At least there's T...

Not a cure-all, but a nice revisit...

http://www.americanforests.org/magazine/article/thoreau-trees-a-visceral-connection/

Hi future nieces and nephews

This could explain stuff.
(To your dad's golfing buddies.)


Trump's Trojan Horse Tax Plan ~ Robert Reich

WAKE UP WOMEN

It was a time

You lived in a society where they didn't care about women's health at all.

Go society

May it change for the better...
Some of us do well with taking breaks from reading about all the craziness.

Eat or Meditate

I got very depressed.

Even a walk in the woods didn't help.

I came home and I ate stuff. Because, part of me reasoned, if you are shoveling food in your mouth, maybe you have got a modicum of self care going on. Some of it was salad.

People need to take better care of themselves, in the realest way possible.

I had a dream the former president was becoming very successful at establishing a meditation practice.

Overlapping for

Trees

www.americanforests.org/magazine/article/thoreau-trees-a-visceral-connection/

Gender

https://medium.com/@meghanathema/im-only-a-man-genre-and-gender-in-grimes-kill-v-maim-392a2bb4c212

Songs

http://songmeanings.com/m/songs/view/3530822107858882490/

Frere monsieur

Its was that you were capable of hearing me and you shut down. The heartbreak is not as much about $ as you think.

Guys who are good at $ are working on a street outside, being noisy and capable.

Thoreau was good at being an outdoorsy  handyman.

The Original None

Cutting boards! Knitting!

Hallelujah...

https://www.menshealth.com/guy-wisdom/nick-offerman-woodshop-would-works-ron-swanson-quote

Culinary culture

Hmmm, also historical...
http://amp.slate.com/articles/news_and_politics/interrogation/2017/10/anthony_bourdain_on_weinstein_john_besh_and_meathead_restaurant_culture.html

Oh brain, what a thought

Are your brothers going to get therapy for fear of being called pussies and wusses or do we have to take about economics some more.

Las 3

A1
https://inkchromatography.wordpress.com/2011/12/04/scientist-sunday-leakeys-angels-jane-goodall/

A2
https://inkchromatography.wordpress.com/2011/12/11/scientist-sunday-leakeys-angels-part-ii-dian-fossey/

A3
https://inkchromatography.wordpress.com/2011/12/20/scientist-sunday-leakeys-angels-part-iii-birute-galdikas/

Really really really

Have to get back on a healing wavelength again. Healing wavelengths...come back...repair all the damage...repair...

Some kind of light needs to get through... because it needs to get through...

Who...

Someone sent me this:
Woman on bike flipping off Trump's motorcade.

The man who barely runs the country and harms people with his nonsense is just a caricature of disgusting behavior that some people were already performing even before he got elected.

They were sexist and biased and untrustworthy and didn't care about women's health, only about their own egos.

How they lie to themselves and to each other about how great they are. They seem to have no idea how badly they treat people.

!!!~~~...*Starfish

Variety
http://variety.com/2017/biz/news/anthony-bourdain-quentin-tarantino-harvey-weinstein-asia-argento-1202601674/


Encompasses
http://theboot.com/dolly-parton-harvey-weinstein-opinon-on-sexual-misconduction/


Disparate
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/10/28/us/rose-mcgowan-harvey-weinstein.html


Human
https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/people/2017/10/29/famous-hollywood-men-staying-mostly-silent-harvey-weinstein/801246001/


Experiences
https://medium.com/nature-s-way-of-communicating/5-starfish-principles-that-will-empower-your-business-305e461f18cd

After the dream

I just dreamed I was a teenage girl who had a dear female friend who came from a good family and she was recruited by them to ask me to be in an arranged marriage with her brother. I knew I would not do it as the dream was ending.

I just woke up and felt like writing something.

Dear kind, talented woman who nevertheless makes too many excuses for bad sexist behavior because of reasons  (many good ones! More beneficial financially, more job security, more forgiving, more loving, etc. etc.)

Don't you dare expect me to do that too.

Thanks, C

Thanks to you, I have a new identity.
I like to sleep or do quiet crafts.
Stave off panic. Cultivate calm.
It's a whirlwind, and I must tame it.

I guess caffeine is just a different sort of teacher sometimes.

Lol but also not

This writer speaks from eight years ago:

“'WHY IS THIS HAPPENING AGAIN???!' I pondered over a nice hot cup of coffee one day about five minutes before another one hit."

https://nerdist.com/tell-panic-attacks-to-go-suck-it/

Ha ha, except Jesus Christ it's not funny omf-ing God.

But last year I could drink it...

