There's a lot of pain that comes with being out of balance in a patriarchal culture.

Can't tell if it's nice or a nightmare for those patriarchal people who have supposedly acclimated to the ways of the imbalanced culture better.

It certainly feels much more nightmarish then nice.

Like, I deserve to feel well. 

I cannot put on the habits of others to get better when their habits just look like a downward spiral and so destructive, and so not what I'm supposed to be doing in this life, at all.

Okay, well I'm probably just getting knocked off balance too much by the resistance to them and their really unhealthy ways.

I will ask for more healing and calm and finding my Center again and not be letting those people knock me off balance so much.

Stop letting them knock you off balance.

You need to take care of yourself.