Pretty talented

George Buford 

"Joy of Painting"

Sunny Forest Day 

The Cabin 

The Window

~~~~z

"I feel a little sleepier now. I should go to bed. I figured you would have a calming, soporific effect on me." - A mother

(m)

https://voices.clickhole.com/my-sons-taught-themselves-to-be-feminists-without-my-he-1825124283

Toys again

Too bad.

https://patch.com/new-jersey/wayne/billionaire-toy-ceo-gives-bid-toys-r-us-report

At least the effect may be that there's less of a barrage of sexist toy advertising.

We like marketing boy toys for boys and girl toys for girls. It SELLS.

To read...

Subverting the subject position: toward a new discourse about students as writers and engineering students as technical communicators by R. Gay

+

"Towards a Recovery of Nineteenth Century Farming Handbooks" by E. Angeli

One time, there was a plane

A grounded plane. People were in a relatively good mood for being cooped up with a lot of other bodies in a flying machine, having cheated death or something.

Oh, vacation...

Not that it wouldn't be great to travel for other reasons, but if a whole lot of people wanted to know what I ate for breakfast just so they could do  fraction of what I do, I would probably be very tempted to seclude myself on an island for at least a month.

Space for books and spaghetti

Here
http://www.indianmomsconnect.com/book-review-cloudy-chance-meatballs-judi-barrett/

& elsewhere
https://www.thebookseller.com/news/malala-shortlisted-little-rebels-children-s-book-prize-780701

S.Q. 2

?

https://flashbak.com/the-groovy-age-of-flight-a-look-at-stewardesses-of-the-1960s-70s-28575/

How much do they know

S.Q.

why does your brother have so many hot girlfriends

https://www.therapistaid.com/therapy-worksheet/socratic-questioning

actually though

https://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/socratic-method-improve-depression_us_55ca2888e4b0f1cbf1e65731

The clothes had something to do with it

When you wore the exact same combination of non-fancy, comfortable clothing, you remembered sitting next to that quiet person.

maybe will visit this

had a random conversation with a friendly girl and she asked if I would ever work here
https://www.nixonfoundation.org/plan-your-visit/
it's not very far away from some parks

maybe could learn more about this

"...video for 'Vanessa,' with its scenes of Boucher dancing with nine other women, was inspired by K-pop aesthetics..."

~ https://pitchfork.com/reviews/tracks/loona-love4eva-ft-grimes/

a story about another time

AIR

TRAVEL

~~~~~

oh well, now I have to clean up after the cat again
she has a delicate stomach

~~~

it's interesting though
she definitely upchucked on the threshold
right around the wire protector
it was not protected
that was more clean-up than usual

~~~

and now it's like
do I feed you again right away
or do I wait for the stomach to settle

I think I'll wait.
There's some kibble left. 

That was a walk

"...bathrooms are available at the National Park Service parking area less than .25 mile from The Old Manse. "

http://www.thetrustees.org/places-to-visit/greater-boston/old-manse.html

Things to do

Take care of your heart.

R & R

"And it’s a reciprocal relationship because as important as nature has been shown for our health and happiness, our interactions with the natural world are just as important for protecting nature and the environment."

~ http://www.bbc.com/earth/story/20160420-how-nature-is-good-for-our-health-and-happiness

On the other hand, nature energy in the form of a cat is making me clean up a lot after her this morning.

I remember

The Netherlands.

The middle class people I met always took vacations and travelled. They seemed like they felt sort of sorry for Americans. By the time I left, I did too.

http://www.businessinsider.com/best-countries-for-work-life-balance-according-to-expats-2018-5

However, there is so much beautiful country here...

Impetus / impetuses???

Why did one drive in my car seem much longer than it was, and why did the time go by so fast during another drive and make me miss my destinations? Why is it possible to hear a dog barking and it sounds like a laughing court jester from another era?

I decided to get this

Mmmm Hmmm.
https://www.scientificamerican.com/magazine/special-editions/2012/a-matter-of-time/

Tidying

It can be daunting.

https://groknation.com/home/marie-kondo-decluttering/

It's easy to ignore the pile of mail and watch this again.

Orlando: The Salon

Time

You should ask the official scientists how and why timelines get so dicey.

These look really interesting

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/smithsonian-institution/one-these-five-innovative-memorials-will-soon-honor-native-american-veterans-180969060/

Good meditation(s)

A friend sent this

http://buttersafe.com/2018/05/24/a-quiet-stream/

Others...

http://wanna-joke.com/morning-jokes-20-pics-191/

Do I like the witches

"Little boys love snakes"  - The Witches

Thick/Slim

Short
https://www.reddit.com/r/gifs/comments/8mo3uy/expectations_vs_reality/

Long
https://www.shortlist.com/entertainment/tv/channel-5-mtv-reality-tv-pitches-feature-first-dates-love-island/357339

I should make something

This sounds occult
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Triple_witching_hour

Linus & Snoopy in "Beagle Board"
https://peanuts.blogberth.com/2017/12/31/ldquopeanuts-en-espaolrdquo-from-december-11/

It would be weird to have a mind wired to make stuff like this
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/BeagleBoard

M

My favorite traumatizing writer
Mensch

maybe

these two

http://www.slate.com/articles/arts/movies/2010/07/orlando_does_not_fade.html 

+

FoTC: TOO MANY D's...

Also, there is a clip of Sasha and Orlando ice skating and it's dubbed in Spanish.

The colleagues' cackles are not as good. They were better in English. Oh I think they were left out of that one. No, no. They're in there!

ah, this is better

Morcheeba ~ Blood Like Lemonade

I just watched miniscule amounts of a trailer

1) Let's look up On The Road
2) Oooh, here's a trailer
3) (watch a few seconds)
4) nooooo...so unsatisfactory....

___.

On May 4 I went for a very nice walk and since the road kept reminding me of the 1800s I was thinking about a story and being told you should write it and I was like but how, I'm scared and now it's like that's a world away...

