" 6 Lessons Chronic Illness is Teaching Me about Self-love" – Life as Britny
Wednesday, June 30, 2021
It was not at all an exercise day
The cramps have become the lower back ache and the Luteal Phase is an Almighty Interferer with reading books that have too much toxic masculinity for---yeowch.
Garden parties for the inner child
Time Began in a Garden by Emilie Barnes
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1321615.Time_Began_in_a_Garden
The Wayward Bus embedded in an older copy of East of Eden for the inner college student.
Someone else in the library had been searching for items about Britney Spears.
Nothing compares to U. staying in bed
Uterus so angry about icecream and white flour bread rolls for breakfast and skipping out on supplements yesterday. What a DRAGON.
That's what staying in bed and reading essays is for.
"Wife Guy" - Doyles
U. told me it's gonna be a pain management day
I only saw parts of a certain film *the "Phil Collins scene* back in graduate school, but I think I remember saying to a guy who was considering teaching it that I didn't think it was such a good idea to have it on the syllabus for a freshmen "Intro to English" class.
"For a while, it seemed like every straight guy I knew liked American Psycho, and they all liked it for the wrong reasons."
~ J. Ellison, S. Doyle
https://doyles.substack.com/p/the-killing-joke-american-psycho
Life experiences can be like ice cream
Rum raisin is old-fashioned and something a deceased female relative could have decided was her absolute favorite flavor and maybe it could be intriguing for you to try if its made really, really, really well with top quality ingredients, but you know it could be an awful flavor if it's not made well or if you're not in the mood for it.
I will retrieve an ED poem
CDC vs. LA Cty
"I stepped from plank to plank..."
https://tellingthetruth1993.com/2016/04/20/i-stepped-from-plank-to-plank/
"My Misadventure" | From Plank to Plank | Telling the Truth
https://tellingthetruth1993.com/2016/04/24/my-misadventure-from-plank-to-plank/
"Unwired!" | Telling the Truth
https://tellingthetruth1993.com/2016/06/19/unwired/
"she sits silent"| Telling the Truth
https://tellingthetruth1993.com/2014/01/30/she-sits-silent/
"Who am I?" | Telling the Truth
I showed a dude some funny stuff
And I got screechy and he made up a funny name for a "Glow" type of character but also I forgot this number. This number is very very very high!
"35 Bill Cosby Accusers Tell Their Stories" -- The Cut
http://www.thecut.com/2015/07/bill-cosbys-accusers-speak-out.html
It's, you know, a passing MOOD
"Average success-oriented American of more than one gender still really terrible about caring if sexual assault happens to other ppl, even to the ones in thin, pale, blond, blue-eyed, female bodies, and also not great at caring if it happens to ppl in other kinds of bodies"
Who needs to watch it?
"Why You Need to Watch Promising Young Woman"
https://www.mediummagazine.nl/https-mediummagazine-nl-promising-young-woman/
"Everyone's Invited names almost 3,000 schools following claims of sexual assault, rape and harassment" | ITV News
"RSE row as minister links Catholic resources to rape culture"
I suppose Bill Cosby's wife will be happy
"Bill Cosby’s sex assault conviction overturned by court" – The Seattle Times
https://www.seattletimes.com/entertainment/bill-cosbys-sex-assault-conviction-overturned-by-court/
Saw the IE version of Critical Mass
Bikers in Southern California riding against traffic & making cars honk at them
"Seattle Critical Mass"
http://www.seattlecriticalmass.org/
Back in the 90s, Critical Mass was a group that made me feel conflicted cause I had a bike messenger friend who rode with them and I knew they'd sometimes protest cars by stopping traffic on the freeway and I would think "okay, but what if a woman in labor is in one of those cars trying to get to a hospital?"
Fodder for Writing Group on Sonnet Night
"Ghosting, Breadcrumbing, Fleabagging, Kittenfishing & 18 other terms..."
Mirrors are very tricky for some of us
That One in the a.m. is giving the image of weight loss...even after the breakfast I chose...
Breakfast has beckoned...
Blah and blah and blah...it's too late to go back.
Consistency matters. Like consistently getting reminders that ppl aren't living up to being better versions of themselves.
For attractive ppl who have a lot going for them, there are some who really go out of their way to look, well, rather repulsive at times.
It's really not that hard to visualize just 20 or 50 years in the future, in general terms.
I think these 3 could be so interesting
"What Is 'Self-Gaslighting' and How Do I Unlearn It?"
https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/unlearning-self-gaslighting
"4 Levels of Gaslighting: From Unconscious to Malicious" | by The Good Men Project | Co-existence | Medium
https://medium.com/co-existence/4-levels-of-gaslighting-from-unconscious-to-malicious-c71c233f8022
"Unconscious Gaslighting: What It Is and How to Avoid It" | HealthyPlace
Should anyone die for picking my lettuce?
"Farmworker dies in Willamette Valley record heat"
No, that's not pleasing to my inner child.
I really do like maps sometimes
It is so fun to look at them and think about all the new places which could be discovered. Lists of restaurants and coffee shops are also really fun to peruse sometimes.
Perhaps in a year or two
Wow, it's so amazing to imagine. All the reincarnation and renewal and just...new things! Like little sprouts growing out of a pot.
I hope Daisy and her mom come back soon. Why wouldn't they? It seems like they could.
Statue of icon affects brain
The words "the rise of people not treating trauma survivors as untouchables" might have come to mind.
What can you do
Circumstances will have an affect on how you see circuses. 🎪
"What does 'bread and circuses' mean?"| HowStuffWorks
Maybe it's uphill afterall
Sometimes your father's version of "smart" people seems to be "people who are slightly better than I am at not being insensitive self-absorbed assholes."
Cramps are very real.
Pain is very real.
You have to pray for help.
~~~~~~~~~~
My god, that feeling of being 90-95% out of the woods is amazing.
Young possum
Just a watching of a nature doc and then a little possum appears outside.
