I wonder

what my babysitter who worshipped David Lee Roth thought of Axl Rose.

Did the art in Appetite... have a point to it? Hmmm....

Oh hell

Now he's gonna die.

http://www.theonion.com/articles/courageous-man-overcomes-womans-body-language-to-c,38152/

So depressing.

Another horror story

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/03/05/brown-university-date-rape_n_6793926.html

for Emily

(See instead of A rose for... oh ne'er mind...)

Pleasant revisitation

Bjork ~ Isobel

TREE CAT

LOVE

https://isobelandcat.wordpress.com/2012/08/26/tree-cat/

and then

breaking: fraternity males once again do their best to act their worst http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/03/05/syracuse-hazing-student-may-lose-fingers_n_6811146.html not rape this time, but frost-bitten fingers

hey tornado watcher or whatever

This sounds f'ed up....go, MIT? http://www.huffingtonpost.com/jennifer-selvidge/pushing-women-and-people-_b_5840392.html

Bricoleur

http://www.art4allpeople.com/

Every author ever

http://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/1iozmv/kitten_wearing_a_pretty_pink_bow/

ja ja

this song is bitchin'

sunrise sunset

Songrise, Songset

Celia Cruz ~ La Vida es un Carnaval
The Growlers ~ Monotonia

Surely do

want to check this place out:

http://www.bodie.com/

This is a character

Older sister who does mom and dad type of stuff from a very young age.

You're a great show; you sucked me in

Can't pick any pictures

http://carnivalehbo.tumblr.com/

And wow, there's not a lot on that tumblr.
Oh, that's a little bit better...

http://www.tumblr.com/search/carnivale-hbo

and I am NEVER

gonna have time to read them all.

What I went in for:

That Thing Around Your Neck by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

What I also came out with:

Masterminds and Wingmen, How To Be A Woman, Magnetic, First Generations: Women in Colonial America, Why Gender Matters, Bloom, Delusions of Gender...

SONGY

The SNL parody of Say What You Want To Say was in my head today; I'll admit it. Powerful, funny women, I appreciate you!

Here's another song I heard in the grocery store.


Hall & Oates ~ Say It Isn't So

(Kinda inspired by a guy unashamedly rocking out to Footloose on headphones at the library.)

Treesome

By Willow Arlenea

http://www.thriving-babyboomers.com/mental-well-being.html

http://asthethreadrolls.blogspot.com/2014/01/healing-tree-quilt.html

Morning has broken...

A wee bit of relief from the 3 a.m. of not being able to sleep or find the proper alternative healing methods / financial resources to fix other people's health problems.

Day. O.

Not painless bettering baby steps

http://www.jessestommel.com/blog/files/dear-chronicle.html

http://jackkerouacispunjabi.blogspot.com/2015/03/on-ryan-boudinot-and-goddard-mfa.html

Your bf

http://yourllbeanboyfriend.tumblr.com/post/111796980187/theo-and-i-strapped-on-our-ice-skates-and-he

Please enjoy

Wonderful screen shots from A Room With A View.

http://thefashioneaste.com/tag/a-room-with-a-view-film/

I love these two together!

http://www.theonion.com/articles/teacher-who-dedicates-life-to-students-total-fucki,38124/

http://www.theonion.com/articles/how-about-we-go-outside-and-settle-this-like-emoti,38033/

I had sort of a buzzkill when I saw a super down-on-his-luck-looking guy in Wendy's. He was like a modern day hobo. I wanted to throw money at him. At least maybe some angels could take care of him. Think! ANGELS TO SAVE SAD WENDY'S GUY. And all the sick women I know in my life, too. Life can be hard and I see the stars when I walk home at night.

Okay

By Shannon Freshwater

"Sometimes medical syndromes are named long before they are fully understood."

http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2014/11/24/pcos-an-infertility-issue-that-is-little-understood/?_r=0

(Lol, shout out to "Bajos" in the comments)

Are you? Aren't you?

"On Paradoxes"

"BAH Fest - Beard Power"

If the scan shows no cysts? Do you have PCOS?

A lot to see...

http://www.buzzfeed.com/awesomer/california-is-the-most-beautiful-state-in-the-country

I want to see Tukelake (it's so far away.)

