Sweet relief is coming back.

I started to get the "I don't know if I can survive this much suffering" feeling from menstrual cramps and I cannot believe I thought maybe they were a thing of the past because I didn't seem to have them so much this year. Also now that I am calming down more and the pain is subsiding, it's crazy how some people who seem so different can still have so many similarities when it comes to repeating patterns of cruelty, but I am going to get back on a better more healing path and I wish I didn't have to experience this much pain but now it's mercifully getting less unbearable so I am moving into the blessed gratification of pain relief...