^8^

^
https://metro.co.uk/2018/02/03/caturday-cats-are-the-worst-7282405/

8
https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/9b8k38/calculating-the-exact-amount-of-banter-in-that-photo-of-those-eton-schoolboys-who-met-putin

^
http://flyingspaghettimonster.wikia.com/wiki/Flying_Spaghetti_Monster

$$$???

$$$ = tunnels
http://www.guiddoo.com/milan-travel-guide/castello-sforzesco-sforza-castle/
dear white ppl

++++++++++

"herculean models"
https://www.frugalwoods.com/2015/03/09/how-i-let-go-of-caring-what-others-think/
"buying, buying, buying"

~~~~~~~~~~

“Can you take me to the nearest cash station?”
https://parade.com/489718/paulettecohn/kim-barker-on-tina-fey-making-her-life-into-a-movie-whiskey-tango-foxtrot/
 "There is no cash station."

Looking at the moon is good

https://www.moongiant.com/phase/today/

***

https://www.timeanddate.com/moon/phases/@2346026

***

http://aa.usno.navy.mil/imagery/moon

a measure of pleasure

https://www.uua.org/re/tapestry/children/loveconnects/session8/power-of-peace

++++

https://kinginstitute.stanford.edu/king-papers/documents/palm-sunday-sermon-mohandas-k-gandhi-delivered-dexter-avenue-baptist-church

pine pine pine

pine (nut) scone

Endocrinological disturbances

I am so bored and I need a taco.
Probably learning more about brain chemistry would be a good use of time.

However...

http://www.healingenergytools.com/pineal-gland-and-sungazing/

I had a dream about swimming and looking at a sunset. No, actually a sunrise!

Dream tea...

The adopt-an-herb website says that dream tea comes from...

http://www.teawolf.com

This site

http://www.wolfmountainsanctuary.net

has interesting tee shirts
Ha
Ha

Ok....

https://munchies.vice.com/en_us/article/gvkgv9/this-amazonian-super-tea-will-help-you-interpret-your-dreams

~~

"Cause like the news...."

~ Amy, 

calm down...

I think she would like to come back.

But what if she just wants to sing folk music?

This would go well

with a cabin.

https://nouveaucheap.blogspot.com/2012/12/review-badger-sleep-balm.html?m=1

Hmmm, new to me...

http://abc.herbalgram.org/site/PageServer?pagename=Adopt_an_Herb

I pine for musical skills

Ode to my friend who was the best at fixing her car and her dad was an airline mechanic and a transvestite.

Well I enjoyed this

Ancient secrets of a master healer: deeper healing solutions ~ Dr.Clint Rogers

Film things

Bird behavior.
https://uproxx.com/music/us-girls-rosebud-in-a-poem-unlimited/


Maybe will watch this.
http://variety.com/2017/film/reviews/wind-river-review-1201966106/

$ (nod) $

Quotable:

"For about a week every year in my childhood, I was a member of one of America’s fading aristocracies."

~ https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2018/06/the-birth-of-a-new-american-aristocracy/559130/


$ (shrug) $

https://www.npr.org/2014/07/13/331133858/founders-claimed-a-subversive-right-to-natures-god

anyways old music

Old & older. 1977 + Cold Fact.

:-o

https://www.forbes.com/sites/christinatroitino/2018/04/23/americans-waste-about-a-pound-of-food-a-day-usda-study-finds/#38c1443c4ec3

god, missed opportunities

I really should have given my measly change to the injured migrant worker guy. I should have said, hey, it sucks you have to hover outside this chicken place for food and then they won't even let you eat inside, but at least you're not Bernie Sanders' arch enemy! God I have taken the risk. Dear (crazy) Chicken Place, I was really disappointed that you charged regular prices on all your dishes even though you ran out of avocado, which practically every one of them has as part of the ingredients. I was also disgusted when I saw the employee wipe the cilantro off the counter back into the bin. How is that sanitary? But then, I was touched you gave the hungry guy food (for free I assume). But then you gave orders and kicked him out? What are your ethical principles? Where are your values? Really? He couldn't have just hunched over that little table by the trash can in his ragged clothing and eaten his "free food" and by the way you were overcharging all night on your avocado-less dishes. Wow.

these 2...

Caribou ~ Bowls + BINKBEATS: Bowls by Caribou

sorry pete

Pete Seeger - I'm gonna be... (song by Peggy)

Nicely lit

evening walk

A Crystal Fair

All the way over there.

https://www.riverfronttimes.com/artsblog/2018/05/21/the-st-louis-crystal-fair-welcomes-bronies-of-all-ages

I wonder if it's like Ren Faire.

Senor de los Milagros

I am thinking about the injured man. I hope he has better luck coming to him. I didn't give him money, and he didn't ask for any, but I wish I had. I hope he found a good place to eat his food.

Senor de los Milagros (Susana Vaca)

I said Hi to him

He was standing outside a place that serves chicken. He looked up and then down. He did not ask for money, and this surprised me.

Later, a worker gave him a bag of what seemed to be food in a carry out container.
Then he sat down at a table but she came back and said to him, "It has to be to-go."

He walked away with his food. He seemed injured, both physically and emotionally.

I wondered if he is a migrant worker who got hurt and has no money.

There!

History!

https://www.thoughtco.com/lowell-mill-girls-1773332

Oh I feel better now.

Cray see...

This phrase just came into my head and there is literally an article about it.

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2017/08/30/demelzahillier-mermaid-ceo/

It's a little bit scary.

Information

Never knew this....

"When he met his grandson he, too, became infatuated with the boy—so much so that he effectively claimed Benny for his own. In 1776 he insisted that the 7-year-old accompany him on his diplomatic mission to France. Franklin didn’t return Benny Bache to his parents for nine years."

~ https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/benjamin-franklin-estranged-wife-nearly-two-decades-180964400/

~\\~

Oh Paper Bag song

Oh my face hurts

soahc

chaos

Committing

To healing.

I have
Ginger.
Heating pad.
I can't escape you.
This is pain again.
I want us to live a better life.

Dear Body,
I live in you and I love you. I am in pain.
We deserve a better life together.

I have forgiveness.
I have healing capabilities.

This rather interests me

https://wehavekids.com/parenting/A-Childhood-in-the-Military-or-What-Makes-Military-Brats-Different

Sigh

Maybe someday your brother will heal, stop lying about the rage-filled unhealthy messages he was fed, and achieve what he's supposed to instead of forcing stuff he hates to create all that "success."
Blind cult leader followers are scary.

Found a picture

I found it in this Italian publication.

https://issuu.com/librimondadori/docs/repubblica_fragoso

It says "My Horrible Fairy Tale"

I see it mentions something called Advanced Integrative Therapy.

http://www.seinstitute.com/advanced-integrative-therapy/

It's funny it has "integrative" in the name.

I found out about this earlier this year:

http://integratedhealing.co.uk/what-we-do/

I sought it out after I was having such a hard time and felt grief in my body even more than it was in my mind. And fear, too.
Layers of grief and fear and anger.

And a desire to move forward, however slowly...

Poco a poco.

Funny tombstone ideas

While young, in an amusement park:
"I TOLD YOU I WAS SICK"

After maturing:
"She was a young woman who sent her friend off to be married"

Still & all

This one was very good.



Billy Elliot Swan Lake Scene - Spanish subtitles

I used to watch more movies

I think if I like this one

RBG
http://variety.com/2018/film/reviews/rbg-review-1202677562/

I might get an RBG t-shirt or something.

I am also interested in...

Sweet Country
http://variety.com/2017/film/reviews/sweet-country-review-1202548977/

Bohemian Rhapsody
http://variety.com/2018/film/news/rami-malek-dazzles-as-queens-freddie-mercury-in-first-bohemian-rhapsody-trailer-1202810970/

Sounds feelings

I love music, but not this...NSE noise? So terrible.

My favorite feeling today was like that of being in a quiet chamber.

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/smart-news/earths-quietest-place-will-drive-you-crazy-in-45-minutes-180948160/

It was pleasant.

I will return to it.

That 21st century life

Thoughts on seeing a flying monstrosity on the way to work. I tried to look it up for, like, two minutes when I was no longer driving, so I have no idea what it was. A thick car drone? It was noisy. It was interesting. It was too loud. It was not lovely, like a bird. Who would make something like that? Why would it be out today? Oh well, it will pass.

Today is a good, rainy day

Today you will be nice to your body.

This is >>>>

Provocative

https://ifstudies.org/blog/baby-bust-fertility-is-declining-the-most-among-minority-women

Why not "Auntie & Uncle production is booming"?

Good night

I am folding clothes and going to bed.
I hope a lot of people are evolving spiritually.

Carbs

https://traderjoesmyway.wordpress.com/2016/07/13/trader-joes-rice-cracker-medley-gluten-free/

Well there it is

The hip pain diminished and the cramps are back. Walking up stairs with two types of tea to treat your malady is a feminine experience. And I feel a little bit hot.

This sticker!!!
https://www.redbubble.com/people/crittendenmulti/works/30428804-mind-and-matter?c=829930-cosmic-love&ref=work_carousel_work_collection&ref_id=29853381

Oh, the cramps went away but the hip pain is back!
Well, we will figure this out eventually!

This is a cool sticker

Nyx in a rainbow cloud
(by CrittendenMulti ?)

The dream thing again

My dream was of being a good female ghost and circling over a...city (?) and going no no no....local government.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mayor

?

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mayor–council_government

I have to figure out how/why I did this hip thing to myself.

So you will go to sleep. Ok.

Sigh. Physical limitations.

Great walk but now I have a bad hip.
I wonder if a shot would help cure it.

https://www.atlasobscura.com/articles/washington-island-wisconsin-bitters-shots

Today's trail beauties

Hi!

Interesting name.

https://www.space.com/40640-nasa-chief-bridenstine-climate-change.html

Chief B....

