It went very well with cleaning parts of a juicer.
Suzan & Freek ft. Snelle - "De Overkant | LIVE in de Ziggo Dome"
Wednesday, August 27, 2025
We also have great opportunities to put healing first.
"Higher Self Sound Bath for Ascension | Music for Addiction, Transcendence and Self-transformation"
Healing Vibrations
We have great opportunities to learn from human imperfections.
"Do you think Hannah Arendt's idea of the banality of evil still applies today..."
https://www.reddit.com/r/CriticalTheory/s/czqlnD4Wiu
"Hannah Arendt and 'the Banality of Evil'” | by Andrew Szanton | Medium
https://medium.com/@andrewszanton/hannah-arendt-and-the-banality-of-evil-5af981b61068
Another day and more steps towards something better.
Today I am working on holding space for healing while acknowledging that some jarring consequences can occur when traumatic responses are not healed enough. Really not wanting to repeat certain patterns because they gave me shivers and panic attacks (I will look more into "The Banality of Evil.")
But now, I really do want to focus more on healing while acknowledging also that there have been real reasons why I felt certain kinds of angry or resistant responses. I want to know how to integrate that into a more healing way of life, because if the anger and the resistance gets out of hand, it's just not going to be good for this body, and I have learned that very well.
Stress inflicted medical issues have resulted in significant consequences, but positive changes can also come about. I can still endeavor to make the best of this experience and turn it into a healing one.
Tuesday, August 26, 2025
Ouch!
It almost seems like when some people can't talk about issues or can't admit that there are alternative ways of looking at things, they are clinging to a point of view that is so discriminatory, and so narrow, and so mean, that they don't even realize they're punishing themselves by doing that.
Like, they're actually being mean to themselves, because in this life, lots of people can be curious and open about different perspectives and different experiences. But if they need to be right so much that they have to discriminate against other people, it seems like they're operating under some very shame-based programs, because to admit fault or lack of knowledge about anything means to admit to being "a terrible person" or something like that, to them.
Like the way people are called terrible sinners when they are raised in conservative religious environments. Sometimes, that stuff gets into their heads and they seem to not realize that they're still operating under those belief systems. It's very hard for some people to relinquish control or to see different points of view for some reason. Maybe they're too afraid of the things they don't want to see, or look at, or even try to consider, to have any kind of discussion.
It's an interesting take.
"Trump's right about something finally"
amandasmildtakes
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNyeE16XPY5/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
It's a whole thing; however, it's not just aggrieved working class white men who got got indoctrinated with patriarchal ideology when they were so small that it still is what feels the most normal and like it is what's safest for them to go along with.
I guess some things can be fun, sometimes, for certain people.
"Taliban welcomes American influencers to Afghanistan"
CNN
Maybe some people don't wanna change because they're just fine with the way things are.
"Donald Trump Says 'Maybe' People Like Dictators"
https://www.newsweek.com/donald-trump-dictators-washington-dc-national-guard-chicago-2118785
They're making school go online again.
“'I have children that I do fear when they go out into the street they might be picked up even though they were born here,' Martinez said."
~ Martín Macías Jr.
"LAUSD families are switching to online school because they’re scared of ICE raids"
https://lapublicpress.org/2025/08/lausd-families-switching-to-online-school-scared-of-ice-raids/
It feels like the makeup is not really going to help.
I feel burnt out on human selfishness and I don't care if selfishness got certain people to feel a specific version of "successful." If you don't want to know about a bigger way of life anymore, you are cheating yourself.
How can makeup help?
"Gaslight, Gatekeep, Glossier: On Marisa Meltzer’s 'Glossy'” | Los Angeles Review of Books
https://lareviewofbooks.org/article/gaslight-gatekeep-glossier-on-marisa-meltzers-glossy
Just remember to expect better.
"When immigration shows up at daycare: crackdown in DC terrifies families and workers | Washington DC"| The Guardian
Dramatic medical emergencies will make you have to focus more on your own health, but it's still possible to expect better of an unwell society.
Sunday, August 24, 2025
Evening has been better!
Also, maybe the clouds gave me this idea, but it's occurred to me if some people who are more sensitive have spent a lot of their lives feeling unhappy because of other people seeming to be insensitive and mean to the point where it's damaging and threatening people's safety, maybe it's also a good time to get curious. And if you think you can't be too curious about other people because it only makes you feel even worse to look at the meanness, get curious about yourself. What is it that makes what feels like a "normal" level of sensitivity to you, not a "normal" level of sensitivity to others? What are the potential benefits of being so sensitive?
Saturday, August 23, 2025
Oh, and another thing...
What is up with this women being placed under a conservatorship stuff?
"Amanda Bynes journey"
pastvision.ai
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNG3RpcoYre/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Sometimes, this message comes up.
"It seems my nervous system is incompatible with your b*******. Bye!"
Sigh.
Irresponsible people are great at seeming like another hurdle rather than a hands up. Sometimes it's hard to believe how awful some people will be just to make themselves feel important, but I guess that's their choice. It feels so sick though. Well, better to let some higher and more knowledgeable forces handle that.
Too bad. What if he could have gotten help a long, long time ago...
A Sullivan's Island software developer has rage issues and abuses women.
"1 of the men Rep. Mace accused of 'heinous crimes' arrested for domestic violence in unrelated case"
Kudzu is edible. Let them eat Kudzu?
"Cooking Kudzu: The Invasive Species Is on the Menu in the South" | Civil Eats
https://civileats.com/2024/04/02/cooking-kudzu-the-invasive-species-is-on-the-menu-in-the-south/
Priorities, and what to do about them?
"Local businesses depend on the farmworkers nearby, and if the planning commission doesn't extend the permit, those businesses will be displaced in addition to the farmworkers."
~ Jack Orleans
"King City pushes back farmworker housing decision"
https://www.ksbw.com/article/king-city-farmworker-housing-decision-california/65834251
Someone's got to supply more of these places with the healthy foods!
"The combination of slapping tariffs on food trade partners and cutting aid programs seems like a perfect way to exacerbate an ongoing hunger problem in the U.S. In 2023, one in seven households faced food insecurity at some point in the year. For Baltimore residents, 28 percent reported experiencing food insecurity last year—twice the national average. Bangura described a time when a group of nurses came to Pratt Free Market on their lunch break, looking to pick up some food. She says that other working people have done the same."
