Just because you have surrounded yourself with people who think that you're Superior to Jesus doesn't mean...
Thursday, October 29, 2026
My team just thought of a good thing to remind you of.
Someone in a concentration camp right now might be a part of your family someday.
I'm just much more used to Society babysitting me.
I know, and the people who voted for the Terrible Toddler in charge are on board with that.
No? You don't want to help them at all?
"We're really not planning on babysitting any of the traumatized children after they get out of the concentration camps."
Well it's not because it was better for the girl children, so I think it was more of a validation from men in a Patriarchal Society thing.
Why did Grandpa act like he wanted you to turn out to be like some kind of shallow business Barbie?
At least some men are asking those tough questions.
Why have I met zero men who've been raped because they went to a fraternity party and so many women who were not as fortunate?
I like their voices.
"They're reading 1984"
Geoffrey Asmus
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTf7hkGc6/
"I told y'all..."
Michael_Foote
I get to drive by a library I like a lot very soon.
It would be nicer if more of the children in the community didn't have to hide inside instead of participating in fun activities like going to the library with their parents.
There's lots of old books in the library, books that would have already gotten weeded out in other libraries. It's fun to look at a really old library book. It makes you feel like you're touching such an artifact of history.
"#parati #viral"
Gali
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPLD6bwAS/
"ICE agents in New Jersey"
nbcnews
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTf7MqcGq/
"ran em out ✌🏻"
mexicanaries333
I saw some good things!
Feeling extra impressed by the "Dads who don't want to be machista" coalitions that are forming.
How do you do?
"I miss my mom"
pobreciiita
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dec0iyWSmXk/?rpxt=bzNlMHZoaTY5MnNo
"Ok but also"
savannah_raisor
https://www.instagram.com/reel/De7VMEbC7Am/?dlrf=emp1bTZkYXo5anFk
"As Halloween approaches..."
birdershewrote
https://www.instagram.com/reel/De11SrfitwT/?obrf=MXFyem5kN3lqcThrYg==
"Not everyone's cup of tea"
crae_z
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfCrB24yP2U/?vrfl=MXE1bXNpeGR5aWZtMA==
"We don't know"
valandnews
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DezutuLSyJS/?rpxt=MXAyM2prN3FuamQzcQ==
Ha-ha, I was just remembering this one time...
A girl brought in a paper and it was describing in detail things about orgasms. I think it was for some sort of psychology or human sexuality class, and she read it out loud because that's what we would have the students do. They would read the papers out loud, and we both were kind of giggling a little, but she was pretty proud of her paper. She didn't need all that much help. She just wanted to get the APA style checked. I think it was probably for a psychology class.
Siouxsie and The Banshees -- "Kiss Them For Me"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ij6mFkZU8T4&si=_t83qn7PbmM0T9Qi
Time to go clean the kitchen. I fatigued some muscles and I'm going to do a meditation.
On the bright side, somebody could be meeting a great love of theirs right now.
Johnny & Jones - "Westerbork Serenade (1944)"
Of course, I'm sure everyone's very glad that I haven't been kidnapped and locked away for no good reason.
But I think other people that I worked with over the years deserve that same courtesy. They often shared interesting stories and they usually were the ones who made me feel the most appreciated and seemed the most grateful to get some help with learning to write in English and I guess I can't forget right now.
I'm afraid this wasn't usually what Epstein's Island offered, but...
Formative teenage movie viewing experience.
"L' Amant / The Lover (1992) - Limousine scene"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=z3PrUtpps-g&si=8gKds6MvWv4yWzK3
'The Lover⧸ L'amant (1992)"
BEAUTY & MUSIC
The mountain will be back!
Clouds are doing an amazing job of totally covering up the mountain today.
Sigh. What are people doing.
"'Innocence’ by Harold Brodkey" –
https://apersonalanthology.com/2023/01/13/innocence-by-harold-brodkey/
"'Innocence’ deploys the semicolon as texturizing agent in the paragraph. Like flour and oil, semicolons thicken the mix and build stickiness when stacked; they intensify the list with their rich, gooey stitch. Proust would not exist without his semicolon suave— that distinct baroque swerve of accretive syntax—nor would sex in Brodkey. His semicolons implicate us in the lustrous tangling and indulgent all-at-once-ness of sex.
As a low-status punctuation mark, more ornamental than necessary, the semicolon asserts itself aesthetically, like a gold earring or a faux mink coat. This cloying extravagance is amenable to risking kitsch. The semicolon is the acrobat of the line – it gushes, and then withdraws, leaving us to feel the world changed by its effusion. Brodkey uses it to establish rhythm that builds towards sexual climax, and then shortens his syntax to designate withdrawal. What Wiley wants evolves from simple sexual pleasure to self-discovery: “It was the feeling she aroused in me, a feeling that was, to be honest, made up of tenderness and concern and a kind of mere affection, a brotherliness as if she were my brother, not different from me at all.”
"In Which It Gets Your Body Moving - Home - This Recording"
"Stories in an Almost Classical Mode by Harold Brodkey"
Project Gutenberg Central
I remember, but mostly almost don't remember, this movie from the '90s.
"Most of the world did not agree with Duras’s assessment. As well as becoming an international bestseller, The Lover won one of France’s most prestigious literary prizes, the Prix Goncourt. In 1992, it was made into a major film by celebrated director Jean-Jacques Annaud."
