Wednesday, December 01, 2021

It's no small thing

I woke up feeling unwell, so I must respect myself and care for my sensitivity.

Sensitivity says:

It's as if my body believes you are traumatized too, but you just have a different way of showing it.

Suppose you also got traumatized somehow, and you have a weird way of acting like everything is fine and it's not....you should know better. I think you do know better, inside. You seem to along with unhealthy patterns. Seeming to not know better. But a part of you knows better! 

Why aren't you motivated to really show you are listening to that one? 

We could get along so much better if you had that confidence.  I wouldn't need to be so wary of your survival mechanisms.

It is a loss. It touches on grief.

I don't like not feeling well and society would like me to be more tough and insensitive, but I have some gratitude for being in touch with how out of balance things are because I can't deny things as easily as some people. But then I must repair myself as best as I can. I have to try to get better and help myself. 

It such work. Unpaid but necessary work.

Hope higher forces can help me again.

Thank you for helping.

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