O Angel of health

Dear god. I need to be calm and smart.
I need to eat and drink really clean.
It happened again. It's only just wearing off.
I think caffeine is poison to me maybe.
I feel awful. All I had was a milk tea.
Jesus in heaven. It's like I swallowed a handful of speed pills or something.
Earlier I had wine. That was okay.
Rich milk tea and rich soup was not.
I cannot believe this. It's not how I was.
My body...why do you do this with me?
Other people who had the tea are fine.
They don't feel like they swallowed speed pills. Well, fortunately, it wears off faster than if I had (drank lots and lots of water).
This is chemical stuff. This is hormone stuff.
It's not what most people experience when they drink caffeine. But it's my experience recently. So, so, so crazy...I have got to do better because feeling like I am on speed is terrible. It's awful. No. I like balance.

Alight!

Today's hummingbird 

Haha

I admit, I kind of enjoy how this girl is like Joan of Arc, yet also weirdly entranced by news ...

Still, I wonder if people are getting a little too excited. Is that why he got elected? Riler-up in chief?

HOWEVER

http://www.npr.org/sections/ed/2017/10/26/559914440/teachers-report-stressed-anxious-students-in-the-age-of-trump

Soon and Now

I will watch these...


Novitiate Trailer

~~~~~~~~~~~~

Caught A Lite Sneeze

~~~~~~~~

Cornflake Girl

Woeful observation

Women who have to prop up a man's narcissistic ego or make excuses for his bad behavior have a tendency to treat other women worse than they treat men, and then have an incredible capacity for making excuses for their own sexist and biased behavior.

Interesting Women

Thank you

http://www.freep.com/story/news/2017/10/28/maxine-waters-womens-convention-detroit/810020001/

Women's Convention

https://michronicleonline.com/2015/02/18/at-90-on-her-own-terms/

The finger improved

So the red-headed step child of

https://hellogiggles.com/lifestyle/money-career/reason-female-ceos-blonde/

Pulled this out hopefully...

"Viewing the two 17-minute films — 'Weight Prejudice: Myths and Facts' and 'Weight Bias in Health Care'— resulted in improvement in attitudes toward obese people."

https://longreads.com/2017/10/26/no-fatties-when-healthcare-hurts/amp/

Smiles...

I have heard first hand that the Women's Convention has been awesome!!!

Growing things...

Happy Ring Finger Day!?

Did the antioxidants, sleep, and groveling help? So far, so good!

But wait. It was good. I ate some meat, though. I thought I just felt a twinge...

Ack.

But...improvement, at least???

A little rebel!

https://www.reddit.com/r/pics/comments/792rhu/someone_is_adopted/

The other side of

"Magical thinking"

https://jacobinmag.com/2017/10/title-ix-betsy-devos-doe-colleges-assault-dear-colleague


"Magical thinking about rape allows people to believe in a world that is basically good and wholesome and safe. By speaking out, the rape victim tears the filmy web of magical thinking to tatters. And so the rape victim cannot be forgiven and must be banished, or silenced, or ostracized."

--Anne McClintock

I really want my left ring finger to heal now

Please.

Is..diff...rent...

Aliqua - Bululalow - This Little Babe - Deo Gracias (from "A Ceremony Of Carols" - Benjamin Britten)

dscadman 3,210 views

Ah. Joint pain...

Benjamin Britten interview, 1968

Latin choir stuff

Will be singing these soon!

Deo gracias

Balulalow

Also sometimes it's like if I have to think any more about Renaissance lessons and if someone should make a movie about them I am gonna cry.

But there was beauty...

How about returning to that good smart sentiment

Peaceful helpful healing energy patterns are welcome here!

My swollen ginger and my ears and throat and my heart...are ready to welcome peaceful healing energy patterns. Muchismas gracias.

Sorrow is on earth.
Muchismas gracias.

Oh peaceful healing patterns
Muchismas gracias.

Life is quite imperfect
But hey we are alive
Muchismas gracias.

Hey...

~*~*~*~*~*~

Sometimes I can believe we have needs beyond ourselves to participate in some kind of collective energy healing. This is true.

Liberry Loan

I know....

Tonight this left ring finger hurts awfully and needs healing. Is it only inflammation? It really gets my attention. Sometimes my left ear needs healing. My heart and soul need healing. My energy.

Future goal and Now

Future Goal: Visit Wales!

Now:

It's health care...its health care time....

When part of you wants to go to a clinic but more of you wants to stay in bed.

Finger. Why. Are you fractured or will you just get better if I rest???

How about rest, since other joints ached, but not as badly as you do, hmmm?

Time to get very smart about what to do.

Alternatively...

https://www.wikihow.com/Help-Children-Learn-Conservative-Christian-Values

You could just chant "lock her up" and support your man in all things, no matter how selfish and abusive he's being.

http://time.com/4981448/value-voters-summit-donald-trump-speech/

Really, really time...

Bad for the rich, the poor, the middle class, everybody.

• https://www.usnews.com/news/articles/2016-03-08/where-billionaires-line-up-on-donald-trump

Time for a break again

It's nice to merely be achey and not so weak and nauseated. Since the flu shot doesn't make you sick, May be I was brought down by reading too many casting couch horror stories???