~ Sam Delgado
https://civileats.com/2025/04/14/at-these-grocery-stores-no-one-pays/
I mean, she's a mom, not a saint!
Let she who subsists solely on communion waivers cast the first stone.
She is a mom! Someone has to feed her. Sometimes, it's someone's kids.
"Representative Nancy Mace (R-South Carolina) posted on X that it wasn’t the government’s responsibility to 'pay for someone else’s soda.'
'You want a soda? Get a job and go buy it yourself,' Mace wrote.
Though Mace alludes to SNAP recipients choosing 'unhealthy' foods, restricting options for beneficiaries does nothing to address affordability or accessibility, says Salaam Bhatti, SNAP director at FRAC. 'If your goal is for people to eat healthier, you have to understand that the healthier food is the most expensive food in a grocery store,' he said. 'If you really want people to buy better food, then increase the SNAP benefit, because right now, it’s only an average of $6 per person per day.'”
~ Sam Delgado
"At These Grocery Stores, No One Pays" | Civil Eats
https://civileats.com/2025/04/14/at-these-grocery-stores-no-one-pays/
The bullies are the world's great unhealed children.
I wish the unwell pie truck ha, ha, sorry I meant to say, you, patriarchal people, didn't want to trick people into being so mean to all kinds of other people, including lots and lots of little kids but...
Kind of like, when YOU know that YOU deserve better?
Do you think that it's ever a form of self-love to expect better for humanity in general?
Food prices might be rising, but this is an interesting read, too!
"At These Grocery Stores, No One Pays" | Civil Eats
https://civileats.com/2025/04/14/at-these-grocery-stores-no-one-pays/
That's just another side effect of living in an unwell patriarchal culture, sometimes.
Sometimes, I am rather glad that unwell patriarchal culture does not want to value people like me.
It makes me sad to realize that if patriarchal culture wanted me to become a valued but selfish, unwell man, it would also want me to act like one of the patriarchal women who constantly give preference to selfish, unwell men and to act like they are the most valuable.
"Those the best kinds of women for me to be around," I would probably be thinking.
Eeeeeesh.
Why do they want to prolong the misery of ignorance?
I don't know why.
It doesn't seem like a good idea to me, but I guess it does to them.
I suppose in a way it is like their safe space, or something. They've been convinced to become comfortable with or accustomed to that way of living.
Patriarchal culture is just really bad for some people.
For example, this mom. She has a very unwell son who has been terrible to her daughter and to her.
"Mild crash out..."
Annie
Friday, August 22, 2025
I want to hear more about this Awakening.
"Dolores Cannon Predicted the Awakening of 2025/26"
Quantum Quest
What brings peace?
That's different everyday.
"Back-to-Back Slum Housing: The Forgotten Lives Behind The Walls"
Through Lucy's Lens
Who has migrated to a grocery store recently?
"There can be no doubt that migration, documented and undocumented, will increase in the future. Even the most optimistic predictions of the consequences of climate change or other major disruptions include massive migration. As new and greater populations are forced into the underground, we are fostering the growth of new migratory languages, and these new languages are in turn fostering what Gog, the King of the Tramps, called self-awareness, the knowledge that the undocumented belong to a new and growing class of migrants that stretches to many parts of the world.
What if Rotwelsch wasn't a historical curiosity, but a harbinger of the future?
Rotwelsch Lesson: The American Oath of Allegiance
I dibber, and gable, that I will rat on any welsch baldower, schiankel, martine zi kohl which I have geschomst.
I hereby declare, under oath, that I absolutely, and entirely renounce and abjure all allegiance and fidelity to any Foreign Prince, Potentate, State or Sovereignty of whom or of which I have heretofore been a subject or citizen.
(Literal translation: I say and swear that I will betray [there is no word in Rotswelsch for allegiance or fidelity] all foreign leaders, kings and states which I used to serve.)"
Page 210
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, beautiful meals...
You have eaten so much food touched by the hands of undocumented immigrants in this life. Soooo much! Some of those hands were probably not even grown-up hands, you know. So children have been feeding you.
Join the normalization project!?
"Pentagon asks civilian employees to join 'volunteer force’ to aid Ice deportations
Selected employees will join Trump’s mass deportation campaign and ‘offer critical support’ to Ice operations"
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025/aug/21/trump-hegseth-pentagon-ice
Gangs can give sad people a purpose and a sense of identity!?
Beware LA Chancla!
"Latino Culture Must Stop Normalizing Child Abuse (Opinion)"
https://www.latinorebels.com/2022/06/27/latinochildabuse/
"The Impact of Childhood Trauma on Adult Relationships
Those with a history of trauma may normalize red flags and ignore bad behaviors"
"The Sexual-Abuse Cabinet:
Trump’s second term is shaping up to platform even more men who have been credibly accused of sexual abuse"
https://slate.com/news-and-politics/2024/11/trump-cabinet-picks-sexual-abusers-matt-gaetz.html
"Thanks, Trump: ICE Just Gassed a Public School Into Submission
Federal riot police are bombarding a Portland neighborhood with so many chemical munitions it forced a public school to flee"
Even if you're not in the same place as some other people.
Thursday, August 21, 2025
The musical storytellers are fun, too.
"Florence + The Machine - Dog Days Are Over (Official Lyric Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=vDHr85LiwUM&si=9TGqQ5ZTU-vyMrPA
Silversun Pickups - "It Doesn't Matter Why (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=0nsJ8hnRkW4&si=DGh5gyyJP94AZE0K
Tori Amos - "Fire To Your Plain"
Sometimes this stuff calls to me.
I can read it and appreciate a certain kind of journey a lot, yet I know I'm going to have to do something different.
"He dug deeper into the history of Yiddish and was particularly interested in its enemies, inspired no doubt by his experience with Rotwelsch and its plentiful detractors, including his own father. In the case of Yiddish, however, there weren't just anti-semitic enemies to contend with but also groups within the Jewish community. Many rabbis and Bible scholars dismissed Yiddish as the language of everyday life and unfit for higher uses, like literature. Equally opposed to Yiddish, but for different reasons, were some of those advocating a return to Palestine. While a number of early Zionists imagined a Jewish state with German as its official language, others believed that in Palestine Jews would refer to Hebrew as the language of everyday life...Despite these external and internal enemies Yiddish expanded over the course of the 18th, 19th and early 20th centuries and as Günter discovered, one weapon proved particularly important for its defense: literature."
