Boring and overly intense pain in the lower pelvis.
Many months of experience have passed.
Still challenging to be on this planet sometimes.
Thursday, December 17, 2020
But back to the same
Wednesday, December 16, 2020
So clever...
"Instead of having sons and daughters or a husband, I’ve got my hus-band: Sebastian’s my hus-band because he’s always playing with me no matter who I’m playing with."
~ F. Apple
"Fiona Apple on How She Broke Free and Made the Album of the Year"
https://pitchfork.com/features/cover-story/fiona-apple-interview/
I really like my room right now
It feels like a cozy kind of womb room. I hope the next one is just as nice.
This article is interesting.
"A Fiona Apple interview to make your skin crawl - REPLY ALT"
https://danozzi.substack.com/p/a-fiona-apple-interview-to-make-your
You know, the MeToo movement has happened now
That's a different "hidden" issue that people got tired of getting swept under the carpet.
Maybe the nannies should have MeTooToo.
"In Hollywood, the employ of nannies is a more closely guarded secret than homosexuality or net box office receipts. Even the paparazzi, who normally can be counted on to catch celebrities in their most unguarded moments, seem to be in cahoots with them."
~ K. Blakely
"Hollywood's Dirtiest Little Secret: Nannies"
https://www.forbes.com/2010/08/05/celebrity-babies-nanny-angelina-jolie-julia-roberts-forbes-woman-time-mother.html
What're you doing at 4 am?
Cooking organic Italian sausages for now and later. And also, tomatoes with red wine and garlic and basil. It makes for some really yeasty smells.
Not again...
Not tokophobia again.
"T. Amos - Do It Again (studio version)"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YQhd9yQt4i0
Because there's already so much else to occupy your thoughts!!!
https://www.glamour.com/story/sheryl-crow-woman-in-the-white-house
Tuesday, December 15, 2020
Kinda sounds like creative autonomy
"Listen to Britney Spears & the Backstreet Boys New Song 'Matches'"
"Britney Spears Threatens to Stop Performing After Losing Conservatorship Case" | Consequence of Sound
https://consequenceofsound.net/2020/11/britney-spears-conservatorship-never-perform-again/
Lyrical ear
"Excuse me..."
https://www.newyorker.com/science/maria-konnikova/science-misheard-lyrics-mondegreens
"If you feel so sorry for me, then why..."
https://genius.com/Sheryl-crow-my-favorite-mistake-lyrics
Muse...ick ~ muse-ique?
This one is good for being in one's 30s and working in a bar. OR finally quitting that job when the state got snowed in.
"Sheryl Crow - My Favorite Mistake (Official Video)"
Is there a technique
for relaxing cranial muscles. I do not want to get a headache.
Or like, where is the chillllll out music. I am going to look for some.
do I love limbo?
Paragraphs in the dark.
Is this what makes me feel creative.
I guess so.
XXX timepasses
Oh. My. God. I needed periods at the end of the sentences
Monday, December 14, 2020
Quotabl3
"amazing and positive vision of the future,"
"Grimes and Janelle Monáe unveil ridiculously epic ‘Venus Fly’ video"
https://www.factmag.com/2017/02/03/watch-grimes-janelle-monae-venus-fly-video/
also, I see fonts
https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/90s-kids-rejoice-britney-spears-115410499.html
Or maybe glyphs.
Sunday, December 13, 2020
Won't be long
until a noisy freeway is at least a little farther away but at least it can be interesting to learn new things...
"Refraction of Sound Waves & Acoustic Shadows Explained"
http://www.thermaxxjackets.com/sound-wave-refraction-acoustic-shadows/
If you ever sense amusement
because some can think of how funny it is, for those dreamy people to be getting wrapped up in sonnets of the Renaissance, yes, it can be funny to think of them being that way, but you can know there were lots of other kinds of poems, too.