Anthony Macris
"Marguerite Duras called The Lover ‘a load of shit’"
I could be wrong, but I could be not entirely wrong.
Maybe you should think more about how much less kidnappable the women who gained weight are now.
It must seem so unreal. I wonder what kind of food they get to eat.
"California mom sends $10,000 a week to feed 67 families at Texas ICE detention center"
https://finance.yahoo.com/healthcare/articles/california-mom-sends-10-000-141500618.html
"Non-profit aids children in ICE custody"
ABC News
I thought about Jesus, and I thought maybe Jesus would like this.
"Non-profit aids children in ICE custody"
ABC News
Maybe you should think about Jesus or something.
Jesus was a man. Jesus is respected. You could probably make some of your friends care more about others if they listen to Jesus. Couldn't you? You seem like you have the cult leader training to do it.
Oh my God, thank you for letting me know that!
"The more I act like people like you and them are worthless, the more my friends are going to act that way too. That's the kind of friends I choose. The kinds of friends who put guys like me on a pedestal at the expense of everyone else. That's how Patriarchal White Supremacy works. It feels good to some people. That's why we still have it."
This is using your tax dollars, by the way.
"Trump’s Immigrant Children Crackdown By The Numbers" | The Marshall Project
https://www.themarshallproject.org/2026/10/08/children-in-ice-detention-dashboard
That's not your highest calling is it?
Don't be so much like the accidentally racist (and kinda sexist) land-owning blond mom babysitter that I had when I was growing up.
She left a scar. I actually literally have a scar on my finger still, from her.
She just thought she was doing the normal thing. She was doing the normal thing. She was an a******.
It would be too painfully honest to say this...
"I feel so very entitled to have friends who put guys like me up on a pedestal and dehumanize people like you and a lot of other people. Because that's what I was trained to be like by this unwell patriarchal society. That's the version of success I was taught is what's best for me. I am trained to act like I deserve to be the pampered child on a pedestal at the expense of others in this society.
Even if lots of actual children are being persecuted and treated like criminals, I am expected and encouraged to look away. In this way I'm doing the crucial work of upholding the imbalanced patriarchal structures. My friends and I will get many rewards for acting and behaving this way for a little while longer, and we will not ever change unless we actually experience any consequences for continuing the prejudiced ways we are accustomed to living."
I actually get the bad chills when I think about them sometimes.
People who benefit from proximity to Patriarchal White Supremacy are so good at acting like they feel entitled to not care about others.
They're good at acting like training their children to be just as insensitive and racist and sexist as they feel entitled to be is what feels normal to them, too. It doesn't feel great to feel that way about how they choose to live.
And you can't talk to them, because they just don't want to listen. They don't like having difficult conversations. They seem to like putting themselves on a pedestal at the expense of the well-being of others. It feels bad.
Why do some well-off people still just seem to feel so entitled to not care about other people's children?
"Trump’s Immigration Crackdown Drives Surge in Child Arrests"
https://davisvanguard.org/2026/10/california-ice-child-arrests/
They think it's a normal way to live, but their way of surviving feels not well or normal to me.
I don't know what to do about the people who just seem to feel entitled to not care about what's going on in regards to certain groups of people being persecuted right now
Just how entitled they seem to feel to act like they don't have to care and don't want to care seems like an act of discrimination. It's like they're drunk on their own entitlement to not care about others, or something.
Maybe it's because I was a tutor and I worked with immigrants for ten years and I had such good interactions with some of them. So I'm really disturbed by the idea that they could be in concentration camps right now for no good reason and that really bothers me.
The version of "normal" that some have chosen feels like a really mean and insensitive way of living a life, to me.
Someone who was clearly raised by his Society to view women in a very superficial manner pissed off this thin blonde woman.
But she stood up to him!
"Today a guy commented on my body."
amymargaretmchugh
https://www.instagram.com/reel/De5GUMLPYrz/?cplk=bHhpNTd0d3V0Z3Zh
Wednesday, October 28, 2026
So I'm going to save the slinky story for later...
And there is way more of the story in the library book online version than there is in the short version posted on a website, which has got a lot of paragraphs cut away from it. It's like the condensed Readers Digest version of a classic. Or maybe not really.
‘Innocence’ by Harold Brodkey –
https://apersonalanthology.com/2023/01/13/innocence-by-harold-brodkey/
Now I'm rewatching East of Eden. But this is fine. I can read "Innocence" by Harold Brodkey (in the library book online version) either later tonight or tomorrow.
I had to stop reading my slinky story and look up Orla McCool.
I always think of the Sister in Derry Girls saying to her, "How old are you now Orla? You might want to think about wising up."
https://www.getyarn.io/yarn-clip/62c7bfe9-d136-473c-86d3-a418686a6246
Sounds like an interesting character already.
"A great many people avoided her, ran away from her."
Project Gutenberg Central copy of Stories in an Almost Classical Mode by Harold Brodkey.
"'Innocence’ by Harold Brodkey"
https://apersonalanthology.com/2023/01/13/innocence-by-harold-brodkey/
I guess this is the more mutilated version of the story, which doesn't include that line, and many others.
"In Which It Gets Your Body Moving - Home - This Recording"
In other moods...
I've decided I have to read this story.