Page 137 of "The Language of Thieves: My Family's Obsession with a Secret Code the Nazis Tried to Eliminate" by Martin Puchner
"After the Bible and Shakespeare, there was no stopping him. He ranged widely in literary history, both high and low, translating an eighteenth century conduct manual instructing young gentlemen on how to address ladies, a Sicilian fairy tale, a lullaby, numerous short stories, and journalistic articles as well as a short text on Marxism and Christianity...All of these texts Günter painstakingly translated into Rotwelsh, a language only he could read. The absurdity of his undertaking haunted me. What could have been the purpose of this doomed translation exercise?"
Page 139, Martin Puchner
"Perhaps Günter's plunge into Rotwelsch was atonement or something closer to revenge. He mentioned several times that Yiddish and Rotwelsch speakers had been sent to concentration camps. The accusatory tone is palpable. The fact that he put his father's copy of Mein Kampf along his Rotwelsch books points in the same direction. My father had said that no one in the family knew about my grandfather's anti-Semitic articles, including the ones that talk about Rotwelsch. My cousins believe their father was drawn to the language solely because of its lightness and wit, but I can't shake the hunch that somehow my uncle must have known about his father's opposition to the language. The alternative seemed even stranger that he would have almost instinctively stumbled on the topic his father hated most. Even if Günter didn't know that his father objected to Rotwelsch and that this objection was connected with his father's compromised past, Günter's dedication to Rotwelsch would have served a more general, historical atonement, atonement for a regime that tried to eliminate the language and its speakers."
Page 142, Martin Puchner
"I now had before me the arc of Günter's work. It began with the literary journal, took a turn to Rotwelsch with his massive research and translation project, and ended with his attempted fusion of Rotwelsch and Yiddish into German. What looked to me like an eccentric hobby, then an obsession, turned out to be a serious undertaking with a purpose."
Page 147, Martin Puchner
The Language of Thieves: My Family's Obsession with a Secret Code the Nazis Tried to Eliminate by Martin Puchner | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/50489374-the-language-of-thieves
I'm glad to have the opportunity to read about things like this sometimes. Playing the male scholar / academic was not for me in this life, though. The body lets me know all the time that we will be doing something different in this life. Who knows what being successful could mean in the future?
Good to know: Lots of things can change.
I could have been more playful this month!
Well, there could still be some time left to be lighter. ☺️
"Boundaries of Balance: August Energy Forecast"
Prune Harris
https://youtube.com/watch?v=K4ym8akhW2E&si=f0yLwjfc7-nYUvIq
Now I have to attempt to have more health issues again. Lol, what did I just write. It was supposed to be "Now I have to tend to more health issues again."
What silliness is that?
Sorry body. We will be better.
Who knows why? Maybe nice people felt like being nice.
I guess I'm not so bad because I got upsized on a drink and then I got a small free drink as a sample when I went out to give myself a cold drink.
Lots of the big people were wounded and hurting and not well.
Just because you saw big people treating X types of people badly when you were a little person, that does not mean you have to replicate what the big people did to X types of people now that you're a bigger person yourself.
Knowledge is good.
A lot of people should stop treating other people's children so badly just so they can make themselves feel more acceptable to the bullies they either chose to be around, or somehow got assigned to in this life, to shape their characters.
Messages received over and over and over again!
I am the kind of female human that the patriarchy has groomed many shallow, sexist parents to treat like garbage.
Perplexing.
Can really dangerously racist people become the cute one everyone rolls their eyes at if their wives wish hard enough?
"Stephen Miller’s Wife Reveals He Was a Total ‘Bridezella'"
https://www.thedailybeast.com/stephen-millers-wife-reveals-he-was-a-total-bridezilla/
They certainly can try, because humans have free will.
"Maga star Katie Miller’s new podcast reeks of toxic femininity. I listened so you don’t have to" | Arwa Mahdawi | The Guardian
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2025/aug/14/katie-miller-podcast
Oh, come on now!
You might get mean and replicate certain behavior patterns when you're scared, but at least you're still a good person, and you're not, like, a Nazi concentration camp guard, or someone who's getting paid to act like a professional kidnapper under a corrupt administration, right?
Is this another example of what happens when bullying gets out of control?
What it’s like to live through LA’s long deportation summer
The Trump administration is encouraging immigrants to self-deport, and its raids in Los Angeles are making life miserable for many who stay.
"How Los Angeles immigration raids changed life in the city" - CalMatters
https://calmatters.org/justice/2025/08/la-immigration-raids-empty-spaces/
Where did some people learn to go along with this weird bullying stuff?
This little video about "community bullying" came up and I was like, hmmm. Why be like that when there are so many other ways to be?
Apparently, this video was made because of the perception that some adults who are mothers bullied a 13-year-old girl until she took her own life.
"They hide behind..."
the.echomovement
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DMdEQD7REUF/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Also, unfortunately, it just reminds me of how easily some people end up getting pushed into going along with various kinds of bullying behaviors just to "fit in" with their friends or their relatives or their workplace situations or so they can go along with whatever gets them access to resources they feel they need access to.
They don't want to think too deeply. They just feel the need to go along with whatever behavior got role modeled for them by others in order to get what they need.
It feels like he did what he came here to do.
"It's not what you call the country. It's how they treat their people that counts."
Ben Ferencz
"I Am The Last Surviving Prosecutor of the Nuremberg Trials"
Ashton Gleckman
Wednesday, August 20, 2025
Returning to something that was saved.
Spiritual beings are having human experiences.
"160Hz Migraine Relief Sound Bath | Delta Binaural Beats"
Healing Vibrations
Perhaps some learning has happened after all.
