Sunday, September 20, 2026

I'll watch this before I watch the second episode of the show that was originally called Diane de Poitier s.

"The Psychological Trick That Keeps you Obedient"

@barryseconomics

https://youtube.com/shorts/X2ChzBFmnJY?si=aXw-TI-sP-6QeANf

"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers, Ep. 1, Pt. 2" – Frock Flicks

https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-ep-1-pt-2/

"What Poverty Does To The Brain?" - Barry's Economics

https://youtube.com/shorts/QuQj49ay1yg?si=kvtep0NW9JFlhWID

Oh, say it isn't so!

You do realize that the only way to get through to some people is to have access to a shitload of money. You do know that, right?

So entitled, just because of some money! They'd never do this if they weren't getting paid.

"This video shows ICE agents entering a bedroom while a mother stands there holding her baby."

thelaboystandard

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfJcsDxKH4/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

You're the last of the tribe.

Your kids are never gonna get away with being as immature as you got away with being.

Let's journal about that; why not???

Are you sure? I don't know about that.

Let's uphold the pay Cherokee and also fight the good and noble Feminist cause together!

A big fragile eagle you've needed to take care of since even before you were a toddler!

Say it's an eagle. That will make it sound more noble. And terribly important.

I have another thing that sounds like fun to complain about, so I'm going to do it!

How come sometimes you have female friends that are like all feminist when they're one-on-one with you in person but they're never that feminist with a big group of people, huh? What's going on with that? Is that why they can't talk to you, because then they're going to have to start being more feminist, but that's not what they're choosing right now, is it?

Still sucked into the message of the music by that last video!

This is false advertising. They are chopping up the lyrics and only including a little bit of them for you to read on the screen.

The Zombies - "Time Of The Season (Lyric Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=T8ecsAI3FhY&si=ukdL-qlTYHbHqAKE

"We are still trying to understand..."

sherlove971

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdKriG-SXq9/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

There have always been other points of view!

 

"The Student Nurses (1970)"

butchnoir

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdUaXNKBIrQ/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"she's just a girl 💅🏼"

loki.doestricks

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfJnrsuYiH/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"We are still trying to understand..."

sherlove971

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdKriG-SXq9/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Oh, oh, oh.

Some people are seemingly more accepting than others when it comes to handling complicated situations. There seems to be some accidental prejudice and sexism involved. I say "accidental" because I don't think people plotted to be prejudiced and sexist, but I think that they were trained to be prejudiced and sexist by the patriarchy at a very young age and then they act in ways that feel prejudiced and sexist. And then they don't want to talk about it. So it makes things feel very mangled. Why does it have to feel so mangled now? Why is that? Why was the village they were raised in not more accepting of outsiders and more nurturing?

Saturday, September 19, 2026

This is

the best I can do right now.

Today's overdue library book read.

This country really needs to evolve when it comes to taking care of so many different kinds of people.

"A Living Remedy: A Memoir – A Daughter's Narrative of Adoption, Class Inequality, and Grief in America by Nicole Chung"| Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/62050250-a-living-remedy

Maybe this is healthier and better for the nervous system and other organs.

"People are doing the best they can based on their circumstances. It's time to relax your body now. It's time to let go."

This bubbled up as I managed to force myself to leave the vicinity.

"Women who are constantly compelled to make excuses for irresponsible men rarely make history as fantastic feminists."

Ping-ponging and needing to get more balanced in the body again.

I can appreciate that there's other people in the world who have more energy and drive to go out there and do things right now. But I wonder what they do when somebody is in a crisis or in a hospice situation.

I have physical ailments again. Probably minor ones that I just don't want to become major ones, but they are significant enough for me to notice. Several times I have thought I would go out and do some specific tasks somewhere else and it's not happening today. That's fine.

I have a strange metric of progress.

My metric of progress is about chewing on my fingers and clothes less, or not at all. And today has been a not chewing on either of those at all day! And the hard calluses on my fingers are almost gone, especially on the right hand. The left one is still a little bit crazy. But it's way less callused than it used to be.


Progress!

And they're alive and real and communicating!

Sometimes this era makes me feel like my best supporters and friends are ghosts and in my dreams!

And since you can't be bothered to care, when does your attitude seem to say this instead?

"My entitled status and privilege exists to uphold the status quo and to destroy you and your Humanity."

When does this discrimination start to feel really dangerous to you, personally?

Physically or psychologically or emotionally???

"Outcry as Michigan high school asks girls to share details of menstrual cycles"

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/sep/17/michigan-school-period-policy

And the people running things here claim they want women to be able to get pregnant and have more children.

"Maga wants more babies. But they don’t seem too worried about miscarriages in ICE detention"

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2026/sep/19/maga-pro-life-miscarriages-pregnancy-ice-detention

" Not enough of us are standing up to it," he comment s.

