There are old sacred traditions to be honored, and there are also new ones to be created.
Saturday, March 21, 2026
More peaceful transitions...🎶
I was really grateful to enjoy the sounds of lots of kinds of indigenous instruments tonight at a soundbath. The more I can choose those kinds of experiences, the better, on multiple levels.
Mathing.
X:
I want to know roughly what percent 7.5 is of 25.2. So let's DO 25 TIMES 4, THAT IS 100. 7.5 TIMES 4 IS... So women are worth about 30% of what men are worth.
Y:
SOUNDS ABOUT RIGHT.
X:
AUUUUGH!
Probably almost none of them do, at the moment...
I wonder how many of the sex education classes in the public schools are teaching kids about the RVUs thing? That if you're a doctor, you're financially incentivized to care more about men's bodies than about women's bodies?
Hahaha...How soon do you think soon is?
Pretty soon, they're probably going to have courses focused on lesbian literature in the public schools. They could start with Sappho's poetry first, but then, there will be so much more...
The Rolling Stones seemed like they did pretty much always get whatever they wanted, but anyways...
The Rolling Stones - "You Can’t Always Get What You Want"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ef9QnZVpVd8&si=i4BW5WazLTnsv3D-
What is wrong with people? Did they not receive any ethical guidance in their growing up years?
Maybe they were warped by the Patriarchal Schools and Churches and Stories. Maybe they were missing Lilith.
Perhaps it's time to start thinking of your life as a big creative project.
"As Young has argued: 'Medicine defines the female and male bodies as distinct but not equal; analyses of medical texts throughout history reveals the male body to be constructed as superior and the template against which bodies are judged. Any aspect of the female body that differs from the male or that cannot be given a male comparative (exemplified by the uterus) is viewed as evidence of deviation or 'fault'.
'Because women can bear children, medical discourse associated women with the body and men with the mind, a binary division that reinforces and is reinforced by the public-private division ... In addition to restricting women’s public contribution, such beliefs provide medicine with an explanatory model of disease and illness in women: to deny one’s ‘biological destiny’ is to incite all manner of diseases, as Plato stated when theorising the wandering womb.'
We see this in many predominantly female conditions: women with endometriosis are told that delayed childbearing causes the illness, or that pregnancy will cure it; women with breast cancer were once fed this line until advances in research (which only occurred because women campaigned for better knowledge and treatments) proved otherwise."
~ Gabrielle Jackson
"The female problem: how male bias in medical trials ruined women's health" | Women | The Guardian
https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2019/nov/13/the-female-problem-male-bias-in-medical-trials
I'm very curious about an upcoming documentary.
This article is old, 15 years old.
"The Natural Thoreau" - The Gay & Lesbian Review
So parents, if you have the kinds of twins who are different sexes...
Have you informed Sister of her medical status? Does Brother know about it?
I guess it was because of the RVUs.
No wonder that urologist only had pictures of the male anatomy plastered all over his wall.
Pssst, didja hear about the RVUs?
You know what? When I was a kid, I remember when most people did not come out as gay in a school setting. And if anyone suspected you were, you were going to be the target of much teasing and bullying. So people just stayed in the closet. But then in the '90s things started to change. As a young adult, I went back to high school and the teachers was saying, things are getting weird. Kids are starting to actually come out and say they're gay now! Well one of these days people are going to be like, yeah my significant other said I could run off and have a love child with a crazy artist if I wanted to, so you know we hit that stage in our evolution. Because one of us is a lot more straight than the other. And the dynamic is weird. Like for example, don't you think it would be romantic if you were a more bisexual person who knew that another bisexual person could still find you appealing if you were in either a man's or a woman's body? Isn't that a romantic idea? What about feminine energy in all the kinds of bodies? Why does it always have to be limited in the female biological body? Also this RVUs thing is going to never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever be okay!
Watching this at 1.5x speed...
I like speeding it up a little. Didn't know all that about Robert Palmer.
"The Drunk Models Behind the Most Iconic Video"
guitarmeetsscience
https://youtu.be/ttCBiCMEwQM?si=gapgvENzS8H8w0Vu
Sometimes this makes me think of the activities of small warehouse workers.
Bonobo - "Cirrus (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WF34N4gJAKE&si=3hIeel7LZofMPvj1
Like the warehouse workers below the Frank family, for example. And they were working with pectin and spices and things.
That sounds more interesting than boxing and wrapping the same tie for the Smithsonian gift catalog for hours and hours and hours.
I think people who work in warehouses should just wrap one thing for one hour or so, and then switch to another thing for another hour or so, and then they can wrap five or six or seven or eight different kinds of things in a work day.
That could almost be like a meditation practice, in a way.
Well, it's all a matter of perspective.
I mean, who knows. Maybe for some people, things will be improving!
Mean things will be happening.
Some guys really need to quit with your obsessed with girls being skinny bullshit. Anyways, some women need to quit in believing that stuff, too, even though there's clearly been very blatant, physical, real world shaming and punishing experiences that have been keeping that nonsense going.
Okay I'm different now.
Hard. Exercise. Is. Hard. I'm going to rest.
And maybe read Holocaust literature.
And order sesame oil to balance all the interesting feminine aspects of a special time of a special life.
Maybe I'll survive if things get worse in a year.
Who knows.
Oh yeah, and remember your balancing cortisol levels stuff. Is important too.
I hope she didn't die!
Women pulling down shower curtains reminds me of scary stories about Toxic Shock Syndrome.
"The humble housewife's body was found; it appeared she had pulled down the shower curtain, and then she died, because she wore a tampon..."
Oh well, this is the sad side of reproductive freedom, I guess. That's why we have to stamp it out.
Johnny Hates Jazz - "Shattered Dreams (Official Music)"
Don't think about the RVUs! You give them the power.