It climbed into the balcony.
And what if some ppl go to a specialist
Like a kinesiology person, to find out when that issue of yours developed! And then it can get "cleared."
Like a beautiful view of mountains and water.
i know i know i know
You're supposed to find all those parts your childself wanted to develop that you have forgotten and now it's time to pay attention to them
Why am I watching "Sweettooth"
What's the project
I am switching to a NATURE DOCUMENTARY
"Life in Color" with Attenborough
X: do you want some more icecream
Y: sure
X: okay do it yourself
Y: *pats head*
X: women's lib!
And limited edition flavors
Imagine the possibilities if improving and opening in communication like it was some nature process, like flowers opening, was 100% committed to 🌼
Tuesday, June 29, 2021
What Nature Documentaries
"tIgEr sAvageLY RIPs oFf PeRsOnS FooT and DEvoURs IT"
"Woke literature"
https://www.reddit.com/r/wokekids/comments/oah5au/woke_literature/
Watch "Las Vegas Aviators and Finn the Bat Dog" on YouTube
I saw a statue of Gandhi to-nite
"Woke literature"
https://www.reddit.com/r/wokekids/comments/oah5au/woke_literature/
What if reincarnation stuff is just a distraction.
"Daisy and Melinda Coleman's suicides lay bare how public attention can mask ongoing trauma"
What's "salacious"
"The Salacious Non-Mystery of 'The Real Lolita'” | The New Yorker
https://www.newyorker.com/books/page-turner/the-salacious-non-mystery-of-the-real-lolita
"salacious" | Origin and meaning of salacious by Online Etymology Dictionary
Gonna go to a bar and take an article with me
"How rape culture shapes whether a survivor is believed" – Harvard Gazette
Scams are legal
"John Oliver Exposes One Of America’s Worst Ideas By Creating A 100% Legal Scam"
https://www.huffpost.com/entry/john-oliver-health-care-sharing-ministry_n_60d96a49e4b01ec760f438e1
Nature entertains 🎥
This Charlie the chipmunk reminded me of a babysitter who could feed one out of hand and I realky wanted to but I never could; however, all this other stuff the YouTuber showed this chipmunk doing takes it to another level.
Also
Sommer Ackerman on Twitter: "Today, we staged a peaceful protest. @helsinki intends to destroy old natural forests. This is just one example of a valuable forest that Helsinki intends to soon replace with new homes, despite having endangered habitats and species and resistance from locals. Save our forests! https://t.co/7wB8ed0tKs" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/lifewithsommer/status/1409927556783038468
Bodies are ecosystems too
At least I have been re-learning that exercise for a body (like swimming, since I have access to a pool again this year) can help a person feel better about living in one.
Maybe if more people were encouraged to take better care of themselves healthwise (not just upperclass people) then doing the same for the environment would come more naturally.
She says something postive when she feels it
Greta Thunberg on Twitter: "A big congratulations and thank you to Fridays For Future Bangladesh and all other climate activists who have been pushing for this!" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/GretaThunberg/status/1409787618330656768
She's not one for fake positivity to make insecure privileged people even more complacent.
Russia, Germany, the Pacific Northwest
Alec Luhn on Twitter: "Moscow's infrastructure is not able to handle the <50mm of rain that's falling today. Subway stations have been flooded, roofs & cranes have collapsed & one suburb lost electricity after lightning hit a transformer https://t.co/HKBKetWtSU https://t.co/gbytKQnu3T" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/ASLuhn/status/1409480628819664901
AaravSeth🇮🇳 on Twitter: "Heavy rains and squalls drowned #Stuttgart in #Germany. Developed Infrastructure is panting amidst of nature reaction. How many alarms do #PolicyMakers need to understand #ClimateChange? #Unwetter @GretaThunberg @vanessa_vash @KaoHua3 @AlexandriaV2005 https://t.co/cmqR68AqLe" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/AaravSeth_/status/1409747632973516820
Jamie Margolin on Twitter: "To all my fellow Seattleites + Pacific Northwest folks experiencing this #ClimateEmergency caused #heatwave, please stay safe. The majority of our homes are not air conditioned because we are built to withstand cold, not heat. Watch out for #heatstroke and #heat exhaustion: https://t.co/snRcyzapYe" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/Jamie_Margolin/status/1409501834738159620
What of the language
"AOC Joins Climate Protesters With 'Biden You Coward, Fight For Us' Signs Outside White House"
Upon Julia's Musicalness
"Julia Jacklin Parties with Her Siblings in the Video for New Song 'Pressure to Party'" | Under The Radar Magazine
"Julia Jacklin Shares a Video for 'Head Alone'" | Under The Radar Magazine
https://www.undertheradarmag.com/news/julia_jacklin_shares_a_video_for_head_alone
These two...
"Game of Thrones's Sexual Violence Is Still Influencing TV" - The Atlantic
"Fuck D&D. Fuck GRRM. GoT/ASOIAF was dead."
https://www.reddit.com/r/freefolk/comments/o9mn3b/fuck_dd_fuck_grrm_gotasoiaf_was_dead/
Wake up to a voice
"God, X was so great at treating girls with respect just as long as they didn't have an inconvenient history of ×××××× xxxxxxx attached to them."
21st Century A.D. on Planet Earth
Sleepless with Salad
I read
"Narsiso Martinez is Painting the Plight of Farmworkers" | Civil Eats
https://civileats.com/2021/06/28/narsiso-martinez-is-painting-the-plight-of-farmworkers/
while snacking on a freeze-dried crunchy organic salad that was marked down to 99 cents."During the pandemic, food and farmworkers received unprecedented media attention after being ignored for too long. How do you feel about this shift?"
~ Nadra Nittle
TIME o time
Maybe some people wouldn't have to deal with so many internal conflicts if they were wiser and more attuned to their growth, spiritually. Might be that whatever religious beliefs they were exposed to in childhood were not the greatest and continually referring back to them is not the best use of time.
