Sunday, February 22, 2026

Mira.

"Work in California USA harvesting vegetables cutting fresh cilantro"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThbeU2ax/

"rlly trying to love..."

fatalfemme66

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThbeWrb7/

I'm in a special needs cycle.

I'll just have to get better at embracing being a special needs person in a special needs cycle and know that maybe we can find some good, nature-oriented, healing kinds of things...

Could say, "He likes to touch water."

"Like how do I explain..."

herhouseofcats

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVCve_tEbzs/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Perhaps there will be some different descriptions soon...

"Psychology says people with high intuitive intelligence tend to be mislabeled as anxious, oversensitive, or indecisive..."

https://geediting.com/j-a-psychology-says-people-with-high-intuitive-intelligence-tend-to-be-mislabeled-as-anxious-oversensitive-or-indecisive-the-real-pattern-is-that-theyre-processing-more-information-than-the-people-jud/

Still seems easier to take pictures around sunset.


So cold out there this morning.

"The Lonely Goatherd (Da Twinz Hardstyle Mix)" - DJ

https://youtube.com/watch?v=enLYSvOZ2LI&si=z8M3C25BG7PszCg_

"The Lonely Goatherd" from The Sound of Music

RodgersandHammerstein

https://youtube.com/watch?v=bMIPGYIW83c&si=6K_9S7Vya2mhNquk

Realistic and holistic!

Lady Gaga - "Paparazzi (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=d2smz_1L2_0&si=CMv1Uxb5ghvun26t

Delicious authentic Mexican food it is.

Unfortunately, the restaurant next to "The End Of The World" art piece is a NO because photos show that it looks just a little too much like a fraternity party atmosphere. 

"It's the cement floors."


Conductors of cultural conditions say...

Grist for the mill.

"The Holy Use of Gossip by Kathleen Norris: Small-Town Community Life"

https://studylib.net/doc/8913345/the-holy-use-of-gossip#google_vignette

The Greeks are so much nicer to all of the imbibers now, they say...

"Greka’s Tavern admits women now."

~ Kathryn Almy

"Rogers City, Michigan: You Can’t Go to Town and Back"

https://greatlakesreview.org/rogers-city-michigan-you-cant-go-to-town-and-back-in-less-than-two-hours/

Their billboards, my mind, a big hymn.

"Pass It On – It only takes a spark" | Enid & Austin

https://austinbhebe.wordpress.com/2014/11/12/pass-it-on-it-only-takes-a-spark/

πŸŽΌπŸ™πŸ»πŸŽΆ

"Welcome to PassItOn.com | The Foundation for a Bet"

https://www.passiton.com/inspirational-sayings-billboards/60-smile-mona-lisa

Waking up early again (just like yesterday)

"We've got to get better about punctuation, I mean intuition, since mom's got an early Alzheimer's diagnosis and it's too difficult to talk to her husband about whatever's going with will stuff...Liberal in the '90s but addicted to Fox News in the 2020s -- what does this really mean?...Parents who change their political views according to whoever they live with are on earth to build our characters, yeah?..."

Saturday, February 21, 2026

Do I believe in synchronicity?

I think maybe she was skating in Milan while I was having shirodhara oil poured on my forehead for the first time!

"What time does Alysa Liu actually skate today?

Alysa Liu actually skates at 4:40 p.m. ET, which is 10:40 p.m. locally in Italy.

She's the final U.S. competitor to go."

https://sports.yahoo.com/articles/time-does-alysa-liu-actually-104254346.html

The appointment was supposed to be between 1 and 2 p.m. in CA (three hours behind East Coast time), but there was rain and we got turned around and arrived 15 minutes late. And then we had to prepare but nobody was after us, so I think we (my sister and I) still got the full hour long appointment. We left by 2:30 p.m. It was her idea. Well it was kind of both of our ideas because I suggested it. She made the appointment.

Friday, February 20, 2026

Desert light 🏜️


At The End


Of The World.


And then some other unexpectedly fun exploring because a good visitor is in town.

Just having fun reading again!🍨

"Historic Oakland creamery offers Alysa Liu 'ice cream for life'"

https://www.sfgate.com/sports/article/oakland-alysa-liu-fentons-21369647.php

"Choosing the Alternative: The Power of Alysa Liu & Amber Glenn"

https://wcuquad.com/6025078/op-ed/choosing-the-alternative-the-power-of-alysa-liu-amber-glenn/

"All About Olympic Figure Skater Alysa Liu's Dad Arthur Liu"

https://people.com/all-about-alysa-liu-dad-11896584

This is good too!🍦

What if the guys who walked into the ice cream place reminded her of some other people, too?

