"Did one of the world's first protocities..."
notanotheronlinehistorian
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DYz8SKmvrvR/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Wednesday, June 17, 2026
But I like how his painting reminds me of a character in a graphic novel by M.S.
"My man gave it his best"
u/MikeeorUSA
https://www.reddit.com/r/CoupleMemes/s/qFB4QzkvSL
🌜🌟😹🌞🌛
"Films more likely to star an actor called Chris or a talking animal than a woman over 60, study finds"
Oh roomie, what did he know?
"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
Rumi
Anyways, maybe purging time is almost over.
I feel like I'm supposed to get better at asking my body what I should be doing for healing, and aligning that with whatever I end up doing in the future as part of the next lifepath / career type thing.
Somebody named Hobbit Guy also watched this during the pandemic.
I think it would have been more helpful to have somebody just flat out tell me:
"You signed up for 'Experiencing the puppetry of this patriarchal society with the less than ideal set of genetics' in this life and it's going to be an arduous course."
"I just saw 'Jeanne Dielman, 23"
u/Hobbit-guy
https://www.reddit.com/r/TrueFilm/s/pziCGWsdgD
Oh my gosh; stop the insanity.
"I am very traumatized and that is why someone else's decreased quality of life or loss of human rights is a small price to pay in exchange for my slight increase in material well-being, even if this means that in the long term, it actually makes life worse for other people's children, or even for my own children."
Medical research has been built around mostly non-feminist people.
In privileged places.
"I'm not a feminist because .."
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZq4-EROZDx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Medical research has been built around men"
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZn8NSLONXC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Not optimal. Very twisted.
"I need to love predators more so my dad will keep on loving me or so my male relatives will feel their rightfully gained superior status over others" mentality is just super unbalanced.
Because then you can also say that things are going to change and those old things you used to do weren't actually what was best for anyone.
I feel like it's so conscientious to make lists of how many times you accidentally continued to role model the old patterns in front of the psychologically vulnerable.
Well, thinking of the children doesn't always come easily when you were brought up in a patriarchal society.
"This campaign flips the script on victim blaming."
femalequotient
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZqIryzxApk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Nobody wants them to feel bad!"
"Everyone just wants the worse off to feel worse and worse, so the better off can feel better and better." What???
Maybe this means more will be uplifted!
"This bird just discovered..."
u/Sage_Magic
https://www.reddit.com/r/interestingasfuck/s/aognX8lyxr
"And what is a good reason..."
u/untitledprp4
Who's benefiting the most from maintaining that "don't show anger" mindset?
"why women can't show anger (stitched with Gemma Hartley)"
sommertothill
https://youtube.com/shorts/th9X-54fxis?si=uk9kdT41kY8WBKke
So why don't they want to.
"The Olsen twins have done enough"
Howse_party_pod
https://youtube.com/shorts/WrAUFcutrZ8?si=qyklalTLSueTSKGo
They could heal from their internalized misogyny instead.
Like, if they really wanted to...
"antifatness is killing your spirit"
itsmekatevee
https://youtube.com/shorts/t4yqhbr8hYE?si=4LKTteAV3cQf_oP9
I wish he would have went to therapy instead of doing that.
Oh well, I guess it's only money...
"WHY NOBODY LIKES..."
LizMiele
Our country is still very racist.
"Why Is Illinois Failing to Hold ICE Agents Accountable?
Many blue states aren’t prosecuting crimes committed by federal agents during targeted immigration enforcement campaigns"
Maybe the lack of love is affecting the money.
"Oversight a struggle at ICE detention facility in San Diego"
https://inewsource.org/2026/06/17/ice-otay-mesa-trump-congress-oversight/
Oh wow! There were so many people in that dream. It was kind of a lot of people.
The dream said that me and the scared jumpy man can bond, such as if one person sits in a church pew amongst many men, and the other one sits behind and kind of leans on the shoulder, and that's fine. However, it's not really a top tier conversation situation, and he still may disappear on ya.
Truth!!!
"The grim truth behind the Pied Piper"
https://www.bbc.com/travel/article/20200902-the-grim-truth-behind-the-pied-piper
Just randomly remembering this one.
The Nylons - "Prince Of Darkness (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=CwimZmLqkdg&si=rn2jj1oE0oKoxOt6
It was picked up in the Seattle area part of this life.