Monday, June 28, 2021
Good grief.
"Looking at them, she was reminded of more artistic images from the era, particularly a painting by Edgar Degas, now called Interior (formerly known as The Rape).
In the artwork a partially dressed woman poses limply, melancholic, in a
cluttered and windowless bedroom, as a man stands blocking the door,
looking at her with hands stuffed in pockets. From the ornate wallpaper
to the slumped, partly bare body, it’s eerily close to a typical
Bertillon composition. The viewer is placed in the position of having
interrupted something intimate and sinister. Bertillon and Degas were
contemporaries. Although there is no evidence they met, a curator at
Paris’s Musee d’Orsay has said Degas’s Interior betrays 'the scientific gaze of a Bertillon assistant at a crime scene.'”
~ S. Gorton
https://getpocket.com/explore/item/the-intimacy-of-crime-scene-photos-in-belle-epoque-paris?
What a pain.
The pregnancy the character was happy about and the pregnancy the character was not so happy about.
Such a sad thing to relay
"Starcrawler’s Arrow de Wilde Accuses the Growlers of Facilitating Sexual Assault, Band 'Takes Full Responsibility'" | Pitchfork
Things can change
"For the better, right?"
https://www.reddit.com/r/NewDealAmerica/comments/o9lf9s/for_the_better_right/
"Come at me you pussy!"
https://www.reddit.com/r/instant_regret/comments/o9nd12/come_at_me_you_pussy/
"The black cat is blind, they never leave each other"
https://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/o9816f/the_black_cat_is_blind_they_never_leave_each_other/
Because
"Rape Is A Grave, Systematic And Widespread Human Rights Violation Yet Still Poorly Addressed"
Literacy is a gift because
"Much attention in each book is paid to high-profile cases of predatory, violent actions taken by privileged men who have faced little or no public disapprobation for their violation..."
~ Windy Cooler
Stop Menstrual Cramps -"Luna's Touch"
"'Suffragette City' by David Bowie" - Songfacts
Amazon.com: Customer reviews: Suffragette City
It's available!!!!!
"The Donut King" | Our Films | Independent Lens | PBS
https://www.pbs.org/independentlens/documentaries/the-donut-king/
Donuts again
Starcrawler - "I Love LA" - YouTube
+
"The Donut King who went full circle - from rags to riches, twice" - BBC News
This channel is really interesting right now
The Menstrual Cramps - YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/TheMenstrualCramps
And even though the "Tory" song is not the soothing Binaural beats music, it didn't make the milder cramps pain worse, and actually the pain got better.
This is one of the stranger pet videos I have clicked on
"This little dachshund puppy biting my hand while I pretend it doesnt feel a thing" - YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XuJS3ZUyC6c&feature=youtu.be
More than two of course
"'Two Americas': Aid groups prepare for more women needing to cross state lines for abortions"
Hey man
If you tell me more about a woman who has no time for overly feminist "not positive enough" women, yet happily makes all the excuses in the world for a man and his blunders, then I will tell you she wouldn't be respecting him at all if he were born into a different kind of body in difference circumstances. This is an example what patriarchal brainwashing does to some people.
Maybe a film could be made about her
"Despite her privileged upbringing, however, the young Arbella could hardly fail to be aware of the tensions within her family background."
Denny, Arbella (1707–1792) | Encyclopedia.com
"Systematic cruelty of mother and baby homes dates back to 18th century"
People were treated like problems
"Canada genocide evidence piles up; over 600 more Indigenous children’s bodies found" – People's World
"'The pope needs to apologize.’ Unmarked graves near schools roil Canada." - CSMonitor.com
Not just indigenous peoples of Canada
"Mass grave of babies and children found at Tuam care home in Ireland"| Ireland | The Guardian
"India's opinionated feminist"
"The ad, she added, 'was a satirical statement on this narrative and I assume that the people getting triggered are the same as those who put out these kinds of 'slim, fair, beautiful bride wanted' type of ads in the first place,'"
And for those 'triggered by obvious satire,' she had a question: 'Do you send such triggered emails to all the sexist, casteist 'bride wanted' adverts that appear in the papers everyday? If not, then you need to curb your patriarchy.'"
https://www.myjoyonline.com/indias-opinionated-feminist-and-her-viral-wedding-ad/
Dios tiene ojos
"Caravan focused on farmworkers' rights rolls through Valley" | abc30.com
https://abc30.com/farmworkers-caravan-dolores-huerta-sanger-farm-worker-rights/10838533/
Sunday, June 27, 2021
Unexpected 🎶
Witches of YT
WAY too advanced at the moment, but some of it is doable.
"Core & Ab Pilates Home Workout | 20min REAL TIME workout" - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ta2snBX8roU
This might seem slower, but she's the first person to tell me how I am supposed to hold my head to help my neck even though I used to take classes.
"20 Minute Full Body Pilates Workout For Beginners - No Equipment!" - YouTube
I was trying to use a DVD
But the remote to the old VCR/DVD player doesn't work so it limited what exercises I could pick, and I think I pulled a muscle.
"Muscles of the Anterior Leg - Attachments - Actions - TeachMeAnatomy"
https://teachmeanatomy.info/lower-limb/muscles/leg/anterior-compartment/
I'd watch this old, historically relevant film
W.C. Fields - "Diner Scene with rude waitress - Never Give A Sucker An Even Break" -
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Tk3AcgThwKM&feature=youtu.be
W.C. Fields - "Never Give A Sucker..." (diner scene with Spanish subtitles)
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=j0vDSZi3Sc0&feature=youtu.be
W.C. Fields - "Never Give a Sucker an Even Break"
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XOXSk00Ycak&feature=youtu.be
I might watch it.
He sounds educated
"Couldn’t He Have Counted To Five And End It Sooner?"
https://notalwaysright.com/couldnt-he-have-counted-to-five-and-end-it-sooner/
I wish S2 of this show was available
"World on Fire Recaps"| Telly Visions
https://tellyvisions.org/tags/world-fire-recaps
I was getting into it again.
