I hope larger amounts of people can become more self-care oriented.

Wouldn't that be nice! The real kind of self-care, not the shallow stuff.

Perhaps the drastic meanness of outside circumstances are highlighting certain things a lot more, but being materialistic in certain ways just seems so harmful and poisonously discriminatory and racist and sexist to me lately. 

It's as if mean patriarchal white supremacy fed some people lies and told them that if they were materialistic, they were really taking care of themselves, and instead it's like they're on drugs now. The drugs of materialism, which make them act really weird. And I just don't get it. I just don't get why they think that that's good enough for them. 

I wish some people would be more health-oriented and self-love oriented in a way that's truly good for themselves and not just whatever is a shallow materialistic replacement for the real self love that would actually nourish them. But I don't know why I let them bother me so much.

Maybe there's some Spirit that's jumped inside me and is telling me I can't deal with that crap anymore, or something. Okay, I get it. I will just try to get better at self-care and self-love now. Okay, I get it now. Okay? Okay okay okay okay okay okay. Please release me now, Spirit, and let's find better ways to be with ourselves in this life moving forward.