It's hard to leave. I'm not sure why. But it is.

It seems deeply unfortunate that other people have had to suffer more just because you wanted to be a very selfish, unawakened person.

Because that's what the patriarchy expected of you, and that's what you got rewarded for being. A selfish, unawakened person.

And because you got rewarded for certain behaviors more, owing to various imbalances, that way of behaving was what seemed good enough to you, and for you, and for others to expect from you.

But it has been made very clear and very obvious to me that it is not good enough. 

It has been made very clear. 

And very obvious. 

That it is not good enough.

But people don't want to change even when you tell them things directly. They just don't want to. They keep on going on, the way they've been keeping on. 

So then you have to leave. 

Time to go!