"A 4 yo who should be mesmerized by kids stories"
etchaskej
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dfnvm1QiV2K/?srtk=MTh4Z3YyN244cmJ1Mg==
Thursday, November 12, 2026
Released with ankle monitor: a woman like somebody I might have tutored in the past.
"Lifeng Guo and her 12yo and 4yo sons"
etchaskej
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfldUuWiv6v/?dlrf=NXRiejI4M3Bucno4
This is trauma that needs to be addressed and not just swept under the carpet any longer.
"Our people are locked up, and CoreCivic just took in 75.2 million MORE from ICE..."
jcfrias
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dfij4Drsxuv/?vrfl=NnNrOTU3Z3d3N2li
Wednesday, November 11, 2026
I'm glad I bought this.
On page 26, I became curious about August Strindberg.
On page 32, I wished that they still sold mint flavored Bartlett pears in syrup.
"The Bride Wore the Traditional Gold by Talbot Spivak: Fine Hardcover (1972) 1st Edition"| Kaleidoscope Books & Collectibles
https://www.abebooks.com/first-edition/Bride-Wore-Traditional-Gold-Talbot-Spivak/22742976323/bd
(Certainly not the same condition or price as my copy.)
Lots of Parisian ancestry in his background.
His grandfather provided the French resistance with funds!
Hitler makes an appearance.
I needed to take a little break from Irish literature.
This book would make an incredibly quirky movie. I think I would watch it.
After reading the book jacket (quirky), I opened it to the middle and it was the exact sentence that's on the cover.
Briefly Noted | The New Yorker
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/1972/05/20/briefly-noted
In the first 20 pages he's pretty obsessed with cats and I like that. He's got a mean wife, and they're trying to get him to go to Vietnam.
It's nice to be in a room where everybody agrees to not be on the same page.
I get to discuss Irish literature in an Irish pub with people who are into literature, and I couldn't always do that! People kind of argue with each other a little bit and have different opinions about the book and I like that.
But why? Why? Who can tell us why?
Can people with money tell us why money seems to be the culprit?
"the money the money" pages 122 -123
"The Wren, the Wren by Anne Enright" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/77265006-the-wren-the-wren
Because it's fun to spend, I guess???
How else may I please a man?
Maybe you should worship an athlete who violently raped a 19-year-old and got a bunch of kids killed in a helicopter; that really seems to please some men a lot. It also seems to please some women with internalized misogyny issues.
Ugh, no.
Imaginary article title: "How to please yourself like a certain type of man pleases himself."
But I am inspired because I got a reminder that teenage girls nowadays have a lot more feminist messaging directed at them, and I do think it would be funny to see a magazine article like that in a story or a movie.
This reminded me of all the messages that were being directed at young women when I was growing up.
"How to Create a Gender Gap in Hetero Dating"
https://burnedhaystack.substack.com/p/how-to-create-a-gender-gap-in-hetero
"Repressed and Rowdy"
I wanna new soap opera. Huey Lewis can have his drugs.
I came up with an idea the other day when I was in the pool.
"A Mother who was even more abandoned by a Ferocious Patriarchal Society than the girl who got locked in the cellar in the Hiroshima Mon Amour film."
Yeah that doesn't sound so catchy YET, but when I was in college none of the male professors who taught film thought a medieval female character like Christine de Pizan was worth anything to them, and I'll bet she could have a movie made about her someday now.
I just got such a cluster of fun ideas in my head.
Watching the Howard's End film, having tea and stimulating discussion, and hanging out in the woods! Maybe a little poetry circle?
It's also fun to contrast who Henry Wilcox is in the film and who Henry Wilcox is in the TV series.
I am only too thankful my cat doesn't have to fly the nest and build a career for herself someday.
Searching for that clip from Howard's End where the kind rich lady is only too thankful not to have the right to vote. I found this essay instead. It mentions that part.
"Amardeep Singh: Teaching Notes: E.M. Forster's 'Howards End'" (1910)
https://www.electrostani.com/p/teaching-notes-em-forsters-howards-end.html?m=1
But men don't like it when you pressure them to do things.
"Ministers consider forcing TV industry to better protect women"
What did he do? What's going on? He's a veteran, I believe.
*said with disdain*
ameliaplease
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DffiujJxWMF/?rpxt=MW90bjlmaHBxOTNqYg==
I feel this piece has some really great lines in it.
"I’m Fat Positive — This Is Why I Had My ‘Mother’s Apron’ Belly Surgically Removed"
https://www.scarymommy.com/panniculectomy-fat-positive-mothers-apron-belly
"I’m still a fat girl after panniculectomy, and that’s perfectly fine with me!
Lots of people end up with flat tummies after panniculectomy, but since I am still fat, I did not end up with a flat tummy or anything even remotely close. My formerly round, saggy belly is now a round, high belly. I am ecstatic with my results, but I’m still round and chubby—as I knew I would be! I can’t stop looking in every mirror I pass, even though I know my body is still not society’s ideal. It’s my own ideal! I have been joking that I am shaped kind of like Lady Glitter Sparkles from the Trolls movie. You know Danny Devito as The Penguin in Batman Returns? He and I are rocking similar body types."