~~~

I think I am not going to long term own a shiny black car. I know they look classy and if you have a goth friend perhaps one would compliment her wonderfully eclectic vibe, but it reminds me of something out of an Amy Winehouse video, which is fun to watch but not emulate.

Wonder if this is subscribable

Learning about squirrels in the  LA Zoo Docent newsletter

Cat aspect

One way to ground yourself is to scoop a lot of cat litter. Cats do not give a shit about human social status.

But they care a lot about who feeds them.

Another way is to try to figure out how to make the bag fit the trash bin properly.

This one is very good

"She's waving and smiling."
(Sister Julienne to Dr. Turner)

https://www.thesun.co.uk/tvandshowbiz/3074000/call-the-midwife-fans-left-in-tears-after-best-finale-ever-sees-barbara-getting-married-patsy-and-delia-kiss-and-patrick-and-shelagh-have-their-baby/

There's so much going on.
They should play it on repeat in psychiatric wards.

Realities....

Also I just really feel that sometimes people shouldn't be too flippant with their toys because in some situations and in some places those things are used to control, colonize, or even kill people. They don't seem so fun when you look at them that way. We have a big problem in this country with that as well.

Too hot

"Grandpa and grandma used to fly around the world all the time."

"That must have been nice for them."

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2018/feb/19/climate-change-spells-turbulent-times-ahead-for-air-travel

Signficantly, last night

watched another episode of my show and someone got squeamish, left, came back and handed me a beer.
"Why did you give me that?"
"Because I needed a beer after that scene and I figured you would like one."
The character in the show was pregnant and had undergone "pharaonic circumcusion."


But there's a positive aspect, actually.
https://www.telegraph.co.uk/women/life/call-midwife-helping-break-silence-fgm-now-need-end-altogether/

These have so many uses

https://uk.lush.com/ingredients/organic-ground-aduki-beans

I think I will look at food things

https://laurenlox.com/2015/04/11/tasty-breakfast-foods-to-get-rid-of-those-pesky-cramps/

This is your...