"What is it like to be a woman?"

tomiwalamies 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU-PExQDGiO/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

I also re-experienced youthful feelings of being criticized for my dress and attitude and complimented on my appearance (maybe even a little excessively) only in the context of "But you would look even better if..." while being informed that I was not living in a democracy.

I feel like I might want to start practicing drawing pictures of dancers and skaters

"‘This is a good life’: Alysa Liu embracing joy and creativity in figure skating" – Figure Skaters Online

https://figureskatersonline.com/news/2025/11/13/this-is-a-good-life-alysa-liu-embracing-joy-and-creativity-in-figure-skating/

Sand pipers!

 

"Santa Monica, California"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThVQqE8C/

Anyways, all I know is it's time to get better.

Need to chill. I started not feeling well again. I had to tell people to go and do stuff without me.

Layers! (She has really interesting hair.)

"Alysa Liu: Free skate performance"

NBC Sports

https://youtu.be/qhc00PRmNgc?si=d1g_I6dLcAZe5vJ7

"Alysa Liu’s Olympics Style Is Changing Figure Skating Fashion"

https://www.harpersbazaar.com/celebrity/sports-athletes/a70432506/alysa-liu-striped-hair-2026-olympics-outfits-figure-skating/

I felt better when I woke up the second time today.

I shall share some layers.

"The Great Beauty Official Trailer #1" - Paolo Sorrento

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Dyt430YkQn0&si=B1oFDj4JeA5Uw0s7

He put a little girl artist in his film. She was very traumatized. That part of the film made a big impression on me, I guess, and it was very meaningful to me, so I would not want that erased.

Meg Lui - "Gone Girl" (Official Music Video) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gMA5TKmybM

The girl who is an artist in her music video made me remember the other artist, too.

"Echo Location poem" - Alice Fulton

https://www.best-poems.net/alice-fulton/echo-location.html

Cool?

"Barbara J. Petoskey, 'An Interview with Alice Fulton,' Associated Writing Programs Chronicle 30:6:24-29, May/summer 1998.

Poems discussed: 'About Face,' 'Dance Script With Electric Ballerina,' 'Echo Location,' 'Elvis From The Waist Up,' 'Fuzzy Feelings,' 'Give,' 'My Last TV Campaign,' 'Some Cool,' 'The Priming Is A Negligee,' 'Vanishing Cream.'

https://www.alicefulton.com/interviews/awp.html

Not now, but later.

I wonder if I could find a way to make housecleaning feel awesome, like editing something.

SIGH. Woken up by a distant ambulance siren.

Too mysterious. Not the favorite way to wake up. Well, I should take a probiotic before I sleep. I didn't. I will take that now. But tense because the way toxic stuff can get braided into other messages is both intriguing and terrifying. Wow, so much to calm down about already. Not the favorite way to wake up...But maybe somebody is getting the help they need. I don't know. I might be about at an emotional level of a four year old. I might need to hug a pillow to turn seven. My body is older than that and is laying on a big soft, torn skirt...

I'm awake! I'm awake. Sigh. I can go back to sleep and wake up again later.

Lady Gaga - "Paparazzi (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=d2smz_1L2_0&si=INTplVvKBRBF-O28

Thursday, February 19, 2026

Just for fun. The aliens put multiplicities of the same billboard along the same highway.

"Welcome to PassItOn.com | The Foundation for a Bet"

https://www.passiton.com/inspirational-sayings-billboards/60-smile-mona-lisa

Relax...

I just realized that if you're afraid of bad dreams, when you lie down in bed, you feel like you're gearing up for a battle.

Actually, things are looking up again!

PMS is still real and dreadful but the symptoms are changing. Yes, I got a shorter (time-wise) shirodhara treatment for the first time, and now it feels like there's many signs the universe likes it when people enjoy creative projects.

And I'm certainly interested in that idea now.

I've heard that some people think when you get more spiritually evolved, you don't have to go through such intense purges.

I love gradients.

Some people are so all or nothing; thank God not everybody's like that. But all are nothing people will purge you. I guess I give them that.

Thank you for being there for me. Menthol.

I believe a pot of MENTHOL is my friend. I LOVE MENTHOL.

I want everyone to evolve.

