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Sunday, May 31, 2015

happiness, a little while ago

One time I was fretting about a relative working a job on a holiday and then I got the message that says I love my job, I get to work in the back on a project, listening to Cornflake Girl and other really good music, and seriously, I was like, "This is happiness."

Yeeehaaaw

Got stuff accomplished! Taking a break to goof off on the 'net! GOOF GOOF GOOG OOFOORRRRROROROROROOROROROROOROROROORORORORR

You rock, blog from 2006

Whoops

This is what I thought was happening:

An older teenage boy appeared to sit a small child with long hair on the edge of a wall where there was a steep, scary drop. I was walking right towards the situation. I got a sense of dread and hoped that it would not continue, but it did. The older person kept the child there, as the child was squirming to get off, and the older person kept asking, "Do you want to fall? Do you want to fall?" I was hoping this would not continue, as memories of bullying by older boys flashed through my mind, but instead, it escalated as I walked towards them. (I had to, to get to the entrance.)

So I asked this "teenage boy" if "he" was threatening to push the child off the wall and the person responded, "Yes I am. Mind your own fucking business." I was also told not to butt into their business, and I should try having my own children. That's when I began to realize I was probably talking to the kid's mom.

Eeeeee....yeah...So, maybe threatening to make your kid fall off a wall is an aggressive parenting technique? It looked horrifying.

I don't have my own kids, but I did have a younger sibling that I  was kind of "in charge of" a lot, as our parents had to be away for long periods of time when we were growing up, and I thought to myself, did I ever think it was a good idea to sit her on the edge of a wall and threaten to make her fall?

No...

It was a strange encounter.

Saturday, May 30, 2015

There is a thing that life does

which is this: it shapes your view point, based on certain circumstances...and at this time, it seems to me that even if I did do those things society would praise me for doing, such as getting married & pregnant, that is not the point...for even if I did, what about people who do not have those options? I mean, at this time it seems to me that marriage is a choice, but getting pregnant is less so...there are many women who would have and believed they could and tried and spent $$$ and yet it did not happen for then... Why should their experiences be ignored and denied?

And fertility also seems connected to our food system, to me. We need food to be fertile. So if we are always turning a blind eye to a system where some (too many) workers are forgotten and mistreated (and perhaps even in some cases exposed to pesticides that could cause infertility) while we just eat the food without thinking about it, how is that going to help fix anything???

Folding laundry

If you google images of folding laundry, it would appear that attractive women and girl children are awesome at it and they also love doing it.

Males either don't do it or are just not very good at it.

Except for Sheldon.
(Big Bang Theory)

Friday, May 29, 2015

boomerang?

wow, can't believe how much this is going round in my mind again...
was talking to someone who tells me about how engineers at her work ask her when she's going to have kids and it's annoying and she wishes they'd stop...

why pressure people to have kids? why tell them they're selfish if they don't or they'll never know true love if they don't?

why is that cruelty okay? why is that so?

listen you never know if the person is on the fence, wouldn't want to, or would love to have kids but seems to find it difficult for any number physical/emotional/financial reasons...

so consider this

would you really go up to a legless person and say,

"oh, you just will never experience true joy in life unless you run a marathon on those two legs you were born with, just like meeee...I'm am sooo genetically gifted....you will never know truuuuue joooooy....like meeeeee...."

because, if you'd do that, you're probably the type of person who'd kick a homeless person on the street and say "get a job" just to feel great about yourself, and that's just sick

yeah

there's something off about saying that
that's why I am boomeranging

Thursday, May 28, 2015

~~~~~~

I can't even believe this EXISTS

"The women shrug. It is our tradition, they say. It's what our parents and grandparents did, so it's what we do. But away from the group, as she has her picture taken in her miserable chhaupadi shed, Nandakala is more frank. 'Of course I hate it,' she tells the photographer. In the winter it's cold. In the summer it's hot. The restrictions are stifling and unfair. 'Why should the gods punish us? Why should women be punished? But what the hell can we do?'"

~~~

"Rishi Panchami enrages many educated Nepali women. It's not so much the superstition but the legitimacy that the government gives it by providing a holiday that declares women to be dirty and polluting."

~~~

"The problem isn't men like him, or traditional healers. 'We can change them,; says Madan Kumar Majhi, Kabi's cousin and a member of the Chhaupadi Minimization Committee. 'But it's the women who are the barrier.' The mothers and mothers-in-law are the worst. A female community health volunteer tells the room how she pretends to be menstruating just so her mother-in-law starts shaking and trembling and pretending to be sickened by chhaupadi. 'But when I am actually menstruating, I touch her and nothing happens.' She laughs, but still she has to observe the taboos."

