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Tuesday, February 28, 2017
Monday, February 27, 2017
OFF...
THE ROAD AGAIN...
The Cutaways ~ "Midwest Winter Driving Song"
There goes my skiing trip to Michigan...
Bearily bearily bearily bearily...
"'Oh, you brute, go away, do!' Katz shouted in merciless imitation. 'Please withdraw at once, you horrid creature.'
'Fuck you,' I said and lugged my tent right over to his. I didn't know what this would achieve exactly, but it brought me a tiny measure of comfort to be nearer to him" (203).
~ Bill Bryson, A Walk In The Woods (Chapter 11)
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/2015/09/150904-polar-bears-dolphins-seals-climate-change/
'Fuck you,' I said and lugged my tent right over to his. I didn't know what this would achieve exactly, but it brought me a tiny measure of comfort to be nearer to him" (203).
~ Bill Bryson, A Walk In The Woods (Chapter 11)
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/2015/09/150904-polar-bears-dolphins-seals-climate-change/
Hair retrieval
Hair ~ Walking in Space
I know this musical because I partly grew up with a critic and military man who liked musicals.
"I'm one of your biggest critics, but I'm also one of your biggest fans."
~~~~
XY: What are you listening to.
XX: Hair, the musical. It's good. You should get it.
XY: If you say so.
XX: You!
XY: *snickers*
XX: Open your mind! NOW! NOW!
Sunday, February 26, 2017
When a man needs some guidance
"Until his staff figure out a way..."
https://medium.com/keith-hennessey/re-the-presidents-debt-tweet-6a952c73e24d#.uqv281ihz
https://medium.com/keith-hennessey/re-the-presidents-debt-tweet-6a952c73e24d#.uqv281ihz
Saturday, February 25, 2017
They opened a door
She has a round face and no hair right now. She was having a good day. Her mother and another woman accompanied her. I held the door for them and they held it open and smiled and they were nice to me and to be around. Quietly, an encouraging encounter was shown to me.
Friday, February 24, 2017
Cloudy
Maybe you
shouldn't be speaking
of the heaviness of the cloud?
And it is a cloud I want to be free of
it is not only sexism against women by men,
and not only sexism against women by other women,
and not only sexism by men against themselves...
and by women against themselves
it's a whole system of
Of
f.
This is what happens some times
"The farmer hauled another load away..."
PAUL WHITEMAN BILLY MURRAY - THE FARMER TOOK ANOTHER LOAD AWAY HAY! HAY!- ROARING 20'S VICTROLA
PAUL WHITEMAN BILLY MURRAY - THE FARMER TOOK ANOTHER LOAD AWAY HAY! HAY!- ROARING 20'S VICTROLA
Poem Blitz
"Be a benefit to others. You're pretty
good at that."
~~~~~
Leather Jackets and High Performers
"It turned out that keeping me on the team made my manager look good, and I overheard him boasting to the rest of the team that even though the rest of the teams were losing their women engineers left and right, he still had some on his team."
~ https://www.susanjfowler.com/blog/2017/2/19/reflecting-on-one-very-strange-year-at-uber
"The director replied back, saying that if we women really wanted equality, then we should realize we were getting equality by not getting the leather jackets. He said that because there were so many men in the org, they had gotten a significant discount on the men's jackets but not on the women's jackets, and it wouldn't be equal or fair, he argued, to give the women leather jackets that cost a little more than the men's jackets."
~ https://www.susanjfowler.com/blog/2017/2/19/reflecting-on-one-very-strange-year-at-uber
~ https://www.susanjfowler.com/blog/2017/2/19/reflecting-on-one-very-strange-year-at-uber
"The director replied back, saying that if we women really wanted equality, then we should realize we were getting equality by not getting the leather jackets. He said that because there were so many men in the org, they had gotten a significant discount on the men's jackets but not on the women's jackets, and it wouldn't be equal or fair, he argued, to give the women leather jackets that cost a little more than the men's jackets."