Uh-oh, something else came up
"Unrapeable Daughters Syndrome"
That thing where you think that if you just don't talk about it, and that if you train your kids not to talk about it, it won't happen to anyone you know.
That's always other people's misfortune. Not your own!
Sunday, sunday...
If video games didn't ruin some people's sleep schedules, it would be nice to go to the beach.
~~~~~~~~
Oops, maybe not THIS beach:
"Shark bites swimmer off Northern California beach"
https://www.kcra.com/article/shark-bites-swimmer-northern-california-beach/36852380
un hombre me mostró esta cosa
"Question for the ages…."
https://www.reddit.com/r/TheLeftCantMeme/comments/o8fw90/question_for_the_ages/
I said, I saw that one earlier today.
And then for some reason I told him a little story. I said a girl in creative writing class in high school told me she had been assaulted by her ex-boyfriend. I don't know why we started talking about it. Maybe it was connected to suffering from depression or being prescribed anti-depressants. And she told me, she used to stare at that guy's sister in choir practice and cry.
And then what happened? One of my friends became friends with that guy's sister. And I started hanging out with her too. And the girl in my creative writing class disappeared. What happened to her? Did she see me hanging out with the sister?
The brother knew I didn't like him. He said to me, "You've heard bad things about me, and they are not true."
The man who showed me this didn't have such a story coming up for him, but he shared his thoughts on the link.
https://www.reddit.com/r/TheLeftCantMeme/comments/o8fw90/question_for_the_ages/
He said, I think it shows that women are more traumatized and so they talk about it. Men are not as traumatized, so they don't talk about it.
My mom's Marilyn French book
I read it in 5th grade. She also liked Rosamunde Pilcher & I read some of those books, too.
The Women's Room by Marilyn French
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/46456.The_Women_s_Room
The Shell Seekers by Rosamunde Pilcher
Like who gets seen on a bus ride?
кαуℓα ʝσ. on Twitter: "this Eddie Deezen thing is scary for a lot of reasons but knowing there’s so many people with no remorse for women and unfathomable compassion for a fucking creep makes me want to crawl in a hole and not come out." / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/kayla_jo2
кαуℓα ʝσ. on Twitter: "I’m so proud of my husband and everything’s he’s been doing in life ❤️ @Nick_Stahl3" / Twitter
Sorry, the voice said, gotta ask
It's 2021 &
Kate Manne on Twitter: "When I compared misogynists to a disappointed diner, demanding service with a smile from his waitress, it was supposed to be a METAPHOR 🤦♀️🤬😱" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/kate_manne
Kara on Twitter: "Eddie Deezen is a fucking CREEP who comes into my work at least once a week, calls and asks other servers for my schedule, and if he comes in and i’m not wearing makeup HE LEAVES. And this grown ass old man has the balls to post this on facebook about me im losing my mind https://t.co/FBFTLdp5Mx" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/kate_manne
a voice is like, "Why are first ladies still okay with the Patriarchy while a lot of other woman in society are getting more and more vocal about being sick of the Patriarchy's bullshit. Maybe it's a class or status thing?"
Otto Otter
WHATEVER
"Otto" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Otto
"What If I say I'm Not Like The Otters" - In Otter News
https://www.inotternews.co.uk/otter_meme/what-if-i-say-im-not-like-the-otters/
"Otter Reaction to Popcorn Maker" - YouTube
I will listen to these again
alt-J - Deadcrush (Official Video) - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=GOJUNJ1o394&feature=youtu.be
alt-J - "Deadcrush" (Live at WFUV) - YouTube
Warped patriarchal conditioning at work
notalwaysright on Twitter: "A manager, who is also female, has accused me of being pregnant all three times I have needed to take a sick day for the past three years. Each time, she heavily implies that if I am pregnant she will have me fired but never outright says it. https://t.co/HTyvOEMm0W" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/notalwaysright/status/1408516889165406210
Saturday, June 26, 2021
I was also reading about Sally Horner
"Not a single person, when I quoted the passage about Sally Horner, remembered it.
I can’t say Nabokov designed the book to hide Sally from the reader. Given that the story moves so quickly, perhaps an homage to the highways Humbert and Dolores traverse over many thousands of miles in their cross-country odyssey, it’s easy to miss a lot as you go. But I would argue that even casual readers of Lolita, who number in the tens of millions, plus the many more millions with some awareness of the novel, the two film versions, or its place in the culture these past six decades, should pay attention to the story of Sally Horner because it is the story of so many girls and women, not just in America, but everywhere."
"Excerpt from The Real Lolita" | Penguin Random House Canada
"A number of people told me how bookish Sally was. So in some weird parallel universe, if Lolita had been able to be published [in her lifetime] … would Sally Horner have read it? And what would she have thought of it?
"That's something that I will never stop thinking about."
~ Sarah Weinman
& do you read comedy
Television things
WC Fields ~ "The Diner Sketch"
"WC Fields Hates Children"
Kids & pets things
"Cat bites..."
"THE MOST AMAZING..."
I have to wait to visit the library
The actual library hours did not correlate to the hours I wanted the library to have.
Optimism: the belief that almost everyone has a good side!
Why not take your most excellent, mature moments in life, replicate them in your mind, and endeavor to be more like that in the future.
Acknowledgement = helpful ripples across society
"One of Ms. Spears’s most disturbing claims this week was that she was forced to get an IUD to prevent her from having more children; it was not just her money they wanted to control, but also her body, because in entertainment, for young women, the two are almost invariably intertwined. I’ve experienced my own version of this dynamic. Growing up, my weight was openly discussed by everyone, from family members to Hollywood creatives. I’d grin and bear it, because staying silent — and thin — meant I would get hired again; getting hired again meant people would be proud of me and that I would have the money that was needed to keep the ship afloat.