~~~

"It is an irony of chhaupadi that talking about periods is easier in Nepal than in many other countries."

~~~

"Sarita came to Dhaka four years ago, and as soon as she started work, she managed her period as everyone else did, by using scraps of cloth from the factory floor."

http://jezebel.com/what-life-is-like-when-getting-your-period-means-you-ar-1542273510

Surprisingly great

SALAD!

spinach leaves
kidney beans
crumble corn chips
chicken
salsa
2 teeny very fresh-tasting green jalapenos (from an old plant that is dying but still producing weirdly shaped fruit and yum, they really made it)

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

That thing again

I was thinking about that thing again, that many people say, or have said:

"You'll never know true love until you become a mother."

Giant swathes of society promote that message, ignoring how this attitude contributes to the pain of many people, both men and women, for not living up to knowing "what true love is."

And suppose you are a parent...what if one of your own children has any problems becoming parents themselves? Have you thought of how saying that can impact them? Now you've just added extra baggage to an already painful problem.

This writer, who does not have children,  and chooses not to attend church on Mother's Day, notes that she was "able to stand up" the "one and only time" she was pregnant a few weeks before she lost the baby. She has some thoughts on what she'd say if she "were the pastor on Mother's Day."
was able to stand up one year, long ago, in another church, the one and only time I was pregnant - See more at: http://www.uscatholic.org/life/everyday-spirituality/2011/04/mother-without-child#sthash.44rBgDW5.dpuf


http://www.uscatholic.org/life/everyday-spirituality/2011/04/mother-without-child
I have decided what I would say if I were the pastor on Mother’s Day. I would ask the mothers to stand, because they deserve applause, by all means. But after they were seated, I would ask all those women to stand who are not mothers. And I would say something like this:
Some of you are not mothers by choice.
- See more at: http://www.uscatholic.org/life/everyday-spirituality/2011/04/mother-without-child#sthash.44rBgDW5.dpuf
have decided what I would say if I were the pastor on Mother’s Day. I would ask the mothers to stand, because they deserve applause, by all means. But after they were seated, I would ask all those women to stand who are not mothers. And I would say something like this:
Some of you are not mothers by choice.
- See more at: http://www.uscatholic.org/life/everyday-spirituality/2011/04/mother-without-child#sthash.44rBgDW5.dpuf

There's also this to consider:

"Guatemala stands out in Latin America and the Caribbean, the only region in the world where births to girls under 15 rose between 1990 to 2011, according to the United Nations."

http://news.yahoo.com/guatemala-trying-keep-girls-growing-too-fast-120001982.html


Of course, many people don't even seem to have the time to consider the lives of those whose work provides them with food, clothing and more.

So it is not surprising that they also are not thinking about women who struggle, either with infertility, or with becoming mothers at the age of 14, when they make blanket statements about knowing or not knowing what "true love is" until the magical gift of motherhood happens.


But maybe that can change.

Watchin' an old movie

Purple Rrrrain...
~~~

