Or else I can't deal with the "nice" but emotionally draining "lucky" people anymore.
Tuesday, March 31, 2026
This is difficult, on several levels.
People pressuring you to go along with them and accept their point of view instead of being curious and open enough to be able to listen to your point of view feels wrong and detrimental to health. It happened recently because I felt something was a little too wide but everybody else thought it was fine and did all the smiles and all the pressure. And now I'm up with sore gums. Still looking at it still thinking it's a tad too wide. And I put thousands of dollars. On the credit card. For the experience. I'm going to ask the universe and nature for more help with these kinds of things.
Let's enjoy good food while it lasts, right? But maybe the fertilizer situation will improve.
Today was the day of two Taco Tuesdays!
The first Taco Tuesday meal was served several hours ago and featured street tacos of the following varieties: el pastor, chicken, chorizo and potato. (And I also got some refried beans and cactus salad.)
After eight, there was a second, smaller taco Tuesday meal:
X: I brought home fish tacos!
Y: For yourself?
X: I bought them with my money, but I got two in case you wanted to eat some. But if you don't want to eat some, then I will eat them.
Y: I think you're a growing girl.
X: Then I think you should help me eat my fish tacos!
Lord, is it a sign?
My cat just sought after a spoonful of Fancy Feast so intensely that she completely turned the food dish upside down and mess got everywhere and then I turned it right side up and put the rest of the food in the bowl. I hope she also eats the part that spilled on the floor. Not because of any demeaning reason, but just practically speaking, it would be more helpful.
Update: She did! Thanks, Kitty! Now I only have to clean the floor a little bit.
This cat was very sought after! 😻
"Millikan High School is mourning Canelo, a Long Beach cat whose secret life endeared him to thousands of students
It wasn’t until his owner bought a GPS collar that she discovered what Canelo meant to so many people."
https://lbpost.com/news/canelo-campus-cat-millikan-high-long-beach-death/
Only God knows what people are dealing with.
X: Ha-ha, look at this.
"watch my tripod kitten"
christine
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkjNY93L/
Y: Turn down that music and look at this.
"Entire bar hypes up a little girl who wanted to sing the abcs"
Do I need magic mushrooms. (Probably not?)
Feels kind of like I'm in a recovery mode of some sort right now, on multiple levels. I think I'm going to start looking more at all those different forms of love again. You know how there's eight different forms of love, according to the Greeks? Looking at the different forms of love is probably going to be more appealing to some people than listening to more lectures on sexism and racism and the evils of capitalism and people in detention facilities and children being treated badly and all that sort of thing. Maybe if some people just looked at the different forms of love more deeply, it would be more effective. I feel like I made big purchases today and it's not everyday you spend two grand because your insurance doesn't cover anything anymore. But this was kind of fun to look at, either again or for the first time. I didn't remember any of it but I thought I watched it during lockdown.
"Fantastic Fungi, Official Film Trailer"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=bxABOiay6oA&si=MnU-V7QKffPdyeq6
I think I will also try to watch the new Thoreau show soon (even though lately I also wonder if his kvetchiness shortened his lifespan...)
"'Henry David Thoreau' documentary from Ken Burns reveals his relevance" - Los Angeles Times
Kind of scary!
So, I just listened to the DJ who was introducing "Refugee" and he said it's about dealing with a bad whiner and he thinks the lyrics about being tied up and held for ransom are brilliant sarcasm and he also said you would wish that this kind of song would never be written about you. He also grovels a lot about the genius of Tom Petty.
Man, I just thought the song was a lot more nuanced than that.
Anyways his take reminded me of people who say that the patriarchy trains men to be misogynistic docile creatures who want to submit to other men and tear down women. 🤣🤣🤣🤣 I actually think somebody who might have been sex trafficked or something might listen to the song and have a very different take on it. Oh well. Good luck dealing with 😍😍😍😍!
These two are so familiar! It's hard to believe I haven't memorized all the words (but most of them)
Annie Lennox – "Walking on Broken Glass Lyrics" | Genius Lyrics
https://genius.com/Annie-lennox-walking-on-broken-glass-lyrics
Indigo Girls – "Closer to Fine Lyrics" | Genius Lyrics
Something else to think about next time some people pose topless in warm weather.
