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Friday, May 31, 2024

Oh well, maybe I can go for a swim when the lumbar region gets much better.

You know, sorry about needing to communicate this, but actually, Trump is very Entertainment / Hollywood Industry, because Hollywood is filled with men and women who have looked the other way countless times during very abusive situations, and it's not okay, that stops somewhere, and I hope it's more than my body saying no to that, and my body knows it deserves better than that, so quit the fascist / sexist / racist nonsense, or at the very least be more honest, and know how exclusionary it really still is.

I suppose mentioning this is okay?

"Trump's conviction is a reminder of his misogyny. Stormy Daniels reminded us that it matters."

https://www.vox.com/politics/353078/trump-misogyny-stormy-daniels

Health is very important. Sometimes it's a real challenge for me. Really. I know it.

I have to get much, much, much better at taking care of my health. My nervous system, the genetics I got, my monthly cycle, everything. I have to balance the part of me that's affected by society and reacts to things with the part that knows how to be better at seeking a more healing path. Like I just need it so much. 

My body is a teacher. It doesn't matter if others can't get it. They don't have the same situation. Life purposes vary for a whole lot of reasons.

Everyone is different but we should all get better at taking care of our health, is how I feel, based on what I see happening, and how I have been feeling.

That's not gonna last, you guys...

I feel that in the first quarter of the 21st century, there are some men who are in certain places who maybe feel these compulsions to act out strangely (NOT strangle-y, I fixed that) because they're testing boundaries of their Patriarchal Bubbles and acting like small children, just to see what they can get away with, and I feel that I have met a few of them...

Someone's ancestor, no doubt.

"Harvard grad who went off script to address Gaza protests said she quietly revised her speech last minute.

Shruthi Kumar, 22, said she felt like she had to speak about her 13 peers barred from graduating. Now, her message is reaching millions online."

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/asian-america/harvard-speech-gaza-war-commencement-rcna154899

Someday your princesses will come...

They'll help the less "lucky" ones...

"Disney's Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs' - 'Someday....'"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=HLQ2sYxktMQ&feature=shared

because it's humane and reasonable...to care about healthcare for females...

"Texas Supreme Court rejects abortion challenge"

https://www.texastribune.org/2024/05/31/texas-supreme-court-zurawski-abortion/

And because the kind grandkids will also think so...even if they have to go through unnecessary hardships due to changes in leadership...

Imagine.

I don't personally like a lot of this guy's review by the way, but I do think it's useful to reference it for others.

"A Clinical, Searing Memoir Of Abuse in 'Tiger, Tiger'"

https://www.npr.org/2011/07/14/134194851/a-clinical-searing-memoir-of-abuse-in-tiger-tiger

I have an opinion; here it is!

Some of you need to start asking the "people with values" why they literally straight up HATE certain types of girls and women so f****** much.

Oh! They want 9-year-old rape victims to give birth SO bad?

So now, If you help a 9-year-old rape victim get an abortion, so she doesn't have to give birth when her body literally is not even ready to go through that sort of process, now, according to them, you're  "trafficking" her?

"Tennessee bans ‘abortion trafficking’ of underage"

https://www.catholicnewsagency.com/amp/news/257861/tennessee-bans-abortion-trafficking-of-underage-girls#amp_tf=From%20%251%24s&aoh=17171826302526&referrer=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.google.com

By the way...

On account of their behaviors and choices in this lifetime, I am of the opinion that these people are real fools who lack nobility. However, I think I also somewhat understand that they have a playful side.

"2023 Mt  SAC Alumnus of the Year Sona Movsesian and blah blah blah"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=8_DWO7HVlis&si=KNq-AYKk8BKIag-s

My cat is very playful, and perhaps she also gets silly to the point where she degrades herself, and lacks nobility, but she's a cat. 


They're humans. They should know better!

"Hiding in N. Virginia, a daughter of Auschwitz : Reddit"

https://www.reddit.com/r/Longreads/comments/1bc4a4x/hiding_in_n_virginia_a_daughter_of_auschwitz/

I know that people have A LOT of comparison to Nazi fatigue, but it just keeps on happening, for various reasons. Maybe it's the Ghosts of the Nazis. They're actually desperate. They really want people to not be like they were. They're like "we really f***** it up so bad." They're begging for help. They're begging anybody with a shred of integrity and psychic ability to tune in and get their message out to Humanity. 

Who am I to turn down a suffering ghost Nazi trying to warn others before it's too late?

If you need therapy to be less Patriarchal, please don't delay, get it!!!

If you can't afford therapy, lie on a blanket on some grass, and pray to God for help.

Poetical Ones!

Hey! It's Stephen Fry (very poetical)

A Bit of Fry and Laurie - "Prize Poem"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=zxru0HDs5_g&si=-juIsQRpN4LS-mP2

and Lena Dunham (also very poetical)

"TREASURE Trailer (2024)" Stephen Fry, Lena Dunham

https://youtube.com/watch?v=uUgt99knbHE&si=-Hws8a2rkgQkTVFv

and a not-so-famous guy (absolutely very poetical) who might, however, be kind of..."Internet Famous????"

"Book Boyfriends #fantasy #shorts"

~ HeyitsStuart

https://youtube.com/shorts/DHuq4-tmhEQ?si=V4iqQI72pT-fQzOC

People should probably have a lot more fun on the internet.

Sometimes repetition looks good in a painting!

I saw some paintings yesterday that reminded me of this! However, I didn't take any pictures of them... I did take pictures of this.  

Itsa shadow!

I suppose it's probably the shadow of a palm tree.

"Skating Polly" - Camelot (Official Video)

https://youtube.com/watch?v=FbFoX8SvaKI&si=4jssoAei5wcWUJv8

ORLANDO 1992. "COMING" JIMMY SOMERVILLE

https://youtube.com/watch?v=pp-SYRSyMvE&si=UZtNld5BNaL4rMDS

Why is it so difficult to care about certain kinds of human beings?

 “To me, these laws say that my government doesn’t care if I die, the same way my partner didn’t.”

- Lisa Pous, domestic violence survivor

Why is your system so corrupt.

"'You can’t trust your partner, you can’t ask someone for help, your neighbors are now hunting you ― it makes the entire world unsafe,' Lisa Pous, a survivor of intimate partner violence whose pronouns are she/they, told HuffPost. 'How are we supposed to leave [our abusers]? What is the point of leaving?'”