Well i guess video games are getting weirder
Doesn't mean everyone has to act like spaceships are more important than dolphins
https://www.reddit.com/r/ksi/comments/kbnsdi/deji_getting_yelled_at_for_customizing_a_penis_on/
Decided to move because someone cut down pine trees I liked
"‘Every Little Pine Needle’ | Harvard Divinity Bulletin"
https://bulletin.hds.harvard.edu/every-little-pine-needle/
Saturday, December 12, 2020
Petulant Impulses World
If you ever thought a tale about giving a car dealership owner some advice to listen a musician you thought was more feminist was turning out disappointingly, you could go read some Luce Irigary and make some more revisions.
Saved!!!
Some people are truly saved by good old petulance ;-) and in an alternate reality this episode was discussed with several religious relatives...but it would be much better to watch the episode because the review leaves out a lot.
"'Call the Midwife' Reminds Us What It’s Like When Abortion is Illegal | by Cristina Escobar | LatinaMedia.co | Medium"
https://medium.com/latina-media/call-the-midwife-reminds-us-what-its-like-when-abortion-is-illegal-5a5cb606190c
why is this not a movie already
Red Cloud! And that other character!
"Montana Historical Society Press - Autobiography of Red Cloud: War Leader of the Oglalas"
https://web.archive.org/web/20140328160726/http://mhs.mt.gov/pub/press/redcloudex.asp
Poor Pine Leaf. The culture was still very patriarchal. It would have been so much better if she could have been elaborately demonstrative in a less self destructive way.
I had an idea about packing for moving
It's like you have got a lot of boxes already packed, the insides are filled with brown rectangles and now you remove some and decide which other shapes, like blue bottles, or green glass balls, you would like to pack into the boxes.
Then I told myself not to
create a menstrual metaphor but then this article beckoned:
"Red Cloud’s Prized Katana Sword - True West Magazine"
https://truewestmagazine.com/red-clouds-prized-katana-sword/
tough talk tough times terrible phone
why don't you go off the diving board first
then maybe I will try one
Friday, December 11, 2020
It really sounds like a lot of work
which may be why
https://narratively.com/how-the-fiercest-warrior-in-wonder-woman-kicked-her-way-into-hollywood/
a strong interest in soup and hot tea is kicking in right now
Make more time to take more walks
What a wonderful way to process (synonym for humiliation but more subtle, like something from the fairies) that was so much to forget. What if the best word isn't even in English?
Thursday, December 10, 2020
Be HEAL-thy
Be healthy wealthy.
People can add and edit and change what they make and it can become something more.
And sometimes you can see something good in the third or fourth attempts at revisions.
And that's a good thing that can happen here sometimes.
I just know we need to get really smart
I just know it, because we have this whole pandemic thing happening, and that's just one reason, but I just feel it inside, that I want to make better choices and choose things that are aligned with...soul agreements! That's maybe one way of looking at it?
Sometimes I have had an ego and sometimes I have felt really in love with getting closer to what we need to be accomplishing on the planet. I am sure it can be spread across more than one lifetime, but I am in this one now, and others are in their lifetimes. Maybe we can get closer to accomplishing what we want to accomplish. (Synonym search).
And it can be a journey, too...like when they say getting there is part of the accomplishment. I want to get better at seeing how good that can be, too.
Good neighbors
Actually, they sound like they were amazing neighbors.
https://abc30.com/fresno-city-college-professor-student-arrest-held-hostage-attacked/8669650/
Remember liking this one
Grimes - "Oblivion"
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JtH68PJIQLE
And I showed it to a student from Peru who reminded me of a friend from grad school who later passed away.
this one is better as well
"The Marías - Baby One More Time - YouTube"
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=YPHn4xSvjNM
Who hangs out in the countryside driving a white classic car while dressed in all black singing a Britney Spears song? Unique people, that's who.
I CANNOT
believe that they are running this article right now.