Cuz summer is coming.
"Have you ever noticed this"
tova_leigh
https://www.instagram.com/p/DWD83J1iILZ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I haven't even got halfway through the teen traditional wife epidemic
"gym modesty discourse is lowkey purity culture"
Manifestelle
https://youtube.com/watch?v=8a6P3DD9OTw&si=y7hjfzKDaLWus--g
"the teen trad wife epidemic is deeper than you think"
therealmanifestelle
This is all that ever happens to the tenured professors with the best health insurance.
"The Love-ahs with Barbara and Dave" - SNL
The other day, before dining out at a park.
While waiting for dinner at fast food drive-thru:
Y: The price of fertilizer's increasing...It's going to be like what they experienced in Europe in WWII...
X: No, it will not. People will not be starving! Geez, don't say that.
"How Should Policymakers Respond to Rising Fertilizer Prices?"| Yale Insights
https://insights.som.yale.edu/insights/how-should-policymakers-respond-to-rising-fertilizer-prices
Monday, March 30, 2026
Healing can be very fragmented!
Even musical healing! I have to wait to listen to more of this. I'll probably listen to more of it soon.
"A Beginner's Mind" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Beginner%27s_Mind
I liked the "Lady Macbeth" song and I like the movie "The Last Wave."
It's incredibly interesting that the songs were based on the experiences of watching films.
People do have a lot of courage.
People do want to feel more love and they do want to experience love, but they also experience fear because sometimes their past traumatic experiences aren't resolved yet and it gets in the way of creating new things, but nevertheless...They believe they can get to the next level.
Things get so dense when you're on Earth sometimes.
I should ask the universe why, if I was supposed to learn more about femininity in this life, why I didn't get more feminine influences? Why did I have to struggle to recover and look for those? You can have knowledge and then forget it. It's like there's this constant process of amnesia happening. You're nervous system gets thrown off by a traumatic event and all of a sudden you're like an amnesiac and that wonderful knowledge you were so sure you had becomes something you have to try to remember. Grief and anger and rage and fear can push people into really strange corners sometimes. That's why it's good to seek out practices that can help with getting more balanced and centered. Then it's not so difficult to recover memories or a sense of balance.
I haven't really been a stretch out to the crowds kind of person.
Maybe I have guides who think what I'm doing is okay, even though it's kind of weird and solitary. I think that might be the case. Maybe this is just the way I am for a few decades and it'll change in the future. I don't know.
Sometimes it's a question of which current of energy is hitting you more strongly.
If you're being put in a certain current of energy by the universe, you're going to start thinking people who passed away are going to come back and talk to you in particular ways, and therefore it doesn't seem like they're really dead, it just seems like they're in a different space, and they can still get messages through to you. Sigh. But perhaps it's not appropriate for everyone to experience such things.
Especially the ones who attended weird churches that pumped strange values into their brains.
Girls should take themselves on limerence vacations.
S trAnge values can dissipate...
My cat came over to inspect this 🎼 💘😺
The cats are sensitive!
"Sizlerden tek..."
hababamevi_
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWa0S98je6f/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
Looks dignified enough to me.
I like crowing as a person growing.
All my half-formed plans that no one has actually fully agreed to seem to be working out well enough so far! Probably because all of the spiritual progress that's been happening.
I like the mysterious quality, and it seems like it's good for digestion.
"Doughnut Song (Live In Houston 11/25/07)"
Tori Amos
Dreams start to get more interesting when you act like you will listen to them.
I hope I have more interesting dreams!
I feel quite curious about this game I saw in a store 🐝.
"Flight of the Bumblebee – A Review of Propolis at One and Two Players" | BoardGameGeek
https://boardgamegeek.com/thread/3599671/flight-of-the-bumblebee-a-review-of-propolis-at-on
But I thought of something a little bit funny...
"St. Vincent thinks the worst song ever written is John Mayer's 'Daughters'"
https://www.reddit.com/r/popheads/s/mDNgRLTkzB
When some boys came to the picnic area and played exactly one song yesterday, it kind of reminded me of that article. Maybe these two songs can get married!
Sam Smith - "I'm Not The Only One (Official Music Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=nCkpzqqog4k&si=KY8ojBozHm200FY5
John Mayer - "Daughters (Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=rZLbUIa7exE&si=DW6Y9PyNx1tikH0p
Everybody's in a growth process whether they want to be or not.
