Wednesday, December 31, 2025

People deserve help and health and coziness and healing.

People deserve help and health and coziness and healing.

I keep feeling like something about the wonder of good healing medical care is something that I was able to enjoy right at the end of this year. The higher path is the wonder of people who can study, how to do things and they practice things with skill and they do a good job. I feel very grateful for that. That's what should be happening. It really can happen.

This is a weirdly luxurious time.

Maybe we should go easy on some people sometimes because it's like, when you grew up in a different era and there's different standards...

I mean if it's not threatening you with anything right now...

But I have stayed inside all day because it's raining. It's kind of like, a luxury. I have enough food in the house and I don't need to go out and I'm staying inside all day on the last day of 2025.

And then just like,watching a bunch of videos online, isn't that also a luxury. It used to be, if you wanted to watch a video, you had to go to a video store and rent it, or somebody would make a video and then you would put it in the VCR and watch it. Now we have all these videos available on so many different topics...

Before you know it, things might actually change for the better!

Before you know it, people are going to be expected to start respecting more kinds of people, and not making so many excuses for sexism, and not cozying up to abusive people or even sexual predators in exchange for rewards, just because somehow doing so equals fitting in better with the weird patriarchal cult they were raised in,  and makes them more likely to get access to money and awards and such. 😑 

But that system is now collapsing, SO...

But, I'm sure they were trying to do something with this...

And now I get to learn about somebody named Jimmy Breslin. The guys in the movie were better than him, I guess.


"When Harry Met Sally: How Rom-Coms Taught Women to Settle..."

theresehleer

https://youtube.com/watch?v=MkH4yzbEKeA&si=XcOF1lZ9H258psK1

Sometimes I feel like we're still such a childish society.

Bad Poverty Energy! So! Bad!  


"am i being too hard on them??? #funny"

TahaLikesYou

https://youtube.com/shorts/8TXqdDY2JZE?si=K1UFCcJM5dPZbli5

The poverty energy is so bad! 

Because somebody with more money said that we were bad! 

Like a really mad dad! 

Better than Jeffrey Epstein, but still so messed up!

Ugh. Why do I feel this as an influence

Even though I never even saw the whole movie? 

"When Harry Met Sally: How Rom-Coms Taught Women to Settle..."

theresehleer

https://youtube.com/watch?v=MkH4yzbEKeA&si=XcOF1lZ9H258psK1

Why do I always want to make fun of it anyway? 

This was fun to watch too!

"Humans who are directly in touch with their anger don't let little evil islands exist."

~ maryisalien

"The Britney Spears part..."

maryisalien

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DRXp1v3DXiX/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Wisdom!

"Why do powerful people seek out innocence..."

maryisalien

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DS3T9SLEtLz/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

Grandpa, too!

Grandma's come a long way since acting like civil rights are mostly for men and boys and chastising girls and women for wearing short skirts and low-cut tops.

Least you're not living 100 years ago.

Think of what they had to do for money! Or even just to survive!


"Seven Chances (Keaton, 1925)" — High Quality 1080p

https://youtube.com/watch?v=WnflTNU8cbA&si=onMgz-qlpY7MuX0w



Perhaps the future will be much, much better!

It was pretty hard to squeeze inside that small box of people who you were trained to act like you "respect" more.

So, what kind of parents did you get?

Were they at all...

"alright, now im convinced she's a victim herself."

SHEILA ZOLNOOR

https://youtube.com/watch?v=88sPeiwOz3I&si=HkA8N4ce5FPQPdI6

TRAUMATIZED?

"OOOOH, so a 13 year old can consent if money changes hands!!!!"

SHEILA ZOLNOOR

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ieRmubsa67I&si=8lFyGhJc536BbWdD

But perhaps not encouraged to be sensitized?

"They kept little girls in STABLES in an underground crawlspace. Where are all the PIZZA GATE people?"

SHEILA ZOLNOOR

https://youtube.com/watch?v=3s3-gYAsS8w&si=VqP-uZYltC3iZfb_

They said that trigger warnings are for unintellectual sissies!

"I really prided myself on making my classroom a hostile space for any victims of sexual assault or sex trafficking or, well, basically anything or anyone a patriarchal institution didn't want us to care about."

That's what my nanny said!

"No one can be free until a dwindling class of tenured people are also free!"

"$urely our sons and daughters will..."

