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Tuesday, April 30, 2019

yes I think so

Jesus's cynical inner child is old enough to watch Private Benjamin.

Processing quesadilla

I can't believe I put so much hot sauce on it.

Poppy Seed

A scrumptious name for a feminine child would work equally well for her masculine brother, ha ha...Schrodinger's Cat has a nice ring to it.

Stormy Clouds on an April Afternoon
Enjoying a Bagel & Cream Cheese

Sometimes typing words improves my physical condition

I will say this:

Sometimes when I listen to whistling bagpipes tears go streaming down my face and I don't know why

This is searing criticism

"I didn't want Paul Simon to be my new father."
(T. Mailhot, HeartBerries, pg. #)

Kids can be so picky.

Large, roybgiv, and green

One time when dad and I went to the car dealer I got the salesman to give me huge M&Ms just laying around on his desk even though it was impolite and now I wonder if that's how they tricked dads into buying their cars!!!!

I had highlighted locks

I just wish they would stop groveling about all this hair bleaching please stop it's just embarrassing

~~~

Some ppl can really relate to this song
https://genius.com/Wham-everything-she-wants-lyrics
Some are fans for other reasons

♡Ginger♡

Thinking about how I compulsively ate junk food at the wrong time of the month after several salad-filled healthy days and neglected seed cycling and special self massage and why.

Brain + Uterus + GI Tract sit around a table with steaming cups of tea. Quackquackquack.

Monday.

Hmmm.

https://digest.bps.org.uk/2019/04/25/could-your-immune-system-be-making-you-impulsive/

Sunday, April 28, 2019

Never have I ever

even watched a single solitary episode of This but the review mentions clocks and lasagna, so...

https://www.avclub.com/for-brooklyn-nine-nine-s-experimental-ticking-clocks-1834322583

Sunday picnickers

Look it's a party
Probably will play cumbia music
Surprise it's the whistling bagpapes

Ah, wind dreams

Was in a home with a cat but wind was out there...I could not see...maybe something or someone was coming to get me...I opened the back door and there were curtains...come in...come in...who are you...are you safe, are you a stranger...I pressed my hand through the curtains...I pressed more...I felt another hand...woke up next to a good man.

Ppl should freeze citrus fruits more and eat them

I am glad a smoothie recipe taught me that. Saturday. Caturday. Julius O. InnerCAT Child Day.

Like, for drying dishes...

This is entertaining.

Skating Polly ~ Ugly

The mind has it's reasons

Imagine the "One More Try" song pressing out of one as "Hills Like White Elephants" is being dissected...after the dissecters actually float an alternate happy ending...then, NOPE. I guess G.M.'s music has been around a lot because one of the first tapes I got for myself was Faith. (The other was Appetite For Destruction. Both were solely bought on the recommendations of kids on the bus after school.)

DIY

Deprivation in early childhood
I know this is a fun topic
Yoga stretches

Threeeead

They are talking about that student loan stuff. I am not making this up!
Stats! Charts! Graphics!

Wow, it's actually available

After reading this

https://newrepublic.com/article/153596/fix-fashion-industrys-racism

I looked for the author's book.

It is available through one public library system.

Guess which one I can go back to if I order it!


Is it exercise?

I hope that someone is getting some kind of health benefit out of all of that exertion.

neighbors are stomping loudly and unnecessarily

Next time character x makes a point to spy on character y, not be polite or make conversation (unlike other characters, by the way, who I think were, at least more curious about making actual contact), character y should not say that is just because she is strangely insecure that I sat next to her son on an airplane, instead character y will "think positive" and say "how quirky! wait, that's not xenophobia, she's just rushing off to perform some great and charitable contribution to better the whole of society" is that better?

This one was good.

Quotable:

"My grandmother is telling my cousin about budgeting for groceries and how hard it was to raise 6 kids on a single income in the 1950s, as my cousin silently pets the dog she got to fill the void of the child she can't afford.

Forgive them lord, for they do not know."

https://twitter.com/CariniGambarini/status/1121228660944465920

Thursday, April 25, 2019

Only for 15 minutes

Imagine feeling rather like a character Charlotte Perkins Gilman or Kate Chopin might have thought up, laughing/weeping/staring at flower essence bottles, coughing dryly, then taking some and not actually being hysterical anymore. Maybe essences do work on some types of conditions.

A what-if thought

What if every fashion magazine dedicated half of the issue to the people who make the garments.

Because of reading...

 "When fashion designers, journalists, and consumers’ demands for inclusivity stop at the garment factory gates, things like the sweatshop feminist t-shirt (in which t-shirts with messages like 'Girl Power' and 'This is what a feminist looks like' were discovered to have been made in Bangladesh and in Mauritius by women and girls earning less than $1 per hour) are not just predictable but inevitable. Almost all of the clothes we wear—whether they bear feminist messages or not—are made under exploitative trade policies and labor conditions."

https://newrepublic.com/authors/minh-ha-t-pham 

in

https://newrepublic.com/article/153596/fix-fashion-industrys-racism

Feelings...

I have no doubt that the reason this guy thinks what he did was acceptable

https://www.insidehighered.com/news/2019/04/22/photography-professor-accused-violating-rules-consent-new-book-greek-life#.XMCDYVvnhmV.twitter

is because it was not so very long ago to a whole lot of people. Huge numbers of people. In schools. With tenure. In the administrations of those schools. Telling students....

NO, NEVERMIND

E-behaviorism

My girlfriend privilege is my non-famous, non-award-winning, non-tenured at an expensive school boyfriend also NEVER TREATS WOMEN AS BADLY AS EVEN SOME WOMEN TREAT OTHER WOMEN SOMETIMES.

I was surprised

Yesterday I found out that allopathic doctors are now approving a treatment in which medical professionals apply magnets to the patient's head every day in a hospital....I have no say in others' choices.

https://www.theatlantic.com/technology/archive/2014/05/the-best-way-to-type-__/371351/

Seems like he could be a different kind of baby now.

https://newrepublic.com/article/153596/fix-fashion-industrys-racism

Hmmm.

https://newrepublic.com/article/153604/work-suicidal-farmers-its-becoming-much-bear

Surprise art.

https://newrepublic.com/article/153481/living-off-grid-safe-hurricanes-puerto-rico

^- } ^-

imagine thinking the judgy ghosts have ever even talked to you

OW i inhaled spicy rice that hurts

Tuesday, April 23, 2019

First & Last

The Lady Vanishes
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/01-the-lady-vanishes
(ArtArtArtArtArtArtArt!!!!!!!)

+

Analysis, Parapraxis, Elvis
http://revisionisthistory.com/episodes/30-analysis-parapraxis-elvis
(Jack White around minute 21)
(& eventually the best ED commercial)

Time to sober up though

Sweeping up thousands of pieces of a shattered casserole lid as the dudes next door played their music too loud made me mad again.

(In my holy clothing -- holes in the skirt and holes in the top.)

Sweeping thoughts:

The current president has been way worse for women.

Like lying down


"We continually draw inspiration from 'The Real Housewives,' because if you take whatever they do and put it in the Gilded Age, it becomes funny."

~R. Lindhom 

https://variety.com/2018/tv/features/riki-lindhome-another-period-comedy-central-1202675508/

"...don't really care"

https://genius.com/Garfunkel-and-oates-pregnant-women-are-smug-lyrics

u R tha lulling by ov yer own lyfe

nod
Nap

do you love your lungs?
and your back?

Imagine...
sitting next to Malala and not buying the candy

Cake factory dreams...

I wonder why AI is so boring to some of us (even if it's the stuff that makes the red car fancy?)

Like, it must be so disappointing to try to get people interested and then they just blow you off.

How do you deal with those emotions?

https://www.theverge.com/2019/4/3/18293410/ai-artificial-intelligence-ethics-boards-charters-problem-big-tech

what about this

On a plane with my sister! I swear, when I was a kid...

https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/19630.Robert_Fulghum

snore snore one of your very red vehicles snore snore placed in a prominent location snore snore is not a replacement  snore snore for healthy sleep therapy naps nature walks snacks etc. snore snore

This is not that sad

Who looks sad?

https://theoatmeal.com/comics/airplane_heard

It's not as painful as pointing to a glass ceiling.

Ow.

I have to go take a shower so I feel better.

I feel like it could be...

Like clouds of energy travel around and push creative people to meet each other...I wonder if this woman I met thought that was how people got poems, actually...E.Gilbert on R.Stone's genius....I don't remember her actually saying that to us, but it's not that hard to believe...

I can feel the past...the adoration of the crowds...

So, why wouldn't someone who sat next to you on a bumpy journey be flattered by a comparison to a Great Poet of Nature. Just because the dude wasn't perfect. His role models were excellent.

I know why.

I got a cold because it was my body's way of purging all the smoke I inhaled while working as a restaurant hostess when the economy was bad before the no smoking rules had been implemented and now this is my alternate restaurant reality where I get to continue the purge by telling businessmen (?) types that they should consume more good, wholesome New Age philosophy instead of expecting the cutest cocktail servers to fill the voids in their spiritually impotent existences.

It's out there

Deciphering their cousin's cries for help, Trudy and Matilda stage an intervention...cannot believe my mind still works like that sometimes.

https://theoatmeal.com/comics/why_now_cat

https://theoatmeal.com/comics/photos

https://theoatmeal.com/comics/sunset

How can any one person...the "passive aggression"...

https://mobile.twitter.com/SonOfDadAndMom/status/1119255326145032192

Political stuff

I think Elizabeth Warren's student loans ideas are good.


Existing

I am in a body.
Gotta go rest more.
I am in a pray for better health mode.

~~~Lit thoughts~~~

Can I see flames of peace more than flames of burn-out?

Ho-made electrolyte drinks

are helpful!!!

https://www.raisinggenerationnourished.com/2014/12/diy-electrolyte-drink/

remember

Don't Let the Sun...

Feeling a special appreciation of those who are gonna find some courage to be out in the world today even if they're not enjoying optimal health quite yet.

Small geniuses

"I love myself. You need to love yourself too."
(One kid to another.)

Change is a process

There is a lot going on. Hence a cold. Like the world of childhood is saying hello again.

Sunday, April 21, 2019

Who are you

An ever-evolving soul...a health comes first by necessity type...but the Enneagram is also on Pinterest.

♡ab

~solutely your body is a temple of light...hearts and puppies and kittens and rainbows for the lungs and the throat especially!!!! See Pinterest.

Kinda e...

xasperated! Self: Why am I and my respiratory system not much, MUCH better yet? Is it because I was unwise? Here, look where a healthier soul just directed you:

https://www.reddit.com/r/videos/comments/bfmr6k/guy_speaks_spanish_with_a_usa_southerner_accent/

Let's take a nap.
(Without muscle relaxers.)

Environmental orientation

This name is really good:

PCOS Zen Warrior

PCOS is probably gonna be called a bunch of other things soon.

https://www.nih.gov/news-events/some-women-pcos-may-have-adrenal-disorder-nih-researchers-suggest

It's all about the cortisol management baby.

(Maybe?)

Ah~ha

The Pinecones of Upstate New York as viewed from a sandbox.

Saturday, April 20, 2019

Hmmm, pills.

Muscle relaxers = remembering a talkative kid I met when I probably wasn't older than four yet. This was one of those not like the others kinds of people. For one thing, he really wanted my friend and I to try some of his food.

Noodles & bone broth!

I made them with tahini and snap peas and sesame seeds and chili paste.

Later I can make them with zucchini and tomatoes and basil and garlic.

Win~win!

Need more ingredients

Off to the store...

https://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/bf778u/zen_kitty/

Okay, for whatever reason I unZenly sprained my back, but I'm still going out to get vegetables for a soup, eventually.

~~~~~


  1. Ate leftovers after an agonizing walk to the kitchen.
  2. Very economical.

~~~~~

Wow, the expired pills come in 3 different sizes...


Friday, April 19, 2019

Convalescence has NOT slowed down time

Well, that was like...

https://www.theatlantic.com/magazine/archive/1862/06/walking/304674/ 

"I think that I cannot preserve my health and spirits, unless I spend four hours a day at least—and it is commonly more than that—sauntering through the woods and over the hills and fields, absolutely free from all worldly engagements. You may safely say, A penny for your thoughts, or a thousand pounds. When sometimes I am reminded that the mechanics and shopkeepers stay in their shops not only all the forenoon, but all the afternoon too, sitting with crossed legs, so many of them—as if the legs were made to sit upon, and not to stand or walk upon—I think that they deserve some credit for not having all committed suicide long ago."

 ~ H.D. Thoreau

ARROWS

"How womankind, who are confined to the house still more than men, stand it I do not know; but I have ground to suspect that most of them do not stand it at all. When, early in a summer afternoon, we have been shaking the dust of the village from the skirts of our garments, making haste past those houses with purely Doric or Gothic fronts, which have such an air of repose about them, my companion whispers that probably about these times their occupants are all gone to bed. Then it is that I appreciate the beauty and the glory of architecture, which itself never turns in, but forever stands out and erect, keeping watch over the slumberers."

~ Him again

note to self

Don't shout at your own throat!
I know it is extremely tempting.

Ha

Cedar sauna smells.
Mmmmm...

Make Ben and Deborah MORE FUNNY.

I just don't know why I keep getting such irritating feelings in my throat. So so so irritated.

Soon

Whining because of cold/flu.

*whine*whine*whine*whine*whine*whine*other yucky experiences*whine*whine*whine*whine*whine*whine* not even there yet*whine*whine*whimpering

Vaporub

Cool stuff

When you wake up early and feel impatient about still being sick, fun to see...

Guinea pigs and vegetables

https://mobile.twitter.com/JackPhan/status/1119126672039481344

Cat and soccer ball

https://mobile.twitter.com/marveIousnature/status/1117627246871605250

Thursday, April 18, 2019

Might need to think about flexible tree limbs

A very strong wish...
Hope sweet healing sleep wins.

Siiigh...night.

Oh, oh, oh.
Such a creepy crawly feeling.
Come on. Is it really necessary.
WTF mate WTF mate WTF mate WTF
The magic of the universe may heal us now.
Need a nice calm daytime nap feeling.

Ce rêve américain

Falling asleep or waking up or something on a BIG turf field. Dew or sprinklers wet the lawn. College student is going to make something of himself.

No, you go to the store

The human who walked around the block to get the last five minutes of pre-sunset light, admired other people's houses and gardens and the moon, ate rice n' beans and salad, then collapsed and felt coughy/ achy.

This is good

So glad I am not on a train right now, but enjoyed listening to this.

https://www.hbmpodcast.com/podcast/hbm116-finest-and-most-rotten-going-forward

Podcasts! Entertainment we did not always have.

And then...

https://www.kcrw.com/culture/shows/unfictional/strangers-in-a-good-way

!!!!!


Wholeness

I wish my body to heal at the most healing pace that is best ~ LOVE
I see the moon. Love.
I release obstacles. LOVE.
I FORGIVE MYSELF for getting sick. LOVE.
I REST AND recover.
I love myself.
I find true meaning in my life.
I FORGIVE my body for illness.
I move on...
Onward
My body has meaning.
My life has meaning.
My healing has meaning.

Hopey peacey lovey

Hope hope hope...
Peace peace peace...
Love love love...
It's hard to sleep because I have gotten ill. And I am glad the issues about inequality are being discussed but I hope to be around those who find peace and move beyond a lot of the rage and shaming behaviors. Even if others don't, I personally have got to move beyond some of those patterns; literally a physical breakdown is happening to me and I want to get well.
Hope hope hope...
Peace peace peace...
Love love love...
I really hope this is going to get better.

Have to handle it somehow

I got pain, so I send me light.
I got inflammation, so I send me violets.
I got a will, so I send me new ways of being.

We can believe

In a brother who can send good vibes, a.k.a. what others might have called "praying" sometimes.

And we believe he did it before when he was in a more open-minded state of being.

Wednesday, April 17, 2019

Because I wanted to buy a package of fortune cookies and DIDN'T

"Only connect"
https://en.m.wikiquote.org/wiki/E._M._Forster

...TO YOUR SWIMSUIT!

Har, good one.

*****

"In 1909, EM Forster published a short story set in the future called 'The Machine Stops'. It was, he said later, a reaction to the utopias of HG Wells. In Forster’s vision, people in the future live in enclosed underground rooms, communicating only through video conferencing and messaging, engaging with people only through what is, fairly exactly, depicted as the internet to come. When the Machine breaks down, most people die immediately from the shock. Does Forster still speak to us?"

~ P. Henscher

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/nov/11/howards-end-em-forster-television

Ground doves?

Across the way

Nice, light...

https://www.kirkusreviews.com/book-reviews/ian-harding/odd-birds/

Mentions a lot of familiar places in CA & VA!

ReallyREALLYReally

ReallyREALLYReallyReallyREALLYReallyReallyREALLYReallyReallyREALLYReally just wanna gargle the sore throat outta me

Love health.

Especially respiratory health.
♡♡♡♡♡HEALTH♡♡♡♡♡
Come back to me!!!!

Es tut uns leid

Still too much coughing and inflamed fascia maybe. We'll be better soon...

Olfactory imagery

My body is sick but I feel like there's incense being burned somewhere and it's nice.

#2

What if you imagined your loved ones reincarnated more often.

Compulsion to point out

How horrifying this is.

"On Wednesday, the family returned to immigration court for their next hearing and, through another interpreter, found out that the letter was an order of deportation for Laura."

~ T. Bella

https://www.washingtonpost.com/nation/2019/04/12/i-dont-want-be-taken-away-my-mom-an-year-old-girl-could-be-deported-without-her-family/?fbclid=IwAR1rRecMArcBnFssP6As1CujHPmEFSkI7wVeCYpDwNQ3EA34ea4tDcHgjn0&noredirect=on&utm_term=.4fdbd784a1ac

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Come back, health

Come back, health. Health is good and wonderful and exciting! HEALTH IS GRAND!!! Health is the human masterpiece.

Seeing things

I just wanted to mention it still happens sometimes...

Say Anything ~ Airplane Scene

nicht verrückt eine Ähnlichkeit zu sehen?
My grandparents would be pleased.

Spaces to space

Sometimes I want to explore these kinds of places.

https://onbeing.org/blog/the-enduring-power-of-built-sacred-spaces-in-a-secular-world/

I just want to observe services without pressure.

Fun restaurant reviews


ZEN

"The longer I live in Los Angeles, the more I try to find places where I feel like a thread in the fabric of something bigger than myself."
~ R. Gay

https://www.bonappetit.com/story/home-red-sauce-restaurant

MODE

"Typically a wet sock would ruin my day but..."
~ Erik I., 2/6/2019

 https://www.yelp.com/biz/capri-deli-covina-2

0:20 happened

"...in order to avoid neurotic and schizophrenic personalities..."

~ MLK on being "Maladjusted"

dab era sdrow

"is this what rich people teach their kids instead of empathy and good manners?!"

~ S. Irby

https://bitchesgottaeat.blogspot.com/2018/11/fakesgiving.html?m=1

s0 lazy

They haven't even commented on this yet:

cat and box
https://www.reddit.com/r/AnimalsBeingDerps/comments/bdszyb/cat_and_box/

Cat in a boxilogical conundrum.


And you may ask yourself

My god

"gettin bitches pregnant"

https://mobile.twitter.com/SonOfDadAndMom/status/1117219826957791235

Why are these social justice types so emotional?

"Don't worry about tomorrow. That's Future You's problem and fuck that guy"

https://mobile.twitter.com/SonOfDadAndMom/status/1117973643382984704

Like adding "in bed" at the end of the fortune pulled from a cookie

Saying

"Great wives strive to be TOTALLY aligned with their husband."

https://medium.com/@timpaulson/8-things-great-wives-do-all-the-time-19dc0b37858c

and adding

"...the figures exclude clothing, the child’s school lunches, field trips, and prescription drugs."

https://scroll.in/video/920053/watch-us-congresswoman-katie-porter-grills-jpmorgan-chase-ceo-jamie-dimon-over-low-wages

could become a thing.



Amen

My body is so f'd up it is worse feeling than anyone knows except me so I am gonna do what I need to get better. Pain is powerful.

Just from a coughing fit.

Someone could have punched me.

I feel. So bad. 

As though my face has been rearranged.

That is ENOUGH.

Dragon's Dishy Delights

DON'T

"Bean blossoms have a sweet, beany flavor. Nasturtiums have a wonderful, peppery flavor similar to watercress and their pickled buds can be substituted for more expensive capers. Borage tastes like cucumber, and miniature pansies (Johny-Jump-Ups) have a mild wintergreen taste. Violets, roses, and lavender lend a sweet flavor to salads or desserts. Bright yellow calendulas are an economical alternative to expensive, though not quite as pungent. Other flowers may have a spicy or peppermint flavor."

 ~ P. Fillipone

https://www.thespruceeats.com/cooking-with-edible-flowers-1809248


¡ EAT !

https://www.popscreen.com/prod/MTA2OTAxODUw/Cute-Baby-Onesie-Baby-Blue-Dragon-Infant-Clothing1048-eBay


YOUR

"...alongside warming breads and meatballs sit goose blood soup and boiled seal intestines with blubber and crowberries."

~ O. Quine

https://www.independent.co.uk/arts-entertainment/books/features/the-best-food-drink-books-of-2015-a6750021.html%3Famp


¡ T-SHIRTS !

https://www.teepublic.com/kids-t-shirt/1953716-angry-dragon-head-scratchboard

Habitat note

"A little more dirt was needed around the roots of the violets, which my caregiver procured from the vegetable garden and added to the flower pot. The snail was not pleased. For the next few days it carefully crept up the side of the pot and directly onto a violet leaf, never touching the garden soil, settling in for the day's snooze perched high in the crown of the plant. Rather abashed, I asked for more help, and the sandy garden soil was exchanged for humus from the snail's own woods. Soon the snail was sleeping beneath the violet leaves again in a soft new hollow."

~ E. Tova Bailey in The Sound of a Wild Snail Eating, p. 18

So much sugar

This just reminds me of when the Challenger exploded and everybody in my elementary school was sad.

https://www.bettycrocker.com/recipes/space-shuttle-cake/4644b46e-1b70-44ef-9e7f-44be67916b94

Where is my recovery???

Pain / illness is not seen as a gift
But what about
Love as in Truth
What if sometimes
Your head is Lear
Your body is Cordelia
What if the universe says
Short-term loss is long-term gain
What is your dream about and why

Hey

Cannot do things the old way
Hard to live with my throat today
Had a dream about children under a big blanket
They wet the sheets and women were changing them, telling me "its because they are Native American" and my throat is so sore right now
I think my body is griefsick
My body is keeping it real with pain
I drank bone broth and tea to heal myself
I don't know if its enough for today though

Sunday, April 14, 2019

It's kind of a job.

If I had been born in another set of circumstances, I probably would see the world very differently. Tastes, hobbies, actions, thought processes, career path, the people around me...all kinds of things could be different. As it is, I would like to express myself based on this particular set of circumstances that I am in now, because if I am in them, there's a reason for it, right?

Hope it helps

Just thinking of how productive I could have felt today if I hadn't been dogged by that sad spring cold feeling or thoughts like "Important Contribution to Humanity indulges in sand play therapy and becomes less of a downer..." so not what the perfect soul would ever say, eh?

Getting a remedy now.

"Golden Berries."

Positive outlooks of the metempsychotic

Clouds of previous inefficiencies evaporating.

Sighing again

Because of 
The Tiredness.

With any luck, maybe someday I won't get another unpleasant shock of "This goes to show you how someone carrying around resentment from abusive childhood can damage his own sensitive soul and become an insecure bully."  Oh, the rageaholic survivor. (He was so nice before that terrible thing happened.) Lessons are learned in multiple ways, I guess.

Breathe Zen Mode

I am reeeeeally going to try to be more like that in spite of some parts that are pretty unZenlike  because my lungs also bother me sometimes.

next time

U GET DEPRESSED
JUST SEARCH FOR
STRIPEY PASTA

example

:~[

surprise

:>}

felt quaker

IF THEE WORLD PUSHES AGAINST THOU MAYBE ASK THYSELF WHY

mite delete

I really should finish this

I got about 2/3 of the way through.

https://gastropod.com/the-bagelization-of-america/

Toasted bagel w/ cream cheese sounds good.

Improvisation: Paratha from skillet, greek yogurt, "Everything Bagel" spice, spinach...

Sunday self-service

"Love The Sojourner..."

https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Deuteronomy+10%3A19&version=ESV

(Still on my baptism program from several decades ago, which my grandmother saved for me!)

"Someone You Know Survives"

This is true.

Happy Sunday; everything is connected

Nutritional needs....This might be lunch???

https://www.frugalwoods.com/2015/01/23/our-epically-frugal-lunch-recipe/

I am so close to paying off a debt I've had for 12 years, I can taste it.

Unfortunately, it's not student loans, but one thing at a time.

Saturday, April 13, 2019

100% from somewhere

Something is shoving a cheesy '80s song in my head. Circle in the Sand. A real song. I am still imagining cages around ovaries. Or maybe I can make myself see a meadow...not a castle...thank you...

Real anatomy.

Real pain in real places.

This was happening today

"Uncaged Art Opening Reception"

https://events.utep.edu/event/uncaged_art_opening_reception#.XLKnPxllB-F

"Young people, living in tents and locked behind fences, made art to keep open their hearts and hopes. The show of what they created is called 'Uncaged Art.'"

~ S. Simon

https://www.npr.org/2019/04/13/712884086/opinion-a-showcase-of-uncaged-art-by-children-once-detained

Hope it's a better dream next time

These days, a disturbing dream is one in which that person who shouldn't even be president is sending you several pairs of tickets for several shows and you are supposed to be grateful because he did that.

More flower prom pics ;-)

They do look very nice (my favorite so far was a girl in a dark blue dress with gold moons and stars on it) but some of their photo shoots remind me of this article ;-)

https://www.boredpanda.com/personal-trainer-shows-reality-vs-instagram-pictures-differences-chessie-king/

Waiting to see if a dad prom photographer appears...

Duck it's hard to sleep sometimes

Imagine going to a gathering of humans outdoors in which they talk about their love of nature and at the very end there is a pond behind them into which sails a beautiful mallard duck !SPLASH! and you say "Wow!" and look for another human at the gathering who thinks this is also cool but every single one of them turns away from the pond and the duck to meet only other human minds and then it's like Gee, they wonder why the environment is in trouble?

Dreamlogic

2) Had a dream about listening to Footloose.

1) When I was 12, we moved into a new place and listened to a cassette of Footloose.

Conclusion:
Maybe I'll move soon.

Friday, April 12, 2019

Prom (?) at the rose garden...

Sleek, well-dressed bossy teenagers are trying to improve their mothers' photography skills.

Typo: well-defined

Location...

The best part of a science class is finding a nice coffee shop to sit down in to make 120 flashcards.

There should be UBI

Today in perhaps necessary confessions when my friend and I were younger and she did one of her I think I'm gonna die young I don't wanna get old but I worry about my child a lot divulgences I honestly don't know why this happened but I was also pretty young and naive so I went don't worry people will take care of her I would take care of her just because this cloud of naivete was 100% all over me and later our mutual friend said to me you can't just say stuff like that to her she takes it really seriously and I was just like well I felt like saying it so I said it and I must have thought I would be super successful in a short amount of time and able to make $$$ but then years later when what she predicted came true I was in total shock and talking to her all the time and at some point went to a park and said no no no no, I'm not ready, I'm not equipped, I have no money, no $$$, I cannot do it auuuuuuuuuugh, why must it be like that?

And why does the universe keep sending me people from other countries - women - who insist that having a child is the most important thing, but when I say what about being an aunt or what about adoption, the women say, no we don't like that.

It's cruel. They have been trained so stringently.



T.A. ~ Suede

Gotta work on it still

God I have checked this for their update like 29x already (will 3-0 be the charm?!)

spring is metempsychosis ;-)

guess what since you did x bad thing you're gonna come back and languish behind bars and oh never mind you won't because you mixed your evil with good deeds nope instead you're just gonna come back mildly impaired but super-stimulated in that uber emoting part of your brain and feel all the feeeeelings you never thought you needed to feeeeeel gosh you guys really are dumb sometimes

This reminder

The opposite of love is this:

The Ohio Governor Just Signed a Bill Banning Abortion Before Many Women Know They Are PregnantAnd it doesn’t include exceptions for rape or incest.

Caring more about controlling women's bodies
than about stopping the mistreatment of children who are already here, or about women's health / the unnecessarily high rates of women dying in childbirth.

People who feel it

They say things like "the next Anne Frank is happening right now..."

Oh babies in history

(Even though the link below seems tame compared to others) for knowing that so many  could be fighting so much harder to stop these situations from being horrendous...
  https://www.houstonpublicmedia.org/articles/news/politics/immigration/2019/04/11/328806/the-federal-government-considers-houston-for-additional-migrant-children-shelters/amp/ I

I  have a feeling of deep, great mourning. It is physical, too...coming down with a grief cold.

aWitchaWitchaWitchaWitch

must
have seen
a mask exhibit
somewhere
at some point
when?


Vivaldi ~ Four Seasons ~ Winter (again)

Have some

People who make all the great technological advances should find all the best freedom channels.

For some reason

It's weird, but sometimes I wish I were young and going into DC to see the art they have there...had some very challenging times with certain controlling figures, but there were brighter moments, too. I learned that well-off people can be miserable, though. The putting on a pretty dress for the Officer's Club while feeling stifled and knowing an older male was scrutinizing the room for sleazy guys thing was not my favorite. But the trips to art museums were nice. I hope to see them again...and...I hope that if anything did not go as well as it should have in this life, that we can have a chance to make that better, too.

PCOS was always difficult.

Thursday, April 11, 2019

And consider ways to dissolve unnecessary divisions

Kids, what about the idea that you can make your emotional and mental well-being a priority in correlation with a healthy and balanced society? Everyone is learning...maybe even some whose parents apparently felt that was unimportant or threw a lot of opportunities away in exchange for the pursuit of money...maybe it is even more important for the future than they know.

Academia has a problem talking about mental health and BULLYING CULTURE?!

From A Prominent Economist’s Death Prompts Talk of Mental Health in the Professoriate

"The field also has an intense 'bullying culture,' said Betsey Stevenson, an associate professor of public policy and economics at the University of Michigan at Ann Arbor who had known Krueger since she was in graduate school. 'There are conversations that need to happen in economics about how we treat each other,' she said in a phone interview."

~ E. Pettit

Found on https://twitter.com/drdavidjleonard

After reading

A Culture of Depression: The Toxicity of Trump:

"These comments and so many others like them are not surprising given how we talk about mental health. They reflect a lack of understanding of mental illness; they embody a culture that so often sees depression as a weakness, as something they need to get over.

Yet, such comments also reflect the privileges of whiteness, maleness, and so much more. They embody a cultural refusal to empathize with those in pain. They speak to a societal resistance to understanding the physical and mental harm caused by racism; the emotional toll resulting from racism, sexism, Islamophobia and homophobia are readily dismissed as irrational or signs of over sensitivity. Neither willing nor able to understand outside their own privileged positionality, these sorts of responses fail to consider the lived consequences of this election."

~ D. Leonard

Early clarity

"I have not only been to the border multiple times, I have been to your child prison camps & seen the pain with my own eyes. I've seen mothers and babies crying, teenagers treated like prisoners, children asking us for help. You've created a crisis & you won't stop lying about it."

~ J. Chu to D. Trump

https://mobile.twitter.com/RepJudyChu/status/1113199007533346823

*****

"At the Pentagon, Abbas works to keep us safe. In Turkey, his wife waits for a visa that will never come. They are one of many families torn apart by the #MuslimBan. That's why I introduced the #NoBanAct w/ @ChrisCoons to end the ban & block future bans."

~ J. Chu

https://mobile.twitter.com/RepJudyChu/status/1116010796826411008

*****

"The San Gabriels hold some of the LA area's best outdoor spaces. But for more people to enjoy them, we need increased access & protection. Today, that's exactly what @SenKamalaHarris and I did with our bills to expand the National Monument and protect over 30k acres of wilderness."

~ J. Chu

https://mobile.twitter.com/RepJudyChu/status/1116113117476524033

Mental and emotional health is not a trivial topic

"Sydney's mother, Cara Aiello, told CBS Miami her daughter struggled with survivor's guilt and was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder in the year following the tragedy. And while she reportedly never asked for help, she struggled to attend college classes because she was scared of being in a classroom."

~ C. Capatides

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/parkland-shooting-survivor-sydney-aiello-takes-her-own-life/

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

a is for

anxiety by anxious ppl

2 out of 2

"In 2014, she wrote a law requiring every private-sector employer in California to provide paid sick days to employees—the first such state or federal law in U.S. history."
 ~ J. Lee
https://www.politico.com/magazine/politico50/2016/lorena-gonzalez#ixzz4K3Sjldcy

Solar
https://mobile.twitter.com/DanDjsacramento/status/1115737678450909184

Should have happened already

"Where the Sleigh Bed Goes. 2008. Oil, pencil and pastel on paper. 16”x20”."
  https://mobile.twitter.com/ShannonStamey/status/1115326077520568320