I think it would have been more helpful to have somebody just flat out tell me:
"You signed up for 'Experiencing the puppetry of this patriarchal society with the less than ideal set of genetics' in this life and it's going to be an arduous course."
"I just saw 'Jeanne Dielman, 23"
u/Hobbit-guy
https://www.reddit.com/r/TrueFilm/s/pziCGWsdgD
"I am very traumatized and that is why someone else's decreased quality of life or loss of human rights is a small price to pay in exchange for my slight increase in material well-being, even if this means that in the long term, it actually makes life worse for other people's children, or even for my own children."
"I'm not a feminist because .."
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZq4-EROZDx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Medical research has been built around men"
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZn8NSLONXC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"I need to love predators more so my dad will keep on loving me or so my male relatives will feel their rightfully gained superior status over others" mentality is just super unbalanced.
I feel like it's so conscientious to make lists of how many times you accidentally continued to role model the old patterns in front of the psychologically vulnerable.
"This campaign flips the script on victim blaming."
femalequotient
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZqIryzxApk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Everyone just wants the worse off to feel worse and worse, so the better off can feel better and better." What???
"This bird just discovered..."
u/Sage_Magic
https://www.reddit.com/r/interestingasfuck/s/aognX8lyxr
"And what is a good reason..."
u/untitledprp4
"why women can't show anger (stitched with Gemma Hartley)"
sommertothill
https://youtube.com/shorts/th9X-54fxis?si=uk9kdT41kY8WBKke
"The Olsen twins have done enough"
Howse_party_pod
https://youtube.com/shorts/WrAUFcutrZ8?si=qyklalTLSueTSKGo
Like, if they really wanted to...
"antifatness is killing your spirit"
itsmekatevee
https://youtube.com/shorts/t4yqhbr8hYE?si=4LKTteAV3cQf_oP9
"WHY NOBODY LIKES..."
LizMiele
"Why Is Illinois Failing to Hold ICE Agents Accountable?
Many blue states aren’t prosecuting crimes committed by federal agents during targeted immigration enforcement campaigns"
"Oversight a struggle at ICE detention facility in San Diego"
https://inewsource.org/2026/06/17/ice-otay-mesa-trump-congress-oversight/
The dream said that me and the scared jumpy man can bond, such as if one person sits in a church pew amongst many men, and the other one sits behind and kind of leans on the shoulder, and that's fine. However, it's not really a top tier conversation situation, and he still may disappear on ya.
"The grim truth behind the Pied Piper"
https://www.bbc.com/travel/article/20200902-the-grim-truth-behind-the-pied-piper
The Nylons - "Prince Of Darkness (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=CwimZmLqkdg&si=rn2jj1oE0oKoxOt6
It was picked up in the Seattle area part of this life.
👸🏻When I was a young lady there was a dog that was adopted because the breeder convinced the parents to adopt a runt alongside the dog they really wanted, and they figured out that they didn't really like the runt after a while because she was developmentally disabled and had health problems, so they decided to put her in a no-kill shelter in the country and pay for her to stay there for the rest of her life, and we went out and visited her one time, and she briefly acted happy to see us, and then she knew we were going to go away again, so it appeared to me she scratched herself and seemed kind of disgusted, like she couldn't be bothered to try to bond with us again, and she was over it. I hope she had a better life and enjoyed optimal health subsequently. ⚕️
"The Chilling Story of the Pied Piper" | Sandra Merville Hart
https://sandramervillehart.com/2021/09/30/the-chilling-story-of-the-pied-piper/
"American’s First Time Hearing German Fairytale Stories"
@ZacRyanYT
I thought church picnics in rural Michigan were really fun. There were cakewalks and a "fishing pond" where you put a fishing pole over a screen and got a toy on the other end. And sawdust piles for the kids. We would dig out the coins. And I thought reunions were fun. They had live polka music and dancing and Faygo Pop and Vernors. And sawdust piles. I got to read a lot of books. I got to go out in the country and the little town. I went swimming in a lake. I rode bikes. Ate ice cream. Went fishing in the pond in the country. Visited a crick to gather moss. And ate meals with friends on other farms. There were lots of chickens around. I heard church bells and mourning doves in the evening. Lots of times it was actually very idyllic. I'm probably supposed to go back there someday because I went there every summer for so many years.
