Anyways, we should focus on peace and love and joy and rehabilitation and stuff like that, right?
Friday, July 03, 2026
This will not go unnoticed.🤡
Conan is being terrible. He was super polite in person, though. Almost ridiculously nice, actually. All by himself in the woods. Well no, not all by himself. He had his daughter with him.
This looks interesting, about how Texas is requiring the Bible be taught in schools now.
🧑🏻🏫🧑🏻🏫🧑🏻🏫
"Texas forces English teachers to teach the Bible"
@sims_books
It has been really hard on humanity.
People got trained to be very incurious abandoners of girls and women in service to their patriarchal cults. And I need to learn how to set better boundaries with people like that. But of course they're very familiar to me because they are so much like the family I grew up with.
The family I grew up with was basically indoctrinated into that kind of cult-like, terrible thinking too. When you're a little kid, you get taught that you're supposed to try to win the approval of these people. You're supposed to want to be like them.
But if you have any desire to be yourself, it's not going to work, and it's never going to happen because you're in the wrong kind of body for these people. You're not in the boy's body. You're in the girl's body.
You're supposed to be submissive and easily impregnated and let the man be in charge and the head of the household and everything. But you were never good at any of those things!
So you are never ever going to win the approval of people who are in the grasp of a patriarchal cult. It is never going to goddamn f****** happen. Why do you think you got smacked across the face just for opening your mouth? How can you be such a threat to someone who's several times bigger than you in a masculine body when you're a 6-year-old girl?
Why do you think we have such hideous people running the government right now trying to make all these rules and oppress people by locking them away. Oppressing women's and girl's bodies, too.
And oh, on top of that, a bunch of the people who are supposedly the better people, they're in the cult too, and they're just trying to pretend everything's fine and throw parties.
You guys are terribly, terribly sexist, screwed up, imbalanced people. It's not okay. You are messed up. You need f****** help; you just don't know how to ask for it or acknowledge that you need help, because you've been indoctrinated into this cult since you were a tiny child.
Acting like you are okay with not caring that people who are less fortunate than you and their small children are being persecuted by the state is not well. You are not in a healthy state of mind. You're on the drugs of your cult. So, I don't trust you. You need to figure out how to get better ASAP.
You're probably going to reincarnate and come back as one of those kids that you act like you don't care about in the next life. You need to figure it out. Stop being a tool of the Patriarchal cult! There are better ways to exist on this planet! You can make new friends, too!
I'm sorry about my tooth and my gnawed on fingers.
Physical violence does not give off a very high vibe. Maybe I'm the kind who could do some karate chops on tense trapezoid muscles. It could be very good for humanity, if you take the long view. I'm not in preschool, getting banished to the corner because I didn't like the way some kid grabbed at my shirt and I got scared and I scratched his face and drew blood but I had no words to explain myself. I am not an older child on a playground punching the kid who wants to kiss me in the nose and making it bleed because he already got too invasive in my space and my body and I'm sick of it. Maybe this is why our parents agreed to make me have a supervised sleepover at his house and thereafter we were much nicer to each other. I am not a third grader accidentally stabbing a different boy in the forehead / third eye area with a pencil because we're in an argument, getting a lecture about how pencil lead can cause blood poisoning (it didn't though) and then later, on another day, getting asked by him to go skating around a roller rink holding hands for some reason. (We had been off and on friends at school for a few years, and I was about to move far away.)
I have to take care of this somehow.
I've been upset. People were callous. They were not sensitive. They did not see what was happening. They did not want to know. They preferred to be in denial. They did not want to acknowledge the harm. They preferred to turn their backs. They preferred to abandon and to pretend it was okay.
I don't think the calluses on the fingers were too extreme.
But I feel like the tooth injury was too extreme. Too extreme! Why? Why so extreme? I feel like a puppet. I feel like the aliens are manipulating me and making me into a performer and I deserve a better life now.
In conclusion...🌝
"Moonstruck" has shown me that maybe The Patriarchy should make more men lose their hands, if it would give them more time to reflect on their choices and actions and decisions and thought processes.
I want the aliens to stop being so sexist. 🛸
Also, I think what he really loved was whining about how he lost his hand.
Moonstruck (7/11) Movie CLIP - "Snap Out of It (1988)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=iLgMFwStTHc&si=RYtnfjmGwDnFgUsp
Sure. It's mean that she slapped him, but it's like, his teeth in his mouth were still intact and everything.
Moonstruck (5/11) Movie CLIP - "Ronny Lost His Hand"
Me too! Gosh, these are mean times.
Do you ever think that white men are at a higher risk of hating the daughters and sisters and mothers, based on your own personal experiences? Also what's up with that anti-immigrant Armie Hammer film that Elon Musk wanted everyone to watch? I don't trust that s*** at all.
Yeah, gotta be something better going on than that.
What if they get bored of acting like tools of the Patriarchy and of abandoning themselves and others?
Of course, that's just the lower point of view. The higher point of view will come back again.
I feel like if it weren't for two good people in my life and my cat, I would be dead by now.
I feel like when more people start to care enough to change, the number of good people I know will also change in a more favorable direction.
This is appalling! 😱
"War on Women Report: Trump Administration Defines Embryos as ‘Children,’ Eliminates LGBTQ Veteran Healthcare *and* Guts Teen Pregnancy Prevention Programs" - Ms. Magazine
Can you believe that a bunch of parents of daughters and sons are still just going along with this nightmarish b******* I mean, can you actually f****** believe it.
