Tuesday, October 09, 2018

Yawn.

Why don't I just take some yoga classes?

It is a strange life

They say the humidity is lower, the taxes for the retirees...Reno.

" But...you like your house???"
"Well, but the humidity."

Loaves and fishes

X: 2
Y: populus multum
X: feuding

"U could have gone to jail"

Jesus C.

https://6abc.com/society/children-over-12-face-jail-time-for-trick-or-treating-in-some-towns/4449570/

That's what the medium meant.

holy holy holy

y:
x: i am thoroughly looking forward to that monastereeeee
y:
x: (removes earbuds)
y:
x: have you heard that amazing song "my body is a car"
y:
x: (returns earbuds to ear canals)
y:
x: biomimetics

Or maybe the body is a car

"7 easy fixes"

There's some science journal type terms...

"when too many prostaglandins flood the system, you get too much inflammation—and all the quality-of-life-eroding symptoms that come with it."

https://www.floliving.com/period-pain-fix/

Boring but interesting information

The state of your physical, mental and emotional health is more important than your car, your clothes, your house...

https://www.pcosdietsupport.com/pcos-awareness/15-facts-need-know-pcos/

Boring but interesting new information to me:

"The hunger hormone, Cholecystokinin (or CCK for short) is lower in women with PCOS"

https://courses.pcosdietsupport.com/pcos-weight-loss-execution-plan/

♡ local laundromat

Smaller, cleaner, better parking and more welcoming than the other laundromats...you are a worthy cause!!!!


Oh heating pad

Horrible physical cramps and hours earlier a bad crying spell. Maybe it was the wrong time of cycle to eat that not-so-healthy item for dinner. (That is correct). I did not follow that special plan. I should follow it. I hope I don't disintegrate into nothing. I am not in the body of a man nor a woman who gets to live without this bad health issue and survival is what they don't understand and did not ever have to deal with. Your parents do not have your genetics. There must be a better way of living through this.

Monday, October 08, 2018

And then accidentally spilling tea

Not a John at least
Ha ha ha ha ha ha
Tepid

Interesting bio

Found out about Ben
http://discovermagazine.com/2017/sept/the-brain-of-ben-barres

And Barbara
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ben_Barres

Another magical shape

"A magic triangle emerges that connects three sources of power: girls, entrepreneurship, and STEM" (xvii, C. Glangchai in https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/40059278-venture-girls)

~picked it up because~

"...by playing with those stereotypical 'boy' toys at an early age, we girls developed the spatial relations skills we'd need..." (xiii)

also had a flashback to a woman at NIH being terribly disappointed to find out I was merely a note-taker (that was not the actual title...today, the most exciting one for a $105 purchase is...)

Conversations are the best

Y:
X: well here we are again
Y:
X: I just woke up from a dream
Y:
X: I was the roommate of a woman who had a family but also died and left me a bunch of stuff in our apartment
Y:
X: I mean, her husband was gonna come get it and deal with all the paperwork though
Y:
X: but she left a recording saying I could see if any of the clothes fit
Y:
X: and before I retrieved a floral tank top hidden behind a large chintzy painting of, I dunno, a carousel horse or something...
Y:
X: she took pains to point out a large collection of colostomy bags
Y:
X: it makes no sense that we would be sharing an apartment but that's how dreams work
Y:
X: anyway, I just woke up and wondered what you expected to get out of our conversation 
Y:
X:considering that you run your life in a way that makes absolutely no sense to a person like me
Y:
X: but actually, there's something else
Y:
X: have you ever considered going to a hospital or nursing home and just sitting with people there
Y:
X: because part of you actually has this weirdly calm demeanor and it seems like you'd be good at it

Sunday, October 07, 2018

seems merrygoroundish

Cayucas - A Summer Thing

Better

These twins can play guitar and sing about the laid-back West Coast Life we all deserve:

Cayucos, High School Lover, Hella

This can be repeated everyday

There are healthier ways of communicating!

