Monday, September 30, 2019

EPAGA

Backwards religious word.

https://biblehub.com/topical/a/agape.htm

I have a friendliness side inside

I feel better when I get to creatively (maybe even sing!) complain about all my little educational pains ~~tra~~laalaaah~~~

Bible verse time! On Sunday, two women came to my door and told me to look at Peter...I'll find it...Yes, Bible Hub, with its multitude of translations is here to help!

https://biblehub.com/1_peter/5-6.htm

&&&

https://biblehub.com/1_peter/5-7.htm

I have overdone it with television just recently.

Ah, Blondie

This!!!! made me search...

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2019/oct/01/debbie-harry-on-heroin-robbery-and-why-she-still-feels-lucky

I found the version of Maria where she catches the bullet in her fingers...

Come, dress in feminine clothing

And play act the "female miseries" as a kind of sketch...way to amuse....song, dance, chewing on frozen raw ginger....

Hot face and wondering about cloistered life

Feeling like I should be indoors and sleeping a lot soon. Mostly because of feeling ill.

At times I think of nuns.
"Not meant for the world."

Maybe its just chemical imbalance stress hormone burn out in the xXxX phase....

More to learn about later

Varieties of moles...

https://gastropod.com/celebrate-mexicos-true-national-holiday-with-the-mysteries-of-mole/

Will consider reading up on D. Citron

Because

https://www.ted.com/talks/danielle_citron_how_deepfakes_undermine_truth_and_threaten_democracy/transcript

It's now.

https://www.daniellecitron.com/bio/

Talks with famous people...

https://www.ted.com/talks/supasorn_suwajanakorn_fake_videos_of_real_people_and_how_to_spot_them/transcript

Sunday, September 29, 2019

Some medicine on the weekend

I decluttered and felt productive and who knew that would be such an important thing. It was all rainy and Pacific Northwesty and I watched way too much of this show on purpose.

https://www.newyorker.com/culture/on-television/food-and-drink-were-the-great-subject-of-portlandia

I took a break to eat a pomegranate.

https://www.eater.com/2018/1/17/16901168/portlandia-best-food-moments

And life

Watching hummingbirds feed.

Because I moved very far away from home as a child and experienced shifting family dynamics and immense loneliness, I also learned a lot by getting immersed in stories and books and music.

Like this Tapestry music, which has come back...

https://www.rollingstone.com/music/music-news/carole-king-its-too-late-fallon-891445/

&

https://www.broadwayworld.com/videoplay/VIDEO-Carole-King-Sings-Beautiful-at-The-Global-Citizen-Festival-20190929

Tapestries and Tea

~~~Oh~~~

https://www.artsy.net/article/artsy-editorial-artist-ruth-miller-elevates-embroidery-stunning-tapestries

So much more information is now available

Oh say can you
"Ruth Miller says native women should lead the climate crisis fight"

take the time
https://ipolitics.ca/2019/06/03/mmiwg-inquiry-calls-on-resource-sector-to-consider-risks-from-work-camps/

to see
https://www.thestar.com/edmonton/2018/12/04/link-between-rural-work-camps-and-violence-against-women-is-real-researchers-say.html

Saturday, September 28, 2019

P~p~p~p~p~postive actions

I cleaned and drank oat straw infusion.

http://www.susunweed.com/Article_Depression-Weed.htm

With only songs in my head and....

Drinking healthy stuff is GOOD.

Saturday am sigh.

Dear soul that met mine,

Why not make efforts to heal from your trauma, not accidentally inflict needless suffering on others....

This seems like it has been said before.

~~~~~~~~

Dear self,

What if you three away your cell phone.

Friday, September 27, 2019

The floral garnishes.

Very interesting. But.

https://www.moodymixologist.com/blog/cocktailians-guide-to-edible-flowers

I can only afford to pickle myself in Dr. Bronner's soap....

Marrrayed

And how

https://genius.com/Nirvana-all-apologies-lyrics

intriguesome.

https://pitchfork.com/news/nirvanas-mtv-unplugged-gets-25th-anniversary-vinyl-reissue/

Veil my hand

I think I had a cocktail with Verbena in it last night. But I don't know for SURE.

So mysterious

Yes, I think it's verbena!

What other floral drinks could be in my future...

https://www.moodymixologist.com/blog/cocktailians-guide-to-edible-flowers

So cute, those dogs

Seriously.

"Two couples who didn't know each other were walking through Pike Place Market (Seattle) when their dogs stopped and ran toward each other. Turns out they're sisters from the same litter in Russia. They shared a plane a year earlier but hadn't seen each other since. Now they have regular play dates."

https://www.reddit.com/r/aww/comments/d9pi85/two couples who didnt know each other were/

A little transformation prayer

I one a noun
gratitude
I two a noun
all these years
I one a noun
help plus action
I two a noun
love, xox

♡♡♡caniplea♡♡♡

she's dreaming of giving someone a better life
which means time devoted to life's work and debts going away and appreciation and freedom and stuff like that

Wonder how this will affect

my dreams:
Glue pizza

♡ their peppermint soap

It's invigorating and relaxing at the same time.

https://mobile.twitter.com/DrBronner?ref_src=twsrc%5Egoogle%7Ctwcamp%5Eserp%7Ctwgr%5Eauthor

I would try this.

https://www.drbronner.com/all-one-blog/2019/07/coconut-mango-ceviche-vegan/

Thursday, September 26, 2019

Anyway, it could be better

Just like children and teenagers, adults need many role models and touchstones. "A no longer trusts B because XYZ happened." But we are imperfect and learning.

~ ripple of optimism ~

~ process ~ sorrow ~ believe in ~ tomorrow ~

It's cool to find reminders...

It's a mad and varied world.

"He dreamed up machines to better people’s lives, until a blinding epiphany changed his."

