Monday, March 30, 2026

Ah, musical interludes!

"Mitski: NPR Music Tiny Desk Concert"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=0lNFHD0lUAQ&si=7yje0pqMN9HuOOxI

And now I will check it out!

"Mitski: ‘Nothing's About To Happen To Me’ review — cat lovers rejoice!" | Iowa Public Radio

https://www.iowapublicradio.org/studioone/news/2026-02-26/mitski-nothings-about-to-happen-to-me-review-cat-lovers-rejoice

"i've been on this soapbox for years"

Pepper🌹

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkYWL88m/

And some OTHER stuff, too, of course.

"Don't Eat the Flan"

https://www.forbes.com/forbes/2003/0203/038.html

SO OTHERS THE OTHERS ARE

"The Othering of Plus Size Film and TV Protagonists"

https://thecurvyfashionista.com/plus-size-women-in-media/

I think these two are cute.

 

"PCOS is the syndrome that no one fully explains"

pcos.weightloss

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWg7ZOlhtZZ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

This video and body butter just gets cuter.

Sabrina Carpenter - "Espresso"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=eVli-tstM5E&si=d7-lrX_BReKjgWYI

I feel like I have to punctuate.

Beck - "Where It's At (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=EPfmNxKLDG4&si=jDt0OrWPLom_xWJW

10000 Maniacs - "Don't Go Back To Rockville"

Untucky

https://youtube.com/watch?v=BpIxOPUxIt4&si=Tq-zLmXiNofF12U6

I must know, so why not you?

If you must know, the mother who could have been working with some guys in a restaurant in my dream were saying that the guys at the restaurant weren't giving her much of a chance.

Funding? For medical treatment? For people in lady bodies?

"Agape can be sisterly too."

How does proving that the white guys don't hate, fear, and despise women and their own mothers and their ex wives in this era of extraordinary and excruciating extremes sound to you?

😊 Cool 🪇 Facts!🐀

"I mean, that's so cute."

tetyanawrites 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWgkh1VCHsp/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

That was different, too.

I had a dream about a woman who was a mom and could work in a bar alongside some  guys and her personality was not like mine. But it was an interesting personality. I wondered if she's somebody else's mom when I woke up.

"Your mom kinda freaked me out" (Almost Famous)

bettermenfilmclub6815

https://youtube.com/watch?v=G0UkzdfqFBc&si=lb9Ern_HwQKnezVr

Oh, I was just looking for a little clip, and instead I clicked on something long...

Spending more time in nature soon.

People who were flowers and blossomed and became tight buds.

This also kind of reminds me of Anne Frank.

"björk : bachelorette"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=JNJv-Ebi67I&si=PdXXX6R0162_pG6g

What if I adopt someday, and the kid remembers being Barbro Karlen and wants a horse? And riding lessons?

"Behaving As If the God in All Life Mattered"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/798829.Behaving_As_If_the_God_in_All_Life_Mattered

Lunchroom🍅spaghetti...

👨🏽‍🍳Lunch room spa ghetti! 👨🏽‍🎨

It's become apparent your people are still suffering.

Greatly, from a dearth of lesbian bars and night clubs. Ugh, $0 PATRIARCHAL.

Rihanna - "Umbrella (Orange Version) (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=CvBfHwUxHIk&si=eMlQvLspcFt3T0WG

THE BEST!🏆

Flume - "Sleepless feat. Jezzabell Doran"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=V7-yAX9ijuM&si=8RNjxXmWv1xLRXGc

Don't need to say that twice.

"If only your life had been different, then you would have fit in so much better with X and Y types of people."

Do I even have the strength to find out where this is?.

 I mean, yeah, I do have it.

"#metoo #protectorwomen"

💖Mama C💖

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkYMtxFg/

"#fyp #consent #misogyny"

Tattooed face

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkYMGPM2/

I guess it's always a great time to appreciate what we've got...

"'Could not come at a worse time’: U.S. farmers hit hard by economic fallout of Iran war

The closure of the Strait of Hormuz has sent fertilizer and oil prices soaring as farmers prepare for the spring planting season"

https://www.ms.now/news/iran-war-american-farmers-fertilizer

🐝🌸❇️Such a delicate balance...🌾👩🏽‍🌾🌽

🦋🧋🌻Between the busy insect pollinators and the people whose labors help us stave off starvation...👨🏽‍🍳🫖🍚

Sunday, March 29, 2026

Slept and then woke up because of a message inside that I'm trying to get out in the world.

We have to remember we can do good things because there are people who are here to do really important work together, and I don't know why sometimes they choose difficult situations and maybe it's because from the universe's perspective, one life is it's just one of many, and the universe thinks you get multiple chances, but still, while you're here in one particular life it feels so important, and I kind of remembered nother dream where it was as if I went somewhere and I saw somebody and I was on the verge of getting to know them and then he made a decision and he knew he was going to feel it for all the rest of his life, but he made a decision to leave and and it affected the whole rest of their lives, and that really happens. And when that happens, they probably will see each other again in a different life. But why can't we just do well for each other this time? It would be just a great and wonderful thing. It would be truly an honor to be able to choose what love and we will help ourselves, and it will be good for others, too.


People need to figure out how to get more joy out of being helpful.

Patriarchal society makes some sensitive people have to say no so much, that it's hard to say yes when you have so much obligation put on you to say no. And then you wonder why some people aren't as successful. Well, they're dealing with adverse circumstances, and they're so busy trying establish boundaries and zones of respectfulness that other people don't apparently have enough sensitivity to perceive are needed.