Really hope people are smarter than this in the future. I don't want to go through this again. I don't think people should have to go through s*** like this. Why? Why are we like this? Figure out what you need to do to get better. It's not the same for everybody. Just figure it out.

Work on your issues.

Be more peaceful. It will help a lot.

Get better.

I am having the most vile f****** experience and I'd never want to go through this again. The only way I know how to feel better is to f****** yell at people. After having thrown up. Jesus, may the people heal themselves.

Poor humans. I need to cry more. I wonder if it would help.

I'm sorry if grief gets so unbearable. It makes people sick. Make me better at stuff they need to be better at because I don't want to live this way anymore.

I'm going to do some healing processes now.

I will be better later. It's terrible right now. I don't understand why I have to live in a body. It's not fair. At least make the body happy again. It was happy once upon a time. Want to be better now.

I only prefer peace today. πŸ•Š️πŸ™πŸΎπŸͺ·

The sinus headache is a lot and is influential and the body needing peace matters the most.

Choose peace (wisely, bravely.)

I have a very intense headache to heal now. 

Peace.

Wednesday, February 18, 2026

Have a weird evening! Dads et al.

"A Girl Called Al by Constance C. Greene"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/503558.A_Girl_Called_Al

It's interesting to wonder about the kind of people other people's kids might meet in the future, too.

"Emily of New Moon (Emily, #1) by L.M. Montgomery"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/3562.Emily_of_New_Moon

When "Emily of New Moon's" Teddy met "A Girl Called Al's" friend's little bratty brother Teddy.

Now I can enjoy my therapy musical! It's helped me over the years...

HAIR - "The Flesh Failures  /  Let The Sunshine In"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=eGaZPFboTn4&si=-Bm8NEHvPjH-5zee

Who needs flighty, lighted-headed us, anyway?

I feel like if I feel more grounded, it's for the best!

That's a good film and it's very wintery.

You know, in the "Black Robe" movie, I think there was a part where the guy had to run the gauntlet, and he survived.

Please take this in a friendly way.

I like feeling grounded and I don't like feeling flighty. I just really like to feel grounded. So I just want to make it clear that sometimes my life has felt like a really big, long, unpaid job. And the men need help! I am constantly being told to pay attention to the signs that people need help, even if they are not the most recent ones.

"Sufjan Stevens' 'Stalker' – The Album Found In A Dumpster"

https://www.nme.com/blogs/nme-blogs/someone-on-reddit-found-an-unreleased-1998-sufjan-stevens-album-called-stalker-in-a-bin-5989

Obviously the help that is required extends to a very wide variety of human beings. 

Grounding's cool.

I kind of feel better now. I'm releasing some nervous energy and I'm doing some spoon work on my feet.

"spooning the feet"| Tony&Tina Vibrational Remedies

https://www.tonyandtina.net/tag/spooning-the-feet/

Maybe that'll be a work of art someday too.

If you ever suspected that when artist was spying on you, artist's fiance was also spying on you at the same time, but wasn't quite as intense about it, and in a way she seemed not so bad...

That is to say, I have memories of a person who in retrospect I think might have been the writer's fiance at the time also hanging around or maybe even accompanying him one time. Because he was kind of a manipulative, needy person, you know.

It's Big "Being a Human Being Living in a Body on Earth" issues.

I really feel for the sensitive people and the artists and even though sometimes some people have more success than others still they need to attend to their own health issues whether or not they have a bunch of money or a better house or a bunch of fans or a bunch of work out there that lots of people get to enjoy...and I also feel like having somebody chase after you for a period of time and shout "I love you!" in such a way that it really was more like "I am desperate and angry for your attention, why won't you talk to me?" and such and then write a book which partially incorporated some of those experiences in it and then win accolades for that work is kind of getting to me right now. But maybe it's just being sensitive to scattered energy in general. Maybe what it is, is some people have this energy attached to them and it's about making changes and....

I'll just complete these thoughts later. That's all right.

I suppose it's better to think that way.

The people you inherited these traits from were probably just doing the best they could most of the time. They had to get stuff accomplished. They weren't so much trying to lay the foundations for new systems. They were doing the best they could within the systems they were working in.

I think this is true, too.

A bunch of things are really unraveling right now though anyways.

I really need to figure out what patience means.

I wonder why I felt so nice and clear at night and now during the day, when I want to complete at least eight or nine different cleaning tasks, the left lower back only wants me to do three of them at most, and it's so frustrating. I'm going to not go on the internet as much. It's too much sometimes. We should really be grateful to the people who do lots of physical labor in their jobs though, because I don't think I could do it. Not right now, anyways. Frazzled is a word that is coming to mind and I don't want to be frazzled. I want to be clear and centered and balanced and that is achievable.

