I am liking imagining I could give little spa treatments and vacations to stressed out people. It would be fun. Truthfully.
And views of tree tops....
And snow...
Yes.
Wednesday, January 31, 2018
What time is it
Um...
http://whatwethink.pie-recruitment.com/post/102doh1/bangs-head-on-desk-in-despair
Is it time to read The Secret...
http://whatwethink.pie-recruitment.com/post/102doh1/bangs-head-on-desk-in-despair
Is it time to read The Secret...
What "thrifty genes" means
It means some genes encourage thriftiness
https://www.agein.com/women-face-intense-weight-discrimination-in-the-workplace-researchers-find-10676
Especially if
https://moneyish.com/ish/only-15-of-hiring-managers-would-consider-hiring-an-overweight-woman/
You are
https://www.health.harvard.edu/staying-healthy/why-people-become-overweight
A woman.
I had a dream that someone who was attached to a group of hostile people told me that when I speak of how society discriminates against women it hurts her, and she didn't want to hear about it, especially regarding matters of weight.
Then the dream ended.
We still live in a society that holds women to different standards than men. For example, many women are taught they they are supposed to look a certain way and cater to men and take care of them emotionally. Even slightly overweight women are penalized because of the discriminatory attitudes.
I wanted to say to the girl in the dream that the people you are with mistreat women, but you don't want to admit it. So you put up with their rudeness and with their prejudice, and instead of asking them to change, you blame the messenger for pointing out the biases of people you depend on. You can choose to stay in that group and be treated as less than, but I would encourage you to find a more trustworthy group of people.
https://www.agein.com/women-face-intense-weight-discrimination-in-the-workplace-researchers-find-10676
Especially if
https://moneyish.com/ish/only-15-of-hiring-managers-would-consider-hiring-an-overweight-woman/
You are
https://www.health.harvard.edu/staying-healthy/why-people-become-overweight
A woman.
I had a dream that someone who was attached to a group of hostile people told me that when I speak of how society discriminates against women it hurts her, and she didn't want to hear about it, especially regarding matters of weight.
Then the dream ended.
We still live in a society that holds women to different standards than men. For example, many women are taught they they are supposed to look a certain way and cater to men and take care of them emotionally. Even slightly overweight women are penalized because of the discriminatory attitudes.
I wanted to say to the girl in the dream that the people you are with mistreat women, but you don't want to admit it. So you put up with their rudeness and with their prejudice, and instead of asking them to change, you blame the messenger for pointing out the biases of people you depend on. You can choose to stay in that group and be treated as less than, but I would encourage you to find a more trustworthy group of people.
Tuesday, January 30, 2018
Sounds like winter to me
I remember this too...
Bebel Gilberto "Winter" - remix by Nuspirit Helsinki
"For the present form of this world is passing away."
~ http://sufjan.com/post/170006273093/i-go-to-church-to-feel-something-good-and-then
Bebel Gilberto "Winter" - remix by Nuspirit Helsinki
~~~~~~~~
"For the present form of this world is passing away."
~ http://sufjan.com/post/170006273093/i-go-to-church-to-feel-something-good-and-then
"The lady"
The other night, when I asked the neighbors to turn down their jarring music (and I just wanted them to be quieter overall, truthfully), I unexpectedly got much nicer about it than I had intended. It felt like something calm came over me when I asked them to turn it down, and it was almost a pretty experience. The next day my roommate was approached: "We're sorry we were so loud and it was bothering you." Roommate: "Oh, who complained about the noise?" Neighbor: "It was the lady."
I remember coming down the mountain (as a passenger)
and having an experience where it felt like my friend was just shouting in my ear, delighted, because finally it was the right time to be listening. The voice was reminding me of things that I had said! It seemed to be a voice that still likes to play. In the ensuing weeks, more things I had forgotten seemed to come back. It's not so strong now, and I don't usually hear it as loudly as I did coming down that mountain, but what an experience. Goodness, gracious, I was impressed.
Monday, January 29, 2018
Blessed be
The bad and nauseating headache went away, but what can I do to make life better.
Today I wanted to help someone who felt very sick and had anxiety. I recommended ginger tea, peppermint...at home, I wondered if I should mention the Calm app.
People talk about Job. It comes up a lot for some reason. I have some friends who have listened and I am grateful. But sometimes I don't even know how I am until some dreadful physical symptoms hit. But it's lovely when they leave. What else is all biblical and spiritual. I know.
The kiss of peace.
Today I wanted to help someone who felt very sick and had anxiety. I recommended ginger tea, peppermint...at home, I wondered if I should mention the Calm app.
People talk about Job. It comes up a lot for some reason. I have some friends who have listened and I am grateful. But sometimes I don't even know how I am until some dreadful physical symptoms hit. But it's lovely when they leave. What else is all biblical and spiritual. I know.
The kiss of peace.
Pray
I need help.
I am pretty sure.
I am ill again.
Maybe angels will help.
Body.
Barely tolerable.
What love can cure this.
Just healing love.
I am pretty sure.
I am ill again.
Maybe angels will help.
Body.
Barely tolerable.
What love can cure this.
Just healing love.
It is searing and it is painful
The "how could we have let this happen to so many" USA Gymnastics situation.
The refrain
Of "Flightless Bird, American Mouth":
Have I found you?
Flightless bird,
jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill looming
Yet, there are many instances of this song that say "Wedding Version." It is a lovely song, but also very sad, so I'm not sure what makes people choose this as a wedding song? Unless it's in the tradition of old-fashioned, arranged, give away a girl as chattel...Or do people associate matrimony with sadness and pain more than they realize?