In Oregon...

"This video shows ICE agents entering a bedroom while a mother stands there holding her baby."

thelaboystandard 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdfJcsDxKH4/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

When is thoughtlessness not so harmless?

"Hannah Arendt showed it was a kind of 'thoughtlessness' that facilitated the evils of the Nazi regime: a failure to pay attention to serious ethical wrongs."

~ Jacqueline Boaks

"When does being ‘apolitical’ become a political act?"

https://theconversation.com/when-does-being-apolitical-become-a-political-act-an-ethicist-on-the-ed-sheeran-saga-292217

Why does acknowledging other people's Humanity seem to be in opposition to treating certain people in more favored ways than others?

I think that acting like other people's Humanity is important to you could be very beneficial to lots of children, and could also really look good to lots of the grandchildren in the future.

Not pictured.

 


The pungent, medicinal smell of cowboy cologne. 

"Artemisia californica"- Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Artemisia_californica

And I believe that Otto Frank was quite disturbed by what could happen to young women when the Nazis came to power.

"The Translation of Anne Frank"

https://nwhyte.livejournal.com/2421391.html

"The Merry Macs 'Mairzy Doats'  1943 78 rpm"

OldiesAL

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qdq92WuyZ5U&si=oOpAYNuP00wFvC8h


Mairzy Doats came on the radio as I left the coffee shop.

Fortified by my breakfast sandwich and tall pumpkin spice matcha with light ice.

Parents need to start getting A LOT more responsible when it comes to not going along with Patriarchal rape culture.

As far as the whole phenomenon of some moms and dads still making excuses for fantastic athletes even when they rape teenage girls, a lot of parents weren't really raised to respect women. Teenage girls are the lowest on their rung of who they got taught to respect, while simultaneously being the most desired by the most predatory of men. 

It's a horrifying scenario. It's absolutely horrifying.

And the oldest daughter is not about just protecting herself cuz maybe she feels she knows how to do that. But what about protecting all of the innocents? What about that? And it's not rational,  and it's crazy making stuff. There really is a lot of pressure put on oldest daughters in certain circumstances. 

Oldest daughters do more of the emotional work than the actual parents when it comes to raising the children a lot of the time. This is a big truth that has not been acknowledged often enough  

And maybe sometimes the oldest daughter is actually the oldest brother. Sometimes that's the case, too. These are not entirely perfect analogies, one realizes. 

But there has been an overall trend that is finally being acknowledged a little bit more than it used to be.

So you can celebrate the biological parents all you want with your special days and your Facebook posts and yada yada. Lots of other people have been doing more work behind the scenes that most have never wanted to acknowledge, because they were trained to unsee things from a very early age by the patriarchal culture. And I think that's just selfish.

Oldest daughters are often treated like unpaid nannies. They get used to being expected to do the harder work for no pay, and to sacrificing their needs for the benefit of the greater good at a very early age.

P. S. The actual paid nannies have been doing a lot of the work, too, in the families that are wealthy enough to afford them.

On my way out to pick up my breakfast sandwich, I saw my cat in the living room.

"Do you think I should pretend my life was totally different and that certain things never existed just so I can make other people feel more comfortable?"

She did not answer in the affirmative; so there!

I've been awake for several hours and I believe a breakfast sandwich could be calling me!

 


"Over 2,000 women liked this comment"

bobbynutrition

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdbmbTllyB6/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"I study language and power"

dr.bise

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddd7RFlBO8t/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers (2022), Ep. 1, Pt. 1" – Frock Flicks

https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-2022-ep-1/


It's okay so far. (27 minutes into episode 1)

So far, it's another show where all the women are much prettier and daintier than the men.


"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers (2022), Ep. 1, Pt. 1" – Frock Flicks

https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-2022-ep-1/

Since I'm not falling asleep for some reason.

I decided to start watching that program on PBS that's about Diane de Poitiers, even though I always thought I was more interested in Christine de Pizan and Elisabetta Sirani and Lady J. Gray and Irene McDonald, (the unknown daughter of the author that G. K. Chesterton really liked who was also one of the girls photographed by Charles Lutwidge Dodgson.) I got a little nudge I should know about Diane de Poitier, too, but compared to those other ones I barely ever thought about her. I didn't relate to her as much, I suppose.

I really liked that one part of "All About Love."

People are liars. People are liars. People are liars. They lie so much!

"All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads"

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/17607.All_About_Love


If I'm going to be more self-centered, I really do need some angelic assistance.

If I were younger, my only PCOS body and not PCOS plus now perimenopausal body would have responded much better to the exercise I was doing this summer.

