People do have to tend to their own healing and affix their own oxygen masks first.
forthesoul podcast
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWjYd8yDs5N/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Saturday, May 09, 2026
She had a long winter.
November to May.
"Maine teen released from ICE custody returns home"
https://www.wmtw.com/article/maine-teen-out-of-ice-custody-released-texas-olivia-andre/71256976
Fun to notice little things.
Like one time recently when I was out shopping, and I passed by a mom and a kid, and a store employee had directed me to the restroom but neglected to give me the code, and the mom said, it needs a code, and her daughter said, I know it, and punched it in for me, and let me in. I said thank you, and her mom told her she was clever and a spy.
Creative, too!
People need to get more collaborative and talkative. That's not necessarily the same as being performative.
What if it gets risky for someone like you to buy some socks?
ICE smashed her car windows and took her while she was buying her son some socks. But after 4 months she's coming home. Who paid for her to be locked away for 4 months? This is ridiculous.
"Albany mother of 2 released from ICE custody after 4 months"
Friday, May 08, 2026
Finished. So beautiful to behold!
The ball of hand painted yarn is ready to work with again!
Tori Amos - "i i e e e (Live Sessions 1998)"
Getting closer to becoming a workable ball of yarn again!
Progress! ✨
Tori Amos - "Caught a Lite Sneeze (Live Sessions 1998)"
Oh well, missed that!
"Look Up! The Halley's Comet Meteor Shower Is Just About to Peak"
https://www.sciencealert.com/look-up-the-halleys-comet-meteor-shower-is-just-about-to-peak
Recalibrating.
"I started hearing voices"
annaakana
https://www.instagram.com/reel/C2kWsBdrpbA/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Maybe some MORE dads should get gossiped about at our tea party.
Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers - "Don't Come Around Here No More"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=h0JvF9vpqx8&si=iB8B4tHorLIdybct
Most dads who get / got more rewarded for being catered to and waited on in a very imbalanced Society are going to act shallow if it gets them more attention, and next to nobody ever expects them to be even the least bit enthusiastic if you say, "Hey, let's read something about Joan of Arc or Christine de Pizan or something." Or expects them to get rallied up at all if their very own wives' and daughters' and granddaughters' bodies are being the most threatened by the people who got voted in, and they are the ones who voted for them, and they are messing everything up now for lots of less privileged people who deserve much better.
St. Vincent - "Broken Man (Official)"
The only disturbing dream I had last night
involved one of these guys hanging out in a kitchen with some other people acting meanly diffident.
"Conan & Jordan Share A Kaiseki Meal" | CONAN on TBS
Keep calm.
Glad I found the tail end of this mess.
I get a good ⭐ star for finding the tail end of the mess!
People who are still attending the mega churches that want them to vote for predators get a t-shirt booth set up outside their church: "Proud parents and grandparents of future children with daddy issues bring their $ here! 😜"
I felt like writing down the GLP-1 producing foods in a notebook
Categories are: fiber-rich, lean protein, healthy fats, fermented foods, polyphenol-rich foods and then some specific compounds.
"Spring Haze"
Tori Amos
https://youtube.com/watch?v=nao0KjzYxnw&si=aijPAsw8lGhdBHGj
This song used to make me think of crispy thin chocolate crackers dipped in lemon curd, but if I eat while playing the song again soon, I think I'm going to try something else. Maybe tangy berries with some kind of seed and yogurt?
If it was a thought it wanted me to think it.
Daycare drama.
https://www.reddit.com/r/AnneofGreenGables/s/icnX7PKgjo
"Scarlet's Walk (2023 Remaster)"
Tori Amos
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Yhwu9yvL_1U&si=SboZaFlVYCBrKxl_
Crocheting again.
"Virginia (2023 Remaster)"
Tori Amos
https://youtube.com/watch?v=qyB1_PXFbHg&si=KYTn7WoWXouwkcCa
"I Can't See New York (2023 Remaster)"
Tori Amos
What makes a person become like this?
So freaking mean and lacking in empathy.
"the way kroger treats it's employees"
https://www.reddit.com/r/mildlyinfuriating/s/0z1UQ91EBw
Gonna show a good manager how a bad manager would act and ask for an opinion.