Have I found you?
Flightless bird,
jealous, weeping
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill looming
Yet, there are many instances of this song that say "Wedding Version." It is a lovely song, but also very sad, so I'm not sure what makes people choose this as a wedding song? Unless it's in the tradition of old-fashioned, arranged, give away a girl as chattel...Or do people associate matrimony with sadness and pain more than they realize?
Sunday, January 28, 2018
Oh yeah...
Kesha & "Praying"
https://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/grammys-2018-watch-keshas-emotional-star-studded-delivery-of-praying-w515936
Always remember...
Mariah Carey - Vision Of Love
https://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/grammys-2018-watch-keshas-emotional-star-studded-delivery-of-praying-w515936
Always remember...
Mariah Carey - Vision Of Love
It's not the only perspective
Other people: I am tenured. I talk about SWERFs and TERFs. I am a full-time mom. I have moved to the other side of the planet for a job that has zilch to do with my grad studies...but sooo happy.
Me: Paying down debt and gonna volunteer in a history museum!
Me: Paying down debt and gonna volunteer in a history museum!
What does this even mean
It means...
Indigo Girls ~ Romeo & Juliet
We were secret lesbian lovers.
No, that is not what happened. Actually we had a very different kind of conversation.
"You know where I think you should go? I just have a feeling that..."
But I bet she wouldn't mind at all if I acted theatrical about her shocking transition.
Auuugh, Juliet, whywhywhywhywhywhy whereforarthounow Juliet...
Omg, so weird, you didn't even talk for years, why do you freak out so much.
Well, maybe it's because sometimes a soul is just so vivacious... Tillman Old Vine Zinfandel
Imagining
"It's a good song."
Indigo Girls - Closer to Fine
A girl (or guy) telling her (or his) mom / dad / anybody
Indigo Girls - Closer to Fine
A girl (or guy) telling her (or his) mom / dad / anybody
After this
Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron and Wine Cover - Kina Grannis
Perhaps a chance to listen to the original...
It's most strange
Sometimes I feel like I am in an invisible mourning tent. I say I will emerge, and then I go right back into seclusion.
Who is that character
CHARACTER A:
You know what, it's not worth it to accept your gross sexist behavior in exchange for a payoff! It's not worth it!
CHARACTER B:
Well that's all relative to who you are talking to...
Just another beneficiary of the Boys Club...the excuses others make allow this sort of behavior to continue all the time...has had a number of enablers who have helped...
But who is this character.
You know what, it's not worth it to accept your gross sexist behavior in exchange for a payoff! It's not worth it!
CHARACTER B:
Well that's all relative to who you are talking to...
Just another beneficiary of the Boys Club...the excuses others make allow this sort of behavior to continue all the time...has had a number of enablers who have helped...
But who is this character.
Saturday, January 27, 2018
Well, here is a story about pain
After Surgery in Germany, I Wanted Vicodin, Not Herbal Tea By Firozeeh Dumas
It is so nice to read this story without the dreadful background noise.
It is LIKE PARADISE.
Ha ha. I read her first book quite a while ago.
http://firoozehdumas.com/gourmet-magazine-sweet-sour-and-resentful/
It is so nice to read this story without the dreadful background noise.
It is LIKE PARADISE.
Ha ha. I read her first book quite a while ago.
http://firoozehdumas.com/gourmet-magazine-sweet-sour-and-resentful/
Ooookay...
I tried to nicely ask them to turn their misogynistic music down.
They did. After I left a woman was yelling at them, too.
However, I don't think she gets much respect over there.
But maybe she could get more! That's a hopeful thought, too.
They did. After I left a woman was yelling at them, too.
However, I don't think she gets much respect over there.
But maybe she could get more! That's a hopeful thought, too.
Hopeful thoughts for a girl
Maybe she will never ever marry a selfish, systemically oppressive sexist with the ethical maturity of a second grader housed in the body of a middle-aged man.
How to
drown out the loud rude people (males, probably drinking, definitely being stupid) you live next door to when you wish you could make soup in the kitchen without hearing all their noise (why can't they go out to a bar?) well
T.A. ~ Professional Widow
I WANT TO CHANGE RESIDENCE VERY SOON
It's still sad Americans have a president who sexualized his own daughter. Old white dudes don't give a crap about anybody except themselves. How sad the world is full of sick, selfish men who are like that.
T.A. ~ Professional Widow
I WANT TO CHANGE RESIDENCE VERY SOON
It's still sad Americans have a president who sexualized his own daughter. Old white dudes don't give a crap about anybody except themselves. How sad the world is full of sick, selfish men who are like that.
Well that resonates
"Virginia Woolf knew the enormous potential of a closed door."
~ https://qz.com/1189221/virginia-woolf-google-honors-the-writer-who-declared-woman-need-money-to-be-free/
~ https://qz.com/1189221/virginia-woolf-google-honors-the-writer-who-declared-woman-need-money-to-be-free/
And that is when God or Jesus said
"It is not the place for you."
"You're right, Jesus."
"That group has men and women in it who are so misogynist, dishonest, and brainwashed about gender roles, it literally makes me want to throw up, and thats even after I give myself a pep talk about forgiving, etc."
"It is not the place for you."
"Yes, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus."
"You're right, Jesus."
"That group has men and women in it who are so misogynist, dishonest, and brainwashed about gender roles, it literally makes me want to throw up, and thats even after I give myself a pep talk about forgiving, etc."
"It is not the place for you."
"Yes, Jesus. Thank you, Jesus."
