Friday, September 30, 2016

Sorry, but..

IT'S NOT HEALTHY.

"I cried because he said such awful things to me with a smile on his face. I cried because I knew he was right. Women of size are hired less often. We are promoted less often. We are paid less for performing the same tasks.

study by the American Psychological Association, released in 2010, supports this. The study found that 60% of overweight women have been discriminated against in the workplace. Obese individuals are rated as less desirable as subordinates, coworkers, and bosses. They are viewed as less emotionally stable and less extraverted than their "normal weight" counterparts. These views are false and unsubstantiated. 

The study explores the relationship between weight, gender, and wage. It confirmed not only that significant bias is present, but that this bias often proves to be fiscally devastating."

http://www.refinery29.com/weight-discrimination-personal-experience



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"As we started to look deeper into the numbers, however, another talking point came up — how much women make in comparison with their partners. Of the straight women surveyed, 55% of those coupled off had lower salaries than their respective partners."

http://www.refinery29.com/gender-pay-gap-husband-wife


*************

"According to Greathouse, "women in today's tech world should create an online presence that obscures their gender. Once they make an initial connection with a potential employer or investor, such women then have an opportunity to submit their work and experiences for impartial review."

Brilliant! Why didn't anyone think of that before? Right, they did. For years, women have tried to obscure their sex and gender to fit into a man's world."

Water & cats

Goleta Water
http://www.latimes.com/local/lanow/la-me-ln-goleta-water-20160912-snap-story.html


Crumbs and Whiskers
http://la.eater.com/2016/8/24/12624248/cat-cafe-los-angeles-first-inside-photos

Bellisima

The aqua color
The funny conversations
(including cats that eat grain-free food, ha)
The feel of the water
1 - 2 - 3 breathe
Do this again

Mysteriously

A conversation floated into the vicinity...a young father was on the phone telling his kid to be good at daycare..."If she tells you to do something, you do it, ok? Don't say no, okay?" And then he switched to another speaker. "Here its just me, my mom, and my dad. My mom gives into him and her excuse is, it's because I am the grandma. But my dad doesn't give into him and I don't give in to him." Earlier, I dreamed a mother was going through a divorce and saying, "It's okay for us, we're adults but its hard for her" (daughter).

O modern times

O
http://www.cnn.com/2016/09/29/health/weight-discrimination-obesity-trump/index.html

MODERN
http://www.kansascity.com/news/politics-government/election/article104735046.html

TIMES
http://nymag.com/thecut/2016/09/i-tried-hillary-clintons-diet-and-now-i-sympathize-with-her.html

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Down the rabbit hole...

I was thinking about music therapy. I wanted to find a musical illustration and then I thought about a picture I'd seen this summer and then I searched and then...