I guess other people were supposed to be more of the performers. And I was supposed to be more of an ingester / metabolizer.
Arcade Fire - "My Body Is A Cage (HD Version)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=2I5JW9NOG4k&si=8ljb2HKOxZDIWaki
I guess I didn't like being thinner when I was younger that much.
Little Jimmy Dickens - "Out Behind the Barn"
I have a big callus on my index finger. I think it would have been better if they did not do a veneer on the other front tooth. Especially because they mentioned bonding verbally, but then changed it to veneer on the paperwork. And I get pain in it sometimes. But at the moment it's not so painful. So that's better.
And the time they took blood and couldn't fill up the tubes and IV therapy came and I argued with them and almost had to have a blood transfusion.
Sublime - "April 29, 1992 (Rodney King riots)"
A lot of the white people who were here not so long ago are very likely to either be back or not be back as not such white people anymore.
Poor little bullied by their parents and their upbringings children.
'Red and yellow, black and white. They are precious in his sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world."
Because I know she's doing the best she can with her cat consciousness.
And maybe they went to some strange churches or something as they were growing up. But some people have decided to act like such myopically genetically superior narcissistic assholes in this era, that it genuinely feels like I really cannot believe that that's the best they can do right now.
It feels like it's important to know how much you're willing to explore the different parts that you have inside of yourself. There's traveling and visiting other parts of the world and enjoying learning about other cultures, but there's also inward exploration. I ended up moving around a lot when I was a kid, and then certain things happened when I was older, and I didn't end up traveling as much as I thought I would. It's like I was supposed to explore a lot of different worlds internally and find out what makes human beings get persuaded to go this or that way in their lives, and then I had to figure out how to make a new way to go forward, for myself and for others. But if I didn't feel very supported, I wasn't doing a very good job of it. And pain and illness can be such terrible distractions too. And financial issues are a stressor, and those also get impacted by pain and illness and trauma. And if you listen too much to an imbalanced society, you believe the support you need should take a very specific form, and then you feel like you're too oppressed because you didn't get that specific form of support that you needed. Instead, you're supposed to expand your horizons and grow spiritually, and find other ways of being in the universe. You're not supposed to just bolster Society as you have found it to be now; you're supposed to create a new one.
"This campaign flips the script on victim blaming."
femalequotient
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZqIryzxApk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Medical research has been built around men"
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZn8NSLONXC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"For once I believe in what a billionaire is doing."
thegarbagemom
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZLuuj8vxQw/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"My Body is a Cage"
u/ydkjordan
Cats are very good at being cats.
"This Incredible Jelly"
u/SnackSamurai
https://www.reddit.com/r/oddlysatisfying/s/X8LMaxbHKN
"When Three Faces..."
u/ DeScepter
https://www.reddit.com/r/Cinema/s/GnCtSTCl8Z
"St. Jude's is in Memphis"
montemader
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZnsR-fRoNo/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I have to look up how much things I can't get cost to motivate myself.
And I forgot I'd seen clips of the film based off her book.
"Edna Ferber" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edna_Ferber
"Giant Love: Edna Ferber, Her Best-selling Novel of Texas, and the Making of a Classic American Film" | The Curious Reader
"Giant (1956) Official Trailer"
I want to see how this holds up: "Melusine" by Lynne Reid Banks
I first read it when I was in junior high. I believe I read at least part of it in California, too. So I must have taken it with me on a "vacation." I found a used copy and ordered it off the internet when I was a young adult living in Illinois, but it never came. I just gave up on it because it was so cheap. It was probably a scam. But this one wasn't a scam, and the book actually arrived.
Oh, it might be signed by the author! That's a pretty name. I've never gotten a signed book as a surprise before.
I ate roasted tomatoes with olive oil, raw dandelion greens, parsley, cashew cheese and gluten-free crackers. It was very good
And then I was brought, for dessert, a blueberry lemonade popsicle and a book!
"Everyday Ayurveda for Women's Health" by Kate O'Donnell
In "Part Three: Finding Balance Through the Seasons of Life," from the section called "Purusarthas: The Four Aims of Life"
"Dharma: Righteous, ethical living
Artha: Wealth, material goods, security
Kama: Desire, gratification
Moksha: Emancipation, spiritual freedom"
Page 106
This was helpful for me to see because it feels like the dominant culture is neglecting a few of these aspects. My body might need to feel more balanced in order to feel better than it has been with what the dominant culture is currently providing.