~ https://www.susanjfowler.com/blog/2017/2/19/reflecting-on-one-very-strange-year-at-uber
Pretty P-A-L-A-T-A-B-L-E?
From Melania and Ivanka's plastic feminism cover up Trump's misogyny:
"His refugee ban was signed under the pretense that Syrian refugees may be strong male ISIS terrorists in disguise, despite the fact that most Syrian refugees are women and children.
Melania and Ivanka provide good cover for Trump's misogyny because they're palatable, conventionally feminine women: They're docile and poised, they don't make demands of men, and they are above all conventionally beautiful -- white and thin.
Now, Trump is using his wife and daughter's status as American women to feign concern for women while he actively makes life worse for women around the world. And Melania and Ivanka sit passively by."
~ http://www.cnn.com/2017/02/22/opinions/melania-and-ivankas-feminism-cover-up-opinion/
"His refugee ban was signed under the pretense that Syrian refugees may be strong male ISIS terrorists in disguise, despite the fact that most Syrian refugees are women and children.
Melania and Ivanka provide good cover for Trump's misogyny because they're palatable, conventionally feminine women: They're docile and poised, they don't make demands of men, and they are above all conventionally beautiful -- white and thin.
Now, Trump is using his wife and daughter's status as American women to feign concern for women while he actively makes life worse for women around the world. And Melania and Ivanka sit passively by."
~ http://www.cnn.com/2017/02/22/opinions/melania-and-ivankas-feminism-cover-up-opinion/
Sounds healing right now...
Breathing healthful breaths
and sleeping the peaceful sleep of the dead.
(In a good way!)
Pain and poses
Men and Women and
Pain DIFFERENCES?
Are these WORTHY topics...
Pain DIFFERENCES?
Are these WORTHY topics...
http://www.prevention.com/health/health-concerns/6-reasons-why-women-feel-more-pain-men
But not all women are turned off by pain, perhaps? Or are some more sensitive than others?
And not all men are the same, perhaps?
Everyone's body is different! Right???)
Hmmm
But perhaps there are trends...
"The Need For Physical Pain
Interestingly, boys and girls experience pain differently. For boys, physical pain can be a stimulant fueling mental clarity. On the other hand, physical pain for girls can be a narcotic, making them feel hazy and confused.
I’ve seen this in myself. Some of my greatest insights have come while pushing myself to the extreme while doing yard work or while exercising. This phenomenon is also seen in endurance athletes who push themselves through pain for many hours at a time."
~ https://medium.com/the-mission/10-habits-that-change-boys-into-men-b103c47d47e0#.25crk618j
Who wants to add more pain?
Who wants to feel more hazy and confused?
MAYBE IT COULD USE MORE RESEARCH???
Who wants to feel more hazy and confused?
MAYBE IT COULD USE MORE RESEARCH???
"Men and women, in fact, can be so different in the way their nervous systems process pain that someday there may be “pink pills for women, and blue pills for men,’’ he says. The lopsided research exists solely because of “inertia,’’ he adds.
Others agree, among them Dr. Roger B. Fillingim, lead author of an exhaustive 2009 review of sex and pain research published by the American Pain Society. In that paper, Fillingim, a pain researcher at the University of Florida, notes that while the National Institutes of Health now require routine inclusion of both sexes in human studies, much animal research “continues to eschew females.’’ Given that pain is mainly a female problem, he adds, this means research “that excludes females is incomplete at best and invalid at worst.’’
~ http://archive.boston.com/news/health/articles/2010/09/27/learning_why_men_and_women_experience_pain_differently/
ARRRRRGH.
BREATHE...
HEAL RESPIRATORY SYSTEM...
BREATHE...
HEAL RESPIRATORY SYSTEM...
Thursday, February 23, 2017
Nerves
Although I could chalk some things up to sinus issues, I genuinely believe my teeth are sensitive due to too many cough drops, ACV, needing to wear a mouth guard (who wants to wear that thing when something respiratory is going on) and the ever pleasant coughing til you toss your cookies (that didn't happen today, knock wood!!)