What do you think the daughters should do to deal with the patriarchal jerks? 👩🏿🎓🧑🏼🎓🧑🏾🎓
You know, the ones who act like tools of the Patriarchy, and they are constantly threatening their bodies and psyches and well-being and putting them at a disadvantage all the time and putting them at risk for even worse treatment and constantly dehumanizing them. Stuff like that. It really sucks! What do you think the daughters should be doing? Do you have any suggestions?
I mean, clearly, most of the fathers don't want to do s*** in a lot of cases. So, what should the daughters be doing? By the way, I'm happy to report that some helpful fathers are the exception to the rule and maybe their numbers will grow rapidly. Like, if they could grow a lot in numerical proportion today, that would be super cool.
Be mindful of the soup spoons, by the way.
If you ever have to get through the weekend with an injured front tooth, the idea of eating soup sounds good, but then there's that big metal spoon you have to watch out for. It's actually better to cut up food in small bites and put them at the back of your mouth.
Sadly, it's too late for that in some cases, but anyways.
I don't think grown men should smack little girls on the face as punishment for having a "fresh mouth" when they speak up.
I do not understand what you guys expect the daughters to do.
I do not understand what you guys expect the daughters to do.
Or maybe I just don't want to know because it's hideous.
Ugh.
Please don't make me lie to myself to tolerate your presence.
Are the Starseeds going to help me with my medical bills for my tooth?
I can't believe I had suffer the mouth injury to myself just because that's how horribly intense the pressure from The Patriarchy gets when they want me to not tell them what a bunch of sexist oppressive loser assholes they're still being. Ugh! Girls and women and men and boys clearly deserve so much better! Now of all times! Of all the times to keep on clinging to the bad programming! Right when all these other people are starting to make changes!
You know the part!
"Danielson: a Family Movie (2006)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=qpaJuie1N6g&si=BnYj383MkWhVCmZD
I will admit, I did not react very well to the controlling, patriarchal, misogynistic part of this one.
Some thing's going on with my heart.
💗 Just another revived female disciple of the Cosmic Mother...🎶
😊 my gosh, I love that idea! ❤️
🌈I hope some people are feeling more encouraged to dive deeper and get into a much deeper level / layer of healing. ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
I feel like I deserve a more fun dream now☔.
Me and the other women who got outcast by the rigid personalities of the repressed patriarchy can have a fun picnic! I deserve that. Maybe some men can come too. If they're cool.
Like it's really natural and everything.
Maybe you can cultivate the wine of friendship with the people who are already considering bigger portions of humanity and doing better things and then it'll feel more okay for you to be able to consider bigger portions of humanity and do better things.
I'll say what I think it means when you want things to get better.
It means it already exists somewhere in the universe. It's already happening; some people already doing it somewhere. So if the people you wish were doing it aren't able to do it right now, you can find some other people, and they can do it.
You know what I think people who are desperate and have medical needs really could benefit from?
The fine wine of friendship! Not "I shall baptize ye and ye shall perform according to my wishes."
Not that!
Medical needs can make people desperate!
That's a big lesson. I'm learning it. That's a really big one!
Anyways, these are desperate times. What is with all of this privileged people being too cool to care about what's happening with others b*******.
Like all these people who would have ages ago acted like they cared about this and that happening to certain groups of people. They're just too burnt out now, and they just can't care?
I feel like mixing caring about others with self-care could be a way forward, right?
You could talk with people about how you care, and then, if you're stressed, you could take care of yourself by taking a walk and staring at a lake and becoming one with nature again.
I probably need to go to sleep. That's probably an important part of self-care too.
I have to rinse out with mouthwash a lot right now.
I'm disappointed. Even though I did have a cheerleader in my corner telling me not to be down on myself, it sucks. It sucks that this happened with my tooth. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It sucks. It really sucks a lot. It sucks so much. I am so upset. I have to get that out of me. Maybe if I can get that out of me, maybe tomorrow I'll feel more at peace. Because I have to live with it over the weekend. So there's that.
What about...
What about if I just spew a bunch of words everywhere and somebody else take can look at it and be like oh if you take this part and this part and this part and this part that could be something or that could be part of a song that could be some songs? What about that???
I gotta figure out what to do with the information I've collected!
Anyways, I did also have some positive experiences with Christianity, mainly through Vacation Bible School as a kid, because there were crafts and games and picnics and cakewalks and a "fishing pond" where you could get toys on the other end of the fishing pole after you threw the line over the screen, and sawdust pile where you could dig up coins, and a pinata, and releasing balloons up into the sky, oops, sorry that was probably bad for the environment, but it looked pretty, and my grandma was the one who ran the Vacation Bible School program, and my grandma was also the one who drove by a field where a migrant worker was laboring and she said that sometimes other people do this but to not say bad things about Mexicans because they work very hard and she knew because she worked very hard too when she was growing up on the farm and only completed 8th grade and had to stay home and work and they used to call her horse because she worked so hard and that wasn't funny, and she really liked children. And she like to encourage creativity in all ways, especially with children, and you know she had five of her own kids and she was a lot different from me. But anyway, she was an influence on me. And I feel like in the church I went to, Jesus always looked brown and tan, although maybe in a more Caucasian way. And they taught us to sing "Red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in his sight, Jesus loves the little children of the world." It's a real song, but it feels like lots of people aren't really living by that message very much these days!
I feel like there's been some trade-offs.
Of course, having a life where it felt like you were not very "successful" according to the standards of the patriarchal society can be quite difficult, especially when it's accompanied by physical and emotional pain and suffering. But it encourages you to be reflective, because you're like, "Why am I still even here," and then you get reflective. "Am I here to keep on learning certain lessons, and I'm supposed to share some of this knowledge with others or something?" Being reflective is not a bad quality for humans to have.
I mean, this is just one point of view...
I can imagine that this seemed like a very loving family. And it was sort of amusing to see, but...
