Never mind. I'll sleep after I massage out the knots some more.

I have to let some things go. Some people want to live in a numbed out state. They just have to live in that numbed out state for as long as they want to live in it because they just get resistant when you try to encourage them not to be in such a numbed out state. So just let them live in a numbed out state. 

One time I was in a grocery store and I was getting tangled in the strangest knots of trying to come to a consensus and being made to feel like crazy person but it wasn't crazy. I was hungry and the other person was not hungry. This was at dinner time. I said I can get a salad and eat it and then I can get something else that we can cook and so then maybe if it's done in like 45 minutes then we can eat it together and then this person looked at me like I was crazy and he said you've lost me and this makes no sense to me. I was like I don't understand why this doesn't make any sense to you. I'm hungry right now. You're not but you probably will be if some time goes by, and it was this whole thing. It was this whole ridiculous thing and I couldn't believe I had to try so hard to explain my thought process. And so then he was just like just get what you want and I'll eat it. So I'm just supposed to make the decisions and he's just going to go along with it. We can't have a consensus. We can't make a creative decision about a meal together. I'm supposed to make the decision and then he just goes along with it. Well okay, I guess. I don't know why but this is why some people are not on the same page (when it comes to some things) and yet they still manage to be able to live harmoniously as long as they agree to the same set of rules about how things are supposed to be. And don't try to argue or think too much about it. Just go along with the program. It feels like that's not a very creative way of living life, in my opinion. But anyways, I guess it's a way of living life and some people just need to do that for a little while longer.

Wait, imagine this radical idea. Imagine one person comes up with a dish to cook and another person also comes up with a dish to cook and they decide to prepare these two dishes and put them together as a meal. 

Imagine the crazy rebellion of doing something like that. Imagine, just imagine that craziness. 

!!!!!!

Lol.

Humans are ridiculous and maybe they deserve to be made fun of sometimes. What else can you do?