Friday, January 26, 2018
Maybe some people do
"get it."
http://michiganradio.org/post/simons-resignation-letter-proves-she-still-doesnt-get-it
May
https://www.nytimes.com/2018/01/26/opinion/sunday/larry-nassar-rachael-denhollander.html
Be
https://www.washingtonpost.com/sports/olympics/usa-gymnastics-allowed-larry-nassar-to-prey-upon-innocent-victims-congress-must-investigate/2018/01/24/0ff7a7c4-0129-11e8-8acf-ad2991367d9d_story.html?utm_term=.9e547140a431
Have you ever had this problem
"But if you’re used to women laser-focusing on you, handling you with care and treating you with wide-eyed deference, what incentive do you have to change?"
~ Donald Trump and his Work Wives by Jill Filipovic
~ Donald Trump and his Work Wives by Jill Filipovic
Society, Medicine, etc.
Uh huh...
http://theweek.com/articles/749978/female-price-male-pleasure
"PubMed has almost five times as many clinical trials on male sexual pleasure as it has on female sexual pain. And why? Because we live in a culture that sees female pain as normal and male pleasure as a right.
This bizarre sexual astigmatism structures so much in our culture that it's hard to gauge the extent to which our vision of things is skewed.
Take how our health system compensates doctors for male vs. female-only surgeries: As of 2015, male-specific surgeries were still reimbursed at rates 27.67 percent higher for male-specific procedures than female-specific ones. (Result: Guess who gets the fanciest doctors?)"
~ http://theweek.com/articles/749978/female-price-male-pleasure
http://theweek.com/articles/749978/female-price-male-pleasure
"PubMed has almost five times as many clinical trials on male sexual pleasure as it has on female sexual pain. And why? Because we live in a culture that sees female pain as normal and male pleasure as a right.
This bizarre sexual astigmatism structures so much in our culture that it's hard to gauge the extent to which our vision of things is skewed.
Take how our health system compensates doctors for male vs. female-only surgeries: As of 2015, male-specific surgeries were still reimbursed at rates 27.67 percent higher for male-specific procedures than female-specific ones. (Result: Guess who gets the fanciest doctors?)"
~ http://theweek.com/articles/749978/female-price-male-pleasure
It's just the way things are...
I knew a woman who quit a job where she was being abused, but that's all. It could happen again, but to you, probably never. She takes a pay cut, and she finds other ways to be happy in life (fun extracurricular activities!) If you were a woman, you could be her. There's no revolt. The abuser just keeps on being your esteemed colleague. On the surface, she is fine with this. She knows it's more important to fit in and stay on your good side than to speak out. This system hurts her more than it helps you, but it helps you more than it hurts her. And you like living in that world as long as you get a lot of compliments.
This is why you are a life lesson but most definitely not a role model: you benefit inadvertently from corruption, and women prop you up because that's the best they can do in order to survive in the environment you (probably not on purpose) help create by being so self-absorbed.
"But that's not true! He helps a lot of people! He gets us money and contacts and he's our hero!"
Bye.
This is why you are a life lesson but most definitely not a role model: you benefit inadvertently from corruption, and women prop you up because that's the best they can do in order to survive in the environment you (probably not on purpose) help create by being so self-absorbed.
"But that's not true! He helps a lot of people! He gets us money and contacts and he's our hero!"
Bye.
Watched Moana :-)
Because last night, a super smart person said to me, "Let's watch Moana."
Little waves of gratitude washing over me gently.
Little waves of gratitude washing over me gently.
Thursday, January 25, 2018
Sometimes wanna say
You can go a long way towards helping women by not treating them like crap by not excusing men for treating them poorly and by calling them out, too, so younger people can have a better standard...
Bah
Let me guess, was the supervisor also a woman...
"Once I had to defend myself to my events supervisor, who had received a complaint that I wasn’t smiling enough and that I should have a better sense of humor. It was the same person who had grabbed me while I was serving dessert. 'Well, don’t you want any tips?' my supervisor replied."
~ https://qz.com/1188053/the-presidents-club-fallout-why-metoo-movement-will-not-affect-the-financial-world/
"Once I had to defend myself to my events supervisor, who had received a complaint that I wasn’t smiling enough and that I should have a better sense of humor. It was the same person who had grabbed me while I was serving dessert. 'Well, don’t you want any tips?' my supervisor replied."
~ https://qz.com/1188053/the-presidents-club-fallout-why-metoo-movement-will-not-affect-the-financial-world/
Who makes excuses for this?
"Well, I know we might have our issues, but thank God we weren't as bad as those guys!"
Yes, there is so much to be grateful for...
Perhaps it is necessary
Sometimes you have to see how it is...
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2018/jan/24/hostesses-gropefest-charity-dinner-women-dorchester
And stop denying it. That's part of the process.
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2018/jan/24/hostesses-gropefest-charity-dinner-women-dorchester
And stop denying it. That's part of the process.
Healing ~~~~
Healing peace
Healing love
Healing prayers
Healing forgiveness
Healing freedom
Healing discovery
Healing beauty
Healing is #1
More than anything
Please remember
Tender throat and lungs
Resting and breathing
These are your allies
Take care of your heart
Love and find peace
Heal your life
Love yourself
Sleep and heal
It's time for healing
Healing
Healing
Healing
I am so tired
Coughing and stuff
Chest and throat again
Help me get better please....
I probably needed to be more healthy yesterday
A little earthquake woke me
This season is like a fight for a healthy life
Please let me be healing
Please let me get better
Please let me respect my body
My immune system
I pray for better health
Healing vibes
Lovingkindness
Goodness on earth
Healing
Healing
Healing
I am so tired
Coughing and stuff
Chest and throat again
Help me get better please....