~ D. Eve

https://laterbloomer.com/john-muir/

Is it not?

"Langan might as well have been raised on Mars. The guy with an IQ higher than Einstein ended up as a Rhode Island bouncer for 20 years."

~ D. Eve

https://laterbloomer.com/late-bloomers-1/

Because I just had to try it

BODY CHEMISTRY IS COMPLEX.

I know what they say about certain ingredients and certain body types, but I decided life is too short not to try the 85C Bakery and I do not regret my decision. The experience was delicious. I WILL STILL EAT SALAD AND PROTEIN. For some reason, a woman with a baby in a stroller kept smiling at me when I was in there. The vibes were harmonious. The bakery just seemed so nice! The people behind the counter seemed to be in good moods, as well.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Oh I don't know

It was what made sense in the context of her life. But it is not the only way to be a writer. Still an interesting quote...

“A writer needs as much trauma as she can take”

~ Phyllis Dorothy James

And there is this:

"Helen Hooven Santmyer took almost six decades to complete …And Ladies of the Club."

~ C. Morris

https://laterbloomer.com/cynthia-morris/

(I vaguely remember that book...should I look for it again...)

https://www.openlettersmonthly.com/stevereads/2012/07/and-ladies-of-the-club/

It could be that I mostly remember the cover.

https://www.abebooks.com/9780425077047/...And-Ladies-Club-Helen-Hooven-0425077047/plp

Where she directs attention

It is to others...

https://mobile.twitter.com/350/status/1176980449463287810

And I read....

"'The entire topography in northern Nigeria has changed in the last five years, meaning that heardsmen and cattles don't have grasses. People were just moving with guns and arrows everywhere, looking for grasses. And because there is poor government, officials turned the other eye, and then hundreds of girls went missing. So my organization is trying to tell people where this problem starts from. We've been able to tell people, 'Did you know climate change actually caused this senseless killing?'"

~ Daniel Gbujie

https://www.insider.com/greta-thunberg-activists-climate-change-who-are-they-2019-9#daniel-gbujie-is-30-he-started-getting-involved-in-climate-issues-about-three-years-ago-when-as-a-young-doctor-he-first-learned-about-the-health-impacts-of-a-changing-environment-10

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

What a long study

T. I. M. E.

https://www.ted.com/talks/robert_waldinger_what_makes_a_good_life_lessons_from_the_longest_study_on_happiness/up-next

now i'm kinda curious

ABOUT VEGAS

https://www.nytimes.com/2001/08/17/movies/film-review-leaving-las-vegas-haste-makes-waste.html

oh mr. bean just showed up

"i can do anything i like! i'm eccentric!" ~ the eccentric character / john cleese

hi hi hi hiiiiiii

Weezer and Chilli from TLC Sing 'No Scrubs'- Coachella 2019

IN ANY INDUSTRY
Sometimes I look up

HOW COME SO & SO
drink recipes

NEVER TRIED THOSE
and they remind me of

ANTICS ON ANY OF HIS
songs or covers or oh

MALE COLLEAGUES
just a lot of things...

https://www.goodlifeeats.com/cranberry-rosemary-shrub-cocktail-with-bourbon/

King Louis XIII

Heatthestore said he did not want to try a shot of 3k cognac that a banker gave his brother as a thank you gift but we, his audience, thought we might try it if offered, for the experience???

FFFFS

Feminist French Fry Femininity :-)

Tarot Tarot Tarot

The cards say you should be patient, and... TB continued.

LA & ... Germany ???

More to peruse later.

https://www.goethe.de/ins/us/en/m/kul/wir/woh.html?wt_sc=usa_worldsofhomelessness

Tuesday, September 24, 2019

trigger ~ awe

This evening...look how the world used to be...

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/content/dam/Travel/2017/April/titanic-paper-xlarge.jpg

Sure I was here before in a different form and so were many others...

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/475387.Nicole

Like my mom, who used to buy me these books...

At least I feel healthier than I did yesterday!!!

Who

"Patriarchy..." ~ A. Roy

knows why?

https://poets.org/text/diving-wreck

"The wreck" might.

https://www.theparisreview.org/blog/2018/08/06/the-treasures-that-prevail-on-the-prose-of-adrienne-rich/

Other patrimonious tidbits

Ser Pounce?

[NO SPOILERS] Ser pounce takes the throne
https://www.reddit.com/r/gameofthrones/comments/d8oh6p/no_spoilers_ser_pounce_takes_the_throne/

Soccer mom...

"Ronaldo (R9)’s Mother: 'I played the lottery every week hoping to win the jackpot, but I had no idea that the winning ticket was breaking my vases in the living room with a ball'”

https://www.reddit.com/r/soccer/comments/d8maw1/ronaldo_r9s_mother_i_played_the_lottery_every/

Yes, I will listen to it all

Patriarchy -- power and gender in the 21c | Ananya Roy | TEDxMarin

Need more water

It's a time of month and it feels like the uterus and head are co-mingling.

"We had an informative meeting about research and the effectiveness of creative arts therapies for military service members & veterans who struggle w/mental health issues."
https://mobile.twitter.com/SecondLady/status/1174791242472992768

Art again

Of course he should have never been there in the first place. Because he didn't really win.

"Honestly, so far, her video reminds me of The Onion article 'by' Hillary Clinton 'I Am Fun'"

~ C. Cruz

https://splinternews.com/karen-pence-a-woman-definitely-capable-of-reading-the-1838340948

In leiu of any female U.S. presidents, is there going to be an art therapist first lady soon?

Her Habitat

"Be we"?

Love typos.

