"Bicycle face: the terrifying medical condition that threatened 1890s cyclists" | The Spinoff
Monday, March 09, 2026
There's no time to wait to get rich enough.
"KETAMINE"
ultimabituca
https://youtube.com/watch?v=HfiDxpCLzSs&si=VqOV16QOqUpzeFRd
Some people (so many more than we know) are instead working on optimizing their learning experiences...
"Looking into ketamine"
D! Chill.
"Dysmenorrhea: What It Is and How to Deal With It | OBGYN"
https://coolspringsobgyn.com/dysmenorrhea-how-to-deal-with-it/#
Ghost Guardians of the Uterus being cheesy.
"xkcd: Plums"
https://share.google/VPJNr426EaXZBXaha
Elderberries.
"Monty Python and the Holy Grail - The Insulting Frenchman"
Reading about somebody else's magnum opus over my oatmeal.
"The haunting story of Mary Doefour and one man's quest to give her back her real name"
"Former Morton nursing home is torn down: ‘I hear the neighbors are very happy that it’s gone’" | WCBU Peoria
Womb-like and wonderful.
Kawehi - "Somebody That I Used To Know Mashup (live at The Pike Room on 7.11.15)"
Ronald Mark
This morning, I hope she's running off to a really great and beneficial body balancing appointment!
Charli xcx - "House featuring John Cale (Official Video)"
Oh, here's an idea.💡 And something else interesting to watch.
"A Lot of Women THINK They’ve Decentered Men…"
@yv_edit
https://youtube.com/watch?v=izsoGDhCB2Q&si=xWLluzpvxnBJQoNy
"Maybe you can work with the assholes when your uterus stops cramping. Maybe, after you either get a hysterectomy or fully go through menopause, you can work with them as an uncredited addictions counselor. Okay. Well, we'll see how many years that takes, I guess. Boy oh boy, doesn't that sound great? I mean as long as some other health problems don't crop up, I suppose that might work out? I don't know. I don't really think that this is an ideal situation for her health. Yeah, let's not count on that."
How to honor and respect your own genetics and experiences.
How to be much kinder to yourself because your genetics are not like theirs. And therefore, your experiences are also not like theirs.
A humble body needs help with releasing attachment to the unhealed, anxious patriarchal culture.
Help yourself heal your uterus and let things go... Hasn't the body felt enough pain and suffering already? Yes, it's been enough. Why should it go on if a better experience is available, somewhere, somehow?
For some situations, I might...
Need music that helps me embrace healing myself and release the need to heal with other people, maybe? I know this is sad because it's happier to heal with other people, but sometimes other people are determined to keep acting like assholes. They choose their addictions and not you. Their addictions are not compatible with your health issues. Maybe you just need to just let it go, and focus on healing yourself, and let them just be the assholes they feel like being. But elsewhere?
I really want to get sleepier now.
I need some sleep. But sometimes I feel like there's some "more successful" people who see "potential" in me but who still feel they have to do things their way, and if my body keeps saying no to the idea of working with them, I have to listen to my body. I mean, why is it so hard for them to change? Why do they feel others have to accommodate them? Well, maybe it's a fear of ego death thing. Sometimes I think these people are also influenced by group dynamics and their group doesn't want them to change because things have been going along in a certain way and if it seems like it worked out pretty well for them and got them lots of money in a big house and if they were comfortable with all that, then why should they change?
Maybe they don't have a lot of empathy for others and they prefer it that way. It's easier for them to live life that way.
Just some thoughts I guess.
I wonder if I'll have any other sea or deep water dreams?
"Diving into the Wreck" by Adrienne Rich
https://www.reddit.com/r/Poetry/s/kixeHE9Ccn
I think women who felt traumatized by people who've also been traumatized by the patriarchy but are acting it out in a different way can get some very isolated feelings. Well, maybe there's other people who are better at feeling really empowered by bravely exploring the difficult stuff, but I do feel you have to be willing to go on your own to take a certain path sometimes, and I don't think I'm totally alone in feeling this. That's partly why I think a poem like 'Diving into the Wreck" exists.
I'm enjoying my magnesium capsules' effects on me!
Plus a Kate Bush music video.
"Kate Bush’s Earliest Smash Climbs To A New Peak, Decades After It's Release"
Kate Bush - "Wuthering Heights - Official Music Video"
Just to make them nicer. More well-rounded people.
I think some of the not-so-sensitive people should have those electrodes hooked up to them, the ones that they've started putting on some men in videos to show them what bad menstrual cramps feel like.
Can't really wait for others to do this.
Going to really get better at seeing the positive aspects of having so much sensitivity to pain that it literally affects my physical experience. So attention grabbing and distracting from whatever other nonsense is happening.
Sunday, March 08, 2026
Belief systems can be good and more healing for our temporary lives.
Decided I believe that some things are divinely guided and when the people in their little corner of the planet work out some things, it generates more energetic healing into the universe and benefits others on an energetic level too.
Also fun...Alas, a paywall.
"In some ways, that Fennell’s Wuthering Heights is this vacuous and one-dimensional feels like progress. Male directors get to make big, unserious epics all the time. ('How many times have you watched Top Gun: Maverick?' I asked my husband last night. 'This month?' he replied.) Fennell, whose film made $83 million at the global box office during opening weekend, is at least proving, with sticky aplomb, how starved we as a culture are for romance. Margot Robbie, the movie’s co-star and one of its producers, has shrugged off mixed reviews..."
~ Sophie Gilbert
"Why the 'Wuthering Heights' Movie Is Infantilizing"
Lol. 😹
"Literary Hub » Emerald Fennell’s Wuthering Heights is a Deranged, Half-Assed Bodice-Ripper That Entirely Misses the Point'
"By the time Catherine kicked her father’s corpse and ran out into the rain again (in the movie, you’re either bejeweled, bedrenched, or be-both) with Heathcliff in tow, I thought, If they don’t fuck now, I will demand a refund. I had to wait another beat before their lackluster Gothic coitus montage."
