I want to go back to feeling healed again.

I feel quite a bad pain in my stomach. I feel grief. I think I will pray.

(I also want to ask, why...do you choose...to...)

Maybe it will alter. Of course it will; everything does.

I don't know why this knowledge that cruelty feels very cruel is coming back to me now.

It's a feeling; it will pass. It will pass. It will pass...