"Many years ago, the Lima Project sent a bunch of people to orbit around Neptune to monitor the cosmos for signs of extraterrestrial life. I wish it had been called the Rima Project to resonate with the doomed bird-girl in W.H. Hudson's Green Mansions (1904). That story has an explorer romance theme, too, but with a twist of genocidal rage that people tend to suppress from memory. This brings to mind Mark Twain's 1889 A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur's Court, as well. Be we can't have everything."

~ M. Barrett

https://www.popmatters.com/ad-astra-gray-bradley-2640336870.html

So ensconced in the brain sometimes

Some songs seem to come back

https://genius.com/Keren-ann-for-you-and-i-lyrics

Or make you feel as if change could be fingertips away

https://genius.com/Keren-ann-my-name-is-trouble-lyrics

Oh well. Hmmm. Who are they?

https://icelandmonitor.mbl.is/news/culture_and_living/2018/10/09/hank_and_tank_return_with_a_new_album_and_a_duo_wit/

These I would like to see.

MIAOW

Focus on the positive!

"'Ad Astra' Does Daddy Issues Well"

https://www.popmatters.com/film-ad-astra-2019-2640430315.html

In the dark a.m.

Strange what makes one laugh these days.

U to I: "Trump mocked Greta."
(U & I both burst out laughing.)
U: "The internet was not pleased!"

Perhaps someone else was pleased though.

Intuition

She mentions that...

https://mobile.twitter.com/60Minutes/status/1176214944930512899

Come back, exploring spirit

Come back...

"I just completed canaling 88 miles on the Erie Canal as part of a three-woman crew. I can’t say that I know from where my fascination with the Erie Canal originated. I’m sure that it was ignited in grade school when I learned the song, 'Fifteen Miles on the Erie Canal.'”

~ U. Stacey

https://unstoppablestaceytravel.com/2019/06/11/canaling-adventure-88-miles-on-the-erie-canal/

Like a dream or a song...

There are people who can change

"We have this really sick mentality in our culture"

~ C. Miller

https://www.cosmopolitan.com/politics/a29189811/chanel-miller-brock-turner-stanford-rape-case-know-my-name-60-minutes/

Wiggle toes.

You're stuck. In a body.

Do Some Thing.

Monday, September 23, 2019

There are many...

I had a piece to read.

https://www.npr.org/2019/09/23/762028606/chanel-miller-says-know-my-name-as-she-reflects-on-her-assault-by-brock-turner

There are many Chanel Millers.

Those Swedes changed everything.

It is menstrual and more.

The "dysthymia."

If you illustrate why you feel unwell, is that art therapy?

Seeking solace

I thought, did he and I meet when I was still a teenager? (The good person I like/love/live with!)

So I looked for a bulletin from 22 years ago.

Hey, I remember those people on the cover of it. They were real students. Didn't I volunteer at a soup kitchen with one of them? They received avocados and made guacamole or some kind of similar sauce...

I know we met when there was a celebration for the school's new president.

But was that on the first day of school? Or before? Or after?

The first day of school was 22 years ago tomorrow.

Now I'm falling into a rabbit hole.

Perhaps later I will find an interesting quote from this.

https://www.seattleu.edu/newsroom/stories/qa-with-father-steve.html

And

https://www.seattleu.edu/newsroom/stories/catching-up-with-father-steve.html

And here are reading lists, and a recommendation to read poetry.

http://libguides.seattleu.edu/c.php?g=308343&p=2062586

Yeah I wonder if I was twenty instead.

https://www.seattleu.edu/newsroom/stories/president-sundborg-named-2019-seattle-king-county-first-citizen.html

I see the president was on the board of a place where my mother worked. Not at the same time, obviously. I am stuck. I feel underachieving and dogged by depression about it.

I would like to hear a chorus of 10 year olds sing it...

Arlo Guthrie - City of New Orleans

But many of the comments underneath are very interesting.

Dining cars

Maybe they will bring them back.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/local/trafficandcommuting/the-end-of-an-american-tradition-the-amtrak-dining-car/2019/09/21/d63cca3a-d888-11e9-bfb1-849887369476_story.html

LIFELONG

“'Health experts' are sending incorrect and destructive messages about the relationship between weight and wellness"

https://blogs.scientificamerican.com/observations/fat-is-not-the-problem-fat-stigma-is/

Bigotry.

https://www.independent.co.uk/voices/fat-overweight-dna-study-thin-people-women-tess-holliday-donald-trump-a8746166.html

How charming

Just as I pull into a lot to get some food, a guy on the radio (103.5) wants listeners to use their app to vote on whether or not those who are "obese" should pay higher health insurance premiums.

Another Moment in Punitive Attitudes Towards Genetics and Gender.

Survival and summits

"The world may have hit a hopeful 'turning point' in the struggle to tackle the climate crisis despite escalating greenhouse gas emissions and the recalcitrance of major emitters Brazil and the US, according to the United Nations secretary general."

~ O. Milman

https://www.motherjones.com/politics/2019/09/world-leaders-are-gathering-for-a-un-climate-summit-today-trump-isnt-going/

$orry about the U$

https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/politics/2019/09/23/trump-un-climate-summit-despite-initial-plan-skip/2418445001/

Cultural baggage can be entertaining

This thread about the hippo with blue Jello watermelon juice gender reveal and all the references to preferences for sons.

$till $0 $eXist $0rrY!