"Since the end of the war there has been much revisionist history about the role, and acts, of the Allied forces. Some of it challenges the idea that one side was 'evil', and the other 'good', and perhaps rightly so. Documents showed that the British and Americans were well aware of the extermination of the Jews in Auschwitz as far back as 1943 -- and dismissed a petition to bomb the gas chambers in the summer of 1944. A British Foreign Office official wrote that bombing Auschwitz might lead to a 'flood of refugees' who would head towards Palestine, then still a British protectorate, and demand an independent homeland. Maybe the bombing of Auschwitz would have made little difference, most of its victims were already dead by then. Maybe even more people would have been killed in the attack -- who knows. What is certain is that winning the war and maintaining a strong anti-immigration policy were more important priorities for the Allies than helping the Jews.
Much has also been written about the role of Russian soldiers in their campaign of rape against German women. I wish I could say that I can find it in my heart to feel sorry for these women but, given what happened to my family at the hands of the Nazi regime they supported, I cannot. You will have to understand that I cannot be objective about this subject -- my own suffering and loss will always be too deep and too raw. Intellectually, however, I believe that human rights applied to everyone and that atrocities committed against anyone are wrong."
Page 145, "After Auschwitz" by Eva Schloss | Goodreads
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/17828703-after-auschwitz
Maybe it will be more relaxing to enjoy some other fine old content now...
"America First - The Netherlands Second - Donald Trump"
De Avondshow...
https://youtube.com/watch?v=ELD2AwFN9Nc&si=YYSXYw5l8bI0qxOf
"Een kijkje in het oudste gasthuis van Groningen..."
OOG Groningen
In an alternate reality...👀
How can I figure out why I seem to think that making things so much worse for other people is what benefits me and my family? Maybe if we put some really unwell, corrupt people in charge of things then I will begin to figure this out.
What if that gets boring one day?
Their mouths say they believe in hard work but their behaviors reflect their addictions to sexism, racism, selfishness, and the exploitation of others.
What's worse to humans besides some big houses or bank accounts?
Brains that are so filled with bigotry, biases, and behavior patterns that they refuse to see any other ways of doing things.
Some people are gonna have to get bored of being bad to others.
"They talk a big game about 'protecting American jobs,' but when it comes time to choose between working families and wealthy landowners, they side with money every time."
~ Juanita Valdez-Cox
"Commentary: Farm workers deserve fair pay"
https://myrgv.com/opinion/2025/08/18/commentary-farm-workers-deserve-fair-pay/
They're not so evolved yet.
Forget Andrew Tate. Have you asked a sexist, selfish white guy's wife what she thinks girls REALLY deserve lately?
Or just skip over that and ask her about her childhood drama.
Wonder what happens to their voices in a crisis.
"Rainbow egg white cake 🍰🌈"
@msshiandmrhe
https://youtube.com/shorts/Sj4TevNqWjg?si=zOepArQeXdx1cxPK
"When my wife said we should start farming..."
@msshiandmrhe
That Unwell Guy And The Ones Surrounding Him Are There For Reasons?
Perhaps they are a way to process human beings' collective vulnerabilities and delusions, so that more can begin to acknowledge that when people are constantly persuaded to selfishly do what's worse for themselves and their children, not to mention what's worse for other people and their children, that's not going to be sustainable in the future.
Tuesday, August 19, 2025
I have a real body with real health needs to attend to.
Now I need to figure out how to heal more. Others need to figure out more about how to heal, too. I do not know why some people chose to behave in certain ways. But there’s more choices available. That's good to know.
Feeling some things.
This evening also features more tooth sensitivity, following dental x-rays and an exam which resulted in another tube of Sensodyne. I will apply its contents more liberally to certain teeth, along with some nano hydroxyaptite toothpaste.
This physical sensitivity shows me I am sorry that sensitive and vulnerable people suffer from the brutality and insensitivity of others.
People who have to act like insensitive bullies are not making great use of their time.
Some people who have seemed to have a good capacity for sensitivity sometimes also have gotten convinced to act otherwise, and that is stressful to behold.
Perhaps they buried parts of themselves in order to feel certain things? Maybe so.
People are complicated.
When more vulnerable humans get treated worse by insensitive ones, some of us get tired of people's brutality and remembering instances of it in this life.
I am more grateful when I remember there are still some sensitive ones on the planet.
The cat will rest.
The cat wants to go back to sleep now.
"Books aren't the only hidden gems..."
twicesoldtales
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNgagHjymAY/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Actually nice to point this out, too.
"You can tell it is too imbalanced and mean. You do not choose that way, and you also do not live with a person who chooses that way."
I noticed it felt more imbalanced and dangerous than ever when certain kinds of people were put in charge.
Some people who were mean in the past because they were trained to be insensitive could've easily shown some more growth and maturity, but they do not want to have honest conversations.
Instead, they cling to their little positions of authority in their minds almost as much as they seem to worship money and property ownership above all else.
Patriarchal cults want to turn their adherents into bullies who are too scared to change.
Monday, August 18, 2025
My little mini-staycation is really, really mini.
I lie in the bed at home and digest edamame and feel the cool a/c and look at my cat and do absolutely nothing. Good. Rest and repair this nervous system.
I want to see this on film sometime.
"Harriet Tubman, an Unsung Naturalist, Used Owl Calls as a Signal..."
"I picked up birding as a hobby..."
thenapministry
https://www.instagram.com/p/DMtEbmpuU31/?img_index=4&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Violence is so wasteful.
"Customs and Border Protection agent fires shots at man during operation in San Bernardino, DHS says"
Oh the mood! The mood is lightning. The mood is lightening.
Sometimes I think that even though reading or hearing about or feeling the effects of brutal oppression is very hard, maybe what I actually find is the hardest thing about being alive right now is how disappointing some people can be when times get tough.
They revert into child-like states.
I mean in movies about fascism, people rise to the occasion right? They get courageous and noble!
In a movie celebrating the ones who are true and good, you think you will know the ones who are like that if you were ever living in such dire times.
But honestly, a lot of people don't want to change. Sometimes they act like they want life to be like a party that revolves around their own ego. You get the sense that you really cannot rely on these people at all.
Or maybe they're scared.
So it's very disappointing, sometimes.
I mean it was beyond disappointing. It was like pea soup thick depression. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't know why I'm here.
But it's also very human.
Hey fascism, why can't you go back into your nice little movie that we can watch on the screen and then discuss the merits of the performance afterwards?