"Best Christmas Train Rides - Holiday Train Rides Near Me"
https://www.countryliving.com/life/travel/a40582/holiday-train-rides/
Important Fact
from
"Pretty Owl (Lakota) Red Cloud (1835-1940) | WikiTree FREE Family Tree"
https://www.wikitree.com/wiki/Lakota-16
in bold:
" She also an influence on her husband in political matters, Jeffrey Ostler reports that in 1888 Pine Ridge Gallagher, believing that Red Cloud did not want to sign the Sioux bill because Pretty Owl did not want him to. [6]"
O sleep
are you available?
I am tired of the L. & B. story sometimes.
B., would you like to be a barnacle and attach to him and stab another woman with a tiny red pitchfork if he even looks at them? Does this bizarre imagery help? It's So Weird to be haunted by a story like this! Oh well. Until the next tine...Tine. Ha ha
Wednesday, December 09, 2020
sometimes an owl will surprise
in the suburbs!
Just now!
Don't hear that around here, ever.
There it went again.
Nature will do that.
Repeating itself!!!
Over & over...
Nature making herself noticed
Leaves turned red, framing a sign...
Soon there will be another street to live on.
maybe i like having snail energy
It's useful sometimes.
Also, although he's talented, and the most well-known, E. Sheeran's version of Baby One More Time just makes me think he's thinking about how cool he looks singing it (sorry) so I prefer others, like the version by T. Amos or this new one, Travis because they actually make me believe they're singing it for yearning reasons. Sorry, sorry, maybe that's a very blunderous misreading.
Have U ever
Been such a fan of healthy life balance that it might behoove you to just be a bit quiet for a little ..."the older I get the more I like to do myself that kind of favor" "ah, I can see how that could be so"
It was a good puzzle
Now it is done and I have heard all the episodes of Season One. Well, what if someone did a "Deportee" cover that made "talking shop" sound like fun. And, plans to move, so not sure if another puzzle will be started before that happens. Has language made life easier yet?
Tuesday, December 08, 2020
Minute 12...
♪ To the tune of "Silver Bells"
It was actually more like 12:30
"Why did we stop making videos on our main channel? | Q&A - YouTube" (R & J's Adventures)
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=b7S_LNi0Xrc
♡ Dolphins ♡
"What does the line 'So long and thanks for all the fish!' mean? - English Language Learners Stack Exchange"
https://ell.stackexchange.com/questions/115782/what-does-the-line-so-long-and-thanks-for-all-the-fish-mean
I just watched a video that talked about fishing!
"Heartbroken Olivia Colman Learns Of Indian Orphan Heritage | Who Do You Think You Are - YouTube"
Actually we have been lucky
So far we don't have any power issues.
And, this person looks very happy.
"Hi, I’m Gooch. See that truck and trailer? I drive it to different communities to give books to children in need. Oh and I bring my horse with me. RT so I can get the word out. I’m in N.C. https://t.co/ZMSHB5dzJW" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/zachbraff?prefetchtimestamp=1607466808855
Whereas this one...
"“So long, and thanks for the orifice!” - Alien message decrypted" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/elonmusk/status/1336351038106869760
Fish? Would rather be fishing? Reading?
Dealing with power issues too
They might shut off the power. Something about fires. So I am going to do just one Zoom thing today.
Anyway, this is the time that it is
Emergency alerts about COVID and curfews in the midst of music videos
Song thoughts online
What if one person's self-indulgent cupcake could be another person's nourishing hit (hot) cereal.
"Britney Spears: 'Baby One More Time' oral history | EW.com"
https://ew.com/music/2018/10/23/baby-one-more-time-britney-spears-oral-history/
"Tori Amos Gives Britney Spears A Sign - Idolator
https://www.idolator.com/5253772/tori-amos-gives-britney-spears-a-sign
The videos with covers by A. Palmer and Travis (who is he?) still worked.
Street name names names
How about this info coming up
"Cpl. Mitchell Red Cloud Jr."
https://www.army.mil/article/138736/cpl_mitchell_red_cloud_jr_
"End of an era: Camp Red Cloud is finally closing — for real this time - News - Stripes"
after listening to
slightly exasperated
creativity vs sleep
Someone needs the sleep b/c the world is going to be more noisy pretty soon.
I am thinking about it!
with careful consideration.
