It's not so bad

Eating strawberries and looking at websites about seeds.

It's not unusual...

I stay in
https://twitter.com/recyclebinley/status/1035537394819366912

I stay in
http://www.digitalthoreau.org/ftbeta/versioning_machine/text/07.html

still on my desk

mysterious seeds which appeared on the patio
http://theseedsite.co.uk/seedpods.html
and they perplex me
http://theseedsite.co.uk/seedsize16.html

they have white on the ends, not in the middle
https://torontobotanicalgarden.ca/blog/word-of-the-week/word-of-the-week-hilum/
so is that not hilium?

but they are not this?
https://awkwardbotany.com/tag/castor-bean/
and not this?
https://www.southernharvest.com.au/seed/corn-%E2%80%98black-aztec%E2%80%99

~~~~

for the first time it occurs to me that I could try to plant them?

These are really good

Poem to Some of My Recent Purchases, Black Hope, and Poem for the Thirty-Fifth Anniversary of Valium by Dorothy Barresi

I think past lives are like ex-wives

Sometimes you want to keep being friendly with them in the present life and sometimes you want to move on and not talk about them anymore.

I think I tend to be more like the former, but that might not be what the majority usually wants in this culture...

To believe in them could be, for me, part of being feminist...

This book has a great quote in the intro

I will retrieve it from the library tomorrow

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/20342617-just-mercy

Well, mama

who used to talk to me more often

https://www.pw.org/content/margaux_fragoso

I found myself a Mathematics song...

How to illustrate

Sober reflection

https://people.com/archive/a-new-york-wine-merchant-turns-a-1787-chateau-margaux-into-the-worlds-most-expensive-puddle-vol-31-no-19/

with a touch of self-interrogation

while sitting next to a celebrated jockey without knowing anything about horseracing...

I say M...

What if you came back
Why did we seem to be having discussions
And you sent people to me

The way....is....♡

Maybe the biggest challenge is to share or say what needs to be said to help steer humanity towards a kinder and more compassionate path.

Yeah adulthood

Nicer dive bar makes you think of grad school friend. Well, it's alright to believe in reincarnation, but loss is not canceled out completely. Loss is what I feel.

HA, but on the bright side, a guy just brought some of the regulars food.

Women at the bar said, "I love a guy who loves to see a woman happy!"

They've got an appreciation for In and Out burgers.

Charming & Charming

Cat

https://www.reddit.com/r/Catloaf/comments/9blg2m/a_guide_for_identifying_your_cat_loaf/

Dad

“Father, do you have anything to declare?”

https://www.reddit.com/r/Jokes/comments/9bo1oy/father_do_you_have_anything_to_declare/

this only uses one zucchini

one
https://www.skinnytaste.com/quick-spiralized-zucchini-and-grape/print/
I have FIVE

I will add it to squid ink pasta
it will be less skinny

~~~~~

why

bored bored bored bored bored bored

too many earworm hours of a song

the other one was temporary
but steady as she goes keeps looping
it's not that it's not a great song okay but

Thank you for that

Needed help with designing educational content for the target audience of males in their 4th decade & up...

(COMPLIMENT PRACTICE!)

Things to try? Things to try!

Yes, unstuck, love that word.
https://www.unstuck.com/gratitude/

Ha ha

It auto corrected microademna to Microsystems

having them now

selfish moments

why don't you just, like

look at her pituitary

Sometimes it really is the small small small small things????

MRI report is "Abnormal" with "possible hypoenhancing focus" on part of the pituitary....a mere "1 mm in diamater" and it "may be spurious or may represent a small microademona"

 So? What shall they recommend?

https://pituitary.org/component/com_kunena/Itemid,243/catid,34/id,2813/view,topic/

WHY NOT FILL LIFE WITH NATURE & CALM APP MEDITATIONS & YOGA & HEALTHY FOOD & GODDESS WORSHIP

Basically everything that is the anti-thesis of the modern society's definition of a workaholic and "successful" lifestyle.

I have to go do the daily painful thing to my face.

Who reads novels now

Lake Success
https://www.houstonchronicle.com/local/gray-matters/article/lake-success-gary-shteyngart-new-novel-review-13190651.php

Vox
https://www.mercurynews.com/2018/08/23/trump-has-made-female-dystopia-great-again/

It is such a tumultuous era

The Pope feels it.
https://www.cnn.com/2018/08/28/opinions/the-pope-probably-should-resign-filipovic/index.html

Art is here to help

This took some effort
http://groundhogdayproject.blogspot.com/2013/08/strike-up-music.html?m=1

Cultural icon...probably has a different purpose in the next life...
http://carlygoogles.blogspot.com/2013/03/whats-song-playing-in-square-in.html?m=1

Other Yankovic
https://genius.com/Weird-al-yankovic-polka-face-lyrics

Etwas Seltsames passiert

Those foreign words are strange

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/43083/that-pull-from-the-left

rites gud

http://www.latimes.com/books/jacketcopy/la-ca-jc-louise-erdrich-20171110-story.html

And eat oatmeal

It's more beneficial to take steps to heal yourself than to drag yourself down or look for villains.

O a Michigan book

The End of the Wild 

https://www.kirkusreviews.com/book-reviews/nicole-helget/the-end-of-the-wild/

https://www.publishersweekly.com/978-0-316-24511-1

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/31420696-the-end-of-the-wild

Priorities...

"...this disturbing connection suggests it’s fruitless to treat eating-disordered patients without investigating and addressing potential childhood trauma first." ~ O. Khazan
  https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2015/12/sexual-abuse-victims-obesity/420186/

Imagination + childhood

Life must be different for those who never attended church growing up.

I am sure these two are classic comrades, their diametrically opposed personalities often sharing insights over a $canofbeans, nary a $$$boxoforganicricecrispies in sight.

And famous literary critic says he "kept shady political company"
https://newint.org/features/special/2008/05/01/jesus-christ

moon & sky shots

There are just so many shows

There are....

