Saturday, October 10, 2026

I gotta get better at remembering something.

I got to get better at remembering that I need to take care of my health first. And convincing other people of the validity of my point of view or my experiences is way, way down the list compared to that. It would be good if I would really embody that as a new belief system from now on.

Well, the patio's all clean and the cat's inside now.

She brought a lizard inside right as the storm was coming on, of course. 


But the lizard is back out there now.

I'm glad I didn't miss this!



These gorgeous clouds...

 


Potato Candy! πŸ₯”πŸ˜ΉπŸ­ Sounds healthy enough to me!


Dylan Hollis - "POTATO CANDY | GREAT DEPRESSION"

https://youtube.com/shorts/6pmipEEqiVc?si=meyETjgGxigJUKpa

Henry's Kitchen 102 - "Depression Potato Candy"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=vw9O8AqNL6U&si=EKKb2CgXJADF3W0g

I feel like this could be a cooking show or a telenovela, but not a vegan one.


"Asi comienzan mis maΓ±anas"

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPLhRggJ4/

"Okay." On to the next fun project!

I just showed a guy who doesn't want to be famous a picture of a magazine cover because the magazine has his name and he was just like, "Okay," and shrugged.

I should get more into gardening. πŸŒ±πŸ‘©πŸ½‍🌾🫜

I could do some gardening in containers out on the patio. I can't plant a garden in the ground of the backyard because we don't own the land.

The food I've eaten today has mostly been vegetables.


"Macarrones con queso para mis hijos."

Obdulia Ag

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPLheQCto/

"Esta dificil..."

Arnol sandoval

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZPLhd1ERJ/

It's the afternoon already? Lost track of time.

 


"Nuggets from the Lake 🌊"

pharmsoup88

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeUJa3vPkGT/?mdxt=bTYxcmhzc2Uzd2Nv

I can tell some of my clothes are looser on me now than they were last weekend.

I think I was more into consuming liquids than eating a lot of food this week, on account of the cold...

Could this be true?

 


"patriarchy and male obsession with control and ownership is destroying us"

nikitadumptruck

https://www.instagram.com/p/Dd68-Ebt5EC/?vrfl=MWtqcTh0OTQ5b3d0aA==


I felt like this was a good one.

 


"Jaywalking is a misdemeanor"

tania_warner_lillie

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Ddmfi4ZNE31/?dlrf=bm1nenE5YjZncnd5

Crocheting on a cloudy Saturday morning with some cool music 🎢

Tori Amos - "Take To The Sky/Datura @ Berlin 2014"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=2NKR93zGR24&si=7_aVnrKVUzPsO90R

"The frog finally met his mother"

tailbitpets

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcWUwWagHTP/?mdxt=MWhjbWludjZqZ3c5ZQ==

"The face of a cat who would"

tailbitpets

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DcoXX06Ceki/?vrfl=a3lyeG45dTIwb2sy

"I built this river for my cats"

tailbitpets

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DY0SOJsgEwO/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

"Down in the River to Pray | O Brother, Where Art Thou?"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=u9cCcGIstCw&si=Esf4mjQpAHwzN97r

They're going to look like excellent grandpas & honorary grandpas, too.

I think being really honest is going to make the best brothers look like the best brothers in the long run.

Someone in the comments has cut in line before!!!

 


"Down in the River to Pray | O Brother, Where Art Thou?"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=u9cCcGIstCw&si=Esf4mjQpAHwzN97r

What did he say???

There's an awful fraternity brother detail.

"...he said 'Better not be a fatty again.'"

hopeful38

https://www.threads.com/share/BAXehKMM4d/

O the River...🚣🏽‍♀️🏞️🦫

"I told the river about you"

shelliebeanie

https://www.threads.com/share/BAYfBZQCKn/

"Blood Red River"

Beth Orton

https://youtube.com/watch?v=NfVsU9wCobs&si=GEPPFzPb4nM3H4Vn

So mighty, so humbling...

"Down in the River to Pray | O Brother, Where Art Thou?"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=u9cCcGIstCw&si=Esf4mjQpAHwzN97r

When will you be free?