🐾 A sensitivity to animals dog story. 🐶
👸🏻When I was a young lady there was a dog that was adopted because the breeder convinced the parents to adopt a runt alongside the dog they really wanted, and they figured out that they didn't really like the runt after a while because she was developmentally disabled and had health problems, so they decided to put her in a no-kill shelter in the country and pay for her to stay there for the rest of her life, and we went out and visited her one time, and she briefly acted happy to see us, and then she knew we were going to go away again, so it appeared to me she scratched herself and seemed kind of disgusted, like she couldn't be bothered to try to bond with us again, and she was over it. I hope she had a better life and enjoyed optimal health subsequently. ⚕️
🎼❄️🥶🧊☃️📚📓But it's the best...🎶😊🪀🚸🪈🧙🧚🏾📜
"The Chilling Story of the Pied Piper" | Sandra Merville Hart
https://sandramervillehart.com/2021/09/30/the-chilling-story-of-the-pied-piper/
"American’s First Time Hearing German Fairytale Stories"
@ZacRyanYT
🎣🐟🐠💒🧁🐓Lucky horseshoes. 🐎👠👛🪙🎏🐔
I thought church picnics in rural Michigan were really fun. There were cakewalks and a "fishing pond" where you put a fishing pole over a screen and got a toy on the other end. And sawdust piles for the kids. We would dig out the coins. And I thought reunions were fun. They had live polka music and dancing and Faygo Pop and Vernors. And sawdust piles. I got to read a lot of books. I got to go out in the country and the little town. I went swimming in a lake. I rode bikes. Ate ice cream. Went fishing in the pond in the country. Visited a crick to gather moss. And ate meals with friends on other farms. There were lots of chickens around. I heard church bells and mourning doves in the evening. Lots of times it was actually very idyllic. I'm probably supposed to go back there someday because I went there every summer for so many years.
I hope I figure out more about why it was like that soon.
I guess other people were supposed to be more of the performers. And I was supposed to be more of an ingester / metabolizer.
Arcade Fire - "My Body Is A Cage (HD Version)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=2I5JW9NOG4k&si=8ljb2HKOxZDIWaki
I guess I didn't like being thinner when I was younger that much.
I'm disappointed in myself: I have not applied myself more in regards to learning to play musical instruments.
Little Jimmy Dickens - "Out Behind the Barn"
Pushy, sneaky, greedy, not unlike some other kinds of people you would want to avoid.
I have a big callus on my index finger. I think it would have been better if they did not do a veneer on the other front tooth. Especially because they mentioned bonding verbally, but then changed it to veneer on the paperwork. And I get pain in it sometimes. But at the moment it's not so painful. So that's better.
Big blood clot problems.
And the time they took blood and couldn't fill up the tubes and IV therapy came and I argued with them and almost had to have a blood transfusion.
And I have arthritis in a toe now. Didn't used to have that.
Sublime - "April 29, 1992 (Rodney King riots)"
Such is the cycle of life.
A lot of the white people who were here not so long ago are very likely to either be back or not be back as not such white people anymore.
Carrying those terrible times through their adult years too.
Poor little bullied by their parents and their upbringings children.
Also, I'm grateful my grandma loved Jesus so much.
'Red and yellow, black and white. They are precious in his sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world."
Some people make me so grateful for my cat.
Because I know she's doing the best she can with her cat consciousness.
I suppose they just want to feel special.
And maybe they went to some strange churches or something as they were growing up. But some people have decided to act like such myopically genetically superior narcissistic assholes in this era, that it genuinely feels like I really cannot believe that that's the best they can do right now.
Tuesday, June 16, 2026
It's kind of like I feel more together tonight than I did yesterday.
It feels like it's important to know how much you're willing to explore the different parts that you have inside of yourself. There's traveling and visiting other parts of the world and enjoying learning about other cultures, but there's also inward exploration. I ended up moving around a lot when I was a kid, and then certain things happened when I was older, and I didn't end up traveling as much as I thought I would. It's like I was supposed to explore a lot of different worlds internally and find out what makes human beings get persuaded to go this or that way in their lives, and then I had to figure out how to make a new way to go forward, for myself and for others. But if I didn't feel very supported, I wasn't doing a very good job of it. And pain and illness can be such terrible distractions too. And financial issues are a stressor, and those also get impacted by pain and illness and trauma. And if you listen too much to an imbalanced society, you believe the support you need should take a very specific form, and then you feel like you're too oppressed because you didn't get that specific form of support that you needed. Instead, you're supposed to expand your horizons and grow spiritually, and find other ways of being in the universe. You're not supposed to just bolster Society as you have found it to be now; you're supposed to create a new one.