~ Katie Cloyd
I'm sorry for repressing myself for so long, and I'll try to do better.
Joe Cool likes the planks that are on the knees and forearms, but we'll practice the other ones too. If our one temperamental big toe is feeling up to it.
"Joe Cool"| Peanuts
I feel cool. Like Joe Cool and Snoopy.
I'm really satisfied with exactly the amount of fatigue my muscles are feeling.
Like a reincarnated patron of Peter Paul Rubens...
I'm going to think about how appreciated extra fat on the body used to be when I fatigue my muscles today.
O Captains!
I'm going to see what Naslin I mean Naslund wrote about Hawthorne and Emerson because I forgot. Actually, the only part I didn't forget was that she wrote about Hawthorne.
"Ahab's Wife (Review)"
https://www.litlovers.com/book-reviews/wonderfully-written/ahabs-wife
I see a lot of potential in other people, too.
So, in order to fulfill their potential, what are they going to do if I start drinking celery juice every morning and trick myself into not wanting to eat certain types of foods anymore?
What kinds of ideas are coming up? 🧐
The Pied Piper story.
I like how there's this place in Frankenmuth that honors the disappearance of children. I always felt really weirdly drawn to that story...
You can start planning the new ceremonies and new memorials.
What about museums and monument? Museums and monuments are good.
"Every dang time"
thekittydrink
https://www.instagram.com/reel/C2GLZ-gv0ED/?psln=MTZienI0MzBzMzZrZA==
Like, totally.
Like, the spirits of some kids who got kidnapped and put in concentration camps have just, like, come to me and said that a lot of kids think that some of you guys are being, like, so totally immature.
What do you apparently have to avoid talking about in order to get more brand deals?
"like, how..."
thekittydrink
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeaPY0iB3ll/?srtk=emYzb3lrdG5kbjVn
"You cut off the hand"
original_pringles
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DflBDvORpPf/?srtk=MXd5eTBoMW05b2xkNQ==
"Please make noise, please say something."
travelingnurselex
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DflaysaADcD/?mdxt=MThrbnFmNTY0d3BodQ==
What do you like to treat well in your life?
Do you own a classic car? Do you think it deserves to be treated well? I just noticed that lots of veterans seem to like classic cars.
One example of criminal misuse of taxpayer labor - disappearing a nurse.
"Please make noise, please say something."
travelingnurselex
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DflaysaADcD/?mdxt=MThrbnFmNTY0d3BodQ==
Oh, a lot of things could be more honorable than that.
What could be more honorable than ignoring the mistreatment and disappearances of children, women and men?
Yes, you would have, and you've made that abundantly clear.
"I would have treated you so much better if you were a violent angry man with a lot of money and property and a sense of entitlement and authority."
You know what some people have in common...
Figuring out how to deal with violent, angry men we encountered in our lives. Happy Veteran's Day.
But why would we bond over something like that when the Patriarchy doesn't want us to do that in exchange for a paycheck?
Patriarchal Society doesn't want us to bond over having to figure out how to deal with the violent, angry men in our lives.
Have you ever noticed that?
Pets are sweeter!
"We may think Maple is perfect, but Waffles has other thoughts"
@thegoldenbreakfastclub
I guess you signed up for something special, didn't you?
A lot of times I'm laid-back and super easy to get along with in real life. So if you only get my abrasive writer side, joke's on everybody.
Some things are really not so fun to know.
"women are controlled through beauty"
alessiasutherberry
Sometimes it really is not fun to know that some people are so untrustworthy and were trained by patriarchal society to act like insensitive assholes.
Don't pull your fake ass f****** b******* with me because I will yell at you about it. This is like a stage of grief. I'm sure it won't last forever. It's just something that's going on right now.
So starry, the sky outside! Woke up and got my laundry in.
Would be so good to go out to the desert again soon! The stars remind me.
Don't forget all the good things you deserve.
Tuesday, November 10, 2026
I'm glad I get to crochet and listen to a book now.
"Real #controversial #hottake"
g.h.o.s.7.
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeJ1xMWyR8k/?obrf=amNpenljcm1zcXMy
"If you are new here"
brendalaumd
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfkEzqIgmx8/?cplk=bnBycmEyZHF3aDFr
"I lost 300lbs"
katherine_cares
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DemfLBkytSR/?xtok=MXJrNmR0aDA0NnE2dw==
Really want my favorite unkidnapped Brothers to do something special for me.
Can you cinch your tiny waists into itty bitty maid costumes and run along to a burly, built female dominatrix and document the evidence?
I think some of the sons were learning how to act like entitled jerks, but maybe this is useful.
"To understand who had the authority..."
justikeandthetribe
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dfc9jH0veiZ/?cplk=MXcyMG5ybjRrNDJvZw==
So, I'm doing laundry and I'm kind of mad right now.
I went swimming today! I enjoyed it for part of the time!
"How does 'How to recover a healthy sense of self-worth while living in a certain kind of body even though it's just SO freaking obvious that Patriarchal Society really, really, doesn't want certain types of human beings with certain genetics to have too much of that kind of luxury in their lives, apparently' sound???"
