I had a dream where I was in a completely different life and working within an artistic realm, like maybe even with fashion industry people, and working with colors, (I started with gold and purple and what they were recommending was gold and royal blue), and it was like something I never experienced in this life. It was interesting though.
I had a dream when somebody asked me, why aren't you working right now? Meaning like, you know, either finishing up a book or something else. I said, well, I think I have complex PTSD. Like, this is my work, basically, right now, which is to get through life and learn what I am learning about being a person with a certain set of experiences in this era. There are certain things in the universe that are helping me get through this time. So you know, I am being helped by the universe, I will say.
This is apparently the best I can do right now and I cannot really do something that's different according to other people. And their standards. But the future might be different. But this is the best I can do right now.
People who have been through things deserve a lot of respect and not just to be forgotten or discounted.
Anyways, the dream was useful because now I can ask the universe to help me with the specific thing I said in answer to a question in the dream.
Still I can't shake the feeling that what I said was more of just a label to appease others, in a sense.
I mean in the future... There's going to be more awareness is all I can say, and some of these labels might seem old-fashioned or not as useful anymore as some other descriptions might be.
It's kind of like when I was younger and being diagnosed with PCOS and now people say there's four different types of PCOS. And some of them don't even have an ovarian cyst component. But you still have the other symptoms. And the name of the condition is still polycystic ovarian syndrome. So it's kind of like that name is very misleading for what is still a very real condition in some people.
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