Just stay awake. A bad dream can't get me.
Also, I was neglecting my consumption of high quality cat video content, and I have to rectify that now.
"you can tell if granny lu is having a good day..."
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DW3sXZykQ8g/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Like Sunday morning..." 🎶 Ha-ha, just kidding.
"Easy and cheesy"
They made some brave choices with this high protein cooking staple.
"14 Cottage Cheese Recipes That Will Change The Way You Use It"
https://www.southernliving.com/cottage-cheese-recipes-11948213
Doing the Wordle because I heard it's an interesting one today.
Modern Love:
"My Mom Had a Secret Daughter. I Finally Found Her."
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/04/29/podcasts/mom-secret-daughter-half-sister.html
Very depraved people. Highly insensitive. Must be on one of their first lives.
Feel good in knowing that you're a way better person than the best ones in this bunch.
"At Largest ICE Detention Camp, Staff Bet on Detainee Suicides, AP Reports" – Mother Jones
Anyways, got to get back to the humorous side of things now.
Not going to go back to sleep right away.
This is like a humorous creative writing group prompt my brain just concocted:
"A song called 'You gave bad sex a good name,' in honor of some of the fatherly ones of this modern era."
Music Therapy Exists!
The Patriarchy's traumatized children will be the glad recipients of it.
"Porpora: Magnificat"
@vocalartsmilwaukee
The typical stuff can burn out now.
Too boring how people become little carbon copies of what they saw role-modeled for them. Even the people that you wouldn't have expected to do that end up doing it.
Extinction burst, come on.
Saw this video on MTV a lot when I was a child.
Talking Heads - "Burning Down the House (Official Video)"
"I'm short on time..."
embodimentwithemily
https://www.instagram.com/p/DXu2uwKASkb/?img_index=3&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Thursday, May 07, 2026
I do love independent radio stations, and I want to listen to them more now.
Animal Collective - "Man of Oil"
Hana Stretten - "Thrill of Loneliness"
Tara Clerkin Trio - "In Spring"
Kaitlyn Aurelia Smith - "Stratus"
Salami Rose Joe Louis - "Nostalgic Montage"
Gia Margaret - "Barely There"
Julia Holter - "So Humble The Afternoon"
After the show on the Montreal station about Superman Dynamics which made me feel very up and down because it was partly very interesting but I'm pretty sure they would have said, but Clark Kent is exhausting at least once if they had been more feminist DJs, I enjoyed this other show (Memory Tape?) and I wrote down some of the other songs too; I will look them up later.
No gonna click on you. Big Rebellious Energy here.
"The human brain appears to rely heavily on the thighs to accurately judge female body size." Why do I f****** care???
So tired! I want to cry.
I just woke up and I'm emotionally exhausted. I just don't think I like any kind of art or music as much as I used to anymore. I'm so bad at being a groupie. It's not even funny. Nobody should ever expect me to be as great at fawning over a genius artist as other people are; other people are way better at it.
Anyways, I'm on a journey.
Excuse me if I'm not perfection, but I guess I just have a feeling I am being led somewhere.
It's also giving me "Some men have more empathy for women" vibes..
"Riggs was a gay Cherokee playwright, born in Indian Territory in 1899. He was a disappointment to his father, a banker and a rancher. Photographs of Riggs show him to be a man of slight build, something of an “egghead” with his glasses and premature balding. What was his experience with the hypermasculinity and heteronormativity of the West? Did he experience hazing and bullying as a rite of passage? Did he learn to “stand it” in order to become an adult? Is he telling us something about the survival of his people, as each new generation has had to face a heritage of ongoing violence, denigration, and theft?"
"Green Grow the Lilacs and Oklahoma!: The Appropriation of Native Perspective" - Carolyn Gage
Green Grow the...Ack, Why????
"Charivari” dates all the way to medieval and early modern Europe, where it was a ritual used to punish members of a community who failed to conform to social norms, especially sexual norms. Targets of the charivari might include a widow who remarried, a wife who assaulted her husband, or a couple who failed to have children. In France, where the term originated, teenaged boys and unmarried men traditionally led the ritual, parading through the streets, shouting mocking insults, beating on pots and pans, and threatening violence. During the seventeenth and eighteenth centuries in England, these males would also attack local brothels during Lent. If the victim paid his or her tormentors off with money or wine, the charivari might end without these threats being carried out.
