I very much want to get better at being a more balanced person, and part of that is because as I've gotten older, my body has gotten more sensitive to stress. There's all sorts of things your body will start to do when you get older that it didn't necessarily do when you are younger.
Because I want to become a more balanced person, I believe I need to make peace with the fact that on one hand, there's this part of me that is very sensitive and has to maybe take a stand about things. But at the same time, I want to get better at realizing that many times, when people don't know what your point of view is, maybe it's not something you need to get so traumatized about or take so personally, because it's like, they just don't know because they don't have the experience.
And I mean, they might know more in the future.
I think what is known as Complex PTSD might be something that I've been experiencing. I had a dream where I told some people that I thought I had that, and I think that meant something.
It's actually a very beautiful gift to give somebody, when even though you don't know what their experience is and you're probably never going to experience it, a part of you is able and willing to develop curiosity and compassion and empathy for them and their experiences.
It's just, I know that there's a part of me that's very peaceful and I want to let my peaceful side flourish more. I, like everyone else, have a finite amount of years to spend on Earth in this life, so I'm going to ask the universe to help me make better use of them.
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