By the way, it is truly amazing how many conservative Christian woman on twitter find Hollywood despicable, yet they have no problem propping up president sex predator as some kind of holy MAGA hero, and delight in "lock her up" even now.

"Thanks to my beautiful wife, who is so, so supportive. I can keep her in the manner to which she has become accustomed, as long as she supports my fav lunatic and we both hate on the wicked witch, which is what is best for me, man of the home and lucky, lucky husband to a very special and supportive lady. I know she will always put me first. So supportive!"

Misogyny, thy name is woman sometimes.

Hopey and changey

Come to me,  realest healing...
Good sleep tonight please.

All the healing vibes please.

Better feelings soon please.

A good healing day tomorrow.

Yay...please...make it so....

May healing be real

I have illness. I got weak and emptied the contents of my stomach.

I am in bed with a heating pad on the cramp area. This is not when I normally get cramps.

It feels bad. But at least my stomach is empty now. The cramps, if they don't get worse, will get better.

Weakness.

Towel hanger thingy. No longer on the wall. Someone will have to fix it.

No fever at least.

Oh today's insights

It's so easy to get off course.
Let's get back on course.
Let's heal...lets do the good healing practices again!!!
I know...I know...

Also, omg, flu shot aches and fatigue.
Omg omg omg.
My left ring finger aches and that is strange.

Go back to intuition!
Go back to healing!

Good.
So be it.

I get so wiped out sometimes.
It's crazy. Its a message.
Oh...oh...oh...oh...oh...oh....
Breathe the healing breath again!

I have to get better at listening to intuition.

Hi flu shot

"It might be sore for 24 hours."
Or it might not, but the next day you might feel achy and fatigued and really f-ing crabby.

Hello

...and the Economics of Consent

"Of those dual personas in me—actor and writer—it was the writer who stood up and walked out." ~ Brit Marling

Hello Hello Hello Hello Hello

Song thoughts

A friend is sad a family member passed, and I got super positive vibes. Freedom. Angel is about a man needing his anima and recognizing it. If more men could do this, there would be healthier relationships and much less abuse of women. I also think a woman can have an inner masculine identity who still needs to heal and connect with his anima or who resonates with that, based on many things, possibly previous lives as a man, etc.

I'm a fount of fountness

I got a free feeling drivin' down the freeway...
I bought the expensive patchouli lotion at Vitamin Sale
I got a lot of yoga vibes tonight!
and Feel It Still in my head
Now I must sharpen 48 colored pencils
What to watch as I sharpen 48 colored pencils
Cat is hanging out and lapping at her water bowl
Feeling like it might be time to try the house calls vet
Just our luck to get a cat that makes X worry
That's what X needed, to worry more
Cat left the bowl to stare at the other one
& procure a space in the platonic ideal of laps
Angel was on this morning
Almost Bye (The Sound)

TEN

https://twitter.com/GuyInYourMFA/status/832283093490921472

years

https://twitter.com/GuyInYourMFA/status/833735961108475904

ago

https://twitter.com/GuyInYourMFA/status/842930510250807296

or

https://twitter.com/GuyInYourMFA/status/893956354234228736

more

https://twitter.com/GuyInYourMFA/status/921725813405507589

so runs the ancient tale...

Here's what comes up for "Women"

...besides all those stories about a predatory Hollywood director.

"Women in states around the country described boy’s club atmospheres, in which casually made inappropriate comments are dismissed as jokes and where even more serious misbehavior goes ignored."
http://thehill.com/homenews/state-watch/356427-in-state-capitols-women-see-rampant-sexual-harassment


"'I cannot think of any other industry that has such a wage gap, really. Depending on country context and sport, a man can be billionaire and a woman [in the same discipline] cannot even get a minimum salary,' says Beatrice Frey, sport partnership manager at UN Women." http://www.bbc.com/news/world-41685042


"How female characters describe their own appearance is often completely irritating, as though women spend their days reflecting on the exact shade of arable crop their hair can be likened to – is it flaxen, or more like corn? – rather than something a little more real – did I remember to brush it this morning? Just because men seem so often hyperaware of women’s bodies doesn’t mean that we exist in a complementary state of constant self-consciousness."
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/oct/23/tom-hanks-writing-how-men-write-women-uncommon-type

It's not great...

Or, maybe it is because it shows that some women, instead of sucking up to unhealthy immature men with flimsy illusory power for the money, expect to be treated a whole lot better.

Oh rose

Can thou heal the sick.
My throat needs something healing.

Women in this unhealthy government propping up an immature untrustworthy male ego for money.

This is a huge problem in our society.
It feels dreadful. It's dreadful to see it go on.

It's not a good quality of life at all.

Oh rose, canst thou heal...

Healing patterns are welcome here

Please help me enter into the healing patterns I need for the rest of my life.