~ Emily Van Duyne
"As Cathy started dying in earnest, the gallon drum of club soda I had consumed over the course of two hours had filled my bladder to the point of agony ('our drinks are one size'). I panicked, not wanting to miss one minute of this spectacle, still clinging to the possibility that there would be some trace semblance of Emily Brontë in this Wuthering Heights, that we might meet the next generation of Earnshaws and Lintons. Once more, I needn’t have worried. Cathy bled out onto her Princess Peach sheets, Heathcliff wept over her corpse, and the credits rolled to another Charli XCX banger.
I left my husband to gather our things for dinner and scooted to the loo, where I was faced with a David Lynch-like scene far stranger than Fennell’s moors. A woman in one stall loudly begged a drunken stranger (who was dressed to the nines for her Valentine’s Day date) for toilet paper, her disembodied hand wiggling beneath the hanging door, as the drunken stranger opened a stall and rolled a giant pile of tee-pee around her diamond-studded hand, screeching 'CAN YOU SPARE A SQUARE, REMEMBER, CAN YOU SPARE A SQUARE' to me, the only other person in the room old enough to catch that Seinfeld reference. Two young women in Taylor Swift hoodies who had been in the theater with us were weeping over the ending, saying, Why? Why? What was the point? They weren’t talking to me, and god, I was glad, since I had no answer for them."
~ Emily Van Duyne
I decided to have dessert.
I had some date syrup swirled in a goblet filled with a chocolate protein smoothie and I'm reading a bunch of reviews about the controversial "Wuthering Heights" film. They said it's made Emerald Fennell a lot of money. I am just guessing I probably would not like it as much as I liked "Promising Young Woman," but it's kind of a fantastic opportunity for people to express their opinions, huh?
Oh, what a musical city...🌁🎶🌃
Encore un 🎶 digestif (for me this evening.)
Charli xcx - "House featuring John Cale (Official Video)"
I ate dinner and enjoyed a wonderful soup and salad.
Must figure out ways to tap into the kind of love that is the glue when there's so many different points of view.
I'm changing my eating.
I'm eating to soothe the screaming.
I'm eating to balance the body.
I guess I really have to change my diet a lot more than I thought.
Actually my cat just ate some food for the first time today, so that's nice too. She wouldn't even eat the squeezable treat stuff, but just now she's started eating dry food. Who knows why it was like that today. Who knows why.
And it's very sad and painful and not conducive to good health.
For some reason my cat's not eating today. I don't feel very well. I don't have a nice experience with my gallbladder right now. I have off and on menstrual cramps and I wasn't having those for a while. But now they're back. I'm going to have to change some more things with how I'm eating probably. Probably need energy healings and things like that more than I need anything else right now.
Honestly, I think that stuff like this revibrates psychically when the selfish people try to cover it up.
"Survivor Story: Tammy Wallace..."
jaguarwright
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DFyTyAyRolS/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"our bodies are really f u c k i n g tired of generations of performance"
sarahswildhoney
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVmbIxKjfeg/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
So today I found this.
"Serious allegations have been raised and for years voices were ignored"
tammywallace_3355
https://www.instagram.com/p/DVamjv2gENM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"When survivor supports survivors healing multiplies."
tammywallace_3355
https://www.instagram.com/p/DVNC_NQEZgK/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Here is the man who assaulted me..."
tammywallace_3355
https://www.instagram.com/p/DTlRB1pEodk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
As a chauvinistic, sexist, traumatized Patriarchal Society goes through more changes...
Maybe you will find yourself moved.
And I as well.
"I'm so glad my grandma didn't want me to grow up to be the kind of guy who had to beat down girls and women in order to get whatever he wanted."
I think it would be really nice for the Future Generations if that were to happen.
I think you should get more articulate about why it's been so hard for you, personally, to value the health and safety of most women and girls. In our current society, most of them don't have as much money as you have. You could start with that. That's just scratching the surface, but you could start with it. Maybe you could do mourning pages about it.
"Mt. SAC women’s basketball coach Brian Crichlow wins Coach of the Year for a third year" – SAC Media
"Mt. SAC coach accused of sexual abuse to remain employed, school says" – SAC Media
https://sac.media/2023/02/10/mt-sac-coach-accused-of-sexual-abuse-to-remain-employed-school-says/
"Investigating Lawsuits Against Mt. SAC" – SAC Media
https://sac.media/2022/07/27/investigating-lawsuits-against-mt-sac/
"2023 Mt SAC Alumnus of the Year Sona Movsesian"
I think you could pair a book by a pimp with a book by a Holocaust survivor.
"Whatever you think this film is about..."
bronxzou
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVjsRfQj_I-/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"House of Dolls" - Wikipedia
Jeffrey no longer needs the physical sustenance provided by our hard-working labourers on this earthly plane.
But Michelle? Conan? Sona? Skyler? Elon? Brian?
They still need physical sustenance!
Disappointed in the Patriarchal Culture, Too.
Michelle and Conan and Sona and Skyler and Elon and Jeffrey and Brian!
But just showing it in really different ways. I sort of feel like Jeffrey's still showing it, even though he's dead. I think his spirit is, like, hovering around and crap.
They're just so special to The Patriarchy!
Isn't it interesting it is expected that they should be the ones who are embarrassed by the actions of some shallow, callous, misogynistic, financially better off people?
I don't know if it's the fault of their fathers, their bosses or what.
I really do wonder if the Patriarchal people subconsciously believe that girls and women just have to get sacrificed to predators so they can have their careers.
I felt rather glad I watched this. It gave me new things to think about.
"Weirdos are where the wisdom comes from 🌱"
fatandthemoon
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVMKa3oD_jN/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Combining two products that I have on hand has been a helpful stand-in recently...