~ Alanna Vagianos

"Texas Abortion Bans & Gun Laws Fuel Deadly War..."

https://www.huffpost.com/entry/texas-abortion-ban-domestic-violence_n_65dcd9a9e4b005b858312158

Why can't you get more in touch with your feelings??

"The leading cause of death for pregnant women is homicide, most often by an abusive partner with a gun. And Texas is forcing victims to stay pregnant, while making it easier for abusers to get guns."

By Alanna Vagianos

https://www.huffpost.com/entry/texas-abortion-ban-domestic-violence_n_65dcd9a9e4b005b858312158

“Pregnant and postpartum women are more than twice as likely to be murdered than to die from sepsis, hypertensive disorders or hemorrhage.”

But, what about the taxes and housing market and lower cost of living and family values?

A few more daughters may get murdered in Texas, but hasn't it always been that way?


"Texas GOP Appears To Put Death Penalty For Abortion Patients On 2024 Wish List"

"Texas GOP Exposes Ugly Truth About Letting States Ban Abortion"

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/article/texas-gop-abortion-platform.html

"Texas Republicans open to death penalty for abortion providers"

https://www.theguardian.com/world/article/2024/may/30/texas-republicans-vote-death-penalty-abortion-providers

Are you eating enough to look constantly pregnant and happy with the way things are going anyway??

Pleasant childhood memories.

I'm sure proper nutrition plays a pivotal role; ask anybody who's ever experienced difficult times.

Sorry, girls. Getting pregnant might not be enough!

"The Texas Supreme Court on Friday unanimously ruled against 22 women who suffered complications during pregnancy who had sued the state over its near-total abortion ban."

~ Jacob Knutson 

https://www.axios.com/2024/05/31/texas-abortion-ban-supreme-court

Kitty was older than Anne Frank, and she's still alive, as of today!

"Rumours began in August 1944 that Auschwitz was to be evacuated. Kitty's mother was selected as one of 100 prisoners to be removed from the camp. She saw the commandant walking and ran to him and deferentially requested that her daughter be allowed to leave the camp with her. The commandant obliged. Kitty has stated it was probably due to her mother's perfect respectful formal spoken German. So, in November 1944, Kitty was taken along with several hundred prisoners to Gross-Rosen concentration camp.[2] Every day, the camp occupants were marched to a nearby town to work in the Philips electronic factory."

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kitty_Hart-Moxon

Anyways, I keep getting distracted by what perfect, exquisite German Kitty's mom spoke.

It saved their lives. She describes it about an hour and three minutes into the film.

"Holocaust Survivor Kitty Hart Revisits Auschwitz"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Dntryh_9o8Y&si=2OCQn4pXWTVQFk9h

Who?

"He reminded me how if a person wants to manipulate the signal, they simply turn up the noise. 'In a world that is so uncertain,' he said, 'a confidence man comes along and fills in the blanks. The more confident they are, the more we’re inclined to go along with what they suggest.'"

~ Bill Pruitt

https://slate.com/culture/2024/05/donald-trump-news-2024-trial-verdict-apprentice.html

"He’s been called a professional pickpocket, but he’s actually a 'perceptions expert.' Apollo has spent his life studying the psychology of how we distort other people’s perceptions of reality and has done so by picking pockets onstage for the entertainment of others."

~ Bill Pruitt

https://slate.com/culture/2024/05/donald-trump-news-2024-trial-verdict-apprentice.html

"As a producer working in unscripted, or 'reality,' television, I have the same goal. Like Apollo, I want to entertain, make people joyful, maybe even challenge their ways of thinking. But because I often lack the cinematic power of a movie, with its visual pyrotechnics or rehearsed dialogue, I rely on shaping the perceptions of viewers, manipulating their maps of reality toward something I want them to think or feel."

~ Bill Pruitt

https://slate.com/culture/2024/05/donald-trump-news-2024-trial-verdict-apprentice.html

Maybe you should change for the better faster.

I guess if the universe keeps sending me messages that you're acting like too much of a sociopathic jerk for me to okay your behaviors, there's reasons for it.

Seriously.

I think if a nicer man I know acted anything like a rich white guy, he would have been put in jail.

Why? It's not "natural."

You could ask what happened to some people to make them feel so unmotivated to help victims of violence that they actually choose to discriminate against them instead.

"Before #MeToo There Was Aarefah Mosavi" - BAMN

https://www.bamn.com/justice4aarefah/

To make progress, more shadow work could be done, maybe?

Maybe when people are so much meaner to certain types of girls and women and act so discriminatory towards them in ways that have triggered anxiety, nightmares and panic attacks in someone like me, reminding me of callous cruel behavior that has happened before, it's because they weren't ever given any permission to explore their shadow side.

People are like: "That one is bad" (projecting their shadow more onto certain types of women) and then they treat her badly, or ignore what she's saying, while making all kinds of excuses for other kinds of cruelty. Because that's they were taught to make excuses for. That's what Nazis did, too. But people have "comparison to Nazis" fatigue. 

Here's a cat to say hello to me.

I am glad my cat is nicer to be around than some people who just get rewarded when they cluelessly repeat old patterns of discrimination because they weren't taught to do any better than that.

But shadow work certainly is a very good concept to explore more.

Thursday, May 30, 2024

In the details...

If God does not want me to be impressed by the ooohs and the schmooze, who am I to argue with God? 

What's up today and tomorrow.

In another city, saw a homeless man with a dog.

Who can help?

Around here, heard a cat...

Shadow Work

"Last summer, a book changed Kohn Glay’s life.

A TikTok ad had steered him to 'The Shadow Work Journal,' a slim workbook that directs readers to explore hidden parts of their unconscious — their shadow selves, in the book’s vernacular. He ordered a copy, and soon was back on TikTok, fervently recommending it to his followers.

'If you’re on your spiritual journey, you absolutely need to go and get you one of these,' he says in the video, urging viewers to buy the book in the TikTok store."

~ Alexandra Alter

https://www.nytimes.com/2024/05/30/books/booksupdate/keila-shaheen-shadow-work-journal-tiktok.html

Emotional immaturity can actually be dangerous to people 's lives sometimes.