For some reason

I cannot get into Downton Abbey this evening, and I just realized I missed some SNL things last night to watch (sadly only 2 seasons!) Carnivale, the only thing I ever want to watch lately.

~~~

Minutely amusing not-cold-hearted slightly sabotagey writer's group prompt idea: What if someone in this room was your little brother in another life? 10 minutes.

If my mind ever thinks "definitely, do this" something throws a wrench in it. No absolutes for you.

Maybe life is slightly sabotagey. 

tinyhousing

starring kangablue 

 http://www.oregonlive.com/hg/index.ssf/2015/02/portlandia_tiny_house_fred_and.html

A still life

http://debbiesartspace.blogspot.com/2012/11/tangerine-with-hazelnuts-oil-on-5x5.html

Also, because why not...

http://www.webnat.com/articles/LymphaticSystem.asp

Top two returns for "women lymphatic fluid wearing bras"

http://www.breastcancer.org/research-news/no-link-between-bras-and-risk

http://www.healingcancernaturally.com/breast-cancer-bras-lymph-nodes.html

(Also because my body was being really annoying at me when I walked back from the grocery store with a big sack over my shoulder.)

I sort of ache.

Bodies' weirdnesses

I think they test women, men, and me.

Regularly.

Pretty shell music!

Nadalaut: As Above So Below

Ma'am, could this determine dessert?

The icing on your cake or whatever.

"It might look like coffee grounds, chocolate syrup or even..."
~ http://www.birth-institute.com/alternative-medicine-and-childbirth/vaginal-steams

Acrobatic

http://lolorashel.blogspot.com/

http://brigetteb.blogspot.com/

That was funny

So, trying to cheer myself up by watching a "funny" show depressed the hell out of me, but watching a show with darker themes made me feel better.

That's not how it would be everyday. But it's how it was this evening.

To note: sometimes if one person annoys another person by referencing certain "depressing" things that happen in society...don't be seduced into thinking it's simply to annoy.

It might be because it is a matter of survival.

(Or feels that way.)

It. Is. Progress.

Facing a terrifying hole of figuring out what you need to do next, unable to even decide on a book to read or a show to watch, this is the kind of evening that makes Nighthawks look like the social life you can't quite bring yourself to engage in. Huuuummm...Oh my god, not even an idea for a song to link to. Oh, maybe a show could be watched now.

Some of these Carnivale episodes are not for the faint of heart.
I tried to watch Parks & Rec but it was not happening.

You can

tell your mother about a detox footbath, but alas it may not be what she decides to try

Here in my head ~ Mother

Tori Amos ~ Mother

Lavish

http://audrey.buzznet.com/

The backlash about the herbal steam bath thing a while ago was very curious to me. I suppose I was taken aback because I had just heard about that treatment from someone else, and it didn't strike me as being much weirder than a sitz bath or even just sitting in a sauna. I know doctors have said it is a bad idea. But I don't think it has even been studied all that much. I wonder what the doctors think of taking bubblebaths? Woman marinates in cocktail of carcinogens and endocrine disrupting chemicals and lives to tell the tale. But maybe she shouldn't have done that?

Evening activity

Big salty caramel chocolate bar

plus

http://www.starstryder.com/2014/10/25/fighting-to-stay/

see, even super successful people see things

~~~

Also, wondering what sort of comedic program the roommate is chuckling at...It's nice to live in a world where people chuckle.

Photo prompt

If I were in a writer's group and supposed to bring in photos to write about, this would be a good one.

http://sarahalexandrageorge.com/2014/12/25/rapa-das-bestas/

That's a really interesting entry too...

"I wish I could experience fear for just one day of the year as these horses do instead of every day of the year that I don’t go out there and change my life. I can’t even begin to imagine being totally free like they are."

~ Sarah Alexandra George

Zoom

I feel like my mind did that when it saw this:

http://ruthking.net/products/faq/

~~~~~

I need the FAQ!

I am intrigued by the 6 D's

sometimes I have no idea what's going on

uh, oh, I feel another one coming

you know what, actually
it's not that this sort of thing makes anyone "evil" but
being that guy who does stupid stuff
then has a nice wife or girlfriend or whatever save you
i.e. substitute their nice behaviors for you
is actually not that impressive
and I don't say that in a cold-hearted way
because I had a dream
I had a dream and it involved an XY sort
who was a nice person and was actually
very interested in just
being nice
and stuff
and that
was all very well, but
JUST HAVING THAT DREAM WAS NOT ENOUGH

Just a hole (in a wall) 2

http://smartgirlstyle.blogspot.com/2013/01/bedroom-makeover-paint-walls.html

Just a hole (in a wall)

I've had male friends that punched holes in walls.
I don't think I could do that.
I do rather like the idea of kicking a hole in a wall.

Now I'm trying to find an image:
Girl kicks hole in wall

Oh well I'll just have to settle for this:

https://sundresspublications.wordpress.com/

Here's a new idea for a test:


Make the above image into a sticker.
Think of any novels that have won awards in the last decade or so.
Look at the novel you have thought of in real life.
See if you're even slightly tempted to affix the sticker to it.


(You could probably also do this test with movies, TV episodes, etc.)

Bible critiques and formulas

Absalom
http://the-toast.net/2015/02/23/swinging-absalom/2/

Oh
https://sundresspublications.wordpress.com/2015/02/24/how-not-to-write-misogynist-literature-a-guide-for-dudes-and-bros/

This is funny, but...

I didn't look at the graphic and thought it was gonna be about two guys.

http://www.theonion.com/articles/study-boyfriends-who-arent-speaking-are-thinking-a,38101/

Song crash

Purity Ring ~ Lofticries

with itself

That kind of day

(people in the hospital, the car dying, people leaving)

sitting on a curb eating an apple

surrealness

survival

It was pretty challenging.

P & P

Peanuts for kids

http://www.npr.org/blogs/thesalt/2015/02/23/388450621/feeding-babies-foods-with-peanuts-appears-to-prevent-allergies


Powerpuff girls for kids

http://www.theatlantic.com/entertainment/archive/2015/02/powerpuff-girls-redefined-what-little-girls-are-made-of/385719/

Lemme put it this way

My Mexican American boyfriend and my Filipino male housemate like white women or at least hate way less than white women feminists hate white women. Why are you so self-hating? It makes me unsubscribe.

Plus they are both "smart."

Geez, the rain. Sabatoging my walk and stuff.

But at least there's good news because we really need it.

The drought, you know.

Things I want to do on my last vacation type day

Watch Carnivale
Watch Orphan Black
Watch Big Ballet

and numero uno...

GO OUT FOR A WALK IT IS 60 DEGREES OUT OMG LOVE THIS WEATHER

as soon as it stops raining

thoughts after internet browsing

my not-white boyfriend is so immensely unbothered by famous white women's media blunders I sometimes stare at him in pure awe and think "who are you, you angel of tolerance"
just kidding!

Just-for-fun-nuptials

No Pants / Leslie Hall video
marries
Leather / Tori Amos RAINN Concert video

THIS IS A BOOK FOR TEENAGE GIRLS

http://jjadvice.com/how-to-be-popular-with-boys/

EVERY DAD'S DREAM I'M SURE

Resourceful

http://www.nydailynews.com/life-style/health/gluten-free-communion-wafers-popular-church-article-1.2057402

Why give up princes

if you don't want to? IT might be better to supplement your fatuation (it isn't a word! who cares?) with run-of-the-mill standard European-American blue-eyed lineage types of prince characters with princes of less European lineage, honorable wounded men souls who follow crazy girls everywhere (cause they rudely ignore them), sexualize their interactions in non-complimentary ways, create prize-winning artworks so no one cares if they used to treat females like communion wafers, genius sorts who make grand pronouncements on social ills and get worshipped and fawned over (by lots and lots and lots and lots of those blue-eyed princes) and only occasionally get just a little bit poked at. At least that makes for a slightly more well-rounded princedom.

Dance show

Had a few reservations about that snickering man, but I think I will watch Big Ballet.

This is good

We should all be feminists | Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie

This does surprise

"You probably shock some people doing 'The Loophole' and the fellatio one, but do you ever get more of a backlash for topics like 'Pregnant Women Are Smug'?

Lindhome: You will not believe the song that we got the strongest reaction to.

Micucci: It's 'Sports Go Sports.'

http://www.rollingstone.com/tv/features/bad-b-j-s-and-kazoo-parades-garfunkel-and-oates-bring-the-raunch-20140925

Painful priviledge

So this Whiplash movie seems excessively macho, but it gets praised a lot, so I guess I should watch it or something.

Recent Maria-ish dispatch

Maria: Hello, I'm a nanny for a delightful boy with a hard-working mother. I found out about your play group and it sounded like a great way for him to socialize. May I meet with your group?

Mom: Sorry but this group is actually for moms. I don't think you and your boy would fit in with our dynamics, if you know what I mean.

Maria: Okay.

Changes

Old: Summer heat, complaining about feeling like one of the Joads, and this retort: "Maybe you do, but I grew up here." Touche.

New: Winter rain and watching the first episode of Carnivale.

Fashion tips

Valerie June Staying True To Her Roots

