And if you read a book like "The Cut Out Girl," there's plenty of different kinds of people to look up to.
"Costa Book of the Year: Jewish rescue story The Cut Out Girl wins"
https://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-47042753
Sunday, June 28, 2026
Your kids and their kids are gonna to have to do it.
Start thinking about all those things you didn't want to think about; but if you feel it's going to overwhelm you, and I do understand that feeling quite well, maybe make a plan so you can cushion yourself psychologically and adequately, according to your unique needs.
There's always a silver lining.
I think some parents might be way less misogynistic towards the daughters in the future. The incidences of dads and moms making excuses for rapists is going to go down incrementally.
They grew up feeling like being racist and misogynistic was normal, so it's time for a growth spurt.
Tori Amos - "Precious Things Lyrics & Meanings" | SongMeanings
Maybe a little bit of drama is a good thing sometimes.
"A day after Alito's testy response to Sotomayor's dissent, court says it was a 'misunderstanding'": NPR
https://www.npr.org/2026/06/26/nx-s1-5872721/supreme-court-alito-sotomayor
They need to grow up.
"Sometimes your friends remind me of when I had to argue with guys in high school who didn't think date rape was real."
Honestly, sometimes it's that kind of morning.
"Maybe when their descendants or other women's children are really going through a lot of s*** during the 'growth spurt,' they can play a game called 'Mirror mirror on the wall, which one of my friends was the least shallow, least fascist of all?'"
"that was actually kind of a banger"
My breasts! My breakfast!
"Female Body" ~ ilovefarideh
https://youtube.com/watch?v=uO_xm39M0KQ&si=yF6y1gY9P9RatJ3U
Don't even wanna...
Y: Why are U pacing?
(Pacing was also chewing. Poor pretty skirt!)
X: Oh I was just thinking about the white trash fascist event...
Y: Who cares about that? That's not a reason to pace. There's more important things to worry about.
X: Like what?
Y: Like the Supreme Court.
What's this "Cassandra Project" about?
Also, growth spurts!
"Stop skipping breakfast for coffee"
giulia. conte. fitness
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaGFHtzFSzp/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"nothing fits me rn"
miyaacacia
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaGPxnOBTxj/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"That's not rare. That's Tuesday."
cassandraprojectfilm
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ5uM8LPrHY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Can you believe this? Sick!
"Profiting from pain: bearing witness inside ICE’s Baldwin immigrant prison" – Glen Arbor Sun
https://glenarborsun.com/profiting-from-pain-bearing-witness-inside-ices-baldwin-immigrant-prison/
But at least it reminds me of a good song.
Tori Amos - "Precious Things (Live at Glastonbury Festival 1998)"
Poetic stuff is good stuff.
Tori Amos – "Precious Things Lyrics"| Genius Lyrics
I think all the kids from all the economic backgrounds should have the opportunity to have a pet cat when they're growing up.
My cat has this real talent for coming up to me and acting super purry and cute! Who knows. Maybe having cats shaped me significant ways.
Patriarchy makes some women very sick in the head, too.
Are you, like, Donald Trump in an alternate, more XY chromosome'd reality?
Wow! What a church that would have been.
"Love thy neighbor!"
Imagine if you had gone to the kind of church where you were taught to be feminist and ask questions and have conversations and be good brothers and care about all kinds of people who are your neighbors, huh?
The "artists are monsters guy" is right.
"I'm Really Good at Flirting" | Milan Patel
https://youtu.be/YnhtX9UZwCQ?si=aRTYF7Mtq8n0CTHA
It's Sunday morning and this is a great time to think about this topic.
They are monsters because they want to be the cult leaders. They are hungry ppl. Hungry to be special. To push away others, and be so filled with their artistic importance. Why would you want to think about brown people getting rounded up and put away in concentration camps? If you can just be a pretty artist sitting next to a stream, singing your pretty artistic songs, isn't that much better for your fragile psyche?
They want worshippers to make them feel on top!
They don't wanna know about your stressed out about genocide problems.
Oh Lord.
They wanna lead the church and make ppl scream.
Why do white people have to be the best monster artists?
Like, do you know we actually do need the labor of the immigrants and indigenous brown people who are being persecuted by Patriarchal White Supremacy more than we need to worship you and your art? But oh my God try to tell the monstrous artsy people this. They will goddamn hate you forever. You simply become a non-entity to them. They act like you just don't exist. And that seems like a normal and justifiable and acceptable way to get through life when it comes to these people who are in kind of headspace that almost reminds me of being a wannabe cult leader. It's really sick.
Humans can do good things.
"Review: The Cut Out Girl, by Bart Van Es"
https://www.draliceviolett.com/the-cut-out-girl-by-bart-van-es/
"It’s very timely, as well; I feel even more disgusted by the separation of immigrant children from their families at US Border Patrol now I’ve read this biography. It’s inevitable that we’ll see another cohort traumatised in similar ways in the not very far future."
~ Alice Violett
I picked up my library book and it opened to a certain page.
This is The Cut Out Girl again. (It's written by a man who seems to be more perceptive than the average man these days, I would say.) On page 257, he describes a letter from his grandmother, the adopted mother, to Lien:
"This is a kind and loving letter, filled with a true and solid wisdom. Ma understands Lien and for all the trouble that lay behind them, it is hard to see how the bonds that tied these women together could break. My grandmother could sometimes be hard and judgmental, but she was also someone with a deep sense of duty, especially toward her children. How could things go from such a letter to the one that severed contact for good?"