Sometimes I think it's fun to love snow ❄️🌫️πŸ”️🌨️.

"Loose dog joins Olympics cross-country skiing, crosses finish line"

https://www.14news.com/2026/02/18/loose-dog-joins-olympics-cross-country-skiing-crosses-finish-line/#:~:text=TESERO%2C%20Italy%20(AP)%20%E2%80%94,with%20athletes%20down%20the%20straightaway.

I wonder how she actually feels though?

"Noam Chomsky’s wife apologizes for their ‘grave mistake’ in Epstein ties" | Jeffrey Epstein | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/feb/08/noam-chomsky-epstein-ties-wife-apology

Good.

At least I feel more flexible now.

"All men until no men"

Lex

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThXbJ8GD/

Apparently, that was showing initiative.

Apparently, we were supposed to ask for favors from all the guys who were secretly HUGE Epstein Island fans. Oh my God, they totally would have been going to the island if they'd had the opportunity, even if they aren't in the files. Oh my God. Oh my Noam Chomsky.

Also, you should never make assumptions. She could be really mad at a lot of different kinds of people. 

Sharon Van Etten - "Your Love Is Killing Me"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=nyuPWHwZru0&si=9SwE9y70C5NDebzF

What about how the anti-feminist ladies were bringing up their daughters to be a certain way on account of what they learned from their parents and in Christian churches? She could be mad at them.

I hear parsley's really collaborative! I've had mostly very good experiences with parsley.

Except for one time when I made a normally very good salad with parsley that hadn't gotten washed enough, and that was a very bad experience.


"work in California USA in agriculture"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThXVC1K7/

"Every woman's love language✨"

R Y K E R

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThXVGRge/

I don't think birds have a lot of eating disorders do they?

There's some good birds enjoying their suet out there.

Not everyone can be as nice. I suppose.

I'm such a nice person. (?)

Ha-ha.

Someday some people's kids are going to be looking at those kinds of new stories and all the comments about the patriarchy and I'm really looking forward to that as well.

True.

I feel like things getting worse before they get better is an act of God.

And I can't wait to find a new news story where everyone's complaining about the patriarchy. I'm going to look at so many of the comments.

A certain muscle must agree.

Let's keep being enemies. What a relief. So much better that way! Jesus Christ.

Lady Gaga - "Bad Romance (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qrO4YZeyl0I&si=w3GRnlbeiC9HSUlJ

I guess we'll have to figure out why.

All the other muscles can have fun, but the piriformis just says no.

Moreover.

I've decided I might have a fragile glass unicorn horn where the left piriformis muscle should be. But it doesn't always show up. But it shows up sometimes. When I say fragile, it's just emotionally fragile. I kind of want to find some news stories now about the patriarchy being toxic now but maybe I won't. Also, what if I just pay more attention to the other muscles more and just let them help the sad one? It's the piriformis of resentment! Who knows if it even wants help? What if it doesn't? Don't they say, "You know, you can't help a piriformis who doesn't want to be helped?"

Okay I feel better...

I hope you guys (especially men born in a certain era) come back in female bodies with lots of body issues. Now you just think about that now you just think about that now you just think about that now you just think about that now you just think about that.

Omg, so many mixed feelings and then a positive ending.

 

"Who's training for summer?"

mariah.sola

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU3zkPlke8n/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Something cool...

I see a person who can touch lots of different kinds of shapes and they become magical.

Maybe I can read this again.

"The Holy Use of Gossip by Kathleen Norris: Small-Town Community Life"

https://studylib.net/doc/8913345/the-holy-use-of-gossip#google_vignette


Now I am going to listen to a little bit of the sound bowl.

"WARNING: This Sound Will Unlock Your Energy ⚡ Sacral Chakra Activation"

SedonaCrystalTemple

https://youtube.com/watch?v=wRPH7V5rtog&si=rLxSEtLhpRgMHAwl

Maybe the musical talents can live this time.

Johnny And Jones - "Westerbork Serenade (1944)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=pP0wc5PolLY&si=IlbUNxJh9-W6Azn6

"Jewish Love Song recorded in Concentration Camp..."

Kleinkunst723

https://youtube.com/watch?v=wWsczojYluo&si=BL5e-0P1JKZmsnj2

Gezellig!

And now I feel more cozy???

It's good for their health.