I have signed up for something else that's supposed to be very self-help oriented and I am disappointed that I can't get into it right away cuz I really really really really wanted to help myself with that stuff TONIGHT.
I just found out they made this book into a film! Quite a few years ago.
"TOKYO FIANCEE - Bande annonce avec message d'Amélie Nothumb"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=LZg8dxKrLJs&si=STomYuqiPVoG6eWt
It's not available here.
This seems to be dubbed over in Spanish.
"Romance en Tokio (Tokyo Fiancée) (2014)"
Why haven't I watched Momo yet?
I started it. It's still available.
"Momo (1986) - Ave Maria"
https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=03wZ8ue12N4&si=chjmoSDBScyIxLM7
I really like the version with that song.
I have a lot of books to read.
Hey, it's the actress who played Violette!
I knew I should have studied French.
TRAILER - "I Want to Talk About Duras (2021)"
https://mubi.com/en/films/i-want-to-talk-about-duras/trailer
Well, I studied it a little bit.
"Violette trailer - English subtitles"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Lzhp2PCOWfI&si=K0Ngz2_RA-DmLuLG
But I should have really studied it.
Lucky Marguerite Duras, eh?
"Marguerite Duras: recorrido por la vida y obra de la autora de ‘El Amante’"| Traveler
For all I know, her higher self has been quietly keeping an eye on me ever since I first saw a film she wrote when in college. Because I don't think I saw that film in a group setting in class. I think I might have chosen it out of a big long list of films and watched it by myself. VCRs. So long ago! And yet, if you twist your mind around it the right way, it could be like yesterday.
So I don't feel like joining with the unwell Patriarchy right now.
It's also filled with immature men who've apparently never been through what I've been through, and patriarchal women who cater to them in exchange for some very short-term gains.
The Patriarchy is tiresome and dangerous and inefficient and sexist and violent. It is not cool.
"It matters"
salmaelwardany
https://www.instagram.com/p/DfkM9QUjQMt/?img_index=15&psln=bGJmZGt4cWk3MG9x
"Please make noise, please say something."
travelingnurselex
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DflaysaADcD/?mdxt=MThrbnFmNTY0d3BodQ==
"OBEY"
workingclassteacher
https://www.instagram.com/p/DfcmnLepbqL/?psln=Nmp6cm55bDVxdW1t
Just think of it as voices that are getting through to me and making me say stuff.
Feeling like more of the privileged (or even rich) people who don't like kidnappings and concentration camps should start displaying it more obviously. And start acting like they're really disappointed that the privileged or rich people who are fine with them are being horrible to human beings.
I want to see how much you like your people!
It's your people. It's your people. It's your people. It's your people!
I know it doesn't help much, but feel like saying it anyway.
Some people would feel a lot differently if it was their friend or family member who disappeared or got kidnapped.💲With the assistance of American tax dollars.
Channeling some music that helps people get through moments in time is a good thing.
Back to doing some dishes...
"Pluto"
Sufjan Stevens et. al
Maybe it's time to start praying...
"Please make noise, please say something."
travelingnurselex
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DflaysaADcD/?mdxt=MThrbnFmNTY0d3BodQ==
She got up and left. She left me!
It's okay. I will be okay. She'll be back.
"One Grain of Sand" ~ Pete Seeger
And that really is just how I feel sometimes!
I don't have to treat you like I think you're better than such and such type of person just because you have chosen to surround yourself with people who want to treat you like you're better than such and such type of person. Nobody is paying me to do that. I'm not going to do it.
Look at these children! Just look at them! Process this experience!
"Sesame Street - 1970's opening (show 2178)"
I should meet some of these kinds of people. Peacekeepers.
"The 'peacekeepers,' mostly older women in neon yellow vests, arrive about 15 minutes ahead of time to place orange traffic cones bearing 'SLOW' signs along Calzada de la Fuente."
"For a year, San Diegans have protested at this ICE detention center. They’re not stopping"
by Sofía Mejías-Pascoe
https://inewsource.org/2026/11/10/ice-detention-center-san-diego-protests-congress-trump/
Maybe it's where God intends me to stay for the reminder of this life?
There's the far more privileged people over here, and there's the much more oppressed people over there, and somehow, I am seemingly right in the middle, and feeling affected by all of them!
Monday, November 09, 2026
And if someone really wants to take my complaining away from me right now...
Here's a 51-minute video about a French New Wave film, screenplay written by a woman. Sounds very good at 1.5x (I detect a southern drawl.)
"Alain Resnais's 'Hiroshima Mon Amour' (1959)"
Her Head In Films
https://youtube.com/watch?v=cyHeLrUF5fQ&si=yJWN9XOhFuRPWjFp
People are complicated! It is a complex and multifaceted world!
"Brooklyn Coffee Shop Episode 75: Normal Berliner"
https://youtube.com/shorts/Uc9uJktOTXs?si=C0lGwPyVdFkXTL4B
"Y'all..."
theholisticnurselina
https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dff4K90PtK7/?exln=ZjFieXl1NGV0OTd1
"one of my most evergreen TikToks"
abbyrosemorris
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DenKZOrBJld/?rpxt=MTg1Z3htaXRxYWl4bg==
"The response every survivor deserves"
bluraybeyond
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfiphcbMRER/?cplk=b2I0OGRtbWdjOThk
"making a pink black jelly cake 🩷🖤🩷🖤🩷"
sweetzori
And that's the horror of being "too curious" about what's going on in other people's realities I suppose...