I feel like the more I end up looking at the history of the Holocaust, the more I see that a lot of it happened because people just pretended it wasn't that bad. They weren't even looking at the bad stuff they were doing to people the vast majority of time. They didn't want to look at it. They just wanted to let it go on and not take any responsibility.

How hard is that?

I'd kind of like to see more people stop acting like they're the smirking, immature, uncaring Nazis reincarnated.

Is a better selection of presidential candidates going to change that?

"We're gonna be so dehumanizing to the guy we pampered when he comes back in another form because that's what we had to do to others to get ahead in this Patriarchal industry."

Ornery people.

Since an ex-president really is considered to be quite the criminal now, can all the people who still have the most fun acting like other rich white guys are SO much more important than anyone also get to funding more important health-care related causes, even if they have nothing to do with pampering the egos of insecure wealthy dudes?

They might feel middle class.

"Melinda French Gates Is Joining MacKenzie Scott in the Feminist Philanthropist First-Wives’ Club"

https://www.vogue.com/article/melinda-french-gates-billion-dollar-pledge-womens-issues

"Cate Blanchett's 'Middle Class' Remark Confused Everyone"

https://www.therichest.com/cate-blanchett-middle-class/

P.S. Cinnamon rolls

"I Made the Pizza Cinnamon Rolls from Mario Batali's Sexual Misconduct Apology Letter"

https://www.everywhereist.com/2018/01/i-made-the-pizza-cinnamon-rolls-from-mario-batalis-sexual-misconduct-apology-letter/

After reading

"Food, feminism and fury: Geraldine DeRuiter’s love letter to her own identity"

https://www.opb.org/article/2024/05/17/food-feminism-fury-geraldine-deruiter/

You're not replicating the life of Brigitte Hoss.

I really doubt she's living the same kind of life in her next incarnation.

Dreams were about winds picking up.

It's also been so disturbing in this lifetime to discover how much some people got convinced to be so myopic and uncaring about how certain kinds of people are treated by Patriarchal Culture. You have to figure out what you can do to help yourself when their stubbornness starts to make you feel those emotions they definitely don't want to hear about.

Of course dreams were disturbing.

Had to watch this last night. Her life was on the other side of the wall from the life of Brigitte Hoss.

"Holocaust Survivor Kitty Hart Revisits Auschwitz"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Dntryh_9o8Y&si=2OCQn4pXWTVQFk9h

"'Mum knew what was going on’: Brigitte HΓΆss on living at Auschwitz"

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2024/mar/24/brigitte-hoss-auschwitz-zone-of-interest-rudolf-oscar-winning-thomas-harding

Wednesday, May 29, 2024

She says it's funny.

"Surviving a Shoot-Out - Ms. Pat - This Is Not Happening"

Comedy Central Stand Up

https://youtube.com/watch?v=CEzNcCcft1o&si=bJwKOqAP9G-MUkpT

I was taught Agape meant brotherly love, and

now I know Agape could be sisterly love, too.

"The nonprofit MomsRising Education Fund also received a grant that will extend to the end of 2026, with Kristin Rowe-Finkbeiner, its executive director and CEO, saying, “We’re deeply honored and enormously grateful that Melinda French Gates is stepping up for women and families in a time when the rights of our daughters may be significantly less than of ourselves or our own mothers.”

~ MICHELLE CHAPMAN AND THALIA BEATY

"Melinda French Gates to donate $1 billion over next 2 years in support of women’s rights"

https://apnews.com/article/melinda-french-gates-donation-reproductive-women-rights-ab3512903cac247960d1fe03eabaeb89

It's fine, it's just a life mission kinda thing.

I can deal with the PMDD and PMS. I can drink celery juice and eat oatmeal for breakfast. I bet my body will like me better when I do that. 

I am...grateful!

Land-owning Gentry road trip to Dearborn, Michigan to discuss which kind of love they're the best at

"'Zone of Interest’: We Can Critically Debate Geopolitics, But Can We Agree That Innocent People Should Not Die?"

https://americankahani.com/perspectives/zone-of-interest-we-can-critically-debate-geopolitics-but-can-we-agree-that-innocent-people-should-not-die/

"Group Files New ICC Complaint Over Journalists Killed by Israel in Gaza

Reporters Without Borders says it has 'reasonable grounds for thinking that some of these journalists were deliberately killed and that the others were the victims of deliberate IDF attacks against civilians.'"

https://www.commondreams.org/news/journalists-killed-in-gaza-2668385906

Fascinating. Who cares?

"The 19th receives multimillion-dollar grant from Melinda French Gates, Pivotal

The multi-year support will allow us to grow our journalistic ambitions and our audience, while investing in our long-term sustainability" 

https://19thnews.org/2024/05/melinda-french-gates-pivotal-multi-million-dollar-grant/

If you've ever survived an environment in which people were blatantly unashamed about being determined to ignore inequities that are going to look so much more difficult to ignore in the future...

Your universe might also be telling you that sometimes, the Nazis of the past were just the bullies that you chose to align yourselves with. In a different lifetime. In exchange for some benefits, and some paychecks, and perhaps to make things more comfortable for your circle of friends.

Maybe that's what happened in a previous lifetime.

But humans are meant to evolve.

Can't you do so much better than that now?

What can you do about that now? Good grandparents of the future.

And if the descendants care a whole lot more about a wider variety of people than you were trained to and if acting like only men of materialistic privilege are the important ones falls out of fashion...

Taking extra black currant oil tonite.

I certainly have been feeling premenstrual. I suppose that could be a partial explanation for some things.

I suppose black currant oil is not a cure-all. But I do believe it helps.

I think this is a cute chart with hearts that are in the shape of a flower.

"Types of Love" – Lovepop

https://www.lovepop.com/blogs/pop-up-cards/types-of-love

It doesn't mention bullying aka love of the patriarchy, because that's toxic and abusive. And gives one bad dreams about World War II and things like that.

Tuesday, May 28, 2024

Depression happens for reasons.

I suppose I feel it's more psychologically healthy to be honest. There are times when society pressures you to not be honest or to conform or to practice something that feels like toxic positivity. Being cheerful and positive is more wonderful when it is genuine and not when it is a performance.

Healthcare Equity is just around the corner...

"We may have acted like a gang of uncaring bullies today, but society is changing! As soon as a bunch of other people get better, and as soon as they start acting better to others, then we're next."

"Which is a whole lot better than some people."