Sweet Repeat Plus

Robbie Robertson and The Red Road Ensemble Music For The Native Americans Mahk Jchi (Heartbeat Drum Song) Translation:Our hearts are full and our minds are good Our ancestors come and give us strength Stand tall, sing, dance and never forget who you are Or where you come from

*****

Prince Ea ~ Man vs. Earth

More health topics

Why Has the E.P.A. Shifted on Toxic Chemicals? An Industry Insider Helps Call the Shots

Why are some people so obsessed with their own money that they put others in danger?

Not trustworthy.

This seems simple and to the point

http://www.latimes.com/opinion/readersreact/la-ol-le-trump-weinstein-women-20171022-story.html

Eaters

http://www.nola.com/business/index.ssf/2017/10/john_besh_restaurants_fostered.html

Shows are for...

http://www.slate.com/blogs/browbeat/2017/10/18/amazon_s_roy_price_passed_on_big_little_lies_because_it_lacked_female_nudity.html

Women's experiences

Well, Italians have something in common with a number of Americans (both men AND women) so the problems aren't over, are they?

https://www.vanityfair.com/style/2017/10/asia-argento-harvey-weinstein-italian-backlash

Global.

https://qz.com/1105645/italys-response-to-asia-argentos-sexual-assault-claims-against-weinstein-shows-italys-deep-misogyny/

And also Italian.

Healing patterns are welcome here

Please help me enter into the healing patterns I need for the rest of my life.

Truthfulness

I have taken some good steps and still my body is in immense need of healing. So I hope I can do what is best for the healing. I didn't realize this before in a way, how much my body wants me to change, so I pray for all the higher power guidance I can get. Maybe everyday will be a prayer.

Island "way of living"

with food...

This is true

I want everyone I have met to have the best health they can have. I have gratitude for all of my lessons. I believe a lot of people have inner healers and they can help heal our world. Oh I am feeling the light...

It's making me happier inside.
I believe my faith in people is coming back.
I still need to see the doctor and everything.
I am in a better place inside of myself.
Beyond our personal egos we can ask the universe to help us with healing.

Sincerely

Knowing I have to pray.
Pray for healing.
Pray from the bottom of my heart and with all of my soul.
Oh prayer.
Help us with your healing talents and all the healing vibes.

Still need healing

May I get better soon.
I love health.
Believe in healers and angels.
Please.

They are loudly tearing up the street on the morning I am feeling like this.
I need water. I might need to have a kidney healed. Wow. Life.

Health is everything.
They are banging the street and it makes things shake. I have earmuffs.

I want to focus on getting better. I wish it were more restful.

I hope no one else feels bad but could send healing vibes.

Healing vibes...

I really feel like I could read this

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/83829.The_Owl_Service

 ^   ^
(0)(0)
   W
    L

https://www.tor.com/2011/10/31/trapped-in-a-pattern-the-owl-service/

How to deal with a problem

Hold my catnip while I bite this thing
https://www.reddit.com/r/holdmycatnip/comments/77e2vd/hold_my_catnip_while_i_bite_this_thing/

Ah, the bliss of less pain

It's here! It's here! It's here!
You just have to tell yourself it will happen. And it will. So grateful.

I will mark the appropriate box on the app for pain level today. No more "Medium."

It was peobably dumb to eat a milk product in the am. I could have two weeks ago and suffered no ill effects. But not today. Aren't womanly cycles FASCINATING.

Revisiting

http://www.pcrm.org/health/health-topics/using-foods-against-menstrual-pain

Agua

That was a bit much.
Return to the priority.
Healing. Water.
Making self well.

More weirdness

Kinda amazing:

"My wife Kim respects Donald Trump because of the way he treats women."

-- R. Kiyosaki, Why The Rich Are Getting Richer, page 4

I guess being hyper-focused on money is one way to get through life.

And it seems absolutely dysfunctional. Meanwhile...

https://www.cbsnews.com/news/frederica-wilson-trump-call-to-widow-is-getting-threats-office-says/

Future generations: how did so many think it was a good idea to vote for such an irresponsible, unqualified candidate...read (or maybe listen to) Kiyosaki for insight...

IT'S TOO EARLY

What about this op

"When Allen and other men warn of 'a witch hunt atmosphere, a Salem atmosphere' what they mean is an atmosphere in which they’re expected to comport themselves with the care, consideration and fear of consequences that the rest of us call basic professionalism and respect for shared humanity."

-Lindy West

Witchy.

Waking early

I am up early but I am really happy that I am not suffering from intense physical pain as I was before. Maybe all the care I took with my body yesterday made a difference. I hope so! I am proud of myself for making better decisions and taking better care of myself yesterday, and I vow to continue to do so. I truly value getting my health back.

On an emotional level, it still kinda breaks my heart to realize some people would have treated me better in this life if I had been born in a different body (a male one).

That guy would have trusted me more and treated me better if we were both guys. That girl would have valued my opinion more if I were a man.