What a folly to act like you've done all the growing you've needed to do, eh?
That's exactly what the patriarchy tricks people into thinking they need to do.
It's just a matter of time before people figure out that it's been a charade.
And the descendants will see it. I mean they might actually be too busy with their own lives to think about you very much, but when they do think back...
Anyway, maybe there's no song that's the worst that's ever been written because they're all sort of here for a reason. They're doing some stuff.
Not just occupation-wise, but also in regards to my attitudes and behaviors and beliefs and such.
I kind of do wonder what I would have done in this life if I had been born a boy, sometimes.
If you're so uninterested in your own personal growth.
If you have children maybe you should at least figure out how they can have less weird attitudes towards girls and women than the ones that you've inherited.
Well, at least some of the "others" are still living in spite of the ignorant ones' best attempts to act like they don't matter.
Every time I have to pay a boatload of money just for the experience of living in this body, I'm just going to remember that lots of other people are also are having that experience too. Most of us are not going to be f****** princesses!!!!
I have no other explanation for people's choices sometimes.
You must think every girl is here to be turned into a princess. So, you either have to be the princess or the man. Wow! What a pair of limiting f****** choices that is. Well, whatever, maybe this will seem different later, but I think it's enough to acknowledge that a whole lot of people are still thinking and acting that way for now.
It also takes a lot of money, by the way.
Someone needs to feed the rich, and the poor, but I can't believe it's easier for you to turn yourself into a man than it is for you to care about women and girls. I have seen so little effort by patriarchal people to start caring about women and girls who are not rich and / or of the kinds of genetics that patriarchal supremacy prefers, basically, that I feel like I'm just stunned.
Really? Even the liberal people?
Because of what I feel about my own personal needs, I am definitely NEVER transitioning to male in this lifetime.
Because I also feel feel that accommodating a bunch of shallow, self-centered, chauvinistic people who probably do not give a s*** about the vast majority of young girls and women in this country, who are moreover supposedly benefiting from the poor treatment and exploitation of such human beings, yes, human beings who deserve A LOT BETTER is not what I'm here to put up with.
I am not going to do that just so the shallow people treat me better, so f*** that, f*** that, f*** that, f*** that, f*** that, f*** that, f*** that, f*** that.
F U C K. T H A T.
Absolutely not.
That is not my calling. That is not my journey.
Perhaps I have an ancestor who wants to know.
Which friends would be the best to you if you had your mom's genetics? Now I'm going to have to be on the lookout for more mom dreams.
Kind of mad and feel like I need to do some more movements or something.
And now I will check it out!
"Mitski: ‘Nothing's About To Happen To Me’ review — cat lovers rejoice!" | Iowa Public Radio
"i've been on this soapbox for years"
Pepper🌹
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkYWL88m/
And some OTHER stuff, too, of course.
"Don't Eat the Flan"
https://www.forbes.com/forbes/2003/0203/038.html
SO OTHERS THE OTHERS ARE
"The Othering of Plus Size Film and TV Protagonists"
I think these two are cute.
"PCOS is the syndrome that no one fully explains"
pcos.weightloss
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWg7ZOlhtZZ/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
I feel like I have to punctuate.
Beck - "Where It's At (Official Music Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=EPfmNxKLDG4&si=jDt0OrWPLom_xWJW
10000 Maniacs - "Don't Go Back To Rockville"
Untucky
I must know, so why not you?
If you must know, the mother who could have been working with some guys in a restaurant in my dream were saying that the guys at the restaurant weren't giving her much of a chance.
Funding? For medical treatment? For people in lady bodies?
"Agape can be sisterly too."
How does proving that the white guys don't hate, fear, and despise women and their own mothers and their ex wives in this era of extraordinary and excruciating extremes sound to you?
😊 Cool 🪇 Facts!🐀
"I mean, that's so cute."
tetyanawrites
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DWgkh1VCHsp/?igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
That was different, too.
I had a dream about a woman who was a mom and could work in a bar alongside some guys and her personality was not like mine. But it was an interesting personality. I wondered if she's somebody else's mom when I woke up.