This is good; people are speaking out more about the harmfulness of the imbalanced Patriarchal POV! ❤️
"This campaign flips the script on victim blaming."
femalequotient
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZqIryzxApk/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Medical research has been built around men"
chriiscarpenter
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZn8NSLONXC/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Experiences vary. Knowing about a wider variety of human experiences is more helpful to humanity.
🌊⚕️🧚🏾
"For once I believe in what a billionaire is doing."
thegarbagemom
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZLuuj8vxQw/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"My Body is a Cage"
u/ydkjordan
Cats help a lot of human beings feel more balanced.🐈⬛
Cats are very good at being cats.
"This Incredible Jelly"
u/SnackSamurai
https://www.reddit.com/r/oddlysatisfying/s/X8LMaxbHKN
"When Three Faces..."
u/ DeScepter
https://www.reddit.com/r/Cinema/s/GnCtSTCl8Z
"St. Jude's is in Memphis"
montemader
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZnsR-fRoNo/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This is a very expensive place to live.
I have to look up how much things I can't get cost to motivate myself.
How come I never heard of her before? There should be a movie about her.
And I forgot I'd seen clips of the film based off her book.
"Edna Ferber" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edna_Ferber
"Giant Love: Edna Ferber, Her Best-selling Novel of Texas, and the Making of a Classic American Film" | The Curious Reader
"Giant (1956) Official Trailer"
I've been waiting for a couple of decades to read this book again.
I want to see how this holds up: "Melusine" by Lynne Reid Banks
I first read it when I was in junior high. I believe I read at least part of it in California, too. So I must have taken it with me on a "vacation." I found a used copy and ordered it off the internet when I was a young adult living in Illinois, but it never came. I just gave up on it because it was so cheap. It was probably a scam. But this one wasn't a scam, and the book actually arrived.
Oh, it might be signed by the author! That's a pretty name. I've never gotten a signed book as a surprise before.
I enjoyed a vegan meal.
I ate roasted tomatoes with olive oil, raw dandelion greens, parsley, cashew cheese and gluten-free crackers. It was very good
And then I was brought, for dessert, a blueberry lemonade popsicle and a book!
Flowers and a page from today's helpful library book.
"Everyday Ayurveda for Women's Health" by Kate O'Donnell
In "Part Three: Finding Balance Through the Seasons of Life," from the section called "Purusarthas: The Four Aims of Life"
"Dharma: Righteous, ethical living
Artha: Wealth, material goods, security
Kama: Desire, gratification
Moksha: Emancipation, spiritual freedom"
Page 106
This was helpful for me to see because it feels like the dominant culture is neglecting a few of these aspects. My body might need to feel more balanced in order to feel better than it has been with what the dominant culture is currently providing.
And this one, too.
ICE will be looking for sick children. And then what?
"St. Jude's is in Memphis"
montemader
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZnsR-fRoNo/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
When I was able to look at the internet again, this caught my eye.
"As the U.S. turns 250, this historian has blunt advice: 'America has to grow up'"
https://www.npr.org/2026/06/15/nx-s1-5856348/america-250-eddie-glaude
Someday they maybe will want to do more healing types ofthings, too.
Let's tune in with more healing types of things and let others do their other things, and hopefully, most of the time, we may be able to know that's what's much better for health and well-being at the moment.
Or I'll ask my angels and health guardians and flower essences to help me now.
Maybe angels can help where humans fear to tread.
Turning point, though.
I wonder how this body ever got so emotionally and physically and medically neglected. It's such a big project to deal with at the moment. It takes up all my time. It takes up everything.
I wish they would go away to a sanitarium for their kind. I just don't want to be around them at all.
My least favorite thing about certain kinds of artists is how they think pushing away other people's realities away in the name of their art is what they're supposed to be doing.
They're just dealing with their own neglect in ways that other people really can't replicate.
I feel sorry for people who are so obsessed with art and making art right now. Also, I really cannot be like them right now. Body just doesn't want us to do that kind of thing right now.
They're all just expressing their their sadness in different ways.