"women, children and once in a great while, men." ~ R. Gay

https://therumpus.net/2011/03/the-careless-language-of-sexual-violence/

Sounds like they have fun

Julianna Margulies & Joy Nash Praise Women of "Dietland"

Interesting belief system collision

When you think you chose your seat and I think she chose it.

In your life

Have you found something nice to help you
I have woken up feeling sick and thirsty
How do we help? We don't know
Could cry but will drink water
Have you ever felt like this
Help help help help help
My sister my brother
I didn't know when my friend was leaving
But I used to feel such pain and in my mind
I would often call out for a mother
I didn't know why
I thought I was just having a personal crisis
I knew it was more than asking for a person

I should finish this book

Such nice people wanted me to read it. One even gave me a copy and told me to keep it.

https://offtheshelf.com/2017/11/heres-book-club-loved-man-called-ove/

I miss that library class.

https://genius.com/Original-london-cast-of-cats-grizabella-the-glamour-cat-lyrics

que paso

gato en agua
https://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/86ua59/cat_water_therapy/
terapia

~~~~~~cat~~~~~~drinks~~~~~~water~~~~~

1) dolphin song

2) amber waves 

3) the waitress (hang ten)

4) marys of the sea

5) purple people

6) merman

~~~~to the waters~~~~

to swim Tori Amos - The Pool and Never Seen Blue at night

Isn't there a flower game

yes

https://www.theverge.com/2017/9/28/16380872/thatgamecompany-flower-release-iphone-ipad

and others

https://gearburn.com/2018/08/5-beautiful-non-violent-video-games-for-pc-and-console/

do you ever wish that

society was better at teaching men and boys how to take care of themselves

society was better at teaching women and girls how to take care of themselves

to take care of themselves mentally and spiritually and emotionally instead of so much emphasis on acquiring possessions or having a lot of money or curing loneliness with relationships

yes

Old waitressing song...

"Good thing..."
(Fine Young Cannibals)

~~~

Y entonces mi cerebro se acostumbró a la idea de que ella podría volver como él y vice versa

A. Fulton ~ A Shadow Table

