I'm going to have to ask higher guidance to show me what the radical self-love actually means.

I want to go out to the desert more but it's too hot in the summer. My muscles ache too much right now. I'm taking herbal stuff because I probably have weird perimenopausal hormonal things happening and want to go to sleep now. I give up. I willingly abandon myself to sleep, which is probably the smarter, better, safer  place to be right now.