ICE will be looking for sick children. And then what?
"St. Jude's is in Memphis"
montemader
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZnsR-fRoNo/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"As the U.S. turns 250, this historian has blunt advice: 'America has to grow up'"
https://www.npr.org/2026/06/15/nx-s1-5856348/america-250-eddie-glaude
Let's tune in with more healing types of things and let others do their other things, and hopefully, most of the time, we may be able to know that's what's much better for health and well-being at the moment.
Maybe angels can help where humans fear to tread.
I wonder how this body ever got so emotionally and physically and medically neglected. It's such a big project to deal with at the moment. It takes up all my time. It takes up everything.
My least favorite thing about certain kinds of artists is how they think pushing away other people's realities away in the name of their art is what they're supposed to be doing.
I feel sorry for people who are so obsessed with art and making art right now. Also, I really cannot be like them right now. Body just doesn't want us to do that kind of thing right now.
I'm sorry the people who were neglected have been neglected. I don't honestly want to create anything that's big or makes a lot of money right now. But maybe in the future I will. I just can't do it right now. There's too much to do. I have to take care of the stressed out, neglected body. I have to make a new and better pattern happen. The body is very needy. The capitalistic culture is so bad for it. The Patriarchy just doesn't know how to take care of this kind of a body at all.
It's time to stop and cry about medical neglect right now. Even if it's if it's just yawning and a little bit of tears squeezing out of the eyes from tiredness and just feeling very tired and that's what it is.
I started to read a book I felt like looking at again, but stopped now. I can read it later.
Ghosts Beneath Our Feet by Betty Ren Wright. I had that book's image in my head. For some reason.
"Ghosts beneath our feet : Wright, Betty Ren"
I want to find a particular illustrated children's picture book where a boy is looking out the window and sees the changes of the seasons.
Oh this is still not it, but it's a good find because I also read it as a little kid so that's cool. I don't know why I can't find the one that I'm looking for though.
"Vintage 1982 First Little Golden Book - My Book Of The Seasons" | eBay
Oh, look at all of these.
None of them are the one I was looking for, but I really like the look of "The Colors Out My Window" by Gabrielle Story illustrated by Maria Mola.
"What type of bitch he is..."
edgarthesifu
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZlkrq-zGIx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"What do you mean you're failing"
liznicoleee_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZkVdF1RvMn/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
" From the very moment I was detained..."
hanne_engan
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZgqF_zRHVb/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I'm too sensitive. I can't deal with people who need to go to therapy because I can't have their childhood traumas poking at me. And I'm not their nanny and I'm not their mom and I'm not whoever else and yes, I have worked with people who projected that kind of thing on to me before. Why is everyone so addicted to putting out products? Why don't you, like, want to heal more stuff first, and put out products later? I think it would be more enjoyable. Also, have you ever heard of going from a lower income bracket to a higher income bracket and being miserable anyway, cuz that's what happened when I was in high school. I mean, it didn't last for very long; as soon as I became a young adult, it was done. And by the way, when I became a young adult they didn't let children stay on their parents insurance until they were like 25 or 26 or whatever, like they do nowadays. And I got the kind of genetics that could have used the good health insurance, and I didn't have it, ever. And other people in my family were sicker than I was.
I think what makes me happy is being able to enjoy learning experiences.
And part of that is being able to feel relaxed.
And part of being able to feel relaxed is not having to feel like I have to feed someone's ego and repeat old traumas over and over again.
I gave a good tip to someone who kind of delivered subpar service tonight because part of that was due to circumstances that she wasn't entirely in control of, and I liked the person, and you know what, hard-working immigrants deserve more respect than they get, especially nowadays, even if sometimes the conditions mean that the quality of what you get is not, you know, what the rich people are getting most of the time, I suppose. And I feel like she was happy, and that made me happy. And this song is nice right now: Nimino - "Light Up." And the clouds are pink in the sky.
Sublime - "April 29, 1992"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=e1dPKfxRhk0&si=siK2JqMoG0Ci77VL
I'm such a different person than I used to be when I was a 14-year-old and had no idea why there was so much about violence and rioting on the news! Who else is different than they used to be when they were 14 years old?
I also think it's a special time to be simultaneously more Native American and more Caucasian, and I'm glad her higher self appreciates my honesty better than is apparent at this level.
