Anyways, there's been disappointments and setbacks sometimes.

Shall we ever hang out with the half brother?Apparently not. Sigh. 

Hey, why don't you tell your family we went to a cacao ceremony? I'm not sure they'd know what that was about. 

Sometimes I feel like I live with a neglected child. Maybe that's because the system was designed to make it so that people either become more superficial and compliant enough fit in with what the culture wants, or if they can't do that, then they become like the outsiders. The weird ones. They just quietly slipped through the cracks and nobody noticed. 

Maybe I should be the one that notices, though.

And the weird ones don't expect anyone to actually care about them, so they stop trying to engage.  But I could try to engage them anyway.

Also, speaking of weird, I think it's weird to have such a huge family and nobody is...I mean everybody is still so super heterosexual. Because nowadays, lots of families have people who aren't strictly heterosexual in them. This is the 2020s. 

Frankly, I think it's kind of fake. I mean, if it's not fake, then it seems like maybe it's a genuinely chosen experience, but one that's been pre-selected because the culture wanted people to choose that particular form of self-expression. It's like a groupthink cult heterosexual mentality, or that is what it feels like sometimes.

Also, I will never be able to trust people who always have to pretend that sexual predators are fine for children to be around in order to fit in with what the "regular" culture wants and expects from them.

I know that's a very dangerous way of thinking, and I know that children really do get harmed when people are in denial about certain types of behaviors being bad for them.