Some of you "successful" guys still can't talk about the Cornell 7 because you've had friends and business partners who are too much like those fraternity guys and I feel like, I feel like...its like you guys have chains on you or something.

Older women, my brothers and sisters.

 

"You know who..."

hoodrivercabin

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeF-szUp_n6/?xtok=MXQwYTBiaG51czhjNw==

Would we look at the clouds and try to predict the weather?

Maybe we'd be really nice to each other in real life. What would we do? Would we make tea? Would we have any insights to share while talking during nature walks?

Life is a journey, & cortisol levels are involved.

 

"Part 1. Some thoughts..."

jenniferberry1

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd9y0yEyEaV/?obrf=a2QwdzJpeXhrMnQx

"Consent education can only achieve so much"

sommer.tot.hill

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd90zHasf-W/?vrfl=MzNzdW9xa2FjYWJy

"Working out harder and harder isn't always the answer with PCOS."

pcos.weightloss

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd_3S8HB1oa/?xtok=cXEwdHVpOHhieG8=


Seriously, I can tell.

I was such a man in some of my other lifetimes. It's really different now. 

Whatever, I guess my napping has messed up my sleep schedule.

I know why people get obsessed with diet and exercise. I have people like that in my family too. It's because you can control that stuff. And sometimes you can get very pleasing results.

But for me, PCOS and perimenopause have thrown a wrench into things.

I think I am going to start to try to eat a lot more vegan dishes.

"Tofu Ricotta (Quick + Easy Recipe)" | The Simple Veganista

https://simple-veganista.com/tofu-ricotta/

Unless I've been sick, like I was this week, I've been able to do weight training based workouts once or twice a week like this ever since April: 

I usually try to do exercises three times and 15 reps each time. And I was going to try to go swimming this week but the cold made that impossible. But on a good week I would have two strength training sessions and one Pilates class and some swimming and yoga. But that was on a good week. That wasn't every week. It costs money, you know.

Anyways, none of it made very much difference as far as losing weight, but it did make difference as far as feeling like I was doing something good for myself. When I was younger if I exercised more I did lose weight, but this no longer seems to be the case. 

I do have a really positive outlook sometimes.

And it's like, we can get through this. We will communicate better. We will build new things together! And all that. Embrace the inner child.

"Momo (1986) - Ave Maria"

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=03wZ8ue12N4&si=chjmoSDBScyIxLM7

Okay, now go to sleep.

By the way, do those of us who feel sensitive about SA topics seem like a different species to the more patriarchal people?

It's just a thought that's crossed my mind. I'm curious about this: "Words. Wrath.War."

🚨PSA🚨 ladies

ebonyroseout

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeRzKf6ht1N/?psln=cDJ3dHFtam96Mzlm

It's like the wild west out there, and not me necessarily in a fun way, so people need help.

"Mullin defends ICE officers after NYC shooting, blasts Mamdani for 'political theater'"

https://krcrtv.com/news/nation-world/homeland-security-secretary-markwayne-mullin-says-ice-immigration-officers-feared-for-their-lives-blasts-new-york-mayor-mamdani-over-nyc-shooting-marble-hill-dominican-oscar-belgal-child-endangered-enforcement-operation-sanctuary-policies

"Trump honors Hispanic Americans, touts Latino support at White House celebration"

https://krcrtv.com/news/nation-world/president-donald-trump-honors-hispanic-americans-at-white-house-heritage-month-celebration-administration-economic-agenda-american-dream-latinos

"Man accused of raping two 13-year-old girls set to become next chief of police"

https://krcrtv.com/news/nation-world/chris-paul-rape-charges-elizabeth-louisiana-police-chief-election-candidate-opponent-withdraws-hatch-act-ballot-rules-cincinnati-felony-conviction-eligibility-village-voters-appointment-referendum-december-safety-criminal-case-government

"American Dream costs $5.3 million in 2026, up nearly 2 million from 3 years ago"

https://krcrtv.com/news/nation-world/american-dream-costs-53-million-in-2026-up-nearly-2-million-from-3-years-ago-report-healthcare-retirement-college-bls-social-security

Your experiences teach you things about the way the world operates.