But I decided I'm going to get the Sage & Rose Face Mist I really like again from their company.
Embracing frivolity?
X: Wow! Just because a man can make an insecure woman act like a fashion magazine is more important than a human being doesn't mean the man can't also die and reincarnate into something quite different.
Y: I wanna reincarnate as an elephant.
Some people have a way of reminding you that Jeffrey Epstein was probably brimming with good vibes.
"'Good vibes only' sounds harmless. It isn't."
Kat | The Unpackologist TM
House addicts could be worse to girls than irresponsible alcoholics sometimes.
Hard, horrible upbringings and chauvinistic churches and misogynistic meanies who put abusive men on pedestals were so great at showing us how terrible this disgusting this Patriarchal Society is to girls and women and now my uterus is not well again.
How addicted to houses are they?
I wonder if my sister and I are going to be destitute because 😂 liberal single mom died for patriarchal survival mode and a nice house and everyone else did, too.
Sigh.
I have to eat more dandelion greens.
Uterus got better; gallbladder got twingy.
Always more health stuff to not ignore.
Very, very sensitively 🎶
And hilariously
Enjoying and appreciating my not throwing me over a cliff body this morning
AND
Wondering how the "Gee, kinda wonder what else happened with Adell" energies are doing these days...
"Royal Robertson" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Royal_Robertson
"My mom..."
https://www.reddit.com/r/Sufjan/s/PcIZTFN7LE
"Royal Robertson" - Wikipedia
Thank humans and nature for parks.
I love a park with space and views and interesting plants and creatures to look at.
If I don't have to be in bed with a heating pad and pain remedies...
I think it is a going to the park, lying on a blanket kind of time.
I feel for this human.
Maybe I would give me drugs to relax me. I am not so relaxed. Guess I will see what kind of sleep or dreams happen.
Saturday, March 07, 2026
Tea...Integratron...
I want to go out to a high tea place sometime. Or see the Integratron. That is expensive, to sign up for a soundbath.
Maybe I don't think I have the most optimal brain functioning right now.
And that's because I don't, because my uterus keeps giving me f****** cramps. But then they get better, but then they come back.
And no one told me that it would be really difficult to choose a good healing way of life. How many things in society can distract you...how many customs...how many ways...
Having a peaceful evening before changing the clocks tomorrow...
"If you are feeling overwhelmed..."
adam.floatinghome
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVeGtzrjMdt/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"RACHEL FROM NEW YORK | Omeleto"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=KwlqckmjN7A&si=jmlJ4m_hmQtNY8Fk
"Whatever you think this film is about..."
bronxzou
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVjsRfQj_I-/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Is my uterus acting like a pimp?
Thanks to the uterus, I've seen a new-to-me music video.
I wanted to know why my uterus wanted to hurl me over a cliff after I had two good healing encounters and a nap and I thought it was a relatively peaceful day, and this is the song I felt like looking up.
Aerosmith - "Livin' On The Edge (Official Music Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=7nqcL0mjMjw&si=cJNu9HnAEXA3xmY9
This is good calming stuff to spritz and add to all the other remedies right now.
Hope the Cosmic Mother is going to help with the medical bills, too.
Practicality practicality practicality.
I hope the Cosmic Mother is pleased with me.
I'm never doing this again. I don't want any trauma. I don't want any craziness. I just want peace. I'm just, whatever is happening, is going to be in service to a greater healing plan. This is the only way I can survive. Whatever it is that I'm surviving. I need creams and potions and time and space and reworkings and the best vibes and the most balanced chi. And everything of that nature. I have to take care of my feminine side. This is what I'm supposed to do in this lifetime. I have to physically take care of a feminine body and the feminine side of a life experience, and it's a big project, apparently, for this kind of soul to do this kind of work in this kind of lifetime. Okay, good to know about this.
It's a miracle. A sense of humor has returned.
"Colonel Angus Comes Home" - SNL
https://youtube.com/watch?v=3l2oi-X8P38&si=5NY0F79XmM41O9Vb
"The Corporal" - SNL
Because they're really good...
Bad guys that are really good guys (I know) can help a lot.
Bad guys that are just selfish and mediocre or the truly bad guys who are just awful are not going to help at all and they need to stay away.
I think the universe can help arrange that.
There's so much strong wind blowing outside.
The wind is blowing after a rainy season this year. I hope that helps prevent any fires.
Pain has lessened greatly and that's so amazing! Sigh.
Some of the other music that transcends everything is coming back to me too.
I get to have my die and get reborn again experience this way. Maybe that's why this is happening.
Everything could be wiped out. All the stuff that's hard to deal with can just go. I could be sublimely reborn. I want to be reborn and new to the world again. And now I can have this experience. It's happening and it's bigger than myself.
My experiences in my body can be bigger than they are.
No horrible institution or sadistic group of people can take my own personal pain and healing process away from me. My own experiences wipe out any knowledge of what they've done or are doing, at least for a little while. My body is bigger than them. I'm just trying to understand what's going on right now.
Maybe I'm being helped. Maybe this process helps me.
Easier to say on the other side of terrible pain. But I wonder if it is so.
STOP MENSTRUAL CRAMPS - "Luna's Touch" - Pain Relief
Mercifulness.
The beautiful pain relief is starting to kick in. Chewed ginger but it wasn't doing much, and then I got down an ibuprofen, black currant seed oil, some swallows of a banana almond smoothie because I could tell my stomach would be upset by the ibuprofen otherwise, and magnesium.
Dear Angels, please help this body.
I need healing so much more than I need anything else? Because I am in a state of suffering from pain really badly right now again.
Say goodbye to old ways again.
