You should want to help yourself more.

You're not better than other people just because you got treated with special favoritism for very superficial reasons.

You make choices that are beneath you for some short term rewards, but not everyone on the planet gets rewarded for that stuff.

"Investigating Lawsuits Against Mt. SAC – SACMedia"

https://sac.media/2022/07/27/investigating-lawsuits-against-mt-sac/

"You have forty thousand people in the palm of your hand. It's like watching Hitler... but a nicer Hitler."

~ Movesesian 

https://www.quotes.net/mquote/987886

"In Israel, Conan O'Brien Became a Patsy for Netanyahu"

https://www.haaretz.com/israel-news/2017-09-05/ty-article/in-israel-conan-obrien-became-a-patsy-for-netanyahus-propaganda/0000017f-db7f-db22-a17f-ffff9bf20000

Find some rehabilitation!!!