Since yesterday, I am now in possession of a kinda sparkly Tom Petty t-shirt which was like $3 or $4 at the thrift store.
Well, but he is a misogynist.
"Why do we..."
herfirst100k
financialfeministpodcast
https://www.instagram.com/reel/CkvmIo2jGoF/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Internal Voice: "You know, Dave Ramsay wouldn't like it if he knew you spent money on yoga and extra things instead of paying off those medical bills right away."
"The best one in the whole apartment."
Naming a cat Eve then calling her Cat more than you call her Eve.
"Maybe my real name is Lilith."
Lots of women and lots of men were affected by the deficit of Lilith Studies in recent decades.
It's just an idea that seems interesting to consider right now.
"Watch the energy in the room shift"
Matt
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTk1KDGPn/
"Learn to spot propaganda"
Ellen
That's why relationships are different.
A person who has to go through lots of phases hanging out with a person who is more steady and simple is one thing.
And a person who has to go through lots of phases hanging out with another person who has to go through lots of phases is another thing.
Cycles are filled with phases.
Some people have a lot of phases to go through in one life. Others, not so much, I suppose.
Think I want to try a circle dance kind of activity again one day.
I enjoyed some "Dances of Universal Peace" when I was living in Virginia...
"Welcome to Dances of Universal Peace International"
https://dancesofuniversalpeace.org/
I wonder why the two websites are so different.
Similar different different similar...
I think when people have led very different lives, it's very interesting to consider what kinds of things they might be able to learn in the future about what those different kinds of life experiences were like.
Since I like "extra" things lately...
Also, sometimes I buy my own "extra" clothes or food or drink in addition to classes which are enriching or good for my health in some way.
This is cute! A song listening party for two!
"🎧😂 Introducing my middle daughter to one of the WEIRDEST songs"
Trivia For Kids Podcast
Maybe some parents could have kids and/or teen literature focused book club parties.
This might sound kind of...expensive? But, what if the dads and moms of the land could go to a book club party like how I used to go to a book fair when I was a kid (because that used to be a thing when I was a kid. I don't know if that's a thing anymore, but it used to be a thing when I was a kid) and they could see laid out before them some books they haven't read yet (like the "Ever After High" books, for example?)
"Ever After High: The Storybook of Legends"
https://www.publishersweekly.com/9780316401227
And then they could pick one that stands out to them (like I might pick out a card that stands out to me from an oracle deck.) And they could talk about the cover of it or the information on the back of it and what it means to them. Mood lighting could help them relax and feel safe to share what comes up for them. Or maybe they could flip the pages and just let it fall open to a passage and read it aloud. And then talk about how they feel about what they just read. That's kind of fun to do, sometimes, too.
Either stop, or start programming them when they're young!
Sabrina Carpenter - "Espresso"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=eVli-tstM5E&si=LvwBviHfHwkeSL23
+
MorganStJean - "Do It Like A Girl"
You had different genes in another life.
Or else, you had really really really awesome medical insurance, and money!!!!!!
Flume - "Sleepless feat. Jezzabell Doran (Official)"
@futureclassic
I woke up to thank Lilith for Her Service...
What this guy shared about the RVUs cannot be unseen, and I am forever changed. Crazy...
"America hates women"
The Twin Doctors
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/
"(Song) Crazy Ex Girlfriend | The Sexy Getting Ready Song" - Rebecca
kstudio233
Friday, March 20, 2026
It was kind of a nice Spring Equinox, really.
I was the recipient of a spontaneous gift. It's a pendant that's a green mineral and on the other side it looks like a leaf. My friend was reading a cool book, and now I want to read it. I posed the pendant next to it.
And then she also found a really cool book at a library book sale, and I think I might want to read it, too, because wow, it's it's got some beautiful illustrations.
I have found a few second hand books that looked interesting, too.
Eeeeek, street art screaming in the night.
Or "Strange signs in the night..."
Or, "Potent signs that with great power comes great responsibility..."
Peaceful, fun.
While I was in the park with a friend, waving around bubble wands, I realized I spent a lot of 4th of July's in Michigan.
Something I like about today...
My communication skills and the communication skills of others, too. 😊
Anyways, my breakfast was good. 🥚
It was one egg and some spinach in butter and I messed up the texture a bit because I think I wanted a fried egg with yolks that ran, but it sort of turned into a scramble without any milk added.
What do you think? Baby?
I think people who got babied might be good at taking care of babies when they get older, maybe???
Feels like a deep question.
It could be turned around in one's mind many times, and in many ways...
And this household is different.
Just a little. Just a little peep hole into what Montessori school and Waldorf schools were like on one hand. And on the other, denied entrance into the gifted and talented program because there wasn't enough room for more than just one. That's going to perplex me forever, why two brothers couldn't go into the school's gifted and talented program if they both qualified. Who runs these education programs?
This put a song in my head, so maybe another one's coming back.
Tom Petty And The Heartbreakers - "Into The Great Wife Open"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=xqmFxgEGKH0&si=wflMaCP-QBBC3PEL
"A girl in a big city"
Catherine Wilson Garry
Film I've never seen. Books I've never read.
Very interesting article, though! 😸
"I need to talk about Bella Swan" - by Catherine Wilson Garry
https://catherinewilsongarry.substack.com/p/in-need-to-talk-about-bella-swan
Is she talking about a film?
Something that's already been made?
"Part 2 | Bella such a hoa"
Slav Sister Anya
Pampering in times of peril.
With the way things are going with women's healthcare in this country and the criminalization of this and that and the other, maybe all women should have two escorts accompanying them to everything.
Watched this information about RVUs again and the music seemed to echo the strains of another song...
"America hates women"
The Twin Doctors
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/
Grover Washington Jr. - "Just the Two of Us (feat. Bill Withers)"
Also, sometimes I wonder if I'm a cult buster?