"The Cut Out Girl: A Story of War and Family, Lost and Found by Bart van Es" | Goodreads
https://goodreads.com/book/show/41000784.The_Cut_Out_Girl_A_Story_of_War_and_Family__Lost_and_Found
The smart and curious girls and women are the most trustworthy ones.
The boys and men? Most of them get too easily led astray. Even the one that you could be romantic about sometimes has to be a brother first. Otherwise, it's hopeless. Boys are too easily led astray by the paycheck-iarchy, and this has been proven to be the case, over and over and over and over again. The girls and women who put those types of boys first will never ever be trustworthy, either. But the smart and curious girls and women are the ones who see more possibilities, and their vision can help you believe in a better future.
I need feminine spirituality, too, though.
I need feminine spirituality so I can survive the horror show.
Who knows why?
The Unwell Patriarchy wanted people to act like wounded narcissists who are incapable of seeing others are the ones who are the most deserving of attention and money and land and whatever else the Patriarchal Cult deemed the "most valuable" people should value the most.
People need Jesus to survive what humans will do to each other.
They need to know about that guy, beloved to God, going through the worst, the most immense suffering, and saying, "Father, forgive them. They know not what they do."
Well, I guess you got through that. Are you going to get better now?
Their negligence and their ignorance and their cruelty was real. Human beings really did suffer. Human beings really did want to leave the planet on account of how terrible other human beings could be to them. What does it mean to survive such things? Such awful, harsh lessons.
A human being needs a spiritual practice to get through what they have to get through.
It's like you're on the ground in the parking lot with your ankle hurting and scraped knees at night. Because you didn't see the pothole. But you're lucky cuz nobody's going to be mean to you. Actually a couple people are going to be nice and check on you. But the people you were supposed to trust became the most insufferable assholes instead of showing compassion when you were put in a vulnerable position. It's atrocious. It's like when there was a wounded chick and the other chicks would peck at it to try to kill at it. That's what people are like, sometimes. Why are human beings so terribly mean sometimes when it comes to seeing what others are going through? And even the people that you believed would never do something like that. They act that way. Why did you come to Earth to know that? Was that really f****** necessary? Patriarchal culture made people so much meaner than they needed to be.
Saturday, June 27, 2026
Things could get a lot better.
I can't smoke too much because that would be bad for me but I am smoking a cigarette with no tobacco in it and it feels great right now. I'm glad that I was delving into "The Cut Out Girl" again. I'm just trying to figure out what I'm supposed to be building. I have to try to make it more about love than fear.
Blowing smoke out of my mouth. It's so rich feeling.
It's the evening of needing to pick the path that's the best way to go, at least for tonight.
I had to figure out some more things. One of the things I was trying to figure out was if maybe people need to learn more about love within boundaries. Maybe disagreement is a clumsy way of trying to establish healthy boundaries. It could be? What if ppl are more hurt in seclusion, inside their minds? Memories of my stepfather telling me he thought I was a really laid-back person and he was surprised I had anxieties came back to me too. He was type A, he was controlling, blah blah blah. But he did like to socialize. He really did. I wasn't in the most social mood but I went out because I had an invite. I still had the weird physical issues going on but some good stuff happened while I was out. I met some people who are different. I met some moms. We had a pleasant time. I don't have kids, but it doesn't matter. But it couldn't stay out for long. I had to come back. My cat was so happy to see me when I came back! She's my joy! I felt a great relief to bring my kind of ailing body back and be around her again. Cat people are like this.
Aches on the left and right.⚕️
On the left hip: I wonder if it has to do with an ovary. On the right: probably the gallbladder.
And on top of everything else...
The reminder about the specially treated refugees and and Elon's drastically traumatized inner child.
"Air Afrikaans"
@mehilonet
https://youtube.com/watch?v=CYOIbXJTVIc&si=c9ahksgKB6js25pG
"A Look Inside the Welcome Bags Planned for White South African Refugees" - The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/06/23/us/politics/south-africa-refugees-welcome-bags.html
Geez.
Making a salad! That's a hobby from the 1980s.
"Hobbies From The 1980s That Protected People's Mental Health"
The universe still has much funny timing.
I just got this book delivered with a poem about Detroit and Greektown in it. And I looked to see if it was online...
"The Body Opulent"
Alice Fulton
Poetry, Vol. 147, No. 6 (Mar., 1986), pp. 319-321 (3 pages)
https://www.jstor.org/stable/20600639
"Palladium" by Alice Fulton | Goodreads
This era is showcasing too much cruelty to women.
"In no world does forcing a woman..."
harlowsmusings
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaGd0QVRi4G/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Now you know"
isitroberta
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZmIexguLbM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
My goodness, it's a lot to think about and also live through simultaneously.
When you've got that insurance that has the high deductible and you have to pay for everything, courtesy of the uncaring hedge fund bros that own the company. And by the way, what a waste of money on the part of the patient to pay for tests that won't help.
"Unhinged Things Part 4"
docstephaniemd
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaF3rf_Rqid/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"What white girl skinny REALLY looks like #recovery"
@Prison_story_amanda
I recognize this.
"Linguistic misogyny is real."
ojiirot
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaFuu4Xo1LD/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Viewing the Mulholland Drive Winkie’s Diner Scene Through the Lens of Knowing That David Lynch Once Climbed Into a Dumpster and Learned That Milkshakes Were Bad for Him" | by Ryan H. Walsh | Medium
Survivor stories! They vary.