Obviously, some tenured people have children to love and keep alive and rear and role model certain kinds of behaviors for and support financially.

Not everyone can be born into a royal family though.

And when will chipping away at internalized misogyny start making anyone any extra money? 

"I didn't get to this station in life because my empathy was overflowing for x types of people." 

~ Some Tenured People

But she was born in the 1500s, and how old was she when she married?

"As Infanta of Spain and Portugal, Isabella was quite eligible on the political marriage market, though she ended up marrying late for her time."

"Isabella Clara Eugenia" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Isabella_Clara_Eugenia

33 years old!

"On 18 April 1599, 33-year-old Isabella married Albert in Valencia."

She was born in 1475 and her parents tried to get her married off by 1488.

"Given the prestige of the bridegroom, the parents tried to move the wedding forward to 1488..."

"Beatrice d'Este" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beatrice_d%27Este

There are some crucial differences between now and 100 years ago.

"alright, now im convinced she's a victim herself."

SHEILA ZOLNOOR

https://youtube.com/watch?v=88sPeiwOz3I&si=HkA8N4ce5FPQPdI6

"OOOOH, so a 13 year old can consent if money changes hands!!!!"

SHEILA ZOLNOOR

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ieRmubsa67I&si=8lFyGhJc536BbWdD

"They kept little girls in STABLES in an underground crawlspace. Where are all the PIZZA GATE people?" 

SHEILA ZOLNOOR

https://youtube.com/watch?v=3s3-gYAsS8w&si=VqP-uZYltC3iZfb_

Yay! Only 100 years ago.

 "Seven Chances (Keaton, 1925)" — High Quality 1080p

https://youtube.com/watch?v=WnflTNU8cbA&si=onMgz-qlpY7MuX0w

When some people's grandparents and great-grandparents were still young.

Sanity!

"Follow for more inspirations ☺️#movie #retrofilm"

MarynaAksenov

https://youtube.com/shorts/F_Qsa41l1dg?si=Z89D1XYodbHI4h3U

"what would you do..."

TahaLikesYou

https://youtube.com/shorts/i4McdSDanr8?si=tNKLXeUPnpS4pg7G

Ask the grandparents if they remember.


"have you ever had to ask or answer this question?"

TahaLikesYou 

https://youtube.com/shorts/a1HsICKiLTw?si=e3eg7GQX17StywEI

"how do children come up with these questions"

TahaLikesYou

https://youtube.com/shorts/n5Ly9tRxBwo?si=rZo9qvXrSj8QiB3v

Cultured. Rich. Artistic. Tasteful. Of Another Era.

And another contender for patron saint of teenage sex trafficked girls?

"Beatrice d'Este" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beatrice_d%27Este

Windows

your mediocreer is always more important than human rights. Thoughts hit.

I guess you were just never meant to be tenured.

Some people really like being tied up. Kudos to them, I guess!

What else is there to talk about?

"Cool I guess #gossip #worklife #thatfriend"

tillyoddyblack

https://youtube.com/shorts/W9xlNL-wN68?si=8R3IAv1yW395t950

Morning mocktail and later in the day mocktail!

 

Well, the morning one turned out too sweet and it needs more lime juice or something.

Lol, good to share!

"Our Souls"

Cunk on Life

https://youtube.com/watch?v=NDfoVD-EDts&si=BG6cVZbk2fHthF_A

I'm glad I have access to more stories now.

As a daughter who grew up in a certain era, I'm so glad my parents had the presence of mine to not sex traffic me to old creepy men when they were stressed out with finances or various other things, but should I rub it in?

2026 could be better!

"I don't buy bread❗️ I learned this trick in an Italian restaurant

BreadwithMona

https://youtube.com/watch?v=BvwUaCBmTUs&si=AyFOxi6zhI8E1MLQ

A new bread recipe!

"Our Souls"

Cunk on Life

https://youtube.com/watch?v=NDfoVD-EDts&si=BG6cVZbk2fHthF_A

Humor!

"I'm going to miss Kingman."

savagewendyvan

https://www.instagram.com/p/DS6zdUkFe2k/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==

What????

Did she see that video where the guy was telling people to get a job at Panda Express instead of with ICE? More parents should be proud of their kids for choosing Panda Express over ICE, I think.

That's three positive things!

Gotta brace myself and go see what some of the famous guys are up to now.