https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/Category:Latin_Grammar_Book_for_Maximilian_Sforza_-_Biblioteca_Trivulziana_Ms.2167

~~~~~

https://de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Massimiliano_Sforza#/media/File:Emperor_Maximilian_and_Massimiliano_Sforza.png


http://library.nd.edu/medieval/facsimiles/learnlat/donat/7v8r.html

????

OK

"One of the many things I learned at the end of that Classics corridor down which I ventured at the age of 18, in search of something I could not then define, was this, written by the Greek author Plutarch: What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality."

~ http://harvardmagazine.com/2008/06/the-fringe-benefits-failure-the-importance-imagination

Benefits

poverty...failure...talent...intelligence...

http://harvardmagazine.com/2008/06/the-fringe-benefits-failure-the-importance-imagination

J.K. Rowling speech

These musical things


http://www.npr.org/2014/03/09/286897935/putting-a-name-and-face-to-a-famous-voice

Change?


"History is decidedly unafraid of “the woman card.” It doesn’t care how many people will stand on tables today and swear they’d feel the same if she were a man. It will see us for what we are—a sick society, driven by misogyny and pathetically struggling to come to terms with the fact that women do not exist solely to nurture."

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/larry-womack/stop-pretending-you-dont-_b_12191766.html?


"I’m sorry. And I retract my previous position of hatred and angst towards you. You have made mistakes, some of them grave, and some of them unforgivable. Unfortunately, that comes with decades of life in the public eye, pressure and microphones in your face. But you have also accomplished far more in your life as a public servant than just about anyone that’s run for this office, and certainly far more than I ever will."

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/isaac-saul/i-wrote-that-i-despised-hillary-clinton-i-take-it-back_b_12220124.html?

Commute music

Of Monsters and Men ~ Mountain Sound
Cautious optimism

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Hidden rooms and discoveries

I was able to explore a place and realize I had only been accessing 1/3 of of it's resources....Isn't it beautiful to feel like new things are opening up....

clickclick

Another Shkreli? http://fortune.com/2016/09/27/mylan-epipen-heather-bresch/

Hmmm...
http://qz.com/792003/diy-epipen-costs-30-dollars/

Ok, brain...go to sleep.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Pretty healing song



Robbie Robertson and The Red Road Ensemble Music For The Native Americans Mahk Jchi (Heartbeat Drum Song)

Ah ha

http://introvertdear.com/2015/05/13/the-science-behind-why-introverts-struggle-to-speak/

So


tired already???

This happened

after a visit to the library...

https://www.mprnews.org/story/2016/09/23/books-girls-life-vs-boys-life-magazine-comparison

It's early


maybe something in the universe wants me to pay attention to this...some people want to ignore it...I know that...I had dreams of young women being disrespected...for example, a young woman getting blackmailed about some kind of photo or video or behavior, and then her standing alone and imagining how other people, including female peers, would talk about or shame her...this was a trauma dream...women do not exist to be ornamental props to others egos...

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Before and after

Before, it's a papasan.
After, it's a giant cat bed.

Hmmm...

A Bonny Method Experience

Could it cure a cold...

I have two in my head

Death by Diamonds and Pearls & Honest
They were played at a concert I might have attended but couldn't go to.
Not too familiar with their music, but those I like.
Apparently the second one was played live for the first time. **************************************
Hey, to think of it, the first one kind of goes with BORNS American Money.

Life

I love chicken soup with lemon and kale leaves.
LOVE.

Before chicken soup: I am embodying the cold monster.
After chicken soup: I see the light!

Ridiculous cat can make a toy out of anything.
(Backpack straps, binder clips, old peppermint candy, crumpled up receipt)

~~~

LATER ~ Some thoughts on rewards.

Some people are more satisfied with external rewards and some people find internal processes more rewarding. Many like some combination of both...I think a medal is a medal and money is money but they are more valuable when they come with some kind of progress...When it comes to societal structures, gender roles, etc. some people are much more satisfied than others with the way the system is currently operating...

Saturday, September 24, 2016

Happy things

I received some very nice gifts recently. Today there were three packages (unexpectedly they all came at once)...

I had a good time rollerskating last week...alright I fell down once and was hugging the wall a lot at first but then the experience improved...

It's a cold...it will get better!

Body stuff

I feel hot but I have a cold...

"Fathers can also contribute to a macho culture."
~ http://www.theatlantic.com/education/archive/2013/09/boys-have-deep-emotional-lives/279359/

"Children are encouraged to follow rigid gender roles in school."
http://everydayfeminism.com/2016/06/men-taught-to-objectify-women/

I think maybe it's time to take a break from this stuff...

Highest to Lowest...

https://www.fastcompany.com/3053226/strong-female-lead/what-the-gender-pay-gap-looks-like-by-industry

"Here's a list of occupations and what the wage gap is between men and women:
  • Farming, Fishing, and Forestry 9.4%
  • Installation, Maintenance, and Repair 7.6%
  • Production 5.9%
  • Construction and Extraction 5.2%
  • Management 4.5%
  • Sales and Related 4.5%
  • Transportation and Material Moving 4.1%
  • Business and Financial Operations 4.0%
  • Life, Physical, and Social Science 3.9%
  • Protective Service 3.3%
  • Education, Training, and Library 3.2%
  • Computer and Mathematical 3.0%
  • Food Preparation and Serving Related 3.0%
  • Healthcare Practitioners and Technical 2.8%
  • Legal 2.5%
  • Office and Administrative Support 2.5%
  • Healthcare Support 1.9%
  • Architecture and Engineering 1.7%
  • Arts, Design, Entertainment, Sports, and Media 1.7%
  • Community and Social Services 1.6%
  • Building and Grounds Cleaning and Maintenance 1.6%
  • Personal Care and Service 1.4%"
https://www.fastcompany.com/3053226/strong-female-lead/what-the-gender-pay-gap-looks-like-by-industry

This has NEEDS IMPROVEMENT all over it.