'"Innocence’ by Harold Brodkey –
https://apersonalanthology.com/2023/01/13/innocence-by-harold-brodkey/
"'Innocence’ deploys the semicolon as texturizing agent in the paragraph. Like flour and oil, semicolons thicken the mix and build stickiness when stacked; they intensify the list with their rich, gooey stitch. Proust would not exist without his semicolon suave— that distinct baroque swerve of accretive syntax—nor would sex in Brodkey. His semicolons implicate us in the lustrous tangling and indulgent all-at-once-ness of sex.
As a low-status punctuation mark, more ornamental than necessary, the semicolon asserts itself aesthetically, like a gold earring or a faux mink coat. This cloying extravagance is amenable to risking kitsch. The semicolon is the acrobat of the line – it gushes, and then withdraws, leaving us to feel the world changed by its effusion. Brodkey uses it to establish rhythm that builds towards sexual climax, and then shortens his syntax to designate withdrawal. What Wiley wants evolves from simple sexual pleasure to self-discovery: “It was the feeling she aroused in me, a feeling that was, to be honest, made up of tenderness and concern and a kind of mere affection, a brotherliness as if she were my brother, not different from me at all.”
I just realized I went about it the hard way because I found out the whole anthology can be checked out in a Project Gutenberg online library, if you sign up for a free library card, but I guess I could have just clicked on the link at the bottom of the post.
I've decided it looks better to read it in the online library.
In your future?
People of all ages who survived ICE brutality, kidnappings, and concentration camps are...
My cat just growled at someone in her dream. Time for a pet?!
"One female student nailed it"
ericeztil
https://www.instagram.com/reel/De_FZX4KZ8G/?rpxt=MTd3Yndodnl4dnozaQ==
"Every generation has its version"
thealexallen
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfCoorssxWR/?rpxt=MXFhYnlqYWt3cW1tYQ==
"Girl."
drjesstaylor
https://www.instagram.com/reel/De4P4M-Kpfc/?srtk=MXU4djVhMWVsaTQ4Yg==
I think people should be preparing for more than just, like, extra toilet paper in the house after the election or whatever.
You know how there's all those videos saying, Oh, after the election maybe things will get bad so you should stock up on water and toilet paper and canned goods. What about in the future when all of the people who've been the most harmed by these current policies and whose family members got put in ICE detention centers are more free to be out in society can speak out again. How are you going to be respectful then if you're not being respectful now?
Actually it's really amazing to discover this about some parents.
Some parents completely and truly really just don't care about what's happening to the other parents and to the other kids do they? They really don't act like they do.
Feels like I'm dealing with adults who act like kindergarteners sometimes.
So maybe it's cool that I believe I sat next to the author of the "All I Really Needed to Know I Learned in Kindergarten" book when I was a little kid traveling with my little sister on an airplane, in a surrogate parent role.
Halloween festivities for some kids are getting interrupted. Do you know why?
"We should be so ashamed."
dr.ashmarie
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfDGSC5vqr6/?psln=MWEwMmJwNWpkbGM3OQ==
I got some imagery during a meditation today.
Needing more peace and quiet and stillness. More of an alkaline diet. If there's hurt, pain or envy, then peace and slowness and stillness feels solid and can help with feeling more gratitude. Something playful about purple hair and sparkles. A reminder that I still haven't finished watching the movie Momo yet. A woman weeping about losing her baby (the words "I lost my baby, I lost my baby" kept coming up). Not having the same experiences as Gym Bros. Even the nice ones. Not seeing oneself as a w**** in a derogatory way. Being sick and needing more space and quiet. Being plus sized. Thinking about how Nature and the Animal Kingdom also includes cute round animals and cute round shapes. Not everything has to be thin and angular and bony in nature. Having patience with people's ignorance. Flying over crowds of people (like maybe in a dream or in sleep) who are boarding a train and saying farewell. An image of a cute little pale blue indigo book with sprays of flowers on it.
I think my body has some traumas affecting it.
For some reason, some kinds of traumas just can't be healed overnight and at the snap of someone else's fingers, and I wonder if there's some good reasons for that.
Maybe some boys were girls in another life.
I did in the past wonder when some people would be advanced enough to not channel mean girls vibes and I'm talking about the people who aren't necessarily girls in this life channeling those vibes.
A new book reminded me of an old poem.
"Leisure" by William H Davies
"The Wren, the Wren by Anne Enright"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/77265006-the-wren-the-wren
A friend of mine is related to W. H. Davies. I have wondered what he was really like...
I was many kinds of men and women in many other lives.
"We set up a giant 13-ft tall skeleton"
brendannorth
https://www.threads.com/share/BAcybsWAnp/
"To be a smart girl"
princess_witch
https://www.threads.com/share/BBvZyQrp-c/
"This is why it's so important to speak up"
nickipedia69
You know, a piece of property doesn't have feelings.
Like a person has feelings.
"Netflix’s: "East of Eden" Cathy Ames Distortion -- Review" | National Review
https://www.nationalreview.com/2026/10/from-monster-to-martyr/amp/
Saw this and got reminded of you a few centuries back.
"What do we do about men"
hilaryagro
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfCiOXAxU7D/?rpxt=MWVhcHR4cndnYzZ4Mw==
Take that! Savannah.
Your course on how to get pregnant and not give a s*** about anyone else is sure to dethrone that Savannah chick.