Heartbreak.

"But what if their kids and other people's kids just aren't so good at all of those things that they're clearly so good at?"

Brave brave brave Patriarchy....

"The tale of Sir Robin with subtitles (Brave Sir Robin)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jYFefppqEtE&si=4relUi55eXVDWFU2

Light humor, inclusive of those who are still determinedly role modeling how to lack respect for so many kinds of human beings.

Tuesday, December 30, 2025

Such a lot to experience and such limited number of years.

"Chicago"

~ Sufjan Stevens

https://youtube.com/watch?v=edpLqHYp4XY&si=bAMj-KartKJvtS8v

The teeth have also reminded me that all things go.

I hope there's less swelling and redness tomorrow.

It was funny to hear this song come on Midway through the procedures when some x-rays were being taken.

Koop - "Koop Island Blues (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=0W3MpOU3OUU&si=E8U1NH4xVP0Miq2G

Could this happen here?

"When public bus drivers in Okayama, Japan, decided to strike..."

WorldMirror-j4j

https://youtube.com/shorts/hvScMexfJgQ?si=tUGcH60amLQ_I0hN

Ooooh, what if this became a bigger movement?

"These Simple Suits Expose Modern Architecture"

Artisgreatoo

https://youtube.com/shorts/-9_jmnpmabo?si=v-T563g2fjsPEYcJ

Change change change change

 

"Not very wholesome Angela"

Jubilee Dawn

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTro7pKnp/

Invest in cat food??? 🙀

😹😹😹😹🎶🎶🎶🎶😉😉😉😉👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽

universe 

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTro7xfmH/

O so grateful!

I cannot believe how overjoyed I am with the good dental work experience I had today and it was a lot of money cuz I don't have much left on my benefits but it was so worth it! (An old root canal was retreated and a portion of a fractured tooth was removed.) You just never know what you're going to celebrate as you get older, do you?

Think teen thoughts!

And also, think about them less misogynistically then what was normalized.

"14..."

arzeus

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTro54omJ/

Patriarchal people need to stop ruining their sons.

 I know there are some good ones anyways, but geez.


Pets behave better!

"If you are a man and feel threatened..."

Celine 

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTro5JFsE/

Poor water! Water's a good thing.

"Life long therapy #momlife #parenting"

@tillyoddyblack

https://youtube.com/shorts/rIcDsC_aBz8?si=NHakTnd70uqc_67T

"She getting meaner #momlife #boymom #mommasbabyboy"

@tillyoddyblack

https://youtube.com/shorts/Hn6LGmGORY8?si=dgqkmGf9YRMB4f5l

Tomorrow might be here already.

 


"& that's intergenerational trauma"

cam

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrof5TLN/

Make your smart mouth a happy mouth!

 "Crispy Chickpea Chips!"

@Selesta2

https://youtube.com/watch?v=eOuHsqQhFQY&si=LPz1hxLCuVqCocWO

I wonder who was the first person to come up with the term "smart mouth?"

@internal_candy

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTroyXbUv/

Well not everyone can be as good at it, I guess.

It's like, even just thinking about being pressured to go along with patriarchal bargaining so I can fit in better with some other people who still want to make excuses for violent people so they can fit in better with others for is so traumatizing that it really feels like that is not viable or a healthy way to live a life.

Why can't everyone be equally as good at bargaining with the Patriarchy?

 Why???

"Patriarchal bargaining..."

Jess Britvich

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTroU7JNs/

I don't know why not.

Everyone can be just as equally talented as everyone else at enjoying a culture of violence and misogyny.

As opposed to unsafe, prejudiced, violent, misogynistic, etc.

Is being a Christian good?

"I mean, I am a good person..."

Sambearrr 2.0

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTroU55Uk/

He'll stay away from the favorite men who got reincarnated into new bodies that aren't the bodies of men.

Because he seems very alarmed.


"Definitely this one!"

Mandy Rae💙

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTroDRg8B/

So she would fly safely.

"Reporter who exposed Epstein shocked to find her flight records in DOJ files" - nj.com

https://www.nj.com/politics/2025/12/this-journalists-bombshell-reporting-put-jeffrey-epstein-behind-bars-now-shes-asking-why-trumps-doj-was-tracking-her.html

Always with the other family-oriented men references.