Apparently, until two hundred years ago, most Europeans thought the charivari was a legitimate and effective practice for curbing social deviance. It allowed for a public venting of outrage, with the opportunity for a “peaceful” resolution of a potentially explosive situation. In other words, it served as a kind of communal vent for blowing off steam… an exorcism of deviance. The victims were shamed, but then reintegrated into the community.Here’s the thing: It’s actually a rape culture ritual empowering young males to assert their primacy and dominance in the community, and especially with regards to widows who dare to remarry, women who most likely were just attempting to defend themselves in abusive marriages where their husbands had legal rights to rape and batter, married women attempting to salvage some degree of bodily autonomy and/or freedom from compulsory serial pregnancy by practicing birth control or abstinence, and women who were prostituted. The historical roots of the 19th century Midwest shivaree were not in a playful hazing of newlyweds, but in a sanctioned, violent policing by gangs of young men over women who, in their eyes, were not sufficiently sexually subordinate.
Even when church and secular authorities attempted to outlaw charivari, local authorities were reluctant to prosecute these gangs of young men. Possibly, they feared reprisals against their persons or their properties, as coming between young men and what they perceive as their sexual prerogatives can be dangerous. Not surprisingly, when gang rape or other forms of violent assault occurred within the context of a charivari, the sentencing would be considerably lighter than under other circumstances."
"Green Grow the Lilacs and Oklahoma!: The Appropriation of Native Perspective" - Carolyn Gage
See you again...
Hello, ants. Hello, memory of the boy who was feeding gummy bears and talking to the ants.
Nature is very good and loves us.
You can take your kind of PTSD to Nature, and I can take my kind of PTSD to Nature. Nature is forgiving.
One of the themes could be...
These ladies are making your next lives much better for you right now. Gentlemen.
"Pandemic of men loneliness"
jowett.persida
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DX05CU7NFNq/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Yes, Universe.
Ever feel like something bigger than yourself was happening and you're just, like, the little mouthpiece for something that's part of a much bigger plan.
I'm going to have a walk in nature because I believe it will be very good for my health.
Like, nature has really great balancing and grounding qualities. I feel like there's stuff that's getting kind of twisted and is more mangled and not as clear as it could be.
Might feel differently tomorrow, or sooner, or not as soon as tomorrow.
I believe if our roles were reversed that I would be doing a better job right now. 😂 Why? I guess I just don't really know if I would be, but I like to think so. What I'm saying is, is I think that I would have access to more expressions of empathy for different people, and I would have more people around me who are more empathetic, who would also have empathy for others. I'm not saying that there's none. I'm not saying life is devoid of empathy. It's just that there's less than there should be. Should is a strong word, and I'm not in a good mood today so... A bad dream that started off my day wrong is still lingering.
"Literally just be a functioning person."
valenoffline
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYDODLiBHoe/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I can't deal with them some days. It's really too painful.
Thanks to the culture they were brought up in, there are a lot of shallow women and men who are still deeply invested in maintaining a shallow sense of what should be considered normal in this era, as far as safety goes, and sadly, that is at the expense of others.
Some of them also listen to sensitive music, I'm sure.
Quite a few.
"UPDATE/ EDIT: It was 62 million"
berecker and sander_jennings
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXMVSQ3ERz8/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
They're a problem when it comes to making things safer for the vulnerable.
Men should get better at noticing how often they defer to other men.
The culture hasn't brought them up to be that way.
In this patriarchal society, biological parents, as a whole, do not just naturally have any particularly special inclination to be concerned about their children's health or different genetics. I do think most of them have the idea that they should feed and clothe the child but that's also mixed up with all the training they got about needing to use violence to discipline children. Anyways, things are changing. But I don't think a healthy society that cares about the well-being of children would have any ICE detention facilities and we have a bunch of them now.
Sort of like the opposite of secondary gains.
If you're a mom or a dad, your kids are going to be very traumatized if you're not treated well, too.
Like it's awesome that she's out now, but she might be traumatized still.