But...I see hamburger...

https://mobile.twitter.com/missbreton/status/1175899491980828675

Hmmm...

https://mobile.twitter.com/runtheseries

Survival you say

"GAO found not only that the rich are getting richer and the poor, poorer, but provided evidence that led Sanders to conclude that poverty is, in effect, a death sentence: The rich are living longer lives, while poor Americans are dying young."

https://www.sanders.senate.gov/newsroom/press-releases/poverty-a-death-sentence-sanders-declares-as-gao-links-inequality-to-mortality

"GAO found that among Americans aged 51-61 in 1992, fewer than half of those in the poorest 20 percent of America’s wealth distribution had survived by 2014—48 percent. Among the richest 20 percent, 75.5 percent were still alive. The poorest 20 percent were twice as likely to die over the 22-year period than the wealthiest 20 percent."

https://www.sanders.senate.gov/newsroom/press-releases/poverty-a-death-sentence-sanders-declares-as-gao-links-inequality-to-mortality

“Poverty is a life-threatening issue for millions of people in this country, and this report confirms it,” said Sanders. “We are in a crisis never before seen in a rich, industrialized democracy. For three straight years, overall life expectancy in the wealthiest nation in world history has been declining, often driven by deaths of desperation and despair: liver disease, drug overdoses, and suicide. We must put an end to the obscene income and wealth inequality in our country, and ensure living wages, quality health care, and retirement security for our seniors as human rights. If we do not urgently act to solve the economic distress of millions of Americans, a whole generation will be condemned to early death.”

https://www.sanders.senate.gov/newsroom/press-releases/poverty-a-death-sentence-sanders-declares-as-gao-links-inequality-to-mortality

"GAO also confirmed America’s decades-long growth in wealth inequality: The average wealth of the top 20 percent of older households more than doubled, from $2.1 million in 1989 to $4.6 million in 2016. By comparison, the average wealth of an older household in the bottom 20 percent plummeted, from $4,500 in 1989, to negative $4,300 in 2013—more debt than assets."

https://www.sanders.senate.gov/newsroom/press-releases/poverty-a-death-sentence-sanders-declares-as-gao-links-inequality-to-mortality

"GAO research also highlighted profound income inequality, finding that one in five older households lived on less than $22,000 in 2016, with the bottom quintile averaging just $14,000 in annual income. By comparison, the top 20 percent of older households had average annual income 28 times higher than the bottom 20 percent—$398,000 in 2016, up from $242,000 in 1989."

https://www.sanders.senate.gov/newsroom/press-releases/poverty-a-death-sentence-sanders-declares-as-gao-links-inequality-to-mortality

What was it about yesterday

I wonder if it is because I live in a strange place. So & so's fixation on that celebrity is not more important than the guy who sold tacos and took the time to explain the merits and properties of the sweets in the display case.

Up so early again

In a body and experiencing pains in some places...I have senses...sorrows about inequity in this era....so I must find ways to heal more....it is survival.

Sunday, September 22, 2019

What about books

What if you still have so much ovary drama in your next life around that special time when you become

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2011/feb/03/douglas-adams-42-hitchhiker

And and and (quotable) psychology books sometimes

What about meeting those people when you're in college instead. When you're all...innocent. What about that. And what about not so many snafus. Wouldn't that be great?

"I couldn't believe I could be so childish. I was 40 years old" (J. Bradshaw page 6!) of https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/12124.Homecoming

A book you could read on a plane!

Hitler's childhood at the top of page 10. "The once powerless wounded child becomes..." ( page 10, bottom!)

Eyebrow emoji.

Next page: "Narcissistic Disorders"

Maybe will go back sometime

AND sing a folk song...ah! Interesting version.

B. Springsteen ~ Erie Canal

And uh

That's cool...

https://www.theatlantic.com/entertainment/archive/2019/09/emmys-2019-phoebe-waller-bridges-big-night-fleabag/598579/

I can read, so

I think I will this. (Read it.)

https://www.theatlantic.com/education/archive/2019/09/love-reading-books-leisure-pleasure/598315/

He gets to sit and read and laugh at comics. Why can't I do that?

I think that was a big motivator.

A cute library helped, too.

Yes, and butterflies too.

We care

https://www.cantonrep.com/opinion/20190922/commentary-do-we-care-about-disappearing-birds

a lot

https://www.theatlantic.com/science/archive/2019/09/america-has-lost-quarter-its-birds-fifty-years/598318/

it's intelligent

https://www.audubon.org/news/audubon-vows-fight-trump-administrations-rollback-bird-protections

And a little dog crashed it

Had a party on a blanket on some grass...

Some are into saints...

This has a beautiful picture.

http://www.harvestjourneys.com/pilgrimages/our-pilgrimages/medjugorje

Why, the grass blades are folded and furry.

Dreary, didn't want to eat but did it. Know how to get a lot of food with meat and vegetables for less than 4 dollars. Sustenance.

Autumn has begun...

https://mobile.twitter.com/LauraCorriss/status/1175799756418932736

Medical sanity

"No one should be afraid to go to the doctor because they think they’ll go broke."

