se-balanceaba-lyrics


Old advertisements showed me that Guinness was paired with oysters, and I didn't know that before.

Alci Acosta –  El Ultimo Beso Lyrics| Genius Lyrics

https://genius.com/Alci-acosta-el-ultimo-beso-lyrics

People...Families...Children.

"We need transparency at ICE detention facilities

Reducing oversight does not do this agency any favors."

https://www.dallasnews.com/opinion/editorials/article/ice-detention-facility-need-restore-oversight-22259207.php

Don't know why, really...

I feel like there are some old influences that are already passing away, but some things about the way things used to be still sting a little bit. There are other people having other experiences and paths diverge sometimes when people have different lessons to learn. Do some (not all) men who were wounded need your help, or do some (not all) men simply need to learn how to feel better about themselves?

"#men #menshealth #mensmentalhealth"

owen.squares

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYFh5AOuKQ1/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

This is Lorelei – "I'm All Fucked Up"

https://genius.com/This-is-lorelei-im-all-fucked-up-lyrics

Broken Social Scene – "Hey Amanda"

https://genius.com/Broken-social-scene-hey-amanda-lyrics

Universe seems in favor of people getting calmer, too.

You know, sometimes things are going to happen in waves; like there's change, and things get a little crazy, and it's not so restful, and then later there's calm again.

Thursday, May 14, 2026

Not everybody...

Has to process more of their own trauma to have more empathy for others, but actually I think it's very common.

Comfortable with words!

 It's the trauma of living in a patriarchal society. Needs to be processed.


"Strap in for a yap fest! Also if you wanna heal..."

toninagy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYQp8_2uSHX/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's like a big wake-up is happening.

"We all have the power to imagine and create a better world."

aarchor

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWP31rvDg8s/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

ICE is most unwell with certain groups of people.

"Unauthorized ICE ‘wellness checks’ by police at Ohio schools draw outrage"| Ohio | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/may/14/ice-checks-police-cincinnati-schools


I heard "Flutes" by Hot Chip today and I liked it.

However, I didn't realize they could look like such a boy band!

Hot Chip - "I Feel Better (Official Video) (HD)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=EvSjYYep3t4&si=ggq68DAXKsyJjd9r

Hot Chip - "Flutes (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=99z1_IMJNl8&si=1_f9iqzLwSsqgHBS

This seems like it could be rehabilitating.

"I bet there's a particular Scottish billionaire..."

the_anna_mac

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYJ0872ouD0/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Some daughters and moms are interested in being the helpers.

 🧚🏼‍♀️🔮👩🏼‍⚕️


"Day 133 of 365"

madlywish

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYTFAbZJvP3/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Mother's Day can be beautiful"

madlywish

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYKLhmWgFO8/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Very bad things are happening!

 Behind closed doors, and not on camera, too.

"They can play this off as a joke at home..."

ebonywarriorstudios1

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXzOWzZx0zX/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Problems = Opportunities?

I sense family secrets problems.

The men always had the women doing their laundry though.

Be fun to watch a movie scene with Emerson and Thoreau and Hawthorne ice skating on a pond together and the daughters watching them through the window and giggling about how they were acting on the ice, but I guess they had other bad things happening in their lives. They had lots of deaths to deal with, and they had no cures for any major diseases. A lot of death in childbirth was still going on back then, too.

Kinda believe so.

Think some people suffer worse because of silence on certain topics than others.

Your life path / the mutual life paths intersecting is kind of making me feel stressy / binge on food sometimes.

Some people would say it'd be worse for you if you're in a body that has to get an abortion afterwards.

Why do you suppose they would do this?

For one thing, Pete is so far from Jesus, it's not even funny.

"From ICE to Iran, veterans are challenging US militarism" | Waging Nonviolence

https://wagingnonviolence.org/2026/05/antiwar-veterans-against-iran-war-ice/

"Hundreds of complaints were filed by troops in every branch of the military when Secretary of Defense Pete Hegseth, a Christian nationalist, directed his commanders to inform their units that the Iran War is a holy war anointed by Jesus."

~ Clare Bayard

Judges are better to the children and stepmothers, sometimes!

"Judge orders Alamo Heights children, stepmother to be released from ICE detention"

https://www.ksat.com/news/local/2026/05/13/judge-orders-alamo-heights-children-to-be-released-from-ice-detention/

Earth life is not always so fierce.

You should be a willing slave to one kind of  love for a little bit, just to elevate the energetics. Then you should find the superior forms of love and play with those for a while.

They will chase you!