Again, none of this amounts to the dynamics of control and abuse that we’ve heard about in Britney Spears’s case. But I can see how easy it would have been to slip into those dynamics. In these situations, some kind of damage is invariably done — a stunting of the ability of an individual to grow and make the most basic of decisions, or practice good boundaries."
~ A. Tamblyn
https://www.nytimes.com/2021/06/26/opinion/britney-spears-amber-tamblyn.htmlIn this case, the acknowledgement is that even to the "successful," the system was far from kind.
I DID IT
I GOT HAPPY.
I made myself a skinny margarita with ice that I crushed in my Vitamix and felt happy about having a Vitamix, and smiled at remembering how the character of the Postmates guy asked the young woman in Hacks if she had a Vitamix and looked at my small purchase of discounted cookware (that I got alongside the skinny margarita mix) and smiled at it and said "Like."
And also
"Suffer Jet Suffragette City" came on the radio and it's such a fun song but it also reminded me of Eighth Grade when the PE teacher in Health class referenced it in warning us what highschool guys were gonna be like with freshman girls, and I thought about how so many of those guys are getting SCHOOOOOOOLED right now. Okay, to be honest, a lot of them are probably not paying attention, but I don't care! A lot of them are! MORE THAN THEY ADMIT.
And "Back in the USSR" also came on the radio. That's just a fun song with no particular dark associations...OR IS IT????
HA.
Just thinking about the work B. Spears came to do for the planet
And about the cocktails in the Saint Motel "My Type" video. Maybe I'll make one. It's Saturday...
"Honestly the coil"
Rachel Charlton-Dailey on Twitter: "Uk top story: IUD pain ruining women's lives. US top story: Britney forced to keep an IUD in. When will this medical misogyny end." / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/wep_uk/status/1408733355366027267
That's what 2 years at a Jesuit College are for...
"Ricki Ruiz grew up the son of two farmworkers, and he remembers his family’s struggles vividly.
'We almost faced eviction five times because we didn’t have enough money for rent,” said Ruiz, a first-term Democrat. “We didn’t go to the grocery store; we went to the food bank. We didn’t have extra clothes.'
Ruiz hopes to change that situation for farmworkers in Oregon. He sponsored a bill that will mandate that farmworkers be paid overtime for any work beyond 40 hours a week."
~ Alex Brown
The purpose of going to the college: to be exposed to certain movements. And also to meet a guy. Who is oddly very feminist.
I can't believe it's almost ten.
Kimberley Johnson on Twitter: "If you haven't seen this already, please watch. It's an AMAZING take on Lady Gaga's ''Bad Romance' but it's about women's suffrage. Fucking BRILLIANT! Watch: https://t.co/GgyYppT8wm https://t.co/upUqpTJMnW" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/gretathunberg/status/1408701865815121925
LINKS ARE INTERMINGLED
Kimberley Johnson on Twitter: "Here's a question. https://t.co/etlmRhPZ42" / Twitter
Hmmm, I guess.
"She even chuckled self-deprecatingly as she noted she still needed 'a little therapy.'"
~ J. Vance
What if ancestors come back
Greta Thunberg on Twitter: ""[This] was the latest in a series of actions taken by the administration to back Trump-era approvals of oil and gas infrastructure, despite President Biden’s pledge to aggressively cut emissions from fossil fuels" #MindTheGap between words and action. https://t.co/faWZFRXhXB" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/GretaThunberg/status/1408701865815121925
Jeff Berardelli on Twitter: "“If you could live 1000 years in this spot, you’d likely only experience a heat dome like this ONE time” … “It’s not coincidence, it’s climate change” ….“Extreme heat waves like this will become common place in the next few decades” @CoveringClimate" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/WeatherProf/status/1408751349282623491
B
"Britney Spears’ forced birth control has a long, dark history in the United States" | Britney Spears | The Guardian
"Britney Spears apologizes to fans for 'pretending' to be ok in her conservatorship" - CNN
Early 📚
Women's Equality Party on Twitter: "Our spokesperson @thecclements “This is a landmark case that recognises the responsibilities of parenthood aren’t shared equally, a discrepancy that has increased during the pandemic” https://t.co/6PXic5A4Kq" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/WEP_UK/status/1408733355366027267
"Dingus of the Week: Jamie Spears - Men Yell at Me"
https://lyz.substack.com/p/dingus-of-the-week-jamie-spears
"Jamie Spears sounds no different than Maryon Cooper Hewitt, insinuating about her daughter’s indiscretions. The loving protection, just a cover for control and power and, of course, money. But it’s supported by a society that still refuses to see women as fully competent human beings.
Women have never been in control, not of our own bodies, not over ourselves. And Jamie Spears is an embodiment of that patriarchal control dressed up in fatherly benevolence. Telling a grown-ass woman what she can and cannot do for herself, while hand-wringing about her past indiscretions, as if he’s known or done better."
~ lyz
Kittens exist
"one has to be a monk to resist playing with those kittens"
https://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/o7xvps/one_has_to_be_a_monk_to_resist_playing_with_those/
Will my readings be wayward or what
Local library should be able to open up again today.
HONESTY
I am excited. Love libraries! I will once again be among the books that are perused by the public...
IS SUCH
Late in the evening, we tried to watch 1 ep. of Hacks and 1 of Pushing Daisies and then I was falling asleep.
A BILLY JOEL
In 2021, those who were overly focused on "Big D. energy," forgot about "Able to put up with a man and make excuses for him" energy.
SONG 🎵
Friday, June 25, 2021
No book, just reviews
Is this true.
"I also realized at the end that Woody Allen got the premise to every one of his movies through this book"~ Lindsay rated it ☆☆☆☆☆
https://www.goodreads.com/user/show/205963-lindsay
The Wayward Bus by John Steinbeck
Some people on Earth get a lot out of just zoning out
And appreciating how the sunlight plays across objects at a certain time of day and how the leaves are moving in the breeze and how various kinds of birds chirping...