I probably needed to be more healthy yesterday
A little earthquake woke me
This season is like a fight for a healthy life
Please let me be healing
Please let me get better
Please let me respect my body
My immune system
I pray for better health
Healing vibes
Lovingkindness
Goodness on earth
Wednesday, January 24, 2018
So this is interesting
Reading on Virginia Woolf's birthday:
http://lithub.com/the-day-virginia-woolf-brought-her-mom-back-to-life/
http://lithub.com/the-day-virginia-woolf-brought-her-mom-back-to-life/
Better
From Enough With The Good Guy Act. We Need Better Men by Jamil Smith:
"The Good Guy is an archetype that shields many a misogynist. It allows for excuses for inappropriate behavior, and enables even those with the best of intentions to continue willfully benefitting from inherently sexist institutions. Sometimes, the Good Guy actually does good things..."
"The Good Guy is an archetype that shields many a misogynist. It allows for excuses for inappropriate behavior, and enables even those with the best of intentions to continue willfully benefitting from inherently sexist institutions. Sometimes, the Good Guy actually does good things..."
When moms pass down to daughters the standards they were expected (and expected others) to live by...
Listen, when the average joe disrespects you, that's one thing, but when a "genius" does it, then you know it's just time to have a little talk with yourself about what you must have done to deserve that...
Apparently it was memorable
Limerick genius
https://www.mprnews.org/story/2018/01/23/keillor-workplace
"Guys like us we had it made, those were the days " (All in the Family)
https://www.mprnews.org/story/2018/01/23/keillor-workplace
"Guys like us we had it made, those were the days " (All in the Family)
Tuesday, January 23, 2018
It is to try
To buy hiking boots, be unable to decide between waterproof or aerated, and then return home exhausted. Who could go hiking right now? It's enough to climb the stairs and get into bed. Nevermind. You'll feel much better pretty soon.
Breathe and breathe
I am oh so humbled
The convalescence
Higher healing energies
More wisdom
Beyond ego
True wisdom
True grace
True goodness
The convalescence
Higher healing energies
More wisdom
Beyond ego
True wisdom
True grace
True goodness
doh
when your s.o. says vaguely disturbing and sexist things to girls
I wonder if you and your s.o. had a dearth of feminist role models
maybe one of you might like to read this?
https://thoughtcatalog.com/dr-annie-kaszina/2015/03/10-scary-signs-your-boyfriend-is-an-emotionally-abusive-loser/
also this might be useful to discuss
https://www.theodysseyonline.com/not-feminist-not-sorry
then there's this
https://www.theodysseyonline.com/the-feeling-of-living-with-sexist-father
well three is enough for now
I wonder if you and your s.o. had a dearth of feminist role models
maybe one of you might like to read this?
https://thoughtcatalog.com/dr-annie-kaszina/2015/03/10-scary-signs-your-boyfriend-is-an-emotionally-abusive-loser/
also this might be useful to discuss
https://www.theodysseyonline.com/not-feminist-not-sorry
then there's this
https://www.theodysseyonline.com/the-feeling-of-living-with-sexist-father
well three is enough for now
Oh dear
It's the heartbreak of happy/sad.
Happy: no agonizing cramps today. It's a great thing.
Sad: still very coughy in the a.m. and something else....
Sometimes, people's sexism and rudeness is sad. Like when your friend is sexist for no good reason except that he got stereotypical attitudes engrained in him, but you are in denial about it. Then not only do I deal with x being untrustworthy, but you too, because you try to justify his ugly behavior. I want to get away from the unhealthiness, like escaping from a group of unreliable drug addicts.
But hope that rehab is transformative one day.
Happy: no agonizing cramps today. It's a great thing.
Sad: still very coughy in the a.m. and something else....
Sometimes, people's sexism and rudeness is sad. Like when your friend is sexist for no good reason except that he got stereotypical attitudes engrained in him, but you are in denial about it. Then not only do I deal with x being untrustworthy, but you too, because you try to justify his ugly behavior. I want to get away from the unhealthiness, like escaping from a group of unreliable drug addicts.
But hope that rehab is transformative one day.
Monday, January 22, 2018
Almost blessed
God give me peace
Not this agony
In my uterus
It will happen
Ginger tea
Ibuprofen
Heating pad
On top of a
Washcloth
Castor oil pack
Almost to the
Place of
Dreamy relief
Not this agony
In my uterus
It will happen
Ginger tea
Ibuprofen
Heating pad
On top of a
Washcloth
Castor oil pack
Almost to the
Place of
Dreamy relief
Sunday, January 21, 2018
Why is it like this
The whole time I have been ill, I could crochet about 1/3 of a simple single crochet stitch washcloth. That's it. Days and days and days of effort. Days and days and days of coughing. And sometimes interrupted by the cramps that make you feel like you are dying. But you're not. And the heartache, and the constricted breathing.
At least you can love music.
At least you can love music.
Saturday, January 20, 2018
A choice of songs
Loreena McKennitt ~ The Mummers Dance
Well, I guess you know how it is for some of us, Madame person who came to my place. My closet was large and weird and very deep. I think you kind of liked it.
It's the truth
There is sun today!!!
This person on earth who gets dizzy and has chest and respiratory stuff needs some higher energy to bring healing and help. At least can get some sun today!!!
Something to chew on
What?
https://www.vox.com/policy-and-politics/2018/1/20/16912726/trump-shutdown
If your daughters dealt with people about five times more mature than some of you are, that would really be like, a very refreshing change.
Sorry, Ivanka.
https://www.vox.com/policy-and-politics/2018/1/20/16912726/trump-shutdown
If your daughters dealt with people about five times more mature than some of you are, that would really be like, a very refreshing change.