I'm sorry the people who were neglected have been neglected. I don't honestly want to create anything that's big or makes a lot of money right now. But maybe in the future I will. I just can't do it right now. There's too much to do. I have to take care of the stressed out, neglected body. I have to make a new and better pattern happen. The body is very needy. The capitalistic culture is so bad for it. The Patriarchy just doesn't know how to take care of this kind of a body at all.
It's time to make the right decisions for the body.
It's time to stop and cry about medical neglect right now. Even if it's if it's just yawning and a little bit of tears squeezing out of the eyes from tiredness and just feeling very tired and that's what it is.
It's time to stop some things because of health issues.
I started to read a book I felt like looking at again, but stopped now. I can read it later.
Ghosts Beneath Our Feet by Betty Ren Wright. I had that book's image in my head. For some reason.
"Ghosts beneath our feet : Wright, Betty Ren"
I have found a lot of books, but I haven't found that one yet.
I want to find a particular illustrated children's picture book where a boy is looking out the window and sees the changes of the seasons.
Oh this is still not it, but it's a good find because I also read it as a little kid so that's cool. I don't know why I can't find the one that I'm looking for though.
"Vintage 1982 First Little Golden Book - My Book Of The Seasons" | eBay
Oh, look at all of these.
None of them are the one I was looking for, but I really like the look of "The Colors Out My Window" by Gabrielle Story illustrated by Maria Mola.
Artistic temperaments are gonna help everyone in the future, or possibly sooner.
"What type of bitch he is..."
edgarthesifu
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZlkrq-zGIx/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"What do you mean you're failing"
liznicoleee_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZkVdF1RvMn/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
" From the very moment I was detained..."
hanne_engan
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DZgqF_zRHVb/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Monday, June 15, 2026
Oh, if only we could all get the help we need a little bit faster.
I'm too sensitive. I can't deal with people who need to go to therapy because I can't have their childhood traumas poking at me. And I'm not their nanny and I'm not their mom and I'm not whoever else and yes, I have worked with people who projected that kind of thing on to me before. Why is everyone so addicted to putting out products? Why don't you, like, want to heal more stuff first, and put out products later? I think it would be more enjoyable. Also, have you ever heard of going from a lower income bracket to a higher income bracket and being miserable anyway, cuz that's what happened when I was in high school. I mean, it didn't last for very long; as soon as I became a young adult, it was done. And by the way, when I became a young adult they didn't let children stay on their parents insurance until they were like 25 or 26 or whatever, like they do nowadays. And I got the kind of genetics that could have used the good health insurance, and I didn't have it, ever. And other people in my family were sicker than I was.
Learning is good.
I think what makes me happy is being able to enjoy learning experiences.
And part of that is being able to feel relaxed.
And part of being able to feel relaxed is not having to feel like I have to feed someone's ego and repeat old traumas over and over again.
You never know, actually, what makes you feel better, do you?
I gave a good tip to someone who kind of delivered subpar service tonight because part of that was due to circumstances that she wasn't entirely in control of, and I liked the person, and you know what, hard-working immigrants deserve more respect than they get, especially nowadays, even if sometimes the conditions mean that the quality of what you get is not, you know, what the rich people are getting most of the time, I suppose. And I feel like she was happy, and that made me happy. And this song is nice right now: Nimino - "Light Up." And the clouds are pink in the sky.
This is kind of funny, though.
"Ian McKellen says he imagined destroying Mar-a-Lago for new Avengers movie"| Movies | The Guardian
California day includes smoke from a fire.
On a scale of me to the other end of scale with the people who are closer to being like Elon Musk.
Why don't you or they go collaborate with the creepy one because he keeps being too creepy and my mind and body don't feel like dealing with his creepy ways.
I feel like they put in that one part at the end of the recording, because it's like, who are the real looters?
Sublime - "April 29, 1992"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=e1dPKfxRhk0&si=siK2JqMoG0Ci77VL
I'm such a different person than I used to be when I was a 14-year-old and had no idea why there was so much about violence and rioting on the news! Who else is different than they used to be when they were 14 years old?
As a parent...
I also think it's a special time to be simultaneously more Native American and more Caucasian, and I'm glad her higher self appreciates my honesty better than is apparent at this level.
"Shooting Snakes" is an underread story and I'm glad I found it.
"Shooting Snakes" by S. Cokal on JSTOR
https://www.jstor.org/stable/40638382
I'm rereading it and I just split a Goya chocolate pudding with the breadwinner of the casa who never stops working these days and I'm going to eat some beef jerky, too.