"Danielson: a Family Movie (2006)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=qpaJuie1N6g&si=BnYj383MkWhVCmZD
What's up with the part at the beginning credits with the animated graphic (around 4:25) where it looks like the guy is like "I baptize you, now suck my dick." That's what it looks like!
Thursday, July 02, 2026
I actually feel like I'm getting more new musical knowledge, too.
People really do go into trances sometimes. Don't they, when they're listening?
I always felt fascinated by the Tale of the Pied Piper tale at the Frankenmuth Glockenspiel.
I was entranced by it, way more than the average child probably.
I'm going to have to ask God / Cosmic Mother again. What is my purpose on Earth now?
Something to do with literature maybe?
These came from the house in Michigan.
I guess I would like to see it again someday.
Knowledge is certainly something to be grateful for.
The knowledge that I'm getting pretty tired of feeling like my Cassandra Canary in Coal Mine status is limiting me is even more apparent to me now.
Well I guess I have to thank God or the Cosmic Mother for her Divine guidance in a time like this.
I will pray right now.
Please give me healing and protection.
Please shows me wisdom and truth.
Please help me survive.
Please help me find joy and truthful people.
Please help guide me to go the way I'm supposed to go, the way that truly serves my higher purpose.
Please help me remember to know peace and blessings are for all.
Not just for a favored few in a Patriarchal Society.
A survivor of a certain kind of childhood would like to know this.
Why are the white people and the rich people so great at ignoring what's happening to the other children? Why? How does that show love? And all those Christian Trump voters, you can't get them to act like they care! But what's even worse is even the people who say they are against Trump are acting like they don't care too!
Why is so much of Christian culture so bad for women and girls?
"Christianity in a nutshell"
exodus_bros
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaPGMUoI42M/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Really.
We need to find real brothers and friends as The Patriarchal Society is collapsing. Real ones that have courage and can look at what's going on and can look at how it has affected them too. And they can actually talk about it, too.
Just imagining something like this was going on.
"Just chew on that finger a little harder and you'll be forced to tell the truth."
I need to focus on something better though.
My sister had a good day and she was born today and she told me I did not do anything wrong and she gave me compassion and comfort. She's been through a lot. She knows The Patriarchy has been very bad to us.
May the knowledge that comes make things better!
Just because the Patriarchal Society lets you live a lie doesn't mean everyone gets to live in that lie.
You just need to know it though.
You can be a good and gifted person and be brainwashed by The Patriarchy. But you do not seem to know it.
Oh Brothers, how can you live like this?
The Patriarchy has trained men to cater to it, and it rewards them for being servile to the Patriarchy. By the way, that clip about the transorbital lobotomies that used to be performed on housewives was just insane. And I also really thought more people would know how to act better when abusive people got put in power. And what they're doing to the daughters of this country is terrible.
"Replying to @mechanicsofhuman"
elevatemohio
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaTvbF8RNfL/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
The Patriarchy has been absolutely insidious with its medical misogyny.
I grieve. And I am seeing how horrific things are and have been for a lot of people.
I took these in a thrift store before I found out that I was going to have to wait until next week to get my messed up tooth looked at.
Today was too upsetting. 😭
"Colonialism creates lost people."
Things are not okay. I feel completely shattered. I can survive, but it's been a very upsetting day.
"white people please learn"
Jade Kendle
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaQyzNtv6Ts/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Replying to @mechanicsofhuman"
elevatemohio
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaTvbF8RNfL/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"The best career advice for women is actually dating advice unfortunately."
amandalitm
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaTKz8Upvpz/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I feel a little bit better about thinking about it this way.
Actually, if you're a man and you inherited a situation that really messed with your heart and psyche a lot, plus you got exposed to all of these patriarchal messages, and also you probably got rewarded more for going along with his patriarchal messages, if you can heal from those things and be a better friend to women and girls, that is a very very significant development for humanity, especially if you're one of those people that other people look up to and stuff.
I think some things have been orchestrated on another level and we have to respect the life purpose more.
We've chosen to go through some hard things in this life and we really have to hold each other to a higher standard and we have to put something like friendship or being something spiritual first. Otherwise, things are just going to feel too terrible. But if we are smart, then they don't have to feel terrible. They could feel like we're helping each other instead. Healing those wounds that got triggered from childhood experiences is important.
Oh my gosh, I just got this. Really interesting image.
I got the image of a child, a girl at a table, collapsing in tears and telling a grown up woman about something that really upset her and the woman was quite pretty and she was wearing a suit jacket and it was red, white and blue striped. And she was going to get up and talk to the people who had upset the girl.
Actually, yes, this might be spiritual.
Robin William's last movie was "Absolutely Anything." He is the voice of the dog. Maybe he can help the people I cannot because helping them is truly beyond me. They really have to want to help themselves, though. You know secure people don't have to act out so much and behave weirdly when they get criticized for being jerks because the patriarchal system shaped them to feel compelled to be so needlessly mean to others. I don't care if that's what they saw role modeled around them when they were growing up. It's not an excuse.
Spiritual schmiritual.
"Why do you still have so many things to improve about yourself? Why? Why? Why? It's always a reminder around the corner..."
I went to such a nice place in my mind, and then
Shhhmaaash.
I cannot believe that I will get nothing out of this.
You know what it actually makes me kind of sad to think that maybe I can't do anything with my story in this life; I just have to sort of like, live it, and record it, and then later someone else is going to like make something out of it after I'm gone. That's not fair. I should get something out of it while I'm here.
I'm being told that some of this is silly and some of this is really funny.
In a sisterly way.
"Absolutely Anything Official UK Trailer #1 (2015)"
Can't ignore it.
