Saturday, March 28, 2026

Another bit of self-knowledge I have.

I think I will be a girl / woman forever in this life. When I found out that maybe if I'd been a boy, I might have been named."Jonathan," I was like, well. I'm really glad that that didn't happen. And I could really feel an impression of what Jonathan would be like and I felt like this: I don't want to be Jonathan. No, I'm not Jonathan. Jonathan is not me. Jonathan was in a heavier mood as a boy, kind of sulky and smart and intense, with dark hair, and I didn't want to be that person in this life. But I don't know. Maybe Jonathan had some good qualities. Sometimes I see pictures and I'm like, huh. That kind of looks like Jonathan doesn't it? Yeah, the moody, intense writer kinds of pictures...Oh well. What can we do but wish Jonathan well. I don't know why they would have chosen that name, but I do also a little bit think of Jonathan Swift and Jonathan Livingston Seagull. If Jonathan can pull himself together and be nice to cats, then maybe Jonathan is okay. Jonathan is also not very old. He's probably an adolescent. Maybe a very young man. 

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