Think of pollinators in nature and how sensitive they are.

This culture is too hard on sensitive beings. 

This was a pretty view.

And it was very unplanned because somehow getting food and going to the park, which happened to be next to a cute little school, seemed like a good idea. A small band showed up and played exactly one song as far as I could hear: "I'm Not The Only One." I think it was all boys playing. It certainly wasn't an L7 type of band.

But there was also a party going on (maybe at a nearby venue) and there was lots of other songs happening there! "Ain't no mountain high enough..." "What a wonderful world..." "This must be the place" said the Shazam (Talking Heads) "Rock the night away...'

Y: You know this this is a cool park cause it's really chill. There's not kids screaming all over even though it's next to a school."

Can't disagree with that!

"Finesse" said the Shazam (Bruno Mars), "YMCA," (a nice reminder that exercise is good for your emotional well-being!)

Well, I guess if you write, sometimes your life can become more like an art film. (Maybe it's that way with other art forms, too?)

Speaking of writing, and schools, I may have gone to some bad ones, but I will say, in all my childhood recollection, never have I ever tried to kiss somebody in a closet and made them pee on themselves and then got my sisters to make excuses for it. Because my life did not happen to arrange itself in that way...

Some of them could pay more attention.

Because if they get hit by a truck tomorrow, they could wake up in less than a year and have a totally different body! Just being helpful. And sisterly.

It's already like summer weather has arrived in this part of the world.

Someday I think I should go back to a place I like to sleep in, and read lots of books in, called the rainbow room, because of how it was decorated, in a house I used to visit every summer, but I haven't been there in a while, not for many years. 


Followed creative inclination. 🎶

I found some very small zines and a sticker I could purchase. And it felt like the universe got mischievous on the way back, because a gang of young teenage boys on bikes were in the street in front of the car that was in front of me and they took up space and got in the wrong lanes and everything. 

One was especially acrobatic on the bike and made me think music video directors would be looking for him. He was black and got in front of the car in front of me as if he had no fear of death. But I also think maybe there was another person who cut in front of the car before he did his acrobatic stuff and this person seemed like a young Latino guy, who drove very close to my car and wasn't as acrobatic, but he had a really smug smile on his face. 

(And then the radio brought back memories of my mom's ex-boyfriend talking to me about how he liked this new song called "Black Velvet" and he was asking, "Do you think your mom likes this song?" before they played  "Run Around" by Blues Traveler. I sort of think they separated because he wasn't really loving living with kids; he was younger than her.)  

I would have liked to take a picture of the acrobatic biker, but I was driving.

One of the tiny zines I have now (actually I might have met this writer before: www.fiberverse.com/) references three songs that I don't think I've ever heard before, so I'm going to look them up:


"Choices" by Cindy Rinne

Phoebe Bridgers - "Garden Song (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=1u8rIx65QgA&si=vHZWdi7XWC02jqLi

Mitski - "First Love/Late Spring (Official Audio)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=DVIaDzs1EH4&si=i3luT8MFRtEoKrYC

Joep Beving - "Sleeping Lotus redux (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=H2kP2JGEw7s&si=t0PYQDh6g7QvWr1-


Now I'm learning more about...

"Art Talk with Hung Liu" | National Endowment for the Arts


I will think about zines now, and hip exercises.

 

"Men have no business making decisions for women."

idzineit12

https://www.threads.com/@idzineit12/post/DWdEeh7FVlV?xmt=AQF0MfuR5-H9QGX63On5hV3mRNKjP9MiBcE1gNuKm-2vJCva-gzhcK2NNIJtTn6xbHCXT4Np&slof=1

Women walking different but compelling paths.

"I can never fully describe..."

lucilletherescuecat

https://www.instagram.com/p/DWcJ6c2keIP/?img_index=5&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Women have to fight"

lapetitewolfe

https://www.threads.com/@lapetitewolfe/post/DWX2CbnDEKz?xmt=AQF0lrfJqmGabmcNUvUrwuZGoMiSSnw7qIhqZBCsNk2pL6nOYv92GCosST4tqjpjOFRmbdZU&slof=1

Mess...

"Horoscope signs as kitties!"

amberk32

https://www.threads.com/@amberk32/post/DWcZr5eCTs7?xmt=AQF0_mYFwWEfOO5gD1pM-V7loD5VXC_EDcKYxBvV3oR3JtLTECLcdPEnMxAE8s1SZWtefx9z&slof=1

"Signed"

lauritarogersthat

https://www.threads.com/@lauritarogersthat/post/DWcdj3VEQIS?xmt=AQF0CuLbIgWcMuh4zfyEyhjFYOlbmgIO4a7YJ5AJy1dp4iDrDHKL465Xr5LQjKwGPz0bZvfu&slof=1

Oh wait, hold on...

"Makeup and trafficking how to escape"

@Gospelandglam

https://youtube.com/shorts/X73a79_JDHo?si=5Mf57jh2TBGQzwJ9

Shameless! Tsk! Hope that voice got paid. Lots of money$?

 

"BetterMe"

https://youtube.com/shorts/F4HcUrc2POo?si=oN3OhDAeEjfy1heQ

Grist for the mill.

 

"A feminist world where all men are servants—would you want to live there"

Anderson-x9

https://youtube.com/shorts/DHPI6Z_uLaY?si=2-DpD_4ym-eUKXvq

The cat of this residence seems to really like both of us.