"We are so much nicer to girls and women than That Female MD who thinks nine-year-olds should give birth."

And therefore, they will just need children to be better to other human beings than they are?

This is the House of Horribly Sexist Women Who Magically Just Don't Care About Anything You Care About As Soon As They Cross It's Threshold Since You're Not An Abusive Source Of Financial Stability For Them. 

Puts food on the table.

Yeah, but humanity deserves better than misogynistic with men cult indoctrination anyways, as you may want to remind a Female MD who thinks nine-year-old rape victims should give birth to their rapists' babies. I'm sure you're not as heartless as she is!

Why so indifferent.

Does Grandma who needs some female people to be more worthless than others in order to comfortably reward men for the same behaviors that she feels the women should get punished for act like she doesn't like it? What about the other Grandmas?

CULT. Deprogramming. Is now in session!

"Since I'm not a maid, and someone apparently needs to feel above someone else to spice up their life, I'm gonna select you as one of the ones that the rich women with strong inner allegiances to being supportive of the Patriarchal..."

In honor of normally quiet dudes yelling loudly at the game

A Fundraiser: 'Before the next lifetime, Enlightened Grands are gonna get motivated to be just a lovely to the gals with PTSD' Gala.

Cheerful feminism?

 

"A night I will forever be so incredibly grateful for"

~ Bernadette Kirwan

https://www.instagram.com/bernadette.kirwan/p/C3fAXDvy3KP/?hl=en&img_index=2

"Who am I?"

~ Bernadette Kirwan

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cgy3RcnBvPw/?utm_source=ig_web_button_share_sheet

Poetry about the Patriarchy by Bernadette Kirwan

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C7giAlbONof/

Go for it, Universe

I wonder if the universe can help me more with this big non-paying job I've been dealing with in this lifetime, which is figuring out the best ways to treat this particular kind of female body.

I have emotional aftermath of cramps.

Once again, I believe that a good dose of black currant oil helps when dealing with painful cramps! But the emotional aftermath is still something to process.

First, I got this powerful feeling of grief, like think of keening, but silently on the inside. It truly was physical and almost seemed to come out of nowhere. 

Then I could feel the beginning of terrible cramps.

I took several herbs (including burdock, black cohosh, ginger) and a big black currant oil capsule.

Now I am just being quiet and grateful for the quick reduction in symptoms.

I am almost chastened by the experience. Which I have had hundreds of times. Nevertheless, I am affected.

Maybe this could be good.

"Although some poor girls said mean things about me, I decided to act like girls and women deserve human rights anyways -- lol!"

Just playing.

"Melinda French Gates Announces $1 Billion Grant..."

https://www.forbes.com/sites/siladityaray/2024/05/28/melinda-french-gates-announces-1-billion-grant-for-womens-causes-including-us-abortion-rights/

I'd cry more about that, too. Emotional development is healthy.

Some Dad is like "I can't believe that all these people I thought really liked me are gonna be so mean to me when I come back in the wrong kind of body," and I agree, that is really sad. It's really sad! It's almost sad enough to make you feel sick! What can be done to make it better?

Their behaviors! They would be so different!

"If only the lifestyles of Certain Dads or Moms weren't quite so reliant on such a misogynistic economy, they wouldn't still be repeating the old patterns of 'This Rich Guy Who Got Trained to Act Like He Just Doesn't Care About Your Human Rights is still our number one gateway to surviving another day of Patriarchal Nonsense.' Right?"

Huh, this is an interesting perspective and makes me think of that World War II show "World on Fire"

"LONDON — Social media, the 24-hour news cycle, and cellphones notwithstanding, Americans often find it hard to be interested in the world beyond our borders.

Unless, of course, people that don’t look or sound like us are actually crossing our borders; then, we pay attention.

But while the horrors of Gaza have grabbed the attention especially of young people, the U.S. feels comfortably distant from the horrors of the rest of the planet.

We have our own horrors, thank you very much.

But here in Britain, you don’t have the luxury of ignoring what’s going on in other countries.

The distance from Kyiv to the south coast of England is about 1,200 miles, which sounds like a lot until you consider that’s not even Tallahassee to Boston — and those two towns are in the same country.

But should Putin prevail in Ukraine, he could get tanks to Warsaw in less than 10 days. Then to Berlin in less than two days.

Then on to the shores of the North Sea where, on a clear day, you can see the White Cliffs of Dover.

Everyone in Britain understands that if Putin were to strike a NATO nation, there would be a war, and it would be fought on European soil."

~ Diane Roberts 

"Florida's trying to ignore obvious threats; they're closer to hand in Britain"

https://floridaphoenix.com/2024/05/28/floridas-trying-to-ignore-obvious-threats-theyre-closer-to-hand-in-britain/

Get more creative & imaginative; that will help.

I still have no idea why they're gonna be treated worse as varying kinds of girls and women by people like you when they come back to another reality, but I can see how some would say your shallow self-rescue really lacks ooomph.

Bold.

"International Day of Action for Women’s Health, annually celebrated on May 28, serves as a reminder that women have the fundamental right to live a healthy and happy life, free from abuse, discrimination, and violations of their rights."

https://indianexpress.com/article/when-is/international-day-of-action-for-womens-health-2024-know-the-date-theme-origin-and-significance-9354615/

They say he acts like a bully 'cause his parents didn't love him enough, but

A fairer view would point out that he acts like a bully because his Patriarchal Culture didn't love him enough.

Too hard, man. Maybe another time.

"How to hang out with me and not think about 'Maid' on Netflix."

It almost sounds like empirical experience that $ can't buy.

“'What I went through was barbaric and didn’t have to happen,' says Zurawski."

~ Terri Russell

"Women denied abortion speak of the dangers"

https://www.kolotv.com/2024/05/27/women-denied-abortion-speak-dangers/

"Zurawski says she was thrilled to be pregnant after undergoing infertility treatment.

But at 18 weeks she began to miscarry..."

~ Terri Russell

"Women denied abortion speak of the dangers"

https://www.kolotv.com/2024/05/27/women-denied-abortion-speak-dangers/

That also sounds like a sorry situation to have to death with.

"If I don't repeat their patterns, my parents will act like I'm just as worthless to them as an orphan from Gaza."

"That's why I don't take your health situation too seriously."