Because it is a break from the real news

"I will continue to watch the rest of H's Tale S1E2 "Birth Day"  (the ending was good) and then R&M S1E2 "Lawnmower Dog" and report having done so in hopes of sending messages out into the universe about overhauling the old-fashioned "girls watch shows about boys, but boys won’t do the same" phenomenon OW PAIN BLAST THIS I MEAN SEND IN THE ANGEL HARPS and in addition to a second women in horror movies reference (The first was in "Birth Day") there was a  good use of Twisted Sister on SNL weekend update 10/6/18.

This looks cool for next year

http://pcosawarenessmonth.org/pcos-lighting-events/#usa

Between a & b

Y:
X: YOU ARE WORTHY OF EXCELLENT HEALTH YOU ARE WORTHY

yeah & a pumpkin latte too

"to shreds you say"

Teal2x

there will
PCOS in September

be paint
Sexual Assault in April

So long!

"I asked David J Morris, the Marine corps veteran and author of The Evil Hours, a powerful book on PTSD, about trauma and memory, and he replied: “'Most men have no idea how truly traumatic sexual assault is.'" ~ R. Solnit https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2018/sep/21/brett-kavanaugh-blame-women-anita-hill-cosby-weinstein 

"'The science on the subject is pretty clear: according to the New England Journal of Medicine, rape is about four times more likely to result in diagnosable PTSD than combat. Think about that for a moment – being raped is four times more psychologically disturbing than going off to a war and being shot at and blown up. And because there are currently no enduring cultural narratives that allow women to look upon their survival as somehow heroic or honorable, the potential for enduring damage is even greater. A traumatic event like the one Christine Blasey Ford is alleging fractures the self, destroys one’s sense of time and place in the universe and generally changes a person completely. It is literally an encounter with death.'" ~D. Morris to R. Solnit https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2018/sep/21/brett-kavanaugh-blame-women-anita-hill-cosby-weinstein

Almost, but...