"Your mom kinda freaked me out" (Almost Famous)
bettermenfilmclub6815
https://youtube.com/watch?v=G0UkzdfqFBc&si=lb9Ern_HwQKnezVr
Oh, I was just looking for a little clip, and instead I clicked on something long...
This also kind of reminds me of Anne Frank.
"björk : bachelorette"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=JNJv-Ebi67I&si=PdXXX6R0162_pG6g
What if I adopt someday, and the kid remembers being Barbro Karlen and wants a horse? And riding lessons?
"Behaving As If the God in All Life Mattered"
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/798829.Behaving_As_If_the_God_in_All_Life_Mattered
It's become apparent your people are still suffering.
Greatly, from a dearth of lesbian bars and night clubs. Ugh, $0 PATRIARCHAL.
Rihanna - "Umbrella (Orange Version) (Official Music Video)"
Don't need to say that twice.
"If only your life had been different, then you would have fit in so much better with X and Y types of people."
Do I even have the strength to find out where this is?.
I mean, yeah, I do have it.
"#metoo #protectorwomen"
💖Mama C💖
https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTkYMtxFg/
"#fyp #consent #misogyny"
Tattooed face
I guess it's always a great time to appreciate what we've got...
"'Could not come at a worse time’: U.S. farmers hit hard by economic fallout of Iran war
The closure of the Strait of Hormuz has sent fertilizer and oil prices soaring as farmers prepare for the spring planting season"
https://www.ms.now/news/iran-war-american-farmers-fertilizer
🐝🌸❇️Such a delicate balance...🌾👩🏽🌾🌽
🦋🧋🌻Between the busy insect pollinators and the people whose labors help us stave off starvation...👨🏽🍳🫖🍚
Sunday, March 29, 2026
Slept and then woke up because of a message inside that I'm trying to get out in the world.
We have to remember we can do good things because there are people who are here to do really important work together, and I don't know why sometimes they choose difficult situations and maybe it's because from the universe's perspective, one life is it's just one of many, and the universe thinks you get multiple chances, but still, while you're here in one particular life it feels so important, and I kind of remembered nother dream where it was as if I went somewhere and I saw somebody and I was on the verge of getting to know them and then he made a decision and he knew he was going to feel it for all the rest of his life, but he made a decision to leave and and it affected the whole rest of their lives, and that really happens. And when that happens, they probably will see each other again in a different life. But why can't we just do well for each other this time? It would be just a great and wonderful thing. It would be truly an honor to be able to choose what love and we will help ourselves, and it will be good for others, too.
People need to figure out how to get more joy out of being helpful.
Patriarchal society makes some sensitive people have to say no so much, that it's hard to say yes when you have so much obligation put on you to say no. And then you wonder why some people aren't as successful. Well, they're dealing with adverse circumstances, and they're so busy trying establish boundaries and zones of respectfulness that other people don't apparently have enough sensitivity to perceive are needed.
Think of pollinators in nature and how sensitive they are.
This culture is too hard on sensitive beings.
This was a pretty view.
And it was very unplanned because somehow getting food and going to the park, which happened to be next to a cute little school, seemed like a good idea. A small band showed up and played exactly one song as far as I could hear: "I'm Not The Only One." I think it was all boys playing. It certainly wasn't an L7 type of band.
But there was also a party going on (maybe at a nearby venue) and there was lots of other songs happening there! "Ain't no mountain high enough..." "What a wonderful world..." "This must be the place" said the Shazam (Talking Heads) "Rock the night away...'
Y: You know this this is a cool park cause it's really chill. There's not kids screaming all over even though it's next to a school."
Can't disagree with that!
"Finesse" said the Shazam (Bruno Mars), "YMCA," (a nice reminder that exercise is good for your emotional well-being!)
Well, I guess if you write, sometimes your life can become more like an art film. (Maybe it's that way with other art forms, too?)
Speaking of writing, and schools, I may have gone to some bad ones, but I will say, in all my childhood recollection, never have I ever tried to kiss somebody in a closet and made them pee on themselves and then got my sisters to make excuses for it. Because my life did not happen to arrange itself in that way...
Some of them could pay more attention.
Because if they get hit by a truck tomorrow, they could wake up in less than a year and have a totally different body! Just being helpful. And sisterly.
