Ailingness

At a tea shop the other day, I got sucked in by the magazine rack. 

http://press.nationalgeographic.com/2015/11/09/national-geographic-magazine-december-2015/

http://www.nylon.com/magazine

This is an attractive cover, but honestly, does this girl look like she's up for saving people? It kind of looks like the other way around. I thought this interview with someone named Tinashe was interesting (she makes music, she loves solitude...)

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I had a dream a friend of mine was very sick and I worried if it was an illness or morning sickness. Honestly, sometimes I do feel bad for ranting about pcos / cult of motherhood resentment, and the idea that "what if she was having a problem or pregnancy-related issue, would she avoid telling me about it" made me feel kind of small...likewise, if she had some kind of problem with bulimia or something. How do you be honest about what you are going through in a way that does not come back and bite you? These are things you may wrestle with in an all girls dorm at college but the situations change continuously.

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I looked up Tinashe. That "Player" video with Chris Brown? Um, he keeps making weird facial expressions that kind of gross me out...

All Hands On Deck ~ Cool Venue

Longterm goals

I wanna be like Madeline in my next life.

http://the-toast.net/2015/12/14/madeline-kahn-monday-i-was-a-singing-waitress-at-a-hofbrau-house/

This sounds cool

Speaking in Whistles

Ha ha: "Do you have the mushroom fungus in your cornfield?"

Only the men whistle.

(Did any women or girls ever? In secret?)

I wonder what would have happened if one of them had been a female anthropologist.

Extra

I'm a workaholic! Omg you're an amazing human being. I have a binging disorder! Omg that's so sad. I make electronics and live in a factory dorm! What, you exist??

Tsundoku!

TV wasn't the thing tonight, apparently. But I learned this new word. Who knows. Maybe I will become all about reading and my own ways of being active. It could happen to me.

Good

http://thesycamoretree.livejournal.com/17824.html

I felt pleased with walking/yoga today and I'm going to have an enjoyable night of watching TV.

http://www.geofffreed.com/2013/04/post-25.html 

welps

Sparta School (Hard Dubstep Edit)

A princess film

https://www.nowness.com/story/screen-tests-ashley-smith

To do

I've been encouraged to visit this place.

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Hmmm!

https://www.wgfoundation.org/programs/military-veterans-writing-workshop/

Beauty Product Imprint

Rachel Perry Products from Minglement

technological amusement

I'm trying to watch that Jessica Jones show.
Someone has a wireless network named "Pick up your dog shit."

MUSEEEQUE

Oh I know I repeat my songs over and over but I love these two sometimes!



Indian Summer


Tombigbee

It's a thing

I thought it might be! I knew I wasn't completely crazy.

http://www.stuff.co.nz/life-style/life/70873407/The-rise-of-multi-parenting-These-five-people-are-about-to-have-a-baby-together

https://verdict.justia.com/2013/10/15/california-allows-children-two-legal-parents

Saturday Night's Alright For Shopping

I was in line behind a little boy and his parents. The little boy kept holding up a box of candy and saying, "Mom, I want to get this for your mom for Christmas!"

Then he'd wait to see if she reacted. 

Mom was not interested in his behavior. She was talking to the man about other topics.

The boy tried this four or five times and then she stopped and looked at him. I waited to see if she'd just say, "Oh that's a nice thought" or something. But she did not say anything of the sort.

She just went back to talking to the man.

The boy said it two more times, then gave up. He went and got another box of candy.

"I want to buy this for Christmas!"

He said it once, then put it back. They obviously were not interested in him. I was thinking to myself, "I know I've read those articles where they say the kids actually benefit more if the parents put their relationship first, but, ugh."

The boy went away from the parents and stood next to a sign.

He was there for a few minutes, when the man said, "Stop that. You're going to knock over the sign."
 
And then mom scolded him. He came and stood next to her.

"Quit pulling on me!" she hissed.

Then the man yanked him by the back of the neck of his hoodie. It was uncomfortable. The boy's eyes bulged.

"Let's go outside."

They left. I was tempted to inquire, "Ma'am, is your child the product of an unwanted pregnancy?" But I didn't. That would have been very bitchy.

Anyways.

Maybe this is why the world needs aunties sometimes?

Body weirdness

It has been less than 12 hours since I took my measly half dose of Metformin. I have not dieted at all today, except for refraining from putting cheese on a sandwich. In particular, I ate a ton of sunflower seed butter on apple slices. My jeans feel loose, almost as if I should trade them in for a smaller pair at home. I am surprised.