~~~

Tight Pants / Body Rolls ~ Leslie Hall

Wow, June

Stage o' branches


Valerie June ~ Workin' Woman Blues

Some new music

yin-yang

http://www.motherjones.com/media/2015/01/music-review-wishing-well-screaming-females

http://www.npr.org/event/music/387462033/kcrw-presents-father-john-misty

Actually, kind of scared of Father John Misty...like, not sure if I'd want to be alone in a room w/ him...

whatever, i'm drinking tea

https://www.opp.com/

homunculus

I feel like mine lives under my heart or rib cage area lately. A small boxer has been battering my insides. And I had an abdominal scan that came out "normal" so I guess it's more Mayan Massage Therapy for me.

On celebrity type things

I saw an attractive and "candid" photo of Scar Jo that I lost track of and thought "she could remind me of a favorite babysitter" and I wanted to post it...I might later. Anyway, if I post it, that's it. That's the extent of my celebrity worship. I'm not gonna write her weird messages pretending to be her long lost sister or something.

Female hermits!

YES http://aeon.co/magazine/society/where-are-all-the-women-hermits/

This is amazing

Saudi Historian: Our Women Should Not Be Allowed to Drive...

http://www.patheos.com/blogs/friendlyatheist/2015/02/10/female-saudi-tv-host-laughs-in-male-guests-face-when-he-proposes-a-bizarre-solution-for-the-driving-ban/

Heaven/Earth

Pete Seeger ~ 12 Gates To The City

The original is like heavenly hymn. "Oh, what a beautiful city."
The earthly foibles are more like, "Oh, what a terrible pity."

Querida Virgin

Help me find keys. I want to go for a walk now. Finally.


(Virgin Mary in a Tree Trunk)

something sneaky...

I think I have a sneaky/funny plan.
I will be that miracle story of that person who gets pregnant.
BUT THEN
I WON'T TELL ANYONE.
I'll just say I gained lots of weight.
No baby showers.
Especially no baby showers with mediocre middle classing bitching about "how hard it is to raise girls and how much better it is to have a boy," by the way. All doctor appointments will be secret.
Then, when baby appears magically (ha ha) and people ask questions, I'll lie and say "This is my foster child!" Or "We adopted."

I think that's an awesome lie, and exactly what society deserves.
I feel good about that.

What. Some people have weird senses of humor.

Bad

Longer version:

http://www.vox.com/2015/2/15/8038283/christian-movies-bad-old-fashioned-fifty-shades

Shorter version:

http://www.patheos.com/blogs/friendlyatheist/2011/04/16/are-all-christian-movies-bad/

Enrichment

Here, get any level of depressed or not as you please...

http://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/online-feminists-increasingly-ask-are-the-psychic-costs-too-much-to-bear/2015/02/19/3dc4ca6c-b7dd-11e4-a200-c008a01a6692_story.html

~~~

It doesn't mention anything about pregnancy. THATS SOMETHING. (By the way, I had a thought like this: saying "that person is saying that because that person is just bitter" and being the sort who thinks that resolves the issue satisfactorily strikes me as both immensely uncompassionate and also quite unimaginative.) 

Sentiments

Toasty: Brothery
http://the-toast.net/2015/02/20/femslash-friday-other-woman/2/

Toastless: Weightloss
http://www.mirror.co.uk/tv/tv-news/james-corden-toast-hollywood---5200511

I find this provocative

Book progress

I ordered The End of Mr. Y and Trigger Warning; the latter is available as an e-book. I never checked out an e-book before. But I think it has a feature where you never get overdue fines, 'cause it will automatically expire, which is cool, kind of like extra insurance or something.

Jab jab jab

David Wax Museum ~ Colas

beagles

Miss P
Keanu companion

gifts

A while ago, I was walking around in a B & N with a gift card, but I ended up leaving without purchasing anything. I finally bought a book to educate myself about my anatomy, and also In Times of Trouble, which I just started. So far, it is not-easy going, because I cannot relate to a woman with a trust fund who wears a bikini while ordering a pitcher of daiquiris and eats three types of eggs with champagne, but I am holding out for the epic empyreal experience at Chartres Cathedral. Also, I like that cover, so it is worth it. I think it would be a good book to read while lying on a beach.

Flicky

"I'll be honest—Jamie Dornan, the actor who plays Grey, simply doesn’t do it for me."

~ http://the-toast.net/2015/02/20/thoughts-fifty-shades-grey/


(Assessment from only seeing the trailer: UH HUH.)

O Isiah

Isiah's ankle injury game.

http://www.nba.com/video/channels/nba_tv/2013/08/26/isiah-thomas-1988-finals-game-6.nba/

Salty chocolate caramel breakfast

"Every day is Children's Day." Tell that to the kids at the border. Valentine's Day just passed. There is Mother's Day and there is Father's Day. Wait, wait a wait trigger warning don't read below this if you are pregnant. I mean it. If you are pregnant this is not for your eyes. YOU are hopefully having an excellent day. I am not a popular and established author who just put out a book titled Trigger Warning. I am not O'Brien slipping soap into Cora's bath. I am not triggering a Lady Sybil either. So read at your own risk keep going keep going keep going keep going okay you're safe you're safe you're safe here it is (you are hopefully having an excellent day) What about Happy Dysmenorrhea Day? Happy Braxton-Hicks Day? Happy Miscarriages Day??? I mean in a nice way.
Like a Day of the Dead type thing.
~~~
Hmmm. Interested in both Trigger Warning and The End of Mr. Y.