Why am I here?
I guess now it seems that I'm here to survive and to witness things and to evolve.
Thank you for the opportunity to evolve.
I want more people to get the good life that they deserve.
I want people to get the good nurturing and healing they deserve.
Lots of people can't just pretend that things are fine right now, and that's because a lot of stuff is happening that's shaking everything up. A lot of the systems were so unhealthy, and everything is falling apart.
And I think it's good to not have to pretend that things are fine, actually. It feels healthier to acknowledge that there's chaotic things happening to a lot of people right now.
It's more important to me that people get the healing that they deserve, and I don't think that pretending that things are fine when they're not fine is going to help that happen.
Things are not fine, but I'm going to learn how to be okay with knowing that, not in the sense that I don't want things to get better, but in the sense that, since things do not get better as fast or as quickly as maybe they would in some idealized world, taking care of ourselves as best as we can is what is really good for us now.
What's the up side again?
Some older people have made it a lot easier for some of the younger people to be way less racist or sexist or supportive of fascism.
Ha-ha.
Be Well, Governor's Social Media.
"Many of his posts are also done by other members of his team and by Newsom himself, according to his director of communications Izzy Gardon."
~ Denise Florez
"The Latina behind Governor Gavin Newsom’s social media posts"
Well, I'm just going to ground myself and get some errands done now.
How can some older people still act no more trustworthy than a drunken young person at a fraternity party where bad things are bound to happen?
Materialistic people really do seem like some of the very worst people at caring for themselves or others sometimes.
Also not great about taking responsibility or being at all sensitive in ways that could benefit both themselves and others, too
And they're still in so much pain, too.
They're just replicating the coping techniques that they learned, though.
Time to get grounded and get some stuff done now, cuz that's what I want to do.
Don't really want to stay inside having a panic attack all day.
Some grounding techniques are helping me.
In some ways, I feel like what people did by putting extremely irresponsible people in power is replicating how extremely irresponsible some adults and parents have been with children. People need to get better and stop being in denial. But anyways, everybody has to get better on their own timeline I guess.
It's hard to be here sometimes.
I just really want to cry right now. I'm not the only one having a hard time. A lot of people are having hard times these days.
People who are doing better seem to be from a long far away distant country right now.
I have no idea when I will feel better. But yesterday was better, actually.
I spent nice times with a good person and I had so much of the day when I wasn't feeling too bad and it was just like a big treasure to be able to feel that way.
I wonder if I can get feeling that way back again.
I can do more energy healing things and supplements and essences. And also I'm going to go out and do an errand or two.
Maybe any of these things will help.
Trivia... Now I know some stuff I didn't know before.
"Hendrick Hamel" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hendrick_Hamel
"We Found a Dutch Town with a Surprising Link to Korea"
buncharted
Everyone deserves healing, especially when they get those signals their body needs them to pay attention to.
However, the selfish people who don't want to know what you're going through are not helpful to the healing process. Maybe they need help you cannot provide, as well. Do you think you can find much better people or situations? Yes, you can.
It is very sad that humans are being treated this way on a massive scale on account of societal racism and insensitivity.
"Why A Farm Workers Union Leader Choose Self-Deportation"
https://paydayreport.com/why-a-farm-workers-union-leader-choose-self-deportation/
Some things that make this morning different.
Healing background music. Petting or appreciating a cat that wants to sleep next to me at the moment. Prayers. Some energy medicine techniques to address either nervous system and / or physical pain symptoms. Some flower essences. Appreciating that people deserve healing and people are getting healings and evolving everyday. Thanking the universe for the opportunity to heal another part of humanity today.
Today is different from yesterday.
Bless the nervous system and bless all the little messages we get.
This morning I remember that I have the sort of body that has taught me that sometimes I really do need to focus on healing more.
And that's why I will be focusing on things differently this morning and today.
A good reminder.
When you need to attend to your health and you know you need to do it, that is good work to do, because you are a part of humanity, and if you need healing, then that is the work you are supposed to be doing.
Sunday, August 17, 2025
Hollywood / Academia / Government will overlap forever?
So much replication!!! But it cannot go on forever???
"When 'Friendships' Are Patriarchal TRIANGULATION"
yv_edit
https://youtube.com/watch?v=KSnNXb3Yk6o&si=oK0a9qNttrHh5aAg
"Part 31 | Have you heard of the wétiko disease?"
Donnell
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT6Q1QJMy/
"Dr. Jack Forbes on European imperialism and the wétiko psychosis (inability to respect other forms of life and other individuals)"
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNV_Q1EMxjH/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
This is a nice story.
"Fellowship Lifts Mission of Farmworkers’ Daughter to Improve Immigrant Health | Newsroom"
She brought up a children's book about taking care of the planet.
"It was written in 1972..."
climatedpsych
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DLfBdIvo9iO/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
These are some thoughts about why imbalanced attitudes can really be bad for humans, so why can't humans do much better. Perhaps they can.
"Dr. Jack Forbes on European imperialism..."
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNV_Q1EMxjH/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Part 31 | Have you heard of the wétiko disease?"
Donnell
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT6Q1QJMy/
"Auschwitz: Inside the Nazi State..."
https://www.pbs.org/auschwitz/40-45/corruption/
April 1943 - March 1944
https://www.pbs.org/auschwitz/40-45/corruption/1943b.html
Donnell
"Part 54 | Indigenous People's Day..."
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT6QJJwFn/
"Dr. Jack Forbes on European imperialism and the wétiko psychosis (inability to respect other forms of life and other individuals)"
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNV_Q1EMxjH/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Saturday, August 16, 2025
This was today's reminder that cats can be silly creatures.
Even when they have aggressive tendencies.
"Dude Has Zero Impulse Control"
I can believe the Universe wants humans to believe that the Universe cares.
How much more grateful I feel, even though I still have a lot of that sadness. I feel grateful because the universe does care and that is the truth. It's normal for the universe to care for humans. All kinds of humans, even or especially humans that feel very broken or isolated or have come to master particularly difficult lessons in this life. And they may struggle along the way, because it's hard, because humans are trying to evolve, and some of them start evolving certain patterns before others do. That's how it goes when patterns evolve on Earth. Not everybody can be on the same page all the time. But the universe still cares and it's happy for humans to become happier and healthier humans.