Oh humbling corporeal teacher.
Please. Pray for thy teeth...
Oh humbling corporeal teacher.
Please. Pray for thy teeth...
It's tricky
Taking care of oneself in the current climate.
https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/politics/wp/2017/02/23/a-majority-of-americans-are-embarrassed-by-president-trump/?utm_term=.cf066580e531
They should be.
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/02/23/opinion/trump-is-bad-for-water-and-puppies.html
"That sounds like you could make a mad lib out of that."
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/02/23/opinion/even-if-trump-is-the-enemy-his-voters-arent.html
Well.
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/02/23/opinion/president-trump-takes-aim-at-the-environment.html?_r=0
https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2017/02/rumana-ahmed-trump/517521/
https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/politics/wp/2017/02/23/a-majority-of-americans-are-embarrassed-by-president-trump/?utm_term=.cf066580e531
They should be.
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/02/23/opinion/trump-is-bad-for-water-and-puppies.html
"That sounds like you could make a mad lib out of that."
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/02/23/opinion/even-if-trump-is-the-enemy-his-voters-arent.html
Well.
https://www.nytimes.com/2017/02/23/opinion/president-trump-takes-aim-at-the-environment.html?_r=0
https://www.theatlantic.com/politics/archive/2017/02/rumana-ahmed-trump/517521/
Wednesday, February 22, 2017
Silver linings
Being sick has been really yucky but it has made me turn to a new way of thinking. Well, when thinking about disagreement, here's what it is. It's baby communication. Okay? Not shaming, but adults can be like babies sometimes. That is, they have not completely evolved in their best ways of communicating. Because sometimes it's hard to communicate in ways that others understand. Sometimes people get hurt and wounded and what needs to happen is more forgiving and kindness. Well, things should get and can get more on a healing path. They CAN. Okay. It's pretty much... True. I think. Maybe that will help. Hopefully. Also, I gotta get myself better.
Monday, February 20, 2017
So is this day done yet
I read this:
http://strangeco.blogspot.com/2017/02/who-was-mary-doefour.html?m=1
Then the woman next door was screaming (outside or with the window open?) on the phone with someone (maybe management?) about account / money stuff.
This:
https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/i-didnt-think-id-ever-leave-the-cia-but-because-of-trump-i-quit/2017/02/20/fd7aac3e-f456-11e6-b9c9-e83fce42fb61_story.html?utm_term=.7480e76ae7f1
It is really time to make some changes.
http://strangeco.blogspot.com/2017/02/who-was-mary-doefour.html?m=1
Then the woman next door was screaming (outside or with the window open?) on the phone with someone (maybe management?) about account / money stuff.
This:
https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/i-didnt-think-id-ever-leave-the-cia-but-because-of-trump-i-quit/2017/02/20/fd7aac3e-f456-11e6-b9c9-e83fce42fb61_story.html?utm_term=.7480e76ae7f1
It is really time to make some changes.
environmental
There's nothing like staying inside sick on a gloomy "holiday" and listening to a couple of dudes outside almost get into a brawl to make you say "I wanna move" (again).
These together...
"But most men are good and kind and decent!" (I imagine it being said)
http://www.cosmopolitan.com/politics/a8776316/oklahoma-abortion-law-mans-approval/
"But that's Russia!" (I imagine it being said)
http://www.npr.org/sections/parallels/2017/02/17/515765902/rights-advocates-warn-russian-domestic-abuse-law-will-protect-the-oppressor
http://www.cosmopolitan.com/politics/a8776316/oklahoma-abortion-law-mans-approval/
"But that's Russia!" (I imagine it being said)
http://www.npr.org/sections/parallels/2017/02/17/515765902/rights-advocates-warn-russian-domestic-abuse-law-will-protect-the-oppressor
Uh-oh
"It is wrong to treat women like walking wombs. Yet these tactics are core to the mission of Virginia’s crisis pregnancy centers. They advertise to scared women who need help, and they claim to offer unbiased information, guidance, and support to those who need it. But instead CPCs treat women the way they treated me — like disobedient children who need to be schooled in religion and saved from their own decisions. To them a woman is a vessel for a future baby, nothing more."