Vessel. In rough seas.
It was awesome that time I saw a healer and then had nearly no cramps for a cycle. It's been a while, clearly.

Travel thoughts

It's weird I haven't been back to the Pacific Northwest in a very long time....It should be time to go back there soon...It's been a long time since I've seen Sylvester & Sylvia.

https://www.atlasobscura.com/articles/seattle-field-report-part-1-ye-olde-curiosity-shop

Mother goddess heal my body

Ginger

I don't wish this on anyone

Pain

Change

~~~~

I survived!!!

I fear candy might make cramps worse.

Sugar triggers inflammation.

Calgon...take him away...

To another land....

https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2017/02/13/the-prairie-wife

Learning about HFCs...

1
https://cen.acs.org/articles/95/web/2017/08/Court-strikes-down-US-restrictions-on-HFCs.html

2
http://hydrocarbons21.com/articles/8101/honeywell_to_appeal_snap_case_to_supreme_court

3
https://www.nytimes.com/2016/10/17/business/how-the-chemical-industry-joined-the-fight-against-climate-change.html

Had a witch dream

Are you a witch?

http://www.rebellesociety.com/2014/01/17/13-signs-youre-a-witch/

I had a dream that there was an awards ceremony in which someone (a man of course) was being praised (by another man, of course) for opening doors for people. I was not in agreement with what was being said because I felt the door opening process had not happened for myself. The person who was making those assertions heard my disagreement and confronted me afterwards. And we both stared at each other. And then, I was really shocked because he started crying.  I had cried as well, in private. But in this case, I was not crying. I said, I liked what I was learning. I was doing well. But I did not feel acknowledged at all.

He said, We didn't know you. Things were better after you left.

I said, things were better after I left? You make it sound like you think I'm a witch!

Then he nodded and he left, still crying.

https://www.elephantjournal.com/2015/07/pay-attention-to-the-omens-10-signs-you-might-be-a-witch/

A witch! A witch!
He didn't want a witch.
They didn't want a witch.
They wanted a smiling secretary!

http://www.destinationamerica.com/thehauntist/7-signs-you-are-secretly-a-witch/

!!!!

Ahhh https://slate.com/technology/2018/05/a-usd50-000-a-night-underwater-hotel-in-the-maldives-shows-how-blind-we-are-to-climate-change.html

Nooo
https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2018/may/17/climate-change-on-track-to-cause-major-insect-wipeout-scientists-warn

Boring yet interestingvideo

HFO-1234yf vs. HFC-134a

Used car shopping soon, perhaps. I don't really know what I want, but maybe it would be good to ask if the car uses the new refrigerant.

Funny pen

"Good Work Jerry"
https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments/8k80cr/didnt_notice_until_after_i_stole_the_pen_good/

Sis sent this

It has an interesting map.
https://www.msn.com/en-gb/news/world/mysterious-rise-in-banned-ozone-destroying-chemical-shocks-scientists/ar-AAxnqqK

Of course public transport is good, but some of us get sick and would not like to get nauseated on a daily basis.

I wonder which (preferably used) car is the best....

Taking the high seas....

...to San Francisco...

https://www.sfchronicle.com/entertainment/article/Martin-Luther-King-event-headlines-S-F-12922419.php

Thinking about energy healer types

There are very interesting forms of healing therapy that are not the same as traditional counseling, where you talk a lot about your childhood problems, relationship problems, etc. Instead, there is energy healing. The healer does a kinesiology test and focuses on an area in the body where the energy is sort of muddled, and then works with you to figure out how to deal with that. I like those.

But then again, maybe a person would want to talk about childhood issues, etc. in the healing session, and that's okay but it's not the sole focus as much working with energy and the body.

Also it might be about tapping into your inner healer.

She did come back in a dream...

Looking like she did when I knew her, my friend was standing in a doorway, and she had a lot of anxiety. It made it kind of hard to be around her or talk to her. She also had some twigs and leaves on her and she was pregnant, like when I first met her. So I had to ask her why those were there and she said "Because you told me I could come back." I put my hand on her near the twigs and said "You can come back as a new person in a new body."

~ ~

Well, this body has been such a rich resource of information.

beautiful song

Barrio Lindo ~ El Aire

With or without the cat/drone video...

this is air that needs improvement

For Farmworkers' Kids, Country Air Means Dust, Pesticides And Asthma
https://www.opb.org/news/article/asthma-air-quality-yakima-valley-washington-farm-workers/

These are the bird sounds...

(3 hours) 4K UHD Relaxation video: Mount Rainier National Park Washington State, Nature Sounds - 1

I would go to this

https://nmwa.org/exhibitions/picturing-mary-woman-mother-idea

Wait a second, that says it ended in 2015. Why is the website for the National Museum of Women in the Arts so out of date.

https://nmwa.org/explore/artist-profiles/elisabetta-sirani

https://nmwa.org/works/holy-family-st-elizabeth-and-st-john-baptist

You can always pray

Lest brother be in the grip of some soul-sucking demon, like what big oppressive houses are made of.

Isn't it weird? Lack of $ is one sort of oppression and too much is another.

summer scene

4K Field with Wind, Swallows, & Windchimes - Happy Summer moments NO LOOP

It kinda seems like...

O my feminine pain, etc. etc.
is the exact opposite of flashy masculine success.
So if you're flashy masculine success, get ready.

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10 ways to attract a healthy car into your life

1) https://genius.com/Sufjan-stevens-bryce-dessner-nico-muhly-james-mcalister-pluto-lyrics

2) https://www.citylab.com/environment/2011/09/behind-pollution-californias-central-valley/207/

3) https://www.citylab.com/equity/2016/01/farming-the-subdivision/425139/

4) Wish this was better
https://www.wxxv25.com/2018/05/15/puerto-rico-is-not-ready-for-hurricane-season-groups-warn/

5) https://medium.com/thrive-global/rewiring-your-thoughts-to-help-heal-a-chronic-illness-72acd1a96ca8

6)https://www.ascent2health.com/blog/an-ancestral-approach-to-healing-from-chronic-disease

To Be Continued...

It's okay

Knitting and rose geranium spritzer.

(○) (○)

Now I feel like my eyeballs are about to pop out.

What's Robin of TedXImperial up to.

NO.
Do Not Check It Out.

Whatever

That's what she said.

"... husband just said this to two of our children: 'There's a calf on the east side of the North Big South. You need to head south, then open the gate to the west and let it into the South Big South.' I would have said 'Wait, is that right or left?' So glad I had kids."
  ~ https://mobile.twitter.com/thepioneerwoman/status/994756926838919169

Not yet

"Cowboy"

Grrr!

"TAKE ME"

RRR!

AHHHH

Don't worry, it's just dixie chicks singing to their animuses.

Don't worry it's just music therapy.

Ert

Shhh
Enough

Shhh
Take a vacation

Well, that escalated quickly

I am exhausted. I imagined wailing Native American stuff and couldn't stop laughing and I perhaps threw up a little cold Bailey's I'm sorry St. Brendan's Irish Cream Liquer in the shower.

Don't drink while imbibing sad shows.

I mean, at some point, you have to choose a healthy life style.

Thank you!

I was not the only one.

http://metro.co.uk/2017/02/12/call-the-midwifes-patronising-doctor-mr-greenwood-catches-the-ire-of-viewers-6444185/

Still watching it.

Men were not permitted to be midwives.

Everyone is miserable.

And then they just dive in with this jaunty music.

Its the end of the day!

What to do about the car...
Service engine light always on.
Oil constantly needing to be replenished.
Cracked, um, engine coolant canister?

People are good. I was offered Cup O'Noodles. Young ones were assigning everyone dog breeds. Can't wait to find out what mine is.

Good Seattle Story

Partying, networking and such
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2003/04/21/what-you-pawn-i-will-redeem

Hmmm

I had a picture in my head of a girl looking quite fierce and I wanted to find it so I started looking for a black and white picture I found of my friend once which I think was put out by an Italian publication....but I only found this book by a man who is a romance movelist: https://www.kirkusreviews.com/book-reviews/jeffrey-stepakoff/fireworks-over-toccoa/  That is very starry! I still want to find my friend's black and white picture from an Italian publication so I will look for that one LATER...

I like this one (& this one)

Classic Peanuts - "And he huffed and he puffed and he blew the house in"