http://time.com/4398888/doctors-gender-wage-gap/

This is sad:

"Competitive threat"
"Collaborative threat"
"Favoritism threat"

http://business.time.com/2012/05/11/the-real-reason-women-dont-help-other-women-at-work/#ixzz1uZNcDVvV

Another finding on looks and women

"We found that women, even within a normal BMI range, suffered greater weight-based bias compared to men who were overtly overweight,” said Nickson.
Nickson adds that the findings raise a number of practical implications, both ethically and from a business point of view.
“Ethically, the results of the study are deeply-unsettling from the viewpoint of gender inequality in the workplace, highlighting the unrealistic challenges women face against societal expectations of how they should look,” he said."
http://psychcentral.com/news/2016/09/09/weight-discrimination-at-work-extends-to-healthy-bmi-women-too/109638.html

Monday, September 19, 2016

Happy napping was happening

This is fun. They thank their characters.

http://www.usatoday.com/story/life/tv/2016/09/19/tatiana-maslany-orphan-black-emmy/90672384

http://www.thisisinsider.com/emmys-rami-malek-surprised-by-emmy-win-for-mr-robot-2016-9

I think I was napping. I had been feeling kinda low and fell asleep but woke up at about 10:30...It was one of those naps when you wake up feeling much more rejuvenated...



Some surprizes?

Orphan Black & Mr. Robot

http://www.latimes.com/entertainment/tv/la-et-st-emmys-rami-and-tatiana-20160918-snap-story.html


Sunday, September 18, 2016

Raiment

Kid's choice
Circus poster

Interest

When I look inside myself, I think, deep down, I have a strong interest in feeling like healing is possible. It's a good feeling to lean towards healing...There seem to be some things that can get people away from that feeling. Expecting conformity. Lack of interest in others. Immature or disrespectful behavior or belittling people who are different than what was expected. Over-emphasis on external things. Lack of communication. These things can ruin what could have been a better experience. They can trigger feelings of disbelief, anger, sorrow, humiliation, betrayal. So those are like the feelings that are the opposite of that good healing feeling. What can get one towards it? Recognizing and acknowledging and accepting the wish for better things and changes. Taking time to care for oneself and making peace with all the little things inside of oneself...

Well

Early a.m. - go back to sleep?
Wondering about some things
Like what to do in regard to perceiving practices that disappointed because they were unnecessary and unhelpful
And discriminatory

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

plant medicine

I could look for this one again...
http://plants.usda.gov/core/profile?symbol=JUSP4

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Boil, right...

Propiedades Auxiliar en la menstruacion  
Modo de Empleo  
MODO DE USO: 1 cucharadita para 1 taza de agua, hervir por 15 min. Tomar caliente como te en ayunas y a lo largo del dia como agua de uso. Tomar 1 L por dia.
Precauciones  
PRECAUCIONES: No dejar al alcance de los niños. Guarde en un lugar fresco y seco.
http://tienda.medinavirtual.com/productosIndividual.php?id=3001 

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Musical Page
http://eljardindejudith.blogspot.com/2014/05/usos-medicinales-de-muicle.html

Oh the discomfort and the discounted


"They shifted in their chairs, reached for their glasses of wine and tried their best to not make eye contact. One woman finally spoke up, saying, “I don’t agree. My greatest mentor was a woman.” Another woman countered with, “I think women don’t want to look like they are a feminist, so they are careful about advocating for other women.” Quickly, the conversation turned to the importance of men advocating for women, with an unspoken but clear implication that it was less important to have a woman advocate. The room psychologically avoided the notion that women distance themselves from other women by denying it, excusing it and eventually dismissing it as not that important."


Reason one: They want to show that they are a part of the team (men's club).

Reason two: They face subtle or not so subtle disapproval from their male peers.

Reason three: Women helping women is not valued work.

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Amused

"What's wrong with this guy"
What Mr. Robot's Rami Malek Really Snorts in Those Morphine Scenes

"And his name got called and he won and she's like, 'He deserved it.'"
Rami Malek Makes His 'Ellen' Debut

Clouds


(at dusk)

There are shows...

I need to be out in nature more, but...
"What's that about? What are you watching"
Sat down and got sucked into Season 1 of Mr. Robot. That guy is a good actor. Especially at the horrifying end of Episode 6... there's a lot of shows... after a few Mr. Robots it might be time to try that slow knitting show...or others...