~ http://www.huffingtonpost.com/caitlin-bancroft/crisis-pregnancy-center_b_3763196.html
~ http://www.huffingtonpost.com/caitlin-bancroft/crisis-pregnancy-center_b_3763196.html
wake up with
a spring in your step?
or alternately, a sandpaper throat
does the cat care? or do her meows indicate her affection for you solely as a dispenser of wet food breakfasts
(in gravy please, no pates)
xx: "how to get rid of a cold when you have a mean cat"
has anyone written that article yet
xy: i don't think so
xx: no, they haven't
this is just about what to do when your cat has a cold
this isn't about the cat having a cold
thisisaboutmyfuckingcold
http://www.pingminghealth.com/article/1971/how-to-boost-your-immune-system-with-traditional-chinese-medicine/
https://www.chinesemedicineliving.com/philosophy/the-emotions/grief-the-lungs/
xx: since i feel asleep early, maybe you can explain the rest of The Lobster to me
xy: i am not sure if i can do that
or alternately, a sandpaper throat
does the cat care? or do her meows indicate her affection for you solely as a dispenser of wet food breakfasts
(in gravy please, no pates)
xx: "how to get rid of a cold when you have a mean cat"
has anyone written that article yet
xy: i don't think so
xx: no, they haven't
this is just about what to do when your cat has a cold
this isn't about the cat having a cold
thisisaboutmyfuckingcold
http://www.pingminghealth.com/article/1971/how-to-boost-your-immune-system-with-traditional-chinese-medicine/
https://www.chinesemedicineliving.com/philosophy/the-emotions/grief-the-lungs/
xx: since i feel asleep early, maybe you can explain the rest of The Lobster to me
xy: i am not sure if i can do that
~~~~~
I literally threw up after I read this:
Take a BREAK
Saturday, February 18, 2017
Weird joy
When you shift in a certain way and something tells you, this is a healing position! This is a healing position! Omg this is a healing position! Now I am in the zone, with my anise cough drop and my healing position...Yay!!!
(Searching Searching Searching...)
Reclined Bound Angle Pose
(Searching Searching Searching...)
Reclined Bound Angle Pose
Learning
“Trump emboldens law enforcement,” they say. “Trump emboldens militias. But things are already bad down here. They’ve been bad for a long time.”
Friday, February 17, 2017
Ah this...
For staying in
For drinking tea
For thinking better thoughts
For healing...
For drinking tea
For thinking better thoughts
For healing...
Viewing the atmospheric river
~~~~
I heard two things...
on the radio about domestic violence...
Maybe one was about refugees? And the other was:
http://www.npr.org/2017/02/16/515642501/russian-president-signs-law-to-decriminalize-domestic-violence
Ugh.
As we passed by a ball field and I watched some male grown-ups playing with the boys
I wondered...Are you teaching little Jimmy not to beat his wife when he grows up during this innocent game of catch? Admittedly ball fields do not always give me fuzzy feelings. I remember my dad took me to one when I was little and seemed full of men and their sons who wanted me gone because I was the only girl. Very mean and ugly. We didn't stay for long, thank goodness.
Maybe one was about refugees? And the other was:
http://www.npr.org/2017/02/16/515642501/russian-president-signs-law-to-decriminalize-domestic-violence
Ugh.
As we passed by a ball field and I watched some male grown-ups playing with the boys
I wondered...Are you teaching little Jimmy not to beat his wife when he grows up during this innocent game of catch? Admittedly ball fields do not always give me fuzzy feelings. I remember my dad took me to one when I was little and seemed full of men and their sons who wanted me gone because I was the only girl. Very mean and ugly. We didn't stay for long, thank goodness.
Xy poem
And Xy's father was a workaholic with impeccable morals
And Xy's mother was an angel on earth
And Xy took the road that was whitemaleheterosexual
And that has made all the difference.