https://mobile.twitter.com/YoBenCohen/status/1175760517895507968

~~~~~

"In the United States of America, the wealthiest country in the history of the world, one illness or disease should not ruin a family’s financial life and future."

https://berniesanders.com/en/issues/eliminating-medical-debt/

Does that cat look happy

Assess.

https://mobile.twitter.com/meowkittn_/status/1174947194392039425/photo/1

Not gonna pencil the cat's height on the wall.

Great $ystem for $ome

"Why did she borrow 67,928 in tuition? She did it to work for you"

~ "Gradafi" advertisement

https://mobile.twitter.com/adamkotsko/status/1174646016580210688

After

"Every single university in the United States would cease to function without graduate labor."

https://mobile.twitter.com/ryanaboyd/status/1175077180612546560

1200 words on a topic

"anticipate this tendency"

https://aeon.co/amp/ideas/let-us-now-stop-praising-famous-men-and-women

~ D.V. Johnson

Friday, September 20, 2019

I love driving on a free and open freewaaay~ah~

THESE DREAMS (Heart) I JUST DIED IN YOUR ARMS (Cutting Crew)
Don't I love a free and open freeway at night and don't I love '80s music!
I love to remember I can be like...a curious 9 year old again.
I remember I do love life on Earth.

Omg, it's already happening sort of

If you get that enervated feeling, listen to the still small voice within and avoid anything on the internet that begins to resemble a giant ball of vent vomit....oui????

Legume pasta is still pasta

Too fatigued. For now. Energy come back later.

Homelessness situations

Specially in LA.

https://www.cnn.com/2019/09/18/opinions/homeless-la-state-of-emergency-ridley-thomas/index.html

Hmmm.

"He's been told before that a smart and capable person like him should not be in this situation."

"'But I'm like, should anybody be here? Who should, then?' Pleasants said."

~ D. Simon

https://www.cnn.com/2019/09/17/us/los-angeles-yale-graduate-homeless/index.html

Cooking and clear/ning

Decided to prioritize "Graduation Crimes" over "Founding Fathers F*ckery" and I have never learned so much about streaking.

Driving entertainment of this era

Is a podcast worth the cell phone data...sure...although I gotta say...

Wine and Crime: Graduation Crimes

Have you ever, while negotating heavy traffic at a certain age in a certain set of circumstances, ruminated about student loans (around a half hour into the episode --and again, while dealing with tons of traffic), and then segued into a take-at-home fertility test commercial?

Because I couldn't finish the Founding Fathers episode on the phone but maybe that will be background entertainment for cleaning.

Thursday, September 19, 2019

Remedy?

Another surprising one.

https://www.thespruceeats.com/use-of-caraway-kummel-in-the-german-kitchen-1446960

Known...feel the...

Oh

"Appearances"

~ C-M L Dixon

https://www.mashed.com/143328/the-untold-truth-of-ugly-delicious/

Oh

"In the 1600s, some sea captains distributed lemons, limes and oranges to sailors..."

~ M Hobbes

https://highline.huffingtonpost.com/articles/en/everything-you-know-about-obesity-is-wrong/

Blue & green & orange...

EYE THREE

Friend rec / Self rec / Friend rec

Either............

You're (2011)

So ('81)

Vain (2013)

or

YouTube Cramp Relief Playlist

I got something new

Feel the pain and remain calm anyway.

Oooh, it's good.

It worked this time.

Of course, I had ginger too.

And now a heating pad.

But something is different.

Its kind of like surviving a painful workout and getting endorphins even if there is pain.

LOVE is possible.

We can love our bodies a lot. It is possible. Absolutely.

What a good knowledge.

Wednesday, September 18, 2019

Someone's about to watch something

Like Call the Midwife

or Portlandia

or Lost in Translation...

THE MOST

Pointing out the candidate bf points out to me...

https://time.com/5678605/one-woman-and-millions-of-people-to-back-her-up-how-elizabeth-warren-made-fighting-corruption-a-feminist-rallying-cry/

"On this night, even Warren’s podium was symbolic. It was built with wood salvaged from the Perkins homestead, crafted by a Warren grassroots donor who owns an all-woman woodworking company, and modeled after the soapboxes that organizers would speak from during the early labor movement. It was 46 inches tall, for the woman who wants to be the 46th President of the United States."

~ C. Alter

I would say clementines

are tasty
Grandmothers

Clementines

Dysmenorrhea is now in this phone's dictionary.

That's one n two r's.

Lo and behold, the cat version of my uterus

"Cat hitting itself in the face with its tail"
https://www.reddit.com/r/AnimalsBeingDerps/comments/d5qf45/cat_hitting_itself_in_the_face_with_its_tail/

And all of this....

H
https://www.slashfilm.com/dickinson-cast-john-mulaney/

E
https://www.broadwayworld.com/off-off-broadway/article/The-Circle-Series-Travel-Through-Time-with-Henry-David-Thoreau-in-BEWILDERNESS-20190912

L
https://highlandscurrent.org/2019/09/10/out-there-thoreau-got-it-right/

L
https://www.wxxinews.org/post/woods-are-classroom-thoreaus-questions-are-basis-high-school-program

O
https://www.theguardian.com/stage/2019/sep/16/anna-bella-eema-review-trailer-park-golem-with-a-touch-of-thoreau

Because of communication

"He said he had forgiven Dodds and would not fire him."

https://fox6now.com/2019/07/24/100-year-old-bridge-collapsed-under-trailer-carrying-42-tons-of-beans/amp/?__twitter_impression=true

Via
https://mobile.twitter.com/goodbeanjokes/status/1154200224736432129

Something that amused a car salesman.

Useful pains w/ poetry

Seem like manageable ones / seem like barriers
circumventing frivolous achievements for some reason again / seem / seam / see / sea...

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/45234/the-emperor-of-ice-cream

+

https://genius.com/Lisa-hannigan-sea-song-lyrics

Again a gain

B understood C's childhood self better & vice versa...

Tuesday, September 17, 2019

Ppl are getting better online

Eye C

https://www.reddit.com/r/PCOS/comments/d3nv4b/pcos_slowly_ruining_my_mental_health/

Eye C

"ElegantFix3"

Conversations with sweet potatoes

"And you, too, could be a vegan cheese. "

Y can't the luteal phase be my friend

Need more knowledge????

https://www.pastemagazine.com/articles/2016/03/portlandia-lance-is-smart.html

Fun with plants

Not vegan...

https://www.connoisseurusveg.com/thats-nacho-sweet-potato-cheese/

just

https://www.connoisseurusveg.com/vegan-ceviche/

browsing...

https://www.connoisseurusveg.com/cashew-cream/

Monday, September 16, 2019

& maybe later this week

may

https://wineandcrimepodcast.com/2019/07/27/ep129-founding-fathers-fckery-is-out-now/

be?

& hmmm...

Eyeballing...

"Bingeing is actually happening for a reason, it is corrective and meant to restore our body to metabolic balance"

https://thefuckitdiet.com/can-i-stop-dieting-if-i-have-diabetes-or-pcos/

Not I bawling!

https://thefuckitdiet.com/i-am-not-an-authority-on-body-image/

~~~~

https://ardentheatre.org/revealing-caroline-dooner-on-acting-body-image-burlesque/

Today's body reminder

Can't eat like you did last week.
Chronic pain is upsetting and tedious.
Raspberry tea and ginger and supplements...