~~~

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/8979038-tiger-tiger

~~~

A. Fulton ~ Fictions of the Feminine: Quasi Carnal Creatures...

(And so my brain became accustomed to the idea that she could return as a he and vice versa)

Because the universe

People from all walks of life who have been surrounded by people who don't have their best interests at heart will be in touch with helper / healer types who do.

(9)

"Why are you folding that bag so carefully"
SNL ~ Baby Shower

"Texting and running on the track"
Kids Explain Why Women Are Paid Less...

dishes dishes dishes

Oh, why not.


BRAINSTORM: The Power and Purpose of the Teenage Brain

Dr. Siegel "dispels the negative myths of adolescence"

Ah.

Dr. S: "If you were nature..." (12:57)

"Shame" and feeling "defective" insights (18:00)

"If you had a really rough time in your early years you can always repair..." (23:10)

Kinda surprised.

I think this guy's got some healer qualities.

yes, sensei of the air

stop complaining and just clean the apartment
you were doing well with it yesterday
it's okay if you need something stimulating in the background
yes your ancestors cleaned without it but that was different
plus they ordered their children around and that was stimulating for them
one day if you don't have it you will be able to play it back in your mind
and clean with the aid of muscle memory


Muay Thai Boxing is Breathtaking in Slow Motion ~ Mashable

rowr

Educational tours
https://www.ladyscience.com/blog/secularization-alone-cannot-cure-irelands-toxic-treatment-of-women

In a place

To leave it? How.

It's like when I used to glower behind a hostess stand (This place is so fun. You like working here?I just go to my government job and check Facebook all day. I just wanted you to know. Your tax dollars at work. Hey do you think that cocktail waitress would go out with me? No? Hey, can I have a free glass?) and a voice in my head said, "You don't believe it now but someday you will look back on this with nostalgia," and I was like "F- you I am more than 3 decades old with an advanced degree and stuck in this place no I will not!!!!" and yet now I see it as a learning experience. And I can't go back because it's not even there anymore. And I did feel nostalgia when I looked up the pictures online. There I spent so so so so so so so so SO MANY HOURS OF MY LIFE.

Wasn't it cute...wasn't it charming...

NO.

It wasn't.

Like...a gorgeous view

spiritually expanding 

Sometimes we just need to drink some mineral water

& think about some things
https://metro.co.uk/2016/12/13/cat-men-are-the-answer-to-online-toxic-masculinity-6317288/

"Ah ee ah"

Flight of the C's ~ Foux Du Fafa

"Ho ho ho"

https://genius.com/Flight-of-the-conchords-foux-du-fafa-lyrics

"Ou est la piscine"

myeyez

yz

https://mobile.twitter.com/calm/status/1034189905218428929

+

https://www.cafepress.com/+team-building-exercise-99+t-shirts

Upbeat for the D's!

Bananarama ~ Venus

You gotta love this!

Y'know what, why should I fight it

The whole "fathers of daughters" thing.

http://the-toast.net/2016/04/18/father-daughters-think-treat-women-like-daughters/

I am beginning to think it is a useless fight.

Just a little humor

Book review bingo

https://mobile.twitter.com/paraicodonnell/status/1033366631043551233

Some items

Sip some (ginger) tea
https://mobile.twitter.com/KamalaHarris/status/1033918021696278528

Sip some (ginger) tea
https://mobile.twitter.com/KamalaHarris/status/1034096904072773632

Morning

My body is always messing up my life but I ought to be more grateful to her.

More women leaders. More diversity.
Less unnecessary pain.
Better healthcare for women.

Meet Bob the sleep app

Zzzzzzz...

https://news.artnet.com/art-world/bob-ross-sleeping-aid-1297421

Bob

Reincarnated in one lifetime.

https://www.military.com/veteran-jobs/career-advice/military-transition/famous-veteran-bob-ross.html

He did his whole show for free.

http://discoverasmr.com/what-is-asmr/bob-ross-asmr/

Pioneer.

https://www.wsj.com/articles/bob-ross-fans-seek-some-happy-little-appreciation-for-their-muse-1534865331

60 secs

x 60

https://twitter.com/rustyrockets/status/1033798585215795200

more entertaining cleaning & decluttering

60 more tonight or 60 more tomorrow?

It's more productive to listen to other people indulging themselves sometimes.

What should you do

1) you get a text from a friend about yoga
2) you watch a toddler do the cat pose
3)

Miles

I flew the friendly skies this summer because D. still owed me $15 which I gave up on tracking down and it was cheaper and kinda nice to stop in Houston instead of Hotlanta.

Most entertaining.

https://www.vox.com/2015/8/7/9113743/vintage-sexist-airline-ads

Old man blog

This is what I do on Sunday
http://prunepicker.blogspot.com/2011/05/tulip-fields-in-mt-vernon-washington.html

Thanks for clarifying it's the WEST COAST I was almost led astray.

I kind of love this question

"What is this colorful crop"
Wait

Bing wallpaper of a crop field
from their homepage quiz

Washington at Mount Vernon tulip fields
apparently

making so many noises

this this this

https://www.litter-robot.com/litter-robot-iii-open-air.html?gclid=EAIaIQobChMIl7ns55OL3QIVF8ZkCh3QEgoxEAQYAiABEgK8P_D_BwE&gclsrc=aw.ds

THING

there are 2871 reviews and I am going to read them all

But I am good with a broom

"mop"

https://mobile.twitter.com/rgay/status/1033513115298615296

"some windex"

dog ppl...dumb or not dumb?

https://twitter.com/barkbox/status/1029417578693722115

+

https://twitter.com/barkbox/status/1030870790823010305

+

https://twitter.com/barkbox/status/1031982890836418560

+

https://twitter.com/barkbox/status/1032415322337243138

+

https://twitter.com/barkbox/status/1033385637620015105

dumb cranky organ

When your good old veteran self lies his weary bones gently to rest and gets reborn as the opposite gender.

You: well, this is interesting, we're gonna have some fun now ri--

Your Body: NOPE NOPE NOPE

You: oh come on just a little fu--

Your Body: STILL A PICKY QUEEN

You: and so mean about it :(

Your Body: YOUR RULER

You: the world's next top body model is Serena Williams

Your Body: NOW YOU'RE STARTING TO LISTEN

3 best food service songs for tonight's dishwashing duties

1) Tears for Fears ~ Sowing the Seeds of Love

The healingest song that ever came on at work when I was a 30-something hostess during el economic crisis. One day I was like...I'm having a horrible time next this bar and I feel poor and desperate and stuck and surrounded by smoke and unhappy men and macho B.S., but this song...this song is good...

2) Natalie Imbruglia - Torn

This one constantly played when I worked in a college cafeteria. It wasn't my favorite. It was on way too much. But it's forever associated in my with activities like working behind the hot potato bar or refilling the cereal dispensers while fantasizing about / scheming up ways to save up enough money to fly back to Peru...