I did not have ice cream last night after all.

I think this might have made me eat some of a cauliflower crust pizza with veggies on it.

"Me core 💅🏼"

shoot_thismoment

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc45IuOtSFg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Not every moment needs to be super thrilling, but still.

I don't feel super thrilled with how some things are going right now.

I was glad to learn about Barbro Karlen.

And her one big life that she remembered; only one, apparently. Well, everybody's different. 😏

"Barbro Karlén" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Barbro_Karl%C3%A9n

She spoke at a university in this area years ago, but I didn't know who she was back then, and I also didn't live close by at that time.

She was on a police force! She was an exceptional horse woman! She survived persecution by the unwell Patriarchy! She was technologically savvy! But then something went terribly wrong and her body reacted poorly to some kind of medical thing. So now she's on to the next journey.

Okay, I feel like a success now.

I'm succeeding at living through a time. Success!!!

The bigger quote is better to read.

 "Quote of the day by Anne Frank: ‘It is utterly impossible to build my life on a foundation of chaos and suffering.'"

https://m.economictimes.com/magazines/panache/quote-of-the-day-by-anne-frank-it-is-utterly-impossible-to-build-my-life-on-a-foundation-of-chaos-and-suffering-young-diarists-timeless-lesson-on-finding-light-in-dark-times/amp_articleshow/134331406.cms

"It's utterly impossible for me to build my life on a foundation of chaos, suffering and death. I see the world being slowly transformed into a wilderness, I hear the approaching thunder that, one day, will destroy us too, I feel the suffering of millions. And yet, when I look up at the sky, I somehow feel that everything will change for the better, that this cruelty, too, shall end, that peace and tranquility will return once more."

Anne Frank

Just got to get through the part of acknowledging that things are not okay.

It's as if to say, now I know the existence of the unwell Patriarchy is probably almost equally the fault of unwell men and unwell women. Now I know the Nazis came to power because of the attitudes of both the unwell men and the unwell women. There's a lot of f***** up stuff happening right now. Do you not think that children are being affected? Do you not think that they are going to grow up and look back and see how people were behaving right now? What do you think about? Buying and selling things? Is that not a numbing agent that is only temporary like a Band-Aid that's not going to address the real problem? It just feels so necessary to acknowledge that this is a really, really, really really messed up time right now. In this country. Which is the United States of America.

I don't know the remedy. It's bad.

I feel broken-hearted, as if the patriarchal culture did everything to ruin everything by getting so deeply inside of people's minds and warping them, and I'm just supposed to feel a kind of emotional collapse about it for a while because you have to hit bottom and be honest about the worst things before you can get better. And it's tied to physical suffering as well. Grief with a physical and emotional component. People who should have known better got mean and callous and superficial and materialistic to the detriment of the vast majority of humanity. I make myself crawl through the grief and the suffering. A lot of people cannot be from little small insular communities and be impervious to what's happening. A lot of people just cannot do that. I don't understand why that's so hard for some people to get. It's like they're in an arrested state of development like they're in their forties, acting like four-year-olds. So now that's grief. Starting to show up as anger accusing people of acting like four-year-olds when they're in their forties. That's anger.

Friday, September 18, 2026

Gosh, I should ask the universe for some more guidance.

For some reason I was remembering walking by a particular apartment when looking for new place to live -- gosh this must have been more than 10 years ago now -- and this person, a complete stranger to me, will never know the effect they had on me, but I just felt such a vibe from her place. I wished I could be friends with that person when I walked by her apartment. The vibe was creative and ladylike, but in a good way, like a high-heeled shoe that would be fun to try on. And what really sold me on me thinking that this was a good person was cat I caught a glimpse of through the screen door. I thought, that cat has pampered princess energy and I love it! I just had a feeling the person who lived in that apartment was so good at taking care of her cat and her space and herself.

Anyways, to be disheveled and fall apart is kind of a great luxury in and of itself, in a way.

They have celebrate this day, and celebrate that day, but why don't they have celebrate this other day? Yet.

EVERY day can be celebrate this other day.

"This has been SO wild"

trailertrashdej_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdcMhO4B6wz/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

At least I can feel like artistic angels are not that mad!

I feel like brain storming and making lists about certain "taboo" topics could be a fun and creative way to raise consciousness collectively!

I was scrolling and I found out it's a special week.

World Childless Week! I wonder why they would have a week about that?

"Let's make you feel a little lighter today"

megs. tea. room

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdZaO97xQgs/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Me core 💅🏼"

shoot_thismoment

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc45IuOtSFg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Admitting you're genuinely happy"

caseyinher40s

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZaU1gOlGn9/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Being childless"

hopefully_joyful_journey_

https://www.instagram.com/p/Dc6OGrFlPez/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Considering all the possibilities...

I decided to take a very radical step this evening.

And take my life less seriously. Seriously!

"Spat my brew out"

u/Guddu277

https://www.reddit.com/r/funnyvideos/s/vquSYi8W9N

Even though I'm afraid it's the sort of thing Osho would have wanted.

Anyways, I think these songs can still marry each other!

Sia - "Elastic Heart feat. Shia LaBeouf & Maddie Ziegler"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=KWZGAExj-es&si=L7-2JWE3jqP1FQMS

&

U2 - "One (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ftjEcrrf7r0&si=BSE_YiqUS2FyJ_C2

It is unnecessary for museums to be so imperialistic.

"Heirs Sue Auschwitz Museum Over Art Their Mother Made"

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/09/17/arts/design/auschwitz-museum-watercolor-paintings-dina-gottliebova-babbitt.html

Compounding. I do think I will go for some ice cream this evening pretty soon.

"Patriarchy tells us daily through movies, television and magazines that men of power can do whatever they want, that it's this freedom that makes them men."

Page 37 -38

bell hooks

All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/218042.All_About_Love

You need meals to survive a patriarchy. You need ice cream.

 "Many men confess that they lie because they can get away with it; their lies are forgiven. To understand why male lying is more accepted in our lives we have to understand the way in which power and privilege are accorded men simply because they are males within a patriarchal culture. The very concept of 'being a man' and a 'real man' has always implied that when necessary men can take action that breaks the rules, that is above the law. Patriarchy tells us daily through movies, television and magazines that men of power can do whatever they want, that it's this freedom that makes them men."

Page 37 -38

bell hooks

All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/218042.All_About_Love

I do believe this could apply to some women's childhoods as well.

"Lots of men shared with me that it was difficult for them to tell the truth if they saw that it would hurt a loved one. Significantly, the lying many boys learned to do to avoid hurting Mom or whomever becomes so habitual that it becomes hard for them to distinguish a lie from the truth. This behavior carries over into adulthood."

Page 37

bell hooks

All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/218042.All_About_Love

My readings have reminded me of something else.

I think when the Nazis took over Germany and other European countries, they were enacting ruthlessly patriarchal values out of fear and a desire to control, and it backfired very badly eventually. 

But for a little while, it felt like it was normal to a lot of people to just ignore that some people were treating being treated a lot worse than others.

And many of those people felt that they needed to get away from being treated badly themselves. So going along with the program was the best way for them to do that. Well, I think that's what a lot of them thought.

People deserve better than what the Patriarchy is offering.

When boys and girls grow up in Patriarchal households, they learn that they need to appease untrustworthy grown ups who are modeling many kinds of deceptions so that they will be more favored and less penalized by a very imbalanced Patriarchal society. Children grow up and get to live on their own as adults eventually, but sometimes they keep practicing the habits and survival strategies they learned as small children.

Do we need more love in the world? Less violence and less lying and deception would help, wouldn't it?

"In the one truly violent episode between my mother and father, he accused her of lying to him. Then there was the night an older sister lied and said she was babysitting when she was actually out on a date. As he hit her, our father kept yelling, 'Don't you lie to me!' While the violence of his response created in us a terror of the consequences of lying, it did not alter the reality that we knew he did not always tell the truth. His favorite way of lying was withholding. His model was 'just remain silent' when asked questions, then you will not get 'caught in a lie.'

The men I have loved have always lied to avoid confrontation or take responsibility for inappropriate behavior. And Dorothy Dinnerstein's groundbreaking book The Mermaid and the Minotaur: Sexual Arrangements and Human Malaise, she shares the insight that when a little boy learns that his powerful mother, who controls his life, really has no power within a patriarchy, it confuses him and causes his rage. Lying becomes one of the strategic ways he can 'act out' and render his mother powerless. Lying enables him to manipulate the mother even as he exposes her lack of power. This makes him feel more powerful. 

Males learn to lie as a way of obtaining power and females not only do the same but they also lie to pretend powerlessness. In her work Harriet Lerner talks about the way in which patriarchy upholds deception, encouraging women to present a false self to men and vice versa. In Dory Hollander's 101 Lies Men Tell Women, she confirms that while both women and men lie her data and the finding of other researchers indicate that 'men tend to lie more and with more devastating consequences.'"

Page 36 - 37

bell hooks 

All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/218042.All_About_Love


When things begin compounding, I'm interested in learning how to get better.

Because when the PCOS health stuff compounds with the perimenopause health stuff compounds with the PTSD from the various kinds of traumas that have been experienced in an imbalanced and violent patriarchal society, and it gets to be  overwhelming, then you know that the sorts of strategies that worked for other people are just not going to work for you.

This is a creative idea. They are succeeding at something.

"See photos as the Trump, Epstein Memorial Bookmobile stops in Des Moines"

https://www.desmoinesregister.com/picture-gallery/news/local/2026/09/18/donald-trump-jeffrey-epstein-memorial-bookmobile-des-moines/91832034007/

This kind of reminded me of something that's problematic about how I see "success" in our era.

"Male cops' abuse of Flock cameras to stalk women"

amandasmildtakes

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdEU0xruBYo/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Sometimes, I feel like I have a part of my personality that actually doesn't really want to "succeed" in the conventional way that other people in this era would like to see. Because succeeding to me would mean that more people actually start to "get" the message that they should be less misogynistic and feel more motivated to change their behaviors and attitudes when it comes to how entitled they feel to treat certain kinds of girls and women with more disrespect and derision. 

This is true. This is part of the reason why people go on retreats and such.

Sometimes people can do more / advance more quickly when they spend time apart while still learning from each other.

Also, something else about the silly time that's unfolding right now.

People spied on me but they were respectful about it so it was fine. (Certain people. We probably knew each other in another life, but in this life we didn't grow up in the same household.)

This is the song that can be a helper for the transitional time. Our time on Earth in this lifetime is finite. This song is from a particular area of childhood development.

"Coming Around Again/Itsy Bitsy Spider" - Carly Simon

https://youtube.com/watch?v=-J_9kYdRFCM&si=MeTUBtW5QsjasuSl

Fragments of communication and recent dreams.

I had a dream that some younger people were giving me lectures and in a roundabout way they were telling me they weren't going to do things my way, and then we stopped talking. I had a dream I went on a walk at a high elevation with an older woman and it was delightful and a healing experience and we stumbled and almost fell but we were laughing. I had a dream I went to a big library and found out I lost a library card, but they were able to replace it. It was very tattered and torn, but I just took it and put it in my wallet.

What else?

I moved around a lot as a kid, so I never feel like I'm just from one place. I can enjoy the customs of different villages, but I never feel like I'm from just one village. It's like I'm an observer of lots of different little societies, but other people feel like they're from one village and they need to follow the customs of that one village. So sometimes I feel like an outcast of the village. 

What else...

People have their own ways of coping with things and it can feel like they are being stubborn people. Maybe they're hiding from something they don't want to address yet. Maybe they're surviving as best as they can. Maybe they're in a suspended state of shock or grief or something, and it's like a survival mode thing.

What else? This is helping me feel this weak and shaky.

Even if it feels unfair, for some reason I chose this. I fell on the side of a trail when I went up to the mountains the day, my friend's mother disappeared. It created a hole in my pants so I would remember it. This year, I fell in a hole in a parking lot and skinned my knees. I tried to rescue the broken raccoon. The dead possum wrapped in the towel came back to my house in the carrier the raccoon had left in. But I don't have to experience those physically strange things anymore. I learned whatever lessons I needed to learn from them.

What else does the body perceive?

People who haven't healed from violence they've witnessed will put that painful experience onto others. Having to acknowledge the bad stuff that  happened is inescapable. But it doesn't mean it's forever.

What else is the body telling me?

Frida Kahlo documented pain and grief in her art.

You have to survive bad times and tell yourself better times ever ahead.

 I felt weak and shaky. The " What do you call a woman with two black eyes? A slow learner" joke that set off nightmares in me and made me have to never go back to an imbalance work environment is coming back to me. I don't have any rational explanation for why some stuff is happening. 

Thursday, September 17, 2026

It's a 21st century cultural social patriarchal narcissistic entitlement thing.

"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."

thesidewalkschool2 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Perhaps some of these studies on narcissism will seem more useful (and the results are not limited to one country) soon.

 

"Immigration is hard as it is."

psy_europa

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdZILzKTw_9/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Just seems like ignoring these things is not the right thing to do.

 Because ignoring it means nothing ever changes, but addressing it is at least making some attempts to make it better.

"PART 2 on this little girl's song"

whathereallymeanss

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdUcSbGJTwn/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


It's just an interpretation of reality based on a lifetime of experiences.

And craziness. 


"Articulate autistic men are often treated as intelligent authorities."

sherlove971

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc_uKDhSphj/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Dreaming of seeing some cute places...

"40 of the Quirkiest Small Towns In America"

https://www.countryliving.com/life/travel/g4103/quirkiest-small-towns-in-america/

I read what I read.

I wonder if some would say I shouldn't read something like this if I'm trying to advance spiritually or something, but I'm interested in it, so I'm reading it.

"Heirs Sue Auschwitz Museum Over Art Their Mother Made"

https://www.nytimes.com/2026/09/17/arts/design/auschwitz-museum-watercolor-paintings-dina-gottliebova-babbitt.html

I think the museum should have kept reproductions of the artworks and given the originals back to the artist.

This sort of 🎶 helps sometimes.

Especially when I'm not really living up to my inner child's vision of elder human being spirituality!

"432 Hz Solar Plexus Chakra"

MusicforBodyandSpirit

https://youtube.com/watch?v=xQ65ZCnt7No&si=CHL4FqUWZBSIfjit

It kind of creates a shift.

Patriarchal people really shouldn't run anything anymore, IMO.

"NO 👏🏼 WONDER"

yourdailydoseofselflove

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdZj5CqS6g5/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It really is lovely! 💗

 


"I was surprised"

kindheartsharpmind

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc2sWayggjg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I do kind of love having more access to feminist content than I ever had before now though!


"I was surprised"

kindheartsharpmind

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc2sWayggjg/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"IT GIRL> Ep. 3: Confidence"

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdH7by4A7rT/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"What's a personality trait people praise..."

https://www.reddit.com/r/askanything/s/m992jd3JuI

I think looking at blurry brushstrokes in paintings would be good for the soul today.

It feels like I don't fit in well with present day society's expectations, and these genetics need extra attention and patience and care, and to this body, the women who don't care and the men who don't care blur together and seem equally antagonistic. So some more healing processes are needed to help me feel better and more balanced now. I need to learn how make some things work together better and more harmoniously.

A dream came true today. 💗😺💞

My cat was begging for wet food and I knew there was only one can left but wait, what? Now there's a dozen cans of wet food. Such a variety of flavors to choose from! And it was restocked without me knowing or asking. I love having a well-stocked wet food larder! I hate it when there's only one can of wet food left.

Survivors are surviving; maybe tomorrow they'll be thriving!

 " You're welcome for my service."


"Before the 19th amendment there was an entire movement built to stop it."

novoice_unheard

https://www.instagram.com/p/DdNDdqWFId7/?img_index=1&stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"If you can't beat them..."

heyclairewyckoff

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdPTE5iJopD/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Energy!

"they walked so I could"

thewildfloweralchemist

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdSDHCTS1MV/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Sometimes it's good to just be simple and listen to what the radio station wants you to.

The song was on the radio the other day and it always reminds me that so many people who voted for Trump. Love, Kurt Cobain.

(Oops, I didn't mean for it to be punctuated that way, but now I'm just going to leave it like that.)

Twenty One Pilots – "Heathens"

https://genius.com/Twenty-one-pilots-heathens-lyrics

Good food is better than poison water.

 


"I hated mom's boyfriend"

marktellsjokes

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcUE7vjRieo/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"eiffel tower part 2"

marktellsjokes

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcRSj-NRzt7/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Mom stays speechless"

marktellsjokes

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcO8LhRRDac/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Share the horror.

 


"#medicine #medicalstudent"

dadiologist

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dcw6vIhtSCb/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Survey said...

 


"PSA for girls starting a new school year"

leahvanking

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdXk5OXyKsP/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Not always the greatest listener, but he's doing his best.

 


"alright mom"

marktellsjokes

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdT_WlsxftP/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

This fashion show really moved me. 💗

 😹

"which is your fav"

ameliamaxwellgirlandband

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc1rpanIHFM/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Oh, what a relief to see others stepping up to the plate!

"Parents have been asking for a MOMvestigation on school uniforms"

hackorwackwithdnkat

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdSUA3oPf20/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Enough! Breakfast is calling now.

 🐔🍳🥚


"a match made in heaven"

San Andreas's Fault 🐬

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTUpLdYGb/

"diana, the people's princess 👑"

letsdoubledutch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcqamhgorSB/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"David Lee Roth talks"

billboard

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTUbCvdBf/

Vulnerable fellas.

"The End of Baby Mama Culture - The WizardLiz, Cardi B and Offset"

manifestelle

https://youtube.com/watch?v=f-idGLVKwzM&si=jjKSkKYZjb5Uv5P3

"Taylor Swift Praises Sombr & His 'Confessional' Lyrics, Says They Help Break Double Standard for Female Songwriters"

https://www.justjared.com/2026/04/28/taylor-swift-praises-sombr-his-confessional-lyrics-says-they-help-break-double-standard-for-female-songwriters/

Cry...😭


"We would be such babies"

jayvalenz20

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc0YmubRm7d/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"What Every Woman Should Be Doing in Perimenopause"

@drmaryclaire

https://youtube.com/shorts/sVtBRjuzP6c?si=XfCmHh7BPyB1MKUb

Anyways, I prolly should not go out and have wine late at night too often.

It threw me off and I got hungry afterwards and had to eat some chicken. And that wasn't enough, so then I had to eat some unsweetened pistachio nut butter with dark chocolate.

"canes you have some explaining to do"

khaotickayleee

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaEamO-Rl8Q/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"400k views on a clip"

nikkisorrentino

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdXG25ZxXpV/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Feminism" in late stage capitalism

lovejuvida

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdVxHlJBU5_/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Ella la ama con todo"

rousss_m

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc1k5QHuaQI/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"We would be such babies"

jayvalenz20

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dc0YmubRm7d/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

🆘

pobreciiita

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdStfVEzUa_/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Oh and it was also interesting to notice this 🍷.

Nobody was interested in what I was doing for a living or asked me once what I was doing and I had said that I was married and I think that was the most important thing there was to know about me. So the whole conversation about how life is game and it's not so stressful if you just look at it that way came about because I said my sister had worked in hospitals and it got stressful and now she was working at a law firm and she liked that better, and that was the short and simple and easy version and left out so many other stories I could have been talking about. But I achieved having a pleasant time and I was happy about that! I also told them about some of the jobs I'd had in the past and that seemed to be enough information to meet the requirements of having a pleasant evening and it was very pleasant! Plus we got to talk about upstate New York because other people were from there as well! They said the wine in upstate New York is no good cuz they were being wine snobs and that was fine. But as I said well maybe the Gewurztraminer is good. And then they said maybe it was. They were such wine snobs that Temecula wines weren't good enough for them to drink either. Spoiled for choice in California! I guess one will have to travel to Temecula directly to know which ones are good.

I know which songs can get married now!

 "Elastic Heart" by Sia and "One" by U2.

I was a good listener and listened to another person's version of reality last night.

And I didn't get into any feminist arguments with an older white guy who told me life would be less stressful if you just look at it as it's all a game because my goal was simply to achieve having a pleasant conversation with a stranger as I sipped a glass of wine. He was a nice guy and has had prestigious jobs and he still has one in hospital administration even though he probably could be retired and not have a job anymore by now.

Wednesday, September 16, 2026

Thank you for the helpful healing transmissions, Edgar Cayce et al.


"Voice of a man born in 1800"

TempestInstruments

https://youtube.com/shorts/RulUXPCtu3c?si=u9pNuJXxC8YqpKSD

"WOMEN NEED TO SIGN THEIR CONSENT"

dr_raysmedictalk

https://www.instagram.com/p/DdTPlyZAtRW/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Not to be dramatic but"

SammiDarbCVT

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTUpLfeuT/

Okay, time to pray.

STOP MENSTRUAL CRAMPS - "Luna's Touch" - Pain Relief

https://youtube.com/watch?v=zi8GWfU4Rk0&si=ZaEw2Jbg4ZTk9-4J

If this doesn't help I'm going to stop...

Misogynistic b******* that you keep repeating is your responsibility to fix regardless of what your parents did to you or what traumas you suffered and you need to figure out how f****** fix it because it's terrible.

Think I'm getting cramps.

I need to make the heating pad & castor oil pack happen on the uterus. And ginger. I need the ginger.

Peak Experience: Finding out what a useful resource you've actually been this whole time, just as you're drying up!

"The secrets of menstrual blood: emerging frontiers from diagnostic tools to stem cell therapies" - PMC

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC12405216/


 

There's so many other great songs they could start singing in their Glee clubs. Gleefully!

"Heinz Ketchup 'Anticipation' Commercial (1977)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=DSbR-hZAMh8&si=6RYdmO3b7u5Etn5g

"Heinz Ketchup 'Anticipation' Jingle Commercial (1976)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=7GBTIeR4Z_M&si=y-aqhJkksbUlZain

"classic Heinz Ketchup Anticipation TV ad 1979"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=uoLoyg3JKRQ&si=WxUj-mPHnyxm6bRS


Is it a light pink day? Is it a dark heavy flow with blood clots day?

"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Perhaps they should tell them about every cramp and bowel movement too!

I feel like complaining about this all day. 

"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


They like showing the kids movies anyways.

So exhausted. I hope that someday that they teach the love story of Elio and Oliver in all the English classes instead of Romeo and Juliet it is all together beyond Shakespeare.

Beware the bread and circuses.

This looks like an Old Empire was trying to make an advertisement about the future talk show hosts of America for moldable young minds.

"classic Heinz Ketchup Anticipation TV ad 1979"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=uoLoyg3JKRQ&si=WxUj-mPHnyxm6bRS

So many parts are bothersome, like what nails on a chalkboard sound like to some people, or worse, the noises made when pieces of squeaky styrofoam rub against each other.

Motivational! 😂

 They can help one another!


"yall ever try giving back to the community"

ameliamaxwellgirlandband

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdUx1m2IIYX/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Whimsical Problematic Writing Prompt Wednesday!