Not quite.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1720070.Saturday_the_Twelfth_of_October

~~~zone~~~

Clouds and mountains and trees and birds and water droplets...

Oh yeah and avoiding the angry man raving about "this motherfucking country" in the park. Though perhaps his sentiment is somewhat understandable.

Kinda like square things

Square spiral.
Sometimes.
Moment in time.

We're enjoying these

Essays from way back in the '70s about flying saucers and etc.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/813242.On_This_Hilltop


From On This Hilltop.
I was in the womb.
FLYING SAUCERZZZ


From On This Hilltop.
I was not yet conceived.


Also in On This Hilltop.
I was a scant month-and-a-half old.



That's musical

✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩✩

https://www.forbes.com/sites/scottmendelson/2018/10/07/box-office-bradley-cooper-lady-gaga-star-is-born-earns-43m-weekend-oscars/

Items

Good.

https://www.cnbc.com/2018/10/02/trump-forbes-400-spot-tumbles-as-net-worth-declines.html

Different.

http://time.com/5416866/murkowski-kavanaugh-alaska-assault/

Bad.

https://www.cnbc.com/2018/10/02/white-house-press-briefings-vanish-trump-takes-more-control.html

Interesting.

https://www.vox.com/2018/10/5/17942486/kavanaugh-murkowski-alaska-natives

Unsurprising.

https://www.cnn.com/2018/10/06/politics/trump-murkowski-future-kavanaugh-vote/index.html



actually I am positive

you're on the right track when the suicidal ideation decreases!!!!

& of course color triggers

(teal hair @ 6:46!) 

my old high school friend
who visited this spring
and came to see me in NY
and met the grad school friends
says she went to a wedding 
the groom paraglided in from a jetpack

 actually the best song
for unloading the dishwasher is

still
also works

Saturday, October 06, 2018

Of course cleaning the kitchen and listening to music

I...got...inspired!

https://twitter.com/amandapalmer/status/1048705130751610880

Good water stuff

A poem...

dear_water https://vimeo.com/291445090/b1d80cee6a

Friends are in it...

Maybe kitty is salty

"This kitty found a new unusual friend" https://www.reddit.com/r/thisismylifenow/comments/9lxjfo/this_kitty_found_a_new_unusual_friend/

Cheeky is

Banksy

https://mobile.twitter.com/iamDeveloper/status/1048614078137085953

++++++

https://www.reddit.com/r/Banksy/comments/9lxovu/banksy_is_a_real_madlad/

It is amazing.

Now, ads for that place are smack in the middle of a story about trucks.

I am so powerful.

https://www.popularmechanics.com/cars/trucks/a16644/the-grueling-life-of-a-long-haul-trucker/

"gel"?

Something to make better useof

Curiosity.

"Lumber Liquidators...what's that all about"

https://mobile.twitter.com/hardwoodforless/status/1047932809485148165

Sports for women and men, for all people

Because
http://time.com/5416251/cristiano-ronaldo-rape-soccer-metoo/?xid=tcoshare

Pinned to
https://mobile.twitter.com/_shireenahmed_?lang=en

Hey everyone has them

"Unofficial" job moments.

Like telling a young woman something society has trained her to think was her fault was not her fault.

Back to the good music

of the bookstore job...
Paul Schwartz ~ Aria 2

Liked this clip

Lady Gaga on Christine Ford
https://slate.com/culture/2018/10/lady-gaga-christine-blasey-ford-colbert.html

It's sad.

A long time ago I sat in a bar with a young man I really liked whose main passion in life was basketball and he pointed out his favorite player on the TV set above the bar. Seems like a cool guy, I thought. We both worked at the same bookstore. I read about his idol's coach. I was into the spirituality. How society grooms us to be spectators and love male orators and performers. Long time ago.

"used to be" ~ S. Ahmed

https://the-cauldron.com/nah-bro-all-muslims-do-not-love-kobe-bryant-86293d9ae142

Men wrote this week

These guys think society deserves better.

https://deadspin.com/prosecutor-in-farcical-brett-kavanaugh-hearing-was-part-1829513259

+

https://deadspin.com/why-the-fuck-isnt-kobe-bryant-a-pariah-yet-1829494689

Doctor

Denis Mukwege profile

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/10/05/world/africa/denis-mukwege-nobel-peace-prize.html

Maybe also a good message

For today:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Join,_or_Die

To so many personalities...

Oh and it's a show, too:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Join_or_Die_with_Craig_Ferguson

Better than average

Tree missives
https://mobile.twitter.com/tree_humor

Friday, October 05, 2018

It's good to accomplish what you came for

I'm glad I got to know this one and I am sure she was proud of what she accomplished.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/8979038-tiger-tiger

Even though it was quite hard to read and I believe she had more joy in her than what the book represents and I was shocked about her passing, I have long believed souls can come back if they want to. I mean some of our interactions and ways of communicating were so zany. It just makes more sense to me that she'd come back.