3) Wallflowers ~ One Head Light

At my first restaurant job when I was only 19, I worked with a fellow server who seemed like Mr. Handsome Blond All American and (in my superficial, non-psychic prejudgment) had no problems. But I was wrong.  He was a whole lot deeper than that, and had actually had some similar problems as what my sister was going through, and someone close to him had died of suicide. I think maybe he was interested in psychology? He would have made a good psychologist. We became better friends and he went out to dinner with my sister and I and he was so, so nice to her. I was really grateful and felt less alone because I got to know him better. Craig. It's huge a bummer I forgot his last name. I remember at the time that he liked that Wallflowers song.

I still like it.

no it's not

i can tell

https://www.sfgate.com/news/article/Fremont-happiest-city-live-in-WalletHub-East-Bay-12747956.php

it's san luis obispo

https://livability.com/ca/san-luis-obispo/real-estate/is-this-california-town-the-happiest-place-in-america

Well there he be

One of your inner dog people

https://www.instagram.com/p/BmeHR1inybB/?taken-by=trewrussellbrand

arf

https://www.instagram.com/p/BmJXiRgHsJ4/?taken-by=trewrussellbrand

Systemic & electrical

A modern day fable of the magnetic attraction between a tormented heroine and her tempestuous uterus. A stunning tale of conquest and surrender.

"I have cramps."

"Have you been to medical school."

"No I have not."

"Are you friends with any doctors."

"Or how about a doula."

Tips for the

lonely but busy and there's some other stuff going on there too:

You can take a nap
You can go to a park!
You can read a glorious book!!!
You can volunteer at an orphanage in Tijuana

It's probably nothing

XY: so when do you get the MRI results back
XX: dunno forgot to ask
XY: well I know baseball players can get their results pretty quick
XX: ha ha ha ha

https://mashable.com/2018/08/25/justin-verlander-one-million-dollar-lunch/

Wow, kinda like me

Has a crack in her windshield

https://mobile.twitter.com/maggieallennnn/status/1020485043263889410

it's

https://mobile.twitter.com/schotts_kaylee/status/1021526951390060545

something

https://mobile.twitter.com/flowdier/status/1022102700639571973

"Le sigh"

Clothes/rules
https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/early-lead/wp/2018/08/24/french-open-bans-serena-williamss-catsuit-le-sigh/

it's my plant party

i'll believe in perennials if i want to

https://www.sunset.com/garden/flowers-plants/best-perennials-fall-planting

~i~net~

in which you somehow find yourself reading a thread while thinking the vast majority of these tweeters should offer themselves up as rocky mountain oysters and that's gonna be hard on the few women who contributed & basked in those bubbly "just one of the guys" vibes...

people bond over the strangest things...
https://www.visitrenotahoe.com/event/rocky-mountain-oyster-fry-2018/

It's like a bunch of squares spilling over

The graphic is...moving.
https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2018/03/19/upshot/race-class-white-and-black-men.html?

Of course not

"I contacted Netflix to ask if there were any fat writers in the Insatiable writer’s room, but they have not responded."

~ R. Gay

https://www.refinery29.com/roxane-gay-insatiable-review-fat-shaming-essay

Lol

Is that right

"High-income parents spend more time and money on their children, and invest in more stereotypical activities, researchers said, enrolling their daughters in ballet and their sons in engineering."

~ C. Miller & K. Quealy

https://www.nytimes.com/interactive/2018/06/13/upshot/boys-girls-math-reading-tests.html?

Maybe they're just training the girls to be thin.

“'The average incidence of eating disorders in the white middle-class population is 1 in 100. In classical ballet, it is one in five' says Dr Michelle Warren, an eating disorder specialist."

~ L. O'Sullivan

http://au-di-tions.com/anorexia-and-dance-looking-for-the-perfect-body-in-dance/

Oh not okay

Too many video games.

http://www.sandiegouniontribune.com/news/public-safety/sd-me-fatal-follow-20180824-story.html

A teenage boy with way too much money killed a mom and daughter in his stupid car.

Wanna taco bout it...

Local taco humor! https://www.reddit.com/r/funny/comments/9a2hcg/taco

But did they take any selfies

"The union’s study said script supervisors (92% of whom are female) received lower minimum rates than those of first assistant directors and second assistant directors, both of which are fields dominated by men. Script supervisors earned weekly scale rates of $2,573 in 2016, versus $4,465 for first assistant directors and $3,101 for second assistant directors on TV projects, the study said."

~ R. Faughnder

http://www.latimes.com/business/hollywood/la-fi-ct-hollywood-pay-equity-20180824-story.html

/////

"Women in America are more likely to be poor than men. Over half of the 37 million Americans living in poverty today are women. And women in America are further behind than women in other countries—the gap in poverty rates between men and women is wider in America than anywhere else in the Western world."

~ A. Cawthorne

https://www.americanprogress.org/issues/women/reports/2008/10/08/5103/the-straight-facts-on-women-in-poverty

Look Alive

People.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/made-by-history/wp/2018/08/24/elizabeth-warrens-revolutionary-plan-to-reduce-income-inequality/

Oh, SEXY

Who does this benefit?

https://www.sciencealert.com/sexy-selfies-on-social-media-are-more-common-when-there-s-income-inequality

I wonder if any wealthy dudes get sad when a deprivation of sexy selfies occurs.

It continues...

"So-and-so is better than..."

http://www.latimes.com/business/la-fi-bernie-sanders-food-stamps-20180824-story.html

Maybe the greed just needs to be regulated.

Childhood expectation: Of course I am going to live as well as my parents lived! Reality: A full-time worker and a part-time worker and a working roommate (all college-educated) can barely afford a not super great 2-bedroom 1.5 bath apartment.

& musical

still need this one...

http://www.vulture.com/2017/11/tori-amos-native-invader.html

reminded because of...

https://twitter.com/isn_name/status/1032834164867907584

additional...

"Though not Latino, O'Rourke, 45, is a fourth-generation Texan who grew up in El Paso and is comfortable speaking Spanish."

~ S. Gamboa

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/latino/texas-beto-o-rourke-s-rise-fuels-hope-latino-democrats-n902446

"He was nicknamed 'Beto,' which is a common Spanish nickname for 'Roberto,' before kindergarten."
  ~ https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beto_O%27Rourke

~ nice detail ~

"Her name, Kamala, comes from the Sanskrit word for lotus, and is an alternate name of the Hindu goddess Lakshmi."

~ https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kamala_Harris