 


"I think she's done w me"

Swervo

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTroAyqP6/


This looks really good.

"I Always Keep Chickpeas at Home for This..."

We Cook Vegan

https://youtube.com/watch?v=41Cibuo7F1U&si=i9JuIJ6cJK3QTKhm

To release stress...

"**CORTISOL LOWERING** Thunder and Rain Sound Bath"

Tibetan Vibrations 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=vgRDSn0JDdo&si=m3UQbx-0fzQQbtqg

Fortunately, a lot of good people would never act like Jeffrey Epstein.

While they're waiting for a spark of inspiration, they could play a game called "Who's gonna look the most like Mark Zuckerberg."

❓❓❓❓❓❓

"Mark Zuckerberg gifted noise-canceling headphones to his Palo Alto neighbors because of the nonstop construction around his 11 homes"

https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/celebrity/articles/mark-zuckerberg-gifted-noise-canceling-132335870.html

Good luck.

It's good to know some people always had more empathy, even back then. If they lacked empathy, they wouldn't have sent us the details in the letter.

That's just one more reason why I am allergic to your smug stubbornness.

You remind me of that time when I was a kid and we got a notice sent home to us because a girl walking home from choir practice got attacked in a public place and she screamed and got away but no one helped her.

It's just progress is happening so much faster in some places...

Anyways, go back to healing yourself and asking the bigger universe for more help now.

Trapped by your own.

You can't say sorry because you're not sorry. Being shallow and misogynistic and degrading to people who deserve better is still your safe space for some reason. I guess you might be the end of the line when it comes to enjoying that shallow little misogynistic mindset. Because the world is filled with people who expect better than that NOW.

Good to know.

There's already people who are getting more free from the old addictions to making excuses for anything from mediocre sexism to some actually grossly dehumanizing and violent attitudes that are very damaging.

God could be better to more kinds of humans than the shallow, sexist people are inclined to be.

God could have more care for those who got treated worse by the shallow, sexist people.

Time to ask God to help me heal from whatever it is that keeps them so addicted to still making excuses for shallow, sexist attitudes.

Shockingly low standards. I am so traumatized.

What low standards you were trained to have for the alternative version of me living a life in a man's body.

This week you made me think about...

How I'm disgusted by all the bad things I could be doing in a man's body right now, and you'd be making excuses for and treating me better for it, because that's how your misogynistic mindset manifested itself.

I know, so strange of them, wow!!!!

"I'm sorry I felt I had to invalidate you and your life in order to make a life for myself within the patriarchal restrictions they wanted me to adhere to."

Recovering from the dreadful dreams with this one now.

"**CORTISOL DETOX**  End Your Cortisol Feedback Loop"

Chakra vibrations

https://youtube.com/watch?v=xCrEEltweng&si=0qxb-8amaxzWXTx2

And all in the name of normalizing insensitivity! Sigh.

Bad dreams about how unsafe some people got sucked into being, just to go along with some very unwell Patriarchal standards. But that's for processing trauma and stress.

"Maybe some other kids' parents can do that though."

"If only they had encouraged me to..."

Way too long to put on a coffee mug.

"Being as misogynistic as they wanted, in spite of how terrible that is for myself, my children, and other people's children, must feel like a comfortable enough attitude for me to keep going along with it for some really good reasons!"

Must drink water and ginger tea and find better.

Well, well, well, another day of waking up from disturbing dreams and finding something to help out your nervous system with recovering from what SOME myopically misogynistic insensitive parents still feel entitled to be like in order to get more for themselves from a warped and mean patriarchal culture. And no, they do not act that way in the best interests of themselves or their children. They're just on autopilot.

Monday, December 29, 2025

Oh, maybe the universe thinks I should check on some kitty cats, too!

 


"All I want is to live in the countryside..."

charlotte

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrEWLSaV/

Oh now I wonder, did they take the first step?

The first step towards something better...

"You'll deserve better when you demand better."

Neko Ashi

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrEnWQd1/

She did not have a good dad, did she.

"Your new life will cost you your old one."

I feel she is accurately describing what some people are going through right now.

And what some other people might be going through very soon.

BaronessVonGinger

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrEnXgUx/

See, this culture is changing.

He's talking about how white men get conditioned to see things in the Evangelical Church.

Replying to user 1032025

FTPx1312

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrEn65yc/

Oh these were some good comments!