 Too bad for them.

"Cats stealing their man"

awwdorablepetsart

https://www.threads.com/@awwdorablepetsart/post/DWcD3ZYExSG?xmt=AQF0mCsXgdYLbGQEPkU6tNo6bmhH3Eg0f16xZvMlT9vRatmNV7iPaY8-ZV0KyEc0Ly4DTH8&slof=1

Another very interesting perspective!

"A girl..."

dahliakurtz

https://www.threads.com/@dahliakurtz/post/DWeFWD1lH-e?xmt=AQF0iGQdUE36QASOf9UM2da9iUmxwJNcEmYXNojdrGgR6g-TUAZU4na2OwU3wJ6_HDj3JDCt&slof=1

So pretty!

 

"FOUR WOMEN TRY ON SAME PRIMARK DENIM"

imdebbiecrown

https://youtube.com/watch?v=kzGNwArLnYM&si=JR3C0vl_zZi5w6KR

This made me think of soup with sustenance.

That was the best lunch when I was a size single digit college student who got called flaca in South America and got colder easier. Walk a mile uphill in Seattle to campus at lunchtime and get one free vegetarian bowl of soup with chunks of tofu in it and some bread on the side with butter and listen to an enriching topic of conversation. Although I guess we didn't converse back with the speaker very much, we were mostly listening and eating. But I think you could ask them questions.

"Lentil soup..."

https://www.threads.com/@simplemediterranean/post/DWd9mq-DDUh?xmt=AQF0XIukTgLPbkvBCWT0BTVoqEWUGGNegjkwfk6qp4tP_MMSnxMK88LBpXRsXkkoEEI1tuz9&slof=1

"My teen daughter..."

https://www.threads.com/@queenwithacrookedcrown/post/DWeLG1tjsek?xmt=AQF04N61opYTyUk6s7rndlrutuB9fFBNPk4kCtcsnni9QaemQeYO-4-srD2w2uxjclieJi3C&slof=1

Do you think this is based on something that really happened? Do you think this is based on something that really happened?

Sublime – "Wrong Way Lyrics" | Genius Lyrics

https://genius.com/Sublime-wrong-way-lyrics

I have to start all over.

I was crocheting a hat as a gift and I thought I was just about ready to finish it and send it but the stitches were off and they've been off the entire time I've been making it. 

This is why counting stitches is smart.

On the other hand, sometimes people can improvise halfway through and just make it look slightly different, but I'm just going to start over.

This really reminds me of the guy who just showed it to me.

"Man in sombrero, poncho and maracas..."

u/eternviking

https://www.reddit.com/r/whoathatsinteresting/s/UrxootK6x9

Follow your heart! ♥️ People are getting goofy.

"@Jen Hamilton Grand Teton National Park"

Yellowstone National Park

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkF4u8eR/

No, it isn't. 👑

Tom Petty - "It's Good To Be King [Official Music Video]"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=2SF1iLXSQto&si=9d0RENamNIh-BBJG

But it's a really good song. 🎵

Blame it on a lake...💧

It's really big; people went swimming or wading in it, or in them?

"Great Lakes" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Great_Lakes

Blame it on some lakes...

"Blame It on the Rain" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blame_It_on_the_Rain

For some reason they paired this song with a movie about some young people.

Belle & Sebastian - 'I Want the World to Stop"

TrentFanMusicheek

https://youtube.com/watch?v=zCyiebswtSM&si=OHfspaNPpPXaZsjW

Young 'uns. Was this song in that film? (Checks.) No, it wasn't in that film. It's just a good song, and somebody decided to pair the film footage that had other songs along with it.

At least some of us look young for our ages!

Maybe some of us act young for our ages...

"I Want The World To Stop" (also with a lovely album cover)

bellesglasgow

https://youtube.com/watch?v=5k9v-az5R6w&si=x59YnpJoWhDSH2lv

Saturday, March 28, 2026

Kinda a therapy film tonight?

"The Swedish Connection" | Rotten Tomatoes

https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/the_swedish_connection

Better with subtitles than with dubbing.

Oops, time to sleep (falling asleep too much). Better watch it another time soon.

What's going on...🎼

I feel like, this is hard, but I think my circumstances seem to be communicating to me that some people are getting challenged to get better at caring about a bigger picture and a wider range of people. Which doesn't mean being right all the time. But it does mean being more interested in what's really going on with a wider variety of people.

I suppose he was kind of like a troubadour.

The long-haired 19-year-old janitor at the all-women's college who brought his guitar to our Amnesty International gathering and played it said that music was better...

Still on a personal healing journey, like a lot of people are.

There's been too much sweeping under the rug when it comes to many forms of suppression and violence. It will no longer be considered acceptable. Even though it's the past now, I still remember when I had to be the one to say "Enough" to the older people. Both as a child, and in recent years.

"After Amber Czech, a woman welder, is killed, tradeswomen demand action"

https://19thnews.org/2025/11/amber-czech-welder-murder-tradeswomen-demand-action/

This story reminds me of meat department in a grocery store drama.

When a man made threats towards his coworker (a family member of mine) and it was captured on security camera and HR got involved but the company still didn't care and the male managers made excuses and even people in the family could not seem to step it up, that that was brutal. I wonder if this is because these people were hit by their parents when they were children and there's some part of them that just doesn't know how to stand up to violence. And it is hard. It's not easy. It's not easy to do it perfectly, either.

