Not new

Not new
https://www.pbs.org/newshour/nation/u-s-military-fails-to-protect-children-from-sexual-abuse-on-bases-ap-reports

Raised to look the other way?

Can change that.

https://variety.com/2018/tv/news/insatiable-fat-shaming-netflix-show-1202882565/


https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-antidepressant-diet/201801/massive-eating-after-sexual-trauma


https://www.cnn.com/2018/07/25/health/ivf-insurance-parenting-strauss/index.html


https://bangaloremirror.indiatimes.com/bangalore/others/infertility-is-on-the-rise-but-men-on-the-defensive/articleshow/65123721.cms

What's better

Being raised to look or being raised to look the other way?

https://www.harpersbazaar.com/culture/politics/a21527948/life-north-korea-women/

Why do people

have to keep writing about this stuff

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2018/jul/22/sexually-abused-teenage-girls-likely-suffer-mental-health-issues-months-later-study

because the problems

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/psychoanalysis-30/201101/talking-about-sexually-abused-boys-and-the-men-they-become

have not vanished

https://www.harpersbazaar.com/culture/features/a20138398/stop-using-survivor-to-describe-sexual-assault-victims/

A future to avoid

Fake love

Fake health

Fake success

So old

So old, so old, so old, like lifetimes old.
If a life was hard and you had to get fake to cope but after a while it's not working so great, maybe go to an objective professional healer, not someone who is healthily irritated by the old fake ways appearing over and over again.

Bummer

I was trying to show teal-colored nails I was looking at to feel cheered up, but the page keeps going to this Disney beige foundation crap.

Fake.

Interested by what I cannot do

For example...
https://www.insidescience.org/news/exploring-math-hidden-figures

For example...
http://blog.wolfram.com/2017/02/24/hidden-figures-modern-approaches-to-orbit-and-reentry-calculations/

My (previous occupant's) Seventeen came!

So much product.
This one caught my eye right away.

https://www.fatandthemoon.com/products/lavender-cocoa-dry-shampoo-2oz?variant=19566018435

Okay and then

https://www.seventeen.com/life/real-girl-stories/a22119936/zero-hour-climate-change-teen-activist-jamie-margolin/

Fine...

Why should I care about what kind of corvettes my brother liked as a teenager, or about being good at farmwork? Farmwork is boring...

Curious about this now

"Nature is a mirror in which we can study ourselves" ~ Close-Up

Hmmm.

http://www.slate.com/blogs/browbeat/2016/07/05/why_abbas_kiarostami_s_films_meant_so_much_to_me_in_one_long_shot_of_a_tin.html

these are a little

night
Boarding Order

marish
Turbulence

not so tough really

Never went to Ranger School...
But I did do a somersault down the stairs when I was like three...

Oh. How did it even do that.

I got
https://www.allure.com/story/thin-privilege-beauty-standards

to
https://www.instagram.com/fariha_roisin/?hl=en

a garden!
https://gardenacu.com/the-evolution-of-my-healing-fariha-roisin/

see...see...oh

Jesus
https://www.desertsun.com/story/sports/high-school/2018/07/23/eating-disorders-bastard-and-athletes-fall-victim-accelerated-rate/728477002/

Forgive
https://www.nbcnews.com/pop-culture/tv/netflix-series-insatiable-accused-fat-shaming-stars-defend-show-n893511

My
https://www.shape.com/lifestyle/mind-and-body/eating-disorder-survivors-are-angry-billboard-appetite-suppressant-lollipops

Interest
https://www.allure.com/story/insatiable-netflix-petition-to-cancel-show-plus-size-teen

Time is so mystifying

It has been almost two decades since I've seen a UFO.
"Richest country in the world"
Flaca

considering dogs

bf thinks this is funny

https://www.reddit.com/r/AnimalTextGifs/comments/90expo/oh_martha/

such sense of humor

I bet it's good for your brain

Brain Integration and Integrated Healing

http://mybrainawakening.com/index.htm

+

http://mybrainawakening.com/inhe.html

I bet it's better than twitter.

only a little different now

because
https://www.avclub.com/one-two-princes-kneel-before-you-as-the-crown-sings-th-1821555465

there's
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2011/mar/27/debate-tiger-tiger-book

internet
https://www.rainn.org/articles/adult-survivors-child-sexual-abuse

It's not okay

Worse than bad AI.

Women are discriminated against due to bias. Sickness and poverty.

Abused men won't get help because they are surrounded by enablers who want them to pretend everything is okay.

Time being

I can plan to cultivate spirituality with study and love of nature to enhance my life.