Ask the universe for more help you when you get shocking reminders that the cult still wants most people to act like uncaring participants in a Sexually Violent and Narcissistic Patriarchal Cult. The cult mentality blatantly does not care about safety, equity or kindness towards most women and girls. It's members are so desperate to please the worst elements in their wounded culture that it makes them behave in very insensitive ways. Their choices will only look more desperate and foolish in the future as society gets rid of the old toxic patterns.
It's hard to be here right now.
Cramps and chills.
My body is difficult to be in again.
I have a heating pad.
I'm going to do a castor oil pack.
The good cat is with me.
Friday, March 06, 2026
🍃🌬️🔚🪟
"1️⃣Han Puri -- 'The Unraveling of Han'"
howmindswork_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVXfYddjlfB/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Survivor mode.
I'm only going to be more dedicated to healing and seeking healing and staying away from people who do not have enough sensitivity to put the focus on healing when I am still in a fragile state, and in that way I will survive.
It broke again.
I'm going to ask the cosmic mother to help me, because the temporary tooth is not going to last. It's wiggling. Brokenness is what's happening right now.
Your family is unloving and shallow and sexist and cruel and treats male rapists better than they treat girls and women.
I am not turning myself into someone who makes excuses for rapists, just so your shallow, unloving immature, cruel, sexist family treats me better. Because it's impossible.
They will never treat me better. It won't work. I never want to act like them or you. I will die first. I probably will die soon. Either metaphorically or physically. Everybody's going to die soon anyways.
Your horrible excuses for misogyny and rape culture were an absolute horror show to endure.
Torture is not too strong of a word.
My health is paying the price right now.
Not everyone can be as willfully ignorant and insensitive to rape victims and sexual assault survivors as you are.
I hope those bad, sexist patterns do not continue, and that you are the last ones to continue them.
Maybe you'll get the motherly motivation to get better at "real love" now.
Life destroying menstrual cramps seemed kind in comparison to your misogynistic, excessively servile, rape-culture excusing, patriarchal ways.
I can't wait to meet them, though!!!
Here's to your or other people's unborn great-grandchildren who will be so grateful about being less terrible to girls and women than you were.
As you have more selfish "fun" with your Patriarchal rape culture friends in the future...
You're not invited into my alternate universe where people actually do manage to treat one another well and perform acts of love and treat one another well. Fluids everywhere and everything. It's a rape culture free zone, unlike your f****** workplaces and sad social gatherings.
Their babies also deserve to be around people who are better at respecting other human beings than you are. And they will be raised by people who are better at it than you are.
You're a shallow, sexist, creepy, selfish Patriarchal servant and you're not invited there.
You had plenty of time to make yourself a better person. You're clearly unmotivated to get better because you're so desperate to fit in with patriarchal society and that's your first "love."
It's too violent, and so it will not work out.
Go away.
That's not how I show my love right now.
I believe I have felt love but I am not hanging out with s***** misogynistic assholes who cater to rape culture for meager temporary rewards. I don't care how rich they are. I don't care what political positions they've held. I don't care how many babies they've pushed out of their bodies or how many women they've impregnated. Or how good they are at making excuses for the bad behaviors of the patriarchy.
Go f*** yourself.
What kind of "love" do you really want?
What kind of "love" do you think you need?
What kind of "love" do you mean?
Is it too mean???
You're fine???
You're just not sexually predatory or misogynistic enough to be "successful" in some places.
If you had raped underage girls they would just love to root for you more, I guess???
If you accepted more semen in your life and pushed out babies and turned a blind eye to sexism, you would be doing what good girls are supposed to do for the Patriarchal Society???
Your paycheck would be fatter???
People would love you more???
What kind of love is that???
Woe. I mean, WOE. I mean, WOE!
"Mt. SAC women’s basketball coach Brian Crichlow wins Coach of the Year for a third year"– SAC Media
"Mt. SAC coach accused of sexual abuse to remain employed, school says" – SAC Media
https://sac.media/2023/02/10/mt-sac-coach-accused-of-sexual-abuse-to-remain-employed-school-says/
"Investigating Lawsuits Against Mt. SAC" – SACMedia
https://sac.media/2022/07/27/investigating-lawsuits-against-mt-sac/
"Recapping Mt. SAC’s Recent Harassment and Discrimination Cases" – SACMedia
https://sac.media/2022/08/08/recapping-mt-sacs-recent-harassment-and-discrimination-cases/
They can help the children and grown people in the concentration camps in five future lifetimes maybe.
In the meantime, as they're helping people like Elon and Wendy, maybe they can also invite some of the predators from Sona's training ground to join them.
"Mt. SAC coach accused of sexual abuse to remain employed, school says"
https://sac.media/2023/02/10/mt-sac-coach-accused-of-sexual-abuse-to-remain-employed-school-says/
Investigating Lawsuits Against Mt. SAC – SACMedia
https://sac.media/2022/07/27/investigating-lawsuits-against-mt-sac/
"2023 Mt SAC Alumnus of the Year Sona Movsesian"
100% SURE
I'm sure Michelle and Sona and Conan would treat Elon, The DAD of The CENTURY, far better than they would ever treat me. They should hang out with him. I spent enough time with him. Them, and Elon and Elon's Baby Mamas can probably help each other a lot.
Honestly, I think I just have to go find much better people to look at and think about now.
Isn't the psychological pain of misogyny so damaging, too?
Since I heard a crack, I wonder if my temporary crown will last the weekend?
I think you should figure out why, and start expecting better of humanity.
You are still behaving like a human being who wants to be cruel and insensitive towards the people you were trained to treat like garbage, just to be able fit in with a cruel, insensitive patriarchal pattern, perpetuated by the cruel and insensitive patriarchal cults.
They must have really wormed their ways into your vulnerable brain at a very, very tender age. I hope your children are a lot better to other kinds of people than you have been, but I'm really not counting on it.
On the bright side, they have so much in common!