I just really cannot believe it sometimes, but I guess that, according to their reality, they feel safer and get more rewards in life when they act a certain way. But their reality really does not sync with every reality that's out there...
It's obvious that not everyone feels this way...
But I say, thank God that not everybody is the same or has had the same experiences in this life.
I want to stick around for a while. I want to see what the younger people have to say about it when they get older.
You can learn a lot about human coping mechanisms at a time like this.
So for the time being, the horrors will continue? Maybe next year will be better.
"ICE unlikely to scale back crackdown, sources say"
https://www.cbsnews.com/news/ice-crackdown-stephen-miller-illegal-immigration/
It's such a big, revolting insight!
The way to feel better when I'm depressed is to figure out what makes me feel better and to do what I want and not what other people want me to do.
Maybe being a shallow influencer is just not in the cards for some.
Maybe some people don't want to get their problems fixed too quickly because then they'd be skipping over important and treasured bits of knowledge. They're still trying to extract them for a collective healing, for the greater good!
Ah...safe space.
"Observations on Film Art: David Bordwell on HIROSHIMA..."
criterioncollection
https://youtube.com/watch?v=hKaHc08b13k&si=jP9X_SwcRRuNPnu2
"Alain Resnais's 'Hiroshima Mon Amour' (1959)"
Her Head In Films
And of course, I felt curious to learn more about Duras recently.
"Memory & Time in Hiroshima Mon Amour"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=W11W9BGonVA&si=ErmRCCGjZR6-KqST
I feel like what intrigued me about her is the way she was trying to acknowledge things about how people deal with love and trauma back when people weren't good at addressing those topics yet.
They still aren't because if they were, we wouldn't have ICE kidnapping and terrorizing and assaulting innocent people.
But at least we can acknowledge things like PTSD more now.
The field of psychology wasn't very far along as far as treating people with post-traumatic stress disorder after WWII. She did suffer, and she had a lot of health problems later in life. But as an artist, she managed to get a lot accomplished, getting a certain point of view out there and being respected by her peers.
I think the first time I watched the Hiroshima Mon Amour film in college was probably around the time when she died.
A picture of her in the woods when she was young kind of reminded me of a time I had some healing work done on me, and then very softly, in my head, I heard "Kiss them for me..." 🎶 and I thought of people in the French resistance.
"Marguerite Duras: recorrido por la vida y obra de la autora de ‘El Amante’"| Traveler
I think spending more time in nature would be for the best.
I kind of miss when the universe telling me to think about the Transcendentalists. But they had hard times. It was weird how their world felt so close to mine. I was being revisited by something at different times of my life, and it had a lot to do with them.
I feel like the traumas of the land have affected my health.
Sometimes I used to wake up feeling like I was getting information about bad things happening in the world, and it was my empath self picking up on stuff. Information about what's going on in the world that needs to get fixed or get better found its way to a medium that was listening. But that's not a pleasant way to wake up so I wanted to stop letting that happen so much.
It's gotten better but maybe that stuff hasn't entirely gone away.
This morning, when my body wasn't feeling so well, I picked up a book:
Spirit Run by Noe Alvarez - "The Arrival" chapter
In this part, when he started his first run, the group didn't treat him so great. In fact, the way he was treated kind of sounds like hazing. But perhaps it was honest. They didn't take to new people right away. They didn't really want to help him too much. Well, one can also contrast their behavior to when people are aggressively friendly and expecting you to have a good time in a group with them and there's so much pressure to conform that in a way, it also feels like a form of hazing.
I had a dream in the morning that a mom was smiling at me and she said she wanted me to see how soft a baby toy was but she seemed very mocking about it, so I could not smile at her. So I just gave her a look that meant "I know you are being mean about this" and then joined some other people who seemed like they wanted me to go with them and we rode a Merry-Go-Round, past the mom with her soft baby toy who alienated me with her mocking look. Even though her mouth said I was welcome, I didn't feel I was.
When I got separated from the Merry-Go-Round people, I was alone. I was confused. I was disoriented. It was not unlike an experience I had in real life when I got off a plane that had to make an emergency landing in Memphis. The staff of the airport was trying to run me out, saying the airport was closing. I always thought people could sleep in airports, but it seemed like they wanted to kick us all out. But unlike that time, instead chasing down a bunch of strangers and letting them pay for my taxi to a hotel, I just had to let go of the dream and agree to wake up in my own bed.
Okay, it's time to let go of that dream world now. You don't know any of those people. It just felt like you did in the dream. You're not with them anymore. Now you're going back to your reality. Surrounded by yarn and books.
And I was thinking about getting into that mentality where you exercise everyday and it's not about how you look. It's more about how it gives you a better feeling inside of happiness. Because I've been exercising for half the year (not everyday but several times a week) and it hasn't made one bit of difference in weight or clothing size or appearance, but it has made a difference in how I feel nevertheless.