Here's the dark side:
Contributing to a woman being in a time of need, and then abandoning a woman in a time of need, is a very, very, very lousy way for a man to act, no matter what hardships he experienced in his own life. And apparently, it kind of feels like the universe is saying that wasn't adequately addressed or made up for her enough!
Maybe I just need to get it out of my system now.
My sister did not want me to be down on myself and I should try not to be. I am super upset though, about the dental thing. I am so upset.
People really do need to heal. Like have the motivation to truly truly truly heal.
I feel like today was really messed up. The kind of messed up that says, "Maybe this actually saved you from being more messed up."
The times are simply too tough.
I guess being more like siblings fighting is the best option now. If anything.
Well, chin up.
Well, at least I can still read about the totally fictional character of Roger in my Melusine book.
Behold, she actually acts like she cares.
"Debbie Wasserman-Schultz pays surprise visit to ICE headquarters in Miramar" - CBS Miami
What's this? Wow, he's so amazing! What an amazing rich white man! Because he doesn't fly on a private jet!? Oh my God!!!
"Conan O'Brien avoids private jets because he'd rather 'chat up the people at the TSA'"
It's honestly so painful. I want it to be more funny now.
"Abandoned Woman and That Guy Who Set Me Up to Work the System."
I don't understand why this seems like the best option possible.
I don't understand why you have to warp your talents for connecting and making a difference by acting like an untrustworthy and insensitive tool of the Patriarchy. I don't understand why it's so tempting. Maybe it would be cool if a project could get created to make some of us understand why it's so tempting for some Brothers to keep going back that way again.
You know who I think is much nicer to me than emotionally immature men who got warped by The Unwell Patriarchical Ones?
Sisters who have been through things, that's who. Also, there are some brothers who are doing better than the others. Maybe find some. Because listening to sisters does not seem to be your forte.
We just have to be grateful that our sexist, shallow, emotionally immature brothers aren't as bad as these ICE thugs right now!
Such a low bar has been set by The Patriarchy!
"ICE thugs kidnap over 10,000 immigrants in five days as White House orders worksite raids" - World Socialist Web Site
https://www.wsws.org/en/articles/2026/07/03/xntz-j03.html
Surely, some other people are out there who would like to grow as human beings.
If you actually want to grow as a person, I think you need to address all the times you've been led into repeating the old patterns of abandoning people, acting like certain types people are unimportant, acting like you have to go along with a patriarchal mindset, etc., etc., etc. Because otherwise, you're just going to do it again.
I'm very tired of the constant reminders of how much the Patriarchy carelessly disrespects people and abuses its power.
And I don't want to have to go through an entire weekend with this damaged tooth now. I just needed a little stress relief. Why did it have to end up with an expensive dental injury as a result???
They're just serving as a distraction to continue the agenda of the patriarchy.
People who have been rewarded for being abusive are being the worst right now. They're not good at having empathy for others. They're being horrible.
This is why I like cats, because they're not passive sponges soaking up sexism and then repeating those old attitudes again.
Time to appreciate a cat, cuz cats know how to not get warped by mean, patriarchal attitudes.
Maybe this is why people can come back and have multiple types of lives though?
It's also weirdly sad and disappointing when people use praise from others as an excuse to just stay in an arrested state of development and not grow as a human being.
Like sponges! Soaking in all the sexist attitudes.
I need to go think about something else. I've already done enough damage to myself today.
You could be a lot more sisterly and brotherly. Friendly.
Such high forms of love! Sister Lee and Brother Lee and Friend Lee are our role models now. Figure it out. Motivate yourself somehow. Stop saying "I love the planet" and starving it of nutrients.
What have you been imitating?
"I need to imitate the Patriarchal men who needed to imitate other Patriarchal men."
Is that really as high as you can go?
How about a project based on the pattern of "Actually, the patriarchy didn't emotionally equip me to fully recognize the humanity of lots of kinds of people. I'm a fragile person, and I must manipulate my reality in certain ways in order to get some kind of self-esteem boost. And as I prop up the ones that our imbalanced Society deems most important, the other, less fortunate people will inevitably fall by the wayside."
Well, what's the next step then?
I'm starting to feel like the "They actually abandoned other people, but they said other people abandoned them," phenomenon is very real.
Somebody taught you to do that.
Mistreating parts of yourself because that's what the unwell Patriarchy wanted you to do. And then that means like you have nothing left over if you see somebody else who is in need, and you have to abandon others in order to pursue distractions.
Abandonment of the less fortunate and growing income inequality. Where is the love.
I think some people are ashamed of their choices and they don't want to talk about it. They find all kinds of little reasons and distractions to keep avoiding others. I don't understand how things are going to get better if that's what everybody does.
And I can be grateful that I don't have to have dental work done in an ICE facility.
This story was horrific:
"Medical examiner: Arizona ICE detainee's untreated tooth infection killed him" | Arizona Mirror
It really boggles the mind, what's going on right now.
I know, we live among people who have suffered many personal tragedies, but if you can't see when you are mistreating parts of yourself by abandoning others, that's sad and not a very high level of "love." I think friendship is supposed to be a higher level of love.
And next, you can imagine the opposite.
Because that's what a lot of humanity is experiencing right now.
Imagine that!
Imagine people meeting you when you were younger, and you meeting them. And then when you got older, you looked at each other and you were like, "Oh that's such a nice person! What a pleasure it was to have met them when I was younger, and what a pleasure it is to know them now!"
Sisterly!
We also talked about how the younger generations seem less sexist, less weird about weight and more into feminism, compared to people our age and the older people. Maybe they're shedding some of these old horrible beliefs that will no longer be serving humanity. Well, they never did serve humanity that well, did they?