Don't listen to them Prince...in a few years, Foo Fighters will make your raunchy song into a big hit...something about the Apollonia 6 number makes me think of working in a college cafeteria. I don't know why! Cereal in plastic bins. Spaghetti toppings. Hot Potato Bar.

~~~

Y: "So they're the Apollonia 6. There's only 3 of them. Is that a joke about their boobs?"

My healthy, organic, immune-system boosting food

came from Mexico.

http://www.peoplesworld.org/u-s-call-to-support-striking-farmworkers-in-baja-california-mexico/

"In the case of San Quintín, about 80 percent of the workers are indigenous people. Some do not speak Spanish but only Mixteco and other indigenous languages."


O

Body,

U were doing so well. R u seriously needing to get a scratchy throat on top of everything else...let's cycle through this. Is there a supplement I haven't bought? The fridge has vitamin C and the freezer is stocked with bone broth...

Saturday, May 23, 2015

serious leeeere

Really now...

http://www.washingtonpost.com/posteverything/wp/2015/05/20/feminists-want-us-to-define-these-ugly-sexual-encounters-as-rape-dont-let-them/  

I hope that writer figures out a way to deal with her own personal history without discounting and devaluing other people's traumatic experiences. Something to aspire to in the future...

on a spectrum of thought

What if you went for decades slowly poisoning yourself not knowing it and for a time your body bore this patiently until the time finally came for it to roar ENOUGH
 
CONVENIENT???

You know you are not supposed to eat junk food. What if all sorts of food that taste good are so bad for you they linger and poison and trigger chronic illness

WHAT IF BREAD???

Auuuuuuugh

what if bread is the potato chip of the middle ages



LA LA LA

Hello heating pad my old friend...

If it would work....

X: bl a h blah blahblahblah...
Y: maybe u should call yr mom and ask for a new body

Footnote(s)

One for the history books.

"President Lee C. Bollinger turned away as she crossed in front of him, failing to shake her hand, as he did with the other graduates."

http://www.nytimes.com/2015/05/20/nyregion/mattress-protest-at-columbia-university-continues-into-graduation-event.html?_r=0

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Another one!

"However, the keynote speaker, Mayor Eric Garcetti of Los Angeles, alluded approvingly to Ms. Sulkowicz’s protest. Applauding student activism at Columbia, he told the students: 'You felt outside of society, sufficiently determined to challenge hierarchy that you took risks. You held contrary opinions, held die-ins and sit-ins and carried mattresses. Most importantly, you have learned to empathize, to look out for others and to listen.'”

http://www.nytimes.com/2015/05/20/nyregion/mattress-protest-at-columbia-university-continues-into-graduation-event.html?_r=0

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

excellent goal

Deepen my personal relationship with my immune system...hearts and flowers

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

this is just to say

I drank from the bottle of oj
Before I got the aches
Sorry!

songen

When a moon hits yr eye like a big piece a pie days a more about flowers

truth

Achy & out of balance & need light happy healing floral gooof gooof gooof vibes...

Icecreamy garb

Pair with waffle cone pattern pants or bowl bottoms...

http://www.freshnessmag.com/

thoughts on facial expressions


it's like, if you just look at their smiles, you can't tell they grew from small cute babies into large grinning repugnant blockheads...

(old tabs...close them...)

personally

http://www.cakechooser.com/

I am happy that, in this body, huge crampy cramps have subsided (momentarily.)

ALSO SO HAPPY I DON'T WATCH THAT STUPID SHOW, GAME OF THRONES.

http://www.themarysue.com/we-will-no-longer-be-promoting-hbos-game-of-thrones/

Ever in a mood to wonder why more women aren't more successful in the field of entertainment? I mean, even if a 19-year-old actress is fine with it, of course...

Gosh....my mind just jumped to another place....Who cares about this?

http://www.npr.org/2015/05/07/404994266/students-say-university-of-mary-washington-failed-to-address-yik-yak-threats

Anyway, back to television. I finally got all caught up on Mad Men.

Hurrah, now I don't have to HIDE from all those spoilersish news stories about that one!

I love ginger and raspberry tea!

Buy the world a coke.


http://theverybesttop10.com/cats-drinking-wine

thoughts on fertility

All fertile women should be able to feel proud of their fertility, not see it as a handicap to achievement. And women who have had struggles with it can be proud of themselves as well, for getting through it, because that can feel awful on many levels (physical, emotional)
and let's make a society that has better outlooks and much better sensitivity to this.

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Some interests

Light
White
Lavender
Dissolving
Releasing
Energy
Joy
Music
Accentuate
The
Positive....

Body teach

My body is into being a teacher and boy does it teach sometimes...

what it is

We need light & healing. I vote for relaxation. And let go of guilt about that.

Singer

What is it? What is it? WHAAAAAAAT.


mighty mouse ~ andy KAUFMAN

head shooken

Death caused by jokes about misandry.

http://wehuntedthemammoth.com/2015/05/10/feminist-activist-grace-mann-murdered-blogger-blames-her-death-on-feminist-jokes-about-misandry/

I am simply perplexed by how some people persist in hanging onto their old, stubborn viewpoints.

(And I remember a dream I had. It involved a strangulation, but I didn't want to say it.)

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Friday, May 15, 2015

Health

By Olga Angelovski


REAL goals:
Listen to body.
Appreciate body.
Breathe better.
Eat & drink better.
Get in balance.
Find healers.
Accept healing.
Tune into healing energies.
Sleep well.
Rest well.
Dream well.
Meditate.
Be at peace.
Thrive.
Get in balance.
Achieve harmony.
Happiness.
Health.
Be well!

Flow


"Against a dark sky all flowers look like fireworks."
Gilbert Keith Chesterton 

cedartreehealing.org

"Thoreau would have been a jollier fellow if he had devoted himself to a green grocer instead of to greens." ~ G. K. Chesterton

soul butterfly

blueprintsforbutterflies.com

~~~~~~~

The butterfly counts not months but moments, and has time enough.  ~Rabindranath Tagore

zoom

area woman has a rather nice morning, enjoys the wet weather, looks at nature and insects, plays around on the internet, eats the wrong thing or something, goes downhill, gets morose about mysterious pain, throws out food, makes soup and tries to eat it twice, puts it in the fridge, makes a bowl of cereal, eats a few bites, pours it down the sink...