Sorry, Ivanka.
Oh, a better throat is a better life.
My cramps are really insulting.
My friend was/is good, but I don't mind if people got exasperated.
I don't mind.
Because she could be really exasperating.
A lot of other people had just as much pain and talent, etc.
But what did she have?
Watch the McDonald's movie and think of Ray Kroc.
My ear kind of hurts too.
Stupid cramps.
No one has to be Ray Kroc when they come back though.
My friend was/is good, but I don't mind if people got exasperated.
I don't mind.
Because she could be really exasperating.
A lot of other people had just as much pain and talent, etc.
But what did she have?
Watch the McDonald's movie and think of Ray Kroc.
My ear kind of hurts too.
Stupid cramps.
No one has to be Ray Kroc when they come back though.
Before the other beautiful music
The Let It Be song...
Half of you crawls out in the desert and screams at the sand and half of you is in bed with a cough drop and tears on your face. It should be enough...
Half of you crawls out in the desert and screams at the sand and half of you is in bed with a cough drop and tears on your face. It should be enough...
A raspy throat of grief?
Well I got a cough drop and a heating pad and ginger tea after I woke up with fresh insult. Pain like cramps, and a raw throat.
I said to myself, I have been getting over a bad flu, and somone I know is gone, and now you dare give me this? Well. Maybe my chest is improving at least. Behind the melting cough drop maybe there is a scream but I just want it to soothe and crying is in all my cells. Let it be. Pretty song. My body grieves more than my mind wants it too. Why is this pain here now. Isn't it enough already. This is excessive, and its the real authentic grief experience and I am getting sick and tired of it. So scream and cry away, girl and then please embrace sweet peace at least and give me a good healing rest. I want this healing to happen very badly now. If I have good reason to cry, I should have just as good reason to heal. Listen to me and get on a healing wavelength. Please and now.
I said to myself, I have been getting over a bad flu, and somone I know is gone, and now you dare give me this? Well. Maybe my chest is improving at least. Behind the melting cough drop maybe there is a scream but I just want it to soothe and crying is in all my cells. Let it be. Pretty song. My body grieves more than my mind wants it too. Why is this pain here now. Isn't it enough already. This is excessive, and its the real authentic grief experience and I am getting sick and tired of it. So scream and cry away, girl and then please embrace sweet peace at least and give me a good healing rest. I want this healing to happen very badly now. If I have good reason to cry, I should have just as good reason to heal. Listen to me and get on a healing wavelength. Please and now.
Friday, January 19, 2018
Your heart and your lungs love you
A special spot on my left lung
Bronchial, tree-like, weeping
What can I do to heal you
Bronchial, tree-like, weeping
What can I do to heal you
Wonderful world of books...
Beautiful books!
"Mrs. Babbitt said her favorite book that she had written for children was “Goody Hall” (1971), a Gothic mystery with a happy ending, and that her favorite book overall was “Herbert Rowbarge” (1982), an adult novel about a man separated from his twin as a baby."
~ https://www.washingtonpost.com/entertainment/books/natalie-babbitt-author-of-young-adult-classic-tuck-everlasting-dies-at-84/2016/11/01/d3973c76-a03b-11e6-a44d-cc2898cfab06_story.html?
"Mrs. Babbitt said her favorite book that she had written for children was “Goody Hall” (1971), a Gothic mystery with a happy ending, and that her favorite book overall was “Herbert Rowbarge” (1982), an adult novel about a man separated from his twin as a baby."
~ https://www.washingtonpost.com/entertainment/books/natalie-babbitt-author-of-young-adult-classic-tuck-everlasting-dies-at-84/2016/11/01/d3973c76-a03b-11e6-a44d-cc2898cfab06_story.html?
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Oh, the healing vibes can come
I wish for all the healing vibes for a wonderful person I live with.
Right now we both cough a lot. Like, really deep chest coughs.
I wish my boyfriend wasn't sick with this flu, as I am.
He deserves much better health.
He's a really great person.
Thursday, January 18, 2018
Take better care of yourself
I am sorry I got this flu. It's not fun.
Do what it takes to be healthy and happy.
It's time to get better asap
I have to be a better person because of this illness. I need to get smart to survive this one. It's still devastating. I need to stare an angel in the face and say "Tell me how to live now."
I hope a dear higher power will have compassion on all of my imperfect actions because my lungs need to heal and not hold onto this trauma.
Dont be the flu
This is cute.
GRIMES ~ What's in my Bag
She ends with the non-lesbians who made a song about lesbians.
GRIMES ~ What's in my Bag
She ends with the non-lesbians who made a song about lesbians.
Et misericordia...
Oh mercy mercy me...I am tired of this mourning. You're coming back. Your mom's coming back. Your dad's coming back. Your brothers and sisters and sons and daughters are...if you help me, and if I go first next time, I will try really hard to make it a beautiful experience...you won't be coughing in the garbage and feeling like you're dying...you'll cry at a flower and feel delicate and sensitive and pretty and healthy...what a nice promise, wouldn't you agree???
Spirit
Louise Haye is probably still alive in spirit and willing to help people with illness so why not?
Choose life...
Let the sun shine in
We of this flu or ailment need support and healing. It feels like dying. I want to get better. Om shri dhanvantre namaha.
You will get better.
I choose life.
I choose healing.
I choose healthy ways of being.
Wednesday, January 17, 2018
what else is there
Oil of oregano, olive leaf, garlic in a pill.
We would love it if these chest and lungs would get much healthier...
Lets do lemon and cayenne and honey.