Sometimes you have to take a fresh look at your problems.
Even though insurance won't cover it, maybe we'll try hypnosis! Medical bills? What can you do? I guess they just happen, too, sometimes. Anyways, the attitude here is not totally somber; it's all right. Stuff happens. Let's get on with life.
I hope that as humanity evolves, the love of human beings' health and well being as an important part of nature will get more apparent to people.
I'm also glad there are musical gifts out there. It doesn't actually fix your life or anything, but it's nice to have the ability to enjoy the musical gifts. I listened to this whole album for the first time yesterday. Listening to it again soon, probably.
"Illinois"
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Illinois_(Sufjan_Stevens_album)
Musical gifts come to the Earth and show us that people can have the intention to help and heal and improve and grow and create better things. It's good to know that.
Our little life tragedies could take us to another level. You never know.
I sense that there are good people who have gotten quite a bit of praise for their talents, and they've absolutely deserved it, and yet they are still rather insecure. Even having a lot of people recognize them and praise their talents did not necessarily mean that they got all better because of it. So, that's something interesting to notice, too.
Let's remember to figure out how to have more fun and get better!
People really do seem to have a lot of funny, harsh attitudes and stuff when it comes to girls and women though. But I suppose they also have funny, harsh attitudes when it comes to boys and men, as well.
People can be good. Let's focus on healing.
What else can be done? Sometimes things happen that are traumatic and it changes you as a person. We are here on Earth. We are learning how to heal. We are learning how to help each other. We are learning how to love; and cultivate lots of different forms of love.
My sister wants me to not be hard on myself. She kept saying "You didn't do anything wrong. You didn't do anything wrong." Yes I got stressed out and I chewed on my finger but I didn't on purpose makes stuff happen that's going to be costly.
I said, "You are a good sister. Thank you for being born. Happy birthday!"
I'm going to ask for help that was difficult to obtain in the past.
I'm going to call my sister because she's been through more extensive therapeutic treatments and I'm going to ask her what kinds of things she learned about coping mechanisms when you're trying to overcome something that's about self-harm.
It was recommended that I can push fingernails into fingers instead.
We don't have good insurance. Our insurance never covered counseling because of the deductible.
The hedge fund company gave us the bad insurance. It hasn't been adequate for me.
Women's Health is suffering in this country.
It will be such a blessing when people prioritize healing and friendship over everything else
People are suffering. I'm going to have to eat soft food and take extra care over the weekend and get in touch with the specialist on Monday. The insurance has been used up. There will be several visits probably to fix this problem. The weaker tooth will break first and be more expensive to repair. This is sad. People who see me in real life are sad for me, I know. It's really going to have to be a wake-up call for me. This was sad. We are struggling. Healing and friendship is more important when people are struggling.
The Patriarchy is very bad to particular bodies.
The Patriarchy is misogynistic, shallow, cruel, selfish, insensitive, and it damages lives too many lives way too much. I truly wish it were not so, but this is the message. I am continuously reminded that it's too f***** up. Always some physical repercussions, somehow. And financial. And psychological. And emotional. It's just ruthless. I can't pretend it's okay. I have to figure out how to take care of myself better, since I cannot deal with the ruthlessly selfish, sexist, insensitive, patriarchal people at all right now.
I was having a nice time, or trying to.
Once again, the imbalance was just too much. Now I have to pay for it. Again.
I am ruined. My crown. I need to pay for another one again.
I feel this is too painful. I'm trying to save my clothes. I should have just chewed on my clothes. They're cheaper than another crown!
It's my sister's birthday. I sent her three shirts two I used to wear and one I got is a buy one get one free.
Well of course, I have to read this one, too, now!
"Though I have always loved the landscape of Greece and felt connected to sea and sky in powerful ways, it is only recently that I have begun to look closely at the land and what moves and grows upon it. My interest in bird watching has made me attentive, not only to individual birds but to their seasons and preferred habitats."
~~~~~~
" The more I become grounded and centered in the land, the more passionately I desire to save it as a place where human and non-human life can flourish in beauty."
~ Carol P. Christ
"The Serpentine Path"
Sage Woman, No. 60, Winter '03
Page 64
I always wanted to go on one of her trips to Greece, but I could not afford it.
"Carol P. Christ" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Carol_P._Christ
In "Sage Woman" Number 60, Winter of 2003, she wrote an article called "A Serpentine Path."
How old fashioned.
"Oh, looking the other way when there's a domestic violence problem because the paycherokee didn't give you enough tools."
What should I eat for breakfast? Not the king's pizza.
"I really think people need to read more."
tetanyawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaSm3kEglmW/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I had a dream I was talking with a woman and we were sitting in a Nature preserve together.
She was pointing at people who were kind of partying and trashing up the Nature preserve and she was saying "This is a lot."
Then we started talking about how maybe maybe the way people were treating the Nature preserve was a reflection of how we treat ourselves sometimes.
Then we started making snarky jokes about others and ourselves, too. It was funny. The dream ended with snarky joke laughter.
I'm starting to feel like the "hatred of poor people" element of patriarchical culture is getting really out of control in multiple ways, and this is just one manifestation.
"ICE Arrests Immigrants at New York Courts, Flouting Federal Judge Order"
https://theintercept.com/2026/07/01/ice-court-order-arrests/
Treating the ones who are struggling badly is not impressive and is not really higher level creative thinking.
"An ICE detainee sought treatment for mental illness. He died in a struggle with guards." - The Washington Post
What is wrong with people?
"Immigrant Arrests Surge to 10,000 in 5 Days as ICE Clamps Down" - The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/07/01/us/politics/ice-immigrant-arrests-surge.html
Could be almost like another lifetime ago.
