I am blessed to feel quietly grateful this morning.

I feel I must say that several years ago, when I had to leave a workplace that was too psychologically violent, and then I found a good place to heal, and then the good place to heal started to feel unsafe, and then I had to leave that place, it was a lesson. 

And I now know that I was not crazy because I have found out more of the story behind why I could not feel well there any more, and I am so sorry and the person who shared that story was very brave. And I know it is still a good place, and it's not very close to me anymore, but maybe I will go back there sometime. 

But think another thing it shows me is that when I have feelings, those are there for a reason.

It was not crazy for me to think my violent workplace was unacceptable for me to be in

And I know that whenever there's a person who  is just too addicted to making excuses for violence, or any kind of coercion, even if it's just psychological, and not physical, if my body is telling me that is not appropriate for me to be around that, my body is telling me what is correct for me. 

I am grateful to others for sharing their stories and their truths and for standing up for what is really right for them. 

Even though we all have different paths in life to walk, and it's been a difficult time, and I did not do what Society would have told me to do, it was what was right to do for my health.

And it's all still a journey because I'm still learning what's best to do for my health, and about how to unlearn some very damaging patterns. 

I am grateful for the brave people I've met and I hope more people get the healing, including the people who are still stuck in cycles of trauma and abuse, but it is true that you have to help yourself first before you help others. Your first responsibility is to yourself. And people who know that and can communicate more about that are really giving the world a special gift too.

I feel grateful. Also kind of sad. Also it's just like, well, it's another good day to process things.

But yes, I think the primary thing I feel is grateful now. 

Gratitude!!!! 💗🙏🏼☺️