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/arts-and-entertainment/wp/2015/03/13/a-five-day-boat-ride-twelve-hours-of-knitting-are-americans-ready-for-norways-slow-tv/

Food choices

Welcome to Heaven, here's your harp

Welcome to Heaven!

https://yurielkaim.com/chia-pudding-recipes/

Welcome to....

http://www.eater.com/2016/9/12/12887544/burger-king-cheetos-chicken-fries

https://nondante.wordpress.com/2011/08/06/the-happy-face-of-hell/

It's one of those times

when I feel that both men and women need to learn to listen to their more nurturing sides and their vulnerabilities...because it's easy for people to be unnecessarily careless with others if they don't respect that side of themselves...if they have to be tough and despise weakness in themselves, then they will also be demeaning to other people... and this is what some people think "strength" is apparently???

Monday, September 12, 2016

Dress code

"The problem is not with the girls and the length of their skirts nor whether or not they choose to share photos with their boyfriends or anyone else," Manning wrote on Facebook. "It's with the boys themselves; their sense of entitlement and sexist attitudes towards women and girls, their lack of respect, and the trust they CHOOSE to break."

"Female students are more likely to be impacted by strict dress codes than their male counterparts, as evidenced by a Staten Island school where 90 percent of dress code violations were tallied against female students"

http://aplus.com/a/catherine-manning-daughter-slut-shaming

Maybe should send that to my mom...vaguely remember her talking about how in the '60s she got reprimanded for wearing a skirt that was too short at school...when they went to some kind of meeting, her mother told her, "You wear your shortest skirt and I'll wear mine!"

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Dress up

H0-
MADE
M00N
PIE

COOKIE / CREAM / COOKIE


ONE:
Wait over by the car...

TWO:
"Winger was always a feisty opponent of sexism in the image-driven film industry. Explaining her clashes on the set of An Officer and a Gentleman, she has said: “I did not have a great time on that set. Studio mishegoss. I was being really jerked.  And most of those guys are dead now. So I don’t feel bad. People like Don Simpson they were pigs. I’m sorry, may he rest in peace, but he’d go to dailies and bring me a water pill. They treated girls very badly. I was trying to stand up to it. And it was hard. I was really young." 

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/tv/2016/03/18/debra-winger-interview-lots-of-people-dont-like-me/

O actress

THREE:
"They act so discreet..."
Dress Up In You ~ Belle & Sebastian


Did she like it

Did Isabella like this one

https://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/La_Danse_de_la_mari%C3%A9e_en_plein_air

It's a thing to wonder.

How to marry

Nature and Books...

"...it affected me like looking into an impassable swamp, ten feet deep with sphagnum, where the monarchs of the forest, covered with mosses and stretched along the ground, were making haste to become peat. Those old books suggested a certain fertility, an Ohio soil, as if they were making a humus for new literatures to spring in. I heard the bellowing of bullfrogs and the hum of mosquitoes reverberating through the thick embossed covers when I had closed the book. Decayed literature makes the richest of all soils."

 ~ https://www.brainpickings.org/2015/04/23/thoreau-on-libraries/

in.my.head.


80s music

U2 ~ Wide Awake

U can...

get yer...
66 kicks...

Dessert discovery

Was lucky to eat out...really nice server (tipped her well) and a cozy atmosphere. It was not crowded. Some patrons spoke Italian to servers. Food was delicious. There was an amazing dessert called semifreddo with lots of toasted almonds...surpassed expectation! A couple in the dining had a disagreement and the man stormed off but slipped or twisted his ankle. The wait staff was concerned and knew them...but things were sort of getting patched up as they left...the dessert was really excellent...

Welcome to our conference room

"....more aligned with my goals...I am really maturing now. My behavior in the past is past. I found different women who serve my self interest better and I give them lots of compliments so they won't have to think about my other behavior. Cool ladies love compliments..."

Whoops, wrong conference room for you....Wake up, it was a dream.

Friday, September 09, 2016

Mystery song

Hey hey I got something to say
Tick tock could you take me for a walk

I wrote those lyrics down, but I don't know what the song is. A female singer was singing them. I thought it would be easy to find. Did I mishear or is it obscure?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Oh...so I misheard it...
Hey guy have you got something on your mind
Tick tock...
Hey guys I got something on my mind
Tick tock...



Middle Kids ~ Edge of Town

Read...