I was living by a pond
Working on some reading tests
The Moorings
"Come On! Feel the Illinoise! Part I: The World's Columbian..."
S. Stevens et. al.
Wednesday, July 01, 2026
'Cause of my puzzle that came yesterday! 😹
Sufjan Stevens - "Casimir Pulaski Day [Sub Español+Lyrics+Live]"
@etzieslove
I might make myself watch this because I am getting tired.
If the frocks are the best part, it will not be a surprise.
"SNARK WEEK RECAP: The King’s Favorite aka Diane de Poitiers (2022), Ep. 2, Pt. 3" – Frock Flicks
https://frockflicks.com/snark-week-recap-the-kings-favorite-aka-diane-de-poitiers-2022-ep-2-pt-3/
Forced marriage to a minor vibes.
How is the population still so hypnotized by such disgusting old man vibes.
Loud, bottom of the cup, straw-sucking sounds
Apparently, some of us haven't outgrown first grade.
"Did the Nazis or high ranking SS officers really..."
https://www.reddit.com/r/AskHistory/s/UZ0iI2pnKA
And yet, it's still an improvement???
"Turns out me and Conan are the same person."
@teamcoco
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZny6_fME2t/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
He was pretty tolerant of Elon too, wasn't he?
"SNL': Conan O'Brien Calls Elon Musk a 'Dream Guest' for the Show" - Business Insider
https://www.businessinsider.com/snl-host-elon-musk-dream-guest-conan-obrien-2021-5
I'll bet he could be making much better uses of his bad sides. He's really underutilizing them.
"Sona doesn't understand why...."
teamcoco
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaOZIKYDc5I/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Have a weird day." 🧁🎭🍨
"Music Room ft. Kurt Vile" | Portlandia | Season 8
https://youtube.com/watch?v=U2o6oF3KDt4&si=ZZk6LaTi1B1WnPQm
"Googly Eyes Gardener" - Saturday Night Live
https://youtube.com/watch?v=zc7qJE9Nzo8&si=2GcAB1gxajLZG9s3
S.S. ft. Gallant - "Hotline Bling"
Jon Uleis
They're silly! 🌈☔🌊⛈️🏖️💐
"Buy this puzzle to cheer yourself up," they said.
"Don't notice that it's it's more about Stanley Casimir Pulaski than it's about the 4th of July until July 1st'' they said.
I'm going to drink some tea today and think about what we can do to help balance the Earth.
It feels like a good idea.
"The tea about British tea"
theantiyogishow
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZsSxBhAqP-/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Please think about this carefully..."
seemaanandstorytelling
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXhJ__YEVHl/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Oh my gosh!
There are other aunties out there, aren't there?
"Listen to your Auntie"
carsieblanton
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaNled8xkbM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"I'd still like to know..."
megan_xcx_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZtQI4dss8o/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Did you ever wonder..."
faravazmusic
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaLMAIesB3m/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Best of humane healthy behavior to US!
"Jesus loves the little children...🎶"
🫶🏻❤️🫶🏼💛🫶🏽🖤🫶🏾🤍🫶🏿
"Hope this helps 😀"
nathan_ing
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaQEvuDhkz2/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"If this is your vibe..."
soulcareforfamilies
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaJ5bctODJr/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"While my family was ordering schnitzel..."
localfocusllc
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaGSwMeJg8d/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"These fantastic graphs that I've used here come from Inequality.org"
pastorpauldrees
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ-qZanDPXa/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
So, people are blaming immigrants because wealth concentration today is worse than in The Gilded Age.
That's SO mean to SO many children in this country. And also mean to grown-ups. And people who should be acting more like grown-ups, but they don't know how to, I guess. So some children are probably picking up the slack for these childish adult-bodied people right now.
"These fantastic graphs that I've used here come from Inequality.org"
pastorpauldrees
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ-qZanDPXa/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I've fallen, and I have picked myself up.
🕳️🦵🏻🧎🏻♀️🛐 🎭👣🩴🌊🏖️⚕️⭐
"Uhh... what???"
harryjsisson
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaO2VgPuoxW/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Or, do I stand corrected?
"Buffalo, New York also acknowledges a "Pulaski Day," which is held in the middle of July, and is celebrated with an annual parade."[8]
"Casimir Pulaski Day" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casimir_Pulaski_Day
By Buffalo games? Lol.
Today can have some good things about it, just like yesterday did.
Yesterday I sent a birthday present in the mail and this puzzle got delivered and I'm really excited to work on it over the holiday. And actually, this puzzle really goes with the weather because, I just noticed that stuff about Casimer Pulaski, and the June gloom extending into July outside is making it feel more like March!
"Lady Liberty's Independence Day..."
Well, the silly June gloom has carried over into July after all.
To honor my very odd dreams...
"Lewis and Clark's friend Sacagawea" meets the "I'm Not Bad Right?" guys.
"Lewis and Clark's friend Sacagawea" | Portlandia Clip
https://youtube.com/watch?v=OXVxK6JOyM8&si=bWkDV2eyMKA4xLYL
I'm Not Bad, Right?" | Portlandia | Season 8
You're making Mazola cooking oil suffer!
"US cooking oil market shrinking due to ICE pressures on Latino households, Mazola owner says" | Food & drink industry | The Guardian
Waking up...
"What A Girl Wants" meets "Don't Wait On Me"
WHITE CULTURE
"What a Girl Wants (ft. Sabrina Carpenter - Live)"
Christina Aguilera
https://youtube.com/watch?v=E2dY_nw1DBo&si=JtFbpF_ZvkrDYljR
"Dont Wait On Me" - Statler Brothers.