I believe help is coming and part of it is already here.
I'm going to get help with healing now. I have gotten some help recently. But when I was by myself I started to feel worse again. I am going to get help with healing and letting go of some things. If other people need to be more offensive or stubborn for a while longer and they feel like that's what protects them for now, it's not necessary to get so sad about that. Being in different places is part of life on this planet. Just stay away from these people for now and help yourself with more healing, and maybe in the future you will be stronger and it won't be so upsetting, and you'll let it go more easily even if it does get to you. You can see and feel when you need healing and ask the universe for assistance. And do not expect people who are not open to experiencing those things to have any idea about what they're doing when they're being kind of crude or rude or just maybe not as refined as they could be when it comes to how they treat other people. Some are more wired for being more sensitive and more empathic and things like that. Things will unfold as they unfold, and just go with the flow as best as you can for now.
May forces that know better heal us.
I'm pretty sad. Perhaps too many people being mean and emotionally immature has been harsh to witness at a time like this. I'm pretty sad again though. It's the main thing I want to help myself with. The sad part is getting to be too much. Not long ago I believed it was getting better. Surely it can and will start getting better again. I believe it is possible and I believe it can happen and I believe it will happen and I believe better things can and will happen now. Yes, let's believe this.
I feel some cringing coming on.
My reaction to the trailer: Ugh, is this the "Mad Men" version of Nuremberg? Yeah, I did watch "Mad Men." But why is the need to Hollywoodize it feeling so icky?
"Nuremberg" | Official Teaser Trailer
https://youtube.com/watch?v=vQfgXlH5ATk&si=d6GgBQ9xr-hwKLYu
Maybe I read too much about that era this summer.
Time to drink a healthy smoothie! ☺️
Hope it's healthy, anyways!
"The Lovin' Spoonful "Do You Believe In Magic"
Just to suit a particular human brain or a specific ego?
How can everyone be expected to be one way? That's fascism.
"Your resistance fantasy doesn't match reality."
Parkrose Permaculture
🍃OMG.🍂
"You shouldn't be so sad." "Well, a lot of sad things are happening, so maybe being sad is actually an appropriate and natural response."
Every day is different.
Oh well if the best I can do is make soft warm food or herbal tea and feel some more grief that wants to be healed soon then so be it for now.
Oh, such a charming bird. Thank you!
"Most of your kids are going to have to be way less racist and sexist than you were raised to be, so get used to it."
Birds are so good at migrating!
I think we saw a Hooded Oriole today!
"Hooded Oriole"| Audubon Field Guide
Maybe it's also the extra boost of racism, hmmm?
I kind of wonder why I can think of at least three little local brick and mortar restaurants that have just shut down this year when they were well-liked, but they were smaller "ethnic cuisine" places run by people who had immigrated here from other regions.
And who were the majority of their clientele, too? Are the majority of their clientele now either gone, or they no longer have the money to patronize those places? That's another thing to consider.
Can any of them be in happier spaces now, and may they find some greener pastures?
What should he do?
It's not just, why do "they" act that way?
It's also, why do you act that way? Also, what do you lose if you stop acting that way? And, perhaps even better to consider, what do you gain if you stop acting that way, and start acting in a much better way?
Well, that was unwell.
"Well, I was just doing what the patriarchy taught me was the best way to feel genetically superior."
It still feels like the selfishness is bad for the environment and for society, too.
"Immigrant Farmworkers in Coachella Valley Forced to Work Night Shifts Amid ICE Fears"
"I can think of others when I get my basic needs met."
Oh, do you mean basic needs like food, water, clothing and shelter?
"No, my basic needs to feel entitled to act like I am Genetically Superior to others."
That's what the "basic needs" are in some people's realms, apparently?
What are other kinds of people "naturally" designed to be?
Self-absorbed, emotionally immature jerks?
"Trump suggests undocumented farm workers are ‘naturally’ designed for field work"
Then he goes on about genetics again.
An observation about changes with potatoes.
I like to get the Murasaki potatoes that come in a sack. The sack says they are grown somewhere here in California for Trader Joe's. I think wherever they are grown must have fewer workers this year because they are smaller and stringier and they still have lots of dirt on them. They used to be much bigger and they were washed much better before they were put into a sack and sold at the store.
In addition to everything else.
It's also been amazing to be able to survive so much of the extra, unnecessary stuff.
Tritefulness, harmfulness, foolishness, greediness, prejudice.
Alrighty!
Time is good for tapping into feeling more restful now, though.
"Spiritual Healing Sound Bath | Releasing Pain | Transformation..."
Healing Vibrations
Some other time, perhaps.
You can't go to the park with the creek right now; this is not a good time. It seems they're posting stuff about how finding boxes of dead animals there ruined their excursions recently.
Time to vote for the well builders!
😀
"He Saved Millions Because Of A Misconception"
@andyyjiang
https://youtube.com/shorts/eVIpVzYLcJE?si=k_1S33jbLUA7Ji40
"Blatant RACISM #duet #racism #horrifying #dueprocess"
@hawkpodcasts
Right now, they just seem really bizarre to me.
Complaining about how uncool certain types of attire are just to spend a bunch of money on photoshoots that make it look like they got their clothes off of the pile in "Kanada."
"A Sorta Fairytale: Tori Amos and Karen Binns In Conversation"
https://10magazine.com/a-sorta-fairytale-tori-amos-and-karen-binns-in-conversation/
&
"Kanada"
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kanada_warehouses,_Auschwitz
This week, I finally read "Man's Search for Meaning" by Victor Frankl and "Night" by Elie Wiesel. I am very glad I read "After Auschwitz" by Eva Schloss and "The Nazis Knew My Name" by Magda Hellinger first.
Chaotic things have been happening.
"Man fleeing ICE raid at Home Depot in Monrovia hit and killed"
https://abc7.com/post/man-fleeing-ice-raid-home-depot-monrovia-hit-killed-210-freeway/17538229/
"Students from Monrovia High School organized a rally at the scene after hearing about the tragedy as the California Highway Patrol investigated the accident."