However, if I was a decade or so younger, I think I would have lost some weight by now. But nope, the weight has stayed there. Steady as she goes. It's like a trauma gain. Maybe it's grounding.
Do people who have been through traumas tend to want to reap some gains from those traumas? I think so.
I swished oil in my mouth. No coffee.
Perhaps I am two. A stack of story books is waiting to be read to me on a bedside table. Like Bambi, and Cinderella.
It triggers pain and suffering on multiple levels. Physical, emotional, psychological.
It's been too easy for some people to just act like they don't care about certain kinds of people just to be able to go along with what others are doing. I hope a lot of the younger people learn to communicate a much more caring stance towards others better, and in a swifter manner. Waiting around for some people to get it and make good changes feels awful.
Maybe they can go back to school in the near future, though.
"Why public schools nationwide are facing a massive drop in student enrollment" | NPR & Houston Public Media
Parents who are not in ICE can be much better role models these days, I hear.
"3rd grade student taken into ICE custody"
https://www.kpax.com/videos/video/3rd-grade-student-taken-into-ice-custody
If they knew some people's children were suffering, what would the parents do?
"Kansas Livestock Leader Warns ICE Raids Are Disrupting Agriculture and Raising Food Costs" - Texas Border Business
This is good to listen to, too. 🎼🦢🕸️🌧️
"Pluto"
Sufjan Stevens et. al
https://youtube.com/watch?v=ePYgwZzqS40&si=YoQrNvSR7jPJeHH5
And sometimes I think we are a broken people and it is rather foolish to pretend otherwise.
Break a spell.
"PLEASE MAKE NOISE"
travelingnurselex
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfiP3N_PoHQ/?srtk=dXM2d3I3dWEwMjNl
Sunday, November 08, 2026
It's happening!...📚🎶💖
I guess I really just wanted to get in touch with being more literary again this year!
Noticed how the brain feels connected to a link.
When I highlighted a link on a different device, I wanted to paste it in on this device right away, as if it had been attached to my finger, and was transferable from it, instead of going back to the page again on this device and highlighting it, to be able to paste it in via this device, too.
Why is tonight better?
I weirdly feel so much more content with life tonight, whereas last night had those awful dark night of the soul elements to it. And not everyone is going to get the same things out of this movie.
Hiroshima Mon Amour
https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/hiroshima_mon_amour
But I guess seeing others process trauma is cathartic for me. And I also feel like I'm learning the history of what people inherit when others don't process trauma. It's a violent world. I can't deny it.
Tonight also was a good time to experience pink peppercorn shavings in soup, and finally, the bottle of pink wine named after "The Milkmaid and her Pail"
"2023 Reserve Skin Contact Albariño" | The Fableist Wine Company
https://fableistwine.com/product#/2023-reserve-albarino
It's good that not everyone is super sensitive.
Two people are ready to watch a film with me, but I'm too full after dinner. So I say, I can't do it yet, and inside I'm like, oh my God, I'm dying. What if I get really sick? Oh my God, why am I like this? Oh my God, what if I have to go seek medical treatment? Oh my God, I don't want to. Please let me just hide in my room.
And then an hour later...I'm like, okay, now I can watch the film. No more thoughts of dire outcomes.
Kind of a lot to deal with, sometimes.
I don't know if I'm just babbling or chasing paper or what.
Paper used to be really different!
'How the Medieval Book Industry Worked"
https://www.medievalists.net/2026/11/medieval-book-industry/
This is probably what the teacher in that other TikTok video was talking about.
"Families on edge after ICE activity reported across Moreno Valley, including near elementary school" - ABC7 Los Angeles
It's good for your soul. 💐💀🥀
Do not forget to plan to show a kid who got out of a concentration camp a lot more love than you're showing them right now.
I can't read this! There's a lot online about their American counterparts anyway. 😱
"Bake and obey: meet the British tradwives"
https://www.thetimes.com/life-style/sex-relationships/article/british-tradwives-gt0s0h8j8
"I faithfully promised my sister that I was absolutely brought up to have the same standards for men as I was to have for women."
That sounds like a lot of b******* to me!
I do think her jokes sound better for a variety of reasons.
There's her face. There's her mouth. There's her body. There's her weight. There's her hair color. There's her eye color. There's all kinds of things!
I know my brothers aren't superficial and hung up on weight and looks when it comes to women whatsoever.
I would like my brothers to explain themselves by comparing my behaviors and the things I do and say to the behaviors and things that the women they prefer do and say.
Where did I learn about this when I was a kid?
I actually learned about it from my Grandpa in Michigan on his farm and he laughed about it and was making excuses for why they had to weigh the stewardesses. Sigh...
"Watch your weight"
siahfriedcoach
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfaIKt6TSCV/?xtok=cjRwaWkwN2hpZHpk
This is part of the Feminist Renaissance experience.
Come feel the love with me, Brothers! Or else...
"Watch your weight"
siahfriedcoach
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfaIKt6TSCV/?xtok=cjRwaWkwN2hpZHpk
Tried a technique and the headache is dissipating!
I just had to ask it something. I found a great phrase: "Pluralistic Ignorance."
😊😊😊😊😊😊
Just forget everything except the sound bath 🎶💎🥣🏞️.
