Gosh, when I was an older kid sometimes I felt so solid, especially if I read some spiritual books.

I thought I was going to be really solid and grounded and spiritual as I grew up and things were going to be great and I had no idea the kinds of things that we're going to end up challenging me. Psychologically and physically, and a lot of it has to do with violence. There's a lot of violence in the world. There's a lot of unacknowledged violence or underacknowledged violence. 

Look at what's happening with the Epstein files. Look at how all these men did terrible things and none of them are in prison and the only one who is in prison is the woman who was probably groomed by all kinds of factors. Not that it's an excuse for her behavior, but it's just a very messed up world. It's really messed up. I can't forget how messed up it is. I don't want to. It doesn't feel safe for me to forget how messed up it is right now. I have to remember.