I think so, anyway.

"Replying to Logan Legend"

laceyrosetrebilcook

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrEtG2wg/

Noticing the playful use of music in this piece.

 😂


"do anyone else’s parents say ALARMING things..."

@TahaLikesYou

https://youtube.com/shorts/yzY3cx2KD7Y?si=Cx-I_CPmDHLJBtUB

I'm so happy that there's different kinds of music to help humans!

"Ever Tried Hypnagogia? | Where Sleep Turns Into Creativity'

Healing Vibrations 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Ntu2DBQwE-k&si=uchmihhnamcSa4AR

I think this is the "in-between" state I was in this morning when I had an experience of feeling like there was a "healer" presence on one side of me helping with with some kind of process, and then I think I might have even verbally said to them that I needed to let some kind of experience come up for me before experienced this great energy of tension, which also made me vocalize anguish, and it was somehow mixed with listening to intense music and drumming that may have transmuted it so that when I woke up I didn't feel that kind of anguish anymore.

I really believe this experience in the morning was for my benefit. I gave myself permission to experience it, and it didn't fix everything for me (I still went about my day and got irritated about various things) but it underscored that I know there really is something about a certain kind of music that's got a lot of really primal drum beats being able to help people deal with heavy trauma. I just want to say to the universe: I BELIEVE!!!

I wonder if there was singing involved in it too. I think there was. Oh, I should have written down more details. Oh well.

It's very different from the music in this video but both can be good for healing people in different ways.

The music in the video above is kind of more like to soothe and calm. 

The more primordial music I heard inside my brain, I don't know where it came from. Maybe it's being played somewhere else on Earth and I was just allowed to tap into it. I feel like somebody knows what its purpose is. It's like it's supposed to help people when they have really dreadful tension and energy built up inside of them. It helps transmute it. That's why I was thinking it would help prevent violent crimes from happening, because violent crimes are almost never really good for the person who commits them. They're in a state of madness when they commit them, and if they could get help, like access to that music and it would help transmute that energy in them, that would be much better.

I wonder if something about the experience I had was also influenced by the video I watched where a girl said she had to fight off a man trying to kill her in Grand Central Station in NYC, and there was a big bystander effect, in which a bunch of people just stood around and watched, and that was very harsh. 

God bless people who are interested in healing and helping Society change.

I'm so glad Society is changing to make it more normal to be better to more kinds of people. People really are becoming more sensitive and aware about certain topics. More and more people will think twice before they feel the need to act in certain ways again in the future. I'm still pretty angry about some people choosing to be so immature sometimes. They need to get more motivated to heal themselves, too. I don't know if they're ever going to get there in this lifetime. It might be happening more in the next lifetime. Being like them is not appropriate for me right now. It would be really against my purpose and also my need to learn how to get better at taking care of oneself and one's health to just go along with what they're doing. Oh well. Maybe there's more to be learned from this before moving on.

Time is here and time may help with this.

Process some grief. 

It's not your fault if other people want to be self-absorbed or bad at listening to different kinds of people. And if they are wounded in ways that make it seem like they feel the need to act prejudiced against certain kinds of people, or like they have to be more willfully insensitive to others in order to feel able to fit in better with other kinds of people, it just shows you that you're going to have to be on a different path.

When people aren't blatantly taught certain lessons in their childhood, or even if they were and then they rejected some lessons, they're only going to learn more if and when they're curious enough to want to know more.

I like that. Thanks for that idea.

You will meet people in the future who will not feel the need to act like them and who will be smarter and kinder and more sensitive and more intelligent and more expressive, with more knowledge about how to pursue a way of life that does not make excuses for violence, and it will be better for your health.

Help for the teeth is in the near future, too, I hope.

I feel like I need help with some teeth because some alignment has been messed up or possibly teeth have just shifted because of the aging process. But anyways, it's like there's this little tooth that's getting more pressured and more bullied by the way the other teeth are laying and it's not fun and I want to get helped and really helped very soon.

Mmmm, grief.

I'm tired. People have been immature. They've been insensitive. And it really feels bad. 

I think some people are just going to be insensitive for the rest of their lives. This is just the way they were taught to be and stuff that feels wrong to me still feels normal for them. And they can't articulate or say sorry because that is not their talent.

I suppose maybe it's part of my lesson to just learn how to not take it so personally even though it feels as if they are on the borderline of excusing violence, by being so insensitive. 