Earworm

It's way too early here. I need to go back to sleep.


Milky Chance ~ Stolen Dance

Impressive

http://www.theparisreview.org/blog/2015/01/28/speaking-bluntly/

curious encounters with children

I woke up early and I'm remembering this: walking around Tar-jay behind a dad with a "Violent Men for a Violent Society" t-shirt the dad goes into the restroom really quickly the little boy in cart dips over the edge and gives me a big smile he says "hey Daddeee..." Children can be very strange.

I like Allen

Ginsberg's Supermarket in California

and also Thiebaud's Delicatessen.

http://link.trueart.com

dear some men

i'm getting tired of your instinctual self-protective reversals into certain type of misogynist old boys clubs antics NOTHING IS A GOOD ENOUGH EXCUSE FOR DOING THAT GROW UP

Heeeeee

http://www.ifc.com/portlandia/videos/portlandia-all-male-feminist-support-group

Speaking of food...

By Elizabeth Floyd

"Tomatoes are symbolic of many things..."

http://www.takepart.com/article/2014/12/08/labor-abuse-mexican-farms

~~~~

"Mexico's secretary of agriculture, Enrique Martinez y Martinez, announced the creation Thursday of a "historic" alliance of produce industry groups that will focus on enforcing wage laws and improving housing, schools and healthcare for the more than 1 million laborers at export farms."

http://www.latimes.com/world/mexico-americas/la-me-farm-labor-20150213-story.html#page=1

a sandwich

This Make-A-Wish Kid Couldn’t Decide What He Wanted So They Slid Him Along A Deli Counter Like A Sandwich

hmmm

I've been informed of an alternative to 50 Shades of Grey...

http://variety.com/2015/film/reviews/film-review-old-fashioned-1201434947/

Really impressed

with my recent spate of medical appointments
3 different ppl so far
everyone nice
supergood bedside manners
~~~
that's not counting a massage therapist I saw twice who was also very nice

maybe

i don't really think this way about myself a lot of the time, but it may be true that there are times where at any point i could get triggered to go off on certain types of violations boundaries issues...
i live with a person who seems to deal with it ok but he's basically a saint
who introduces me to movies like circumstance "because it's about lesbians" yeah right

Knitting Hamburgers

https://www.tumblr.com/search/knitted%20hamburger

Because of seeing a knitting circle at McDonald's.

Sweet

http://www.aliexpress.com/

"Because, let’s be honest"

https://studentaffairsfeminists.wordpress.com/2014/04/10/success-and-likeability/

Sex

A kind of average brother:

It was really hard, but I just shoveled three perfect holes out of the ground.

A kind of average mom:

Oh my precious talent! So proud of you! Everyday I am overjoyed I gave birth to a son. Look at those biceps! Here, have a glass of milk.

A kind of average sister:

I shoveled 3 holes too. They're not as perfect looking, but that's because I had to babysit a hamster while applying eyeliner as I held my shovel, and I skipped breakfast because I didn't feel good and now I'm also hungry and tired.

A kind of average mom:

Are you seriously whining about hamster-sitting and eyeliner? When I was your age, we had an anteater and a sanitary belt to contend with. And it's your own fault you didn't eat breakfast. Mind the carbs, by the way, you know those add extra weight. You won't get anywhere if you don't learn to improve your attitude, missy.

Frida & Loteria

The Growlers ~ Monotonia