"‘The Great British Baking Show’/’Derry Girls’ Crossover was the First and Last Good Thing to Happen in 2020 | Decider"
https://decider.com/2020/12/06/great-british-baking-show-derry-girls-2020-episode/
who does that in these trying times
Looks up the old kitschy music from much younger days for fun when she can't sleep?
"Backstreet Boys - Everybody (Backstreet's Back) (Official Video) - YouTube"
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=6M6samPEMpM
Meeee.
Hmmm, that one had vampires. Don't remember knowing about that when it was always playing on the radio!
People make different things
This recipe is so different...
http://livingwhilelivingwithout.blogspot.com/2013/05/vegan-deviled-eggs-egg-dairy-soy.html?m=1
I might try it.
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/07-hallelujah
Night owls out here
Still haven't finished the puzzle, but better try and sleep because there's going to be landscaping activities and other things.
Some recreational listening...
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/03-the-big-man-cant-shoot
Soccer, basketball...
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/06-my-little-hundred-million
But this was a work thing
"Mr. Happy Man (Kid Friendly) | Global Oneness Project"
https://www.globalonenessproject.org/library/films/mr-happy-man-kid-friendly
Monday, December 07, 2020
hello again
I really need water this morning (late night pie, that's the culprit) and I need to explain all the things, why I could not flourish in the system in the way that you flourished, but life is about more than flourishing in one kind of system. I think it's not hard to seethat for some people, and I need to explain why those interferences were a part of my path too.
Sunday, December 06, 2020
pie was eaten
puzzle progress was made...
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/04-carlos-doesnt-remember
Nature and clean air
I am grateful!
Fires are far away and the only smoke I smell is the pleasant stuff that comes from other people's chimneys.
Not done yet
You know how it is when in the 21st century women will listen to some of your ideas as long as they come from some other source!?
Why is this still a thing.
Suffering from EARWORM
I don't know why this one would not leave me alone for DAYS.
https://genius.com/Paula-cole-where-have-all-the-cowboys-gone-lyrics
Maybe this will kick it out.
https://genius.com/Rachel-bloom-santa-ana-winds-1-5-lyrics
But what if it doesn't need to be kicked out, necessarily?
I understand the launches are never going to be enough.
And?
Kate Manne on Twitter: ""In “Mediocre: The Dangerous Legacy of White Male America,” Ijeoma Oluo punches up rather than down, reckoning culturally, politically and historically with white men. These are the people, she writes, who do most of the dirty work and decision-making." https://t.co/NYyFc6GnUJ" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/kate_manne/status/1333967766685175812
And????
Christine Nangle on Twitter: "I work at Four Seasons Total Landscaping in PA https://t.co/cX6bIMkag8" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/nanglish/status/1325242917519233024
puzzle accompaniment in the wee am hours
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/21-divide-and-conquer
&&&&
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/23-a-polite-word-for-liar-memory-part-1
Sunday politics
I tore myself away from obsessing about sinuses to appreciate this:
"Elizabeth Warren on Twitter: "I’ve known @RepKatiePorter since she was a law student in my bankruptcy class 20 years ago. To answer your snotty question, Sec. Mnuchin: not only is Rep. Porter a lawyer, she can run circles around you and any of your legally questionable and morally bankrupt policy failures." / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/SenWarren/status/1334245261363843072
123
I really want to read more books in print in the future. Phone screen is cracking. Nevertheless...
first
https://www.shondaland.com/inspire/a34703707/just-dont-call-rachel-bloom-normal/
second
https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/holy-bejaysus-wild-mountain-thymes-trailer-mocked-mercilessly-in-ireland
third
https://acatabookandacupoftea.wordpress.com/2018/07/03/review-my-ladys-choosing/
it was kinda fun 2nite
I talked to 2 friends from grad school for several hours. Midwestern women in their cold states keeping in touch during these trying times!
that's why
sometimes I am here to show you how differently the system treats ppl...are you prepared for this?