I just couldn't believe these people were trying to convince somebody who had been threatened and who wanted to die because of how disrespectful and disgusting the work environment became, partly because all of the male managers acted like it was no big deal that this violent threat had happened, that she needed to stay, and her life was now in danger from her own psychological state. 

These are also the same people who couldn't talk about abuse in the family. So of course when it happened in a workplace situation, they weren't so on top of it either.

Patriarchal culture wants you to make excuses for violent men or act like the violence is not happening, and so many still seem have it driven into their consciousnesses that if you have to have a job that gives you health insurance, you have to put up with violence to have that. Well guess what? Sometimes even the job with health insurance doesn't give you the health care you need. 

So sometimes you need to not believe what these Patriarchal people tell you, and you need to believe yourself. And ask the universe and God for help that the people do not seem to know how to give. And if you need to leave an environment and get away from violent people, that's what you need to do. I am never going to be able to feel like acting like money in a bank account and property ownership are more important than safety and honesty. 

Moreover, when people are still not mature enough to have honest discussions about abuses that happened, whether it's in society or in the family,  that's a real disappointment. That shows a lack of concern for safety and honesty And it's a false sense of control that if you don't talk about it, it won't be a problem.

That's why I'm glad more women are speaking up now. Sometimes they're strangers on social media, but it's more and more and more and better and better and better.

"The doctor in Hawaii who..."

https://www.threads.com/@emilyrosechadwick/post/DWcKnjaj-pK?xmt=AQF0hUNYxAgs5W14m2c-c30nSAMDyMaxrNFXDg3CXvfSiIb1xTa2cgMI4--0eKTblbJ2VPU&slof=1

"When men say 'modern women' need to talk to older women..."

https://www.threads.com/@arm_me_wit_harmoneeee/post/DWbe4gUDetb?xmt=AQF0qCPyCYHfRjN2bP7kCw5fy5YHjH24d6RhJ5yN37RJEEagrozw321RgFOpq6Ct1Pwzx_U&slof=1

Kitty cat hearts transition music.

She came in and sat very close and said, it's time for me to be a ridiculously cute cat here and now. To accompany the transition music.

"Bush: Glycerine" | The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Kimmel

https://youtube.com/watch?v=tZiGfju5tdc&si=EHnr3KB042sVrM41

beabadoobee - "All I Did Was Dream Of You (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qV91x2YT9zI&si=1GnrrIsyb8nHhIqB

Cut Chemist - "The Garden Live with the Seattle Symphony"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=3S-aVCbiA-s&si=1LMIMaHny0Wg58D_

Transition music can be repetitive, like didn't you just listen to that the other day, but that's okay, because it can sound different when you listen to it this time compared to the last time you just listened to it, because it's transition music.

Kitty really likes being a loyal little companion to humane "disassociation" (?) or maybe there will be a better word for it one day. 

I got such a nice cashier at the grocery store not too long ago ✋🏻.

There was something just really nice about him. Like he was a higher being who had come to Earth in a quiet and kind personality.

I asked if it was possible to get fives. 

Oh yes I can do anything, he said. 

He gave me a twenty and two fives.

I can give you more fives than that if you'd like, he said.

I gave him back the twenty and he gave me more fives.

5 5 10 5 5

And I said thank you very much to him both times, of course.

I'm glad people are ridiculous sometimes anyway though because...

 It's like when I went down to the swimming pool when I was a kid and they played that song "I wear my sunglasses at night..." and the lifeguard listened to it and he got all angry and he switched it off and I was like geez why is he so freaking angry? He just could not enjoy it. Thanks buff tense guy. You were a life lesson because I remembered all these years later!

Got to find the "best for you" side of the internet.

Anyways, I'm still pretty (it turned demure into damn near) and introverted, but cool!

Someone has to do the growing.

 

"someone has to do it"

opinatedhag

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUL81aNkS_W/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

bringingbackthisbanger

mainelyemma

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVygdpCkUgg/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==


"I think this message is too important not to share again"

ilonamaher


She's an Olympic medalist!

https://www.instagram.com/ilonamaher?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==

Alexa?

"this is what some kids are learning relationships from"

BiancaDoesResearch

https://youtube.com/watch?v=sf_C_OTwQn8&si=UblPUOBiKoY1HZcZ

Keeping in mind that the future should be better...

It's important to know how articulate people can be about certain sensitive topics, too. Much of the population needs healing, not ignoring.

Make lists!

So what are the things you like about a white guy with more money? And what are the things you like about a brown woman who picks your food in the field and doesn't have as much money?

You can cook, and other people can cook.

You can grow in the church of knowledge. You can get to know someone better, and more intimately. You can stop expecting one brother to be lower than the other brother on account of the way the system's designed.

Camping without a single worry about a heating pad for cramps.

Another positive thing about the imagined masculine side: this side supports self-improvement and it's like: just do this and get this done. Oh good you, got it done. Well, of course you did. What are you going to do next? On to the next thing. And then if this side hangs outwith me if I'm around a guy who's expecting me to be super feminine in a way that I don't find very enjoyable, this side says okay. Time to leave. No need to try to convince this person otherwise. Just let them live their life, and you can just go. Time to situate yourself elsewhere. Don't try to convince him of things. Don't do arguments. Don't do feminism. Just move on to the next thing. Don't waste your time arguing about stuff with this person. Your time will be better spent elsewhere.