My stepfather was a man who was very into critiquing women's appearances and you should see all the bakery goods and things like that he would eat and not hardly gain any weight. 

Later, he did have health problems and some of his eating habits might have contributed to them. Anyways, he was raised with a sense of entitlement as a man. Sometimes he would use his sense of entitlement to help you, but oftentimes, it did not help very much.

Friday, October 09, 2026

I agree that forgiveness is good for people.

I think I might have to forgive my own body more; it's experienced stress and gets triggered easily. I also feel like the universe wants me to believe that I might have had illnesses that I died of in other lifetimes because my body suffered on account of stress or emotional things. So I would like to have a different and better outcome in this lifetime.

And I don't know what brainwave state it was, or how it happened.

Waking up several mornings ago and feeling like something in the universe was trying to put that projecting onto a screen technique in my head was a little bit much.

I believe they make some good points.

 


"Alright. I'm going to let you in on a little girl's secret."

richboymargarita

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeSM_IjPwmq/?dlrf=OTZvamhjaXRnam56

Dear Health Angels πŸ˜‡ and Devas and stuff πŸ‹πŸš°πŸŒ±

Please give me some guidance and insights and nudges so that I can do what's best for my own health! I think I'll start with a body scan. And then I'll see if the universe can just kind of deliver some answers to me if I have questions.

My body scan was not the most thorough, but I do think I should have more lemon water and parsley.

Some interesting dynamics going on between those two.

Looking up stuff about Hawthorne and Melville today was kind of a hoot.

Health should include respecting a variety of bodies.

I have met people who were both fatter and fitter than me before. They were usually bigger boned and had more weight on their body but it wasn't necessarily affecting their organs that much. 

I do think I have some problems and I need to heal my organs, however. I have problems because I have PCOS. But not every bigger body has the same health issues.

Also, you shouldn't pressure all people to lose weight very fast. That's a way for women to get painful gallbladder problems; they get them more than men do.

Anyways, it's time to be more calm about this pretty soon.

"'Fatphobia’ a form of oppression, says philosopher"

https://fgss.cornell.edu/news/fatphobia-form-oppression-says-philosopher-kate-manne

As far as health goes...

People could be more about send Good Vibes to human beings about healing chakras and the liver and the gallbladder and the nervous system and that sort of thing. And fall in love with vegetables and fruits. And not be so hyper fixated on the body fat percentage stuff. By the way, that really seems to be a male preoccupation. Or, I know you could find some women who are preoccupied with it too. But I just have encountered so many more men who are preoccupied with that than I have encountered women. I understand there are women who are preoccupied with it and they are online and making videos and telling us what we can eat so that we can make the fat get off our bodies and I don't want to do it. I mean I'll eat what they cook if it tastes good, but I'm tired of this culture that has been completely degrading and dehumanizing towards women and girls in so many ways and pressuring them to get skinnier and smaller is a part of a bigger problem of oppressing women, in my opinion. So I cannot get behind that at all. I feel like a lot of men seem anesthetized to those effects like they're just unphased by the damage that's being done. I am not unphased, and I am not anesthetized. I am sensitive to certain things happening to certain people in the population, and I need to know how to handle it because it doesn't just go away if it's inconvenient for other people. It's a real experience, and it's part of my life. I'm here on purpose to experience what it's like to live life in a woman's body in this lifetime, and I did not choose the type of body that the magazines put up as the ideal, and most women do not have that type of body, so I'm getting a more authentic experience that way. Thank you.

Reading about a character's struggles in stories helps people.

The merits of this book:

"The Hungry Artist: Rereading Betty Smith’s A Tree Grows In Brooklyn"

https://hudsonreview.com/2021/10/the-hungry-artist-rereading-betty-smiths-a-tree-grows-in-brooklyn/

Oftentimes, those people who put out sad songs and humorous clips really cheer me up!

I think some people really need to enjoy their shadow side via creative content...

