Souls

Feels kind of like a soul or souls are being soul strict for specific reasons. Because there's the ego level and the comfort-seeking level of being human, but there's another level of being in this world. For me, it feels like so much water has been washing over me. It is supposed to be so things are better later and it feels like a river is rushing through me in order to change a pattern. It seems like it's beyond my personality. Maybe it has to do with books I got or choices I have made. I don't plan anything. It just happens. It's not so much like my personality's choice. It seems to come from some kind of communal awareness. So I just want to get through the river,  get on a shore, and feel better soon.