Because I am not the gender he's been taught to respect more, he was, perhaps without intending it, more dismissive and disrespectful. Because I am not the gender she's been taught to respect more, she tuned me out in order to fit in and go along with others.

It would be really great to see some people making much better choices in the future.

Heyyyy

Vitamin sale dayyyy

"She tastes like deep green healing."

http://www.crazyherbalist.com/motherwort-from-i-cant-to-i-can/

What writing! I have some capsules. Now I want a tincture.

Oh. What's this?

"The dominant culture holding and directing power doesn't offer a lot of room for this process unless you have economic privileges. That is real and it isn't you. You aren't failing anyone. Your worth is never indicated by your bank account. Your contributions to community and sheer existence are so much more than that. You are necessary. You are relevant. You are worthy and powerful."

http://www.crazyherbalist.com/for-survivors/

This is valuable!

And so is...

The Men You Meet Making Movies by Sarah Polley

(Just one of many, many, many, many many...)

It's best to appreciate that a wave of recognition about this stuff is happening now. Even though reading about it can also get really distressing. We can see that even those who are among the most "privileged" have been treated so badly for so long. Thank goodness we may be on a path to become a healthier society. I feel heartened. Really.

All the praying again

May it heal and transcend. May it let go of the old. May kidneys get better. May hormones balance. May pain on all levels be alleviated. May I make the best choices I can. Oh I wonder how.  Mother universe, mother universe, mother universe, mother universe, won't you make me smarter, better at healing, better at life. Prayers for a long long time...

I just want to get really smart because I can tell I am at a very specific point where I must commit to being healthier. I am bringing women's health issues out of the closet. It's so hard because who wants to listen? I want a better attitude.

I want to make the best choices. Not eat something that gives me an allergic reaction. I will be better. Help. I will accept the health...

We all deserve better.

Something more beautiful

Beauty beauty beauty

https://alittleearthlylove.yolasite.com

Love love love

I am sorry to complain but I met some people who had the capability to be better. They chose to be uncaring. They chose money over care of the earth. I felt very let down. I hope they will choose better. As I need to, because this is the body I live in, and it gets ill more easily when exposed to toxins. How can you choose toxins for money? This body cries at me. I am sorry about all the times I didn't listen enough to my body. People do not know what they do sometimes. I ate cheaply.

Like being allergic to peanuts.

After the grief  (you were a child once, full of joy and light and intuition and beauty, can't you choose to be yourself again?) I will ask higher powers, energies, beings of light to help me make better choices.

So my fate is not to be dragged down by the actions or inactions of others. So I don't let their choices or behavior depress me and then get ill, either from stress or diet or money issues or anger or fear or sorrow.

To get back to a better place (swimming in warm water, seeing happy children learn to swin).

God/Goddess knows more.

Oh god

Yesterday had some good points and now I want to go back and be living them again, instead of waking up in pain and sick. I do not wish my pain on anyone. I am sorry I suffer so. I think maybe I felt good and ate the wrong things again. I want I want I need I need health health health. I am going to the doctor on Friday. Yesterday's better points included finding a place to swim with warm water. That was the best.

I cry internally  because it's unfair to suffer on multiple levels. There's a physical level and an emotional level. There's men and women who have no idea what it's like to live like this because they have different genetics. They also don't want to know. It's scary...

I want a better life. I want my body to get better. I want people to become more compassionate.

I want my body to feel loved and appreciated. Thank you, body. I know you are not feeling well because of toxins in the environment and in food and even in water.  I know you are really sensitive.
I know I have lost many work hours and I know I need to do better when it comes to taking care of you.

It's like having a peanut allergy in a world where they can mostly eat peanuts. I think it's not exactly the same but similar.

I need to give you extra love and attention.

Help me find people who are caring.

I am part of the earth.

Lessony day

Sometimes you gotta wait til you're well enough to wash the medicine dropper off in the sink.

Thank  you for giving me "a day off" although in this moment it feels like a lot of work to manage pain and symptoms.  What can I do today to make my body healthier and easier to live in? I deserve a better life than this.

Not having kids in this current state. At this time, this body is the kid. The cat is the other one. I would need a lot of help to do more. I would need to hire a nanny. Either a dad or a mom. I would be saying "it takes a village..."

Its time to chew ginger and put on the heating pad and take essences and pray. I took vitamins earlier, and when I can get out of bed I will be much healthier than I was yesterday.

I even had a dream about making vegan food.

A time to pray

Waking up and happy the welts on the skin are not as bad now but instead there's pain and a heating pad to help. As I have said, the only good thing about this kind of pain is how clearly it makes me focus on priorities in life. Be kind (to yourself, too) and compassionate. Appreciate small things. Healing is everything. Well it could be worse. Still, pain is so unfair and solitary. It's amazing how some people just don't get it, but they almost could have, and could they in the future, if they ever have the courage to value different viewpoints? Prayers can be to Jesus or to the universe, and they can be like chanting in another language, which I learned in yoga classes when I was younger, or like what Christan mystics of either sex have practiced for centuries...

