This is a difficult time. I am not feeling well. I felt too dizzy and nauseated to enjoy dinner. Even though I needed something to eat. I want to cry. I wonder if stress is affecting me. And grief. And sorrow. And being empathetic. I need to cry or release my sad feelings, or the fear, or the stress. I just have to acknowledge it. Not everyone can plow though life ignoring the war and acting like it doesn't matter in a way that looks like "toxic positivity" to others, and I know it. And yet, why add more suffering? Wouldn't it be better to feel better? I need to believe I can feel better in this body. Just learning, all the time. I want to cry, but not crying yet. What could help. What could help, if I am not crying in the the watery way. Auuuuuugh. Exhale. Drink peppermint tea. Believe in getting better again.
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