~~~

Snoopy Moo

http://teddyandtheyeti.blogspot.com/2011/03/my-favorite-peanuts.html?m=1

Siiiiiigh

Why does this have to happen now
Its the second week of deer camp
No no no no no...won't even dignify with a link...
No it's not....

Ah....sleep balm

Alone time is amazing time.

http://thesilenceofthemoon.blogspot.com/2011/05/badger-balm-review.html?m=1

Especially when there's aromatherapy.

http://www.imperfectlypainted.com/2013/01/badger-balms-review-pic-heavy.html?m=1

They try.

I wonder if all the kids there have nannies now.

https://www.seattletimes.com/pacific-nw-magazine/vashon-tries-to-keep-it-real-despite-an-influx-of-people-and-money/

Versus unpaid part-time child nannies.

But...

Good mother nature vibes.

Truly bizarre

Where is childhood?
https://www.msn.com/en-us/money/careersandeducation/the-curious-case-of-how-a-9-year-old-self-proclaimed-cocaine-dealer-became-an-instagram-influencer/ar-AAx83rn?li=BBnb7Kz

My friend came back

She was very like when I knew her. She said "Do you mind if I look at it?" (What I was writing.) I said, "I am not trying to tell your story. I am trying to write about what it's like to learn from someone."

Sounds salt-of-the-earth

Free washer and dryer

Please meditate

Disappointed by how many brothers otherwise fine brains are WARPED BY THE PATRIARCHY

Scouting

Blurry pictures, but cool idea!

http://mrsoliveiraclassblog.blogspot.com/2016/10/mysteries-of-harris-burdick-mystery.html

Omega-3

There were a lot of happy people and seafood at brunch.

"How are you feline this morning"

http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/nationworld/weird/ct-michigan-police-pawfficer-donut-20180512-story.html

Well, good.

I am going to be more focused on what is healing for me and my body. I am going to eat better and treat it better in other ways. I don't want to be around a lot of  ridiculous toxic boys club stuff. It is not funny. It enrages me and it's bad for my health. I need to be more focused on healing projects. I need to develop respect for this body I live in now. I don't like twinges it gives sometimes. I have to give it more respect and healing.

Such a view

Such a walk on May 4th.

E!

The earth is so interesting.

Gray and shady

Some scenery

Well I made 4 things

(*)
starry eye

(*)
burrow entrance

(*)
flower in glass

(*)
olive

(*)

If you want a relatively weird life, just write some stuff and then look out at the world.

Interesting review and instruction

"Best read in immersive, long sittings" ~ https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/aug/10/zinzi-clemmons-what-we-lose-interview

So, if you're a girl in your next life...

"....it doesn’t matter that she can handle Lady Macbeth at sixteen, because she will be playing thin and overly sexualized characters if she wants to get work."

~  http://www.vulture.com/2018/05/ally-sheedy-on-hollywood-sexism-and-harvey-weinstein.html

:^0  what is that  :^/

It seems like a good idea

for people on Earth to get more grounded.
Grounded.

Sure, why not...

read that library book
https://awholeheart.com/2017/11/14/hiking-naked/

Hurrah

Hara!
http://haradevelopment.org/2018/04/24/the-aesthetics-of-breathing/
Ha ha.

Hey again

Pink Floyd - Wish You Were Here

old good music times

Smokey Robinson & The Miracles - The Tears Of A Clown

She opens doors

People have dealt with stuff like this by avoiding it for years...lifetimes...

https://womenintheworld.com/2018/05/09/rose-mcgowan-says-life-has-changed-for-the-better-since-she-came-forward-weinstein-accusations/

But all Obama said was "You ladies sure know how to pose."