Well enough

To read about stuff, like maybe hives and joint pain are also linked to hormone imbalance.

I'm sorry about getting off course

Love and prayer and health and forgiveness are the best and healthiest ways to pursue. Isn't it true?

I am sorry about getting off course.
I am so eager to do much, much, much better in the future.

Peace and healing and hearts.

Skin has a message

The hives, to be more precise.

Yes, I stopped for a caramel sundae with peanuts but they were also remodeling and when I suddenly got a weird chemical taste in my mouth and threw the rest away I w/o dered if was that or the peanuts and caramel..

Hives. Man.

I need very high standards for my body.
I do not think u should work in any industries that use a lot of chemicals

Well I meant to type I but I will keep that last part

One of my ankles hurts too.

Some ways to look at things

"...instead of being Matt Damon..."

http://lithub.com/things-that-are-hillary-clintons-fault-starting-with-harvey-weinstein/

!!!

http://variety.com/2017/biz/news/anita-hill-sexual-harassment-harvey-weinstein-guest-column-1202585236/

$$$

http://www.latimes.com/opinion/op-ed/la-oe-smith-weinstein-donations-20171015-story,amp.html

Numbers count?

Along with so much else going on....

https://www.themarysue.com/things-we-saw-today-trump-subpoena/

What if more people...

From https://www.theguardian.com/film/2017/oct/12/emma-thompson-harvey-weinstein-no-sex-addict-predator

"She said there were many like Weinstein in Hollywood. 'Does it only count if you have done it to loads and loads of women, or does it count if you have done it to one woman, once. I think the latter.'”

Then vs. Now

It was only earlier this month that I was sitting in a garden telling someone trustworthy how painful it is to become an outsider because of having to acknowledge what others don't want to. It's more convenient for them to go along with society which turns a blind eye to abuses when enormous amounts of money, fame, and talent are involved. They want you to go along with them and when you don't you become a kind of outcast. You feel like a leper. Well it seems that many with strong voices  who have been outcast are speaking out so it appears be changing...

Happy Sunday

May you deepen your ability to understand multiple viewpoints and find your personal development to be richly rewarding!!!

Oh...

This too.
http://www.cnn.com/2017/10/13/us/charles-schulz-home-california-fires/index.html

For a several years, I've had this thing for Santa Rosa. Like, I passed by it once and I wanted to go back and thought about it and looked it up on a number of occasions...

https://www.deseretnews.com/article/865690711/Churches-shelter-California-fire-victims-dozens-of-Mormons-assist-those-who-lost-homes.html

And I loved Cloverdale. Just how it felt to stop by there and get an ice cream...

http://www.sonomawest.com/cloverdale_reveille/news/cloverdale-shelter-closes-but-the-giving-continues-at-soil-king/article_70c8d3c6-b05b-11e7-9a27-13d5676807b2.html

And beautiful Mendocino...

http://sfist.com/2017/10/13/mendocino_fires_burn_34000_acres_on_1.php

Diablo Winds

http://www.sfgate.com/weather/article/Diablo-Wind-wine-country-wildfire-roberta-gonzales-12268370.php

Outside was nice

I have been having a good, solitary night. I got paid so I made a big debt payment (yes!!!! It feels good to pay some of it off.) While making all the plans to do free things and pay off more debt and feeling good about walking around in a relatively safe place at night and enjoying the cool weather and smelling trees on the breeze, I was drawn toward a nail salon. It was closed, but inside an older couple were hugging each other and watching the news while a girl swept the floor. What's going on? Then I wondered about the fires.

 After seeing the couple in the nail salon, I was incredibly jarred to find this when I got home: http://www.cnn.com/2017/10/13/us/california-fires-couple-hides-in-pool/index.html

 And since I was last reading about them, the death toll has tripled??? http://www.cnn.com/2017/10/13/us/california-fires-updates/index.html

Truly, how can they be so horrible?

 Meanwhile, the most horrid impeachable one who turns my stomach seems to actively want to bully and punish people for daring to want healthcare. http://www.cnn.com/2017/10/12/politics/obamacare-subsidies/index.html I do not understand how some people still think this guy is...oh nevermind.

Yes, universe

It is funny that I had another impulse to take a look at a site and there's a new post full of Thoreau quotes...

http://moonshinejunkyard.blogspot.com/2017/10/twin-lakes-tradition.html

I fondly remember the Pacific Northwest. I miss the little I've seen of Northern California. It's hard to get away. Who knew I would end up here? In the day I walked up to a house where I had to retrieve a key for a petsitting job. I find it very strange. People I've never met leave me this key in a mail box. It's a little wordless communication between myself and a stranger.

On the way back, I walked through alleyways and saw a nice ramshackle house with a stained glass window behind some shrubbery and wondered who lived there. Limes I could have picked hung over a walkway. I didn't grew up with that, but it's normal now.