Society and genetics are unfair. Remember that next time you see a girl in a coffee shop simpering over a man in uniform.

Evolutionary

There were some changes...
There is some stark footage...
http://starbrydge.com/blog/2014/08/21/pays-price-human-cost-electronics/

dunno what it is...

Like, sometimes I feel like the voice of the girlfriend in the Clear Cookies sketch just gets stuck in my head...like a needle on a record...and it goes round and round and round...

Yeesh...something.

What's in your cellphone?

"They called it 'banana oil.' Long Li didn't ask what was in it. All she knew was that she was supposed to use it to clean cell phone screens, hundreds of them every hour. Fumes filled the air in the windowless room where she worked, in a three-story factory outside the southeastern China city of Dongguan."

http://www.wired.com/2015/04/inside-chinese-factories/  


"One of the individuals that White follows in her upcoming film did commit suicide in January 2014 after receiving a terminal diagnosis. And this problem isn’t just isolated at Apple facilities, either.

'While I was [in China,] I actually heard many cases in other factories where workers were committing suicide,” she says. “I think it’s a fairly widespread problem, either from the pressure or from finding out that they have a terminal diagnosis of something like Leukemia.'”

http://www.thetakeaway.org/story/produce-apple-products-chinese-factor-workers-pay-steep-price/

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It’s hard not to look at the nets. Every building is skirted in them. They drape every precipice, steel poles jutting out 20 feet above the sidewalk, loosely tangled like volleyball nets in winter.

http://www.wired.com/2011/02/ff_joelinchina/

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"The women never suggested a boycott, though, and a lack of consequences with teeth surely did not help their effort. FIFA and tournament organizers merely ran out the clock, and in the end everyone just agreed to get on with it.

But on Sunday the players stood their ground. And U.S. Soccer not only listened to their concerns but made clear it was doing something to address them.

None of the women’s international games set to be hosted by U.S. Soccer in 2016 will be played on artificial turf, said Neil Buethe, a spokesman for the federation. That includes a four-team tournament the Americans will host early next year in place of their regular trip to the Algarve Cup in Portugal, and any matches before the Olympics, where FIFA has again insisted on natural grass — because the men will be playing in the same stadiums as the women."

http://www.nytimes.com/2015/12/09/sports/soccer/on-turf-us-women-dig-in-their-heels-at-last.html?_r=0 

And just think...

Of all the people, at all the big and little businesses all around the world, making materials that contribute to our fun or convenience, who might need to be affixing their oxygen masks.

whats going on...

911 first responders bill.

Affix your oxygen mask.

A slightly medicated day

Indeed, aspects of your physiology are not altogether happy...the spirit is willing to go on a hike but the body will be staying in with a palma christi pack...treesypine: pine, I know you are shy...tree, I am not shy, I'm Quiet and Independent...did you ever have to make up your mind...why for some reason images of men in Hazmat suits wandering a landscape of gray ashes while little beeping noises go off everywhere... That was 911...when you weighed less...there is a painful insistence on the palma christi pack now...because of medication or cramps...maybe you will never know...

They pair well

This post about preparing a meal for one.

This post about adorable people, hot springs, and a cute cat!

It is possible that I have weird taste...it is possible that I have California taste.

Selfserve

M: hey, lets just get fit and happy and healthy and ignore issues that bring up bad feelings and get in the way of everything...
M: That's not going to work!

Cinema!

Tonight: Carol

plans

Read this interview and listen to the Carrie & Lowell album.

politics

wigs
plus
cheetos make-up

medicinal

I feel like having a showdown with Metformin because I still want to try TCM and Berberine even though the cop gave me the expensive ticket. MMMMMM.

http://kingsenglish.info/2011/07/02/physician-heal-thyself/

A Dios Microbeads

http://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2015/dec/08/us-to-ban-soaps-other-products-containing-microbeads

In charge of le monde

If it were up to me, I would not let attractive slender girls laugh nervously as they inquire about your prescription before they hand it over and then recite its worst side effects, but I am not God. Nor do I run Hollywood. So there it is. In lieu of the "shrug" emoji:

http://www.theatlantic.com/technology/archive/2014/05/the-best-way-to-type-__/371351/

and this oldie:

The End of the World

Likes

Crouching over a kitchen sink, staring out the window at green leaves and feeling all this warm water pouring out of the kitchen faucet, all over your hands.