2018 agosto

I wouldn't be surprised if she did it.

She's the kind of person who would come back, or at least it seems that way to me...
(Does not burst into tears for the 6th time today.)

Oooo it's about cosmetics!

Wild Moccasins ~ Eye Makeup

B/c of
https://www.chron.com/news/houston-texas/texas/article/Beto-O-Rourke-meets-with-local-bands-to-jam-out-13178451.php

Well, hey...

If this is what the universe

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/ed-kowalczyk-opens-up-about-his-ugly-split-with-live-198129/

wants me to look at...

https://www.stereogum.com/2007925/ed-kowalczyk-live-reunion-interview/franchises/tracking-down/

More

About
https://mobile.twitter.com/KamalaHarris/status/1033135364666535938

This
https://www.motherjones.com/politics/2018/08/black-moms-run-a-higher-risk-of-death-during-labor-kamala-harris-just-introduced-a-bill-to-change-that/

Year
https://www.motherjones.com/politics/2018/01/the-secret-to-understanding-kamala-harris/

TX lightning

"It happened on a Friday night, near the end of an Aug. 10 education town hall in Houston..."

~ G. Garcia

https://www.expressnews.com/news/news_columnists/gilbert_garcia/article/The-four-minutes-that-crystallized-O-Rourke-s-13178607.php

I believe she knows this song

Live ~ Lightning Crashes

Some more art I used to avoid.
Now I have a safe feeling.

Continuing the commute

Best state in the richest country...
https://www.npr.org/2018/07/29/632702896/to-keep-women-from-dying-in-childbirth-look-to-california

"A High Pressure Life"
https://www.npr.org/2017/12/07/568948782/black-mothers-keep-dying-after-giving-birth-shalon-irvings-story-explains-why

Kamala Harris
https://newsone.com/3823277/kamala-harris-30000000-maternal-mortality-bill/

Commute thoughts from the other day

A self-identified well-informed source recently enlightened us all about how much the people she knows like to share stories (so, so many stories) so if you ever want to "advance" you had better keep that in mind...now wondering why it seems as though the gossip stuff repeatedly comes up in connection with maternity leaves (admittedly this is not a scientific double-blind observation)

Radio song

https://genius.com/Live-band-lightning-crashes-lyrics

???

http://www.songfacts.com/detail.php?id=1862

Seriously 

Inspirational...

All of your food service jobs:
summer waitress
college cafeteria worker
30-year-old hostess

Yrunot

it seems like some non-adult missed including the "a good night's sleep" variable here

https://mobile.twitter.com/goodbeanjokes/status/1032726099069992960

2x with the Venn diagram

went elsewhere for more adult content

https://mobile.twitter.com/goodplantjokes

SLEEPmor

neat trick
http://time.com/4757521/sleep-yourself-slim/

Have a big question for D.

ARGH.

"When the average woman wakes up in the morning, she immediately starts burning fat for energy until she eats again. Women with PCOS, however, don't burn fat first thing because they're programmed to save it instead, says Dumesic."

~ C. de Bellefonds


https://www.womenshealthmag.com/weight-loss/a20650974/pcos-weight-loss/

DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT 

Such a mouth

"I don't enjoy the name Jimmy" ~ N. Aponte

https://www.cbsnews.com/amp/news/natasha-aponte-woman-who-tricked-thousands-of-men-on-tinder-explains-purpose-behind-dating-competition/

No YOU deserve

the most amazing reddit cat link...

https://www.reddit.com/r/CatsStandingUp/comments/99t2ej/cat/

I think they can be nice sometimes

Monasteries
Motels
Men

Why did someone run by one night some time in the spring screaming why or what do you want from me. Maybe because we don't have enough spiritual encouragement in our culture. Maybe this is why some people get burned out. They encounter higher forces and they start to change faster then people around them on one level but on another level they are stuck so they get freaked out because they are underevolved spiritually.

Tired of the $ lesson

Maybe the MLK & BF energies can let me move into another phase soon.

Gotta go back East eventually

Questions for his long-term memory:

Do you remember what you told me your role in my life was?

Do you remember listening to canned music at Phantom of the Opera when the orchestra went on strike?

Do you remember when you said if I was X you were my dog and I kicked you around?

Do you remember when you told me the nuns did the nun dance on you?

Only 4. Could add many more.

Number 1 on a list!

A...ha...

https://www.theologydegrees.org/features/best-monasteries-to-visit/

Hmmm. Videos...

https://www.saintandrewsabbey.com

Feelin' '80s feeeelings...

Good for road trips
Fast Car + Tom's Diner

aligns with

today's POSITIVE INFLUENCES

https://twitter.com/suzyv/status/1032696057078185985
&
http://www.number1albums.com/tracy_chapman_-_tracy_chapman_august_27_1988/

To get back into the spirit of travel...

Browsing various air bnb places for future trips...
Also quite fun: taking little road trips and staying in a clean / relatively quiet cheap motel...

It's about feeling the spirit of travel.

Sometimes that means being quiet with the trees...
Sometimes it's staying in a place where you could meet bikers...
Wouldn't this be fun?  Stay in one tolerable place for a week and write something...let the atmosphere guide you.

Friend dream!

I know saying "She was so real," is not original, but she was so real that I almost cannot believe she is not still here in the same form on earth. She was happy and excited to be moving on. I wanted to ask her if she came back in another body, but there was a distraction ~ something about a young girl falling down a tower and into a cage that was attached to it, and needing to save her (and it was completely possible to do this).

Useful one

Sahasrara Im

Dear U again

ow ow ow ow 

be nice

I will be nice to you

I will love you

as if you are a cranky cat

I am having this talk with U now

O useful and venerated organ

Be NICE

I got you a heating pad

Perhaps a k~~~~~g would help

I meant a lullaby.
Stayin' Alive ~ The BeeGees
They all look like Jesus.

I just cleaned out a vegetable drawer with a decaying cucumber. Who cleans it when I go away for 2 weeks? Nobody.

Other person: I swear this cabinet was full of glasses two days ago...

A pause...

***** ***** *****  ***** ***** ***** ***** **** ***** ***** ***** ***** ***** ********* ***** ***** *****  ***** (& pregnant ***** ***** ***** ***** ***** ***** ***** ***** *****  ***** ***** ***** *****

Concise obit

There's not much to say...she left everything to her heating pad...

Positive self talk

Self: NBD to others but you did that thing you had been putting off!
Self: I am proud of you

Those real early a.m. thoughts

Ode to my heating pad, who was here for me.

Pain is real.

Relatives who have no time for you and your mysterious medical problems, but if you suddenly had a greatly improved situation they'd be visiting in a New York minute.