Read this

The stuff of bad dreams / real life ...

https://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/the-death-of-uyinene-mrwetyana-and-the-rise-of-south-africas-aminext-movement

Sunday, September 15, 2019

Fonefun

"Is customary" as a sub. for "is that ok?"

Ha ha.

Sighdoesitreallyhavetobelikethat

Before the transition.
Yay we can eat within reason for a week or more (Nice mini apple cider donuts yesterday!)
After the transition.
Heating pad, anti-inflammatories, herbal tea, and avoiding wheat, sugar, dairy and possibly histamine foods for the rest of the month...

Saturday, September 14, 2019

Discovered in the afternoon

O. Ocampo

keytee

12 hours ago or so

I was sleep deprived and returning from an airport drop off and went into a grocery store...well I was amazed at my disheveled appearance. I will put on clothes without holes next time I go out, I said. And someone checked the bathroom while I was in there and after I left. I felt like an object of suspicion....sleep is important.

https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/194250140/sigmund-schwarzer

I saw beautiful trees today.

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/astonishing-holocaust-diary-hidden-world-70-years-resurfaced-america-180970534/

I was not a "fashionable mad man."

https://www.brainpickings.org/2016/12/05/joan-didion-on-morality/

Sometimes you scroll back

Car tune...

Romeo & Juliet Fantasy Overture

Found it.

https://www.kusc.org/playlist/2019/09/10/

Friday, September 13, 2019

Why so sleepless sometimes

Maybe because I couldn't Shazam a piece of music (instrumental, classical) and it keeps returning...and someone once told me his mom told him that when he was a child he had spoken to her with the message that he was his own deceased grandfather and had come back, and he accepted that, but he didn't remember... "There was a boy..."

Thursday, September 12, 2019

To watch for fun & etc.

Student Loans | Patriot Act with Hasan Minhaj | Netflix

Wednesday, September 11, 2019

Paid...on a bill...that's more than originally borrowed...

H. Minaj:

"You know the student loan crisis is bad when I'm asked to testify before Congress about it."
https://mobile.twitter.com/hasanminhaj/status/1171518092398096384

Kitterleee

It was nice that a neighbor girl asked to see Cat today, petted her and told her she was "adorable," and said "thank you!"

Tuesday, September 10, 2019

sketches sketches sketches

Ha ha ha

https://www.ifc.com/shows/portlandia/season-08/episode-04/abracadabra

Beginning to end.

https://www.indiewire.com/2018/01/portlandia-season-8-breakfast-near-me-sketch-watch-1201912451/

I want to re-watch the end when I'm not too sleepy because I felt that weird deja-vu thing.

Monday, September 09, 2019

Laundry theme

Normal... is a dryer setting | Debra Jenkins | TEDxHuntsville

I wonder if this is available somewhere...

https://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/my-beautiful-laundrette-1986

Sunday, September 08, 2019

Sunday is about...

What Being Malala's Father Taught Me About Feminism

https://time.com/5605625/malala-yousafzai-father/

So long, West Point engineering center

"President Trump's decision to divert funds away from this center in order to pay for the border wall demonstrates his disregard for true national security threats and his fixation on a project that will solve no national security issues," he said. "If President Trump really wanted to solve migration issues, he would use smarter means, including those that would address the root causes."

"It is disappointing that funds that were dedicated to an important center -- one focused on real national security imperatives -- will now be used to construct a symbol of exclusion that relinquishes America's moral authority on human rights," Haas added.

https://www.cnn.com/2019/09/06/politics/trump-divert-military-construction-funds-border-wall-local-reaction/index.html

Bye, school for military families!

“Most of our students don’t know what it’s like to live in a world without war, where you don’t have to worry about Mom or Pop being killed,” said Jane Loggins, a Fort Campbell teacher who is the director of the Federal Education Association’s Stateside Region, the teachers’ union for the Defense Department’s education system in the United States and Guam. “The one big benefit of this school is that we try to support all those emotional needs.”

In normal times, the Fort Campbell middle school project would have a powerful political ally in Senator Mitch McConnell, Republican of Kentucky and the majority leader. In a January op-ed in The Louisville Courier-Journal headlined “Here’s How Kentucky Families Benefit From McConnell’s Clout in D.C.,” Mr. McConnell boasted that he had “secured much-needed assistance for Fort Campbell, Fort Knox and the Blue Grass Army Depot, helping the men and women serving there keep America safe.”

But that was before Mr. Trump declared in February that there was a national emergency at the border with Mexico, allowing him to divert money from military projects without first getting approval from Congress. The next month, Mr. McConnell backed the president in a Senate vote on the national emergency declaration. (Kentucky’s other senator, the Republican Rand Paul, voted against Mr. Trump.)

~ H. Cooper

https://www.nytimes.com/2019/09/05/us/trump-border-wall-military-families.html

Hurting children in military families to prop up a narcissistic rapist liar's xenophobic whims is a thing now.

Night lights

Saturday, September 07, 2019

"...and exists in every corner of the world"

J. Weiss-Wolf

https://msmagazine.com/2019/09/05/fighting-the-degrading-and-dangerous-treatment-of-menstruating-migrant-girls/

Negative

Nope, she is not okay. And yet, I had been thinking of "Alone in Kyoto" and Lost in Translation is now in the mail. Well, we'll see. THE BAR IS LOW, LADIES. Again. Once again, the privileged sentiment of "the #MeToo movement has gone too far." What an interesting perspective. And yet others feel it hasn't gone far enough.