"Holy Low" - Nadia Reid (Live @ Orange)

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jwjnTp54qL0&si=mp8oc3OsrXPI7p-k

"the maxi dress effect✨"

simplyysri

https://youtube.com/shorts/aJVYCY0I-EY?si=xrmrsCjztawpNLBG

Julia Jacklin - "Pool Party (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Z-qvTPxUlxg&si=SFqh-DALEBuaDFg5

"we’re out here surviving!😍♥️😍♥️😍"

simplyysri

https://youtube.com/shorts/1Ky1PEu_5Qg?si=mSSRzS40x6eD57jV

"tori amos father lucifer sylkscreen mix lyric video"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=6GQZH1GOf6c&si=0E26gdGkmf5C0_o3

"pls don’t expect me to be pretty"

simplyysri

https://youtube.com/shorts/pmyoH7d3mmQ?si=ycCZG8WkoBLteIxo

This is new today, but someday it'll be at least a century old, huh?

Grimes - "ACCELERANDO (Official Music Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=AVu5p2DMIf8&si=MhaySy1qB6Hn3XvQ

It's all very meaningful.

In an online class I'm taking that's deemed to be less of a rip-off at the moment. We got to read some of The Scarlet Letter this week. That was fun.

I know that's a liberating thought.

People need to process what they need to process!

Like that I'm getting over the grief cold a lot more today.

 It is quite the Mad World, sometimes.

"Mad World" (feat. Gary Jules)

https://youtube.com/watch?v=etSbOs3aUqI&si=vjU2e9bDcQQ-3HfZ

I feel good about something that the Universe wanted me to do yesterday!

I got a visual image from the universe that I was supposed to look up something about that window at The Old Manse with the words etched into it so I looked that up. 

"Discover 172-year-old poetry on the windows of this old manse"

https://www.boston.com/culture/new-england-travel/2015/05/12/discover-172-year-old-poetry-on-the-windows-of-this-old-manse/

I just skimmed that and then I spent some time outside and started to feel better. And then, I looked at my book which celebrates watercolors of fruits and vegetables and it has little recipes in it. 

And then after that I looked at the article about the old mans again and that was when I noticed the part about how Thoreau planted an heirloom vegetable garden for his friends!

"The Watercolor Feast: Learn to Paint Simple Fruits, Vegetables, and Flowers by Erin Gleeson"| Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/217111935-the-watercolor-feast

I never watched Outlander but I guess some people are saying it's become problematic lately.

Do I ever get sucked into reading the comments?

"Nicole Kidman is a PickMe & 4 Other Things"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=HIsW6syKLog&si=iQiMO-fKhW0F3SD-


Yes, sometimes.



On a more positive note...

 


"Tonight's movie: PROMISING YOUNG WOMAN"

georgehahn

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd2cm8uBOBx/?xtok=ZG1xbXJwcDgza2Vt

I know this is the past, but it was still in this Century.

"A day after meeting with Jeffrey Epstein in 2013, billionaire Richard Branson sent Epstein an email gushing about their time together.

'It was really nice seeing you yesterday,' he wrote on September 11 that year. 'The boys in Watersports can’t stop speaking about it! Any time you’re in the area would love to see you. As long as you bring your harem!'”

~ Harmeet Kaur

"Word of the Week: Jeffrey Epstein was obsessed with building a 'harem'"

https://www.cnn.com/2026/02/04/us/word-of-week-harem-cec

🎢 Relatable hearts & minds housed in skinnier bodies I was thinking of recently 😊

Saint Sister - "Blood Moon [Official Video]"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=_jfP2WiLtXM&si=2ArTNleaEH-RjbUx

Los Fabulosos Cadillacs - "Matador (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=pjPA7CXutDw&si=NVjFiRzlgnluXbPd

Siouxsie And The Banshees - "Face To Face (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=zpaqBXc5MTk&si=9nWS7W0cKArLSuIO

Tori Amos - "Yes, Anastasia (Lyrics)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=zm6m8hEg54Y&si=DSOm8gcEESCTq9Xy

Oh darn! I have not read any of these.

"Blind Ranking Books That Helped Me"

zachmentalloadcoach

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DQe5_bIDOGS/?psln=ZmphNGtmMnhzNTY1

It's good that things are improving for the butterflies...

"Migrating monarch butterflies find respite along right of way"

https://www.chicagotribune.com/2026/10/08/monarch-butterflies-right-of-way/

I didn't know there was a Cornell University building in Washington, D.C.