I read a very nice essay online the other day which was quite good, but it failed to mention that smashing a banjo on stage is pretty ridiculous and unnecessary. As a matter of fact, has anybody else ever mentioned that? Anybody? Anybody?
If not, beware. Be wary...
Thursday, March 19, 2026
Look, let's put a twist on an upbeat tune...
"We're just here to lend some extra emotional support on account of what we've learned about RVUs."
Two caring, attentive, present people gladly accompanying one woman to a medical appointment with a smile and maybe even exuberance!
This guy wrote a wholesome song about two sides of his personality.
Rostam - "Bike Dream" [Official Music Video]
https://youtube.com/watch?v=mv6AT9cqscE&si=EFnPq-9ywqLsLPLr
But maybe you could develop your own personality more and then assist with developing other people's personalities, too. Why not?
Do you think human personalities develop in a vacuum?
No, of course not.
RVU values? What??? Stop the insanity
"America hates women"
The Twin Doctors
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThogSaDL/
"US doctors are paid more to treat male genitals than female—why?" | The BMJ
https://www.bmj.com/content/391/bmj.r2076
Art, poetry, writing, music, etcetra.
I've decided people can always focus on creative projects and then figure out the rest of whatever needs to get figured out in life.
This is my next task I assigned to myself.
I'm going to go out there and spray vinegar solution and herbal insect repellent under the eaves.
Or maybe just the vinegar because the herbal insect repellent is for humans and it has sweet almond oil in it and that doesn't look like it's going to deter much if it's spread under the eaves.
I have childhood issues with bees.
I made my cat come in from the yard and to my shock and dismay a bee flew in and was buzzing around the kitchen light. At 9:30 p.m. at night!
So I asked for help with this.
X: I think there's a bee!
Y: Comes to look and then the bee drops to the ground and seems to hide.
X: It was just at the light and then you walked in and it disappeared.
Then the bee goes up to the light again
Y: "Turn off the light. It'll go outside."
(Turns off the light and walks out of the room.)
X: "But did you see it go to the light? Did you see it go out?"
Y: "No, you have to give it time."
So now we have a dark apartment and I'm in the bedroom with the door closed and there's an open back door and the light's on outside and maybe the bee has gone outside but apparently we're not going to be able to see if it has or not.
I was drinking something with rose scent to it and I wonder if it was attracted to that.
The only other time I remember a bee coming in was when I was cooking something with honey on the stove.
Update: Now it's believed that possibly the bee could be still in the kitchen, but if so, it's dying. Nobody has seen the bee go out.
I think the first interpretation is easier on a sleepy brain.
"Why are people arguing about Sabrina Carpenter's Espresso Lyrics"
You think anything big and newsworthy is going to happen next week?
"Salt of the Earth (movie) video clip"
shmooth
https://youtube.com/watch?v=gVmJFia8Yfg&si=AUc6x_oNhar5iTH7
"Cesar Chavez Is Why We Don't Need Any More Icons"
I guess The Lord is with The Cosmic Mother now.
The Lord is not so terribly offended by my mediocre student loan and credit card debts, I guess, according to the Cosmic Mother. It'll probably go away before I die!
Maybe I'll look it up later.
I feel like there's a scene in "Mulholland Drive" where the old people come back and are chasing somebody...
Yes, I know, there have been so many signs.
"You know the Unhealed Patriarchal Culture wanted to destroy the good brotherhood of men."
She will chase you because she is the Cosmic Mother.
Feelz like I have a sore throat coming on or something, but I think maybe it's just the air - conditioning? I have read three of these books out of the six in my version of adulthood so far.
"Novellum: A Girl Called Al by Constance C Greene"
https://ianwoodnovellum.blogspot.com/2015/03/a-girl-called-al-by-constance-c-greene.html?m=1
"It's the first of six: A Girl Called Al, I Know You, Al, Your Old Pal, Al, Al(exandra) the Great, Just Plain Al, and Al’s Blind Date."
I'm about to find something interesting here.
"Decoding the Languages and Saints of Rosalía’s Lux"
Sophia_SmithGaler
How good do the reincarnated parents deserve to have it.
"When I was a teenager, every magazine or newspaper I read featured endless column inches dedicated to dissecting the bodies of women. You couldn't turn on your TV in the 2000s without receiving an endless cycle of reports on Britney Spears's so-called fat body or Jessica Simpson's mom jeans. Tabloids offered weeklong diets that promised to let you lose a stone in seven days. Reality TV shows like The Swan and Extreme Makeover put vulnerable women in front of cameras and had them undergo extensive plastic surgery, all of which was sold as the ultimate sign of self improvement. I will never forget Beyoncé's cayenne pepper and maple syrup cleanse that she underwent to lose a lot of weight in a short period of time for Dreamgirls, because every single newspaper talked about it with the detail and seriousness of a political election."
Kayleigh Donaldson
Oh God!
"Multi-Million dollar goat testicles"
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVq9oAKjmcd/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Laundry... Longer lines to the restroom...
"Data Bias in a World Designed For Men"
@breakingdownpatriarchy
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WVA3GE0wJag&si=yMxA5f8bXKOT1f4_
"After a quarter-century..."
https://www.wbur.org/upnext/2026/01/01/walden-henry-david-thoreau-interpreter
“'[Laundry] was not unskilled labor. You needed specialized skills and knowledge,' Ranalli explained. 'We don't criticize him for not repairing his own shoes, but we are inclined to criticize him for not washing his own clothes. That reflects a lack of understanding on our part of what clothes washing was like 180 years ago.'
Smith learned to expect the laundry question over the years. He never really understood why people were so fixated on it. He doesn’t think it diminishes the fact Thoreau was self-sufficient and dedicated to writing.
'In my mind, if that’s what they’re focusing on, then they’re kind of losing the whole message of Walden,' Smith said."
~ Stephanie Brown and Lisa Mullins
I should go revisit the cow movie!!!🎬
"Cows have best friends too!"