~ Leanne Suter
"Yucaipa baby reported missing, parents beg for his safe return" - CBS Los Angeles
Wednesday, August 13, 2025
Is it cheesy if this song is going around in my head?
"Cómo Te Voy A Olvidar"
~ Los Ángeles Azules
https://youtube.com/watch?v=KDYJyKeLumA&si=IgAVqXTR1R59jg6p
SAY LA VEE a voice replied.
She shares a big memory of being helped.
This is a really interesting story from the late 1960s, I think.
"Replying to Belladona4tea"
Winter Rose 🥀
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT6H8emNr/
Make something.
"You’ve NEVER Seen a Bread Like THIS"
@sweet_bread_official
https://youtube.com/shorts/ld6ZVPHmDyI?si=BlKohZPFD0EoCR_7
Make something.
"My Mother had Toxic Masculinity" | Jay Larson
A person who can vote?
Is that a dad?
"Hegseth recently made headlines when he shared a CNN video on social media about CREC, showing its pastors arguing women should not have the right to vote."
~ Tiffany Stanley and Peter Smith
"Defense Secretary Pete Hegseth belongs to an archconservative church network. Here's what to know"
"Took me some time..."
I prefer sensitive cats. 😹
"I Feel Bad for Incels" | Maddie Wiener | Stand Up Comedy
https://youtube.com/watch?v=7Wl-Zgy1EKM&si=1w5MRGvAOmym-XFU
A cat lived...
@teamcoco
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNOTvJgPFvi/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Conan Is Sick Of Seeing Steve Martin & Martin Short"
@teamcoco
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Q3sKC690B3U&si=OE1P85pP9ZzRmdzM
I have feeling these all could go together along with another article about the women who hated working with THAT GUY, as well as some books about people who lived in concentration camps, and a pile of chewed on clothing that has been accumulating ever since 2018.
I am sure there's some kind biofeedback therapy I could have afforded by now if I was rich, but I remain optimistic that there will be a cure!
It makes me think of little towns having lots of gardens!
Tuin = Garden
"Dutch and English are Actually Really Similar"
Glottal Stop
But also sometimes just really, really different.
🌷🌷🌷🧀🌷🌷🌷
"Dutch and English are Actually Really Similar"
Glottal Stop
https://youtube.com/watch?v=fo3q_Kx9HKE&si=GZsRL2BahDLBi399
"Just take a deep breath and remind yourself that the word order really is the hardest part of the Dutch language."
Dutch Grammar • Overview of the main clause
Huh! So many characters.
Complaining!
"It's tradition dressed up as fairness."
Michelle C | MamaAndTwoBeans
It's not, like, your destiny to be a jolly fascist.
Why do you act like you think your jeans or your house or your ability to be terrible to others is your best feature?
You mean, makeup wasn't only for getting bigger tips while waiting tables?
"Attractive female students no longer earned higher grades when classes moved online during COVID"
~ Anna Akana
Poor, traumatized mean people.
Besides their own brains and their own insecurity and the effects on them by the unwell society they kept, what makes some believe they're so entitled to discriminate against other people to make themselves feel a little better?
Whose children is that actually good for? Is it a lot of children? Is it just a small amount of children? Is it actually no children that that's good for?
Seems like it's actually no children that that's actually good for. That's how unhealthy it seems. Why would some people choose to be that unhealthy?
Some people became meaner either because they were abused themselves, or because they saw others being abusive and thought, that's what I'm supposed to do, too. Maybe a bit of both.
It's extremely messed up. They get fearful and dishonest and they run away and they keep on being mean and living a lesser life than they needed to live, instead of facing things and getting help.
I'm glad Jesus loves the deserving people that the selfish ones do not seem to love at all.
I am traumatized and sad that innocent people are being persecuted right now just because they migrated here from another place. And children are being so terribly traumatized by very selfish people. Human rights violations occur daily.
I'm secondarily traumatized and sad that certain supposedly fortunate people are being so callous and their selfishness is NOT OKAY. It's an illness.
I don't want to act like them. I don't want to act like money and houses and cars and status entitle me to act like I can be such a mean, narcissistic person. It's disgusting and it makes me sick. People who used to seem better have shown that they have been trained to feel entitled to act this way.
These demoralizing people have been such depressing experience at a time like this. It's like the worst of people's greed and selfishness and immaturity is coming out and being exposed now.
The patriarchal society has warped these people and it's so depressing to think about their justifications for their selfishness.Some higher sources can help them.They were trained to act like prejudiced, sexist, racist insensitive jerks. I am the kind of person that they also treat badly. I don't want to think about them now. Hopefully they get help before this lifetime ends for them.
And perhaps it was a higher source that helped humans craft this song and teach it to young children:
"Jesus loves the little children. All the children of the world. Red and yellow, black and white. They are precious in his sight. Jesus loves the little children of the world."
Who taught them to be so strange?
Flabbergasted by the wounded ones' meanness. It just seems so foolish to choose to be mean to others when there are so many other choices available. Could they not see their other options? It wouldn't have cost them anything at all to be less dehumanizing to others. It's hurtful, and maybe not something that one can understand right away.
Tuesday, August 12, 2025
Maybe its time to think about some better people.
How to heal from the carelessness that caused harm when the careless ones are still so in denial that it seems like they're determined to live a lie they got programmed into perpetuating.
Nervous system needs more healing.
I feel like my nervous system is traumatized by people who make the world more unsafe because they are stuck in stubborn sexist mindsets they acquired long ago and they were trained to exclude so many kinds of girls and women just because they are not like them.
It feels like a horror; they will abandon people just for having a different kind of genetics. It smacks of terrible suffering and death. And they feel so entitled to do it, too. It feels like it happened before, like violence. I want to get healed from the way this has rattled my nervous system.
Unfortunately, if a person just used to seem insensitive or uncaring about some things in one kind of environment, now that lack of sensitivity becomes a worse thing because the really dangerous people are feeling more entitled to inflict harm on others. Then it seems like the insensitive ones are helping them.
✨Sought and Found another Sound Bath tonight 🌌
"Parasympathetic Nervous System Healing Frequency Music"
Irene Athanasiou
Words did not exist.
Today felt incredibly bad, like a death occurred, and now I feel like I am beginning to get better again.