"If I'm not really mean like they are, my shallow, abusive, insecure, narcissistic parents who are deeply afraid of being emotionally abandoned to the point of even more toxic insensitivity than you can fathom will seriously totally disown me."

They are $0 silly.

"Utah moms at parade of homes"

~ Jessica and her friend Jane Williamson 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=CX8-ImU1BvY&si=lR6IzBbiKsvJDiik

Oh really? Even if she's more well off with her inheritance?

“As shocking as it is to contemplate, my 1-year-old granddaughter may grow up with fewer rights than I had.”

"Melinda French Gates commits $1B to advance women..."

https://thehill.com/homenews/4688727-melinda-french-gates-pivotal-giving-women-families/

Rich dads save themselves in their next incarnations

"Melinda French Gates to Donate $1 Billion to Groups Supporting Women, Abortion Rights

Philanthropist discloses her first major donations since saying she would resign from the Gates Foundation"

https://www.wsj.com/business/melinda-french-gates-to-donate-1-billion-to-groups-supporting-women-abortion-rights-62c7f316?mod=europe_news_article_pos1

An addictions counselor might know?

Who knows why bullying makes you or some other people feel better about life, apparently? 

Who knows why the more sensitivity-challenged, violent and selfish men of the Patriarchy are still some of your preferred choices?

Don't wait around all century for that.

The anti-Bob Hopes of your culture aren't gonna be able to help your kind until they get a lot more motivated to help themselves.

Here's a lack of affordable housing; there's a bunch of babies being born into poverty

Coalition of children and spouses of Patriarchal bullies explain why these things just make them want to dig in their heels and be even MEANER to the less fortunate!

That'd be nicer to all the grandchildren.

"We'll make up for our narcissistic tendencies by donating to reproductive rights organizations and funding orphanages, either right before we die, or in the next lifetime."

No fair, why is that still their favorite self-indulgence?

"Really addicted to binging on 'How to get the most fortunate ones to not only act like I am far more important than everyone else, but to also act as if I deserve to have more fun by being an insecure, insensitive bully to the 'non-important ones.'"

"Also, it is much kinder to children."

Financial guru explains to self-absorbed, abusive, patriarchal jerks who are still addicted to acting like insensitive bullies why it's never too late to change and to start acting like you actually do care about human rights for x types of people. 

Monday, May 27, 2024

Nice...

"Excerpt from pg. 92 in my book, Recovery Through Poetry"

~ Bernadette Kirwan

https://youtube.com/shorts/_6kQV17MEgM?si=-w9UeJL_3-gE0vNB

I am SO tired.

I think some people still act like little butts even though they're getting up there in years because they lacked affection in their childhoods. Wow! Now it could be up to a 40% to 60% chance of having ability to meet them on their stolen lands. That's probably too much, better get to backpedaling.

I'm thinking of going back to a simpler state of mind via time travel.

girl in red - "Too Much (Official Video)"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=RDGDDYDf5FE&si=MJT6wdvqMmi8jVJn

I will have fun times sushi and karaoke and bring this song back with me because I heard it on the radio today and I thought "that's an interesting one." 

Pathetic.

"I am worth more to the violent bigots with more money than some children."

So, what's the good news for the landowners with more money who paid for this?

"Israel-Gaza war: At least 45, including 23 women, children and elderly, killed as Israel strikes tent city in Rafah assault

Strikes could hinder talks towards a truce and hostage release deal, Qatar says"

https://gulfnews.com/world/mena/israel-gaza-war-at-least-45-including-23-women-children-and-elderly-killed-as-israel-strikes-tent-city-in-rafah-assault-1.102833075

No, I do not.

Do you think "agape" means rich, entitled white men are more important, and therefore more empowered to inflict violence on other humans, and to get away with inflicting violence on others, and to be excused and even celebrated for inflicting that violence on other people?

I think there's a reason you're addicted to bullying and are having a hard time getting to step one of Step 12.

I don't think you are around very many people who really love you. And the reason why I say that is because I can tell that if you were in a different body, they would treat you like you're a worthless piece of trash. Because that's how they treat other human beings. Because they're bigots.

So pricey.

This doll says "How come the patriarchy wants to make excuses for you treating girls and women like they're pieces of trash?? How come you find girls and women who make excuses for you when you do so?? Why are money and shallow comforts more important to you than human rights??"

If Great One perished in the latest unfortunate mishap

Perhaps the next incarnation will happen in an American Doll (sorry, I mean) Girl Cafe?

Why can't your money at least pay for real therapy?

"Israel-Gaza live updates: Netanyahu calls strike on Rafah that killed 50 a 'tragic mishap'

France condemned the attack calling for an immediate cease-fire."

https://abcnews.go.com/International/live-updates/israel-gaza-hamas-war-updates/?id=110580308

This afternoon, I'm going to have a hot dog and a hamburger.

Out-of-wedlock deceased Great Grandpas' ghosts everywhere support this decision.

Still haunted by...a Plethora!

You can't say I was only haunted by one particular kind of ghost, Henry Higgins.

"My Fair Lady has its problems but I still idolise Eliza Doolittle"

https://www.theguardian.com/stage/2022/apr/28/eliza-doolittle-my-fair-lady-audrey-hepburn-henry-higgins

"Why Three Amigos Still Holds Up Decades Later" 

https://www.ign.com/videos/why-three-amigos-still-holds-up-decades-later-cinefix-top-100

Hmmm. I see trauma.

I watched it twice, and I'm still disturbed. 

"This military dad brought me to tears"

~ The Magic Show

https://www.facebook.com/reel/4008531002707669?sfnsn=mo&mibextid=xCPwDs

Humanity needs advances in psychology, maybe.

Something to keep in mind. If you're having a cookout. Today.

I still don't find it fair that my body wants to give me worse menstrual cramps at certain times of the month if I want to eat hotdogs and hamburgers on buns.

Oh, are people godsipping again?

"'Yes,’ Sabet agrees, ‘there are forces. I think they are benevolent.’ She says that in some ways ‘the house has been the third character in our relationship’."