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWEQWpKJKi4/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
It's kind of a big deal, huh?
"Officials push to remove Cesar Chavez’s name from streets, parks and his holiday after abuse allegations"
So many rich white guys. So many skinny girlfriends and wives.
Maybe if you start asking skinny women to make charitable donations to their less fortunate sisters, some of the other kinds of men will follow suit and start chipping in as well?
And his sisters did that stuff too, probably.
Much has been made about how Thoreau actually had his mom feeding him and doing his laundry while he was writing away in his little cabin.
I just feel like I have to temporarily not get a $🌲check right now. 4 Psyche.
Maybe a tax refund will be nice. ATM I still have enough saved or gifted to me for extra things (if I get a massage or take a yoga class) but I put food (most of the time) and clothes (much of the time) on a shared credit card. Ugh. Also most of the recent medical bills are also going on a credit card. That would be my own credit card, not the shared credit card. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Not entirely, though. I actually did pay for some of those out of my saved / gifted money as well. And sometimes in the past, medical bills stuff went on the shared credit card. Well, I think I will make more money in the future is all I can say. I feel like I'm doing deeper repairs right now to my psyche.
Actually, I took a nap, and now it's very funny.
Sabrina Carpenter - "Espresso"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=eVli-tstM5E&si=AXAeTVJUB_Tm1sfB
Tom Jones - "What's new pussycat"
Imagine a house that used to welcome and cherish you.
And now it's changed hands and there's moats and draw bridges all around it.
That was far too many words, and I don't feel like editing anymore.
I think I'm going to take a nap. That sounds much better. ☺️
(7ish) (Layers of Words) Layers...
I just listened to something, and I thought (or probably just felt) "Wow. For some reason this makes me feel uncomfortable." And then I jumped in the shower and different kinds of feelings and ideas started coming up. I thought (or felt) "You know, it's not so much that it's too uncomfortable, it's just that there's layers of things coming up, and sometimes when layers of things are coming up, you have to take time to process them and put the experience into words and separate out the layers, and I kind of wish they still had that Jello dessert that makes three layers." The mind likes threes. I don't stutter as an adult, but when I was younger I used to stutter, and it was because I had so many ideas or feelings coming up that my mouth and my brain couldn't keep up with it.
I started to think about times when I was in situations that were creatively interesting, but also a bit transgressive and perhaps not altogether advantageous for me and perhaps they were partially a result of other people's fantasies, and I didn't really feel empowered. When that happened, I sort of felt like the society we are experiencing was going to give those people the power and not me, even though I was apparently the trigger or something about me appeared to trigger a behavior pattern in them. But what was going on really? The trigger was not so much myself, but it just like some kind of energy that was coming down through me from the universe, and it was having an effect on them.
And then another sad thing was that some trusted people did not want to believe those strange situations happened to me. Because it didn't happen to them, and it was difficult for them to comprehend that I was going through something different, and it was not really what they were comfortable thinking about very deeply, or it was too much for them to really want to believe it happened, and so that made me feel very isolated.
And these paragraphs are not like how I experienced my memories in the shower. I had some memories and then I laid down and I thought, well, should I should I mention it...and now it's coming out in a different way than it did originally in the shower.
Oh, but one thing I do remember that was kind of interesting was, after I had these vivid memories, quickly, in succession, of different kinds of situations that happened to me, I thought to myself some people need safe words for a lot of different kinds of experiences.
You hear about people talking about safe words when they're behaving in transgressive ways on purpose and then if they want to stop, then there's a safe word. But sometimes people go through intense things inside of themselves and they need some way to tell another person, I need to take a moment to myself to process this. Even if they're not doing something that looks like it's that transgressive on the outside, the way it could be experienced internally might be...intense? I don't even know if I want to say the word "transgressive" because it seems limiting to say that word.
I think what happens is people forget a lot of things about themselves, and they repress things. And it's because they're having a life in a physical body on the physical Earth plane and Society is also putting rules on them and whatever kind of family structures they inherited put certain rules on them and so they end up repressing parts of themselves. And then, you begin to realize that the things that got repressed are different for everybody. But when people want to live fuller lives, they want to figure out what they've repressed so they can go beyond that and be able to live more freely and joyfully and spontaneously. But then again sometimes they need guardrails in order to feel safe enough to do that.
Wednesday, March 18, 2026
Maybe that's the secret.
The cat is having so much fun by experiencing a little change in her environment and exploring that she only wanted to eat a little bit of the treat, and well, she doesn't seem to want the rest of it because she's having too much fun exploring.
I brought her back in. She did try to jump out of the car but I put her back in the carrier. She doesn't seem too mad. She's curled up by me. I guess we're listening to music and stuff!
Petit gâteau
This was good with a little triangle of chocolate, melted on top of it in the last 2 minutes of baking.
[NEW] Limited March 2026 Product Trader Joe's Cannelés
https://www.reddit.com/r/traderjoes/s/DGr9m5zCJc
My cat gets a treat too. She's exploring the car. Just the car by itself. She was supposed to be a cat that was trained to be good on a leash but unfortunately... Some of us were not disciplined enough... However, I have seen the cat whisperers online and I am inspired/ using their techniques.
Honestly, I think she's having a lot of fun exploring the car. I think this was exactly the right thing to do. Oh there's other cats outside and she gets to spy on them! She has a better view than she normally does.
So much sewing. So complicated. So another century.
"The one question I could not figure out while making this..."
Asta Darling
More art!
"Part 25 | #traindreams"
JJ
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThEsNAK7/
"A Comprehensive Guide to Understanding 'Stalker' (1979)"
https://www.reddit.com/r/TrueFilm/s/k1qQ1gSciT
It's hard to know which films to actually watch and which ones to just read about sometimes.
Shavasana...
Still the best part of yoga!
Especially after your lower back was really mad.