Smile when you actually feel like it

Suffocating, exhausting you-must-be-positive-all-the-time-or-else culture does NOT help people heal from systemic oppression or bad PTSD. It is a control tactic. It's also been done to lots of kids who have been abused.

Christopher Columbus could have been an insufferable optimist.

Well this could be positive

The earlier the better.

https://www.npr.org/2018/10/05/654775614/kavanaugh-allegations-prompt-some-prep-schools-to-examine-their-culture

How to?

How to care more


what if they have very bad PTSD and are not a man who fought and screwed up his mind for your country

Oh rambling mind

This is almost comic relief

haha funny
https://www.ere.net/the-halo-effect-the-tall-people-are-coming-for-you-and-your-gut-feeling/

Who put the ppl in charge

In charge?

Creatively "adulting" continues

Oh, especially bad water and alcohol jokes.
I am not going to the mall to look at Hello Kitty lipgloss like a ten year old.

It did little to improve my mood this week when young person who admires a certain sexual assault sports star also told me "it was my fault" about a bad encounter she had with a guy while drinking. I countered her assertion and she laughed. I am not sure if she believed me.

I feel like this book of bad poetry one of my friends used to have back in college:

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/108280.Farm_Girl_Dirt_and_Other_Songs_for_Jennifer

Better

"Nadia Murad, 25" 

"Dr. Denis Mukwege, 63"

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/10/05/world/nobel-peace-prize.html

It is a good title

"I Thought Men Might Do Better Than This"
~ R. Gay

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/10/05/opinion/weinstein-kavanaugh-one-year.html

Sometimes it is quite cruel

The laughter

https://www.theatlantic.com/entertainment/archive/2018/10/trump-mocks-christine-blasey-ford/572005/

Maybe even more than $

"Trump’s only true skill is the con; his only fundamental belief is that the United States is the birthright of straight, white, Christian men, and his only real, authentic pleasure is in cruelty."

~ A. Serwer

https://www.theatlantic.com/ideas/archive/2018/10/the-cruelty-is-the-point/572104/

Because of $

"The crowd"

~ A. K. Raymond

https://www.thecut.com/2018/10/trump-mocks-and-imitates-christine-ford-at-campaign-rally.html

So many people voted for this sick, twisted, incompetent man.

Omg omg omg

Nature!!!

https://www.aol.com/article/lifestyle/2018/10/05/secret-service-jumps-in-after-baby-elephant-charges-at-melania-trump-in-kenya/23552109/

Alternate spelling

"Sauk"

https://www.britannica.com/biography/Black-Hawk-Sauk-and-Fox-leader

So much interesting history the colonizers never taught in Public Schools.

Better dreams next time

Wow, what a terrible dream. It wasn't even about Handsmaid Tale, it was just about a bad hotel and vaguely feeling like people think you're trash.  Ugh. Terrible!!!

People I just learned about

Denis Mukwege & Nadia Murad

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/nobel-peace-prize-denis-mukwege-and-nadia-murad-win-2018-award/ar-BBNY3X4?OCID=ansmsnnews11

hmmm there's opinions out there

She's not gonna watch it anymore.

https://www.theguardian.com/tv-and-radio/2018/jun/16/handmaids-tale-season-2-elisabeth-moss-margaret-atwood

Decisions, decisions.


Recreational considerations in the early a.m.

Even though more than one person has told me it made them stomach-sick to watch it, they also said the Handmaid's Tale is a really good show. (Maybe fans of the ever popular GOT would also appreciate it.) So anyway, last night I decided I could try Handmaid's Tale. I was feeling tough. I had prepared myself. At the end of the first episode I was doing so well! I decided I could watch another one. Then, when I was least expecting it, I was overwhelmed by terrible nausea and sweating. I felt a lot like I did after I got the flu shot...Barely managed to keep from throwing up. I crawled into bed with ginger tea and used the Calm app and mercifully, eventually fell asleep. Is it worth it to watch the show again? Maybe...when I feel up to it...just one episode at a time...

HuManeRowr

Trite

https://mobile.twitter.com/SonOfGodAndMan/status/1047991797358764033

Again

https://mobile.twitter.com/SonOfGodAndMan/status/1047937775947927557

Wednesday, October 03, 2018

Table

Mensa

Thought bubbles

I don't mean to boast but it is very funny that you do not realize I am somewhat of a national treasure...That's great. Perhaps I flew over when you were twelve. Are you sure you're a grown-up? It must be great to have no PTSD. I am nauseated and so is that little girl. Oh well, here's a mom taking care of her kid as we wait patiently. We'll always have waiting patiently, for some reason.

There are survivors...