Go back to sleep.

Even though it's 2018.

A business guy sat by the window, semi-consoling his wife who was having a mini-breakdown about taking care of their newborn while he was away on his business trips and also trying to get off the phone.

It's like he was Pete Campell.

HA

http://adage.com/article/creativity-etc/vincent-kartheiser-mad-men-s-pete-campbell/233469/

Society is still very, very odd

What various people want for their diverse and particular needs is definitely not in one place or person...so I don't know why they need certain people to serve as figureheads...the best visual in this How Do You Like It... story comes at the end...it looks like someone's big hungry cat side is bulldozing over someone's feminine side...which also made me think of the A Female Founder's Take...article that I read earlier...

Fortuna, habla con nosotros

Por

Favor

They said, "Tell us your secrets"

Today in the waiting room, the doctors were quite taken with a 99-year-old man who looked like he was, at most, 80!

Celebs in the MRI machine

I think Temple Grandin wins, but I also thought a little bit about Dr. Who.

Algebra...
https://www.templegrandin.com

Also...maybe the desert

When weather is a little colder

https://www.thearmchairexplorer.com/california/old-woman-mountains-wilderness

Maybe

http://peanuts.wikia.com/wiki/Spike

Away from stupid LA

http://mojavedesert.net/desert-fever/old-woman-mountains.html

Just a lil'

Post-travel letdown...

How to ease random bouts of loneliness...

Hug a tree?

New meta(s)

Give yourself permission to enjoy your work.

That's life work!

For instance, when part of your life work is figuring out how to deal with a certain set of genetics...

Thumbs up for mantras

That was the no-frills, no headphones, no eyemask, no 5-minute-warning hour-long MRI experience. The injection was not too fun, and head hurt at the end, but compared to severe cramps? The most painful part was getting weighed, but that was more motivation to be good and still in the banging machine.

I thought about Temple Grandin sometimes.

Close eyes and silently mantra the way...

Flow~ah

Flower
Mantras

yields interesting search results.

One of my friends thinks the procedure could be boring and I could make up silly poems.

Om

Om shanti om
Shreem

I have to drink water.
I have been drinking water.
And ginger tea.

Oh, lavender oil...

So Ty Ard

No
Cute chauffeur
Phil
The housekeeping skills are unchanged
Tur

Not this one

Of course they would have a rice crispy martini in the South.

https://www.tripsavvy.com/the-worlds-most-magnificent-martinis-3498969

If I had a different body...

I would now order a drink.
A toast to the lightning.

Almost 9 here

"Eye mask"!
"Jedi master"
http://themalleablemom.com/2015/08/02/how-to-handle-a-closed-mri-like-a-boss/

Soooo psyched.

Nature is powerful

Deplaning for a leg stretch!
Hmmm.
Is this really the best time for an MRI?
Hmmm.

I am glad they let us off.

Here we are, grounded

Just waiting for the rain and lightening to stop...

Reading...

http://themalleablemom.com/2015/08/02/how-to-handle-a-closed-mri-like-a-boss/

Everyone else just has to do one. They told me I have to do two.

One pre-injection and one post-injection.

Sigh...

Surprise phone call

I need to see if I can do 2 closed MRI scans tomorrow. Insurance... No, think Flower Sanskrit mantras

For our planet

A quote from N. Waheed

"do not worry. everyone's working through some old war. large or small. everyone has a scar somewhere."

~ https://mobile.twitter.com/nayyirahwaheed/status/1031873553963130881

Found because I sought after some things on a little vacation...and found a beautiful little shop here, a beautiful little shop there...

It is possible even if it seems hard

You can love yourself like an enlightened regular person. I have to get better at it, making better choices. But also maybe better at just letting go...everyone has made not-so-wise decisions...just be good to yourself and let them go...

I guess she needs me

She's like a baby sometimes.

She needs wisdom and love and respect and soul friendship.

A lot of people can be happy with those things.

There she goes again

All night with the heating pad...I am glad I had it to help me. I am okay now, but a little scared. I have to travel soon without a heating pad. Pain can make me someone else. I don't want to be too defensive. I want to be who my soul wants me to be. It can be hard to be that person. We feel so alone in our pain sometimes.

Nice literary find...because...

I found it just before bed..How did I miss this translation? MAYBE I CAN GET IT NEXT BIRTHDAY???

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/433550.The_Vision_of_Christine_de_Pizan

She traveled in her dreams...

http://realitysandwich.com/319381/the-great-work-of-immortality-astral-travel-dreams-and-alchemy/

Layers

wondering who made these & how

sometimes I have textile curiosity 

Not really doing much

Just staring at a nice tree, eating an ice cream pop...

Maybe I can dunk it in some olive oil, too.

All bodies are good

But did yours have special surprise cramps today though.

Hasse mich nicht

"My hair used to be a joke"
weil ich schön bin

https://emersoncentral.com/texts/poems/fable/
so competitive

Huh. Ha. Huh.
http://armedwithvisions.com/2011/11/25/ralph-waldo-emerson-fable/

One of them

Gets this service

http://barkbox.com/twitter

For one of those creatures

https://mobile.twitter.com/barkbox/status/1029417578693722115

G&♡&D

There is a dog in that meditation video.

My friend's husband's family really loves dogs and when I asked who is more dog-obsessed, her husband's family or mine, she said, "Well, your mom does cook all the dogs' food..."

(And that is tonight.)

Roasted veg thoughts

Roasted grapes and brussel sprouts were a nice accompaniment to pulled pork.

Roasted fennel was good with cod & creamy tarragon sauce and spinach...also added to a salad the next day...wonder how it would be on a sandwich.

Beach blessings

Best day, best clouds, loving all the sand, watching the parasailors, jumping in warm foamy salt water...Mmmm. I wanted to go back and take pictures but just too coated in sand.

Enjoyed a little gelato with olive oil and sea salt beforehand. It must be true what they say about salt being a healer.

Note for future reference: there was a good puddle covering the boardwalk to walk through and splash the sand off feet & flip flops at Station 24.

Different day, different clouds

O blessed life

The Arctic

is not Vegas.

https://amp.theguardian.com/environment/2018/aug/20/summer-weather-is-getting-stuck-due-to-arctic-warming

pleas

help us, great ideas
https://www.vox.com/conversations/2018/6/6/17409144/jordan-peterson-12-rules-for-life-feminism-philosophy

help us, great ideas
https://www.creators.com/read/suzanne-fields/08/18/fear-and-loathing-of-jordan-peterson

HELLPUSS