It's already like summer weather has arrived in this part of the world.
Someday I think I should go back to a place I like to sleep in, and read lots of books in, called the rainbow room, because of how it was decorated, in a house I used to visit every summer, but I haven't been there in a while, not for many years.
Followed creative inclination. 🎶
I found some very small zines and a sticker I could purchase. And it felt like the universe got mischievous on the way back, because a gang of young teenage boys on bikes were in the street in front of the car that was in front of me and they took up space and got in the wrong lanes and everything.
One was especially acrobatic on the bike and made me think music video directors would be looking for him. He was black and got in front of the car in front of me as if he had no fear of death. But I also think maybe there was another person who cut in front of the car before he did his acrobatic stuff and this person seemed like a young Latino guy, who drove very close to my car and wasn't as acrobatic, but he had a really smug smile on his face.
(And then the radio brought back memories of my mom's ex-boyfriend talking to me about how he liked this new song called "Black Velvet" and he was asking, "Do you think your mom likes this song?" before they played "Run Around" by Blues Traveler. I sort of think they separated because he wasn't really loving living with kids; he was younger than her.)
I would have liked to take a picture of the acrobatic biker, but I was driving.
One of the tiny zines I have now (actually I might have met this writer before: www.fiberverse.com/) references three songs that I don't think I've ever heard before, so I'm going to look them up:
"Choices" by Cindy Rinne
Phoebe Bridgers - "Garden Song (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=1u8rIx65QgA&si=vHZWdi7XWC02jqLi
Mitski - "First Love/Late Spring (Official Audio)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=DVIaDzs1EH4&si=i3luT8MFRtEoKrYC
Joep Beving - "Sleeping Lotus redux (Official Music Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=H2kP2JGEw7s&si=t0PYQDh6g7QvWr1-
Now I'm learning more about...
"Art Talk with Hung Liu" | National Endowment for the Arts
"九月 (September)" — Magnolia Editions
I will think about zines now, and hip exercises.
"Men have no business making decisions for women."
idzineit12
Women walking different but compelling paths.
"I can never fully describe..."
lucilletherescuecat
https://www.instagram.com/p/DWcJ6c2keIP/?img_index=5&igsh=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng==
"Women have to fight"
lapetitewolfe
Grist for the mill.
"A feminist world where all men are servants—would you want to live there"
Anderson-x9
The cat of this residence seems to really like both of us.
Too bad for them.
"Cats stealing their man"
awwdorablepetsart
This made me think of soup with sustenance.
That was the best lunch when I was a size single digit college student who got called flaca in South America and got colder easier. Walk a mile uphill in Seattle to campus at lunchtime and get one free vegetarian bowl of soup with chunks of tofu in it and some bread on the side with butter and listen to an enriching topic of conversation. Although I guess we didn't converse back with the speaker very much, we were mostly listening and eating. But I think you could ask them questions.
"Lentil soup..."
"My teen daughter..."
Do you think this is based on something that really happened? Do you think this is based on something that really happened?
Sublime – "Wrong Way Lyrics" | Genius Lyrics
I have to start all over.
I was crocheting a hat as a gift and I thought I was just about ready to finish it and send it but the stitches were off and they've been off the entire time I've been making it.
This is why counting stitches is smart.
On the other hand, sometimes people can improvise halfway through and just make it look slightly different, but I'm just going to start over.
This really reminds me of the guy who just showed it to me.
"Man in sombrero, poncho and maracas..."
u/eternviking
Follow your heart! ♥️ People are getting goofy.
"@Jen Hamilton Grand Teton National Park"
Yellowstone National Park
No, it isn't. 👑
Tom Petty - "It's Good To Be King [Official Music Video]"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=2SF1iLXSQto&si=9d0RENamNIh-BBJG
But it's a really good song. 🎵
Blame it on a lake...💧
It's really big; people went swimming or wading in it, or in them?
"Great Lakes" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Great_Lakes
Blame it on some lakes...
"Blame It on the Rain" - Wikipedia
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blame_It_on_the_Rain
For some reason they paired this song with a movie about some young people.