I don't want to give in to the Patriarchal society by changing too much.

I don't think being a girl is inherently oppressive. I think Patriarchal society is oppressive to girls. But that's how it is for me. I also have a bunch of impressions running through my mind like I've already spent plenty of time in more masculine bodies in other lives and I don't need to do anything to make that happen in this life and I don't want it to happen (for me), so that's me in this life.

Another bit of self-knowledge I have.

I think I will be a girl / woman forever in this life. When I found out that maybe if I'd been a boy, I might have been named."Jonathan," I was like, well. I'm really glad that that didn't happen. And I could really feel an impression of what Jonathan would be like and I felt like this: I don't want to be Jonathan. No, I'm not Jonathan. Jonathan is not me. Jonathan was in a heavier mood as a boy, kind of sulky and smart and intense, with dark hair, and I didn't want to be that person in this life. But I don't know. Maybe Jonathan had some good qualities. Sometimes I see pictures and I'm like, huh. That kind of looks like Jonathan doesn't it? Yeah, the moody, intense writer kinds of pictures...Oh well. What can we do but wish Jonathan well. I don't know why they would have chosen that name, but I do also a little bit think of Jonathan Swift and Jonathan Livingston Seagull. If Jonathan can pull himself together and be nice to cats, then maybe Jonathan is okay. Jonathan is also not very old. He's probably an adolescent. Maybe a very young man. 

I feel like levity should be balanced with grounding influences.

"VIOLETTE" | Official UK Trailer 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=D5a907FiwRY&si=Wh5FzDuKMs1YJ4ZE

Just because watching a film (or the trailer) builds your courage a little doesn't mean you're also going to dramatically walk into a book shop and fling a book at the proprietor's head.

Maybe this is funny?

"For most of the past century, your odds of being killed by a cougar were about the same as your odds of being killed by a filing cabinet."

Page 7, "Fuzz: When Nature Breaks the Law" by Mary Roach

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/56769577-fuzz

Yes I have, but not from them.

 

"Heard this song before?"

mocheetah

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWHLBJqCcgi/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Oh my gosh, the culture is really changing...

"Undérage: The Anti-Aging Cream"| SNL UK

https://youtube.com/watch?v=nRMgVgdQQbc&si=k2T7bQFmWa4M3_U4

Friday, March 27, 2026

Song's still hanging around...

Also, maybe the narrator is talking about himself because he's cried all his tears out. But he's created this song to express his emotions and it is his way of painting glycerine tears on himself.

TIL the song "Glycerine"...

https://www.reddit.com/r/todayilearned/s/zYziOzwlPU

Making friends with songs that probably played while I worked a restaurant job that I didn't want to be in at the time...

But making little rolled pasta also looks cool 🎼.

 And fun and relaxing...


"the teen trad wife epidemic is deeper than you think"

therealmanifestelle

https://youtube.com/watch?v=DmlsFwp0T30&si=YiPR2n9BSQ_r9GPo

It could happen.

I feel like tapping into the retired people who tour around America on road trips energy.

I guess that's what HE sang.

In HIS light jeans.

Tom Petty - "It's Good To Be King [Official Music Video]"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=2SF1iLXSQto&si=vUVv8WrZcruaDwgN

People are complicated. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Might wear light-colored jeans for the first time in decades. Because, getting more liberated???


California tree. 


California apple blossom. 


California bee on another blossom hid and didn't want its picture taken. 

I've laughed and cried and cried and other things I'm not gonna talk about right now, but the life purpose must go on!

"the teen trad wife epidemic is deeper than you think"

therealmanifestelle

https://youtube.com/watch?v=DmlsFwp0T30&si=YiPR2n9BSQ_r9GPo

Inch worm thoughts...

I believe people can love imperfectly and they do. And they can put themselves on an upward trajectory so that even if they make progress but then go backwards, then they can still make progress. And be on an upwards trajectory again.

Oh no, it's fine. I'm going to relax. I'm going to take a nice shower.

Glycerine! Tears. Endometriosis! Test.

"Literally whatever 🙄"

littledrownedrat

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU1hyr2DzVV/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Oh, I didn't find the next song that vaguely came to mind, which I can't totally remember.

But I did find this one, with the older video, with the cage elevator!

𝗨𝗦3 - "𝘾𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙥 (𝘿𝙅 𝙒)  1993"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=y7sFDJQQDXg&si=rVdeV-Nc73rfkCwo

When music of another era is back again...

I never paid too much attention to this song in the '90s (I was still in high school when it came out), and when I looked it up it the site said this was about the singer breaking up with a model, which made me wonder if the glycerine refers to glycerine tears, like maybe her tears would only seem like glycerine tears to him, which might just be getting off track, but it got stuck in my head recently for some reason, so perhaps I will ponder it further...

Bush - "Glycerine"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=hOllF3TgAsM&si=Mdqi230kUWUyd7pQ


So is this saying...

that you don't have to get a surgical operation anymore to get diagnosed with this condition?

immortalmel4

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DTVceK9jSsa/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Seems like she had fun in South America!

And, she was performing on stage for an audience a lot, huh? 

"🇦🇲🇦🇲🇦🇲🌹"

sabrinacarpenter

https://www.instagram.com/p/DWPeX9Tku8B/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's interesting when people can share what they've experienced.

I feel I don't want to change my gender in this life, but more people are doing so these days, and they are sharing their experiences. And I find this to be educational.