Anyways, if you want to learn more about Lien's husband and Anne's other classmate, Theo, or Maurice, who invented the "Guess Who" game later on, this is an interesting book to read.
"We All Wore Stars: Memories of Anne Frank from Her Classmates by Theo Coster"| Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/11450811-we-all-wore-stars
Such a nice picture of them!
"Childhood loss and hope" – The Australian Jewish News
https://www.australianjewishnews.com/childhood-loss-and-hope/
My goodness, of course!
Lots of moms could have married better men and everybody knows it! Also, lots of moms could have picked better boyfriends, and everybody knows it.
And this is about Miepie, and her father...
"It is the case of Miepie Viskooper, a girl from Amsterdam, aged seven, that is the closest to Lien's. She is the subject of witness statements 146 to 148.
Witness 146 is Joanna Wigman, a barmaid in her mid-twenties who had taken the little girl into her care. On the night of November 15, 1943, Miepie was sleeping beside Johanna on a mattress. Then, at half past eleven, Johanna heard a break-in downstairs. She had just time to hide the child under the blankets before Evers and Den Breejen burst in. The policeman demanded to know if her name was Johanna Wigman and then began their search. All too quickly Miepie was discovered. Den Breejen is recorded in the statement as saying 'Here we have the Yid!' But then, as the men continued in search of other evidence, the little girl ran out.
Evers and Den Breejen were furious and, for her act of protection, Johanna Wigman was sent to the concentration camp at Vught.
Witness 147 is the owner of the adjoining cafe, Cornelius van Tooren. He himself had a daughter, called Jannetje, of Miepie's age. Evers and Den Breejen, he reports, had spent time searching the cafe before moving on to the neighboring flat. After they left, he kept watch in their absence, and then at around midnight Miepie ran into the bar. Evers came in right behind her, pointing his revolver, shouting, ' It's the choke hole for you' at the little girl.
'I've only come to say good-bye to Jannetje,' she replied.
The worst is witness 148. This is Miepie's father, a small-scale confectionary manufacturer in the big city, the same as Lien's. Like Lien, Miepie was an only daughter, and again, just like Lien's parents, the Viskoopers thought their child would be safe if she hid with non-Jews, so they sent her away. They themselves also went into hiding, but they were caught. At the awful moment of their arrest there was at least the feeling that, for their daughter, theirs had been the right choice.
But then, as the couple was held at Westerbork, the Dutch Transit camp for Auschwitz, Miepie was brought into her mother, under guard.
As I read this, I think of my own wife and children and imagine that unwanted reunion. I can see the smile of recognition on the face of the child.
The Viskoopers traveled together to Poland. Then, on arrival, Michel Viskooper watched as his wife and daughter were taken from him and driven away on a truck.
Michel, Miepie's father, was one of just 5,200 Dutch Jews who survived the death camps, but he returned to Holland alone."
(66 - 67).
"'The Cut Out Girl' by Bart van Es"
https://www.optionstheedge.com/topic/culture/cut-out-girl-bart-van-es-tells-story-war-and-family
I read again about the misogynistic and horrible double agent, Harry Evers.
"It took talent to do things properly. Evers would check concrete floors for cracks that suggested hidden passages and would measure the distance between the height of a ceiling and the floor above. Power over women was a particular pleasure. There was a room next to his office that he used for the rape of the Jewish girls who happened to take his fancy. He liked to refer to his wife as his 'cauliflower' and to these women as his 'sprouts.'"
(65-66).
Bart van Es
"The Cut Out Girl..."
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/36978239-the-cut-out-girl
"The wartime career of Harry Evers matches those of many collaborators recorded in the archives. Once the balance of power is altered, they begin to think about changing sides. In the summer of 1943, just as the transport of Dutch Jews was nearing completion, the Wehrmacht's advance into Russia was stopped...Armed resistance, virtually nil at the start of the year, grew rapidly in the last two months of 1943. Meanwhile, the skies darkened with Allied bombers and Evers, like others, started to worry about what he had done.
So from the New Year onward, he began actively to help the resistance and took every opportunity to tell them about his bravery. As a double agent working for the Germans under instructions from his own side, as time went on, he became ever more helpful...
In the end he received an eight-year sentence, reduced to three years and six months on appeal. This was not out of proportion. After all, Albert Gemmeker, the famous 'laughing commandant' of Westerbork, who held a great party to celebrate the transport of the forty-thousandth victim to Auschwitz, served no more than six years. And afterwards, Evers returned to society, enjoying a second marriage, although this one too ended quickly in divorce. When he died, aged 73 in the early 1990s, there were still those in Dordrecht who hailed him as a hero and as the victim of an unfair campaign."
(68 - 69).
Bart van Es
"The Cut Out Girl..."
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/36978239-the-cut-out-girl
She got married to one of Anne Frank's classmates later.
“'Cut Out Girl' Tells Story Of Lien De Jong"
https://forward.com/culture/407926/another-hidden-jewish-girl-but-not-anne-frank/
Separated from her parents. She survived.
I got the book from a library again.
"The Cut Out Girl by Bart van Es review – a moving account of wartime survival" | Autobiography and memoir | The Guardian
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2019/jan/07/the-cut-out-girl-by-bart-van-es-review
They should have been able to learn from reading a book or watching a movie.
It's time to pray for the souls of any deceased dads who might be in hiding or locked away in detention centers now.
A good window into humanity.