And Xy's mother was an angel on earth
And Xy took the road that was whitemaleheterosexual
And that has made all the difference.
Wow shouldn't you be sleeping
And getting better, instead of waking up and doing extra housework on top of making tea and making food, not because you want to eat, but just so you can take a supplement or pill to help yourself get better...
It's fitting this dude's last name is Bacon because his opinions on women and housework and masculininity indicate that he is a PIG.
Sorry, actual pigs. Actually real pigs are different!
http://www.pbs.org/wnet/nature/the-joy-of-pigs-smart-clean-and-lean/2126/
Let's read up on REAL pigs!
It's fitting this dude's last name is Bacon because his opinions on women and housework and masculininity indicate that he is a PIG.
Sorry, actual pigs. Actually real pigs are different!
http://www.pbs.org/wnet/nature/the-joy-of-pigs-smart-clean-and-lean/2126/
Let's read up on REAL pigs!
Thursday, February 16, 2017
So
So let's get more healing happening.
For I am so fatigued and want to cry.
So let's get more healing happening.
For I do at least feel like throat is better.
So I am going to take essences again before I sleep. Not like a magic cure-all but I feel like they help me. I am not as weary after I take them. Will see what transpires on a doctor visit tomorrow...
For I am so fatigued and want to cry.
So let's get more healing happening.
For I do at least feel like throat is better.
So I am going to take essences again before I sleep. Not like a magic cure-all but I feel like they help me. I am not as weary after I take them. Will see what transpires on a doctor visit tomorrow...
That's interesting.
"It is unique in that when making a tea with Marshmallow Root, you will want to brew it with cold water to preserve the mucilaginous properties."
~ https://wellnessmama.com/15243/marshmallow-root-herb-profile/
Several hours or overnight in cold water. Hmmm...
~ https://wellnessmama.com/15243/marshmallow-root-herb-profile/
Several hours or overnight in cold water. Hmmm...
Is it or is it not
Hilarious to wake up and be mad you are sick. Roger, rowr, take that scratchy throat or plugged chakra or wtfever...
You deserve the spiritual experience of great humility. Treat yourself.
Reading this and thinking Jesus Christ wake the fuck up is probably not helping...I love the idea of soup.
Soup! Soup! Soup!
Miso soup with ginger chicken dumpling and bok choy???
Yeah let's do that tomorrow!
And I can get more spiritual and patient.
I can be nicer to my throat too.
I can do these things...
You deserve the spiritual experience of great humility. Treat yourself.
Reading this and thinking Jesus Christ wake the fuck up is probably not helping...I love the idea of soup.
Soup! Soup! Soup!
Miso soup with ginger chicken dumpling and bok choy???
Yeah let's do that tomorrow!
And I can get more spiritual and patient.
I can be nicer to my throat too.
I can do these things...
Wednesday, February 15, 2017
Happy New Year
It's a beautiful thing to let go of the old sometimes. I want to get better. My body is so sensitive. It needs healing and fun. I want to feel better. It's a simple wish.
O a.m.
Illness + pain in body.
Plus stressed about those two.
It is a challenge...I can see why people need higher power and guidance to help them.
I need those things now.
Plus stressed about those two.
It is a challenge...I can see why people need higher power and guidance to help them.
I need those things now.
Tuesday, February 14, 2017
I will say
Since it's a touchy feeling type of day
Three things that made tears come unexpectedly were The Eagle Huntress movie, Selma and the end of this:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oscar_Wilde
Hmmm....
http://www.nybooks.com/daily/2015/01/08/selma-vs-history/
Is the Eagle Huntress really....
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/amp/38874266
Maybe I should see...
http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/wilde-1998
https://www.theguardian.com/film/2012/sep/12/wilde-importance-being-accurate-stephen-fry
Three things that made tears come unexpectedly were The Eagle Huntress movie, Selma and the end of this:
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oscar_Wilde
Hmmm....
http://www.nybooks.com/daily/2015/01/08/selma-vs-history/
Is the Eagle Huntress really....