The sound bath is smarter. And much more relaxing.
"Forest Koshi Chime | Gentle & Grounding Sound Bath"
@AlignedMuse
Oh no!
Oh shoot. I thought my headache was going away, and now it came back again. Okay, I know I have different genetics, and I'm going to be okay with that really soon.
I feel like her jokes about moms and famous men have added more to my dance through life today.
"Katherine Ryan's Unfiltered Opinions"
800pgmslices
Is it a shadowy shadow work collective thing?
"It's a collective thing." Also I feel hot and a headache is coming on so I'm going to try to do an energy balancing rooster comb hold on myself. But I'm going to read this article later, when it will be more enjoyable. Because it looks like it would be fun for me to read, for some reason.
"How the Medieval Book Industry Worked"
https://www.medievalists.net/2026/11/medieval-book-industry/
Back to the present...
"Weekend Update: Elon Musk on His Tough Week"
SNL
https://youtube.com/watch?v=N5Ws09EYV3s&si=xieeCkoiIF2mjGpQ
"Weekend Update: Democrats Win Control of Congress"
SNL
https://youtube.com/watch?v=NB15mTMlKck&si=d5VS1S85c6Pn4zpu
"Weekend Update: Two People Who Just Hooked Up"
SNL
It sounds ridiculous, but it really feels like this.
You have to trick me into feeling like earning money for creating something is going to enhance rather than cheapen a story or a work of art. And I hate to reference this again because I know I'm going to get in lots of trouble for it, but Anne Frank never made any money and look at her book and who it touched. People read her book and gain a whole different consciousness from their parents. People break away from their families and say I cannot go along with my family because I know they wouldn't have hidden Anne Frank. Her book is very, very powerful. I got a strong impression that her book was powerful when I was very young. And then it seemed like something about it followed me around. I went to the Netherlands, and for some reason, on the day I went to their hiding place, it was really unusually not busy, and I knew it was going to be that way because I was told (not by the people but by some sort of higher guidance) ahead of time that on the day I went it wouldn't be busy. I feel like people who were involved with that situation are like almost Spirit guides to me or something. So as far as that goes, I don't know why it still must be in my head this way, but it still is in my head this way, and it won't stop being in my head this way, so I feel like there must be a very good reason for it.
Someday soon, this time will be 15 years in the past.
"Hiroshima Mon Amour (1959)" | trailer
https://youtube.com/watch?v=wnocAKccEqc&si=K7M6-sfsjZNqfIwz
And it is a different experience to watch this film now than it was when I was young.
"Hiroshima Mon Amour: The Paradox of Sharing Memory"
rezamirzaiee
Oh my God, okay I'm going back to my healing music now.
I am judgy sometimes because I'm trying to push people into another level of experience. I'm trying to push you into a better part of the swimming pool. It's going to be more fun to swim there.
Looks like this will be very funny for me to watch later!
But first, the angels will give me some healing music and my Zen coloring app to help me ease into my morning.
"The Psychology Of Success Is Mostly Luck"
@barryseconomics
People make progress. 👑
If he was a lothario in a past life, he can be better in this one. If she was an a****** to women yesterday, she can be less of an a****** tomorrow. Feminist Renaissance is upon us.
I can ask for help from angels and higher sources.
Hurt people hurt people and employ a Just World Theory to make excuses for insensitive people. Angels and higher sources don't do those things.
Because living this life in this body is challenging right now.
I need a higher power to help me heal the sorrow today, and the feeling of suffering from soul crushing depression, a headache, and soreness of gums around several teeth on the upper left side.
Saturday, November 07, 2026
It's cold out there. I don't want to be out there right now.
I felt some kind of crushing defeat affecting me earlier but what makes it a little better is that I got to stop being outdoors and retreat to my room. I am a big retreater when things get too overwhelming, and it's a great survival strategy in my opinion. Also when things feel bad maybe it's time to be grateful because that's information. That's information! Accept the information. Some better way is going to present itself. That would be beautiful. And then one day you're going to be able to make your pain into something that's kind of fun or funny and relatable and helpful for relaxing. That's how people end up making comedies.
Not everything gets fixed quickly in this realm.
It's kinda tough because ppl can see you and have a heart for you but still not know what's best for you. That's why it's good to be curious and more about learning sometimes.
Traumas are being processed. Humor is returning to the planet!
Siouxsie And The Banshees - "Kiss Them For Me"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=6MC9MvqoHhs&si=Oahpw_EyVLwbuCSX
My sister sent me a picture where she's wearing some really cool glasses and I said it's time for me to get some new glasses and I'm going to show them a picture of yours and I said and I'm going to ask them to give me a teeny tiny nose with it and then she sent another picture and said close up of the glasses and she'd scrunched up her face to make her nose and her mouth look really big and weird and kinda messed up and I laughed.
Feeling amused in a dark room!
I think this is a good time to process some trauma.
I think I'll be renting Hiroshima Mon Amour. The last time I saw the whole thing I was much younger and had experienced less in life and it will be different to watch it now.