I feel kind of bad for people who have built up their entire lives and ethos around a charismatic individual.
https://chavezfoundation.org/about-cesar-chavez/
Anyways I went to a yoga class for the first time in ages and at the end of it the instructor kept saying "Why do I want to call you Amy" so then I remembered there was these twins (a boy and a girl) that my Grandma invited over and I feel like their names were Mitch and Amy, but that was also the name of some twins in a Beverly Cleary book, so I can't tell if that is a correct memory, and then I decide to type in "Mitch and Amy Michigan" and Amy Mitchell is apparently a doctor in Petoskey / Boyne City.
We know these are horrible things to happen to anyone, but especially to the children / young girls...
"Cesar Chavez, a Civil Rights Icon..."
https://www.nytimes.com/2026/03/18/us/cesar-chavez-sexual-abuse-allegations-ufw.html
(Also, so horrified by how he mixed it up with his healing therapy, too. Potentially ruining ruining any of the benefits of that kind of healing therapy for her. For years. Maybe for the whole rest of her life. And then on top of that, he got celebrated as a beacon of civil rights.)
"Cesar Chavez allegedly raped teen girl: report"
https://nypost.com/2026/03/18/us-news/cesar-chavez-allegedly-raped-teen-girl-report/
March 31 will be renamed Farmworker Day
"Cesar Chavez abused girls, raped fellow labor icon Dolores Huerta, newspaper investigation finds"
https://www.yahoo.com/news/articles/cesar-chavez-raped-girls-fellow-144252270.html
That's our era. 🗓️
Just had an invigorating and stressful conversation about "gray areas."
"why do people find neil degrasse tyson annoying :"
https://www.reddit.com/r/Gifted/comments/1hv2xef/why_do_people_find_neil_degrasse_tyson_annoying/
Wow, this is sad...this is a lot...
"US civil rights leader Dolores Huerta accuses Cesar Chavez of sexual assault"| Reuters
Small sociological experiment.
"For those of you girls that grew up having a brother..."
cathy.fergusonhaney
X: Do you relate to any of these?
Y: I mean there was probably some s*** I did. Not the same thing as anything in those videos, but there was probably some s*** I did.
(Laughed at the green slime attacking a notebook page and at the guy flipping off people from the doorway.)
Poem songs paraphernalia formative childhood experiences
"The Original McDonald's: A Museum in San Bernardino" - California Through My Lens
https://californiathroughmylens.com/original-mcdonalds-museum-san-bernardino/
An extra birthday party on certain summer vacations in Michigan (to go along with my sister's birthday)...
And centered in the midst of chaos.
Grimes - "Vanessa (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=2-aWEYezEMk&si=5SYSykpsV-rc6Exq
Grimes - "Flesh without Blood/Life in the Vivid Dream"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Tv9YoYCKNoE&si=94Npu5ZINi84HfgO
Grimes - "Dream Fortress (Official music video)"
I hope some people's kids get to experience the chill sides of their personalities 🧚🏼♀️🙏🏼😸.
*shrug*
Grimes - "Oblivion"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=JtH68PJIQLE&si=rTNx3A9KatccPWW-
Grimes - "Artificial Angels"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=tvGnYM14-1A&si=jH-v7n-HolA7peDg
Grimes - 'Kill V. Maim"
My younger self who used to think I would do things better when I was older has been decimated.
Anyways, I think the chewing on skirts era is probably almost entirely over, but it's very new.
Didn't start chewing on skirts until perimenopause, after finding out who what's his name was, after
he started going out with what's her face.
(Why would that trigger such a response? And why did it keep on going for years and years when other things triggered it?)
Yeah, I guess the younger self has been educated.
Also, as I got older, I started to feel bad for the older women who had to live with Anne Frank sometimes. She was quite judgey!
They lived in tight quarters.
None of them were chewing on their clothes. I guess that's a good thing.
Cat here opened the cracked open door while the cat in the video messed up the puzzle.
"Waffles being as sweet as his name! #cats #shorts"
https://youtube.com/shorts/ACwCvUhptRQ?si=OhWv5oEuLOgC_Ny1
That video got 1.2k likes and 52 comments.
Isn't it weird that people can just make stuff and post it and have an audience of over a thousand people like it?
I forget about how weird that is, but it is, you know, because that never used to happen.
Anyways, finding people interesting is not the same as living like them.
Sometimes you're probably going to end up doing things totally opposite of how they were doing them.
"Simone de Beauvoir's 'remarkable' letters to Violette Leduc"
They might end up doing things totally opposite, too, if they reincarnated.
Seeing if that's the problem.
Here I lay for hours, feeling relatively peaceful, and then I got interested in a song, and that was followed by some thoughts, and then I posted something about how I was interested in those thoughts, and now I have an kvetchy uterus again.
What the hell. How quiet am I supposed to be. This is what happens when some women's minds and bodies get too out of sync. Creativity becomes a painful process, and that's sad.
Or perhaps it's better (from the perspective of the owner of this body) to say, okay, well now we know this needs attention. Let's figure out what we're going to learn from that. Yes, that's probably better.
Imagining this as very soft background music.
Siouxsie and The Banshees -- "Kiss Them For Me"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ij6mFkZU8T4&si=6TEz4hKipLT4a2yD
Because once it was playing like very soft background music in my head after I had a healing session. I felt like I needed to heal from some stuff which was making me think of guys in the woods participating in the French resistance or similar types of activities. And maybe I was also thinking a little bit about that one French writer who sold things on the black market to make money during the war.
"Violette" | Film Review | Spirituality & Practice
https://www.spiritualityandpractice.com/films/reviews/view/26376/violette
"Violette Leduc: the great French feminist writer we need to remember" | Books | The Guardian
Choosing musical healing is really intelligent.