Belle & Sebastian - 'I Want the World to Stop"
TrentFanMusicheek
https://youtube.com/watch?v=zCyiebswtSM&si=OHfspaNPpPXaZsjW
Young 'uns. Was this song in that film? (Checks.) No, it wasn't in that film. It's just a good song, and somebody decided to pair the film footage that had other songs along with it.
At least some of us look young for our ages!
Maybe some of us act young for our ages...
"I Want The World To Stop" (also with a lovely album cover)
bellesglasgow
Saturday, March 28, 2026
Kinda a therapy film tonight?
"The Swedish Connection" | Rotten Tomatoes
https://www.rottentomatoes.com/m/the_swedish_connection
Better with subtitles than with dubbing.
Oops, time to sleep (falling asleep too much). Better watch it another time soon.
What's going on...🎼
I feel like, this is hard, but I think my circumstances seem to be communicating to me that some people are getting challenged to get better at caring about a bigger picture and a wider range of people. Which doesn't mean being right all the time. But it does mean being more interested in what's really going on with a wider variety of people.
I suppose he was kind of like a troubadour.
The long-haired 19-year-old janitor at the all-women's college who brought his guitar to our Amnesty International gathering and played it said that music was better...
Still on a personal healing journey, like a lot of people are.
There's been too much sweeping under the rug when it comes to many forms of suppression and violence. It will no longer be considered acceptable. Even though it's the past now, I still remember when I had to be the one to say "Enough" to the older people. Both as a child, and in recent years.
"After Amber Czech, a woman welder, is killed, tradeswomen demand action"
https://19thnews.org/2025/11/amber-czech-welder-murder-tradeswomen-demand-action/
This story reminds me of meat department in a grocery store drama.
When a man made threats towards his coworker (a family member of mine) and it was captured on security camera and HR got involved but the company still didn't care and the male managers made excuses and even people in the family could not seem to step it up, that that was brutal. I wonder if this is because these people were hit by their parents when they were children and there's some part of them that just doesn't know how to stand up to violence. And it is hard. It's not easy. It's not easy to do it perfectly, either.
I just couldn't believe these people were trying to convince somebody who had been threatened and who wanted to die because of how disrespectful and disgusting the work environment became, partly because all of the male managers acted like it was no big deal that this violent threat had happened, that she needed to stay, and her life was now in danger from her own psychological state.
These are also the same people who couldn't talk about abuse in the family. So of course when it happened in a workplace situation, they weren't so on top of it either.
Patriarchal culture wants you to make excuses for violent men or act like the violence is not happening, and so many still seem have it driven into their consciousnesses that if you have to have a job that gives you health insurance, you have to put up with violence to have that. Well guess what? Sometimes even the job with health insurance doesn't give you the health care you need.
So sometimes you need to not believe what these Patriarchal people tell you, and you need to believe yourself. And ask the universe and God for help that the people do not seem to know how to give. And if you need to leave an environment and get away from violent people, that's what you need to do. I am never going to be able to feel like acting like money in a bank account and property ownership are more important than safety and honesty.
Moreover, when people are still not mature enough to have honest discussions about abuses that happened, whether it's in society or in the family, that's a real disappointment. That shows a lack of concern for safety and honesty And it's a false sense of control that if you don't talk about it, it won't be a problem.
That's why I'm glad more women are speaking up now. Sometimes they're strangers on social media, but it's more and more and more and better and better and better.
"The doctor in Hawaii who..."
"When men say 'modern women' need to talk to older women..."
Kitty cat hearts transition music.
She came in and sat very close and said, it's time for me to be a ridiculously cute cat here and now. To accompany the transition music.
"Bush: Glycerine" | The Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Kimmel
https://youtube.com/watch?v=tZiGfju5tdc&si=EHnr3KB042sVrM41
beabadoobee - "All I Did Was Dream Of You (Official Video)"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=qV91x2YT9zI&si=1GnrrIsyb8nHhIqB
Cut Chemist - "The Garden Live with the Seattle Symphony"
https://youtube.com/watch?v=3S-aVCbiA-s&si=1LMIMaHny0Wg58D_
Transition music can be repetitive, like didn't you just listen to that the other day, but that's okay, because it can sound different when you listen to it this time compared to the last time you just listened to it, because it's transition music.
Kitty really likes being a loyal little companion to humane "disassociation" (?) or maybe there will be a better word for it one day.