B
http://bust.com/feminism/17063-phyllis-schlafy-dies.html
U
http://bust.com/feminism/16124-what-an-anti-feminist-student-taught-me-about-feminism-bust-true-story.html
S
http://bust.com/feminism/17083-allure-body-hair-positivity.html
T
http://bust.com/feminism/17059-catholic-nuns-feminism.html

Wow...

The power dynamics involved in stuff like this are pretty problematic.... evolution. Please.

More...

Swimming, walking, stretching, yoga...

Thoughts

Oh the thoughts.
See I have a communicative womb again (or something) and am doing a hot castor oil pack, even though I wouldn't because there's no a/c but at least there's a fan and a really cold rice pack.
Ummm.
There are people who seem to feel oppressed by women with health issues.
Women are supposed to be I Love Lucy but we are not all I Love Lucy.
Look the best, be fit, be full of energy, be supportive, etc. Like peppy airline stewardesses. And it's like if you don't behave that way, if you actually have your own things to attend to, you get treated like you are oppressive. Really???? But it's those standards that are enforced that feel oppressive.

Also I think this woman's sour boyfriend sounds like a jerk and his mom sounds much better.

Anyways.
Bodies are entertaining.
So happy I got to go swimming today!!!!

Temperature talk

Hello, cat lying by the door. Aren't you hot? I know, me too! And it's not even that bad today.
Also least I went swimming today. Finally. I haven't gone most of the summer. I should make some plans to do more of it more often. Okay, been nice talking to you. Gotta go lie in front of the fan.
Let's hope the A/C works tomorrow.

D for Donut


Receipt for Donut
Plus a funny Swede.

"Sweden has been accused in the past year of failing to live up to its reputation as one of the world's most gender equal countries..."

~http://www.thelocal.se/20160909/put-more-women-on-your-boards-or-be-fined-firms-told

Oh supportive

"I definitely took a good ribbing from my guy friends who called me "whipped" and made fun of my decision for various other reasons, but outside of those jokes, everyone in my life has been supportive."

http://www.businessinsider.com/i-took-my-wifes-last-name-and-was-shocked-by-how-different-the-process-is-for-men-2015-12

His guy friends vs. all the other people who were "supportive."
Which ones were those.

Dream sky and people

Dream was celestial and celebratory.
Beautiful patterns forming in the sky.
Do you see it, do you see it...
And the other:
Yes, I see it, I see it...

Interference

Had such a fun dream. Woke up not at peace, why not? Maybe because sometimes the flip side of a fun happy person could be replaced by that person's need to control, exclude, and even disparage... specially if things were not going according to certain expectations...

Wednesday, September 07, 2016

this will be...

my last indulgence

I really

a) love to procrastinate with music
b) have a soft spot for these guys sometimes...

F.F. ~ He Doesn't Know Why

so circular

donut shops again

http://www.latimes.com/opinion/la-oew-newman4apr04-story.html

bangles song



walk...

OH lord...

I need to do something new....
I didn't go swimming all summer, it's sad, I used to love it so much...

THIS is fun

I may have a weird sense of fun, but this was delightful:

https://www.discoverlosangeles.com/what-to-do/events/donuts-cambodians-and-los-angeles

I always wondered why LA had so many donut shops. I heard of other East Coast people noticing it and wondering about it too. I felt validated to know that SOMEONE TOOK THE TIME TO FIND OUT!

I am so going to that talk.

This is also fun:

 
TEDxRainier ~ Chrystie Hill

!!!

Thoreau made a surprise appearance. (1:15)

what could possibly

be more fun
than a bunch of girls
worshipping how great a guy is
WHAT COULD POSSIBLY
BE MORE FUN
 I am possibly in a weird mood because I was trying to look up feminist schools and came across this NSFW social phenomenon article (although it's appropriate??? considering some of the things I read on the walls of the young college age ladies room...)
"“Why not? That’s the way I think about it,” says Justin, a senior at California State University, Fullerton"
"...men are way overestimating...the same way we overestimate how attractive we are in our duck face selfies."
*******
The young ladies who write on bathroom walls grow up to become lawyers and mothers and all sorts of things.

Tuesday, September 06, 2016

Really plain thought

We (we the people...) could be better at quiet, not too crazy, friendship.
Like a couple of guys (or girls) quietly fishing by a river.

I like...

these fish and shrimp tacos ... very spicy and kind of unexpectedly garlicky.