"TUESDAY, JUNE 27, 1944
My dearest Kitty,
The mood has changed, everything's going enormously well."
Anne Frank – "The Diary of Anne Frank (Excerpts 6/16/1944 - 8/1/1944)"
https://genius.com/Anne-frank-the-diary-of-anne-frank-excerpts-6-16-1944-8-1-1944-annotated
Why am I not surprised?
💯
"I don't think Germans get enough credit"
germanwithsammy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaBv2NLuowl/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
You really have got to learn to take better care of yourself! It's insanity out there.
💲💆🏻♀️🛀🏻🫧🛁🏆
"#selfrespect"
leadwithana
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaD7mUDo_QY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"These crack me up"
lovelivinlowsugar
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYir2Rdu2I3/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"So this is cross-posted from my tiktok..."
_harlsq0992_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaA-FRjgWE8/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
It's the mid-20s and the nation's most average dads are still so insensitive about... 😭
"A Newly Out Lesbian Hires a Sex Worker Before Her First Third Date"
GrammaProductions
That was a lot of something for some people for today. Here, you can go watch this now.
"Late Fame" - Official Trailer | Starring Willem Dafoe
That took some doing.
"Billionaire Leon Black defends $158M paid to Epstein: ‘I knew Jekyll. I didn’t know Hyde’"| PBS News
If you stay at home and cook, you're less likely to fall in a pothole.
"6 Delicious 500-Calorie Dinners You Can Make in a Sheet-Pan (Weekly Plan & Shopping List!)
These flavorful dinners prove that a balanced meal can be both easy to make and satisfying, all while staying at 500 calories or less per serving."
https://www.eatingwell.com/theprep-500-calorie-dinners-sheet-pan-12005251
I think that would be a very $ grown-up $ course of action.
Before I join any of your female relations in the lunatic asylum, why don't you take the $$ that I donated to your organization, and pass it on to one the more charitable ones that hold the "lesser in your eyes" kinds of people in higher esteem?
I still think there's great potential for you and your growth as a human being in the future. And there's great potential for me and my growth as a human being in the future, too, right? If we're being generous?
So creepy. I bet a lot of men in a certain generation watched it with amusement, though. Did you ever see Superman or The Goonies.
“'Classic' Film Review: Charles Bronson’s kinkiest — and he knew it — 'Lola,' aka 'London Affair' or 'Twinky' (1970) | Movie Nation"
"Richard Donner" - Wikipedia
I guess billionaire men have stressful days, too.
"Billionaire Leon Black walks out of Epstein investigation"
That sounds nice. Cherries on top of icecream sundaes and all that 🍒.
Imagine you and your friends getting really into healing at deeper levels, or even making other friends who have that special spark inside of themselves to start expecting more and feeling less inclined to be like exactly what the patriarchy wanted y'all to be like.
"Nearly two thirds of all student loan debt is held by women"
Why do black women hold the highest amount of student loan debt?
"Student Loan Debt Is a Gender Issue" - USOW
What a savior!!! Maybe she'll pay it forward to someone less fortunate someday.
💲💗🏆
"How I saved my daughter from a lifetime of student debt"
Okay, one of them updated their music video.
These were two songs that played around the bloody, skinned, scabbed knees of a child in the '80s.
The Oak Ridge Boys - "Elvira (Official Music Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=hKEpqTPfV7s&si=cxuOvmgj4RLhFQiM
THE STATLER BROTHERS - "Don't Wait On Me"
Our Great Cosmic Mother's children deserve SO much better!
"The Death Rate for ICE Detainees Has Skyrocketed Under Trump" – Mother Jones
https://www.motherjones.com/politics/2026/06/ice-detainee-deaths-trump/
And the violence of the Epstein files, and etcetra.
Who really needs to worry about the daughters and hope they can have some access to basic human rights anyways???
"I will never get over the way men are more than content to take up space"
whitneytheinvincible
So anyways, back to the "Superman" movie / "Lola" filmmaker guy.
"Lola, a romantic comedy from 1970"
https://www.reddit.com/r/OldSchoolRidiculous/s/b0te8AUaW6
I guess the excuse that you all had to fit in better with Patriarchal weirdos in order to feel successful in this lifetime heavily informed your creative processes.
People like them really do make me, medical emergencies, and massive deportations possible.
I guess a lot of people you know really don't care about the ones who get abandoned by ignorant assholes, because they're in the "I'm in denial about how much I have been manipulated by the Patriarchal Culture and have massive unhealed internalized misogyny issues" mindset.
Rrrrromance.
Thinking about how the singing duo was there when the totally-unknown-to-the-world teenage diarist was also there.
"Jewish Love Song recorded in Concentration Camp (1944) 'Westerbork Serenade'"
I don't want to watch that video right now.
"Runaway Train song: The real story behind the iconic music video."
Soul Asylum - "Runaway Train (Lyrics)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=7jAjCwP7Wz8&si=EO7xktf5Zv0kfJMF
"'Runaway Train': Did Soul Asylum’s music video really save 21 kids?"
https://slate.com/culture/2023/08/runaway-train-music-video-soul-asylum-kids.html
Beautiful, beautiful!
I feel bad for women who had to spend so much of their lives with the charming guys who had the potential to get better and never wanted to badly enough to actually do it.
The work will continue.
"One of the clearest signs..."
finding_authenticity_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYIMGcIknBu/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Pablo Picasso was literally evil #art #artclass"
BrianHuntress
https://youtube.com/shorts/r__k4JyB6bs?si=xCpg3sNNly9_r_Qg
"Siri, play...."
spring.and.soul
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaBLTQhox09/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Find more people who raise the bar.