Conan and Sona and Michelle could probably really help someone like Wendy. Why don't they reach out? What's stopping them? I think they're just still too addicted to treating girls and women who aren't incubating patriarchal patterns the way they are like worthless garbage. I think that's what's stopping them. I'm sure Wendy was very traumatized by being gestated in the body of a teenager. And by having a dreadful father. I'm sure she needs a lot of help that people like them just can't provide for people like her. Maybe she'll find a better church. Stop posting such racist, misogynistic disgusting things.
They're just being so discriminatory and dishonest and sexist and patriarchal.
Since Conan and Sona and Michelle still give me very strong vibes that they lack respect for most women and girls, and Conan spied on me and barked at me like a dog, I want them to explain why they also still have to act like poorer people are worthless pieces of garbage compared to rich people.
What is it that makes it feel SO good for them to act that way?
Apparently, being genetically blessed and financially blessed still doesn't make you want to be a well or healthy person.
Like with a regular, normal level of empathy for what is happening to other people right now.
Apparently, you're still so addicted to your misogynistic sexist survival mechanisms that you just can't stop choosing Patriarchal Patterns and dehumanizing other people.
You don't have the motivation to grow more and become a more respectful person?
Well, that's really all about your comfort level, your motivation, and your enjoyment.
Whatever floats your boat is still very bad for other people but that's what you want.
Just don't expect all people in the future to want to behave the way you did.
Now I'm probably going to have to call a medical professional.
Unfortunately, I heard something snap after I chewed. I wasn't chewing. I was being really good about not chewing all this year. I wasn't chewing. I have had a temporary crown on a healing tooth since the end of December.
But now it's gotten worse.
Now it feels like I'm a being treated like a worthless piece of garbage by the unwell, unempathetic mothers and sexist dads. AGAIN.
Genetically Superior Sona and Genetically Superior Wendy and Genetically Superior Conan and Genetically Superior Michelle will not be able to teach us more about how to not treat people backgrounds like worthless garbage anytime soon, will they. They're too busy fawning over men who treat girls and women badly and getting rewarded.
Sometimes mothers don't do a very good job of raising their children to respect other human beings.
savagewendyvan
https://www.instagram.com/p/DT5EQVKlJxH/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Even if you try to like them personally, and you wanted to like them, they are still so deeply motivated to treat someone like you like a piece of garbage.
They are still being influenced by their patriarchal society to be terrible to others.
Isn't your world kind of bizarre?
Why did so many people vote for these kinds of people to run things? Why.
"The Podcast Bro's War On Childless Women" | Tyler Bender
For the health of society and everything.
Maybe some of you should figure out why some people will just fall all over themselves over the cleverness of certain individuals? And is the point of life, to make people fall all over themselves about you? Or is it to learn more other things about life, and about what's going on with others?
Several true things about today.
Today I'm glad the world is filled with a variety artistic and wonderful and creative people. I've been noticing how sensitive I am to even just some water being spilled on me right now. I feel like it's enough to care for the cat I have, when it comes to caring for little dependent beings. I'm happy the cat is napping next to me while I figure out how to take better care of myself.
Sigh.
Some bedridden with cramps stuff happening today. But it could be worse. It seems like I'm taking care of it now. Actually calming down and not being in pain is such a nice experience that it's almost like a cleansing or something.
My hat I made for myself is cute.
I knitted it in the round and I put a pom pom on it and sometimes people say it's cute if I go out and wear it. But it did something strange where it twisted and it started to look like a turban and reminded me of gurus and of people who need deprogramming from cults, and if that's the case (and I bet it is) then don't delay. Don't do it for me. Do it for yourself.
I had buckets of tears pouring down my face earlier. And now I just feel so much calmer and I'm sipping tea. In a way, this is actually so much better than a lot of stories you might read...
Not messing around with this again.
Got the heating pad and ginger tea with the big chunks of ginger in it because cramps started showing signs of flaring up again.
Who would want to take that belief system away?
Just think of how many people with challenging relationships with their parents would benefit from believing in a caring and compassionate cosmic mother energy.
That's kind of helpful to realize.
Super glad the universe decided to make me weigh more right now actually.
All things pass!
Empathy for the girls and women who have been taught to orbit around cute and wonderful sons and brothers and husbands before moving on to something that's a lot better for everyone and also more cosmically motherly!!!!
Beatles reincarnated might catch some feminine health complications.
Physically spiritually sociologically emotionally mentally psychologically psychically peaking...
She's a Cat Whisperer!
Wow! This is like a completely different cat.
"I just got home from a long day at work to this"
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVe1_kvka3x/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Matador, matador...
I was in the backyard because had to shake out a blanket and it was red and I ended up swishing it back and forth... It was fun. (!)
Los Fabulosos Cadillacs - "Matador (Official Video)"
Bodies, they must be dealt with.
Mine is gurgling. Probably because of my buckwheat crackers and pistachio butter binge.
One time I was in the car and with a friend and I played a longer piece of music for her on my phone and she wanted to stop it when it was most of the way through and play "Dust in the Wind" by Kansas, so we did that, and then we finished the "Impossible Soul" song.
I played her "They Are Night Zombies" because that was the first one I heard, on a college radio station in Claremont, and she didn't like it so much because it reminded her of people going to war, but I felt differently than her, and I still really like it.
"Plenty of people on the Epstein list have children."
"The Podcast Bro's War On Childless Women | Tyler Bender"
Transformative!
That one time I listened to this song and stared at the white stuff the airplanes make in the sky.
"Danger Zone (From 'Top Gun' Original Soundtrack)"
If they're SO concerned...
Why aren't the Podcast Bros obsessed with adopting orphan children????
"The Podcast Bro's War On Childless Women" | Tyler Bender
Staving off death!
Better Buckwheat Maine Crisps (savory fig and thyme), salted pistachio brother, apricot and chia seed fruit spread.