Song & dance

man



Andy Kaufman 1977 (HBO)

Sacred Art

http://sacredartpilgrim.com/pilgrimage/view/18

New International Version
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.

http://biblehub.com/matthew/6-28.htm

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

sentiments 3

Women need more good brothers.

sentiments 2

A lot of women have had to deal with some truly vile B.S., courtesy of sexism. In this respect, it is not woman's job to sacrifice herself for the sake of a man's precious fragile ego.

sentiments

The patriarchy is gross; the world needs less misogyny.

on breathing

That Shakira She Wolf song.

cosita

Talking to someone about something someone says a parent owns a clothing factory in sudamerica & thinks the workers no tiene plata iieee

dear rainbow french dragees

I smuggled you into a state where you are illegal (or something, anyhoo, you're not sold here.) I fully expected to find a fine picture of you in your natural state (i.e. in the bottle) on the internet, and this was the best I got. I am so disappointed! Why aren't you more egotistical?

Maybe I will eat one of you now.

Here. That's a little better, anyway.

pinterest


http://www.sprinklebakes.com/2010/12/sparkling-champagne-cupcakes.html#more

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

nxt ep

shall i see she's all that?

Well then!

Never heard of this movie before, but thanks to S1: Ep8...
 
Razor's Edge trailer

No more little salmon packets. I bought cat food. If the neighbors don't want me to do it, they'd best come home on the weekends.

sayings

earlier this month there was a thing going around
"may the fourth be with you"
I was a kid when I started to describe to my mother ideas/impressions about a parking lot and land that was all different levels and darkness and surprise and I guess the fourth was with me...

