Lit Lover

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Oh well

Time of month/day is important...
I was unusually shaky in the dental office...
Plied with OJ, crackers...
They did take credit card. Unlike urgent care.
I will not forget this when I am in a better position in the future.

Night is beautiful

Walking a bit at night is very restorative.

I drove home and nature seemed big because of the lightening over the hills.

My financial worries seemed far away, like they could belong to another person.

I woke up early with pain. I have a heating pad and it helps.

I want everything to change.

Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Hi, I am a womb/ovary

Womanly hormone imbalance civil rights type of thing....I wonder if a low cost Buddhist acupuncture clinic would be a good place to visit...

It's like...a game??

Bad news: the endo I was referred to won't see me. He said my Dr. needs to refer me to an OBGyn. I didn't have a good feeling about him anyway. Good news: pain went away for now...

Maybe it will help

I wish to God I was not having such health problems and pain issues this week. I can't afford an expensive reiki healer right now so I am just going to pray.

Sometimes I do feel healing vibes and that's always a good thing.

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

I want to be at the store right now

Buying printer paper and other things, but no. My body wants me to pay attention to it. All day, pretty good and not much pain. Except for the morning, of course.

I guess I just have to be grateful. For bed, water, tea, a heating pad, a body, life.

I wonder if I need a regimen.
Or a support group.

"Have you done your womb massage? Have you tracked and recorded your temperature and all your symptoms and everything you ate in an app?"

I blew off the apps this month. Maybe I will go back to using them.

Because knowledge...

Strip Mining Science: Trump Administration Stops Mining Health Study

Early a.m. body talk

Because of my recurring challenges with pain and my womb in this body, I want to ask something. I was really disappointed before, but I still need to ask some people, if they feel even a little bit of a calling, to heed and to really choose to be their wiser, more compassionate selves.

Many of us have been encouraged to be hard and tough but some of us have to choose otherwise. It seems I just cannot heal myself if I am that way, so I conclude that I am not supposed to be that way anymore.

It's time to be more healing and a lot of men need to embrace their feminine sides more and so do some women. I really hope I can be around those people. I believe that I can be.

I still need strength. I know many people do not want to change. They like being tough. Their bodies are different. They don't have this issue, or the same urgency to seek healing. I don't know why but this is what I walk and experience now. I can't fight when I need to heal so much. I need to access levels of healing that are deep and powerful.

If you want to, you can know it's good for you, and it is also your gift to yourself if you choose to follow that part of you that is compassionate. Even if some reward you for not caring or being tough, you can choose differently. You can go on an adventure of getting in touch with your healing qualities.

People are afraid to be weak, but vulnerability is a key element of the human experience. You can see that it is a sign of bravey, not weakness, to acknowledge this. You can have wonderful experiences.

I know, because of my experiences, I will have to get so much better at healing myself and at finding people who are in touch with wise, healing energies. Maybe soon I won't have to experience chronic, intense pain in this way.

Blessed be my good books and healing helpers and my castor oil pack.

Monday, August 28, 2017

Guess what....

I have been thinking it's time to just let the healing experts take over. Really. They are other people or angels or guides. Let go of old things that don't help you. Find lighter people. Help yourself. Give yourself permission to relax.

You and you and you...

Insights

Pain is very attention-grabbing.
I am good at chewing on ginger I froze then tossed into a cup of tea.
I have an amazing uterus and it talks.
Perhaps I need to be more careful with what I eat? Hi. Hi. Hello...Hi. Okay.
You have my attention. I am happy you are going to help me feel better now.

I guess I need to get into the habit of doing the womb massage.

It is so

I have a good cat and people in my life are getting older and it's time to figure out health stuff and meditate.

This smells so good

😄yummy😄tomatoes😄

Did your mother draft this pledge?

Did she feel like she could?

http://mbaallies.com/sign-the-pledge/

Dear Jesus

I would like for you to consider this question: if it was made very clear that you would be the right fit for a male-dominated environment if you lost weight, went along with a bunch of sexist banter that puts down women, praised people in charge and looked the other way when they acted like children who were brought up to disrespect women, and were so so so nice and accomodating to the right people and never complained because they like women to be super supportive no matter what

Is that Real Sexism

Or is that just a learning experience?

Points of view to consider

If for no other reason than

http://nymag.com/daily/intelligencer/2015/03/ellen-pao-and-the-sexism-you-cant-quite-prove.html

you were put on earth to do better.

https://www.thecut.com/2017/08/ellen-pao-silicon-valley-sexism-reset-excerpt.html