"Perth Girls" // Abbe May
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Iq0yBgHlW6s&si=FCrtiv0QPay0sNPz
"Design Desire" )) Abbe May
Tuesday, March 17, 2026
Actually this is very rough.
I have a very bad pain in my universe again. Well, I meant to say uterus. It's like I just have to survive and be enough.
Things could get better. They probably will, actually.
I could turn into one of those practice makes perfect people. I could be a glass half full.
Well, I had a very scattered evening.
I guess I scattered my energy too much. Now I will get back in order with myself. They almost never say, when you read a book about something tragic happening, that scattered energy is the culprit, do they? I managed to get a few things accomplished with my scattered energy, but I was having a terrible time for at least half of it, and a mediocre time for the other half. Now it's better because I've named the problem, which is that I don't do well when I get my energy too scattered around because I've gotten too distracted by too many things going on. I don't know how much anxiety has to do with this, and fear of the unknown. Perhaps the higher self was like: "Oh, today is actually a good day to get a little bit scattered and fall to pieces, just a little bit. It's better if you do it today than if you did it another day."
Whenever your brain gets fixated on something, maybe it says what you're interested in.
And maybe that's interesting information. And maybe you should be more concerned about migrants and children being locked away in detention centers. Because you are a part of society. And if more people in society had the ability to be concerned about migrants and children being locked away in detention centers paid for by the dollars being taken from the American taxpayers, maybe it wouldn't be happening to other people's children anymore, like some nightmare being repeated from some other nightmarish time. Why isn't the brain more interested in that?
Guess what? My brain didn't think that was actually true either.
"You only live one life." Yes, you only live one unique life in this body, but my body seemed to have been designed to believe our spirits can live multiple lives. And in other cultures, that's considered normal.
Society should start having more acceptance of motherly men too.
Why not? Why not have more acceptance of the grandmotherly men as well, while you're at it?
Such is life. Property matters.
Anyways, nothing is perfect and people who don't do things in a traditional way will probably make lots of mistakes. I guess time will tell if more people think the traditional ways really were better in the long run for everybody.
Meaning, were those traditional ways actually healthy for society overall and not just a stop gap measure for some people to temporarily get by as best as people around them could see fit at that time.
Keep in mind that traditional ways used to mean that I would have to be somebody's property and I couldn't vote. And I certainly couldn't keep the same name I was born with. And I would have to wear specific regalia that showed whose property I was. All of the time. Not just as a temporary, fun playful thing. No, property all of the time. Property of somebody else, all of the f****** time.
Can you give yourself a day off from being someone else's property??? What about cosplaying as somebody else's property???
It kind of messes with your mind. Properly.
Some traditional heterosexual parents were trained to act like hero-worshipping a rich dad who's a rapist is their favorite thing, better than Jesus. Maybe they had some very cruel granddaddies, who didn't treat the women and children well back when all the women and children were seen as the property of the men, and they still can't quite come to terms with that, so that's why a rich rapist daddy who is the most applauded by Patriarchal Culture in the modern era still appeals to them so much?
Sadly...
Traditional patriarchal heterosexual parenting also traditionally makes a lot of excuses for rape culture. It kind of makes you wonder why they still feel like they have to do that, sometimes. Painful stuff.
Your society is not child-centric at all.
It's Patriarchal. I don't think a child-centric Society would be locking away a bunch of migrant children in detention centers right now. The way the patriarchal sexual assault nightmare people are running things is not good for children.
Yeah, thanks. That was really helpful to hear throughout my childhood.
"All children should only have one He - Man - Father and one She - Woman - Mother. Anything else is blasphemy! And they should all just carry the one He-Man Father's name, because they're all his Property. That's the one and only Healthy Way!"
And the music 🎶, claro.
"Björk and Rosalía..."
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVWr5ydidX6/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
A lot of us get so much joy from pets!
"I wish dogs could be immortal"
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DV_WSGGkWSf/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Anyways, I think if you have a lot of strict rules about what's healthy, you end up with more abandoned children.
Because many people who end up having children simply cannot live up to the standards that Patriarchal Society places on parents. And if they seem like they do and they're faking it, that's f***** up too.
Judgey online life.
"I bet her relationship is really based on lots of rules about strict gender roles too."
Reaction to a woman who made a video talking about how the lifestyles she finds very distasteful and unhealthy are obviously very unhealthy and distasteful for everybody. Obviously, everybody in the comments agreed with her. Also, she had big boobs and wore a very tight shirt and a lot of the comments were about her chest.
Anyways, what about the deceased parents? That's the topic that's more comfortable to me.
Some of the modern parents' content are making me think Society would progress faster if some dads were more like moms and if some moms were more like dads and that's a lot to process right now.
Time to eat tacos and watch this.
"did you know that celebrities are false oracles?"
maryisalien
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DV_yrc_CVHT/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I only watched a little bit of it before I wanted to get up and look for something buried in the closet. Then I got a surprise when I found that the content of these tapes that my mom and probably some of her friends used to listen to (I somehow got possession of them) are online now for purchase.
"EM Audio 3"
https://earth-mission.info/em_audio_3.html
Sometimes I listened to them too, as a kid. I wonder, if I put the old cassette tapes in the ancient sound system from the '90s, if they would work...
I wonder if musicians mind when you watch stuff like this before you listen to the album?.
"Decoding the Languages and Saints of Rosalía’s Lux"
Sophia_SmithGaler
Oooh, I had to pause to look at this one around 5:50.
"Rosalía’s ‘LUX’ Explained"
Switched-On-Pop
https://youtube.com/watch?v=OHP7KE3vsWw&si=5SatcDJKu7smWn3T
Caroline Shaw, Roomful of Teeth, Partita for Eight Voices
Dads and moms are getting ready to get reborn anyday now.
For my next small spring cleaning project:
"Rosalía’s ‘LUX’ Explained"
Switched-On-Pop
Where are your dads today?