I have....
a challenging bout of the flu, and I was sad to see that when I searched my friend's name on Facebook, I found some snark from back in the day when she was first published. When I personally corresponded with people it was much nicer...they were sad she's gone and remembered she was such a nice person. You can't let that get you down. People don't know how it will look later. There are healthier environments. I am sick and need to get better. One time I had a dream about trying to get into a cardboard box...are stories in there? It's time to heal from sadness and from this intimidating illness. We can do it...
Huh.
https://work.qz.com/1178957/dont-try-to-work-through-the-flu-of-2018/
I'll try it
Flu,Sinus Congestion & Common Cold Treatment Sound Therapy Binaural Beats Isochronic Tones
Tuesday, January 16, 2018
Where is the promised land of health
How dreadful it is to feel trapped by a lingering illness.
To tell yourself you feel better, go out, feel worse, need to head back to bed again.
Even Mr. I Don't Get Sick has it now, so it's probably viral.
BAH
To tell yourself you feel better, go out, feel worse, need to head back to bed again.
Even Mr. I Don't Get Sick has it now, so it's probably viral.
BAH
Ailing is musical
Happy great upstate New York childhood how you survived the flu in 2018 music
Baby Come Back
Baby Come Back
I hope it gets better
This is a bad flu thing.
I need a higher power to heal me.
Let's get better.
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
I need a higher power to heal me.
Let's get better.
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Let's get better
Monday, January 15, 2018
Broth and music again
I want to go back to sleep and I need to connect to my deep wish to get better and heal my respiratory problems. You deserve to be healthy. You deserve to get better. You will get better. If I must cry, can it be in a better and healthier way and can my body recover faster?
Sunday, January 14, 2018
Little transitions...
Before:
O wonderful, beautiful, healing state of mind and body and soul...I want you to come back to me now. Please come to my mind and body and spirit...and dance with me...
After:
Well you know what, I do believe that listening to some of this reiki music helped!
Isn't the internet a marvel.
I went downstairs and it felt cool, like Grandpa's basement, and smelled smokey like sausage he would like to eat.
Nice!
O wonderful, beautiful, healing state of mind and body and soul...I want you to come back to me now. Please come to my mind and body and spirit...and dance with me...
After:
Well you know what, I do believe that listening to some of this reiki music helped!
Isn't the internet a marvel.
I went downstairs and it felt cool, like Grandpa's basement, and smelled smokey like sausage he would like to eat.
Nice!
Most appreciative of a Beautiful drink
Lemon juice, cayenne, and maple syrup in water. For better health and kindness.
Saturday, January 13, 2018
Thank you, gifts
I love essences.
Also it sounds kinda fun to go to one of those sauna places where they beat you with tree branches in the snow.
That would probably only be fun for about two seconds, but still.
Also it sounds kinda fun to go to one of those sauna places where they beat you with tree branches in the snow.
That would probably only be fun for about two seconds, but still.
Order of some things
First on the list, healing.
Creating stuff could be 5th or 10th or 20th.
I wonder why it's still so challenging.
Okay. Gonna make it
Better somehow.
Lighter too.
Creating stuff could be 5th or 10th or 20th.
I wonder why it's still so challenging.
Okay. Gonna make it
Better somehow.
Lighter too.
I want to try coconut milk yogurt
Its non-dairy.
I will get some when I feel better.
Less coughy.
Please...
Less coughy.
I will get some when I feel better.
Less coughy.
Please...
Less coughy.
Surprise
You could be surprised you sort of admire how tricky your friend is. First, the veil but little hints. Then read this book. Then this one. Okay, now you are ready. Really. If I walked around in a cloud ghost of Thoreau she might tell me she's Emerson. She has the energy of a scavenger hunt. Please get this out now so things will be normal soon.
Good earth
I am still recuperating and now have my blanket on you.
I want you to bleed the sadness out of me so I can heal faster.
Earth is good.
Things will get better.
HmmmmHmmmmHmmmm
I want you to bleed the sadness out of me so I can heal faster.
Earth is good.
Things will get better.
HmmmmHmmmmHmmmm
Some days being like...
the end of Charlotte's Web...
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/catch-scence-charlottes-web-your-backyard/
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/catch-scence-charlottes-web-your-backyard/
Friday, January 12, 2018
I just got that feeling
Sometimes I wonder why I don't leave and go back to the East Coast but then I think of walking through the woods here...I would not be the same person if I had never come here to experience those trails. I didn't do that today (still recovering, sweating out a low fever) but that's what happened.
Also, today I read my friend's "Gesthemane" story. It's about Lazarus. I found it through a database. And then I felt a little better and went downstairs and had enough energy to scrub some vegetables for flu-fighting chicken broth with bay leaves, garlic, ginger, allspice, star anise...
I met you and said I'd see you again and meant it, so I might, but it won't be in the same form as when I saw you last. So that is a loss, but without having had that experience, I would not be the same.
Also, today I read my friend's "Gesthemane" story. It's about Lazarus. I found it through a database. And then I felt a little better and went downstairs and had enough energy to scrub some vegetables for flu-fighting chicken broth with bay leaves, garlic, ginger, allspice, star anise...
I met you and said I'd see you again and meant it, so I might, but it won't be in the same form as when I saw you last. So that is a loss, but without having had that experience, I would not be the same.
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Heal & Rest
Believing in getting better
Time to get better.
Get some sleep again.
I have a ways to go.
I would not be surprised if stress due to hormone imbalance can also make your body susceptible to other illnesses. I was cold and achy all night. I am still unwell, achy, sore throat, but the chills have decreased. So, progress...