Then I saw a can of baked beans in the cupboard. So I can have that with the beef jerky!
Anyways, more light content is coming to the surface as usual.
I remember being a little kid and learning about poison white. Sorry, I mean Snow White and the poison apple, hahaha, funny, anyway, and I remember looking at a picture of it and being like why would she (the witch with the poison apple) be so mean? And I felt like this voice was telling me, you should never kill yourself. You should never kill yourself. Isn't that odd? I wasn't very old. Who reads these stories nowadays?
Oh, I suppose you can argue that she's 21 and not a kid anymore.
"ICE Took Mom and Dad. Now the Perez Kids Are Home Alone. – Mother Jones
Four American siblings left to fend for themselves—and they’re not the only ones."
Samantha Michaels
Turn over a new leaf.
"ICE Took Mom and Dad. Now the Perez Kids Are Home Alone.
Four American siblings left to fend for themselves—and they’re not the only ones."
Samantha Michaels
Honestly, I just have to take better care of my health now.
Honestly, I am just sad. But I must take better care of my health. I can't let all the information that floats around out there as a result of the unwell ways of a Patriarchal Culture be such a detriment to my physical experience in my short time on this planet.
Future DSM Manual diagnosis? "Patriarchal Myopia"
"Those born with certain genetics were more likely to be afflicted with this ailment than others, in that awfully imbalanced and upset by the cult of unwell patriarchical mentalites era. Sadly, it was greatly under diagnosed."
And isn't it amazing how many people The Unwell Patriarchy wants to just drop off the radar instead of speaking up?
But now they're even being terrible to the girls and women with the great (by their standards) genetics. How stupid and sexist and shallow can they be?
What kind of love?
Maybe it's the kind of love where the insecure babysitter who's always trying to align with the richest doesn't have to act like the kids who are the poorest are worthless. It's the love like Jesus would have wanted us to have! Kind of the opposite of the people who are getting rich off of the detention centers where hunger strikes are happening. And also not very much like what the people who are into being shallow and acting like they have to be tools of the patriarchy in order to feel good about themselves are doing.
A much bigger version of love than some people envisioned previously.
I'm just going to have to tap into the power of love!
I think it bears repeating.
Frankly, it seems like The Patriarchy wants women to feel like they have disabilities. It's even penalizing the healthier women now.
The universe needs to show me how I'm supposed to live if I have feel like I have a disability.
Nobody ever said you could check off disability if you had feminine health problems. But they were. So, I either need to figure out how I'm supposed to function and make money with an off and on disability, or I need to figure out what I'm supposed to hell sorry I meant to say heal, so I no longer have the disability. Frankly, it seems like the patriarchy wants women to feel like they have disabilities. It's even penalizing the healthier women now.
The body can be a messenger.
It was painful, but now I realize that choosing healing first is necessary for this type of body before the completion of creative projects can be realized. It was really funny that I got somebody laying out an entire plan for me to do a creative project with art and writing, like creating a children's book that has nature as its focus, and it overwhelmed me to the point where I felt like my body was just throwing up all these weird signals at me. Impossible to ignore.
Do something good with your life today.
Had the beginning of a panic attack start around page 70 and stopped to eat some gluten-free crackers and hummus and take an "Anxio Balance" pill.
"Twenty and Ten by Claire Huchet Bishop" | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/1069576.Twenty_and_Ten
The scene with the chocolate impacted my life forever.
"Twenty and Ten (1952)" – A Beastiary of Books
"Twenty and Ten" : Claire Huchet Bishop : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive
And isn't that a sad little thought.
I bet they'd round you guys up before they'd go after Timothée.
It's fun to be at the beginning of new discoveries!
I wonder if this could be about this, or about this, or...
"The New Adam and Eve"
By Nathaniel Hawthorne
https://utc.iath.virginia.edu/christn/chfinhaf.html
"In this history of horror, the call is coming from inside the house" - The Washington Post
https://www.washingtonpost.com/books/2024/10/21/american-scary-jeremy-dauber-review/
"A.G. Exemplary? Considering the American Gothicism of Nathaniel Hawthorne’s 'Alice Doane’s Appeal' and 'Young Goodman Brown'"
"Nathaniel Hawthorne’s American Horror Story" - The Atlantic
https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/2026/07/nathaniel-hawthorne-my-kinsman-major-molineux/687311/
Because I don't feel want to feel like I'm psychologically trapped inside of a concentration camp, and I deserve nice things, too.