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/amp/38874266
Maybe I should see...
http://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/wilde-1998
https://www.theguardian.com/film/2012/sep/12/wilde-importance-being-accurate-stephen-fry
Cough drop day
Was also a good day to schedule doctor appointments.
Oh, that unwell feeling. It's time to go crawl under the covers.
~~~~~
At least some of the symptoms improved!!!
Although then aches returned...what the....
~~~~~
At least some of the symptoms improved!!!
Although then aches returned...what the....
O mother of healing
Unbelievable. Did not even feel this bad yesterday. Woke up with sore throat and aches and chills but no high fever OK that's probably a viral thing I guess and made tea and took ibuprofen and some essences and want to go back to sleep and wake up feeling much much much better. Also why not use a castor oil pack... Hmmm... hmmmm... hmmmmmmmmm... Go back to sleep again...
Monday, February 13, 2017
One thing, another
The pains of one area improved. I have a sore throat and stress and I hope I feel better soon...Sigh...Pleeease. Honestly.
Sometimes it seems like tomorrow can be something to think about
if caring about health issues / the environment is not that important to you.
If you don't really care that much about health issues and the environment, well, maybe some of your kids or grandkids will care more than you did.
Because the way things are going...more and more people will be affected by these issues as time goes on...and then, as even more people are affected, it will be many peoples' issue instead of just something that affects a fraction of the people?
Because the way things are going...more and more people will be affected by these issues as time goes on...and then, as even more people are affected, it will be many peoples' issue instead of just something that affects a fraction of the people?
A read and...
A read:
http://m.motherjones.com/environment/2016/06/epa-report-herbicide-atrazine-syngenta-frogs-tyrone-hayes-cancer-corn-weeds
A thought:
A society that ignores women's health issues is not a society that truly cares for women.
(Didn't make sense? Oh well.)
Interesting, tho.
http://m.motherjones.com/environment/2011/11/tyrone-hayes-atrazine-syngenta-feud-frog-endangered
http://m.motherjones.com/environment/2016/06/epa-report-herbicide-atrazine-syngenta-frogs-tyrone-hayes-cancer-corn-weeds
A thought:
A society that ignores women's health issues is not a society that truly cares for women.
(Didn't make sense? Oh well.)
Interesting, tho.
http://m.motherjones.com/environment/2011/11/tyrone-hayes-atrazine-syngenta-feud-frog-endangered
Need to reiterate
I can and will be open to good healthy strong wise compassionate people and experiences and healing energies...
Go back to sleep...
Woke up early
Reaching for heating pad
Had an unsettling dream
About some people being rewarded
For selfish & discriminatory practices
Because of Money
Again.
Reaching for heating pad
Had an unsettling dream
About some people being rewarded
For selfish & discriminatory practices
Because of Money
Again.
Sunday, February 12, 2017
A water filter?
http://www.bigberkeywaterfilters.com/blog/category/atrazine
There's so much...
One thing at a time....
"Atrazine’s effects on the nervous and reproductive systems of animals and humans have been widely documented and it has been banned in Europe since 2003. Since atrazine is commonly found in our public water supply, the water that we drink every single day should be considered a chronic low-dose exposure source."
http://pcosdiva.com/2016/08/endocrine-disruptors-pcos/
(First bullet: filter your drinking water. Question: how well does the Brita filter...)
http://www.chicagonow.com/ups-and-downs-of-a-yoga-mom/2014/03/bp-spills-oil-in-lake-michigan-do-you-drink-tap-water/
There's so much...
One thing at a time....