"Opera is super cool"
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVq2vi1DoAS/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"You're gonna to want to stay till the end"
marcbosa_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVnnUvjjYi-/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I went out for some St Patrick's Day donuts and as I carried the box out I swear a car revved at me and made a noisy getaway, and I was like what, are they mad, but then, eh, probably just being too self-conscious.
Lots o' luck in the next incarnation!
Lots of things will be better!
"An old repost..."
keara graves
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DTqxexmjrYj/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I believe that was the right question.
I just got that nice, bubbly, relaxing in a Jacuzzi feeling. Totally out of the blue! That was really nice. Ahhhh...🫧🛀🏼💆🏼♀️
Off the top of your head, do you know when Lent ends?
"5 Chain Restaurants With the Best Fried Fish and Macaroni and Cheese"
https://www.eatthis.com/chain-restaurants-fried-fish-macaroni-cheese/
The version of cabbage I made was good! I genuinely want to know, though...
Does the Cosmic Mother think that in the long run, my content is more interesting and a better contribution to the evolution of our society if I don't lose too much weight? Or certainly, it's supposed to be better for your health and your gallbladder if you don't lose it too fast.
Maybe the universe just wants people to be more funny.
Certainly, there's been times when some geniuses have made me feel like going a little extra off topic, but I'd like to think that sometimes I've done something similar! Intentionally, unintentionally, half-intentionally, subconsciously, half-consciously, semi-consciously...
Trying a version of this to eat the cabbage I bought.
"It’s so delicious! This roasted Cabbage Melts Like Butter!"
@DeliciousVeganVictor
Is it higher in iron?
I feel like I should eat a beef burger with onions for breakfast.
Actually, there's a Greek place nearby that does a burger with gyro meat piled on it and it's been an extremely long time since I've tried that, but...
It's a very dense sandwich. It's a lot. Maybe I could split it. Like, either with a person, or eat a portion earlier, and then a portion later.
And have a really nice salad.
That sounds kind of good, actually.
Well, maybe I should do that.
I should probably eat some sort of potatoes because it's a fun happy Irish holiday.
They just act like they don't know it yet!
The world is filled with people who are simply dying to improve their creative collaboration skills.
Hey, is today a fun holiday?🍀🥔🧚🏼♀️
This was a good day for the ancestors, huh? Plenty of potatoes.
"#1940scooking #1940sfood #ww2rationing #ww2recipes"
@1940scooking
https://youtube.com/shorts/2_tn-ebYI0s?si=vEPnlPTmnYz4xPYM
No concentration camp, no starvation, no rape, no cessation of menstrual periods...
Know what they didn't do when you were growing up?
Post all those videos online about how beautiful the menstrual blood looks under the microscope!
Sleepless - "Antony for Cleopatra"
https://youtu.be/MSmclZ7gouU?si=n7Zn78XXOkhz5Sfd
Even the men are posting videos about the menstrual blood nowadays!
Flume - "Sleepless feat. Jezzabell Doran"
Next time you keep waking up multiple times on account of Heavy Flo, you can think about that.My body REALLY thinks some of you guys have got to stop centering men.
I'm not sure which kinds of women you're thinking Conan will be skillfully mentoring, but anyways, it's great to truly experience the really heavy flow.
Heavy Flo is here to lend a helping hand.
Time to go back to sleep again.
I've woken up several times now. Pray for my period to lighten! I like lighter periods. They're more fun. And I had a dream where there was like a thing they might do nowadays where the girls in an apartment were hinting to offer to make tea in case somebody needed to be saved from somebody else, and it was like, nobody needs saving, all right. Nobody needs saving. The tea is good though. Maybe people want tea.
Sensitivity makes life more fun, too.
Sensitive people might suffer more, but they also get to experience more nuances and sometimes I think they literally feel more sensations, too, and they can experience more surprises. It's like, even lying by yourself in bed and then suddenly being sensitive about something that's unfolding can be an engrossing experience. But then sometimes, when sensitive people get overwhelmed, they feel like they have to rest more and be by themselves to get more centered and grounded.
Monday, March 16, 2026
Maybe weight is just what needs to get examined
For the purpose of our social evolution, I will admit I kind of feel like pretending I'm unacceptable as long as I give in to a bag of Doritos that gets brought home after a grocery run is kind of a safe space, but it's certainly not the optimal safe space. And also, it's not entirely pretending when society just expects women to be smaller and skinnier. I mean, I certainly have had to pay attention to this stuff my whole life. You know, I actually have a memory of living, or of visiting, rather, Michigan, and seeing some commercial on TV for Pringles and there was a bunch of skinny girls running around on the farm and they were all so happy to be eating their Pringles together and I was filled with despair because I was like, I'm never going to be that skinny, and I'm still going to want to eat the Pringles. And I don't understand, how come they get to eat the Pringles and be skinny? But then it was kind of weird because I got a little bit more skinny, for a little while, a few years later. Oh I think I found the commercial.
"1989 - Pringles Corn Crisps - Fever Reliever Commercial"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WBTuBbT_b9U&si=Oe9fHNE9qOS_rmUS
There's a guy too. I actually forgot all about the guy. Is that just one guy and a bunch of girls?
Bodies are stranger on some days than others. I can't believe it's already past 7 p.m.
Clouds are about five times pinker out there than they look.
I'm staying in and I'm not doing Doordash because I have negotiated a grocery store run in several hours before the store closes.
Well, the cat may be content (& lovely company!), but she also doesn't have a uterus right now.
Flume - "Sleepless feat. Jezzabell Doran"
I can go to the store myself later. Thanks bee pollen, etc.
I think it's possible I'm experiencing part of what it's like when toxic masculinity and patriarchal programming starts to die out and you're in the body of a woman.
Big Data - "Dangerous (feat. Joywave)"
truthserum2000
Patriarchal culture hates people who have deep feelings.