🎼What a song.🎶
Sandwich sounds good.
"The Podcast Bro's War On Childless Women" | Tyler Bender
https://youtube.com/watch?v=aTsjfMx8o0I&si=HXkzQsuu9wgsUjmx
Thank you, comfort zone!
"The Hidden Sexism in Wedding Traditions"
@breakingdownpatriarchy
https://youtube.com/watch?v=m3M9g5HZWZM&si=LRsfDrdsSnsbCm27
I can sleep soundly beneath Mama duck's wing now.
I HAVE to make better use of my restaurant industry experience soon.
"this will haunt me until I drop the check #server"
briannaleetv
I don't mind the "maiden mother crone" thing.
I really have also felt that either men or women could be motherly, I think.
"The holy trinity of maiden mother and crone..."
Steve Nobel
http://youtube.com/post/UgkxCIXEtESMSBoE-BIyZ1AVlfyQsnq1vPNT?si=ZJQZOh2Lhd0qH6gc
"Maiden, Mother, Crone: Embracing the Sacred Feminine in All Her Phases"
https://downtheforestpath.com/2013/12/05/when-maiden-mother-crone-isnt-right/
"You Are A Triple Moon Goddess And Here’s Why | Blog" | Tia Marie Johnson
https://blog.tiamariejohnson.com/you-are-a-triple-moon-goddess-and-heres-why/
Thursday, March 05, 2026
This is 🎶 fun...
She likes Kate Bush! And some people I never heard of. Also a bunch of others I have heard of.
Peaches' "What's In My Bag?" | Amoeba Music
Inspired to honor Frida. Probably visit her house someday.
The Growlers - "Monotonia" (Official Video)
It just feels like cosmic things are happening lately.
I have been having so many weirdly arranged dreams and I've been feeling like even the worst information is somehow being cheered on by groups of enthusiastic onlookers in a spiritual realm or something.
I really think she did a great job with this one!
Also, just remembered my sister's friend who was taking Ozempic got appendicitis the weekend my sister was visiting me and had her appendix out. So don't count on that stuff being popular forever.
"The INSANE Art History of the 'Perfect' Female Body"
bekahart
https://youtube.com/watch?v=8ooRZqSyPig&si=FIAlC8-KMo7Ur3GL
"She Took Compounded Ozempic..."
https://www.healthline.com/health-news/compounded-ozempic-appendicitis
Cilantro harvesting earlier today...
Muchismas gracias!
I had some on my cauliflower crust pizza.
"I work in California, USA and agriculture..."
Obduliah Ag
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTh7KMh6W/
My app informed me I went over my carbs today. However, you're not supposed to assume the app knows what's best. You're supposed to get a personalized plan from a professional. Especially if you're perimenopausal or in menopause. A lot of women are eager to learn more and will pay $$$ for educational content that helps them get their health needs addressed. I believe it will be a burgeoning market.
Lol, the golden retriever paws on the laptop keyboard.
"Waffles has a whole new cat corner to enjoy thanks"
thegoldenbreakfastclub
I like these challenging intellectual activities lately.
Plus, fun inner child tunes.
Kenny Rogers - "The Gambler"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=7hx4gdlfamo&si=86Oop2YfSJLQ35Y0
Color Yarn
I haven't been surfing yet. 🌊
I have to ride my wave of ignorance a little longer.
Blonde Redhead ~ "Melody (Official Video)"
Kvetch
I had so much good feminist content to offer over the years, but what were they interested in instead?
I am so uninspired by size 10 going to size 2 as a success barometer.
However, I am far above a size 10 these days, so I do appreciate the information.
IMO, it would be interesting to see a sexual assault survivor informed dance performance include a woman who's larger and goes to being thinner and then faints because of blood sugar levels and her nutritionist has no idea why, maybe because her nutritionist wasn't trained to work with her type of body, so then the woman starts to eat and get larger again because, you know what, thin has never been good enough to her.
This counting macros has been fun for me so far.
My breakfast today became both breakfast and lunch with the addition of a cup of bone broth and some raspberry leaf tea!
This is something for me to watch.
"almost alien-like"
"The INSANE Art History of the 'Perfect' Female Body"
bekahart
https://youtube.com/watch?v=8ooRZqSyPig&si=FIAlC8-KMo7Ur3GL
You know, you're very lucky compared to some people.
Kristi Noem got fired! Poor Barron still is stuck with the dad he got.
Humiliation is holy.
Waking up after a dream.
"Maybe I'll talk about the library that burned."
(Walked by a burned library.)
" I wonder what they thought when I left my clothes and stuff in that house and never collected it."
(For some reason I believed I was a roommate in a house with these people at one point?)
"Well now this is sad because the little connection or link or whatever that made me hang out with people is lost..."
Waking up.
"You've never actually hung out with these people irl, you idiot."
Life is still challenging but emotionally evolving.
The nose headache is back in a lighter form and there are some lighter cramps starting. But nevertheless, I think things are improving. I'm going to try to just learn what I need to do to learn from this. I have to take better care of myself.
Holy Mary, that really helped! 🌹🙏🏼🧖🏽♀️🚿
This time when I took the shower, I also really went deeper inside of my own psyche, and I got some extra cool insights. Oh my God; that was pretty good. Lovely, lovely, lovely!
!!!💗!!!
Mostly not a very fun day.
I have a sick headache. Being in a hot shower makes it better. And I'm going to take another one now because being in a hot shower makes it better. I'm taking things. I'm trying things. I have supplements and teas and I'm also taking some acetaminophen for the stupid headache finally. After hours of trying other things.
I hate the patriarchy and patriarchal people suck. I hate the patriarchal healthcare system. Shallow chauvinistic horrible people are such enemies of women's bodies. I can't even deal with thinking about these people right now. And I kind of do wish I was dead.
Oh well, I'm sure the shower will perk me up right away.
Today will be dedicated to the exploration of the Macros.
Times are terrifying. But one can burn incense. And look for opportunities.
Plus, you never know, some people in the future might find the tedious details fascinating.
Otto Frank become a very good step-grandfather!
Anne died; Eva lived. Anne's mother died; Eva's mother lived. What could he do?
GRRRR.
"The Trump administration does not value human life. They are using our federal tax dollars to bankroll detention and a deadly deportation machine instead of funding healthcare, food, housing, education, and the systems that actually keep people alive,” the post said. “A system rooted in white supremacy and designed to cage, torture, neglect, and dehumanize human beings cannot be reformed. It must be abolished.”
Los Angeles City Council member Eunisses Hernandez quoted by Ryanne Mena
"Man detained at California ICE facility dies in custody; 9th such death this year"
"GEO Group, the private-prison company that owns and operates the Adelanto ICE facilities, referred questions to ICE.
'ICE is committed to ensuring that all those in custody reside in safe, secure and humane environments. Comprehensive medical care is provided from the moment individuals arrive and throughout the entirety of their stay. All people in ICE custody receive medical, dental and mental health intake screenings within 12 hours of arriving at each detention facility; a full health assessment within 14 days of entering ICE custody or arrival at a facility; access to medical appointments; and 24-hour emergency care. At no time during detention is a detained alien denied emergency care,' ICE said in a news release."
~ Ryanne Mena
Ugh.
Ugh, why were the Germans so stupid when my Grandma was alive? Anne Frank's stepsister could have more to say about it back when she was still living.
Scales are just and fair. ⚖️
Mine said I am one pound lighter than yesterday! Still speaking from beyond the threshold of death, for now.
Am I better yet.
Expectations, expectations.
"Normalize arms ??? I guess"
geniusgirlslerts
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVaFQvNDhk9/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Because of half dreaming / seeing things about diving into a shipwreck...
"Diving into the Wreck by Adrienne Rich" - Poems | Academy of American Poets
https://poets.org/poem/diving-wreck
The bad headache needs ❤️🙏🏻❤️
"The Bad Season Makes the Poet Sad"| The Poetry Foundation
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/47283/the-bad-season-makes-the-poet-sad
Have a theory about why people get crushes on celebrities.
So they can swoon without panicking.
"Maggie Gyllenhaal, Husband Peter Sarsgaard & Brother Jake Gyllenhaal Premiere Their New Movie 'The Bride!' In NYC: Photo 5290586 | Anna Van Patten, Annette Bening, Christian Bale, Corey Stoll, Jake Gyllenhaal, Jessie Buckley, John Magaro, Julianne Hough, Liev Schrieber, Maggie Gyllenhaal, Marisa Tomei, Peter Sarsgaard, Sibi Blazic, Susan Sarandon, Taylor Neisen, The Bride Photos | Just Jared: Entertainment News"
Haha, very funny.
"Before you know it, all the women are going to be taking showers by themselves and self-pollinating."
Complaining now.
I think other people should get weirder. This is too much for me. Anyways, will be digesting all the fiber and protein.
More nonsense!
"Bear in mind that the love of x amount of men equals the love of one woman." Whatever, I'm going back to bed. You keep your advanced teachings to yourself. I have a lot on my plate right now. Or it's more accurate to say that I have put the rest of the food away and I'm digesting enough right now.
Wow! I only ate half a sausage stick and half of the other stuff and I'm already really full.
I guess I'll have to have a second breakfast later.
This looks like breakfast for people who are going camping.
Just one sausage will be fine.
Odd choices, but okay.
I'm a little worried about myself sometimes.
What if I have a type, and it's the type that just doesn't talk back? I'm really disturbed by this thought.
SAINT MOTEL - "My Type (Official Video)"
I think my headache is dissolving!
In addition to produce picked by farm workers, I think I'll have a chicken stick and turmeric popcorn for breakfast.
It's been alarming. ⏰
I'm just considering what's going to happen if some people start getting into making ME into, like, a sort of religious icon in the future. !!!!????🙏🏼🙏🏽🙏🏾🙏🏿
True! So true.
"At least she did her best with what she had to work with according to her understanding of the situation at the time."
I have a headache; however, I am trying.
I think if some (not all) men don't actually LOVE as deeply and truly as some women LOVE, they shouldn't beat themselves up about it too much. But they should recognize the Patriarchal Culture has been incredibly wicked to their kind. They should take some time to process their feelings and HEAL.
I think it's all about levels and layers.
When you really have to heal stuff, you're going to hit more levels and layers of the things you still have to heal as you get further on with the process.
Still, it can be an extremely humbling experience.
I was also extremely shocked when I weighed myself yesterday, but I don't think that this is just about being shocked about a number on a scale.
The number on the scale is just a symptom of some other stuff that needs to be healed.
Be grateful if you need to heal more. What else can be done?
Wow! It's really time to face up to the things that need to be healed because they can't be denied any longer. Physical illness is teaching me things again.
And this is crazy because I honestly thought things were going a lot better. I felt like I was glowing with better health and later I had this really nice, peaceful nap in a park yesterday...
But that was short-lived. Now this just looks like the momentarily rosy glow of innocence. I am going through stuff now. I'm physically having real health challenges. It's painful. I have to get through this and rebuild somehow and get on a path of more healing again.
It's going to be even more about healing than it was before, I guess. I suppose I just have to be grateful that the body is showing me that there's still way more stuff that needs to be healed.
Very humbled.
Wednesday, March 04, 2026
Oh, shock, let me process this better.
Ever since I weighed myself for the first time in quite a while, I'm really shocked by how much I need to attend to my health now. I guess my body has to show me who's boss or something but anyways. Still kind of processing the shock. And it's shocking how vulnerable bodies are, isn't it? I'm so shocked that I'm almost crying in a way.