 


This is just a joke...

This is only a joke.

"Older sister energy ⚡"

katiheifner

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DABan3sR0zL/?cplk=MTBteXo1YnV2djV3bQ==

This is the sort of thing that kind of ruins the fun of dressing up and playing with fashion, imo.

"Focusing on your appearance increases benevolent sexism"

https://www.psypost.org/focusing-on-your-appearance-increases-benevolent-sexist-beliefs-in-both-men-and-women/

You can already find a bunch of men and women on the internet who are more feminist than what was expected by the culture you grew up with in your formative years.

People have their own timelines, and I guess if  some other people out there are satisfied with their place in the world right now, and they just want to be more feminist in some future lifetime, instead of in this one, then that's their choice.

Do you know why I think this?

You really do need to get better.

Maybe Megyn read too many rapey romance novels?

"I'm sure she's thrilled"

jacquieleemusic

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePtWLUyrC5/?srtk=MWk4amJmMmJhN25tcA==

Cultural problems.

What if I could find out the name of a certain rapey romance novel that I read at Grandma's house because her kids kept stuff there and I read their books but I never go back there anymore.

Things certainly could be better but...

"What if it's not so much that I'm mad at some people, but its more that I'm mad at the situation?

Arguably, I probably am actually mad at some people.

However, it's probably much more constructive  to emphasize being mad at the situation."

Doesn't seem like the worst thing to not be super successful for now.

All kinds of things that the more successful people used to find tolerable are starting to fall apart and that's kind of cool.


"Late night yap fest"

toninagy

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeQu-3Lu-ib/?obrf=YXd3a3I5YmhlOTA2

What can I do about my experiences?

I remember when I graduated and spent the summer by myself in a studio apartment in upstate New York. I felt like there was a playful and charming boy spirit around me. The kind of spirit who would beckon you to feel delighted and see the fun in life. That felt very real to me.

Patriarchy.

 

"Christian nationalism is teaching young men to disrespect women"

derrickfromcolumbus

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePF_OEuw1r/?exln=bDk1ZHJ3bnZobGw2

Survivors are surviving!

"Tonight's movie: PROMISING YOUNG WOMAN"

georgehahn

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd2cm8uBOBx/?xtok=ZG1xbXJwcDgza2Vt

Just seems like some people might need to take a different type of class.

"How to not gaslight girls and women, even if the patriarchal culture you were raised in really, really wanted you to and still will find ways to so totally reward you for doing so."

There's all kinds of good reasons to reject the toxic and terrible patriarchal standards foisted upon women.

 


"I forgot to mention"

georgehahn

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeyQXujIj/?vrfl=MTI3eDJ3NHFpeWhzcg==

I just don't think some people want to acknowledge how sad it is that toxic patriarchal culture thinks we're supposed to act like and look like a Megyn Kelly in order to get ahead in the stupid, violent, b******* f****** patriarchal system.

Am I supposed to cultivate a good feeling from childhood? Remember the good feelings.

Like good feelings I used to get from Christmas holidays. I know those were good feelings.

Some of the people who were around me and who were loved by me and perhaps loved me during those Christmas holidays are people who got duped into going along with others in voting for the fascist president who has created horrendous things in this country.

I don't know.

This is a challenging time to be a sensitive person.

 


"October 7th, Harrison, NJ. ICE leaves children behind to fend for themselves on the street. This is Trump's America."

release_the_brikabracken

https://www.threads.com/share/BAiP6E-V_I/

Thursday, October 08, 2026

Because then how would they be so good at sharing the wealth?

 

#jenafriedman #standupcomedy

jenafriedman

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd84JekBSag/?srtk=MWJjYnhnZW5ueGV4dw==

People have decided that it's time for the world to change.

 

"EEEEEEYUCK!!!!!!!!"

arianajasmine__

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeuAaxZCR/?exln=cDJkZnBrYW9jajdh

"What should happen..."

hilaryhendersonn

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd66TNYtRRD/?dlrf=MThueW1vZDM1aXdnZQ==

"Nobody knows..."

riotofhealing_official

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeJ7YJZRZv5/?vrfl=aWFhNXUxaXh1dG1y

And if you're tired of people talking about the same thing...

