Trying to get more to make the pain go away.

Because it hurts so bad. 

People want coziness. They want to be cozy by the fire, you know, in their Castle. They want coziness. They don't want to be so lonely anymore. They want love.

They also want breaths of fresh air and cleansing winds and good changes. They want a bigger view. They want to expand. They do want to open their hearts. It's just hard for them to do it sometimes.

People in dark places can still get access to brightness from the light of angels.

The reason why the universe has me think about things like Beatrice and the Italian. Renaissance is because she was a channel and she was gifted but her gifts were not entirely corralled or channeled in the proper ways. But she was a channel and she made a lot of those things happen even though it made it look like the men were making the things happening. She was actually making a lot of the things happen and that's why after she died things went so badly and she was also like a go-between and a diplomat. It did curtail her spirit to be forced into childbearing I think. She loved her children but there was a not enough freedom for women in that time and she was supposed to follow what a bunch of bossy people were telling her to do. Also consent was not important.

For some reason I'm seeing something about dunking my head into a bucket of water. Maybe I should try and do that. Maybe I'll just go stand under the shower. 

Poor aching face. Let's have water pour on that face now. Maybe it will help some things loosen up.

She was more sort of war-like than the ladies around her because she had a lot of energy running through her and she had a lot of responsibilities and she was also very young. 

People did not take good enough care of their health physically. They did not listen to themselves enough about taking care of their health physically. It was very like rough time to be alive.

But even with all that there were times when they were really emotionally calm and connected and they channeled and there was a lot of creativity and there was communication with a higher source and spirit in God and God and a higher source and spirit was trying to work through them to bring good things to Earth. And they did bring some good things to Earth but physical health got sacrificed.

And that's why a part of me likes to do really quiet domestic things because it's part of like a health plan. It's good for the nervous system and for balancing energy. If you've got a lot of energy running through you, doing quiet domestic things is a nice way to call me yourself down.

If I feel pain and if I put my hand on the area and ask a question it might help. 

Castles were very angular places to live and they were not so comfortable in a lot of parts of the castles and there were a lot of people who were living in fear in the castles. 

However, they were starting to make good changes in some ways and there were some people who were starting to get happier because creativity was placed in high regard. 

There were problems with communication. There were big feelings that didn't have words to go with them and so the big feelings were felt but people were too scared to express them and put the feelings into words and this includes the people in charge and how they communicated with one another too.

Love was real but so was fear and propriety led to dishonesty. Beautiful gifts and clothes could not make up for rifts in communication. People were often encouraged to keep their mouths shut instead of exploring feelings and this is the same as what goes on today sometimes too.

Those kinds of circumstances make emotions go wild like animals trapped in cages. People start to get desperate. Jokes and jibes and little glances. But because people felt very oppressed and like they needed to keep their mouths shut, it prevented communication from flowing and it affected the dynamics and made it so that things were not as harmonious.

People tend to have a rebellion against doing what is proper because it curtails their spirit. And then they start to get left out and start to feel heartbroken because they know they deserve better but they don't know how to express it or a really believe that they deserve better.

Sometimes looking at patterns like concentric circles helps people calm down and feel more centered in themselves and then they're not quite as inclined to lash out at others because they get very centered in themselves. And it's in a good way.

Royalty and pageantry can still be celebrated if it's not misused and if it's to serve the collective to bring people joy.

And now sometimes I want to go away from that and I want to think more about the people ice skating on the pond in another century. Where there was more equality, for those particular ice skaters, anyways.