People need to get better at examining themselves and their motives.

I want to know why these horrors are happening when most people don't agree with them.

"'Conservative Georgia town pushes back against ICE detention center: ‘We are Americans after all’"| ICE (US Immigration and Customs Enforcement) | The Guardian

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2026/feb/18/ice-detention-center-warehouse-georgia


A starving woman.

Who stole the package from Anne Frank that Hannah Goslar threw over the fence.

~~~~~~

Worse to come, but reading articles feels preferable to having nightmares at the moment.

Rabbit holes revisited: Joy Division. House of Dolls by Ka-tzetnik 135633 / Yehiel De-Nur is a work of fiction that is required reading in Israeli schools according to this:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/House_of_Dolls

"Na'ama Shik, researching at Yad Vashem, the principal Jewish organization for the remembrance of the victims of the Holocaust, considers the book as fiction.[7] Nonetheless it is part of the Israeli high school curriculum."

Maybe it's also kind of like propaganda???

"However, while Block 24 really did house a brothel, in reality "it was a brothel for prisoners. Members of the Wehrmacht and SS were not allowed to visit it. The forced prostitutes were mostly German or Polish—none of them were Jewish, neither was any of them called Daniella, as records of the Auschwitz administration show. A military brothel for German soldiers and SS guards also existed, but it was located outside of the camp, and all women there were German civilian prostitutes."[4] 