I got such a nice cashier at the grocery store not too long ago ✋🏻.
There was something just really nice about him. Like he was a higher being who had come to Earth in a quiet and kind personality.
I asked if it was possible to get fives.
Oh yes I can do anything, he said.
He gave me a twenty and two fives.
I can give you more fives than that if you'd like, he said.
I gave him back the twenty and he gave me more fives.
5 5 10 5 5
And I said thank you very much to him both times, of course.
I'm glad people are ridiculous sometimes anyway though because...
It's like when I went down to the swimming pool when I was a kid and they played that song "I wear my sunglasses at night..." and the lifeguard listened to it and he got all angry and he switched it off and I was like geez why is he so freaking angry? He just could not enjoy it. Thanks buff tense guy. You were a life lesson because I remembered all these years later!
Got to find the "best for you" side of the internet.
Anyways, I'm still pretty (it turned demure into damn near) and introverted, but cool!
Someone has to do the growing.
"someone has to do it"
opinatedhag
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bringingbackthisbanger
mainelyemma
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"I think this message is too important not to share again"
ilonamaher
She's an Olympic medalist!
Keeping in mind that the future should be better...
It's important to know how articulate people can be about certain sensitive topics, too. Much of the population needs healing, not ignoring.
Make lists!
So what are the things you like about a white guy with more money? And what are the things you like about a brown woman who picks your food in the field and doesn't have as much money?
You can cook, and other people can cook.
You can grow in the church of knowledge. You can get to know someone better, and more intimately. You can stop expecting one brother to be lower than the other brother on account of the way the system's designed.
Camping without a single worry about a heating pad for cramps.
Another positive thing about the imagined masculine side: this side supports self-improvement and it's like: just do this and get this done. Oh good you, got it done. Well, of course you did. What are you going to do next? On to the next thing. And then if this side hangs outwith me if I'm around a guy who's expecting me to be super feminine in a way that I don't find very enjoyable, this side says okay. Time to leave. No need to try to convince this person otherwise. Just let them live their life, and you can just go. Time to situate yourself elsewhere. Don't try to convince him of things. Don't do arguments. Don't do feminism. Just move on to the next thing. Don't waste your time arguing about stuff with this person. Your time will be better spent elsewhere.
I don't want to give in to the Patriarchal society by changing too much.
I don't think being a girl is inherently oppressive. I think Patriarchal society is oppressive to girls. But that's how it is for me. I also have a bunch of impressions running through my mind like I've already spent plenty of time in more masculine bodies in other lives and I don't need to do anything to make that happen in this life and I don't want it to happen (for me), so that's me in this life.
Another bit of self-knowledge I have.
I think I will be a girl / woman forever in this life. When I found out that maybe if I'd been a boy, I might have been named."Jonathan," I was like, well. I'm really glad that that didn't happen. And I could really feel an impression of what Jonathan would be like and I felt like this: I don't want to be Jonathan. No, I'm not Jonathan. Jonathan is not me. Jonathan was in a heavier mood as a boy, kind of sulky and smart and intense, with dark hair, and I didn't want to be that person in this life. But I don't know. Maybe Jonathan had some good qualities. Sometimes I see pictures and I'm like, huh. That kind of looks like Jonathan doesn't it? Yeah, the moody, intense writer kinds of pictures...Oh well. What can we do but wish Jonathan well. I don't know why they would have chosen that name, but I do also a little bit think of Jonathan Swift and Jonathan Livingston Seagull. If Jonathan can pull himself together and be nice to cats, then maybe Jonathan is okay. Jonathan is also not very old. He's probably an adolescent. Maybe a very young man.
I feel like levity should be balanced with grounding influences.
"VIOLETTE" | Official UK Trailer
https://youtube.com/watch?v=D5a907FiwRY&si=Wh5FzDuKMs1YJ4ZE
Just because watching a film (or the trailer) builds your courage a little doesn't mean you're also going to dramatically walk into a book shop and fling a book at the proprietor's head.
Maybe this is funny?
"For most of the past century, your odds of being killed by a cougar were about the same as your odds of being killed by a filing cabinet."
Page 7, "Fuzz: When Nature Breaks the Law" by Mary Roach
Yes I have, but not from them.
"Heard this song before?"
mocheetah
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