Help the nervous system now.
"Nervous System Reset Sound Bath" | Crystal Singing Bowls
~ Healing Vibrations
Ben je niet bang?
Wow, I could understand a lot of this, actually!
"Dutch time traveller ⏳ #medieval #climatechange'
letsdoubledutch
https://youtube.com/shorts/QwmoODnXRzg?si=EYsi1UgfYv_ySSo3
Igualmente...
"Part 14..."
aaronbeltranrealty
Beautiful picture. Chilling behavior.
"Immigration arrest of farmworkers sends 'chilling effect' through Marion County" - Salem Reporter
Why not hang out with the not so racist or sexist religious people?
"Good Questions"
@hawkpodcasts
https://youtube.com/shorts/57g5GiLLo_4?si=QB9wTDOQg6FbQFNT
Just because you grew up in a racist or sexist environment doesn't mean you have to replicate those old behaviors, even if it strangely feels more comfortable to you because it was what was around you when you were growing up, and you were harmed by it less than others were.
I'm sure there will be a wide variety of reactions, as there are now.
"How Will RELIGION REACT When He’s GONE? #duet"
@hawkpodcasts
They know they were trained to be bad to others.
"GOP Senator J Stuart Adams Changes Law to Help Relative Facing Child Rape Charges"
https://lukebeasley.substack.com/p/gop-senator-j-stuart-adams-changes
They just don't want to talk about it.Eh, there's better choices out there.
Patriarchal people really want to give you cookies for replicating their weird bullying behaviors because then you make them feel more comfortable about their own selfish choices, but only temporarily, because they are very insecure.
Poor, pitiful patriarchal people.
Patriarchal people are trained to think that if you kick others in the face and feel good about it then you're doing it right.
Emotionally stunted people are not here to help.
It's amazing what horrible things some insensitive people will do to others just so they can feel more in control and like they do not have to change too much because that is just what feels comfortable enough for them.
At least they showed me what I don't want to be like.
I know I want to get better because I feel tense, traumatized by egotistical, emotionally immature jerks who just have such a will to insist on being self-absorbed assholes who need to ruin things with their greedy selfishness and appallingly untrustworthy behavior.
Blessings for the body.
My body knows I have survived some really intense stuff and I want to help this body feel better and release more grief now.
Monday, August 11, 2025
Universe says some people do love us.
Some people love us and are sorry that we're suffering and I'm sorry that we're suffering too.
Must shift and listen to my body more now.
I hope more people remember to pursue healing and taking care of their health now. I will need to be one of them right now.
Here's some more humans.
Sorry, I'll go look at something by Eckhart Tolle now...
"What's he thinking about?"
https://www.reddit.com/r/CringeTikToks/s/HhONUiUHbI
The FBI Director Kash Patel made me think of the "Cuz I got high" song, and also made me realize that sometimes, when people seem content and willing to act stupid, I almost sort of envy them, briefly.
These are trying times. I wanna know...
Who gets the "good genes" that make them more likely to not act like they're entitled to be awful and selfish with other people? Let's find those people.
It's such a wonderful opportunity to learn from the mistakes of the past instead of repeating them again!
"The Horrifying American roots of Nazi Eugenics"
https://www.historynewsnetwork.org/article/the-horrifying-american-roots-of-nazi-eugenics
And if a person who has seemed to care A LOT about injustice in the past finds themselves decades later supporting the guy who wants to make America fascist again for what I'm sure is an incredibly complex web of reasons, I suppose it just points out the FRAGILITY of the human brain, especially when it comes to CULT-like behaviors and mentalities.
Maybe we'll have less nightmarish people in charge in the future as well.
Too bad most of the people in charge didn't become kinder, better people after becoming parents. May they drop their need to be insensitive assholes who discriminate against others. Sooner rather than later.
I am hopeful that more people will begin to care about human rights now.
Also, I am glad to have enjoyed meeting some of the kinder parents. I think such parents could be good parents to a much wider variety of children, and good friends to a wider variety of human beings.
Like, they wouldn't require children to replicate their lives or experiences have their exact genetics, and they wouldn't be as likely punish any children for having different life experiences than they've had.
I am hopeful that this type of healing mindset will become much more acceptable and normal in the future.
His kind makes them so mad, why???!!!
Cat person.
"Y'all are raising families..."
~ ciscocats
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DNEvk8iM3KJ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
You do need more, and you do deserve more.
Maybe you need to listen to someone who's less upset than I am, and who's going to be nicer to you about some of this stuff? There are people who are a lot more advanced than me when it comes to communicating, of course. I think you need to believe that you're capable of getting off the old drugs and making some good changes for yourself. I just don't have the expertise that some others have when it comes to knowing how to approach that sort of thing. I get in the "I can see things are wrong. Why haven't you been able to see this? Why haven't you been listening?" mood sometimes.
This one example of what's bad.
"A family's fishing trip ends with the dad at 'Alligator Alcatraz'..."
Is there anything good about this time?
Well, if some of the children who now have to grow up under fascism wind up being a lot pickier when it comes to making certain really important life choices, that seems like it could be a beneficial thing.
That's the problem.
Patriarchal cults want you to feel good like sellers of drugs want you to feel good.
Surely people could wake up in better ways.
It's as if the bad people took over so people would see that when they are selfish, they are not "okay." But couldn't people wake up in better ways?
Is it something about their genetics?
Why do the mean, insensitive people who are liberal and the mean, insensitive people who are conservative have so much in common? Shall they meet on the common ground of selfishness and figure things out in that way? But what if they could change and meet on a much better foundation?
You need someone to cut your grass.
She's just trying to see her cousin, man.
"They're getting treated like prisoners"
The Guardian
Perhaps people in heaven pray for you though?
Why are some people so stubborn about being attached to the flimsy crutches that they're constantly relying on even when there is so much evidence right in front of them that they are not sufficient support, and that going on that way is incredibly harmful to humanity?
For example, if you hate Hitler and all he stands for, but you are delusional enough to support Trump and what he is doing to people, I wonder if you were a Nazi in your last life, and when you reincarnated in this life, because of your circumstances, you started to feel more empathy for others, and it seemed like you might doing better this time around, but you got halfway through and now you are failing the assignment, again.