So much running away in dreams.
So far it's been: artistic people, people who went on the road and got lonely, church going people, attending wedding people...
I'm also driving and being blinded by snow or other elements and seeing a Native American person by the roadside and needing to stop and pull over and learn something else, some other way.
I wonder what the grandchildren will think of them.
I'm still really shocked by how some people who didn't seem that way not so long ago are still so aligned with Unwell Patriarchal White Supremacy.
The behavior of some people is getting pretty bad...
"I hate thinking about X type of people" and "I hate X type of people" are pretty much practically the same thing.
I guess God will deal with their weirdness.
I met Conan and Elon and these rich white men act differently but they hate others who don't act like them so much it doesn't even make sense. I think maybe it's because they were duped into being used by the Patriarchy and people who don't act like them remind them that not everyone got duped and that information is not something they can very handle well. Highly Controlling White Guys have to find people who prefer them to feel okay about themselves. They're very fragile.
He he! Sigh. 🎭
"#WomenOver50"
the.sherylpike
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ8HqKDhvnt/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Pony picks her birthday party outfit"
champagneunicorns
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaODGS-sqac/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"#latina #ice"
locallatinacomedy
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWwdVPPDU1O/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Shoulda known we still gotta get better...
Good to know.
Life is actually like one big endless creative project! Good to look at it that way. Good luck to us.
mitski "brand new city (lyrics)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=nm527KxqqdE&si=UgwDTNaCW6Jt6hWl
"Shout out to @sarah.kamoto..."
abbyeckel
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaOPje5A3GS/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"deconstruction facts"
@deathcoredaddy
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSkKCprn/
"A first-of-its-kind analysis"
theintercept
https://www.instagram.com/p/DaODwKok1SY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Tuesday, June 30, 2026
I get to enjoy my nice dinner with a breeze under a heater now.
Because the June gloom made it so strangely cold that they decided to turn on the patio heater in the evening.
It's just so blatant!!!!
"Rubio says white South Africans 'assimilate' easier when questioned about program" : NPR
Who feels the most loved, and why?
"Disappointment and a pervasive feeling of broken-heartedness led me to begin thinking more deeply about the meaning of love in our culture. My longing to find love did not make me lose my sense of reason or perspective; it gave me the incentive to think more, to talk about love, and to study popular and more serious writing on the subject. As I poured over non-fiction books on the subject of love, I was surprised to find the vast majority of the revered books, ones used as reference works and even those popular as self-help books, have been written by men. All my life I have thought of love as primarily a topic women contemplate with greater intensity and vigor than anybody else on the planet. I still hold this belief even though visionary female thinking on the subject has yet to be taken as seriously as the thoughts and writings of men. Men theorize about love, but women are more often love's practitioners. Most men feel that they receive love and therefore know what it feels like to be loved. Women often feel we are in a constant state of yearning, wanting love but not receiving it."
bell hooks
xx
All About Love: New Visions by bell hooks | Goodreads
O the annoyingness!
"When I talked of love with my generation, I found it made everyone nervous or scared, especially when I spoke about not feeling loved enough. On several occasions as I talked about love with friends, I was told I should consider seeing a therapist. I understood that a few friends were simply weary of my bringing up the topic of love and felt that if I saw a therapist it would give them a break. But most folks were just frightened of what might be revealed in any exploration of the meaning of love in our lives.
Yet whenever a single woman over 40 brings up the topic of love, again and again the assumption, rooted in sexist thinking, is that she is desperate for a man. No one thinks she is simply passionately intellectually interested in the subject matter. No one thinks she is rigorously engaged in philosophical undertaking wherein she is endeavoring to understand the metaphysical meaning of love in everyday life. No, she is just seen as on the road to 'fatal attraction.'"
bell hooks, ix -xx
"All About Love"
Oooh the day is going by....
"Please note, bell hooks..."
callmesamleon
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaLveXnSMkO/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Actually maybe it is good when people work with imagery
Like the kind of imagery of things that you want to happen or would be happy to enjoy, even if that stuff didn't necessarily happen when you would have wanted it to. The really good, enjoyable, happy things. The things that make human hearts light up. Some people got very challenging situations to navigate at a very young age in this life.
The first step to getting better is admitting the problem!
Anyways, being shallow and selfish and ignoring others' suffering sometimes is a very common ailment in humanity. Lots and lots of people have had this problem. It really is nothing new. But as you get in touch with your more sensitive side, because you start to expect more out of a human existence, feeling the effects of the shallowness and selfishness and suffering hurts! If more people want to heal, they can help each other out a lot more.
It's very shallow and selfish to look away from suffering sometimes.
"If you had heard each of these..."
remyw.anders, 50501movement, cameronmakesmovies, disposiblehumanity
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ7j-x8x3mP/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
It's important to advocate for your life when Patriarchal Society has been instructed to squelch it out.
"I was born with a disability."
rachelboyce65
cameronmakesmovies
disposiblehumanity
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZtUGbDPTtE/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I hope the dreams about the effects this is having on the ones in "differently-abled" bodies come very soon!
Because I think when people learn things from dreams and books and movies, that's so much kinder than having to go through awful things in real life like genocide, or having to be around shallow people who go along with the very harmful behaviors just because it's what seems like it's best for them at the time.
The grandchildren might see them as the good doctors!
"Doctors sue Tennessee over rule affecting immigrant children with disabilities as court decision looms"
The vibe is, Charles Bronson seems so different here from how he acted in that "Lola" movie!
Arcade Fire - "My Body Is A Cage (HD Version)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=2I5JW9NOG4k&si=L6zu4RUx1dnNtuUO
"Lola (1970 film)" - Wikipedia
I mean, I still don't understand why bad stuff happening to women and children feels so normal to the average citizen.