~ Clare Conway 

"As the Rolling Stones release their new hit Scarlet, the song’s writer – Led Zeppelin’s Jimmy Page – and his girlfriend Scarlett Sabet welcome Tatler to their Gothic castle"

https://www.tatler.com/article/jimmy-page-scarlett-sabet-interview-london-house-rolling-stones-song

Well, some would say it's not fair 

"Possession" written and performed by Scarlett Sabet

https://youtube.com/watch?v=IAVCLfrzA9o&si=Zaq03P7M_GpalY4y

to compare

Sarah McLachlan - "Possession"

https://youtube.com/watch?v=itydwcyywBc&si=JcVhufI1x04VOSwf

But I dunno, god...

"'It's about evoking feelings in people,' says rock photographer Scarlet Page"

https://www.digitalcameraworld.com/features/its-about-evoking-feelings-in-people-says-rock-photographer-scarlet-page

I think 

"KipShots on X: 'Jimmy Page, 79, introduces girlfri...'"

https://x.com/kipshots/status/1763939152033108389

that's one of the creepiest pictures yet...

"One of my favorite memories from Late Night is when Chris Robinson helped me use the Masturbating Bear to prank Jimmy Page." -Conan.

https://www.instagram.com/teamcoco/

Life is this body is better again.

It's been better since those pains faded away ten minutes ago.

Dear healing blessed universe...

The cramps are back. It is harsh. I am sorry if less than optimal eating habits brought back these miserable pains. But I have some tools.

Sunday, May 26, 2024

I actually feel pretty good.

What if this is the magic of the black currant seed oil and the ginger and the castor oil pack combined with a little bit of the good healing music. 

I almost wonder why I've ever let anything upset me. Almost wonder why I didn't just accept what I went through, because maybe I was supposed to feel certain things and know more about about certain kinds of experiences, and accept the isolation it brought and those feelings, instead of making it even more painful by chewing on my fingers and shirt, but it was from the feeling of not having an outlet for that kind of pain. But what if I could just accept that pain as a learning experience?

This is such an interesting feeling, of doing a good job at getting myself into a healing space. It's almost like I gave myself a spa treatment.

I should relax and watch an NDE video.

Some cramps have been like NDEs for some people. And I may become all about angels and healing energies soon. What if that's me? What if everything else was a phase...

Okay I did eat too much bread but I swear I am recovering faster!

"STOP MENSTRUAL CRAMPS - Luna's Touch" - Pain Relief Music Therapy

~ Brainwave Music

https://youtu.be/zi8GWfU4Rk0?feature=shared

I want menstrual cramp representation in cinema.

Just staring up at the ceiling with this music.

Took 1 large black currant oil capsule and chewed on some raw ginger I put in tea and applied my version of a castor oil pack with a heating pad.

I think they went away much faster for sure!

This is amazing, to me!


Humans need to have fun and tap into creativity more.

I think they have some skills at making human troubles feel more upbeat...haha!!!!

"I'm Looking Through You" (Remastered 2009)

~ The Beatles 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=gH6i9JAdJrQ&si=HQA_YZEz_jMd96Sc

It's funny.

Things I've Been Silent About by Azar Nafisi | Goodreads

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/2910034-things-i-ve-been-silent-about

I think pages 206 - 208 would make such good scenes in a film!


Mothers


Sisters 

Marriage

Potential is boundless.

Nevertheless, when it becomes clear that certain "successful" people still feel the need to trauma/rage dump like entitled lords, it's probably indicating that they need help from other sources, and in the meantime, they probably will not be the ones who will know how to assist you.

Tomorrow, the moor will

Joke about how funny it is that you both don't care about your daughters' civil rights!

OR

Know how to have coffee with human beings and respect them.

Road trips to Dearborn could be another opportunity?

Oh wait, she lives in Texas. She probably knows that's a very bad state to be a woman in right now.

"get to know me while I paint a bookshelf"

~ gabschase

https://youtube.com/watch?v=lUWWE7ZIusE&si=ILkVYWvqd-OI5gSX

Talia Jane ❤️‍πŸ”₯ on X: "Your tax dollars and tuition pay for this. Your politicians tell you this is a right to self defense. Your police departments violently arrest you for demanding it stop."

https://x.com/taliaotg/status/1794845099828138095

Take your black currant oil while it's still available!

How to act like you may be on your way up to becoming an honorary entitled Lord of the Manor, too?

Imagine if the patriarchy truly cared about women's health!

Imagine how much better off financially a nice man I live with who has been working full-time since the 90s would be if I had just discovered black currant oil many, many years earlier! Maybe could have gotten a little condo or something.

So far, no more cramps today! Got some work done, too.Thanks, black currant oil!

"Bernie Sanders on X: 'This is what a Trump presidency and 'leaving abortion up to the states' would look like:

Up to 10 years in jail in Louisiana for possession of misoprostol, a safe and effective drug used to treat miscarriages and terminate pregnancy."

https://x.com/BernieSanders/status/1794033220306207045?ref_src=twsrc%5Egoogle%7Ctwcamp%5Eserp%7Ctwgr%5Etweet

I guess some dads just don't care. But others might! Hopefully.

"Ron DeSantis’ anti-climate plans take a ludicrous turn in Florida

Florida is uniquely vulnerable to the climate crisis. Republican Gov. Ron DeSantis and his allies have approved an aggressively anti-climate law anyway."

https://www.msnbc.com/rachel-maddow-show/maddowblog/ron-desantis-anti-climate-plans-take-ludicrous-turn-florida-rcna152541

Ooooo, just remembered 𓏒

Wanting to learn more about the harp when I was a kid.

"Nordic harp: like Celtic, but with its own twist -freshen your repertoire! (with Erik Ask-Upmark)

~ Diana Rowan

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSqLbBqKP1k

Your Neurodivergence is showing again.

Provocative sodas made by the same company?

Not Seekola & Orthodox Jooce

"If the Nazi’s during World War II knew that one could be born Jewish in one lifetime and Christian in another, the Holocaust could never have happened. Similarly, when Muslim Palestinians realize that then can be reborn as Israeli Jews, when Sunni’s know they can reincarnate as Shiites, Christians understand they can be reborn into an Islamic culture and vice versa, then conflict based on these cultural differences of identity will be mitigated.

Barbro Karlen’s case dramatically demonstrates how reincarnation research and evidence of reincarnation can transform the world in a positive way."

Article from Born Again, by Walter Semkiw, MD

https://www.reincarnationresearch.com/reincarnation-case-of-anne-frank-barbro-karlen/

I just find reincarnation to be a very interesting concept.