Things end...because...
Sometimes I don't feel like making a big deal about things ending, especially things that give me too much of a "that was not healthy enough for you, something else in the future could be better" vibe.
Nap weeks
I have never done so much spontaneous falling asleep in my life. I might be in a body that is a puppet of the universe.
One can & one does
One cannot help but wonder why the universe keeps showing one the same f**king thing over and over again sometimes.
3rd p.
I could almost imagine using 3rd person a lot if I were hugely different. I seem to sometimes have various personalities on the periphery, which is a distinct way of participating in the experience called life.
The library was closed. :-(
Google lied.
So what if there's this pretty & cute alien fairy.
And she just keeps whispering
"Slimeball! Miserable dishonest creepy slimeball."
into a character's Ear.
Finally the libraries are open
For a good distraction from "worthless astral traveling bullshit nonsense" is that Steinbeck classic The Wayward Bus available.
Oh well time to take another break soon
Lyz Lenz on Twitter: "This week's dingus is all about eugenics, a Gilded Age heiress, and Britney Spears https://t.co/NbYFknUgSv" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/lyzl/status/1408415872360845314
"I Played 'The Boys Are Back in Town' on a Bar Jukebox Until I Got Kicked Out"
Yes, WHY must they?
"Why Must Women Wait for the Supreme Court to Decide What We Can Do With Our Bodies?"
https://time.com/6074553/abortion-supreme-court-limbo/
"In high school, before I even understood the depths and pleasures of my own flesh, I watched boys and teachers stand up and debate whether I should have the right to choose what happens to me."~ Lyz Lenz
4 to read...
THIS
https://la.eater.com/22421212/california-barbacoa-mexican-tacos-los-angeles-bay-area-central-coast
THIS
https://la.eater.com/22536608/yique-mixteco-barbacoa-trail-santa-maria-oxnard-central-coast
THIS
This thing that guy in the other room showed me yesterday *to re-read*
Good thing the medical profession can evolve
"The gender pain gap has gone on for too long – it's time we closed it" | New Scientist
"Although hysteria as a diagnosis is thankfully obsolete, health professionals still evoke it when they judge a woman’s expressions of pain to be neither credible nor valuable. We must learn from the case of J. S. and aim to put an end to the gender pain gap."
~ E. Cleghorn
"stripped"
"Two different Americas: How the anti-abortion movement stripped millions"
https://news.yahoo.com/amphtml/two-different-americas-anti-abortion-164621159.html
Available on yahoo too.
Who cares about them?
“'If I could pick one common denominator,' Dr Cathey said, 'it is women with a child under one year old. They couldn’t get in for postpartum visits to get birth control. They had appointments for tubals (a surgical procedure to prevent pregnancy) that got cancelled. They couldn’t get in for their IUD to be changed.'"
~ D. Zoellner
It's not even just about abortions.
It's interfering with everything.
This is the consequence of widespread insensitivity and catering to the patriarchy's controlling, domineering ways.
Some people should be more honest
About how very cold, self-absorbed and uncaring they really looked, and the small percentage of women who got put on rickety, fragile pedestals at the expense of masses of women they were trained to unsee are 100% included.
How Bizarre. And NOT in a good way.
Mandu Reid on Twitter: "The way @britneyspears has been treated - right before our eyes - while so many of us have consumed the fruits of her exploitation as entertainment... is utterly despicable. It is shameful and symbolic of the worst patriarchal power dynamics. #FreeBritney https://t.co/H0X0nvwUrj" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/ManduReid/status/1408006137044209673
"Britney Spears Says Her Conservators Won't Let Her Remove IUD and Have a Baby"
Now what quote in this could really get a person's attention
"Abortion Is at the Supreme Court Again--It's Different This Time" - Scientific American
"health care, plain and simple."
~ E. Nash
Oh Trickster Universe
How unfortunate that the Universe had to set it up to make her feel that way. Or was it necessary? Or was it un~necessary?
IT'S LIKE LEAVING THE CULT'
But sometimes, bodies are like cake.
Nice cake 🎂 nice 👍cake.
Lol, women's bodies!
Oh no, there's a gigantic, nauseating menstrual cramp...
Lol, SOME women's bodies!!!
Yay, Leonard & Buffy Sainte-Marie
Leonard Cohen - "The Partisan" (live in France, 1970) - YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XY3sKuiDb7o
Buffy Sainte-Marie - "Song of the French Partisan" - YouTube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ms2oSvejYMQ
🎶🎵 🎶
Weird, that abbreviated link came up backwards at first.
https://consequence.net › 2009/01
Rock History 101: Leonard Cohen - "The Partisan" - Consequence
https://consequence.net/2009/01/rock-history-101-leonard-cohen-the-partisan/
The Partisan - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Partisan
Buffy Sainte-Marie - Wikipedia
People happen to have bodies, so...
in health news...
Women's Equality Party on Twitter: "#COVID19 has disproportionately impacted the livelihoods of women, minorities and Disabled people. Workplace equality needs to be higher on the gvt agenda, and pay gap reporting will reveal the scale of the problem that must be addressed. https://t.co/KMuN3QbgQH" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/WEP_UK/status/1408350673889005568
Women's Equality Party on Twitter: "Fantastic news that Gibraltar has voted to expand women's rights and reproductive autonomy. No woman should risk imprisonment for making health care decisions about their own body. #MyBodyMyChoice https://t.co/gLBzXnCmwi" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/WEP_UK/status/1408339438716043272
Mandu Reid on Twitter: "This is an important ruling. Until we have a more equal distribution of caregiving between men and women it's absolutely right that women should not be discriminated against or penalised for having caring responsibilities. https://t.co/eELSjicxZy" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/ManduReid/status/1407995850027155460
Actually unbelievable or no?