I could see why that was disappointing.

Rocky road...

https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/features/rose-mcgowan-shares-her-secret-being-happier-2018-thr-interview-1109996

A good leaf story

http://www.whitewolfpack.com/2018/05/smart-dog-brings-leaf-to-store-every.html?m=1

You can

Ridiculously sleepless? Instead, write about PCOS & her nefarious sidekick Dysthimia. PCOS: "I am wrongly named!" "Oh well, who cares," D. will say. "And you're so tired any way," D. will add comfortingly. D. will definitely want to be the main character. Okay you are both very important and getting fancy houses to live in. Be on the look out for Uterus Puncturing Ghost Knife. Nooo, whyyyy, YOU CAN CHANGE NOW.

Alrighty

As one does

http://www.harahealthexercises.com/trauma-healing/

Looking up hara...

http://www.acupuncturecollege.edu/blog/hara-source-life-and-navel-gate-spirit

Body = interesting machine?

http://www.spiritofchange.org/Spring-2011/The-Hara-Center-of-Being/

Those idle driving-home sentiments

Come back if you can!
Come back if you wish.

Found

May 2 2017

Pink Floyd "Wish You Were Here"
(which I remembered)

& "The Frozen Logger"
(which I forgot)

Well, we'll just contemplate them again with our heating pad...

Bring something

Ow

And you and yours?

My body is being provocative. One year ago it was telling me things, too. Tears of a clown and Pagliacci was the last post on May 10, 2017.