"#ftm #transformation #gender"

ctroubl_e

https://www.instagram.com/p/DWPqNjqjkY9/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Thursday, March 26, 2026

Sometimes it seems like it's better to think that this sort of thing might be an Extinction Burst of the old patriarchal ways....

"Americans who have changed their name, like married women, would also be required to secure updated documentation to register to vote. Compared to White US citizens, citizens of color are three times more likely to lack documents such as birth certificates, passports, naturalization certificates, or certificates of citizenship or face difficulties accessing them."

"SAVE Act — League of Women Voters of Illinois"

https://www.lwvil.org/voting-rights

"Women Should Make Babies, Not Vote: Why Some on the Far Right Want to Repeal the 19th Amendment"

https://www.liberalcurrents.com/women-should-make-babies-not-vote-why-some-on-the-far-right-want-to-repeal-the-19th-amendment/

Sigh, there's something so controlling about some people.

They made an extreme example of a controlling personality the focus of a recent film, it looks like? Gives off some kind of creepy Epstein file vibes, too.

"Apex Trailer"

https://youtu.be/kgv8jf_8dm0?si=a7DqUeiGUEPhCqlT

I feel like the personality in this film kind of reminded me of a student back in upstate NY who was obsessed if he thought somebody had any control or power over him and he just acted like wanted to control and destroy you if he felt that was the case. Well, I think the universe got the message that I was not happy to be around somebody like that. I don't really think I ever met anybody quite like that again. I worked for ten years in a community college on the opposite Coast and I don't believe I ever met another student like that again, I should say.

This reminded me that I'm way less German than some people.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkLaqvNs

But it also reminded me that even though I'm not 100% German, I still have a lot of German in me.

Really interesting childhood memories.

I suppose I shall never be able to stop remembering how the first boy that was nice to me on a regular basis (since we attended the same daycare) was brown and possibly a Native American boy. And we were very companionable in my memory. And he was not treated as well by the blond babysitter mother in upstate New York, and I don't think I should ignore that experience. And I am sorry though, if she was oppressed and had to have a babysitting job she didn't want. I still have a scar on my finger from where she poked me with her needle to get a splinter out. Not all moms need to babysit other women's children. That was a lesson. Anyways, I will never remember who this person's name was, I guess (unless maybe I get hypnotized?)

But of course, there was one other boy who was also nice to me (on a more short-term basis) and he introduced me to something like bulgogi and I believe we played with bubbles at my house and I think we watched the "Mr. Body" show on TV. And And "Ripley's Believe It or Not." And he thought we could meet again when we were older and I agreed. And he became an interesting person I guess when he got older. And he thought I should go places I wanted to go and maybe not listen to my parents if they told me I shouldn't go there. He was kind of just a little bit more bossy, though.

Literally the universe likes me to listen to lots of kinds of music

I liked The Moody Blues but Margaux couldn't stand listening to them because she had traumatic experiences with their songs. I think because Peter liked them. 

"Tiger, Tiger by Margaux Fragoso"| Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/8979038-tiger-tiger

And another thing about the 19th century people.

They were in such rigid roles. So sometimes when things weren't going so well between Emerson and his wife, he would take off on a big long trip and then Thoreau would come over and help out while he was away and they got into these weird little power dynamics where the wife would tell Emerson that he should write to  Henry but Emerson didn't like being told what to do and blah blah blah. And sometimes the kids started to think of Thoreau as their father.

And then sometimes Emerson would lecture Thoreau that he had to get married. 

But then there was this one woman who actually asked Thoreau to marry her and it freaked Thoreau out and then he obviously didn't react well and the woman got suicidal. But then I guess she recovered. And Louisa May Alcott said she was a really good person. Thoreau stayed single.

And Emerson thought her behavior was just completely ridiculous. Women in those days didn't do such things.

I guess it was hard to be them.


And they can also get flexible over time if they keep on practicing the postures.

It's a good thing practicing postures gives human beings space for processing lots of different kinds of feelings. 

And then she called the handyman/babysitter Henry.

Can you believe that she spent most of her married life calling her husband "Mr. Emerson."

"Lidian Emerson" - Transcendental Bible

https://www.henrythoreau.org/transcendence/emerson/transcendental_bible.html

Some things were really different in other centuries.


I did just have a funny thought.

Maybe I like tuning into music and music videos because at a formative period of my development, I was spending time sitting in front of MTV, and not everyone had MTV back then, but our apartment had MTV. The babysitters loved it.

But not me right now.

Maybe some people should start thinking more about parliamentary procedures, or whatever. I don't feel like pondering that too deeply right now, but I just felt like I had to put something out there. It might have to do with community organizing or something like that, which I'm not doing right now because I feel like being a recluse for a while. (A while could be a day or it could be a few hours. Sense of time is fluctuating and/or not really working like it used to.)

These kind of seem to flow together...

Broken Bells, Danger Mouse, James Mercer - "The High Road"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=gWBG1j_flrg&si=BxgHXRGrBcSpVW3T

Belle & Sebastian ~ "I Want The World To Stop"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=5k9v-az5R6w&si=e1H6tT_OizLtCnwu

I think my cat is not like Zoe the farm cat.

"Raised right"

zoe_thefarmcat

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DV0aBzPDz4Z/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I think my cat is worse to girl cats when they try to come in the yard and is more curious and tolerant if a boy cat tries to come in the yard. My cat is also spayed and vaxxed and chipped and etcetra.