Have a better day

"Retired Adm. David Titley, former NOAA operations chief and a former meteorology professor at Pennsylvania State University said NOAA’s leadership is showing 'moral cowardice' and said officials should have resigned instead of issuing the statement chastising the Birmingham office. Friday said he would have quit had he been in top officials’ shoes."

https://www.al.com/news/2019/09/moral-cowardice-critics-blast-noaa-after-defense-of-trumps-hurricane-dorian-claim-about-alabama.html

Better read a better read

Better

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2019/aug/27/jeffrey-epstein-science-mit-brockman

Better than better?

https://www.washingtonpost.com/lifestyle/style/joi-ito-should-be-fired-from-mits-media-lab-after-taking-funding-from-felon-jeffrey-epstein/2019/09/06/9f6a8c46-d0ad-11e9-87fa-8501a456c003_story.html

(...note an update...)

https://www.newyorker.com/news/news-desk/how-an-elite-university-research-center-concealed-its-relationship-with-jeffrey-epstein

Oh internet, why

WTH

https://www.reddit.com/r/relationship_advice/comments/czqh9u/my_mil_tampered_with_my_birth_control_resulting/

It is 2019 and baby girls still aren't as good as baby boys for some mother-in-laws.

Hope that's an extreme example....

An accidental theme of mangoes

Snacks on either side make the drink in the middle taste better.

Know the feeling

"He wasn’t who you thought he was."
https://mobile.twitter.com/AnandWrites/status/1170371634877874176

Another kiss goodbye!

Joshua Harris has regrets.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/us/pastor-and-author-joshua-harris-has-kissed-christianity-goodbye/ar-AAF1ATt

"So I resigned. I’m sharing my emails for the sake of transparency, because people deserve to know how these things work.
And because people should know that cruel social structures are sustained not only by outright cruelty but also by politeness and silence that entrench power."

https://mobile.twitter.com/AnandWrites/status/1169953824821432323

Hmmm.

https://mobile.twitter.com/AnandWrites/status/1170347993201106944

O

https://mobile.twitter.com/RonanFarrow/status/1170325441279905792

Listening

https://www.npr.org/2019/09/07/758578040/ronan-farrow-on-mit-and-jeffrey-epstein

Friday, September 06, 2019

Someday...maybe...I'll seeeee....

White beaches halfway across the world.

A traveler has returned.

He said "Oh my god, now I am back to reality."

And lights

Teal ones.

Omg what is happening there

Refreshments with Sasha Ottey & Dr. Kudesia in Texas in 2 hours

Events events events events in September

https://mobile.twitter.com/pcoschallenge

Won't be there (Florida!), but very grateful...

...to see ALL this.

https://m.pcoschallenge.org

All this!

https://m.pcoschallenge.org/about-pcos-challenge/

(On my birthday too).

From where

Elsewhere

https://relevantmagazine.com/culture/ryan-reynolds-and-blake-lively-donate-2-million-to-migrant-children-and-racial-justice/

Other places

https://www.commondreams.org/news/2019/09/04/federal-watchdog-report-sheds-light-emotional-horror-faced-migrant-children-detained

Thursday, September 05, 2019

I would like to see them sometime...

The wild horses of North Carolina

https://beta.washingtonpost.com/history/2019/09/05/wild-horses-will-ride-out-dorian-like-they-have-centuries-with-butts-wind/?outputType=amp

When they shared space

"laura burns on infertility and hurricanes"

https://www.juliedillonrd.com/pcospod5/

&

"caroline dooner on pcos recommendations starting her eating disorder"

https://www.juliedillonrd.com/pcospod4/

She is the loved girl of my dream.

She pleaded and pleaded and ran outside to bring the cooler of food back in.

"And I love her..."

(A Beatles song)

Yes, there is a hurricane out there...

I am not going to be very mad at a man for now...his childhood was full of emotional deprivation.

Hurricane portraits

Dorian (lol)

https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2011/08/08/deceptive-picture

looks different different on every map...

https://www.cnn.com/interactive/storm-tracker/

A good Dorian story

"The 6-year-old opened a hot dog stand along the side of a busy road in Allendale and offered those escaping the coast free franks, water, chips and prayers."

~ S. Andrew

https://www.cnn.com/2019/09/04/us/boy-used-disney-money-to-feed-dorian-evacuees-trnd/index.html

Storm continues

& so there are updates

https://www.cnn.com/us/live-news/hurricane-dorian-bahamas-southeastern-us/index.html

Wednesday, September 04, 2019

Need

more time!!!!!

https://pcosandfoodpeace.com/podcast/

Revised airplane ride because why not

XY: Good evening, I would like to spy on your phone tonight before we evade death.

XX: Whatever. JUST LOOK AT THIS WEBSITE:

https://www.yourhormones.com/joseph-j-collins/

"His functional endocrinology clinical practice focuses on adrenal fatigue, hypothyroidism, menopause, andropause, PMS/PMDD, PCOS and blood sugar disorders."

How did he know about PMDD before someone who was actually suffering from it!

KNOWLEDGE IS POWER

jesusjesusjesusjesusjesus

REARRANGE LETTERS AND SPELL SIMULATION

"The higher cortisol may cause an increase in blood sugar levels, causing an imbalance in the Glucose-Insulin-System (GIS), while the higher aldosterone can adversely affect the Renin-Angiotensin-Aldosterone System (RAAS). The epinephrine and norepinephrine disrupt the Sympatho-Adrenomedullary System (SAS), which in turn can adversely affect Hypothalamic-Pituitary-Gonadal (HPG) axis and the Hypothalamic-Pituitary-Thyroid (HPT) axis. These in turn disrupt the function of the Neuro-Endocrine-Immune (NEI) system and the Brain Monoaminergic System (BMS) as well as the Ghrelin-Leptin-Adiponectin System (GLAS). Collectively, these changes place a heavy burden on the Hepatic Detoxification System (HDS) and the REDuction-OXidation System (REDOX), which ultimately affect the Cellular Signaling Systems (CSS)."