~~~~~~

Yehiel De-Nur - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yehiel_De-Nur

~~~~~~

And, Epstein had women assisting him.

Tuesday, February 17, 2026

Just rolling my eyes at chronic muscle tension again.

I think sometimes when people go through traumatic stuff, if they don't heal from it, it accidentally affects their relationships with other people. Maybe it depends on the connections between people, and if they have some kind of contract to hold each other accountable to a deeper level of healing or something.

Oh I got some really weird stuff off of the emotion code chart. I got overjoy and self-abuse. I don't think I ever had those two things come up before. Not that I have used the chart that many times but this just seems like a weird combination to me.

I don't know how overjoy would be bad but maybe its because that's not a word I use in real life. But what if it's like giddiness that's very not grounded or something? That's what it seems like it might be.

The thing is is I guess I don't care if I'm giddy sometimes. I think it's fun, but if my muscles getting all tense then I hate that feeling. So then I'm forced to look at what's going on or at least try to figure something out about why the pain is there.

And / Or vice versa?

Maybe I'm only halfway through a deep clean right now.

But really, why am I so angry?

I have cut vegetables and dip. I like my cut up vegetables and dip. Terrible views on motherhood! Addictions! Love, bombing???

It's a lot to get through, but I guess I will keep continuously chipping away at all of it.

But really, why do I not like things that seem very bad for me?

Is it better for other people in society to be that way? Is it better for other people's parents to be that way? Is it better for other people's sons or daughters to be that way? Is it better for other people's bank accounts to be that way? It just seems like it's not good. It just seems like it's thoughtless. It only seems like it's good for maybe some bank accounts and that's it, but bank accounts don't have feelings.

On the more positive note...

You're probably in a good position to figure out which rich people's kids you do or don't care about more than which poor people's kids you do or don't care about, and how you come to make those decisions.

Maybe their kids will unlearn their bad habits very swiftly.

Patriarchal Mothers are usually nicer to the  Patriarchal Daddies than they are to anyone's kids anyways.

Well, the laundry needs to be done anyway.

Recovering from all that patriarchal programming doesn't happen overnight, after all.

What? What? What did you say? The left used to love him?

"Ladies, who would have been impregnated by Elon by now if they'd sat next to him on two airplanes?"

So filled with energy and possibility.

 

"#healing vibes #cat #ranch"

coriTay This Gosh Darn Ranch

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThX2MgoB/

Sigh...

Some of you should just wear a t-shirt that says "People who didn't give birth or exactly have a life like mine are worthless pieces of s*** according to the indoctrination I received at a very malleable age, and that's why I act this way when I'm in a bad mood."

You never know what's going to happen unless you're in a weird situation yourself.

Since he has way more children now than he did a few years ago, and since the universe set it up to make it feel like Elon saved my life on a plane, I think he's capable of poisoning the planet less.

Be on the lookout.

Some people's daughters and sons might not be catering to the unwell patriarchal people for very much longer. Repeating their cruel and narcissistic ways is not kind.

Good and expressive art work!

 

"truly gave me chills #medical art"

itsclairejean

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThXYmLfa/

Maybe this will make cleaning more fun!

 


"Watch me clean a bathtub using a DIY cleaning paste"

suitelifecrystal

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThXYNceD/

I also think complaining has given my cat a very high quality of life.

Seeing as I'm not the kind who ever "knew true love as a mother." Or as a maid to Mark Zuckerberg. Or as a paid nanny to anybody I'm not related to. It's been a really, really weird time! And now, some of it is finally showing signs of being over!!!

"You shouldn't complain or you'll never have a career."

Well, what if the universe actually thinks complaining is a vital part of my career? Complain first. Avoid problems later. And learn how to make more time for self-care in the meantime.

Time to go do some laundry...

Sometimes I like reading a good gloss. Tori Amos used to treat abusive men better and call Lady Gaga "a flash in the pan." She was pretty wrong but anyways, things are getting better now!

Lady Gaga - "Paparazzi (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=d2smz_1L2_0&si=ZLMYkNy9XXIQK_Be

These are some words. These are some islands...

"Watergate Doesn't Bother Me; Does Your Conscience Bother You"

https://www.montgomeryindependent.com/opinion/watergate-doesnt-bother-me-does-your-conscience-bother-you/article_ab0faa4c-913c-44ff-8083-25d3017a6eea.html

Ta-da, this happened earlier today.

"How to Watch the 'Ring of Fire' Annular Solar Eclipse"

https://people.com/how-to-watch-the-ring-of-fire-annular-solar-eclipse-2026-11906867

Hmmm...

Susana Baca - "Negra Presuntuosa"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jRBsW4QtEHQ&si=bhLRJbItybcFkEWK

Oblivion has happened many times, many ways.

Tori Amos - "Playboy Mommy"

nothingbutmeat

https://youtube.com/watch?v=4cVw3ZS-968&si=071MZj-EDKsSMHK8

It will become mystical eventually.

Bewilderment is good because lots of people can participate and it can be a shared experience to talk about one day.

That is what the stars say, right?

The ancestors may have suffered, but it's time to make a difference on a new path.

It's just a weird time.

What if solitude is so familiar that it can never go away.

Why do humans even speak.

And another painful life experience is "Are you sure that's real?" 

So much gaslighting even by kind people, even by the nicest people, even by by the people you live with who help and take care of you.

Nevertheless, your experiences are your experiences and they are yours and they are only yours.