"The TikTok tradwife tainted by an Andrew Tate connection" - Salon.com
https://www.salon.com/2026/09/18/the-tiktok-tradwife-tainted-by-an-andrew-tate-connection/
But I'll just be over here if you need me.
"Christie’s New York Presents The William I. Koch Collection"
https://press.christies.com/christies-new-york-presents-the-william-i-koch-collection/
"I'm never forgetting or forgiving"
the.poisongarden
https://www.threads.com/share/_z2TEYnsb/
"INTERNET SENSATION - Hide The Pain Harold!"
@pokernewsdotcom
Just trust the process. Or not.
It's not my party
I did not. Just call to say I love you
Not even one single silly Love Song
When a man does not love a woman
Do not marry me
Still not the one
You do not make me feel like a natural woman
Not the way you are
Not the greatest love of all
Love will not keep us together
It must not have been love
Because you loved me not
Here's something kind of funny, though.
Some of you guys might be a woman in your next life and then what's going to happen is you're going to accidentally be too friendly and then you're going to be like oh wait what happened? I was accidentally too friendly. I extended too much friendliness and it didn't align with what I actually needed, which was, I needed more space. And then you're going to be like, I don't know what happened but now I just want to complain about a lot of things. You just want to complain and complain and complain, and then it'll give you a wide berth, and then you'll be like, oh finally, the space I really needed, even though I seemed like some friendly little flower all ready to have fun and party. Wrong. So wrong. Thank God for complaining.
Cannot wait for the next generation to be better human beings.
No, I don't want to go to a party on "Not as bad as Epstein's Island" with some White Lotus types of rich people who are still making excuses for other rich people who made Patriarchal Society even more dangerous for so many people right now.
"The first round of the Trump files..."
theheatherashley
https://www.threads.com/share/BAW-vKXTs8/
"A postpartum woman showed up to the ER..."
theferalmidwife
https://www.threads.com/share/BAZ9KhYmxJ/
"Homicide of pregnant women has risen"
earth_2_bb
People are going to be better in the future.
They're not going to feel so entitled about abandoning their society's untouchables and unspeakables.
I am getting in touch with Patriarchal people's problems.
Treating certain types of people like the untouchables and unspeakables is so selfish and discriminatory and demeaning and insulting.
But the culture is changing for the better if you look in certain spaces.
Tuesday, October 27, 2026
Grammar...
I had never been able to retain rules of grammar in my head. The only reason I wrote well was because I liked to read a lot. So the tutoring job I got in my thirties was actually really challenging when I started it. Suddenly I got thrown into teaching grammar. I can remember trying to explain to a professor that I was having a little bit of difficulty, and she just turned her eyeballs on me and said, "You are not inspiring confidence." But I actually learned a lot about grammar, and now I know how to have more fun with grammar for the rest of my life.
Interesting that some people choose to live that way. I'm not saying it isn't.
A kind of "White Lotus" lifestyle.
I only drank half of my small coffee drink.
This is such insanity.
"You Kidnapped My Son"
Samantha Michels and Isabela Dias
I'm going to go out for a completely unnecessary and caloric coffee drink right now before it closes.
You should think about what you've done with your life.
Maybe I'll be real quiet again tomorrow.
"I no longer care for being loved. I only wish to be respectfully conversed with."
I got a surprising message about desert-themed horror movies. I want to go out to the desert again soon.
My sister was really into watching these recently.
"FALLING STARS Feature Trailer (2024)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=3vShJ7nx04c&si=40bO6LA-N4OLyCkm
"Falling Stars" | Rotten Tomatoes
https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/falling_stars
"NOPE" | Final Trailer
https://youtube.com/watch?v=HUgmq_8PlRY&si=5nUp47zKpSr5Q6yT
She recommended them.
Do you eat more fruit than I eat?
"Day and night the fruit river runs. I drive the car past the front gates and the stationed police car while my mother closes her eyes in the passenger seat. We drive into the silent landscape where the ringing in my ears catches up to me. Not very many cars drive these roads. The sky is clear. I sink into the warmth of the car seat and resist dozing. These roads are occasionally used as checkpoints by the authorities. ICE in this desert landscape. It's a part of small town policing, in which officers seem eager for the next warehouse raid -- but only after people have done a full day's work, and only near the end of the harvest. My mother's lunch bag rests on her lap. A bag of apples sits at her feet.
The landscape is gorgeous. Along the horizon, ancient rock structures, basalt ridges tower over these lands. How much more beautiful everything would be without all the warehouses obstructing this beauty, without racial tensions dividing people. We hit a small bump in the road and it half wakes my mother. She takes a moment to remove her wrist brace and massage the swelling. 'We're almost home,' I tell her. She dozes off again. I look at her wrist, at the large knob keeping the blood from her thumb, and I can't help but think that one day her hand will fall off. Company doctors tell her she's in perfect health, to quit complaining, and that she can continue to work. Whatever the company needs. When we go home she goes straight to her bedroom."
Page 17 of Spirit Run by Noé Álvarez
It's tough because you have potential, but you also seem like a cold jerk sometimes.
I honestly wonder why you don't write something like this:
"You and those other people might as well be dead from being dead to me, for all I care."
And if you keep it up, I think you're just going to reincarnate as one of us. So we'll have fun then, I guess.