When I saw OB-GYN, I showed her my app. She said, "Your cycles are not regular." She asked me why I had it. I said, mostly for pain management. I am in pain half the month. She said regularly (not just sporadically) taking Met. and probiotics could help balance hormones, make cycles more regular, and decrease pain. I realized that I don't even know what a regular cycle is. I went off Met. before because of some side effects but she said I could take a lower dose of it. It sounds like a good thing to try...
Get some sleep again.
I have a ways to go.
I would not be surprised if stress due to hormone imbalance can also make your body susceptible to other illnesses. I was cold and achy all night. I am still unwell, achy, sore throat, but the chills have decreased. So, progress...
When I saw OB-GYN, I showed her my app. She said, "Your cycles are not regular." She asked me why I had it. I said, mostly for pain management. I am in pain half the month. She said regularly (not just sporadically) taking Met. and probiotics could help balance hormones, make cycles more regular, and decrease pain. I realized that I don't even know what a regular cycle is. I went off Met. before because of some side effects but she said I could take a lower dose of it. It sounds like a good thing to try...
Thursday, January 11, 2018
W is for
The weary who are interested in their own
weariness. I am super weary and achy and not hungry or up much for anything except lying in bed and crocheting or sleeping right now but who knows the future could be different...It's so interesting to the weary one... Can a body be that fatigued and achy. Really. It's amazing. Maybe the immune system is really going to work right now.
Cheerleader, cheerleader, immune system, go go go gooooo...
Cheerleader, cheerleader, immune system, go go go gooooo...
Tea healing
Oh lemon balm and lemon grass!!
Let's get the healing vibes.
I think we must need them.
Because this is pretty sad...
http://nymag.com/daily/intelligencer/2018/01/the-cruelty-of-trumps-medicaid-work-requirement.html
Sigh.
https://www.americanprogress.org/issues/poverty/reports/2017/11/02/442052/work-requirement-proposals-kick-struggling-workers-theyre/
Let's get the healing vibes.
I think we must need them.
Because this is pretty sad...
http://nymag.com/daily/intelligencer/2018/01/the-cruelty-of-trumps-medicaid-work-requirement.html
Sigh.
https://www.americanprogress.org/issues/poverty/reports/2017/11/02/442052/work-requirement-proposals-kick-struggling-workers-theyre/
So that's interesting
Plane derailed in Memphis the night of Elvis's birthday...
I am an aching, throat-hurting animal.
My phone was dying and I had lost my charger and there were no rooms at any of the inns.
I followed a big group to a cab which took us to an inn where no one had been able to make reservations because there was just one woman at the desk, checking in probably the whole plane. We had to pay for the rooms ourselves and ask for reimbursement later. A nice woman lent me her charger as we waited in line. The shower was not clean. It was a three or four hour stay, but worth it. But it would have been better to fly another day.
I am an aching, throat-hurting animal.
My phone was dying and I had lost my charger and there were no rooms at any of the inns.
I followed a big group to a cab which took us to an inn where no one had been able to make reservations because there was just one woman at the desk, checking in probably the whole plane. We had to pay for the rooms ourselves and ask for reimbursement later. A nice woman lent me her charger as we waited in line. The shower was not clean. It was a three or four hour stay, but worth it. But it would have been better to fly another day.
Before
After
Do you ever think
Maybe you will be a woman in another life who finds at least as much value in working with women as you find in men?
If you had a friend who died of a feminine disease, you might be afraid what she died of was related to your gruesome sexist attitudes.
May your daughters develop higher standards than you have given them.
If you had a friend who died of a feminine disease, you might be afraid what she died of was related to your gruesome sexist attitudes.
May your daughters develop higher standards than you have given them.
It would be great
To feel healthy and not literally sickened and worn down by people who are seemingly in denial about their harmful sexism.
When you can't sleep
Needs to get better
https://www.cheatsheet.com/culture/trumps-sexist-tweets-show-one-scary-truth-about-his-brain.html/?a=viewall
Needs to get better
https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2015/aug/24/guilt-quitting-sexist-workplaces-discrimination-women
Needs to get better
https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2016/aug/10/sexual-harrassment-work-labour-left-corbyn
If only
If only your daughters would never have to put up with grown men with the ethical maturity of fifth graders, or grown women who aren't much better and still make excuses for them.
There is a history of women being forced to endure crappy, demoralizing experiences just to get by.
There is a history of women being forced to endure crappy, demoralizing experiences just to get by.
Wednesday, January 10, 2018
Tonight
Vaporub for chest.
So tired.
Hum.
Why.
I didn't go to Graceland.
I thought of "changing cars in Memphis..." (a song)
Nature sing to me.
Gentle man
Sad man
Sad woman
Gentle
Breathe
Another night I went out
Tacos and ice cream
Friend's book
Not tonight, oh something else
Tea
Something else
I have to cure/heal myself
Even if you know
Someone can come back
You lose the one you knew
Who can send nice dreams though
Miss
Miss
Miss
So tired.
Hum.
Why.
I didn't go to Graceland.
I thought of "changing cars in Memphis..." (a song)
Nature sing to me.
Gentle man
Sad man
Sad woman
Gentle
Breathe
Another night I went out
Tacos and ice cream
Friend's book
Not tonight, oh something else
Tea
Something else
I have to cure/heal myself
Even if you know
Someone can come back
You lose the one you knew
Who can send nice dreams though
Miss
Miss
Miss
Tuesday, January 09, 2018
In bed, listening to the rain
Here I finally am, survivor of a crazy trip, and feeling like I am no longer the same person. Honestly.
It's like a big wind is passing through me.