Free arranged marriage

https://mobile.twitter.com/rustyrockets/status/1029825711727697920

+

https://mobile.twitter.com/rustyrockets/status/1029455520309174274

When nature loves u and sends a dream

1) Look at those majestic waterfalls splashing down the mountain.

2) Now run away from the avalanche.

2 many books

Another culinary note

Yesterday I outwardly ignored a tiny moon pie but I thought about buying it.

Their twitter: better than average.

inna corner 

SleepCycleSchmeepCycle

Then:
SMOOTH MOVES oh no engine trubble

Now:
SMOOTH MOVES oh no ice cream trubble

Partial story of another time

When my friend seemed like a wise spirit who could have been communicating some silly things and I was on a plane that was going to be having some issues. Maybe could have come back ...

Ah :*) patio breezes

Had such a nice brunch with a friend...

https://www.cntraveler.com/restaurants/charleston/the-obstinate-daughter

She gave me a few book recommendations!

J. Peterson
https://medium.com/@andrewpgsweeny/jordan-peterson-vs-russell-brand-5eec5a73fee2

R. Brand
https://www.jacarandafm.com/shows/moremusicyoulove-love-too/russell-brand-being-kind-and-compassionate-will-make-you-feel-better/

Best wishes

Be happy.
Get help.
It's available.

Is a tiny house for you...

Good article & video

https://tinyhousegiantjourney.com/2018/07/02/tiny-house-cons/

Could be a good stone

I should get some black tourmaline.


https://shamansisters.com/blogs/blog/18113919-black-tourmaline-the-powerful-protective-gemstone


Also insight from woman who has to deal with patriarchal B.S. all the time.

So pretty...

Want salad now...

https://homeiswheretheboatis.net/2014/05/29/in-and-out-of-the-garden/

In another life

Your psychic body.

Always slamming into a wall, telling you when to stay away from people because of too much imbalance, sexism, inequality, irresponsibility, disrespect for nature, shallow intentions, etc.

Oh

And with all of your very real and beautiful possibilities...

you still made those same old, tired, too-narcissistic choices which showed you are completely capable of treating people like crap in order to prop up your own insecure ego.

It's alright for you as long as other people are okay with it. It is sad to see and feel the affects of mediocrity.

Sunday woes, Jesus.

Are there not some very entitled-acting people on this planet who behave as if it is okay to disregard a lot of people and their experiences?

It not okay. It is an unhealthy  and narcissistic behavioral pattern that has been learned and perpetuated because of fear and power imbalances.

Why is it not better yet?

Income equality and bigotry are apparently still good enough for some people who have found ways to survive or even profit off the system.

Even though some people might have very good intentions, when they choose to stay willfully ignorant of their complicity and the effects of their harmful behaviors on others because it would be too painful to admit, it skews those intentions and shows they don't really want to change. 

The phenomenon of people treating women poorly in order to prop up insecure male egos still exists. People have been trained to do this in order to survive in a really unhealthy patriarchal system.

Yes, that is something that does destroy a lot of creative possibilities which might otherwise have been marvelous.

Harken Bach

Kimiko Ishizaka performs The Well-Tempered Clavier

Harken baaack...

Getting dressed in the 18th century - Working Woman

3:20: "This was another adjustable garment that could cope with a changing figure."

And now I have read

Kathleen
https://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-45107054

Turner
http://www.vulture.com/2018/08/kathleen-turner-in-conversation.html

Got any?

Female problems?
https://tonic.vice.com/en_us/article/wndw7x/how-trump-provoked-my-eating-disorder

Girl problems?
https://www.theguardian.com/society/2018/feb/12/eating-disorders-nhs-reports-surge-in-hospital-admissions

College

https://www.bustle.com/p/cornell-fraternity-gets-probation-due-to-alleged-fat-shaming-sex-game-8151939

So not fun

"Since the election, I’ve experienced..."

~ K. Bernyck

https://medium.com/athena-talks/fat-in-the-era-of-trump-acb39d6116ec

Etcetra

These two have a relationship

It's oppressive
https://www.nbcnews.com/think/opinion/trump-effect-new-study-connects-white-american-intolerance-support-authoritarianism-ncna877886

& unhealthy
https://thebodyisnotanapology.com/magazine/11-reasons-your-concern-for-fat-peoples-health-isnt-helping-anyone/

So now they say...

"...gender relations have mellowed for Ring Figure"

~ A. Nelson

http://journalism.wlu.edu/rrarchive/11-02-2006/RingFigure.htm

!!!!

"...a male cadet from the Class of 2017 made VMI history by bringing his boyfriend."

~ S. Clingman

http://blog2.bettercollegechoices.com/?p=217

Glorious muscadines

♡

~*~*~*~

♡

Could put a spell on myself maybe

https://www.npr.org/sections/thesalt/2017/09/26/551835327/muscadines-may-be-the-best-grapes-you-ve-never-tasted

Chemicals...

Surviving an excruciating headache has something in common with surviving heinous cramps. Afterwards, you feel like a different person! Just so happy to not be in that much pain!

In this empirical experiment of life

I feel like the best headache survivor...It was nasty. It was terrible. It was mind-altering.

I feel like there are some who may wish that being successful and musically or artistically gifted is inherently better than being a patriarchal religious figure...oh whatever. I understand not everyone had the experience of watching S. Jhally's Dreamworlds in an auditorium full of crying young women at a southern all-women's college where there was excitement about father-daughter dances and "RINGFINGER" (or ring figure)

Later we talked about how the documentary was "somewhat manipulative" in a communications class. Nevertheless...

Poor

I, in a body,

have to survive 

this terrible, painful and sickening headache 

Do not know why

Suddenly
exhausted.

Be healthy.

2 4 eva

small

dune

conquering

4 2morrow

Buscando almorzar "kid-friendly"
Ha, a kid's meal with a "mini moon pie"

~*~*~*~*~

Cosmic credit card baron

Ok, brain

Had a dream about standing in front of the lead singer of Led Zepplin while listening to one of their songs (okay but IRL not my favorite) while wearing ear buds. Lead singer of dream brain spontaneously hugged me & told me that his favorite song came from the '80s. "It's very old. It has Mueller bells," he said. IRL favorite from this winter: Battle of Evermore

go sleep. 0 ¦ — |

zzzzzzz

extra, age fluctuates, teaches forbearance to others unwittingly...

Being U?

Being something
https://lsupress.org/books/detail/being-ugly/

Your brain is on white flour

Pointy heels

Loca on Friday

That time you admired a man's graceful moves

J. Van Ness yoga tribute to A. Franklin

and enjoyed a delicious white flour puffy roll with a glass of sparkling water.