Even meeting one person who has land and a house and is nicer and more compassionate raises the bar. They're out there. Ruining it for the others, in a way, I suppose. But maybe it's part of taking down the old unbalanced system in a good way, in the long term view of seeing things.
Friday, June 26, 2026
You need to, like, try A LOT harder to heal yourselves.
Some of you guys got trained by a bad Patriarchal Society to act like huge selfish assholes. Some people in your family have suffered way more than you. I mean, you just have to come to terms with that and get better. You work with whatever you inherited.
Yeah, man...The good old days were pretty bad sometimes.
I had cool grandmothers. One was a messed up couldn't communicate and had PCOS grandmother from the South and one was from the North and was obsessed with Jesus and good with children and probably acted like she loved grandchildren more than she loved her firstborn children based on what jerks her actual children ended up becoming later in life. But anyway. Sometimes the messed up Grandma would call the Jesus grandma and Jesus Grandma would listen to her cry. And she was a good listener. They probably prayed together or something or I'll bet she said some prayers for her afterwards if they didn't actually pray together. And messed up Grandma also tried to go see psychologist and now we think the psychologist might have abused his position because the psychologist had a friend and the friend told messed up Grandma's daughter that the psychologist was not a good person. Why didn't the community oust him if he wasn't a good person? Well and also, when an optometrist abused the girl, the dad yelled at him and didn't take his daughter back there, but the optometrist probably kept his job because they were convinced by some other men that suing him would just be too traumatic on the daughter. So, how many other daughters did he, the icky optometrist, abuse in his icky optometrist office?
Oh, why did the cat have to do it?
Meowing me awake to see how I am recovering from the shock from who turned out to be a big, untrustworthy jerk. Good grief, get it out of your system and move on. To something better.
Gee, sometimes you just have to keep your ears open, huh?
I was out and about and I heard workers talking to each other while they were stocking shelves, and they were both women, and one woman said to the other: "Do you have any older sisters? No? Just brothers? I'll be your big sis." And then she started giving her real life advice! From the heart! 💗
Is my inner child still shocked?
Parents being told to get better at caring about the kinds of parents and children they were taught to ignore? Seems like a hard sell.
What happened to conversation?
It's interesting how much patriarchal people want you to still pretend for their sake and their comfort that you want to be like them. Even as the patriarchy is breaking down. Even as a lot of violent guys who got treated with preference are making the world a lot more unsafe for lots of women and children. Although some say now it's just greater numbers of people are being exposed to what minorities were already exposed to. Still, it does seem like a lot of people who were already the most oppressed by Patriarchal Society are getting treated worse now, so that's very disturbing.
The world is not filled with little 1980s Watervliet Elementary pale foreheads marked with ashes, all leaving early to attend the same religion class, right?
I don't understand why people can't be more noble these days, like in a movie, or an acclaimed 2023 biographical miniseries.
Some people's behavior has gotten really weird as their odd little unhealed programmings began resurfacing.
I have to go compose a dinner for this life moment.
"I am a self-taught..."
trapssical
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaDzpmkNmGf/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"I am merely a woman..."
taryndelaniesmith
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZOLwBqh1jD/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"#fyp #relatable"
mitchbrothers_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYXXVdbsEfW/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Let's bring back reproductive rights. Losing them is so much worse for the already more disenfranchised.
"Let's bring back traditional modest men..."
lifewithevykay
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZxaLJluTV0/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Sisters, please lower your gaze."
esmetrela
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ7HaH4oawG/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"once u go down the rabbit hole..."
renadhasan._
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ_HmPFpFno/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I NEVER feel mentally ill about the plight of the downtrodden.
I'm centered and grounded!
"Dysfunctional Family Dinner" - SNL
I don't even know if I want to watch this, but...
"Seven Brides for Seven Brothers Official Trailer"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=7Sxc4RNxAQ8&feature=shared
Someone told me recently that when she was a little kid she thought this was such a great movie. And after she watched it again when she was older, she was so horrified. But she got together with her sisters and said "No wonder we were so screwed up!" And they laughed...
It's true; my genetics were special, and I should have appreciated them more. My training was quite awful, though.
I've decided that my body thinks I haven't been nice enough to it.
What if we had not grown up in a patriarchal society that's been excessively harmful and discriminatory to so many?
I had a feeling something about this guy was going to pop up in front of my face, and it did.
"TIL about the Ben Franklin effect..."
u/SnarkySheep
https://www.reddit.com/r/todayilearned/s/AQn7uO2udI
"FRAGILE✨"
tealadykatie
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYmdc7_g8au/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"The dating mistake..."
beccaxbloom
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ_O79vluzt/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Just open your eyes"
mind_the_kate
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaAxbrzoK28/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Sometimes reading is great, and sometimes it is not what you should be doing.
Sometimes, actually, you need to just be quiet and check in with your body and pay attention. And maybe if you're reading, that's just distracting you when you need to figure out what's going on with your own body, and you need to help yourself and you don't need a bunch of words in your head to do it.
Human bodies have different needs, and the patriarchy doesn't want us to think about that.
Some of us need focus on our health a lot more when what we've inherited, either genetically, or life experience-wise, or both, doesn't jive very well with the way the systems are operating.
We have to learn more about some new ways that we can heal ourselves, because that's what our bodies are telling us we need. We have to focus on learning more about how we can get better before we can put some products out there for others to consume or enjoy or learn from.