Everyone's a weed

I have to see these.
https://www.boredpanda.com/animated-paintings-of-weeds-slowly-taking-over-the-city-2/

Siii~you~iii

Like what about all the cool and beautiful cars

A nice way with words

Literarararar
http://www.bbimedia.com/store/index.php?main_page=product_info&cPath=3_15&products_id=740

Y
http://www.patheos.com/blogs/unequallyyoked/2012/06/math-related-prayer-hijinks.html

And I think this is spice

As my stepfather used to say to me, "Put yourself in my shoes."

I have a good prayer idea

Pray for the right math book to work through the discalculia (?) or math anxiety (?) Or feel less rage about math. This one looked funny in a dilapidated and messy car.

Almost end of season

As such.

http://www.vulture.com/2017/12/the-crown-recap-season-2-episode-9.html

Sigh

Friend w/ problem: don't you want to go sailing on my normous boat

You: no because the universe says it is better if I go to a park on my own while you go to your therapy session, or maybe later if you do that work for yourself, but then again you could just sell the boat, who knows

Can't it be for everybody

Getting help from those professional shamanic healer types

up there ~ out there

view from

down here

Feels like

Universe asks for best collage(s) of you(s) as a young person (80s?)

I wonder why?

"Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) affects up to 13% of women of reproductive age in non-Indigenous and one in three Indigenous women"

~ Monash University

https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/07/180719142101.htm

***

"I still have PTSD"

~ R. Kerslake

https://www.romper.com/p/we-unknowingly-make-women-who-have-dealt-with-infertility-feel-excluded-9006361

***;***

"stigma"

~ M. Waabi

https://www.dw.com/en/no-help-for-the-infertile-in-africa/a-44691145

There's a weird guilt trigger

"For Americans like me who were raised with working parents, the frequency with which women stay at home here is jaw-dropping."

~ C. Tenz

https://www.thecut.com/2018/01/book-review-achtung-baby-by-sara-zaske.html

321

That was a joke!

Oh but there was an underlying bitterness.

Now it is a lake.

I got a book recommendation today

It's about poetry!

Le Ton Beau de Marot

For those of us who continuously fail at reading Gödel, Escher, Bach.

Rate 1-20 for coffeeshop conversation

Uneasiness to the point of queasiness --- delightful

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/02/09/books/review/sex-young-adult-fiction.html

It is free.

It is FREE.

https://www.amazon.com/Sweet-Baby-Girl-Beauty-Salon/dp/B073V2FCF8

I forgot

Beauty salons

How much make-up is appropriate by the age of x?

So empirical

Thoughts
https://www.brookings.edu/blog/education-plus-development/2018/06/01/what-about-the-boys-educating-boys-for-gender-justice/

Not mentioned: dressing them up as girls and putting them in an environment of ranting men traumatized by the patriarchy. This costs very little and works well in a number of settings: a bar, a classroom, a church, some kind academic or business conference...

I think my sister likes this

maybe
https://mysteriousuniverse.org/2018/07/egypt-will-open-giant-black-mystery-sarcophagus-despite-warnings/

maybe
https://www.popularmechanics.com/science/archaeology/a22506260/whats-inside-2000-year-old-mystery-sarcophagus/

Summer dayz

The kids around here have been having fun with sidewalk chalk. And earlier, a big whale toy!

I am repetitive

sometimes I just feel like this is such good song for psychological well-beings


The Orb ~ Little Fluffy Clouds

I hope

"In My Fillings" guy takes care of his psychological well-being.

Who's Margaret

...Stevenson???

http://www.personal.psu.edu/cjm5/blogs/benjamin_franklin_then_and_now/2013/05/franklin-and-deborah.html

Other interesting questions...

http://www.benjamin-franklin-history.org/junto-club/

Should I read this

IT'S ABOUT A YEAR OF SLEEPING

http://ew.com/books/2018/07/11/my-year-of-rest-and-relaxation-review/

I like the nightgown on the cover.

Just for fun search terms

 glazed brick 

for the eponines

The one I forgot

Gabrielle
https://litbysunfire.wordpress.com/2013/03/24/gabrielle-quick-notes/

Best precarious poem

by Emily Dickinson...

https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/334419-i-stepped-from-plank-to-plank-so-slow-and-cautiously

But...ay ay ay...

https://www.questformeaning.org/military-2/that-precarious-gait/

Prey to / peer to...

I've decided it behooves me to consider my experiences and in doing so, I can consider other persons' experiences as "not like mine in this lifetime, but nonetheless quite interesting!"

For instance. How it is hard to be Tom.
Has anyone ever been like that in any other century.