🙏 I've decided I'm going to get some bodywork done today. Because self-care is very important. Lucky me!!!! 🍀
There's so many people locked away right now who'd be really great at cleaning... 🪣🧽🧙🧹🧙🏾🧼🫧
There but for the grace of whatever (some say 'God') go you, but bless you if you have the patience to deal with this Patriarchal nonsense.
"Christen Goff Says 'Taylor Swift' Got More Women into sports"
https://ca.news.yahoo.com/christen-goff-says-taylor-swift-132401310.html
I think Patriarchy's reign of misery should come to an end now.
Why do some people who are so different from him identify with him?
"Donald Trump's behavior was shaped by his 'sociopath' father, niece writes in bombshell book" | Donald Trump | The Guardian
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2020/jul/07/donald-trump-abuse-father-niece-mary-book
Yeah, that's not a good way to use your money.
It feels like they're buying land and putting up giant, nightmarishly corrupt, bad daycare centers that are going to attract a lot of abusers of children to work in them.
I think some people have soul contracts with each other.
When I felt like my friend who passed away was following me around after she died, that was partially for myself but it was also because I was supposed to say that she had to get away from an abusive situation. Because if I didn't say so, then her child was going to repeat patterns of getting into abusive situations. So I said something and then I stopped feeling like she was following me around all the time and then she came to me in a dream and looked happy and then she probably moved on to a new life. Because when she was alive she told me she had to get away from an abusive situation and we both said to each other that we couldn't tell her child because her child was too young and wouldn't be able to understand it at the time. So it's interesting how that's coming back to me now.
When when when when sounds like win win win?
"How Childhood Trauma Can Cause Adult Obesity"
"Sex abuse victims struggle to lose..."
"Experts see strong link between sexual abuse and obesity"
https://www.syracuse.com/news/2010/07/linking_sexual_abuse_to_obesit.html
That would also be disgusting.
Man, I hope none of those women were in that job just because they wanted to pick up extra cash for some cute outfits.
Do I have high hopes for how children are being treated in facilities run by iCE?
Hahaha. Stupid assholes. It's all a part of a plan to crank out more parentified daughters to take care of everybody else's b*******.
There. They were really oppressed, weren't they?
I believe that some not too smart women who were forced to be babysitters and who shouldn't have been abused me when I was a baby at a military base daycare facility. But also, there were probably some good ones mixed in with the bad ones. That's kind of weird, huh? Patriarchal people are super f***** up in so many ways.
Good job!!!!
"I'm very glad you're taking this time to work on yourself and not needlessly traumatizing the special children."
That's life on a dense planet, sometimes.
I don't even understand why my bad attitude seems to be helping me breathe better now, but anyways.
Yeah, yeah, this is why I'm so glad that you're going to be able to reincarnate. Go buy yourself something.
"I just need you to know that I would rather fit in better and get richer and look like a fatphobic Nazi to a lot of the world's children and future grandchildren then change or waver in my support for any of the 'super unhealthy for people like you' patterns."
Just clearing up some mucus now.
"It's time to get over the vast majority of rich people not wanting to save Anne Frank," and I thought of you.
Carry on, naughty and wonderful lessons.
I'm glad that you and your friends have so many materialistic things to comfort you, as well as the joy of being genetically superior according to a lot of unwell and f'ed up patriarchal standards, because you're the stuff that parentified daughters are made of.
Ever wake up like that and also sad that it feels like you're getting a cold.
Now I gotta yell at rich men and tell them to be nicer to their wife and kids even if their wife and kids weren't all that nice to me. God I hate the selfish rich people, f*** these people. But higher vibrational love is in the air, sir; I'm sure it is. I just want to get through whatever karmic crap I'm supposed to get through and just have a lot more balance and health and wonderful things like that now. Okay, just take care of yourself. Don't let these people get to you anymore. You need to take care of yourself now. You're not supposed to be too much about the rich people. You're not supposed to be too much about the worse off ones, either. You're just supposed to take care of yourself now. Come on, you can do it. Come on. Let's do this. Come on...