You can admire their resilience. You can feel as if have been there too, in other times. You might have a real appreciation for a soul who has seen some things (military life, crazy upbringing, survived abusive situations etc.) and see how parts of their experiences overlaps with your own tough experiences. We are here to be creative, but we have different ways of going about it sometimes. Sometimes an undernurtured, overcriticized child carries the pain as an adult and you can still feel for the person but you could get run over by their hostility just because you could have a productive time when the part-time delightful personality who can be fun and receptive decides to show up on a sporadic basis. Also such a person cannot be there for you when too much of their own agenda is always ruling everything.

Maybe there are angels

Nobody knows how you managed to not go over a cliff the way you know it.

People are more important

"Payne, who lectures on unconscious bias for professional organizations, recalled "the conversations that took place behind the nurse's station that just made assumptions; a lot of victim-blaming — 'If those people would only do blah, blah, blah, things would be different.'"

~N.  Martin

https://www.npr.org/2017/12/07/568948782/black-mothers-keep-dying-after-giving-birth-shalon-irvings-story-explains-why

Acting like things are more important than people

That seems to be an awful side effect of growing up in a non-nurturing environment where systemic inequality was rampant.

It would seem wise to examine that so as not to repeat patterns of selfishness and inequality.

It must really warp one's sense of self or how to treat others with respect and courtesy if that does not happen.

They are sick

Not just in one way either.

https://www.vox.com/policy-and-politics/2018/10/3/17932324/brett-kavanaugh-news-republicans-poll-sexual-assault

Conservative men and brainwashed women who follow them do not care about women's health or safety.

who are they

the favorite suck-ups
https://www.financialsamurai.com/median-income-by-age-and-sex-in-america/

you choose your friends

Whee!

More!

https://medium.com/we-the-peoples/how-poverty-impacts-women-and-what-we-can-do-to-end-it-8fe84d0108fa

What did they miss out on?

A lot of loud-mouthed men who clearly are super resistant to any change of mindset and only grow more and more obnoxious.

Imagine a soft glow

Buffering your sensitive soul

They seemed so happy...

with their

Amazing DIY European Style Tiny House... 

 pizza oven

oh

D!

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2018/mar/04/has-dopamine-got-us-hooked-on-tech-facebook-apps-addiction

Um

whose fault is this
https://motherboard.vice.com/en_us/article/pad4a9/the-us-army-funded-astral-projection-and-hypnosis-research-in-the-80s

Cupcake story

astral travel has been widely acknowledged and even utilized as a tool in spiritual practices in many cultures for centuries 

there go those friends of yours
travelling astrally again

astral travel is not scientifically proven

oh they just dived into your cake batter mixture....now you will cook them...and eat the...friends...bye.....mmmm, cupcakes

so aMAZEing

wow
https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/america-just-won-the-worlds-hardest-math-contest-again/2018/08/01/b634f308-9594-11e8-8ffb-5de6d5e49ada_story.html
neat

whatever

My neck pain is too much. Babysitter's teenage son crushing my 8-year-old self with his foot.

Just try to stop lying

https://themennonite.org/opinion/white-women-vote/

+

https://www.bloomberg.com/news/articles/2018-10-03/peter-thiel-backed-startup-to-sell-5-000-robots-to-xpo-logistics

Life is not good on the internet.

Monday, October 01, 2018

I sure am entertained by these

little off-grid homes
Old Railway Carriage Converted...
and the element of surprise


oldenoldenewenoldagain

 //+\\

hahaha

bubbly and bright

https://mobile.twitter.com/NSF/status/1046840705803571200

ever so gay and merry

https://mobile.twitter.com/Cell_Alchemy/status/1046512132991270912

psh
https://www.beeradvocate.com/beer/profile/1929/

dam

mad mad mad maD mad mad
madmaDmadmad
mad maD too many t-shirts with too many teeth holes restaurant work drunk scientsists
mad mad mad maD
https://www.npr.org/sections/ed/2017/07/06/535732200/something-new-for-baby-to-chew-on-rocket-science-and-quantum-physics
MaDam
MaDa
Ma
Andrew Harvey

¿=♡÷?

math math math math math
math math
math math math math
https://www.susanjfowler.com/blog/2016/8/13/so-you-want-to-learn-physics
math math math math math math math
math math
math math math math
math math skiing
I have never been

Gee

Reincarnation is when you come back to see how goofy people are.

On a Planet of Many People

A pain in the neck reminds me of the

Great Selfish Patriarchal Controller Paradigm.

Producer of Professors or Great Scientists or Businesspersons...

No, they are not feminists.

They really really really don't give a crap about equality or parity, do they?

Controllers who like to always put themselves at the center of things so they can get rewarded for it.

If they live long enough, they lose their faculties and control over their lives.