I see...
men playing soccer. Argentina / Venezuela

I think...
Everyone likes support.

I also think...
I am not the most "traditional."

Someday...
a solution will come.

Monday, September 05, 2016

Labor Day: looked at some stories...

Today...
http://www.davisvanguard.org/2016/09/monday-morning-thoughts-farmworker-overtime-bill-one-small-step/

http://www.crcconnection.com/2016/09/05/farm-worker-overtime-expansion-bill-heads-to-governors-desk.html

http://www.latimes.com/politics/la-pol-sac-skelton-legislature-adjourns-middle-class-farmworkers-20160905-snap-story.html


Yesterday...
http://magicvalley.com/business/agriculture/california-farmworkers-on-edge-over-historic-overtime-bill/article_7ecbc9b0-5b2a-56a6-965f-aea9e7402538.html

Friday
http://grist.org/food/underpaid-overworked-farmworkers-set-to-get-liberal-labor-protections-farmers-grumble/

luffa cuteness


 www.theluffafarm.com


Happy cat stomach...

The cat ate and did not get sick!
I am pleased.

I'm going to read this and pick out interesting quotes

Admittedly, I feel like I am putting off resolving my car situation and I feel guilty about it but...the mechanic is closed on Labor Day anyway...

Sword and Wimple: Isabel Clara Eugenia and Power by Magdelena S. Sanchez

"Imagine how attractive I'll look"

Page 67, The Rule of Women in Early Modern Europe

Providing certain circumstances...

Providing the cat doesn't get sick again, I will be able to uninterruptedly read these two pieces:

http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20160831-the-complicated-ways-that-money-messes-with-your-morals

Be well, cat!

http://www.spiritualityhealth.com/articles/heart-money-do-ethics-business-matter

Be well.

What...why....

I had another dream...it's like, every time I want to be all peaceful, I get reminded that this is what I find to be more than just annoying, but to the point of unfortunately oppressive....

It's a certain dynamic that exists in some places.

Most People                                           
If I am mean or bullying, people don't like it and they let me know.

My Charming Talented Brother
If I am mean or bullying, it's funny. So, I get away with it!  Sorry I have a some hidden default insecurity that makes me unexpectedly and unnecessarily treat people like trash. (Why? Perhaps because I treated myself like trash for various and complex reasons and then I found a way to keep carrying on my life mission, but since I didn't resolve that b.s. it accidentally comes out when I interact with others.) But you know it's a small price to pay for all the wonderfulness I can offer, so why should I change, which is hard to do? Ha! Ha! Ha! You will be rewarded.

Oh, oh, oh....

Also, the cat just threw up several times. Poor kitty!

To the paper towels and the cleaning supplies I must now attend....

a finding...


T.A. ~ Sugar

*****

"there are also songs...that you’ve claimed were written or co-written by the ghosts...you’ve said that Freddie Mercury wrote 'Sugar'..." 

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/09/24/tori-amos-gold-dust-drugs-ghosts_n_1909110.html

*****

"Mercury, who would have turned 70 on Monday, has had an asteroid named after him..."

http://www.cnn.com/2016/09/05/world/asteroid-freddie-mercury-birthday/index.html

older, beautiful...

oh still almost like it was yesterday!!!

T.A. ~ Interview Clips of Crucify & Icicle

The 90s The 90s The 90s The 90s The 90s The 90s The 90s The 90s

CC

Cultural / Conversational

"But some cultures certainly do seem to be more tolerant of shy behaviours. Many Finnish proverbs, for instance, underline the value of contemplation and forethought, with phrases such as 'one word is enough to make a lot of trouble' or 'brevity makes a good psalm' or 'a barking dog does not catch a hare'. 'If you go to Finland there’s a different etiquette,' Moran says. 'There’s a greater appreciation of silence in conversation.'”

http://www.bbc.com/future/story/20160830-why-we-should-celebrate-shyness

"Normal"

"Labour leadership candidate Owen Smith said, 'I’m normal – I’ve got a wife and three children' recently when he was pitting himself against Angela Eagle, signposting her as gay and childless..."

http://www.independent.co.uk/voices/nicola-sturgeon-miscarriage-theresa-may-childless-angela-merkel-sunday-times-list-politicians-a7225036.html

So that's one way of seeing it...

On the other hand...

selection

 of words...