That is very nice.

Now, I think my pint-of-icecream binge deserves a full body shower.

I'm very happy the property manager fixed whatever was going on with the water heater.

Dessert

The ice cream is almost gone.
I'm not suffering any major side effects.

Very, very interesting

Don't know if I would be able to submit anything but would definitely be interested in reading this anthology: Not That Bad: Dispatches From Rape Culture (nice to see it also includes "What it’s like to negotiate rape culture as a man.")

M

is for Metformin.

I haven't been keen on taking medication. Well, perhaps thanks in part to a costly traffic ticket (making me consider that pursing Chinese Medicine, Berberine, etc. is not so cost-effective)  I am now in possession of these pills which insurance covers.  

What are you taking it for? asked the women behind the counter. That's what I thought...she laughed...that's what I thought...it will (she listed off the unpleasant side effects) but it's a low dosage, she added. She was so positive about the side effects. I mean, she didn't say, it might. She said it will. When I brought up those side effects to the doctor (the only one she'd mentioned was weightloss) she told me I could take a 1/2 or 1/4 pill and she said it makes a difference what you eat and to stay away from dairy and fattening things it will not be as bad. You could try that, said the pharmacist, a slender women who looked to me like she was zero percent a candidate for PCOS. But then, that's also true of Mrs. Beckham and others.

Whereforartthou, fund for TCM, Berberine, etc.?

Oh, also, the nice thing about this treatment is, since it's not hormones if you miss a dose, it's not that bad, it doesn't make you start hemorrhaging or anything, the doctor said wryly.

Yeah, that's good!

So I bought beer-flavored ice cream. I will take the pill (or 1/2, or 1/4) tomorrow.

The ice cream is very creamy. Instead of beer, it reminds me of a toasted English muffin.

Welcome to the world, my child, you will grow up to write about menstruation, weightloss, and other assorted topics. Maybe some of the men in Hollywood who help enforce the culture of women should look like they're under 35 and wear a size 2 will read about them.
Don't some of those guys have sisters anyways?

I still find this to be interesting: 

"Ironically, PCOS displays certain characteristics which suggest it evolved in the past as a means of maintaining fertility. 'In times of famine, women with a tendency to obesity preserve the population by maintaining fertility, while those of normal body weight fall below the threshold body weight at which they can have periods,'" explains consultant gynaecologist Adam Balen.  

~ http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2002/feb/28/healthandwellbeing.health

As a man

I am not a cop. I am an outsider. My childhood was tough and I am talented and now I've worked my way to the top so it is time to acquire a Jewish girlfriend whose dad owns a big department store...nevermind, that's just from Season One of Mad Men.

Pico

Yesterday a girl who did not love her job and did not want to wait on me served me food and I was being very grateful but then there was the 3 toppings on the 1/2 burrito bowl part and she said they had pico de gallo but it was scraping the very bottom and she gave me the tiniest scoop and I was like I am sorry can I get a little more and she gave me another tiny scoop and then the rest and then I said I am sorry can I get just a little more pico and then she said "we do this because of portion sizes" and I said oh, well I guess they usually just give me a little bit more than that and she said "well they shouldn't!" And then I said, well I think it's because the amount of pico in the container is so low, when its full then you just naturally get more out of one scoop! And she smiled stiffly and said "Your total will be..."

Thoughtful

You should harder try try o not to work in my working class treat you as the Invisible Immigrant

Ever did I look up

how little the law cares for ...you used to work in a restaurant. Your sister who was a maid has been working six days a week in the meat department..."My 18 hour days aren't for everyone" said the man in uniform... "Oh wow," said the girl serving his latte, "do you ever get used to it..."

I am feeling the respect!

"Working with the chakras clears away blockages. However, these blockages deserve utmost respect because they began as defensive patterns to protect your innermost self and then became stuck."

-Yoga mind...

g--- grief

"I don't know how much the ticket will be," the cop said. I believe he lied.
The way you polished off that package of salami after opening the envelope.
Fisherman. I need to become the underearner's opposite.

Buen arte

By someone named Pitu?

By Renoir

By Botero

Cups of tea

http://piecebynumber.com/tea-and-coffee-cups-free-paper-pieced-quilt-blocks/

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I think I could learn more about this ceremony...