"Texas mother of 4 says 'no one is safe' after spending more than 6 weeks in ICE custody" - CBS News
https://www.cbsnews.com/news/texas-mother-speaks-weeks-ice-custody/
I guess that was a fun, in denial vibe, at the time.
Lots of masking; so much masking! Things were more boring not so long ago. Some women had more access to certain rights. Why do people have to act shallow in order to succeed? What was it like to feel pressured to act like that? Maybe that would be a more interesting question to ask.
Start asking guys what it's like, too. Because guys should be asked what it's like.
"Don't ask St. Vincent ... "
VICE
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DX5kAtakQ5Y/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Never even thought of this.
"For the love of everything holy..."
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYCaK0Bpm9J/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Witchier...
Today I learned that Judy Blume wrote "Growing Up and Liking It."
"Anyone remember reading this?"
https://www.reddit.com/r/GenX/s/L8WKfoaVj9
I also learned that there was a video with the cast of "Annie."
"Growing Up on Broadway - 1984 educational video - ANNIE orphans discuss menstruation"
Witches, wit-ches, which is...
🧙🏼♀️🧙🏽🧙🏿♀️
"Did anyone else read "The Witch of Blackbird Pond" and feel absolutely terrified?
Main character: an energetic little dog called Zee Manic Pixie!
"Please just call her Z. Or Pixie."
Another book about a boy; well it wasn't "My Brother Sam Is Dead."
"A Dog Called Kitty" by Bill Wallace | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1004183.A_Dog_Called_Kitty
Or "The Witch of Blackbird Pond."At least today's dream had a happy ending.
I also had a bad dream yesterday, but I ignored it too much. It was about how pathetically patriarchy expects girls and women to act, and how it ends up in violence (The men with guns came to destroy a bad party.) Speaking of which, I watched this at a young age with a good person. Maybe it's time to revisit it again.
"Men with Guns movie review & film summary"
Cute; makes me think of a future grandma.
The kind of grandma who had such a kind heart for everybody!
"30 April 2026"
@1940s Cooking
https://youtube.com/shorts/lD5ql1yQwsk?si=qIkdqghHrRo13XZi
Isn't it sad when children have parents who neglect them. Yes, Grandma. And sad that the May Cherokee I mean patriarchy didn't teach them how to ask around or investigate the kinds of questions that really would have given them better answers about what was going on in those abusive family dynamics probably? Yes, Grrr, Yes, Grammy...
To read this book again seems soothing for some weird reason.
"Herbert Rowbarge by Natalie Babbitt" | Goodreads
In lieu of something else.
My bad dream this morning memory mingling with the memory of whatever article I can't find again right now where she said her daughter told her that she doesn't think people in the music industry have good boundaries...
"try Squire of Dimness"
Tori Amos – "She's Your Cocaine"
https://genius.com/Tori-amos-shes-your-cocaine-lyrics
Probably not.
Do you suppose this makes her want to be any nicer to her nephew's mom who got put taken away by ICE.
"White House Press Secretary Karoline Leavitt, 28, Welcomes Baby No. 2 with Husband Nicholas Riccio, 60"
https://people.com/karoline-leavitt-welcomes-second-baby-11958330
Sorry their parents weren't better at parenting.
I think that when people have gotten sucked into unhealthy patterns, subconsciously they want someone to tell them that they got sucked into unhealthy patterns.
Oh, thank you, that's kind of you to say, such a thoughtful and caring...
"Just because some people went crazy because of all the covert abuse and bad stuff their families and cults and Patriarchal Society covered up in order to get access to some temporary personal gains doesn't mean you have to or that you will be like that."
Less shallow, less abusive, less toxic, less punitive patriarchal dynamics this Mother's Day
"Tennessee Tries to Silence Women Nearly Killed by Its Abortion Ban: ‘We Will Have Our Day in Court,’ Pledges Lead Plaintiff" - Ms. Magazine
That's a shirt slogan some of the insensitive Patriarchal Ones can wear everyday.
"Nyah, nyah, my shallow attitude and lack of female reproductive organs gave me superior status in this society."
And for other people, it's more like...
With whose money? Who is at fault?