Now.👯♀️👯🏼♀️
All of the men need to be fine with the knowledge that most of the world's film directors, CEOs and presidents are women. And it's a weirdly violent world for both men and women. But for some reason, violence against men never counts as much as violence against women. When violence against women happens, they are war heroines. When violence against men happens, they are just house husbands who made a bad choice and didn't know how to get out of it. The men need to look just as effortlessly skinny as B. Dylan Hollis and have his eye color and his hair color and they must eat all his recipes with just as much gusto. That's the standard now! Sorry. If you look like him, you will get paid more and you will marry richer.
This is just how life works in this era.
"No.#women#women"
ItsMeSarah
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTPLDALCT/
But don't you want to be like everybody else who can have fun when everybody else is all having fun because they don't care about and because having fun is what's most important to them...
Apparently not. Not if it's just gonna feel like rape culture.
See I won't just do the "won't someone think of the children in concentration camps" thing.
Have you any ideas about how to seem like less of a bully to a traumatized person of any age? Multiple ages? That could be something good to talk about. Oh, here's another thing. If there's a certain type of traumatized person you'd be especially good at working with, how do you know, and why?
What are you doing? What is going on?
"Weekend Update: Tucker Carlson Reviews the Summer’s Blockbuster Films"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=KD5zPrsEz6M&si=nU0DdSjj6Z9H3gq7
I ate delicious chewy hard gluten free bread on the wrong side of the mouth again today and now I'm inflamed and aggravated but it's going to die down and it's not nearly as bad as last night. I'll go drink a turmeric shot or something when I'm motivated. I was motivated this morning. I did muscle fatiguing things this morning and now I'm not as motivated. Because I don't want to be motivated. Motivation is not my friend right now. Motivation will be my friend later when I want it to be.
I have an opinion about nature and people. Stand back...
People who are different should spend more time in nature if they ever hang out together. Because nature can calm down things and smooth the rough edges.
And that is just how it seems sometimes.
Fine. I guess if other people have to have the more empirical experiences too, they'll just have them either later in this life or in the next life then.
Sometimes Patriarchy is like a cracker salad from Georgia!
"Georgia does cracker salad"
B. Dylan Hollis
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPLV9xMek/
Like okay but there's so many other things you could be making...
Time to have some better deals come our way.
"Patriarchy was never about who's physically stronger"
boulderpsychicinstitute
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DfYlkv_NiYY/?srtk=YW4wOGRqdWhpd3Ez
Creativity is such a beautiful gift to experience from humanity...
Maybe this has been a life in which I thought having less money made me feel more grounded. Maybe? Perhaps I felt like it made the energy move more quickly. And would help more people in the long run. Maybe it was just supposed to be how I experienced things this time around, for a while.
Things are kind of okay, actually.
I've kind of had good experiences. Feels like people read my stuff. Feels like DJs played songs because of what I wrote. Feels like nice little surprises have been happening off and on and they might keep on happening. It's not so bad, actually.
Now I feel better. I'm surprised.
I just allowed myself to be truly and honestly sad. And that made me feel more relaxed and happy.
Perhaps I will seek to feel something new today.
Honestly, I just still feel a bit sad about the way some people are behaving.
Hey 😉
I would wear some of those clothes for a special occasion. Especially the ones that look more comfortable and don't require a girdle.
"But remember, America was so great..."
streetlighteyesdontdie
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DbU1sYvOlW3/?psln=MXFwa210MG43Y2c1MA==
Signs of the times...
Monarch butterflies, a picture of a plague doctor Halloween costume, a shorter haircut with the note that the person sporting it is "tired of men of looking at her in a certain way." It's all real!
She was not so fortunate as a teenager. Perhaps he wasn't either?
"Fans of the Movie, The LOVER...Look at what was uncovered..."
And that's thanks to all the feminist content that came to my attention by way of scrolling.
I have high hopes for your rising levels of curiosity.
Haha just a sliver of human experience was itching to come out without digging at it with a needle.
"I can tell by the way you've changed your personality since you've gotten married that your husband can't stand chicks like me."
Yeah yeah all right.
"The brothers and sisters of the Patriarchal Earth World do favor certain types of traumatized women sometimes if they act and look in very specific and particular ways. So I disagree with what you say now."
Moving onwards. With sisterly thoughts...
In a *"Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy"* voice, but a bit more feminine:
"Have you ever noticed that the world loves to care about a traumatized man, and not so much the other way around? Maybe you should ask your moms about that sometime."
*"Traumatized Thoughts"*
To be fair, not so rich people are also weird.
"People pay more for an object a celebrity touched"
@barryseconomics
Super rich people can be very strange.
Elon sat in the middle seat on two flights in coach. The middle seat!
Can you guess how many menstruation activists I had heard of when I was a teenager. Period. Not even saying male or female.
Just guess.
"'Diana' honorees include teen guy who's a menstruation activist"
https://www.npr.org/2026/11/07/g-s1-152225/princess-diana-honor-menstruation-stigma
The generosity of it all!
I'm really excited about this new world filled with empathy and guys who definitely don't want to be part of the Cornell 50 or the Cornell 7 or any sort of Epstein Island Dynamics.
I know I should drop this, but...