And that's just one square on my rubric cube, ha ha ha ha
Saturday, December 05, 2020
so much is possible
I love that I can find ways of being better to myself and I can believe in the healing the inner child stuff and my different books and a comforter and an inward 8 year old wants to nap on a fluffy cloud and why not accept sometimes you are not even wanting to be a rational being? That's life on the planet. Heal the headache.
what if a headache is here to set me free
I really need the healing process to unfold.
It is okay. Mistakes happen. Headaches happen.
We have suffered. We have different paths and sometimes they intersect.
Differences are useful...ppl can learn stuff
We can learn things when we have different experiences. Sometimes it must be nice to learn from people who walked a path more similar to yours, but sometimes it's useful to learn from those who had different life experiences. And if there's overlap, maybe that can be interesting as well.
I think I'll not worry about perfect wording so much.
Some people are very busy raising families during the pandemic, but that's for some reason not how it is at the moment in this household. There are a variety of things to do on this planet, that's one thing...
Save the little communications.
flexibility...
why not work with the universe to be a creator of something...what if it's a decent warm-up for the next life, anyway?
Cats & food
Online.
"Rachel & Jun on Twitter: "Good boy Nagi social distancing https://t.co/Xbn6iUesCw" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/rachelandjun
Again...
"How I Made 10 Vegan Gluten-Free Meals For 2 On $25 — Budget Eats"
https://www.delish.com/cooking/recipe-ideas/a34519995/cheap-vegan-meals/
Might not need to of course
But
Miss Margo Adler on Twitter: "I made the mistake of reading the comments on this article: https://t.co/FlCj5nVHev" / Twitter
If you want to feel angry just a few paragraphs into a piece...
Opinion | The Children of Pornhub - The New York Times
https://www.nytimes.com/2020/12/04/opinion/sunday/pornhub-rape-trafficking.html#click=https://t.co/FlCj5nVHev
Respect for diet
Here's the headache
vegan chocolate pie with berries and wholesome ingredients was not the best breakfast choice
Respect
Some of you guys out there
SOME OF YOU and I want to say more than one or two or three...sometimes, some of you are like the missing pieces in my puzzle, and since death is closer in these pandemic times I want to say you might have more to give and you might even have fun and we're here to grow and make things and sometimes we do it quickly and sometimes slowly so let's keep questioning, and great job, even when you led me astray, sometimes you also got me back on the right track, and I am grateful for more than your minds. By which I mean, there's energy. There's stuff in the universe. I am struggling with words but I am alright with it. Maybe there's a method behind my imperfections, but the attempts to express are what's going to help some of us get to the next fun projects, perhaps!!!
What if you are almost grateful for failure or slowness
What if your soul is grateful for the learning that comes as a result of those experiences.
Slowness...that's another avenue...sometimes that's more than you knew it could be, too...
The quarantine brings gifts
We can get in touch with ourselves even when there's tragedy and pain.
Some old teachers I wouldn't mind seeing again someday, and it's not the only time I thought so, only months of isolation have ways of bringing some things into focus. Yay?
I got a roof over my head and we get to work on a puzzle tonight.
Friday, December 04, 2020
We're going through a lot
Breaking news...the ICUs in CA have gone below 13% so the rules are going to tighten.
It's cold out there now. I saw people who seemed to be without homes when I went to the grocery store last night. The store was not crowded. But if only everyone had a warm place to stay.
We're going to move, but once again, it's crisis time. In March, we delayed til April. Now December...will it happen this month, or will it be in January?
I'm going to take good care of my teeth. My dental insurance should cover stuff again next year.
This is the time to be a survivor.
Thoughts of dry ice
"With the Pfizer COVID-19 Vaccine, Dry Ice Is Hot - The Atlantic"
https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2020/11/pfizer-covid-vaccine-dry-ice-hot/617233/
To the tune of "Silver Bells"
creative energy
creative energy
creative energy
creative energy
Wouldn't it be better if we had more of that
Instead of a stupid pandemic
so much better than expected
Warmed up the last of the left over mash pot
1/2 can tuna in olive oil
"super" greens
lemon juice
red pepper flakes
Note to self: watch out for the donuts...