Have you made sure that none of your grandchildren are going to be in the "worthless to the society according to the company you choose to keep" category based on your personal preferences?

I feel the mood is somber but Memorial Day is tomorrow?

How's everyone who's alive but apparently too worthless to society to be good at acting positive on Facebook or LinkedIn doing today?? Do you think any military guys have reincarnated into any other kind of being at any point in time in the history of the universe??

Keep your senses o' humor about ya's; look at them!

A day without...

Maybe maybe maybe

https://www.reddit.com/r/maybemaybemaybe/s/DDkADLoBVb

All the rich golfers getting the most upvotes on that one site. Lol!

"A Day Without a Mexican" - Trailer

https://youtube.com/watch?v=cYJcfhxMkrQ&si=gM0F-EtNAbUsOe8U

I'll probably have to try golf now.

"A Good Walk Spoiled" — Revisionist History

https://www.pushkin.fm/podcasts/revisionist-history/a-good-walk-spoiled

The courses are pretty! Well-man-tained. Some of them are nice for the wildlife, I hear?

Perhaps it's just too much for some people.

All those "neurodivergent" and "ability challenged" and "not so heteronormative" people the grandkids of the future could know how to be much nicer to than what got role modeled for them?

Painful cramps are back this morning.

Today I will be diligent with the black currant oil and other things like ginger and magnesium.

Pain has a way of giving you a direct message that your job is to take care of yourself and not get so affected by others' behavioral patterns.

Saturday, May 25, 2024

It seems like black currant oil is keeping some things (like pains) at a distance, altho not entirely, as I do still feel twinges

It seems like my consciousness was open to experiencing some of what other people learned in other times, as if maybe that was part of me, too.

It seems like this song is one for me to listen to again.

"I'll Be Back (Remastered 2009)"

~ The Beatles

https://youtube.com/watch?v=fJSTBNTac6k&si=BtE0KPmwTRyuwihS

I would bet $ (just a little)

"The Sun Magazine"

https://www.thesunmagazine.org/about

One of my mom's spiritual friends used to read this publication, too, as part of her Interest in Literary Stuff, and she also watched PBS a lot. What is "The Sun Magazine" about these days... Should I have brought more friends to see her? The ones that came with me from college and visited her one time liked her. Did a drum circle in her basement. She had messages to give, and one of them cried.

Oh no what is it

"Saw The Eclipse And Aurora? Now Comes A Third Once in a Lifetime Event"

https://www.forbes.com/sites/jamiecartereurope/2024/05/25/saw-the-eclipse-and-aurora-now-comes-a-third-once-in-a-lifetime-event/

I sat next to the car / SpaceX guy on a plane and defied death by getting my ghost friend to help the pilot land us safely in Memphis and I think at some point I  told him I was going to try to eat more beans to loose weight. I have no idea what he's supposed to do with his life. Maybe try to make it better and evolve as a human being.

Formative experiences!!!

I really miss living on an island in the Pacific Northwest when I was at a certain age, and my mother had her friends who were so into spirituality and environmentalism and being independent, and I was so much more idealistic in that place, where it was like, both rural and liberal...man. I miss it. A lot.

At the same time, now I am older and I can find out more things from the internet and books, and I have really worked through some trauma since I lived there. I am more educated, and a stronger person in some ways, now. 

I certainly feel like am a much larger one, tonight. Lol.

I feel like I could roll out of a bed like a ball and down the hallway and just roll... I don't want to feel this way. I want to feel healthier. Let's get healthier, healthier. Let's not let the tendonitis make us too sedentary... That's trying to sing along to "Let's get Physical" which was around constantly as an exercise song in a 1980s childhood. 

That aerobics exercise culture they fed to us during the 1980s was quite allergy-inducing, really.

When I feel like moving, I will fix myself some lemon water.

I think I have this incredible need to detox. Maybe will drink celery juice again soon.

My lower back hurts and it's almost like that takes the place of what cramps were in the past. 

I know I have not been eating well over the last few months. I think the black currant oil and some other stuff like choline has been helping.

I wonder if thinking too much about deprived people who suffer is not good for eating habits at times.

Oh my God...I feel like I feel like I just have to detox and, like, drink celery juice and watermelon for a day, or something.

How about old golf courses.

"A Good Walk Spoiled" — Revisionist History — Malcolm Gladwell

https://www.pushkin.fm/podcasts/revisionist-history/a-good-walk-spoiled

Know of any old golf courses that could get bought and turned into green burial places / nature preserves / picnic areas?

Hehe, dad humor!

"Oh, here's a girl."


"Millennials can’t afford their own lives, let alone children || Motherhood in Progress"

EMBERS & ASH

https://youtube.com/watch?v=7dY7KA_OPVo&si=RmrPE2DiToen7_qV

There's a commenter who speaks well of Germany.

"Nearly 80% of Americans now consider fast food a 'luxury'"

https://www.reddit.com/r/economy/comments/1czni9s/nearly_80_of_americans_now_consider_fast_food_a/

RIP.

"Morgan Spurlock Dead: 'Super Size Me' Director Was 53"

https://variety.com/2024/film/obituaries-people-news/morgan-spurlock-dead-super-size-me-1236015338/

A more feminist upbringing awaits?

That dude. Looks like his dad!

Different though!


"Millennials can’t afford their own lives, let alone children || Motherhood in Progress"

EMBERS & ASH

https://youtube.com/watch?v=7dY7KA_OPVo&si=RmrPE2DiToen7_qV


"My mom was traumatized by all that."


"Millennials can’t afford their own lives, let alone children || Motherhood in Progress"

EMBERS & ASH

https://youtube.com/watch?v=7dY7KA_OPVo&si=RmrPE2DiToen7_qV

An interesting chart about THIS ERA

 


"Millennials can’t afford their own lives, let alone children || Motherhood in Progress"

EMBERS & ASH

https://youtube.com/watch?v=7dY7KA_OPVo&si=RmrPE2DiToen7_qV

Ooooo, stop.

Itsa chart!

"Millennials can’t afford their own lives, let alone children || Motherhood in Progress"

EMBERS & ASH

https://youtube.com/watch?v=7dY7KA_OPVo&si=RmrPE2DiToen7_qV

Which ERA would be the best ONE to learn more about TODAY?!?