So cold so cold so cold...
Not to brag or anything...
Sometimes I wonder if other people's mothers are talking me up in heaven, actually.
Once upon a time, it was your mother!
"My mother likes to talk me up to her friends. They look at me like someone who could help change things around here. Here is as far as they go."
Page 11 of Spirit Run by Noé Álvarez
Is it okay to ask who feeds your fantastic body at this moment in time? 😊
"I think of the moments when my mother called me at home after school during her lunch breaks. There's food in the fridge, she would say. Not just the beans and rice we ate almost everyday, or the tortillas lathered with butter and salt then scrunched into balls. Special meals that she cooked at night, at the end of her shifts, while I slept.
When I can, I wave to my mother on my way to an even colder section of the building, inside the freezer, where the product goes for storage. Even I can't escape the mark of labor tainting my shirt, soul and mind. I'm demoralized by the images of my people almost prostrating before machines. I despise the way it touches me. The touch of toil. My eye sockets sink with exhaustion, fruit stains my clothes. My lower back aches and my feet feel hammered with nails. There are days that I can't help but feel a certain shame when looking into my mother's eyes. And it is for this reason that I hate the warehouses the most.
I begin to doubt if I can ever free my mother from the assault of the fruit industry. The harder I work, the more I feed into the whole enterprise, the more tired I get of fighting, the more I hate who I become and the more I become part of the problem -- I become efficient at the thing that I don't want to be come efficient at. The harder I work, the more I begin to believe that I am only useful for my physical strength."
Page 9 & 10 Spirit Run by Noé Álvarez
The athlete describes his mother.
"Many times this summer I observe my mother hard at work. Harder than any mother should be. I watch her going through the motions, planted among machines. Nothing I can do about it but hold out for the day I will graduate from high school and go off to college, become a small town hero, return a different man.
Until then, my jaws clench at the thought that my mother's body is being molded by the demands of apple orchard owners. Her feet, shoulders and hands seek relief from her sinking, stiff posture, her aches and misaligned joints. Blood queues in her calves in the form of varicose veins, and she shrugs at the pinch above her shoulders where the muscle has thickened like a bull's hump. A similar deformation is taking shape in her knees. Only now, this summer, do I learn the pangs resulting from standing for long hours in a factory. The uncirculated blood below the knees crushes my feet. I wonder how my mother has sustained this for as long as she has. Decades. I feel sorry for ever having been impatient with her, for not being more helpful around the house, and for not fully understanding what the warehouses were doing to her mental health. Years of toiling in these conditions has left her too beaten down to start anew.
I now begin to understand why my mother didn't want me looking for a job here. She was probably afraid of what I'd see, or worse, that I might view her differently."
Page 9 of Spirit Run by Noé Álvarez
Bishops.
I felt good about putting these two together today. I felt it was fun.
"We Are What You Say"
Sufjan Stevens
https://youtube.com/watch?v=kMVUmn2mTcM&si=PsS2oSmjOtJ5fVyB
"Sallie Ketcham:
It was in Armenia"
In a way, things are going very fast even as they're going slow.
It's like I have to burn through stuff that I might have been really pissed off about for a longer amount of time in a different decade. But at the same time, with other stuff that I might have let go of in a different decade, I have to say No. This time I'm not going to let go of it. I'm going to take a stance and stick to it. It's too important now.
I feel very good about my dinner!
It's about falling in love with vegetables again; in this case, stuffed peppers and greens!
Learning a lot!
"Scariest door knocking interaction"
Fernando Urbina for Tolleson
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTfseu5Ap/
"Preparando el desayuno para mis hijos"
Obdulia Ag
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTyKrSETm/
"#yucaipa #redlands"
hello.folks
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTfseLSdk/
Take some time to appreciate the flowers because you couldn't eat any food without flowers.
And pollinators and planters and harvesters. It's a whole gigantic process, really.
I want you to dive very deep.
I want you to really get into all the nooks and crannies of that entitlement psyche that the Patriarchy clearly put in you, too. Get to work!
I still wasn't skinny back then!
But I was pounds and pounds and pounds and pounds thinner when XYZ took place.
They know the frat boy husbands weren't actually the ones feeding you.
That's all thanks to a bunch of underpaid laborers. People the Patriarchy wanted you to be too racist and sexist to acknowledge.
That would be an improvement.
Grandpa used to be s***** and sexist but then he actually took the time to f****** improve himself and changed his behaviors. Way to go Grandpa.
That's entertainment for some people.
Are you auditioning for a role called s***** sexist Grandpa that people are glad they didn't have to actually live with?
Ugh! Please make it stop.
I'm so amazing! I'm exactly what the Patriarchal Society wants. I am just like one of the 50 who looks away and doesn't act like they have to care about what's going on. I didn't rape anybody, and I'm all about me, and that makes me awesome in this Patriarchal Society.
Guess.
Which category of person do you think seems the most unmoved by things like gang rapes by fraternities and concentration camps and kidnappings of children's parents?
Two machines are tumble dry low. One machine is hang or lie flat.
I have a lot more hang or lie flat clothes this year then I used to have.
Anyways, I don't want to be a narcissistic man and the world doesn't want me to be a narcissistic man, but narcissistic men are doing a lot of harm and I'm sick of their b*******. Nevertheless, Society seems completely poised to favor the narcissistic men at the expense of everyone else and I'm sick of it.