"Atrazine’s effects on the nervous and reproductive systems of animals and humans have been widely documented and it has been banned in Europe since 2003. Since atrazine is commonly found in our public water supply, the water that we drink every single day should be considered a chronic low-dose exposure source."
http://pcosdiva.com/2016/08/endocrine-disruptors-pcos/
(First bullet: filter your drinking water. Question: how well does the Brita filter...)
http://www.chicagonow.com/ups-and-downs-of-a-yoga-mom/2014/03/bp-spills-oil-in-lake-michigan-do-you-drink-tap-water/
Messages to U
In a dream I had no physical ailments and irl I woke and had them again. So this morning I am telling the Universe that I am happy to allow healing energies to assist me. I have eaten much healthier this weekend and I wasn't even trying, and I have taken some essences and even though it's not a magic cure I still can appreciate my efforts and I feel good about them.
Saturday, February 11, 2017
Teas & a badger (what one could be...)
I found these recently and kinda love these teas.
This is a cute American badger.
I didn't even know what it was when I saw it. It was wet in the snow and looked a bit prickly on the sides. I thought it must be a hedgehog, or something else. I had associated badgers with very bad behavior after horrible story someone told me about some nasty ones tearing apart and killing a cat, and the awful way they did it made me think of what some people might feel when they experience certain types of terrible pain (for instance, when women have severe dysmenorrhea, unfortunately.) So I didn't like the idea of badgers. But this was a different badger. It was cute. It seemed kind of lonely and shivering. I was concerned for it. I was making friends with the badger, inside myself, in spite of myself, and my bad attitude towards badgers.
Well.
Staying in Saturday
I like staying in. I have some things to do.
I'm cooking, which I like, and trying to manage anxiety, which is less fun.
I think I need to go to an allopathic doctor.
Too much anxiety about whatever is going on.
Guessing and guessing and guessing.
I wish we had a different society that cared more about women's health.
On the UP side
This is a positive.
Pain that was in my face earlier is not as bad now. This is the day that the Lord has made! Glory glory hallelujah...
Also turmeric in almond milk with a dot of coconut oil can be nice.
Pain that was in my face earlier is not as bad now. This is the day that the Lord has made! Glory glory hallelujah...
Also turmeric in almond milk with a dot of coconut oil can be nice.
Friday, February 10, 2017
Reasons
Can you play something while I do chores...what is that...Moonbuilding by The Orb...I had a moon song in my head earlier as I was leaving a park..."Moonshadow!" Why is that? Oh yeah....
http://www.blastr.com/badastronomy/2017-2-10/will-you-be-able-see-tonights-deep-penumbral-lunar-eclipse
https://www.timeanddate.com/moon/usa/los-angeles
Moonshadow
http://www.blastr.com/badastronomy/2017-2-10/will-you-be-able-see-tonights-deep-penumbral-lunar-eclipse
https://www.timeanddate.com/moon/usa/los-angeles
Moonshadow
Thursday, February 09, 2017
Need to enroll in a special school
A "How to take care of your special anatomy which causes illness, pain and distress" school.
Possibly
Featuring
Adenomyosis
OR
Endometriosis
STUDIES
The best diet
The best herbs
The best yoga poses
The best environmental solutions
Possibly
Featuring
Adenomyosis
OR
Endometriosis
STUDIES
The best diet
The best herbs
The best yoga poses
The best environmental solutions
Sometimes
people are so phenomenal...
He or she will turn a blind eye because it is convenient and because there is a reward for doing so.
And what about the bully? Is he 100 percent bad? Maybe not. He can be so helpful if things are going his way... Maybe he just has control issues and probably saw various forms of abuse or bullying as he was growing up. Then he resorts to acting out what he saw as a child. He also finds ways to make himself valuable so people make excuses for his bullying behavior.
Maybe it works. But it is not healthy.
Maybe it works. But it is not healthy.
Sadly, this is what ruins trust and what might have otherwise been a good experience.
Wednesday, February 08, 2017
Two other take-aways
...from dipping into social media...
1) People celebrating a birthday by holding a dance party / protest in front of the vice-president's house
2) Can't 100% remember if I've fully read A Walk in the Woods and I should order it.
I come from Des Moines. Somebody had to. ~ Bill Bryson
1) People celebrating a birthday by holding a dance party / protest in front of the vice-president's house
2) Can't 100% remember if I've fully read A Walk in the Woods and I should order it.