It appears that a lot of adults were raised by parents who had the sensitivity of Auschwitz Camp Guards when it came to the "different" kinds of women and children who might have had "a little bit of extra trauma to handle" in their lives, or something.
See, this is the kind of story that gives me more hope for humanity.
"North High teachers rock out for ICE-impacted students" — North News
https://mynorthnews.org/stories/2026/6/30/north-high-teachers-rock-out-for-ice-impacted-students
Life! Choosing it! Today!
I feel like the kinds of moms who are really insensitive to what other children and women are going through are pretty much the favorite kinds of moms of the ones who get the most rewarded for being tools of the patriarchy.
No, you didn't have to do that, but you did it anyway, because the patriarchy trained you to be a tool.
"In addition to acting like my superior pregnancy status s***'s on your humanity, my superior pregnancy care s***'s on the humanity of the younger blessed daughters, and for whatever reason, I don't feel I need to think about it too much."
Liberal people who are little-minded enough to still be averagely anti-feminist, take note.
"How abortion in America has changed since the Dobbs decision" : NPR
Isn't she adorable?
Sleeping so peacefully!
I don't have to walk into a pond with rocks in my pockets on account of a bunch of genetically superior spoiled brats being assholes again on Facebook and training moldable minds to imitate their cruel, shallow and insensitive ways.
What was their Biblical upbringing? I've met women and men like this before.
You're bad at caring about women and girls and so are a lot of your male and female friends. I don't know why you need to have friends like that. Oh, maybe because it's you have low self-esteem and you need shallow and self-serving female and male friends who treat men with preference all the goddamn f****** time or you just don't feel like you're having a normal experience of life that day.
Stop being compliant for the patriarchy.
Predators look for compliant people.
"Rapists are not creepy trolls..."
Martha G.
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSrF7LEE/
" Most people don't realize..."
Say Something Michael
Oh, this could explain a lot about why some people (men & women) feel like disrespecting daughters is so normal to them.
So painful.
"Marital RAPE was legal until 1993."
Shall we blame your dad for your sexism and low self-esteem again?
Why is being a misogynistic, discriminatory and hurtful person such a huge part of your identity?
Keeps smiling. Keeps striving.
Well, it's going to be so much fun to have an ice cream and an actual human conversation with you when you no longer have to continue dehumanizing large portions of the human population in order to keep on keeping on perpetuating what you've been perpetuating.
"Really cool girls who are really chill about a lot of stuff!" LOL!
"FUN FACT!"
kitcarterkitcarter
infalliblejokeformula
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXxALvWpbJy/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Uh-huh, that's the bullshit in their patriarchal upbringing talking again.
"But it's so deeply loving and brave when people are socialized to devalue and dehumanize you."
Warped by the patriarchy and very unhelpful. Bad brothers. Sexist sisters.
It is so sad and disappointing to have to live like a refugee amongst your own countrymen because they are such incredibly myopic jerks about their own selfish, misogynistic ways.
Monday, June 29, 2026
For A! And maybe others. ☺️
"The opening to this doc caught my attention..."
skyrenee23
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSMosFMd/
There's a difference...
Ray
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTSMorWUA/
"thoughts???"
damon
It is kind of weird that stuff like this is mixed up with "an ice cream shop exploded in Grand Rapids."
"Weekend wave of ICE arrests reported across western Washington" | king5.com
That's really really really really really really really really really shallow.
Everyone is so relieved that they're not as shallow as Armie Hammer!
"Elon Musk shares Armie Hammer comeback film after it was banned in Germany"
https://ew.com/elon-musk-leaks-armie-hammer-comeback-film-banned-in-germany-12008232
"Armie Hammer" - Wikipedia
I'm going to look up some things that are not in English.
Trying to be a little bit more artistic again.
I'm culturing the trauma.
Ugh, for referral...
Ugh, if I perished in a gas chamber in a past life. I hope I wasn't trapped with these people.
I think rich people should start trying to help the girls more.
The poor girls who need abortions, not just the rich ones. Why don't you be an emotional support pet for a poor girl who needs an abortion? I think that would be a nice penance!
Well, he wasn't worthless in their lives, though.
"That was the worst, shallowest brother ever!"
Well, he was worse than other lives, though.
I might do that.
The idea that the poor meanies should go to mediums, either to gain helpful messages or to figure out what kinds of bodies the lost ones have reincarnated in by now...
Oh goody I feel better and I can smoke my artistic cigarette.
My non-tobacco stick of VICE. May God bless you!
Instead of a singer...
Going "Mi mi mi mi mi mi mi" it's "Mean mean mean mean mean, the poor, little, insecure things, feeling so unloved by the unwell adults." In a mean mean mean mean country, locking away certain types of children, because the poor little unloved things grew up to become such insecure meanies.
A very nice grandparents story!
"My Father passed away..."
thekatlively
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DaIzA6Otco9/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
They must have big personalities!
"FUN FACT!"
kitcarterkitcarter
infalliblejokeformula
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXxALvWpbJy/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
You act like a tool. Of patriarchal brainwashing. You were groomed.
You and your friends s*** on the people who do not have extreme privilege and that is your goddamn f****** lifestyle. Shallowness is toxic. It is like a poison. It literally depletes and degrades and dehumanizes. It is unmerciful.
Anyways, we don't all enjoy the same genetic privileges and/or shallowness inclinations...
"I wish it weren't so accurate"
samathamariehome
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DXyCTviM0jc/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Long, but if I can ask for your attention..."
dontmesswithtexs
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZ-c3YzpXqH/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
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