I have never, not one single time in my entire life, heard a group of women talking about how much they liked a guy because he went from this percentage of body fat to that percentage of body fat. I have never, ever, ever heard that. I'm not saying it hasn't happened. Like, probably there's women who make fat loss recipe videos who would do it?
I think I will try to have mostly liquids or soft foods today.
Some of you guys are not as funny as you think you are, and you're going to look really messed up in the future if you don't change.
I think next year is going to be better.
I think next year is going to be different in a good way. I'm sorry I've suffered so much. I apologize to me. I have struggled and crawled and experienced alarming fluctuations in temperature. I have gotten a lot of knowledge about how messed up the patriarchy is in a very empirical way. Is it finally enough?
Hey, it's Margarita and some of her works.
Marguerite Duras was in the Resistance. Of course she was.
"Marguerite Duras" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marguerite_Duras
"Marguerite Duras called The Lover ‘a load of shit’"
"The Lover⧸ L'amant (1992)"
BEAUTY & MUSIC
https://youtube.com/watch?v=cS2VWAI5b9w&si=g4CMCSNcVzveieoU
"Hiroshima, Mon Amour: place, memory, love and death"
CinemaCities1978
https://youtube.com/watch?v=HUySvek-wS8&si=FpV10fKLkIaKNR6b
"Hiroshima, Mon Amour (1959) - Memory, Trauma, and"
Cinema Callback
https://youtube.com/watch?v=pYUlfbTFFEk&si=l0P03DGn7cTXG7Vv
Oh my God, that's the long podcast bro version but maybe I will try...
And yet. This is Epstein class stuff.
By the way, this guy's more advanced than a repressed 19th Century banker because he's not seducing a poor young maid, and the sex worker actually gets paid real money. And yet...
Lo Fidelity Allstars - "Battleflag"
I have to relax more. What a ridiculous predicament.
Just honoring the corner of my life where I'm crying for the businessman who are going to keep on going until they die and reincarnate as maids.
Friday, November 06, 2026
It's good to heal that things could get better soon.
Things could get clearer. I got very clear tonight that I like the cat. The cat is good. Pet the cat. But also heal your body. I have to be able to believe that healing can take precedence over some other stuff. Maybe I won't even name the other stuff because what's the point. It's just that sometimes we really need to believe that healing is going to be the one that's most in charge.
Some old systems were running.
Maybe triple warmer was a part of it. Maybe it was a triple warmer thing, too. It's better to break down and just relinquish stuff and give up some old ways, but triple warmer will want to come in again so you have make friends with your triple warmer, don't you? There for a good reason. Triple warmer smoothie...
It's better when pain gets more muted.
That's just nicer. I don't know why pain is such an equalizer. It makes a lot of other things not seem to matter anymore. Only peace and freedom from pain or at least less pain with the promise of freedom from pain to come.
Humans experience pain even if they're doing the best they can, sometimes with the skills they've acquired.
I started to experience quite a lot this evening. It's around a tooth that wasn't bothering me earlier but it was bothering me yesterday but then it got better today. But after I ate what I chose to eat this evening, I think some kind of inflammation has flared up. So I've brushed and flossed and swished with coconut oil and xylitol mouthwash and taken turmeric and ginger and ibuprofen and flower essences and some homeopathic stuff. And now I'm going to do the selenite stick and Donna ate an energy medicine stuff. It stressed me out to think of going back to the dentist and getting clucked at for having a traumatic response that injured teeth. It doesn't help to get clucked at. Pain... Perhaps it could be subsiding. Upper left area. Perhaps around the fourth tooth back where there's a crown and it used to have a post and it no longer has a post. I don't know why people make the decisions they make. I guess focusing on healing is just what needs to happen the most right now. Pain is a huge cry for help. So I will be diligent about trying to help myself right now.
This was really good to listen to today.
"Day 5 - Self- Love | 5 Days To Happiness"
kristinamand-lakhiani2176
https://youtube.com/watch?v=eK7C6_FkrO0&si=BEFI1xiDg3F0PAHV
She touched a little bit on healthy self-love versus narcissism.
The part that keeps sticking in my head without having to go back and consult a text is that self-care is just a part of self-love. Self-care is perhaps 1/3 of self-love. And self-love is bigger than just self-care.
Society really should make an investment in healing traumatized individuals.
Especially considering all that's been going on in this country since some people were mesmerized into voting for a narcissist. And that's a person who does not seem to have ever processed the concept of "With great power comes great responsibility."
It's been awhile since I've watched The View.
"'East Of Eden' Cast Discusses The Complex Characters"
The View
https://youtube.com/watch?v=cmn-6P_RtE4&si=A78g7qMYDvnOOAfU
I kind of feel as though when Cathy got almost beaten to death by her "lover," she was never the same. But then again, she burned down her house while the mother was still in it. Mother didn't really protect her from the rages of Father. But maybe she is a bit of a sociopath. Perhaps she took after her father in some ways? Hmmm.
In case I fall asleep too early again tonight to rewatch East of Eden...
"My favorite part..."
florencepugh
https://www.instagram.com/p/DeKp2StEg5R/?img_index=2&xtok=MWptaTlveDFzcjZjMg==
"Category:Photographs by William I. Goldman"
https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/Category:Photographs_by_William_I._Goldman
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