"The problem is that if the audience has never been given the chance to consume nuanced, truthful depictions of women’s lives, it’s hardly in a position to give informed consent to the dull and repetitive sexism that’s shoved down its throat instead."

http://www.independent.co.uk/voices/men-are-becoming-more-objectified-on-tv-and-this-is-why-it-doesnt-matter-a6823861.html

what could it be

It's TOO early.
Maybe if I type it up sleep will return...

I had a rather perturbing half dream about looking through the eyes of a young man who was trying to be truthful with some guys. But those guys didn't want to hear the truth. The truth was too wussy. So they pressure young protagonist to change his story.

It's simple. All they do is simply deny listening to his truth and lead him to a different one, one that will make them be all buddy buddy with each other and satisfy certain criteria...I have a feeling it has something to do with talking about girls.

It's vague as far as details go... but it's just a very simple moment in which peer pressure works a certain way...

Sunday, September 04, 2016

The last songs...

The car was running well for a 1/2 hour after getting jump-started and then it died after parking and re-setting the 11th radio station.
The last two songs that played...
End of Walking on a Dream
Beginning of Feel Good, Inc.

I wonder...
https://axleaddict.com/auto-repair/Solenoid-Problems-Diagnosing-Electrical-Problems-Properly

My favorite person this week

My favorite person this week was a dude sitting in the back of the class who was asked to talk about himself and he couldn't deal with it and he got up and left.

I love that guy!

How much courage does it take to be that sensitive?

I hope he's not so embarrassed that he never comes back though.

V is for vehicle

Well. The car did indeed work thru Saturday...

Today it seems to be in a coma.

Early am significances

Kitty cat places paw on knuckles. "Aw, she wants to hold your hand." It was years ago but seems only yesterday I first heard Bjorkestra's Hunter in a car, driving at night...in the country! Under stars! Past the 45th parallel, Michigan. Freedom.

Saturday, September 03, 2016

I like art


I really like art


by Brueghel the Elder

3 songs plus more


PLUS!



I love music and reading.


Poor them

Poor 20-something grad student getting called in the office after don't give your number to so-and-so, he's not worked with females in some time...Poor tenured feminist, doing her best to deal with the situation...if anything happens between you and him, I expect it will be your choice...Poor troubled soul, getting his life back together...

Well, that was the mid-aughts.

dreams and bees

I dreamed a word. It said"Nothing"on a white backdrop and the letters filled with trees. Read 3 accounts of mosquitoes and bees: One, TwoThree ... I should go for a walk.

????

I felt something. I felt as if I could say"I was having fun. And you crushed it. With your controlling..." And then it was weird...
It was like a switch flipped... "Now turn around" I imagined a voice saying it, controlling a young boy...too much control...

Now I really don't know what to do.
I articulated, to myself at least, something about control...then something flipped and it was like hearing an adult voice was controlling the actions of a boy to an unhealthy degree. Does a child who was controlled become a controlling adult...who then always wants to break free...sad and difficult... it's been a strange experience.

Thursday, September 01, 2016

Above and below

Amazing Photo

wave

magic wand

good intentions

mood vs. kitty

Mood:  Well, a public place did a great job of reminding me of how draining the world's sexist b.s. can be once again. ROWR. >:-/

Cat: PURR!! PURRR!!! PURRRR!!!! PURRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!
WATCH ME MONOPOLIZE YOUR SPACE AND MOUSE AND TRY TO GET ON THE KEYBOARD.
Pet Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyoooooooooww!!!! :-)  :-)  :-)

Freakin' cat.

Waterish things

Heart of glass trailer 

Precipitational

http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/great-movie-heart-of-glass-1976

It looks a bit like an old choose your own adventure book. Maybe a less uplifting ending.

I think I want The Magic of the Unicorn again. Save your village from the drought...

Oh, hmmm...

https://seanmunger.com/2015/06/01/retro-book-review-the-magic-of-the-unicorn-choose-your-own-adventure/

dejo regreso


"it's the broken a/c, it's the heat"
but it was other things too
too many things hanging
over the edge of a car door
accumulated stresses
reflected in the mirror
then compassion, closer
to the more merciful
transitional place
again

I...guess...

One might read this late at night when the a/c is broken

http://www.slate.com/articles/health_and_science/science/2012/08/air_conditioning_haters_it_s_not_as_bad_for_the_environment_as_heating_.html