I think that there's a very real possibility that less RAPE is happening right now at fraternities all across this nation. Maybe even all over the world. Because people keep talking about this.

"What should happen..."

hilaryhendersonn

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd66TNYtRRD/?dlrf=MThueW1vZDM1aXdnZQ==

It's actually starting to feel like a really nice day right now.


A good book: 

"The Watercolor Feast: Learn to Paint Simple Fruits, Vegetables, and Flowers by Erin Gleeson" | Goodreads

Lively repose 🌎⚕️🐈‍⬛🌳


The closer you get to going outside, the more lively things start to feel. But sometimes when you're not feeling well, it's hard to get motivated to go outside.

Oh, nature is my friend!

I went outside and stood on the grassy ground with my bare feet and felt like the tree and I were on good friendly terms and then I did some of the the Donna Eden Energy Medicine routine and it felt pretty good.

I feel like I have to nap a lot.

I can't tell if I think this project looks annoying or intriguing or feminist or what.

"Eve Is Online..."

@grimes

https://youtube.com/watch?v=qglxurLB52E&si=ipvV9Haa58ZxTX-x

See?

"Discover 172-year-old poetry on the windows of this old manse"

https://www.boston.com/culture/new-england-travel/2015/05/12/discover-172-year-old-poetry-on-the-windows-of-this-old-manse/

Famously...

Megyn Kelly's story of sexual harassment was featured in a major motion picture, and she still says this s***.

EEEEEEYUCK!!!!!!!!!

arianajasmine_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeuAaxZCR/?srtk=cDJkZnBrYW9jajdh

PAY ATTENTION

 

"EEEEEEYUCK!!!!!!!!!"

arianajasmine_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeuAaxZCR/?srtk=cDJkZnBrYW9jajdh

Women who express this level of evil internalized misogyny make us all sicker, and I feel the need to express that knowledge.

She is a mother. She has a daughter. Sons. What is her problem? I am sick.

"EEEEEEYUCK!!!!!!!!!"

arianajasmine_

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DePeuAaxZCR/?srtk=cDJkZnBrYW9jajdh

I request assistance from the universe now.

I would like to be shown and helped by the universe to know what would be the optimal things I could do for my body today and in respect with its own timing and what is best for it which may or may not be similar to what other people think I should do. I am aware of this. I would like to get better at listening to the part of the universe now which knows better and can help me more.

I took a shower and I got a positive outcome.

I took a shower and I'm breathing better now. Maybe not optimally, but it does feel better. 

Looking at Energizer Bunny type stuff does not seem to make the body feel like getting well faster. I wonder why...

It's gonna be so much fun to watch this...

"What Faye From Netflix's East Of Eden Looks Like In Real Life"

https://www.women.com/2279957/faye-from-netflixs-east-of-eden-is-gorgeous-in-real-life/

I love humorous cat videos.

 


"He's a good boy"

huntermoonthecat

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKwDC6pxi3/?stkn=djQwdXZ5a3pxZ3g2

I took out the recycling!

Taking out the recycling is very important. 

Flight of the Conchords - "Business Time"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=WGOohBytKTU&si=72JVrK5vEoq7k9tz

Taking out the recycling and noticing the crescent moon and changing colors in the sky and a couple of crows at the top of a telephone pole and a rooster crowing...

πŸ’— Oh this I love. 🫢🏼

"Momo (1986) - Ave Maria"

https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=03wZ8ue12N4&si=chjmoSDBScyIxLM7

So now I'm either going to go back to sleep or I will do a meditation type thing or I will read.

I have some online library books to read as well.


"I never thought I'd wake up to the president announcing that..."

mckennafairey

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKU9Y8BpPy/?stkn=MXZhaWhhYXhzeHE1NQ==

"Since y'all don't like to leave Instagram to read..."