Just accept and appreciate that life is hard sometimes.

We had hard lives.

Wispy gray clouds in the sky at dusk.

I either feel like listening to something medieval like "Greensleeves" on a recorder or

Rodriguez - "Inner City Blues"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=fgQ-QrCFMjs&si=aOjjRrNnyESAQia5

I think this one will be in a film someday, too.

"Elisabetta Sirani Painted in Public to Prove Her Work Was Her Own"

https://news.artnet.com/art-world/elisabetta-sirani-bolognese-painter-2319366

It's kind of hard. It's like being cast out and wandering in the wilderness.

People are just going to have to get better at self-care than what got role modeled for them.

Art is so great sometimes, it makes you so

certain that people are going to get much better at cooperation and clear communication in this life that the old ways of dealing with the stressors of that life will be kaput, said the next generation of feminist Yoko Onos just kidding LOL what an anachronistic and ridiculous reference my goodness clearly nobody's going to replicate anybody or any situation that ever happened in any previous time period of Ancient History that would be entirely too extra but it was weird that I just randomly decided to pop into a coffee shop which I didn't intend on visiting and some people were talking about certain types of movies ("Past Lives" and "The Materialists") and I was like I don't know why is that happening. I didn't get anything caffeinated. Oh, maybe it's happening so that later when the mood strikes, some reviews of these movies can be dissected. Dissecting reviews of films before seeing the movie is fun sometimes.

Just wait till March.

Thoreau will be Ken Burns famous!

"Henry David Thoreau - Ken Burns"

https://kenburns.com/films/henry-david-thoreau/

This is more musical than her average post, I think.

"well... looks like we're starting from scratch"

naraaziza

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DU3ZVfVkQeU/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Auuuugh

Do you think tortoises have complicated feelings.

Did you see that New York Times article about the turtles? I mean, tortoises?

 "On the island of Golem..."

BurbNBougie: The Feral Feminist

http://youtube.com/post/UgkxJe3sW43FhCVfYaE9EIwANBRZdveENmTq?si=FF0bIiY6KdrmkIhD

Quotable:

"That can't be very good for the future of turtledom."

I should have said tortoises.

Isn't it good to know?

Health: First place. Creative Projects: 10th place.

Stop getting a grouchy shoulder blade muscle on the same side as the off and on lower back area. 

The left....

It would be hard...

 

"work in California"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThCB6j7L/

This is tragic.

"Who Was Linda Davis? Teacher Killed by Driver Fleeing ICE" - Newsweek

https://www.newsweek.com/who-was-linda-davis-teacher-killed-by-driver-fleeing-ice-11533160


Poor humans, sometimes.

Honestly, the worst thing about the bad dream I had was that when I saw violence and destruction, it was while I was in crowd of people and some of them had such a low level of consciousness witnessing these things. It was dreadful to be around them. Better to go away from those people, and try to learn what can be learned.

A really open-minded soul.

She survived really dark things and she put out a story that she wanted out there.

"Tiger, Tiger by Margaux Fragoso"| Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/8979038-tiger-tiger

Consider new ways.

You don't have other people's experiences, so if you cannot understand them, do not judge them. You can if you really feel like it, but you are wasting your time.

I am changing and choosing something better.

When I fell asleep, the dreams were low level. Getting stuck in a front of police in riot gear, in a place where I felt I shouldn't be. Seeing violence and death. But now I am awake and recovering. To choose better than that is what I can do.

I need to get better sleep.

I'm gonna rest now. 

Pagliacci! Reminded me of Smokey Robinson's music, too.

"Pagliacci // Opera Las Vegas"

https://operalasvegas.com/productions/pagliacci/

"Accomplished Soprano Cecilia Violetta LΓ³pez Named General Director and CEO of Opera Las Vegas"

https://operatoday.com/2025/05/accomplished-soprano-cecilia-violetta-lopez-named-general-director-and-ceo-of-opera-las-vegas/

"Incredible Idaho Women preview: Cecilia Violetta Lopez"

https://boisedev.com/news/2025/08/26/incredible-idaho-women-preview-cecilia-violetta-lopez/

"Does Opera have any origin in ancient Greek / Roman theatre? Or is it a creation of the Renaissance?"

https://www.reddit.com/r/AskHistorians/s/NVfMnaCkl7

Smokey Robinson & The Miracles - "The Tears Of A Clown"

I feel better tonight! I had some parsley, yesterday too.



"work in California"

Obdulia Ag


I actually  think it would be cool to have a ballet about farmworkers. 

People who normally fixate on evil billionaires might go out of their minds.

Monday, February 16, 2026

I like this peaceful 🎢 pairing.

The Welcome Wagon - "Isaiah, California (Lyric Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=q9Hks5F3JIY&si=5jyR0Qxifv2DsAbe

"Indian Summer" ~ Tori Amos

macyisarabbit

https://youtube.com/watch?v=-0VHa55TRhk&si=eURPFeVQKzR0PUE7

I probably should get tuning forks.

 It just seems like they're good to have on hand.


"Using tuning forks on the feral cat ... "

The Cat Nip Lady

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTh9uuHVn/

I had to figure out why I didn't really feel good last night, because yikes, that was terrible.

People have different perspectives on why some things happen. Lots of changes are happening right now, aren't they.

Steve Nobel

https://youtube.com/@stevenobel?si=I5hsq6_OoqlCtqxa

There's a personality that wants to enjoy the arts. Perhaps pick them apart a bit. Perhaps make fun or make light of some things. Because sometimes the energy has been so intense! And not everybody handles that energy in the same way. I can enjoy and appreciate some of it too. There are energies that really want you to be aligned with their version of love. There's ancient stuff that's still potent today and poets were really not messing around sometimes. Anyways, and then I have to focus on my health first and I don't know why things accidentally get out of balance. Hopefully things are getting more balanced. I think humans like to live in balance.