"ICE removed 16,000+ undocumented immigrants from San Diego since January 2025"
"Disney Cruise ship passenger says ICE detained her waiter upon disembarking" – NBC 7 San Diego
"The names being floated as the next ICE director" - POLITICO
https://www.politico.com/news/2026/05/07/next-ice-director-list-00909052
"At Largest ICE Detention Camp, Staff Bet on Detainee Suicides, AP Reports"– Mother Jones
Love the Sojourners? Pray for the Patriarchal Predatory Persons?
"The Rich Man and Lazarus isn’t a parable about financial planning. Scholars describe it as representing the heart of Luke’s theology of economic justice — a story in which a wealthy man goes to hell explicitly because a beggar sat at his gate suffering and he didn’t notice. Not because he was cruel. Not because he stole the bread from Lazarus’s mouth. Because he had and Lazarus had not and that gap was never addressed. Theologian John Dominic Crossan put it plainly: the parable doesn’t tell us the rich man did anything wrong, or the poor man anything right. The roles simply reverse in the next world. That’s the whole point. That’s what made the Pharisees furious.
Paul doesn’t tell that story. Paul tells you to be content in all circumstances. Paul tells you that godliness with contentment is great gain. Paul’s theology, however unfairly we might be reading it, tilts toward acceptance of social order. Jesus’ tilts toward its interrogation."
"Sojourners — a Christian social justice publication — captured the incompatibility plainly: “I’m supposed to love God and love my neighbor. If I am forced to compete with my neighbor for limited resources, that’s not conducive to being a Christian.” Competition is the engine of capitalism. Love of neighbor is the engine of the Gospel. These are not complementary systems dressed in different clothes. They are adversarial frameworks pretending to share a building.
American Christianity chose competition. It chose the theology that blessed its existing social arrangements and asked the least of its most comfortable congregants. It chose Paul."
~ Derrick Day
"Capitalism, Socialism, And Christians Who Ignore Jesus"
Interesting to read this one now.
"Jesus never said anything close to prosperity theology. He said a rich man entering Heaven would have an easier time after a camel cleared a needle’s eye. He told a wealthy young man who had followed every commandment to sell everything he owned and give it to the poor. The man walked away sad, which is one of the most honest moments in the Gospels.
Paul is easier. Paul gives you structure. Paul tells you how to run a household, how to relate to government authority, how to organize a congregation. Paul is manageable in a way that Jesus frankly isn’t. You can build a denomination on Paul. Building one on the Sermon on the Mount is considerably harder, because the Sermon on the Mount tells you to give to anyone who asks and to stop worrying about tomorrow.
A country built on capital accumulation cannot easily absorb a savior who told people to stop accumulating. So it absorbed his apostle instead and called it the same thing."
~ D. Day
"Capitalism, Socialism, And Christians Who Ignore Jesus"
"The Theological Audit
Capitalism requires scarcity logic. Resources are finite, competition is natural, and the allocation of those resources through markets is efficient. Its highest virtues are productivity, self-reliance, and the freedom to accumulate without ceiling.
The Jesus of the Gospels repeatedly broke scarcity logic for dramatic effect. Loaves multiply. Wine appears from water. Twelve baskets of leftovers remain after five thousand people eat. Whether you read these as historical miracles or theological statements, the point being made is the same: abundance is available. The feast is possible. The problem is never that there isn’t enough — it’s that the wrong people are controlling what there is."
~ Day
Nightmare noted; set better boundaries.
I was walking on a beach in the dark in what began as a bad dream, and I made this this crying out noise either to try to scare off a predator or maybe call out for help, and some footsteps came around me and then a kindly, gentle feminine presence was there. It was definitely kind and not like a selfish patriarchal man or woman who has to act like an insensitive jerk in order feel like he or she has some kind of superior status over others.
Cults are cruel. They are not good for the mental or spiritual health. If you can tell that you would rather go to a medical OB-GYN appointment that causes pain and blood because at least there they act like competent and somewhat caring professionals then hang out with people whose vibes keep them acting like assholes, and it's making you feel sick to try to accommodate them, that's a sign you need boundaries and you don't want to be in their cult. Their cult is not for you. Hopefully they get healed in the future but that's not your job right now because your job is to set boundaries and not be around these people. Sometimes that's what you learn from insensitive people, that you're not supposed to be around them. There are other kinds of people who are better for you.