Maybe I got wiped out by how I was feeling because I was trained to ignore how I was feeling until the feeling gets overwhelming. The cat does not do that. The cat is incredibly content at this time.
The cat thinks I'm amazing.
I feel like my cat put her needs first by asking me to feed her but also now acts like she appreciates me and she loves me a lot.
💗 Float with the flute 🎶
"BeSimply...Stand UP. Takers Step Back. {Sol + Luna Full Moon 1 + 12}"
besimplylove
This is why people are nicer when they're more in touch with nature. 🌎
Humans have gotten really out of touch with nature. It's complete arrogance. Humans wouldn't even be here without nature.
My pure and not at all sugar-coated opinion.
Boys need to be trained to not be like that. Most boys did not have access to the right training when it comes to how to treat other humans in this life. Honestly, a lot of girls and women are also kind of trained to be assholes by the patriarchy too. Bragging about how they never get cramps? Some moms were actually like that. Well my mom wasn't but other moms were. Get out of my face. It's not going to be so valued in the future to be such a jerk to your fellow human beings.
Auuugh, heal me universe. 😭🩸🙏🏼
As if it required Herculean effort, I made a cup of bone broth, boiled water for both tea and raspberry leaf infusion, swallowed B12 boron and bee pollen, and fed the cat, and I feel smacked in the face by life's busy-ness and a lack of empathy right now because I have extreme sensitivity going on. I feel like I've died today. It's fine. I can get reborn. Maybe I can just take a nap and wake up and have enough supplies left to either go to the store or else I really will use Doordash. I just have to face up to my reality for today.
Okay, body, raspberry leaf tea is coming.
Times like this make me think I don't even know myself at all.
I have to fortify myself.
I guess the menstrual period is king. I'm suddenly wiped out, running low on supplies, and can't believe I'm considering DDing this stuff now.
Who gets to dress up like Frida and really look like her 😸?
The Growlers - "Monotonia" (Official Video)
Nature speaks to children strongly and sometimes adult mind remembers.
Pretenders – "My City Was Gone (Lyrics)"
I could do a little ritual.
For embarrassment of the eight year olds. Like when I was a child and I made two toy horses kiss for the first time and one boy told the other about it and maybe they were just delighted to make fun of it. So embarrassing! (That was at a nice house in the Catskills, or else it was in some mountainous area that I thought was the Catskills.) And when the boys were crying for some reason and their fathers (military guys) would get embarrassed and yell at them. But I was allowed to cry more than them because I was a girl. That was so embarrassing, too. Well maybe that was around Storm King. That probably makes more sense. The game farm was in the Catskills. Storm King has vistas of the Catskills.
I guess I could check this place out someday...
"Our Cats Are Like Our Children, So My Husband And I Made A Decision That May Shock Some People"| HuffPost
https://www.huffpost.com/entry/estate-planning-pet-trust-cat-guardian_n_6998b676e4b0ab1f9f473bac
If, by a miracle, I go back to That Place ever again.
Bleeding, but not in a bad way...
"How have you been feeling?"
saratibbers
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DVG7SnMCIWM/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Better in the uterus. (Much.)
I guess I aim to be therapeutically repetitive...
Hole - "Violet"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=cH_rfGBwamc&si=pODLDqCjDvUpdLKw
"La Traviata, Act 1: 'Sempre libera' (Violetta, Alfredo)"
@MariaCallasOfficial
Also why I stopped after just two COVID vaccines and didn't get any of the boosters.
Passing ginormous blood clots for days after getting the vaccines! It reminded me of a very anemic time. I wonder how many years it will take before they know why that happened to some people?
"Data Bias in a World Designed For Men"
@breakingdownpatriarchy
https://youtube.com/watch?v=WVA3GE0wJag&si=yMxA5f8bXKOT1f4_
Why not improve in little ways...
🎶🎶🎶
"Data Bias in a World Designed For Men"
@breakingdownpatriarchy
Also, another list that was probably more fun to make was...
(In response to people who could be tempted to think things like, "You're just jealous" or "This is a schtick / gimmick" ...)
That's an interesting point of view to consider.
However.
Have you also considered these...
"Well, you may think I'm just jealous, but now I think 'You're just incurious.'"
"You're just not as interested in more kinds of people getting seen on a larger scale."
"...more satisfied with conventional standards."
"...not very open to alternative viewpoints."
"...not very sensitive when it comes to this particular topic."
"...being resistant to considering a more feminist point of view."
"...falling back on your anti-inclusivity programming."
"...being too obstinate to care about others' experiences."
"... relying on a very limited patriarchal perspective when it comes to health and humanity."
"...being activated to to perpetuate old patterns rather than create new ones."
"... acting resistant to this new information that you don't want to consider."
"...threatened by a hint of knowledge that indicates you might still not know very much about some things."
"...being too stubborn to see that it might be important to include perspectives that you previously were encouraged to diminish or discount."
"...on the edge of considering other points of view, but you're acting like you're not quite ready for it yet. Give it a little more time!"
The brain attached to this body can get distracted.
So to start, and not get overwhelmed, there will be tasks on lists and these categories:
1) junk drawer
a) keep if you use it daily, weekly or monthly
b) trash if you want to throw it away completely
c) donate
d) wait and see
That was a good idea, because there's somebody who made a video about having a "Wait and see" bin.
"Declutter Backwards (It’s So Much Easier)"
TheMinimalMom
https://youtube.com/watch?v=EY_INW-VktQ&si=Qg9_uDc5UQfntXeG
Wait and see if you do one junk drawer, or more than one drawer, or several drawers and some shelves, or some drawers and some shelves and some other stuff in cabinets.
This buddy (body) wants to stay indoors, but it can do some activities like tidying...
This body has a lot of heaviness when it sheds the uterine lining. And there's so many other bodies doing the same, all across the land, throughout the region, around the world...
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