It's sublime

Broadleaf plantain mural

Gifts.from.mother

It's a fun distraction to remember '80s Sunfire books...

Caroline...what???

https://www.thriftbooks.com/series/sunfire/39105/

Not all of them. But most definitely these...

Merrie

https://mondomolly.wordpress.com/2013/11/26/merrie-sunfire-romance-25-by-vivian-schurfranz/

Diana

https://litbysunfire.wordpress.com/2017/10/01/diana-quick-notes/

Well she didn't get to the next one...

Renee

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1242840.Renee

Oh this one too.

Nicole
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/475387.Nicole

I don't think I read Caroline. Highly rated.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/588843.Caroline

Nora! I read Nora.
https://litbysunfire.wordpress.com/2013/05/27/nora-quick-noted/

Veronica. I think so.
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1242845.Veronica

Jessica? Maybe not.
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/841052.Jessica

The one that makes me think about food the most is Renee. Italian food.

Oh look at that! Renee won an award.

https://www.romancewiki.com/Renee

Appropriate

Car got a water pump and needs a new computer.

https://www.frugalwoods.com/2018/07/20/car-parts-and-other-june-2018-expenditures/

Body is saying

Have to heal these things.

a gum feeling...

trying to buy someone gum to compensate for the salty behavior of the TSA agent is okay

When yr pain is boring

Sleepy...
https://www.rd.com/health/wellness/mediation-and-hypnosis/

More variety

Eh.

https://www.roadsideamerica.com/story/2127

Better.

https://www.roadsideamerica.com/story/30596

There are other things, however...

Some say it may be dumb to be angry about this, but it happens.

https://www.myatlantichealthsolutions.com/fertility-infertility-resources-for-patients/2016/5/26/7-things-infertile-women-hate-hearing

P. Copeland says infertility is like not owning a BMW. Really? Where does lack of BMW make some people throw themselves over cliffs, or get ostracized, outcast and dehumanized.

This is incredibly worthy of anger:

https://www.theguardian.com/global-development/2018/jul/13/destroyed-girl-she-was-toll-pregnancy-paraguay-children

Of all things

in the world to get mad about...

https://www.vox.com/platform/amp/2018/7/18/17585950/she-ra-redesign-controversy-netflix

really

But all the nice qualities tho

My brother absolutely never succumbs to using self-loathing as a self-protective shield.

Status

Thirsty and in need of tranquility

Hmmm

Death Metal Grandma
http://www.metalinjection.net/av/todays-inspiration-this-96-year-old-holocaust-survivor-grandma-fronts-a-metal-band

H~~~

Perusable links

https://ggia.berkeley.edu/practice/body_scan_meditation

+

https://www.colorlines.com/articles/healers-color-why-self-care-not-self-indulgence

+

http://marc.ucla.edu/mindful-meditations

Butterfly

This is cool but...
http://www.kathyloknows.com/why-type-of-entrepreneur-are-you/

Why are on phone again

A segment of time

Enjoying waterfall ions

A collection of hours

In a meadow, learning about the meadow.

1 or 2 or 3 whole days....

BEACH
Learning about the beachy things.

2 or 3 whole days...

MOUNTAIN

Omg, just imagine

A nature retreat every weekend.
2 or 3 whole daaaays...

Picked a name...

Found a review...
http://wanderlustandlipstick.com/blogs/trailbound/2015/06/10/camping-at-henry-coe-state-park/

Places to be...

Where 

https://la.curbed.com/2017/4/7/15199702/best-los-angeles-campsites

to

https://www.timeout.com/los-angeles/travel/best-road-trips-from-la

go?

https://www.sunset.com/travel/california/best-campgrounds-california

a lot of music note emojis

I have to
https://uproxx.com/music/lets-eat-grandma-im-all-ears-review-rx/

look at all of these
http://thequietus.com/articles/24846-it-ain-t-that-deep-either-way-pop-column-summer-2018-niki-charlie-xcx-sophie-bts

This was a nice drink

It would also look cute if the table had something like these:

https://www.katespadehomegifts.com.au/kate-spade-new-york-with-a-twist-salt-pepper.html

And if there were new coffee shop chairs

https://www.hgtv.com/shows/the-high-low-project/spend-or-save-the-high-and-low-list-pictures

Agony

https://www.popsci.com/swimming-pools-salt-water-chlorine

Sounds very B.