Surely my fascia could use a good meal because doesn't everyone need a good meal?

 "When you sit that way, it's bad for it."

"Oh, I was trying to do what was good for it."

I wonder if my fascia could have this mindset someday.

"Love is an exchange of energy"

pepethegingercat

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUyo1zmgTgQ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

A tale of tight fascia on the left returns.

Making me feel stupid for believing my fascia was better but if I get mad at it that's probably not going to help. So I'm just going to have to be patient and loving with my fascia.

The Emotion Code Chart tested 3A: Rejection

I don't have the book for the technique but I'm just acknowledging that's what came up in the chart. That's what I'm supposed to be dealing with?

I express, and then I feel relief?

I have to find my overdue book; I think I hid it for myself.

"12 Notes: On Life and Creativity by Quincy Jones | Goodreads"

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/56969503-12-notes

Kind of a flashy guy.  

Lesley Gore - "You Don't Own Me (Official Audio)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=OYB1rbL8EHo&si=zGaplhgOm9X5_XN5

Such flashy messages!

SAYGRACE - "You Don't Own Me ft. G-Eazy (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=8SeRU_ZPDkE&si=pvcYjVQghMNF9d8-

Just kind of fun to dip a little toe into the flashiness.

So special!!!!!

 


"Horrible things my mom said to me"

tachitheblackcat

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUyF24PEYYx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"What are we if not workers and consumers"

michellesuicomedy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DTY2L7-jRtd/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Art gets into the societal change stuff, too.

I liked how she's all like, "You Purity Leftist!" And then I saw the other one and I was like, well they seem like they could go together, so why not?

Purity Leftists

kaitlyndoespolitics 

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUzzNkQDK75/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"From the vault..."

michellesuicomedy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DUvnHbDDaWU/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Isn't this kind of fun?

Naturally I feel like the voices of some ghost  geniuses could telling me "When I want your opinion I'll ask for it." But they put their stuff out there. Why do they do it? What do they want? We want people to love you and worship you and you need to provide the content that will make them love you and worship you but then you have to stay stuck in the box of the content they're loving and worshipping so they can still love and worship you. And we can't do that anymore. Even if the words don't have to change, the energy behind the words can change. There's a lot of people laboring to put other people up on a stage to deliver messages. They're laboring right now. They've been laboring this whole time. Maybe you should start writing them some checks. Do you think you want to do that? You look like you could turn into the kind of person who's good at writing checks. I'm not good at writing checks at the moment. Maybe I will be in the future but right now I'm just getting better at saying the things I think about and expressing my opinions. So that's why I'm expressing myself. If that's a problem, who cares?

O, these are all new to me!

 “the gift that bright exults”: On the Poetry of Alice Fulton – Persimmon Tree

https://persimmontree.org/spring-2024/poetry-of-alice-fulton/

(Bones underneath the review. I said pools. I said poems.)

I wish we were better. Oh well.

Let's try to be nice to ourselves as we learn and understand and unlearn and get better.

Now I wanna know...

How I can get better at releasing old ways, too.

Hee hee. Me and my mug of warm lemon water briefly assess the landscape.

Some of the people some of you think look hot right now are just going to start looking really sad very soon if they don't start working on themselves. Best of luck! May fortune be in their favor!

Don't be fascists.

Fascia affects the lymphatic system. Maybe I'll just be quiet for a while. We'll see how long that lasts.

This sort of thing could be helpful, too.

"The Emotion Code - SO FAR SO GOOD !"

http://www.sofarsogoodtherapy.com/the-emotion-code.html

It's got a chart. That's a tool that can be utilized.

Also a happy thought.

People can get better at crying. When they're  better at crying, it helps. Anyways, that's how it seems to me right now.

Maybe it'll be fun for them to learn more about what they're supposed to learn about.

You can't really take away other people's childhood experiences. They have those experiences. They have to figure out what they're supposed to learn from them and how to heal whatever they're supposed to be healing.

This also sounds good to me at the moment.

People can make good things but like consider refining the energy and then it will be experienced differently and probably much betterly.

Kind of happier now. Thanks, lemon water!

I feel like foot reflexology could be a really good thing. Foot reflexology! πŸ’—πŸ˜ŠπŸ™πŸ»πŸ˜Ή

I'm going to get better.

I'm going to get better at being more balance so I don't have such intense, horrible experiences.

It's as if God has spoken to me herself.

It's too bad some assholes aren't more motivated to learn how to help themselves. That can change!!!!!!!

Good idea.

Brothers learning how to help themselves heal might get more popular.

Lemon water is nice.

Later.... It's been REAL. A real life. Auuuugh, oh my goodness, surely I will feel much better very soon. I need to be by myself now.

Just let old ways go.

I cried at "Why can't I ease your mind and melt your cold, cold, heart" recently.

I gotta get through this.

God help us.

Learn how to be kinder to oneself while suffering.

This too shall pass...

 Try to be much nicer to yourself. You really need it. I also really need it. Amen. Help me survive.

Auuuugh.

My body is detoxing. Please God let me feel better soon. Good luck humanity. Prayers for all humans having to deal with these physical bodies on this this incredibly challenging planet.