Maybe I will go apple-picking / pumpkin-patching soon...the spirit of upstate NY is still with me...

$$, literature, value to (your) society...

Hmmm...by Alexandra d'Abbadie...

How ‘The Remains of the Day’ Helped Me Understand Brexit and Trump

Really

Honestly the whole Mile Pence "don't be alone with women rule" / don't be too friendly with women stuff is so damaging and unhealthy...really? The illusion of bettering things by avoiding being alone with women (so unsafe!) vs. it feels okay to be a dude who is friendly with another dude (safe! protected!) Wow, really? And for Terry Crews?

Back to life...

Back to praying for excellent healing and help and care and love!!!!!

Considerations

Daughters are put not on earth to make you look good

A Silicon Valley venture capitalist has to cancel all meetings with women?

Maybe this helps: WOMEN ARE THE ROCK

Hello

The new me is thinking about her dream.
A sort of long lost brother friend was hanging around to help, without me asking.
To be clear, he wanted to go socialize and party, but something in him was compelling himself to hang around and ask me if I needed help from him. I said it would be cool if he helped me move some bricks made of mud. There was a storage area I could access, to put away valuables, this dream...

We can get it back

Love.... brotherly

Is time to pray

People needed to revisit the hospital and are in urgent need of healing again.

Healing, prayers, grace.

Also saw some of Billie Jean King's beautiful life on screen!

A recommendation I was given:

http://www.oprah.com/own-super-soul-sunday/read-an-excerpt-of-anne-lamotts-help-thanks-wow

News of fires

I missed this...it is shocking...

http://www.latimes.com/local/california/la-northern-california-fires-live-coverage-hundreds-evacuated-blazes-ravage-napa-sonoma-20171009-htmlstory.html

I guess there is a tipping point

And it finally got to that point.

HW audio

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/10/10/us/gwyneth-paltrow-angelina-jolie-harvey-weinstein.html

https://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/from-aggressive-overtures-to-sexual-assault-harvey-weinsteins-accusers-tell-their-stories

Speech issues

HELL

https://www.theguardian.com/film/2017/oct/09/harvey-weinstein-hollywood-men-actors-directors

O

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2017/oct/10/american-trucker-automation-jobs

Ha ha. Um, what???

Access point
http://www.businessinsider.com/jackson-hole-speech-janet-yellen-fed-chair-2017-8

Speech Analysis
https://www.forbes.com/sites/alapshah/2017/10/10/why-fed-hiking-yellen-effect/#3968a8ea4fa7

TEA MUSIC!

EAR WORM

No Doubt ~ She's just sippin' on chamomile...

What is your job. What is your job. What is your job.

It is

https://www.alternet.org/news-amp-politics/robert-reich-harvey-weinstein-donald-trump

to look at stuff

Wealth inequality in America

like this

https://www.salon.com/2014/05/13/robert_reich_10_ways_to_close_the_inequality_gap_partner/

and by the way... "overall 'men’s jobs' are better paid than 'women’s jobs.'”

~ http://inequality.stanford.edu/publications/20-facts-about-us-inequality-everyone-should-know

Auuuugh

HA HA LIFE

sharing

https://www.boredpanda.com/woman-period-reported-hr-workplace/

is caring

People are trying to make sense

of some terrible things....

https://www.teenvogue.com/story/megan-rondini

I wondered why I sometimes thought of certain people and had bad feelings...

https://www.vanityfair.com/hollywood/2017/10/rose-mcgowan-harvey-weinstein

A tattoo where???

That was unexpected.

http://www.newsweek.com/exclusive-judi-dench-who-has-harvey-weinstein-tattoo-her-butt-says-sexual-680815

Although it may be sad thing for Weinstein that he's not getting excused in the way of, say, a very gifted athlete who makes a lot of $$$ selling athletic footwear...

http://www.bbc.com/news/entertainment-arts-41557010

If one believes in things like karma or reincarnation, this is actually much BETTER because he can begin to change himself NOW instead of being enabled for the rest of his life by a society that would rather keep making excuses for harmful behavior...

So random!

I feel like watching Billy Elliot.

Am prayer

Please help promote healing Help and be a healer Health is everything We need healing again Its so important I hope it gets better Heal self now good Let go of your past Heal heal heal heal Better better better Imagine all the help Love and peace and healing Higher powers that know They can heal you Your beautiful soul Love yourself Thank you Your beautiful throat Love yourself Thank you Your beautiful life Love yourself Thank you

Imagine

A 14 year old, an 80 year old, and an athlete who died too young all hiding inside the body of a female of advanced maternal age who has a bit of a book addiction and in the end perhaps the 4 year old wins Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps

Okay serioiusly

XX hovers over sick cat, tells sick cat she's a good cat, offers water, gently pets cat (but gets no purrs), cleans up multiple times after the sickness of sick cat, and googles all the emergency vet numbers and texts XY...