I come from Des Moines. Somebody had to. ~ Bill Bryson
THIS FRIDAY
A Snow Moon, Lunar Eclipse and Comet Are Set to Appear on the Same Day
(for the lucky East Coast people)
Tuesday, February 07, 2017
She was cool
And a role model.
Eagle huntress Aisholpan.
(Beautiful name too.)
The Eagle Huntress review by Kenneth Turan
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Aisholpan Nurgaiv Talks About The Most Difficult Part Of Her Training
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/2016/08/teenage-eagle-huntress-movie-trailer-director-interview/
I had a health dream
I was in some place with hills. One or two male characters who were especially nice to me were encouraging me and saying "Why did you leave, why don't you be with me," and "You need to let go of things you learned in your childhood." I have a body that is out of balance because of genes and maybe environmental things and I will need to find out how I can heal it. I should pray more. I do have to let go of things. I have to let go of harmful messages about women and girls that made me feel angry. I have to let them go...
Sunday, February 05, 2017
Eating an apple at 3 a.m.
Weird pulling feelings coming and going, wanting to curl up, cry, change, become better, looking up endometrial hyperplasia, fibroids, reading about symtoms like extreme cramps (not today thank god, but some days ago) lower back pain (not today thank god, but recently) advice to avoid pesticides and plastic, eat better, get more exercise but not the really stressful kind...
"As enthusiastic as I am about exercise as a PCOS management tool- I would be the first to admit that is not a cure. You can’t sweat away your PCOS. In fact, excessive exercise, or an imbalanced exercise program can aggravate symptoms."
~ http://pcosdiva.com/2016/01/pcos-exercise/
Oh I think I heard of this person...and...also...
"He was a paratrooper. Those paratroopers, they’re not hang gliding. They’re not sports jumping. They are dropping 10 to 15 feet a second. Think about that. Just look up at your ceiling. It’s not 10 or 15 feet, it’s probably eight or nine. They drop higher than that, boom, right to the ground, 10 to 15 feet a second. If you’ve had over 20, 30 jumps when you’re a young man, by the time you get in your 40s you’re pretty much screwed up pretty badly. Arthur had over 500 jumps."
~ http://pcosdiva.com/2016/02/pcos-exercise-yoga/
"As enthusiastic as I am about exercise as a PCOS management tool- I would be the first to admit that is not a cure. You can’t sweat away your PCOS. In fact, excessive exercise, or an imbalanced exercise program can aggravate symptoms."
~ http://pcosdiva.com/2016/01/pcos-exercise/
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Oh I think I heard of this person...and...also...
"He was a paratrooper. Those paratroopers, they’re not hang gliding. They’re not sports jumping. They are dropping 10 to 15 feet a second. Think about that. Just look up at your ceiling. It’s not 10 or 15 feet, it’s probably eight or nine. They drop higher than that, boom, right to the ground, 10 to 15 feet a second. If you’ve had over 20, 30 jumps when you’re a young man, by the time you get in your 40s you’re pretty much screwed up pretty badly. Arthur had over 500 jumps."
~ http://pcosdiva.com/2016/02/pcos-exercise-yoga/
Saturday, February 04, 2017
Sounds funny
Think I'll watch it tonight.
"McCarthy’s Spicer demanded reporters depict Trump’s Supreme Court nomination in a particular fashion — their own.
"McCarthy’s Spicer demanded reporters depict Trump’s Supreme Court nomination in a particular fashion — their own.
The crowd greeted him with a standing ovation for a full 15 minutes. You can check the tape,” she said as Spicer. 'Everyone was smiling, everyone was happy. The men all had erections and every single one of the women was ovulating.'”
~ http://www.nydailynews.com/entertainment/tv/snl-donald-trump-declares-war-australia-sour-phone-call-article-1.2964497
Goals
How great would it be
to succeed without unnecessarily treating people like crap?
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To excel without pointlessly discriminating against people?