Didn't have to be that way

It's weird when you realize that someone who can be nice or on good behavior also lives in a state of shock/survival mode and doesn't seem care if sometimes an abusive, controlling bully takes over. It's weird when you realize he may be that way because he was abused himself. It's weird when you realize you had a nicer first impression that deteriorated and you wanted to get that nice impression back. It's weird when you realize that such a controlling person could squeeze the life out of something that was supposed to be good and full of promise. It's weird when you realize people can be terribly entitled and abuse their power, even those who were once better than that. It's weird when you know it could be fun but deep down inside you know it is not any more. It stopped.