Maybe I just need to do some personal healing work and know I don't have to wait for others to change or become more sensitive or expressive kinds of people in order to heal or feel better.

Maybe my cat had a better kittenhood.

Because I honestly think my cat respects a wider variety of people than you do.

Hope someone who's not like you is out there to help them.

I guess it's great that there's teenage girls and little kids and also other adults who are a lot braver about this stuff than you are.

Not everyone shares your upbringing or your genetics or your circumstances.

It seems like you were trained to disrespect X types of people in order to fit in with Y types of people. It feels like that's not your only option, though.

I don't want to make a big deal about it.

It's interesting how the stuff that you don't want to make a big deal about is like the kind of stuff that means life or death to other people.

Why do they expect you to follow so many unwritten rules in order to feel acceptable?

"But I don't want to make other people feel uncomfortable."

You know, he's probably reincarnated as one of those kinds of people by now.

But what if my great grand ghost ancestor doesn't like me anymore if I start respecting the kinds of people that he didn't like?

What other kinds of people?

"I mean, before you know it, the next thing you know, I'll be expected to respect those other kinds of people too."

It's going to be sooooo hard!

"I'm just really struggling with the idea that I might have to start respecting teenage girls and older women more than Patriarchal Society taught me I should."

"Can I at least just limit it to the people who come from Rich families, or who won lots of Awards for doing something The Patriarchy likes?"

What a writing prompt!

Why is disrespecting women who are different from you your safe space?

Talk to me in 200 years when more medical research has been done on women's bodies (Is what I want to say sometimes.)

Like, you're really not working with a full deck sometimes. So can you blame women for periodically seeking alternative therapies, especially when there are times when the alternative therapies help a lot in addition to the allopathic medicine. And there are times when they might even work better?

And on and on and on and on and on and on and on...

🤓 Did you ever hear about the girl who helped herself out by talking on and on and on and on and on? 🤣

What are words for anyway?

Even if prattling on makes you seem more gauche or goofy to some people, what if it's actually, in the long run, helpful to humanity?

Perhaps the universe is filled with healing and help.

More help from higher healing powers so that I can take better care of my health now, please.

Also cats are just awesome!

I'm kind of glad every day that I have a cat instead of kids because it's so much easier to keep an eye on what happens to your cat. And my cat seems like a pretty happy cat a lot of the time. So me being stressed out about stuff doesn't seem to be particularly traumatizing her very much.

This has been a really rough year.

I don't blame me for not being a high performer in 2025.

Well, I'm sure a wide variety of experiences were had here by a wide variety of people

But, but, but...

"Epstein files show first known victim was found at Michigan arts camp"

https://www.freep.com/story/news/local/michigan/2025/12/23/jeffery-epstein-interlochen-cetner-arts-traverse-city-michigan-camp-victim/87895585007/

True that.

There's just a very wide disparity of experiences that can be had at most institutions.

I think people need to stop blaming people if they happened to be amongst those who did not have a very positive experience.

Because some people are s***** and they're assholes, and there's certain people they choose to show that side to more than they show it to others.

What does one do???

If one has a bit of creative spark, part of me thinks I'd rather be a woo-woo weirdo tiny little undiscovered hobby artist than a great successful artist. Sorry. People can get really warped by needing to make a living under a patriarchal society's terms.

But then again, why should only the people who are jerks and assholes who align themselves with the patriarchy ever be the ones allowed to be bigger and more successful? 

So I think you have to just try to put your health first, and try to figure out what is best and most healthy for your constitution.

When will humans evolve?

This is why sometimes being an artist doesn't seem any better than being a downtrodden cashier at a corrupt seedy establishment. Filled with harsh cigarette smoke that will pollute your lungs! 

All right. 

A little drama there.

Life on Earth is so messed up sometimes.

The problem is, when you have trauma from your own bad experiences, and it didn't get resolved and people weren't nice about it, you can also get so magnetically attracted to viewing stuff about when other people had their own bad experiences.

Gee, everyday it's another thing.

Interlochen Boarding School in Michigan traumatized her!


"It feels so good to finally be able to say..."

Reality Rogue TV🎬💋

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrEPXcEY/

Is he an average by some people's standards DAD yet, or what?

"Man admits that men don't care about..."

