I know.

I'm going to have to go to Italy.

Wow

There are so many beautiful, beautiful, beautiful places to see in this state...
(I know because of Air BnB...)

Okay. Maybe I will share.

I want to go a certain place.
I think maybe I dreamed about it, not so long ago.
I found it because I had an impulse to revisit a site....then I went back and then again, and the site was updated!

(Where does spirit want me to go? I think it may want me to go there.)

This was a silly video.
I am forever influenced by love of a certain Pacific northwest island.
(It's mine. Me, my childhood, mine!)
Oh well it's others' too.

I am so grateful to have lived there. I was so lucky. I could sit on the roof of a house, enjoy magnificent views at any time, and feel like a Native American elder must be watching over me and the earth.

In this earthly life.
I was there
and now I am here.

Maybe I will find out more about Ali's Bees.
It reminds me of the bee neighbors that were here earlier this year...

reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally....

First Moon Party

"I used to like marshmallows."

Here she is...

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/09/03/upshot/to-understand-rising-inequality-consider-the-janitors-at-two-top-companies-then-and-now.html

One brave uterus takes a heroic stand...

https://www.cartoonstock.com/cartoonview.asp?catref=rmcn138

Vitamin D probably still helps.  Pain is of a milder tho still compelling variety. A sense of humor is present. Perhaps make it more like wine-tasting. Can they have a nose and vintage?

This is the latest thing to roll around in the head...

CRICKET FLOUR????

https://www.rodalesorganiclife.com/food/how-to-bake-with-cricket-flour/slide/1
Omg, omg, omg, omg, omg....

(discovered on a list...
https://selfhacked.com/blog/elimination-diet-safest-foods-people-sensitive-everything/)

Isn't it beautiful

“We tell them to come on in and get a library card,” stated Leo. “We have cold water, restrooms, and with a library card, visitors can get up to three hours of computer and Internet use.”

~  Taking advantage of ‘cooling centers’, Inland residents escape heat
by Anthony Victoria

D & D!

D is a vitamin, and it may help with dysmenorhea (very painful menstrual cramps)!

https://www.hormonesmatter.com/vitamin-d-menstrual-cramps/

Thank you, universe.

I want to get better at listening to my wiser self.

Because sometimes people with chronic illness can get into a cycle that feels punishing and I want to LOVE the good days...and also, because I can get better at it!!!

It always comes back

You need healing above all other things.
Peace, peace, peace, peace...

We come to the world imprintable...
I want more of the health and peace imprint. Peace, health, and wisdom. We deserve more of these good qualities...

Another Saint Joan

Discovered here...
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Joan_of_France,_Duchess_of_Berry

Because of...
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Louis_XII_of_France

And because of...
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ludovico_Sforza

Because of starting to read Machiavelli...
http://www.constitution.org/mac/prince.pdf

Sorta childish 80s music memories

Occasionally, teenage girls 

Naked Eyes ~ Promises Promises

liked to tell me about their problems

Bonnie Tyler ~ Total Eclipse of the Heart 

'cause I was "mature for my age."

Interesting jump

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/morning-mix/wp/2017/09/01/why-violinist-glen-donnelly-jumped-out-of-a-plane-naked-playing-the-lark-ascending/?tid=a_inl&utm_term=.9b6207506a9c

What is your job?

I read this aloud...

"Rather than automatically rejecting the men as sexist oppressors and pitying the women, children, and servants as helpless victims, I was able to see a moral world in which families, not individuals, are the basic unit of society, and the members of each extended family (including its servants) are intensely interdependent. In this world, equality and personal autonomy were not sacred values."

~ Johnathan Haidt - "What Makes People Vote Republican?"

...to someone who pulled off his headphones and just looked at me...
Me: Were you watching a show?
Him: No, I was witnessing an injustice.

It was the video to this New York Post article:

Nurse dragged out of hospital, arrested for doing her job

Why was the officer so easily triggered?

Hmmm...

http://heavy.com/news/2017/09/jeff-payne-salt-lake-city-detective-wubbels-arrest-blood-draw/

Where else

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/morning-mix/wp/2017/09/01/this-is-crazy-sobs-utah-hospital-nurse-as-cop-roughs-her-up-arrests-her-for-doing-her-job/?utm_term=.e08d7783a85b

have I heard

http://www.sltrib.com/news/2017/08/31/utah-nurse-arrested-after-complying-with-hospital-policy-that-bars-taking-blood-from-unconscious-victim/

about "implied consent"

I found HOPE!

Delicious expensive Kombucha... BLACKBERRY MINT (!) And Ayurvedic herbs. Because is the doctor at the mysteriously closed clinic gonna prescribe you those? Hell, no.

Also a chicken that will be turned into Crockpot broth.

I keep seeing people walk around with pizzas and soda and I feel absolutely revolted.

This is not a reflection on them. Clearly, my body cannot handle that stuff right now.

Things need to go uphill soon

This is a spiritual time...Go uphill Go uphill Go uphill...I cannot believe the fatigue This is a spiritual time Also why did that tooth feel like that again Everything needs to change for the better I can hardly believe this is how it is This is a spiritual time...Grow, grow, grow...even in sleep.

It's what it is...light and color will help?

The doctor's office is closed again...every time I try them. It's interesting. It's a certain level of what's going on... Read a bit of an old book about color.

Sing something nice

I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart...in your head if your throat isn't well enough...

It's clear

I need to get better, throat. I am sorry I was looking up viruses. I need to get better. Getting better is my priority. I need sleep. Also maybe a doctor? After sleep.

I want to work with color

Heal thyself.
Step into healing places
Happiness  happiness happiness
For my knee my knee my knee
(don't have any $$$)
Mouth uterus knee
Mouth uterus knee
One a penny two a penny
Mouth uterus knee
Needed

What if, if things are falling apart, it's braver to acknowledge it (because then you can be truthful, maybe even find new solutions) than to be fake tough like a man who was taught to be hard and cold (many men are not like this, but many have said they are taught to be that way )???

Its earthly

It's that isolating, wake up in pain in the middle of the night experience.

In addition to physical pain, which is one thing, the phenomenon of some people treating you as a nuisance or a wimp that they would just as soon be rid of because your health condition is so inconvenient to them is an even sadder aspect...

Physical pain would be easier to deal with If there was more emotional support.

It's very sad when people you thought would be able to help end up being the ones who shun you.

It seems like a more advanced society would have more healing attitudes, to try to bring out the best in all of us, notwithstanding genetic differences and illnesses that might be curable or at least more manageable in a more compassionate society.

Layer: Physical pain
Layer: Emotional pain (outcast, societal isolation)