Eat plants

Even though she made you shell peas and the men all ate in the dining room and the women and kids sat in the livingroom and cleaned up after cooking and laughed condescendingly and said "oh we used to feel the way you do" ( they probably had a small resist-name-changing phase too...) Unhappiness about patriarchal customs is an act of resistance.

Sisterly Brotherly Coffee

A new roast.
Instant clarity.
Very potent.
Elixir of Success.
And Happiness.

Also

Some cops in coffee shops have been bragging about all those hours they work. The girls behind the counter have been highly obliging! Hee hee. I guess they are just like that for some reason. Men are from work long hours. Girls are from serve coffee and worship your sacrifices!

All the whateverness

So I saw this thing where a person called students babies and I thought aw that's so nice and affectionate but then it was like the devil came with a pitchfork into my thoughts and said except they are not the babies from your ovaries you know the ones that society says you know what I am talking about and then an angel said wtf get behind me Satan and then old scratch said No! This is what happens after you turn 35! Rooooar and then the angel was like now settle down there and then pan the monster said but MOMMY anyways its fun to be a feminist more men should try it back to the rage fests and lesbian literature and God don't punish anyone with cramps we are all getting acquainted with the palma christi which can soothe the concerned and multiply name changed easy as pie! ;-D

Exceeding special zero

nothing and nothing 

sitting in a tree

N-O-T-H-I-N-G

I cannot understand a word of what they are saying

Lucy and Charlie Brown and Kite-Eating Tree
in Dutch

She's a good artist

goodartistgoodartistgoodartistgoodartist


Abbe Maye ~ Design Desire

this was not on my MTV as a child

whoops

http://moicani.over-blog.com/article-french-cancan-116236529.html

Cat Story

 https://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/3w0o66/my_cat_left_the_house_8_months_ago_looking_for/

What a good story. I have a problem with the execution. Like, why did the guy not include a picture of the brother and sister cat together at the very top. Oh well. Maybe he just got a little excited.

http://imgur.com/a/buzpw 

you do get to see her tail and butt

This is a New York song

(and film)

Keren Ann ~ Chelsea Burns

whoa, literary

 Maybe Abbe May's "Perth Girls" is not just referencing "Simply Irresistible."

But, also???

CHELSEA GIRLS by Eileen Myles 
(review by Michelle Tea)

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Abbe May ~ Perth Girls




Robert Palmer ~ Simply Irresistible

All these gateways to creativity

Wondrous technology:  

EDGAR CAYCE SLOPPY CASTOR OIL PACKS FOR MYSTERIOUS AND WRETCHED PAINS OF THE MIDDLE REGION AREAS I bet this book is a good one.

http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/766744.The_Oil_That_Heals

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Also, I found this Interesting Link to a story on Dolls and Feelings from here.

Also, I got to work on a personal project.

These people make good spicy sprouts. 

I wish they were available in local grocery store
(instead of just the wheat grass).

For some reason I couldn't use any of my cards at a parking meter today. I also didn't have enough change. This guy with glasses who was really happy with his girlfriend offered me some change. It still wasn't enough. I literally had to get just one more dime to pay for my parking. (I felt like I had an old Golden Girls "Brother Can You Spare A Dime?" episode running through my head.) I offered to trade another girl a fifty cent piece for one dime and the happy guy saw me and he insisted on using his credit card (which worked!!!! Why didn't mine?) at the machine and he waved off any of my attempts to give him back any of his change. In short, you may be surprised by the generosity of people you meet in a parking garage.

Also, this cool person recommends Castor Oil Packs. 

She also recommends a lot of other stuff. 

Maybe I should go back for a massage soon...

It's kind of too bad, I sometimes think, that the literary/art worlds and the alternative healing medicine worlds aren't more connected!

I mean, most of your allopathic doctors aren't going to recommend them to you. They just aren't.

The joy of tomatoes

"Which foods do you think are good enough to single out the place where they grew for special recognition?"

http://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/wordofmouth/2012/jun/19/outstanding-in-their-fields

witness

I feel like I see a repetitive theme of neck-collaring.

http://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/frida/

*

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Affair_of_the_Necklace

liiiife

XX: getting all the how-to-be-healthy books out from the library again...I think I really need to get back into yoga...humor is healthy too...you know, it's cool they worked together and all, but I kind of wish Key and his wife hadn't made that "Meditations on Yoga" video...

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XX: so I want to show you this video because it made me uncomfortable
XY: okay...
XX: okay, so, let me see, how to find it...uh...type in this person's name
XY: (types in a name) this one?
XX: no, no not Blaze...
XY: why not?
XX: not Blaze! Blaise!
XY: okay (types in name again)
Meditations on Yoga
XX: now watch it!
XY: (watches)
XX: so?
XY: alrighty then
XX: oh my god...
XY: (shrugs) I thought it was amusing...

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Baseline

For some XYs: work less / be happier
For some XXs: be happier / earn more
Also: be more like Europe!

Ha ha:

"Don't brag to other people about how hard you work. If you go up to someone in Europe and say 'I work 10 hours a day, six days a week, 51 weeks a year. Look how much I achieve!' you'll get the same reaction you would in America if you said 'I wash my hands exactly 169 times a day. Look how clean they are! Look! Look!!!'" 

~ http://andrewhammel.typepad.com/german_joys/2005/07/the_european_wo.html

Metamorphosing

You're a boy, you're a girl, you're an absolute pearl. However...if you don't shake off that hypermasculine mask... Well. Don't say you never got any earnings. Warnings! Earnings.

Omg really

This is something. Palma christi pack and Om stuff helps, had some fun looking up things, okay now time to put that stuff away and sleep...Body gets all distressed again! Really. Body. Really. Come on. You are okay. You are okay. Okay. Lullabies Lullabies Lullabies... (Body is like a baby sometimes.)
++++++
Actually, I am sorry for acting exasperated. Sorry about that.

objectively

Kind of amazed that people get together on stage and sing. Also, Keith Richards seems to be a man of resilient genetics.

Om

Om, body.
Om, body that is female.
Om, body that was in pain, but I could fall asleep.
Om, pain that woke me up.
Om, I will take better care of you.
Om, you are my child.
Om, I am retrieving the palma christi pack / supplies.
Om, to be honest, I do find you to be annoying sometimes.
Om, other people are not like you.
Om, and I guess I don't know why it seems like you have to hijack my fun.
Om, was I not listening to you enough?
Om, I guess you do this to teach me to seek out sensitivity.
Om, I bet in the past I was allowed to be more tough.
Om, anyways lets try to make peace.
Om, patience. Om, patience with my impatience. Om, surrender. Om, healing. Om, spirituality. Om, pain is a doorway sometimes. Om, all the that is good and beautiful. Om, pain teacher. Om, body. Om, you are my priority. Om, I will take care of you. Om, love. Om, angels. Om, getting things right and back into balance. Om, help. Om, thank you. Om, you are love/ loved. Om, we are love/ loved. Om.

For research...

http://www.treesisters.org/the-healing-keys-inside-the-female-body/

aaand

Tori Amos ~ Indian Summmer

And also

Flying Lotus ~ Zodiac Shit

I think this is good music

I repeat myself sometimes.



Tanya Tagaq in Puebla Mexico

We never know what will happen

This is phenomenal:
Merry Clayton's vocals on Gimmee Shelter
VOCALS

This is shocking:
http://ultimateclassicrock.com/merry-clayton-legs-amputated/

"Love, sister, is just a kiss away."

Deck the halls

Hopefully, death is a joyful transition for those who experience it, like this person who was an inspiration to Lou Reed.



Lou Reed ~ Walk On The Wild Side


Speaking of song inspirations, am reminded that I got to (briefly) meet another song-writer's inspiration? Although, some say...



Rolling Stones ~ Brown Sugar

And also...

"When the Stones perform 'Brown Sugar' live, Jagger often changes the lyrics from, 'Just like a young girl should', to, 'Just like a young man should.' The line, 'Hear him whip the women just around midnight', is often changed to the less offensive, 'You shoulda heard him just around midnight.'"

~https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brown_Sugar_%28The_Rolling_Stones_song%29


"Or, it could have been written about actual brown sugar, but I doubt it."

~ http://www.thatericalper.com/2014/05/07/5-fun-facts-about-the-rolling-stones-brown-sugar/ 

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Who knows who this one's about. Himself, maybe. 