What if?

What if you adopt a kid and then they have strange issues and decide to marry conservatively and become MAGA to rebel against you even though they will still love you and even hang out with you and then they can't vote.

Because of my name...

I got an alligator pendant for my 18th birthday from the girls on my dorm floor in my freshman year of college and I probably should have saved it...

"Lana del Rey marries alligator tour guide...

https://www.reddit.com/r/Music/s/UVffd5EP3j

😹

Simon & Garfunkel - "Mrs. Robinson (Audio)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=9C1BCAgu2I8&si=ec7hoM7ZzXHghx-u

Yeah you did.

Did you ever meet a girl who couldn't act like she cares too much about girls and women because she got the message that acting that way would be too alienating to her brothers...

Maybe this sort of sentiment could get set to music and catch on sometime.

"I should not have to assemble decades of paperwork or pay expensive fees just to exercise my right to vote."

~ Kimberly Brusk

"Opinion: SAVE Act creates barriers for women and many other American voters"

https://www.ajc.com/opinion/2026/03/as-a-domestic-violence-survivor-who-remarried-save-act-harms-women-like-me/

They might want to adopt grandchildren and teach them how to detox from technology

"Rich couples are collecting over $100,000 in Social Security Benefits"

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/social-security-benefits-100000-cap-proposal/

From the 6th grader who could not vote.

Who cares about voting. You can make art. Have some fun.

Happy cat art!


"All Cats Are Beautiful!"

prairiefruitarts

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVSULqFkV8H/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Childish, sexist people want to run the world and control others.

They didn't get their needs met at formative stages in their lives, and now this is what we're dealing with.

But on a more cerebral note...

The guys who've changed their names (ever since they've got married) to their wives' last names might be alarmed at all the talk of running into problems with voting if the names on their IDs don't match the names on their birth certificates.

I wonder if the blood thinks...

That sometimes the revolution is a little embarrassing. 

Like they might look back on a time like this and say "Gosh. That was just very embarrassing behavior."

How embarrassing to know it's like these people were walking around with this big sign on their chests saying obviously our daughters aren't the ones that are going to get raped. Obviously our daughters aren't going to have blood pouring out of their bodies. 

😭

Oh horrible, uncouth, awkward future.

Now what if you say, "our daughters" and "our sons?"

Another thing I don't understand: why so many people still just seem to assume that the daughters are the more disposable ones.

As the slow process of deprogramming continues...

I do hope some people will get over the habit of acting like some kinds of daughters are more deserving of being violated and then outcast than others.

Still influential.

"IAMCAT - Daisy Coleman" 

https://www.instagram.com/youngcattattoos?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==

Today will be another educational day!

"Beauty vloggers strip away the layers of artifice shellacked onto any mainstream image of beauty."

Page 62 

"Witches: What Women Do Together by Sam George-Allen"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/44162881-witches

"While walking to the dentist, I turn onto the Kurilpa Bridge and am confronted with four women in fluorescent pink, ponytails swinging, jogging in step. I immediately prickle. I want to walk in the shade, and they are running on the shady side. I think: I'm not moving for these jogging bimbos. But then I stop. I am taken aback that after months and months of writing about women collaborating and caring for one another, I'm still reflexively anti-woman-- particularly anti-woman in groups. I move to the side and let the joggers pass; I think they might be training for a charity run, from what I glimpse on the pockets of their running shirts. But would it matter if they weren't? They all look very young, and being young and long-haired and wanting to stay fit and doing it with your friends is not a crime, or even something to scoff at. How long is it going to take to unpick this knot that misogyny has tied me in?"

Page 84- 85

"Witches: What Women Do Together by Sam George-Allen"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/44162881-witches

What with all the old-fashioned types of celebrity worship dying out and everything...

Maybe people like Daisy Coleman and her mom will get to experience a better sense of a supportive community the next time around?

That's a very dramatic mom.

 

The Magic Flute – "Queen of the Night aria"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=YuBeBjqKSGQ&si=VetYpyhPz0j5IReV

Just reading before the sun comes up again.

"There were two paths for America and Lilith Fair was one of them. Sadly it chose the other"| Emma Brockes | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2025/oct/02/america-lilith-fair-music-festival-trump-us

Too bad they didn't seem to care very much about Lilith in church, though.

💒 🎶Bet Lilith would have liked some of my songs and stories.🎼⛪

It feels like this place is a vortex. Might be fun to see the beach sometime, too.

"Pitkin-Conrow House" - Weird California

https://www.weirdca.com/location.php?location=85#google_vignette


Good artistic integrity skills.

All right, survivors of certain life experiences acting like responsible adults again.

Wednesday, March 25, 2026

Yep.🐈‍⬛

"Stop worrying so much about what other people might be thinking and go pet your cat."

This book really appealed to me as soon as I saw it in the library.

"Witches: What Women Do Together by Sam George-Allen"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/44162881-witches

It's time to throw off the cloak of patriarchal oppression already! 

You know who's already doing it? 

The patriarchs who died and came back in different bodies. 

They're doing it already!

Well anyways. I understand that this is a belief that not everyone shares, but it's hard to shake it loose.

Time to wind down now. It's been an internally exciting evening, in some ways.

"Amadeus" made a big impression on me. Did they let me watch it at too young of an age?

