Oh, the rich white people in Pasadena say they are going to be leaving soon...and so are the people bragging in the comments...
Monday, December 29, 2025
That's another thing I discovered this morning.
I feel like if there were more primordial drumming musical ceremonies for people who are filled with trauma and stress, it would really help some people to process their traumas, and actually there would be fewer violent crimes. I'm not saying it would fix everything but it would definitely help. People get stuck in fight or flight modes and sometimes they're in fight and sometimes they're in flight. And sometimes if they see somebody who reminds them of something, that becomes the person they're fighting against. Or the person they're fleeing. But they really need more ways to process their feelings and their grief and their trauma.
If I must, I must! 🙏🏼⚕️❤️
I'll just have to try to do my best to be tending to the health issues again today!
Not that they seem to care, but this is how I feel.
If you wanted someone like me to buy into your version of what successful is, you should have made it look more appealing. AND BETTER FOR THE BODY. This body cannot do that. We cannot go along with old patterns. Sorry, not possible here.
Defiance!
Found the best reaction to the sick guy in the comments.
"PSG vs Tottenham..."
boardlink37y
Really does feel like this is the better way for me right now.
I'm supposed to be a down-to-earth person, and not the kind that other people put on a pedestal and act like is a genius. The vast majority of people who get convinced to hero worship another person do so because that other person is better at something than they are. Then they are stalling their own progress. I don't agree with going along with those patterns. It's fine to appreciate that someone's better at stuff than you are. And maybe as a joke you might be a little bit worshippy of them because of their great talents, but too many people get really serious about their hero worship and they become devotees as a coping mechanism, and I just don't think that's very good for most of humanity right now. Hero worship is like drugs I don't need to take.
So why did such imbalanced situations happen?
Maybe there were ancestors who acted like how some others are still acting now, and since many people normalized certain patterns, and wanted me to act like their ways are "normal," I had to realize on a deeper level that I could truly believe it's not "normal" to be that way.
I sort of had a dream (or an experience in a half awake state) that a kind woman with a healer orientation was working with me on my left and then some energy got into me from above and it felt like a lot of tension and stress and I began to scream but there was drums and music mixed in with that energy to align with and cleanse that fierce tension. It was primordial.
And so...
Anyways, it's weird to know that they deserve better too. Insensitive people have their abilities to activate the better parts of themselves.
Since grades are so important to you.
"A" for Unhelpful Asshole, running once more to the comforts of a shallow, misogynistic, small-minded worldview.
Sigh.
Thanks for being such a stellar reminder that world is filled people who are more feminist than you and people who had it worse still deserve better than your immature attitude.
Deeply damaged by Patriarchal Culture.
Please find whoever or whatever is going to help you with your insensitive asshole attitude problem.
Unhealed people have been such nightmares.
Vile anti-feminist attitudes. Shame on them for expecting girls and women to go through worse just so they can act like selfish, materialistic, clueless, immature, spoiled brats.
Feeling a bit more all right about being imperfect than I previously felt.
I guess I could be more comfortable with being different in the future, but I just want to really get more skilled about focusing on my health first. People were so bad about that when I was growing up and people just worked themselves and got sick and it's just like somebody has to break that cycle somehow. I just won't do it. I just can't do it. My genetics are incompatible with such a lifestyle.
And there's just a lot of shallow men who have a lot of shallow attitudes about women and about what makes a woman seem more successful to them and I don't trust any of them. They've disappointed me too much in this life, and I do not trust them. So I am extremely glad that more feminism is coming out in society and I think it's just the beginning and society is going to get more feminist and that's what I need, far more than any old-fashioned shallow version of success that never really promised any lasting happiness.
Sunday, December 28, 2025
I'll just be meandering. Or perhaps even resting?
It's super obvious to me that I just don't want to feel that "successful" right now. I would prefer to just focus on my own healing. I have this sensitive orientation, and I know some people are able to be sensitive and also put out works of art but I don't think that's me. I don't even think I want that to be me. I don't know. I guess I just have this really strong feeling that I'm supposed to put health and healing first. And I don't have an easy time doing it. That's why it's so important to do it.
There are people who make art that I really admire, but then I find out that they're still having a difficult time in life and I'm not, I'm promise,I'm not trying to be judgmental. Because they have their path for a reason. It's just that I just really don't want to do that. I really do want to put health and healing first. If I have the opportunity to put health and healing first then I'm really lucky.
I sort of feel like being able to put health and healing first is kind of like a version of some kind of self-care and feminism that I'm supposed to get better at while I'm here on Earth. So being a more successful artistic type but then suffering a lot would not be accomplishing that goal for me. It's too bad if I have to sacrifice some things because I'm still learning how to get better but it is what it is. I'm not going to critique that phrase too much either.
This could be a really great opportunity. Other people don't have this opportunity to be able to focus on healing as much. I have to make the most of this opportunity. And some of this experience made me want to rail against the healthcare system or against society because people in certain bodies don't do well with the way the system's set up. But I kind of want to let it go. Yes, I kind of want to let it go.
Apathy towards others as a survival strategy is nothing to gloat over.
BYSTANDER EFFECT
"A man tried to murder me in the middle of Grand Central Station"
Lu
Boredom can be painful!
I'm so bored of how some people can be sucked into falling back on slovenly and uncaring behavior patterns that were modeled to them by their elders.