"In Unbelievable News, Barnaby Joyce Will Now Be Advising On The Status Of Women In Australia"
He feels entitled...it's 2021...therefore...The planet has it's share of turmoil
The 4th link is where a sense of restoring balance begins to get more apparent.
"Cambodia charges environment activists with insulting the king" - BBC News
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-57563233
"Wanchalearm Satsaksit: The Thai satirist abducted in broad daylight" - BBC News
https://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-53212932
Greta Thunberg on Twitter: "All over the world environmental defenders are being threatened, arrested and even killed. We who are privileged must raise our voices to speak up against these human rights violations. This is outrageous. #DefendTheDefenders" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/GretaThunberg/status/1407230710511964162
"THREE YEARS OF GRETA THUNBERG" – cròniques subsidiàries
https://croniquessubsidiaries.org/2021/05/29/three-years-of-greta-thunberg/
Yes, "not surprisingly"
"Perhaps not surprisingly, the survey showed that compared to women, men are less supportive of gender equality, less likely to see sexism as extensive and systematic, and more likely to endorse men's dominance in relationships and families."
What is still very unpleasantly surprising is how many women still go along with old-fashioned behavior patterns and expect other women to do the same.
What a short story that was.
notalwaysright on Twitter: ""Come on, you sexy minx, where's my latte ?" https://t.co/ujHzSr36hI" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/notalwaysright/status/1408343219147087872
Such X-Centric Social Practices
Old Patriarchal Habits:
"I wish you would just accept and enjoy our incredibly Low Standards for how we treat women because it's way more fun for us that way. For us, it is not about you or your quality of life, Person who was born into That Type of Body That We Were Trained to Deem Less Important"
Person born into That Type of Body:
"Humanity includes lots of people you were raised to unsee. SOMETIMES when you seem to start to see others, you give hope, but then it turns out you could only see them for very superficial reasons, and that's sad. I think if you and a few others showed that you had higher standards for treating women better, you would be much more trustworthy and more of a gift to humanity, which includes a lot of people you were raised to disregard and not see. Stop treating people like trash just because you were raised with low standards. Patriarchy has in the past ruined a lot of things. You have a way of reminding some of us that it still does because of your carelessness and narcissistic practices."
Strawberry Moon in a book
Chapter 3.
Braiding Sweetgrass: Indigenous Wisdom, Scientific Knowledge, and the Teachings of Plants by Robin Wall Kimmerer
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/17465709-braiding-sweetgrass
Didn't forget "anxiety" yet
"Gamers know how it is."
https://www.reddit.com/r/technicallythetruth/comments/o7eudi/gamers_know_how_it_is/
Some people have a way of reminding you of that society needs to stop treating women like crap. Have you ever felt like the universe was giving you reminders not to encourage people to keep on with the same old-fashioned unhealthy BS patterns. I don't know how to communicate to some people it's not okay, when clearly their patriarchal upbringings taught them it was the thing to do, to be careless and disrespectful.
Just because your parents gave you messages that it was okay doesn't mean you have to repeat their patterns.
Hypnosis of the...what?
Trigger again? The UNIVERSE is STUBBORNNESS too sometimes?
"Love Is In Their DNA"
https://notalwaysright.com/love-is-in-their-dna/237945/
Okay.
"Archdiocese of Louisville fired unmarried, pregnant teacher"
But who cares about pregnant women being fired say the guys at the top of the food chain and the women who got trained to disregard other women.
Change seems very slow with some
The icecream didn't change much. It is very tiring to repeat oneself.
It is like running into a dead end, a wall of stubbornness. People communicate that they do not want change to happen all that badly, because the current system is good enough for them.
Women who make excuses for men behaving badly are not doing it because they cry at night about poorer women getting assaulted in the fields so they can eat fruit salads. They are doing what the patriarchy trained them to do.
And yet, what if some people really do not know what they do? Should you try to talk to them? Or is it that they just don't care? The second possibility seems all too likely, sometimes.
In 2021, wishing life hadn't taught some of us that "nice" people are trained to make excuses for social practices that to lead to a lot of people being treated poorly, which is really only "nice" for...who is that "nice" for exactly?
Patriarchal behavior patterns keep ruining things that could have been good.
Vibes...That "these are the people who would have to literally see someone get run over by a bus in front of them to develop the necessary level of sensitivity" vibe? That was not a joyous or fun feeling.
The wall of stubbornness said "here's where something good could've been started....psych."
This is why it's at least nice to remember children and grandchildren can be their own people, and not necessarily repeat old patterns.
Thursday, June 24, 2021
I don't know what sketch this is referring to
"So, to be clear, in threatening to blow up any climate ambition, Joyce’s Nationals could shrink our markets for agricultural exports in less than two years. (Why don’t we just punch ourselves in the head like Monty Python’s one man wrestler Colin 'Bomber' Harris?)"
~ Gabrielle Chan
But maybe I'll find it. Also, I got a song from Cats in my head now.
"Bustopher Jones: The Cat About Town"| 'Cats' Musical Wiki | Fandom
https://catsmusical.fandom.com/wiki/Bustopher_Jones_(song)
OK, it was online.
"Monty Python Colin 'Bomber' Harris" - YouTube
These guys are different.
And yet, they probably could have cordially sat down over a drink at some point.
Him.
Him.
https://finance.yahoo.com/amphtml/spanish-court-oks-extradition-mcafee-134640645.html
Him.
https://www.who.com.au/barnaby-joyce-family
Him.
Maybe I was reading these because...
"Under Attack by Aubrey Hirsch" - The Audacity.
https://audacity.substack.com/p/under-attack-by-aubrey-hirsch
"What sort of motherhood is this? My mother's focus seemed to be on preserving unborn children rather than on caring for her already born children, a position advocated in a right-wing magazine, The New American , which carries this ad in its September 1997 issue: 'ABORTION: AMERICA'S GREATEST CRIME. Human life is a precious gift from God. A country that legalizes the wholesale slaughter of its unborn children will surely one day have to answer to the Lord' (p. 28).
