Observing several things that are unfolding.

"Bracing for the ICE storm: SF immigrants go underground"

https://sfstandard.com/2025/07/23/sf-undocumented-immigrants-hiding-self-deporting/

I know it's not good to get overwhelmed, but ignoring important stuff does not seem to be the best option either.

Sometimes, I feel like I don't want to hear anybody saying to me, "But why are you so worried, you're not going to get picked up." What??? I have sensitivities. It doesn't make me feel better to hear those words. 

In the past, my nervous system was completely overwhelmed, and in a way, that was actually harder for me, back then, personally, because I was feeling very alone.

I also felt it was extremely important that I try to get myself well, or at least get my nervous system functioning at a certain level again. 

This time, I'm not feeling so alone. But I might be overly informed about what others are going through.

Now I see why many people are upset. There's lots of people protesting and there's lots of really obvious bad stuff happening. Yes, the worst stuff is not happening to me at the moment, but in a way, knowing that is not all that much easier.

It's really been horrible feeling like this, but for some reason I'm not having the paralyzing panic attacks as much as what happened in the past. There's other layers that have been revealed about how people are, though, and it's been really painful to process these experiences.

Maybe it will get better though. Maybe I will get more enlightened and better at taking care of myself. I suppose it will have to happen.