for what it's worth

DAYS AGO
is a song running on ideas afterwatching Mad Men you could have not understood some things about girls, occasionally stared at one and acted superior, but felt the vibes, resentment, and actually you could have been confused by both men and women lots of times, you knew your own feelings didn't always connect with words, there is more than what is on the surface of things, you could have met others who also didn't know how to deal, particular experiences, some with abusive people, some with not abusive people who nevertheless performed something about confusion on this planet, you could have been seduced by women, could have been a seducer and then run away from women, could have expected a woman to feel what you felt and then have been unpleasantly surprised,  you could have said a few things and then been terrified because all of a sudden a group of guys wanted to kick your ass, you could have loved solitude, cornfields, a farm, reading, your own physical strength, and then have been astonished by another man who was stronger than you, you could have been easily approved of by other men in society, but this didn't stop you from feeling internal conflicts and knowing you were different somehow, you could have taken drugs and broken through to some types of ideas or feelings, felt your own fears, escaped punishment, felt your curiosity, there were other people in other times and places, you could have loved nature, could have left, could have flown,  forgiven a man who could be abusive, you could have run away from home, or ridden on a train, you could have not understood girls and been perplexed, you could have been shy and called one up and to your relief, she said 'yes'
~~~~
the ideas of the pale man (who died young) and the pale girl (who grew up to be much older) there was the idea of the child (who was darker and died of child-on-child violence) and there had to be tears to cry about that one, not because of the skin, not even because of the way of dying, but because of the missing connection to a mother...

HEY



Pixies ~ Hey
Night of the negative pregnancy test, spent $15 on TAKE OUT SUSHI and thought about being a four year old crawling on snowbanks or enraptured with beautiful suburban upstate NY in the spring time and friends with aunts ants crawling all over my body and drank this very nice wine! It was more expensive than it is on that website. I used a grocery store giftcard that I got from mailing in proof of using my health insurance. (If the test had been different I would have used that on other things. C'est la vie.) The sushi place. It was like a bar roadhouse that serves sushi. It had a clean gasoline station type bathroom with a urinal. The staff were super friendly and I sat in the booth and drank icewater as I waited for my takeout and left a dollar tip. The sushi was alright. The wine...yummy...and I wanted to watch this show...watched Season 1 Episode 6. It featured a song about YAY WINE!!!!

Girls...moms...

"RT, a 16-year-old undocumented immigrant from Guatemala, told Ross that she was working at a packing plant when Immigration and Customs Enforcement raided the place. She was one of many minors working there, she said. "They deported most of the people, but kept some of us to go to court against the owners...All of us were from the same village in Guatemala. We live in houses that the company owns. I think they let me stay because of my baby.'"


http://www.motherjones.com/media/2015/04/richard-ross-photos-girls-justice-juvenile-prisons

Pleasing

"Despite the district’s ability to grant the child residency due to her mother’s employment, the district initially refused to let the child continue attending school. The district’s decision put the family in a difficult situation, where the child would have to be separated from her mother or the mother would have to quit her job. After community outrage, the district reversed its decision, but required the employer to become a legal guardian of the child. 

This is not an isolated problem. Across the state caregivers, nannies, and other workers whose jobs require them to stay overnight are faced with challenges over where their children can go to school. Districts across the state handle these issues differently.

For these workers, the nature of their employment effects far more than their commute. They should have the option to keep their family together and keep their children with them during the work week."

http://sd33.senate.ca.gov/news/2015-04-30-senate-unanimously-approves-lara-bill-allowing-children-attend-school-where-live

likelikelike

http://www.salon.com/2015/05/06/amy_schumers_subtle_brilliance_12_angry_men_isnt_feel_good_feminism_its_crushingly_dark_satire/

this week I was ill and thought I needed the healing music but then b.f. showed me the 12 angry men remake and I felt astonishingly BETTER (although I was still sick but then I got better eventually)

;-)

Hey amazing

Ah....

"You’ll notice you rarely hear fatherhood described as the best job in the world."

http://www.salon.com/2015/05/08/sorry_about_mothers_day_my_childfree_girlfriends_moms_arent_any_more_special_or_unselfish_than_you/


"I don’t appreciate messages that seem to build women up while essentially telling them that nothing they can achieve in life matters more than having babies. You want to thank women, want to show women they have value? Close the wage gap. Challenge the insidious rape culture that exists in the military and in our colleges. Join the fight for our reproductive rights, so we can decide when and if we choose motherhood, safely. Don’t pat us on the head and minimize our contributions outside of the domestic sphere. You think motherhood is thankless, hard work? So is feminism. How about you celebrate that?"

http://www.salon.com/2014/04/15/motherhood_isnt_the_worlds_toughest_job/

Friday, May 08, 2015

3 new holidays

Don't cry over other's self absorption day
Don't unnecessarily treat people like crap day
Cool cool baby be cool day

Frida

is having a moment.

She had secret misery.

(Important to believe in reincarnation, eh, Frida?)

the trooo

if yr expectin' a girl, better get those eggs frozen asap, or at least as soon as menstroooation happens (don't want yr little 'un missin' out on trooo luv, even if she doesn't find a husband before she's outta her teens...)

Sooo, a mom thing

I really admire this artist so very much...but I must disagree with this.

"My mother would say, “Until you’re a mom, you won’t understand love.” I’d roll my eyes when I heard that, but you and I know she’s right."

http://www.salon.com/2015/04/11/tori_amos_hears_little_earthquakes_differently_now_having_a_teenage_daughter_forces_me_to_be_honest/

You know, when you say stuff like that, maybe you are just trying to impress on all around you about what a wonderful and powerful experience you've had.

So what are you saying to someone who is biologically incapable of having a child?

I mean, it's like a thousand times worse than saying "I'm so glad I'm not fat, like you are" to someone. Or something else that you would know is just blatantly cruel.

What about women who've had a ton of miscarriages and couldn't adopt and couldn't become "a true mom" and "truly know what love is?"

When I read this type of quote, I think about those women. I think those women deserve mothering.

Saying something like "you never know true love unless you become a mom," that is not mothering to those women.

Good grief. It's like saying "You'll never know know what true romantic love is, until you have experienced the heterosexual definition of marriage."

"You'll never know, until you've come to Jesus, what true spirituality is."

But if you really feel so strongly about it, maybe you should just say "I."


Food

That thing where you eat too much of it.





sigh

Change is needed

This is ghastly.

"In 2013, 1.9 percent of the directors of Hollywood's 100 top-grossing films were female, according to a study conducted by USC researcher Stacy L. Smith....At top U.S. film schools, women and men are almost equally represented. Females account for 46 percent of USC's School of Cinematic Arts graduate students. At New York University's Tisch School of the Arts, 51 percent of graduate students are women. Ten years ago, women filled about one-third of the seats.

Yet between the day these women graduate and the day, a few years later, that their male college peers begin showing up in film credits, most women filmmakers vanish into obscurity."

http://www.laweekly.com/news/how-hollywood-keeps-out-women-5525034