Wednesday, May 06, 2026
It would be nice to have better feelings.
"My thoughts on the Met Gala"
embodimentwithemily
https://www.instagram.com/p/DX8A1XfCTxE/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Wouldn't it just be nice to get a feeling that some people finally figured out how to take better care of themselves without being atrociously insensitive jerks.
I was thinking about works of art that address inequity and shame. Because I'm feeling disappointed.
One work of art could address that feeling of being ashamed of those who were taught that they are entitled to be bad to the women. I mean truly, they really were.
Another could express feeling ashamed of the brainwashed by the patriarchy male and female relatives who are still too tongue-tied and illiterate to know how to say they're sorry about the inequity / abuse, and they are still constantly making excuses for things if they think they can get something from doing so that benefits them in the short term.
And not thinking of the bigger picture is apparently their "safe" space. So they have to throw their all into everything else that they possibly can in order to avoid facing themselves. How long is that supposed to last???
Well, however long that period of time is, it certainly will not be sufficient for everyone. That's for sure, and that's been made pretty obvious to me on a numerous occasions.
In honor of Our Cosmic Mother who see many kinds of human beings...
Me and male coworker were standing at the back of the store waiting to get our cash registers reconciled at the end of the shift.
Manager who liked to sing Madonna songs when he wore his headset: "Okay, who's first?"
Male coworker: "ME! ME! ME!"
Manager (smirking): "Oh, chivalry is not dead!"
(And that was not long after I had just got back from the place where they called me "flaca.")
Yeah, gravitas is still needed on this planet though.
🌎🌦️🌊🏝️
"The Girl Who Has Never Laughed (with Aisling Bea, Tom Allen and Charlotte Ritchie)"
Turtle Canyon Comedy
https://youtube.com/watch?v=8ZFdE5c5IpY&si=qaYShlfZg4CNVZkx
"Hyperbole and a Half" / "Green Grow the Lilacs"
There it goes again.
🌽🫘🌼
This reminded me of the three sisters! Corn is one of them.
"working at milpa in California"
Obduliah Ag
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkWdX2YY/
"In her book Braiding Sweetgrass..."
venuvana and alter_nativelife
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWYJWVBjZI4/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Hyperbole and a Half" / "Green Grow the Lilacs"Can this voice be ascribed to Mother Nature?
"At times my presence might be unsettling, but after experiencing it, people tend to leave improved versions of themselves."
Mother Nature. I'll try to remember!
This one...I love it! 🌼
"Daisy Dead Petals (B-Side Version)" (2006 Remaster) ~ Tori Amos
https://youtube.com/watch?v=w7oC-jqdwCQ&si=v4cNB8q2entw_UUj
Same with this one. Not a lot of information about it in the book.
Not every song has lots of information about it in the book.
Looked for more about this one in the book, but there wasn't a lot of information about it.
Tori Amos – "Not David Bowie Lyrics" | Genius Lyrics
They skipped "Tender Buttons" in poetry class.
"Tender Buttons [Objects] by Gertrude Stein" - Poems | Academy of American Poets
https://poets.org/poem/tender-buttons-objects
"Callous is something that hardening leaves behind what will be soft if there is a genuine interest in there being present as many girls as men. Does this change. It shows that dirt is clean when there is a volume."
Hmmmm. Interesting.
Thoughts from my head...I will put last?
Message from the universe: "My cervix looks nice now."
Thoughts from my head: "I wonder what my cervix looks like now." When I was about 14, I had an exam and a doctor was surprised when he saw my cervix. He opened the door so another doctor (a woman) could come in to look at it. At one point it seemed like there were several different people there hanging out in the room and the hallway, chatting about how my cervix looked unusual. "Normally it looks sort of like the end of a hot dog, but yours looks more like the sawed-off end of a hot dog." And then they talked about it like it was so fascinating for at least five minutes. Decided it was okay that it looked like that; it was probably because I was young and still developing. And then a little bit later, the guy was like, "Oh, sorry if you were uncomfortable."
Never heard a word about a cervix looking like a sawed-off hot dog at any other time after that.