~ Dr. Joseph Collins

https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/effect-hurricanes-your-hormones-dr-joseph-collins-rn-nd

Thought about several hurricane activities

Bartending, bussing, serving, having a baby...

https://www.cnn.com/2019/09/04/us/baby-hospital-dorian-trnd/index.html

Ahhhh...the last name is MCCLOUD!

(or should be)

so many links

so many

https://www.charlestoncitypaper.com/TheBattery/archives/2019/09/04/keep-an-eye-on-hurricane-dorian-with-these-webcams

links

https://www.charlestoncitypaper.com/charleston/all-the-charleston-restaurant-openings-and-specials-during-hurricane-dorian-that-you-need-to-know/Content?oid=29281779

and the money...

someone showed me three trailers

3
h ttps://birthmoviesdeath.com/2019/08/08/raise-hell-the-life-times-of-molly-ivins-trailer-is-perfectly-ornery
2
https://hollywoodlife.com/2019/08/21/charlize-theron-megyn-kelly-bombshell-1st-trailer-watch-video/
1
https://variety.com/2018/film/reviews/vita-and-virginia-review-1202936290/

& alsosososo

She's kinda interesting too, isn't she?

"Life is pointless. Grrr. Haha."

http://www.susunweed.com/abc_anger.htm

Y depues

que

https://genius.com/Morcheeba-blood-like-lemonade-lyrics

paso

alt. def.

thatbillionarewasalonelymanwhowantedtofitinwithhisfriends
and...
KARMA

Guess it's alright I wasn't a nutritionist

A two weeks off of wine and sugar and then a slight indulgence with lots of filtered water kind of person.

Have to get some zzz's but

I can support the youth and their creativity.

Also about being14 in that place during that time

It was a huge shock to have one foot in the "childhood" portion of life and the other foot in "I could get married and have a baby soon." Some girls who were only a year or two older than I already had babies then.

They were young mothers in high school and they drove around with their little ones riding in the back of the car. From at least one of them, I got rides on occasion.

Because because because because BECAUSE

I wanted to know what it was like, I watched

Vashon Island Gravel Pits (circa 2017)

while listening to

Air - La Femme d'Argent

I was a young person and everyone had been there but me

(almost all under the influence of some kind of herbal or chemical substance while visiting)

that was the 90s BEFORE E-MAIL even!!!!

I thought I would do it too some time, but I didn't

I never did!

I moved away...

AND IT CAME BACK TO ME FOR SOME REASON

Little 14

https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/depechemode/little15.html

I LIVED THERE

How did it escape me

How can decades and decades go by like that

It's a thing to do that I don't mind at all right now

Yeah I can listen to The Art of Stillness late at night and do kitchen choresbecause recently a friend just scarcely mentioned him. I mean, she mostly goes to Buddhist monasteries nowadays but when I brought up the other type she mentioned his writing. And I am thinking about how I loved her house when I was a kid. The dysfunctional camaraderie...ah...even though there were some harsh elements too...

I love that we met.

SAGE

Surely we'll meet again, after she's finished her Nepal adventure.

Yes I missed a lot of the talk. I could listen to it again.

Tuesday, September 03, 2019

Ping pong

Passions are curious things.

https://www.ted.com/talks/pico_iyer_what_ping_pong_taught_me_about_life

"Prince Charles’s crown at his investiture had a golden orb made out of a ping-pong ball."

https://twitter.com/PicoIyer/status/1168967171088756736

starry starry future destination

one of the DARK SKY PARKS

https://www.darksky.org/our-work/conservation/idsp/parks/

Good words

Body says to find some and here's one option

https://www.grandforksherald.com/sports/outdoors/4638979-The-monarch-maven-of-northwest-Minnesota-Crookston-woman-is-passionate-about-raising-monarch-butterflies

Thank you body

Body is the greatest teacher ever. Pretty bad wake up with pain in a lung area after feeling so awful. Time to be a better steward of a body with multiple "issues" but wait, it gets better. Maybe could think more about the butterflies that have been showing themselves... And the rehabilitated sea lions going back into the sea... Then go on from there...

Monday, September 02, 2019

go...get...the basket...

The Orb - God Less America (Gorgeous)

it's a life...what's there to be sad about?

besides hurricanes?

it's sad the creative side and the introvert side are at odds and seemingly neither side ever wins and this is true for so many people on earth they are everywhere pitta - kapha...you're natures are battling each other...but if you get in balance you will do very well...I think it's more kapha as time goes but there's some pitta still...still others would say it's genetics or progestorone...

and it's almost laundry time

1st

quelling sadness by consuming a mostly fully done chickpea flour flatbread
made in a small ceramic pan

throwing away old papers too

hundreds and hundreds of times

she read Little Women

https://www.thisamericanlife.org/680/the-weight-of-words

(mentioned sometime between minute 16 and 17)

AND WHY???

(beyond minute 17)

those words

"never never never have sugar ever"

really puts me in a !@#$%^&*

think that's bad for the stress hormones and such

ok you can distract me

https://www.thisamericanlife.org/680/the-weight-of-words

while i accomplish little tasks

~~~~~~

"they thought she needed to be thin to get married, so they locked the fridge" (somewhere between minute 12 and 13)

VERY INTERESTING EPISODE

*you'll never know true love until you ~~become a mother~~ grow a baby in your uterus and push one out of your body, eh*