Our Divine Lady in Heaven hallowed be thy presence
May God help me develop the understanding and truly healing version self-esteem that passeth all understanding. Yes, many people could have acted better and been nicer. Yes, putting on the CBD cream with a menthol in it is going to make you feel like you can't open your eyes for a while.
Sunday, June 14, 2026
What a good and well-earned yawn. Finally, a yawn!
Today I was adventurous and ventured out but unfortunately I found myself fending off another terrible headache which an ibuprofen did not seem to be able to touch and was able to drive 40+ miles back thanks to a combination of a ginger shot and a turmeric shot (with pineapple juice! always) and a bag of beef jerky and electrolyte water with Himalayan salt. Also, I got a lot of extra encouragement to actively pursue a creative path from an enthusiastic person after I made a donation and perhaps I got overwhelmed by it. There was this whole thing where I felt like I couldn't deal with the rapacious pleasure seeking of the ones the greater culture has been accommodating for so long, and my headache went along with an internal dialogue about how I have health issues and can't work with the people who've helped create the conditions of a society that made my life miserable for so many years and oh my God how often it's felt like they're going to kill us and I'm going to go first. Then, as the pain receded more, I decided I really do want to feel more relaxed than that, and afterall maybe it's better to not get too overwhelmed with what's happening to those who are even more oppressed, because it's not really helping the oppressed when I do that, but maybe if I can pull myself together, I could help some of them more in the future, and now I just had the idea that it's good to take care of your health first, and maybe you'll do some other creative things later. Sometimes there are programs that don't want to quit in parentified daughters and they really are quite something. They can either push people over cliffs or put them on top of mountains, maybe? Maybe now it's better to relax and read a book or two.
"All About Love" by Bell Hooks and "Green Man" by William Anderson.
Harvesting marshmallows looks like fun!
🧑🌾🌱🫖
"Harvesting marshmallows from the garden!"
@fromthegardenchannel
https://youtube.com/shorts/xkpbT4qaR68?si=SKmd3cgKqLsIs7jV
I haven't been gardening much these days, but I can admire plants.
This is the bush.
Sometimes life can get pretty silly and weird, too!
"Googly Eyes Gardener" - Saturday Night Live
https://youtube.com/watch?v=zc7qJE9Nzo8&si=2GcAB1gxajLZG9s3
&
"Weekend Update: Rebecca Larue the Flirting Expert" ~ SNL
I wouldn't have watched "The Lighthouse By The Sea" today if Anne Frank hadn't started her diary on Sunday, June 14th, 1942.
"The Lighthouse by the Sea (1924)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=gmSIJiEU8kY&si=GilyRQ6hMRFxiHVq
"Doughnut Song (Live In San Diego 12/12/07)"
Tori Amos
https://youtube.com/watch?v=s0rAu3rXpeE&si=NwWCyL3wfBweg2Vp
And I just realized it might be fun to watch more silent films, and to choose your own soundtrack!
"Siren (Live In Detroit 10/27/07)"
Tori Amos
https://youtube.com/watch?v=RgW49Wv8Dp0&si=uBUZrWfexjtCU_wy
I just realized that today is a birthday, too.
"The protesters formed a human banner spelling out 'EPSTEIN' in the outline of a file folder marked 'Trump,' a call for the release of redacted files on convicted sex offender Jeffrey Epstein that reference the president. Outside the file folder, more protesters held a U.S. flag next to letters spelling 'FILES TO TRIALS.'"
~ Warren Pederson
"Banner of bodies on SF beach sends Trump a pointed birthday warning"
https://www.sfchronicle.com/sf/article/ocean-beach-epstein-trump-protest-22298829.php
So, if she could tell he wasn't safe to be around, why weren't other people also able to tell?
"In an interview with NPR soon after the files were released, French Gates said she was happy to be away from 'all the muck' and that the men involved, including her ex-husband, had to answer for their actions. Why did she decide to speak out then, I ask. 'Well, I had not been silent. I had been asked before what I thought of Epstein, and I had spoken my truth about what I had experienced. He was an abhorrent human being, a horrid man, and so in these situations – this is a hard topic for me, you need to know that – my heart goes out to the young girls,' she says. 'I just spoke the truth, which is they deserve some peace, and they deserve some justice.'"