More later.
I just had breakthrough. This is a good time to go switch my laundry.
Don't want to act like a narcissistic man.
Didn't mean to gossip, but this was too interesting.
A lady who's lived here for over 30 years told me that before we moved in there was a family of nine in this apartment. Nine! They had bunk beds in the kitchen! This is interesting to me because I had a dream about a special needs child when I took a nap this afternoon. Anyways, One of the children had special needs and had their own bedroom. The mother was a teacher and the father was a stay-at-home dad. But then the mother got promoted to principal and they moved out into a bigger place. Good for them. Family of nine! Bunk beds in the kitchen! I think I want to look them up. We get old mail at this place sometimes.
What do I do?
I'm going to do laundry now. I'm going to figure out how to have a creative time doing laundry again.
But anyways.
This guy.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Junot_D%C3%ADaz
Elon.
Conan.
!!!!!!?
You know what?
I wonder if I'm channeling, and some guys are sensitive and talented and they could be good at channeling so they pick up on it and then things get f***** up somehow.
Because we're in a patriarchal society and we're so undereducated.
Could that be it?
!!!!!!?
Really violent men are oftentimes the ones making the decisions in a Patriarchal Society.
They feel more entitled. But sometimes patriarchal women will align themselves with Patriarchy, and the more I think about it, the more it seems like when women are acting like things are okay now, and they're constantly stroking male egos, it seems like they're either in survival mode, and they just cannot see what's going on with other people, or basically they are just being selfish, and really looking at only achieving very short-term gains for themselves that won't even be passed down to anyone else, actually.
Kind of messed up.
When I was growing up, I don't think boys got nearly as many talks about how to be respectful to girls as girls got talks about how to avoid being harmed by boys.
Can also be a wonderful time to be a man or a boy, too!
"Homophobia is not a belief system. It's a tool"
mandiptalkspredators
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DezpFUcuPKY/?srtk=dThqbG5lZjB5cjlj
"Outside practicing The Cure"
thejordansunshine
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeQY6lYuT8M/?xtok=ZDRvbWdrOGx0bWR1
"Thank you @cornelluniversity for this"
earthisacircus
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd7bsa8tLjk/?cplk=bnFkOGY3bWFkZGRj
"The Meowstro plays his latest work"
the_jazzy_tabby
https://www.instagram.com/reel/De-kT7aJJGb/?exln=MWxzOHF0dHYxendqMw==
I kind of feel like the state of where the internet is now...
Might have created the conditions for a kind of Feminist Renaissance! It's like removing a veil.
"Just wondering..."
melissatiers
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddyoxiyx3t1/?srtk=MXVoaXZmZDBiaGNwaQ==
"If a man..."
alchemicallyniki
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeUdszJJFt_/?vrfl=djU2eHVzbnU5NjVp
"i hate that i know a lot of you will relate to this"
tessblasko
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeFjTQiy7Tk/?vrfl=cDA3cHp0dXV6enQ4
Actually, I can be very happy to know that Society is advancing.
Society no longer wants to burn at the stake the women who got old enough to no longer look or act like teenagers?
"Why Weren’t You Taught About Menopause? (The Answer is Patriarchy)"
Breaking Down Patriarchy
https://youtube.com/watch?v=6F8qxMgAt3w&si=6hSqAOAqKTBjWd7Q
I almost can't believe patriarchal people are going to start caring about X Y and Z topics.
But now, there are men and women online, making content about X Y and Z topics, and they're raising the bar!
This wasn't for the benefit of my health. I can tell you that.
"Why Weren’t You Taught About Menopause? (The Answer is Patriarchy)"
Breaking Down Patriarchy
High heels, high heels. Where can we wear high heels?
You know, they're hard to drive in.
"Hi Ho, Hi Ho (It's Off To Work We Go)"
It's good to remember that America was part of a war relief effort 100 years ago.
"It was in Armenia..."
I kind of thought that the instrumental part of this tune cohered well with the page which describes a lavish meal she ate, and seeing a pile of skeletons, and noting that her endurance is breaking down in her journal.
"We Are What You Say"
Sufjan Stevens
https://youtube.com/watch?v=kMVUmn2mTcM&si=PsS2oSmjOtJ5fVyB
Sallie Ketcham: "It was in Armenia..."
Perhaps the words cohere, too.
Sufjan Stevens - "We Are What You Say Lyrics"| AZLyrics.com
https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/sufjanstevens/wearewhatyousay.html
I also think that 🥂 RWL 🥂 would make a very interesting film character...
"It was in Armenia..."
"'It Was in Armenia That I Learned Fear'
Rose Wilder Lane and the Armenian Genocide"
Naturally, the book had me open right to page 104 even though I haven't even started it yet.
Whatever. I'll get to that part later, team.
On page 104, an encounter with lascivious male prisoners.
Finding the Mother Tree: Discovering the Wisdom of the Forest by Suzanne Simard | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/54976983-finding-the-mother-tree
This book's going outside with me today!
"Finding the Mother Tree: Discovering the Wisdom of the Forest by Suzanne Simard"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/54976983-finding-the-mother-tree
Just another day...
