I don't want to give in to the Patriarchal society by changing too much.

I don't think being a girl is inherently oppressive. I think Patriarchal society is oppressive to girls. But that's how it is for me. I also have a bunch of impressions running through my mind like I've already spent plenty of time in more masculine bodies in other lives and I don't need to do anything to make that happen in this life and I don't want it to happen (for me), so that's me in this life.