I was in 4th or 5th grade when I watched it. Believe I saw it first in 4th grade, on the mainland, and then it came on TV and I watched it again in 5th grade, on the island I lived on at that time, with my mother and her boyfriend. And my friend who lived up the street in a church that had been converted to a house watched it as well. The main thing I remember her saying about it afterwards was how creepily white Mozart got when he died.

The Magic Flute – "Queen of the Night aria"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=YuBeBjqKSGQ&si=VetYpyhPz0j5IReV

Mozart -  "Queen of the night (The magic flute) - Amadeus"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=5kwTEYNZosE&si=m2GiJSX82VI8oPhH

Well what if I could start going back East more often? I think it's good I got lots of exposure to music appreciation as a child, and since I was just listening to opera, I remembered my mom's sister's daughter sings it.

"Madeline Hamrick Phillips - Winston-Salem Choral Artists"

https://wschoralartists.org/the-artists/madeline-hamrick/

Maybe if I go back there more often I would see certain people again.

Healing the issues is such a blossoming process.

Maybe the granddaughters won't have to get treated like they're 30% of a man, huh!? Especially the ones that got traumatized or disfavored in certain ways.


"America hates women"

The Twin Doctors

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/

She needs to stick around for a little while longer for me to be able to tell.

The (and it's honestly still hard for my inner child to believe this) "conservative' mom who had a liberal phase in her single motherhood years and almost committed to the co-housing group in the '90s is probably going to be surprisingly...😊

Anyways, happy childhood memories are fun.

My sister and I both want to get a vinyl record player so we can listen to this again. Instant happy childhood memories!

"The Fox And The Hound (Side 1)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=UTGVP9fJzp0&si=Iy20DLzsZ5VYiTxs

Those are more from the Pacific Northwest in my mind, but there are also other ones from other regions.

This woman has done something really amazing with her stemware.

"COOKIE DOUGH BLENDED OATS"

broccoli_mum

https://youtube.com/shorts/_4eSfZoB-oU?si=auNyW78AFssfatwl

Can't this be healthy? Is it not possible?

"Why Cookbooks Are the Next Frontier for Narrative Writing"

https://www.culturedmag.com/article/2026/03/25/food-writing-cookbooks-recipes-ella-quittner/


I am really just trying to be funny sometimes.

This is cool, but did you see that article about the weird voices in German and plates clattering around getting picked up by the recording equipment in a church? How can I find that article again?

"Sufjan Stevens | Tape Op Magazine"

https://tapeop.com/interviews/70/sufjan-stevens


Drink up, eh?

This guy has some incredible operatic talents with his voice.

"Maayan Licht Baroque"            

Themfmofficial

https://youtube.com/shorts/he9g0iUzg_A?si=f13qH6rbu1NchWgB

"My diet plan as a daughter of an almond Mexican dad"

viriykyle

https://youtube.com/shorts/lSiAwBBi2-s?si=3PUkxkeXpvUxgM9v

Three celery stalks
Half a cucumber
Half a green apple
A big piece of peeled ginger
A handful of spring green mix
Half of a juice lemon
2 cups of water

Sometimes people also add fresh mint

Accomplishing out of unit laundry and the rest of this commentary on "Lux"

Commentary on"Decoding the Languages and Saints of Rosalía’s Lux"

Sophia_SmithGaler

https://youtube.com/watch?v=i8cnVTYvpl8&si=Kis8Mcqwcewtn0h7

Accomplished listening.

"I care how many times a capybara..."

tetyanawrites

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWTwonHMk_P/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

" This feels like a good time..."

geniusgirlslerts

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWVJeKDDgUM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

It's good to acknowledge accomplishments.

I accomplished a feeding. 

X: I went by the place that has specials on tacos and I went by the place that has a special on the burrito and I paid for it with my own money.

Y: Mmm, tastes sweeter now.

I really do.

I feel like taking road trips to places on roads that I used to take road trips on. Plus, maybe I'll see places that I only visited by like, flying there when I was sleeping or something.

Have to find something that makes cleaning the kitchen look more fun.

"red sauce made with guajillo chili"

Obduliah Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTk8R5bwP/

That one was maybe too interesting to watch for cleaning.

She's probably talking about creating a fun cookbook. 🍋🥧👩🏻‍🍳🥠

Miss Cantaloupe | "Lemon Baby (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=apAYyiArTlk&si=ufzlAhhFgu3nzdHE

I have to clean and do some chores.

I have to find more silly music to listen when I clean / do chores. So it won't be like drudgery!

This is obviously delightful 🎶

 Two listens


"Semillas de flor de desierto"

mariogamez5891

https://youtube.com/shorts/bMI21h92zkM?si=FvwyRRYDSBGeTzW6

And I got to listen to the ads on the video because I was applying the last of a melting night cream with Manuka honey. So I couldn't skip them on my phone.

Sufjan Stevens   "Untitled (All Delighted People Side D)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=i7A2vuUNRc0&si=FHzgmorjYY7KGyuz

But now it feels like my hands and feet are soft and smell like a melting beeswax candle. So it's cool.

This post about the Save Act was just pointed out to me

 And it doesn't sound good.

"Every 30 days"

u/newphonehudus

https://www.reddit.com/r/TikTokCringe/s/1O6Op56a0X

More divinity

"1960s Psychiatric Interviews with Psychotic Women"

snackygrapepikamirror911

https://youtube.com/watch?v=uFiW2AvnBXk&si=fDi3gN9MkFpQvmuH