"Shooting Snakes" by S. Cokal on JSTOR
https://www.jstor.org/stable/40638382
I'm rereading it and I just split a Goya chocolate pudding with the breadwinner of the casa who never stops working these days and I'm going to eat some beef jerky, too.
Then I saw a can of baked beans in the cupboard. So I can have that with the beef jerky!
I remember being a little kid and learning about poison white. Sorry, I mean Snow White and the poison apple, hahaha, funny, anyway, and I remember looking at a picture of it and being like why would she (the witch with the poison apple) be so mean? And I felt like this voice was telling me, you should never kill yourself. You should never kill yourself. Isn't that odd? I wasn't very old. Who reads these stories nowadays?
"ICE Took Mom and Dad. Now the Perez Kids Are Home Alone. – Mother Jones
Four American siblings left to fend for themselves—and they’re not the only ones."
Samantha Michaels
"ICE Took Mom and Dad. Now the Perez Kids Are Home Alone.
Four American siblings left to fend for themselves—and they’re not the only ones."
Samantha Michaels
Honestly, I am just sad. But I must take better care of my health. I can't let all the information that floats around out there as a result of the unwell ways of a Patriarchal Culture be such a detriment to my physical experience in my short time on this planet.
"Those born with certain genetics were more likely to be afflicted with this ailment than others, in that awfully imbalanced and upset by the cult of unwell patriarchical mentalites era. Sadly, it was greatly under diagnosed."
But now they're even being terrible to the girls and women with the great (by their standards) genetics. How stupid and sexist and shallow can they be?
Maybe it's the kind of love where the insecure babysitter who's always trying to align with the richest doesn't have to act like the kids who are the poorest are worthless. It's the love like Jesus would have wanted us to have! Kind of the opposite of the people who are getting rich off of the detention centers where hunger strikes are happening. And also not very much like what the people who are into being shallow and acting like they have to be tools of the patriarchy in order to feel good about themselves are doing.
I'm just going to have to tap into the power of love!
Frankly, it seems like The Patriarchy wants women to feel like they have disabilities. It's even penalizing the healthier women now.
Nobody ever said you could check off disability if you had feminine health problems. But they were. So, I either need to figure out how I'm supposed to function and make money with an off and on disability, or I need to figure out what I'm supposed to hell sorry I meant to say heal, so I no longer have the disability. Frankly, it seems like the patriarchy wants women to feel like they have disabilities. It's even penalizing the healthier women now.
It was painful, but now I realize that choosing healing first is necessary for this type of body before the completion of creative projects can be realized. It was really funny that I got somebody laying out an entire plan for me to do a creative project with art and writing, like creating a children's book that has nature as its focus, and it overwhelmed me to the point where I felt like my body was just throwing up all these weird signals at me. Impossible to ignore.
Had the beginning of a panic attack start around page 70 and stopped to eat some gluten-free crackers and hummus and take an "Anxio Balance" pill.
"Twenty and Ten by Claire Huchet Bishop" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1069576.Twenty_and_Ten
"Twenty and Ten (1952)" – A Beastiary of Books
"Twenty and Ten" : Claire Huchet Bishop : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
I bet they'd round you guys up before they'd go after Timothée.
I wonder if this could be about this, or about this, or...
"The New Adam and Eve"
By Nathaniel Hawthorne
https://utc.iath.virginia.edu/christn/chfinhaf.html
"In this history of horror, the call is coming from inside the house" - The Washington Post
https://www.washingtonpost.com/books/2024/10/21/american-scary-jeremy-dauber-review/
"A.G. Exemplary? Considering the American Gothicism of Nathaniel Hawthorne’s 'Alice Doane’s Appeal' and 'Young Goodman Brown'"
"Nathaniel Hawthorne’s American Horror Story" - The Atlantic
https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/2026/07/nathaniel-hawthorne-my-kinsman-major-molineux/687311/
🙏 I've decided I'm going to get some bodywork done today. Because self-care is very important. Lucky me!!!! 🍀
There but for the grace of whatever (some say 'God') go you, but bless you if you have the patience to deal with this Patriarchal nonsense.