"Perversely, he claims the thing he's proudest of is 'the bird cage'"

~ E. Grice

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/culture/photography/7368664/Lord-Snowdon-Taking-photographs-is-a-very-nasty-thing-to-do.html

Prin~cess

M
https://www.avclub.com/the-crown-gives-princess-margaret-the-1950s-melodrama-s-1821204133

Oh well,
https://www.telegraph.co.uk/culture/books/non_fictionreviews/3554322/Lord-Snowdon-small-in-stature-big-in-bed.html


I guess the 6 week vacations aren't enough for some people.
https://www.townandcountrymag.com/society/news/a9255/princess-margaret-lord-snowdon-relationship/

Does eat oats

"Canela..."
Eat some ice.

Pace pace ponder

Cute old pharmacy memories.

For berry eaters

who need better sleep

https://goop.com/beauty/skin/face-massage-your-way-to-sleep/

OR

http://www.shen-nong.com/eng/lifestyles/tcmrole_sleep_message.html

D-tails

Cry
https://www.mnn.com/earth-matters/animals/blogs/you-know-call-bald-eagle-you-hear-tv-thats-not-bald-eagle

+++++++++

Size
https://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=156187375

~~~~~

http://healthysleep.med.harvard.edu/healthy/science/how/external-factors

Haha...m'amuse

PCOS Girl vs. Normal Girl by Your Nutrition Cure

Kinda like the V. Beckham type of PCOS Girl

And memoirs and plays and opera and...

I like Garbage.
She's like...artist singing to herself.

Later...
http://www.wbur.org/dearsugar/2018/07/17/young-isolated-with-shirley-manson

I have a reincarnation orientation

She made a great impression on me, especially this past year. She wanted to help people. She was very young and pregnant when we met. She had something difficult to accomplish and she did it. She faced a lot of criticism. I felt she was around even though she was gone. I bet she will come back.

Orange and teal

Colors, but could also be good names!
https://www.kitteasf.com/yoga/

Truthfully.

There is a lot!!!! I do not understand.

what are they doing

I don't know what they are doing...

spirits with movie
https://www.theatlantic.com/entertainment/archive/2017/06/the-film-thats-missing-from-the-centurys-greatest-lists/530358/


paperplanesonginvasion


return of the goat film
https://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/le-quattro-volte-2011

this is a short one
https://www.indiefarmer.com/2017/03/29/short-film-the-girgentana-goat/

why to the why

the return of the backache
means wanting to see a healer

what seems the thing

if you don't avoid your problems

http://www.dana.org/Cerebrum/2000/Wounds_That_Time_Won%E2%80%99t_Heal__The_Neurobiology_of_Child_Abuse/

maybe you can find better ways of doing things

https://www.theguardian.com/uk-news/2018/jun/28/it-never-stops-shaping-you-the-legacy-of-child-sexual-abuse-and-how-to-survive-it

if you avoid your problems

https://www.thestar.com/opinion/star-columnists/2018/07/10/do-some-nations-plain-dislike-children.html

maybe you become the problem people want to avoid

I am.so sorry

I feel a lot of pain in my back right now.
It is so very dreadful.
It's like my organs hurt.

This stuff needs to be healed.
I hope I am not sick.
Heartbreaking stuff.

Sampling

Christian
http://guidetospiritualawakening.com/still-small-voice-within/

Haha
http://gailbrenner.com/2010/03/the-art-of-listening-to-the-still-small-voice-within/

More...
https://lonerwolf.com/intuition/

https://kripalu.org/presenters-programs/still-small-voice-within-meditation-focusing-and-intuition-training

http://www.nlplifetraining.com/content/still-small-voice-within

http://thewisdomdaily.com/still-small-voice/

Maybe I will

try one of their pop tarts in August
http://www.thebelmontcharleston.com

another perk

When I hang out with nature, I feel closer to Jesus, who told me he's a fan of "the still, small voice within."

How could they

noooo
https://www.theatlantic.com/business/archive/2018/03/napa-wine-rich/554945/

also still around from that time

mustard commerical
oh god, what would my life be without good technology

From the 80s and still around...

When I was a kid  on the island, there was a magazine that introduced me to this guy's art and music.

https://www.musicforhealthyliving.com/

Art & Music...

I think this stuff is good

Uses kinesiology.
http://integratedhealing.co.uk/what-we-do/

It's possible

We can have a calm communication style.

Avoided it for a fair amount of time

Then after I read friend's memoir, I was like, would any class assign this?

:-/

Sigh. My. personal. opinion: some people need to do energy work, to clear anger and trauma held in the body. Of course, some people don't seem to want to listen if they have gotten used to dealing with stuff by filling life with tons of distractions for a long time.

Got some feelings

Got some feelings like a friend is saying she did not get huge helpings of sympathy when she was published.

https://www.theglobeandmail.com/life/deconstructing-the-monster-margaux-fragosos-memoir-of-abuse/article569079/