Gold Phoenyx

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrEPbuL4/

It was not just a price of eggs thing.

Categories of Parents that 2025 Grandma chose not to care about for a chance at winning a better refrigerator.

Well?

Is everyone leaving going to be able to take their cats and dogs with them?

Maybe next year I should read "Confessions of an Economic Hitman" and "The Shock Doctrine?"

"The Shock Doctrine" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Shock_Doctrine

I never read this, but it seems like he's at least trying to be a better person now.

"Confessions of an Economic Hit Man" - Wikipedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Confessions_of_an_Economic_Hit_Man

Thank you for this!

This spicy and fruity and bubbly non-alcoholic drink.

And besides which, you don't have to be anything like them.

Cheer up. At least grandad didn't go to Epstein Island. And also, you don't have to be anything like those people just because they were your forefathers.

My hopes are not very high though. Because your behavior is still so childish.

If your children wish to and are able to adopt, I hope that you don't make that experience painful for them and their children.

Extinction Burst!

Greedy and Needy!

Feudalistic Grandpa, though.

At least he produced us, the more fearless and capable descendants!

Sometimes great-grandchildren gossip too much, huh?

"I feel like that one great grandma was auditioning to be on a show called 'Way to go racist, sexist mommy!'" "Just be grateful you're living in a different time."

You could have been better than this.

You're not tapping into the more advanced functions of your brain.

Opinions! Opinions are coming out.

People who are that prejudiced are actually being very second-rate role models to their biological children no matter how much they seem to not want to know that, and it's not like their prejudiced attitudes can stay that way forever, because that's not good enough for society and people are waking up, so it's not going to continue to seem normal to be that way forever.

Your behavior is vile. It is a product of the colonization mentality that was pumped into your little brain at a very early age.

Your disgusting behavior makes me realize a lot of people who are parents should not adopt any non-biological children. Egocentric, ethnocentric, selfish, greedy, uncaring assholes. Their prejudice  would be so much a part of their parenting, and is already so much a part of their personalities, that it's enough to make one feel quite sick.

When does "Why are you like that?" become a sign of social progress?

When the racist, sexist, selfish mommies and daddies who lack empathy for anyone who is too different from them get much better at explaining why it feels so easy and normal for them to act like they really don't care if their children are just as insensitive to other people's kids as they were raised to be.

It's a $hame they're being duped into being so terrible, again.

May the grandchildren be a lot less delusional and much better people than what some of the more selfish, myopic, misogynistic grandmommies and granddaddies were role-modeling and repeating in the 2020s.

I guess they can go be soulless and exploitative in another country now.

The people who are going to look even more racist in the future will be bragging about plans of  relocating but at least they don't have so much money as to feel they need to buy entire private islands...

Brave brave brave brave Sir Pasadena

Oh, the rich white people in Pasadena say they are going to be leaving soon...and so are the people bragging in the comments...


#planb #traderjoes #ytpeople
Nicole Corona

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrEho9tf/

Years of training!


"Yes, I was actually blindfolded..."

Brooke Falco

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrErqEh4/



That's another thing I discovered this morning.

I feel like if there were more primordial drumming musical ceremonies for people who are filled with trauma and stress, it would really help some people to process their traumas, and actually there would be fewer violent crimes. I'm not saying it would fix everything but it would definitely help. People get stuck in fight or flight modes and sometimes they're in fight and sometimes they're in flight. And sometimes if they see somebody who reminds them of  something, that becomes the person they're fighting against. Or the person they're fleeing. But they really need more ways to process their feelings and their grief and their trauma.

If I must, I must! 🙏🏼⚕️❤️

I'll just have to try to do my best to be tending to the health issues again today!

Not that they seem to care, but this is how I feel.

If you wanted someone like me to buy into your version of what successful is, you should have made it look more appealing. AND BETTER FOR THE BODY. This body cannot do that. We cannot go along with old patterns. Sorry, not possible here.

So desperate to worship somebody.

"This is actually insane."

Biker Bailey 

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrK4HKNf/

Defiance!

Found the best reaction to the sick guy in the comments.


"PSG vs Tottenham..."

boardlink37y

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrE8y5jF/

Really does feel like this is the better way for me right now.