It felt like "Put the Blame on Mame, Boys" was getting in my head recently.
Rita Hayworth is in the news.
"Put The Blame On Mame" - Gilda (1946)
This is sad.
"Inland Empire sheriffs above average in transferring detainees to ICE, data shows" – Daily News
Would have been fun to see it there, huh? 🎭
"Will Geer’s Theatricum Botanicum, ensconced somewhere in Topanga Canyon north of Malibu"
"Green Grow the Lilacs": Summer of the 'Okies'"
https://www.peoplesworld.org/article/green-grow-the-lilacs-summer-of-the-okies/
Can't just read it and not use the internet? I suppose.
"Looking with New Eyes: A Classic Through a Queer Lens" – Connecticut Voice
https://ctvoice.com/2024/10/14/looking-with-new-eyes-a-classic-through-a-queer-lens/
Going to also look at "Green Grow the Lilacs" because there was a copy of it available for a really cheap price at a library yesterday.
"The Wanting Monster: A Tender Modern Fable"
https://www.themarginalian.org/2026/05/02/the-wanting-monster/
"Green Grow The Lilacs"
And then what happens? Civil rights?
"ICE agents storm Disney cruise docking in California and arrest multiple staff in front of stunned passengers"
https://www.yahoo.com/news/articles/ice-agents-storm-disney-cruise-135514385.html
Comma splice. Oh, to look at medieval manuscripts again!
"Medieval manuscripts were not silent, study finds images triggered sound in viewers' minds"
https://www.reddit.com/r/MedievalHistory/s/aJ3X3Ally8
"Medieval manuscripts were not silent, study finds images triggered sound in viewers’ minds" | Archaeology News Online Magazine
https://archaeologymag.com/2026/05/medieval-manuscripts-were-not-silent/
Lots of information can really overwhelm a nervous system 👼🏽.
Pay careful attention to the babies in their teething stages! I don't think anyone should chew up as many clothes as I did. And I wish I had my two real front teeth.
This reminded me of the three sisters! Corn is one of them.
🌽🫘🌼
"working at milpa in California"
Obduliah Ag
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkWdX2YY/
"In her book Braiding Sweetgrass..."
venuvana and alter_nativelife
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWYJWVBjZI4/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Hmmm. Harvard.
They used to say that Mick Jagger does whatever he wants. Do they still say that?
"Thank you Conan for that...flattering introduction"
😂 @mick jagger @the rollingstones @teamcoco"
iheartradio
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DX-R2Xtt9P6/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I wonder why it affects him so profoundly, and not some others so much?
Perhaps he has his own particular personal experiences that affected him. Maybe he has a deeper level of empathy for victims of violence?
"All men"
jolyonrubs
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXT4q5fgjHL/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
The word "mirabilis" reminded me of another story that would be interesting to see on film.
"Mirabilis by Susann Cokal"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/590147.Mirabilis
"There is so much we can learn from history..."
catgmichaud
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DX13H__tVMu/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Always makes movies better.
Carla, the Caddyshack Cat...
"How Music Resonates in the Brain" | Harvard Medicine
https://magazine.hms.harvard.edu/articles/how-music-resonates-brain
"You know what's even better..."
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DX9RIvGpSFx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This is real.
The people who need to learn how to communicate better are altering my brain chemistry.
Tuesday, May 05, 2026
Cathartic.🎶
I used to listen to this before a work shift at a restaurant.
Tori Amos – "Barons of Suburbia"
https://genius.com/Tori-amos-barons-of-suburbia-lyrics
Possibly after a couple of unpaid days of trying to be supportive in regards to other people's traumas and health issues, which was also a way of handling my own mental health. Don't die. Don't die. Don't die! Song really reminded me of how mean people could be, and how much patriarchal misogyny affected the lives of all kinds of people in the workplace, and how much you were expected to shut up and go along with some really bad behavior, and when you didn't, oh boy the bad vibes would just come right at you. Things have gotten better, actually. Progress has been made!
This looks good. I guess I was supposed to read it now.
It was just sitting on the counter behind the flexible Plexiglass glass and I said can I check that out and they said sure.
And "Possessing the Secret of Joy" by Alice Walker.
Oh good grief:
"The narrative has also been cleverly controlled by the patriarchy. One unbelievable myth warns that an uncut clitoris will grow to the size of a penis, heaven forbid."
Page 96
"Resistance: A Songwriter's Story of Hope, Change, and Courage by Tori Amos" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/pl/book/show/42202009-resistance
Which types of bodies are they hating?
Humans are cute sometimes.
I wouldn't say that I love when people get famous as a result of life purpose or whatever (I guess.) But I sort of love when the people who did get famous let themselves look sloppy in some of their photos. It's like, okay. I guess you don't have somebody in charge of your image, or so in charge of your image that they won't let you look a little sloppy once in awhile.
So...🎶💞🌠🫘🌱🌻
José González - "You & We (Lyric Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=txEPGg_H0Y0&si=vYrzz4C-dPGLsFvi
Oasis - "Don't Look Back In Anger Lyrics"
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/oasis/dontlookbackinanger.html
It's a Medically Metaphysical Life.
The other day I saw a shirt that said Mamacita Needs a Margarita or something like that, and I might get one. I had a medically metaphysical day because of a minor procedure I wasn't even sure I was going to get done at the OB-GYN office. When I saw the pool of blood on the white sheet afterwards, it made me think of all the women who go to the OB-GYN for their own particular reasons and other medical procedures. And then I drove away listening to Madonna's "Secret" and Alannah Myles "Black Velvet" because that's what came on the radio. The word "Rogue" was on the back of the truck in front of me, just as a car with the license plate "GRAHMME" passed me on the left.
Lots of humans have an appetite for horror, I guess.
"funny but Honestly you think adults would be more mature"
"Hyperbole and a half (Book Review)" – Tucker The Reader
https://tuckerthereader.wordpress.com/2018/05/24/hyperbole-and-a-half-book-review/
I kind of like her style.
📜💞✍🏽📝🍃🌠🍂🎶
"I don't know...but I can try..."
sophiaroxanneb
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXiMfkiDZxK/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"I make you a promise at the end"
sophiaroxanneb
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DKLM4GjSPKn/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This is a...This is a horrifying thing to know about!
Hopefully not a single grain of sugar that has ever touched my tongue has come from such a hellhole...
"Both menstruation and pregnancy are considered a hindrance"
shespeaks94
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXb4RmkEdxS/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Ha, humor, the gentle deprogrammer (compared to lots of other things in the world, I mean.)
"The (almost) Daily Wreck: Rec. #797: The Hot Sauce Debacle"
https://yourdailywreck.blogspot.com/2019/04/rec-797-hot-sauce-debacle.html?m=1
"#thoughts"
someguymark
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXceHlaCYfq/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"#mindblown #podcastclips #science"
someguymark
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXhtmPxieVz/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"#relationships #marriage #confession"
someguymark
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DX653d-AxFM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"#thoughts #mentalhealth #mensfashion"
someguymark
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXJ5f6AgEaw/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"#thoughts #spirituality"
someguymark
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXKXCQ2CZmA/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Monday, May 04, 2026
In a way, it's not such a solitary endeavor.
It feels like a solitary endeavor because everybody has to make their own choices as to what they want to do, but a lot of people are being called to make choices that are perhaps better than what got role modeled for them or what they chose in the past. And if the world is filled with people and there's all kinds of people making incremental steps of growth and improvement... That's a collective thing.
These were some other interesting findings from the internet.
"Understanding this helps..."
beahappierparent
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DW5eVhos-wU/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"In honor of the paperback of Boy Mom"
abbyeckel
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DW2AFjkxVX5/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Men are often incentivized not to question..."
jordanritterconn and ruthwhippman
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXjkG8ojr-p/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
People have to pay close attention to themselves and take care of their health.
It's kind of funny how a theme of this life might be that you really have to choose peace first. Especially when I think about how I used to have difficulties with chewing, and most of the time, that's gone away. But every once in awhile maybe some little thing will trigger it. So it's mostly gone. It's, like, 95% gone maybe. But I feel I have to take care of my health and pay attention to a tooth right now.
Pink apple blossoms and more...
I began a new poetry book.
"Journey: New And Selected Poems 1969-1999 by Kathleen Norris"| Goodreads
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