"Christen Goff Says 'Taylor Swift' Got More Women into sports"
https://ca.news.yahoo.com/christen-goff-says-taylor-swift-132401310.html
"Donald Trump's behavior was shaped by his 'sociopath' father, niece writes in bombshell book" | Donald Trump | The Guardian
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2020/jul/07/donald-trump-abuse-father-niece-mary-book
It feels like they're buying land and putting up giant, nightmarishly corrupt, bad daycare centers that are going to attract a lot of abusers of children to work in them.
When I felt like my friend who passed away was following me around after she died, that was partially for myself but it was also because I was supposed to say that she had to get away from an abusive situation. Because if I didn't say so, then her child was going to repeat patterns of getting into abusive situations. So I said something and then I stopped feeling like she was following me around all the time and then she came to me in a dream and looked happy and then she probably moved on to a new life. Because when she was alive she told me she had to get away from an abusive situation and we both said to each other that we couldn't tell her child because her child was too young and wouldn't be able to understand it at the time. So it's interesting how that's coming back to me now.
"Sex abuse victims struggle to lose..."
"Experts see strong link between sexual abuse and obesity"
https://www.syracuse.com/news/2010/07/linking_sexual_abuse_to_obesit.html
Man, I hope none of those women were in that job just because they wanted to pick up extra cash for some cute outfits.
Hahaha. Stupid assholes. It's all a part of a plan to crank out more parentified daughters to take care of everybody else's b*******.
I believe that some not too smart women who were forced to be babysitters and who shouldn't have been abused me when I was a baby at a military base daycare facility. But also, there were probably some good ones mixed in with the bad ones. That's kind of weird, huh? Patriarchal people are super f***** up in so many ways.
"I'm very glad you're taking this time to work on yourself and not needlessly traumatizing the special children."
I don't even understand why my bad attitude seems to be helping me breathe better now, but anyways.
"I just need you to know that I would rather fit in better and get richer and look like a fatphobic Nazi to a lot of the world's children and future grandchildren then change or waver in my support for any of the 'super unhealthy for people like you' patterns."
"It's time to get over the vast majority of rich people not wanting to save Anne Frank," and I thought of you.
I'm glad that you and your friends have so many materialistic things to comfort you, as well as the joy of being genetically superior according to a lot of unwell and f'ed up patriarchal standards, because you're the stuff that parentified daughters are made of.
Now I gotta yell at rich men and tell them to be nicer to their wife and kids even if their wife and kids weren't all that nice to me. God I hate the selfish rich people, f*** these people. But higher vibrational love is in the air, sir; I'm sure it is. I just want to get through whatever karmic crap I'm supposed to get through and just have a lot more balance and health and wonderful things like that now. Okay, just take care of yourself. Don't let these people get to you anymore. You need to take care of yourself now. You're not supposed to be too much about the rich people. You're not supposed to be too much about the worse off ones, either. You're just supposed to take care of yourself now. Come on, you can do it. Come on. Let's do this. Come on...
May God help me develop the understanding and truly healing version self-esteem that passeth all understanding. Yes, many people could have acted better and been nicer. Yes, putting on the CBD cream with a menthol in it is going to make you feel like you can't open your eyes for a while.
Today I was adventurous and ventured out but unfortunately I found myself fending off another terrible headache which an ibuprofen did not seem to be able to touch and was able to drive 40+ miles back thanks to a combination of a ginger shot and a turmeric shot (with pineapple juice! always) and a bag of beef jerky and electrolyte water with Himalayan salt. Also, I got a lot of extra encouragement to actively pursue a creative path from an enthusiastic person after I made a donation and perhaps I got overwhelmed by it. There was this whole thing where I felt like I couldn't deal with the rapacious pleasure seeking of the ones the greater culture has been accommodating for so long, and my headache went along with an internal dialogue about how I have health issues and can't work with the people who've helped create the conditions of a society that made my life miserable for so many years and oh my God how often it's felt like they're going to kill us and I'm going to go first. Then, as the pain receded more, I decided I really do want to feel more relaxed than that, and afterall maybe it's better to not get too overwhelmed with what's happening to those who are even more oppressed, because it's not really helping the oppressed when I do that, but maybe if I can pull myself together, I could help some of them more in the future, and now I just had the idea that it's good to take care of your health first, and maybe you'll do some other creative things later. Sometimes there are programs that don't want to quit in parentified daughters and they really are quite something. They can either push people over cliffs or put them on top of mountains, maybe? Maybe now it's better to relax and read a book or two.