Memo Torres

https://www.instagram.com/p/DcmhtArD_oQ/?img_index=5&stkn=MXJlaWszbnhnbW45Mw==

"Please reach out"

izzymirez

https://www.instagram.com/p/DeH9OPQSMCE/?stkn=anZsbnppb3NvN2hw

"I need to say something"

richboymargarita

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Dd7SpRiSIJV/?stkn=dnh6Ymh5NXFkaGsx


The stuff that may or may not need to affect me actually does affect me.

It feels like the cold in my body is dragging around.

I saw some people saying that they are going to be doing more ICE surges in my state. I understand that maybe I don't really have to suffer over this, as a white American, and that a lot of people in my situation are easily able to put this kind of thing out of mind, but I am suffering over it a bit, because, I don't know. There's a lot of reasons, I guess. 

Well, maybe I experienced persecution in other lives or maybe I felt different enough in this life that I identified with people who are outsiders. 

Maybe it's because they put those Bible verses on my little baptism pamphlet about "Loving the sojourner." And I was really moved by them when I found them as an adult. My Grandma from Michigan saved a copy for me.

Maybe because she had me sing, "Red and yellow, black and white. They are precious in his sight,  Jesus loves the little children of the world."

Well, in the past, I spent a lot of my life trying to tutor and help people who are probably being affected. I was a tutor at a college but there was some stuff going on there that wasn't good and I had to leave because I was getting nightmares and I couldn't go back there anymore. 

I had nightmares that I feel were telling me that there was toxic stuff going on in the administration. And it was bad enough that I needed to not go back there because it was going to affect me if I did; it was going to affect my health very badly.

There's probably members of that administration who voted for Trump. A lot of people who are just kind of really into money voted for him.

Trump, by the way, was just recently saying that he doesn't care if this part of the United States gets bombed. 

And also some of my dreams were nightmares about bombs falling, like it was World War II or something. 

I don't know. I guess the stuff that's been going on is affecting me a bit, but it was affecting me even before he was acting that way. It's almost like I was picking up on some stuff before it happened.

So I thinking that maybe for fun, we could do some My Little Pony "Friendship is magic" stuff, okay. We could believe that we were friends in another lifetime. 

Maybe we were other kinds of things in another life too. But maybe we were friends in at least one past life. I think the universe is making me feel like I should believe that, and say so?

Because maybe we really do have some kind of soul agreement, to be affected by knowing about each other in this time. 

Maybe I don't logically know why I believe this, but it's what my feelings are telling me.

And I wish the cold would stop dragging around. It's really dragging. But it's the early in the morning, so it might feel better in the afternoon.

Oh, and maybe I think some of the souls who were a part of Anne Frank's experience are kind of like on my team, too. Sometimes I think that. I think they are. They're in the spirit realm and they're on my team. 

I feel like something in the Universe is smiling when I say that, because it's true.

Wednesday, October 07, 2026

I believe in good things to come.

Actually, I believe being able to dive more deeply into the difficult things really will pay off for a lot of us in the in the end. 

People will be able to help each other out more and create more things in the future.

Patience and timing and pacing...I am smiling.

And for me, I keep getting this song in my head again for some reason:

Tori Amos – "Pandora’s Aquarium Lyrics | Genius Lyrics"

https://genius.com/Tori-amos-pandoras-aquarium-lyrics

I think it helps.

I wish this was not happening. This looks so bad to me.

Who voted for random guys to just be able to kidnap a woman at an airport because they wanted Trump to boost their bank accounts?

"A disturbing scene at LAX"

defiancedispatch

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DeKCMrpgKEC/?stkn=MW1uM2cxODZ3dWc2cw==

Well, maybe when I get done with my other reading.

I can look up books by Florence Scoville Shin and stuff.

"Florence Scovel Shinn" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Florence_Scovel_Shinn

Universe really encouraged them to get creative with this one.

"‘Run Ben Run’ puts a queer, absurdist spin on Benjamin Franklin" - Philadelphia Gay News

https://epgn.com/2026/09/28/run-ben-run-puts-a-queer-absurdist-spin-on-benjamin-franklin/

People can be very eccentric, but sometimes it's fun.

"The Rich Think You're Jealous. The Science Says You're Not."

Barry's Economics

https://youtube.com/watch?v=mt0jf2VdCdQ&si=7E42w6SZ2oR3tq0C