This is not the first time I've had this thought. ⏳πŸ›€️πŸ‘πŸ›£️πŸŒπŸŒ†πŸ™️πŸ§­πŸ—Ί️🏞️πŸšπŸ–️

I wonder if I should just start giving more obvious attention to the kinds of homes it looks like would be fun to live in, and then, just see what happens over the course of the next year or so?

Do you ever notice how society is getting more and more share-y

Like, it's just not stopping. 

"#pov Food ASMR 😳 #shorts ##youtubeshorts"

@HeyitsStuart

https://youtube.com/shorts/ZQ-sM-Aaeqg?si=wWlWl2jMcUF39FtP

Possibly, that's part of the reason why people don't say things like "That's so gay!" as an insult now, compared to a few decades ago.

"#pov Being Bisexual #shorts #lgbtqia #youtubeshorts"

@HeyitsStuart

https://youtube.com/shorts/UQp9wzTg8iw?si=vps5YFDWuNuKxAHK

Maybe.

"#pov raised by cats #shorts #comedy"

@HeyitsStuart

https://youtube.com/shorts/18nRTtqvAT8?si=xjU9NYBMppHS8zAB

Cat wants to enjoy the outdoor space

It's very wet & gray out there. Feels like I could be up north in the Pacific NW today...or maybe even in the British Isles! Time for tea.

50 Years of Music: 2004 - Blonde Redhead - "Equus"

https://www.kexp.org/read/2022/8/31/50-years-of-music-2004-blonde-redhead-equus/

Caturday is off to a rather tart start! 😹

"Kids today, I swear.

Standing around on college lawns, protesting against genocide, calling for a ceasefire in Gaza and an end to arms shipments — what are they thinking? These students should be shopping, getting wasted at end-of-semester parties, and engaging in meaningless sex.

Instead, they’re going around acting like citizens, engaging in civil disobedience, exercising their right to free speech, telling university administrations to get rid of all investments in Israel, and demanding humanitarian aid for Palestinians.

Don’t they know protests are unnecessary pointless, and annoying?

Look at the civil rights nonsense in the 1950s and 1960s: Sure, the March on Washington, the Freedom Rides, and that business in Selma bullied the federal government into letting Black people sit in the front of the bus and even vote, but was it really worth all the discomfort it caused the nice White People Who Built America?

If only that Martin Luther King fellow hadn’t been so impatient. I’m sure we would have gotten around to giving minorities some rights. Eventually."

~ Diane Roberts

https://floridaphoenix.com/2024/05/06/campus-unrest-free-speech-out-of-control-these-damn-kids-think-they-can-say-whatever-they-want/

It does sound like he had a lot of energy and curiosity.

"Graham would be the first to acknowledge his privilege: His older brother, Philip, became the publisher and owner of the Washington Post as well as a confidant of John F. Kennedy; Philip’s wife, Katharine, oversaw the paper when it broke the Watergate stories; his other brother, Bill, helmed the Graham Cos., which built Miami Lakes, Florida’s first “new town.”

Yet he was fascinated by lives very different from his own. Maybe this was the impetus behind his famous “workdays” — that and first-rate campaign instincts. Graham bussed tables, picked tomatoes, hefted garbage cans, bellhopped, cleared brush, taught school, packed fish, cut hair, flew planes, and set up rigging and camera equipment as a grip on the 1983 Burt Reynolds movie 'Stick.'

He understood regular people because he talked to them all the time; he understood regular jobs because he did them — more than 400 of them.

In 2010, five years after he’d retired from the Senate, he decided he wanted to see my office at FSU before we went to lunch. God knows why: The Williams Building is not exactly an architectural masterpiece.

I met him in the university guest parking lot, and what should have been a two-minute walk to my office took more like 45 minutes. He stopped every student and professor we encountered. Some of them knew who he was; some (undergraduates who weren’t born when he served as governor) hadn’t a clue. He didn’t care: He interviewed each one. Where are you from? What are you majoring in? What are you teaching? Why did you choose FSU? What are you reading?"

~ Diane Roberts

https://floridaphoenix.com/2024/04/22/when-human-beings-led-our-state/

It is quite painful to consider.

That some people are failing their fellow humans and faring poorly in spite of their materialistic advantages.

When some people, including some who are parents, are still acting like they don't think that certain kinds of humans or human rights matter, just because a select few amongst the Patriarchal people benefit more from going along with that mindset in the short term....

Who can truly believe that's good enough for all kinds of people in society to be an adequately acceptable long term strategy?

Of course, not everyone can get equally rewarded for acting like the men with money are the most important ones in a Patriarchal Society.

"Misogyny is not a bug, it’s a feature of America’s blooming love affair with authoritarianism."

~ Diane Roberts

"We all thought women’s rights were a done deal. We were wrong"

https://floridaphoenix.com/2024/03/04/we-all-thought-womens-rights-were-a-done-deal-we-thought-wrong/


Of course, not all kinds of bodies could get equally rewarded for adhering to this lifestyle.

"Pipe down!

The uber-Right keeps wishing chicks would just pipe down and accept their place in the Christian Nationalist order as good mothers and good wives, serving wenches at the masculinist feast, worker bees helping to make America 1850 again.

Some girls got the memo."

~ Diane Roberts

"We all thought women’s rights were a done deal. We were wrong"

https://floridaphoenix.com/2024/03/04/we-all-thought-womens-rights-were-a-done-deal-we-thought-wrong/

It is so weird.


When I start watching something about a human way to deal with trauma, and my cat, who was not in the room, comes in, jumps up, and settles right next to me / on top of part of me, and starts purring super loudly.

"The Story of How I Survived Gun Violence"

~ N. Boulden

https://youtube.com/watch?v=dBc17_9lBuA&si=Xx1tyYNIW1_T8ABZ

A dancing channel...

"I’d love to hear your thoughts on what might be different for you..."

~ Nurjahan Boulden

https://youtube.com/shorts/WxoLKlP3wfI?si=W9UufoLDe7zxmuDZ

"We need representation from people who grew up with belly dance"

~ Nurjahan Boulden

https://youtube.com/shorts/QwFtW586FMA?si=e2esfVCxtz1PoYF_

"I can only hope that the tide of change is stronger than those who resist it"

~ Nurjahan Boulden

https://youtube.com/shorts/Eu6NMIr1w0M?si=16qyww8lzyEagwNP