It's like a big wind is passing through me.
Monday, January 08, 2018
What if I became a nun
And never got on a plane...
They need to deplane us.
I had 3 cancelled flights and then this.
It was scary.
I want to get off and sleep.
Pray for a saintly agent to come back to work and deplane us.
They need to deplane us.
I had 3 cancelled flights and then this.
It was scary.
I want to get off and sleep.
Pray for a saintly agent to come back to work and deplane us.
Prayers
Emergency landing in Memphis.
Good travel vibes please.
All the good stuff....
Love, love, love.
All you need is love.
Love is all you need.
(The Beatles)
Good travel vibes please.
All the good stuff....
Love, love, love.
All you need is love.
Love is all you need.
(The Beatles)
Sunday, January 07, 2018
Friday, January 05, 2018
Song searching
I woke up with dreadful feeling of grief and now it's a little bit bettering. There are birds outside, always. Lets get to know the birds.
Thursday, January 04, 2018
I'm still here...
Thee South meets Cold Snap.
I was up early with anxiety and then I felt relief. Oooh, I wondered. Did the water, tea, stone bracelets, lavender oil, health crackers, and sea bands finally work? Then I saw the text message. Well maybe I will get my wish of not having to fly on my period. Mother Nature speaks. Maybe what she wants to say is I am still here and I love you.
Maybe whenever I travel next, it will be fun. Or peaceful. Or in some way a good experience.
Oooh heaven is a place on earth.
Also there's music.
I was up early with anxiety and then I felt relief. Oooh, I wondered. Did the water, tea, stone bracelets, lavender oil, health crackers, and sea bands finally work? Then I saw the text message. Well maybe I will get my wish of not having to fly on my period. Mother Nature speaks. Maybe what she wants to say is I am still here and I love you.
Maybe whenever I travel next, it will be fun. Or peaceful. Or in some way a good experience.
Oooh heaven is a place on earth.
Also there's music.
Wednesday, January 03, 2018
You can paint your back
This woman has a painting on her back.
http://www.mysticmamma.com/attuning-to-unique-cycles-of-woman/
http://www.mysticmamma.com/attuning-to-unique-cycles-of-woman/
Maybe it's a good thing...
Weather advisories led to a change in plane travel today.
Its kinda fascinating, to feel just dreadful, or as if you must undergo a purge because of a natural cyclical process.
Run the water so pipes don't freeze and thank the Lord for indoor plumbing.
What's wrong with you?
Feels like low-grade food poisoning day.
Think the good, healing powers of nature thoughts.
Its kinda fascinating, to feel just dreadful, or as if you must undergo a purge because of a natural cyclical process.
Run the water so pipes don't freeze and thank the Lord for indoor plumbing.
What's wrong with you?
Feels like low-grade food poisoning day.
Think the good, healing powers of nature thoughts.
Tuesday, January 02, 2018
Henri...
This was a new book at the library. I got it, even though I found the title is a little jarring. But the part I continue to remember the most came in a chapter which critiques "The Culture of Positivity" --"In the middle of a meal, a resident would yell..." (page 133, "The Culture of Positivity")
Ah, Henri Nouwen. I went through a phase when I read so many of your books. Perhaps it's time to get reacquainted...
!! Died on my birthday !!
Ah, Henri Nouwen. I went through a phase when I read so many of your books. Perhaps it's time to get reacquainted...
!! Died on my birthday !!
Still affected
Still? But why. Were you close? Well, not on the surface. But, on a soul level, perhaps more than I realized. Maybe we have had a similar-enough set of lessons to tackle, and so now everything is different, forever and ever. Because I did not know right away (you put down that veil for me on purpose) and read certain kinds of things before it was revealed to me, it made it seem to me that this soul wants to come back soon, or at least I believe so, and it seems like the truth to me, but even so everything will be different if that happens.
Wow again
Ivanka is showing us how if you put the men in your life first, the monetary rewards will make you so happy.
They used to make
special filter masks which you could put on, to enable you to survive in that environment and make many excuses for repeated disrespectful and misogynystic behaviors so you could feed the children.
It's interesting though
https://www.whitehouse.gov/presidential-actions/president-donald-j-trump-proclaims-january-2018-national-slavery-human-trafficking-prevention-month/
Ivanka chooses to look at the positive.
Ivanka would probably also like you to enjoy your well-deserved tax breaks.
Ivanka chooses to look at the positive.
Ivanka would probably also like you to enjoy your well-deserved tax breaks.
Your remedy is strange
My throat was sore.
Is it amazing that Melania and Ivanka don't know how badly they are treating women just by always making excuses for men who are...gonna give you a nice tax break, because that's something, right? What you want is money, right?
My throat improved.
Have you ever met the liberal version of Melania or Ivanka? A woman who makes excuses for untrustworthy men's misogynistic behavior, and has done so for years, just because it pays off for her somehow?
My throat got better.
Is it amazing that Melania and Ivanka don't know how badly they are treating women just by always making excuses for men who are...gonna give you a nice tax break, because that's something, right? What you want is money, right?
My throat improved.
Have you ever met the liberal version of Melania or Ivanka? A woman who makes excuses for untrustworthy men's misogynistic behavior, and has done so for years, just because it pays off for her somehow?
My throat got better.
Monday, January 01, 2018
I have an imagining idea
It involves imagining people sending and receiving nice energy and white light and healing vibes to and fro...
Human life
I will be a better communicator.
I am pretty tired.
Cold weather.
What about travel plans.
Kinda sore throat.
Made bone broth.
I am pretty tired.
Cold weather.
What about travel plans.
Kinda sore throat.
Made bone broth.