I'm curious as to why it ended up being that way.
It's odd but also interesting for me to think about different upbringings because I had this mind-body split when I was growing up between the Pacific Northwest having more of the "out there" belief systems and the Midwest having the conservative, grounded in Christianity belief system. So it's weird to think that not very far away from where I was experiencing the more "conservative" belief systems during vacations every summer (and some winters), other people were sort of having what I would have believed was more like the "Pacific Northwest belief system" experience? It's as if something in my little kid mind can't quite process or wrap my head around the idea. The Midwest is where the conservative people were. The Pacific Northwest was where the other kinds were. I knew I was supposed to act one way in the Midwest and another way in the Pacific Northwest! But clearly, my experience was not necessarily the same as other people's experiences.
They better!
Hopefully all my spiritual brothers will get to have the really spiritually educational experiences...
Aftermath Everything.
The sky is pink and beautiful. I am egotistically dead after going on a scale for the first time this year in order to use a macros counting app.
I died the deepest ego death.
I guess I do have a deeper respect for how I looked in certain clothes I tried on now.
Wow.
There will be weight training.
I am about to get obsessed with perimenopausal information, too.
I am really grounded in this lifetime now.
Silly human beings...
I got a little pain in my neck cuz I slept wrong but I can still feed my cat.
Tori Amos - "Alamo"
Kyoto Tig
https://youtu.be/3GBJPDuujqQ?si=lzs_FzjY6rgspiCl
"Does anyone have a link to the original 'Alamo'..."
Tuesday, March 03, 2026
Maybe his spirit is well.
It's funny how he's doing this sometimes lately. My stepfather appeared in a dream and was a nurturing person again.
Some say everything is a part of nature.
Parks with areas for wildlife are probably usually more balancing places to be in then casinos though.
Well, I should read this book soon.
"Every Time I Read Virginia Woolf's 'Orlando,' Something Changes"
https://electricliterature.com/every-time-i-read-virginia-woolfs-orlando-something-changes/
Or burned a witch in another century together.
I bet Justin Bieber would have crafted tasteful music with R. Kelly in a casino.
Probably pockets of spirituality in this one.
"Yaamava' Resort & Casino at San Manuel | Best Casino in California"
I met somebody who studied Dolores Cannon and worked there.
Too amusing.
I have wondered if the model on the cover of a certain album came to me in a dream and made me think he was a younger version of Little Creek, (no that's silly, that sounds like a cute little Native American kid's name) LUDOVICO SFORZA, consort of so-and-so, SO many centuries ago! You know, the aliens might plant memories in people's heads because they want people to work things out, or something?
Time to go back to learning French?
"Centuries after Christine de Pizan wrote a book railing against misogyny..."
Very spiritually and mindfully...
I'm going to look at all the spa services and include casinos and resorts which I usually avoid because I'm like "Ew, casinos," but you know, what why eschew casinos? Maybe the Native Americans would like you to spend money at their casino.
I'm concentrating on boring, earth grounding things.
"15 Healthiest Late-Night Snacks To Boost Sleep & Recovery"
https://www.renewcure.com/health-library/healthiest-late-night-snacks/?
"Plus Size and Curvy Swimwear | A Re-Imagining | BloomChic"
https://bloomchic.com/collections/swim
"Lemon Tea"
Erika Lee Sears
https://bsky.app/profile/erikaleesears.bsky.social/post/3mg542hgr4k2v
And NOT being in a cult.
Sharing is caring enough to make a better planet and society.
Mad! GOOD. Change happens.
"I was 14. A girl never forgets. Do better."
MAD-UGH-LYN
Lots of really moving content online these days, huh?
"For years I thought my nervous system was the problem."
elenaventurelliofficial
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVYOJRFCIPZ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Way to make me feel fortunate!
"have you seen any other silly last names in Germany?"
germanwithsammy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVb6f-2j-dN/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Do you think we might live in a culture of disembodiment?
"Epstein, ‘Lolita’ and a Culture of Disembodiment" - The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/03/03/style/epstein-files-lolita-photographs.html
"Disturbing images released in the Epstein files showing passages from Nabokov’s infamous novel written on bodies exemplify a world where women and girls are treated as objects for consumption."
~ Rhonda Garelick
I feel that life has kind of dealt with me in a certain way.
I feel above average prepared for certain things. For example, if somebody dies and if they come back as another person, and they remember living in a previous time, I'm above average prepared to deal with that, even though it would still be weird, even for me.
Die, patriarchy, die.
I think there's going to be a lot more weirdness coming from chicks, you guys.
💄She smolders premenstrually. ❤️
It's so slow that if you speed it up it looks normal.
Hollies - "Long Cool Woman (In A Black Dress)"
Tom Kuzmich
Yeah!
We have got to get our girlfriends more financial stability and some better health insurance, huh?
Ethnic food has never tasted better in my life than it has this year!
Greek, Mexican, Italian, German, etc. Maybe even plain American. Lots of other kinds, too.
What year did this song come out?
The Hollies - "Long Cool Woman (In a Black Dress)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=g8XiNKsKyVk&si=vA1eePUIH1hziPmG
"A few of my favorites :)"
emily marin
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8xXwbJk/
"Long Cool Woman in a Black Dress" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Long_Cool_Woman_in_a_Black_Dress
1972! Maybe girls could wear pants and take shop class in school by then.
"Novellum: A Girl Called Al by Constance C Greene"
https://ianwoodnovellum.blogspot.com/2015/03/a-girl-called-al-by-constance-c-greene.html?m=1
But why did they get rid of homec? They still had shop when I was in junior high.
"Sewing some skirts from the most beautiful fabrics"
bernadettebanner
https://youtube.com/shorts/Wp_7sBdQzIs?si=9i4Ff9wmnCJ97Qzy
I feel like I could have learned so much more about sewing.
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