We're not all going to be able to join the same groups or cults, or go along with the same dynamics, because what our bodies need is different from what their bodies need. The cults revolve around what their bodies need and that's not the right cult for us. Also, maybe we're just not good at joining cults.
Scraped knees and constant interference...
I really am going to the library very soon. 📚
"Obsessed..."
hausofvagina
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaCXGeftKeU/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"What is your greatest flex!?"
toninagy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaBYqhkPVfI/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"So cute 💝"
u/DevorDEV
Well, unfortunately...
Even though he's in the Old West film clip that I have liked to watch when it's set to the Arcade Fire song ("My Body Is A Cage"), I'm forcing myself to remember that as a younger person I thought Charles Bronson seemed like an unattractive man, and I had no idea what the teenage girl character in a film saw in him, because we had "Lola" on VHS tape in the house in the 1990s (a friend of my stepfather sent it to him), and when I watched a little bit, it was all about cameras zooming in on school girls' knees, and...aaah!!!
"Lola, a romantic comedy from 1970"
https://www.reddit.com/r/OldSchoolRidiculous/s/b0te8AUaW6
"Lola (1970) Review"
mikesmoviereviews
Fine. I guess I just need to do more research.
"Southern California is home to perhaps the largest concentration of theatre pipe organs in public venues anywhere in the world."
"Los Angeles Theatre Organ Society - Instruments"
https://www.latos.org/instruments
Apparently, one of the colleges I went to has one.
Also, I really do want to see "Run Lola Run" again!
🎬👩🏻🎨🎭
"Run Lola Run - A Film in Three Minutes"
MrStillSmiling
https://youtube.com/watch?v=S7o_rfg6svM&si=IXR4q-c1IRTpG1xf
But the first time seeing "Run Lola Run" was the best, at a theater in Richmond, with the guy playing the old timey organ.
"Byrd Theater - All You SHOULD Know Before Going 2026 (with Reviews)"
I don't understand why Southern California doesn't have a movie theater this great??? You'd think they would, since a bunch of movies get made here all the time! Maybe they're just not thinking about the common people viewing public enough.
"Central Station - Central do Brasil" - Trailer OV/d
https://youtube.com/watch?v=7JwHNvwHnKQ&si=D_zzHQgcaVOillPg
And "Central Station" is one of my favorite movies, but I have no memory of the first time I watched it. It could have been in a theater or it could have been at home. Maybe I'll remember later...
🎭
Well, okay. I actually have been to this theater, to see a play.
ATOS | 2/10 Wurlitzer - California Theatre
https://www.atos.org/organ/california/san-bernadino/california-theatre
It'd be a worse world without restaurants, wouldn't it?
The restaurant industry! That is quite something to experience.
Scraped up knees happen to almost everybody at some point.
You're going to have to sing your own healing song to your own scraped up knees now! But you did the responsible thing and informed them. So let's hope they fix the pothole before somebody else more vulnerable falls in it.
Heile Heile segen.
Drei Tagen regen.
Immer mehr (?) besser sind.
I wonder what that would be like.
Sometimes I wonder if I could make healing and dialogue feel more like owning houses and land to some people.
This is a book that'll make you think a lot about tenements, in addition to food.
And maybe it will even make you think about your own experiences?
"The Ice Cream Queen of Orchard Street by Susan Jane Gilman" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/18656072-the-ice-cream-queen-of-orchard-street
Can you believe she met Bill Cosby when she was 16 and he had the audacity?
God, patriarchal rape culture is such a trip. (A bad one.) I really do think it's done quite a number on quite a few people's brains in this era!
"At 16, Ian met comedian Bill Cosby backstage at a Smothers Brothers show where she was promoting 'Society's Child.' Since she was underage, she was accompanied by a chaperone while touring. After her set, Ian had been sleeping with her head on the lap of her chaperone (an older female family friend). According to Ian in a 2015 interview, she was told by her then manager that Cosby had interpreted their interaction as 'lesbian' and as a result 'had made it his business' to warn other television shows that Ian wasn't 'suitable family entertainment' and 'shouldn't be on television' because of her sexuality, thus attempting to blacklist her.[9][10][11]"
"Janis Ian" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Janis_Ian
Do you know Janis Ian? I did not.
Janis Ian - "Stars (live 1974)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=A5OcI2Z-Vk8&si=1hNutkH1-USJz4y2
🎶
Oh my goodness, what an anecdote.
🎶
Janis Ian - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Janis_Ian
"At 16, Ian met comedian Bill Cosby backstage at a Smothers Brothers show where she was promoting 'Society's Child.' Since she was underage, she was accompanied by a chaperone while touring. After her set, Ian had been sleeping with her head on the lap of her chaperone (an older female family friend). According to Ian in a 2015 interview, she was told by her then manager that Cosby had interpreted their interaction as 'lesbian' and as a result 'had made it his business' to warn other television shows that Ian wasn't 'suitable family entertainment' and 'shouldn't be on television' because of her sexuality, thus attempting to blacklist her.[9][10][11] Although Ian would later come out, she states that at the time of the encounter with Cosby she had only been kissed once, by a boy she had a crush on, in broad daylight at summer camp.[12]"
And then he decided to be something else... 🎶
Tom Petty - "It's Good To Be King [Official Music Video]"
Rich...