nature energy

Wind in the Grass




A lively senior cat

1979

Tomita - Pavan For A Dead Princess (Ravel) [1979]

~~~~~\\~~~~~~~~\\~~~~~

Flounder (if I like) flounder (his stuff better) flounder

GASP!
https://www.vox.com/culture/2018/5/2/17311206/boston-marathon-jessica-chichester-women-rules-prize-money

(they will) flounder (give me) flounder (a Mercedes) flounder

GASP!
https://www.elle.com/culture/a45920/roxane-gay-profile-hunger-memoir/

Brain fog scramble song lyrics
"I hope someday you get the chance
to not feel like you are dying"

Ay, Hawaii

~

/  \

https://www.npr.org/sections/thetwo-way/2018/05/08/609503580/days-weeks-years-scientists-say-hawaiis-erupting-volcano-has-no-end-in-sight

~ ~ ~

http://www.civilbeat.org/2018/05/big-island-everyones-talking-about-pele-the-fire-goddess/

Ready to be rest-oriented

A lot of good would come to the world if we all took better care of our health.
Signals signals signals. You better take care of your health.
My body is doing that thing again.

Phantom

Very interesting episode
http://www.radiotimes.com/news/2017-05-12/call-the-midwife-what-is-a-phantom-pregnancy/

"bilious" but...
https://www.telegraph.co.uk/tv/2016/12/25/call-midwife-christmas-special-review-sadness-sunshine-moving/

"phantom pregnancy"

https://www.theedgesusu.co.uk/culture/2016/12/28/review-call-the-midwife-christmas-special-2016/

Other interesting combinations...

Sula and Revolutionary Road

The Secret and Notes From The Underground 

That's not friendly

The Greeting

"'I went to lay my court files down and the next thing I know someone was grabbing me from behind,' the woman said."

http://www.dailycamera.com/ci_15026076

Brother Doctor and Sister Police Chief

"The woman said she was arrested in retaliation for blowing the whistle on her estranged husband's sister, Baldwin Park Police Chief Lili Hadsell, and suspended West Covina sex crimes investigator Tyler Kennedy.

The woman said Kennedy propositioned and harassed her after he was assigned to investigate a rape complaint she filed against her estranged husband.

 She said Hadsell told her not to report an alleged incident of spousal rape."

http://www.dailycamera.com/ci_15026076

Because they've been taught

"seventeen compared to two which suggests you were eight and a half times a better writer under a male name..." (3:33)

Why Are Even Women Biased Against Women?

https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b09pl66d

Alternatively

Her books.

"...claiming to love her, until she succumbs to his love and lets go of her 'anger' and 'bitterness.'"

~ http://www.patheos.com/blogs/lovejoyfeminism/2018/04/voice-in-the-wind-3.html

Wouldn't life be easier

If you just worshipped a lot of male authors and musicians, always acted sunny and positive about them, and never thought about all that other stuff.

I love his book.
I love his song.
I choose his work.
It's lucrative.

I asked myself

Has anyone famous ever benefited from excusing the behavior of this guy?

"'In his self-proclaimed 'survival guide for men and training manual for women,' Kennedy offers advice to men"
~ https://www.sbsun.com/2011/12/01/federal-judge-west-covina-sex-crimes-investigator-did-not-violate-civil-rights/

"The woman said Kennedy propositioned and harassed her"
~ http://www.dailycamera.com/ci_15026076

No, just regular people, like bosses and chain store executives.
He had to go contribute to society somewhere.

Not just one

"In the past few months, many men who publicly espouse feminist ideals have been accused of violating those ideals"

~ https://www.vox.com/2018/5/8/17330760/eric-schneiderman-harvey-weinstein-allegations-new-york-attorney-general-metoo-me-too-movement

Oh good, he can hang out with someone who is nicer to women now.

~ https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/life-style/books/features/neil-gaiman-and-chimamanda-ngozi-adichie-to-attend-international-literature-festival-dublin-this-month/articleshow/63997496.cms

How To Ignore Stories Because It Doesn't Concern You How To Pretend It's Okay And Be An Enabler

Peace

People who tolerate sexism remind me of:

"the white moderate, who is more devoted to 'order' than to justice; who prefers a negative peace which is the absence of tension to a positive peace which is the presence of justice"

http://www.africa.upenn.edu/Articles_Gen/Letter_Birmingham.html

On a food note

Almonds and yogurt drops

On a positive note

A happy girl was delighted to be writing about loving animals and ditching Disney princes.

Secretly

I hope some people's kids excel in sensitivity, intelligence, compassion, and integrity when they grow up to be different people from their parents.

Supposed to watch this

RBG

That Scream Movie! Again!

The Scream by Sebastian Cosor

You might wonder at your cat

If you ever have opened your mouth really wide to imitate The Scream and then thought about a movie and started laughing and screaming and crying and going "calm down" girl cause it would be more enjoyable if that wasn't nauseating...well the cat didn't see it so she let you pet her. I wonder if cats are less psychic than their reputations.

:-O

Angry vile feminist files!
Angry vile feminist files!
Angry vile feminist files!
Abort!
Abort!
Abort!

One time, I was around a bunch of young guys who made jokes about not giving a shit if their wives had pain in childbirth. Really! Lololol them. Did their parents raise those dudes right or what?

What is this?
https://www.thecut.com/2018/05/iowa-abortion-legislation-heartbeat-bill-explained.html

How to survive

the onslaught of careless and clueless men and the women who pedestal and excuse.
leave a toxic environment 

I unexpectedly heard a story about this guy today.
https://www.sgvtribune.com/2011/10/23/west-covina-goes-to-court-over-conduct-of-former-police-sex-crimes-investigator/

"Magic Triangle"
https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/6061271.Tyler_Kennedy

X IS a way better person than that "Magic Triangle" guy.

Maybe you're changing

Who knows? You don't have to be someone's "white moderate."

Feels like it

Are you friends with someone unhealthy and abusive but you make excuses for the person? Why? Do you do that for him? No! You're not even compassionate toward him! Much less any victims of the abuse. You did that for yourself.

That apartment was nicer

One time I lived in Chicago with a cat. A group of men came to my patio and behaved angrily. Then another man came forward. Do not mess with the cat! I scooped the cat up and we sat indoors. Don't you dare mess with my cat. What memory is this? There was a woman who lived there who got abused by her boyfriend and I called the police on him.

An "even before" thought

Even before articles about Incel, domestic violence was a scourge.

"immersed in the manosphere" 

~ http://www.latimes.com/local/abcarian/la-me-abcarian-incels-20180508-story.html

It is a thought. Is it great.

"It has been a tranquilizing Thalidomide, relieving the emotional stress for a moment, only to give birth to an ill-formed infant of frustration."

~ http://teachingamericanhistory.org/library/document/letter-from-birmingham-city-jail-excerpts/

Why.
Or.
Why not.

Have a great day thinking great thoughts

"...it is deeply sexist to insist on the divide between art and life, to cling to the work of 'great men' if you do not also acknowledge that the same divide, working in reverse, stymies the creation of great art, transformative criticism, and groundbreaking imagination by women."

~  https://www.cnn.com/2017/11/22/opinions/virginia-woolf-louis-ck-me-too-jane-carr-opinion/index.html

It really is quite something

...when you know there are successful people who have come into contact with a person of certain talents and praised and lauded and held this person up, and absolutely benefited from doing so. Then, when it starts to become apparent perhaps this person was not quite the exemplar they all wanted to pretend...well at this point,  there is an opportunity to express a little compassion for those who were wronged. Or maybe even to say, this is hard, this news some news to struggle with. But do they do either of those things? No! They don't say a word. Why not?

Perhaps it is because they had already heard some of this information, but still chose to ignore what they heard because it was far more convenient and definitely in their interest to do so. Could that be it? Because those "other" people just don't hold the same "value" for some reason? How is that even fun?  How many other abusive behavior patterns do they turn a blind eye to every day in order to be successful? How many other people do they make excuses for in order to make money? It doesn't even make art look like fun anymore when people do that.