"Oh trust me, nobody in the future is going to think you were a lesbian, no matter what you do right now. You don't like women and girls enough for anybody to think you're a lesbian."

Is this in Michigan?

"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Is there any rational equivalent of penalizing boys in this way?

At least some men are actually recognizing how f***** up this is! 

"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Weary!

"If you're a man, everything is possible for you, but if you're a woman, you're never enough unless you get pregnant. And then you need to act like mother of the year, and the way you act like mother of the year is to act like boy children are more important, and sometimes those boy children are actually men with several decades of life experience."

Even this makes me feel weary.

"A Cree psychotherapist reflects on relationship, belonging and the illusion of a fixed self"

https://theconversation.com/a-cree-psychotherapist-reflects-on-relationship-belonging-and-the-illusion-of-a-fixed-self-291720

Even this makes me feel wary of patriarchal mindsets putting another patriarchal figure on a pedestal.

I hope some people can stop behaving like Tools of the Patriarchal Empire.

I hope they realize how emotionally exhausting they were and how masochistic it was to expect them to change even one millisecond before they  were ready. Tools of the Patriarchal Empire are so demeaning and exhausting to deal with; they really are like emotional vampires.

Meanwhile, the fertility struggle has now infiltrated High School!

 

"High school requires girls to disclose their menstrual cycle -- or lose a grade."

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdWLhWshZyf/?stkn=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

That rich white men are great. I'm sorry but this is just more of the same.

"In surrendering to her grief, Sara Bareilles discovers..."

https://www.cnn.com/2026/09/12/health/sara-bareilles-good-grief-coping-wellness

Tuesday, September 15, 2026

The next lesson is asking for help with healing

Doing laundry is laborious because of the need to walk out to the laundry room and this evening my body has felt very exhausted, and I have been aware of little pains happening. Needing to rest. I have to change in lots of ways for health reasons and there's no avoiding that. A person with gifts and knowledge and wisdom about healing told me that my anger goes inward and causes health issues. And I know it's true. She said that the EFT tapping could help. 

Mostly fun stuff!

Musical people and artistic people and creative people and happy people!




Just perhaps not so fun to see the Trump hat in the candy shop though.

I had a dream. Revisions are necessary.

I had a dream of going to an Italian restaurant on or around my birthday and that I could bring a bottle of wine I bought at a winery and I found a place and it was like oh there's no corkage fee if we go out to dinner there on this certain night and we can bring one of those bottles of wine I got in Paso Robles. So grown up! To bring your very own bottle of wine that you purchased yourself at a winery to dinner! I've never done that before! Do you think it's possible? 

Well it seems practically impossible to make this happen right now because the hedge fund that runs things is better at making big layoffs happen and two women have to go out for maternity leave and one woman has to go out for an operation and it's apparently really hard to find anybody to fill their positions immediately.

Sometimes you have to improvise, because basic things just do not happen easily, and dreams do not always come true right away. Hmmm.

Yay! Another documentary break!!

"The Plow That Broke the Plains (1936)"

FDRLibrary

https://youtube.com/watch?v=hzaV5FdZMUQ&si=0nQE2YabKTJgieoN

Cuz they talk about it in the book.

Well, actually it's a bit boring. I had it on 1.25 speed. I think I'm going to try to look at it later.

I seem to need to feel like I can be a slower person today. So I am, and it's good.

The only thing I need to do is finish this e-book before it expires in a few hours. I think this is the first book I've read where the protagonist talks to her long lost son as a way of conveying the story to the reader.

"The Antidote by Karen Russell" | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/214537790-the-antidote

I'm thinking about The Wizard of Oz more since I have been reading it! And I got this song in my head again: 

Sufjan Stevens & Angelo De Augustine - "Back to Oz"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=00f2kSnIxfw&si=LEirX9NVxg5iLjk5

But there was also a part of The Antidote near the end, in a chapter that's told from the point of view of a cat, where there's stuff about turtles, and that makes me want to look up The Grapes of Wrath again. 

Perhaps this would be a better time for me to read that one. High school was not.

I feel like the Patriarchal Culture has wanted us repress a lot.

If the Patriarchal Culture had not wanted us to repress so much, perhaps there would be more of a feeling that it's okay and safe to know this stuff, and more people would be curious, and they would want to know more, and to learn more.

To want to know or to not want to know?

I'm not so sure if some people do want to know what happened to their deceased loved ones. Because they might still be more enveloped in just surviving and handling the trauma that they experienced; however, perhaps it will seem more clear in the future whether they are truly interested in knowing more or not.

Magnífica.

"At the beach with the family at a beautiful sunset."

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTUV2LSAW/