 
Rolling Stones ~ Sympathy For The Devil



Lou Reed ~ Walk On The Wild Side


Uh Huh.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-2592054/How-straight-laced-daughter-Mick-disowned-saved-darkest-hour.html  

Cinematic indulgence

I have a soft spot for A Room With A View.
Lucy Honeychurch and George Emerson.
Lucy's brother and Cecil-the-Amusing.
And Eleanor Lavish.

hummm

imprints

(Art by stasiab) https://www.etsy.com/listing/113419463/11x14-art-print-stinging-nettles-fine

military imprint + music teacher turned businesswoman / single mother imprint + living on a hippie-ish nature loving island where people believed in fairies during formative years imprint = listening to the general joy song

Just an interesting picture...

http://www.pri.org/stories/2011-08-16/baghdad-reunion-us-soldier-and-girl-he-saved

evening meanderings

I went out. God, I am lucky to live in a place where I feel it's relatively safe to walk around at night and the neighborhoods are interesting, too. I went by the old place and saw the cat. The street was blocked off and full of emergency vehicles. I petted her in the glare of all those blinking lights. At the coffee shop, I zoned out and stayed 15 minutes past closing time. For some reason, they did not kick me out. I went by the old place again. The cat was gone. I spoke to the one of the people she lives with, a marathon-runner. I have had an image in my head of a marathon runner. Either very thin, or fit in a stocky way (like my father) but she's female  and shorter and has wider hips and I wouldn't be surprised if we wore almost the same size. I'd think if I trained for a marathon I'd lose more weight, but I guess I don't really know. Her roommate who doesn't run marathons is thinner, actually. What is the secret of genetics? What makes some people want to run marathons and others not want to? Maybe I'd be interested in a yoga/meditation marathon. Also I was thinking about something else. Hollywood is run by men, and it is high schoolish in that it seems to mostly like women to be "hot in a certain way" and also "kind of submissive." (This is changing, a bit.) Well. It's not that I've never experienced a kind of appreciation of submissiveness in love. "I am so happy because you are happy! You're happiness is my happiness!" But then, it's as if the universe put a soldier inside of me and the soldier always gets out. The soldier got called "that feminist chick" at a conservative high school. And then there's a shy person who doesn't want to attract attention and that person took over for quite a while and the soldier is somewhat tolerant of the shy person but after a certain point...the soldier says "enough is enough." If I think about it, I'm not surprised that when I went searching for a lost relative I found a dominatrix. But...the problem with the soldier is that...the soldier is not enough for my creative side. My creative side says it's important to be more nurturing and open, and it is interested in motherly femininity. That is something that is not so easy for the soldier to figure out.

Is that right

Did you get locked out of an office building.
Maybe you will go to a yoga class...

AA and A

Almost Adult and Adolescent.
In which the universe annoyingly acts like you're not allowed to be flippant and sends you images like...you run to get into an office building but the doors all simultaneously lock up and the lights go off. Just for you. That is interesting.

Ha ha ha

"British people’s dry sarcasm works really well when confronting the times the more traditional parts of islam come face to face with modern gay culture. For example when I donated 3 sequined crop tops to the islamic relief Syria clothing drive, one of the older guys their smirked, shaking my hand and saying 'our brothers and sisters in Syria thank you for the evening wear.'”

~ https://medium.com/@tommauchline/15-things-i-learnt-about-islam-and-british-values-being-a-gay-boy-living-opposite-a-mosque-ebd385eb3113#.p89900fep

Mamas...

don't let your kittens grow up to be

solomente arm candy all the time...

Snow

Cat

Flavor, etc.

http://www.nybooks.com/articles/2012/06/21/secret-good-taste/

The life

Sometimes I'm having lots of fun.
Sometimes I'm crying for the missing sisters and the brothers.

Fun and nostalgia

More than two decades ago, girl and her stepfather go to a theater together and see separate movies and love them.
The movie she loves: Orlando
The movie he raves about: Like Water For Chocolate  

You have to see this movie.  

You have to see this movie.

Food dream

Your sister makes a complicated and delectable dish (it involves whipping and mixing various ingredients and gives the appearance of a creamy dessert but is actually a savory main course) but then mysteriously disappears, leaving only her detailed recipe notes behind, as a reminder...Don't do that.

How long

I really had a nice hike and then sinus headache hijacked my plans again. I think I am sad about social pressures, how boys are pressured to become hypermasculine. It is sad. Maybe I will be more articulate about it when the pain is alleviated.

https://www.pinterest.com/kessa1959/butterflies/

What the...

honeysuckle blueberry

http://tcpermaculture.com/site/2013/05/21/permaculture-plants-blue-honeysuckle/

http://greenhouseglass.blogspot.com/2015/07/plant-of-week-sugar-mountain-blue.html

Beautiful 3

In the same order as they are on the album (I cannot believe I was bored by it when I first heard it, years ago.)