"Power" by Adrienne Rich
https://allpoetry.com/poem/11641436-Power-by-Adrienne-Rich
Living in the earth-deposits of our history
Today a backhoe divulged out of a crumbling flank of earth
one bottle amber perfect a hundred-year-old
cure for fever or melancholy a tonic
for living on this earth in the winters of this climate.
Today I was reading about Marie Curie:
she must have known she suffered from radiation sickness
her body bombarded for years by the element
she had purified
It seems she denied to the end
the source of the cataracts on her eyes
the cracked and suppurating skin of her finger-ends
till she could no longer hold a test-tube or a pencil
She died a famous woman denying
her wounds
denying
her wounds came from the same source as her power.
~ Adrienne Rich
It's exhausting colonizer stuff.
Sometimes it's too exhausting to be around people who have little to no depth when it comes to seeing how interesting different kinds of people or experiences are but owning land and houses and making money is their main way of feeling good. And also when people have had particular experiences or traumas that they are scared to talk about then they push away those people. And they mostly get their self-esteem from protecting themselves and acquiring land and houses and money. And it just feels really f***** up. And also people of certain genetics seem to be more inclined to do that than others. I just can't deal with the exhausting people some days. It's like I need to spend 3 days in nature to spend an hour with those people.
I guess it's possible that my upbringing made me different.
It can be very sad and lonely when you're made to feel like you are just way more sensitive to human suffering than the average person is. The average person apparently has a huge ability to block out what's happening. And it's not like I'm never happy because I have moments of happiness. But I also have a lot of knowledge about the suffering that's happening in the world, and when a lot of people most of the time seem to feel like they don't need to know about that stuff, I feel out of place with the people who are like that, and Patriarchy seems to want most people to be like that.
See, I should just go pick something to read now, because I'm reading five different things.
Well, either I will or I won't? When I meet a bunch of strangers to me now who might become better known to me soon, who knows if I either will or won't ask, Hey did you read this book or see this film, and then I either will or won't ask, Hey, did you hear about that South African asylum seekers thing, and then I either will or won't ask hey, what if those characters were from South Africa seeking asylum right now?
Thursday, June 25, 2026
My brain is operating on pay attention when songs get stuck in your head mode.
I don't know if it matters more about the music or if it matters more about the words...Or best to say that both of them matter. I'm possibly one of those halfway to being a medium types, sometimes.
Tori Amos - "Taxi Ride Lyrics & Meanings" | SongMeanings
I'm still reading and rereading texts and things.
Four or five different books I still want to finish reading at the moment. Some old, some new to me. I love rereading the books that I really like. They just kind of call to me.
It's probably part of The Healing Journey.
Noticing some more rainbowish things recently.
They made me want to take a little journey somewhere.
I often traveled in the summer when I was younger. So I journeyed to a diner and ordered something I would have ordered as an older kid who got to choose from the adult menu. A hot roast beef sandwich with mashed potatoes and gravy. It was a bit indulgent. But I ate half at the diner and shared the rest of it when I got home. Rainbow colors made me think of summer vacation and sleeping in a room called the rainbow room because of the rainbow bedspread and how it felt like the most colorful and creative room to sleep in. It could often be a very relaxing room, too. That's the room I think of when I think of listening to classical music tapes at night. Maybe it was the best room. Even tending to skinned knees and wounds was another nurturing thing that happened as child. Good grandparents would sing a little healing song in German which I've tried to reconstruct:
Heile Heile segen.
Drei Tagen regen.
Immer mehr (?) besser sind.
The unfortunate occurrence of falling down in a pothole this evening was also an opportunity to tend to some wounds, and be decent at it.
A human vulnerability lesson presented itself: tending to your wounds can be nurturing.
Fell into a parking lot pothole tonight and hurt my ankle but it got better quickly. Also skinned my knees. As I sat on the ground recovering, two people checked on me to see if I was okay. Two young men, actually. One of them asked me if I needed help standing up. Humanity was functioning at basic humane decency levels. After I got up, I was able to go back inside the diner and tell the server about the hole. (They said to each other: Que paso? Se cayo.) And I showed it to her, because I hope it gets filled in. I was on a jury in the past when an older woman with diabetes broke her ankle and her health was severely impacted by a pothole, or in her case it was actually a tree well that wasn't kept up to standard. The second half of my dinner was not ruined even though it fell with me and got a little messy. But there was a bag around the to-go container. So I shared it when I got home. And took a shower and squirted peroxide on the wounds at the end...Ow, that was painful. But there's something about tending to oneself after a fall that has a nurturing quality to it.
A lost sermon on "The Witch of Endor" by St. Augustine has been found.
"Lost Writings of Saint Augustine Found in Medieval Manuscript"
https://www.medievalists.net/2026/06/lost-writings-of-saint-augustine-found-in-medieval-manuscript/
You don't have to party like a "gets preferential treatment to the others" White South African refugee 🙅🏿♂️
"A Look Inside the Welcome Bags Planned for White South African Refugees"
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/06/23/us/politics/south-africa-refugees-welcome-bags.html
"The welcome bags include a report commissioned by Mr. Trump during his first term that downplays the role of slavery in the country’s founding, and a children’s book accusing South Africa’s government of 'favoring the Black population.'
The gifts would be the latest step by the Trump administration to welcome the white minority in South Africa, even as the president maintains a ban on refugees fleeing from war and persecution everywhere else in the world.
~ Hamed Aleaziz and Zolan Kanno- Youngs
👼👼🏻👼🏼👼🏽👼🏾👼🏿
Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers - "Refugee"
Kind of like believing in angelic blessings...