XY: I'm home now. She came to sit.

XX sees cat purring on XY's lap 

XX: What?

Cat - if not 100%, then at least REMARKABLY improved, and PURRING.

XX to XY: If we have kids, they should just have all your genes. Like, 100%.

And to play...

Help Your Cat Feel Better Help a human feel better...

Time to pray

Heal a sick person far away
Heal a sick cat nearby

Find those nice chanting healing songs...
Why are we not more immersed in the healing professions
In spiritual professions
In health professions
In compassion

Hmmmm...hmmmm....hmmmm....hmmmm...

A sea song

~~~beautiful~~~

Song of The Sea

Repair, repair, repair...

BREATHE

Very very sad. I wish it weren't so.

Crashing, crashing, crashing.

This must be like grief.

Or stress. Or illness.

BREATHE

How old are the kids now?

OH CANADA

I think I want to vote for a man who makes life worse for the next generation because I have vindictive, petty feelings about losing in the past election, and all my conservative friends say it's great for change. Sounds good?

MAKE BABIES

Could it be better?

MILLIONARES AGAINST TAX CUTS

It could be.

devils

The Devil In A Pussy Hat: Some liberal men think feminism is saying the right things and writing big enough checks, not treating women like human beings

Isn't it a lot though

https://theconcourse.deadspin.com/boy-do-i-feel-naive-1819223797/amp

It is

http://www.slate.com/articles/news_and_politics/politics/2017/10/the_charter_flights_of_price_mnuchin_pruitt_are_the_tip_of_the_corruption.html

See you...again

Oblivion ~ Grimes

I remember this

US ~ Regina Spektor

Ask a hermit

Or something...

https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2017/oct/06/hermits-solitude-wilderness-new-mexico

Ask Harvey

How are a bunch of dudes who are constantly living with the legacy of being trained to be disrespectful to themselves going to change. The ridiculous so-called "power" of some people's behavior is...

FLIMSY
FLIMSY
FLIMSY

FLIMSY
FLIMSY
FLIMSY

What's your next life?

Return to peace...

I want intelligence and compassion to save the day or night.
There's too much trauma and illness and some anger in a far away place.
It sounded like it was getting better for a little while.
Can't some people heal themselves?
This week was a week like no other.
It's a time of needing spiritual guidance.
Someone sent me a rosary video...
Why is Friday night such a sketchy night sometimes...
What's an antidote to "worrying self sick"

This could always be one...



Heartbeat Drumsong

Could be doing better things.

BETTER THINGS ~ BETTER THINGS ~ BETTER THINGS

Hmmmm

International Day of Peace is Sept. 21st

Maybe some people should pray instead of drinking and getting angry.
Then become a respectful and kind person instead of a man not easy to trust.

I need some information

Some people have been sick
Some people have been stressed
Some people have been trying to help
I feel very worried about a lot of things

Maybe it happens sometimes

Sometimes I am scared of the sad things people have gone through.
I get a worried feeling.
What can we do now.

Maybe it's an angel book night

Sometimes we all need light and healing.
Light and healing...
Healing and light...

Woh

http://www.theonion.com/article/how-could-harvey-weinstein-get-away-asks-man-curre-57144

Oh another

Because even though he may be liberal, employ the president' s daughter and support women in films...

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/10/05/us/harvey-weinstein-harassment-allegations.html

Honestly, maybe the one who got elected this time around is just a reflection of what a lot of people have been excusing and putting up with for a loooong time...

http://www.slate.com/blogs/the_slatest/2017/10/06/un_self_aware_republican_party_denounces_weinstein_for_sexual_harassment.html

That time when...

you couldn't sleep & the moon was demandingly bright outside

Prayers...people need care and love...

People I love with heart conditions in the hospital need care and love.

Guardian angels, can you hear? Guardian angles, can you heart?

People with illnesses who are having a rough time coping need love.

Guardian angles, can you heart? Guardian angels, can you hear?

We need healing

People are in the hospital
Someone is playing sad music
We need help today

Way down deep

It's best to believe
Old stories end
So new ones can begin
You can be happy
Make better choices
Embrace new things

But maybe

....if you sandwiched in a white flour product at lunch and breakfast and dinner were still super healthy...

That's not what happened, though.

Why do some people just get to eat that stuff and nothing bad happens?

http://www.pcrm.org/health/health-topics/using-foods-against-menstrual-pain

Because it was one sandwich. And then another one later.

And one cookie.  And then later...

And then before bed....

How sad that a little irresponsibility with white flour and sugar should wreak such misery.

It's not pretend

In a dream: what if childbirth isn't so bad Didnt you survive the other symptoms
In reality: this is awful
Was it the picnic type leftovers yesterday
Pain that should have left returns
Heating pad and ginger to chew
White flour / sugar crash
Genetically, life is not fair
That's stuff you grew up eating