Sleep

Sleep

:^/

xx: i feel sorta sorry for him...but u told me i'm not supposed to do that anymore...

xy: no, no you're not

Pot wedding is my favorite

OMG, so RIGHT.

"My guess is that these rich old white men are right."
~ https://twitter.com/robinhanson/status/993647998436552704

SO RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING.

"Women’s ability to say no to marriage, sex, and childbirth is a modern marvel."
~ https://twitter.com/CathyReisenwitz/status/993335045065601024

"The wedding was on a vulgarly hot day in June..."
~ https://broadly.vice.com/en_us/article/8x49ga/i-married-a-pot-then-i-killed-him

Que es...

Deliver Us?
https://twitter.com/amamaknox/status/993180574339612672

It's about drones?

Flower BEE

Flower Flower Flower
https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poetrymagazine/articles/146493/the-flower-is-forever-my-captain

Bee Bee Bee
https://oshuncreative.wordpress.com/2018/05/07/black-bumblebee-back-from-the-dead/

Oh what is this

"Rococo Basilisk"

https://gizmodo.com/i-had-no-idea-who-grimes-is-but-after-20-minutes-of-mi-1825843922

I just thought it was sort of a trippy version of a Benjamin Franklin girlfriend.

Best bedtime reading

Back to
https://woolgatheringwildcrafting.com/2017/10/06/a-guide-to-keeping-your-head-up/

Pretty!
https://woolgatheringwildcrafting.com/2014/04/24/gentle-spring-cleansing/

Imagine

There are men who have to beg for attention

https://broadly.vice.com/en_us/article/3kj3z3/anita-sarkeesian-on-online-abuse-amanda-knox

instead of copious unwanted amounts of it trammeling toward them...

http://www.newsweek.com/amanda-knox-being-accused-murder-i-could-have-been-kinkiest-person-and-it-906213

Those sound like amazing questions

"Among other things he said he is likely to bring up include the questions, “Why are people lonely?” “To what should we commit?” and “Is America still a nation based on a Puritan ethic?'"

Other amazing questions to ask: Why is my department mainly full of dudes? Are they all as destitute as my colleague? Did they all vote for Donald and are they ever afraid of cuckoldry? Am I? What if we all had 2 X chromosomes?

Hi, vessel

I will listen to you and rest again. I will go outside when I don't feel sick and sad and exhausted.

I really like this one

Venus Fly (Grimes & Janelle Monae)

The haze of a nap hangs over this weekend

Very tired most of today and much of this weekend. I was afraid I was getting sick on Friday evening. However, I was better on Saturday. Going to go outside to buy food.

Maybe I should bake or buy baked things

Probably quite yummy.

Kinda hangry

Food

https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/2012/05/six-rules-for-dining-out/308929/

Looks like food blog guy and cuckoldry guy wrote a paper about disagreements together.

https://economics.gmu.edu/people/rhanson

Seems that was quite a while ago.

Event in a year!

https://www.mercatus.org/events/conversations-tyler-margaret-atwood

It has happened

A man has told me I should stop feeling sorry for people.

https://slate.com/business/2018/05/robin-hanson-the-sex-redistribution-professor-interviewed.html

Why do you always do that.

https://theglowup.theroot.com/the-reckoning-what-junot-diaz-teaches-us-about-interna-1825796965

Hmmm.

Importing

"Warning"
~ http://www.overcomingbias.com/2010/11/gentlesilentrape.html

"Dear Incels"
https://medium.com/@shannoncoulter/dear-incels-your-blue-balls-are-my-historic-and-world-changing-accomplishment-b56f759e0098

(A conversation, of sorts)

"A group of student activists sat in the library at George Mason University this past week feeling both vindicated and violated."
~ https://www.nytimes.com/2018/05/05/us/koch-donors-george-mason.html

(Conversation)

 A creepy perspective?

http://www.overcomingbias.com/2018/05/why-economics-is-and-should-be-creepy.html

Colleagues

GMU had such a great library and study areas.

https://www.chronicle.com/article/George-Mason-s-President/243285

Anyways.

http://www.unkochmycampus.org/charles-koch-foundation-george-mason-mercatus-donor-influence-exposed/

"Unkoch" Lol.

http://www.overcomingbias.com/2010/11/gentlesilentrape.html

I used to read this guy's food blog...wtf?

https://tylercowensethnicdiningguide.com/index.php/six-rules-for-dining-out/

"Exploit Restaurant Workers" (?)
"Beware the Beautiful, Laughing Women" (???)

https://economics.gmu.edu/people/full_time_faculty

I don't see many.

Is that what he is

Alongside everything else

https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/as-the-king-of-debt-trump-borrowed-to-build-his-empire-then-he-began-spending-hundreds-of-millions-in-cash/2018/05/05/28fe54b4-44c4-11e8-8569-26fda6b404c7_story.html

Ah, life :-)

https://ombuds.umich.edu/article/danger-single-story

She is also interesting

again!!!
https://woolgatheringwildcrafting.com/2017/01/17/nice-girls-vs-kind-women/

She's interesting

Healing Body Image Issues
Need more time to watch the whole thing layer

Since you live in it

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Listen to your body

Creative coping

You might need to create a new world in your head. You might need to use your imagination to help you. There are some benefits to not waiting for the outside world to stop being sexist.

There's no massive movement of 12-step style meetings like "My name is so-and-so and I was taught to value men more than women. I have made excuses for people who mistreated women. I have devalued women. I am a product of this culture."

But there is the possibility of choosing to make the more positive instances of greater importance in your mind.

It's like a public health issue

It has scared me that a lot of women don't even know or want to see how much they were taught to build up men and devalue other women.

They were taught to make so many excuses for men and sometimes for women who devalue women. It creates really unhealthy environments.

Who wants to be treated as less than just because society taught you that a woman's voice and experiences is not as important as a man's voice and experiences?

Who wants to be "one of the guys" and treat other women like crap in the process?

It's so messed up. It is not okay.

Where oh where...

You should have bookmarked it!
It was just two guys playing some instrumental (maybe ambient?) stuff in a place in New York City that has, I think, since closed down (I later looked it up on yelp) but I can't remember any names.

It felt like the musicians were channeling good energies. I loved their music. It was great to me, but nobody was famous. They might not even play together anymore. I cannot find it. Anyway. Yes it is a giant haystack.

This is not what that was, but it grabbed my attention recently

The Heliocentrics - Capital of Alone (2017)

That is good, but way sadder than the other stuff was.
I also wish I could find that other stuff!

Some thoughts and impressions

Cool.

Honest.

Human.

Caring.

Not a cult leader.

Not pretending to be perfect.

Not making excuses for misogynistic behavior.

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2018/apr/28/chimamanda-ngozi-adichie-feminism-racism-sexism-gender-metoo

Because I don't have to

Today I made zero excuses for my boyfriend. Because I don't have to! Because I have no reason to do so! Some people, however, have very, very good reasons to make lots and lots of excuses...

~~~~

It is complicated though.

http://theconversation.com/blaming-victims-for-domestic-violence-how-psychology-taught-us-to-be-helpless-53636

It's unfortunate that certain traits overlap.

http://www.drcandacevlove.com/the-link-between-domestic-violence-and-narcissism/

It's kind of baked into society.

https://www.vox.com/identities/2016/11/15/13571478/trump-president-sexual-assault-sexism-misogyny-won

What the...cult leader???

"She was committed to female empowerment"

https://www.aol.com/article/entertainment/2018/05/01/allison-mack-inside-her-journey-from-smallville-to-alleged-sex-cult-leader/23424443/

WOW

https://www.quora.com/What-are-the-defining-characteristics-of-an-effective-cult-leader

From an essay on kindness

"Nice Girls versus Kind Women" by Asia:

"...the central tenant of his speech, offered to describe me and entire body of my work, was this: Asia is sweet. I stood on stage and felt as small, and hard, as a candy in someone else’s pocket."
  https://woolgatheringwildcrafting.com/2017/01/17/nice-girls-vs-kind-women/

To reread today

Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie: ‘This could be the beginning of a revolution’ By Lisa Allardice

So repetitive

When your women friends who think they are "woke" and "feminist" continue to treat women like crap and to allow men to do so.