"The justice system didn’t do its job. It did not do its job. Full stop. Epstein could have been stopped"
"Does she feel frustrated that while many women, including Epstein’s victims, have shown great courage in speaking out, Epstein’s male associates are choosing to stay silent? 'What I know is that bad things happen in darkness. We need to have more transparency,' she replies. French Gates understands better than most the secretive, ultra-rich world that Epstein moved in, and I wonder why she thinks he was able to get away with his crimes for so long. 'The justice system didn’t do its job. It did not do its job. Full stop. This could have been stopped. And so again, I think that’s why, finally, we are having a reckoning in society. If we don’t want children to be harmed, the justice system has to work.' But I ask, the scepticism surely sounding in my voice, are we truly having a reckoning? 'I think that would be a better question to ask the survivors,' she replies.
French Gates has said she met Epstein once and found him so repugnant that she had nightmares afterwards. I ask what had so chilled her. Her demeanour changes rapidly. She looks as if she is about to cry. It is upsetting to witness a woman of such unusual self-possession suddenly lose her poise. She turns away, to look at the lake outside her window, and I can see her attempt to compose herself. 'My heart is racing,' she says after a moment, fluttering her hand over her chest. 'Have you ever in your life been around somebody that you just know is evil?' she asks a moment later. 'There you go. You just have your answer. We need to listen to our feelings about people.'
When she said her heart was racing, was she reliving the gut reaction she had on meeting him? 'I’m done. I can’t do any more questions,' she says. I am watching French Gates, trying to read her reaction, but can sense to my right her comms person, who is listening in, tense and ready herself to end the interview if I push things too far. Then she answers. 'Yes. Any woman who has ever been around somebody who is evil or had an experience and then if you’re around somebody else who is evil. Just no, no.' I notice that while she usually speaks in full sentences, her grammar has broken down. I’m sorry, I say, I can see you’re having a strong – 'Visceral reaction, yes,' she interrupts.
~ Sophie McBain interviews Melinda French Gates
"'Have you ever been around someone you just know...'"
"When women step into their full power, we have a different lens on society. We are the bedrock of society. We are the bedrock of the family."
M. F. Gates
It's good this is not you, but...
"Men don't need to be good at their jobs"
sommertothill
https://youtube.com/shorts/HrMP7q8MPg4?si=D3oKp7peK0rDaTX1
It seems the system trains a lot of guys to be like this. And then it trains other people (both men and women!) to just magically unsee what's going on. Because magically unseeing what's going on is oftentimes what's most beneficial for them in the short term.
IMO the phenomenon of others being able to magically unsee what's going on is a real obstacle when your nervous system won't let you be as good at it as other people are. Other people aren't constantly on the lookout for the ones who are the predators, huh?
And not only looking out for who the predators are going to be, but who are the ones who are going to be making excuses for the predators and letting the predators keep on doing terrible things?
A lot of people who were good at magically unseeing things are now financially set for the rest of their lives and enjoying their retirements.
Anyways, dads whose behavior towards women was casually sexist in the past, who now have daughters or sons, I really do hope your children don't feel the need to metabolize that kind of casual sexism just to ingratiate themselves with you and with certain aspects of our Patriarchal Society.
But you can at least give yourself some props for trying to understand other points of view and maybe have some more thought-provoking conversations than you were encouraged to have in the past.
Did you know ginger is supposed to help with migraine headaches?
This is the raw ginger that I couldn't find for 2 days while I was having the migraine headaches. LOOK WHERE IT WAS.
I miss our old refrigerator which had the freezer on the bottom and the fridge part on top before a power surge killed it. There's a surge protector behind this one now.
I was able to find the powdered ginger.
I'm having an experience with this silent film today.
Anne Frank's 13th birthday film.
"The Lighthouse by the Sea (1924)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=gmSIJiEU8kY&si=GilyRQ6hMRFxiHVq
"Doughnut Song (Live In San Diego 12/12/07)"
Tori Amos
It's time to move on to the next thing now!
I'm really sick of hearing Vishen's voice talking about "the more fat that you carry" because my phone keeps opening that stupid clip again and again.
The internet can be wonderful! I found the Rin Tin Tin film Anne Frank watched on her birthday 84 years ago!
"For her thirteenth birthday, the Jewish diarist Anne Frank watched this film from a rented reel with an early projection machine along with her friends who thoroughly enjoyed it. Frank was a fan of Rin Tin Tin and mentioned this film in her diary in her second entry, on June 14, 1942.[14]"
"The Lighthouse by the Sea" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Lighthouse_by_the_Sea
"The Lighthouse by the Sea (1924)"
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