Your Cloud
Pancake
I Can't See New York 

(To be honest, "I Can't See New York" feels appropriate after the San Bernardino shootings.)

De los flores

http://invisibules.org/comic/200-flower-power

https://pages.shanti.virginia.edu/

http://sunvalleyfloralfarms.blogspot.com/

single mom genes

what? your mom's changing her last name again?

yes it's just an old sentimental slave custom from the time when children were the property of the men who inspermiated their mothers

men are from comfort me

women are from pull yourself up by your bootstraps and do it all by yourself

This was intriguing

"Relevant Mortals" by Lorraine Lopez in Fall 2011 Huizache
Same character, Caridad, is in a novel: The Darling
Hmmm.

"Relevant Mortals  

'After checking it in and out again and again, with many renewals in between, and then finding a paperback edition at a yard sale, Caridad returned the library’s copy of Madame Bovary with reluctance in late April. As she ran its punch card through the reader at the front desk...'"

~ https://muse.jhu.edu/books/9780816532254

dialogue that goes places

Well, guess what, I like sluts. / Well guess what, I like sluts too. / Oh no you don't. Not as much as me. / Yes I do. / No you don't. / Yes I do. / No you don't. / Yes...I...Do...BETTER than you, actually. / Nope. / Yep. / Nope. / Uh-huh... / Nooo... / Yeees... / Shut up / No! 

A work less famous than the first

http://thedali.org/exhibit/disintegration-persistence-memory/

Melting clockery

Did anyone ever tell you about the time(s) they opened a book / web browser and / flashbacks / Living The Dream

Creative writing for Christmas

XX: Thank you for getting me a box full of handsome, strong, insecure, people-pleasing men who get true joy and satisfaction out of catering to all my whims!

XY: But...but...I thought you wanted a subscription to the Suicide Girls...

XX: No, silly! That was the old me! Last year's wish. I know most people would not get me what I really want. But you did! You're the best...

yadayadaetcetra

Well, just look at the picture.

http://wallstreetinsanity.com/what-it-means-to-be-a-conservative-female-today/

Insight

Sometimes, I really do feel bad for Ben Franklin's wife.

Wit and wisdom for relieving tedium

http://www.pcs.org/blog/item/falling-in-love-with-a-canvas/

When you fall asleep and have a bunch of weird dreams about charming friends becoming just a little bit boring again and you have to face up to loving being the older sister for ever...

http://www.wikihow.com/Be-a-Good-Big-Sister

http://blog.longreads.com/2015/09/07/franklin-reconsidered-an-essay-by-jill-lepore/

http://wallstreetinsanity.com/35-signs-youre-dating-a-boy-not-a-man/ 

http://www.nbc.com/saturday-night-live/video/point-counterpoint-lee-marvin-and-michelle-triola/2846665

Really...

How some people make a living...

http://consequenceofsound.net/2015/12/nick-offerman-just-made-the-yule-log-video-all-that-much-better/

Felt

Airplane Continental
like

Marbles
slacking

Bagels Are For Sales Associates
off

cycle

Sometimes I get distracted, sometimes I listen to a song that grabbed me a long time ago, sometimes I am predictable. They Are Night Zombies...

Less predictable: listen to the full album for the first time...

missed

 http://www.npr.org/sections/monkeysee/2015/11/30/457859235/a-charlie-brown-christmas-at-50

Wo ist?

O distractable mind.
I swear I heard this in my childhood. I
have a really hard time believing I cannot quickly find it.

Skaters at play
gliding away
gracefully waltzing
to music gay

Instead, old poems on the internet:

"Skating Song" from The Isles of Loch Awe by Philip Gilbert Hamerton

http://www.zazzle.com/ice+skating+for+boys+stickers

 

musical jottings

mournful lyric

there's consequences for an inarticulate woman

ragey lyric

privileged says i like y b/c x likes it! privileged to be less privileged says kiss off

dance lesson lyric

la la la la la la la (ma vie in rose) clumsily with a big tree stump

behind the wheel lyric 

i bet that girl could also be a complicated drummer if she really wanted to be one but maybe she just doesn't want to be one but i bet she could be if she wanted to be one just so you know

I see

How To Dance Without Legs

Shoot, distractions again...

From Dreamstime

Mozart's sister  &  Jolene...

(Lol this comment:

Gordon Shumway 7 months ago

This Jolene must have had one Hell of a rack, if she had Dolly worried.)