"All About Love" by Bell Hooks and "Green Man" by William Anderson.
"Harvesting marshmallows from the garden!"
@fromthegardenchannel
https://youtube.com/shorts/xkpbT4qaR68?si=SKmd3cgKqLsIs7jV
I haven't been gardening much these days, but I can admire plants.
"Googly Eyes Gardener" - Saturday Night Live
https://youtube.com/watch?v=zc7qJE9Nzo8&si=2GcAB1gxajLZG9s3
&
"Weekend Update: Rebecca Larue the Flirting Expert" ~ SNL
"The Lighthouse by the Sea (1924)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=gmSIJiEU8kY&si=GilyRQ6hMRFxiHVq
"Doughnut Song (Live In San Diego 12/12/07)"
Tori Amos
https://youtube.com/watch?v=s0rAu3rXpeE&si=NwWCyL3wfBweg2Vp
And I just realized it might be fun to watch more silent films, and to choose your own soundtrack!
"Siren (Live In Detroit 10/27/07)"
Tori Amos
https://youtube.com/watch?v=RgW49Wv8Dp0&si=uBUZrWfexjtCU_wy
"The protesters formed a human banner spelling out 'EPSTEIN' in the outline of a file folder marked 'Trump,' a call for the release of redacted files on convicted sex offender Jeffrey Epstein that reference the president. Outside the file folder, more protesters held a U.S. flag next to letters spelling 'FILES TO TRIALS.'"
~ Warren Pederson
"Banner of bodies on SF beach sends Trump a pointed birthday warning"
https://www.sfchronicle.com/sf/article/ocean-beach-epstein-trump-protest-22298829.php
"In an interview with NPR soon after the files were released, French Gates said she was happy to be away from 'all the muck' and that the men involved, including her ex-husband, had to answer for their actions. Why did she decide to speak out then, I ask. 'Well, I had not been silent. I had been asked before what I thought of Epstein, and I had spoken my truth about what I had experienced. He was an abhorrent human being, a horrid man, and so in these situations – this is a hard topic for me, you need to know that – my heart goes out to the young girls,' she says. 'I just spoke the truth, which is they deserve some peace, and they deserve some justice.'"
"The justice system didn’t do its job. It did not do its job. Full stop. Epstein could have been stopped"
"Does she feel frustrated that while many women, including Epstein’s victims, have shown great courage in speaking out, Epstein’s male associates are choosing to stay silent? 'What I know is that bad things happen in darkness. We need to have more transparency,' she replies. French Gates understands better than most the secretive, ultra-rich world that Epstein moved in, and I wonder why she thinks he was able to get away with his crimes for so long. 'The justice system didn’t do its job. It did not do its job. Full stop. This could have been stopped. And so again, I think that’s why, finally, we are having a reckoning in society. If we don’t want children to be harmed, the justice system has to work.' But I ask, the scepticism surely sounding in my voice, are we truly having a reckoning? 'I think that would be a better question to ask the survivors,' she replies.
French Gates has said she met Epstein once and found him so repugnant that she had nightmares afterwards. I ask what had so chilled her. Her demeanour changes rapidly. She looks as if she is about to cry. It is upsetting to witness a woman of such unusual self-possession suddenly lose her poise. She turns away, to look at the lake outside her window, and I can see her attempt to compose herself. 'My heart is racing,' she says after a moment, fluttering her hand over her chest. 'Have you ever in your life been around somebody that you just know is evil?' she asks a moment later. 'There you go. You just have your answer. We need to listen to our feelings about people.'
When she said her heart was racing, was she reliving the gut reaction she had on meeting him? 'I’m done. I can’t do any more questions,' she says. I am watching French Gates, trying to read her reaction, but can sense to my right her comms person, who is listening in, tense and ready herself to end the interview if I push things too far. Then she answers. 'Yes. Any woman who has ever been around somebody who is evil or had an experience and then if you’re around somebody else who is evil. Just no, no.' I notice that while she usually speaks in full sentences, her grammar has broken down. I’m sorry, I say, I can see you’re having a strong – 'Visceral reaction, yes,' she interrupts.
~ Sophie McBain interviews Melinda French Gates
"'Have you ever been around someone you just know...'"
"When women step into their full power, we have a different lens on society. We are the bedrock of society. We are the bedrock of the family."