I'm supposed to be a down-to-earth person, and not the kind that other people put on a pedestal and act like is a genius. The vast majority of people who get convinced to hero worship another person do so because that other person is better at something than they are. Then they are stalling their own progress. I don't agree with going along with those patterns. It's fine to appreciate that someone's better at stuff than you are. And maybe as a joke you might be a little bit worshippy of them because of their great talents, but too many people get really serious about their hero worship and they become devotees as a coping mechanism, and I just don't think that's very good for most of humanity right now. Hero worship is like drugs I don't need to take.

So why did such imbalanced situations happen?

Maybe there were ancestors who acted like how some others are still acting now, and since many people normalized certain patterns, and wanted me to act like their ways are "normal," I had to realize on a deeper level that I could truly believe it's not "normal" to be that way.

I sort of had a dream (or an experience in a half awake state) that a kind woman with a healer orientation was working with me on my left and then some energy got into me from above and it felt like a lot of tension and stress and I began to scream but there was drums and music mixed in with that energy to align with and cleanse that fierce tension. It was primordial.

And so...

Anyways, it's weird to know that they deserve better too. Insensitive people have their abilities to activate the better parts of themselves.

Since grades are so important to you.

"A" for Unhelpful Asshole, running once more to the comforts of a shallow, misogynistic, small-minded worldview.

Sigh.

Thanks for being such a stellar reminder that world is filled people who are more feminist than you and people who had it worse still deserve better than your immature attitude.

Deeply damaged by Patriarchal Culture.

Please find whoever or whatever is going to help you with your insensitive asshole attitude problem.

Unhealed people have been such nightmares.

Vile anti-feminist attitudes. Shame on them for expecting girls and women to go through worse just so they can act like selfish, materialistic, clueless, immature, spoiled brats.

Feeling a bit more all right about being imperfect than I previously felt.

I guess I could be more comfortable with being different in the future, but I just want to really get more skilled about focusing on my health first. People were so bad about that when I was growing up and people just worked themselves and got sick and it's just like somebody has to break that cycle somehow. I just won't do it. I just can't do it. My genetics are incompatible with such a lifestyle.

And there's just a lot of shallow men who have a lot of shallow attitudes about women and about what makes a woman seem more successful to them and I don't trust any of them. They've disappointed me too much in this life, and I do not trust them. So I am extremely glad that more feminism is coming out in society and I think it's just the beginning and society is going to get more feminist and that's what I need, far more than any old-fashioned shallow version of success that never really promised any lasting happiness.


Sunday, December 28, 2025

I'll just be meandering. Or perhaps even resting?

It's super obvious to me that I just don't want to feel that "successful" right now. I would prefer to just focus on my own healing. I have this sensitive orientation, and I know some people are able to be sensitive and also put out works of art but I don't think that's me. I don't even think I want that to be me. I don't know. I guess I just have this really strong feeling that I'm supposed to put health and healing first. And I don't have an easy time doing it. That's why it's so important to do it.

There are people who make art that I really admire, but then I find out that they're still having a difficult time in life and I'm not, I'm promise,I'm not trying to be judgmental. Because they have their path for a reason. It's just that I just really don't want to do that. I really do want to put health and healing first. If I have the opportunity to put health and healing first then I'm really lucky.

I sort of feel like being able to put health and healing first is kind of like a version of some kind of self-care and feminism that I'm supposed to get better at while I'm here on Earth. So being a more successful artistic type but then suffering a lot would not be accomplishing that goal for me. It's too bad if I have to sacrifice some things because I'm still learning how to get better but it is what it is. I'm not going to critique that phrase too much either. 

This could be a really great opportunity. Other people don't have this opportunity to be able to focus on healing as much. I have to make the most of this opportunity. And some of this experience made me want to rail against the healthcare system or against society because people in certain bodies don't do well with the way the system's set up. But I kind of want to let it go. Yes, I kind of want to let it go.

Apathy towards others as a survival strategy is nothing to gloat over.

BYSTANDER EFFECT 

"A man tried to murder me in the middle of Grand Central Station"

Lu

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrK45wrn/

Boredom can be painful!

I'm so bored of how some people can be sucked into falling back on slovenly and uncaring behavior patterns that were modeled to them by their elders.

New drinks!

 



De La Calle! Tepache Fermented Taste of Mexico: Mango Chili, Pineapple Spice, Watermelon Jalapeno.

A feminist rage choir in Texas

Meaghan Elizabeth 🇵🇸

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTrKgjtND/