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As for going outside today....

so many dreadful aches and pains / didn't make up / get hopes up for tomorrow.

https://www.vox.com/policy-and-politics/2018/9/28/17914308/kavanaugh-ford-question-dodge-hearing-chart

Maybe a little too much time on the internet.

Kinda long, but...

I read all of these stories. Can imagine living in a place called "Surprise"!

http://nymag.com/intelligencer/2018/11/donald-trump-is-destroying-my-marriage.html

I ♡ NY

Anyways...

It's great to know the world has Vaseline and some people in Alaska are drinking coffee after surviving a massive earthquake.

Some people

They are technically grown-ups but they have teeny enraged little children inside and they really really have to express that...

Teeny children! You deserve better!

Were you around older people who acted like they had the right to be abusive &  then thought they could escape from any consequences for their choices by talking about how great their abusiveness is for much bigger and nobler reasons...

Like wouldn't this seem funny on one's deathbed.

Deeetails

My lower lip which has been constantly splitting and splitting open all week is dripping in coconut oil.

What if I have to stop eating.

Calm down. Maybe you just need some Vaseline.

I got a free designer chapstick but...

Need water.

Maybe its just the painfully chapped lips.

"This is what I am gonna do for you."

I have the headache of death but I will survive.

"That way you can show my daughter how to do it."

Head

Must have been a carryover from another life.

Me in my friend's apartment, her daughter, her saying she needed to pick up the toys...

I used to live in upstate NY, and it was cold in the winter. Most of my life before age eight was in that area.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-power-rest/201303/give-us-kid-till-shes-7-and-well-have-her-life

My head.
My throat.
My mouth.
My lips.

Painful day.

Face hurts. I feel ill. I need to take a nap.

https://www.sfgate.com/news/article/Highway-collapse-Alaska-quake-damage-pictures-vide-13434589.php

Having a healthy state of mind is an asset in a critical situation.

Better to seek professional help.

Because if you are going around being abusive & or being overly tolerant of bullying just because you got bullied when you were younger and creating unnecessarily toxic environments that is not cool.

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2017/apr/27/tech-industry-sexism-racism-silicon-valley-study

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/11/30/business/tesla-factory-racism.html

https://pitchfork.com/news/poppy-calls-out-grimes-for-bullying/

Mostly acceptable conversation

IF the evangelicals' version of Je$u$

https://www.newsweek.com/trump-appeals-men-fragile-masculinity-1236701

tells them to re-elect someone so unfit to lead.

https://www.salon.com/2018/11/29/trump-appeals-to-men-who-suffer-from-fragile-masculinity_partner/

6: And how are you, young lady?
9: Zero interest in your penis size.

Amazing headache...

"From boasting about the size of his penis on national television to releasing records of his high testosterone levels, President Trump’s rhetoric and behavior exude machismo. His behavior also seems to have struck a chord with some male voters."

~E. Knowles, S DiMuccio

https://www.washingtonpost.com/amphtml/news/monkey-cage/wp/2018/11/29/how-donald-trump-appeals-to-men-secretly-insecure-about-their-manhood/


"In particular, the researchers found that there was a strong correlation between counties that voted overwhelmingly for Trump and internet searches for topics related to masculine insecurity, including 'erectile dysfunction,' 'hair loss,' 'how to get girls,' 'penis enlargement,' 'penis size,' 'steroids,' 'testosterone' and 'Viagra.'”

~ B. Reed

https://www.salon.com/2018/11/29/trump-appeals-to-men-who-suffer-from-fragile-masculinity_partner/

Pasta with vodka sauce

I miss New York. Gonna eat a good breakfast...

It might be:
Red lentil pasta
Vodka sauce
Broccoli
Cheese maybe????

Being Good!

This is most informative!

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/mind-in-the-machine/201712/analysis-trump-supporters-has-identified-5-key-traits

Authoritarian Personality Syndrome
Social dominance orientation
Prejudice
(Less) Intergroup contact
Relative deprivation

Too

many men in this country grew up with a dehumanizing vision of women. Unfortunately, some took it to the extreme because the culture permitted it.

"Here’s how awful the reality of gang rape is: A male Washington Post reporter confessed to his role in multiple gang rapes—putting it in black and white in a book that became a national bestseller—and his star rose, not faded..."

~ I. Bailey

https://www.theroot.com/lindsey-graham-here-is-the-ugly-gut-wrenching-reality-1829504894




Thoughts on Secretary of Labor

1) I feel sick (but that's not unusual these days?)

2) "It showed that someone with money can buy his way out of anything" - Bradley Edwards

3) "Acosta has never provided an explanation for why he and prosecutors kept the case secret from the victims and their parents."

~ Ashley Collman

https://www.businessinsider.com/alex-acosta-jeffrey-epstein-jail-deal-2018-11

I must check out Kate Manne...

"The feminist philosopher Kate Manne coined the term 'himpathy' to describe the 'tendency to dismiss the female perspective altogether, to empathize with the powerful man over his less powerful alleged female victim.' What Kavanaugh did today was activate the Republican Party’s powerful sense of himpathy: His suffering was the question, and Ford’s suffering, to say nothing of any further search for the truth, slipped soundlessly beneath the water."

~ Ezra Klein

https://www.vox.com/explainers/2018/9/27/17909782/brett-kavanaugh-christine-ford-supreme-court-senate-sexual-assault-testimony

Sorry kids

A lot of these women have kids, nieces and nephews, loved ones, etc.

https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2017/11/20/the-tech-industrys-gender-discrimination-problem

It is kind of a nightmare. People who were abused who don't get help are probably going to abuse their privileges, I guess. Things could be so much better.

Better at being $$$ than you

Does that mean great? Nope.

https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2017/oct/19/tesla-factory-workers-discrimination-claim-race-lgbt-elon-musk

None of these people are especially trustworthy or mentally well.

https://www.thedailybeast.com/azealia-banks-vs-grimes-might-have-gotten-elon-musk-sued-by-the-sec

They are, however, disgustingly wealthy so apparently they feel abusing power and people is what the current system calls for.

https://medium.com/@webwifi/open-letter-to-grimes-682c2d9cee45








The rain is here

This is true...

"No one ever asked me if I'm comfortable with a male president." ~ S. Sheeth
  https://mobile.twitter.com/sheetalsheth/status/1067779625558757377

I like this polar bear art.

https://www.monicabyrne.org/art?lightbox=dataItem-jcimjrpa

Another one who doesn't deserve his job

"Acosta now heads the federal department that oversees human trafficking laws, the Herald notes. He did not respond to multiple requests for comment."

~ K. Krawczyk

https://theweek.com/speedreads/809836/labor-secretary-alex-acosta-reportedly-helped-bury-jeffrey-epsteins-sex-crimes 

"Epstein's case was "not a 'he said, she said' situation," retired Palm Beach Police Chief Michael Reiter tells the Herald. "This was 50-something 'shes' and one 'he' — and the 'shes' all basically told the same story," he continued."

~ K. Krawczyk


https://theweek.com/speedreads/809836/labor-secretary-alex-acosta-reportedly-helped-bury-jeffrey-epsteins-sex-crimes

"Even from jail..."

"...sex abuser manipulated the system. His victims were kept in the dark"

~ J. Brown

https://www.miamiherald.com/news/local/article219494920.html


"67,000 new jobs in goods-producing industries were created last month in the
@POTUS economy."
https://mobile.twitter.com/SecretaryAcosta/status/1068112626901762048



A Secretary of Labor for these times

"How a future Trump Cabinet member gave a serial sex abuser the deal of a lifetime"

https://www.miamiherald.com/news/local/article220097825.html

Why? Maybe because he's corrupt and the safety of  women and girls mean nothing to him compared to money.

In this culture

Dads voted for a president who sexualizes his own daughter.

https://www.vox.com/identities/2016/10/18/13282192/trump-young-girls-10-year-old-teens-sexual-comments

Millions voted for him because he is manipulative and wealthy. Wealthy white men were the most likely to support him.



How very old this song is...

Nights in White Satin.

Once I talked with my friend about this song. I said it was such a good song, but she couldn't feel that way...later I read her book and got clearer ideas about why she hadn't seemed to like it...

Sometimes the universe has people in it who can be both lovable and abusive.


Women and children and men...

"We show that the mortality rates comparing First Nations peoples to that of the Canadian average are consistently higher in all age groups. Starting in the early teenage years, however, there’s a spike in First Nations female mortality that persists until age 45. The rates approach 400 percent of the average Canadian mortality rate for females and 300 percent for males across these age groups."

https://www.brookings.edu/blog/up-front/2018/02/28/why-are-canadas-first-nations-women-dying-at-such-an-alarming-rate/


"While white South Africans only made up 10 percent of the country’s population at the end of apartheid, they owned nearly 90 percent of the land. In the quarter-century since the act's repeal, land distribution remains a point of inequality in the country. Despite the post-apartheid government's stated plan to redistribute one-third of the country's land from whites to blacks by 2014, less than 10 percent of this land has been redistributed, and the 2014 deadline has been postponed to 2025.

https://www.smithsonianmag.com/history/what-did-apartheid-south-africa-look-180956945/#8JyTxwFFeowfVLHy.99

That brutal feeling.

That year of people abusing power...as an extension of other years and more abuses of power...

https://psmag.com/news/research-finds-that-racism-sexism-and-status-fears-drove-trump-voters

People who abuse power inflict their suffering on others.

https://fairygodboss.com/career-topics/sexual-harassment-in-the-workplace

When what a person makes becomes eclipsed by knowledge of illness & imbalance...even to the point of enabling a toxic environment? That truly is brutal and sad.

https://www.npr.org/2018/01/12/577565279/tesla-faces-complaints-over-harassment-and-racial-tensions

You start to wonder if there are depressed people who just refuse to see what is in front of them...
Sometimes, you even wonder if some people just get high off of being abusive as some kind of a coping mechanism or "power trip"?

And knowing the person could have been wonderful, amazing...That's what is brutal. It is almost like hell, recognizing the creative potential and knowing the opposite reality...


Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Thank you, Bruce.

And Timothy.
And Michael.

Quotable:

“'[Trump] has no interest in uniting the country, really, and actually has an interest in doing the opposite and dividing us, which he does on an almost daily basis,' Springsteen told Esquire magazine. ' So that’s simply a crime against humanity, as far as I’m concerned. It’s an awful, awful message to send out into the world if you’re in that job and in that position. It’s just an ugly, awful message.'

He added, 'It’s a scary moment for any conscientious American, I think.'"

~ T. Bella

https://www.washingtonpost.com/nation/2018/11/28/bruce-springsteen-trump-is-deeply-damaged-his-core/


Quotable:

"'As Springsteen confesses to me, “I have come close enough to [mental illness] where I know I am not completely well myself. I’ve had to deal with a lot of it over the years, and I’m on a variety of medications that keep me on an even keel; otherwise I can swing rather dramatically and . . . just . . . the wheels can come off a little bit. So we have to watch, in our family.'"

~ M. Hainey

https://www.esquire.com/entertainment/a25133821/bruce-springsteen-interview-netflix-broadway-2018/

Those who wouldn't listen to these ideas if they came from other kinds of people might listen to Bruce...or Timothy...or Michael...

Yes Em

"Pain—has an Element of Blank—
It cannot recollect
When it begun—or if there were
A time when it was not—

It has no Future—but itself—
Its Infinite contain
Its Past—enlightened to perceive
New Periods—of Pain"

~ E. Dickinson

https://genius.com/Emily-dickinson-pain-has-an-element-of-blank-650-annotated

Need new thoughts

Rainbows and snowflakes and kittens~
For the womb~

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

Hardy little tree

Willow was a movie


WILLOW

https://www.seattletimes.com/seattle-news/it-has-a-story-to-tell-how-a-descendant-of-napoleons-willow-tree-took-root-on-a-seattle-hillside/


"I did divorce my wife for not producing an heir but I felt bad about it and now the holidays have descended so you may buy this bag in 3 colors on Amazon or you might enjoy this very popular shirt which has an amazing 444 reviews"



X!!!!

X: own up to those mistakes and learn from them!!!
X: have fun with your destiny!!!
X: make amends instead of getting nihilist and cynical and find new ways to solve things!!!
X: let other people be all they can be in the army ha ha ha where did that come from oops deep programming sorry??!!
X: you will see the aliens have faith!!!

*Admiration*

A young woman I've helped recently has told me that she volunteers at a hospital asking patients / sick people if they need anything. She has such a great presence. I told her if I am ever in a hospital, I hope I could be on her ward! (I know that it can be a challenge to be hospitalized...The nurses, while good at their jobs, are often very busy with a lot of patients...)

A dream from years ago

"It's a collective thing."
MLK said this in a dream I had a while back.

I sincerely hope many people who have been suffering can learn to take better care of themselves and help others transition into better places where they may assist humanity.

And so it goes

The dreadful cramps. My body being itself again.
The world got more bizarre this year.

"It hurts my brain and my heart." ~ guy in the video.

Well, at least being aware of the heart is a step and might make him figure out how to treat himself and other people better but I don't know.
Our society must evolve on issues of healing and mental and emotional health.

I am an empathetic person and as a human I can feel joy and pain. I wish the good souls in this world who were abused children had better access to help when they were growing up. I really do.

It is a big world with many, many people. Adults who take responsibility for their lives can learn how to heal themselves and not pass on abusive patterns.

I am not directing any children I know into the tutelage of a person who creates unhealthy conditions, outright lies about things and gaslights women in the process.

People deserve better.

Even though I am sure she is a good person in many ways, I do not trust this woman's judgement enough to recommend any children or young people I know be mentored by her.

I do not trust this man's judgment either. It is tragic. It does not make me happy.

Posing with children for photographs and acting like a blankety-blank savior is not nearly the best the universe can provide.

The old-fashioned masculine domineering stuff is what some people still want or tolerate, and in both men and women they tolerate it, but I believe there are better ways out in the universe and here on earth to exist.

I know

The rumor that I overhead something along the lines of the people in that room don't look like you guys but they could is true.

I am very intrigued by these costumes...and the designer too, of course!

Moments of gratitude exist on Earth

Thank you, John Guillebaud & Dr. Imogen Shaw.

"John Guillebaud, professor of reproductive health at University College London, revealed this week that research shows period pain can be as 'bad as having a heart attack'. He said: 'Men don’t get it and it hasn’t been given the centrality it should have. I do believe it’s something that should be taken care of, like anything else in medicine.'”

~ S. Fenton

https://www.independent.co.uk/voices/period-pain-is-officially-as-bad-as-a-heart-attack-so-why-have-doctors-ignored-it-the-answer-is-a6883831.html

"Dr Imogen Shaw, a GP specialising in women’s healthcare, welcomed his comments, saying: 'I wouldn’t say [period pain] has been hugely investigated,' and when asked if the issue would be taken more seriously if men experienced it, said: 'I suspect there would be, being very cynical.'”

~ S. Fenton

https://www.independent.co.uk/voices/period-pain-is-officially-as-bad-as-a-heart-attack-so-why-have-doctors-ignored-it-the-answer-is-a6883831.html



This is not so common for Dads to experience

"84% of them will know their assailant"
https://hcs.calpoly.edu/pulse/students/date-rape

I honestly don't want to think about that...so why would I devote time to safe working conditions...

help another t-shirt logo

I can't see what I choose to ignore, and as long as America's fathers believe in me, my male privilege bubble remains intact

violence against women from a cult leaders's shifty and narcissistic viewpoint

So-and-so has to remember the people so-and-so really wants to think about, as evidenced by so-and-so's words, actions, deeds, and choices:

 "The vast majority of men are killed by strangers."
  https://www.usatoday.com/story/news/world/2018/11/26/gender-violence-un-female-homicide-study/2112481002/

*shrug*

O lifesaver...

Perhaps his frightful despotness and his frightful loneliness and his frightful jackoffness will arrive at the convent to see you shortly...

Prepare the toast.

https://hellogiggles.com/lifestyle/food-drink/this-stress-fighting-lavender-toast-is-ultra-soothing-to-our-taste-buds/

Sunday, November 25, 2018

Really hope to move closer to more woods / nature soon...

Howard's End OST ~ The Basts / Spring Landscape

so glad I got to spend time in the woods reading certain books as I was growing up...who needs to read a bunch of dystopian novels when adulthood is going to force you to practically live in one

https://www.nytimes.com/2018/11/16/opinion/sunday/maternal-mortality-rates.html

this person sounds well-intentioned but also insulting and annoying

https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/lauraturner/rachel-hollis-girl-wash-your-face-self-help-book

sigh

so tiresome when the universe acts as if a person can do so much more but won't for very trivial reasons

oh not quite

The disgusting man in the photo who lost the popular vote is being funded by rich people and so-called "running" the country.

Like running it into the ground.

Good night

The U.S. definitely seems less on top of it than Canada.

https://www.swc-cfc.gc.ca/violence/strategy-strategie/index-en.html

Congrats to Canada.

I feel SICK.
I am going to do something productive, like make an extra credit card payment.

Oh, but this was too distracting.

This would be almost laughable if it weren't also sad.

"Poor Kids are Still on Top 
While the rich kids are showing higher rates of mental illness the highest rates of mental illness are still found in children from the very underprivileged families. These kids are still plagued with stress, frustration and problem families which are just a breeding ground for future problems."

https://kleantreatmentcenters.com/mental-illness-is-up-amongst-the-rich-kids/

That's really enough for one night.

Wow, does the U.S. have anything like this?

Status of Women Canada - Strategy to Prevent and Address Gender-Based Violence

https://www.swc-cfc.gc.ca/violence/strategy-strategie/index-en.html

Oh boy, this tweet seems to indicate Ivanka is working on something.

https://mobile.twitter.com/OPIC2X/status/1064892439784292352

Oh, this one says,

"Getting ready to step up action for International Day for the Elimination of Violence Against Women on 11/25 and the #16Days of Activism, we will be featuring stories of incredible women and men championing the cause. Stay tuned. #EndGBV"

https://mobile.twitter.com/GenderAtState/status/1066061070945607680

Okay.

https://mobile.twitter.com/OVWJustice/status/1066708342733721600

Websites

https://www.justice.gov/ovw

+

https://www.state.gov/s/gwi/

What stimulating questions

"How do you prove gender discrimination? How do you prove you’re not bad at your job when the man in power wants you gone for pushing back?" Women, You’re Not The Problem — Our Sexist Workplace Culture Is ~ C. Cirilli

Page 11 of the Study Guide

A more hopeful quote:

"In the film, Daisy’s brother Charlie, feels deeply betrayed that it was his teammate who assaulted his sister. Parents, teachers and other trusted adults can start unpacking twisted gender messages from a very young age whenever the opportunity arises. Charlie did that with his little league team when he started coaching baseball:

'I don’t think I ever thought about teaching them greater life lessons until I heard a couple boys making comments about a girl. And I said, all right, we’re having a powwow now, and I circled everybody up. And I was like, here’s the thing guys, I’m here to teach you baseball. But this isn’t the kind of stuff I accept. This isn’t what I’m about. If it’s what you’re about, that’s fine, but that’s not what we are going to be about. And you’re more than welcome to take yourself out of here. After that one incident something clicked...'
 —Charlie Coleman"

~ https://img1.wsimg.com/blobby/go/a76a48c9-f061-4d34-b51a-0f1c2ac6bbee/downloads/1bsc4pm2k_417341.pdf

https://audriepottfoundation.com/netflix-documentary

Another interesting document for this day.

The Audrie and Daisy Discussion Guide For Parents

Available here:

https://audriepottfoundation.com/netflix-documentary

"Guide Contents :
Watching Audrie & Daisy 
The Facts About Teens Recognizing the Culture of Sexual Violence 
Believing and Supporting Survivors 
What Does It Mean to Be a Man? 
Creating a Respectful Online Culture 
Alcohol is Not an Excuse 
Moving From Bystander to Upstander"

https://img1.wsimg.com/blobby/go/a76a48c9-f061-4d34-b51a-0f1c2ac6bbee/downloads/1bsc4pm2k_417341.pdf

How very interesting it would be

to hear more about how his mother did this:

"Violence against women is unacceptable. I learned this from my mother and I'm teaching it to my children.
#nonenormalechesianormale 
#OrangetheWorld 
#OrangeUrWorld 
#EndVAW"

https://twitter.com/EP_President/status/1066644586423074816

It is that day

https://www.history.com/this-day-in-history/international-day-to-eliminate-violence-against-women

"This 16-day period had particular significance for Heyzer’s Canadian audience, for one of Canada’s most horrific tragedies occurred on December 6, 1989, when Marc Lepine went on a shooting spree at Ecole Polytechnique in Montreal. Lepine had entered the college with a shotgun and murdered 14 female engineering students before turning the gun on himself in what later became known as the 'Montreal Massacre.' In his suicide note, Lepine declared his murdering spree to be an attack against feminism."

https://www.history.com/this-day-in-history/international-day-to-eliminate-violence-against-women

And while of course it is not the same as a shooting spree, it might be a reminder that bad working conditions for women are pretty horrible, too...

 This is pathetic and disgusting (predator zone).

Also a reminder that it sad when a person with questionable judgement has too many enablers because of money and automatic status assigned to him because of his background. Different rules / easy to abuse privilege.

And in the process attract a gross abusive cult following.

Mental illness and wealth are an interesting combination.

Do ancestors send dreams?

In this one little sack sat on a car seat. Inside there seemed to be unborn baby kittens. And there was a piece of cloth on the seat which had been ripped and then stitched together.

International Day for the Elimination of Violence against Women

In this gallery there is a crown of shells.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/thousands-march-against-gender-violence/ar-BBQ40pv?OCID=ansmsnnews11#image=BBQ40pv_1|3


"Image 4 of 15 - A young boy holds banner reading, ''living women, I want my mother alive' while protesting male violence against women, in Pamplona, northern Spain, Sunday, Nov. 25, 2018"

https://www.sfgate.com/news/world/article/Thousands-use-UN-day-to-protest-violence-against-13420123.php#photo-16555226

"OTTAWA, Nov. 25, 2018 /CNW/ - The Minister of Indigenous Services, Jane Philpott, and the Minister of Crown-Indigenous Relations, Carolyn Bennett, issued the following statement today on the occasion of the International Day for the Elimination of Violence Against Women:

'Ending violence against Indigenous women and girls is one of the most urgent issues Canada faces today. We can and must do better.'

On this day we honour all missing and murdered Indigenous women, and stand in solidarity with their families who continue to grieve their loss and fight for justice.

Indigenous women and girls are three times more likely to report being a victim of a violent crime, and are disproportionately affected by gender-based violence due to poverty, intergenerational trauma, and the unacceptable socio-economic gaps that create barriers to access quality health care, education, and other vital services.

Today, we re-affirm our unwavering commitment to preventing gender-based violence and providing support for survivors. The Government of Canada has invested nearly $200 million to implement the first-ever federal Strategy to Prevent and Address Gender-Based Violence. This important strategy lays the foundation for increased efforts around prevention, support for survivors and their families, and the promotion of responsive legal and justice systems. Developed in the spirit of reconciliation, this strategy identifies a range of actions that must be taken to address violence against Indigenous women and girls.

International Day for the Elimination of Violence against Women is an important global reminder that this is the most widespread and devastating human rights violation in our world today. Gender-based violence should never be tolerated. We must continue to take action to end the impunity, silence and stigma surrounding it.'"

~ https://www.bizjournals.com/prnewswire/press_releases/2018/11/25/C1614

On repeat

Nope.

It's too abusive.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/children-the-table/201810/talking-girls-about-sexual-abuse-and-weight

Thinness is always made out to be more important for girls than boys. Then society makes the girls feel like it's their fault if they get abused and many are more likely to gain weight. Then the repercussions continue.

https://www.marketwatch.com/story/only-15-of-hiring-managers-would-consider-hiring-an-overweight-woman-2017-12-11

It's not advanced.

https://www.folio.ca/how-obesity-discrimination-is-just-as-common-as-racism/

Why leave? Because...

Some people have gross selfish coping mechanisms. They seem to treat life like a giant disgusting fraternity party. It's not just men who do this, either.

An attempt with words

A person in a female body is worth more than what society says. Society props up certain people for really dicey reasons...Both women and men do this, and it is painful on all levels. It is a real drag and a downer and it is part of what makes the levels of inequality in the physical realm so sickening, and abuses of power so rampant. It feels really wrong.

In this life, I have experienced pain which is particularly feminine. At times I have been unpleasantly acquainted with ways people who never got healing can be destructive to others. For instance, I used to have a song that I felt was part of my healing. In many ways, it got ruined because people who were irresponsible in their actions...unfortunately  I now know more about petty cruelty than I used to, and wish I did not. That is not what I want in my life.

We need to be good

to ourselves.

Some of us are sensitive.
We are suffering in this body.
It's really not something to ignore.

Physical pain.
Om Mani Padme Om.

Nope

It's too abusive.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/children-the-table/201810/talking-girls-about-sexual-abuse-and-weight

Thinness is always made out to be more important for girls than boys. Then society makes the girls feel like it's their fault if they get abused and many are more likely to gain weight. Then the repercussions continue.

https://www.marketwatch.com/story/only-15-of-hiring-managers-would-consider-hiring-an-overweight-woman-2017-12-11

It's not advanced.

https://www.folio.ca/how-obesity-discrimination-is-just-as-common-as-racism/


Mmm, gluten free

Would you rather be skinny and hit on by annoying ppl


Or enjoy this delicious treat?

This cake looks really good

"The lavender was so beautiful it basically demanded I take pictures of it. Damn demanding lavender!"

 ~ K. Stevens
https://www.theendlessmeal.com/lavender-lemon-angel-food-cake/

Muuuuuum

Okay but
https://www.wired.co.uk/article/arecibo-observatory-seti-aliens-new-message-challenge

What if they're like, get your act together on Earth first...in the meantime we'll continue to safely observe by making brief appearances to kids, agricultural laborers, PTSD-riddled members of the armed forces, and the occasional megaphone celebrity?

Dial 8675309 for a good time

That's right you can do it, even though a bunch of grown women told you from early childhood that you needed to put boys and men first 'cause 'its in the Bible.'"

"To counteract this cycle of low information, self-doubt, and isolation, Payne says that, based on her conversations with moderate white women voters in red communities, it is hugely impactful for them to find solidarity in one another. She knows of a secret women’s society in Texas in this vein, and points to a group of women who connected in traditionally conservative suburban Georgia...'I needed to learn to advocate for myself,' the woman told Payne, 'before I could stand with others.' In the LMRC’s long-red district, the Georgia 6th, Democrat Lucy McBath just flipped the House seat."

~ M. Ruiz

https://www.vogue.com/article/white-women-voters-conservative-trump-gop-problem

No really I gotta find the video for that song now.

Tommy Tutone - 867-5309/Jenny

Hopefully they have good bosses

And considering

https://mobile.twitter.com/Sarah_Smarsh/status/1066115788489310208

the weeks of preparation leading up to working on Thanksgiving night, Black Friday, etc.

When you get that

follow-the-man-in-the-pulpit or the-one-with-the-most-in-the-wallet feeling...

"I asked Payne why white women in prickly, patriarchal districts don’t just secretly cast blue ballots. Anecdotally, she says she’d been told that some do, while others plan to vote Democrat (and even tell pollsters as much) but at the final hour they fold. 'These women aren’t talking to one another about what feels wrong,' Payne says. 'Their perception is that they’re alone and it reinforces thinking ‘I’m wrong.’”
 ~ M. Ruiz

https://www.vogue.com/article/white-women-voters-conservative-trump-gop-problem

Maybe they can write a check

TO A GOOD CAUSE
at Christmas

"Time and time again some of them have proven that they identify more strongly as Southerners or Christians or GOP members than they do as women—and they vote accordingly, even if and when that vote negatively impacts not only them (voting against equal pay) and their families (paid leave, affordable child care), but women in poverty, women of color, and queer women."

~ M. Ruiz

https://www.vogue.com/article/white-women-voters-conservative-trump-gop-problem

Where did they get the idea

Your friend who married into a wealthy family was tired of her in-laws treating her family like crap.

Why did I get reminded of this?

Lipliner 1
An unfortunate tendency

Lipliner 2
to only see others

Lipliner 3
in terms of how they can gratify you 

Lipliner 4
is sometimes (perhaps fairly

Lipliner 5
or perhaps not) referred to

Lipliner 6
as "rich people syndrome."

You know you were trained to

change your last name...

https://www.vogue.com/article/white-women-voters-conservative-trump-gop-problem

"...connected to and surrounded by more conservative white men—fathers, husbands, pastors, uncles, brothers” who they are inclined to vote in tandem with, Payne says. Especially when those same men often “control the clicker”—tuned to Fox News, of course"

~ M. Ruiz

https://www.vogue.com/article/white-women-voters-conservative-trump-gop-problem

"The women we’re talking to aren’t saying, ‘We don’t care about other folks,’” Payne says. On the contrary, some say, “All my husband cares about is how policy connects to him and his wallet.”

~M. Ruiz

https://www.vogue.com/article/white-women-voters-conservative-trump-gop-problem




When they are both

trained to treat a man with money like he's a little king who doesn't have to follow the same rules as everyone else, men and women invariably create an imbalance between boys and girls.

Friday, November 23, 2018

Okay gotta do that self talk stuff again.

You got off course, but that's okay.
Now is NOW.

You can find serenity...

Thanks to the womanly body issues that have utterly shaped your life...

Breathe...this is what happens...
You may be immersed in circumstances others do not really perceive but you are going to survive, learn, grow, change, be happy...

And love nature...

I was very young once

Singing in a music class

https://genius.com/The-weavers-marching-to-pretoria-lyrics

1987 (spring before going to the island)

Even as a kid I never understood why they didn't make a big deal about their phenomenal views of the lake...

https://foursquare.com/v/lakeridge-elementary-renton-school-district/4e9c47576c2592b36d61235d




tgbtast

to go back to a simpler time

I am intrigued...

She seems to have written many interesting books...

http://dianaraab.com

And she teaches sometimes?

https://www.sbwriters.com/diana-raab/

Found out about her because of an article.

"When working on my first memoir, Regina’s Closet, about my grandmother who committed suicide when I was 10, I turned to a psychic medium to help me find out more about my grandma."

~ D. Raab

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-empowerment-diary/201612/heres-quick-way-develop-your-intuition


"My sense of intuition originates in my solar plexus. Whenever I need to make a decision, my energy is automatically directed to that area. I’m also the type of person who walks into a room and will walk out if the 'feeling' or 'energy' is not right... My husband, on the other hand, is a psychic intuitive. His intuition originates on the crown of his head..."

~ D. Rash

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/the-empowerment-diary/201612/heres-quick-way-develop-your-intuition

I wonder if some people can go back and forth between different types...

Thursday, November 22, 2018

I'm a fan...

Being mystified by death / possible transition to new life is practically a holiday tradition.

Pluto: The Planetarium - Sufjan Stevens, Bryce Dessner and Nico Muhly

smeow the god cat loves them

Apparently plush toy cats from IKEA and "Sir Meows A Lot" are a big hit with some of the world's kids these days...

On the way back from the quest


The woman who pushes her cat around in a baby stroller


Wednesday, November 21, 2018

I believe ppl need therapeutic massages

The body has wailing sadness
In its back muscles
While the face continues as if all is normal
Maybe there are points in the face that can be massaged as well

I think I met this woman

For real.
I can't believe it, but I can.

https://encyclopedia.ushmm.org/content/en/id-card/shulamit-perlmutter-charlene-schiff

Sister of

https://encyclopedia.ushmm.org/content/en/id-card/tchiya-perlmutter

It's because she looks like the woman I met in high school and her story matches.

It says she spoke at schools.

"But in the 1980s, her rabbi at Agudas Achim Congregation in Alexandria convinced her that she should. For more than 20 years, through the Holocaust Museum, she told her story to children and adults at synagogues, churches, schools, clubs, and military and veterans organizations in the Washington area and elsewhere."

https://www.washingtonpost.com/local/obituaries/charlene-schiff-holocaust-survivor-dies-at-83/2013/03/16/4b9674e8-89d5-11e2-a051-6810d606108d_story.html?noredirect=on&utm_term=.dcfd94cb6e64


https://patch.com/virginia/delray/alexandria-resident-holocaust-survivor-charlene-schif7b8369795a


http://www.tisaraphoto.com/legends/Schiff.htm

After we met it really felt like my spirit had been around her or had flown over her when she was young and living in the forest...I didn't tell her that...

Ah ha!

"The Sirens of Titan by Kurt Vonnegut 1959 - Mars is the first stop for Malachi Constant, the richest, most depraved man on Earth. With a beautiful woman by his side, he travels around the solar system, meeting aliens..."

~  https://best-sci-fi-books.com/21-best-mars-science-fiction-books/amp/ 

Are the aliens and their superior technologies gonna help with the Martian medical clinic as WWIII rages on Earth?

And and and

1) How are the people that wanna go to Mars going to do this: run a decent medical clinic, including counseling services and good prenatal and post partum care?

2) Even if zero women go there (gotta stay at home on Earth to take care of babies! Even though WWIII is gonna happen on Earth! ) there will probably be a need for some kind of mental wellness check for whoever ends up going up there.

3) Also, this really is not a good way to relax a person.