It was icky

When I had to be around obnoxious drunk people all the time just to bring home a paltry paycheck while everyone was losing their jobs, I didn't even like alcohol a lot of the time.

https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/targeting-drunk-women-accounts-for-sexual-aggression-not-blurred-lines/

I used to envy my future self because I couldn't be her yet.

Then the older woman who had been a hostess for twenty years before they let her go came around looking for a job.