Sometimes I believe in good communication and alignment and things going well and all the best parts of the beautiful places in childhood...
Surprise speed read.
"The Ice Cream Queen of Orchard Street by Susan Jane Gilman" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/18656072-the-ice-cream-queen-of-orchard-street
Liminal space music.
Faye Webster - "But Not Kiss (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=JsdH_1EpDv0&si=cmmAYDZXX9x5ixhK
Because it's in between the times where I feel more sharply about some horrible injustices unfolding, and times in real life when I mingle with others who are more chill and there's peace, and the vibe is almost like "nothing bad is happening."
The minds of some men / There but for...
"Michigan soccer player gets bond, set for release from ICE detention"
Darn! I did just remember a dream. I was supposed to pay attention to Syracuse. This could be why??
"Federal agents track down Syracuse woman, demand she remove Instagram post about ICE" - syracuse.com
Before sleep, got some information.
Feels like there's an alternate reality where I had an experience give me the feeling like I was lying on a bed or gurney with a being on my stomach after giving birth, and some people were milling around, but they were also at a distance, and it was a bit cold, and I was mostly alone, feeling like, oh this is real now. Oh I really have to do this. This is real.
But that's imagery from an alternate reality. So I'm going to go to sleep.
Poetic side came back... 🌊
"I started Early—Took my Dog—"
Emily Dickinson
https://www.brinkerhoffpoetry.org/poems/i-started-early-took-my-dog
"But Not Kiss"
Faye Webster
https://youtube.com/watch?v=lYubiL-kun8&si=xR1CW3JH9hurst8a
"on Barely Composed, poems by Alice Fulton"
"What I Like"
"Wow Moment"
"My Task is Now to Solve the Bells"
https://www.ronslate.com/on-barely-composed-poems-by-alice-fulton-w-w-norton/
Wednesday, June 24, 2026
The way people have been wanting to challenge / and have challenged the patriarchy is so cool.
Gifts! For US!
"Enjoy this video..."
sativaqueen07
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTBo97T3L/
"I'm her first born. Period."
b_loya8
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTBo5mSpx/
"Just a late night 1 a.m. yap fest"
toninagy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ_u3Qjul4z/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Well, some things could start changing more when people start discussing them more.
"CRNA Amy Rieschick on institutionalized medical misogyny"
I mean, really. Really. REALLY????
"The United States is putting together bags with a children’s book on so-called reverse racism, and with a document that defends the country’s founding on the basis of slavery."
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/06/23/us/politics/south-africa-refugees-welcome-bags.html
"The welcome bags include a report commissioned by Mr. Trump during his first term that downplays the role of slavery in the country’s founding, and a children’s book accusing South Africa’s government of 'favoring the Black population.'
The gifts would be the latest step by the Trump administration to welcome the white minority in South Africa, even as the president maintains a ban on refugees fleeing from war and persecution everywhere else in the world."
~ Hamed Aleaziz and Zolan Kanno-Youngs
I wonder what could help humanity release the old cold patriarchal ways?
Acting like these kinds of men are more important than those kinds of men.
Acting like these kinds of pregnant people are more important than those kinds of pregnant people.
Acting like these kinds of children are more important than those kinds of children.
Etcetra.
"LOCK IN: Why are white refugees getting free tablets from the US government"
sharonsaysso
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ8dbUuiXBl/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"A Look Inside the Welcome Bags Planned for White South African Refugees"
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/06/23/us/politics/south-africa-refugees-welcome-bags.html
This is crazy.
I'm going to look this up.
"LOCK IN: Why are white refugees getting free tablets from the US government..."
sharonsaysso
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ8dbUuiXBl/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"A Look Inside the Welcome Bags Planned for White South African Refugees" - The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/06/23/us/politics/south-africa-refugees-welcome-bags.html
Herbert discovers mirrors. 👦🏽🪞
"Loose-boned by virtue of his youth, and cushioned by the carpeting, Herbert arrived at the bottom without breaking. He was shaken, of course, but he did not cry, for two years with Clarissa had taught him that crying did more harm than good. He merely sat up, rubbing his head, and looked around. And as his eyes turned left, to the wall opposite the matron's office door, he froze in an ecstasy of terror and delight. There was another child sitting at the bottom of another staircase and that child was wearing the same shirt and trousers and was rubbing his head, too. Herbert Rowbarge had discovered mirrors."
Herbert becomes entranced.
"Herbert stayed a full half hour in the entrance hall, perfectly content. For not only did the boy in the mirror move as he moved, and make the same faces, this boy was the possessor of the other lion from the Noah's Ark. He brought it out from a pocket just as Herbert was producing his own, and when Herbert pressed his lion to the surface of the glass, the other boy did the same, so that the two wooden animals were together again at last. Herbert smiled at the boy in the mirror, and the boy smiled back, and the time they spent together in the entrance hall was a time of sweet discovery and peace."
Herbert's dreams.
"He would find himself arm-in-arm with the boy in the entrance hall mirror. They would smile at each other, and float off together into a world that was neither the world of the mirror nor any other place he knew, but a far more magical place, a dim and watery place with little boats, a warm place far away. This was all that happened in the dream, but, dreaming it, he was eased. In the morning he would waken calm and cheerful, and the anger sometimes did not come back till long after breakfast."
Herbert Rowbarge by Natalie Babbitt, page 41 to 43.
"Herbert Rowbarge"
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/449892.Herbert_Rowbarge
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