I haven't eaten anything yet today but I was thinking about consuming food at some point. Right now I have to fight back nausea because somebody who actually posts decent low fat recipes online is constantly choosing a thumbnail to promote them that makes herself look like a concentration camp survivor (the skinniest and boniest angle possible) because clearly she gets the most compliments when she does that, and then she also has to act like she still worships Kobe, the guy who brutally raped a 19-year-old hotel maid, and it makes me sick. So, I have to overcome that nonsense in order to get to her recipe.
"Fat Loss Beef & Veggie Lasagna"
Madelainerascan
https://youtube.com/shorts/YHyNZzi6MQY?si=eyBsDzM4c2u_dycM
Also, what's so bad about cauliflower? The DIM in cruciferous vegetables are highly recommended for some of us with more special genetics.
I just find it much more relaxing to watch B Dylan Hollis, who is just as skinny and maybe even skinnier, but I noticed he doesn't avoid fat in his recipes whatsoever. I think he just has type of the genetics where he naturally stays thin and doesn't have to scrupulously watch the fat content in his recipes. These kinds of people do exist, and I have lived with them.
Finally! So tired of all the reviews saying that an underage Cathy drove her "suitor" (her teacher) to suicide.
"Adam’s wife Cathy, the most remarkable character in the novel, brought stunningly to life by Florence Pugh, begins as a teenage victim of a teacher’s 'affection,' and learns early that if she is to survive as an independent woman, she must manipulate the situations men consign her to. She escapes Adam’s repressive family trap and slowly becomes a madam in her desire to control her own life. Her new role involves an understanding of and catering to male depravity, practiced especially by the towns and California’s state leaders.
However, the profit motive lays hold of her as well in her management of the house of prostitution. 'Add another show,' she barks at one of the women, 'build demand then raise prices.' She betrays a woman who shows mercy to her, and in one of the most stunning scenes of the series, which recalls Macbeth’s torment by the spirit of the murdered Banquo, she conjures that woman’s ghost beckoning her. Cathy, now called Kate, though, is not Lady Macbeth; she is Macbeth."
Dennis Broe
"'East of Eden’ review: A sprawling and relevant critique..."
Monday, October 26, 2026
A whole new world...
"abolish frats"
scotthelman
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKnNU9ygJl/?psln=MTRnam4wYjhtZm9wMg==
"There are plenty of good men"
plumyoni
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeHpxfAIHTR/?dlrf=MzkwdWR2Ym5xZmpu
"ABOLISH GREEK LIFE"
okayshalom
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeRq7fDxTQs/?rpxt=MTk2Yjk4OHc3bW1odg==
Something about how God is non-binary is playing in the other room.
"Older now, but..."
conzo0311
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Deh4jijMof8/?cplk=cDBwNTR5MnM4dHQ0
"My husband made me brownies"
trent.and.eliza
https://www.instagram.com/reel/De8WvarTQsz/?exln=OWpwcDMxaDNnMTRj
"2026 feels like a fever dream"
cogey
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeiQ5fePtiW/?dlrf=MTY2aHRjaXhwNnpwZA==
A share-y soul (?) reflects on the present
I think it's better to limit time online. I didn't like my nightmare last night, and I noticed some of the internet content is getting to be very dramatic because this is a very dramatic country right now. Two of us in this domicile ate pretty much the same things today and one of us has a more upset digestive system so I'm drinking broth. It's good to have a nice soft pettable cat to hang out.
Time spent outdoors in nature was very nice to enjoy, today, too!
It sounds like Rose Wilder Lane also got to experience some 🥂 glittering parties 🥂 in between grueling work assignments and bouts of brutal suffering.
"'It Was in Armenia That I Learned Fear'
Rose Wilder Lane and the Armenian Genocide"
"It was in Armenia..."
The way Rose Wilder Lane was in love with Albania kind of reminds me of how Diana Marcum was in love with the Azores."Straight from Pico: An interview with the author of 'The Tenth Island'" - Portuguese American Journal
"Escape to the Azores Islands, 1,000 Miles From Land" | by Diana Marcum | GEN
https://medium.com/gen/escape-to-the-azores-islands-1-000-miles-from-land-8b4740dc453c
Go nuns!
"Monday Starter: Nuns protest conditions at California ICE detention center" | Global Sisters Report
They're at the place that's on the other side of the mountains...
Surviving my own nightmares makes me feel mighty...
"Urban Dictionary: mighty white of you"
https://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=mighty+white+of+you
I'm just a female in this life, and I can't do it right now.
Maybe the lesser richer men should save the morer richer men from themselves.
Sometimes life is not so beautiful, is it? Tsk tsk.
"Spirit Run by Noé Álvarez" — Open Letters Review
https://openlettersreview.com/posts/spirit-run-by-no-lvarez
"The challenges of the run are expectedly intense. The daily physical demands put the author’s body in a near-constant state of pain, especially after he experiences an injury, and the changing terrain presents shifting threats. Unpleasant interactions with non-runners are unavoidable as they pass through densely populated areas. Runners become target practice for rock-throwers and occasionally draw the attention of those with more sinister ideas. Even the runners, though intensely connected with one another, are not immune to in-fighting. The group’s rapport begins to go further and further south as the run does."
~ Olive Fellows
Pointing out trauma makes me feel better, actually.
Just look at all this PTSD.
"'It Was in Armenia That I Learned Fear'
Rose Wilder Lane and the Armenian Genocide"
She's human, and appalled.
"'It Was in Armenia...'"
I'm glad people are waking up to some things, though.
I think the Patriarchy wants people to be a part of the Epstein class, and I think I will never be able to see fraternities as truly good places because of all of the terrible things that have happened as a result of the fraternity brother mentality. And yes, there have been some better fraternity brothers, but why couldn't they have held the other ones accountable? It's too much.
Perhaps it is natural to want to avoid a lot of knowledge sometimes.
Perhaps it is just how people are able to cope and manage.
It's not to say that this has not been a very violent place, because it has been.
We could be better here because we didn't have to go through World War I and World War II. Some people back then had to experience both.
That was both horrifying and helpful.
We rented a house and there were old black and white WWI era pictures we found in the garage. I don't think I can even remember the pictures so clearly. I just remember looking at pictures of things like people lying in the street with heads chopped off next to them and a very skinny person with the caption "Victim of the Huns" underneath it. I don't know who took the pictures or why they were there, but they told us that terrible atrocities had happened. And isn't it easier to look at an old black and white picture than to have to see it happen in your own neighborhood?
They can do it. They may choose better.
People really need to go deeper and be more careful about not falling into old Patriarchal patterns and habits because those old patterns have been put in place for reasons, and Patriarchal Ones are hoping you fall into them, just like falling into a trap. Because their consciousness is not very evolved and they don't want to know too much or grow or change yet, and that's why you cannot follow their example.
I can do clearing processes. 😌
A bunch of traumas are surfacing, and I appreciate them because they're letting me know that they're still there and they need to be dealt with and acknowledged and stuff like that.
Ladybug, ladybug, fly away home.
Your house is on fire. Your children are crying.
It was hard for my mother to be a single parent. She would leave us alone in the apartment sometimes.
It was hard to have a first grade teacher who was broken by her own life and mentally ill and who decided I was this detestable outsider who was a rich girl she hated because my mom dressed me a little bit better and we weren't Catholic and I had a little bit of an accent.
For goodness sakes we lived in an apartment. We were not rich.
I guess she could tell my mother had more money growing up than she had had. She actually didn't like my mother, but she took it out on me. My mother's lifestyle is not the lifestyle I got either, though.
Tragic stuff to know and to heal from today.
People know not what they do.
They also don't want to know what they do.
You cannot convince them to want to know anything they don't want to know about before they're ready to know it.
Lots of things really need to change.
Going to ask the universe for lots of help and I'm going to turn over a new leaf.
I had a bad dream.
I had a bad dream that I was trying to joke around with my husband even as we heard planes flying over and rumors about bombs dropping and then someone came to the door and delivered some sort of letter to him and I know this was just a dream because it was set up differently from the apartment we live in now but try to joke around with him and then something happened where my mind fragmented and I saw a little a little a lot of little girls running around and then he got unresponsive and then the next thing I knew I was talking to some people he knew at work and it seemed like something was in the letter that poisoned him or something and we didn't know he was going to survive and he was at some hot hospital but I didn't know which one and that I was supposed to make a long trip John to see my family and then I don't even know if that was possible and then I had to worry about the cat and it was going to take care of her. It was just a totally bad dream.
Maybe lots of people in humanity will get a clue soon.
Maybe my health will improve, too, and lots of people will get so much more wise and trustworthy. It'll be pretty awesome. Congratulations will be in order all around.
It must be true that the Universe can help us more.
It must be true that we can have some much better experiences.
Grow up. Stop gaslighting people. Get better. You can be better to yourself, too.
Grow up. Stop gaslighting people. Get better. You can be better to yourself, too.
Everyone's having their own human experiences.
In certain places at a certain times.
"We just want our parents back 💔"
icygio
https://www.instagram.com/reel/De0jw6lN41n/?dlrf=MTBqNXFsNjAwNjFpOA==
"The world could use some peace"
buzziebeeteacher
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DdTqNA4xGwX/?rpxt=MXU0cDVwc2xrdW10eQ==
"#usnavy #menareweak"
jaycarson201
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DexgFp3vBtS/?psln=MWptaGYzdThzZ3hxeA==
"Ice fell upon California"
buzziebeeteacher
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dejqo4sRu1U/?rpxt=dGl3aG5obWhwZnc1
It's probably time to pray some more again right now. 🙏🏼
This life has been difficult. The patriarchal ones are really messed up. Their survival bubbles do not seem real enough to believe in them being able to help me. But if they still believe in them, that way of surviving is going to seem to work for them for a little while longer, probably. But I don't think it's going to last for very long. Sigh.
Sunday, October 25, 2026
Isn't age a blessing?
Isn't it so important for those of us who are getting into our more mature years to be a good role models for the next generations? Or is that just like an older sister thing that some of our brothers never seem to have experienced? Because there are other brothers who have experienced it and act like it. And that's worth pointing out.
There could be some good changes coming on...
"Nearly told the world"
caseylowerymusic
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd_3TvJoBLc/?xtok=MTFoNzhjeHMwZGlsZA==
"Do you want amazing witchy book recs"
stevenpaitchison
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd1hW9HscPd/?exln=MTFtaWRxc2hyNnppeA==
"Imagine feeling like you have to justify..."
adamcam10
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dbq99GmxZfd/?psln=MWt6MjBlZjBrN2hqZw==
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