Okay, so here's something else that just came up for me.

One time, I was really going through some stuff and I had a really bad dream, and I was like a little child brought to my knees and it was because I was traumatized and I couldn't go back to my old job. And His Better Than Most of Themness was good and compassionate. And I was grateful. But that could not last. Around the same time, I had awful menstrual cramps. And nobody was checking on me to make sure those got better and I felt sad about that and I expressed something like that and his first reaction was to think that I was being a childish little baby. Really, right after I'd been through some very horrible pain, and he could not have any empathy and neither did the women in his family, and he's better than most of them. And I still hate that he did that, and if I go back to that instant, I haven't forgiven him and I kick him in the head and I know his family was warped by patriarchal society to act like women are less important than men, and he's still better than 95 to 99% of the men that I've met. The ignorance, the audacity, the cruelty. The amount of physical pain you can go through and still get treated like it means nothing. By the "good" ones. That is a big lesson to learn about what the patriarchal society has done to some people's humanity sometimes. The patriarchy is terrible.

No wonder they act like some really rich guy who raped a 19-year-old girl and got sone kids killed on a helicopter crash when the helicopter couldn't shouldn't have been flying, they act like this one is the girl dad of the century. The paycheckee needs people to worship violent men. They are so sick in the head sometimes just because patriarchy did that to them. You know stuff like that makes menstrual cramps worse when you're already recovering from abusive situations happening to both your body and to other people's bodies, because you actually have empathy for other people because you had to have empathy for other people in order to survive the certain kind of circumstances / childhood you inherited. And a lot of parents are incredibly ignorant about this kind of thing, and patriarchy wants them to be ignorant. Patriarchy wants them to be content with love of money and houses being at the top of their list, too Yeah, that's not really a very high form of love in my opinion.