2morrow s'posed 2B

81818

Good palindrome.

Take a nap NOW.

Holes bitten in tank top.

It's 2000-teens

Why is this still a thing. 

https://www.upworthy.com/most-10-year-olds-are-more-afraid-of-getting-fat-than-getting-cancer?c=huf1

Maybe it's because of the messages they get from the bigoted "adults." 

"In 2014, researchers at Nashville’s Vanderbilt University found that overweight women earn less money than slimmer women, whereas obese men seem to do just as well as slim men. This led researcher Jennifer Shinall to conclude: 'It really seems to be more of a sex-discrimination issue.'”

“'Historically, the notion of a big guy has always been perfectly acceptable,' says psychotherapist Susie Orbach, the author of Bodies and Fat is a Feminist Issue. 'Men are meant to be big and strong, and women are meant to be tiny and not take up too much space. They can have everything in the world now, but they have to be slim. That’s the horror of the current aesthetics for women. Young girls are taught at an early age that their bodies are for display and not for anything else.'”

~ R. van der Zee

https://www.theguardian.com/inequality/2017/aug/30/demoted-dismissed-weight-size-ceiling-work-discrimination

Great title!

Served Like a Girl

https://www.npr.org/2018/05/27/614886522/in-served-like-a-girl-female-veterans-face-inequality-in-va-support

H.

H. had a lot to do and sometimes it was just too much. Fortunately, he found a nurse who was so supportive and helped him survive a rough patch.  Alas, this didn't save H. from the sudden motorbike accident. Fortunately, H.'s innovative soul tossed him into the body of a healthy female. H. was in for a rude awakening when he discovered that the nurse no longer had any use for H.'s charming personality. Fortunately, H. was resilient and began acquiring a new set of survival skills...

Too

"A female boss who acts like x would have already been fired by now."

Needs so much work

Having sleeping problems.
Addiction may be the worst saboteur of all.

People who insist on being unnecessarily combative can wreck their own destinies. But sometimes when people take certain addictive drugs, it alters them to the point of toxicity. How much leeway does one give a person. Or is rehab necessary.

Getting tired of almost letting myself believe in some things (because possibility and hope and transcendence and evolution and creation!) and then crashing because of those awful reminders from the universe that it's being ruined because things are still too unhealthy, and too many excuses are still made for behaviors that are disrespectful and narcissistic and hurtful...

Addiction and/or additive/ destructive behaviors can absolutely ruin a lot of things.

Some people have been careless because they superficially benefited (monetarily and in other ways) from outdated systems of bigotry which are not going to be as tolerated in the future.

Why?

Because of bigotry.

"More than two-thirds of antidepressants prescribed for teens are for girls, and girls comprise more than 90 percent of hospital admissions for eating disorders..."

~ https://www.deseretnews.com/article/900028259/youll-never-be-good-enough-how-anxiety-lies-to-our-girls-and-what-you-can-do-about-it.html

The old veteran

Why did he leave?

To be reborn as someone like me.

http://www.latimes.com/nation/la-na-female-veteran-suicide-20150608-story.html

Hello ladies

Souls
https://www.bustle.com/p/women-who-defied-gender-roles-were-once-imprisoned-in-asylums-55320

Wounds
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/home/you/article-2141741/Sent-asylum-The-Victorian-women-locked-suffering-stress-post-natal-depression-anxiety.html

Exact region hard to pinpoint

Sis, who used to be a hotel maid, cleaned up the back of the meat cutting room with a guy from "somewhere up north" who also sings opera...

https://www.nj.com/entertainment/index.ssf/2017/05/where_do_the_north_and_south_nj_accents_come_from.html

Lives a life like no other.

(+)↓(+)

the1Elisabeth - King Lear

At 1:08 the king calls his daughter chlamydia

I have a question

Will this cover gym membership and laser torture

https://www.theatlantic.com/video/index/567739/universal-basic-income/

Unisex food conversation

Person A: I don't think I should keep that candy in my room anymore. Person B: You're probably right. Here, read this book!
  https://www.forbes.com/sites/nancyhuehnergarth/2016/01/05/will-the-always-hungry-diet-revolutionize-weight-loss-a-qa-with-author-dr-david-ludwig/

When a loop gets intercepted

"We are not doing that again," sang the ghosts of King Lear and Cordelia...

On the planet still

Today I went to the beach and was too seasick to swim much. On the way back, I was subtly looking at flat-bodied men and thinking,you really have no idea that one day you could reincarnate into the totally different body of a woman with PCOS, do you? Do you? But it so. It is so! ABRACADABRA!!! Later I ordered baba ganoush and struck up a conversation with a svelte woman who invited me to hot yoga and hot barre classes at her gym. Maybe I can take some classes. I liked them in the past, when they didn't involve that "hot" element. I will tell myself the money is worth it. What else am I supposed to do but learn from an experience?

Nice illustrations

Radishes in...
In and Out of the Garden
by Sara Midda

Loopy

Might watch again sometime...
The Punxsutawney Phil movie

the crystal bowls

recently heard some
Crystal sound bowl demo ~ A. Ramirez
while napping

(none are in the house)

The world needs more peace

I liked this shirt. It is not very in good shape now.

Biting on necks of t-shirts in frustration and ruining them is not very helpful.

too small to see

Might watch this

I can

https://www.vanityfair.com/hollywood/2018/07/nanette-hannah-gadsby-netflix-interview-standup-comedy

I suppose

https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/live-feed/hannah-gadsby-says-her-plan-leave-comedy-backfired-nanette-1129946

Vacation is like the bloom of youth

Double digits

https://whatireadbackthen.wordpress.com/2013/01/18/ten-is-the-prime-of-life-or-anastasia-krupnik/

Summer of some flowers

New York
https://www.popsci.com/corpse-flower-bloom-2018

Chicago
http://www.chicagotribune.com/suburbs/glencoe/news/ct-gln-corpse-flower-botanic-garden-tl-0705-story.html

Denver
https://303magazine.com/2018/08/corpse-flower-botanic-gardens-denver/

San Francisco
https://www.nbcbayarea.com/news/local/The-Stink-is-Back-Corpse-Flower-Blooms-Again-at-SF-Conservatory-of-Flowers-488911381.html

Vancouver
https://www.vancourier.com/news/r-i-p-uncle-fester-stinky-flower-goes-flaccid-1.23373817

OSU
https://www.columbusunderground.com/expected-to-bloom-osus-corpse-flower-dies-instead-jb1

LA...
http://www.laist.com/2018/08/08/lil_stinker_the_corpse_flower_at_the_huntington_wont_be_blooming_after_all.php

Three others...
http://huntington.org/corpseflower/