"Yet my mother did care for her children, to the best of her ability. Tragically, however, my mother did not have the opportunity to examine her belief in sacrificial motherhood or the actions that her belief enabled. Rather than saying no to the demands of her children or friends, my mother would give and give and give until resentment set in, at which time she withdrew in angry silence. Yet, as Jessica Benjamin argues in The Bonds of Love , a mother's right to establish boundaries is rarely put forward as a model of her children's mental health, let alone of her own."
~ B. Daly
"WILLA v9 - ‘Weeping for the Mother:’ A Feminist Daughter Calls for Change in the Public Schooling of Girls"| Virginia Tech Scholarly Communication University Libraries
http://localhost:4000/ejournals/old-WILLA/fall00/daly.html
What television or internet influences may come...
Diana Butler Bass on Twitter: "Also, this thing reminds me of a scene from a PBS program last night: "There is no skimmed milk. There is only Aryan cream."" / Twitter
https://mobile.twitter.com/dianabutlerbass/status/1259947599563567108
"'World on Fire': Episode 6 Recap" | Telly Visions
https://tellyvisions.org/2020/05/10/world-fire-episode-6-recap
Diana Butler Bass on Twitter: "My own personal Jesus: Can he be trusted? https://t.co/F4mUN9ADYx via @RNS" / Twitter
"World on Fire | Episode 3 History & Images" | Masterpiece | Official Site | PBS
https://www.pbs.org/wgbh/masterpiece/specialfeatures/world-on-fire-s1-ep3-history-images/
"The Cottage"
Strawberry 🍓 Supermoon 🌕 Tonight! 🌉
"'Strawberry Supermoon' on Thursday will get its own Krispy Kreme doughnut"| Space
https://www.space.com/strawberry-supermoon-krispy-kreme-doughnut
Picture of people like you picking strawberries!
"Supreme Court strikes down California regulation allowing union access to farm workers on growers’ land" - The Washington Post
Felt like revisiting a VERY interesting-to-me essay...
WILLA v9 - ‘Weeping for the Mother:’ A Feminist Daughter Calls for Change in the Public Schooling of Girls | Virginia Tech Scholarly Communication University Libraries
https://scholar.lib.vt.edu/ejournals/old-WILLA/fall00/daly.html
by
Brenda Daly
$ Culty
X: perhaps you'd like it if I controlled what we watch on television as well as other recreational activities
Y: I certainly would not.
X: perhaps you'd like to hang around a bunch of enablers who care more about catering to a man than about the well-being of nature or humans and the environment
Y: are you seriously that brainwashed
Honestly, this seems apt right now
"Want to stop climate change? Educate girls." | Peril & Promise | PBS
https://www.pbs.org/wnet/peril-and-promise/2020/03/want-to-stop-climate-change-educate-girls/
Still remember that time a few years ago when I sat next to a car salesmen and when he asked why I wasn't so interested in cars he briefly brought up another option as a topic of interest. "Oh, like Malala?" he suggested, and it was almost like he snickered about it. Huh.
What about..."God"
Or whatever you feel like a higher power could be. Really. Higher power, higher purpose, higher calling...
Wednesday, June 23, 2021
I know...focus on nature 🌳🏡
Seek choices. Where might nature encourage me to live next if not here...
Corrected spelling
"1989 CigArrest Commercial" - YouTube
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=GObg-vh4m3A&feature=youtu.be
Geez, no wonder these made an impression.
I DON'T THINK it's much of a choice at all
Stay in California and feel poor or move to Oppressive Anti-Choice Texas.
One time, i saw this super ripped up couch
Out by the dumpster. Someone went to a lot of trouble to destroy the hell out of it.
Maybe I should have taken a picture.
Do you ever wonder about circumstances
Janis?
Elon Musk on Twitter: "This is true https://t.co/72u3SrBf6U" / Twitter
Humans could be getting dumber in spite of their Museum Excursions
Leonard Cohen – "Chelsea Hotel No. 2 Lyrics" | Genius Lyrics
https://genius.com/Leonard-cohen-chelsea-hotel-no-2-lyrics
That's a song about finances.
Cigarest commercial vibe
I really thought it would be easier to find a variety of old Cigarest commercials.
😱🙀😱🙀😱🙀
https://californiaglobe.com/section-2/how-does-a-california-family-survive/
+
Apparently, if you move to a state where they oppress poor women more, you might be able to afford decent housing and a cat.
And just like that, Poverty was Back
Checking prices online. It was better last year.
I wish I lived in a different state.
Old, but not out of date enough.
Apartment Prices vs. Cost of Living in this part of the World at this Time on the Planet literally kills things.
New living circumstances challenges
Even though it was nice to see and pet Frank the handsome cat near the apartment they want to move us into as they do repairs on the building we currently live in, I felt a huge "no" coming up. The deck and view at the new place would be terrible. Noisy, big dirt lot, loud intersection, right next to big glaring lights of the high school. It is not a fair trade. I do not want to move there now. I would never choose that place if we were looking at apartments. Maybe we will be doing that again soon.
4321reincarnation...1 of these is not like...
"As the Climate Emergency Grows, Farmworkers Lack Protection from Deadly Heat" | Civil Eats
"Narrow Supreme Court Ruling A Loss For Farmworkers Union" : NPR
"No tuna DNA found in Subway’s tuna sandwich, tests from L.A.-area locations find: NYT" | KTLA
"Such worker-driven frameworks have been proven by a ten-year Harvard longitudinal study to be the most effective way to protect human rights in corporate supply chains. WSRs create legally binding frameworks and enforcement mechanisms with corporate product buyers that ensure fair pay and prevent forced labor, harassment and sexual violence on farms. Fair trade standards do not."
Over here, the universe has...
a lot of thunderclaps in the sky today...
& a sense of humor
"Margaux Fragoso lit Tigre, tigre chapitre 4" - YouTube