M. F. Gates
"Men don't need to be good at their jobs"
sommertothill
https://youtube.com/shorts/HrMP7q8MPg4?si=D3oKp7peK0rDaTX1
It seems the system trains a lot of guys to be like this. And then it trains other people (both men and women!) to just magically unsee what's going on. Because magically unseeing what's going on is oftentimes what's most beneficial for them in the short term.
IMO the phenomenon of others being able to magically unsee what's going on is a real obstacle when your nervous system won't let you be as good at it as other people are. Other people aren't constantly on the lookout for the ones who are the predators, huh?
And not only looking out for who the predators are going to be, but who are the ones who are going to be making excuses for the predators and letting the predators keep on doing terrible things?
A lot of people who were good at magically unseeing things are now financially set for the rest of their lives and enjoying their retirements.
Anyways, dads whose behavior towards women was casually sexist in the past, who now have daughters or sons, I really do hope your children don't feel the need to metabolize that kind of casual sexism just to ingratiate themselves with you and with certain aspects of our Patriarchal Society.
But you can at least give yourself some props for trying to understand other points of view and maybe have some more thought-provoking conversations than you were encouraged to have in the past.
This is the raw ginger that I couldn't find for 2 days while I was having the migraine headaches. LOOK WHERE IT WAS.
I miss our old refrigerator which had the freezer on the bottom and the fridge part on top before a power surge killed it. There's a surge protector behind this one now.
I was able to find the powdered ginger.
Anne Frank's 13th birthday film.
"The Lighthouse by the Sea (1924)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=gmSIJiEU8kY&si=GilyRQ6hMRFxiHVq
"Doughnut Song (Live In San Diego 12/12/07)"
Tori Amos
I'm really sick of hearing Vishen's voice talking about "the more fat that you carry" because my phone keeps opening that stupid clip again and again.
"For her thirteenth birthday, the Jewish diarist Anne Frank watched this film from a rented reel with an early projection machine along with her friends who thoroughly enjoyed it. Frank was a fan of Rin Tin Tin and mentioned this film in her diary in her second entry, on June 14, 1942.[14]"
"The Lighthouse by the Sea" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Lighthouse_by_the_Sea
"The Lighthouse by the Sea (1924)"
Because my nice grandma was a young person who was alive back then!
"This morning I lay in the bathtub thinking how wonderful it would be if I had a dog like Rin Tin Tin. I'd call him Rin Tin Tin too, and I'd take him to school with me, where he could stay in the janitor's room or by the bicycle racks when the weather was good."
Anne Frank on Sunday, June 14th 1942.
"Excerpt: Anne Frank The Diary Of A Young Girl"
https://www.npr.org/2010/01/01/138709936/excerpt-anne-frank-the-diary-of-a-young-girl
The German Shepherds in the "Escape From Sobibor" movie made me want to throw up.
"Susan Orlean on the original Rin Tin Tin"
@newyorker
Well, that's a hard pill to swallow. Actually I could find a pill like that quite easily nowadays. I'm just scared it's going to make me have to get my appendix out.
"Anyway please follow"
sommertothill
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZjv1FOJETV/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"The Personal Growth Playbook of Donald Trump"
https://blog.mindvalley.com/newsletter-donald-trump/
"Can Losing Fat Make You Smarter?"
MindValley
https://youtube.com/shorts/YkKxMMkUij4?si=iRw75sbD3M0X_YcG
"Anatomy Of A Hunger Strike: Why Is It Done And What Does It Do To The Human Body?"
https://www.rferl.org/a/hunger-strikes-russia/31266830.html
Doesn't Donald Trump need to lose some weight? Speaking of being fat and also being not so smart.
How hilarious is it that a bunch of skinny, wealthy people wanted him to be the one to run things?
Maybe he reminded them of their dads or grandpas or something?
"Can Losing Fat Make You Smarter?"
MindValley
Vishen thinks you become smarter when you lose fat, which is very bad news for a lot of females, including females with perimenopausal and menopausal and post-menopausal bodies. Also, he seems to think fasting is the best way to lose weight, and that does not work equally well with all kinds of bodies.
"Can Losing Fat Make You Smarter?"
MindValley
https://youtube.com/shorts/YkKxMMkUij4?si=iRw75sbD3M0X_YcG
"Anyway please follow"
sommertothill
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZjv1FOJETV/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