"...despite the film’s cautionary nature, you will crave doughnuts. Lots and lots of doughnuts. Although the king has fallen, the kingdom still stands."
~ K. Crust
https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/movies/story/2020-10-29/review-the-donut-king-documentary
Direction of energy
Can it change...
"MSNBC on Twitter: ".@ahylton26 reports from rural Kansas, where Covid-19 cases are rising, along with some threats and animosity towards health professionals. “People want to blame something, and they can’t blame a virus that is too small to be seen, so they blame people like me,” one doctor says. https://t.co/SC6KZ2f2QY" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/home
Who do you meet on planes?
People who like poetry. Sometimes.
"He called three nonprofits specializing in housing for the elderly. All of them said that they had a waiting list of between five and ten years. The news gave him insomnia. In the middle of the night, he wrote:
~ F. Mari and A. Evans
and some need a miracle
she thought after her shopping trip
"'It’s a miracle': Helsinki's radical solution to homelessness | Cities | The Guardian"
https://www.theguardian.com/cities/2019/jun/03/its-a-miracle-helsinkis-radical-solution-to-homelessness
And
Thursday, December 03, 2020
There's so many people on the plant. Pleant. Planet!
Sharing jokes. Sharing experiences. Sharing lifetimes with plants on a planet.
"The fact that some people can't distinguish between etymology and entomology bugs me in ways I can't put into words"
https://twitter.com/manylittlewords/status/1334523208255614976
Sometimes high profile people are like that too, but soon I will be more evolved and it won't be anymore or less important then my newfound appreciation of the fruit that today I began to call a Korean Pear.
I wonder if the late night grocery shopping venue will have some of those.
And the Lapsang Souchong of my life
is giving me memories of the writer's groups I went to in my 20s.
Or just a friend and I, spending hours in her apartment, drinking tea and writing from prompts, just to see what would come out of our brains.
Stars giving some ideas?
Dreams too. Songs too. Memories too. And even WORDS.
Dreams (the kind that happen when you're snoring), and free time, and some searches, were in the cards. And things were found. A lot of things. And just one thing, among those many things, was...a piece of writing...that just...sort of...was about Wonder Woman and stuff...so it made you READ it. HA! You're welcome, inner child.
So, that's good and now you can get ideas for more things to show young people...but...since it's rather late in the term...that might have to wait for another semester...in the meantime, you can just look up...Three whole music videos that you hadn't heard of before! By Wonder Girls and G-Dragon and Big Bang. Oh, by the time of K-Pop video #3, there was some sort of significant internal shift going on. I mean, in addition to anticipating to a late night jaunt to the grocery store (didn't happen last night...we chickened out...it will happen tonight though!) TRAVEL seemed like it could become interesting again. Yes, there was those who thought they could travel, before the health problems became everything.
Now, the very fact that your health problems and your pains and your anxieties aren't as significant to others can be what makes them so annoying...one might say, perhaps even monstrous...well, when the suffering is minimal, we can attempt to be humorous. Like the Anchorman t-shirt you shipped to your SO for the holidays last year when you were halfway across the country: "I'm kind of a big deal" etc. etc. etc.
And that's why you only spent $77 at the CBD store on Sunday without planning on it.
Yeeees, weeee knooowe.
Well there is a pandemic going on, too. But! Travel could happen again, maybe? Someday...
In the meantime, there's pie.
I saved some for my grocery shopping companion.
So he can't be indignant.
AND.
I told him about microwaving it so the crust is still good.
And Cassiopeia
Saw you during the Perseids, up in the mountains, before the hellfires came.
Actually it seems like the ones closer to the moon are easier to see. Not anything right next to the moon. Just in the vicinity.
Yes, that is Orion's belt
What a impressively clear night. Even if there are streetlamps and a moon, I can see more stars than I usually do.
I wonder if cold makes light from stars travel better at night, as it does with the sounds of the freeway!
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